#idk I just wish there was something that would fix me

[ellieanddinacanlitstabme]

Honey bee 🐝

Idk y im js dragging everything rn but there will probably be really?! Pt 2 or spiderman ellie pt2 idk but dont expect anything

Also i like to think that her parents like died and she's living with her aunt and reader has an obsession with honey

Credits : all pictures are from pinterest!!

🚩: not proofread!!, mdni,bad writing, ,reader might not be fitting, idk if theres smt else, if so tell me!!!

-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-🐝-

"Sweetie can you go fix Abby's computer? Her aunt asked me" your mother said as she was washing the dishes.

"Right now?"

"no, take your time it's fine"

"I'll go later"

•

You grabbed your bag and went to Abby's house, you two always lived near each other it was a piss off, but also really good when you had a crush of her,not to sound weird but you used to wish something in her house was broken or that she just came over.

Knock knock

"omg hi! I told your mother she didn't need to bother you!"

"oh it's fine Mrs. Anderson, im sure it'll be quick"

"well, Abby's upstair"

"great!.."

•

"abby?"

"oh hey.."she was wearing a tank top and some pijama pants,her hair was down.

"come in" she moved sideways.

"thanks...um... Where's the laptop?"

"it's on the desk"

"so what's wrong with it?"

"it's randomly so laggy and just doesn't work.."

You nodded and sat on the chair in front of the laptop, opened it and checked around.

"did you download something weird?"

"...uh yeah it was like an app but i thought i deleted it..."

.

.

.

You were waiting for the system to finish loading as you were eating a popsicle Mrs. Anderson gave you

"okay... Now check around if there's something missing"

She leans over on the table and clicks around

She clicks on the messanger app and goes to check on "beebee🐝"... That just so happened to have the same pfp as you.. and have the same conversation that you had with your girlfriend...

Now everything what piecing together, no wonder so many things sounded familiar... You didn't mind... But would she?

You basically ran home and when you checked your phone Abby sent you thousands of message

<🍯 sent you a message

Bb that app was a virus💀

<🍯 sent you a message

Btw my laptops fixed now!!

<abs_burner. sent you a reel!

Ok now what do you do.. do you just reply like usually or ignore her and break up.

Beebee 🐝: yipee

🍯: wanna play roblox

Beebee 🐝:i have to eat rn

🍯: later?

Beebee 🐝:i have to study🙏🏻

🍯: can we at least call?

Beebee 🐝: fine

You were obviously trying to avoid her but it didn't seem to work, she was just perfect (like honey) is it good ...

🐝🍯🐝

"you're busy today huh?"

"aw are you angry?"

"miss.Bee you rejected my offer almost thrice"

"almost"

"yeah you saved yourself, what even do you have to study in the mid of July on a Sunday and a burning sun in the sky"

"tech, you know it if i dont keep it going I'll forget everything"

"oh by the way are still in Pasadena?"

"...yeah.."

"why are you lying."

"..."

#abby tlou #tlou abby #abby x you #abby smut #abby x reader #abby anderson #abby anderson smut #abby anderson tlou2 #abby anderson x female reader #abby anderson x reader #abby anderson x you #abby the last of us #abby tlou2 #abigail anderson #tlou #the last of us #tlou 2 #the last of us fanfiction #the last of us fandom

[mooonzyyyy]

moonzy is back with a yap

you all i’m gonna be very sentimental, this is a very much letter from me to dan and phil

Dearest Dan and Phil,

this is so sappy but idc i can’t meet you coz you bitches don’t come to the middle east but i forgive you because i understand why you wouldn’t, anyways as i was saying i have been watching you ever since i was 11 years old, i am now 20 you guys particularly raised me and idk truly what i would do without you

you both have come so far, i know how insane this phandom made you feel and i am so thankful you never gave up on it, it takes a huge amount of power and courage to deal with it you are so much stronger than me, i’m so proud of you <3

phil, the way you are unapologetically yourself helped me become more like myself by just trying new things (need that merch back) and just having fun, your creativity inspires me everyday (please make a little comic book story i would buy it) and i wish i was half as talented as you are <3

honestly never change phil you will always be my go to person for anything whimsy and i adore you, i can not wait to see you grow even more and i hope you jump back into your phil’s whimsy little world i will be watching <3

dan, i already made a whole separate post about you but weirdly while you were growing up i too was growing up with you, when you do anything life changing for some reason i will be doing something life changing myself, i aspire to gain the content and happiness that you have been radiating, i look up to you so much more than most people and i just can’t wait to see you blossom even more, from WAD to YWGTTN and i know there is so much more coming in the dan journey to living your truth <3 (DINOK PLEASE DINOK)

i’m proud of both of you so much and 11 year old moons heals anytime you all do anything you are fixing parts of me that you don’t have to and i just am so thankful for you and the time i discovered you, anytime life doesn’t work i can always rely on you guys, i love you both so much 🫶🏻

thank you for helping me survive and i promise both of you that i will try new thing and have the courage to exist 🥺🤍

#amazingphil #phil lester #dan howell #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #dan and phil games #MOONS YAPPING

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm finally almost done organising/putting away all the stupid shit I've bought recently - it's mostly all kinds of sewing supplies. I've got about a million buttons and zippers now. and lots of random fabric. a whole box full of sewing patterns. pretty much... everything you could ever need for sewing.

I've also not touched my (brand new) sewing machine since I tried it out in the couple of days after I got it. not once. because all the stuff that I bought made me feel so fucking anxious and guilty. and, well, I couldn't have used it anyway because there were boxes everywhere.

I've tried fixing the problem - I finally deleted the ebay app from my phone, for example. whenever I felt bad I'd just spend hours browsing ebay and bidding on stuff. I mean, the auction is gonna end in a week, that's not even real! I'm not buying things, I'm just saying hm well I'd pay this much for this, and then I might even win! winning is nice, it feels good! and I get a product, or even a box of products?! that also feels good!

except I bid on so. much. stuff. that the anxiety felt like it was killing me.

anyway. that part is fixed now. I did bid on a few barbies after that whole disaster, but that finally made me go, wait why am I doing this again after how shit it just made me feel?! so then I deleted the app.

but. I don't know. the real problems are still there and I don't know what to do about it.

#I think the real issues are 1. I buy things to feel better 2. I feel bad a lot of the time and 3. I fixate on a new hobby and feel like I #need to have alllll the supplies or I can't get started and then get so overwhelmed that I don't start anyway. or I do and it still loses #that new exciting feeling after a short while and I move on to the next shiny new thing #idk I just wish there was something that would fix me #and tbh I don't think I could bring the shopping thing up with a therapist even if I found one again #my previous one basically just shrugged and said it's fine because it's not a bunch of expensive stuff #well unfortunately a looot of inexpensive things are still.. a lot of money #and anyway isn't that like. not the important part?! idk I'm not an expert but it feels like a bad thing that might need help or something #but anyway I've made my vent post so it's time for bed now! who knows maybe I'll even be able to sleep now that I've said all this! #personal #cw mental health

[rythyme]

really not a fan of boston very explicitly saying "I want to be exclusive romantically but not sexually" only to be told "You're lying to yourself. I think you should be alone."

#like... p'jojo. you gave us 3wbf??? what's going on bud #only friends the series #ofts #am i misinterpreting boston? did I miss something? is this just a poorly executed representation of something else entirely?? #idk this really just did not sit well with me #i love pretty much everything else in this show so i'm disappointed that this was the last thing we got #bc I've been saying this the whole time!! boston DOES want a romantic relationship and he's spent the whole show coming to terms with that #he really does love nick #and he wants romantic exclusivity (see: Boston getting upset and jealous when Nick is with other people) #but physical stuff doesn't need to have the same exclusiveness for him and that's literally fine #idk i just wish that last conversation had been written slightly differently. a couple different wordings could have fixed it all for me #like if Nick had SAID ''i can't do a non-exclusive relationship but i hope you find someone someday who wants that with you'' #that would have been fine #not ''i think you should be alone'' #idk. just really sat wrong with me #lgbt drama #thai drama #theo.txt #100

[pegging-satan]

The likelihood of Chuuya being the next PM boss and Kunikida guaranteed to be the ADA president,,, that bitch Dazai is living the y/n wattpad life

#it’s just that this concept is infinitely funny to me his bitch ass would never shut up about it #he’s fucking the heads of two of the most powerful organisations his head is in the mf clouds #after all Why wouldn’t it be. lucky bastard Istg #man. I just wish that the transfer of power isn’t like. violent. I just want my love fukuzawa to retire peacefully #him and mori can go on like a retirement vacation or something maybe renew their vows (cannibalism arc style) #have an overdue honeymoon maybe idk the city’s not their problem anymore #they know that their second-in-commands are capable enough and of course there’s Dazai as the bridge #ahhh yes I banish canon mori to the depths of hell ~~ #that reality doesn’t exist for me thx. I can fix him and I did by disregarding canon and headcanoning him as a slay girlypop twink bottom #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd kunikida

[musical-chick-13]

"Truly GOOD works don't have thriving fandoms because people aren't interested in fixing them, so what do they have to write fics/make art about."

Idk about you, but I don't write fic for properties I don't genuinely enjoy and think are, on some level, actually good.

#like I'm here to EXPAND on shit I like is that not a common experience? #if I think a work is bad why would I care enough to create something in response to it? #you think I did all those episode reviews and wrote all that shit about cxgf because I thought it was BAD????? #I have ten (10) wips and ONE of them is a 'rewriting canon to be in line with what I wish happened' fic? #idk if I'd even call it a FIX fic. it's more of a 'slightly less personally depressing resolution' fic #I'm sorry. truly I don't understand this viewpoint #'if a story is well-constructed enough there won't BE any extra dimensions to explore' WRONG. I'LL /ALWAYS/ FIND THINGS. U UNDERESTIMATE ME #I WILL /CREATE/ BLANKS TO FILL IN /BECAUSE/ I LOVE THIS THING SO MUCH #like yes everyone is probably going to have at least one piece of media that they don't think is High Art™ that they get unhinged over #(ctrlz squad sound off) #but I just...I'm sorry I cannot imagine spending all of my time going 'I will create things in honor of something that I believe is Bad™' #or 'this thing made me angry I'll exclusively spend my time fixing it' instead of just. watching/reading something else that I DO enjoy #also like...things that ARE widely-agreed to be genuinely good still have big fandoms sometimes? #tgp is pretty popular on here. csm is MASSIVE. both on and off tumblr. #and some things WOULD be otherwise easily fandomize-able: cxgf is one. dpat is another. but these don't HAVE huge fandoms because the shows #are not popular. like just. we live in a world where people are somehow both elitist and anti-intellectual at the same time #ANYWAY this is in response to that one post I saw about--*I am dragged offstage for my own safety* #In the Vents

[basslinegrave]

do NOT hand him the vr... he is doing things to the rabbit man again

#self report but Would #wish the desktop view didnt show only 25% of the screen but i was too lazy to like get something to fix it #anyway i like to pet his tum tum and grab his goofy face #imagining this is william in this house we dont want mimictrap #(and yeah its mostly clear its mimic but i want will in that suit okies?) #like i like to think that this is based on or directly looks like an old spribonnie mascot suit that would be worn during the time the #springlock suits arent available and idk the face is just william to me #either way its a spring bonnie and its williams fursona so this can be his fursuit and

[kyouka-supremacy]

Btw today is a month since this blog was shadowbanned 🥳🥳

#Uhm. #I don't have words #Anyways I was suspending the queue thinking the shadowban would be temporary (and exams) #but given it clearly isn't. temporary. and I have stuff to post / reblog I will probably resume it with February #(Well. not tomorrow because of the episode or the second because of the chapter– #but unless sskk goes canon or something the third shall be it) #Also because like. I miss sskk and there's too many sskk posts going from June it'd be too bad not to post #I'm mostly sorry for the Akutagawa side blog tbh? Like with this blog I kinda came to terms with the accomodation of keeping it reblogs– #focused and the other original posts centered. #Despite the initial trauma it isn't even that bad because before my original posts kept getting lost in reblogs so it's a nice solution! #(Wow I just realized. After all the pain I went through when this blog was first blocked‚ the last stage of grief really IS acceptance) #But the Akutagawa blog got shadowbanned like one week after creation and although I love running it and looking for pics. #Idk I wish it got a little more traction before disappearing to the void #But there's little I can do I guess. Trust me when I tell you I tried anything I can do– well‚ besides messaging staff every day #But how could I ever do that 😞 #I feel my mental state deteriorating day after day and it's always harder to do things during the day #but it's okay tomorrow is Wungo Wednesday and that's sure to fix me <33 #random rambles

[arthur-r]

what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck #the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy #cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it #so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled #i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like #i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is #it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS #and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like #that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts #that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of #the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED?? #and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way #i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps #and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all #ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine #i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be #missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine #and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something #unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[sprinklethetangerine]

In some other universe, I would be playing piano or violin or guitar or the drums.

In some other universe, I would be doing martial arts or ballet or archery.

In some other universe, I would be a scientist or an author.

But in this universe, I am an artist, and I wish I was in another fucking universe.

#HA did you think i was aboutta say some deep shit about how “theres nowhere else id rather be” #bitch i wish i was anywhere else BUT HERE #like im crying at a blank fucking page do you think this is what i wanted to be doing with my life? #but in all seriousness i would not survive if i didnt have art #i mean sure i wish i coukd fix my broken violin and start lessons again #or do something of the sort idk #but without my art i dont know where i would be #if im feeling sad my art is there to help me #if im happy my art will be there too #if im angry or upset or scared or anything my art will always be there and shit #its been with me throughout my whole life like a guiding light #and i dont really know how to conduct myself and my emotions through myself and my words so my art helps #with my art i can help others understand me #its like placing a part of myself onto a blank page #it fucking sucks sometimes and i hate it #but i wouldnt trade it for the world #okay thats enough this was just supposed to be a joke how did we fuckin get here

[bun-parade]

Tfw you send a thoughtful text asking someone how they've been and all they do is "heart" it and never respond.

#idk why i keep trying to make friends tbh #it feels like i just attract people who only fuck with me for a very limited amount of time before ghosting me #idk if its something im doing or what #i wish they would just tell me if im doing something wrong so i can fix it #buntalk #personal rant #making friends is hard

[born-to-lose]

Missing people and regretting shit o'clock

#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it #i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn #why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up #i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him #i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up #just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended #guess i just can't be happy. i never could #i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together #not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future #which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility #or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically #while i seem to be the only one with that goal #idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now #and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess #disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change #deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim #mel talks #depressed bitch posting #i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation #it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before

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[running-in-the-dark]

sometimes I have so many blorbo thoughts that I accidentally start chewing on the nearest piece of furniture

#okay it was actually a lamp. don't know if that counts as furniture. but I was thiiiis close to just biting into it #also have found myself rubbing my head against a different lamp. like a cat. #and I make stupid noises when something cute happens. like a happy little guinea pig. #man I wish I was a cat. it'd be so great to just be able to rub my head on people (without them thinking it's weird) #sigh #chewing on someone's arm would fix me #that was a joke but... if it was a neck or maybe an ear. idk that really might. #just. bite bite bite. #ugggghhhh #yearning time. #personal

[peniscat]

Do you think Roman is gonna have gay sex? I've lost all hope and am disappointed

i feel like that at most he's going to have something weird and vaguely traumatizing with mencken and i'd honestly prefer if that didn't happen

#idk really how to feel about this. is roman's queerness something that could have been explicitly explored in the show? yeah #and by that i mean him having a subplot revolving around that. we've got plenty of subtext and some actual text already #do i think it would make sense in season four beyond matsson and mencken? no. i kind of wish they'd leaned on the romelukas angle more #that would have been interesting. it does make sense with mencken too but i don't like that and it would not be good for roman #and overall i don't think roman having gay sex is some sort of a big groundbreaking moment. bc like. it would just be #another psychosexual moment because unlike i like to joke. gay sex would not actually fix roman #the lack of gay sex isn't disappointing to me. while i think it would have been an interesting direction to take i don't think the lack of #it changes too much. if that makes any sense #though i'm pretty sure that my very pro-rg views influence my opinion here which i think is understandable lol #answered

[httpiastri]

Hi! I just read let's knock everyone's hats off and i loved it ❤️ just as someone who identifies as non binary, i just wanted to let you know that reader is described as daniel's girlfriend which is fine but the title saying it was a gender neutral reader, it caught me off guard so i was wondering if you could change it to fem!reader? I don't mean to be rude or cause harm and I really hope you won't read it like that because it isn't my intention at all, it's just a bit discouraging to think that i finally found a gender neutral fic for my fav driver and then to realize that it isn't really a gender neutral fic 😅 again I don't want to upset you or anything I just thought I'd let you know but you're of course free to delete this, I really hope you won't be offended, I assure it isn't my goal. Also sorry if english is a bit off, it isn't my first language 😭 anyway i did enjoy your writing and I hope you'll keep on writing, it was great ❤️

hello! thank you for your message. i’d like to say that i am really sorry for my mistake. i was really tired when i posted the danny blurb yesterday, and i had no energy to even come up with a title nor a summary (it still has no summary…..), so when i was gonna write the genre, pairing and such i just copied the one from another blurb. i must’ve forgotten in the moment that i had mentioned the reader as his girlfriend, so i just didn’t change it… you’re not rude or offensive or anything (and your english is great, don’t worry about it!), thank you pointing out the mistake so that i could fix it. again, i apologize!

thank you for your sweet words, hope you have a great day ❤️

#im sometimes so lazy when it comes to the summary and all that stuff…. like once I’m done with something I just wanna publish it and #be done with it already #a few days ago I posted something here and just copied the genre and pairing and all that stuff from another fic #and I didn’t realize until the day after that I didn’t change the driver 🫣 #so it was like a lando fic but the pairing said reader x oscar #or the other way around #to be really honest I’m super thankful for asks like these because instead of just letting me have a mistake out in public #these asks make you see the problem and then you can fix them #like when I look back at a story and see how i have used a word really wrong or if there’s one sentence with completely messed up grammar #then I kinda wish that someone had pointed it out to me so not too many people would’ve seen it and laughed at me #do u get what I mean? maybe? idk #or maybe i should just put my stuff through Grammarly….. would make sense #anyways #i’m sorry :( and thank you!! #anon! #asks!

[themagnificentmx]

sigh . craving potatoes

#idk why ?? #i think its bc its gloomy outside #i want some potato soup #i might just need to cook something smh #no actually i need to be cooked for #that would fix me i think #like . someone taking the time and energy to make smthn ?? for me ?? #yeah :) it'd be nice #alas . #i wish my partner lived closer and then we could cook together #sigh . woes of having food as a love language

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