#it must've been so hard

[spectres-fulcrum]

The friendship of Achilles for his dear Patroclus, as celebrated by Homer, has survived the fate of empires and the charges of time, as if destined to serve as a perpetual monument sacred to friendship. May not another Homer arise to consign yours for Fayette to equal immortality, and tears of pleasure flow at its recital like an exhaustless stream through the long period of future ages.

McHenry to Washington on April 3, 1794 on Lafayette's imprisonment. A few lines before he had told Washington to be sensible, assumingly with what little they could do. (So take that Cabinet Battle #2 Washington cared for Lafayette to the point of being told he had to be sensible. But helping in France wouldn't have freed him)

I very much need to sit with this quote for a few days but also. If I'm getting this right McHenry is saying that if Lafayette died in his prison, Washington's grief would be akin to Achilles' to Patroclus and stories would be written about it, immortalizing their friendship for ages to come, as he says "May not another" so they don't want this friendship to be immortalized similarly to Achilles+Pat because it means it ended sadly. (I may be off about my initial interpretation)

It's... Very sad. Like I can't imagine how heartbreaking it it to write this and pray for your friend's sake your other friend lives cause it's shaping up for a grief that will shape generations. (It's giving Alexander and Hephaestion and Alexander clinging to Phai's dead body for days until the companions had to drag him away)

I think of Hamilton and Laurens as that generation's A+P because Laurens died so early and Hamilton retreated into himself and buried himself in work to ignore his grief but we very much could've gotten a world where they executed Lafayette and he and Washington's friendship was immortalized with Homerian grief. Heck, Adrienne was a day away from being executed the following year and she did nothing wrong but be married to Lafayette.

I just... comparing people to Achilles and Patroclus is really telling. Even ignoring the romance part(idk what the 18th century take on those two and romance was. I could see, if one of them had heard of it, the gay trio supporting it.)

#george washington #marquis de lafayette #lafayette #washette #Mchenry was a very good egg though #james mchenry #I may be way off in my interpretations btw #but it's so sad #it must've been so hard #waiting for years #for either good news or the worst news #and what do you do if the worst news comes #what do they do-the ones who love george #how do you hold achilles together when he falls to dust #after years of anxiety

[drbtinglecannon]

The way in Knives Out that the entire Thrombey family constantly subjected Marta to racism for years ranging from micro aggressions to outright threats of deportation, that she knew all their fucked up dirty laundry and how they all were constantly exploiting Harlan's wealth, that they excluded her from Harlan's funeral and each blamed everyone else for it, and that they immediately dropped all pretenses of condescending civility when the will was read, yet she spent almost the entire movie sympathetic of them and wanting to gift them the fortune Harlan left her before finally standing up for herself in the last hour

Vs

The way in Glass Onion that Helen outright hated the entire "disrupters" group for at least ~10yrs before the movie even took place and made her opinion explicitly known, that her acting as her twin sister being jilted was so easy to maintain because she hated the entire group so much, that she didn't at all humor their extremely conditional "comradery" with her cause against Miles, and that in the end when everything was said and done she didn't stick around to watch them all turn on each other because it didn't matter anymore if they did or didn't

Marta's kindness got her the house.

Helen's justified fury burned Miles' down.

#knives out #glass onion #glass onion spoilers #thinking so hard how marta was personally treated like dogshit by the thrombeys for years & kept being gracious to them over their behavior #vs helen showing up absolutely pumped to ruin the disrupters lives bc they treated her sister poorly & 1 of them must've been her killer #marta got the house helen burned it down. blanc gave marta the closure that she was kind & a good nurse. blanc gave helen the literal #fuel to destroy miles' empire. i just love it theyre both incredible & so different #tc posts

[somewhereincairparavel]

a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.

#I hope your day is ruined #bc mine is #This man gives me a heartache it's not even funny anymore. Like it's just one after the other for him tumbling down. #I can imagine Jason looking out the windowsill all sad :( omgg #He loved piper so much :( #He basically died for her even after they became exes #I just wanna wrap him in a fluffy blanket #It's kinda hard for me to not resent Piper for this sorry. #I mean #I'm glad she didnt cheat on him or smth and just broke up w him to not play w his feelings #But yeah. Still pretty upset. They'd been dating for a year at that point. So Jason must've had it pretty bad. #pjo #jason grace #pjo hoo #pjo fandom #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #pjo toa #toa #piper mclean #hazel levesque #leo valdez #annabeth chase #frank zhang

[lgbtlunaverse]

"Nie Mingjue would still have died young even if Jin Guangyao hadn't killed him" Not as in "So it's fine to kill him because people who won't live for much longer have obviously already forfeit their lives" (what) But as in "If you don't get that Nie Mingjue has had an inevitable young and violent death hanging over him since he was a young teenager and has embraced it you can't fully understand his character"

#mdzs #nie mingjue #i do not wish to be misconstrued on this #because the first interpretation might genuinely be my least favorite nmj take #because it has so much baggage in regards to the actual real life murder of disabled people. most often by their caretakers!! #and the reaction to it from public the media and the justice system is overwhelmingly 'oh well that wasn't a life worth living anyway' #'plus they were SO hard to take care of rlly if you think about it the murderer is the victim here that must've been so hard for them' #and these characters aren't real. nmj isn't actually dead he was never alive. but i really hope that take is no one's actual view on life #but from a purely story-perspective i also hate the 'everything would've been fine if not for jiggy' takes #STOP MAKING THE BLORBO UNINTERESTING BY OUTSOURCING ALL HIS ISSUES!! THOSE ARE /HIS/ LET HIM KEEP THEM

[mrs-gauche]

“And after the destruction of Arlathan, it is said that Fen'Harel spent centuries in a far corner of the Earth, giggling madly and hugging himself in glee.”

(Take these lines in combination with this banter and Solas’ biggest fear, while I’ll go cry in the corner there for a minute. 💔)

#dragon age #dai gifs #da2 #solas #merrill #my gifs #sometimes it just hits me so hard #how incredibly sad his story actually is #can you imagine what it must've been like right after he created the Veil #to have risked everything in a desperate last attempt to save your people #only to fall into Uthenera and watch helplessly from the Fade what you've done to the world and the people you tried to save #like that moment of realization #and then to live with that guilt for thousand years

[sergle]

there is something so crazy about the cognitive dissonance between 50% of my online art presence coming from self portraits of my own body in a resting position, where it's received specifically as fat art, people refer to it as body positive / plus sized (or sometimes bbw content. it's whatever), the notes are like yeeesss this made me feel so good abt my body, stretch marks rolls etc fat women are beautiful 🙌🙌 and then I take a picture Standing Upright, and then some of Same people who have literally Seen My Body Before go ummm... what tha hell. you are LITERALLY thin ?! you are literally doing this.

#(sits down and lays down) fat body #(stands up straight) thin body #...OKAY? #the pounds didn't change between these two positions #and neither have my lifelong experiences of living in This Body #girl these are the SAME WOMEN. I stay fat while sitting standing walking laying down etc. I know it's hard to understand. #like oh thank god you identified it for me. apparently I must've been drawing thin women this whole time too #like you have gotta try harder to not be so annoying. #you've GOT to. #sergle answers #i'm not 'thin' you're just not used to seeing my torso. but can you come w me to see my doc. maybe he'll stop encouraging me to lose weight

[pyjamacryptid]

‘The forest is forever because it dies and dies and so it lives.’ - Tales from Earthsea: Dragonfly, by Ursula K. Le Guin

#bbc merlin #merlin #merlinedit #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #morgana pendragon #mordred #YOU EVER THINK TOO HARD ABOUT HOW TRAPPED BY FATE AND DESTINY AND PROPHECY MERLIN FELT #THAT HE FELT SO CORNERED AND DICTATED BY IT #AND FEARED SO STRONGLY FOR ARTHUR'S LIFE #WHICH HE BELIEVED TO BE JUST AS DICTATED BY THE DESTINY HE'D BEEN CONDITIONED TO ADHERE TO #THAT HE LET IT ERODE AWAY HIS MORALS. HIS BELIEFS. #(not entirely. he’s still merlin. but he made so many choices or non-choices out of fear. and I feel for him so terribly) #ESPECIALLY WHEN IT ONLY FELT PROVEN RIGHT EACH TIME HE WAS BURNED #AND THAT HIS LACK OF CONFIDANTS (AND THE DEATH OF A CONFIDANT) MEANT HE WAS NOT ONLY TRAPPED BY FATE BUT HIS OWN PERSPECTIVE AND FEAR #it must've eaten him alive until he was so hollow that the fear just spread and made a home #anyway #i'm Normal about this of course #:)) <- evil. but in pain. full of thoughts. #merlin meta #scheduled #ren edits #merlin photoset

[chainmotif]

breaking bad 3x04 (2008–2013) // saw v (2008)

L + ratio + a woman in your life that you loved has died + your copycat attempt at my product was inferior

#im on my third brba rewatch and i laughed so hard. society if jesse killed him right then n there #i just like to imagine brbabcs and saw are happening in one universe. 2000s america must've been cray #also haven't seen any saw ppl here posting any brbabcs do #tumblrinas who like both exist. so far it's even a thinner selection than saw n g-mens surprisingly #saw #saw 5 #saw v #breaking bad #parallels

[heisenpink]

Aaron Paul attends Rosé Day LA at King Gillette Ranch on June 24, 2023

#HE IS SO PRETTY #THE PRETTIEST GIRL #the bracelets... his chest.... the tank top.... so slutty #it must've been so hard to go to a social event without his wife or husband :( since he has social anxiety #baby :( #heisenpinkposts #aaron paul #dos hombres #breaking bad #jesse pinkman

[zishuge]

I'm supposed to be working but instead I'm thinking about Li Lianhua growing vegetables and how, once upon a time, he was so happy that he almost cried when he finally managed to grow some turnips.

Thinking about how he must've been at rock bottom then - sick, injured, heartbroken, having just lost in one fell swoop everyone and everything he's ever cared about. His shixiong, dead. He believes it's his fault. His shifu, dead. He believes it's his fault. His sect, in ruins. He believes it's his fault. His people no longer believe in him. A-Mian doesn't love him anymore. It's all his fault, it's all his fault.

He doesn't have Hulijing yet. He's alone. He's heartsick. He'll be dead in ten years, or much sooner than that if he can't find some food and shelter. His Sigu Sect leader token is only worth 50 taels of silver. It turns out everything he has built his life around is worth only 50 taels of silver. I can hear his self-deprecating laugh. How foolish he must've felt, having his life's ambition put so violently and abruptly into perspective.

Have you ever been so despondent that you cling desperately to just one thing, anything, that you can focus on in order to not think about everything else? So: turnips.

Tending, weeding, watering, counting, day by day by slowly passing day. The vegetables grow and he survives. And finally, one day, he discovers that against all odds, he has turnips. These hands which he believes have caused the destruction of all that he once held dear, somehow managed to nurture creation and support life. Everything and everyone is gone, but here in his hands is this one small glimmer of hope that perhaps he is not only capable of ruin. How happy he must've been. Was it the first time he felt joy since before the East Sea battle? How he must've wanted to tell someone, but there was no one there.

You know who he must've most wanted to tell? His shifu. His shifu, who once told him that he didn't care about Xiangyi becoming any great martial artist. Just eat well, drink well, and live well. Maybe kneeling there in the dirt, gently cradling his small misshapen turnips in his hands — maybe that's when Li Lianhua finally understands what Shifu meant.

#and so he promised himself he would do nothing but try to live by shifu's words for the rest of his life #of course that is until fang duobing crashed into it #mysterious lotus casebook #莲花楼 #word vomit #it's li lianhua feels hours #when i tell you that that one scene of him tending to his turnips #made me absolutely lose it #i had to pause because i was sobbing so hard i couldn't see the screen #i can't have been the only one #just imagining what he must've felt then #every time i think about it my heart aches #i'm sorry this is so long i just can't stop thinking about it and need to get it down #i have to go cuddle my dog now #my ramblings #text

[officesuppliez]

sorry. cringe ship art. I've been initiated into the william x henry cult. anyway. they're represented here by the characters they portray, as I don't really have a henry design nailed down yet.

#the STORY POTENTIAL is BONKERS . he killed your kid #yeah #that's majorly fucked #he killed your kid and you were in love? wowzers! that's Majorly fucked! #those days after charlie's disappearance must've been so hard on henry #maybe william was there for him #listening to him sob #reassuring him that they'll find her #she'll be okay #lying through his teeth and savoring the attention he got #and . henry. he found out eventually #the denial he must've gone through. #“william. he'd never do that. I know him better than I know myself. he wouldn't hurt me.” #and . oh boy . did he! #the Angst! #Yay! #sips tea. #it haunts me #time for tags #willry #helliam #william afton x henry emily #william x henry #henry emily #william afton #digital art #my art :] #fredbear #springbonnie #fnaf

[mangopit]

sort of echoed this on my sb, but – seeing how watcher "fans" used steven as a scapegoat and as a target of their hate wasn't the first time i saw an asian content creator get fucked over moreso than their peers. BUT it was the first time in the content creating space that i clearly pieced together in my brain,

oh. a lot of people, if they feel entitled and righteous enough to attack someone they don't know online, will choose to attack the person who looks like me; sounds like me; has the same morals as me; was raised like me; reacts to things like me; carries himself like me; speaks to others like me; approaches things like me; etc etc...

and in any other random scenario where these people would've needed someone to feel angry at and i happened to be in the crossfires, they would've done the same to me. for the same exact reasons. they didn't try to see him as a person then and they won't try to see me past what they see on the surface now. and that's sort of the big bummer i've been wading through since the "bye youtube" vid

#what i'm trying to say is that it's very hard for poc to be accepted in western society #if they don't have the exact personality traits you see in most white americans #it's v hard for asian-ams to feel welcomed if they're not immediately extroverted and entertaining and witty and loud #not that steven isn't ever those things. but i don't think he's innately a lot of the things successful white youtubers are #i truly believe that's why hella fans didn't warm up to steven the same way they did with shane and ryan #and that's why they felt like he must've been the most to blame for everything that went down #the utter absence of self awareness from a community that seemed really welcoming and inclusive was what got me #like it's so beyond streaming subscriptions and youtube content. it's disheartening and uncomfortable to see #woohoojazelyn thoughts #discourse #negativity #watcher

[nattikay]

hmmmm think i'm gonna go play some afop

#been in the mood to play but haven't gotten the chance in like two weeks #because i was out of town for a few days last week and even when home most of my free time has gone to working on my paws #speaking of my paws i hoped to finish them today but yeah that's not happening 😩 #utah and/or the airport must've poisoned my family cuz all of us except my youngest brother #have been down with some sort or other of cough/congestion since we got back #and needless to say that's put a damper on my productivity #i did get some work done on the paws today just not as much as i'd hoped #oh well #can't breathe through my nose and my head's been hurting so #yeah need a break to chill for a while gonna play a bit of afop #probably not even my new save file i can't brain that hard right now #just gonna log into my main and do kukulope's challenges and call it good #woo

[i-dont-bite]

i just found out noah had written a letter about how he didn't believe will was gay and how it didn't matter and even tho it was considered a spoiler and he was probably told to... its kinda sad to me now that we know how scared he was to come out :(

#being a gay child actor playing a gay kid in such a big show must've been so hard :( #noah schnapp #byler

[thegroovywitch]

December 4, 1980: Led Zeppelin disband

#the day has come again 💔💔 #in a way i'm glad i wasn't alive to experience this #so much pain in the course of one year #first bon scott then john bonham then john lennon #and zeppelin disband #being a rock fan at that time must've been Tough #led zeppelin #jimmy page #robert plant #john bonham #john paul jones #classic rock #classic rock fandom #1980 #80s #rock and roll #hard rock #by dee dee 🌺🕯️

[maybe-thou-shalt-find-valimar]

fingolfins followers probably know how to ice skate

#ok but think about it tho #they spent like thirty years crossing the first age equivalent of the arctic #theyre bound to have come across some icy areas #skating is the most efficient way to cross an area of ice #it's less slippery and much faster #so they must've invented skating for their ease #and they had blades it wouldn't have been too hard to strap them to shoes #younger elves were probably carried #they wouldn't have had enough knives any other way #unless someone had an absolutely absurd amount of knives with them which i won't rule out but it's unlikely #but yeah they probably skated a bunch #silmarillion #silmarillion shitpost #swags says a thing