#if i were to be any other kind of lesbian it would be rue from euphoria 1000000%. she is my exact gender

[mrsmarlasinger]

Cis femme she/her lesbian but in a stoner dudebro frat boy loser kind of way

#does this make sense #like yeah i wear a shit ton of jewelry and makeup and i like dresses and have long-ass hair and my favorite color is pink but #i lowkey get gender euphoria from wearing men's clothes and cologne and acting specifically like some loser dude #like smacking my partner's ass and drinking beer and talking all ''fuuuck dude. sheeeeyit'' like i just hit a joint. lmfaoo #sometimes i just love wearing gym shorts and a wifebeater or a big-ass ugly t-shirt and no make-up and calling myself some dude #idk why it HAS to be a loser of a man but nothing gives me gender envy like Just Some Guy smoking a cig outside a college party #with like a beer and a beanie and ripped jeans and a shitty old hoodie and he has big-ass bags under his eyes. a line cook dude #that's literally me sorry #if i were to be any other kind of lesbian it would be rue from euphoria 1000000%. she is my exact gender #oh and kurt cobain also gives me gender envy lmao #personal #gender #gender identity #lesbian #butch #femme #wlw #adventures in gender

[m0tel6mxzzy]

a nuanced essay on maddy/cassie + nate ig

i wish the girls in euphoria didn’t have their trauma compared. maddy’s trauma from nate’s abuse, as well as the hurt she feels from cassie secretly dating nate while complacently letting maddy confide about wanting to get back together with him is valid. the emotional abuse nate put cassie through in a similar but equally as calculated manner as he did toward maddy to coerce her into staying with him, the trauma of her abortion and shame she feels abt mckay being a reminder of it is also valid.

i feel the nuances of rue/jules were resolved but not so much cassie and maddy. i’m sorry but nate is such a lackluster character made solely to traumatize any girl in the show at a moment’s notice, including rue herself while much less frequent. still rue (even at her worst) felt this sort of camaraderie with maddy (although at the time this was a diversion tactic toward she intervention) to say “hey nate’s kind of fucked up and i know you care about him.” never judging maddy or jules for their feelings toward nate, not even cassie (debatable) but rather how nate is often used as a catalyst to hurt others.

(it is also interesting bc rue seemingly constructs cassie and jules to be these similar romantics at heart she sympathizes with, that is until jules narcs on her (which was the right fucking thing to do idk why she gets hate for that) and bc rue can no longer see jules as this living allegory of her addiction that can be substituted with drugs [comparing jules to fentanyl] and until she finds out cassie’s been w/ nate which contradicts her association w maddy and nate being the well known school couple, and assumes her relationship with nate, being as they were in a secluded location, was a means to secretly hurt maddy. this also reminds her of the fact she felt cheated on by jules w/ anna despite at the time neither rue/jules confirming a relationship, and again by jules w/ elliot even tho while yes she did cheat (jules is a lesbian who no longer cares abt male validation so the jules/elliot kiss was unnecessary) rue had no physical proof of that.)

and rue being an unreliable narrator, she is going to make it appear as if cassie had full agency in her relationship with nate despite not knowing the full story herself considering her 2x05 situation, but i doubt maddy, seeing as she had a much clearer head and was processing moving on from nate—would not develop this sort of nuance herself despite the confusion or (as much emotional labor as that requires) consider that possibly nate was already coercing and manipulating her, not just when cassie revealed he broke up with her. a part of her has to be incredibly scared knowing the torment she was put through and that her best friend, who has otherwise been incredibly loyal to her, is now being subject to the same. had cassie explained nate’s manipulation, much of this could have been mended slowly but surely even if they were never friends the same way again. maddy would receive closure, and cassie would be encouraged to get out of her relationship with nate and spot the signs that she is being abused.

it really is a shame maddy is left thinking cassie 100% deliberately went out w nate to hurt maddy based on cassies actions after the relationship was revealed, and maddy knowing nothing about the forced secrecy and manipulation he put on cassie initially. so much so cassie was unable to communicate this to maddy, and maddy was then able to take this as it being an attempt to hurt her especially considering her flaunting nate in her face despite knowing of his abuse of her in the past.

and 80% of this issue comes from how messily cassie was characterized for the sake of some climatic scenes that further are used to both say “look how deep male validation sabotages you” and “let’s not actually critique it but instead have maddy/cassie fight and none of the abuse nate subjected cassie to be addressed. let’s have cassie enter her glamorous carrie white era despite none of that being productive to her character growth or discerning whether and what feelings she’s actually processing.”

everything could’ve gone so much better had it not been turned into cassie constantly making excuses for hiding the relationship from maddy but also wanting her forgiveness despite not making an effort to even listen to her. and i do believe cassie, the social butterfly and conversationalist she is, is not so scared of maddy that she’s afraid of being confronted with honesty when she’s hurt someone with her actions. maddy is incredibly emotionally articulate, and to have her first get physical with cassie for again, the sake of drama, and cassie have zero self awareness and be put in her “villain era” shows an incredibly lack of nuance for their how these characters’ environments and situations as a whole developed them.

it’s completely out of character for them both, and it is such a shame the maddy/cassie/nate dilemma became that, and not maddy roghtfully being upset with cassie for lying but also cassie being able to reconcile with her and be given the opportunity maddy’s wanted her to explain her side, and how manipulative nate was. they’ve both been in an abusive relationship and it was reduced to a girl on girl cat fight.

#tw abuse mention #maddy perez #cassie howard #nate jacobs #euphoria hbo #euphoria s2

[stanzoeywade]

Poppy x MC Tinder AU

Summary: based off that one tumblr post about a girl who never experienced an orgasm and their friend hooks them up with their lesbian friend. aka, the au that no one asked for.

in which Veronica and Chloe find out that Poppy's never experienced an orgasm and they decide to help her out by creating a tinder account for her, cue MC finding her account and shenanigans happen.

Warnings: swear words maybe some smut but nothing too graphic. (OWO)

If anyone wants to be added to taglist please reply. As always these are only my headcanons so enjoy my take on that tinder au anon asked @somewillwin about. Your brain anon omg.

Taglist: @somewillwin @belvoiresqueenbee @origmansello @clownery-is-a-new-personality @kamilahtrash @poppysminion @poppysimp @captain-hanadeleine @poppysmc @iiizdumb @uselesslesbianfr @scattered-to-the-winds @idiot-justidiot @toyhenoctus

First of all this discussion happens one night where Poppy, Chloe and Veronica get their asses drunk at a frat party. Believe or not the top 3 girls of Belvoire actually care about each other, they just have a really weird way of showing it.

A heart to heart talk starts and the three of them start to confess things that they would never talk about when sober. Cue Poppy saying "I've never experienced an orgasm in my whole life."

Chloe and Veronica just look at Poppy shocked and their jaws drop. Veronica just looks at Poppy with a weird look of pity, whilst Chloe just stares.

After realising what she said Poppy quickly sobers up and clams her mouth shut. "What do you mean you've never had an orgasm before?!" Veronica all but yells. "Gee V, couldn't you have said that any louder, I don't think the whole school heard you." Poppy replies sarcastically.

Veronica just rolls her eyes and says "Girl, you're not getting out of this convo that easily. Now spill the tea sis." Chloe and Veronica look at Poppy expectantly, waiting for her to elaborate. Poppy just sighs and looks away cheeks flushed, as if embarrassed.

The two don't stop pestering her, so Poppy has no choice but to raise her hands in mock surrender. "Fine, I'll tell you" she says as her eyes narrow dangerously. "But if you tell anyone about this, I will actually erase the both of you from planet earth."

Poppy begins to explain that none of her exes made her feel good, and that whenever she had sex with any of them she always had to fake it, so much so that she's started to find sex boring.

Veronica and Chloe share a look and nod at each other. The both of them say "We're gonna set up a tinder account for you to find a good lay (basically the british version of saying good fuck), because that's just pretty fucking sad. Why didn't you tell us sooner, like bruhhh??."

Poppy just looks away and says "Its not like I can just go up to you guys and say 'I've never orgasmed before'". The two just nod their head in understanding before taking Poppy's phone and installing tinder.

They spend some time taking and choosing the best photos for Poppy to use on her tinder profile. (If anyone has seen Euphoria, you know that scene where Rue helps Jules take nudes, it's like that but PG-13) Considering that the three of them were pretty drunk, it was surprising to see how well it turned out.

Feeling sleepy, both Veronica and Chloe retreat back to their room, and Poppy just feels so tired that she falls asleep as soon as the other girls leave.

Waking up the next morning Poppy wakes up to the sound of her phone beeping numerous times and annoyed by the constant ping, she picks it up to see that almost all the notifications were from tinder.

Poppy is confused because wtf? When did she download tinder??? And then it hits her like a truck, 'Oh shit, we were all drunk as fuck last night, I thought that was some bizarre lucid dream but I actually have a tinder account. Fuck.' - she thinks to herself, embarrassed that Veronica and Chloe know her secret.

She sees a few messages from the group chat. Veronica sent her a message. "Poppy, istg if you delete tinder after all the time we spent making your profile look cute, I will post the ugliest picture I have of you on my insta." it reads. What surprised her is that Chloe actually backs Veronica up by saying "Yeah Poppy, it took our three collective brain cells to curate that account so you better use it."

Poppy giggles a little amused by her friends' reaction and she messages them back by saying "Fine, but if it doesn't work out you guys have to pay for my next shopping spree." Chloe and Veronica just agrees albeit unwillingly, but they know not to argue back.

Poppy decides to check the messages and matches that she got on tinder, disappointed but not surprised, most messages say "Send nudes" or a nude pic is attached to their messages. Poppy just rolls her eyes as she immediately unmatches them.

You were looking on tinder for your latest hook-up with no strings attached because ewww commitment and no one really caught your eye, except Poppy. Imagine your surprise when you find Poppy's profile on tinder, deciding that it was a troll account you decide to message them saying "Wow, of all the people you could choose to pretend to be, you choose the HBIC of Belvoire. Stop trying to catfish people, that's just shitty."

Poppy shocked at the sudden message that she gets from you scoffs and replies back "I'm not pretending to be anyone, Farmsville, in case you didn't know even I'm allowed to use tinder."

You just roll your eyes and text back "If you really are Poppy Min-Sinclair, prove it. I might hate Poppy's guts but trying to ruin her reputation by doing shit like this isn't funny."

This catches Poppy's attention, and suddenly she's curious. 'Why would she even stand up for me?' she can't help but wonder.

Poppy screenshots your conversation and sends it to Chloe and Veronica who have vastly different reactions. Veronica's response compiles of this emoji 👀, and the words "Farmsville likes girls, we been knew." and Chloe's response is more of a "WTF, I thought she was dating that Zoey girl."

The girls tell her that it would be fun to mess with you, and they tell her that she should prove that the profile is hers. Veronica also messages her privately saying "girl, her bio legit says 'not looking for commitment' this is like your chance to sleep with her and if you don't, I will." Poppy just grunts in annoyance and decides that fine, she supposed that you were attractive enough for a hook-up.

When you don't get a reply within the next ten minutes you scoff and roll your eyes. 'Damn, people really stoop so low huh.' - you think to yourself. There's a slight disappointment that crosses your mind once the account stopped replying to your messages. You were kind of hoping that it was the real Poppy after all.

Against her better judgement (gay denial right here folks, you're the first to see it), she decides to take a selfie and sends it to you.

Right as you're about to unmatch to what most likely seems to be a fake account, you're surprised to see a message from Poppy's supposed account. It was a selfie of Poppy, where instead of her usual pink fur coat, she's wearing something casual, and to be fair it's a really nice mirror selfie. (This is what I imagine) (I still stand by my headcanon of Poppy looking like Chungha but I couldn't find a good photo lolol)

Doubting that it's really Poppy, you decide to check your socials to see if she's uploaded any new images, and so far you haven't found anything. However you're nothing if not stubborn. You ask if she could prove that she's real and not some weirdo.

Poppy just rolls her eyes annoyed that she's being questioned, as a last ditch effort to gain your trust she sends another selfie, which is a bit more revealing than the last and once you see it your brain stops functioning.

Regaining your composure, you message her saying "I thought you had a boyfriend? What the fuck?" The only response you get is a reaction gif of some girl rolling their eyes. Being the little shit you are you decide to annoy her by sending selfies back, each photo more provocative than the last.

Poppy amused by the photos decides to get you back and it becomes a game of one-upping each other to see who takes better thirst traps. This continues on for an entire week (It's such a stupid competion and both of you know but you're both competitive af so yeah.) until Poppy snaps and contacts you using her actual phone number instead of the app.

Poppy's already frustrated and she's annoyed because she can't stop thinking about you and your stupidly hot, gorgeous body - oh my god I'm going insane she thinks to herself. She decides enough is enough and messages you. "FUCK YOU FARMSVILLE! BACK DOWN ALREADY!"

You wouldn't be yourself if you didn't have a sassy comeback ready so you reply with "FUCK ME YOURSELF YOU COWARD!" sending her yet another thirst trap, this one more revealing than the others.

Poppy snaps when she sees the message and she's quick to make a reservation to her favourite hotel in NYC, because as if she'd be seen taking you to her room. She gets the biggest room because she's extra like that and she knows she deserves the best.

The only response you get is a pinned location on the map, aptly captioned, "Meet me here Farmsville and I'll make you eat your words."

Still feeling feisty you reply with "Is that a threat or is that a promise? 😘😜" and Poppy just tells you to hurry up.

This is a really stupid idea - you think to yourself. You can't help but be suspicious of Poppy wanting to meet up, after all she can use this information against you. However none of that matters to your lust riddled brain, considering the last hook-up you've had was with Professor Kingsley and that was quite some time ago and you're really horny for some action.

You quickly dress in your best underwear, and choose something fashionable yet casual to wear because let's face it even if you hate Poppy, you don't want to look like a loser if you're gonna hook up.

Once you get there, you quickly make your way to the designated room that Poppy told you to go to. Knocking on the door, you're lowkey expecting Belvoire students to berate you, but once the door opens all you can see is Poppy.

Poppy is dressed in nothing but her underwear as she pulls you into the room. Feeling a bit awkward, you decide to break the ice by saying "I lowkey expected this to be some weird plan where you embarass me in front of your clique."

Poppy just looks at you and she scoffs as she says "As much as I hate you Farmsville, even I wouldn't stoop that low. Plus it's a crime to share nudes without a person's permission." You just look at her in disbelief jaw dropping as you take all of her in. I mean if you thought she looked good in the photos, then damn seeing it in real life was a different experience entirely

She notices that you're staring and she just flashes you a smirk and says "See something you like?" and all you want to do is wipe the smirk off her perfect face.

Stepping closer to Poppy, you make the first move and kiss her roughly, each kiss longer than the last and you can feel your heart pound as your nervousness dissipates and all you can focus on is the smell of Poppy's perfume and how it drives you wild. As well as how soft her skin feels against your hands and it's enough to drive you over the edge.

Poppy pulls away and you follow after her, annoyed by the fact that the kisses stopped. You can hear her pant as she struggles to breathe.

As soon as Poppy catches her breath, she says "I'm starting to feel under dressed so let's fix that shall we?" She pulls you towards the bed and she strips your clothing off, and you can't help but stare because holy shit this is actually happening. You start to wonder if you're dreaming until you feel Poppy kiss you again, this time slower and softer and you can't help the wistful sigh that escapes your lips.

You decide to take the lead until you hear Poppy say something. "Wait a minute Farmsville." You stop and listen because no matter how sexually frustrated you might be at the moment, consent is always important.

You wait patiently for her to start talking and she says "Don't make fun of me, but I've never known what an orgasm feels like." You can tell that she's flustered by the way she looks away and refuses to make eye contact.

Your eyes soften up and you kiss her gently on the neck and whisper "I guess that's something we can improve after tonight, but if you feel uncomfortable at any moment in time just tell me to stop." Surprised that you even cared about how she felt Poppy just nods her head softly at you.

"I'm gonna start touching you, okay Poppy?" you say your voice gentle, as you hope that it soothes her nerves. "Just relax and let me do the work, alright, I promise I won't hurt you." Poppy just shoots you a shy smile and your heart pounds because fuck that's the cutest fucking thing you've ever seen.

Kissing your way to her inner thighs, you can hear and feel her squirm against your touch. In order to keep her still, you place her hands on your hair and assure her that it's okay if she tugs on it. You place your hands on her hips to keep her steady as you tease and suck on her clit.

Poppy's small moans of contentment makes you want to do more, so you try extra hard because you want to hear more. You can feel Poppy's body begin to shudder and you can tell that she's close and spurred on by that you insert your fingers into her core and thrust until you can hear scream in pleasure.

You can't help but stare as her body starts to spasm and you let her grind so that she can climax again and it's the most erotic moment of your life.

Poppy feels her whole vision turn white for a moment and she feels euphoric once she realises that she came.

As soon as she regains her bearings, she turns to you, who looks very satisfied, and omg did she just see you lick her juices off your finger. That sends a wave of arousal straight to her core and she looks away embarrassed from being turned on again just a few seconds after coming.

You put your hand on her chin and turn her face towards you forcing her to make eye contact. "It's not over yet, Princess. I'm pretty sure that we can wriggle more of those out of you and the night is young." you say your voice dropping an octave.

By the time that you've finished, Poppy's mind has gone blank and she feels so tired that she doesn't think she can move. She's got to give you props though, because goddamn that was the first time she actually enjoyed sex and she actually got to cum too.

Noticing that Poppy's too tired to move, you decide to lift her up in a princess carry and surprised by your sudden action Poppy's about to protest until you just tell her to be quiet.

Placing Poppy in the bath tub, you turn on the faucet and makes sure that the water isn't too hot or cold as it fills up. After the bath has been filled you slip into the bathtub behind Poppy as you help her clean up.

'Okay now she's just being unfair, why is she being so nice.' Poppy thinks to herself. Trying to make conversation Poppy says "Why are you taking care of me, I half expected you to leave after we fucked." You rest you chin on her shoulder and say "I didn't want you to catch a cold, and besides what kind of a person would I be if I just left you on your own? I like to think of myself as a gentlewoman." You start to place soft kisses on her shoulders and Poppy just sighs wistfully, feeling at peace as she leans back against you. "Don't tell anyone but this was actually the most fun I've had. Hell I don't think any of my exes would have compared against you." Poppy says shyly.

You can't help the smile that creeps it's way to your face. "You can't say shit like that Poppy, I'm pretty sure you're gonna give me a heart attack if you act this soft." you say teasing lilt in your voice and you can hear Poppy giggle. It sounds so soft and you realise that it's a sound that you want to hear.

Your relationship as enemies with benefits start and the both of you can't really keep your hands off each other, God forbid if you're in the same room.

Intense stares from across the room that everyone assumes to be glares, but little do they know that it's your own way of communicating.

One day Poppy calls you up and tells you that you're going shopping, but in reality it was just an excuse to spend more time with you. On the way to the mall, you guys get frisky in the car and before you can stop yourself you say "Babe" and you can't help but think that you've fucked up.

Poppy doesn't say anything but she likes the new pet name and can't wait to hear you say it again.

You guys go to a high end designer store and one of the staff approaches you and says "You guys look good together." While you're quick to deny it, Poppy just thanks them, but as she hears you deny it her eyes widen and you can see her heart break in front of your eyes. Poppy runs off and you're confused.

The employee looks at you and says "I probably shouldn't say anything else today but you should go after her. It's obvious that you both like each other."

Searching the mall, you're relieved once you see Poppy sitting down on a bench, and you approach her carefully. You see that her eyes are red and you feel shitty because you're the reason why she's crying.

Poppy notices you and she's about to run off again until you catch her wrist in your hand. "Poppy please look at me." you plead and she doesn't budge as she tries to get away from your grip.

Seeing that she can't outrun you considering you're holding onto her she just sighs and looks at you. Her face is covered in tears and you use your other hand to wipe them away.

"You know after you called me babe in the car, I was so happy because I thought that it meant that we were dating, but I guess I was just another girl for you to fuck." Poppy says and your heart breaks.

"I thought that you didn't like me that way, so I quickly denied that we were dating. I do like you Poppy, but you never made it clear that we were in a relationship. Though to be fair I should have tried to clear things up too. I guess we're both idiots huh?" You say as you hold her face between your hands.

Leaning in you capture Poppy's lips and she eagerly kisses you back, happy to resolve the misunderstanding.

Unbeknownst to the both of you a Belvoire student caught everything on camera and by the next day everyone on campus knows that you guys are dating.

No one dares to say anything because uhhh POWER COUPLE and they're highly scared of Poppy killing them lol.

Long story short Poppy sees your tinder account and you compete for better thirst traps and well you start fucking and it ends up with you two dating.

Well that was long, hope you guys enjoy, don't forget to like or reblog if you like it.

#playchoices #poppy min sinclair #queen b #poppy x mc #poppydailychallenge #choices #makepoppyali2020 #queen b poppy #choices stories you play #tinder au #veronica lombardi #chloe st. james #headcanons #choices fic #i hope y'all enjoy reading #these is just my take on the Poppy tinder au that anon asked @somewillwin #squint squint #veronica x mc but its one sided bc mc is only interested in poppy

[liquidstar]

33, 52, 75, 89, 91, 92

Sorry I’m replying a bit late!! For context for other people I said that it’s okay if you just send a number with no character and I’ll answer it for the main 4 (And any others I may have something to say about) so they may be a bit shorter since its for four characters! Anyway it’s a bit long so I’ll do it under the cut so I don’t clog people’s dashes

33. What is their biggest fear? How would they react to having to face it?

Amary: The inability to live up to certain expectations, as in, failing as a queen. And the truth of the matter is she has to face failure and she has to face becoming a queen someday, but I don’t know if she could handle both at once. She needs practice with failure, and she needs to grow into her own person before she’s ready to become a queen. That’s a big part of her arc really.

Rue: I think she’s just afraid of hurting people she cares about, and with her background it makes sense, if she were to hurt someone she cared about in a major way she’d probably react by running away from it and isolating, she wouldn’t think of apologizing because she’d think she’s beyond redemption.

Aloe: This one is the easiest because it’s actually something brought to the forefront with him. He’s afraid of death, but not his own. The idea that people close to him could die at any moment is a side-effect of having a mother that goes on life threatening missions often, and it manifested in OCD issues. That being said though… He’s probably the strongest out of the main four in this regard, even if he was left broken he could piece himself back together.

Sorrel: Unlike the other three his fear is less abstract, it’s concrete and physical. He’s just afraid of his dad, he’s afraid of confronting him specifically. And unlike the other three it’s not something he has the option of not thinking about, he has to! He has to confront it daily! And obviously something like that leads to a lot of issues down the road, it’s a lot to unpack.

52. What is their body type? Are they muscular, chubby, skinny, etc?

Amary: Freshmen year Amary is like five foot nothing and super dainty, the intent is mostly to make her look like she’s taking up as little space as possible. Senior year Amary is taller, she’s less of a twig but she’s still pretty lanky.

Rue: Freshmen year Rue is short, but taller than Amary, she’s chubby and combined with her height it makes her kind of.. Stout? I’m not sure if that’s the right word or if I’m just thinking of the teapot rhyme. Unlike the rest though she doesn’t get to much taller, a couple inches maybe but by Senior year the high difference is reversed.

Aloe: Freshmen year Aloe is taller than Rue and on the chubby side but unlike Rue he’s got a bit of a more square build. Senior year Aloe is the tallest of the main four (or maybe tied with Amary), and as the only one out of the them to use an actual weapon instead of magic for combat he gains a bit of muscle too. That plus some sort of implied magic top surgery by junior year.

Sorrel: Freshmen year Sorrel is the tallest out of the main four but still pretty scrawny and scrappy looking. Senior year Sorrel only gets a couple inches taller, like Rue, and like Aloe he does look visibly stronger, taking after his sister a bit. Not as much though since his main focus is speed.

75. If given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?

Amary: A bunch of little doodles probably, none of them really all that great but she’s just trying to kill time not end up in the fantasy MoMA

Rue: Paper airplane, that was she can throw it around as much as she wants until it gets old after the 5th time

Aloe: I mean… Now is a good a time as any to do homework I guess. He’s gotta do it anyway.

Sorrel: Cover it in The S

89. What is their D&D alignment?

I’m not a pro at D&D alignments here so I’m just giving my best approximation lol

Amary: Lawful good at first until she evolves into a chaotic good by the end

Rue: Chaotic neutral at first and chaotic good by the end, really they just find a middle ground

Aloe: Lawful good but unlike Amary he stands by it (But he does go through a bit of a lawful neutral phase at some point)

Sorrel: Kind of a neutral good, I think he’s a bit of a mediator for the group in that aspect

92. Describe them as a John Mulaney gif.

I’m too lazy to get gifs so I’ll just say the quote… Also I’m skipping 91 because I cannot find good tweets… Maybe some other time u_u sorry but to make up for that ill just do the whole class for this one and Aster+Reed

Amary: I listen to everything my girlfriend says. I don’t mean she bosses me around, I just listen to everything she says because before I had a girlfriend, I never had someone who’s always standing next to me who can just point out obvious things that are happening.

Rue: I bet you part of the reason goths are so miserable is they wake up every morning and think, “Oh god, I gotta put all that shit back on. Why did I join?”

Aloe: My mommy, so shut the fuck up!

Sorrel: If you’re an adult male that sees no flaws in your father you’re an insane person.

Carnation: Just you raising your hand and being like, “I think Emily Dickinson’s a lesbian.” And they’re like, “Partial credit.”

Pine: You spend most of your day telling a robot that you’re not a robot. Think about that for two minutes and tell me you don’t want to walk into the ocean.

Geran: I’ll just keep all my emotions right here (Points to heart) and then one day, I’ll die.

Fennel: I thought it was a little too dramatic. I didn’t need the whole little brother dying thing.

Musk: It’s wrong to make fun of people, you know, but it’s so fun sometimes. 

Gallica: Hmm, we’re not so different, you and I. You have your law practice, and me, I have all these fucking markers.

Protea: I don’t know how to lightly make fun of people, I can’t be like “Oh, look at your shirt!” I have to be like “Your wife left you.”

Daisy: [Pepper]  is my best friend in the world. I give her a million kisses a day. She does not like me, and barks at me and bites me all day long.

Maggie: Everyone get outta my way, I just wanna sit here and feed my birds.

Tam: Well… you know how I’m filled with rage? (nods knowingly)

Holly: I need everybody, all day long, to like me so much.

Hyacinth: No one look at me or I’ll kill myself!

Aster: “Yeah, I don’t wanna work!” And I was like, “You know the kids don’t wanna work either” and she was like (closes eyes and slurs) “Good!” (pantomimes taking a shot)

Reed: And then, he ordered one black coffee for himself. And kept driving.

#jdphobe #answered #finn's ocs

[christinaroseandrews]

Part 3

You might want to go back and read Parts One and Two before you read this.  Or not. I’m not judging.

We have now reached the point in You Don’t Know Me where I literally gave up and just started screaming into the void. I’m going to warn you right now that this book needs a trigger warning for the following: Dubious Consent, Drug Use, Suicide, Suicide Ideation, and Unsafe Sex Practices. Needless to say this is NSFW. All of which happen in this 25% portion of the book. If you think that’s a lot... well you’re not wrong.

Last time we had an almost sex scene. Then the next day Jenna and Rue pack up their things to head back to LA when Jack suggests that if Jenna and Rue want to party, they should go to Ibiza. That’s right. Ibiza. In Spain.

Jenna and Rue think that’s a smashing idea because they haven’t learned yet that Jack is the enemy. Even though he’s done everything short of growing a mustache and cackling evilly while he twirls it. 

But that brings into focus one of Faleena Hopkins’ big problems: overstretching suspension of disbelief.

So here comes a rant. I suppose it is POSSIBLE that both Rue and Jenna flew from LA to NYC with their passports, assuming they even have them. But it’s not probable. Let’s look at the facts.

Both of them are poor and working minimum wage jobs while trying to get gigs as dancers (something that doesn’t pay much and has a high injury rate).

They had to have both traveled to NYC with their passports.

Most people, even those who have passports, use their State ID (driver’s license or ID card) to travel within the U.S. The exceptions are those whose states don’t have “rigorous” enough of ID standards.  But California is not one of them.

Passports are expensive and difficult to get. Most people, especially if they are pinching pennies to make ends meet like Rue was, won’t bother with the expense.

They BOTH had to decide “Hey, I’m bringing my passport with me!” Which considering the speed and lack of planning with the NYC trip is something that is really unlikely.

I fully admit I did search the book for Customs or Passport and didn’t get any hits. And don’t say, well they’re flying in a private plane they can bypass customs. I’m going to say, “Um, no.” After 9/11 you had better believe that loophole got plugged, assuming it was even leaking to begin with. It’s made doubly worse considering that they fly home on a commercial airliner.

Technically she didn’t do anything wrong, per se. She just expects the reader to go with it. It wouldn’t have taken much, just a quick mention - “Jenna and I grabbed our passports and headed out” - but there wasn’t even that. It’s lazy writing.

Speaking of.... Remember that foreshadowing problem in Part One?

Yep, Sean’s gay. (A later part makes that clear)

Then we get this gem:

So this book came out in 2015. Being gay isn’t the taboo it used to be. Especially not if your family is liberal (they’re known to have supported the Obama campaign). So there’s nothing really keeping Sean in the closet. There’s no indication that his family wouldn’t accept him or love him. And considering he works in the entertainment industry, he’d have a lot of support behind him.

Additionally and it needs to be fucking said...

There is nothing wrong with being a virgin.

There is nothing wrong with never having been in love.

What is wrong is the attitude toward these two things. What is wrong is the denial of who you are. What is wrong is the implication that there are only two ways a person who is gay can be, massively sexually active or completely celibate. There is just a lot wrong here.

There will be more rant later in my wrap up.

Yep... I don’t have words. Jack is an asshole. Rue is an idiot. Sean is too pure for this world, but the homophobia in this book is now becoming problematic.

She hasn’t said anything yet!  How do you know she’s Australian???!!!  Sophia is not an inherently Australian Name and like America, Australia has a pretty decent mix of nationalities. There is no blonde “Australian” look. Did you know that Rose Byrne and Rebel Wilson are Australian? That Geoffrey Rush and Errol Flynn are Australian?

They are.

It’s not like she has a map of Australia tattooed on her breasts. I’m pretty sure people would have noticed that.

Sigh...

Jack brought Sophia over in his continuing quest to fuck with Rue. And it does. Just not in the way you think. Jenna is definitely interested.

Unfortunately I was to be let down yet again.

Jenna and Sophia swap spit for a while. Then Sophia turns to Rue and asks her if she wants some Australian action. Rue accepts because she can’t say no to peer pressure.

This becomes relevant later.

The fact that Rue trusts Jack at all is frankly unbelievable at this point. There’s the whole fool me once mentality. She’s like Charlie Brown with magenta hair...

Yes Lucy is the one who is in the wrong. But if you keep giving chances to people and they keep being assholes, you need to stop giving them chances.

As for Jenna, sexiling your BFF in a strange country is a really crappy thing to do. You broke Woman-Code, girl.

On one hand, it’s pretty clear that Rue has no self-control and no common sense. On the other, it removes her agency, which is something I have issues with. Bartenders absolutely can stop serving (I have as a bartender) - in fact in some states they’re required by law to do so. But Sean isn’t the bartender. Sean’s her brother and practically a stranger (remember it’s only been 3-4 days since they first met) - he doesn’t have the right yet. Sean should have said something first before cutting her off. Talked to her. Treated her like the adult she is.

Then if she continues, it’s on her and he can step in to keep her from alcohol poisoning. Anyway, after she finishes her partying, she stumbles back upstairs to go to bed and runs into Alec who’s there with another woman, Maya. Thankfully Maya is kind of awesome and wants nothing to do with Alec, she was only there to keep Sean from flipping out. Because apparently after literally two days, Alec is obsessed with Rue and will do anything to possess her.

Think I’m wrong?

He flips out at her having a bi-curious kiss with Sophia.

On the list of things I wish I could get through romance authors’ heads, this is one of them.

The story heads into an honest to gods sex scene and I have to force my way through it. Because as I mentioned before, Rue has no alcohol tolerance and she’s been drinking. So this is literally non-consensual.  Yeah... rape is not my thing. And this, no matter how you try to package it, is rape.

From an objective level, the sex is meh. I’ve read hotter het sex written by lesbian virgins. I am not joking. The problem is that Hopkins repeats herself like crazy and skimps on the description and thoughts and feelings.

I also found this phrase;

super duper jarring. Like WTF-I’m-giggling-now jarring.

Note the percentage mark. Now while I don’t have a problem with this if there’s flirting and build up. The only build up we’ve gotten is some coitus interruptus and a whole lot of possessiveness. Technically you don’t even need to have sex in a romance. But with all of the lead up I’m starting to get annoyed. This isn’t erotica. This isn’t romance. It’s just a mess.

So I guess it depends on your definition of sex.

I know some people have issues with condom use in romance. But I happen to be of the mindset that you need to hang a lampshade on this. At least acknowledge that they’re choosing to take the chance. Or they don’t care. Something.

And considering who they are, it’s likely the latter. But this is a post-AIDS world. Condoms and birth-control should be a discussion point. Or at least acknowledged in some way. Like this: “As a dancer, Rue was on birth control. More for the lack of periods than out of any desire to prevent pregnancy, although that was a very welcome side-effect. Kids were not in the cards yet.” Just something.

The following morning -- at least I think it is... the book isn’t totally clear and I didn’t feel like rereading to make sure -- the group meets for breakfast/lunch down in the restaurant by the pool.

Jack saunters in and tosses a stack of tabloids and celebrity gossip magazines onto the table and then sits back and gloats. The headlines are cruel. Calling Rue a bastard (which she is). Her mother a whore (Which she is not!). Rue a spendthrift partying idiot (accurate). And a whole slew of names. Rue, understandably, gets upset and runs off. What is less understandable is that she jumps in the pool to escape the headlines.

While underwater she decides that it’s peaceful there and she’d just like to stay there.

So this is where I need to talk about one of my Jack of all Trades things.  I was a Red Cross Certified lifeguard. I kept my certification all through High School and College and used it to get jobs I otherwise couldn’t. We learned more than you ever wanted to know about drowning.  One of the biggies is that the human body does not want to breathe in water. It will convulse and shake to try to cough it out, which will often cause the person to breathe more in. It is not a peaceful way to die. It is violent. Painful. And I wouldn’t wish it on my enemies.

Eventually Rue drowns (the author says she changed her mind about it, but I did reread that part and if she did it must be really obscured because I sure didn’t get that impression at all).

Cut to Jack...

Sorry about the repeated usage of the word ass, I just didn’t feel like typing a 200 page rant on how Jack is everything wrong with this country into my iPad.   But yes, Jack is an ass. This time for essentially bullying his sister so badly that she felt that death was a good alternative.

I don’t care if he feels regret. There is no redemption arc long enough to make him a decent human being let alone a good one worth of admiration. He’s a user, an abuser, selfish, and conniving. He doesn’t even have a good backstory or consistent characterization. And he’s not played by Tom Felton, Tom Hiddleston, or Tom Hardy.

Eventually both he and Jenna realize Rue has disappeared. They notice a crowd of people by the pool and in the pool.

So most pool injuries are neck/head injuries caused by people diving in the shallow end. Lifeguards never grab around the waist. Now I’ll give you that Jack isn’t a lifeguard, but in a pool when you’re trying to save someone time does not disappear. It speeds up. Everything becomes hyper intense. And the water doesn’t fight you. Not in a pool.  In a river, yes. An ocean, hell yes.  Even lakes are problematic. Pools are easy.

The biggest problem with pools is that if someone is drowning you often get more unwanted help from people who because they’ve seen an episode of Baywatch think they know what they’re doing... but that’s another story.

Where’s the checking for a pulse? Also again... head injury.

I know Jack probably hasn’t had CPR training since High School but FFS the first thing you do is call for help and get professionals involved. The second is you check for a pulse. Oh and in 2010, CPR changed. Chest compressions were deemed more important than rescue breathing. And in a drowning victim, the chest compressions will often force the water out of the lungs.

We continue with CPR...

Rue will just end up bruised and maybe with a broken rib. And not the kind real CPR gives.

Through divine intervention and not Jack’s shoddy CPR techniques, Rue awakens and starts expelling pool water.

Is it sad that I have no faith that even the few things done right will get screwed up in the end?

Sadly, I’d rather watch The Room again... at least then I could count the spoons.

We switch heads to Alec and get some fun stereotyping.

Nitpick, I know. But at this point arguing with the book was my only joy.

So fun fact, drowning seriously fucks you up. And chlorinated water is even worse. You’ve still got creepy-crawlies, but you’ve also got chlorine. Which if you know your World War I history doesn’t mix well with human lungs. Pretty much everyone who actually drowns and is then resuscitated suffers from some form of pneumonia. It’s just a thing. Oh and people who have CPR performed on them have broken ribs. That is also just a thing. This doesn’t take into account potential brain damage from lack of oxygen, kidney damage, or other organ failure. Let me say it again. Drowning is not a fun way to go.

Also, why are they doing an MRI?  It should be a CAT Scan.  Also, chest x-rays for broken ribs.  Maybe an ultrasound.  I’m not a medical expert, this is actually something I don’t know much about, but I was in a car accident and one of the things they did was check my lungs to see if they were messed up.

If you can’t tell my suspension of disbelief has snapped completely and I’m just done.

Rue checks herself out of the hospital and then the shit hits the fan. Alec finds out about Jack’s plans and is pissed.

As much as I hate Jack, save the punching for Nazis. Also Alec, you are not lily-white in this whole thing.

A fact that finally comes to light.

Rue gets pissed and storms off. (Thankfully not into a pool)

Alec gets pissed and storms off.

And basically everyone is pissed at Jack. Including Sean who has disappeared for a time.

The next morning Alec, Jenna, and Rue check out of the hotel. But not before there is a cursory acknowledgement that Rue almost died.

I wasn’t lying when I said in my first post that I was reduced to screaming “This is not how this works!”

I really was.

Anyway, Alec pays for Rue’s room and she’s now all like “He really cares about me!” or maybe he feels guilty. Or who the fuck knows. All I know is that we’re not even at the 75% mark and I am dreading what happens next.

This post is starting to get out of hand so I’ll cut it off here.

Let’s just say that while the shit has hit the fan, the bullshit is still coming.

Thank the gods cockygate is over. Although apparently she’s not convinced she did anything wrong. And she sees herself as the victim...

Yeah...

If you feel sorry for us and want to contribute to our alcohol fund, you can buy us a kofi.

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For the meme: Hunger Games?

my all-time ultimate fave character: Katniss and Finnick. Like, I have a lot of them who I love, but Katniss and Finnick are tied for my number one spot.

a character I didn’t used to like but now do: Mrs. Everdeen took a while to grow on me, but by the end of Mockingjay, she really had.

a character I used to like but now don’t: tbh, it’s not that I used to like Peeta and now don’t, because I never really liked him and I still wouldn’t say that I dislike him, personally

—but there’s a lot about Peeta, especially with regard to his and Katniss’s relationship, that I find troublesome for various reasons (e.g., the way that Katniss, who is definitely canonically dark-skinned and is written against a backdrop that’s blatantly inspired by the racialized dimensions of classism and poverty, is always contextualized as Not Really Deserving the blonde white boy, who is regularly written in terms that are super not subtle about comparing him to Jesus)

To say nothing of how the text itself seems to agree with this idea, and does shit like go, “Wow, Peeta is oppressed by the Capitol too, like damn Katniss how much of a bitch are you, I mean your family and Gale’s only haven’t very literally starved to death because you and Gale know how to hunt, but wow, damn, Peeta had to help make the goat cheese and apple tarts and he wasn’t allowed to eat them because they were too expensive, that’s totally the same thing as people in the Seam literally starving to death”

Like, I’m not saying that Peeta and his family weren’t oppressed by the Capitol, because they were…… but it’s explicitly established in-text that the Capitol manufactures gradations as part of how they try to keep the Districts all fighting each other instead of fighting them, so yes, Peeta and his family did not experience the same thing as Gale, Katniss, and theirs, and part of that difference was how the Mellarks didn’t need to worry about getting enough to eat, they just couldn’t eat the expensive treats

The thing that bugs me the most, though, is the way that Peeta has supposedly been in love with Katniss since they were kids — except……… how? How can you say that he has truly been in love with Katniss when he, by his own goddamn admission, knew basically nothing about her and never even tried to get to know her for real? I’d buy that he was in love with his ludicrous headcanons about Katniss, but that’s not the same as being in love with Katniss Everdeen: Actual Person

And sorry not sorry, Peeta, but it is NOT true that you, “couldn’t talk to her”; you COULD have talked to Katniss and you chose not to talk to Katniss or deal with her at all in any context where you didn’t have the power of life and death over her (whether it was because she was literally dying of starvation, or because she needed you to make her look sympathetic to viewers in the 74th Games, and you needed her to literally and immediately keep you alive)

……Also, his version of how he fell in love with her has way too much in common with Dante Alighieri’s account of how he first fell in love with Beatrice Portinari for me to be truly okay with it, because Dante is one of the Western Literary Canon’s biggest examples of entitled dudebros who objectify women even while they claim to adore them (because over-idealizing someone is a form of dehumanizing them).

This said, I still don’t dislike Peeta. I just don’t think he’s that great, or that he’s as pure and innocent and cinnamon roll-ish as the books and fandom all make him out to be. Even without my misgivings about Ever*lark, ffs, he is one of the sneakiest, most manipulative characters in the series, and his BS sense of entitlement doesn’t only come out with Katniss

a character I’m indifferent about: Presidents Coin and Snow are both well-executed villains, but I don’t have a lot of feelings about them, personally. They were actually helped by the movies, for me, because Donald Sutherland and Julianne Moore were both really good in their roles, and it made me like them a little more, even if it still didn’t make me have feelings about them or anything

a character who deserved better: Most of them, tbh, but my top six are (in no particular order) Johanna, Madge, Rue, Annie, Finnick, and Gale

a ship I’ve never been able to get into: Katniss/Peeta, see above

But also? Gale/Madge. In my experience, the whole thing only exists so people can have some kind of “uptown girl” fantasy and go, “Look, see, I don’t hate Gale!!! Stop saying that I hate Gale!!! Just let me shove him off to the side and completely mischaracterize the shit out of him and pair him up with Madge for no reason beyond getting him out of the way so I can have Katniss/Peeta!!!!”

Also, Madge Undersee is a lesbian. #sorrynotsorry

Even worse: Effie/Haymitch. For one thing, both of them are gay. I don’t know what books everybody else is reading, but in MY copies of the books, Effie and Haymitch are both gay as fuck, why would you pair up a gay man and a lesbian like that unless it’s like, a situation where Effie and Haymitch get married so no one knows that they’re actually married to Portia and Cinna, respectively

But aside from that (because it’s admittedly a matter of my own headcanons even though I refuse to back down from them), I just??? Effie/Haymitch is just so blatantly a bunch of straight nonsense, pairing the two of them up because he’s a man and she’s a woman and therefore any time they exchange more than two words, it’s ~flirting~ even when Effie has HAPPILY AND ENERGETICALLY been a part of the system that treats all the kids Haymitch as mentored as if their lives mean nothing, and she’s been helping shepherd them to their deaths without getting that this is not good until it affects Katniss and Peeta (which only makes Effie get it because she likes them), and as much as Haymitch’s distaste for Effie is understandable, a lot of his lashing out at her isn’t actually coming from a place of, “I object to you for these fair reasons” so much as it’s coming from a place of Haymitch being a troll for the sake of being a troll, and I just

Why

Why is this ship a THING

Why is it so fucking POPULAR

I only understand this phenomenon in the most cynical way possible (i.e., the way where my explanation for it is, “they are so popular because it’s an M/F ship and, in the movies, both of them are white, even though Haymitch has dark skin and black hair, and the same racialized poverty-coded background as Gale and Katniss, in the books”)

Also, both of them are gay, sooooooo……… #sorrynotsorry

a ship I’ve never been able to get over: Katniss/Johanna, Katniss/Madge, Katniss/Finnick, Annie/Finnick

a cute, low-key ship: Annie/Johanna, and in some AU where Rue and Prim both get to grow up, I think they’d be cute together.

Also, Gale/Peeta. I’m just saying, it’s a perfect solution to the issue of the alleged love triangle because it means neither of them ends up without a ship, but Katniss doesn’t have to be with either of them.

an unpopular ship but I still enjoyed it: dude, my only M/F “ship that deserves to be called an OTP” for Katniss is called a crack ship by most of the fandom, even though she and Finnick have better-written relationship development than Katniss/Peeta and even though Finnick consistently respects Katniss Everdeen: Actual Facts Person and not some shiny pretty pretty princess headcanon about her

Sure, he may not want to be her friend, at first, because he assumes, like she does, that friends are not A Thing that’s going to happen, and if he maybe feels like he has been tasked with babysitting her and Peeta during the Quarter Quell, then… that’s not actually inaccurate, because he was kinda tasked with babysitting them by the other rebels.

Like, helping the two of them to survive and getting them out of the arena was the job that Finnick and Mags were given by the other rebels, and he had to be more hands-on about it than, say, Johanna, since Katniss wanted to have an alliance with Mags, which meant she had to have one with Finnick

So, no. The two of them aren’t exactly cozying up to each other in Catching Fire, because both of them are playing certain parts and performing certain versions of themselves based on a lot of assumptions about How The Fuck This Shit Works and a lot of assumptions about their roles and positions in everything (which admittedly end up being less than accurate… because both of them have been manipulated and lied to by everybody who’s pulling the strings)

Anyway, I shouldn’t go on about this too much more because it will make me get defensive and angry, but Finnick and Katniss are my autistic children and they are not a goddamn crack ship and if I had money, I would pay people to stop saying that so I could look at their tags and only see people tagging everything with them as “BROTP,” as opposed to that plus people calling them a crack ship

Also: Finnick/Gale, Cinna/Haymitch, Annie/Katniss

Also, I didn’t really LIKE Gale/Katniss, but it made me feel more things than Katniss/Peeta (even if I have more thoughts on that one, that’s the thing: they’re thoughts, not Feels; the only thing that I ever really feel about Katniss/Peeta is frustrated), and the whole, “Katniss is all but explicitly suicidal and that’s why she wants to mack on Gale” thing from Mockingjay totally does it for a lot of my angsty catharsis interests

a ship that was totally wrong and never should have happened: Effie/Haymitch. I went, “EEEUGH” out loud when they kissed, when I say MJ2 in the theatre, and I didn’t feel bad about it because: 1. all of the people who loved them collectively when, “AWWWWW”; and 2. eww, can you say, “what the fuck is this hetero pandering bullshit”

my favourite storyline/moment: The entire, “I drag myself out of nightmares and find there’s no relief in waking. Better not to give into it” scene, because I’m a human cliché and Katniss and Finnick are my autistic children. Also, any and every Joniss scene, because I’m garbage and a human cliché and I just want them to be together, is that so bad

a storyline that never should have been written: idk about anyone else, but I personally choose to live in a world where the series-long alleged “love triangle” was between Katniss/Madge and Johanna/Katniss, and the Katniss/Peeta stuff was only ever during the Games and not actually for real, and Gale and Peeta can go do each other or something, because fuck forced hetero love triangles, that’s why

Also? I’m willing to accept that Prim’s death was legitimately necessary for the plot and the narrative, in the same way that I hate Sirius Black’s death but accept that it was necessary for the sake of the story that JKR wanted to tell, so I can just go, “I see your point and I don’t begrudge you this in canon, but I am going to headcanon around it anyway because I don’t like it”

—but there was ABSOLUTELY NO REASON to kill Finnick. See, much like JKR’s senseless murders of Remus and Tonks in DH, Finnick’s death did nothing to make a point that hadn’t already been made multiple times over, and it added nothing to the story. Yea, like JKR before her, SCollins only killed Finnick for the sake of cheap shock value and reaffirming certain ideas about heroism that the rest of the series tried to deconstruct

It was pointless, it was senseless, it wasn’t necessary, and the story, characters, and readers all deserved better than that

Finnick Odair is happy and fine and he’s definitely alive, because all that unadulterated bullshit, “lmao finnick dies” crap never happened

my first thoughts on the series: uh. The first time I tried to read the books, I didn’t even get to the games themselves, because SCollins introduced Madge, introduced the backstory of her and Katniss being like kinda friends but kinda not but they’re not sure, and I was like, “ugh, why. I already know you’re going to make me suffer this bullshit between the two boys, but why would you hand me a totally valid and much more interesting F/F option. Why” and on the other hand, because Katniss reminded me too much of myself at a point when I wasn’t ready to deal with that

my thoughts now: We all deserved better, but I say that all the time about the HP series, too, so me feeling like the series was kind of a let down in various places and criticizing different aspects of it? Isn’t going to stop me from enjoying it

Also, Finnick is fine, Madge is fine, Effie and Haymitch are gay, Gale is bi, and most of my favorite characters are autistic because I said so, that’s why (—I mean, I actually have cases based on canon evidence for Finnick and Katniss, but my real rationale here is, “I want them to be autistic, so they are now, okay peace bye”)

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[hazelnut-icecream]

1-30 soft wlw asks plz

thank you! ⚢🌈💕

1. how long have you known you liked girls?

I think it really fully dawned on me when I was in highschool

2. talk about the girl who made you realise you liked girls

she and I had gym class together in highschool. I thought she was so stunning, so I made a lot of effort to spend time with her. we'd blow off exercising in gym together, we always got in trouble for talking when we shouldn't have been, we passed flirty notes all the time, we texted all evening into the night every day after school. one day, I realized that I loved her, and I ended up confessing my feelings for her. she said she felt the same way. so we were dating, but secretly, because she had a boyfriend. she said that when they broke up, she and I would go public. but then she broke my heart by dating another dude right after, wanting to keep me a secret. and I was like... fuck that lol. first person with which I ever shared a real romantic connection.

3. are you in a relationship at the moment?

nope!

4. do you have a crush at the moment?

not really

5. describe your crush!

don't really have one

6. do you tend to like more masculine, feminine, or androgynous girls?

I like ALL kinds of girls. ALL. I have no preference. I love femmes, butches, and everything in between. and I'm a vers/switch so I like tops, bottoms, and other vers/switch wlw.

7. do you look/dress more masculine, feminine, or androgynous?

I'm like... a mix between feminine and androgynous sorta? more feminine than anything though, I guess.

8. what’s your gaydar like?

it's alright

9. tall girls or short girls?

no height preference

10. intimidating girls or kind girls?

I mean, kindness is obviously the better trait. but also when a girl intimidates me I get turned on sooo

11. hugs or kisses?

both! I need both

12. do you have an ideal ‘type’? what would they be like?

genuinely loves me for me. shares similar values. I want to share a genuine, healthy, reciprocated love with someone.

13. what’s your favourite personality trait of yours?

that I'm compassionate?

14. what’s your favourite personality trait for a girl to have?

I like girls with big hearts

15. what’s the best thing about liking girls?

the best thing? there are so many... if I have to choose, I guess how natural and right it feels to me. I always feel safe and at ease in relationships with women. it feels like home with other women.

16. do you have any friends who are wlw?

yeah! I love them all 💕

17. have you ever been to pride? if so, what was your first pride like?

yes! first pride I went to was in DC, and it felt so amazing to be surrounded by other queer folks!

18. do you like the lesbian flag?

love it

19. what was your first kiss with a girl like?

scary! I was 11 and she kissed me and it was my first kiss ever so I was terrified

20. who was your celebrity/fictional gay awakening?

Willow and Xander from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I was OBSESSED with them and then devastated when Xander turned dark!

21. what’s your favourite lgbt+ movie?

Imagine Me & You was the first gay movie I ever saw, and it made me SO happy to see two women falling in love and having a happy ending as a kid.

22. who’s your favourite openly wlw celebrity?

a tie between Samira Wiley/Rachel Maddow I think

23. do you wear makeup?

sometimes

24. who was the first person you came out to (if you have)?

I think it was my best guy friend from highschool, who also turned out to be gay.

25. has anyone ever come out to you?

yes 🥰

26. have you found a community of lgbt+ people?

yes, I've made some great gay friends online and also like pretty much my whole highschool friend group all turned out gay lol

27. do you have any older lgbt+ people you look up to?

my godmother is a lesbian, and I truly have so much to thank her for... I should sometime.

28. do you identify with butch/femme labels?

no

29. who’s your favourite fictional wlw?

Moira (played by Samira Wiley) in The Handmaid's Tale and Rue (played by Zendaya) from Euphoria

30. what experiences are you looking forward to having in the future (kissing a girl, going to pride, etc)?

I'm trying to get more involved with the local queer community. I also wanna make more gay friends near me. and I missed pride last year so I wanna go to every single one in driving distance this year.

#long post #personal #ask #wlw #lesbian #gay #LGBTQ #LGBT

[fleurs-deparis]

Hemingway Hunt

Stop #1

Our first stop was at the location where the Cafe des Amateurs used to be. Nowadays, I honestly don’t get the seedy vibe from Rue Mouffetard that used to be prevalent during Hemingway’s time. It’s interesting to see how “sketchy” places of a city can change over time. It’s in the very late afternoon, almost evening, and the sky’s overcast. I’m eating one of those ice cream cones with the ice cream shaped as rose petals, and the square is bustling with people walking, shopping, and eating at various cafes. There are a group of policemen just standing at the square as well.

Stop #2

I’m getting kind of jealous of Hemingway because he was able to live in Paris at a time when there was still “cheap rent,” even if it was in the more undesirable parts of Paris. Now, it doesn’t really matter since everywhere is expensive and almost unaffordable.

Stop #3

I could definitely see Hemingway (or any sort of writer) living in one of these apartments. It would be nice to have a balcony where you could just watch the city’s foot traffic, and also the sky.

Stop #4

I bought a map for my dad at the bookstalls along the Seine. It was surprisingly affordable, and some of the stalls had very interesting posters.

Stop #5

After walking along the Seine, I went and visited Shakespeare and Company. The inside was VERY crowded to the point where there was an employee letting people in two at a time when other people would walk out. I couldn’t fit anywhere to sit, so I just sat on one of the benches in the little park outside.

Stop #6

I got to see the location where Gertrude Stein used to live, commemorated by this plaque.

One of the most stereotypical “starving writer” things that Hemingway explains in A Movable Feast is his “Walk Without Getting Hungry.” Since Hemingway would skip meals in order to save money, he would try to visit the Musee du Luxembourg and look at the paintings in order to curb his appetite, and even claimed that looking at the art while “belly-empty, hollow-hungry” gave a sense of clarity that only hunger could give. I wonder if he saw a lot of paintings of food in the Musee du Luxembourg.

Hemingway’s end goal was the Place St. Sulpice, which was void of restaurants (in order to keep food out of his mind) and was a nice, quiet place to sit after walking down the narrow rue Ferou.

Outside this enormous church was the fountain that has lions and saints surrounding it. Lots of pigeons as well.

Stop #7

Hemingway finally stopped for food at Brasserie Lipp. He ordered two orders of potato salad, beer, bread with olive oil, and cervelas which was a large sausage split in the middle and covered in mustard. It sounds like a very heavy, filling meal and follows French custom of eating a large lunch.

Stop #8 & #9

Two other cafes that Hemingway was a regular at was the Cafe de Flore and Deux Magots. Cafe de Flore looked especially aesthetically pleasing.

Stop #10

Michaud’s, one of Hemingway’s favorite restaurants, is now converted to Les Comptoir des Saints Peres. He used to meet up with his close friend, F. Scott Fitzgerald.

Stop #11

Hotel d’Angleterre, the hotel that Hemingway first stayed at when he arrived at Paris, looks beautiful now along with the courtyard. 

Stop #12

This was our last stop in completing our Hemingway hunt. Natalie Barney used to live here down rue Jacob, and was also a writer friend of Hemingway’s. Chapter 2 is when Hemingway revealed in his conversation with Gertrude Stein how he felt about homosexuality. He used very vague terms in explaining how he felt like male homosexuality was predatory, and that he felt threatened by it and was constantly on the lookout of being taken advantage of in that way. Stein doesn’t necessarily disagree with him since she sees female homosexuality as a different subject, and not really under the same unity and umbrella as just “homosexuality” as a whole. She offers an explanation to Hemingway about why he felt that threatened by male homosexuality by calling the people that Hemingway was around “a milieu of criminals and perverts.” I guess he found it more important to be more quiet about his intolerance since he was friends with a number of lesbians, and instead direct his revulsion towards male homosexuality.

Conclusion

My favorite line was in chapter 7 on the subject of “the lost generation” in which Hemingway was a part of. “I thought that all generations were lost by something and always had been and always would be.” It accurately describes how each generation has something to say about the others preceding and following them. This is also pertinent to how our generation, Generation Z, is feeling towards climate change, skyrocketing cost of living, and a stagnant minimum wage.

A part of the book that I found humorous was the luncheon with Ford Maddox Ford. I could feel Hemingway’s frustration with having to talk in circles with Ford, and it was a very relatable moment since I’ve been in situations where I’ve been trapped into talking with someone that comes off the wrong way. I don’t think Hemingway writes Ford as an unlikable character even though some of his actions may irritate others around him. It just seemed like a humorous situation from the outside.

Paris is Hemingway’s “Moveable Feast” because even when he leaves Paris, he feels like he takes it with him. The city leaves such an impression on one’s heart (how picturesque it is, the relaxed way of eating at cafes, stylish fashion) that one’s actions are influenced by that impression while in other locations. I tend to agree with this sentiment, because even now as I write this, I can vividly recall the streets I am familiar with, and how I am able to reconstruct these locations with my mind’s eye.

[fooboo24]

info about my (current) ryders under the cut, basically just for my own reference

format comes from the ryder tag going around before the game came out (i was never tagged but still using it lmao)

Name: Rue Ryder

Gender: cis female

Ethnicity: Egyptian-Mexican (via her mother), Portuguese-Canadian (via father)

Eye Color: deep brown

Hair Color/Description: Naturally, her hair is a dark brown and straight. However, back in the milky way, she frequently balayaged her hair blonde and got some kind of hair treatment to make it wavy/curly.

Skin (Color, blemishes, tattoos, ect): MOLES ALL OVER. Dark-skinned, a few scars, only one major, noticeable one that stretches from her left ear, under and across her jaw, finishing at her chin.

Misc physical attributes: Short (5′2″), Buff(tm)

Preferred romance option: Reyes, but maaaaaybe Jaal?

Relationship with Alec & Sibling (Do they get along? ect.): She loves her family a lot, even if they don’t always get along. Her father was always hard on her and her brother to succeed and be the best of the best, and while she resented him in her earlier years for it, she inwardly forgave him a lot when she realized he just wanted the best for them.

Her brother and her are besties. She plays the “I’m the older one” card a lot on him, and they have the typical sibling love-hate relationship, but ultimately they love each other and will always be there for each other, if only because they know that in some ways, they’re all the other has.

Projected BFF (The squad mate who isn’t bae but you always take): Drack or Peebee.

Dreams/Hobbies/Likes: To just explore Andromeda freely with her friends, without Pathfinder responsibilities lording over her. She just wants to chill and do her thing in space, basically.

She likes to work out a lot, draw, absentmindedly study, collect atrocious yet oddly perfect accessories, and socializing. Never not down for movie night or spending time with people, especially if she has work-related things she can put off.

She loves clothing and accessories (ranging from haute couture to tacky af), learning languages and pondering over Mysterious Shit, and blueberries.

Fears/Dislikes: Dying, finality, losing someone important, infinite space (she is fascinated by space, but is also scared of it?)

Squishy textures (they gross her out), bugs of literally any variety (she’s kind of ‘blech’ about them), oranges (rue: smells good, ain’t gonna eat it tho)

Other (What else should we know about your Ryder):

She’s a linguist/anthropologist with a linguistic specialization. She has ADHD and actively takes medication for it. Bisexual/Pansexual and openly flirty, but has a difficult time with the ~deeper~ aspects of a romantic relationship. Doesn’t like being told what to do or how to do something (by a teacher/expert it’s fine, by a know-it-all, no), and becomes resistant and reluctant if forced to do something. Had to significantly downsize her personal Tacky Sunglasses collection and book collection upon coming to Andromeda, legitimately distraught upon doing so. Likes to sing, but she can’t do it well (her brother, alternately, can, but hates singing, easily embarrassed). Very confident, probably dangerously so.

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Name: Caroline Ryder

Gender: cis female

Ethnicity: Korean (via mother), French-Japanese (via father)

Eye Color: dark brown (black at typical glance)

Hair Color/Description: Full, thick, long, glossy, and black. Doesn’t wear hair down often (kind of shy about if for some reason), but won’t cut it off because she enjoys messing with it with different styles. Usually wears her hair back in a braided bun.

Skin (Color, blemishes, tattoos, ect): Several moles. Pale-skinned

Misc physical attributes: Tall (5′11″), slim of body, monolid eyes, thick brows

Preferred romance option: In my headcanon-verse, she gets together with Cora. Actually in game, probably Peebee or Suvi (I feel like Peebee would lighten her up, but Suvi would suit her better overall so???).

Relationship with Alec & Sibling (Do they get along? ect.): Her father was not often around when Caroline and her brother (and, once again in my headcanon-verse, their younger sister, June), were growing up, so her initial perceptions of him were distant, but she thought him a strong and important figure in the scope of things due to the urgency of his job and the gravity of the tasks he was given. When she was older and her father was around more, there was an attempt to become closer facilitated by her mother and herself, but it never caught on and Caroline learned just what kind of a man her father was - gruff, distant, and largely emotionally reluctant. After one too many times being ignored, she gave up and grew to distrust and dislike her father, but there was still a cold, impersonal respect of his position and skills there. Her father’s best relationship with any of his children was with June, whom he seemed to be more open, warm, and supportive with, leading Caroline, much to her dismay, to become somewhat jealous of her younger sister.

She had a closer relationship with her mother, whom was the parent most often seen by her and her siblings. She wanted to be a scientist when she grew up due to her closeness with her mother, and in due time when to school to study genetics. Her mother’s death caused her great grief.

Her relationship with her brother was originally poor due to the fact that they were often pitted against each other in terms of success by their father and others around them. They were usually compared and contrasted when it came to most aspects of themselves, and as such they competed harshly and a competitiveness far beyond simple rivalry formed. While both were brilliant students, her brother usually “beat” her in terms of grades by only the slightest margins. Caroline, in an effort to differentiate herself from her brother and achieve great feats for recognition elsewhere, took to becoming a martial and weapons expert, a field she excelled in whereas her brother did not. Caroline did not gloat, but took great pride in this accomplishment of hers. Her relationship with her brother still is not stellar when they set out for Andromeda, but it improves slowly after he stabilizes.

(jesus i just blabbered a lot there, didn’t i....)

Projected BFF (The squad mate who isn’t bae but you always take):

Jaal probably. He’s respectful and polite and considerate, so I think she’d appreciate him a lot.

Dreams/Hobbies/Likes:

Caroline wants her efforts and accomplishments to be acknowledged, respected, and remembered. She is fully dedicated to the Andromeda Initiative, and wants to see it succeed and thrive. She wants to do as much as she can to achieve this.

She’s pretty lonesome in her hobbies. She doesn’t like to go out of her way to socialize, and prefers to be alone. She likes to work on guns and weapons, personalizing and enhancing them in damage output and aesthetic. She also enjoys researching with Lexi (primarily Kett and Angara genetics) and writing and reading papers in her spare time. Occasionally, she gardens and plants, but feels mildly guilty in doing so because she thinks the activity indulgent and non-beneficial to others as a whole.

She likes all variety of meats and does not drink.

Fears/Dislikes: Failure, becoming like her father, becoming close to others, forgetting her mother.

Underperforming, excessive attention, the colour green, and sugary foods.

Other (What else should we know about your Ryder):

Lesbian. The most like her father out of all her siblings, something she refuses to realize/acknowledge. Not very social, emotionally distant and lonely, incredibly intelligent, a deadly shot, comes off as cold, actually just awkward in many a social situation. Probably depressed, to a degree. Not artistically inclined at all. Secretly names her personalized guns. Spends probably way too much time working on them. Enjoys fighting and weapon work more than she’s willing to admit, more so than her scientific work, and feels guilty in this, like she’s letting her mother’s memory down.

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DAMN THAT TOOK A WHILE OKAYYYY THAT’S ITTT

might change some stuff about them later/expand on some things but this works for now~!!

#ryder #riley shit #i have another but i need to get a better grasp of her overall character to be able to do one of these for her

[kotadj]

1-150 please

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?

@lesbian-psyche

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Usually outgoing, selectively shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

The wonderful @lesbian-psyche as well as everyone from school

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Depends. For some people yes, for more people (once they get to know ME at all) I’m impossible.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I would definitely hope so.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

People who are genuine, intelligent, intellectual but not judgmental, slightly more chill than I am, and extremely passionate/excitable when it comes to things they care about.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

I would sure hope so. And it would be a major surprise if I wasn’t.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Ummmmmm, no one. Too gay.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not in the slightest. If you knew me, this question would DEFINITELY make you laugh.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

@lesbian-psyche (again) 

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

”Okay baby you can do it”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

”Natural Disaster” - Zac Brown Band

“Sound of Silence (Cover)” - Disturbed

“Heathens (Cover)” - Halestorm

“Bounce Back” - Big Sean

“She’s Got You High” - Mumm’Ra 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Depends on the person and depends how. But generally, yes. Especially girls. Primarily girls. Nearly exclusively girls.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I’ve seen too much of both to say no, but I don’t in the traditional sense.

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I moved to PA to start grad school.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Over and over if I had the chance.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I think that we have to be ridiculously arrogant to think that there isn’t.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

No.

19. Do you like bubble baths?

As long as I’m not allergic to the bubble stuff (which is difficult to come by), I absolutely adore them.

20. Do you like your neighbors?

My neighbors at my apartment are never around, but when they are they can be obnoxious. My neighbors at my parents’ house are fine, but we’re pretty spaced out so I don’t see much of them.

21. What are you bad habits?

I have a ton of them but my biggest one is doing self-destructive shit whenever I feel any really intense negative emotion. In particular, if I get too negatively emotional I smoke. 

22. Where would you like to travel?

Is the entire world an option? But if I had to choose one place, probably Denmark or Tibet.

23. Do you have trust issues?

Abso-fucking-lutely.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Scrolling through my email while still laying in bed, since it gives me more time to be both comfortable and lazy.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

There’s quite a lot of them, but probably my massive ears.

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Roll over and look at the time, stare at the ceiling to give myself a bit to process, then check my phone and start about my day.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

I’m super pale, so sometimes it might be nice if it was a shade darker so makeup didn’t make me look like I was some sort of ghost/evil doll.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

@lesbian-psyche, @staysstrongkeepsliving, and @corgisrule011

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Yes.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Yes, but not necessarily in the traditional sense that most people think of as comprising a “marriage”. 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Not yet but we’re slowly getting there!

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Holy crap there are a shit ton of them. Like together? With my girlfriend and one of them? This is too complex of a question. But Lzzy Hale is definitely up near the top of the list.

33. Spell your name with your chin.

redwkotas

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I play rugby but am currently benched due to injury. I also snowboard, but this season got destroyed due to that same injury and I’m more than upset about it.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Definitely TV, I don’t think I could live without music.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Tons of times.

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Welp.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I’ve said it time and time again, my treehouse girl. 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

American Eagle, Rue 21, Under Armour Outlet, and Zumiez

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Well, I’ve been out of high school for 6 years sooooooo yeah, irrelevant.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Depends on what they did with the first one.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

It could mean a whole bunch of different things, ranging from soul-crushing sadness to absolute happiness and/or contentedness.

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Depends on the stranger, depends on my mood, depends on theirs.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Again, please both? But more the ocean.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

My dog, quite literally. She jumps on me because she has to eat and pee.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Tons and tons of things. Primarily, people just putting up with me and not actually really liking me/wanting to talk to me. Thank the asshole for that one.

47. Have you ever been high?

Tons of times on tons of different things.

48. Have you ever been drunk?

More times than I’ve been high. I fell asleep in a bowl of pretzels and that wasn’t even the drunkest I’ve ever been.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Not that I can think of?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

I’m currently wearing it. It’s light grey with black and bright blue accents.

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Sometimes, but not anymore.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My mental illnesses.

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Urban Decay.

54. Favourite store?

American Eagle.

55. Favourite blog?

@lesbian-psyche

56. Favourite colour?

Purple, since I think saying black is a cop-out.

57. Favourite food? 

Tacos or clams (no, that’s not a joke)

58. Last thing you ate?

Wintergreen lifesaver.

59. First thing you ate this morning?

My mom’s chicken salad.

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Quite a few, but my memory is really terrible right now.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Yes. Startin’ fights and being a general hoodlum.

62. Been arrested? For what?

Nope, somehow skirted all of those.

63. Ever been in love? 

Absolutely. Still am.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Nope. Really don’t want to. Too long and complicated.

65. Are you hungry right now?

Kind of.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

My tumblr friends ARE my real friends.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Facebook.

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr.

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Yes, Friends.

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Alyssa, Mel, Emily, Tim, Jon, Kyle, Xan

71. Craving something? What?

Chocolate.

72. What colour are your towels?

Mostly purple and blue, but I have a peach one that I really like.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Depends. Usually two under my head. And since I broke my ribs, usually hugging one.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Yes. And a real animal.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Over 50.

75. Favourite animal?

Okapi.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Bright pink.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate.

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Ben and Jerry’s Chocolate Fudge Brownie.

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

See above, but also a black and purple t-shirt.

80. What colour pants?

Blue.

81. Favourite tv show?

Orphan Black, Lost Girl, or Friends. 

82. Favourite movie?

It’s a tie between SLC Punk and the Swedish movie Kiss Me.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean Girls.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls.

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Janis.

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Dory.

87. First person you talked to today?

@lesbian-psyche

88. Last person you talked to today?

Today is still going on, but again @lesbian-psyche

89. Name a person you hate?

Mike Pence.

90. Name a person you love?

@lesbian-psyche

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Quite a few people.

92. In a fight with someone?

Not on a personal level.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

I HAD two, but my favorite pair had to get cut during my accident in December. I’m more of a lounge pants kind of person.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Way too many to count.

95. Last movie you watched?

Suicide Squad, Extended Edition.

96. Favourite actress?

Sandra Bullock or Titty Malaysia.

97. Favourite actor?

Ryan Reynolds. 

98. Do you tan a lot?

Yes, but not fake tan ever. Only in the summer.

99. Have any pets?

A stupid dog and a dumb bunny.

100. How are you feeling?

Tired and bored and just kind of over it.

101. Do you type fast?

Somewhat.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Not really regret, but there are things that I’m not proud of. If I changed any of them, though, I wouldn’t be where I am or who I am.

103. Can you spell well?

Sometimes.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

I host them all the time in my parents’ back yard. We have a huge fire pit that I helped build.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Yes.

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

I was a barrel racer, so yes.

108. What should you be doing?

Homework, cleaning, or napping.

109. Is something irritating you right now?

How I can’t get comfortable because it is hurting my ribs.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Absolutely.

111. Do you have trust issues?

You already asked this but yes.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My girlfriend (I’m going to stop tagging her a million and a half times)

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Knuckles or Erry or Bo.

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Tons of times. Been out of the country, too.

115. Do you play the Wii?

Not usually. Especially since part of it is in my apartment and part of it isn’t.

116. Are you listening to music right now?

No, surprisingly.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Absolutely love it.

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Absolutely.

119. Favourite book?

Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Not inside. And not usually outside. Especially if my eyes have adjusted.

121. Are you mean?

Definitely can be.

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Everything is grey, not black and white. So, I really don’t like the word “okay” for something so morally weighted.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Not at all.

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not love, necessarily, but definitely connection.

125. Do you believe in true love?

Depends on your definition but yes.

126. Are you currently bored?

Yes.

127. What makes you happy?

Tons of stuff. Sun, the ocean, mountains, plants, trees, fires, good books, good food, I could go on.

128. Would you change your name?

Currently working on it.

129. What your zodiac sign?

Pisces, but I “fit” way more with Aries.

130. Do you like subway?

Sometimes.

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Punch him and tell him “I’m gay you idiot, stop it”.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

YOU ALREADY ASKED THIS.

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

”She was a preacher’s daughter, never did what daddy taught her and the rebel in her soul brought her to me”

134. Can you count to one million?

Probably but why the hell would I waste my time trying? Actually, supposedly no one can. But idk how true that is.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

“Nope, I definitely don’t like her”

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Always closed. It freaks me out to even have the closet or bathroom door open.

137. How tall are you?

5′ 6″ - 5′ 7″ ish

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Have: Wavy. Attracted to: Either.

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Have: Brunette. Attracted to: Brunette.

140. Summer or Winter?

Depends. It’s a tight race for which is my favorite season. But I lean towards summer.

141. Night or Day?

Warm nights are my absolute favorite.

142. Favourite month?

Probably August.

143. Are you a vegetarian?

No.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark.

145. Tea or Coffee?

Depends. Mint tea or decaf coffee.

146. Was today a good day?

Pretty great, yeah.

147. Mars or Snickers?

Neither really.

148. What’s your favourite quote?

”Strength is what one wants, you can get nothing without it, and strength must be won by strength.”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

In a way, yes.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line

“Confined in the dark, narrow can of our own making which we take for the whole universe, very few of us can even begin to imagine another dimension of reality.”