#i’m mental about you too

[imsiriuslyreading]

#all the young dudes #wolfstar #remus lupin #sirius black #harry potter fanfiction #all the young dudes quotes #atyd #hp fanfic #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs #i’m so in love #book binding #mskingbean89 #anything for our moony #i’m mental about you too

[sceletaflores]

five nights in 5,000 different positions

#i can’t stop guys #down astronomically bad #he’s all i think about seriously #he’s too hot #I NEED HIM #i’m mentally ill #crying screaming yelling #josh hutcherson #josh hutcherson renaissance #jhutch #fnaf #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #mike schmidt #micheal schmidt #mike schmidt x reader #micheal schmidt x you #mike afton #micheal afton #micheal schmidt x reader

[vanhelsingapologist]

Publishing has always been a fucking nightmare, but now it’s a layer of hell. It’s not enough that writers be good at what they do. Writers have to maintain an active social media presence and cultivate a following. Be available.

They have to be conventionally attractive enough to look good enough to see on a screen, aesthetically pleasing, kind, funny, up-to-date on trends, socially aware but not so controversial that they turn off a brand from California from slapping their discount code on a video promoting a book.

They have to do all of this with no media training, with little help from the companies that are supposed to be doing this for them.

Of course, a lot of this isn't possible for say, the 40-something mother of two who teaches English at a school and writes on the side. She’s boxed out of an already complex industry that already has enough walls.

On some level, I think authors have always marketed themselves a little, but we’ve reached such a crazy point where we’re demanding the author become the influencer. Accessibility in publishing has narrowed from an inch to a sliver. And that inch was hard enough to get in as is.

#This is about traditional publishing but there’s pretty privilege and ageism in self publishing too #I can’t think of the last time I saw an up and coming author recording videos who was over thirty #And frankly that’s a shame #It could be that I’m not looking hard enough #but it’s more likely that algorithms are trained the way they are #truly I don’t think they should have to do any of that at all #And forgive me but (and I know it’s rich because I’m an artist on a platform) but art shouldn’t be at the mercy of an algorithm #Now there’s also something to be said about self publishing becoming easier and easier to achieve success in #And doors opening because of influencer status is real and makes publishing wider in a way #But that doesn’t mean it’s accessible #I’m not gonna plaster my health issues over the wall but that life is certainly not accessible to me! #are you healthy enough to write and make sure people on social media still want to like your stuff #are you mentally well enough to be your own pr #I’m sure people who have studied this have more to say and have said it better but this is what I’ve observed #writing #publishing #publishing industry

[shima-draws]

Ghost Cora AU where he’s actually been following Law around ever since he died but nobody has been able to see him, so all he’s able to do is watch Law get hurt and suffer in silence. UNTIL, miraculously, the battle of Dressrosa ends, and for some strange reason—through some supernatural bullshit or maybe just fate—one person is finally able to see him.

Law is sitting on the deck of the Yonta Maria watching everyone party when Luffy comes trotting over to him. And Luffy plops down beside him and says, “I’ve been meaning to ask, Torao, but who’s that really tall blonde guy with the funny makeup that’s been following you around?”

And Law’s just like

#Meanwhile Cora is absolutely THRILLED. LMAO #Eventually Zoro calls Perona over and since her devil fruit power deals with ghosts. She makes it so that Law can see Cora too #(And by some bs he’ll probably be brought back to life somehow idk) #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Cora #Corazon #Luffy #Law: Ha. Haha. #Law: You’re shitting me right. #Luffy: ??? What? No? #Cora: LAWWWWWW 😭😭😭 #Luffy: He’s crying your name this guy CLEARLY knows you Torao #Law; having a mental breakdown: Uh. Uh-huh??? #Shima speaks #Sorry I’m coping. I’m coping really hard rn #Actually. I feel like I was more upset about Cora’s death than Ace’s. WHICH LIKE. YOU’D THINK IT WOULD BE THE OTHER WAY AROUND BUT #I’m very. Very weak for the unsuspecting father figure who dies trope #(Sideeyes Tony and Harry (who didn’t even die anyway but it was still Traumatic for Eggsy to watch)) #COUGHS

[gayvampyr]

“queer spaces should be inclusive of people who don’t enjoy sex and who have “strange”, negative or repulsed relationships with sex” and “sex is an important aspect of lgbt community, history, and activism and queer people should be allowed and able to talk freely about sex without stigma or shame” are ideas that can and should coexist.

#‘queer people were banned from and shamed for having sex and that’s where a lot of our activism stemmed from’ and #‘not liking or having sex is considered abnormal and a mental illness and also needs to be destigmatized’ are concepts that not only can but #often do coalign #it’s esp important to consider that a lot of lgbt ppl who have a tricky and strained relationship with sex are like that because of trauma #which is very common for queer folks #it’s really not an ace-only thing #like i am sex repulsed but it’s very hard to discern if it’s because i’m asexual or if it’s the trauma. either way i deserve to have those #feelings and be included in lgbt spaces and discussions about sex and treated as just another queer person with a different experience #instead of being alienated because my feelings about sex don’t directly line up with yours #im so sick of people in this community trying to pit us against each other. as an ace lesbian that shit is so toxic and harmful #my relationship with sex is fluid. im sex-positive always‚ but i often find myself sex repulsed. im otherwise neutral about it but im sick #of people acting like it’s either you enjoy sex and have it frequently or you hate it and you shame everyone who has it like youre a puritan #and it’s often aphobes who bought into that ‘aces are puritanical celibate straights who want ppl who have gay sex to die or think they’re #‘dirty’ or some shit. and it was literally 90% crypto-aphobes pretending to be aces to get people to adopt that into their belief system #the same way crypto-t/rfs pretend to be trans women who want to prey on the ‘innocent women’ #and y’all will use those posts/screenshots as ‘evidence’ that whatever scapegoat you’ve selected is actually inherently bad/homophobic/ #misogynistic/etc and not even #acknowledge the giant hole in your logic cuz you’re too busy trying to find a scapegoat #it’s the same tactics and y’all fall for it every time #text post #like. lesbians are CONSTANTLY getting hounded and told that we’re broken or mentally i’ll for not showing interest in (having sex with) men #for the same reason asexuality is considered bad or wrong or weird #not showing interest in heterosexual relationships or sex is why this is so important #anyone that falls outside the scope of heterosexuality is part of this community whether you like it or not

[twinstxrs]

in light of recent canon academic conversations, riz adaine gorgug study sessions have never been more real to me. gorgug helps riz + adaine get out of their own heads when they’re overworking themselves, riz + adaine help gorgug with alternative studying methods because he learns best through visuals + experience. fabian’s there occasionally when he has a particularly difficult assignment/test but he makes them all swear never to speak of it in order to protect his “image.” kristen has shown up exactly twice: once for advice on a group project that was two months overdue & once to just lay on the floor and relax for an hour before leaving. fig didn’t know the study sessions were happening until sophomore year & now keeps getting monthly bans because every time she shows up she ends up accidentally distracting riz + adaine. also, sometimes after/in the middle of really long study sessions riz adaine & gorgug go to basrar’s together to unwind but fabian kristen & fig Are Not Invited (they do still text to ask if anyone wants something brought back from basrar’s. they’re not heartless, after all).

#anyways that’s the post. study trio u r real in my heart #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #kristen applebees #fig faeth #the bad kids #riz adaine gorgug trio who actually care about academics u r so dear to me. only bad kids who regularly do homework #adaine & riz both ‘ditch’ but adaine asks for her coursework beforehand + riz is usually getting rogue extra credit for sneaking out #gorgug has never ditched school in his life except for Urgent World Saving. he was doing his hw on the sig figs tour bus <3 #i’m convinced fabian also cares to a degree but not enough to genuinely try hard. except out of spite. hence the study session visits #fabian both regularly cheats on homework & thinks getting a hard assignment & not doing well is ‘losing’ #kristen has probs had a gradual academic falloff through high school due to just the amount of stuff that happened in her life. #like who has the mental energy to care about school when Literally Everything Else was going on… me too kristen me too #i think middle school fig didn’t care about school but still showed up + tried but immediately stopped giving a shit once her horns came in #& so here we are… anyways bad kids i love you

[rickybaby]

Mekies: “On one hand, we have Daniel who brings race winning experience to the team and OUTSTANDING technical capabilities and sensitivities for what the car is doing. You have the incredible energy that he brings to the whole team and it helps all of us to deliver 101%”

Daniel: “I feel good. I feel like it’s early days of my career again. I have that enthusiasm and that real love for the sport again. I just feel like a better version of myself.

#whoever decided to put these two clips of their interviews together know I suffer from mental illness #juxtaposing Daniel’s TP praising him with Daniel saying he’s found that real love for the sport again?? #having experienced the ‘i don’t know how I’m continuing to continue’ of COTA 2022 #i honestly never thought I’d get to see this Daniel ever #speaking further about feeling like the better version of himself is too much right now #Laurent mekies I don’t care what the tifosi say about you you’ve earned my respect already #now you just need to earn my love by not messing up 😊 #daniel ricciardo

[idolomantises]

I think I’m gonna discuss this once and hopefully never have to bring it up again. Originally I wanted to talk about it on Twitter but people are very disrespectful when it comes to mental health so… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Basically, I haven’t been doing so great, mentally. Nothing bad has happened to me, I’m safe and surrounded by people I care about, and it’s been like that for months. I just, I haven’t been feeling good.

For people who do follow me on accounts like Twitter and Instagram, you may have noticed I haven’t posted anything new since January. I was struggling to feel motivated to make something for my main accounts despite having countless ideas I’d love to work on. I feel better now and do plan on getting something done in March, but that sudden lack of motivation is pretty rare for me. Art is not only my job but a big hobby for me, I just love drawing. I did get some nsfw art done at least.

I don’t know what really prompted my mental health decline, I’ve been getting a few worried messages and fanart because someone insulted my art. But that didn’t hurt me at all, it actually boosted my account and patreon.

I guess I just… got sad?

I have a really bad tendency to suppress and even ignore my trauma and feelings of guilt. And I guess one day I really sat with my thoughts and I just, lost it I guess. I have so much traumatic memories and sudden and intense feelings of self loathing, something I’ve never felt in almost a decade, that it got overwhelming. I couldn’t reassure myself, I couldn’t really talk to anyone about it because how do you confront things that happened years ago? You feel almost irrational. It’s just memories that haunt you, it’s nothing physical or tangible and yet it’s a crushing feeling of anxiety, self hatred and resentment.

I was crying almost every day, and crying so much that my eyes kept hurting long after I was done, and I could barely see my own screen. I’ve had paranoid thoughts about myself and others, thoughts I can’t get into because they’re so deeply irrational. I was feeling suicidal urges and thoughts of self harm. I don’t see myself doing it, but it’s so frequent and overwhelming it’s like I’m already planning my suicide note.

I was talking to my therapist about it, that I was starting to hate being alive. That I hated living. That I could spend the next 50 years of my life with no more conflict or trauma and I’d still be in intense misery and turmoil. They’re feelings I couldn’t really bring myself to tell friends about because what could they say? How do you calm yourself down and reassure yourself. I can’t even talk about my trauma verbally without crying. And it’s funny because sometimes minor irks started to affect me negatively. I was feeling anxious about what to draw because I didn’t want to do deal with homophobic backlash.

I went to a therapist, I talked to friends, Ive been working out more and eating better, I did everything I should do to improve my mental health and all of a sudden a single night just sitting in my room destroyed everything I was slowly building up over the past 5 years.

It’s been really difficult for me. I think also, I just felt so much guilt over not being the best person I could be. I decided to lessen my online usage, not just for my mental health but because I really wanted to work on being a better person. I want to stop hating myself and letting my trauma push me down and I want to do just be better and do better as a person. A lot of people have been very forgiving and kind to me but I don’t feel like it’s enough and I want to do more and I want to feel better about myself. I want to give everything I can to people around me. I’ve been going to therapy a lot more lately and things are getting better for me, but it’s been a very slow process.

I just want to repeat that nothing serious has happened to me. Nobody attacked me in a way that negatively affected my health. A lot of people, friends and strangers have been really nice to me these past few months. I just was doing a lot of self reflecting and unintentionally forced myself to confront a lot of my trauma. I’m saying trauma a lot. I don’t want to get into depth about what I endured because it’s my business but people who do know me know how bad things were for me. I don’t want to feel like that again. I want to feel better, and I want to do better.

Sorry for the long read. That’s just how I feel.

#txt #suicide tw #self harm tw #I was very hesitant to discuss this because whenever I talk about mental health it leans into #one side. who are super well meaning but feel obligated to make sure that I’m okay. like I’m their responsibility when I’m just a stranger #online and my thoughts and feelings should never make someone feel like they have to ‘protect’ me #and another side who sees me purposefully be vague about some of the things I discuss like trauma and regret #and just construct their own narrative and get mad at me for it #at this point I’m just too tired to care about the potential backlash of the latter #if you read all this and think I’m saying I did nothing wrong and everyone is bad except for me that’s your fantasy you get to live in #I just want to be honest about my thoughts and feelings

[mikeystrawberry]

Finally getting to making everyone’s epilogue designs. I sketched the other three but I’m not a fan of how they turned out so you just get Scary’s initial concept for now.

#if you go to my main twt you can see them #I just don’t feel like posting them here #I’m too used to drawing them as teens so I forgot to take aging into account and they barely look any older #also there’s something about scary getting a face scar in the finale I blanked on during both my listens so ill add that to the #design once I have the mental energy to relisten again #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads fanart #scary marlowe

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

people have GOT to be more comfortable with some spaces not being about them. sometimes spaces are not for you. sometimes you will be told you cannot enter a space because it’s not for you. or you cannot bring a friend because a space is for you and not for them. that’s ok

#also you can relate to someone and fall under the same categories or experience similar things but the space is specifically for another #group and so you can’t enter. you’re still in the wider community with these people #i’m not going to invite a christian to shul with me on yom kippur or something. i’m not going to invite physically abled people into #disability spaces. that doesn’t mean we can’t have overlapping experiences or be in the same wider community. it just means that they cannot #enter the smaller one #this is about the returned cripple punk discourse. physically disabled people and mentally disabled people are both disabled! we are all in #community together! we all fall under that community! #but cripple punk is not for people who are physically abled. it’s in the name. if you’re not a cripple then you don’t fall under cripple #punk. that doesn’t mean you’re not disabled. it just means you’re not physically disabled #my post #y’all can reblog this if you want #this goes for so many spaces too

[honeypleasejustkillme]

ppl whose mental problems have never really hindered their progression in life need to never ever talk to me, i hate conversations with them bc they act like just because symptoms are manageable for them it should be the same for everyone and i just can't do it

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #like honestly i’m sick of people being like “i have mental illnesses too but i still go on with life and progress″ okay good for you #i can’t tho so stop making me feel shitty about it #i’m conclusion: people piss me off

[nemmet]

guess which show i’m finally watching in its entirety

#the context that make this doodle infinitely funnier: i’ve been bedridden with the flu these past couple of days #and have been having the fred mentality of ‘i hate this i want to Do Things’ #also i drew this to avoid going to sleep oops #also in case you don't know the text next to the doodle is an actual quote shaggy says about fred in the episode djhsgfgsds #but YEAH i knew i was going to love be cool but MAN it’s so so good i love everything about it #i’m currently up to s2e1 #when i’m feeling better/have the time definitely expect some more art of it from me!!! #scooby doo #fred jones #fred scooby doo #be cool scooby doo #nem art :) #scooby doo and nemmet too!

[wandasaura]

i’m sorry for the lack of fics recently, i promise i haven’t forgotten about your asks and my upcoming series’, i’ve just been swamped with school and life recently. this is the last full month of the semester so hopefully i can get back into writing like i was. thank you for sticking with me 🫶🏼

#i promise i’m thinking about mommy wanda as much as you are right now #i just never have the time and when i do have a couple hours im too mentally exhausted to form a coherent sentence #wandasaura

[evansbby]

haven’t i always said that selena gomez always plays the victim??? ALWAYS???

#her victim mentality is actually insane #forget genocides forget children and innocent people being bombed daily #she needs to find a way to make it about herself #it’s honestly fascinating to watch how tone deaf she is #it’s fascinating to watch her spew out ‘poor me’ rhetoric EVEN IN THIS SITUATION #all she truly cares about is her ex boyfriend and his wife #I’ve always said this but I think Hailey Bieber is 1000x the woman selena gomez is for enduring all the hate that she does #that Selena FUELS #Selena plays victim card and makes her fans go after strong confident queens like Bella hadid too #but forget all that #IMAGINE THERE IS A LITERAL GENOCIDE GOING ON AND YOU STILL FIND A WAY TO THROW A TANTRUM AND MAKE IT ABOUT YOURSELF #she’s literally the worst y’all I’ve been saying it for years #and if you’re a fan of hers #like not even a casual fan but if you’re a selena stan #then thats fucking weird I’m sorry bc all her little army does is defend her when she’s clearly in the wrong #I honestly have people like her

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

headcanon that after bloodbending in tartarus percy is more sensitive to feeling the water in blood meaning that he can sometimes feel annabeth’s pulse quicken when she looks at him or when he tucks her hair behind her ear or says something sweet

#can you tell i’m mentally ill about them #based on that one kanej scene #where nina says kaz catches his breath every time he sees inej like it’s the first time #(kaz autocorrected to jazz i just want to share that) #also i feel like percy wouldn’t say anything about it he’d just privately smile to himself each time #OR annabeth would be starting to have an anxiety attack someday and he’d realize before she said anything and help calm her down #and afterwards she’d be like wait how did you know my heart was beating too fast #and he’d be like uhhhhh soooo 🙃and tell her all embarrassed and bashful like #and she’d find that’s so sweet like tell me you don’t want to jump off a bridge thinking of annabeth finding out abt that #and that her heart still skips a beat around percy after all these years #i feel physically ill typing this #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo <3 #percy series #percy jackson and the olympians

[certified-silly-guy]

[literally the most mentally unstable, abused, traumatized, clinically insane character:

“They just like me fr fr!”

#fr fr tho #me fr fr #u too #i know #i know what you are #silly little guy #sillyposting #so silly #silly #the sillies #autism #do you want to kiss . #mental illness #shitpost #crying about it #im just silly like that #i’m just silly like that #hehehhehe #silly and goofy #silly guy #cursed #silly goofy mood