#it aches to be depended on

[carefulfears]

thinking about the inherent grief in being needed

#it doesn’t last forever #that’s always on her mind #who will check on him? who will be his friend? who will keep him present on the earth? #who will listen to him and tell him if he’s making a mistake #when she’s gone #how could she possibly be so important to this person #and how could it all be so fragile #it aches to be depended on #txf #msr #fox mulder #dana scully #the x files #might do a web weave about this later #kae meta

[5ftboy]

#critical role #candela obscura spoilers #candela obscura #sean finnerty #jinnah basar #marion collodi #brennan lee mulligan #zehra fazal #luis carazo #mine ** #i'm kinda Obsessed with the moment in the 4th gif bc of . how Sweet and earnest jean is #compared to how Aloof (and perhaps a lil relieved) sean is in comparison #aching bc he doesn't simply say: Yes u can depend on me sticking around .

[canisalbus]

I know it's not canon, but every now and then I like to imagine Machete with bad food allergies, eggs, wheat, dairy, whatever it is that day, because I know Vasco would go to the ends of the earth to try and find something they could eat together. He seems like the type to really value sharing meals, and would be heartbroken if he couldn't share the same food with Machete

Aw, that's very sweet ;v;

It is it's own little tragedy not being able to accept food that is offered to you, social eating is such a significant way of bonding between people (sentences that sound like an undercover alien wrote them).

Just looking at him and his malnourished chihuahua vibes, Machete certainly seems the type to have at least some food intolerances. Should I give him an allergy or two? Or would that be excessive, he's already radiating big frail victorian child energy, I don't want to go so far overboard it becomes totally unrealistic.

#answered #anonymous #he's not fond of alcohol or seafood but those are more like personal dislikes #a lot of foods can make him randomly nauseous but that depends on the day #apples and pears always give him a little tummy ache

[pratchettquotes]

That was the problem with witchcraft: It was as if everybody needed the witches but hated the fact that they did, and somehow the hatred of the fact could become the hatred of the person. People then started thinking: Who are you to have these skills? Who are you to know these things? Who are you to think you're better than us? But Tiffany didn't think she was better than them. She was better than them at witchcraft, that was true; but she couldn't knit a sock, she didn't know how to shoe a horse, and while she was pretty good at making cheese, she had to have three tries to bake a loaf that you could actually bite into with your teeth. Everybody was good at something. The only wicked thing was not finding out what it was in time.

Terry Pratchett, I Shall Wear Midnight

#tiffany aching #i shall wear midnight #discworld #terry pratchett #witches #witchcraft #facts #people #psychology #small towns #education #specialization #prejudice #necessity #power #fear #expertise #dependency #community #superiority #the only wicked thing #everybody is good at something

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i only just found your au and i need everyone to have a happy ending so badly im gonna cry ;-; sally is gonna be so freakin upset when she wakes up for real and sees she decimated barnaby.

oh, Barnaby already has his arm stitched back on when she wakes up! and really, even if he didn't, that'd be the Least of her worries. she wakes up into a Real nightmare - partially of her (unintentional) making

#happy endings... well... yes and no. depends on what act you look at #act one? no! actually things get So Much Worse in an entirely festive new way! #act two? eh! sorta! its more bittersweet than anything #act three and four blend into each other so much that three doesn't have an 'ending' #but the final act - act four... well. who's to say! im still workshopping what i want to happen #but i do know it's still gonna have at Least a bittersweet tinge to it #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #there are consequences and not everyone Makes It. i dont like stories where everything wraps up perfectly fine #even if it hurts! i like it when things hurt in a good way. those stories where the ending is overall positive #but Enough Happened that its just... its an ache. looking at where someone used to be. you know? #my favorite shows and books and fics have ended with me smiling while sobbing bc it yes it Hurts but it was So Fucking Good #and while i wouldnt be able to handle rewatching/rereading due to Emotional Damage... #i think of them fondly and often and theyre Important to me #perfectly happy endings just rub me wrong. it always feels like there's something Missing despite it all being idyllic #i cant let my own stories - original or aus or whatever - have that kind of end #so if thats what people are hoping for! you've come to the wrong person and the wrong au! #i like to be kind but that rarely extends to my creative works! #i like it messy and painful and bittersweet and i like to be Ruthless with my creations with no compromise #sometimes characters need to fight. or leave. or die. or make serious mistakes. etc. #but anyway! anyway.... #i will say that there isn't a happy ending for Everyone. and for others it's... complicated. again - bittersweet

[inafever]

Oh my darling / Just this once won't ya / Hold me close and / Tell me I'm all that you need?

#the desperate need to be loved back by the being you have been in love since the beginning of time #songs to alleviate your aching heart with #or worsen the pain it depends #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #gos2 #gos2 spoilers #what are we gonna do now #indigo de souza #crowley #it's crowley coded #someone make an edit #that's the point #no nightingales #the breakup kiss #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #gomens 2 #gomens #good omens gifs #my gifs #good omens edit

[purgetrooperfox]

(has been listening to arsonist's lullabye all day, speaking out of context to no one in particular) this is so roachcore

#uhhh #when i was 16 my senses fooled me. thought gasoline when on my clothes. i knew that something would always rule me. i knew this scent was #mine alone #AND UHHHH #when i was a man i though it ended. when i knew love's perfect ache. but my peace has always depended on all the ashes in my wake #i'm insane #cod #roach sanderson #gary roach sanderson

[5mcsinatrenchcoat]

the way I almost choked to death with laughter upon being presented with an option to drown out an unwelcome mind-reader with being horny (pun intended)

(naturally, she did)

#tav posting #bg3 spoilers #I also love that apparently it's phrased different depending on a romance? #pretty sure I saw a screenshot of Astarion version and that one said 'lusts' #but no #for Karlach we're ACHING #love it #unironically

[minophus]

im gonna latch onto you pointing out that Gabriel is radiant like Sisyphus bc i think parallels between them are barely talked about. like, Gabriel went straight for Sisyphus in a fight because he realised "without understanding why yet" (or how did the terminal entry go) that the insurrectionists look up to him to a fault... did he catch it because he's seen his own troops look up to him this way. did he catch it because it's the way _he_ looks up to the council . much to thinkh abou t

I THINK ABOUT IT SOOO MUCH. yessss yes yes

#asks #gooptalks #Bc you have very good thoughts #tgat part in the entry is SO GOOD. He went for sisyphus bc he recognized his warriors were dependent on him though he didnt realize yet #Gabriel and all of the angels looked up to god insuch a way #could you asaythey were lucky to have formed the council? maybe they would have been better off without. #i def think you could tie it to the council but with all of his mistakes he has a scarily clear vision of what he wants to do next #he will die by his own will and he will make the choice of allowing the machine to kill him..my prediction #i hope this is coherent my wrist is aching verry bad

[desceros]

hey so by which chapter do you think my blood pressure will go back to normal?

#ask tag #symphony tag #depends on how much of a masochist you are i guess. hope you like pressing into bruises to feel the memory of an ache!!

[yakool-foolio]

Silent Ward (Silent Hill-inspired Rain Code AU) Initial Concept

Ah shit, here we go again. Here's a starter post for the premise and any extra thoughts of my newest AU! I had to brush up on a lot of my Silent Hill 1 lore, which is probably why it took me so long to get the ball rolling. But I think I've got a decent grasp on the basics and can expand from there. Here goes!

Summary: Kanai Ward is a tourist attraction city unknowingly infested by a cult nestled underneath the megacorp Amaterasu. The corporation provides protection for the cult in exchange for their employment, which over the years evolved into them worshipping their own grim version of the god of the sun. Many years before present day, the leader of the cult demanded for a live sacrifice, one of a human born with supernatural abilities: Makoto Kagutsuchi. The young cult member, a mere child at the time, refused to be sacrificed. In an act of defiance, he harnesses all of his power to separate his soul in half, making him unfit to sacrifice. This severed piece of himself formed into a just-as-young, amnesiac kid that graced the doorstep of a newlywed couple. The mysterious child is adopted into the family and given the name Yuma Furio. However, it's not long before Amaterasu's peacekeepers are on the hunt for Yuma. Since the couple cannot safely house Yuma on their own, the husband, Yakou, takes it upon himself to secretly travel out of Kanai Ward to take Yuma to the security of the WDO. Yuma spends the rest of his childhood and teen years becoming a detective at the organization. But on his 18th birthday, he feels a sudden urge to take a train to Kanai Ward. The WDO accepts his request, aware of the presence of a cult in the city, and sends him off with many other detectives (but most of which will not make it there alive). Yuma never expected a warm welcome to the neon city, but everything is twisted and distorted far worse than before. It's up to Yuma and the surviving detectives to put a stop to the cult's reign of eldritch terror.

Some miscellaneous thoughts to keep on rollin' rollin' rollin': Fortes do not exist in this AU, but each detective has the ability to see the real world and Otherworld (or as I like to call it in this case, the Mistworld) in different perspectives due to their pasts. I have some emotionally-tarnishing ideas planned with this crucial point, so expect a lotta souls getting crushed as I expand upon the plot and characters. But that's normal for Silent Hill, so let's bring on the trauma!

#finished this post just in time for halloween #its a trick and a treat depending on how ya look at it #this au is mainly inspired by silent hill 1-3 #but i might add some pt elements in here to ease my aching heart #rip pt you were gone too soon #silent ward au #new au tag homies lets go #rain code #rain code spoilers

[godofsmallthings]

i'm really having a folklore moment rn (partially because of the show and partially because it's getting warmer)

#passed down like folk songs / the love lasts so long #lyric of her entire career tbh #it's like...you spend an entire lifetime infusing your loves into your music... #and then you write an album purposefully doing what has already been done to the rest of your work because of the nature #of art and music and interpretation #and god. i always yell about how much i love the way evermore deals in endings and hope #but folklore is just so stagnant. #'i can see us lost in the memory' #and it's just the most devastatingly truthful account of what we were all experiencing during that time #'some things you just can't speak about' but she wrote a record SAYING THEM ALL in the way she knew how #god idk #'don't want no other shade of blue but you / no other sadness in the world would do' #ugh and the duality of the double ending... #the dull haunting ache of reality vs. the hollow pull of utopic escapism #they're both the same ending it just depends how much you let yourself indulge in the fable #folklore #vi is typing...

[sil3ntm0thart]

working on some test pages that double as redraws of a part of something from like early 2020

#oc art #oc artwork #oc artist #art #artists on tumblr #original art #original characters #oc #ocs #2023 art #princus doodles #exodai kelly #asper phos #darla elysia #ach #apple cider heavens #we'll see when those pages get posted since it depends on when i get them done as well as the queue

[camellia-thea]

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#tw vent #bad week. #running out of meds. can't get new ones til the fifteenth so i am off my antipsychotics and low on my antidepressants #which means that. literally anything will make me unable to function for the rest of the day #and it's not fair on anyone else because i get snappy and it's not their fault and i know it's not their fault and i'm not trying to snap #but i feel like can't modulate tone like this because i'm trying not to be upset about things i shouldn't be upset about #and it's nobody's fault but every single time it feels like the world is ending and i know it isn't which makes me feel worse #because what a stupid reaction #and i feel trapped in my own home because i literally cannot leave it #and it's like. i could fix this if my fucking body wasn't broken and i wish i didn't have to depend on people like this #and make them do stuff they don't want to do or make them go out of their way to do something for me when i want to be able to do it myself #normally i am more okay with this but. world ending time. everything just feels unbearable right now #my entire chest feels hollow and empty and it aches

[loveofastarvingdog]

music making me insane in the head when i am already insane in the head due to school. making me more insane and yet it also cancels out so i might avctualyl survive this

#timothy's txts. #i have had! so much caffeine and i am having more now . also some tea. later i think i might get some matcha [erhaps or something along t #those lines. depending on ho wmuch evils and such i am feeling (<- the humours. the melancholies and the sulfars and the bile and things) #i might get a white mocha with dark caramel sauce and cinnamon dulce topping w regular milk #(<- something that will in fact give me severe tummy ache but is also so beautikful and true to my taste buds) also i don't work tomorrow s #i'm not worried about the ramifications for tomorrow #anyways i've got an essay and a lab assignment due tonight and also another assignment that does not lend itself to easy descriptions only #that i must write multiple words and also come up with multiple ideas by tongiht. #tim attends…

[semercury]

Decided to be irresponsible and play game anyway. I did get my s+ 😎

#stuff sarah says #😎 <- is also a certain someone saying BILLIONS #fucking idiot. i love him for that as a character #anyway this game makes me ache in the best way possible and i love it so much #also btw this was on standard. so i now have s+ on standard and assisted #i still say assisted s+ is hard bc you have to do it in four hours! just four!!!!! #i thiiink i have every non hardcore/professional achievment/challenge done too #so i just gotta play the harder modes #im debatjng on if i want to stream hardcore or professional #depends on if i want the death counter to be super high or not #anyway. im kissing the writers of this game on the mouth. they did such a good job