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theravenatthepodium · 2 years

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“It Was All A Dream?…”

(OOC Author’s note: This is my first angst fic ya’ll so dont judge too hard )

(OOC Author’s note: This turned out waaay longer than I thought so you guys might be here for a while. TW: abuse, self-harm, overdoes, misgendering, enbyphobia (discrimination against non binary ppl for not being male or female), yelling, cursing, hospital)

Midnight made her way over to the Ramshackle entrance.

“Are you ready?”

Midnight does not stop for an answer. They take your hand and step into the dorm.

“Grim! Grim!” Yuu calls out to their furry companion, as they run across the grassy field that was stained in blot and blood.

“Grim! Where are you?”

At this point. Yuu was on the verge of tears. The cat-like monster had overblotted and went missing after his defeat. Yuu gasped when they spotted a small grey lump sticking out from the tall blades of ruined grass. They ignored the calls of thier friends as they ran over to retrieve Grim.

“Grim! I-I though I lost you!..” Yuu sobbed as they buried thier face into the cat monster’s fur, not caring about the putrid scent of blot and blood mixed together that hit thier nose.

“Henchman-I mean Yuu!” Grim payed no mind to the blot crystal not too far from the duo, and silently cried on Yuu’s shoulder. The two sat there for a good minute in a pile of blood, tears and leftover blot and cried before the heard the sound of yelling and the rustling of dry grass being stepped on approaching them.

“Yuu! Grim! Are you guys okay?!” Deuce was the first one to arrive with Ace a few steps behind him. Sebek followed up, along with Jack and Epel.

Yuu just stood up and gave the group a shaky smile.

“Yeah, we’re okay-“

All of a sudden, Yuu felt a sharp pain travel all throughout their body and a strong headache hit them. They felt sick to their stomach.

“Yuu! Are you okay? What’s wrong?!’ Jack asked in a panic as Yuu collapsed to the ground, taking Grim with them.

“H-henchman, whats happening?” Grim looked at his closest friend in great concerned as he scampered off of them to give them some breathing space.

Yuu wasn’t listening. How could they listen when it felt as if someone was banging cymbals in both of thier ears?

Everything sounded faded out and black spots started to dance accross Yuu’s vision as thier body was hit with hot and cold pains repeatedly.

“Yuu!”

“Yuu, plea-ake-up!”

“Don’t clo-eyes, Yuu! we-you some-elp!”

Human! Do-close you-eys, ple-“

“Yuu-ake-us!”

“Yuu!”

“Yuu”

“Yuu, Yuu…”

The teen shot up in a cold sweat, trying to get a glimpse of thier current location.

“Ah, you’re awake! Somebody get the doctor!”

Yuu jumped at the sound of a femine voice. The body it belonged to ran out of the room so qickly that Yuu could only see a flash of pink before the door slammed close.

Yuu eventually calmed down and stopped to take in their surroundings. The smell of ahnd sanitizer and disinfectant hit them like a slap to the face and they could immediately tell they were in a hospital or some type of infirmary.

“But NRC is an all boys school. We is thier a girl in the infirmary?”

The sheets were as white as the walls, it matched the gown that Yuu was wearing. Although the bandages that wrapped around their arms weren’t. The once white cloth was stained in a familiar red substance.

Yuu’s attention was puled towards the sound of a door opening and closing as they looked up at the new presence in the room, half expecting to see Vil or maybe someone in thier squad, only to be met with the face of a man that they didn’t recognize.

“Ah, Mx. Yuu! You've finally awaken! You’ve been out fir quite some time”, the man-which Yuu concluded was a doctor due to had long white coat and the stethoscope that hung loosely around his neck-chuckled slightly. ”How are you feeling?”

“Where am I? Who are you? Where’s Ace, a-and Grim?” Yuu didn’t answer the doctor. Something in their stomach was telling them that they needed to get out of here. Fast.

The doctor frowned.

“It seems like the medications messed with your memory…”

That sure caught Yuu’s attention. They shot up in a sitting position and stared intensely at the man. ”What medications?”

He didn��t answer.

Yuu asked once more, though more aggressively. ”I said. WHAT. MEDICATIONS?”

Yuu was having a small panic attack, wondering what the hell this doctor gave to them while.

The doctor sighed, and explained to the smaller teen.

“You see, someone had called 911 and when we arrived, we found your body spasming out covered in unattended bruises and cuts. We ran some tests and it turned out that their was millions of different medications flowing through your system and that almost every one of your injuries were infected. We found a large chunk of glass stuck in you left foot and a stab wound dangerously close to your heart”

Yuu sat there in stunned silence. Everything came rushing back to them all at once, and it was overwhelming.

Yuu tried to calm their uneasy breathing as they slammed their bedroom door shut and locked it. The space was a complete mess, with pieces of paper and unwashed clothes littering the floor, the bed filled with empty chip bags and candy wrappers, and the lamp that once sat on their desk lay broken on the ground, shattered to pieces.

“Yuu darling! Open the door! I promise if you come out now I won’t punish you as much!” A sickly sweet voice came from the other side of the door, making Yuu jump.

“Yuu! Open this door you fucking whore! Open this fucking door goddamn it!” The voice growled as the doorknob jiggled harshly and the door shook so violently Yuu though it would be ripped off its hinges.

The noises eventually stopped, and Yuu heard the sound of footsteps leaving with the few mutters of ”ungrateful bitch” as the figure disappeared down the hallway.

“I-I can’t take this shit anymore”, Yuu whimpered as they made their way to the desk, not minding the shards of glass that got stuck in their bare foot.

Yuu pulled out a small bloodies pocketknife, a bottle filled with different unidentified pills, and some pen and paper.

Yuu was about to write a quick note on the paper when they stopped themselves and aughed dryly. ”What the hell am I doing? Its not like anyone would miss me anyways.”

They dropped the pen and paper and grabbed the pill bottle.

Yuu could remember it all too clearly.

The teen unscrewed the bottle and dumped all the contents in thier mouth. They took a swig of the water bottle that was conviently sitting on thier desk. They took the pocketknife and proceeded to make a few cuts on thier wrist that was filled with red lines both big and small, before stabbing themselves not in the chest, but very close to it.

Their vision was starting to blur from the drugs and blood loss, and it wasn’t too long before their body it the floor with a harsh thump. Yuu could faintly make out the sound of rushing footsteps and a door being broken down.

“Shit! Your sorry ass ain’t dying on me!”

Not too long after, Yuu heard sirens in the distance before blacking out.

“Mx Yuu? Is something wrong?” The doctor’s calls snapped Yuu out of their flashback.

“Doctor?…Who called 911?”

The man only smiled ”Why your mother did! She seemed so worried about you>”

Only if that man knew the impact those words had on the 16 year old that laid before him

“GOD FUCKING DAMN IT! YOU CAN’T DO ANYTHING RIGHT!” A woman towered over a whimpering Yuu who was having a full blown panic attack at this point.

“I-I’m sorry! I d-dind-t mean to it was an acci-”

SLAP

“IT”S ALWAYS AN ”ACCIDENT” WITH YOU! GO TO YOUR ROOM AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU’VE DONE WITHOUT DINNER!”

With that, Yuu bolted to their room upstairs, trying to ignore the smoky smell of the food they had burnt.

”Oh! It looks like you have a visitor. I’ll be back soon to check on your vitals.”

Before Yuu could answer, the man was walking out the room and another figure was entering. The person smiled sweetly at the doctor.

“Oh thank you for saving my baby!” The figure ”sobbed” and hugged the male tight.

“U-uh, no problem at all! Just doing my job…”The doctor awkwardly laughed. He gently pushed the person off of him before hurrying out the door and closing it,

Once he was gone, the grateful smile dropped and was replaced with a wicked grin. Yuu would’ve laughed as it reminded them of their first encounter with Ace, but stopped themselves as it was a grin they knew all too well.

Their mother.

“Oh Yuu, my precious child! Why did you try to leave me?” The taller woman brought Yuu into a rather tight hug-which felt more like a chokehold to Yuu-as she dug her long red nails into their bruised skin.

“M-mom, you’re hurting me”, Yuu winced as she pressed down on a fresh cut

Yuu’s cries were ignored as she continued on. ”Why would you try to leave your own mother, Yuu? HOW COULD YOU? ALL THESE YEARS TRYING TO RAISE YOU TO BE THE PERFECT LADY, GONE TO WASTE! YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH!”

“U-um mom, my pronouns are they/them, remember?-“

SLAP

“SHUT THE HELL UP! YOU ARE A WOMAN! NOT A MAN, AND MOST CERTAINLY NOT A NON-BINARY OR WHATEVER YOU CALL THAT SHIT”, the woman sneered at her child.

Yuu only nodded their head as they rubbed the cheeked their more had assaulted. She hit them so hard you could see the red hand mark clear as day.

“You are in SO much touble when we get home.” Yuu’s mom sent her child a sickening grin and strutted out of the room, make sure to slam the door behind her.

Once she was gone, Yuu broke out into hysterical crying.

“Ace? Deuce? Azul? Grim? If this is a prank, it isnt funny!” Yuu cried as they stumbled over to the large windoew not too far from thier bed. They imagined them and their friends having fun. Yuu imagined running thier hands through Grim’s fluffy grey fur, helping the Heartslabyul residents paint the roses red-

“Wair, why would I be painting roses red? What is Heartslabyul anyways?” Yuu slapped a hand over their mouth in shock. All of a sudden, they felt a funny sensation in their head. It easn’t necessarily painful, but it felt as if someone was pulling something out of thier brain.

Yuu shot up and quickly grabbed a black notebook and a pen. They tried to draw what they visualized but they turned out half-assed since Yuu barely remembered what everything looked like.

“Fuck fuck fuck fuck-no please! I don’t wanna forget! Please no, no, no….” Yuu burst into another crying fit as their salty tears stained the half finished drawing of the First Year Squ

“It was all a dream?…”

You feel a light tug at your hand as you look up to see Midnight staring at you.

“Did you enjoy your visit?”

Both of you stand in silence for a while.

“I really do miss Yuu….” Even though Midnight wore a mask, you can hear the solemness in her tone.

Midnight quickly fixed themself and hopped back into character.

“Lets continue on with the tour, shall we?’

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland yuu #twst angst #oc rp

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skadren · 1 year

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I keep seeing a bunch of live and let go, boundaries are personal and not moral stances posts about writing and i largely agree ppl should be able to explore what they want in fic but also. Is there a way to balance or talk about "hi um white author so you kinda reinvented racism/blood eugenics and unilaterally present sex work as inherently degrading and etc etc etc for Shipping Angst Drama fodder, when the text is like. None of that" in fandom or even just in like. A server community. Maybe I'm a bit sensitive bc i feel constructed/projected misery is kind of tacky to begin with and i wouldn't do it with a complete stranger but idk my guy. I don't want to alienate myself but it's weird to go completely uncritical here

i think there are a couple items you need to check off the list before you can go "yes talking to internet stranger #37461239 about a highly sensitive topic is a good idea"

is it tagged appropriately? if it's tagged trust me the writer knows. they have probably gotten way more unsolicited feedback than they would really like

is the portrayal you're concerned about reinforcing an unhealthy or discriminatory predominant social narrative? if it is and you think the writer is genuinely unaware, then yeah, it might be worth bringing up. the emphasis here is on predominant please i am begging on my hands and knees

will this result in a productive conversation? if the intent behind this is to get people to reconsider, it isn't helping anyone if you know it will just lead to them doubling down and doing it even worse. at that point you're only making a performative statement to validate your own stance

if it really is bothering you that much, is there a compelling reason why you can't just block and move on? it isn't your responsibility nor is it feasible to fix how a fandom is doing things, especially if it's a group of people you don't really know. your own mental health always comes first, and a bit of salty venting in private with your friends never hurts anyone

if it IS a friend or acquaintance who is doing this and you think they would be open to discussing it with nuance, then you can probably bring it up. if that person has a basic level of consideration and respect for you it tends to go well, but i've also seen people double down because they already know there's something wrong with their attitudes but get mad at you for wanting them to change, and then it creates a whole ton of drama and people get hurt and it's not pretty. so. ymmv

ultimately, someone's views on racism or sex work or whatever is reflective of a broader social norm, and fandom is not the best space to try to fix that through confrontation-- it's usually someone's "safe space" where they want to retreat from the world, not come face-to-face with any sort of personal reckonings. do i think it's a mark of privilege that some people have the luxury of ignoring these issues when they "just want to have fun"? yes, but again, this is about being able to have productive discussion, not about what's "fair". unfortunately.

my two cents: if you're in a server community or some other space that makes you uncomfortable there's really nothing wrong with going "hey, we have fundamentally different standards when it comes to [x], and i don't think i want to be here" and moving on. the best way to challenge these things is quite literally to make your own food. there's a much better chance of the people you're worried about coming across it and realizing they like it than magically being able to argue them down with well-placed logic and reasonable points or whatever

EDIT: OH ALSO IM STUPID if you mean talking about it in general. not naming writer names but trends in the fandom. yes absolutely-- not in a public space like social media but definitely find a group of people who you trust who you can talk about these things with!! it is good and healthy. just make sure it isn't just a discord server open to the public or smth tho so you personally know and trust everyone who can see it (and you don't accidentally shit talk someone who is in that space lmao)

#skadren rambles #long post #tldr; fandom is allowed to be your safe space too and you dont need to cater to anyone. or fix them. or whatever #it's less that 'people writing these things is okay' and more #starting drama is never a good look and it shits on your mental health and the internet is not a good place for nuanced discussions anyways #if you're planning to take on a whole community you will NOT be able to win i promise

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tohokuu · 2 years

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How could you let someone write about rape and let it slide??? I don’t understand how you guys feel good about writing about rape?? It’s serious concept imagine how nct feels

oh boo fuckin hoo 😍

you act like authors write about rape for fucking funsies, you big stupid buffoon.

i’ve explained time and time again that this is a dark content friendly blog and if you don’t like that, kindly leave 🙏🏼

also, i heard you were fucking 14 so why are you on ppls page reading smut anyway ? and also, there’s giant ass bold ass warnings in the fic that literally show where exactly the noncon is so why did you choose to ignore that and continue to read ?

ppl write dc for many reasons and usually, it’s because they’re also survivors. i am also a survivor. we use writing as a coping method and when something like this (writing noncon) is the last thing that helps us cope with our trauma, we do it.

as a minor, you wouldn’t get it and we honestly don’t expect you to.

regular smut is used to get off for bitches who have time to put their fingers up their pussy late at night. noncon is written so SA survivors can cope with their trauma. you’re not supposed to get off to it. that’s fuckin weird bc why are you sexualizing a nonconsensual sex scene ? this is why shit like this is reserved for adults bc none of you fucking children understand.

we don’t “feel good about writing rape.” we feel good about clearing our heads and understanding the trauma that happened to us. i know bc i used to write noncon for anime characters on my old account. i know the reasons why people write it. and i’m not anyone to call anyone else out that writes it.

literally mind your fucking business and get your head out of your ass.

you ever heard of lolita ?? just cuz vladimir nabokov wrote about an old ass man sexualizing this girl he’s known since she was young, doesn’t make vladimir nabokov a weirdo. he wrote the book. he didn’t condone the action. learn to differentiate between an artist and his work. art can be painful and noncon seems to fall into the category. if you fail to understand, get lost and quit spreading your restrictive ideology.

this is so on you. you’re the reason you’re uncomfortable and you’re taking it out on others. literally shut the fuck up and get a fucking life and get off the fuckin keyboard.

#mentions of SA #mentions of r*pe #speaking about SA trauma #mentions of noncon #hades asks {💡}

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myaoiboy · 3 months

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heyy sorry dunno if ur ok with ppl asking for advice, but ive been on the twitter mgs fandom for a little while (mostly as a watcher rather than participating other than liking, rting and occasionally commenting or posting some art) and after a while i realized (a bit too late) that quite a few people that i interacted with are aggressively anti and i dont know how to pull away from them now.

Some were mutuals, i stopped following most of them but they still follow me and im not sure if i should just ignore it or whatever. My main account is very clean when it comes to pro/anti discussion and NSFW in general, altho i do like/rt/discuss a lot of anime art and media that has some questionable content in it (like the monogatari series for example)

Anyway, im just a bit scared they might see these "cracks" and it gets to a point of agression/exclusion/doxxing etc and im a bit terrified of that. Sorry if this sounds dumb, but could i ask you what you experience with the mgs fandom is like on twitter? Have you ever been in a similar situation?

It's totally cool to ask for advice! I'm not sure how much help I'll be though.

I have a twitter that's mostly MGS-focused, but I've been building up defenses against the anti movement for a long time before that. I used to be mutuals with someone who was a really notorious asshole twitter anti, actually. I broke that when they started publicly slandering me, but before they could actually dox me, and they still followed me on side accounts for a couple years after that. I got very careful about vetting who I regularly interact with after that.

I got lucky dropping into MGS fandom, I've found a bunch of people who enjoy freaky stuff as much as I do. But I also had one of those friends get doxxed a while back over ship discourse that was spun as something much worse.

Personally, if I see a callout post and it looks fishy (only includes accusations of fic or art, etc), I will a lot of times block everyone that's retweeted or liked it. It's made me sad a couple of times to break mutuals, but I know I'm saving myself the pain later of potentially seeing them fall for it with me. This, when my friend got doxxed, ended up causing me to block like half of the twitter MGS fandom ngl.

Honestly, my secret to not accidentally making full on anti friends is that when I get into a new fandom, I look up their discourse and who antis say shouldn't be shipped together. Then I look and see who makes art/fic of those ships. If I don't like those ships specifically, I find people who ship both that and whatever I like. Usually I end up liking one or more of them anyways (solimiller...). Or I'll go through that fandom's fics with warnings on them and check out those authors' other works.

That's how I keep accidentally meeting a lot of people in fandom, it turns out. I read a fic, I look at the author's other works or their profile, it has a social media handle, or a discord link, or whatever else, next thing I know I'm talking to them and 5 more people they recommended about whatever freaky kink I found of theirs.

I do actually have a (mostly nsfw) discord link that I would share here, but given some of the weird interactions I've gotten tonight I'm gonna wait a couple days before I post it publicly. It's fandom neutral technically but a lot of us like our war boys (mgs/cod mostly). But uhhh if anybody sees this and wants in feel free to dm me/send an off-anon ask and I'll slip ya a link real quiet.

I warn people some of the heavier content that I regularly post as well, even though I don't explicitly use any discourse labels, but honestly the biggest thing is just pulling your interactions like weeds. People on the internet are, mostly, strangers. You don't like someone's vibes? You can block 'em. You see them being a dick to someone else and don't wanna risk them doing the same to you ? Definitely block. Someone makes posts you don't like and it keeps filling up the tags you frequent? You can block that!

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tonyglowheart · 3 years

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I feel like some people are so weirdly entitled about fan tls, like do they realize they're getting it for free and only because the tl wanted to share the original work?? Idk why it's so hard to be polite to them and why they feel they need to publicly want to argue with the tls over minor stuff

I do agree somewhat, I think there's a lot of reader-prioritizing attitudes surrounding fan translations. Beyond that, I also think ppl seem to... discount the amount of work and/or legal liability translators perhaps put themselves under?

But I think some ppl reading fan translations also mentally divorce themselves from infringement on their part, bc well, it's the translator's faults, if they didn't want me infringing copyright then they shouldn't have done it themselves. But that's not really how it works, you are still accessing essentially pirated works, and yes as int'l audience typically it doesn't have as muuuch a financial impact on the original creators, but when things do start getting licensed I think the, like, Japanese & KR manga/manhwa industry parallels & what you see mangaka/manhwa artists saying about pirating hurting them on twitter start coming into play.

Plus, for me, I think sometimes ppl are using MXTX's works as a generalization for all danmei, when really what I'm concerned about is the precedent that sets with EN spaces. Like sure, MXTX as one example may be able to take the hits from pirating and what not. But "smaller" authors and works won't. And I do in fact worry about precedents & building attitudes I see.

And like... idk it's just interesting/weird to me, I think that sometimes ppl try to apply fanfic author/transformative fandom etiquette where it doesn't apply (like, I think per U.S. law, translations don't actually constitute transformative works/a new copyright the way a fic would, it's still legally under the same copyright? but I'm not a lawyer so take this with a grain of salt), but then ignoring other items of fandom etiquette (esp treatment-of-authors/content creators etiquette) that I do think would apply.

My, perhaps controversial lmao, take is that I do think translators are under a different/"higher" level of standards/scrutiny than fanfic authors are, and thus their work SHOULD be open to critique or discussion. I don't mean be mean and nasty to them the way everyone was to ExR when everyone suddenly decided it was okay to, but just that translations ARE a claims towards authorial intent & interpretation in a way I think transformative fanworks aren't, you're not so much playing in a sandbox at that point as you are making claims to the authority of your interpretations. And my general take is, I think multiplicity of translation/translation-related interpretation only helps people who don't have access to the source language or aren't as familiar with the source culture, not hurts. Although I do also want to add/caveat that there is indeed an etiquette to fan translations such as not stepping on an existing translator's toes, so I'm not condoning ppl who start translating where someone else left off and posting it publicly bc they "think the translator is too slow" either.

Basically... I do think it's a complicated situation/topic when you start digging into it, as most things are, and there are lots of competing access needs at play that I think ppl need to keep in mind/mind more than I tend to see around. I think sometimes by way of countering a certain prevailing view of a time, ppl tend to go in an other opposite extreme, which I also often think isn't... quite it, either.

#asks answered #Anonymous #translation talk #I will say ppl acting like translators are trying to gatekeep them is... interesting to me #bc like a fan translator is literally doing the opposite of gatekeeping #and I do think that like. yes once you put something publicly on the internet you kind of give up the ability to control it is a truism #but I also think the way we build community in fandom is with practices of good faith & observance of etiquette #I don't think it's ridiculous for a translator to want or at least request some amount of control over their translations?#and like. yes I do think accessibility is a good concern in general. but like fan translators aren't marketing a service so they don't have #an obligation to share their translations at all to begin with/ people aren't entitled to fan translations #plus again my thing about underscoring competing access needs: one person's needs aren't unimportant. but they're also not the only ones #and often I see ppl who hold their own to the highest of priority and discount other ppl's esp if others are in conflict with their own

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tottymatsuno · 3 years

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In The Peach Pit; Saw You Fake It (Osomatsu-San: Todomatsu x Reader)

Chapter 4: Who's Kids Are These?!

Alt Title: You got games on your phone?

Author: Roro (tottytown)

Fandom: Osomatsu-san

Pairing: Todomatsu x reader

Category: Romance, technically exes? enemies to friends to lovers, coworkers, fake dating, tsundere Todomatsu, eventual bedsharing, eventual fake strangers

Rating: PG-13 (cussin)

Summary: You and Totty establish your parenting dynamic right off the ba t with a bunch of lost children.

Word count: 5800/prob 50 or 60k unedited and segmented away

Warnings: Todomatsu is still mentally ill LOL. Also sorry if u dont like or want kids i am a father who loves children so my y/n's usually do too. sorry.

commentary: trying a new opening format by leaving a lil bit of text. hope ppl like it lol. if somebody can tell me how can i upload fics w/o having to fix the automatic double space id be so grateful bc rn im spending an hour just fixing that. thank u. i refuse to use tumblr as a fic editor thank u.

Hope has failed. Ryo did have another evaluation, they determined she needed to be demoted for retraining purposes that included not only her hourly wages being sliced nearly in half but also her shifts throttled. Their reasoning for such a judgment was she didn't make customers feel welcomed enough despite being beloved by regulars. She also didn't take care of scheduling for the second shift well enough despite that never being her job because she’s the manager of the first shift. “Why are we paying you to only manage yourself and one other person? Can’t you take a pay cut?”

It was bullshit!!

A few shifts later has you and Matsuno trading stink eyes at the new managers during the morning meeting. When everyone files out of the staff room, you signal Matsuno to stay with a nod.

"Can you believe this bs?!" You harshly whisper to Matsuno after the room is empty. You forced yourself to get along with Matsuno for Ryo’s sake but now he’s the only one who will understand your plight since he spent the most time with her.

How is Ryo, the sweetest angel possible going to handle this?! She won’t lose faith in the goodness of humanity, will she?

"Yeah, I know! What the hell, why would they fire Ryoko-san?!" Matsuno whisper-yells back.

"They're trying to kill morale by getting rid of everyone we know and love so we can be the perfect capitalist workerbees!" You glare at the pamphlets for the new company motto. “That means you’ll be the only one left, Matsuno...”

"We can't let them get away with this! Why fire Ryoko-san but leave something like you on staff?" Matsuno goes as far as to rip one up and shove it's pieces in his apron muttering the second sentence underneath his breath.

"What would we even do though?" You wonder aloud, you actually really like the convenience of this job being in walking distance from home. "I don't wanna quit in protest, but I’m not charismatic enough to lead a strike either..."

"Maybe we can use these new rules to our advantage?" Matsuno suggests with a pointed look towards the previously ignored employee handbook. "There's sure to be rules in here that would be hellish to actually follow on a day to day basis but they couldn't fire us for doing what it says to the letter."

You look at Matsuno with a sinister leer, "Matsuno, I knew I could trust you to come up with an annoyingly evil scheme. What you lack in earnest charm you definitely make up in malice."

You ignore whatever the hell Matsuno said in retaliation while shooting Ryo an apologetic line message. She responds with a boatload of crying stickers and vents through a barrage of incoming emotional texts.

"Ryo...!" You sniffle in support, "Oh, Ryo! I didn't know your favorite candy line was being ended too, plus your boyfriend ate your good leftovers?! On your period as if to rub salt in your open wounds?" You rubbed your tearful eyes while reading these text messages. Maybe it’s because you know she’s so kind and was there for you in your hour of need but you really want to be a pillar for Ryo.

You send a few texts opening your heart to Ryo as well, but you make sure to let her know that you 100% love and cherish your her as your friend. You finally tell her you'll talk later after planning a friendship date outside of work. You're happy that Ryo is going to transition into a friend-friend instead of work-friend!

While being caught up in the emotional roller-coaster you don't stop for a second to see if Matsuno is still around. So it's shocking to hear him ask, "You done?" with a glance of eye contact between you and his phone. "Gimme a sec, I didn't think you'd finish crying for a while." You take a mental snapshot of Matsuno's casual posture, it's a very good image of his slightly disinterested look while leveraging half of his weight with one hand placed on a table. Like maybe a sexy librarian or professor giving a lecture? You don't know, but it's a neat pose.

"Click." You say out loud. "That one's going in the cringe comp." Memes irl can be funny sometimes, but this one is directed at your own thoughts instead of being an insult.

"What do you mean cringe comp?! I should be saying that about you!" There's Matsuno's claws. How catty. Matsuno shoves his phone into his apron before stomping off.

Well now that you think about it you really need to start work today. Everyone came in about an hour and a half earlier than usual to prep for another large event. This one is for a new but promising shounen title by that one guy who was an assistant for that other super popular dude's series. You really don't know but you'll still sell it with a smile.

In fact one of your favorite aspects of working at this bookstore is having to add little series related flares to your uniform. All the women got cute flower petal bunny ears, but the dudes are supposed to wear these really cool but extremely cheaply made neon yellow wind breakers with an intricate rose pattern and an original emblem on the breast and back.

You were jealous of the wind breaker to say the least.

In your spare time you skim the new handbook; there's a lots of rules that either conflict or as Matsuno said would be hellish to follow on a daily basis. It's clear that whoever wrote these down has never worked in a bookstore before, or even HR. Hell, some of these rules read as if they were made up arbitrarily by someone who has actually never worked a day in his life and is trying to fake sounding like he has getting by on what he kinda knows. It's pathetic.

So it's time to be obnoxiously compliant with these dumbass rules!

Every time a new manager tries to wrangle you into actually participating in preparation for this vastly busy event you remind them of daily duties that must 100% get taken care of. Who is going to call the people with back orders before 11 am if not you? Or who will do five rounds of putting misplaced books back up at least once an hour?

"Excuse me..." A little voice calls out from below when you're on round four in the cook book section. Do your ears deceive you, or is that a talking infant?

When you look down your suspicions are confirmed. "Ah, yes sir?" You ask with a few books in arm. Babies love to be treated like grown ups you've found. You’re already smiling, look at those fat cheeks. You need to give this child a free book, he looks like a The Very Hungry Catepillar sort.

"I need to go." Go?

"Home or potty?" The child starts tearing up, "Both! My mommy is lost and I need to find her after I pee! She's scared somewhere without me." You nod in sympathy, he can’t find his Mommy if he has to take a whiz.

"Okay, let's go potty first then find your mommy. I'm sure she's terrified here all by herself without you to protect her." You carefully place the stack to be dealt with later.

Right when you take the small boy's hand you hear a loud wail of another larva nearby.

"A little kid's in trouble!" You hear the tiny boy exclaim before leading him to the clearing where there stands an even smaller baby girl with one of the event balloons and bunny ears. She's trying to call out for her older sister but can't get the words out.

"Oh... Little miss, are you okay?" You ask with a slight headache forming but you have infinite patience for this kinda stressful situation. Kids are cute. You can handle this!

Your maternal instincts kick into full gear with the children in tow but after finding the 8th child lost around the boring adult sections and nowhere near the fun child friendly event on the first floor you're ready to curse some guardians out.

Who’s losing all these little kittens all over the place? Why was this one in the DIY section?!

When you finally manage to grab the 9th lost child and make it down the escalator without anyone tripping, while holding two of the tiniest ones in your arms you feel totally done for the day. Ah, there's the 10th. You manage to find the little girl's older sister who is barely any older!

"If you're lost follow me." You call while at a dragging pace with a gaggle of kids from all ages. A few of them hold hands in a baby daisy chain. There's even a twelve year old who claims he just needed to go to the bathroom but you know he’s either probably lost too or is trying to help in his own way.

So with an elementary school in tow you only have one choice which is to bother the person you know is on break. Everyone loves kids, so this might get the stick outta Matsuno's ass for once. A pitched scream scares the shit outta you for a split second and rattles your ear drums.

“C’mon now, if you’re gonna yell don’t do it so loud. There’s old people around who’s head’s will knock clean off from you breaking the sound barrier.”

Kids can be loud, huh. When you approach the cafe while the baby's take turns pulling on your hair or trying to eat it seeing Matsuno head towards the break room is a godsend.

"The potty's around that corner, Taka-kun take the boys who need to go." You direct to the twelve year old with your foot.

"I don't wanna though!" Alright.

"Eh... Wha...what's going on here? What's with all the kids?" Matsuno finally picks his jaw off the floor when you start bribing Taka-kun with the promise of a limited edition fan edition mystery box for whatever the hell MagiDigi Chronicals is.

"You drive a hard bargain, but sure you can get a cookie too." You sigh when Taka-kun goes "and a coffee!"

"Decaf only but now go!!" You gently kick after Taka-kun so tiny Nao-chan can go pee, the poor baby was just about to start the potty dance for heaven's sake. Taka-kun finally takes the other three boys around the corner. "If you make a mess the deals off!" You call out.

Matsuno is trying to also prevent the damage done by these kids but unfortunately most of them are under the age of five. "Hey wait a second! You have to pay for those!" Matsuno calls out as one of the smaller ones opens a bag of chips. Of course the other little grubby hands with no concept of money or theft join in.

"Can you do something about this -!?" Matsuno shrilly asks. You've got a handful because the two babies have now begun to alternate between pulling your hair and trying to bite your cheeks. "Please stop, I know you're not teething anymore." Too little!! You know they aren't teething anymore because when they pull your ears they try to bite them you feel teeth. It hurts like hell but goodness are these gross little demons too much!

"Why are you even still smiling?! Don't tell me you find this cute?"

You tilt your head away from the biting baby right into the blubbering cheek of the other one trying to gurgle words. "Noo, of course not." You lie. Babies are super disgusting but are incredibly cute. These two can barely waddle, how the hell did they get lost?! Shouldn't they be in a rollers?

If your upper body wasn't so used to carrying shit you could see how these less than 14 month olds could escape easily. The babies are barely walking, let alone running. Well maybe not. Their little strong legs are having so much fun kicking you in the ribs since they really want to be put down. There's the beginnings of whining too. They might need their diapers changed but your store doesn’t carry any.

"Aw... Haha, no my little ones. Let's not get fussy please, if you get fuss-fuss I'm gonna eat your lil fingies." You make one of those gentle chomping gestures back and forth to the now giggling and adorable maggots. "Yummy yummy, I love baby toes!"

You look up with a grin to see Matsuno glaring at you with the foulest look of disgust. It nearly knocks the wind outta you.

"Anyways go call their parents, I'll stay here." Get out, asshole. You're killing the vibe here. You're about to start kissing these little ones and you will not be judged for it. A few of the other children grab your attention to let you know they're hungry.

Matsuno sighs deeply before turning to dial the front office. "Everyone gets a little piece of a cookie! Understand?" You announce to the remaining kids. There's a small chorus of affirmation. How cute you think blissfully.

"It's too early to have a whole cookie, the sugar will make your gross lil tummies ache. You don't want a tummy ache, right?"

"But I can eat a whole cookie!" Says an older girl. "Me too!!" Joins another.

"Those cookies are too big even I can't eat a whole one because they're made for people with giant iron stomachs, but you both can have half of one, okay? A whole cookie at your size will melt your guts through your ear holes." You're more worried about how hyper these kids already are, as much as you hate their parents for losing them you can't in good conscience release them hyped up on sugar.

Both Taka-kun and Matsuno return at the same time. "Serve them snacks, Matsuno." The way you disdainfully regard Matsuno versus the children almost gives the babies whiplash.

"Why should I? Also who's going to pay for it?"

What an asshole. "Because they have been so well behaved." You answer while the children agree and whisper that you really are as nice as you seem.

"In what universe?! Besides we can't give this much away for free!" Matsuno protests.

"I'll pay. Feed the angels or else." Your threat seems to work in your popularity's favor. There's what sounds like a few high pitched cackling and your demon hoard of small children smile at Matsuno as menacingly as their cute little faces can conjure. So adorable!! You should become a gang leader!

After every had an age appropriate sized cup of juice, a small portion of a cookie or cupcake and were seemingly satisfied save for Taka-kun who smugly sipped a decaf iced coffee with a whole cookie to himself the guardians all finally gathered to pick up their children.

The grandparents of one of the babies came to grab her first which is not nice. You’re not ready yet! You couldn't help but defensively turn away despite the baby cooing happily at her grandma with reaching hands. The baby even gets out the words 'hi gramma' it's too cute, you won't hand her over!

"Y/n, give the baby back." Matsuno tells you clearly exasperated. "I was going to, shut up." While you're distracted the other baby is plucked from your arms. You swivel to see who betrayed you. It's a very young looking couple smothering the baby boy's fat little cheeks. The baby girl is also taken from you during this moment of hurt.

"Ah, thank you so much!" The grandmother gives you a knowing look. "You seem to be fond of kids."

“Yeah, babies are so gross and ugly.” You tell her with a huge grin. You love them.

"You should have your own before it's too late."

"Haha, no. Yuck." You laugh a bit awkwardly, "I'm not ready for that yet." You don't know how you'd handle the parasite phase of the infant's unborn life, let alone the blowouts and spittle period. Around a year old is when they reach their minimum level of being tolerable.

"I see." The grandma smiles at you while the baby waves bye bye.

There's a lot of commotion with some parents scolding or crying since their poor baby got lost at an event that was supposed to be fun! Management offers them deals on future purchases for their troubles and promise the event will be organized better despite this really not being the store's fault. The event was supposed to just be starting but all of these kids got lost on the second floor before it even began.

There's a few smiling waves from the kids, a couple shouts of bye but some of them are too distracted by their parents to say anything to you. You stand there with a dumb smile while waving back. Most of them are going to the event so that's fun.

"Taka-kun, that guy can get you the mystery box." You point out the stout manager who's name you don't remember. "Thanks, see you then." Taka-kun leaves to pester that tubby bald guy.

A moment of peace. Just one. That's all you're allowed before Matsuno tugs on your already abused ear. "Ew, why's it wet?!"

"They were at that shark age of babyhood." You say fondly. Matsuno rudely untucks your shirt to wipe his fingers on it. "I literally have no clue what that's supposed to mean." To be honest you don't even notice your shirt.

"Too young to speak so they have to communicate and learn with their small mouths. Basically they like to bite like how sharks do."

Matsuno sighs before turning to the mess that is now the cafe. "So two things are about to happen here." He says harshly.

"They were all so liiittle." You mumble not really in response. "So itty bitty, just absolutely pocket sized. I should have eaten one for dinner."

"Shut up weirdo and listen! First of all you're going to pay for those snacks, and then you're gonna help me clean this shit up before people start coming from that stupid event."

"Alright, thanks for going easy on me." You do a small salute. After paying for the eight cookies, the five bottles of juice, a couple bags of chips and one decaf coffee your wallet is a little lighter but it's okay! The smiles of sweet baby demonspawn are priceless to you.

Each time Matsuno punched in a button on the register he smacked his lips at you in annoyance.

It isn't until you're handed a broom that Matsuno finally tells you how upset he actually is. "I like kids too, but you really fucked me over with bringing them here." He half whines-half grumbles.

"Couldn't you have taken them straight to the office or something? This was my valuable break time!" Matsuno does sound very sympathetic right now as he scrubs off the dried juice from the tables.

"Some of them needed to pee." You say simply while dusting up the many spilled chips.

"There's a bathroom by the customer service area, it's like you just wanted to ruin my day!"

You think for a moment before attempting reply again. "You think so?" You guess you could see it that way, but kids are so cute.

"Why else would you bring a million brats into here when I was supposed to take my break?!" Matsuno begins to pick up the cups and bottles of juice along with the stray cookie stained napkins that littered the floor.

Hmmm. You had a reason but now it feels silly to say out loud. "I guess I thought you might wanna help them with me? I thought you might like seeing them. Plus I really wanted someone else to see how cute and polite they were. They were soo well behaved, weren't they?"

Matsuno sighs when you are finally done sweeping and switch to mopping the sticky floors. "You must really like kids."

You mod dreamily, "One of my life goals is to be a wicked stepmother. Cinderella style."

"Give that up then." Matsuno spits out rudely. "You'll spoil her until she's ugly inside and out."

You gasp, "No I wouldn't! I would be a great evil stepmom!" You have a plan and system you'd follow.

"Yeah? I just saw otherwise. You have no backbone when it comes to cute stuff at all. In fact you're all talk and no action." Matsuno is so rude.

"Okay, well that's just not true. I have a lotta evil schemes to ruin my step kids lives." Matsuno snorts at your confidence.

"Like what?"

Like what?! "I'm gonna bite them!" You say triumphantly, "Yeah while they're babies. Gonna yum-yum on their widdle toes or whatever. Gross." Matsuno instantly sees through you.

"I'll call them embarrassing nicknames and tease them in front of their friends."

"Like what, baby? Cutie pie? That's just being affectionate." You glare at him.

"Well, I'll hold their hand when crossing the street even though they can do it by themselves!" Matsuno sighs.

"That's being affectionate and responsible."

"I'll pack their lunch with a bunch of vegetables and only ONE snack."

"With a note saying how much you love them, too? Once again just affectionate and responsible."

You are losing this battle quickly. "I'll hug them everyday!"

"Are you giving up? That's just being a loving mother!"

"And kiss their cheeks too." You add, grumbling. "And we can go out to lunch at the park on weekends, and I can help them with their homework and we can do chores around the house together and if they're very good I'll get them a puppy."

"Those are all just being a loving mother, dumbass! Where's the wicked part supposed to come from?!" Matsuno shouts and you feel just an iota of silly.

"My household rules will be strict. An allowance should be earned by doing chores and not just freely given." This makes Matsuno flinch.

"Th... That actually is evil. Don't do that. Kids need money too, they shouldn't have to earn it."

Aha!

"And they should help cook dinners when they're old enough! I want my kids to take over the gross chores when I get older so I won't have to anymore. Like taking out the trash and scrubbing the toilet. After age twelve I never want to wash a dish again in my life."

Watching Matsuno recoil from you like the first time you met is very satisfying.

"That's going too far! Being a kid is stressful enough without having to do housework too. Think of the kids, they have their own lives too live!"

You blink at him, "Someone has to do it though. You don't have your mom still cleaning up after you at this age so why shouldn't you start teaching them when they're kids?"

Studying Matsuno's face changing when you said his mother doesn't clean up after him anymore is a struggle. "You don't still... Do you?" You ask with disgust.

"Hahaha! My break is over, let's finish this conversation later! You still have a while before yours right? I’ll make you a latte on the house! So yeah, see you then." Matsuno all but physically boots you out of the cafe.

You kinda take it easy despite the event. Your bunny ears have long been knocked off by babies, and you still wanna wear the windbreaker. Matsuno's looked really cool up close too.

For a brief second you and Matsuno were publicly thanked in front of the crowd for rounding up the many lost kids. After that you went on to follow more of the stupid rules to an obnoxious point. Then you were on the register pretty much until the end of the day.

You wanted to eat and take your break, but it seems like the kids who stayed all wanted to be checked out in your line. Lots of babbling of summaries from the event even though most of it is too nonsensical to follow. You animatedly try to keep up as their guardians thank you for your patience. After they were served, the lines became full of adults and older teens who bought a buncha limited edition merch.

It's always a bit awkward having to listen to guys info dump about a new series for the first time, but thankfully it comes in handy after hearing the same information over and over. It makes the discussions you are mandated to partake in go by faster as you check them out. It's also fun when housewives come in and do the same thing because you get to see which hotties are getting popular.

At the end of the shift you're called into the staff room where Matsuno is also waiting. Matsuno has a strangely fake smile but his eyes are aggressively staring down the new store manager.

"Ah! There you are, zansu. Me was just telling Osomatsu-kun how thankful Akatsuka Reads is for your help finding the brats - me means precious angels during today's event, zansu." This guy has a funny voice. He's a real character. Big overbite too.

"I'm Todomatsu." Matsuno corrects with an even darker glare.

"It doesn't matter, you're all the same." The manager says. Huh. Wonder what that means.

"So anyways, me was thinking of a way to thank you both! How about a coupon for free oden, zansu?" Right as you were taking your coupon, Matsuno starts shouting.

"Why would I want that, Iyami?! I can eat at Chibita's any time!"

"Can't you be more professional like her, Osomatsu?" Iyami tch's disparagingly at Matsuno.

"Yeah, be grateful." You add in teasingly with a playful grin. "Osomaru?" You look back up at Iyami who nods that you got it close enough.

"Osotaro." You repeat even more incorrectly than before with a fun impish smirk.

"I'm Todomatsu - also you don't get to join in! You don't even know this guy so take my side!"

"Where's the stall located at?" You ignore Matsuno to look at the handwritten coupon, it expires very quickly and only includes one serving of oden and no drinks.

"Me can show you after this, zansu." The way Iyami offers that creeps you out thoroughly. He even tries to get in your personal space which isn't a good thing. After stepping back around fifty feet you look over at Matsuno with a look that might not outrightly beg for assistance but hopefully he understands from the amount of time you've worked together.

Matsuno glares at you before nodding. "Alright, I'll go too."

"You're not invited, zansu." Iyami starts shooing Matsuno off.

"Oh, that's too bad then. Matsuno and I had agreed to get food after this since we both missed our breaks. Let's go, Matsuno." Yes, the perfect out! You lie amazingly convincing, so now your weird manager doesn't know you're avoiding going out with him. Matsuno childishly sticks his tongue out at Iyami as you walk away. He even tries to grab your arm for a second to make Iyami jealous but you hip bump nearly to the floor.

You grab your shit from your locker while Matsuno does the same. You both exchange looks before exiting the store.

When you break into a jog you hear Matsuno scream wait behind you which causes you to stop in your tracks.

"That wasn't a we make a run for it look, that was a play it cool look!! Jeeze, it's like you don't know anything!" Matsuno shouts while running to catch up. "Why are you so fast anyways?! Shouldn't you be training for the Olympics?"

"Ah, sorry Matsuno. I'm not fluent in telepathy yet." You're a bit distracted by how fucking cool that cheap piece of shit windbreaker looks in natural lighting.

When Matsuno catches back up he notices you staring him down. "Ugh, gross. Stop staring at my body." He even attempts to cover himself up.

"I wasn't, I just really want that." You could beat him up for it. You bet he's the type who might not actually call the police if you bully him.

"Want what?!"

"Your jacket." When you say this, Matsuno looks down at the windbreaker. "Oh, this? Yeah, here take it. This is more Jyushimatsu-niisan's style anyways. I would've preferred it in pink."

Your eyes sparkle, "You mean it?"

"Yeah, I only wore it at work. It's really badly made so don't expect it to last." Matsuno takes off the jacket and hands it to you. You're a bit suspicious because it's probably gonna give you a headache knowing how Matsuno drenches himself in perfume.

You sniff it just to be sure which causes Matsuno to scream." Wh-what are you doing?! Why are you smelling it?!"

You keep rotating it around to examine if there's any offensive odors or alcohol scents. Instead there's the smell of cheap plastic fabric and a light baby powder like freshness to it. This won't give you a headache. You smile before putting it on.

"Uggh... That was so weird... What's wrong with you...?" Matsuno's shivering like he's really creeped out by your actions.

"Y'know I thought it was because I went noseblind to your foul stench, but you don't stink anymore. You actually smell good now, great job." You give him a thumbs up of approval.

Something about your words makes Matsuno's cheeks light up. "Hehe, you think? I changed to Powdered Daydream by - wait! I mean of course I don't stink! I've never smelled bad to begin with!"

You wait for Matsuno to finish, "So what now?" Because you are hungry. Like super hungry. "I'm going home." Matsuno says defiantly.

"Okay, cool." You unfortunately have to still drop off Matsuno. A few weeks back you realized if you left him by himself to get home Matsuno would get hopelessly lost around the third street turn. He doesn't even have your line or number so he just yelled at you that he could've died the next day. You get the feeling he's the type of person who in high school would get lost on a route he went on twice a day for all three years if he weren't holding someone's hand. A child basically.

This is awkward, you think walking super slowly so Matsuno could keep up. He's still pouting which is normal but usually there would be at least something to argue about.

There's gotta be something to talk about at the very least, right? You think back to work today, there has to be something to go over but a lot happened and you don't really know where to start. You kinda wish you could have seen Daisuke today but he was pretty much hosting the entire event.

"So about work?" You start off, please have a jumping off point. Matsuno, please understand you can't stand weird dead air.

"I can't believe our new managers! Did you know that from now on I literally have to - with each drink, mind you try to get the customers to sign up for a rewards card? It doesn't even offer actual rewards by the way! You get nothing for having it other than a keychain! Imagine having to explain all fucking day, 'no you don't get a free coffee or any discounts. The reward is us selling your data and this shitty clearly cheaply mass produced keychain. Enjoy.' with a smile?! I want to kill myself every time!"

Matsuno's animated rant makes you laugh a little. "Dude that sucks. My new thing is I'm not supposed to give out discounts or accept returns without another guy's code. Then they get upset at me for not having said code and making him come over. Also I'm apparently underselling the books worth by taking the discounts they put out online in the newsletter?"

Matsuno glares straight ahead,"You should start pretending that the register is malfunctioning and let code guy do cashiering for you. Or say you don't know how."

"I don't think that'd work. Also remember this landmark." You say pointing at a recycling bin.

"What landmark?" Matsuno asks. "That one." You wiggle your finger, "The blue thingy."

"The recycling?" You nod.

"That one is always overfilled so if you see it you know you only have to take a left at the second block over and then walk til you see the fat cat sticker on the car bumper. After the fat cat you go straight til you see the wind chimes and then you're at the station."

Matsuno stares at you slackjawed. "What?"

"Those the directions to get to F station. Don't worry, I'll point them out as we go so you can remember them later." Your contacts are a bit itchy, plus you kinda wanted that oden but you won't chance running into Iyami. You'll drop Matsuno off then eat.

"Uh. Okay, thanks?"

Oh yeah, Matsuno seemed very familiar with that guy. You should be nosy and ask about it.

"So you must know Iyami pretty well outside of work?"

Matsuno grits his teeth, "Don't ask me that."

You won't press then.

"He's a shitty hobo bum who's always trying to ruin my life! It's a tie between him and my bastard older brothers who make life a living hell everyday! It's like I'll never obtain happiness being associated with such vile monsters but I just can't escape them either! Everywhere I go one of them finds me and fucks everything up."

So even though you did not press further here you are three minutes deep into a vent session. You kinda didn't sign up for this rant. "That sucks." You say again, maybe you'll hit him with another damn that's crazy next.

"It does suck!! Iyami got us hired at a sweatshop and it was the worst experience of my life!"

"Damn, that's crazy." You have no clue what the fuck Matsuno is talking about. "How many brothers do you have anyways?" Let's just be polite.

"Five! Five horrible older brothers! Well, actually four since Jyushimatsu-niisan is usually decent. The other ones are all garbage!"

You nod in agreement, "Yeah I'm sure they're the worst." When you say this Matsuno looks at you with stars in his eyes, "You agree?!"

"Yeah, I mean if someone as awful as you thinks these guys are bad they must be intolerable for normal people."

The stars burn out one by one. You wonder why since you tried to make it obvious that you were joking.

"Was that too dry of delivery?" You ask.

You get the silent treatment the rest of the walk to the station with Matsuno ignoring your landmarks. He doesn't look up from his phone again until he's out of sight.

#matsuno todomatsu x reader #totty x reader #todomatsu/reader #osomatsu san #osomatsu san x reader #unedited again bc my baby is about to come home and i dont have the time #roros fics #todomatsu x reader #todomatsu matsuno x reader #peachpit fic #ppf c4

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aegonbeingfakeisracist · 4 years

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You know what I would love? If Daeron’a classification of the Dornish ended up being total bullshit and he just based his ideas off of the 7 dornishmen he actually interacted with. Like, he met like 1 dayne, 2 Martells, a few Qorgoyles and some other Dornish people and he was like “ahh, I see, you have different features because you’re all different races completely and that’s just permanent” when in reality, the Daynes of that generation were fair haired and the Martells were olive skinned. And looks just tend to change with generations because unlike the targs, Dornish ppl don’t marry their siblings.

Also, I hate that some of fandom takes a complete outsider who brutalized and dehumanized the Dornish as the authority on their ethnicity. Like, maybe we should wait to hear what the actual Dornish people think?

asdfghjkl I love that - Daeron’s entire explanation of everything to do with Dorne was off because he didn’t take into account that other people aren’t creepy incest children.

You get me. This is a tangent, sorry, but a while ago, the topic of that generation and how the idea of a Myriah Daena conflict is so much more interesting than the Blackfyre rebellions as they are in canon came up - I don’t quite remember the context - and something someone said made me start writing a fic about Daeron II/Myriah, but where Myriah was married to Daeron I in a sort of Orys Argella situation except not at all romanticized. My intention was for it to be this multichaptered piece centring on Myriah, including both her growing reluctant affection for Daeron II and her natural inclination to like Daena warring with her wariness because of Daena’s Targaryen name and affection for her brother. And the thing is, I think this is a very interesting concept that could potentially make a very interesting fic. Despite that, I have not made much headway. The reason for that is because the premise requires Myriah to suffer at the hands of the person that brutalized her people! If I were to ever finish this fic, it would be a fic about Myriah from Myriah’s perspective. But I still struggle with writing it because by necessity, it has to include this outsider’s perspective on the Dornish. So I find it so frustrating that fandom upholds Daeron as the ultimate authority. They’re not just not waiting to hear what actual Dornish people think, they’re outright ignoring them - otherwise they’d know that no Dornish character ever thinks of these categories. Archibald Yronwood uses the word “us” to describe the Dornish in general. The Dornish have a cultural unity!

#books-laughter-love #replies

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theharellan · 4 years

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm. tagged by: stolen from @dansiere tagging: @ghiassan, @deathsreflection, @altuspavus, @windrunnerrs (velanna), @hopewrought, @willbeshot, @seahaloed (iron bull), @asterfed (noctis), @ anyone who wants to steal it! also multis feel free to choose a different character

My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated (i’m open to roleplaying with non-dragon age characters, and have AUs for other fandoms)

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO. solas is both wildly popular and wildly hated. he’s been more consistently popular than the controversial women in the series, like sera or vivienne, who have only recently begun to get to the point where their tags are less vitriolic (although i’m sure it’s still out there), but there’s still a sizable hatedom that can’t have his name breathed in their vicinity w/o them talking abt how much they hate him. even if you’re currently cosplaying him!

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK. again, you have ppl who are super into him and ppl who think he’s ugly. my personal opinion is that i think he’s weirdly pretty, and wish ppl would commit more to his unconventional features rather than try to chisel him into sb more traditionally attractive and that ppl who don’t find him attractive would maybe chill w/ calling him ugly. find him unattractive by all means, but lets embrace the fact that inquisition let their love interests have skin flaws etc and accept that some won’t be our cups of tea.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK. its hard to deny at this point tbh.

Are they underrated? YES / NO / IDK. frustrating as the hate in the tags he has enough fans that i couldnt say he’s underrated w/ a straight face.

Were they relevant for the main story? YES / NO. he’s the reason the game starts with a bang and not the inevitable dissolution of the conclave b/c the sides are disparate.

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG. regardless of solas’ relationship with the inquisitor, there are parallels and contrasts in their stories and he also is the reason they survive inquisition.

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO. fen’harel is well-known and revered, if feared, among the dalish, yet at the same time he’s not remembered for a lot besides locking the gods away-- and the context of that decision has also been lost. as solas he’s relatively unknown until inquisition and especially trespasser.

How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. again, polarising!! he has loyal agents and people are willing to speak well of him despite everything, including his enemies sometimes (depending mostly on the inquisitor).

How strictly do you follow canon? — generally i try to have a canon basis for my interpretation, even if i interpret the text differently than the author.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals. — solas is an immortal who is simultaneously jaded and very much invested in the small moments of life. far from being weary of the day-to-day lives of ordinary people, it is systems and orders he is most tired of. he walks an interesting line that feels far less misanthropic than other immortal characters i’ve experienced, yet still he’s quite cynical. as a character who has fought against religious based tyranny before, but in a completely different era, he is in a unique position where what he sees around him is both horrifyingly familiar and yet completely new. it allows an exploration of the wrongs of thedas’ society from an outsider’s perspective. his motivations are complex and multifaceted, often condemnable and yet also understandable. his character arc in inquisition (if befriended, or regardless in the case of my solas) takes him from a dispassionate, disconnected antagonist to someone deeply invested in the people of thedas, deeply conflicted and actively hoping he will be proven wrong again. i think his story is a testament to human (or elven, or dwarven, or-) connection and how even when we resist we can’t resist creating bonds with the people in our lives. i personally see this bond going beyond the inquisitor hence why i play low-approval solas as conflicted as high-approval, if not when it comes to the inquisitor.

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?). — solas is selfish and motivated solely by revenge, he’s clinging to a past that clearly no longer exists, if you ignore all the people from it who are still alive. he’s totally unaware of all his flaws and never owns up to any mistakes ever. no, i haven’t listened to a single word solas has said in my life why do you ask. he’s also critical of my faves which means he’s #cancelled, there is clearly no validity to what he’s saying. ksjdf no but in all seriousness i think a lot of reasons ppl don’t find solas interesting are just... weird readings of his character that sometimes have no basis in the text of inquisition, but also there are plenty of perfectly valid reasons to not find him interesting. usually those ppl don’t like... talk abt how much they don’t find him interesting constantly tho. they just chill and aren’t invested in this particular villain. for one thing i think the game missed out on opportunities for exploring how someone who may not have even had a body at the beginning of his existence would feel about gender and sexuality, so making him presumably straight and cis was a boring choice. i also think that the dragon age games being very protagonist-centric hurts solas’ character, there’s no real reason why the inquisitor is the only one who can throw his plans into question but making the player the center of the universe means he’s not allowed to change due to the effects of other companions or NPCs. thank god this is rp and i do what i want.

What inspired you to rp your muse? — i have a history degree so when the inquisition companions were being teased, solas describing bias in primary sources from the memories he’s seen got me interested in him. but my first playthrough i didn’t actually take him with me all too often, i think my main party was dorian-blackwall-varric. i liked him, and i think he or dorian were my first friends in skyhold, but my initial interest was in other characters. between his dialogue that appealed to the historian in me tho and how his spirit opinions sort of turned everything i’d felt about spirits in the last two games on its head, i started vibing with him more the farther i went in. like merrill set me up for the “spirits are people” thing and solas hit it out of the park. then temple of mythal happened, and i did bring solas with me there. i found his dialogue fascinating and also suspicious, i’d just finished masked empire like the day before da:i came out so i definitely thought solas was an ancient elf in the same vein as felassan. it was after temple of mythal that i actually decided to make his blog, although like as one idk linchpin to cement my status as solas trash... i was hit BAD by the banter bug on my first playthrough, probably got like a dozen banters total. but then at some point late in the game i took solas to the forbidden oasis and he wouldn’t stop talking to people, and i really loved his banter with the rest of my party at the time.

What keeps your inspiration going? — replaying inquisition, new DA content when the bioware gods deign to grant us a lifeline, but the biggest thing is my rp partners. i wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for the people i write with, new and old. my activity of late hasn’t been the best, work and the summer heat has really been sapping me of energy, and does even during years when we aren’t going through a pandemic. but it’s the thought of my rp partners and love of solas that keeps me coming back.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO? i have my doubts sometimes, but i think i do ok.

Do you frequently write headcanons? YES / NO / SORT OF? there is no headcanon too small for me.

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO. but not lately * gestures to the low activity * i’ve been in this cycle where i get anxious abt late replies, so prioritise them, then burn myself out and can’t write the fics i want. i’ve had two i’ve been DYING to write tho i just... need to find the space in my brain to let myself.

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO. i mean it depends on the day. if i work closing shifts at my store it gets very quiet and boring around 8:30 so i spent the next 90 minutes thinking about character stuff.

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / SORT OF?

Are you confident in your writing? YES / NO / SOMETIMES.

Are you a sensitive person? YES / NO / SORTA.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal? — i’m going to say ‘no’ because like, i don’t ask for criticism. this is a hobby based on my interpretation of a character, if you think i write solas too soft then you’re welcome to think that, but i’m happy with the balance i’ve struck with his internal versus external behaviour and how he changes based upon who he’s speaking to. if you think i’m erasing straight people by making solas pan then ksjdfs. ok.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character? — yes!!! even if they retread ground already trodden, a) my interpretation may have adjusted since the last time i played or b) a reminder is nice. if it’s new stuff then it’s fun to think about.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why? — it’d depend on why they disagree. if they just disagree on a subjective opinion about what i took from a certain line, then they’re welcome to their opinion but i don’t necessarily care to hear it. if it is unintentionally hurtful then i would like to know. although rather than a comment i’d rather a non-anonymous message.

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it? — same as the above.

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it? — if they’re vocal about it i typically just unfollow / softblock if i was following in the first place. people can feel how they want about solas, but i’ve found over the years that if people really hate solas ooc it can often bleed into their ic interactions. it’s really weird seeing your character being brought up repeatedly in threads with others specifically to dunk on, for no reason other than i guess solas is living rent free in their heads, so at least we have that in common. but anyway unfollowing is just the best choice to avoid getting kinda pressed if i’m having a bad day.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors? — roleplay is the wild west of writing, so i think it’d depend on what the error was. coming at me like “you shouldn’t start a sentence with a preposition” would get a laugh, but i don’t edit my replies much if at all and mistakes will 100% happen. pointing out typos is chill so long as you do it politely.

Do you think you are easy going as a mun? — it depends! i’ve learned that being too easy going actually just means i’m subjecting myself to negative emotions to please people. so i’ve gotten less easy going as the years go by. how does one define “easy going” anyway? does asking that question mean i am objectively not easy going? the longer this thought goes on the more the answer seems to be “probably not,” but i like to think it could be a lot worse.

#( long post )#( ooc )#( about me )

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prettylittlebrownskingyal · 5 years

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More Than They Say ✨

Request: Hi! I was wondering if you could do a fic with damian x reader where ppl at gotham academy are making fun of the reader for her race and damian steps in and reveals he is half arab??? This might be a little strange, sorry if it makes you uncomfortable!

Note: I don't know how I feel about posting this yet, if it disappears know that i got skittish and took it down. Racism is quite a sensitive topic and my experiences have been far better than that of many other people of color. I've kept this quite mild, so mostly everything's in between the lines but still, feel free to correct me or give feedback. (Also i need to stop naming all my questionable male characters Chad. What's wrong with me?)

“You know that right?”

His lips curls over the words like they’re poison, and he’s perfectly happy to swallow the bitter taste of ignorance if it means you get torn down in the process. Oblivious, Chad continues his tangent, “You’re only here because Gotham Academy has a diversity quota to fill.”

Now, there’s two things you can do in this situation; (1.) You can take it up with the deen, report his behaviour and go through the whole process of having him be slapped on the wrist for blatant racism that’ll be tacked on as “boys being boys.”

Or (2.) You can punch Chad in face.

You can’t actually do that, you can fantasize about it, sure. But you could never do that.

The situation isn’t so dire that you need to bring in authority. But Chad also isn’t a guy who’s comfortable enough in his masculinity to compromise with you.

You could- as a third option-offer him an explanation of how him mirroring his father’s attitudes towards people of colour is attached to an archaic rhetoric and he should really start questioning the morals of the people he was raised by.

Or (4.), and this is what you settle on because confrontation goes well in your mind but then dies at your mouth, you walk away. Chad and his friends snicker, unaffected by the mental anguish they’ve caused. You did what you were taught to do, turned the other cheek and clamped your mouth shut.

Gotham Academy offered you a spot. They extended an invitation to you. Sure, they may have a diversity quota to fill, but Gotham’s elite isn’t short of successful ethnically and racially diverse families. You had to earn your place, and you did just that.

Still, even if you worked twice as hard as those snooty brats you would only get half as far.

That was the reality you had to live with. That was the world—

“Why did you let him get away with that?”

Damian Wayne was a boy that stuck to the shadows. He was strange—for someone who’s dad was one of the richest men in the world, someone who had a near genius IQ, someone who moved with quick reflexes that lead you to believe he’d be a killer athlete—for someone with all the makings of a popular kid. He was tucked into a little alcove under a wide window, bookbag near his feet and sketch pad laid out on his lap.

“You let him walk all over you. And for what? Aren’t you on the debate team? I’m sure you could have handled that.”

“How do you know I’m on the debate team?” you ask, affronted.

He rolls his eyes, flipping the sketch pad closed. “That’s what you got from that.”

“I’m sorry, I’m not in the mood to argue with entitled brats right now.”

You whip around, with a little more conviction than before, already making a plan to find a quiet secluded corner and drown yourself in home work. You don’t notice he’s next to you until, he speaks again.

“I know you’re on the debate team because you’re their star player. You bring home all those trophies in the hall over there,” he says, struggling to manage his sketch pad and bookbag as he makes a point. “You’re also one of the top students in our year. You beat me in calculus every term.”

“Thanks for that update, Wayne. What do you actually want?”

“I’m trying to tell you that you’re a thousand times as smart as Chad could ever hope to be. You know that, so why let him get away with what he does?”

Here’s another brat telling you something you already know. Another spoiled boy who thinks he has the right to lay his opinion everywhere because the world will allow it. Just one more-

“Look Y/n, do you want me to go to the dean with you?”

“No.” You close your eyes and force the anger down. “That’s not going to solve anything.”

“You don’t know that-”

“Let me finish.” He snaps his mouth shut, eyes going alert. He places his full attention on you, and you’re a little shaken by the impossible intensity of it. “Guys like Chad are always going to exist in the world as long as the system,” you draw a finger in a circle to encapsulate the concept. “Is flawed. No matter what I do, it’ll come back and bite me in the ass right now. So he can have this win. I’ll be better off in the long run.”

“No.”

With that he lets his things fall to the floor, turning on his heel and striding away, brisk with purpose.

“What do you mean no?”

You’re left stunned and confused, torn between wanting to secure his things and wanting to follow him. God, would you ever understand these upper class brats?

“Damian!” you call again, deciding to run after him, skidding on tiles as you do. “What did you mean?”

He keeps walking, slower this time. You can see where he’s headed now, he’s letting you put it together yourself.

He creeps into Chad’s vision like a lion. He’s silent and dangerous and you can see the group of rich boys at the end of the hallway shrivel into themselves at his looming presence.

“What was exactly that you said to my friend over there?”

Despite the fact that Damian literally points at you— which is great, if you didn’t feel like being swallowed by the earth before, this really solidified it— Chad cocks his head, eyes squinting in confusion. He has an inch on Damian, but the other boy is too still in way that tells you Chad should be intimidated.

“Listen Wayne, you’re a smart dude. Some people-,” he snickers at this, “Just need to go back to where they came from. They don’t belong here.”

You’re close enough to see Damian’s spine go even more rigid. You could lay a hand on his shoulder, tell him to let it go. Tell him that you’ve heard worse and you will hear worse and this isn’t worth getting suspended over. Except he surprises you, and just like Chad and his cronies your left with an unhinged jaw.

“Did you know that I’m not from here? That my name is really Damian Al Ghul. That my first language is arabic. Did you know that Chad?”

“No dude.”

“No,” he echoes. “Should I go back to my country? Or should I just go home and have my father call your own? Withdraw all the business Wayne industries has with you all. We certainly don’t want to be investing in racist scum.”

“I’m not a racist!” Chad spits. “All I said was they don’t belong here. I’m not wrong.”

“You are.” Damian grits a low laugh. It happens before you can process it, one second he’s talking; the next, Chad is on the floor with a bloodied nose. “You’re not a racist Chad. You're just an echo of your father. Expect a call from us later.”

He collects you in open palms as he walks away, steering you back to other end of the hall.

“You alright?”

“You’re going to get in trouble.”

“I’m not. You are right about one thing, the system is flawed. But that doesn’t mean you should be afraid of trying to change it.”

He picks his bag up off the floor and, for the first time probably ever, offers you a charming smile that makes your stomach do a happy little flip despite the absurdity of the situation.

“I hope you didn’t do that expecting me to fall at your feet in thanks.”

“No. I wouldn’t like you as much if I thought it would.”

#damian wayne x reader #damian al ghul #damian wayne imagine #damian wayne x y/n #damian wayne x you #lilbrowngyal writes

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ectoplasmbender · 5 years

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(Posting this cuz I can't reply with this blog) @captain-james-t-gay

Older fics were way different! I think fandom in general has evolved a lot since the early/mid 2000s. For the phandom, DP fics used to skew a lot angstier and there was more of an emphasis on shipping. No one really fights anymore about "grey ghost vs amethyst ocean" or whatever, even if ppl still have a preference. Back in the day, a phic (esp multi-chapter) was pretty much guaranteed to ship Danny with someone. In tandem with the shipping craze, there was more misogyny too with people either writing for 1 character (e.i. Sam) very charitably but then demonizing the "competition" on an almost absurd level (e.i. Valerie, or Paulina). And vice versa. This particular misogyny within shipping often bled into flat out racism against the latter two especially which I'm so glad is less frequent. I still see Paulina get written really horribly on occasion, but it's not near gratuitous as it used to be.

OCs were a lot more common I think, or at least self-inserts were. Edgy Danny with a costume redesign, or massively overpowered to the point of being borderline god-like was more common. Danny was often aged and sexed up, tended to be more suave and mysterious. People seemed to be less willing to criticize the show in earlier fics, so fics didn't ignore or avoid Phantom Planet as much. Major characters were killed off a lot more, multi-chapter was definitely the trend more so than oneshots. While I don't remember too much body horror beyond dissection fics, violence and gore were commom. Interestingly tho, a lot of earlier fics avoid swearing- even the violent ones lol.

Mmm also the authors seemed to largely be straight girls, whereas now the phandom is largely lgbt and probably more diverse in gender as well. So gay ships from back in the day tended to be more...well to put it bluntly fetishy and predatory whereas now the lgbt-centered content is actually being made by lgbt writers and artists! Which means more wlw content, healthier ships, and stuff like Trans!Danny.

This all sounds pretty negative but there are many fics that I remember fondly and that make me nostalgic even if they don't all quite hold up anymore. As for recs, some the really popular writers in the phandom have been around for a long time so you can check out their early stuff, Cordria's Star Shots in particular was one of the first fics I read and it's what got me into reading fanfiction. Modern Day Ghost Girl was one that emotionally wrecked me when I was in 8th grade, but I haven't read it since so idk how it holds up. I'd honestly just pick something with a lot of reviews and enter the rabbit hole that way!!!

#answered #not technically an ask but i'm gonna tag it that way

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flyingcatstiel · 5 years

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@robotsnchicks responded to me on this post. I’m making a new post since talking in notes is very limiting. ;)

... I've realized from reading various responses to this that part of this is simply that my fandom experience is mostly in other fandoms and I am realizing that the spn fandom is quite different in some ways. I was surprised by the way challenges seem to be viewed as belonging to the mods and understanding that viewpoint goes a long way to me understanding the situation here. My fandom experience had been challenges that were seen more as belonging to the community with mods that changed but challenges that didn't, so part of my frustration was just coming from a place of not understanding this community I think. I do agree that our fandom is splintering and regret any part I had in pushing that along

You know, I think that the closest thing we’ve to community challenge is DCBB which was created by destiel writers who were frustrated with SPNJ2 Big Bang. That was a community effort. And for a longest time DCBB was the main challenge for destiel writers, plus SPNJ2 BB and SPN Reverse Bang. I know there have been things like DC Happy Endings, DC Ever After, some other destiel themed challenges but they never moved past second year. Like, there’s been a lot of challenges that went on for a year or two. I don’t know if we can say that they belonged to community tho because they all faded out. Which means that when mods left, the challenge didn’t survive. I don’t want to say that challenges belong to mods, but they really, really depend on mods. See how Harlequin challenge is being brought back now because some people wanted to do it, not because destiel community demanded it. I think Harlequin challenge exists in other fandoms as well? So, in that case we can talk how certain challenges are more a community thing since they are not tied to a certain fandom. Still, they happen only when and if there are people who want to do it. I agree that a lot of challenges survive because mods change, but, a lot of challenges also don’t survive. And if the challenge is poorly organised, participants suffer the most.

Tropefest is a bit different because it was one of the first tumblr based destiel challenges that were created by two well known fans, Jojodacrow and Museaway in 2016. IIRC, it was born out of frustration with the old, LJ based DCBB. I think the name was also their idea, there was no Tropefest in any other fandoms at that time? Unlike Big Bangs and Reverse Bangs that are main challenges in most fandoms. I’m wondering now how many angry folks now remember Jojo’s weekly Destiel roundup (2015-2016) that was specifically meant to promote recently posted fics, long and short, popular authors and newbies. Like, Jojo has gone above and beyond to promote new destiel authors. And then created a challenge geared towards more experienced authors. So yes, in this case we can say that this one, recent and small challenge belongs to them until they decide to invite new mods. Or not invite new mods. After all, there’s no riot in 2018 when they skipped doing it while fandom was having a gamut of new challenges springing up like mushrooms after rain. I see people arguing about elitism and keeping out writers but, there’s 48 fics (17+31) in Tropefest 2016 & 2017 collections when folks applied without invitations. That’s hardly a major fandom challenge. I feel for people who were seriously planning to participate in Tropefest this year, but again. This is not the only challenge.

So, what shocked me about this backlash is that people really ignored the core problem, harassment, and completely missed the nuance - Tropefest is not the main fandom challenge, that’s DCBB. If the mods would have proposed these kind of changes to DCBB, we would be having completely different conversation. It is possible that this outburst has it’s roots in general frustration with feedback in fandom. There’s a lot of talks about how Likes, Reblogs, Kudos and Comments are down, how fanwork creators feel discouraged to create new stuff. So, I see how this frustration could aim out towards people who suddenly took away one opportunity at getting a promo. I see it, but that doesn't mean that this outburst was directed at the right target IMO. The problem is much bigger, and basically yea, destiel fandom is shrinking and splintering, fans read less fic, talk less about fic, fans move to other fandoms. Fans went on blocking spree and now, even if they do promote something, half of the time people can’t reblog it. I think it is pretty telling that a year after DFF became archive, there’s still no other big, reader oriented fic rec blog. We can talk all we want about how things will always happen in fandom because someone will always do it, but that’s not true. Now, all main destiel fic promo sites are modded by fic writers. Which is great, but you gotta admit that fan involvement is down.

I may sound real sore about this topic, but I’ve experienced this a lot as a DFF mod - the moment mods are behind an URL that doesn't look like a private blog, we are regarded as fandom employees. Suddenly we are turned into some kind of outsiders who are expected to service fandom and accept all demands. And somewhere with this sense of entitlement comes the idea that mods really don’t matter. That everyone can be a mod and the challenge or the fic rec blog will keep producing the same content no matter who is behind the URL. So, we have this strange situation when people want to enjoy the quality content they have come to expect from destielfanfic (or Tropefest), but somehow they think that mods are easily replaceable. I can’t tell you how much it hurt to see a post calling for DFF mod change after we posted our post 12x23 Castiel post which was interpreted as destiel hate. The OP literally said that DFF is an important fandom hub, but those pesky mods should leave and let other ppl to continue the blog. I feel that the same thing happened to jojo now, Now matter how much time and effort she has devoted to promoting destiel writers, it doesn’t matter because she did this one tiny thing to make life easier for her. This mentality that puts fandom above an individual completely ignores the fact that there’s no fandom without individuals. Fandom is a voluntary place. We are here, or we move to another place.

#tropefest #fandom drama oranges #robotsnchicks #thank you for giving me chance to talk about challenges #i'm actually curious about your other fandom experiences?#like there are challenges that go on for many years #while regularly changing mods?#i can see how BB and reverse bangs can survive #since those are regarded as fandom challanges #and someone always will step up to mod them #i don't think it is true for smaller challenges #even now #about fandom #my fandom history #destielfanfic #flyingcatstiel has thoughts

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