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yohankang · 5 months

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Honey, this might be very rude. But like what is your job. I want to save you from the that hell hole bro.

Please do not misunderstand nor feel pressured to answer.

I just hope it gets better.

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i'm an office manager which means that i'm responsible for all the paperwork (all invoices go through me), calls and emails. and i act like an assistant to basically everyone in our office. including shit like booking flights and hotels and taking care of everyone's cars and insurances etc. buying office supplies, taking care of how our office looks, making tea & coffee for guests, booking rooms, making sure our management signs the papers on time etc. etc. etc.

doesn't sound that bad but the 'acting like an assistant' is tricky. because i get like 20 daily requests from people to take care of something asap. like, paying a fine, calling some place to ask about something, scheduling a meeting, making changes in booking, registering a car etc.

now it's extra stressful bc i'm organizing a christmas party for 120+ people and it's not easy when you need to book hotels for 30 people, book a restaurant, decide on a menu, confirm attendance etc. and your guests are dickheads who don't care if you have to change their reservation 4 times in 3 days.

#and there is no one who can replace me when it's needed. like when i took a week off it took me another 2 weeks to catch up with work #because some things are easy but it would take weeks of training to thoroughly prepare someone to do my job #and no one has time for this because they have their own jobs and duties #but despite this my coworkers help me as much as they can :') and they really support me #there's only one department full of shitheads and 90% of my problems originate there lmao most of the company hates them #tbh most of my problems would be solved if they just hired another person and split the work between us but #it's always been one person so 🤡#and sometimes it gets really calm and i don't have anything to do for a few hours. it's been months since something like that happened but #it happened a few times in the past lol #answered #i really can't quit this job because it pays well (i mean for a person with no degree). and out of obligation.#i need to finish my degree because now there's no way i would find something that could pay my rent 😭#but i promised myself i won't stay here for longer than 2 years unless they offer me a different position #but until then you have to listen to my complaining every day agkdgjdfj sorry

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xxrat--punkxx · 1 year

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In light of uh... Recent trigun events on twitter, here's a tihylttw and trigun crossover

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lord-squiggletits · 4 months

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One of my favorite parts of phase 2 (and indeed one of the few moments I resonated with IDW Prowl) was when the neutrals were coming back to Cybertron and Prowl said that he refused to let Autobots be pushed aside and overruled after they were the ones who fought for freedom for 4 million years (the exact wording escapes me atm).

And I mean, that resentment still holds true even once the colonists come on bc like. As much as it's true that Cybertron's culture is fucked up, and as funny as it can be to paint Cybertronians as a bunch of weirdos who consider trying to kill someone as a common greeting not important enough to hold a grudge over.... The colonists POV kind of pissed me off a lot of times, as did the narrative tone/implications that Cybertronians are forever warlike and doomed to die by their own hands bc it just strikes me as an extremely judgemental and unsympathetic way to deal with a huge group of people with massive war PTSD and political/social tensions that were rampant even before the war?

Like, imagine living in a society rife with bigotry and discrimination where you get locked into certain occupations and social strata based on how you were born. The political tension is so bad there's a string of assassinations of politicians and leaders. The whole planet erupts into an outright war that leads (even unintentionally) to famine and chemical/biological warfare that destroys your planet. Both sides of the war are so entrenched in their pre-war sides and resentment for each other that this war lasts 4 million years and you don't even have a home planet any more. Then your home planet gets restored and a bunch of sheltered fucks come home and go "ewww why are you so violent?? You're a bunch of freaks just go live in the wilderness so that our home can belong to The Pure People Who Weren't Stupid And Evil Enough To Be Trapped In War" and then a bunch of colonists from places that know nothing about your history go "lol you people are so weird?? 🤣🤣 I don't get why y'all are fighting can't you just like, stop??? Oh okay you people are just fucked up and evil and stupid then" ((their planets are based on colonialism where their Primes wiped out the native populations btw whereas the Autobots and OP in particular fought to save organics. But that never gets brought up as a point in their favor)) as if the damage of a lifetime of war and a society that was broken even before the war can just magically go away now that the war is over.

Prowl fucking sucks but he was basically the only person that pointed out the injustice of that.

And then from then on out most of the characters from other colonies like Caminus and wherever else are going "i fucking hate you and your conflicts" w/ people like literal-nobody Slide and various Camiens getting to just sit there lecturing Optimus about how Cybertronians are too violent for their own good and how their conflicts are stupid, with only brief sympathetic moments where the Cybertronians get to be recognized as their own ppl who deserve sympathy before going right back to being lambasted.

Like I literally struggled to enjoy the story at multiple points because there was only so much I could take of the characters I knew and loved being raked over coals constantly while barely getting to defend themselves or be defended by the narrative so like. It was just fucking depressing and a little infuriating to read exRID/OP

#squiggposting #and like dont get me wrong barber wasnt trying to make cybertronians the bad guys or whatever #it's just a problem with his writing where like. he has A Message he wants to send #and so he uses the entire story literally just for The Message even if it involves bullshit plotlines #or familiar characters ppl were reading about for the past decade being shit on by OCs made up to fill a new roster #like barber's writing tends to lean way too much on a sort of lecturing tone #without giving proper care towards including moments where characters get to like. fucking express themselves and share their side #sort of like how barber couldnt be bothered to write pyra magna and optimus actually talking to each other during exrid #and instead during OP ongoing pyra is suddenly screaming about how OP is unteachable #even tho she never even tried to teach him bc she and OP never interacted bc i guess barber couldnt be bothered #he just needed someone to lecture OP so fuck making the story make sense or like letting OP get to say anything in defense #this is the infuriating part of barber's writing bc i think he has incredible IDEAS and was in charge of the lore i was most interested in #but most of the time his execution sucks and he's basically just mid with a few brilliant moments occasionally #or like he has a message about the cycle of violence he wants to convey #but his narrative choices trying to convey that theme made his story come off as super unsympathetic to the ppl who suffered #to the point where barber actively kneecapped some scenes that couldve been super fucking intense and emotional #in favor of the characters lecturing each other or some stupid plot to criticize OP #that time in unicron where windblade screamed about how this is their fault and then arcee replied that her planet is build on coloniation #shouldve happened more often than literally the last series of the ocntinuity. like goddamn stfu about your moral superiority #when your own sins are right fhere lol

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human-encounters-diary · 8 months

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Day 16

As the human and I did not share any duties during this particular cycle, I decided now might be a fitting time to inform the Vitrichl about the aforementioned book, which could possibly grant a further insight into Terrans.

Despite the quite serious circumstances we are currently in, I was able to secure a time frame to initiate a conversation regarding this topic.

I repeated the information V-7 had been able to conjure on this as well as other stories and reports on humans.

"There seems to be one…obstacle, though: The book‘s last documented location is in system Skė-51-33, which does not seem to be even remotely near our current route.", I eludicated.

The Vitrichl seemed to consider the information given, keeping in mind the reason the SIIR Noxos usually avoids this particular system: its unfriendly and occasionally aggressive nature.

Concluding, I was able to convince the Vitrichl through the benefits this book could provide in the task of studying humans, causing the Vitrichl to eludicate that changing the route was currently not possible, but as soon as the chance was offered to us, we would make a short detour through this system to retrieve said book, given that the book was still located there.

In the meantime, I was tasked with retrieving as much possible information on this particular and other sources about humans.

Our arrival on Fendaar is imminent, as we are nearing the planet‘s atmosphere. Further reports will follow.

#So um. Hiiiii #Sorry once again for my absence I‘ve been in a bit of a writing slump the past few days for some reason #I actually had this chapter laying around for a few days basically finished but unfortunately. Written on paper. By hand.#And I kind of avoided making a digital form and typing everything off again #And before anyone asks no I cannot just take a photo and copy the text out because I happen to write in cursive <33 #Also I had work 😔 but I got to pet animals sooo #By “animals” I am referring to actual animals and not the kids I had to look after lol #But I‘m back now!!#This chapter seems kinda short #It IS kinda short I mean #But this is for actual plot reasons for once and not bc I had little time to write lol #Bc the next chapter they literally land on a planet so it‘ll likely be long asf again 😀👍#Anyway #nr.16 #day 16 #earth is space australia #humans are space orcs #humans are weird #space australia #humans are insane #humans are terrifying #humans in space #humans are space oddities #humans are space australians #humans are crazy #humans are awesome #original writing #humans from an outsider perspective #alien pov #original story

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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sugarsnappeases · 3 months

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thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo.#this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so.#not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :(#i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

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sysig · 2 years

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Ohh I would love to request a redraw of one of your strangels sketches ♥♥♥ if it's not too much trouble hehe, thanks!

Day 19 - The privilege ✨

#Requestober #Vargas #Edgar #Scriabin #Depending on your time zone it still might not be tomorrow yet! It's tomorrow for me tho #I just had no energy today lol I could not get my brain to focus on drawing at all #All that fun data - here's more!#Anyway lol #This happens to be the first redraw-request! Nice #Also for the record Brusk did specify this drawing behind the scenes lol I didn't just pick a random one #Lots of Scriabin resting his head in Edgar's lap around these parts #This was actually a way more challenging redraw than the ones I've done in the past :0 #Since it's only been a few months - considerably less than half a year even! - my style hasn't developed much in the meantime #You'd think that would make it relatively easy to translate from paper to digital but no actually lol #Not me thriving on novelty and recent art is too familiar lol #It's good to know though ♪#And I'm still rather proud of the original so I was half like ''What can I improve here'' - I did improve some stuff! So that's neat #Plus I got to do weird stuff like with Edgar's halo and Scriabin's horn and tail! Neat #And kind of finally drew his wings digitally! Ah!#Still definitely want to return to that when I have time to dedicate to them properly haha

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neck-thats-made-for-bruising · 3 months

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I don't freak about about things but when my laptop charger stops working I do

#I'm so fucking done with this #it sounds like it's not that bad but this has happened 2 other times in the past year #and it always happens when we don't have money #and chromebook chargers are supposed to last longer than a few months #my phone charger works on my laptop #but it doesn't have enough power so it runs out super quick and obviously I need it for my phone #I mean I don't use my laptop as much as I used to during summer #but still I don't want it to fucking die #and it's an old laptop but I don't know why these chargers stop working #and I know it's the charger because it won't work on my phone either #vent ig #lol #it's not that big of a deal but I do everything on my laptop #my phone frustrates me #ranting #It makes me feel so stupid that I freak out about it too lmao

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irawhiti · 6 months

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managed to accidentally combine welsh, te reo, english, and german in a sentence with only seven words in it while typing something out in my notes before rereading and saying "wait what the fuck am i even talking about" so that's how my day is going

#i do not even speak welsh to be clear. i'm very slowly learning but my focus is almost entirely on te reo right now #it was something to do with similarities between y tylwyth teg + ngā patupaiarehe and typing it out made me codeswitch to a stupid extent #i'm not good at sticking to one language at the best of times so using two diff languages briefly made my brain shut down #this is not the first time in the past few days this has happened also LOL

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larry-hiatus · 19 days

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#I’m so tired of being the way that I am dude #I’m sensitive and fragile and emotional about fucking everything #I’ve been pulling away from my friends the past few months so that they don’t have to deal with it #but now it’s just being put on my online friends #and I hate it so much #I don’t know how to change #I don’t know how to not get upset over so much #sometimes I feel like I’ve come far and other times I feel like I haven’t made any progress at all #it’s so frustrating because it makes me so paranoid #do people dislike me because of this? are they talking about me? am I just a burden that people tolerate?#I just want to be fucking normal lol and I don’t know how #I’m too autistic and just a huge baby about everything all the time #I’m so stressed and overwhelmed about so much lately #but I can’t just keep using that as an excuse #do people just roll their eyes when I apologize because they’re tired of it and know it will happen again?#I want to just hide away #so that people don’t have to deal with me #and it sucks because I’m not saying all this to be like woe is me please feel sorry for me please reassure me #I’m just getting my feelings out #now is a great time for my schedule to be changing to not allow for regular therapy lol #idk man #I don’t know what I’m doing anymore

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blood-choke · 6 months

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idk when we’re getting that update but im so excited for it. ive replayed the game so many times now 🥹

SOON!!! i promise!!! i'm very nervous about sharing ch3 but very excited... heavy topics and lots of information revealed...

i'm currently trying to figure out my writing situation for this coming month with nanowrimo, i've been having a lot of computer issues again (my laptop literally crashed in the middle of me answering this ask originally) so i'm having to shuffle files around onto my old laptop which somehow despite being Ancient works better than my new $1k+ laptop 🤔 the only thing not working was the keyboard so i bought a bluetooth one lol (and it was only like $15 cus of how old this mac is. score)

doing both bc & tnp for the start of nano i should definitely have the chapter out sometime this month. im very close to the end 😭

#everyone you can blame my laptop for not getting the chapter today #it's been crashing nonstop this past week so i just. havent been able to write #because there's a chance it will crash while im in obsidian and corrupt all my files (already happened a few times before lol)#so. yay. technology #but i have everything backed up its just a matter of getting it all sorted in the right places #ask #anonymous

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catgirlkirigiri · 9 months

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Everyone's favorite sad 12 year old finally got the new ref he deserved <3

#obligatory note that i entirely stole this man from fnaf. because i knew nothing about the canon gregory when i had to write this guy hes #pretty much his own guy aside from sb still having happened to him #his old ref was so busy oh my god there was so much text on it #like this one feels barren now without it #also fun fact i have not redrawn that shirt design since the first time i did it for his old ref. i just keep copy pasting it #(it is still copy pasted here. i will not be changing my ways anytime soon lmao)#this is mostly just a cleaner ref but i did simplify the palette too cause there were SO many colors on his old one. mostly just changed th #plush colors tho a few on the shoes n watch changed too #zoracontent #zora arts #clovers characters #gregory emily #wait that tag didnt pop up. did. did i not use his last name for his tag last time. lol. lmao even #scheduled this cause i finished it at 2:10am and nobody would have seen it then lol #i might rearrange this ref a bit later but itll do until i decide on that

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imaginepostingonsideblogs · 5 months

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dear teacher,

i could not do the assignment because i had the most tender fucking dream about rex townsend and i am genuinely still weak in the knees about it for some reason im sure you understand <3

yours, toby

#clickonmedotexe #(steadying myself against the wall) ok. ok i get this mans simps now. i understand.. ok!! i need a refreshing drink. poured. all over me.#if i had a nickel every time i had a really vivid dream about a cas ship in which i was cas and the other person presumed i was asleep #id have two nickels. not a lot but its very funny its happened twice lol #i almost hope i get another one. ooo universe you wanna give me a casty dream so fucking bad. casley even? 😳#nvm i would die on the spot in that case #i wanna make art about this now but alas it involved my sworn nemesis #clenches fist.#kissing.#hi this post is queued this is future toby from a few minutes after i wrote it #im normal now. wow. dunno what past me was on. um. ignore this.

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itspileofgoodthings · 1 year

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It’s really hit me that before I make any big life decisions of any kind I have to heal and grow more. Like what do I want to DO or BE. I want to get better. I want to be better. (In a healing way. Perfectionism dni)

#it’s not like this is news. or anything anybody who knows me hasn’t already been saying #I’VE said it before #but it’s only very recently (this weekend lol) that there are just parts of me that need attention and healing #not to sound too pseudo-psychological current babble about it #but it’s just true!!!#I talk so much I expose so much to light and air #and there are parts of myself. things memories events that are just …. frozen #I was such an anxious kid. and I forget nothing and things play on a loop in my brain over and over and over #and there are just some areas of life … that have been just completely taken over #by anxiety and panic and fear #and they’ve stayed frozen because I won’t bring them into the light and let the sun fall on them and let them shrink to a normal size #and they hurt me!!!!!#and most of the time I just walk around (or have) like. guess I have to carry this burden with me forever #this sack of rocks around my neck #and everything that’s happened lately. the whole past year it’s just been like. but you don’t.#there are ways of getting help that work for you #because I AM a quick healer and I am resilient and I’ve grown so much in so many ways over the past 10 years. even just the last few years #and things are not insurmountable #they FEEL like it. they’ve felt like it for years #and yeah there is no perfectly healed state of being #but I can be better than this #my whole Steve harrington journey last year is actually like … so profoundly connected to and demonstrative of the way I have certain issues #especially when I was young.#like things happen. I misunderstand. I cry out in fear. I FREEZE. and then I quietly lock it away and never speak about it again #at least I did. and you know what I can’t actually work like that #I have a deep need to bring things into the light.#and I don’t even really care if I never fully heal #everyone has things they carry and scars and wounds and marks from their history #but just distinguishing between them to see which ones are permanent #and which one is just Steve harrington locked in the emotional freezer

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bcneheaded · 1 month

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ALSO IDK IF I SHARED ELDCN R/NG STUFF but that is my current obsession so i

her name is Cyg (Cygnatratus,,, bc i am ,,, a nerd,,,, and like to make things Mean Things [a play on how the dragons names work! her name is a mixture of words that means 'black swan' essentially jfjfjfhd]) she's a prisoner subclass (and all that comes w it yea) and a draconian <3 playing heavily in the dragon blood thing, wants to purify her blood or whatever jfsdfhsdjf idek!! if thats possible but she sure as hell wants to try (probably why she was imprisoned all those years ago,,, smthng to do with her seeking some kind of forbidden power) ANYWAY she's a little Havoc Wreaking gremlin who did NOT need the flame of ambition at all but now she has it and she's never been so terrifyingly Laser Focused on power FDGFDG anyway tldr, as a good friend of mine once said..... We support women's rights and women's wrong here... she just happens to have a lot of Wrongs

#( ooc )#( tbd )#my brain is FRIED . yes still #from these past few weeks but waves a hand a lil #i could describe her better (but alas I am well aware No One Asked and i dont have the brain power HFDSGYHFJD)#tldr to that tldr: draconian lady want be like dragon <3 but not like just by consuming dragon hearts (tho she will)#also probably will snag the throne OR do the frenzied flame thing ngl #also that hug......... she has probably NEVER been hugged or cant remember any hugs ever so like #inhales deeply... exhales heavily #she really needed it and did Not Know #bless u fia... sorry for what i must do HYGHJF #The ONE and ONLY time Cyg has felt.... Subdued.#amazing. terrifying. she both liked it and hopes it never happens again #while simultaneously hoping it happens again fjfjsjdf #also feel the need to say-- do i love this game? yes. am i good at it #NOT AT ALL gfdgDF #also x like 4.... yes..... that is a nasty burn scar on her face #what is it from? probably fire or lightning LOL....#is it from a dragon? potentially #is it from fighting? also probably #just in general #did it stop her? abso-fucking-lutely not

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arctic-hands · 1 month

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I like having joined a book fandom that's still new and fresh cause we get to nerdily bond as we devour a release of a new book in the series and I get to see all the theories and discussions and memes in real time as opposed to years later when everyone else knows how it ends so I have to block the fandom bc of spoilers. It's a feeling I haven't had since a teenager bc as of late I drag my ass into a fandom like a decade after its hayday and miss all the fun stuff

But it sucks ass that I am no longer as weirdly and eerily patient like I was as a child and the nine month wait for Heavenly Tyrant to come out is driving me crazy

#iron widow #no for real i would freak out adults with how calmly and quietly I'd be patiently waiting for something to happen #it's because of the psychotic bipolar making time go past me in hyper time and hours seemed like five minutes to me starting in fourth grade #literally at one point in fourth grade i got sick of time flying for a few weeks that during quiet reading time i just burst out asking #'is time going by really fast for anyone else this year?' no one had any fucking clue what i was talking about lmafo #having a very overactive imagination helped too because even if i was bored while being patient i could entertain myself in my head #i would and still do craft elaborate stories in my head that i have no hope in writing down skilfully #so I'm not very often bored even as an adult #but goddamn am i incredibly less patient now that I'm on an antipsycotic now lol rip #time slowed down and now i have to experience instead of blinking it away #which ngl did ease up my anxiety over dying some day because I'm no longer in a maglev heading towards mortality in a few hours #but i am ridiculously impatient now after spending two thirds of my life experiencing hypertime #trade offs

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