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SAVE THE DATE: BIPOC Vampire Day is September 20-22, 2024

Join us for our annual online event celebrating Black Indigenous and POC vampires as we raise funds for the Sickle Cell Disease Association of America.

Share your OCs, cosplays, novels, comics, video and film projects, TTRPG, videogames, illustrations - if it features BIPOC vampires - we want to see! We want to boost.

If you're looking for a way to get involved, we're looking for folks to host meetups, prize sponsors, streamers, TTRPG GMs, and artists/writers to join this year's zine.

Spread the word!

Learn more: bit.ly/bipocvampday

#ohhh the zines on the website look so cool i havent bought a zine in a while..... #i know you guys would probably be interested in this #also thank u maggie for sending it to me hehe

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Her eyes She's on the dark side Neutralize Every man in sight (x)

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вампири

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“nine times out of ten, she’d be with you to help you with your black eye and your split lip. or you kicked his ass and she bought you dinner then. but you never failed, or you tried not to”

—sandy kern about being butch, the persistent desire: a butch-femme reader

#butch #femme

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i put them in the dragon's dogma cc

#pretend like theyre not just standing in the sun. it's fine #without the natural lighting they looked Unflattering lmfao #this was umm Hard to do #but also fun. playing barbies.... #hana lee #clear rivers #valentina

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Aphra & Bear, 1994, London, shot by Del LaGrace Volcano

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"What the fuck…" she says, and you sit up on the floor, watching the blackened sheets of skin slide off your arms, revealing fresh, bloody skin underneath, glistening with a thick, viscous fluid. The ruined, discarded sheds of skin start to shrivel up right before your eyes, coiling tight atop the carpet until it dissolves into nothing but ash. "What the fuck are you?" Clear whispers. You look up at her, licking your lips. "I'm a vampire," you say, and then you laugh. There's no way to say it without sounding ridiculous.

In Blood Choke, you play as a reawakened vampire, with no memory of who you are or what you did to result in your entombment. Fumble your way through your first few days after waking up in a strange, overwhelming future-- meet new friends and reunite with an old flame.

Navigate this new world and try to piece your past back together before it can catch up to you-- and decide your future, before it's too late.

Features:

Play as a genderlocked lesbian main character. This game focuses heavily on the main character's gender, presentation, and sexuality.

Pursue one (or all..?) of three romance options: Clear Rivers, Hana Lee, and your former lover, Valentina.

Choices that will alter your relationships with the cast as well as the narrative moving forward. How do you want to approach the woman you barely remember? What future do you want for this new city you've found yourself in? How will you choose to handle the hunger?

Blood Choke is an 18+ dark romance horror game. It is intended for a mature audience. Be sure to check the content warning on the game page before reading.

Currently the prologue and first three chapters are available to play.

Play it here!

#it's international women's day play my lesbian game or you hate women

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ok thats enough maybe one day ill finish this

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A good video that accurately explains why stud is a term used for black lesbians only, not white, not poc, BLACK

I’m not even going to say please. Respect black identities and labels, they are ours for a reason.

#stud

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Embrace

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emjoy this cropped lighting/color study with our beloved hana

#sorry the eyes were driving me insane so theyre just getting cropped LOL #this angle is one i have the hardest time with. we were not victorious today #im working on a drawing of V that also has me fighting for my life.. currently in that slump where my art just isnt cooperating #anyways i just watched night country so this is based off a picture of kali reis #who i now have a crush on #hana lee #bc art

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hii

Was re-reading you game and I was wondering, what does manducation mean?

I saw it in the first official feeding scene with Hana, and when I looked up the word, there wasn’t any clear definition of what it meant. At least in relation to vampirism. Sooo, I figured asking the author would do lol!

Your book is really amazing, I’m new to the IF world, but I’m really glad that yours and some others are my first intros to it, as there’s a lot of representation!

Can’t wait for the next chap lolol

thank you! 💞

there are a few meanings for manducation but it's basically just an archaic word that means the act of eating - so chewing, drinking, swallowing, the whole process. it's also a religious term for receiving communion or meditating, and i love applying religious imagery to vampires.

and when it comes specifically to vampires, there's "manducation of the dead" which means someone eating posthumously (typically either devouring their funeral shroud or consuming their own flesh in their coffin) so it gets applied to vampires since they're dead. just a fun word i wanted to use :-)

#imagine all 3 of the meanings rolled into one and that's basically how i was using it hahaha #ask #callmewhenyoukan

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insane, wailing, feral. @blood-choke

#thinking about her...

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The word "maneater" has multiple meanings

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Black Vampires!

Below the cut you’ll find a list of 10 pieces of vampire media centring black folks by black folks, happy black history month!

1. Fledgling by Octavia Butler (see more)

2.The Gilda Stories by Jewelle Gomèz

3.House of Hunger by Alexis Henderson

4.Darknesses by Lachelle Seville

5.My Soul to Keep by Tananarive Due

6.Slay: the stories of the vampire noire by multiple authors

7.Horror Noire (documentary on AMC+)

8.Vampires in Brooklyn (movie)

9.The Dark World Series by @writingvampires

10.The Black Vampyre (1819) by Uriah Derick D'Arcy, problematic themes and handling of blackness, however our black protagonist vampire, a black bisexual (implied) vampire protagonist is very AMC-Louis-like and it’s important for understanding the others as groundbreaking and reclaiming their stories as they are.

Happy Black History month! I rarely make booklists like this, however, it recently came to my attention that some people aren’t aware of the brilliant subgenre that is gothic/horror written by people of global majority (colour), given it is black history month this list focuses on black people vampire stories written by black people, most of which are also queer (cause vampires are queer af). Allyship is the bare minimum, if we as a society are to grow at all from our forefathers we must understand that our ancestors were flawed, unlearn internalized biases (racism etc), and make intersectional spaces for everyone. I’ve kept it to 10 for my own ability to count everything, I can say with most certainty there’s more out there. These are just the ones I’ve read/watched and have influenced me the most.

#im reading house of hunger rn it's really good shoutout to the anon that rec'd it on tnp o7

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Hi, I have a question about mc

So, I’m still in the beginning part of chapter two (mostly because I keep pausing to read other variations of my options I choose instead of just playing the game uninterrupted lol); and I was just wondering about some things.

I’ve gone through most asks on her about V and the way she treats mc when mc doesn’t go her way and I sort of understand her aggressiveness though it’s still triggering as I’ve not really seen the good parts, cuz my mc doesn’t trust her and finds her secretive nature suspicious; but I wonder like, was mc a bad person before entombment?

Like obvi everyone isn’t black and white and has grey areas in personality, but in the beginning Val just seems so triggered (?) that mc is alive again and here again with her. She only seems chill when you pick options that align with what she wants, but outside that, she seems truly disturbed like she needs to take a breather or sth.

This also came to mind cuz of how Hana talks about us TO us. Like saying how she expected us to not be like Val and her seeming disappointed that we were similar to Val, in that scene were we discover phones for the first time. Like, is that just cuz of the choice that prompted her jealousy, or is that because of how mc was a person before?

I hope I constructed those questions well lol, but it just makes me wonder if certain ways they react towards the mc are just cuz of how they are a people or cuz of how mc was as a person. Cuz it seems like she and Val had a pretty turbulent relationship; was that due to their personalities or the times they were in? I feel like that’ll be answered as the story goes on, but yeah; I do wonder if mc’s previous personality majorly influences how H and V act towards us.

this is not solely directed at you anon but i have gotten a lot of asks that essentially boil down to "who is the Correct one in this situation" and i've been kinda vague or ignoring the messages because it goes against the whole point of the story, but i've received enough questions like this i'm just going to do a blanket response to explain what my intention is with writing this and why there will be no straight answers to most of these questions.

i'll put it under a cut because it's going to be long (and i guess if you want to avoid potential spoilers). i'm not going to get into details, mainly just the overarching themes that i'm trying to communicate through the narrative and with characters like the mc and Valentina.

first, to start, let me talk about Valentina:

Valentina is written in a very intentional way. she is meant to be erratic and hypocritical and not very nice. she is hundreds of years old, and at this point nearly the entire last century of her life was spent in a controlling, abusive relationship. she is going to be both defensive and aggressive because she's still in a lot of pain and struggling to work through it. she has trust issues, she thinks everyone is using her for her money, she is very paranoid and sensitive. she, as the kids say, needs therapy. this does not absolve her of her poor treatment of Hana and the mc currently, but i hope this explains it better. she is meant to be a polarizing and challenging character.

i've said a few times now that you are never going to know who is telling the truth about Standard, you're never going to get a moment in game where it tells you exactly who is Right or Wrong. i've written Valentina the way i have because yes, you are supposed to doubt her, but also i'm a bit astounded by how many people seem to just have no sympathy for her at all (again not directed at you anon but just in general.) while you're never going to know if it was her idea or not, if she chose Standard or not, or even really know what happened between her and Julien, the indisputable facts are that she, as a lesbian, had to marry a man out of desperation and was forced to be his wife and daughter for nearly 90 years. she is not going to be well adjusted after this. she is not going to want to talk about this. she has valid reasons for being reluctant to share the horrible things that happened to her, as well as being a little suspicious.

she is a tragic character. she is the antithesis of the "perfect victim." we will get to have a bit of a "confrontation" with her at the start of the next chapter, and i'm hopeful that this will get across exactly why Valentina is the way she is in the text.

as for her relationship with mc, it has always been a bit intense, but they did love each other genuinely before. it's why mc did what they did to end up entombed in the first place. i would blame a lot of the problems of their relationship previously on the time period they were in. it wasn't easy for either of them. like i said before, being a vampire was not a get out of jail free card. it's been hinted at but mc and Valentina were living in poor conditions until the 1910s, where they finally started getting a foothold, by trapping and killing men and with mc themself dressing up as a man. but then what happened, happened, and mc was entombed in the 1920s.

was mc a bad person? i mean they very much did murder people along with Valentina. it's up to you how you feel about that. she murders people now in the demo. she's a vampire, she doesn't really have the same ethics as we do. was she bad to Valentina? sometimes. Valentina was bad to her, too. were they "toxic"? maybe. mc doesn't remember, and honestly Valentina doesn't remember that much either.

the mc waking up with no memory, while a convenient plot device in an IF game like this, was also done intentionally. you're never going to know if the mc was really a "bad person" though playing through you can probably feel that the mc does suspect that they were - is it true, or is this an insecurity around their butchness, a fear of her own masculinity? we don't know. part of the narrative is the mc reconciling this fact, as well as understanding that either way they can choose to be better - she's been given a second chance. she does not have to be a certain way because of who she is - the parallels being drawn between her and Standard are there to acknowledge this negative view of butches as just "men lite" as well as this bioessentialist idea that masculinity = bad. but just because the mc is butch does not mean she will end up like Standard or Atlas or Julien. and those three aren't bad just because they're men, they're bad because they choose to be bad and abuse their power over marginalized people. this is something that will be expanded upon as the story progresses and mc gets more comfortable in their identity and we see more of the council, particularly Sasha and Cassius.

and now with Hana, she's never met the mc before, so she kind of has this preconceived idea of her, and you do get that comment both because she's a bit jealous but also because she's afraid of the mc's jealousy. if you're at the start of ch2 you may have not had the conversation with Hana yet, but her irritation comes from the fear that you will get jealous of her and want to shove her out, despite her close relationship with Valentina, and this being her home, too. she assumes you're asking because you're trying to "sus her out" and decide whether you're going to align as friends or enemies. she says you're like Valentina in that regard because, like we touched on, Valentina is very paranoid and jealous.

to be clear i do understand the game is early on, we're only on ch3, so i don't expect readers to be able to magically intuit exactly what i'm writing (some of the stuff about mc is impossible to know at this stage). but i cannot stress enough that everyone in this story can be considered "bad" in some way, and you're not going to get a eureka moment where everything is clarified. it's meant to be messy and confusing. i'm never going to outright say "this character is the One True Villain, and this character is the Righteous one." hopefully this does clear a few things up, though, and better helps you (and everyone else that has been asking) understand what's going on, and what the deal is with both the mc and Valentina.

#again sorry anon this is not like personally directed at you im just using ur ask as an example #i hope ur enjoying exploring all the variations :-) #and i do hope this helps you understand; we will get 'softer' scenes with Valentina eventually #mc #valentina #ask #anonymous