#is this what purgatory looks like to him?

[johnwickb1tsch]

Vino Veritas

A Destination Wedding Frank x Fem!Reader Fic

Attending the wedding of your ex-fiancé gets slightly better when you meet someone having just as miserable a time as you... Warnings: Nothing too serious holy shit. Cursing. Broken engagement. Nihilism, existential bullshit, copious amounts of sarcasm. Eventual nsfw, not this chapter. Pretty much in line with the movie here.

The Gate to Hell

You’re not sure what it is about airports, that somehow makes them feel like a special little extension of the circles of Hell. Or maybe purgatory, is more the like. All you do there is wait, and wait and wait, praying that soon it will be time to move on.

It probably doesn’t help that you’re absolutely fucking dreading your destination ahead.

Frankly, it will be a miracle if you survive this weekend with your sanity intact.

And then, there’s this dude behind you. You keep seeing him out of the corner of your eye. He just keeps pacing back and forth, rolling his stupid bag with him, and you just want to whirl and tell him to be still or sit the fuck down.

Instead, he comes to stand next to you.

You give him a glance. And then, you’ll admit, a double take, because he is stupidly handsome, even while frowning, staring churlishly at the flight monitor as though it had personally insulted him. And, to add insult to injury, he is tall. And well dressed in jeans and a button down and a nice sports jacket. And you inwardly sigh for some indefinable reason that has to do with longing and your acceptance that the universe does not bestow such gifts upon you for free.

“Nice dress.”

You blink, not having expected him to speak to you.

“Thanks.” It’s a 50’s style robin’s egg blue halter swing dress, your favorite color. You needed some bright color therapy, to face the hell you’re about to be stepping into.

“Is there a sock hop in San Luis Obispo I’m missing?”

You guess with your cat-eye Dolce and Gabbana sunglasses, you do look rather on brand.

From his sardonic tone you’re not sure if he’s making fun of you. “All the cool kids are going.”

You kind of deliver it like a dig, and you see the corners of his mouth twitch. “Ah. That explains everything.”

You look him over. He…really is ridiculously handsome, if you’re being honest. High cheekbones. Trimmed beard. Piercing eyes. Casually well dressed. A bit older than you, not that that’s ever stopped you.

“I hope our flight’s on time.”

You check your phone app for the airline. “Supposed to be.”

“Let me guess. You’ve got an app for that?” The way he says it, just this side of snide, like you fucking millennials—it kind of pisses you off. And maybe you’re overly sensitive to patronizing comments from older men, but with your history you have a right to be.

“Do you have a problem with me?”

He stands up a little straighter. “What?”

“Like what’s your deal? I was just standing here minding my own business, while you’re creeping around behind me—”

“I was not creeping. I was trying to see the board.” He gestures at the display screen by the gate.

You look him up and down. That’s a tall drink of water, if you’re being honest. “Because Mr. six foot six over here can’t see over my head—”

“I’m only 6’1”—”

“Okay, 6’2” in your shoes, and then you come up here, give me a backhanded compliment, and make fun of me for having the means to keep track of what’s going on with our plane?” You glare at him. “Holy shit, are you trying to neg me?”

“I don’t…even know what that means.”

“Ok, boomer.”

“I am not a boomer.”

“Whatever.”

Then he has the gall to step away—in front of you.

“Seriously?”

“What?”

“You’re going to butt ahead in line too?”

“On a flight that holds eight people?”

“Wow. Ok, be my guest.” You wave him on, and he rolls his eyes. Then you have to stand there, and look at his stupidly broad shoulders in that nice sports jacket, and his dark softy waving hair that just brushes his collar…you’re not going to look at his butt.

You’re not.

Your eyes slide down.

Fuck, but that’s a nice caboose.

The Fight Or Flight Response

As you sit in your backseat of the plane, there is one seat left beside you, and when you see who boards last you want to throw yourself down the stairs before they close the door.

“Anyone want to trade seats?” he asks, bent over practically in half, he’s so tall and the plane is so small.

Crickets.

With a resigned grumble he settles into the seat next to you, as though the world might end if he has to spend a handful of minutes in your general proximity.

Then, of course, the universe further conspires to embarrass you by sending you a defective peanuts bag, which you cannot for love or money get to tear open.

“Dear god, tear it at the notch,” grouses the rude man beside you, driven insane by you fighting with it.

“There is no notch.”

He’s there with his big hand extended, making an annoyed give it here gesture. It’s distracting, truly, how long and elegant his fingers are.

“Give it here.”

“I’m fine.”

“Give. It. Here.”

You’re so disgusted with this whole day, you hand it over. Then watch with smug delight as he can’t get it open either. Finally, he uses his teeth in his frustration, undoubtedly spitting all over it. When he tries to hand it back to you, you raise an eyebrow at him. “Really?”

With a sigh, he offers you his less molested bag.

You take it like accepting his sword on the battlefield.

You both make faces as you quickly find that the seasoning on the nuts tastes like hot trash, and you reckon it’s probably a metaphor for how the next few days are going to go.

This is going to be the weekend from hell.

“So what brings you to San Luis Obispo?” the man asks resignedly, almost like he can’t quite stop himself from talking to you. There is an exhaustion in his tone that would have pulled at your heartstrings, if you weren’t so generally pissed off.

“You don’t have to try to talk to me.”

He shrugs, throwing up those big, beautiful hands in a gesture of annoyance. You can’t help but stare at them—they really are a menace.

“Just trying to be pleasant.”

You can’t stop the bark of laughter that escapes you at hearing that. He frowns over at you, and you cover your mouth, hiding your smile. You know you must look like a crazy person—but it’s just too ridiculous.

“Was it that funny?”

You sigh, and for some reason you feel better after the involuntary outburst. Okay. Maybe you can make an effort. No one is ever in a good mood at the airport, after all. “I’m actually going to Paso Robles.”

“Row-bulls.”

“It’s pronounces ro-blays.”

“Everyone says Row-bulls.” 

“Well, not the fucking Spanish who named it.”

He looks away again with that thunderhead of a frown. Why does he have to look extra handsome, when he’s pissed off?

You sigh again. “Look, I’m sorry. I swear, I’m not always such a bitch. It’s just…this fucking wedding I’m going to.”

This catches his attention; he turns to look at you like a hawk zeroing in on a mouse. “Not…Keith and Anne’s wedding?”

“How do you fucking know Keith and Anne?”

“Keith and I share a mother.”

“Holy shit, you’re Frank?”

“Who are you?”

“I was engaged to Keith, years ago.”

“Oh my god, you’re y/n.”

You can sense by the way he says it that you’re infamous in the family’s lore. It’s been a long time, but still, it fills your heart with a familiar leaden despair.

You close your eyes, and look away.

“You’re just as horrible as Keith always said,” you say to the window.

“I find you equally disagreeable, I assure you.”

waiting for death the car

“There was supposed to be a car,” Frank grouses the second you exit the airport. Patience is clearly not his strong suit.

“The flight was early.”

“But it seemed so long.”

It’s a good dig, truth be told, and the corners of your mouth twitch despite yourself. You sit down on a bench, and to your surprise he sits on the other, though on the side closest to you. “So what the hell are you doing here?” he asks. “Didn’t Keith break your heart?”

“Shattered it into bits.”

“Well?”

“I was invited.”

“And…you’re a masochist?”

“Look, I’m not…whatever Keith must have said I am. I was practically a fucking child when he started dating me. It was not…” It was perfectly legal, of course, but the imbalance of worldly experience, looking back, had not been kosher.

You feel the tide of all the pain and insecurity that man caused you raise up in your heart. Usually you’re pretty good at shoving that shit down down in the deepest dungeon you can, like a healthy person, but the wound is feeling a little fucking raw at the moment, considering.

“Keith is an asshole who only cares about himself. I am aware.”

You sigh, and the tide miraculously recedes. Goddamn. It almost feels like he’s on your side.  “Okay, yeah. There you go.”

“Why do this to yourself?”

“You know, before he broke it off, we had a fight the night before because I told him I would never get breast implants, of all fucking things, and Keith told me I would never amount to anything without him.”

“Sounds like something asinine he would say.”

“I wanted to go back to school, and he didn’t like it. He wanted a Stepford wife, and I was becoming alarmingly aware of the world outside his own making of it, the way children do when they grow up. If you’re wondering why he dumped me.”

“That tracks perfectly.”

“He invited me to be a shit and rub my nose in it, so…I’m here as a fuck you. I wanted to show him I’m doing fine.”

“Are you?”

“Yes, actually.”

“You do seem rather well adjusted.”

“Yeah, fuck you too.”

This, surprisingly, makes him smile a little.

A few moments of slightly less awkward silence pass before he asks, “So what did Keith tell you about me?”

“Oh, he told me plenty.”

“Such as?”

“What does it matter?”

“Don’t do that,” he snipes. “Don’t dangle the tidbit then refuse to deliver it.”

“Fine. He said you’re a grouch who hates everyone.”

“Oh. I was afraid he might have said something untrue.”

You glance over at his ridiculously well-sculpted profile. He glares ahead, his brows furrowed, and you strangely get the sense that maybe…he’s a little sad for it.

At fucking last, the shuttle car from the hotel arrives.

Tbc...

#destination wedding #keanuverse fic #frank x you #frank has no last name! #destination wedding frank x you #keanu reeves x you #keanu reeves x reader #destination wedding fic #vino veritas destination wedding fic #part 1 #i think there will be maybe 5 parts? #frank x reader #frank x y/n #keanu reeves #enemies to lovers #sunshine x grump #frank reeves x you #frank reeves x reader

[ananke-xiii]

I've tried and tried but I can't make sense of what Cas says in 15x09 when he's in Purgatory with Dean. I like this episode, I think it's an overall good episode (writing, directing, post-production etc) and all the actors were really feeling it that day because their performances sold it. But... what the hell Cas is saying in "The Trap"?

This scene in particular, I literally have difficulty with its analysis. I mean, I might be 100% just me, maybe I just don't get it and that's fine, still it doesn't sound like Cas is REALLY talking WITH Dean, it rather feels like he's having an internal monologue that he's clumsily externalizing.

Cas: Sorry about Benny.

Dean: I owed him my life. And he sacrificed himself to get Sam out of this place.

Cas: Well, this place will bring that out in you. Guilt. It was my fault the Leviathan got out. It was my fault we were here the first time. I carry that guilt every day.

Dean: I know you're sorry, Cas. About Bel, about Mom.

Cas: I was talking about Jack. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it.

Dean: Sorry I brought it up. Maybe if you didn't just up and leave us.

Cas: You didn't give me a choice. You couldn't forgive me. And you couldn't move on. You were too angry. I left, but you didn't stop me.

Let's break it down and see what the hell is going on here.

Benny:

Benny is the ghost of past partners bestest of best friends ever in this episode. Dean brings him up when he says that they might run into him and that he's likely the king of Purgatory by now (and then he suggests that they split up which I find simply hilarious for 2 reasons: first, Dean has basically just said that they might meet Benny and then adds he wants to split up, I mean LOL, go look for your new King of a Supernatural Dimension miss gurl, I guess; second, "going separate ways" is usually more Cas' modus operandi rather than Dean's, so it's surprising that he's the one suggesting this strategy and Cas is the one saying that they should stick together. Interesting. Me thinks there's some sort of reversal at play here).

Dean owes Benny his life and he sacrificed himself for Sam. Benny is also the one who answers his calls, who actually calls Dean when he needs his help, who listens to him, he's also there when Dean calls for his help. Benny is so selfless that he's sacrificed himself for Sam. Benny gets Dean. Basically, to put it in very very shallow terms, Benny is not Dean's "dream girl" but his ideal partner.

Guilt:

Cas tells Dean that he's sorry because they've just learnt that Benny's dead. And then Cas continues and says "Well, this place will bring that out in you. Guilt". What??? What does this have to do with the fact that Dean has just said that he owes Benny? We know that Dean has felt guilty about Benny in the past but right now? I think he sounds more grateful than guilty. But if Purgatory=Benny for Dean, it's definitely not the same for Cas. For him Purgatory=Guilt. Cas still carries the guilt over the Godstiel mess-up.

So Cas here, at least to me, he's not really replying to anything that Dean has just said. He's feeling guilty so he thinks Dean is feeling the same about Benny. Dean is in his feelings, he's thinking about what happened with Bel and, more importantly, with his mom. This is actually a huge step for him, bringing up Mary like that, after all that's happened bewteen them this is a huge sign of openness. The previous two times they've tried to talk about her it didn't go well.

Cas, however, is talking about Jack. He's feeling guilty because he thinks that everything that has happened to them has happened because he didn't tell Dean about that damn snake and everything that entailed. And then he says that he's already apologized. When? I know Berens loves his fanfiction gaps but I don't recall a scene where Cas apologizes to Dean. In "Absence" (also written by Berens) Cas explains why he didn't tell Dean about the snake but he doesn't exactly apologize. When the hell that happened? Did it happen or is Cas being delusional? I really don't understand what Cas is trying to say here.

Leaving and stopping:

Dean gets a bit defensive but he actually doesn't shy away from the big elephant in the room: maybe if Cas doesn't just up and leave (implied: we could've sorted it out). To this Cas drops this bomb that, to this day, it's super weird for me:

You didn't give me a choice. You couldn't forgive me. And you couldn't move on. You were too angry. I left, but you didn't stop me.

I think that Cas is, again, confusing what he's feeling with what Dean might be feeling. He didn't give himself a choice, he didn't forgive himself, he couldn't move on. "Moving on" is something that he says before leaving and yes, Dean was angry and??? There is no logical reasoning behind Cas' words. It's just factually NOT true that Dean didn't give him a choice. He's taking out on Dean emotions and feelings that he has for himself and that he hasn't processed.

So he left but Dean didn't stop him. Huh?

This is where I completely lose Berens. Dean has his own issues for sure but Cas leaving, per se, is not exactly one of them. It's my interpretation that Cas leaving the bunker to go do *stuff* is not something Dean is thrilled about, but it's canon that he's okay with that. The real problems Dean has with Cas are (and they are also canon): 1. he doesn't pick up the phone, doesn't text back, utterly ignores him (hello s12 Cas/John parallel) 2. Cas' lone-wolfing doesn't make Dean feel like he's part of the Team Free Will and Dean wants Cas to be part of it. Compare&contrast with Benny: Cas doesn't listen, doesn't call when he needs help, doesn't answer his calls = Cas doesn't act like Dean's ideal partner the bestest of best friends ever.

So see, here, the two are not really having a conversation, specifically Cas is in his own world and he's NOT listening. Dean doesn't even think about stopping Cas because Cas leaving is only PART of the problem Dean has with Cas. Dean's lion's share of the problem with Cas is that Cas doesn't make him feel like he's his partner.

And Cas fucking knows it. Because the fight they have in "The Rupture" (by Berens) is EXACTLY THE SAME FIGHT they have in "The Future" (also by Berens).

In "The Future" Dean spells out what his problem is, Cas cannot go dark side, cannot just ignore his calls, he was worried, they are a team, they solve their problems together etc, you know the mixtape scene. Dean couldn't be clearer.

And what does Cas do after that? He leaves again! And now, NOW in "The Trap", it turns out that the problem is that Dean doesn't stop him? No.

It doesn't make sense to me that Cas wants Dean to stop him when he leaves. I don't even think it's canonically accurate or in-character if I must be honest.

So, the only way to make it make sense is, for me, that Cas is projecting onto Dean his own issues. He leaves and he can't stop himself from leaving. He doesn't want to leave, yet he has this compulsion that just makes him leave the room and go as far away as possible. In other words, it's not that Dean doesn't stop him, it's that Cas cannot stop himself from leaving and it's hurting him (and everybody really) a lot and he feels guilty about it and carries that weight every day.

As much as I like Jensen's performance in "The Trap" when he prays to Cas and I think it's a beautiful and moving scene, it really didn't add anything new to Dean. We already know that he forgives Cas every.single.time. We also already know he has anger issues. The big news here is Cas projecting onto Dean and that he thinks that Dean's role is to stop him from leaving while the whole damn issue is that he doesn't want to leave in the first place but he keeps making the same mistake every.single.time.

So yeah, "The Trap" is abolutely NOT an episode where Dean and Cas communicate like at all. They're back to "The Future" where they had that conversation after the mixtape handover. Where, once again, Dean stated what his issues are, Cas once again left and then died. Just like what happens in s15, too.

#spn #supernatural #spn s15 #spn 15x09 #the trap #spn s12 #castiel #dean winchester

[misc-obeyme]

I'M ALIVE (BARELY) !! Work is kicking my ass. Also, lots of things went wrong for me this morning, but they all worked out in the end ?? Like I forgot to set my alarm, had to bring my mom's phone to her job bc she forgot it, my bus ended up running late because the doors would get stuck at stops. But I woke up on time, caught the bus after taking the phone, and made it early to work because the bus forgot to take the detour? My luck is insane (thanks Mammon.)

ANYWAY, i can no longer contain my thoughts about Mammon x Solomon x Mc. I'm just imagining my mc and Solomon who are both very curious, and love messing around with potions at purgatory hall, and finding alternatives to rare ingredients. This has definitely gone wrong a bunch of times (most days without a potion incident: 4)

and I'm imagining Mammon tagging along bc he misses mc and is jealous that Sol is taking up their time, but denies all claims - "I'm assigned to protect ya, ain't I?" "From Solomon?" "W-Well, he's a shady sorcerer!"

He sits on the floor by mc's feet, and will fetch them things because he can't say no to them. But he spends so much time listening to them brainstorm, he starts learning and will chime in randomly. Mc and Sol who are stuck on what to add, Mammon drops something in there, and they're both horrified until they realize the potion is perfect now. He just has a little database in his mind of what to add to something, and rare ingredients that the two wish they could get their hands on.

Thinking about Mammon doing a favor for a witch and she tells him to pick anything in her collection since she's low on money. He was about to be angry when he saw an ingredient that they've both been complaining is rare and hard to find. He asks the witch for that and then brings it to the two. He acts all nonchalant about it, trying to brush it off. Mc tackles him, meanwhile Solomon is in awe and staring with a twinkle in his eye.

Now Mammon starts requesting trades with witches, for a lower portion of grimm. Gets ingredients he knows they dream about, because the way mc and sol will get all giddy after he presents them with his earnings makes his stomach flip (he will never admit this)

"This is missing something" Solomon

"Yeah but I can't figure out what" MC

"Have you tried *insert seemingly common ingredient that doesn't work for most things*" Mammon

"But no one uses that, it's why we're always stuck with it" MC

"Couldn't hurt to try. See, watch." Mammon.

"WAIT, MAMMON DON'T- ... IT WORKED!?" Mc/Sol

----

"MAMMON HOW THE HELL DID YOU GET THIS, IT ONLY BLOOMS ONCE EVERY 100 YEARS" mc

"Dunno, got it from a random witch. Said she didn't need it. *spent two hours haggling with said witch*"

"...am I in love?" Solomon, reevaluating life

"Eh? What are ya mumbling about? If you're gonna thank me, I want it loud and clear!"

my crack ship <3 they mean everything to me. I caved and hunted down the plushies of them on ebay too. ALSO I GOT TWO OF MY COMMISSIONS BACK AND I'M 😭 they're perfect !!! I'm so so happy with them. Literally the lock screen is beautiful bc it's me and mammon cuddling (HIS MUSCLES CC!! IM DYING) and it looks like it was taken by like asmo or something who walked in to wake us up.

i think I'm also a hopeless romantic, I'm just scared of confronting my feelings lol (you're right in that it is worth it, I just need to figure out how to be brave </3). I throw myself into romance books and fanfics. Vaguely related, thinking about coffee shop au with barista!Mammon and college student!Solomon.

OKAY SORRY IM DONE RAMBLING 😭 HAVE A GOOD DAYYYY

- ✨ anon

Wow that does sound like a crazy morning!! I'm glad it all worked out, though~ Mammon is totally watching out for you!

OKAY but all of that sounds exactly like Mammon! I mean, he's super smart, he just doesn't usually bother to apply himself to anything. So it totally makes sense that he'd just pick up things because he's spending time with MC and Solomon. And then of course he's gonna end up seeing rare ingredients and being like, okay yeah I'm taking that. That all sounds absolutely adorable~

I'm curious about whether or not Solomon and Mammon would make a pact in this situation? I mean, if it's both of them and your MC that are in the relationship, do you think they would? Do you think Solomon would move past his obsession with getting a pact with Lucifer and end up in one with Mammon instead?

I always felt like Solomon doesn't really get Mammon, you know? But that doesn't mean he can't learn. And oh man, Solomon is such a tease and Mammon is so not good at being teased lol. That idea is giving me so many entertaining images, I can't even handle it.

Anyway, I'm totally here for it! It sounds really cute~

I'm so glad you're happy with your comms!!! They sound amazing!

And don't worry, you'll figure it out. I don't know how old you are, but I suspect you have plenty of time! It's a balancing act, you know? It's important to be honest with yourself about your feelings without letting them control you. But it's easier to decide what to do about them if you know what they are. Anyway, not to get all philosophical over here lol. I think the key is to find someone you want to be brave for, you know?

AUGH I love coffee shop aus sooooooo much!!! I was very obsessed with the idea of barista!Mammon for a while, mostly because of a daily chat where he was working at a cafe and then got into a fight with customer. He's good at finances, so I think he could be pretty business minded if he wanted to be. So I was thinking about a situation where he owns his own cafe, but when the customers get rude with one of his fellow baristas, he gets into a fight with them lol. I hadn't really considered who that other barista was, but it could be MC.

Anyway, I could ramble about coffee shop aus all day because I love them aklsdlkfjdfjkl

I hope you have a lovely day/night, too!!

#starting to get on the SoloMams train over here #well I can ship any two characters #because I think everyone is compatible #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me mammon #obey me solomon #✨ anon #misc answers

[nightwonder7]

I picture that Norton dreads on winning nymph because he won’t be able to get anymore potential free food that comes with it! A grand festival ought to to have some buffet or food in the background SOMEWHERE

A funny thought really haha

Just let the man have some bread at the function, please!

#ask #anon #anonymous #identity v #idv #identity v fanart #idv fanart #identity v prospector #idv prospector #norton campbell #sketch #comic #night's art #is this what purgatory looks like to him?

[merakiui]

learning that rollo eats the same lunch (16 grapes, 2 croissants, 1 café au lait) every day is so funny to me. he’s so cute. T-T rollo, please eat a feast. you deserve it. why limit yourself to the same thing over and over?

also his voice line where he invites you to check out the mostro lounge with him. saying, “i like cafés. shall we take a look?” casually asking you out on a date…… rollo, you’re exceptionally cute.

#meraki mumbles #his hobby is gardening… T_T <3 #he’s the man of my dreams #studying at the lounge with rollo but the tweels keep flirting with you #and trying to distract you so that you and rollo can’t study (i.e. get closer) #ENEMIES TO FRIENDS TO LOVERS WITH ROLLO AAAAAAAA OTL #the two of you taking care of and looking after each other like a married couple… #reminding each other to eat or go to sleep at healthy times or knowing exactly what the other needs #the two of you forever stuck in the purgatory that is the pining stage/‘do they like me or are we just close friends?’ stage #I’M SO ILL FOR HIM HE DRIVES ME MAD ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

[mishapen-dear]

something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

#qsmp #he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them #he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them #qsmp badboyhalo #ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs #and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community #and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’ #’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’ #and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse #and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent) #(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily) #ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels #ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper #and the other eggs #because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health #issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection #and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone #you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends #look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large #never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety #never mind that your friends and family are worried about you #you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow

[phatcatphergus]

It’s crazy that if tubbo showers it’ll be the first time Sunny has seen her father actually look healthy and clean

#she was adopted right after purgatory and it was not up from there #she doesn’t even know what he looks like under all the dirt and blood #what if she doesn’t recognize him when he’s cleaned up and actually positive #like when a dad shaves his beard and his baby doesn’t recognize who it is #qsmp tubbo #qsmp #tubbo #qsmp sunny

[zeb-z]

to be fair, I don't think qroier not trusting qbad is particularly new haha. i think it's been going on for a while even before purgatory. the only thing purgatory did with that particularly relationship is it gave qroier an excuse to be more vocal in his annoyance

( @lucienff the themes of these are similar so I’m answering the ask and responding in one post instead of the comments, hope you don’t mind :3 )

I agree with the read that Roier didn’t particularly trust Bad before, but I think that at a baseline, Roier doesn’t have much trust with most anyone to begin with. I think everything that had happened with Spreen back in the beginning of the server is something that is a large cause in that, because its still something he is suffering from months later - it’s just in true Roier fashion, it’s something he doesn’t really talk about to others. He’s only recently shared it and talked about it with Cellbit.

But even then, he had a respect for Bad. When the eggs first went missing, and they were both visibly affected by the stress, they had moments of somewhat acknowledging the other, but sticking to the script of “oh I’m fine” yknow what I mean? And before purgatory, yeah, there was no doubt that Bad cared for the eggs, and could be trusted in that regard.

But post Purgatory, I think that baseline trust has been shaken. He doesn’t let Bad see Pepito when he visited the castle, makes excuses for him to leave, and then afterwards talks to himself about how he’s angry that everyone seems to have forgotten Purgatory (both in the context that he also doesn’t trust Pepito, and he doesn’t want Bad coming up to him as if the past two weeks didn’t happen). When Leo wakes up, and Bad is around trying to talk with them, he makes a point of pulling her away. Of putting himself between Leo and Bad. And it’s in the subtle, usual jesting way he’s done before with Bad (“you can only drink lava once yknow. sure, try it, I’m not going though!” and “stranger danger Leo, stranger danger!” etc etc. said with enough dramatics it keeps it lighthearted, because that’s what Roier does).

I don’t think Roier is actively thinking he should mistrust Bad with the eggs specifically. I don’t think that he thinks Bad doesn’t care about the eggs. I just think he hasn’t fully trusted Bad before, and now since Purgatory he doesn’t trust him at all, for good reason - Bad was very much an instigator and a cause for both his own torment and his family’s (Jaiden namely, what with the spawn killing, and Cellbit, Foolish). It’s no longer a ‘this guy is a thorn in my side and I don’t trust him’ kinda petty drama between islanders. It’s a ‘this guy went back on the deal to keep the score 50/50 and did so under the impression we as the losing team could die’ kind of situation. A ‘we spent the past few weeks in hell and this guy repeatedly not only killed, but went over the top in tormenting my family and myself, I don’t trust him’ kind of situation. It’s not an excuse to be petty or properly annoyed, it’s a result of how Bad burned all his bridges in purgatory. It’s in large part a trauma response.

It doesn’t matter that Bad has never once been a threat to Leo, that he’s taken care of her multiple times, that he has always checked in with the eggs and cared for them - it matters that Leo is his sister, that Pepito is under his care, and he Does Not Trust Bad.

#it’s like yeah there’s always been the half joshing around half ‘man I hate that guy’ thing between them. not quite like bad and foolish bu #similar enough I agree #but like. purgatory got serious quick. and Roier is not going to pretend like it didn’t happen. and he’s not moving on as everyone else is #or how everyone else seems to be I should say #so it’s like. yeah Roier doesn’t really fully trust anybody. but from the events of purgatory he Really does not trust Bad #I think it’s just more intense than that yknow. bad is so quick to brush off purgatory as something that can be looked over (not counting - #-the times he just doesn’t remember it at all due to his memory loss) because it’s inconsequential to him. and he has this way of #brushing off extreme things because he both genuinely has a different moral viewpoint and because he can and will ‘I’m just a little guy #and ‘what’s a little psychological and physical torment between friends :3’ his way outta it #but it is serious. especially to the others. especially to Roier. it’s not just gonna be swept under and there will continue to be fallouts #idk. it’s not just a case of ‘I always knew I hated that guy and now I have an excuse’. it’s a ‘I am in severe psychological distress in #large part to this guy in particular and do not trust him with the time of day’ yknow what I mean #everyone has been showing their own trauma from purgatory but Roier is especially showing the mistrust and anger from it #mcyt #qsmp #q!bbh #q!roier #anon #z speaks

[roxyandelsewhere]

"I'm not a damn thing but this time that lasts between running from finding myself and finding myself while running." (x)

SPN moments but abstract [17/?] - The ouroboros of Carver era Dean, aka "what if Dean's present had been presented as connected to his past"

inprnt.| society6 | ko-fi

#SURPRISE BITCH! BET YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME (i feel like it's not the first time i say this) #spn #spnart #spn art #spnabstract #mine.caro #i keep having art hiatus i'm sorry. but i refuse to make art feel like a chore so sometimes my brain says NO and i say Okay :( #anyways i'm back babeyy #ok so. what do we have here this time #this post has so many links posting it feels like a whole thing. i'm gonna add this one to the stores now uwu #this was motivated by my frustration with carver era dean having all these things happen to him that feel like punchlines to his whole life #but they're not presented that way. he becomes a demon after All That in previous seasons and the connection isn't made #hence the FMI line. i did josémáriobranconatural again but i had to #i wrote a list of bullet points when i was trying to figure this one out and it says: #'Hunting monsters while running away from becoming one and becoming a monster by how he hunts them in purgatory and with the mark of cain' #'Running from becoming a demon until daddy's little girl breaks in thirty and is pulled from the rack by an angel #and then is killed by an angel and becomes a demon' #'Black eyes and branded arms pointing death at the family he's become a monster out of the vow to protect' #and lastly you can't have a visual essay on performanceboy without touching on that part so this is supposed to look #like we're seeing it all through a window. suburban house window even #i thought it'd be more visually interesting if the lines of the window weren't there but you can also see it as the window not being there #and there you have it folks. finally a new one!! #pros: i'm drawing again. cons: i'm still in the spn pit

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

I don’t know if you already said this elsewhere, but did the Zenin ever hurt Megumi in a way it simply wasn’t possible for them to explain? Like being poisoned or bitten by one of the dozens curses? Did Gojo catch them red handed (the red is literally megumi’s blood💀)?

The first time that they hurt him in a way that they couldn’t explain away was the last time they hurt him, because Gojo immediately cut them off and refused to ever let them ever get near Megumi again. The Zenin didn't fully realize this at the time they had custody, but legitimately the only reason why it got as far as it did was because Gojo didn't know.

They weren’t exactly advertising “yeah we beat him when we have him” to him, but it wasn’t exactly because they thought gojo would put a stop to it, per se. They didn’t tell Gojo anything they did to Megumi because they felt absolutely entitled to him. They didn’t want Gojo’s input or interference, and they didn’t like feeling like they had to ask for permission around this with Megumi. But they didn’t think he actually would cut them off from him.

In the Zenin’s mind, Gojo doesn’t love Megumi. He’s never loved Megumi. Megumi’s just a political pawn to him, a way to insult the Zenin and steal their most valuable technique for his own. And he got way more value from letting them see him. He got to have his influence on someone who was very likely to be clan head one day—if Megumi’s cut off from them entirely, he’s not moving towards being clan head. He got a bargaining chip with the Zenin—he could further his own goals by offering them more time with him. Megumi’s a powerful piece of leverage but only if Gojo actually uses him. Him intervening to protect Megumi by severing all contact doesn’t further his own goals, so when it all came to a head, they pretty blindly assumed that he wouldn’t give a shit about what they had just done to Megumi, because at the end of the day, they thought he was going to keep using Megumi for his own ends, which meant giving them access.

Instead, Gojo immediately pulled the plug on the entire situation. They never touched or saw him again. The first time that Megumi saw them after the incident that made them go no contact was when Naoya came to pick him up at his school.

#sea glass gardens #in my mind jujutsu sorcerer kids are sturdier #like Sukuna punted Megumi through multiple buildings in their fight #so it must be /hard/ to do something that causes a bruise #a lot of the Zenin’s abuse was hidden because while it still hurt it wasn’t leaving marks #or it was abuse that wouldn’t leave marks anyway like how they’d work him to the point of collapse or control his every action #but if they hit him hard enough to leave marks then they had the built in excuse that megumi was fighting with other kids #or had just had one of those normal little kid bumps. like I have a baby nieces and nephews and those kids will just hurl their bodies #around. kids collect bruises. they’re figuring out what their limits are and even if you watch them carefully a few bumps is normal. #they hurt him badly but they always had a way to hide it until they went too far and didn’t anymore. and the second gojo realized that #the adults on the compound had been beating megumi he never let them so much as look at him again. he legitimately put his foot down and #refused to budge an inch no matter how much hell he caught for it #I’ve definitively decided that the incident that made them go no contact is not going to be revealed in sea glass gardens #it just isn’t something that would come out through yuutas pov #if I wrote other works in the series it would probably come out through one of them but it’s a big big if #I make no promises as to other works in the universe (though I have started writing some of them. completion is another thing entirely). #if you guys want to know the incident that made them go no contact I wouldn’t be opposed to revealing it over ask but it’s y’all’s #preference. usually the stuff I talk about in ask is stuff I’ll know isn’t going to be revealed in sea glass gardens itself. this is kind of #in purgatory because I know it’s coming out in sea glass gardens but there’s a smaller chance of it being revealed in a different work #so it’s up to y’all. if you want to know I’ll answer it behind a cut or something but if you want to gamble on it actually being written out #one day that’s fine too

[starstiels]

DEAN TELLING DEATH TO KILL CAS OMG WHAT .

#supernatural #spn #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #deancas #look i know cas has all of purgatory and the leviathans in him #but oh my GOD #I DIDNT THINK DEAN WOULD WANT HIM DEAD #I MEAN OBVIOUSLY HE DOESNF *WANT* HIM DEAD BUT YK #I THOUGHT THEYD TRY TO FIND SOME OTHER WAY TO STOP HIM BEFROE RESORTING TO STRAIGHT UP MURDER #also can i just say that dean is like . so clearly heartbroken and sad abt what cas did #like when cas is back he better do a lotttttt of apologizing cause he fucked dean UP man

[captain-lonagan]

something something.

the difference in how team vibe/leadership appears from the outside is still crazy to me. like i didnt watch a lot of soulfire pov and so hearing the tales of how things were internally is such a wild contrast to how they looked. I SAY THIS WITH LOVE IN MY HEART. PEACE AND KINDNESS AND BEAUTY ON PLANET EARTH.

like my mind particularly hones in on tubbo saying bbh was out of control and such in his discussions with (if im remembering correctly) phil and foolish. i cannot be damned to bring up every instance of things but the general vibe of blue from POV outsider was like, tubbo is leader in name only and bbh is making aggressive plays without talking it over with his team first.

but the soulfire livebloggers tell me that soulfire is operating with 3 person leadership split between tubbo, bbh, and tina. the word on the street is the majority of blue is chill and working together. which i would Not know if not for those blessed bloggers because my watching habits meant i saw tina and soulfire's base once in a blue moon (hehe blue team blue moon). so the face of soulfire i saw was Mostly bbh, pierre, and tubbo, which did not aid in the impression of the organization i got during the early days.

on a different but related note, i'm fuckin dying to better know how Decisions happened with that 3 leader gig. like i'm used to the drill usually being phil gets on early, sees the stats and calls out what tasks are priority that day, and then the team balls and focuses on that task because it is Decided.

#ALSO would love to chat with a bbh viewer about how much bbh doesnt (again outsider pov here) seem to trust anyone enough to follow them? #like i remember him discussing with forever Ages ago about the voting system #and he didnt like that the president was choosing what mods got voted on or smth? #like my man. thats why the president has the role. he's trusted enough to take on some decisions #so that other people can focus on doing their own thing #and then it Looks like smth similar happened with soulfire? maybe? idk i want the Knowledge though #qpurgatory #purgatory #<- tags in case someone has the topic blacklisted

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Still thinking about Suicide Squad Isekai Peacemaker sorry. Seriously wondering if this is gonna be the Peacemaker Show again where against all odds it ends up being a Peacemaker take that really clearly gets him. Its on my mind.

#Yes we've seen like 2 seconds of him and Im basing this on him having a bag over his head which is also just a good look. #Im being OPTIMISTIC ok #It will also be hilarious if he keeps winning adaptations but then is still in this weird purgatory hes currently in in the comics #It'll be soooo funny. #My friend made a joke about like 'what if he has the bag because hes still a diplomat and hes like really famous and trying to hide his- #-identity' and that killed me. He's gonna show up covering his face and calling himself Mitchell Black I think.

[masschase]

for the ask meme, i’m kinda curious to learn more about johnny and casey’s dynamic. they hooked up right? how do you think an actual relationship between them would’ve gone?

Also a fun one and um... I've had the worst sleep last night so I apologise if this is horribly incoherent.

OK, so... if Casey and Shaundi is the hookup that happened way too late, Casey and Johnny was the thing that probably shouldn't have happened, at least from their perspective. I feel like I could go into all the reasons it did in fact happen and it would be a whole fricken post plus you-know-who is involved and I'm trying not to bring him up in these 🤣

But I feel like these are more about how things would work if they did get together, let's say that was their most logical starting point. Except maybe not quite. Their romance scene obviously goes hard and it shaped the way I write Casey as rambling when she's emotional until someone shuts her up which is one of my favourite things ever honestly. But I can also see it being an instant, intense... considerably goo-smeared... kiss the minute they reunite.

There are also other moments where it could have happened; after the shared grieving of Aisha and Carlos, just before the bank heist (yes, I can't get over that thing I wrote even if it doesn't fit Casey. It could easily be rewritten to fit Casey, honestly. All that would need changing would be the thing about that Boss being a spoilt rich kid.). Either way I see this being something that would be most likely happen on the ship because it's the only place it really fits in their history. So if it happened then...

I mean it's GatBoss for god's sakes. I'm pretty sure I shipped them while playing 4. At the early stages of my fanfic they were implied to have a much less platonic journey too. But now with the developed character Casey is it's a lot harder to see it.

I mean they do love each other, it's not so hard to reframe that as romantic love. They have fun together, they like the same things. The getting to know you stage was so long ago I feel like they'd have to do a lot of it all again. Casey would absolutely tease Johnny about the 10 year age gap because he's squicky about it whereas she's not too bothered.

I don't think they'd really engage in PDA, I think they'd be pretty cute behind closed doors though. I think they'd argue a lot because they can both be incredibly stubborn at times, but the makeup sex would be incredible. I don't know who the fuck is going to be their live in chef after they take the new planet because neither of those fuckers can cook. Honestly they can hire someone from the pods or it'll just be Ben.

Johnny is absolutely one of the first to call Casey out on her bullshit. Yes, again this would lead to arguments. But you have to bear in mind he also really gets how her excuses about relationships and marriage are in fact excuses because he's known her forever. Eventually she'd confide her full past in him and he'd just connect the dots.

What does this mean? I think they'd get married. Relatively quickly. Johnny would bring it up when Casey starting asking about kids, honestly, which we know is something she wants from the presidency onward. Almost like a "Aight if we're gonna talk about this we're gonna talk about ALL of this." sort of thing. They'd probably be planning it pre-GOOH(by which I mean Pierce would be planning it with some input from Casey, because we know Johnny's disastrous at that) and originally planning it to be on the ship but then... honestly...

I don't know where that whole volleyball tournament takes place. But one could imagine it was on some purgatory-ish beach somewhere. People from hell were allowed there, people from heaven were allowed there, Johnny and Kinzie were allowed there. That's where Johnny and Casey would get married. That way everyone could come. Everyone.

They'd make sure to do it before the war for the planet. Speaking of which, the whole "pairing people up to make them get along" would go out of the window. The action couple is absolutely going out there side by side. Possibly without the robots seeing how that discussion came about. But the Saints would still win, I think.

God I feel like my response here has gone off the rails a bit I was just going to talk about their dynamic haha. Would they stand the test of time? Maybe. I really can't stress enough that I've literally never sat down and thought about this before.

So yeah. In my universe it's definitely a platonic soulmates vibe. But it's really not that hard to imagine a world where it's not platonic.

#i have so many thoughts about aisha's involvement in the purgatory wedding but i didn't want to cry TOO much while writing this #i'm not going to pretend she'd be immediately supportive btw; she'd be downright shocked at first #but she'd be remarkably gracious about it because she would want johnny happy and also just because it's eesh #she's pure fucking class #she'd lend casey her necklace or something as her something borrowed #like “are you sure?” “well i'm already giving you the groom.” *teasing little smile* #also imagine if the time jump in my fanfic unfolded in a world where all of this happened #like when casey found out johnny was alive in 2016 she would absolutely go to kiss him #and he'd have to be like “woah uhhhh sorry i have a wife.” #“what? who?” “uh... look... i feel like you'll get real mad if I tell you.” #i think all my jokes about them both being bottoms who think they're tops would make it interesting though 🤣 #cat #thier ship name is cat 🤣 #could also be gay just for the hell of it #sr boss: casey clark #johnny gat #saints row

[dysaniadisorder]

im literally so obsessed with pre and postgame danganronpa its not even funny anymore

#dgr #pointing chihiro survives the dr2 cast all have scars & such from the sacrifices they made as remnants did you know himiko kiyo and rantaro #all went to the same school did you know tsumugi and shuichi are actually twins did you know; #did did you know fuyuhiko is blind and mahiru uses a wheelchair did you know gundham gave up an arm #and hajime had did. or something similar look im a system and i dont care #did you know touko and komaru and chihiro are actually besties and did you know the dr1 survivors routinely have at least #1 person lowkey babysitting the remnants. did you know #kokichi gonta kirumi and ryome all live together because they dont have families anymore so they live in an awkward purgatory #and theyre all disabled. and kaito doesnt have a famoly either but doesnt want to invade and he wants to live with his friends but #shuichi is trying to patch up family things with tsumugi and maki is trying to live with her parents for awhile ;;; #aoi has to eat at akane and teruteurs restaurant when theyre trying to round up the remnants and kirigiri picks her up after #and shes like oooooohhh i have never loved apocalypse canned peaches so much..... and makoto walks in like lmao what? and kiri and aoi #just stare at him very intensely. #anyway i think about them a lot!

[epptimorphosus]

S-scooby gang? I think I'm developing an emotional attachment to director Phobos

#this genuinely and probably a vent because for gods sake I'm crying over this like seriously there's no joking tone indicator #THERE'S JUST /SRS /GEN #I love Phobos so much but it's not in a simp kind of way nor even close to seeing him as a mentor or parental figure #I can't describe what kind of relationship I had with him but I love and care so much about this motherfucker #because he for who he is are a FUCKING goldmine of a answer to escape my purgatory that I desperately tried to ran away from #and with that I owe him my life #He means so much to me it's not even funny #This funny minion looking ass with god complex gave me a year in a half long worth of brainrot and then out of nowhere #gave me a war advisor level of conclusions and it hit harder than getting punched in the face by someone you supposed to #love and be loved by the social norms what in genuine 10 layers of union hell is this??? #This fictional character this guy this ugly ass motherfucker is the first one to ever make a impact on my life #and identity and its horrifyingly for the better and in quite positive way ever once in my lifetime #Sussus amongus moment #Meymour is having baby's first blorbo mental breakdown