#im bLABBERING TOO MUCH !

[tubbytarchia]

btw if anyone can ever script or program a plugin to hide Tumblr notes on posts (and not notification notes) I will draw you something real cool or something. I'll pay you a 50, I'll send you estonian candy in post

Seriously though god, I wish social medias had functions to hide numbers. It'd probably be bad for them so obvs they wouldnt do that but man. It'd make these sites so much easier to use for people like me. I would feel at peace, safe... everyone can live in imagined equality in my head. There would be no envy in my heart and no overwhelming of the soul

#and I do mean numbers. period #just hide them all unless I specifically wanna click and look at them you know #I know there's that one note erasure script but you have to activate it manually on posts... #Way too much of the time I let envy stop me from enjoying people's works or liking them as people and that's shitty!! Im doing my best thou #it would just be... so much easier... were it not for these pesky numbers #blabber

[seiwas]

conversations on love #3 (gojo x reader) lil snippet sneakpeak!

Print photos aren’t as important anymore when cloud storage spaces are just as–if not more–accessible, but Gojo is admittedly sentimental despite every front he puts up to hide it. 

He’s kept every single gift you’ve given him and camouflaged it as decoration in his office, and the family drawing 10-year-old Tsumiki made is still folded between the pages of a self-help book Yaga gave him when he first decided to teach. 

When every moment is experienced so vividly, seen through a muddle of infinite energies, there are those he wishes could stay still—ones that take up space to remind him: ‘this is real, it happened, and because of it your life is irrevocably changed’.

For the longest time, Gojo has kept a photo hidden, locked away in the drawer by his bedside as if keeping it there means the memory will stay guarded forever—untouched, unspoiled, unruined.

It becomes clearer to him then, by the look in your eyes and remembrance soft-spoken, that what good is a photo unseen? 

What good is a love unwitnessed?

#my lil gift for those waiting patiently for col 3 ! #i am sorry this will take a while ! but i am trying to write it with utmost care :') #<- this only means im being rlly choosy with everyth abt it HAHAH #this is also a mishmash of lines ! so there are stuff in between them that r in the full fic #but just didnt want to include here bc i didnt wanna spoil too much ! #so if it sounds a bit disjointed ?? thats probs why #🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 #ok that is all now im SHY ! #this fic will be dedicated to niku and dilly who are so supportive ! cheering me on !! #and to sera for slight teen-dad gojo and cruel summer influences :'----) #also there is a kind of jump from 'tell me about love' to col 3 #so gojo goes thru a bit of development HABSHF #so he can feel really different in this one compared to 'do you believe in love?' and 'tell me about love' #but that's d whole POINT ! i think #my intention for the entire conversations of love coll. is to see varying reflections/perspectives of love as gojo experiences it over time #im bLABBERING TOO MUCH ! #shotorus.process #col tag #u can also try to guess what the photo is #but writing it broke my heart #HAHHAHAHAHAH

[noisemastter]

stimming isnt enough anymore i need to kill him

#cucumber quest #em. these r both. kinda old. but i dont really think theyre that bad. i could do better now but #i should draw him more often!!! #i say after only drawing him for a week straight #tumblr is scary im sorry #i hate the layout on here irs so much scarier then twitter #FUCK I FORGOT PEOPLE ACTUALLY LOOK AT THIS TAG #i think. its a little too late to delete this all isnt ir??? #hey would you guys believe me if i said ive been hyperfixated on him for. #checks list. #a little over a year now. and i still dont know how to draw him??? #you probably would actually. nvm #shivers in fear #yk i dont actually know why i think people on tumblr r scary. most of the people ive met are really nice!!! #actually maybe its because a lot of people on here are adults and im really self conscious about my art #i should stop blabbering sorry

[acidsaladd]

ok guys im doing a tiny mutant mayhem animation thingy and im debating abt the ending so,, help me decide (without spoiling u too much or at all rlly)

#both are nice and fit with the idea #but i dunnooooo #ill ask my friend also to see what she thinks #when i started i honestly didnt think abt this too much #but now i had the sillier idea and im like #hmmm which to choose #blabbering #tmnt

[the-monkey-ruler]

I’m so soft how wukong, bajie, and wujin really feel like brothers. Sanzang is like the dad friend but sometimes I feel like wukong sees them as equals too. Their dynamic is hard to pin down.

THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER A LOT OKAY! I know people always judge them at first glance BUT THEY HAVE EACH OTHER BACKS!

I know it’s hard to pin down how they feel about each other because they have gone through a lot and have been shits to one another on more than one occasion at the same point it’s kind of that “everyone pointing fingers at everyone” until they realize that all in the same boat.

Like sure none of them find the journey a walk in the park let alone a vacation. It’s hard work.. and it’s EIGHTY-ONE trials!! They are here because it starts off as coworkers to get back to their previous positions. Bajie and Wujing and BaiLong want to get back to their high positions, Wukong wants to get out of the mountain, and Sanzang is wanting to focus only on the mission. It a mutual cooperation where they just have to be civil to one another at LEAST and bear with each at MOST.

But that isn’t the case. They bicker, the complain, they fuck with one another almost daily cause they are either bored and looking for a good laugh. And they could have kept that up if they didn’t start relying on one another. How with each fight and each demon they couldn’t just keep each other at arms length is they want to survive. They have to start working together. It’s always fighting for their lives and always having to be suspicious and be on edge with not knowing who can be a friend or foe. And I think it really creates a kind of, “normally I would never speak to these kinds of people, but due to circumstances I have grown to know them and care for them as I would my own limbs.” Like they have a dynamic to rely on one another and shoulder the other because while they know they can’t do this without any one of them missing they also grew to feel they don’t WANT to.

They go from strangers to coworkers to brothers in arms…

I think this is why the Three Daoist arc is one of my favorites because it has this one single moment that always sticks with me and it’s a detail I don’t get to see often and I’m just glad that it is still there after all this time.

They just genuinely enjoying each others company… they cause trouble sure eating offerings but they are doing it together.

And honestly, Sanzang is the dad friend. Another detail I always feel like people overlook is that he is actually a very cautious person and always worries if Wukong, Bajie, or Wujing have to go fight. If they enter a valley that is clearly demon-infested he’s usually the one to say it first “maybe we should go around to avoid trouble” but Wukong or Bajie would always assume they can handle it or that going around is even LONGER. Like they are gods and yes they do get caught up in mischief but in the end there is no length they would go whether it bothering heaven or breaking down hell's gates to get the assistance they need to save each other asses.

It actually reminds me of the idea of soldiers, and how that kind of comradeship is built not only through hardship, but knowing that there was something at the end of that hardship that they are fighting for. Like Wujing and Bajie experienced soldiers and Wukong a warlord they have all seen the fair show fighting but it’s in a United front that they game through each battle and overuse of constant protecting and defending and even in the quiet moments of living and enjoying each other company do they start to see each other as a family.

And Wukong and Sanzang I feel start off with really not trusting one another to even being scared or hating one another. Wukong just saw Sanzang as an obstacle in his path and tried to kill him and Sanzang didn’t trust Wukong AT ALL after seeing how he treats both humans and demons. But it’s only slowly through time that Sanzang has to realize that he was wrong all along. That people can change and Wukong is one of them, and that it isn’t fair to judge him as irredeemable just cause his first instinct is to attack first and ask questions later. And Wukong was wrong about Sanzang as well. He grew to not care about anybody weaker than him that wasn't his monkeys to care about Sanzang so much. He goes from telling Sanzang to shut up and stop crying to being the one to cry when he gets kidnapped. He throws himself in his studies so much to learn about Buddism, rivaling Sanzang himself that they talk to each other equally when it comes to the scriptures. Wukongs goals slowly change from trying to repay Sanzang to wanting to get the scriptures himself, to get the ripe fruit he wants as well. And they end up both as Buddhas in the end, another highlight of how they both came to a common conclusion, how they started at each other throats but ended in the same place with the same goal and on the same level at the end.

They really start to see each other as their family, not just cause of being disciples but cause they have those dynamics. Sanzang always worries and tries to offer advice and listen even though he doesn’t know how to help beyond that, Wukong pranks them all while still being the first to defend cause ONLY HE gets to fuck with these guys, Bajie just gives off such middle-child energy honestly always wants attention and special privileges, Wujing being the favorite but also underestimate every single time despite giving words of wisdom and encouragement, and BaiLong always there but never offers any input kind of friend. Quiet but he is appreciated.

I feel like they didn’t get along for the longest time, even years, but that they still stuck with one another through each trial made a kind of bond that can’t be just “friend” or even “comrade”.

At least that’s how I like to see it…

… fuck this is such a good story.

#anonymous #anon #anon ask #jttw #journey to the west #xiyouji #sun wukong #zhu bajie #sha wujing #tang sanzang #monk tripitaka #I love this story so much you dont understand your honor #It REALLY IS about the journey not the destination #THEY GROW AND LEARN TOGETHER AND WHILE THEY ARE NEVER PERFECT THEY ARE SUCH SOLID CHARACTERS #you aren't always going to get along with people in life but sometimes you see that they are more than what you originally thought and mayb #its been too long and you hurt them too much but you aren't the same person and they aren't either and you have to get to know this new #person all over again and it's kinda strange but also you finally get to see the best version of them after witnessing the worst #There is just something so vulnerable to think about that as well #Anyway im just blabbering about them now #ask

[laymedowntorest]

So is Tumblr now kinda openly admitting it's gonna hand over data to ai companies or???

#im confuzzled #if so idk if I'll remain on tumblr for too much longer #blabbering

[starkeysprincess]

last day of college classes are now done 🫡 just got one more week of internship & then graduation next Friday :)

#shania blabbers 🖤 #im burnt the absolute fuck out #the amount of times I’ve wanted to cry from stress is too much

[hayakawalove]

Me when my gojo fics get twice the amount of views/comments as my suguru fics

#rem talks #or any other character I’ve written #I get itt you wanna fuck Mr Strong man #I’m kidding #I want to fuck him too #so badly #I just think it’s interesting that mainstream characters get more attention #I do realize how stupid that sounds #it’s just I feel like side characters always interest me more or usually interest me more #working hard for a fics and seeing one get significantly more attention is like #maybe I should just write for that character #but writing is about what you wanna write #it’s just nice to see support #I will continue to write less popular characters like suguru and aki which sounds insane cause like #neither of them are Unpopular #it’s just a much smaller group compared to mr Prophet himself #the way this is turning to a gojo slander post #I love him so bad guys #need him viscerally #im blabbering now #maybe people will understand what I’m saying maybe they won’t

[lauriel816]

It's totally fine to blast music in your headphone when you are in the mood for doodling and it might even help when you are out of inspiration but when you are on your writing mode that song you've played in loops for the past 3hrs suddenly become the most distracting and annoying thing in the world? I call it terrorism against writers

#is it just me or can yall write with ease while listen to music #I find it impossible #I love blasting music when Im drawing so I kinda get used to having something to play in the background even when im not paying attention #but when im writing I pay too much attention to whats playing in my headphone that altogether makes writing impossible #I hate it I want music while im writing its so weird when everything s quiet #writing #personal #lauriel blabbering

[tubbytarchia]

Gonna watch Rancher POV DL again. It's my healing activity. I have nothing else to heal me. Nothing else will soothe my poorly treated Jimmy induced pain the way rancher POV does. No one gets me like the Rancher POV does

#Some Evo and early Secret Life solidwood too. And maybe some of the LimL Bad Boys. But it doesnt heal as much as rancher POV #sometimes I think about how some people vehemently hate ranchers and Im not saying anything because of all the things I say #about some other Jim ships (cough). Other than I find it really funny #because the main point of rancher hatred is just that it's not a different more preferred Jim ship #therefore Tango must die or something #blabber

[taikk0]

JUST SAYING ONCE I LEARN TO PRONOUNCE MY T'S PROPERLY ITS OVER FOR YOU BUTTNUGGETS

#IVE ALWAYS PRONOUNCED T'S WITH MY TONGUE AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO FIX IT ITS BEEN THAT WAY FOR SO LONG #BUT ONE DAY. I WILL PRONOUNCE MY T'S SO GOOD YOULL THINK IM A WHITE PERSON #WHAT SUCKS TOO IS THAT IM BILINGUAL WHILE ENGLISH IS MY FIRST LANGUAGE I SPEAK TAGALOG MOST OF THE TIME BECAUSE OF MY ENVIRONMENT SO I- #-HAVE NO PROPER WAY OF PRACTICING IT BC FILIPINOS PRONOUNCE T'S DIFFERENTLY BC OF THE LANGUAGE AND UNLESS IM IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING- #-SETTING THERES NO WAY IM GONNA BE ABLE TO PRACTICE CONSISTENTLY 💔💔 #even worse i slur over my words all the time. i have a stutter. i have VERY frequent voice cracks and when i try to suppress them i sound- #-ver odd. PLUS ADHD #idk if adhd might be one of the causes or of it gets added to the pile but dude i actually need help 💀💀 #but another problem is i dont think anyone would see the point in it #i communicate just fine its just that i have so much trouble communicating verbally (vocally?) in a way that isnt unnatural and in a way- #-that properly articulates what i want to say and how i say it. often i have so much trouble showing varied emotion to prove a point when- #-im referring or talking about something that isnt reactionary #LIKE DUDE WHY IS TALKING SO HARD 💔ALL PEOPLE CAN TALK WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH ALL PF THIS THIS SUCKS #which might be why i prefer writing what i want to say bc unlike talking the way i speak has nothing to do with it. i get given time to- #-think. and with an adhd brain writing what you want to say is so much better because typing it out involves the conscious decision to- #-type it all out and it acts as a filter #BLEFGGGH SORRY I KEEP BLABBERING ON THIS WSS SUPPPSED TO BE A SILLY LITTLE POST IDK WHY I WENT HAM IN THE TAGS #anyways umm yeah i dont like talking. i like communicating and maybe socializing tho. but not talking. does that make sense??? #there r also times where i straightup cant speak at all. i want to speak and i want to say things but my brain feels too busy or ig blank- #-but not empty and i cant form words or sentences and all i have are thoughts and feelings #anyways i think asl is neat and i want to learn it not just for my benefit but also for accessibility #also filipino sign language if im up for it #man there is something wrong w my brain 💀 #mikyomix rambles #yeah this one was a true ramble but only in the tags

[stormyoceans]

Listen, physical torture is horrendous on its own but that preview seems to suggest physological torture. How are we going to get the sex (consensual) from there? Dont let me down KP. Destroy him Pete!

i do wonder what's gonna be the one thing that will make their relationship finally shift into something MORE, because there has to be a turning point, for both of them, and IM SO CURIOUS to see it

i can't find the source right now, but i think i remember bible and build saying that vegas and pete will find something they're missing in each other, and while it's not hard to understand what vegas will find in pete, it's definitely harder to imagine what pete could ever find in vegas, but i feel like that for both of them is gonna be a matter of being seen and accepted and desired and loved for who they are

vegas wasn't interested in tawan's love because, ultimately, tawan never saw behind vegas' mask, but pete is different. vegas can't manipulate pete like he did tawan and porsche because, from day one, pete has always been the one person who could see vegas for who he really is, and to have someone see him and still want ALL OF HIM (the good, the bad, and the ugly) is definitely gonna play a big part in vegas falling for pete

i do think it's gonna be pretty much the same for pete, but it's harder to explain it with him because his bad and ugly parts aren't as glaringly obvious as vegas' are, but here's the thing.. his good parts are easily overlooked too. pete does have some darkness in him, but no one sees it, because no one ever really sees PETE to begin with. there's this fantastic shot in episode 5 where vegas arrives on his bike and then you have both pete and porsche in the frame, except pete is out of focus. imagine having always lived your life like that, never truly being seen, and suddenly you find yourself becoming the center of someone's undivided attention, someone that will want your darkness as much as your light. it's gonna be intoxicating for pete, though i definitely think it will take him a bit longer to come to terms with it, which is why i can very easily see him have sex with vegas and then leave to go back to the main family, because pete does already feel attracted to vegas to a certain extent and despite his better judgement, but feelings are definitely more complicated to deal with after everything he went through

one thing is certain, though, unlike SOMEONE, vegas is not gonna forget about pete once he's gone, and that will make all the difference

#..just realized i blabbered like a fool but i went off topic from what anon said #IM SORRY #but honestly i have a lot of faith in boc (maybe a little too much;;;;) so i really hope they'll COME THROUGH #vegaspete #m: ask

[paint-music-with-me]

i know tht it's technically his second tv screen role but i love how he has been casted as the "must play an asshole kind of character due to how he was raised but deep deep down he's actually a softie" in both shows like c'mon this is his fucking zone

also the fact that his hair is slicked back to really push him away from Steve "the Hair" Harrington??? omgg fucking genius

#i love this so much #did i watch fargo just for joe keery? #yes #yes i did #and?? #it was either that or rewatch free guy and spree #and i will NOT rewatch spree #so get off me #f;weoifnawef #blabber time #i am having a blast #AND IM LEARNING ABOUT THE MINNESOTEAN ACCENT #it's very . . . difficult omgg #i got the oh jeez down to a T but like. . . #ig im too western to get it down oof

[lonely--seeker]

I was so close to lowering my queque to acceptable numbers of owed artwork now it's all the way over ten slots again :(

#i wanna get it under 5 for when college starts will i ever be able to go back to those times #still thamk you so much i need money #forever thankful for the internet and people caring to commission #since im blabbering ! i actually need a new keyboard. ive been buying cheap ones and they've been lasting a year or so #but i think im ready to buy a better one if the world insist on it #and not because i still don't have 100% accuracy on the keys and i want to work on the dark #the e is just too far from the i and i don't wanna do the shortcuts again #aughhh if i could only get a new graphics tablet. I'll miss you forever I see you in my dreams girl

[daydadahlias]

sorry to disappoint you but the first fic i read from you was indeed S14, im pretty sure WB was the second one. i was hesitant to read it, bc i find that this topic is usually dealt with rather insensitively - at least in my experience

so when i read PT, i remember reading ‘It’s not his fault preacher Clifford’s son was cute and…’ but i didn’t think much of it. i kept reading the fic, then i was like… ‘wait a fucking minute’ and scrolled back up to see if i read this right. i tried to see if that fic was part of a series, i know some authors who write stories in the same universe and decided to create a series, but i couldn’t find it. then calum was talking abt ashton being high and crashing the car, then ashton saying he didn’t want the people from the town knowing they were gay bc of what happened last time and i was like omg!! it’s the WB guys!!

so yeah, bc of that, in my mind the characters were aged up. i thought the story was set in at least a couple of years after WB

i loved cashton’s dynamic sm, calum seemed to know ashton like the back of his hands, which reinforced the idea that they’ve been together for a long time. their dynamic did seem healthier

also, i felt like ashton’s personality was the one that changed the most from WB. it felt like ashton was more carefree in WB, more giggly, whereas in PT he’s quieter and more, idk, tame (?? im not an english speaker so idk if im explaining it well)

also i read the deleted fic (i don’t remember the name, sorry!!) so i know that luke became part of their relationship! i never really thought about whether or not ashton would tell him what happens but after reading your porn industry fic (i also forgot the name sorry) i imagine him wanting to tell luke, calum making sure he actually wants to tell him and not that he thinks he owes him to him. ashton does choose to tell luke in the end

also i imagine that after that, when they have sex, luke always ask if ashtons okay with what’s he doing. he obviously asked before, but in my mind it’s kinda like, yes he wanted ashton’s consent, but also he wanted to make sure he was being good, not disobeying calum and him, whereas now he asks more bc he wants to be sure ashton is a 100% okay with luke touching him, and bc ashton told him he liked it when luke asked (this came to me bc of cards are dealt by elivigar lol)

i also have a whole headcanon about michael never coming out and getting engaged to a girl bc he’s convinced he can change the way he feels about boys (this came to me while i was reading and alien blues was playing lmao) but you did not ask to get into all that

also you mentioned that you wrote PT bc you wanted to write non emo porn: i love your emo porn fics. i think they’re amazing

anyways, have a good day!!

ok here's me trying to answer this ask a 2nd time

Absolutely devastating trying to remember what I said the first time around but it was along the lines of:

That's not disappointing at all, don't be sorry!! Like I said, y'know, S14 is usually what people read from me first! It's what I'm known for. It's pretty crazy to think about a shift from S14 to WB though. That's a massive tonal change.

I understand there being hesitance to read a story like this!! It's a heavy topic that, I agree, is often times not handled with the most tact. And even though I do my best, I definitely think there's ways I can improve with my own content regarding this subject (bc I do write a decent amount of stories about it). I think a lot of people fall into the habit of writing SA as a sort of taboo which it's really not that glamorizes the trauma of victims. And so whenever I write about this subject, I try really hard not to do that. But it's definitely not an easy topic to write about!! I spent most of the writing process for WB feeling absolutely miserable sdfghjk. And I went back and forth a lot on if i actually wanted to post it or not.

I think that the characterizations from WB and PT are vastly different. Because I wrote PT first, I had a really specific cashton dynamic in it that was really just used as a sort of... comedic relief alongside some porn at the end lol and so I didn't think much about them. And then I got very interested in their backstory and went a lot more in depth in WB, obviously, and their characterizations changed A Lot, especially Ashton's. Now, considering he's 22 (I think) in WB and then 26 in PT, it makes sense that he'd be different and more mellowed out - and quieter/tame, like you said!! I also think it's a lot to do with Ashton's personality in WB being heavily influenced by his career path. He's got really big aspirations and it makes him act louder and bolder and with less care for the consequences. He's just kind of having fun, y'know, and is rather under the impression that no one can truly hurt him. He's sort of living in this disillusioned world that he can protect himself from anything because he's going to be some bigshot lawyer. And then, of course, an event like that happens and makes it so that his world view is really altered because he realizes that justice is Not on his side, and will probably never be on his side. And he doesn't want to be part of a system that can't truly save people. And I think that would definitely make sense as to why he's more withdrawn as he ages; he's found a little piece of safety and doesn't need to stray from it. And also, if you're with a guy for four years, and you have a past like that, there's probably not a lot of pressure to put on a show for him anymore. I don't know if Ashton ever started painting his nails again though. I always think that he realized drawing attention to himself was more a danger than a luxury. Because I do think there is a lot of subconscious blame that he puts on himself for what happened.

And oo, a little intertextuality !! i love intertextuality in fic it's my favorite thing ever!!! My porn fic was Portable Player!! She's my fave <33 I think i say a lot of fics are my favorite but... PP is my fave. she has my whole heart <33 And I do think that - while there will never be a requirement to share any intimate parts of yourself like that with a partner - there is a lot of safety in telling the people you love. And I also think WB Ash would tell Luke. because he would want to share that. i dont think he ever told anyone else outside of calum, to be honest. I've definitely written the scene in my head a bunch but never on paper.

and also shoutout to you for referencing my all time fave scene in an Anna fic ever. yeah, that scene Fucks Me Up. And I do think would apply to this circumstance as well.

i love hearing abt fic headcanons. It's really really nice to think about fics existing in people's minds outside of what happens on screen y'know?? like it's a real story to you. that's fucking incredible. everything I could hope for it to be. and i didn't ask but i always love hearing people talk. sometimes readers have better ideas for my own fics than i could ever have !! Also, speaking of michael, i always had in my mind, when i daydreamed about this universe, that michael would come to where Ash and Cal live now and he would See them for the first time in, like, five years. and of course calum would be a wreck (not in a bad way), y'know, and Luke wouldn't have any clue what's going on (probably a lot of "who's that? what's happening?"). so, in my mind, that was the sort of... shoe drop moment that made ashton go "I should talk to you about this because it's important for you to know." and I also just like the idea of michael & calum reuniting and seeing each other alive and healthy. and then ashton & luke sharing this moment that ofc would matter sm to Luke. because, i mean to be told something like that by a loved one really is so important and it shows such trust. and i dont think it should ever be taken for granted.

and thank you for liking my emo porn fics lol!! i do love writing them and I'm always really happy when people love reading them <33

thank you so so much for this, truly <3

#pigeon #did i blabber enough #did i blabber too much #did i blabber the perfect amount #is this #nsft #will be #anon #i hope this was all... ok to say #idk why it wouldnt be but #im always on edge abt this kind of thing lol #even though it is... my fic #always waiting for that 'isnt ur character a little fucking questionable' ask to pop back up sdfghj #thank u sm for saying all this seriously #sigh it's a real privilege to hear people talk about My fics y'know #it will never lose its impact for me #like holy shit!! you read this thing i wrote??? and you have THOUGHTS about it?? #fuck!

[cocotine]

hmm do not watch american psycho before bed

#gonna get noightmaaaares #i thought i would be fine but naurrr im gonna watch nimona now. soul bleaching lol #i love when a movie leaves me with this many THOUGHTS but this was also so FUCKED UP im like graahskdhskdhfj ahhhhcinema cinema #the way there is so much that went unsaid in this movie and yet SO much was said. god Fuck #like little things. that ur like oouuhhghghghh but the story keeps going #the scene with the apartment painted all white LIKE AAUUGHHHGHH #ok now i go watch a lighter movie bye #i have too many thoughts too disorganized hhhh #blabber