#infinite sadness

[finalfrontierpublishing]

So it's been a while since i posted any books - mostly because i've been hiding my progress like a little sneak.

I just finished this bind last night of The Desert Storm by @blue-sunshine-mauve-morning, or really it's volume 1 out of like ??? 15, maybe. Please take whatever i say with a pinch of salt (I have had 0 sleep for more than 24 hours, and that tends to make me a little very sleep-deprivation drunk a.k.a. unhinged). Okay, on to thoughts! The Desert Storm was foisted onto me by @celestial-sphere-press who told me under no uncertain terms that I WOULD FUCKING LOVE THIS SHIT. Well, I did. This more than 1 million word epic about Ben Fuckin' Kenobi is pretty much god-tier fanfiction. It reads like a goddamn novel. I can never think of canon again without thinking that this good shit should be canon. I read it and then consumed half of it within a week, and I have zero regrets. @blue-sunshine-mauve-morning, i absolutely love you and love your writing. It is the best thing since sliced bread. It is better than sliced bread.

I also had the benefit of @celestial-sphere-press saying, hey would you want to use the typeset? MY GOD, i am grateful. I love this fic, i would have typeset it if it hadn't been typeset but Des did such a beautiful job that i am absolutely in awe and thankful that she and the author allowed others to use it. Look at it - it's so beautiful. I only had to think hey, i just gotta design the cover and et cetera and so the book happened.

Please also check out @celestial-sphere-press 's amazing post here and here, who is the only person i know who's started and is almost complete in fanbinding this epic, and is also making an author a copy of the entire series.

Some stats, if you will.

96215 words || 380 pages

Title font: Ghaomiec

I took some inspiration from starblight bindery's lovely desert scape as well as this amazing cover of Dune which i own. I love that the landscape emanates Dune vibes while being oh so Tattooine - just sand and heat, relentless loneliness and melancholy. This fic centres around Obi-Wan Infinite Sadness Kenobi so it needed SAD VIBES TM, which i tried to deliver in desolate landscape form.

Also thank the heavens for Renegade members, who in a masterful stroke of Group Buy Saves Money, managed to source extra-out-of-production colours of Colibri and help a fair number of us get really cool limited edition versions of bookcloth. I am now a proud owner of a lorge stash of Duo and Colibri of which i am now sitting on like a shifty dragon with a hoarding problem. Good luck getting your bookcloth now, Folio Society, ha ha (gloating)! This particular bookcloth is Colibri Copper which has been wholly stashed for The Desert Storm series. I am leaning on transitioning to Malachite for Rise and Fall when I get to it.

The front cover design was done with a stock image and converted to a PNG, which i then fiddled with and did some HTV magic with. It was remarkably easier to weed than expected. I tried something new and ironed the design on the naked bookcloth first before gluing it to the boards, which was a new challenge in making sure everything was aligned.

Endpapers are marbled endpapers (Renato Crepaldi) which I got from Hollanders, which perfectly fit the colour scheme of the bind. The only hiccup was as I was cutting, I realized the sheet was running in the opposite direction of his usual papers and half the size, and only yielded 3 A5 size endpapers and so my heart went noooooooooo. oh well. i guess i will use it for quartos.

Endbands are my favourite - silk in 3 colours in the french doublecore style (as i was binding this i did not have the mental capacity to handle the difficulty of 4 strands). the truth is i usually only can do 4 when I have higher brain function and am willing to spend 80% of my time unraveling it from getting tangled.

I also forgot to mention I had mild fuck-ups, I got glue on the front endpaper which I had to hastily remove with wet cloth, and the back square is preposterously bad but I'm ignoring it for now.

Anyway, i've actually managed to complete a few other binds which have not been mentioned here as they've all been gifts/ surprises or event books in some form. I am SO EXCITED, also because I am travelling in the latter half of July to San Diego and L.A. and I get to meet some bookbinding friends in the flesh. Renegade is fucking amazing y'all. I am ready to embrace these crazy lads who have enabled me for the last 1 year, even when i'm the solitary (1) weirdo from my country of origin in the server. Also... potentially bookbinding trip early next year??? I am enthused.

#bookbinding #fanbinding #renegade bindery #my books #star wars #clone wars #obi-wan kenobi #ben kenobi #ben naasade #infinite sadness #the desert storm #the ben naasade epic

[unspuncreature]

Obi-Wan & Anakin | My Brother Outside the House in Hell — Dustin Pearson

#this wouldn’t leave me alone until i put it together #now i can do the things i’m actually supposed to be doing #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #star wars #revenge of the sith #rots #kenobi series #kenobi show #obi wan kenobi show #obi wan and anakin #obi wan & anakin #web weaving #parallels #infinite sadness #words #poetry #dustin pearson #scout edits

[crionic-dubs]

“I never claimed to be the Chosen One. That was Qui-Gon. Even the Council doesn’t believe it anymore, so why should you?” "Because I think you believe it,” Obi-Wan said calmly. “I think you know in your heart that you’re meant for something extraordinary.” “And you, Master. What does your heart tell you you’re meant for?” “Infinite sadness,” Obi-Wan said, even while smiling.

James Luceno, Star Wars: Labyrinth of Evil

#star wars #labyrinth of evil #star wars labyrinth of evil #prequel trilogy #star wars prequels #star wars novels #obi wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #infinite sadness

[balkanparamo]

Meloncholy and the Infinite Sadness

#art #photography #watermelon #melancholy #infinite sadness

[luvvewan]

It’s very hard to take care of a newborn. Especially when their mother just died and you think you killed their father.

#just musing about Obi-Wan’s depressing life on a Saturday morning #Obi-Wan Kenobi #Luke Skywalker #Star Wars #obi-wan #baby luke #infinite sadness

[illusionsof-grandeur]

Baby Anaking was so achingly kind nothing to offer nothing to his name and still offers all he could he doesn't even initially ask for freedom or anything

#i am a person not a slave #anakin skywalker #infinite sadness #still mad they didn't save shmi #p3

[nerdyerror]

A couple of sad obis

#poor obi wan #obi wan kenobi #bunny wan kenobi #the duel on mustafar #obikin #infinite sadness

[weregonnabecoolbeans]

Every time I remember that even after dying, obi-wan was most likely just as miserable as he was while alive, I die a little inside.

#he might've had some peace for a little while after ROTJ #but i just keep imagining how he must've felt watching Ben Solo become Kylo Ren #to watch this boy who was named after him make the same choices as anakin #even worse choices actually #to watch leia and luke #the kids who he dedicated the rest of his life to protecting #who he loved so much and felt so much responsibility for #to watch them have to suffer the same pain and guilt that he suffered #it must have really broken his heart #it breaks mine thinking about it #especially after seeing the lively carefree optimistic ten year old leia in the Kenobi series #compared to the broken obi wan in the kenobi series #it hurts knowing she'll grow up to feel the same pain #obi wan kenobi #leia organa #luke skywalker #anakin skywalker #darth vader #ben solo #kylo ren #star wars #infinite sadness #star wars prequels #star wars original trilogy #star wars sequals #obi wan kenobi series #kenobi #kate's post

[clairexleon]

It’s been a year, and we still haven’t forgotten that Leon and Claire are owed their dinner together Capcom :)

#still crying #cleon #claire x leon #leon x claire #we can make it happen I believe in us LMAO 😭 #claire redfield #leon s kennedy #leon scott kennedy #leon kennedy #resident evil #resident evil infinite darkness #biohazard #biohazard infinite darkness #infinite darkness #re infinite darkness #help 😀 #infinite sadness

[fandomlover18star]

THIS SCENE HURT TOO MUCH 😭😭😭

#infinite sadness #tragedy #look at him #i want to hug him #this upsets me #why are they like this #pain #im just 🥺🥺🥺 #CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP #bungou stray dogs season 4 #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd s4 #bsd season 4 #bsd spoilers #mushitarou bsd #mushitaro oguri #mushitarou #oguri mushitarou #bsd mushitaro

[blackborderlinekitty]

i started this for him. he is gone, for a while now…i was beside myself with guilt, love, despair, anger and not being able to let go… now i’m at peace with him in my heart and feeling privileged to have known and loved him…i got used to tears in my eyes whenever i think of him…and after all this time, i think of him at least once a day. but it’s comforting because i know it was, it is, real. at the time i literally lost my mind, i wouldn’t wish it to anyone…draconian pain that doesn’t go away..pain that drives a person crazy.. now, i accept my crazy, i am thankful for this experience that made me look harder and deeper into my little bleeding heart.. i shall remember him until my dying breath.

#relationship #feelings #honesty #memories #infinite sadness #alone #missing #ash #cats #distance

[mywitchcultblr]

#star wars #anakin skywalker #darth vader #obi wan kenobi #obiwan kenobi show #halston #sad #infinite sadness

[captaingondolin]

filed under: things I’ll never recover from

#gondolin watches kenobi #infinite sadness #the ANGST #delicious #my tag #obi wan kenobi #the team

[ocd-kenobi]

I will never stop thinking about the particular way Obi-Wan deals with grief :)))

#infinite self hatred #infinite sadness #jedi apprentice #the uncertain path #ocd things #him #death and the maiden (obi wan kenobi)

[nomeoriginaledainserire]

This. This frame breaks me.

Obi-Wan Kenobi, High General of the Grand Army of the Republic, a Jedi. Not just any Jedi, a Jedi Master. And this frame right here contains everything.

They bleed, they fight as soldiers and not peacekeepers, they wear armor, they can’t save everyone, they die.

Even the most powerful individuals in the galaxy stand helpless before the great monster of War.

Also it is also sadder if you think about Obi-Wan’s mission on Mandalore, securing the Duchess and her Neutral policies and ideals. But this is Mandalore now. This is where he fails again. This is where he stands, with the weight of the galaxy on his shoulders. The Negotiator has no words. He just witnesses the consequences of what he feels like his failure, condemning himself yet again for every stroke of ill-fortune.

#obi wan kenobi #infinite sadness #clone wars #mandalore #star wars

[des8pudels8kern]

The fact that tumblr suggests the tag obi wan kenobi when I use the tag infinite sadness is both heartbreaking and hilarious.

#infinite sadness #obi wan kenobi