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I do think it's worth "examining your kinks," at the very least because if you can find an underlying theme you can use it to find other, stranger kinks. Broaden your horizons

#tumblrisms #actual about me #excellent life advice #i examined my kinks & came to the conclusion that unhinged is better #whatever bullshit about grief toxic codependency the interplay of sex & violence & all consuming need richard siken gets on in his poetry? #yeah. that’s my kink. #he xuan spending literal centuries making himself a monster that other monsters are afraid of & tearing apart creation for revenge but still #looking for ways to spare the one person he thought he would hate the most & following shi qingxuan around after ripping his brother’s head #off with his (he xuan’s) bare hands? probably while making sad sparkly ‘do u still think im malewife or whatever’ eyes? that is also my kink #it doesn’t hurt that he xuan canonically eats literally whatever food you put in front of him due to lingering trauma about starvation #and the starvation didn’t even kill him in the end (when he died & became a ghost i mean)! he’s just really fucked up about it! let him eat! #the dacryphilia thing is also extremely still present #i’m going to beat the emotional shit out of my fictional faves & make them cry. i know what i’m about son. #………control issues are also a very Present thing in a lot of my kinks & i’m not sorry #sometimes things that get called ‘wholesome’ are worse #they’re gonna call you a degenerate freak & a danger to society for existing while any kind of queer or trans anyway #behaving yourself to get their tasteless chalky food-adjacent loosely cookie-shaped treat materials ain’t worth it #make the fucked up unhinged art of your dreams. you deserve it. love is real #(art here also means writing podfics interpretive dance or however you choose to create something beautiful & fucked up) #idek what tags i have on this blog for kinky stuff anymore #anyway love is real

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no rizz just sparkly loving eyes and a heart that feels ready to pour right out of my ribcage at any given time

#tumblrisms #this is The Vibe #not *MY* vibe as a person mind you bc i have like neither of these things irl #but basically all of my oc’s have this exact Vibe for better & for worse #murikabushi inspo tag #sticks it in the loudmouth favorite boy’s tag so i can find it literally ever again

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Expecting every trans woman to become a full fledged voice actor to have their gender respected is bad actually

#important things #trans stuff #transmisogyny

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Fat people can be elegant and gothic and scary in a hot way and mysterious and tragically beautiful. These aesthetics aren't locked to a particular body type.

#yes exactly thank you #fat acceptance #fat liberation

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look at your phone lock screen. that's your reason to keep goin

#………my lock screen is art i commissioned of my favorite rp character #he’s a 6’4’’ drag queen magical girl who was raised in the untamed wilds of an academic library by a pack of feral historians #one of his recent exploits involved stealing his unconscious ex’s atm card so he could get some extra cash for a magical alien who’s trying #to survive on earth after spending 1000 years trapped in isolation while his home planet slowly died around him #reblog memes #actual about me

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It’s really heartening how much people on this site came together to help Ahmed @90-ghost. He’s in Egypt now with his younger brother waiting on his mom and older brother to join them. The issue now is living expenses. Life is extremely difficult for displaced people, and the future is uncertain. If you’ve ever wondered how you can help a Palestinian displaced by the genocide, here’s one way to do so.

#signal boost

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OK I think I understand some of why some people in the fandom choose to make Mystra some kind of a terrible, grooming abuser to Gale. It's because every one of the companions has like a specific person you can point to and say, that is the abuser. That right there is the person who has caused the companion grievous harm. Gale and Mystra are a little more complex than that.

Shadowheart and Lae'zel technically have a whole cult/culture backing up the abuse, but you can still pretty directly point to Viconia and Shar for Shadowheart, and ultimately Vlaakith for Lae'zel as well as just... every Githyanki she ever met, except for Kith'rak Voss.

Wyll has Mizora, Karlach had Zariel and Gortash, Astarion has Cazador, all very obvious and self explanatory in the game. They were innocent, kidnapped, coerced, sold, played like a damn fiddle. But Gale?

Gale has Mystra, a goddess he loves, who also loves him, and the things they did to each other were both fucked up, and a lot of the fault totally lies with Gale! The other companions all had external forces affecting them. Gale's was mostly internal. He refused to believe he was good enough. "As inconceivable as it seems to me now, I shared a bed with a goddess and I still wasn't satisfied." A literal goddess, the one he favored, the one he was in love with, who favored and loved him back, consistently told him he was perfect as he was and he straight up did not believe her. He placed himself on a higher and higher pedestal he could never reach the top of because if he wasn't constantly climbing to some nebulous goal of perfection, then could he be good enough for Mystra?

Y'know, instead of just believing the woman he was in love with. And I get it! Insecurities suck! Especially when you've been the gifted child your entire life, perfectly talented at something that all the adults in your life go nuts over. But also, it is extremely arrogant to assume you know better than your literal goddess and be like "yo, there's a missing piece of the Weave and I can go get it" like... Mystra is the Weave, she would have known and probably sent someone on a quest if it were actually Her Weave and not Karsus' Weave.

Gale is INCREDIBLY hubristic and he keeps falling for that trap. He's overconfident. Hell, even after his year in isolation where he comes out humbled, a small group of people believing in him for a short amount of time gets him to go "omg, crown of karsus = godhood, I can totally do that and tell the gods they SUCK and overthrow Ao's rules!"

Like, babyboy, no.

Of course, Mystra is not without some fault. After Gale's initial... Folly-up, she just ignores him for a year. Damn, girl, what the hell! Well. You see. The Netherese orb is a fragment of the magic that Karsus used to try to ascend and steal her throne with. The magic that she realized was going to kill everything if she didn't sacrifice herself. For a moment, all magic ceased to exist, including Mystryl herself, and Karsus died. Then Mystra came into being. Gale tells you a short version of this story himself! So it kind of makes sense that Mystra would see this shard of magic and just... kinda have a trauma reaction! And to gods, time flows differently. It wouldn't shock me to learn she didn't realize it had been a year by the time Gale left his Tower due to mind flayer shenanigans. Naturally, she does not want to discuss the thing she's so terrified of, and just tries to have it destroyed without her having to touch it—the plan to have Gale blow himself up on the Absolute itself, and she would save his soul. And even after he disobeys her instruction, she still allows the orb to feed on the true Weave! She still lets him live without fear of blowing up randomly, even though it greatly distresses her to let this magic that killed her once feed on her own life force.

Then he reaches the city, and reads The Annals of Karsus, and realizes she's going to have to explain, despite not wanting to. And she summons him. Tells him exactly what's in his chest. Asks him to turn over the Crown and she will destroy the orb and face her own trauma, because Gale... doesn't want to die. She understands that. And she still loves him and his big beautiful brain despite how stupid he's been, and she wants to have him as her Chosen again.

Things will never be the same, of course. They both fucked up. Gave each other a bad time. But in the end, they forgive each other and move past it. Not as a couple, because things broke too much for that. But they can have a healthy relationship as Goddess and Chosen once more.

And that is what sets Gale and his trauma apart from the companions. He doesn't have a direct abuser or live in a horrific abusive society. He almost killed the goddess of all magic a second time and she had an understandably harsh reaction to that, even if it was still too harsh. I just don't believe it's only Mystra who fucked up here. Not by a long shot. Much of it lies squarely with Gale.

And, as for the grooming allegations [as far as people trying to say it is canon], literally just no. She's a True Neutral goddess. Gale literally tells you that you are not his first mortal lover, he had a few before he ever fell into Mystra's bed, and you're just the first since the breakup about a year ago. The game doesn't shy away from sex and sexual abuse in the least. Why on Earth would this be something hidden behind several layers of nonexistent subtext? It's definitely fun for AU's, but by Ahghairon's lost nose, no, it's not canon!

#bg3 #gale dekarios #mystra #SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE 'MYSTRA GROOMED GALE' ASSHOLES IN THE BACK

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(i Will go back to everlasting haitus if that GFM slows down too much btw, seeing it to its goal ASAP is my primary focus right now)

#signal boost

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the prince catches a flower

#tgcf #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #fanart

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✨ Please reblog the polls to make them reach out to as many people as possible, but KEEP IT SPOILER-FREE to make people listen to the music with an open mind 💖 Artists and titles will be revealed after the poll's conclusion, check the original post for an update! ✨

#goddammit #tumblr polls #do you like this song #i hate that i clicked 'yes'; i am actively ashamed to still like this song #music

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Do you ship it?

Reason: Literal soulmates- born on the same day with the same name, this is a tragedy of your dreams!

#tgcf #tumblr polls #beefleaf #not only do i ship it but i am also feral for them

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(The various Jin half-siblings are not included, because then we would run out of slots, but you are welcome to vote other on their behalf)

#not shocked that wen ning and wen qing are winning #but i voted for the nie brothers because i am endlessly in love with the fact that nie huaisang’s devotion to his da-ge is so objectively #unhinged………and yet: next to wei wuxian & jiang cheng? nie huaisang looks perfectly reasonable & very hinged by comparison #also going on a whole schemey quest to ruin your san-ge’s life by way of getting proper vengeance for your da-ge? chef’s kiss no notes i luv #tgcf #mdzs #scum villain #svsss #tumblr polls #jin guangyao is playing 4d chess. nie huaisang is sitting next to him & eating his pieces while he isn’t looking & i support them both. #also please consider: nie mingjue is so large and so gay. #this has jackshit to do with his & nhs’s relationship unless you’re into shipping them; i just appreciate his massive bigness

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it’s time

#ides of march #the simpsons #date related reblogs

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#i scheduled this on april 28th of last year #ides of march #date related reblogs #american girl doll meme #julius caesar

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Your feminism isn't intersectional if it excludes fat women

#important things #feminism #fatphobia #queue

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you have to understand:

#memes #rocky horror picture show #queue

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— Jandy Nelson, I'll Give You the Sun

#mdzs #cql #chengxian #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #yunmeng shuangjie #twin prides of yunmeng #queue