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deans-queen · 2 days

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My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys 🤍

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader (Y/N)

Summary: Dean has been struggling since he got the mark of Cain.. He gets very vulnerable and you let him take advantage of you, in the best way of course!

Inspired song: My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys by Taylor Swift

Warnings: Depressive and obsessive thoughts, SMUT (p in v, oral, wrap it up kids), Mark of Cain Dean behavior, mature and sexual language.

Reader (Y/N)’s P.O.V.

Ever since Dean got the mark of Cain he has been struggling a lot. I’ve tried to help him in any way I can but he won’t let me. But it’s not just me he has been shutting out, it's also Sam, Cass and even Bobby. He just sits in his room with the door locked. Loud rock music was drowning out his screams, and there was pounding against the walls. I felt so much pain for him… when Dean and I started dating, we have been emotionally connected to each other. When he hurts, I hurt and I wish there was a way to take his pain away.

Dean’s P.O.V.

Oh, here we go again

The voices in his head

Called the rain to end our days of wild

The sickest army doll

Purchased at the mall

Rivulets descend my plastic smile

(Inner Monologue)

I can’t do this anymore….

You did this to yourself

You let everyone down

Reader (Y/N)’s P.O.V.

I carefully walked up to Dean’s bedroom door, I couldn’t hear any screams, just the loud music roaring through the walls.

*Knock Knock*

“Dean….?” I said softly. “I know you’re still in there. You keep pushing me away and you can’t do that.” I sighed deeply. I didn’t know how much would get through to him but it was worth a try. “It’s not just me you are hurting, it’s also Sam…he’s so worried about you and Cass is too! You need to let us help you….please Dean!”

The music stopped playing and I heard footsteps coming towards the door. Dean opened the door and he had a scowl expression on his face. I knew it was the mark taking over him, I was scared but I couldn’t let it show.

“You!” He roared at me.

“Yes, it’s me.” I said softly.

“What do you want?”, he said while walking away from me.

“Dean, I came in here to talk to you.” I walked after him and shut the door.

He sat down on his bed and faced away from me.

“I don’t wanna talk, I wanna be alone! I’m too dangerous to be around right now, don’t you get that. One little slip and I could hurt you, or Sam, or even Cass!”

“I don’t care Dean!” I shouted back at him, at this point I wasn’t afraid of him. I knew deep down my Dean was still there, just waiting to come out. I walked over to sit on the bed next to him. I put my hand on top of his, while looking at the mark on his opposite arm. “I know this mark doesn’t reflect who you are! There’s still some part of you that’s inside. You are still you….”

He looked up at me with tears in his eyes, full of anger.

“No, I'm not Y/N. This mark has made me into a monster.”

“I don’t believe that for one damn second Dean. I’m not afraid of you.”

“Well you should be.” He said, his eyes turned dark all of a sudden as he looked at me. But he was looking at me in the way that he wanted me.

I was just staring at him asking if he was okay.

“No I'm not,” he said loudly. I was really scared but also turned on because I knew he wanted me and I wanted him. He stood us both up, grabbed me by my arms, pushed me up against the wall and began kissing me passionately. I didn’t know what to think, part of me knew this was Dean but I knew the mark got him good.. but honestly I’ve been craving this for such a long time so I went with it.

As I started to grab him, “No, I’m doing all of the work baby lay down.” he said strongly.

I began to lay down facing him as he was kissing on my inner thighs, he slowly started to pull down my panties with his teeth and told me to stay still otherwise he would spank me. I was so excited, and that excitement showed when he started to eat me out. His mouth was dripping with cum and spit. I grabbed his head to push him further into my pussy, I could feel his tongue swirling around in places and hearing him groan as soon as I moaned made me feel so good. I knew I had to be a good girl and wait for the rest to happen.

“Oh fuck Dean” I said loudly.

He looked up at me and smiled “Oh this isn’t it baby, I’m just getting started.”

He got up and unzipped his pants and slowly started to insert his dick inside of me. I didn’t know what to expect because it’s been so long and we both moaned in each other's mouths. Dean was going in and out , thrusting his way inside of me.

“You’re mine baby girl, no one else's got that!”

“Yes Dean, I’m all yours. I’m yours to break, destroy whatever you want with me. Take advantage of me, please take your anger out on me.”

“I need you so much.” He said in a husky voice.

My boy only breaks his favorite toys, toys, oh

I’m queen of sand castles he destroys, oh, oh

'Cause it fit too right, puzzle pieces in the dead of night

I should've known it was a matter of time

“I’m going to cum already,” I said, staring into his eyes.

At that moment the real Dean came out, he was so happy and excited that we were making love. He ended up flipping me on my stomach, spanking my ass, licking and biting it all while he stuck his dick in my pussy. The sounds were so wet and my pussy was so sensitive rubbing on his dick. Dean was going faster and faster and he grabbed my arms and held them behind my back and I felt a warm liquid sensation dripping down my ass. “Wow, that was great,” he said. He told me to lay there so he could look at my beautiful naked body for a few more minutes.

I was just so happy that I got to enjoy “My Dean” so I was happy to do whatever for him. Once he told me that I could clean up and get dressed. He looked into my eyes and said "You're just so damn beautiful.” And he walked out the door.

Authors Note:

I’m so sorry I’ve been so inactive! Life has been very busy lately, I promise to start posting more stories!

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mikedfaist · 2 days

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I’ve come to the conclusion that the day I stop connecting Taylor Swift songs to Mike Faist is the day I’m dead. I know you said you don’t listen to her but walk with me here:

In her song Sweet Nothing, there’s a line: “and the voices that implore you should be doing more, to you I can admit that I’m just too soft for all of it.”

And it’s giving famous!reader being absolutely picked apart by the media/public for no reason at all, absolutely needing a soft place to land, and he is definitely that for her ❤️ (I’m in my sad girl era idk I need comfort)

Thank you for listening 😭

A big reason as to why Mike is reluctant to expand his celebrity stature more than it is now, is because he sees what she goes through daily, and quite frankly, he wants nothing to do with it. It looks like hell. If it’s not the harassment – online, or in person – it’s the stalking, the complete and utter disrespect for her safety. What do you mean she can’t go to the store by herself out of fear she will be followed home? In the early years of their relationship, she hid out at his apartment for a week because paparazzi were camping out in front of her apartment after a scandal broke.

For her, Mike is her safety net. He is her safe haven. She carries the weight of the world on her shoulders, but when she is with him, she feels it dissipate. He is the sun breaking through on a cloudy day.

I think it’s a big reason why he seems very closed off when attending public events, like premieres or the MET. The people who are begging to talk to him, to get his picture, to know who he is wearing, are the same people scrutinizing and picking apart every single fucking thing his girl does, all while she is just trying to breathe. She handles it well, but he doesn’t.

Once they are back in the hotel room, she can finally take a deep breath. He sees that invisible blanket dispel, and finally, his girl has returned.

He holds her tighter after these kinds of nights; they’re exhausting, and far too consuming. She lies between his legs, her head resting on his lower stomach, as he runs his fingers through her hair, feeling her drifting to sleep. It comforts him in these moments because nothing hurts her here, and for this little time, she is safe.

#mike faist #mike faist x reader #mike faist imagine #mike faist talk

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dilrmma · 2 hours

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love tropes. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ enhypen as different love tropes : masterlist

lee heeseung ( 이희승 )

bad boy falls for good girl find here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. lee heeseung never believed he could be loved or that love existed, it was a waste of time and truthfully he had no energy to love someone other than himself. at least, that was what he preached before he met you—the valedictorian and goody two shoes of decelis high. maybe now, with you as the light at the end of the tunnel, he’d find love.

# songs afterglow, taylor swift touch it, ariana grande moonlight, chase atlantic she, harry styles

park jongseong ( 박종성 )

famous boxer falls for his assistant find here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. jongseong’s job kept him busy, finding less time to have a life outside of the boxing ring—which included extending his love life. however, when his trainer suddenly introduces his daughter to him, he feels his entire life flip upside down as he finds himself winning for you.

# songs eyes don’t lie, isabel larosa distraction, jack and jack one love, justin bieber million dollar man, lana del rey

sim jaeyun ( 심재윤 )

hopeless romantic stuck in a playboy body find here summary .. sim jaeyun never intended to be such a heartbreaker, he was rushing into love hoping he’d find the one he really needs. he was a lost puppy in a world of experienced. and one day as he strolls aimlessly through a blockbuster store, he finds the store clerk quite interesting and the key to the void in his yearning heart.

# songs french love story, jack and jack tennis court, lorde fools, madison beer already over, sabrina carpenter

park sunghoon ( 박성훈 )

growing up together just a wall away read here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. park sunghoon was a face you saw while throwing out the trash or getting groceries in your moms heels, he was always there, although comforting—he found ways to meddle into your life. like, now, when he suddenly needed a favor from you that could change the trajectory of your entire relationship with said neighbor.

# songs paris, sabrina carpenter plastic palm trees, tate mcrae all that matters, justin bieber style, taylor swift

kim seonwoo ( 김선우 )

grumpy can’t resist sunshine’s charms read here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. kim sunoo was the worst person you’ve ever met. he was clingy, sweet, and thoughtful. the boy also couldn’t take a hint, a hint that you wanted nothing to do with him. you were fine being alone, you were fine with living life quietly. until, you can’t stop your heart from beating faster and your ears from getting hotter every time sunoo speaks to you. you really couldn’t be falling in love, could you?

# songs the way i loved you, taylor swift wildest dreams, taylor swift wish that i could, UMI if you let me, alina baraz

yang jungwon ( 양정원 )

enemies forced into a marriage read here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. ‘till death do us part’ was a reminder in your tense household living with none other than your greatest enemy. you hated his guts, you wished nothing but the worst for him—so why were you suddenly taking care of his wounds and making sure he was being careful? months ago, if you were told you’d be craving his touch and voice you’d call everyone crazy, but why you were the crazy one for feeling this way?

# songs i wanna be yours, artic monkeys hurts so good, astrid s meddle about, chase atlantic art deco, lana del rey

nishimura riki ( 西村力 )

your best friend’s brother is enticing read here ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ summary .. you’ve never batted an eye at your best friend’s older brother, he was average and a little irritating. so, why is it that under the dim lights and alcohol swirling in your system that he was the boy of your dreams? perhaps the liquid courage was helping you realize your hidden feelings for the boy you’ve been sworn off of.

# songs million dollar baby, tommy richman boyfriend, justin bieber escort, chase atlantic heartbeat, childish gambino

note : these are all small drabbles around 1k-1.9k! originally a headcannon but i was writing too much for each so i decided to do this :P gonna be released like one week apart from each other 👍 to keep me busy there are also mini love tropes inside these love tropes because i can’t choose 😵‍💫…

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lostpages · 2 years

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I hope with midnights Taylor shows her vulnerability through the instruments and melodies along with the lyrics. I hope she makes songs soft but haunting and add small sounds like rummaging through kitchen at midnight or pacing in your bedroom or tearing pages from her diaries or soft meows of her cats or the incessant scribbling of her pen while she strikes words out because she is so overwhelmed she can't even begin to write one single verse. I hope she makes a devastatingly, inherently sad album.

#midnights #taylorswift #taylor nation #ts10 #if i want to be hurt i want to be hurt by taylor swift songs

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ilostyou · 1 year

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taylor x 5sos parallels - part 6/?

#as taylor herself once said … don’t say i didn’t warn you (bc i did)#told y’all this one would hurt. there’s another song you can add to this mix to make it worse too xoxo #some half done analysis for anyone who wants it: it’s interesting bc this is kind of the flip side of each other like two dif perspectives #where ydgtp is like. you used to be here and idk why i still think you’ll be here (think. i see your face in every crowd type)#and yoyok is more. you never even cared enough to be here to begin w and idk why i still thought you’d be here #(some cross between ik tht you don’t but if i ask you if you love me etc and i reached for you but you were gone but they were never there)#but obviously the parallel of looking for someone you once loved at a party (the motif being there’s 1000s of others i could choose from #but i only am looking for you idc abt the other people here)#and it’s opposite sides of i loved you you loved me too vs i loved you but you never loved me back and still ending up in the same place #looking for them in a room full of people where they wouldn’t actually be so you don’t know why you’re still looking #you don’t go to parties #parallels #yoyok #midnights #swiftsos parallels #taylor swift lyrics #ydgtp #5 seconds of summer #taylor swift #you’re on your own kid #5sos5 #5sos lyrics #5sos #swiftsos #mparallels

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cinnamon-notes · 5 months

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thinking about how the old widow goes to the stone every day but taylor doesn't, she just sits and waits, grieving for the living, in her house of stone- like- thinking about how the house of stone could mean it's made of graves and she doesn't mention moving, she doesn't have to take action when she's grieving for the living, because she says she sits and waits, so she might as well be doing it in her house, which itself may be a graveyard and like- her house of stone is covered by her affair/lover's ivy growing all over the place, and then her husband she was promised to burns her house to the ground, but stone doesn't get burned. ivy does, though. so she's left with burnt ivy all over her house. yet another grave in her home.

#i didn't want to realize this thing #cuz now it hurts way too much #i mean #ivy was a painful song already !!!#ivy #ivy taylor swift #txt #txt post #cinnamon notes #taylor swift #taylornation #swifties #cinnamon analysis #evermore #evermore taylor swift

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bandsanitizer · 1 month

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I’m not saying happiness officially hits different now but happiness hits different now

#i mean it did since #but like #damn #alison speaks?#taylor swift #FOR ME ITS THE FORGIVENESS LINE VS THE SMALLEST MAN WHO EVER LIVED #ITS FR THAT GROWTH #that you don’t have to forgive people who hurt you #to also want to wish for them to be okay in the future #that there is room to be hurt and angry and still not wishing badly on their future out of understanding of where you both are at / were at #or whatever it may be #and like particularly in reference to addiction #and the acknowledgement of all the shitty parts but also not wanting to take away from the very real struggle it can be #that inherently there is no villian or bad guy #and it absolutely fucking sucks that people made mistakes and people got hurt #but they can move forward and wish each other a future that is not as painful as the past #without ever… forgiving #and that’s okay #you don’t have to forgive people #like i feel like every other past song mentions her forgiving #so for ttpd to explore what about.. not forgiving… is the growth i see

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elizabethmulder · 7 months

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Well you know it wouldn't be a Taylor album release day if I wasn't crying about Dair. Just my brand since '12.

SAY DON'T GO...

#Dair #Dan and Blair #Taylor Swift #1989 (Taylor's Version)#Nace too. they got added into the fold.#Personal #NO I don't want my babies relating to hurtful songs #I said 'I love you' (I said I love you)#You say nothing back #SCREAMS IN AGONY #I cannot bе your friend so I pay the price of what I lost and what it cost NOW THAT WE DON'T TALK #AND YOU KISS ME IN A WAY THAT'S GONNA SCREW ME UP FOREVER #You'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries/ When you hold me .it holds me together #YOU DON'T KNOCK ANYMORE AND MY WHOLE LIFE IS RUINED

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mihrsuri · 10 months

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Listen the extent to which I cannot stop thinking about the moment that Ozorne actually found out where Numair actually was like I want to read it but also PAIN. @dr-dendritic-trees

#book: tamora pierce #siri play exile by taylor swift #I might actually make a Spotify playlist for them and just Have Feelings #Ozorne seeing Jon and Thayet get what I think he dreamed about and always expected would happen for him #(Numair being family to the royals/their kids)#like how much must that have hurt #(writing furious JON OF CONTE IS THE WORST in his journal)#especially as I genuinely will always believe that Ozorne loved Numair/Arram and wanted him back his whole life #Ozarrice as Taylor Swift Songs!#that’s a graphics making challenge

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sargentsblu · 6 months

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you're losing me is now on spotify and i can finally do this

#a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her #she wouldve made such a lovely bride what a shame shes fucked in the head #living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts give me back my girlhood it was mine first #taylor swift #i know there's a heck of a lot of taylor sad songs #and i have another playlist for that #but this #i needed it #for very especific moments

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planetsandthefates · 1 year

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i don’t think we’ve comprehended the fact that taylor somehow managed to make all too well (10 minute version) 100x more emotional with the sad girl autumn version like!!!!!!! im going to die actually this song was already so fucking emotionally powerful and she made it that much more so with merely a piano. i just.

#im.#yeah.#i def still prefer the og 10 min version #but the sad girl autumn version really tears you apart #sarah talks #taylor swift #all too well 10 minute version #this song will always mean so much to me #and it genuinely hurts my feelings when ppl say they dont want to listen to it every night on tour #like literally HOW dare you.#anyway

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monapearlquo · 10 months

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how has it been more than 2 months since I've listened to taylor swift already? omg it feels like a week and yet almost years! i miss listening to her music, but also I've enjoyed listening to other music too, so it hasn't been all bad...

#when will i go back and listen to her again #idk like i want to say I will when she apologizes and actually speaks out but that's never gonna happen #ugh why did she have to fucking date matty #afraid to tag this as taylor swift because of the swifties #i just have had our song and my tears ricochet stuck in my head and i wanna listen to them but I will not do that #standing in support of those who were hurt by her decisions

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wilder-and-lighter · 2 years

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Why superlatives and song rankings are actually terrible

they aren't lol do what you want I personally don't do them but this is a joke bc I've started taking it personally when my favorite songs are at the bottom of someone else's tier list because I am constantly on social media and I've forgotten what actual insults sound like so keep doing whatever the fuck you want on your blog you're doing a great job!!!!

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baysaurus · 2 years

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kind of queerphobic of my german teacher to be here and give us a test first period so I can't spend two hours listening to you're on your own,kid on repeat and think about the two little childhood friends to lovers gays from stranger things

#byler #midnights #taylor swift #the more i listen to this song rhe more it makes me want to scream #its so THEM it hurts #youre on your own kid #the new will byers anthem

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solis-angelus · 4 months

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interesting take on that post which you deleted. But it is kind of weird how she isnt even in the top 30 and yet everyone is hating on her, while travis scott, beyonce etc arent villainized. But sure, you're not a fan right so why would you care.

Jesus fucking christ this is why I deleted the post, despite fully agreeing with it.

Honey, baby, darling, "everybody" is definitely not hating on her and your instantaneous defence proves that. It is not "villianising" her, (said post which i reblogged specifically said that she is not being villianised lmfao, so maybe read the entire thing with an open mind before jumping to conclusions?)

And I marked the post as taylor swift critical, specifically for my swiftie mutuals so that they didn't have to see their god get criticised. I do not understand why you had to go and read that despite the warning tag.

And yes you are absolutely right, I do not care. 😘

Have a good day, bestie.

(I will not tag this with *anti ts* because I am not against her. Hope swifties understand that and not come at me with chainsaws.)

the post anon is referring to

#I absolutely love some of her songs but this is the reason people get pissed off.#taylor swift critical #people can start a war out of nothing. I fucking DELETED that post BECAUSE I didn't want to accidentally hurt any mutual #and/or bring ts discourse on my blog #but lord no u saw the post for 2 secs and ABSOLUTELY HAD TO come trotting on your white horse and jump to defend your god #like brother

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floatinyourorbit · 11 months

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i still cant believe i lost i’m only me when i’m with you it's literally my favorite song from debut how could she do this to me......

#.txt #the eras tour #taylor swift #i am deeply hurt by her actions i really wanted to scream and jump while singing that song at the top of my lungs.....#like you want me to jump? yes ma'am i will beat the high jump record just for you and this song

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