#idk man im so tired at this point

[r144l3r]

lets go mom for making me feel like i dont deserve anything cuz i got a bad grade

#vik complains #vent post #i guess #idk man im so tired at this point #nothing i do is good enough for her either way so why bother trying still #preparing dinner for them but im getting shit for not heating up the food in the order she wanted it to be heated #i get shit for not realising that i should have cooked pasta earlier #and shes allowed to be mad at me and be passive aggressive but when i get irritated she tells me off #how is this fair #im really fucking trying i really am

[asliceofzosan]

i've seen figure skater sanji and hockey player zoro before. idk if its been explored but i'd love to put it out there:

hockey player sanji (specifically goalie bc he desperately wants to avoid being checked) and then pairs skater zoro.

pairs skater zoro's long time partner has been nami. though many people ship them together a Lot, they just know each other super well. Well enough to try dating and both of them realized they don't swing that way. in fact, it makes them a really good team. they fought long and hard to claim top spots in competitions because they portray a chemistry that's separate from the rest. plus zoro can carry nami like she weighs fucking nothing. so their lifts are so much more dynamic. they even have a whole next to impossible combination that they're trying to get the ISU to name after them officially.

sanji plays for the East Blue Straw Hats in the Grand Line Hockey League – a formidable rookie group that took down lots of big names in the preseason. they want to make it all the way to the postseason playoff finals but always seem to fall short. but theyre so determined. they reignited a lot of old sparks that were no longer there for old fans and brought in new and curious fans. sanji is the starter goalie and a damn good one at that. it makes sense bc goalies are often doing splits on the ice just to make a save. he's perfected the technique that utilizes just his legs to make saves that make the crowd go fuckin insane.

we have the usual "i booked the rink to practice before you did" trope but a little more spice. in actuality, sanji loves watching pairs skating competitions. his favorite pair rn is franky and robin (mostly for robin). and he adamantly does not want to admit to anyone that he watches zoro and nami's routines much more frequently. (and if anyone asks, he always says its bc of nami. its never just bc of nami.) and zoro's besties with luffy so he always watches their matches even if he barely understands the rules. and he definitely does not stare at a certain blond starter goalie most of the match thats fucking ridiculous

one day zoro and sanji are invited to do one of those comparison videos between hockey players and figure skaters. both get to laugh at the other even Attempting to do their sport. zoro frankly looks ridiculous in all of sanji's usual goalie get-up. and sanji couldn't land an euler to save his life. the video producer suggests they try a simple pairs skating routine. sanji is like "oh i couldn't do that–hEY WHAT THE FUCK MOSSHEAD PUT ME DOWN" because zoro lifted sanji and had him sat on his shoulder like it was normal.

zoro smirks, "you might be lighter than nami, actually. wanna be my new partner?"

sanji knees him in the stomach before skating away while blushing so hard he could melt the ice beneath him.

#listen #both figure skating (most especially pairs skating and ice dancing) AND hockey were my hyperfixations at one point #and zoro? built like a pairs skating man #sanji? has the ass of a hockey player #iT MAKES SENSE TO ME ! #but also the dichotomy of zoro doing a graceful sport and sanji in a fast paced brutal game #idk man im too tired to psychoanalyze why i think pairs skating actually works well with zoro's philosophy on strength and balance #and sanji's phobia of being checked tied to many little league games that led him to become a formidable goalie #i COULD GO ON #But i will sleep instead #one piece #sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan #niki's log: op #niki's fics: checks and balances #dO YOU GET THE PUN IN THE TITLE GOD IM SO ANNOYING !!!!! #lowkey my contribution to zosan week even if it might not fit any promprs #i just wanna feel included

[min0uet]

#1 thing i'm most afraid abt in the revival is the candace characterization actually bc we are in a paradox here

fact: candace's endless torment was part of the backbone of the show, one of the constants that kept the plot structure going. phineas and ferb must always do something new. candace and doofenshmirtz must always lose. any exceptions to these rules can't be permanent. status quo must be upheld.

fact: candace against the universe's character development seemed to finally be breaking this cycle. candace isn't alone anymore, she's letting go of her obsession to see the support that was always there for her and thus she's escaped her sisyphean cycle. to go back to the old status quo after this would be massively unsatisfying.

fact: the reboot is supposed to take place AFTER candace against the universe.

so what do we do now

#i almost deleted this it didnt super feel like i have a point to make but i went to the effort of typing it out so. #i mean the solution seems to be to have candace join in with her brothers in the reboot but im worried the show wont break that status quo #like that change would be really huge i just dont know if theyll do it #but if we backpedaled on the events of candace against the universe it would be a huge loss and just really tiring to go backwards #idk man. idk #phineas and ferb #candace flynn #pnf tag #harold.txt

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

Ok I know I'm heavily biased here but like I kinda love that Astarion's romance is one of the few in this type of video game where you basically end up canonically unmarried and childfree in his "good" ending? Just travelling the world??

Like it's honestly the millennial dream lmfaoo cannot believe i chose what would undoubtedly be my favorite option, first try

#also love that he's basically atheist like ok thanks you made the man exactly coded to be my type #and the humor and beautiful curly hair is very much something my IRL partner has too so like... how can i resist #anyways not sure a lot of people relate cause i think a lot of people want that fairytale romance #even tho wyll is right there yall #but i love me an unconventional or nontraditional one!! #i'm TIRED of being married with children as the endgame pls let's not do it #also a lot of people seem into him being a dad and im like... how? why? where in canon did he ever lmfao #more power to ya if you dig it but i just dont see it being in character #like in DAI i loved cullen and my inquisitor getting married and having a dog #and they seem the type to wants kids one day. but Tav & Astarion? lol no #i just think it's neat #is this a hot take? i have no idea but i don't see it mentioned a lot as a new fan tbh #pls do not come at me you can enjoy whatever you like #i haven't seen the ascended stuff so idk if being his 'consort' is like being his bride #but i feel like overall it's not and the vibe isn't all that different in this sense #except that you're hosting evil parties instead of travelling :/ #Astarion #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 #also YEA he's nice to Arabella but you can tolerate certain kids without wanting one or being 'good parent' material #case in point: me lmfao #OKAY update i saw the AA stuff and yeah you're kind of implied vamp married and he does mention spawn as children 😫 #but he also says in banter he won't make any other spawn??? so what is it dude #anyway that's also clearly the “bad” route and he doesn't seem as happy as unascended #who feels “truly free” #and if you're durge I'm pretty sure its even worse to consider having kids?? lol #but i digress

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[spearxwind]

I have to figure out a way of getting more interest in my oc stuff without needing to draw as much because I dont have the time or energy to draw as much as I would like, which includes a lot of concepts and/or scenes that are in my head only but can't commit to drawing, but it feels like most people are only interested in visual stuff as opposed to just written stuff (and for good reason, visuals are flashy and all!) It just makes me a little sad that I cant draw and share everything Id like to show, and what I can do most is talk about it, but that barely ever gets responses unfortunately

#in general though its hard to keep an online presence recently im so tired from everything all i wanna do is play videogame or watch youtube #and I dont have that much time to even think abt ocs cause of irl stuff ^^; case in point- ive been struggling with CD a LOT #for many reasons. so i have been focusing on HR instead bc oughgh i love it sm. but even so I have trouble finding time to just #THINK about it?? its so wack. like just thinking abt it takes time!! #thunderclap #idk man kjdffdk this is so weird i dont like being in this weird transitory period of my life i want this to be done #a lot of the ppl i spent time with online are also incredibly offline lately as well so i dont have as much of a reason to be online myself #everyones busy everything changes. very strange feeling

[guckies]

With Slime playing Fnaf I’m reminded that the Bolas Team Flag is literally bonnie wearing a freddy(or dapper) top hat and gas mask because their name is based on the bonnie meme…

#qsmp bolas #fuck it we ball i guess #jaiden really influences them so much with that meme #the only thing not inspired was the gas mask which is probably one of their craziest things but at this point everything they did was crazy #like we just glossed over this so quickly #qsmp #qsmp purgatory #idk what tags to put im so tired man

[poisonousquinzel]

I think the thing that pisses me off the most about people who push and push and push the entire "Joker's gay everyone can see that" is that (well 1. he's really not, boo hoo) and more importantly, 2. it takes every ounce of responsibility that he has for every single one of his Purposeful And Planned actions towards Harley and puts ALL the blame on her cause well

She's Just Fucking Stupid!

She's the dumbass who fell for an obviously gay man! What A Fucking Moron!

It ignores every single moment and every single time he purposefully led her on, all the times he acted romantically or sweet or told her he loved her and reduces it ALL down to

"he's gay. he doesn't like her like that cause he likes men. It's not his fault she's pushy and stupid and blind to the obvious"

and not

"he doesn't like her like that and is fully aware of that fact and used her feelings against her to keep her under his control because he's a manipulative abusive loser who cannot stand not being in control of something that he's decided belongs to him."

It completely ignores the history he has of doing this exact shit to Other woman, all cause what, he's an obsessive violent maniac who's main target/Victim happens to be another dude? I'm sorry, but it's beyond fucking frustrating seeing all his history of violence towards women in this sense be completely disregarded or mocked all cause well, actually he likes dudes so none of that matters! Women are just stupid!

Fuck off!!!! Rot!!

Propping up a walking homophobic stereotype as actually totally Just A Silly Gay Man and happily disregarding the literal. decades. worth of abusive actions he's had towards his girlfriend, Who's YA KNOW Actually The One Out Of The Two Who's Canonically In The LGBT Community, is fucking disgusting tbf.

#people will be like ''oh but look at this proof'' and their proof is him sa'ing batman and being a fucking monster towards him #or being written so blatantly as ''Oh Look The Creepy Unnerving Feminine Man !!! '' which is like ????????? his existence feels homophobic #just... #its gross and im tired of pretending its not #tw clown boy #this was written in spite filled frustration so idk if i make sense but i think yall get my point #tw abuse mention #dc comics #harley quinn #harleen quinzel

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me) #i keep on doing it for no apparent reason #someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that. #even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women. #i hate it here! #for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man! #at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage #and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk #but at the same time i. want to be loved. #i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself #i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it #and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately #this isn't entirely related but it kind of is #like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it? #i don't know. i don't know! #for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know #i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that. #but i don't know how to stop it. #i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all. #this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are #queer stuff tag #i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as #the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing #ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded #also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him #i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know #i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all. #i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever #care for me #now im rambling. sorry

[piningprecussionist]

Saw a comment somewhere and if I wasnt so tired my blood would be boiling but we are at a low simmer, so here I am to Bitch

I'm sorry but if your argument for (likely canon) bisexual Kim having a preference for men is her FORMER relationship with Scott I am going to beat you to death with my bat

At LEAST say it's the hopeless pining she does for him currently. Or maybe mention that she's dated 3 guys that we know of! (Which I will counter w her being gay as hell for/with 3 women, which levels out- though that's besides the point-) But if you're going to hinge it entirely on a relationship she had that started and ended in highschool I'm going to break your legs and make you sit through a deep dive of the series with me. All media. Just to reeeeeally draw it out. Painfully.

#idk why that comment made me so mad i literally do not care how nuanced people read Kim's sexuality tbh #but like. surely you can find something else to back that up with. surely. bc im gonna be real with you- even using her hopeless pining is + #+less a point towards Men Generally and more a point towards Scott Fucking Pilgrim- a man with inexplicable rizz apparently #(it's the autism /hj) #he's actually rizzless btw. also this is how you know im tired i dont think ive ever fucking uttered that word before #where was i going? idk i am gone. pine rant over maybe. unless one of you comes and sets me off again cgcjdhdf #(oh gods please dont do that i need to conserve my energy i only have so many coffee candies left and my mom isnt even here yet) #((you can do that if you want i just wont be able to answer til later and it will Gnaw)) #ooc #txt #scott pilgrim #kim pine #sp comic #spvtw #spto #scott pilgrim takes off #scott pilgrim vs the world #sckim #bc it's relevant idk. i feel like that tag is bone dry

[ozymoron]

canw e just like not ever do discourse again please like no more infighting when none of it matters in the end why dont we just hold hands and feel love and not worry about whether its okay for a bi person to say faggot

#⚠️ #like yeah you told that bi person they cant say faggot but now what. we still dont have all our rights and youve jsut made an enemy out of #an ally #what now #im tired man #why are people like this lol #just like so quick to start pointing fingers at others in the community and police their behaviour like it matters in the end #i dont think a transphobe is gonna care if a nonbinary person can say tranny theyre gonna call you a slur regardless #like. why are people dumb #anyways #idk what to tag this as to filter it #queerphobia #i guess

[bringitfine]

im about to be such a stupid hater but as an aromantic person i hate the httyd 3 ending.

#YES i know its similar to the books ending #but idk man toothless leaving hiccup to go live far away with some random dragon he met like two days ago after he and hiccup have basically #grown up together just rubs me the wrong way #they've been through so much together #both literally saving the life of the other at one point #and YES i know they didn't just leave bc of that #but CMON THEIR FRIENDSHIP??? toothless and hiccup care so much about eachother #they're basically eachother's whole world #they're soulmates even /p #even valka tells her son that he has the soul of a dragon #idc what ppl say #idc if the ending was supposed to be ''realistic'' #it's a fictional world they could've came up with a happier ending where they didn't have to get separated #also i love love love astrid #dont get me wrong #but even since i was a kid i never really cared that much about her's and hiccups relationship #← aka aroace person speaking #yeah they have a lot of cute moments together #just bc im aroace that doesn't mean i cant find their relationship really cute #but again the friendship between dragons and humans is what the story is all about #idk where im going with this anymore sorry #im tired n mad n i just wanted to talk about one of my favorite franchises in the world #i love to just pretend the actual stayed together at the end of the third movie n also the light fury doesnt really exist #sorry but thats a topic for another post #bc i feel like this one has too many tags already #not that i completely hate the light fury #its more complicated than that

[snixx]

I hate admitting to people that I'm not doing well because they just get so patronizing about everything I should be doing and that's the fucking point I don't have the energy to do anything yeah yeah I get it I'm being emotionally stunted I'm just having a depression it doesn't make me a fucking failure just fucking leave me alone

#girlblogging.pdf #I'm so fucking tired all the fucking time #mentally mostly #i don't have the energy to dissect my emotions right now i have too much to do and more importantly i don't want to do anything #also why does my mom have to be there during my psychiatrist appointment im not gonna admit to anything with her there #there would be no point except to make her worry #i love her and I'm glad she came seriously. but why did she have to sit next to me the whole appt #idk man i just want to sleep

[sophiethewitch1]

Every time I stay up past 8 I lose another precious brain cell

#sophie speaks #why am i so old man core #every other 20 year old i know stays up till midnight at least #i mean ive been that and much much worse #to the point i was basically nocturnal #but now my sleep schedule is like this #more proof everyone was bullshitting about it being something ypu can control because i have no idea why im like this now #i LIKE sleeping in im in pain in the mornings it sucks #idk idk #im tired sleep time

[lonelyplanetfag]

why did they make gender so complicated what's up w that

#like yeah. im trans ftm Technically. but calling myself ftm doesn't feel right #cuz yeah i'm a boy & i only want ppl 2 see me as a boy & it hurts when they don't #but also. im not rly trans in an ftm way yk? that feels more like a technicality #and calling myself transgender feels the same as calling myself ftm #im less trans in the 'i was a girl now im a boy' or 'born a girl always a boy' way n more in a #'crossdressing fag with a pussy' sorta way #idk how to explain it right #im not just a guy yk?im a guy that crossdresses n im a faggot n transsexual bc of it #this sounds so edgy jesus god #it's just so frustrating 2 try n explain in any other way #istg my dad said transsexual that one time and it just Clicked that that's what i am n its not in the way everybody thinks if #ig** #delete later #sorry my gender is all tangled up #it's tangled up in the same way my words r tangled up #trying 2 say one thing n getting the point across most of the way but never how i want/intend #& god i hate using pc terms 2 describe what i am cuz what i am doesn't feel pc #it feels offensive cuz it is #but in a way that i can't describe right #idk man im just tired of sanitizing it n making it look all pretty ig

[paging-possum]

Who up listening to good luck babe by chappell roan and having it resonate not in the way intended but resonating nonetheless. About to go ham in the tags about the overlap of being a lesbian and being aromantic...if u even care....

#my art #gore #organs #its 2am so not a lot of this is going to be very coherent but this song makes me feel a lot of things about it all #like. its the Expectations #the expectation that im going to date men and the expectation that im going to date at all have always felt equally stifling #theres that feeling of not trying hard enough or not realizing it at first or trying to lean into what you're told you should feel #and having it not pay off time and time again and wishing you could just make it work #because everyone else around you has it just fine and you dont get why you're struggling with it so much #THERE ARE MORE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THE TWO IS WHAT IM SAYING #like obviously figuring out aromanticism is especially weird because its a lack of something BUT THEYRE PRETTY SIMILAR #realizing I dont want to date anyone mirrors realizing I didn't like boys but like. idk man its worse sometimes? #I wouldn't trade it for the world it means a lot to me but its almost like people go out of their way not to understand it sometimes #at the end of the day I am the you in that song #it was a very very long road to being okay with never falling in love because that was something I wanted for a very very long time #at the end of the day I will never have to be someones wife and I think its better that way #but its also hard not to get jealous sometimes #like I know its irrational I know I get physically ill at just the thought of being asked out but like #sometimes ill see my friends with their girlfriends and ill feel like clawing my own chest out with want #but also if anyone asks me out I will have to dig myself into a pit and never come out. I think. #I want to be with women but I dont want to Be With Women if that makes sense #its another layer of difficulty that I dont think I'll ever be able to get past #I feel like at this point I should just be trying to conditioning myself out of any form of desire because its just not an option for me #which definitely isn't true and like chappell roan says. you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. #but its also so tiring to have to sit here with the feeling and feel bad for having the feeling. #I dont know #I think if I felt a little more or a little less I’d be fine but I’m stuck in the middle #it feels very weird talking about this openly but also its very difficult to talk about with friends because most of them dont get it #anyways something something Josies monologue from bottoms #im going to bed