#idk normalize it. stop treating it as some weird alien thing

[dedusmuln]

yeah you support trans people but are you normal about trans men who choose to get pregnant

#i'm not a trans guy who evr wants to get pregnant but #the amount of queer ppl and other trans people i see joke around about like #how weird mpreg or men getting pregnant is #and use it as shock value shit #is really disheartening #like damn dude! it's almost like men CAN get pregnant and there IS a lot of men who choose to get pregnant ! #they don't deserve any less respect for that #and their existence shouldn't be made into a joke #ik mpreg doesn't have a great history but like #it just weirds me out to see people treat the idea of men getting pregnant as something baffling #idk normalize it. stop treating it as some weird alien thing #my textbox #a little bit upset. sorry #discourse #pregnancy #<- for filtering

[henrioo]

Hiii, since i’ve nothing to do and I love rambling, I’ll ramble abt how much I appreciate your writing.

When i first installed tumblr, i was already attacked by she/hers in fanfics (😥😥). Tbh i was tired of fem blogs, thinking everyone is fem or idk . You’re the first one piece blog i actually like. Whenever i want, i can just re-read your blog’s fics and others. I really like your account !! ^_^ finally a good one piece blog, the others aren’t really safe tbh. Like those who wrotes ‘gn!reader’ but hit you with ‘good girl, wife etc..’ or those who feminized ftm!reader.. like tf… anyway live laugh love your account (its really entertaining !!)

— SOSO’S

YES I LOVE RAMBLING TOO THIS BLOG HAVE MORE ME RUMBLING THAN STORIES PLEASE RUMBLE WITH ME

Yeah ik, honestly i know Tumblr before I even think about myself like a trans person, so having fem content didn't bother me at all at that time

But when I got back here last year I realized how much fem content exists, but I was like "nha it's fine, we still have some gn content I will be fine"

Spoilers, I didn't get fine

It's so rare to have real neutral content in gn content that this makes me so frustrated that when I started my blog, I always got this on writing "if you can't find or it's not good enough for you, then make yourself"

And I did and I went pretty fine I guess, at least my gn are really neutral I hope hahaha

But day by day got me more and more frustrated and my dysphoria was getting worse because I was missing having some real valid male content

I need my favorite look at me and say "I love you like a man, like a boyfriend, I want you to be my husband, the father of my children"

I need to read that they also see me like a man.

And then I went to look for male content and well, things can really be worse the deeper you go

And then I realized that male content here is a totally red flag and basically a big NO

Amab or afab doesn't matter, they all gonna treat you like a super shy delicate boy

You're always gonna be the bottom, and if you are the top then the bottom will be a FTM reader (why can't you top a cis man?)

You're always gonna be feminized and like panties and pink and nicknames to shame you like princess and whatever

The worst for me was seeing that most of that stuff was writing of male writers

Like, you are hating your own identity?

I'm sorry if you like to be some weird femboy that likes to be treated like a woman and a slave

But I'm sure most masc people (cis, trans, NB etc) genuinely don't like that

It's totally fine you wanting someone to validate your gender, regardless of the gender okay? That's why cis women like to be called princess and stuff

But seriously, this just makes my dysphoria really bad because omg can't nobody write just a normal male reader? It's not an alien, we are human like everyone, it's like they write about male like they never interacted with a man in their whole life?

Do you guys know that romantic and platonic relationship between gays are basically the same as a couple of lesbian or straight people? Right? We are not different from anyone

Ofc gays have their own fights but like??? Are you getting? Idk how to explain better

Then again the hit "make yourself" and that's what I'm making lol, I have a lot of hiatus due my mental condition, I'm not gonna lie about that

But I'm always doing my best to have more stories here, maybe I won't give you guys new stories every week, maybe I will take some good months on the ask, maybe I will disappear and get back

But I'm not planning on giving up on this project so soon

Writing male stories is healing not only you guys, but me, really healing me

And that's why I won't stop, I want to write about a lot of things, some stories I will talk about more serious things like dysphoria or homophobia because I think it is fair we have good stories talking about this

I want to write about comfort, about angst, about grief, about transitions, I want to write about children readers and happy families

I want to write for FTM boys, NB boys, cis boys

I want platonic, romantic, nsfw, angst, long, short

I want all

Because I think we deserve that, and if I have the power to do then I will do

And see that not only me is being healed by my blog is always what give more determination to continue

Like I said, maybe not as fast as we all wanted, but I'm promise I'm here and I'm not leaving soon

Okay I talked a lot lol hahahah well thanks for that

I'm always happy to see you guys enjoying here, it really makes me happy, so make yourself welcome and enjoy!

#henri talk

[finsterhund]

Past few days have been going in a haze and idk how to feel about it.

Sore, tired, stressed. Not as active online as I would like to be. Getting ready for a convention I don’t know if I even want to go to because I miss Cazza. Can I afford to spend money at the con? No. Do I even have the drive to get art at the con? Also no. Why am I even going then? well I put effort into a cosplay of Kevin from Skinamarink and there’s gonna be star wars cosplayers there I guess.

There was a massive heatwave. A horrible spike in temperature. It’s frying my brain. I hate the heat so much it’s unreal. Miserable. How much of that is why I’m not having a good time? Probably a lot.

I am very very sore. Needed to do laundry days ago already. They don't close the laundry room so I wanted to do it tonight but I'm so tired and weak. Accidentally “just laid down for a bit” and now it is 4AM. Probably gonna do laundry now anyways now that it’s cooler.

Money gets tighter and tighter. It’s honestly depressing. Should be used to it by now but I still hate it. Roommate seems convinced his car is going to die any minute now and is stressing out about trying to find another one and wants me to pitch in. As if I have the disposable income. Personally I think his car is gonna be fine for at least until winter. I’m used to things being run into the ground. He’s been stressed and has been making me stressed too.

Feeling defeated because it’s a struggle trying to repair music boxes when you don’t have the right replacement parts. I now have two broken music boxes. Very sad. The newest broken one is a relatively easy fix with the right part though. The ridge that holds the mainspring in position snapped off of winding key axle. I keep hoping to find broken movements I can cannibalize for parts but that just doesn’t keep happening. I’ve been trying to modify the drum of a particularly difficult movement and I also need to find a replacement mainspring for another. The issue being I don’t want to scavenge from working movements if I don’t have to. When I have some disposable income I should just bite the bullet and buy one of those job lots full of various states of disrepair vintage movements. But yeah. Spent all yesterday trying to modify the one note drum that has a way too fucking long specialized metal rod through its center that prevents it from being put into the base of compatible space movements. Scraped up my fingers about as bad as you can without making them bleed. I love working on mechanisms but not having a success is always very frustrating.

But in theory my music box problems can be solved.

Yet another bean has sprouted. Also my first bean plant is now climbing. Also got my first sunflower sprout. So even though I HATE this temperature my plants in the window fucking love it apparently.

Hoping to find good sunlight emulating LED bulbs for my room. I found cheap grow lights (the weird colored ones) but they're not ideal for anything other than plants. Just gotta make sure they’re not carcinogenic you know?

My neighbor found plant rooting hormone. Can’t wait to illegally download plants. I find it so funny people talking about propagating cuttings online have the nerve to be all “make sure you’re not doing it with a patented plant...uwu” bitch I literally do not care. I will steal every plant. They’re fucking plants. You can’t stop me. (nevermind the fact that I don’t even think I want to propagate the stupid weird patented plants anyways.)

My neighbor is being very nice to me so of course my stupid PTSD brain is telling me it’s a trap. God why can’t you just be fucking normal. Maybe just maybe somebody from an older generation is genuinely a nice person and wants to help you and wants to be your friend? Is that such a fucking alien concept to you? idiot? My brain keeps holdings its breath waiting for the ulterior motives to drop. What’s the catch? Why am I being treated nicely? Maybe there isn’t one. Maybe this is a genuinely nice person and they’re not going to take advantage of you being an idiot child? Maybe learn to trust fucking moron. All this time I’m talking about wishing I could make more friends in-person but I’m too scared of people to feel safe in doing so.

Did not sleep today. Probably not for 24 hours+ so I'm having a nap and rest now that I have some level of downtime. *edit* lol okay so unlike above apparently I did start write this intending to have some level of nap. lmaoooo

I think I’m forgetting to take some of my meds which honestly would explain some things. Roommate doesn’t want me to turn on our AC yet because “it’s expensive” but I am fucking dying dude. Please.

I am so glad Scott has Nexguard. This baby brat will manage to find and eat some random thing he found on the ground before I have a chance to stop him. Fortunately I did prevent him when he found half a dead bird in the yard. Gah.

I guess that is a negative to my grandparents farm. Summers get hot there too. But like, there’s also enough sun that I could make a solar farm and entirely cool the small house with that? Wind farms are viable there too.

Anyways I’m putting off my laundry obligations. :(

#text post #negative #long post

[tastyykpop]

nct dating headcannons!

I only did 127 because there's so many but ill do the others if anyone requests it :)

ɴᴄᴛ ʙғ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴ

Taeil

Mr. Moon Taeil is the definition of a cuddly boyfriend

Hes always holding your hand or kissing your cheek

Definitely gets shy when the members are around but in public youre all his

Hes super sincere about anything too but also knows how to joke around

I mean have you seen him with nct

Hes funny❗❗

Like he's gonna make you laugh no matter what

And those deep convos yall would have at night while cuddling>>>

"What if we were put on earth by aliens as an experiment to see if we would live and everytime we see ufos its just our cousins checking up on us"

Eyes wide open, "bro"

Taeils either the big or small spoon too

There's no in between

Also the biggest baby when yall are chilling

"I call small spoon!"

"But you were the small spoon last night"

"K and what about it"

10/10 would complain if you didn't want to sit with him and watch a movie or show

Would probably guilt trip you by saying you never watch something with him

Hes a sweet manipulator...

But he could easily replace you with one of the members

Like sicheng

Taeil will always ask if you've eaten

If you haven't eaten he gets big sad

Don't make him sad

Plus hes always checking on your health

And he'll know if your lying if you say you're doing fine when you're not

Also don't lie in general cuz he doesn't like that

That would make him trust you a bit less and he definitely wants trust in the relationship

Trust is a huge key or hes out

Johnny

This man 🥲

Boyfriend Material™

So gentle and loving

Loves making you feel special and will hype the shit out of you when you don't feel confident doing something

Will always make sure you're doing okay

Johnny puts in so much effort to make this relationship work and expects you to put the same amount of effort into it too

Like taeil, hes really big on trust

Add honesty to that list

Plus he expects you to be mature when needed

If you're the type of person who depends on someone else for everything and I'm mean everything he will actually leave

Hes not your babysitter❤

But he will take care of you to some extent

Like basic things for instance

He'll make you food if you're sick, get you water if your dehydrated, will get your feminine products when you need it

Very sweet😌

Okay and he spoils you but wbk

"Why are you getting me so much things?"

"Because I love you."

"But why did you get me a kitten costume???"

He has some kinks to work out 😐

Johnny will go to shop after shop even if you say you don't want something (you do but you just don't want him to pay) he'll get it without batting an eye

"Youve been staring at these shoes for 5 minutes imma buy them for you"

"Huh? No! I-"

"Too late"

will take you out to dinner all the time just to be romantic

Hes actually really good at romantic stuff

I say Johnny you say whipped

Johnny👀

Whipped😫

His free time is always you time

So don't bother saying your busy cuz now hes busy with you

"Johnny i got a test coming up can you come later? I need to study

"Thats cute im coming over to help"

Taeyong

Judging taeyong on his looks, some say he would be cold to his girlfriend

Like a tsundere

But the man is quite the opposite

Though he can be stern if need be

He has 22 children what do you expect

Will literally treat you like his members and always taking care of you

But there will be times when you have to take care of him because hes so tired from work

He turns into a baby when he's tired or lazy too

So wrap him in a burrito blanket and hes all set for the day

Makes weird noises but thats normal

You're just watching tv and hes just making some old video game sounds with his mouth

No one questions it

If he didnt make sounds you'd probably question it

Talks in pout if he doesn't get his way with you

"Why don't you wanna play games with me~"

"Bruh I'm tired"

Or just gives you those big puppy eyes without even trying

Complete other person when you're not listening

He just kinda stares at you all intimidating like until you listen

Taeyong won't do anything too bad if you kept ignoring him, but you don't know that

Omg bro he'd literally bring you on vlive with him to chat

Even if the company is like '???Shes not an idol???'

But its taeyong so SM doesn't care🧍‍♂️

"We have special guest again! Its y/n-ah!!"

You'd be just chilling on his bed giving him a wtf look until you realize there's a camera and smile

"Shes cute. Isn't she cute guys?"

Don't try to escape the vlive, he'll just get up and sit you on his lap

Makes everyone watching jelly🥲

Bro he would make fun of you the same way he makes fun of doyoung

you'd be sitting with doyoung or sumn and taeyong just comes up to the both of you and decides

'Its time to end these two'

You and doyoung are just like 'tf did we do'

Somehow some other members are making fun of yall

Of course they aren't mean

Its all fun and games and gives you a good laugh after

Doyoung

Hes literally a mom

But its ok

You love it

Sometimes

He also nags a lot

And if you don't listen he gets mad

You wouldn't tell him this but you find it funny

And cute🤐

"Youre almost as bad as dream" 

"what are u talking about im an angel"

"Kay then put the knife down we kinda need haechan to live"

Hes beaten you with a pillow once

In front of taeyong

Taeyong was watching like 👁👄👁

I dont think he cares much for pda tbh

But he doesn't hate it

He'll hug you a lot

And doyoung will probably kiss you here and there

But thats depending on his mood

If he's tired he'd probably just hold you in his arms

Either way he still makes you smile even with the smallest of touches

When you guys go out in public doyoung always holds your hand

I mean always

Remember when I said he doesn't seem like the type to be into pda

I lied

Doyoung wants everyone to know youre his

He won't kiss you but he will pull you into random hugs and hold your hand like he's gonna lose you any second

Doyoung also can't go anywhere without dressing his best

Like even if he's just practicing he's gotta look cute

And he always does because he's fucking kim doyoung

Doyoung also has a habit to make up names for you

Like one day he'll call you babe/baby

The next day could be angel or princess

Then there's you who just calls him bunny because he hates (loves) it

Expect some random gifts from him

Cuz like Johnny, he likes to spoil you

he just loves the smile thats plastered on your face

Pinches your cheeks evey time you smile too

When you guys are just chilling in the dorms you are always doing something to make doyoung get "angry"

"Angry" doyoung is a fun doyoung

Says you and taeyong 🤭

Literally will chase you around the dorm until he gets you and "scolds you"

Hell also scold taeyong

Sometimes you prank him with the other members

*cough*haechan*cough*

But doyoung knows youre just being playful

So he kinda laughs at you

Yuta

Hes a devil

Wbk

He can go from calling you the cutest lil thang to saying the most inappropriate stuff

"U have such a pretty mouth" 

"no stop" 

"how about u use it on my-"

"OUT DEMON"

Besides that he's actually very nice

Although he doesn't really show his affection like how most couples would

At first hes kinda like a "cold boyfriend" but not?

Gives off a tsundere kinda vibe

He lives for pda

Especially if you initiate it

His favorite is kissing your neck

Not in a sexual way or trying to give you hickeys tho

He just comes over and kisses it

Probably has a neck kink 😳

Same 😌

When you guys are out in public his arm is always around your waist or shoulders

He gets easily jealous when you give anyone any attention

Especially if you have a pet

He will be pouty for God knows how long until you notice

"I'll make it up to you"

"ok then prove it *pats his lap*"

"...I can and will replace you with this animal"

Will not let a dude flirt with you

If he sees a dude flirt with you he just gives them ㄒ卄乇 ㄥㄖㄖҜ

Lowkey hot

But sometimes gives you that look if u aren't listening to him

Its an advantage

Freaks you out tho

When your sitting on the couch minding your own damn business yuta always pulls you onto his lap or sits you between his legs

He really likes to be close to you

So when you guys are sitting he keeps his head on your shoulder and his arms wrapped around you gently rocking you both

Omg im making myself feel single

If you are sad yuta will always be the first person you lean on

Even if its not serious

"Who do I need to fuck up?"

"Im literally just on my period..."

The members sometimes tease him because they'd never seen him so in love

He looks at you like ur his everything

Because you are

He'll tell you that too

If you say something bad about urself he gives you a whole ass lecture about how u should love yourself the way he loves you

He'd be talking for 25 minutes but you stopped listening 30 minutes ago

Literally scolds you for not listening

Loves how well you get along with the members

But also hates how well you get along with specific members because of how similar you are with them

What I'm trying to say is that you are a bit too similar to mark🚶‍♂️

Jaehyun

Frat boy boyfriend

Lowkey wants to fuck everyday

Idk he gives off that vibe

But jaehyuns just chill half the time

Hes like an American boyfriend like bitch you're Korean 👁👄👁

Hes super cuddly and warm

Thats weird wait

Like when you're cold just snuggle into him because body heat <3

Always loosely has his arms around your waist when just laying down

Whole different story if you're sitting on his lap and just standing around

Back hugs😫😫

Dead ass the first thing he does if he sees you is give you a back hug

It works for a lot of things

Surprise? Back hug

You're cooking? Back hug

Horny? Back hug

Solves his life problems basically

Hes a freak omg

Very flirtatious too

Hes just that bitch

Either he makes you blush or roll your eyes

"Y/n you're ass is fat"

Def an ass guy😑

Hes the type of guy to put his hands in your jeans back pocket

Wait no im feeling jaehyun too much rn

BUT MY POINT STILL STANDS

Or when yall hug his hand doesn't rest on your back but your ass

If you're wearing some shorts or something that makes your but pop

Hes gonna smack it and pretend like nothing happened

Yo someone pls save me im in my jae feels

Nah I've been talking about his ass kink for too long

Ummmm

Okay for real though jaes actually really nice and kind of careless when it comes to you

Fuck everyone else, if you've fallen and scraped your knee hes gonna be that soccer mom and rip a band aid out of nowhere

But if one of his members scraped their knee he'd just look the other way and smile like nothing happened

Earlier I said he was chill but hes also loud too

You walk into the dorms and the first thing you hear is "Y/N!!" Wyd?

You swear he doesn't realize how loud he is half the time because of that deep voice

This bitch always makes sure youre healthy and tries to take you to the gym with him

It dont work cuz this bitch just stares at your ass

Nah I need to do the next member

Jungwoo

hes literally the cutest especially around you

When he greets you its basically a whole ass bear hug

Whole lots a kissing

Literally doesn't care where you guys are

He will kiss you anywhere

Loves to kiss your forehead because he doesn't have to bend down as much🤭

doesnt care if the members are there

Nobody ever questions it either

"youre my baby right?"

"jungwoo-"

"riGhT?"

"Yes...."

He does aegyo if he doesn't get his way

It works every time don't lie

Will probably sit on your lap for some reason

Hes not light

But if you can do it so can he

you guys never get into fights

Even if you do its never anything serious

"you fucking pushed me so u could win"

"false I accidentally bumped my arm into urs"

"whats accidental is the murder im going to commit"

"what?"

"What?"

Smh young love

Going shopping with jungwoo is like shopping with a kid

Will beg for any food he lays his eyes on

"Omg can we get cookies?🥺"

"only if your paying"

“*gently places cookie dough back* lmao cookies? Never heard of her"

No matter how tired the boy is he will always find time for you

Hell take you too your favorite restaurants and even if you insist on paying he wont let you

If you don't marry him I will

When you guys are walking in public he will always be holding your hand

Says its because he doesn't want you to get lost

But you know damn well its actually him who doesn't want to get lost😳

Jk you just know he wants to be close to you

If you make any suggestive joke he always knows how to counterpart it

Leaving you speechless like the members

When you guys are going to bed he has his arms wrapped around your waist

first thing jungwoo does before sleeping is giving you a kiss

Doesn't care if your asleep or awake

Then a quiet 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢

Mark

i dont even know how to explain this relationship bruh

like its mark lee its gonna be a weird time

ok so marks actually hella nice

kinda bro or dude zones you but you do it back

theres a bunch of yo’s too

as someone who says yo a lot im happy i can relate to him

“yo youre doing that wrong though”

“dude im literally reading the directions, it said 3 cups of water”

“bro it says 3/4 oh my god”

yall cant cook 

taeyong wont even allow even you to help him cook

anyway marks special

but seriously marks actually a very gentle person with you

like legit is super nice to you even if you sometimes piss him off

marks probablys only been mad at you once then was like ‘its okay’

go to his practices cuz he loves that shit

he really likes when you are social with the members too

cuz then you guys are all friends and he can just bring you to places with them :D

this kid will literally not to pda in front of any member so you have to basically force him to just hug you

johnnys always making fun of you two and mark panics everytime while youre just like ‘yeah what about it’

compliment mark and hes blushing and squealing like an anime girl

inch resting concept 

“mark you look cute today”

“o-oh um..yeah thanks”

and this man can take compliments but with you its a whole new story

aight lemme get serious

marks mad sensitive 

so dont actually purposely make him mad, jealous, or upset

it would crush him

and he doesnt want someone like that in a relationship

cuz if he doesnt purposely do it to you, dont do it to him

take notes 

Haechan

hes a brat bye

would actually fight you just to get his way

makes fun of you on a regular

thinks hes cute 

hes not wrong

but actually he knows how to act mature when he needs to

like if youre genuinly getting upset with him, he will straighten up and quicky apologize, even give you a phat kiss and hug

might take you to get ice cream after if he really upset you

he can be nice

nah jk hes very nice and is a really energetic boyfriend

haechan always wants to do something with you liek go to the amusement park, go out to eat, or go shopping

sometimes makes everything seem like a hassle to leave and go somewhere with you cuz hes either lazy or playing video games

“cant you just go by yourself?”

“but what if i get lost”

“the ice cream place is literally five miles away”

“actually its seven so im gonna get lost”

hed groan the whole time just to be annoying but you dont care cuz you got your ice cream

if you go to any concert or practice, haechan always has to make things more sexy than they should be

like ‘fool’ became hella sexual and for what

its probably one of his favorites to make you blush

he loves your reactions

keeps him alive

hyucks always got something to say even at the most awful times

youre literally choking on water and he goes “ill give you something to choke on later”

and you have to cancel your dying session to smack his head

my guy has no filter

and he wont even hide that around the members

theres always that smirk on his cute ass face if he succeeds too

i have the sudden urge to fight him

#nct #nct smut #nct fluff #nct angst #nct headcannons #nct 127 #nct dream #nct u #wayv #nct 2020 #kpop smut #kpop fluff #kpop angst #kpop headcannons #lee taeyong #moon taeil #johnny suh #kim doyoung #nakamoto yuta #jung jaehyun #kim jungwoo #mark lee #lee haechan

[wannabecoyote]

Sasha woke up, she didn’t remember falling asleep but that’s just every Tuesday for her. Her whole body is sore and lethargic, also a normal Tuesday. What isn’t a normal Tuesday however is WAKING UP IN AN UNFAMILIAR CELL. She very much does not appreciate being imprisoned for god knows whatever reason or at all really. She sat up and tried to practice the breathing exercise she and her friends found.

Breathe in for four seconds. Hold for seven. Breathe out for eight.

Rinse and repeat.

She swallowed once she feels calm enough and looked around the room. She’s very surprised that she isn’t descending into yet another panic attack but she ain’t gonna question her good luck now.

She felt for her phone and breathed out a sigh of relief when she found it is still in her pocket. With trembling hands she typed a message to her friend.

‘dude I could be dying rn. im pretty sure I was kidnapped. no cap. idk where I am. keep my witch stuff.’

She took a picture of the cell and sent it to Dylan.

She pocketed her phone with another inhale to fortify herself. She looked around and found her cell sealed with a laser beam thing. Like a sheet of light keeping her in. Like some real Steven Universe shit.

She walked up to it and tried to touch it. She pulled her hand back with a curse when she was zapped unceremoniously by the rude laser. She started flicking her hand trying and failing to shake the pain off.

She put her singed finger in her mouth and looked around for something that could help her. To the opposite of the laser gate was her cot, a raised platform that comes up to her thighs and padded with cushion. To the right hand side was a sink with running water and a glass near it. She assumed that was for her to drink. All she found that are detachable from their posts are pillows, the glass, and blankets. She walked over and snatched the pillow from the cot to test it against the laser.

She held the pillow forward and slowly touched the other side to the laser. She was startled from this when a something moved in the hallway. She threw the pillow away and focused on the figure that slithering closer to her cell by the minute.

She pulled a face of disgust when a weird hybrid of gorgons, aliens from the movie Aliens, and freaking predators came in front of her. It was very disconcerting.

“Human, you are before your queen, bow.” The talking monstrosity said.

The audacity!

“I’m sorry but you ain’t my queen. My queen is Sappho and you don’t look anything like her,” she said and the guards beside the queen gasped.

The queen’s face distorted in anger. Sasha’s face showed her disgust at how uglier the queen became.

“Eugh, dude seriously ngl you look like someone punched your mother’s stomach when she was carrying you and then when she gave birth to you she somehow dropped you multiple times because she always gets surprised by how ugly you are,” she said with a shrug. If she was gonna die, she’s gonna make the most of what she has right now.

The guy on the left let out a noise that sounded a lot like a laugh. Sasha smiled proudly and gave the alien a wink. It feels good to know someone appreciates your humor. They stepped back a bit, spooked. The queen’s face becomes more distorted but this time she was looking at the alien that laughed.

“You find this amusing? You are nothing but dust in the cosmos. You are nothing. Remember your place [species slur]!” she shouted at them. The poor guy bowed their head and uttered a silent acquiescence.

“HEY DON’T YOU FUCKING SAY THAT TO THEM YOU NIGHTMARE IN ELMS STREET LOOKING ASS!” Sasha shouted. NOBODY, FUCKING NOBODY FUCKS WITH THE ALIEN GUY. HE IS B A B Y.

Both aliens looked at her, one with a look of horrified admiration, and the other with pure contempt in her eyes. Nine of them. Creepy. Why’s it gotta be a fucking odd? Why fucking nine? It’s fucking gross. Eugh.

She was startled out of her disgust for the nine eyes by the sound of someone pressing in the code for her cell…presumably. The laser wall disappeared and the queen loomed ominously over her. She bolted as soon as she can. Narrowly dodging the disgusting snake alien thing that tried to strike her. She took the alien’s appendage and ran. Dragging them along with her to wherever the fuck.

“Why are you doing this human? I am not an ideal hostage, no one cares about me,” the alien said. Sasha’s heart broke with the way that they said it. As if it was something factual. No one should be made to feel like that. If she was gonna escape she’s gonna take this bean with her.

“You are not a hostage,” she said. Behind them the queen is screaming profanities at everyone and the soldiers are gaining on them. “You’re a friend, I can see that you hate it here. You’re as much of a prisoner as I am. We’re gonna get out of here, yeah?” she looked back and her alien friend nodded with a look of disbelief on their face.

“Why?”

“Because they don’t treat you right.”

“That doesn’t have anything to do with you, besides, I will slow you down.”

“Of course it does! I made you laugh, you’re my friend now.”

“What exactly is a friend? You’ve mentioned it twice now.”

“You don’t know what friends are?!”

“I do not. I am sorry,”

“No! Don’t be! I wasn’t mad at you or anything.” She sighed, this is difficult. “A friend is someone that you like, someone you spend your time with. Someone that you can rely on. Someone who can rely on you.”

“…and I am your friend? How?”

“Like I said, you laughed at my joke.”

“That sounds superficial, especially compared to what you mentioned friendship entailed.”

“It doesn’t have to be really deep, does it? I like you because I do. Do you not want to be my friend?”

“It is not that I do not, it is that I do not understand why you would want to be mine.”

“I just do okay? You’re a great dude.”

She looked at the soldiers chasing after them.

“How many?” she asked the confused alien. “Few. There aren’t much.” She nodded and asked where they are as they ran for their lives. They yelled out directions and she followed as best as she could.

She ran faster than she ever has in her life. Adrenaline pumped through her veins. Her alien friend tried but they couldn’t keep up with her. They lagged behind but she wouldn’t leave them. She couldn’t.

They reminded her too much of herself.

So she stood. In front of him. Shielding him from the soldiers that had caught up with them. Her friend told her to run. To leave them. To save herself. She didn’t.

The first soldier engaged her and she punched him. Remembering all those self-defense lessons from tiktok. They were bipedal and has almost the same structure as humans so she assumed they have similar anatomy. Her assumption proved true when the alien she punched in the throat gasped and flailed for air. Her confidence renewed she jumped to the next alien. She tore through them, using everything she has on her arsenal. Her hands, fingers, nails, feet, her teeth, and everything else that she has.

They were fragile. They were easy to destroy. She has cuts all over her body but she cannot feel pain right now. Her friend is looking around at the carnage she has brought with fear in their eyes.  All the fight left her body when they looked at her with fear. She moved forward to reassure them that everything was going to be okay but the queen arrived.

She was holding a gun of a sort and she was pointing it at Sasha. She ran straight for the queen, her teeth barred, screaming at the top of her lungs.

The queen expecting her to run was thrown off guard when she slammed against her. Sasha rained punches on her captor. Blindly smashing and hitting. The sound of pounding of flesh and bones crunching filled the air. She did not stop until two arms wrapped around her and restrained her.

“…okay, it’s gonna be okay. It’s alright, you’re alright. You’re safe.” It was a familiar voice. She didn’t know whose voice. She can feel the strength leaving her body. She hasn’t slept in two days.

“Alien… friend… safe..?” she asked, slowly losing her consciousness.

“Yes, your alien fiend is safe.” He sounds like he’s smiling.

#humans are space orcs #humans are weird #humans are space australians #humans are insane #humans are deathworlders #humans are adorable #earth is a deathworld #earth is space australia #aliens #alien #alien friend #friendship #violence kinda #gen Z #i dont fucking know aymore

[ot3]

Late on the whole 'why do you follow me' but you literally give off some of the most (unintentional) batshit intimidating vibes on this site. Its great, refreshing even. Finding a big functional adult creator who interacts w their audience in a candid way/cuts the BS is a very novel thing for me and. man idk. tumblruser OT3 is this cool orb on my shelf I ponder sometimes.

On the one hand I DEEPLY admire your work and persona. Very much so. but on the other, there's nothing i'd want less than to to interact with you beyond this very shallow, very fun social convention you've set up here with these asks. Like. Like i'd definitely come to you for some personal sage wisdom (which is pretty weird, idk you) but then you interact with my posts on occasion and then i feel like. Blindsided. This should be a one way street. Am i making sense.

well im glad at least someone thinks im functional because let me tell you not very high up on the list of words i used to describe myself i am sort of in shambles right now on most levels. but also i feel like in general i think this ask is less flattering than you intended it to be.

as much as its good to understand that you don't really know people online i think it's also kind of not great to assume that they have a social media persona either. like this is not a persona this is just my Personality. i'm just like this. if i was going to construct some idealized or curated social media presence it would not look like this at all. i would much rather come off as someone who is distinctly less emotionally volatile and stop getting mad about petty fandom stuff that doesn't matter. but unfortunately i can't do that even when i try so it's all more or less what it says on the tin.

i really do appreciate the admiration, don't get me wrong, it's genuinely heartening to know people look up to me in any way. but i don't think there's ever a way to tell a person 'the way you behave makes me not want to interact with you the way id interact with a normal person' that doesn't feel kind of weird to receive.

like, i dont know theres always this strange back and forth where half the people Online are like 'if you want to be friends with people online start acting like youre already friends!' and the other half are like 'avoid overfamiliarity with internet strangers because theyre not your friends and you mean nothing to them' and i think the much happier medium is to treat internet strangers not like friend and not like a completely different species but just as a peer you haven't really engaged with yet. like. it absolutely SHOULD be a two way street that's what Online is for. if i was only interested in output and didn't want any input i just wouldn't reply to anybody.

it's a little weird to hear 'i would ask you for advice but i don't want to actually have a regular interaction with you.' i'm not sitting here in some zoo enclosure that other people are coming up to, we're both just sort of wandering around the mall and bumping into each other occasionally. like i'm not trying to sit here and soapbox at the greater tumblr population it just comes off like that because im wordy and opinionated but for the most part i just say whatever comes to mind and engage in any discussion that feels fun or interesting to me.

the sort of conception you have of me seems to be way more tactical or hierarchical and structured than what im actually doing and i guess that's something i'm a bit sensitive about, personally. for some reason for a not insignificant amount of people have seemed to get the impression that i am somehow manipulative or strategically inauthentic in my social interactions and it's caused a lot of problems for me. but like i just like talking about things online really and it can be kind of alienating to hear stuff like this. if that makes any sense

#oh this is a lot of paragraphs sorry im in a weird mood today

[writhe]

uhh body feels big cw for body image / weight stuff? 

i’m not sure how to write about this tactfully since this is something i don’t really talk to anyone about, not fully, and never have really tried to 

been having a lot of strange body feels, mostly good. i had a lot of VERRYYY disordered/harmful ideologies/practices surrounding food imposed on me at a very young age. it shaped the ways I’ve been able to engage with food/movement/the world around me in a way i always figured was sort of normal until i realized it really wasn’t 

it was a really alienating and isolating experience! i know it’s similar to a lot of other people’s, but it’s one that’s hard to talk about and explain and it’s also one that doesn’t feel good to describe 

but, like, I think this last year or so is the first time i’ve ever felt, like, fully comfortable in physicality. I it is also the first time since I was pretty young that I’ve just eaten whatever I want without restricting myself or making nonsensical, terrible rules and it’s felt really good. i’ve tried a lot more things. i’ve learned more about what i actually like 

and same goes for movement- it was very complicated. it was always in flux between overexertion or not doing anything at all (as a response to grief, mostly) and both of these things felt like punishments in their own right 

but, as of these last two years, i love hiking. i love walking. i love climbing, i love running, i love swimming and jumping around with halliwell. it’s just fun and i feel strong and very free. and i love that i can, like, do these things and then feel a hunger so deep without it feeling shameful and i love that i know I can just eat until i do not feel hungry and the best part is i’m doing it because i WANT to and because it feels good and not as some form of ritualistic & desperate self-harm

new feelings are arising these days. yeah, my body has changed. it still is. i gained a lot of weight when i was grieving -and i think that i had to in that it was survival and i wish it was met with, like, neutrality? decency?- and i still feel frustrated by the ways i was treated when that happened, even by people very close to me. I lost a bunch later (and, like, only after I’d worked though a lot of the restrictive habits so i’m really not trying to pedal any sort of ‘dieting and weight loss is good!’ thing here AT ALL, it was just that i want to point out that this coincided with me engaging with food/movement in a healthy and non-obsessive way)

but, like, idk, i mentioned in a group chat about wanting to go for a run after work and one of my friends, well-intentioned, was like ‘make sure you are eating and nourishing your body with food’ which was like....idk? made me feel weird. i can’t fault anyone for not understanding something so internal but it was hard not to bristle at the implication that i DON’T do that. i’m not mad or upset with anyone since obviously it was coming from a place of care 

but like....i’ve only seen my family a couple times in the past year and they want to talk about how different i look- what i’m doing, etc. outside of this, it has felt good to be honest if i do or do not want to eat something and my grandma was trying to get me to take, like, a huge tray of croissants home and I didn’t really want to. it wasn’t a stance- I’m just not a huge fan of bread and i feel bad about throwing away food that’s perfectly good. everyone thought it was a show of temperance and someone said something like “oh yeah i bet you don’t eat that anymore” and I just like....did not know what to say to that? it’s hard not to come off as combative when you gawk at something that’s supposed to be a compliment 

and then, like, my aunt pulled me aside and asked what i was doing to lose weight...like, straight up asked me if i was on a diet, and i was like, so caught off guard. i literally never ever want to try any sort of ‘diet’ again in my life. and like i wasn’t sure how to answer her question- because I’m doing literally nothing, there are no rules or restrictions. there is nothing that i don’t eat, there is nothing that I do out of some artificial obligation to creating a deficit. it’s just almost, like, if you stop torturing yourself by withholding food your body will just...stop feeling starved and desperate and you just stop thinking about it. I ended up telling her that I just started cooking for myself a lot more and figuring out what I actually really like but i felt backed into a corner and i’m still unsure how to articulate that prioritizing pleasure and fun over, like, unachievable aesthetics has kind of been the main goal versus, like, body changes that happened inadvertently as a result of making myself suffer less 

it still is very complicated. when people i haven’t seen in a while tell me i look great i don’t like knowing that they are comparing the current version of myself who has learned a better way to survive to the past version, who was also surviving the best he could. and it feels hard to not WANT to be a little showy with my body, where i feel strong and safe, but i’m worried it comes off as some sort of pointed ‘im smaller now!’ when in reality it’s just that, idk, i’ve never been ABLE to feel this good, even when i was, like, a lot smaller than i am now and was literally starving 

wrapping this up now. if you read this, thanks? 

[cherrymagik]

How tua tv show ruined hotel oblivion

Before I say anything: THIS IS IN NO WAY AN ATTACK TOWARDS ANYONE YOU ARE 100% FREE TO ENJOY WHATEVER CONTENT YOU WANT THIS IS JUST MY OPINION AND YOU ARE FREE TO DISAGREE (just don’t be an asshole abt and we’re good) also SPOILERS!!! for both tv show and comics

(a while back I saw a post by @fivehargreeves and i have since then been putting off this post bc i want to elaborate on it but i am too lazy and i know i never really post stuff here but this is something i feel really strongly abt especially after that s2 finale)

When I first read the umbrella academy comics one of the things I loved the most about was the world building. It was so crazy and weird (in a good way) and while I still loved the story and characters, for me the most fascinating part of them was the world. It was a world so much like ours, yet completely different and the little details in the background or those offhand mentions of aliens or other "weird" stuff made the tua world feel more alive and interesting. So obviously when n*tflix announced they were adapting the comics into a show i was thrilled. But when I watched it I was... disappointed to say the least :/

Ex. 1 The Umbrella Academy's debut- In the comics, the first time the world met the umbrella academy was when "the day Eiffel Tower went berserk" (literally)

It turns out the Eiffel Tower had been a spaceship all along establishing the first villain in the comics: Zombie Robot Gustave Eiffel. But the innthe tv show we get.... a bank robbery 😐 (not as impressive as the Eiffel Tower imo) THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SUPERHEROES FOR GODS SAKE! Why are they fighting petty crime? Let them fight the Eiffel Tower you cowards!!!

Ex. 2 The Orchestra Verdammten- (@/fivehargreeves post talks specifically abt this issue and summarizes most of my thoughts so i will say very little on this point) In the comics the main antagonist for vol.1 was an orchestra made up of musicians who had gone crazy (for one reason or another) and gone missing after joining the Orchestra Verdammten. But once again the villain is replaced with something very common and might I say mediocre. This as we will see is a running thing in the show: make most of the elements that made the comics stand out and replace them with more common/normal elements.

Ex. 3 Watering down/changing most characters' powers- Would you believe me if I told you it was Klaus that stopped the moon from colliding with earth? No you wouldn’t because in the tv show his powers are so... useless. And he was not the only one who’s powers got watered down (even though he is one of the most notable examples)

Luther/Spaceboy: his powers remain the same (as far as we have seen) however I am detaching points bc i don’t like how his character arc was handled in the show

Diego/The Kraken: first of all WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK HES CALLED THE KRAKEN -A MARINE MONSTER- YOU IDIOTS???!!! but seriously, why did they ever think it was a good idea to ever change his powers? It takes away so much from his character! Diego’s power is breathing underwater not whatever object manipulation bullshit they gave him in the show. His powers have NOTHING to do with knife throwing yet he is still as good at it in the comics as in the show; he got that good just from practice. He obsessive with his goals and we don’t get to see that in the show bc they completely changed his powers!!! They just took part of The Séance's and gave them to him! (@/fivehargreeves also has another post on this so go check it out bc it’s better worded than mine)

Allison/The Rumor: Oh my god I could talk about her all day and how dirty they did her in the tv show!!! In the comics Allison has the power to alter REALITY ITSELF

see: (click images to view)

she manifested a whole ass statue to life! And in vol.2 (the Kennedy assassination one) she was the one that killed Kennedy! She made his head explode just by rumoring him. But noooooo they had to sideline her in s2 so they could pursue a side plot for 'wokeness points' (i am happy that they dealt with the racism she would most likely have faced in the 1960's BUT they took away ALL her protagonism in the comics and had her be a minor character) if it hadn’t been for Allison the world would have ended -> murdering Kennedy was the only way to save the world

Klaus/The Séance: ugh where do i start? Klaus is extremely powerful in the comics, like I said he was able to stop the moon from colliding with earth. Not only did they have his powers watered down, they also took away all his telekinetic abilities in the show. Also, the only way his powers can be blocked is when he’s wearing shoes not drugs (i also want to point out that the way his addiction is treated in the show is weird and sometimes even uncomfortable to me but that is another topic for another time). His ability to summon the dead are almost nothing like in the show as compared to the comics he is called The Séance you know but whatever where he not only does he speak TO the dead he can also MANIFEST them through him which was probably the most important factor in stopping Vanya/The White Violin in Apocalypse Suite + not giving him his EXTREMELY WELL DESERVED FAME!!! 😤 THE AUDACITY!!! (I have talked abt Klaus before on another post)

Number Five: I don’t have much to say about him except that he is a lot darker in the comics and not as loving about his family as they make him in the show *cough* shooting vanya in the head *cough* but for the most part.... he’s fine ig (my main problem is they make him idk? too playful(?) in s1 when he actually he is all dry humor and dark jokes)

Ben/The Horror: doesn’t really appear in the comics so nothing to say here

Vanya/The White Violin: not including her transformation in the show was cowardly and having her be manipulated by a man was uh kinda problematic if I may say so. We only ever see her use her powers in vol.1 since she was crippled by getting shot in the head at the end of it and hasn’t been able to do much since then. Her story has been completely changed in the show and i am still not completely sure i like it. Her dealing with trauma and coming to terms with her childhood are quickly brushed away and not really delved into as opposed to the comics where she is still trying to process it

Ex. 4 Technology- The World in the comics is a lot more sci-fi than in the show where it almost an exact copy of ours. For one: the chimpanzees. In the comics Pogo isn’t the only one, we can see a lot of others in the background

Also stuff like the televator or the hotel oblivion are never mentioned or alluded to in the show

Now to get to the main point of this post: IT IS IMPOSSIBLE AT THIS POINT THAT THE TV SHOW WILL BE ABLE TO FOLLOW HOTEL OBLIVION'S PLOT BECAUSE IT DEPENDS ON THERE BEING VILLAINS!!!

This are superhero comics! Maybe we don’t see them fighting all the villains that appear in hotel oblivion, but the fact is that they are there! They are part of the world and part of what makes it breathe and come alive on the pages. To paraphrase (albeit a VERY simplified paraphrase) Watchmen (don’t tell me it didn’t influence tua bc IT DID and i can prove it) 'if there are superheroes then there are villains' especially in a world where superpowers exist and technology is a lot more advanced than in watchmen where they were all normal people (with the exception of dr. manhattan). But by dumbing down the world in the show we are left with a flavorless setting that has no effect whatsoever on the plot (compared to the comics). Maybe some aspects like the Sparrow Academy will be included (I am kinda scared to think where they will go with it) but it won’t be Hotel Oblivion. In s1 I could point out where the comics had influenced the show, hell even in s2 you could see the comic's influence but... Hotel Oblivion? I don’t see any possibility of it getting to tv and that’s the truth

#the umbrella academy #hotel oblivion #ua comic #this sucks bc hotel oblivion was probably my favourite volume

[sweetescapeartist]

Since there is barely anybody that looks at this blog now, imma say some things now that I'll reveal later on Twitter (maybe). Also this is gonna be a long read so you can read if you wanna or not. Its kinda a rant.

I started this blog because I liked Dragon Ball and wanted to share my ideas and things I liked with other fans. I enjoyed that. Krillin is my favorite character so I wanted to show him some love & maybe get more ppl to like him. Then eventually I started drawing nsfw art.

I began doing so because there's a great lack of Krillin positive nsfw art. Eventually on my Twitter, I gathered a following that like to see Krillin getting some love. I also went from sfw with my OC Tobi to drawing nsfw. The problem I have with both is that I don't have time as much to draw what is like to. Nor do I care as much for nsfw art.

So this is what I'm trying to say. I have other things I want to do. I draw for free and accept some requests. I'm not getting paid and I feel like I'm wasting my time somewhat. The positive is that more ppl have come to like Krillin and hopefully more will later. There aren't a lot of nsfw artist that promote Krillin. Its all about Saiyans and I understand why. I like Saiyans too. But its always at the expense of human characters that I like especially Krillin.

"Vegeta got beat up by 18 so he deserves to dick her down"

"18 should be with anyone else but Krillin. She should be with a Saiyan."

I'm seriously tired of it, ya know? Its just such negativity. I've tried to combat it with positivity and that does work but that's not what most ppl seem to care about or see. Krillin means a lot to many of us. Yes, we know he's a fictional character but he's someone we can latch on to and see ourselves in. How he constantly tries hard and doesnt give up despite having low self-esteem. He is very relatable and an encouraging character. So understand that it frustrates me and others when ppl keep making fun of a character we love just because of memes that are very innacurate, he's short, he's married to what most of the fandom consider the most attractive female in the series (so they're jealous of him to an extent), or when ppl downright degrade his character.

Why? Why treat a positive character so negatively? Ppl make fun of Krillin because he has PTSD but won't make fun of Future Trunks. They trash his marriage and make it seem as if 18 doesn't care for him because he has the most stable marriage in the series. They call his daughter an ugly troll but want to see her in hentai with some Saiyan. Such hypocrisy. That's why I've drawn some of the things I have.

There are drawings I've done that I haven't posted because they are so disrespectful to characters like Vegeta or Gohan. And I love Gohan so that's a reason why I never posted them. I'm a positive person but it seems many ppl only respond to negative. So here's what I've done/plan to do.

I have some comics planned to draw along with some pictures. The pictures vary on what they will be, but the comics... Here's what they are.

I will be making NTR comics starring Krillin but he is the main character. There are too many of him being portrayed as a wimp or punk that lets everybody get with 18 besides himself. Or its done behind his back. So I'm going to have Krillin taking other character's ladies from them. Yeah its negative in a way but also positive for Krillin. Maybe this can get the point across to ppl? Idk.

But I will make a comic where Krillin gets Videl, Bulma, & Chichi. I will make others where he gets into "situations" with characters like Kale & Caulifla, Cheelai, & others. I also plan to make a comic about Roshi basically being cucked by Krillin (you'll have to wait and see to understand that one). So that's what I have planned. Hentai comics with Krillin as the lead. Its unpopular and that is why I do it.

I'll make other more positive comics too. Like a comic about Krillin getting advice then marrying 18. Ill draw stories with my OC Tobi as he lives with Krillin and his family & dates Marron. It will focus on the Chestnut family and have father/son moments with Krillin & Tobi. And ill introduce other characters too.

But here's the big thing that contradicts everything I said prior. I don't want to draw DB anymore. The fan base has kinda wore me out but so has the direction the series has gone. In bored of the writing for DBS and it being solely about Goku & Vegeta when there are other characters like Gohan & Piccolo. Its a fighting anime so why would we only want to see 2 characters? God ki was introduced so that's an easy way for everyone to get stronger and involved. But its too corporate now and lazy. And the DBS manga... so terrible. Toyotaro is a much better artist than I am and not to talk bad about him but I think DragonGarowLee is much better for the position that Toyo. DGL knows how to choreograph fights better and understands Toriyama's comedy better. Toyo doesn't know how to write the characters. He makes Goku an uncaring idiot, makes Vegeta a poorly written Goku clone, makes fun of Krillin for no reason except he doesn't like him (seriously! He has called him ugly, weak, scared, useless, & had ppl like Goku and Roshi insult Krillin. Wtf?!), he doesnt know how to create a unique character without ripping off a character Tori has done much better. And the fanboys (& girls)

Gosh! The Vegeta fans are great but they can be crazy sometimes. They ignore all the evil Vegeta has done and ignore his flaws as if he's a perfect angel. Vegeta's flaws is what makes him such an interesting character! And him being different than Goku is a good thing. But there's a weird and false understanding of his character. "Vegeta is a better dad than Goku" sure. Vegeta just knocked up Bulma then left her as. Single mother and didn't care if she or his infant son died, never hugged his son until he was 10+ yrs old & didn't love Bulma until sometime during the 7 yr time skip. He was a terrible person in a terrible relationship! THEN he became a better person and actually loving to his family. That change is what make Vegeta great. Not his power level or how many kills he has or "cool moments."

That same twisted misunderstanding of Vegeta is similar to the misunderstanding of Krillin. Ppl think he's weak and a coward. But he fights aliens & beings stronger than him and even injures stronger opponents. He smiles in the face of danger and even gets excited during fights but is smart enough not to risk others lives. Krillin nearly killed Nappa, he would've finished Vegeta with the Spirit Bomb if Yajirobe didn't alert Vegeta that Krillin was attacking him, smart enough not to fight on Namek when they're outnumbered, took on aliens stronger than him, outsmarted them & escaped, protected both Gohan & Bulma, more skilled than Ginyu when he was in Goku's body, sacrificed his safety for others like Dende & Gohan, (for real tho, Vegeta didn't see 2nd form Freeza move but Krillin was fast enough to throw Dende out of the way and sacrifice his life. Krillin saw Freeza attacking and Vegeta who is supposed to be stronger did not see Freeza move!), he was the first person to actually damage Freeza and then taunted the Emperor of the Universe, he's always there for his friends, knew better than everybody else that if the androids defeated Vegeta & Trunks then he shouldn't get involved. He saved 18 who was innocent in this timeline, helped 16, wished for the bombs out of 17 & 18 so they could live normally. Then fast forward to DBS he fought to protect his family & planet & 18 calls him "cool", he conquers his PTSD and gained new power he always had but laid dormant, he defeated someone who actually hurt 18. & there are things he's done I didn't even mention.

And ppl constantly saying Goku is a bad dad. He's waaaaaaaay better of a father compared to Vegeta if were being honest.

I guess I've seen a lot of the negative side of the fandom and its disappointing. So I'm at a point where I kinda don't care. I'll make my comics but after I'm done with what I have planned, I'm just done with DB. I won't stop drawing entirely but I won't draw any requests unless I feel like it, I won't keep up with much DB news and content. I just want to come back to Tumblr, draw Krillin fanart, draw Tobi, write some rewrites, draw Tobi's story & that's it. Ill be a part of Chestnut Fest every year tho. That is one of the greatest things to come out of my time on Tumblr & Twitter. So big thanks to @chestnutisland!

But basically I'm tired of the fandom and I still enjoy parts of it but I want to do my own thing. So I'll partially be a part of the DB fandom but not in it too deep. Look forward to what I have in store. If some of my future content isn't to your liking, hopefully you ccan find something else I've done that you'll enjoy. But its still been fun & I've enjoyed the ppl I've talked too & friends I've made.

#my thoughts #dragon ball #dragon ball z #dragon ball super #rant #krillin #comics #my plans

[uiruu]

because i grew up hanging around straight white boys in school in the US, i was exposed to a lot of stereotypes of what autistic people are like, and mockery of people like that, using that as an insult towards people who are neurotypical to show that theyre stupid or weird or whatever.... etc. i wish i could say i didnt participate in that, but i probably did more than i realize, cause i was like 11 or 12, i didnt really know what i was saying, you know? though, i’ve never really been a confrontational person in real life, so i didnt really engage in a lot of insulting other kids in general, though i had some stereotypes and stuff thrown at me i think. i mean they didnt use the word “autistic”, im not sure the kids i went to school with even knew what that meant at the time, im not sure i did either, but they’d use words and slurs that of course are about behaviors and things that autistic people do, you know what i mean. the r one and the one that starts with sp- and the other one that starts with sp- that is short for special education... you know. those. 

so like, ive absorbed and internalized a lot of that, i think. i catch myself doing and saying things online that make me react to myself like “woah, i really sound like...” and “i should try to rephrase things to be more normal, i dont want people to be weirded out by me, i dont want them to think im being too much of a...” that kind of thing. i dont actually think those in words lmao but you know, that’s the subconscious gut feeling. but like... having those thoughts also conversely makes me appreciate and be proud of thinking and saying things that are “too autistic” or whatever lol. i havent been diagnosed with autism, i dont know if i have it, but i have been diagnosed with adhd and there’s a looooot in common. much more than you would think if you just know adhd for what that acronym stands for (its kind of a bad name for the disorder, it’s not even close to the whole truth). adhd and autism often overlap and occur together too, because the lines when defining what does or doesnt count as a given disorder arent so clear when everyone’s brain is different. i’ve thought about trying to see if i actually am autistic, i’ve wondered it, but idk, it’s not really necessary i dont think, treating and managing adhd covers most of it anyway, for me. sort of. anyway

so now, as a 24 year old with a better understanding of this kind of thing (though still not perfect, im learning all the time), when i catch myself being too weird or alienating or saying something that suggests i think about things in a different sort of way from most people, it stops me for a sec, but then it’s kind of a source of pride and fascination for me lol, i like the way i think and i like discovering all the ways that i think, if that makes sense. it also feels good to have the thought that i need to tone myself down occur to me, and then actively say “no, im not gonna do that” and just carry on not toning myself down at all haha. so what if people see what i say and go “wow you think about that mundane thing in too much detail, why are you thinking so hard about something so meaningless, why do you need to invent systems and routines and stuff in order to conceptualize stuff, is it really fun for you to see the world like its all data”? so what if people see me and go “wow theyre a bit of a..., god you’re being a little too...”? i think the way i see the world is in and of itself an interesting thing to conceptualize and collect data about lol. and like whatever, im enjoying myself, i know i’m not the only person with adhd/autism, so i dont see the point in trying to consciously try to type as if i dont lol. i get wildly absorbed into stuff that seems pretty meaningless to most people. it’s what i do. it has a lot of downsides, but i like feeling proud of the upsides too :)

#lmk if im way out of line by comparing myself to autism as someone who is diagnosed with adhd and not autism #i could have it too... but im not diagnosed. ive never asked lol.. nobodys ever thought to check either #imo adhd and autistic people are kindred spirits and we're all in this together #they arent the exact same thing... adhd people have more hyperfixations as opposed to special interests #and hyperfixations come and go (though never really leaving lol... i have resurgences of old fixations all the time) #though my interest and knowledge in linguistics and language is muuuuch more of a bona fide special interest #when i read about autistic special interests... all of it rings true for how linguistics is for me #all of it #im literally always thinking about it. thats not an exaggeration. i process new info by first thinking about it linguistically lmao #and specifically phonology and morphology and language change too... not even the fun sexy sociolinguistic stuff #just the boring mechanical ''how phonology and language change function'' stuff haha #people always wanna talk about popular linguistics and sociological stuff but like... i know a bit about that but im no expert #anyway shut up lol this is too many tags #adhd #long post #personal

[yaraaflor]

kori for the character ask thing?

oh boy. u asked for it.

first impression: the teen titans cartoon show. i loved loved LOVED kory when i was a kid, i dressed up as her for halloween, i had all sorts of her merch. starfire was my absolute fave. and of course i shipped her and dick to high heaven before i knew what shipping was. i thought she was the sweetest and kindest person, i loved her little alien things. i wanted so badly to be like her. (also like dick, i have always had a weakness for redheads, even as a child.)

impression now: ill always love the TT cartoon but now i know how truly inaccurate that portrayal of kory was. shes so much more complex and interesting. frankly i dont think fandom gives her enough credit for how developed of a character she is, so many people are just like “kory! perfect goddess!” and thats not true!! she has flaws, like any other person! her anger, her inner violence, runs so deep in her (understandably so), and shes done less than savory things. but shes truly the most compassionate and loving character ive ever seen, the way she cares for her loved ones is just. so inspiring. and the ways she cares for herself, too. ugh i just. love her. also i think she should be a much bigger hero in the dc universe given her power levels. give her a solo that isnt gross like the 2015 one!!

favorite moment: this is kind of a weird one, but there’s a titans issue (i cant remember which run) where she goes to see a superhero therapist. and for some reason she gets pissed off and smashes something and storms out. but then like a moment later she comes back in and apologizes!!! its just such a good moment of kory, it shows that she’s flawed but also shows her greater nature, which is one that is kind and endeavors to understand both others and herself. 

idea for a story: damn i used up the polycule idea already lol. well this is just a short idea but what with all the crazy shit that shes going through in the JLO storyline (like shes literally dead rn, hopefully will be brought back to life soon), i want to see her back on earth when its all over. i want to see her recovery. kory has a life full of trauma and this is just another in a long list, that she’ll probably be expected to deal with on her own bc shes the “emotionally intelligent” one. like no. let her go to her friends. have her and vic (and jess and jean paul i guess) bond over the horrible shit they went thru. have her go to dick for comfort, since shes always been there for him. have her talk it through with raven and donna, her two best friends. let her recover with the titans! i could write a whole story about it, but im waiting til jlo ends i guess. idk i want to see what happens next even tho im super confused most of the time.

unpopular opinion: this isnt really an unpopular opinion by any stretch but i hated her portrayal in RHATO. i mean i just hated that comic in general, i couldnt get through it, but they did kory so dirty in the name of making jason look cool. they got rid of her whole (extensive) history with the titans, HER FAMILY, whom she adored and who helped her through so much! they made her seem naive again, the amnesia thing was really a cheap trick. also, putting her with roy was kinda... like it wasnt a terrible idea, but it was weird, given their history. and the fact that the were both wildly ooc of course. anyway this could turn into an essay breaking down all the shit about rhato that i hated but ill stop for now.

favorite relationship: oh man, it would have to be with dick, bc their love is so pure and sweet and they care for each other so deeply even when theyre not together. however i also love how close her friendship with vic is. and donna of course.

favorite headcanon: hm. that she pegs? lol no jk thats basically canon. the one that is coming most to mind now is my idea that kory is super embedded in the fashion world and is really quite famous. she rubs elbows with supermodels and movie stars, but it never phases her bc a) she’s a literal princess and b) she treats all people with equal respect. i love that she had an already existing friendship with jennie-lynn in outsiders 2003, my headcanon is that they became friends while modelling and just both happened to be superheroes. I think kory deserves some model friends! the titans will always be her family but i like the idea of her branching out a little and having a bit of a normal life on earth, although it must be frequently interrupted by her superhero antics.

#thank u for asking! #ask #my post

[flockofdoves]

cant believe it was only like 2 years ago i stopped wearing bras everyday (only wear them while swimming and even then sometimes i dont and just use a rashguard with nothing under. or maybe a sports bra while at work but even then mostly just undershirts/camis)

every time i start looking up this stuff again like theoretically to have one normal bra or even just maybe another sports bra bc all mine are wayyyy smaller than they should probably be i just liked them back when i wore bras for compression for like . idk. cosplay or something. i really just want to die. theres just so many layers of things women are expected to do that i just never bothered learning as an autistic tween who gave up and was intentionally gnc very soon after puberty started and reading even just like. basic assumptions some articles make about what i’m doing what i think what i Must do is so incredibly weird. like i dont hold myself to those standards i dont feel overtly guilty or anything but its just . idk. wow i am so disconnected from that and now i can grasp better how alien gender conforming cis ppl often treat me. idk. not wording that good but god even just getting that stuff in my head is so uneasy i really don’t even want to think about it.

stopping wearing bras actually has been better for my dysphoria (ik thats a clinicizing word with a lot of Implications but for lack of better shorthand) than wearing sports bras or even binding bc i really just don’t have to particularly think about my breasts each time i get dressed. like yeah theyre visible. yeah theyre actually more visible than they were before (and noticed in a weird way too bc i’m a large breasted chubby person not wearing a bra so idk i’m seen as like a “slob” for that by cis gender conforming fatphobes or w/e) but i don’t have to think about fitting bras (i never had bras that fit and it would be expensive and difficult i’m realizing knowing what my actual size is around now anyway. i guess supposedly well fitting bras don’t hurt but its much easier to just relatively not hurt as much as i can at their size wearing nothing instead of always having ill fitting ones that cause more problems) and i dont have to feel anything on them reminding me of them as anything notable compared to the rest of my body. also binding even if i still like it aesthetically was exacerbating my chronic pain so much

for a while i was thinking i might be fine just as is bc of realizing how much easier it is this way vs before but nonetheless when i really start thinking about stuff beyond my immediate body again it gets uncomfortable. also it would just be a lot more convenient to wear clothes i like if i idnt have them. plus my skin issues getting worse. and maybe how having large breasts in general might exacerbate chronic pain. so even if i maybe could tolerate this forever i dont think on the other side of things if i got top surgery i’d ever have moments of discomfort so i still really want surgery. but i really love other ppl who go braless with large breasts and maybe even have pretty hairy chests i think thats so cool too even if i dont think that can be me even if in some ways i like that idea and its given me comfort for myself

but god yeah. having to investigate gender norms i just decided to never learn early on is such a weird and uneasy experience. do not want to be part of this and i won’t make an effort but unfortunately learning this is making me more consciously aware of how i’m subjected to this nonetheless

#cpost #body image - #ask to tag -

[teddy-feathers]

look my problem with the au megamind where Roxanne is the alien and megamind is the reporter is i cant stop thinking about what i want out of that and how its probably not what other people want out of that which should mean 'oh shit i gotta write it' but really means 'in the next couple of months im going to rewatch megamind and be extremely frustrated because idk how to write these people as is let alone in an au'

but here are some thoughts

Itd have to take place on megaminds home world so like. have to develop that culture and frame it as the usual and other things as oddities

metroman still shows up at the same time the baby human does

roxan richie and metromans rivalry is less of a game and more of a metroman one up'd her ome to many times so now shes gotta take him out

its fine not because shes incompetent- in fact her death rays and pointy sticks are ingenious and have 0% public property or civilian causalities - but because metroman is not only impossible to kill, he adapts to anything that gets close (anything that doesnt kill him makes him stronger literally)

i guess this means theres a good chunk of the story that is centered around human adaptability vs perfect hero dudes adaptability

Roxanne Ritchie is actually a noted scientist or something at the local research facility - i figure blue people planet is really advanced and everyones at least a little technosmart but while it doesnt come as easily or naturally to Roxanne her way of thinking is really unique n shiz and shes an asset to every team....

but if you see her in a mask with some project from the lab macguivered into a gun trying to kill metroman well, no ones getting hurt and humans need hobbies and everyone respects the mask desptie the fact shes the ONLY human on the planet so its not like its hard to figure out who she is

she does spend a lot of nights having to rebuild projects and apologizing and such but basically everyone plays the plausible deniability card and asks her questions abiut what went wrong and okay so the masked menace failed after you let them steal our project but lets pretend for a moment the goal was to fix crops how would you say this did? and grumply shed revamp the guns weird side effect into an alien pollinating crop duster or whatever

got carried away when REALLY all I WANTED to say was

Whille Roxanne Ritchie is adaptable ingenuity and gets away at the last minute NOT because no ones trying to catch her but shes just that CLEVER and thinks ahead and shiz....

Megamind is the guy trying to interview her in the middle of a fight like he thinks he's cute - i mean he is but shes chasing after metroman and skids to a stop because this jerk stepped in for a comment. or shes lining up the perfect shot but theres a close up of megaminds reporter bag in the way

the thing is that maybe... blue people arent violent. a natural disaster hit recently and theyre coming back from it and if the two adopted alien kids want to play extreme tag well no ones getting hurt and Roxanne Ritchie will grow out of her competitiveness no doubt caused by just how superior EVERYONE on the planet is by finding her own niche and metroman will grow up and stop bating her because maybe he IS still better than everyone else and thats met with "oh very nice we're proud" but it doesnt really validate him or make him feel special because its just treated as a special thing he can do by everyong but Roxanne Ritchie and once he's found something that makes him feel good regardless of the attention or lack of it he'll stop playing too

but megamind? megamind has an imagination that loves drama and blowing things out of proportion and thats part of why his reports are so popular? like yeah everyones treating this super hero showdown with indulgence but megamind is good at framing theatrics so that this news story is actually a compelling narrative? and also everyone can see the tension is going to have one of these three "kids" confessing live someday

and maybe he gets carried away. one of those 'aw well next time you could do x or y' or has some technological creation that accidentally actually makes Metroman flinch during an interview

and Roxanne Ritchie starts paying attentionto him for the first time.

and minion warns him but he doesnt listen. minion is lower class and is afraid of being replaced like a pet like some people do but Roxanne Ritchie Ritchie doesnt have a minion and even if she did theyre Best Friends not like those other blue people minion uperclass people.

and he carelessly says something unforgivable and Roxanne Richie uses his ideas and actually succeeds in killing metroman

so she goes to prison - a place they had to build just for her because this hasnt happened since stars knows when

and somebody else is doing the camera because minion left just is gone and megamind looks defeated but testifies against her and is quiet and subdued and stpps being a reporter for a bit

and.... idk. i feel like we'll have to resolve the whole class system so minon goes underground and finds other minons who are unhappy with the way of things and if theyre ALREADY rebuilding society after that huge natural disaster that DIDNT blow up their planet thanks TO a minion well ehy cant they fix this too?

so theres a rebellion going on and theyve got a secret weapon to make blue people listen and idk but i feel like it's Metroman

and... how do stories like this go ive forgotten

minion wouldnt tell megamind or he would

metroman would break Roxanne Ritchie out of prison during the first riot of the minion revolt?

they talk and compare why they hated eachother and slowly work together and are actually a great team?

and then they need a reporter to make themselves heard as something other than minions going crazy

and so of course they go to megamind for help getting the story out

something something megamind is minions sidekick for this adventure

"Roxanne Ritchie was raised by the planet and turned against it and instigated civil unrest and killed a person who was also the good child etc etc instead of just growing up to face your problems"

"actually im alive and i finally found my place? helping out the real heros?"

"i mean i did try to kill him, but he forgave me and we're kinda working together because planet of moms and dads that raised us? yall actually are the ones who need to grow up and let go of the traditions that dont serve etc etc"

and megamind does a huge public apology to minion

and... uhhhhhhhhh fuck i really dont know how these storyies go

the blue people start making amends

metroman basically becomes a social worker for minion childern because finding their original families is a bit hard and most of these kids are just going to end up being raised by super dad but at least the rebellion minion families are actually geting to be their own family units and in a couple gens thatll be normal

Roxanne Ritchie goes back to being the token human in the lab and hangs up her super suit and is generally dissatisfied with this

until one night a hero breaks into her apartment to make her answer for her crimes and so for a legit hot second theyre fighting and megamind says something and Roxanne apologizes and then fighting stops being an argument and goes into banter flirting

the worss "where theres evil good will rise up to fight it" peob comes up a lot in this fic in different iterations

anyways megamind isnjust basically like hey wanna do this like. for the rest of our lives dramatic battle showdowns like its entertainment but like no theyre doing this for real?

the answer is hell yeah

and its a polyship and sometimes Roxanne is helping with the kids and then Megamind bursts in to "save" the family from her evil clutches and 90% of the time everything is improve

megamind kidnaps Roxanne to make metromind save her and a good half of the conversation is that hes an idiot for coming shes tried to kill him three times this week and hes bitching because do you know how hard it is to find a sitter for 30 odd minion kids this short notice and they better make it up to him

Roxanne is not superdad but the 30 odd minion kids adore when she comes over because they mob the villain so hard until finally mega comes to save her because hes actually very good with the kids

of course this poly ship isnt complete without minion and at some point minion and mega realize theyve actually been married for years and Roxanne and metro tease them shamelessly for it

minion and his race need a real name obviously

when Roxanne was a... graduate her senior project theses thingy was essentially "im going to go back to planet earth itll be great ive figured out were im from and how to go there in a reasonable amout of time" and everyone had to sit her down and explain that unlike metroman they knew where she was from the planet was just destroyed.

they never figured out where metroman was from because his direction sharply changed to follow baby Roxannes course and mirrored her coding despite very obviously how he had originated from elsewhere

this is important because his race is basically coming to conquer the blue people planet soon - the group finds out - and will download all the survival upgrades metroman has gotten to become unkillable and then just come down to the surface and be unstoppable taking the place over and whiping out the planet like theyve done many many times

a good chunk of the time trying to figure out how to stop them when this planet is REALLY against murder war and violence for good reason and even if they WOULD do that its impossible over looks some alone time that leads to megamind and metroman figuring out how to like kill him so when the bad guys show up theyll go "whelp better not fuck with them" and leave but between roxanne and minion they manage to not only stabilize metroman (Roxanne blood transfusions maybe???) but they manage to scare the aliens so bad they tuck tail and leave speading rumors that these are the scariest mfs in space (go minion)

metroman never lets Roxanne live down saving his life

eventually space humans show up to check the place out

megamind loves everything human despite most of the planet thinking theyre primitive and showing it

roxanne is reluctant to meet them at first but then really relates to them?

for a good long while it REALLY seems like megamind and Roxanne are just going to go on space adventures with the humans leaving metroman and minion - who really doesnt like them and also they kinda rub him the wrong way because he's non bipedal and they kinda make fun of him in a 'we totally dont mean anything by it lighten up' sort of way.

they don't go of course but they may have stolen a lot of atar charts n shit and who hasnt wanted to take a road trip through space with 30 odd childern who will need names and personalities and may be chopped down to a slightly more reasonable number by this point?

metroman loves space karaoke and his natural abilites mean he learns languages fast but no he still cant carry a tune

megamind and Roxanne still duke it out on various alien cityscapes

minion usually breaks them out of jail if theyre not to be let out the next day because nothing was actually damaged that didnt belong to them.

one memorable occasion it was metoman in a fight with megamind and they wont say what its about but both look very put out and minion looks smug

it doesn't matter in the end because Roxanne teams up with the childern to propose to them first

apparantly i had a lot more ideas about this then i meant to? i mean its not well thoughout out and despite the drama a good half the fic is just going to be cute relationship building stuff between the four of them

#megamind #megamind au idea #story idea #fanfic idea #my writing #i hope tagging shit makes it findable but x doubt

[lcofowler]

ok hlo im not even Sure i shld be picking up a third muse but i. love beau n wanted to play him n thts tht on tht. so if u want an oversized puppy to plot with Bleathe give this a like smiles at u all

( demi-boy ) haven’t seen BEAU TURNER around in a while. the LUKE HEMMINGS lookalike has been known to be (+) EUPHORIC & (+) AMIABLE, but HE can also be (-) NAIVE & (-) CHILDISH. The 21 year old is a JUNIOR majoring in FINE ARTS. I believe they’re living in AUDAX but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door. 

overalls thrown over an oversized sweater. paint constantly staining your hands and face. smiling so hard your face hurts. naming all your plants. having a crush on everyone you see. flowers in your hair. 70’s lovechild. a fresh joint constantly in hand.

when beau’s parents were starting uni they met at a party, had a one night stand, n pretty much…….. were gna leave it at tht bt SURPRISE! his mum got pregnant

she told his dad and they literally were so laid back and had so little regard for like what they were doing w their future that they were just like ‘let’s just drop out and like. get married ig.’

it actually kinda worked in their favour, they’re still super in love to this day even tho his dad’s family kinda. stopped talking to them after that, so money was a huge struggle but they came into a huge income when his mom’s dad passed away so now? living pretty lavishly tbh!

they raised beau in a pretty………. hippie household, they were still good parents bt they were absent sometimes tryna catch up on the youth that they missed and made some questionable decisions as parents since they were rly jst kids themselves still when they had beau

they’re pretty sexually liberal folks even to this day, lots of ppl came in and out of their house while beau was growing up that his parents were like ‘in love’ with, they basically kept getting bored of just each other but didn’t wanna split up? so they’d………. bring in new ppl to ‘spice it up’ sidhgoisdhgio it was a mess

bc of this beau is pretty childish bt was also rly sexually mature? it got him into some trouble cause on more than one occasion the randoms that’d be crashing at his house wld. Have Their Way w him n he jst thought it was normal and never said anything cause he’d feel like he was ratting someone out if he did

it actually did mess him up a lil bit tho,he’s so loving tht he doesn’t wanna admit anything’s Wrong with him bt he truly feels undeserving of anyone tht wld . Treat Him Well. love that for him!

personality wise he’s a bit of an odd ball, super into the belief of aliens, a bit of an activist when it comes to equality and gay/bi rights, his parents took him to a bunch of pride parades n stuff growing up, he’s ALWAYS saying kinda. weird and odd phrases idk he’s endearing bt weird

also a sweetheart? like the definition of a California Sweetheart, wants everyone to love him and wants to love everyone, he’s not the best at commitment cuz he wasn’t rly raised in a v healthy ‘commitment’ environment but he knows how to love properly and does his best tbh

very very artsy, almost always covered in paint, n his nails are painted a diff colour every day. also has a thing for licorice?

PLOT IDEAS: exes, lots of them probs, it’s hard to imagine any break ups being BAD bt if they were he’d still be trying to this day to make things right, current fwb’s, a one night stand, ppl he’s totally pining over, maybe an ex he still has feelings for?, a muse, someone he jst loves to draw whether they know it or its in secret, he needs friends!!!, and roommates :-) the world? our oyster!

#water:intro #statutory rape tw #rape tw #jst....... in case the second one is more. Precaution so read at ur risk! #nothing's detailed tho tbh jst a quick mention #bt yes if u wanna plot tht wld make me?? Dumb Happy

[reivenesque]

SPOILERS FOR LAST THREE EPS OF MACGYVER

It feels like I haven’t watched MacGyver in ages and yet I barely settled into my seat and I’ve already finished season 2. What the fuck happened? *speaking as a person who binge watched a total of 14 seasons across 3 shows within a couple of weeks*

So among these 8 episodes that I watched, 3 of them are easily my faves of the season; the Colton episode, the one with Jesus and the finale (I’ve given up trying to remember the names).

In the Jesus episode, I liked that it finally focused on Mac again, if that makes any sense. Yes the show is called MacGyver and is in fact about MacGyver, but I feel like the last couple of episodes were less about him as a character and more about him being a tool almost, or a means to an end on a mission. Like @thehemingwaygoldfish mentioned already, I hate that Mac was the one who tipped off the mob guy they were tailing when Bozer was making such obvious googly eyes at Liana for 2/3rd’s of the episode. I really hate when the writing needs the smart guy be the klutz for no apparent reason.

(Also, I had nowhere to insert this bit but the scene on the trampoline in the air and Mac looking so fucking scared and when Jack shot off those fucking balloons like - be still my whumper heart!)

Minor criticism firstly. It isn’t in this particular episode, more like spread across a couple of episodes but the Die Hard reference episode especially. I know that Jack is the comic relief of the show but I honestly hate when he gets treated like the buttmonkey or when he’s made the butt of old man jokes by other people (and even by the team, besides Mac, cause lbr, Mac and Jack are the epitome of taking the piss out of each other but no one else can do it ever). Or when things just inevitably don’t work out for him just cause it’s supposedly funny.

Jack is always bad ass but I just want one Jack centered episode where everyone gets to see just how bad ass he truly is, especially Bozer and Riley. Cause this Jack is old and doesn’t get hip young kids stuff is just - well, getting old.

So anyway. I love the friendship between Mac and Jesus (Carlos I think his name was) and I love how much his family accepted Mac and their team and how his mom fawned over Jack and Jack just being so sweet and Jack-like about it. I seriously love him.

I love how everyone got to see how amazing Mac is - I always love when outsides get to bask in the awesomeness of Mac because obviously Jack and the team already know how great he is.

Also Marc Menchaca playing a bad guy, called it! I do have to say that Gunny Wynn is honestly working the hair and the scruff.

All in all, love the episode, but then again, I love when an episode brings in outside characters besides just the main such as Carlos and the Coltons. I do hope we get to see them again.

The alien episode was just okay for me. Like with many MacGyver episodes, it wasn’t boring but not exceptionally memorable either. I loved how adorable Jack was in the end and I do enjoy the dynamic between Mac and Riley. And I appreciate how willing the team are to break government rules and go behind their own boss’s back to help Mac without him even having to ask them to.

The final episode ugh, I was so conflicted. I honestly hated Mac’s dad and I was really pissed at Matty during the first quarter. For one thing, I hate when shows introduce a new character that’s smarter, stronger and better than the main character. I get the context of it since he is Mac’s dad, but it’s really just a trope I find irritating as hell.

Brief interlude because I clicked away to google the actor who plays Mac’s dad because I couldn’t stop thinking how familiar he looked all through out the episode and I’m so fucking glad I didn’t google him earlier because ajshdgliaudhfalkdfjhas TATE DONOVAN! I remember having a crush on him when I was younger and I probably couldn’t have disliked him as much as I did when I was watching if I knew who he was. But goddamn he aged like fine fucking wine.

I was annoyed at Matty mostly for keeping it a secret but by the end James MacGyver did win me over and Matty made it back into my good graces and firmly cemented her position there indefinitely. 

I knew that Mac would quit and when I started I was under the impression that it was because his dad was an asshole and the fact that Matty lied and shit like that, but I was really happy to see that his relationship with his dad was on a pretty okay ground and it was just him sticking to his convictions and I honestly just respect Mac so fucking much for that. I love that he sets his mind to do something that he believes in his heart and he sticks to it regardless. 

I also fucking love that it was Matty this whole time who was the one leaving the clues to his dad’s whereabouts. That’s how you fucking do a heel reveal and immediate redemption arc on fucking steroids. I have never loved this mother/son type relationship between Mac and Matty than I do at this very moment.

The only criticism I have is the faces of the team when Mac walked out after he quit. I don’t know, everyone just had that really weird, indecipherable look on their face which I didn’t know how to translate. I know that they knew he wanted to quit - did actually quit already, It was just weird.

So anyway. I’m really happy I waited and got to binge the last few episodes. It always more enjoyable for me to binge a whole bunch of episodes without having to sit around and wait like some normal tv watcher. 

Mac is as usual amazing. I love the depths he had in he last couple of episodes (if nothing else cause Lucas Till does angst and anger amazingly and I wish the writers would utilize it more) and seeing him not being the lighthearted, optimistic Mac we’re used to.

I think I’ve covered just how much I love Jack and what I’d like to see the writers do more (and less) with his character because he deserves so much more than being just the butt of people’s jokes.

Bozer and Riley are just there for me. Apparently Liana is going to be a regular next season? Idk, she’s with the other two in my book. WHERE THE FUCK IS CAGE IS WHAT I WANT TO KNOW? I honestly really like Jill though, I won’t lie. I hope we see more of her.

One last thing, with the reveal of the new baddie at the end - also another person I know but am too lazy to google right now ( I think he was also in Justified as Boyd’s cousin or something, I could be wrong) and the shade about his dad and his old partner and the other turning to the dark side. I hope this is foreshadowing Mac - now away from Phoenix and his father’s eyes, maybe dipping into the darkness, perhaps not willingly. But maybe ending up on the wrong side of the law and Jack, Matty and the team having to hunt him down to save/catch him. Because can you imagine anything more dangerous that Mac using his abilities for bad?

I hope the writers do something with all this possibility though (they probably won’t but a whumper can hope right?)

So yeah, that’s what you missed on Glee MacGyver.

#macgyver #angus macgyver #jack dalton #james macgyver #lucas till #TATE DONOVAN #SHDGZJDHIKDSUG #spoilers

[ais-n]

So, I saw this on the side of tumblr just now. I missed their original post, apparently, because I didn’t even realize it’s Mental Health Month. 

I don’t have anything incredible to say, but idk. Something about it made me want to say something?

So, probably means nothing and for once I will try to keep this shorter than a frickin dissertation, but I guess I just wanted to say that I get it. I don’t know how to explain or describe better without going into something massively long. Just: I get it. I may not have all of your circumstances, or may not deal with the same issues or illnesses you deal with... may not a lot of things.

But I know how other things feel. I know how it feels to be caught in self-destructive cycles, I know fear for and of yourself, I know depression and the inability to get up or care what happens... I know planning how to kill yourself, I know looking around and not seeing anyone in the media who represents you, I know people telling you directly or indirectly that there’s something wrong with you because of how you are, because it’s different to the point of not being right or “normal.” I know avoidance, and frustration, and anger that doesn’t know where to direct itself so it pops up where it doesn’t belong. I know how weird it can feel, how alienating and lonely, to know there are caring and wonderful people around you but you still feel alone. I know having to constantly check and recheck yourself on things because you don’t trust your own mind. I know how people don’t get it when you can’t do certain things and it’s not because you’re incapable of it, but because you’re actually terrified due to the knowledge of exactly how capable you are. Too capable. I know knowing you’re fucked up. I know reaching for help, I know sometimes getting that help and sometimes not. I know not reaching for help at all and deciding you can handle it alone. I know crying yourself to sleep or waking up crying. I know feeling like you should cry or be upset but not feeling anything and wondering hey, am I a monster? I know that feeling of surprise when you thought you belonged somewhere and casually, offhandedly, someone inadvertently makes it clear you don’t, using words whose impact they’ll never know. I know medication that I had to stop and I know wondering if I should figure out if I ever need to start again. And I know compassion fatigue. Goddamn do I know compassion fatigue.

I know things like that.

But I also know the goodness in other people. I know love and caring. I know refusal to let others decide my own life or destiny. I know humanity can be both reprehensible and wonderful; hateful and loving; destructive and supportive. Human beings are flawed, you could say, but maybe it’s better to say humans are complicated and multifaceted. And, I personally think, always, always capable of change, of choice, and of a chance for a better tomorrow. If not directly for themselves, due to circumstances, then maybe at least for friends, family, loved ones, or future generations of that person because of that fight. 

That may seem unrelated to mental health but mental health has a lot of factors. Some things may purely be biochemical, and others may be more complicated than that. Some things are solely because of how we’re born and how we would be regardless of the world around us, and others are things that develop solely or partially because of how this world and the people in it treated us. 

Whatever fight you’re fighting, I just wanted to say I hope you don’t give up. I believe in you. I believe you can keep moving forward, one step at a time. Even if you have to pause to take a breath, even if that turns into an extended break, it’s okay. It’s okay. As long as you push forward again when you can, in whatever big or small way possible. Even if it’s just for a moment and you have to pause again, tread water again, you still made progress. And you can do it again when you have the energy. You can keep moving forward until you reach your destination. And if that destination seems forever away, all the more reason to fight for it, and all the more reason to pause to give yourself a rest along the way, so you can learn to appreciate the journey as much as you yearn for the destination. Things won’t always go well. Sometimes it will go terribly. Maybe it seems like things are always awful, and it’s the rarity of something going right that stands out to you because of how infrequent it is.

I don’t know what all you’re fighting, or how long that fight will take, or what your goals are along the way. All I know is I truly believe you can make it, you will survive, as long as you never fully give up on yourself. And as long as you can find someone else to not give up on you for those times when you do.

Life isn’t perfect. It seriously sucks sometimes. It’s awful having to navigate an unfriendly world when your own mind seems hellbent on derailing you. I don’t have the answers. I wish I did. All I have is belief in others, but maybe because of that belief, I also think that belief is enough. And I hope you can get to a point where you can see that belief in yourself is enough to have as a minimum, too, even if you can never get all the answers or reach all your goals. Just believe, and breathe, and don’t give up. Because you’re strong enough to fight, no matter what. And, most importantly, you’re worth the time and energy of that fight -- and so much more.

#about me #mental health month