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GUYS! I now own a Thrawn Pop Funko!!!!

I had to go to the mall for the Apple Store and then I looked around and I was like "No buying" but then I found the Thrawn pop funko at Hot Topic. I was like "okay one treat." (Plus I got a chocolate shake with boba cause I hate the taste of tea so boba tea is a nah and a snack)

Very worth it.

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I'm going to make it offical. My top 5 on TTPD is Guilty as Sin?, But Daddy I Love Him?, the title track, Down Bad, and Fresh Out of the Slammer(with I Can Fix Him in a close 6th). The order is still shaky.

My top 3 on the anthology is So High School, imgonnagetyouback, and The Black Dog. I like the anthology substantially less. I find TTPD to have a really strong narrative thread and also I really like the western/country symbols/sounds on it. There's a few really great tracks on the anthology and some I enjoy but idk. Maybe they'll grow on me.

They probably will.

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SenshixShitennou-Loss of my Life

What if I said loml by Taylor Swift is so devastating SenshixShitennou that it was that interpretation that made me tear up? Cause it’s true. (And by the conman/betrayal/etc it’s because of the brainwashing/the girls believing it on the Moon/history repeating)

[Verse 1]

Who's gonna stop us from waltzing back into rekindled flames

If we know the steps anyway?

We embroidered the memories of the time I was away

Stitching, "We were just kids, babe"

I said, "I don't mind, it takes time"

Like who is going to stop them from reliving history? They were reincarnated to live happier lives, with no failsafes but to be prepped to fight when Beryl awoke first. And they were all just literal children-fighting each other doomed to repeat the horrors of the life they lived before. No one to stop them. Just the girls praying to save things.

When your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fakes

Well, you took me to hell too

And all at once, the ink bleeds

A con man sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme

But I've felt a hole like this

Never before and ever since

But on the Moon? They didn’t realize it was brainwashing. They thought they had fallen for tricks, gotten betrayed, and it destroyed life entirely. And now they see their guys brainwashed but as they were and again-a hole. Ever since that fateful night.

You cinephile in black and white

All those plot twists and dynamite

Mr. Steal Your Girl, then make her cry

The Dark Kindom vs the Inner Senshi was black and white until Venus came and in a battle of dynamite, she unleashed a plot twist. They were fighting their ex-lovers. And Queen Beryl was Queen brainwash your man, then make him betray you.

You shit-talked me under the table

I wish I could un-recall

How we almost had it all

Dancing phantoms on the terrace

Are they second-hand embarrassed

That I can't get out of bed

'Cause something counterfeit's dead?

It was legendary

It was momentary

It was unnecessary

Should've let it stay buried

The Shitennou are shit talking them in the Dark Kingdom because the Senshi are enemies. But Makoto, Ami, and Rei can suddenly remember the love they lost. The amazing, short, useless love. But they didn’t live it. Their family and friends would laugh it off as as childish fantasies because they never lived it in this life. It was just a past life that just feels so real and painful and they probably wish they could forget it all,

[Chorus]

Oh, what a valiant roar

What a bland goodbye

The coward claimed he was a lion

I'm combing through the braids of lies

"I'll never leave," "Never mind"

Our field of dreams engulfed in fire

Your arson's match, your somber eyes

And I'll still see it until I die

You're the loss of my life

And we all know what they saw on the Moon. Fire. Destruction. The eyes of their lovers cold as steal. And they think it’s true betrayal. And they trusted Serenity to be near them. And so they fight to the death and kill each other and are reborn in hopes of-

And then they waltz into rekindled flames, knowing the steps. And they remember the night. The loss of their lives.

(Little Tortured Poets Department reminds me of modern SxS. The cycle. Who is going to know them/decode them? Who are they going to trust like them? But also they aren’t who they were, this isn’t the SilMil they’re modern people. It gives me strong Jade to Rei while Rei is fighting her feelings cause she’s scared he’ll end up betraying her again. )

#senshi x shitennou #long post cause lyrics #rei x jadeite #ami x zoisite #minako x kunzite #venus x kunzite #ttpd #sailor moon #makoto x nephrite #taylor swift x sailor moon

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Wait-no Guilty as Sin?(by Taylor Swift) is the time period of Logan and the builder after the Goat. I was thinking maybe it was after that first look during the water tower destruction but I changed my mind.

It's after The Goat. They've fought, they've talked and cleared up that Logan isn't evil and there's spies lurking and they kinda share an adopted son by that point.

But still no one else knows-besides Andy, Grace, and Haru- knows that he's playing the part they assigned him. But if they knew that after that day she thought about him in her bed, feeling like he's branded her, wanting trysts, feeling like it's a vow but it's only fantasies, they'd crucify her. But Logan haunts her. And she chooses him, because she knows his truth.

And the "If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me/They don't know how you've haunted me so stunningly" lyric fits so perfectly cause in my headcanon my builder was dating Owen and after the Goat she forces herself to act normal but all she can see is the ways this town has abadoned their own and she knows Owen doesn't hold her heart anymore.

WHO gave Taylor access to my Google Drive and half written stuff? And my password protected Apple notes because Down Bad is my Tagge/Molock stuff with Molock dying and Tagge alive like in new canon.

(I actually want to make a post about how I see different snippets canon or alternate universes of Logan and the builder in quite a few songs of this album. But Daddy I Love Him, this, I Can Fix Him(Def. an AU but verse 2, that's so Logan's hands), maybe another idk).

#logan x builder #mtas builder #ttpd #logan mtas #my time at sandrock #i was going to annotate the lyrics for a mix of ships when the electricity hit me for this

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TTPD is so good. Really good. I’m guessing top 5 with Rep, Midnights, Evermore, and Fearless. I also think I’m softening a bit on Joe because it wasn’t… angry. He was… wrong. So wrong. And I Hate It Here will always make me ill because it was how she survived the cages she shared with him in hopes that he’d offer her a glimpse of a smile again. But it was devastating but that chapter is finally over.

She has her boy that makes her feel like she’s in high school. He plays ball, she knows Aristotle. He opens her door. She wants to find him just to hide because of the butterflies. He wins trophies but runs to her instead. Fuck, marry, kill- she feels they’re all in their future.

And now, the songs are all out for me to mold. They’re not *just* about Joe or Matty or even the amazing Travis. They’re about whatever my gut says.

They’re FirstPrince or Sandrock or Sailor Moon or Guilty As Sin being the night Xanatos and Obi-Wan was reunited in my fic or TK-421 making Tarkin giddy and he’s a droid guy while Tarkin does government shit and think about… and that’s my favorite part. Down Bad is so Minako and Kunzite and it’s heartbreaking. Because she was the very first to remember-their love. And his brainwashed betrayal. And it was still was too late- because the enemy remembered first.

I just. Really think I needed think to say good-bye to the Joe era. And I lost sight of this. But the Matty stuff is SUCH a good storyline if heartbreaking reality-she really was having a mania episode and everyone was having a holier than thou attitude. It’s why I honestly why I disconnected from the fandom during those weeks. I couldn’t take those vipers. And they won’t learn. But alas. The song gives me inspiration.

Really so happy with this album(and I’m still mostly stuck on the Standard still. Which I think I prefer to the Anthology but still).

#ttpd #the tortured poets department #taylor swift

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My brain is very frizzled right now. 16 song base album and then 15 song surprise album two hours later.

But most of it was great. Just SO. MANY. SONGS. A lot to process.

(Also So High School is a standout <3 Tayvis and Wil and Sev)

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I don't have time now but Fresh Out The Slammer is SO Kallus and Zeb. Kallus leaving the Empire and it's winter, it's silent dinners and neglect, the years he dedicated to it, losing himself for it.

And his first call is to Zeb, his pretty baby. And he won't screw up the Rebellion now that he knows what's at stake.

And yeah. Time for the 2am surprise but this album is so surprising but I love it.

#ttpd #kalluzeb #star wars and taylor swift #alexsandr kallus

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oh my god. two Sims kits drop today. I can watch Simsie's overviews. I doubt I'll get the CAS kit but maybe the buy one would be nice for party decor???

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Feeling better today. Woke up and was like "Oh my god it's today!" About the new Taylor album(I have not listened to leaks. I may have read leaks.) lol.

I have no idea how to fill 11 hours when I am dying to skip them(I do).

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Very mixed feelings atm. My old job is closing down and it's like. (I found out right after therapy and I don't go back for two weeks so I just like need to vent)

On one hand good fucking riddance. Like I saw the writing on the wall way back in 2021 and they kept installing horrible management team after horrible management team. I am glad to know that it is on the current shitty store manager and asset protection guy that they let the store get shut down on THEIR WATCH because they were two of the worst upper managers I have ever seen. They both denied an employee medical treatment and mocked what we all thought was an extreme period but was actually a cysts rupture. They targeted employees and fired people who did nothing wrong.

No one will be hurt there anymore. No one I love will be hurt by THEM.

But I... I loved that place. I killed my mental health trying to save that place as the most senior cashier. It was my burden to bare. Customers loved me. I made friends, the teenagers stressed me out to no end. It was my home away from home during the pandemic. My saving grace. The walls of that place, the soul of that place, knew my darkest moments. Saw me cry when I felt abandoned. Overwhelmed. Taken advantage of. In 2018, it saw me after classes on Mondays as I fell for one of my professors and it was there I was when, years later, he sent that email that broke my heart. The walls of that place has seen everything.

I found my soulmate there. Or something close to it.

And it's been one of my go to grocery stores since it opened. It's sad to lose it.

But good riddance. They ruined that store in the 2021 remodel. They ruined its fucking dna and everything was ruined.

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If there's something the DiC dub of Sailor Moon did well, it's the death scenes(Shocking for how much they kiddified it). The emotions of them. Like Nephrite, Zoisite, and Diamond's will always stick with me and I just got new copies after I lost my original copy over a year ago.

Still very sad. Like damn. I feel so bad for Molly and Serena and the way they sob and for the way they're going to lie awake thinking about the way these men said they lied as they died in their arms.

Molly with the promise that was never meant to be a lie of parfaits and the daydream of what could've been, should've been and Serena with a I did love you after Diamond said he didn't care if she loved him as long as he hypnotized him cause he was so used to portraying this arrogant prince façade and then Wiseman betrays him and he realizes so much was a lie and he was a lie but the truth is-he can't let her die because he does care about this 20th century girl who sobbed his name as his brother died and dared to talk back to him.

-and tossing and turning waiting for the day that as Neo Queen Serenity she meets him again and does it all differently, saves all of them. Saves him, his brother, their friends and allies. It can be different next time. But she's the only one that can change it. (I knew the DiC dub was way better for the ship than the sub or new dub! I missed them.)

And Zoisite's is just damn beautiful and touching and loving. I can't recall the details atm but it's way better than the new dub. Like they focus on the love vs Kunzite trying to blame himself and wasting precious seconds.

idk. It's just something painfully wonderful. The death scenes. You feel the emotions.

#sailor moon #dic dub #usagi tsukino #naru osaka #naphrite #prince demande #naru x nephrite #demande x usagi #zoisite

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(There's a chance the Franklin tv series has Laurens in a later episode. Do I hope for the small chance or do I just stamp it down and let myself be surprised? Because John makes sense to be in an episode but like it's John so of course they're going to ignore history and not include him. He died too early.

idk. He's not in any cast listing but those could be wrong. We'll see. I hear Lafayette has been great so I'll probably buy a month of Apple TV Thursday or over the weekend so I can made sure to get the last episode but not need to renew. But I would love John.

Also not on Friday cause Friday is new Taylor Swift album day. I'm going to be listening and crying and processing and making connections and maybe thinking oh that reminds me of Wil and Sev/Lams/Washette/etc)

#franklin miniseries #john laurens

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UPDATE: I have found one (1) photo, we may expect more imminently.

#Marquis de Lafayette #Franklin miniseries #Laf! Good casting is good! #Do I want to watch this? Maybe I'll wait until I can manuver only one month of Apple tv #He looks so young in the first photo(accurate as he was the baby of Gwash's military fam-he did a lot of growing) #And the second is like that's such awkward teen noble Laf #tall and gangly and shy and no one liked him #And then he went to America and everyone loved him #And he found a home with them-mostly gwash hams and laurens #He was born to come to life with their love

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In a week TTPD will be out!!! We'll know the devastating secrets it holds!!!

(I should've made this post 12 hours ago but I started the show 9-1-1 last night and binged the first 5 episodes. I actually fell for that show so quickly it's insane. It'll be really good to keep me off Twitter next week cause this is the one album I DO NOT want to come across leaks for and if I see leaks I am so tempted to click them. So yeah. I am not allowed on Twitter much next week).

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Waitwaitwait so CRC is the official dating system now in universe? Yessss!!!!

I always loved the CRC dating system but a lot of people were hesitant because it was introduced in scum and villainy and so maybe it was a more outer rim dating system or something(I can't remember) but yeah. Apparently Andor made CRC canon canon(I keep realizing how badly I was drowning last year and even fall of '22 and just how much I MISSED)

So year.day of the year.something. I think Pablo H suggested hour but I kinda like the idea of month.

I need to figure out what version of the Galactic Calendar I want to use before I can start doing any timelining using this program. My XanObi fic back in the day I think I had 28 day months, 13 months a year but I think I'd enjoy trying my hand at the calendar using the festival weeks but drop the random festival days so it's 365 days.

I'm just so glad I'm back to worldbuilding/plotting this world.

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Just reminded myself that the official Star Wars app has SW themed emojis that hasn't been updated since Rebels S4/the Sequels so there's a ton of good emojis on there still. Ghost crew, Kal, Thrawn.

(Also I thought padawan!Ani was Padawan!Obi at first because the only difference is tunic color so technically the padawan!Ani emoji is the icon for my XanObi notion workspace but we're going pretend that's Padawan!Obi-Wan, k? K. Probably not the only one I'll have to substitute X for Y for.)

#I'm starting by replotting and reworldbuilding #where it'll take me idk #I'm just excited #my therapist and bestie said I lit up talking about refinding my muse

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Tales of the Empire looks epic. Like just everything. Grevious! Vader! Barriss going bad! Thrawn! The possiblity of his aide(Eli Vanto) being near!

That's all.

#tales of the empire #it looks sooo good #we all thought it would be totj but it's tote and that's cool #honestly this saved my morning #eli eli eli please give us a crumb of eli #please dave i'll love you forever #who am i kidding #i've always loved you forever #but shhhh