#i’m actually burning up

[dazednmatthews]

no cause the thing abt this is that i’m sooooo chill and normal abt this. like i literally don’t even care fr like pffffttt like whaaaat who cares. no like i literally am so chill and normal and fine abt this. like genuinely whatever. i’m sooooo normal. mr cool girl over here. brrrrr. feel that? i’m so chill. toooo chill. chill asf actually. it’s nothing like who even cares.

#cherriespeaks #i’m going to rip my hair out #oh my god i’ve never felt less normal in my fucking life #matthew sturniolo the man that you are #matt please give me a chance like PLEASE. #cause mind you that’s my nigga. #and yes i took the picture #my man my man my mannnnn #like that’s my man #like i’m going to WAR FOR IT #i actually cannot breathe #like what the FUCK IS THIS #every time this mf wear a hat my lifespan gets shorter #like what if i d*ed rn like he did it it’s his fault #i’m actually burning up #i’m not chill at all #i’m going feral #i need him so badly it’s KILLING ME #oh my god this can’t be #LIKE IT CANT #yall what do i do im losing my mind #I NEED HIM IN MY DRAWLS NEOW! #GODDDDDDDD FUCKKKKKKKK #matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #christopher sturniolo #chris sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #he knows like he fucking KNOWS.

[shanksxbuggy]

Shanks/Buggy dialogue from One Piece: Burning Blood

#there’s a bunch of different match ups that give you special dialogue and all of buggy’s interactions in this game are so cute and funny #shanks sounds cool and battle ready with literally every other character he interacts with #but with buggy he’s trying so damn hard to get close #he keeps trying to take buggy with him like he’s so impatient to get the fight over with and go somewhere together #shanks’ fight dialogue with buggy actually sounds like sanji’s fight dialogue in jump force when he faces a woman 😭😭 #I’m like reel it in lover boy you’re coming on strong #one piece #shanks #buggy #one piece burning blood #one piece game #one piece shanks #buggy the clown #shuggy #shanks x buggy #buggy x shanks #op shanks #op buggy

[the-crimson]

Aight thoughts on todays bbh lore cuz we got A LOT. Just stay with me through my nerding about trees it’ll be worth it XD

We pretty much got 100% confirmation that he is intentionally hurting Baghera and Forever and that he thinks of himself as expendable. What fascinates me the most is when Bad asked Foolish this

“Is there anything wrong with burning the forest to save the trees?”

At first glance you might think YES if u burn the forest then there won’t be any trees??!! However it is a custom on fire risk zones to create controlled fires that burn up brush and dead trees so that the risk of a natural and far more devastating fire is reduced. Additionally, if a fungus infects a forest, burning the infected trees may be the only way to prevent the spread to the rest of the forest.

On top of that, there is a specific type of tree species that requires fires in order to reproduce. These are often Pine trees that drop pinecones. Pinecones hold seeds inside them that only germinate when immense heat is applied to them: the heat of a forest fire. When they are within these temperatures, the seeds germinate and the pine cones pop, scattering the seeds on the forest floor. These trees adapted to form a symbiotic relationship with fire one of if not the most destructive natural forces on the earth.

Do you know one of the trees that has developed this adaption? Redwoods.

Do you know which tree bbh brought up when giving Jaiden a PINECONE gift for her birthday today? A Redwood.

I’m like actually going insane. This can’t be a coincidence right????? I’m not going crazy right???

The whole reason I noticed this scene is because I live near the redwood forests in California and I know all about the way these trees depend on fires for their survival. It’s something that’s always fascinated me. That’s when I assume Bad was going to ask foolish the above question before Jaiden and Teana cut their conversation short while they were talking on the Titian . He literally had these specific trees on his mind when he was going to ask about burning down the forest.

Let me tell you another thing about Redwood trees. They are ancient. They are massive. They are sturdy. Natural fires are a common phenomenon here and a majority of the redwoods survive with barely a scratch, maybe an inch or two of its outer bark scorched. Nothing it won’t grow past in a year or two when these trees easily live for 500+ years.

(Side note, if there is one place in America you should visit it’s the redwood forests of California. It is literally like entering a portal to another world. These trees are 10-15 ft in diameter easily and you can just feel how ancient the forests are. It’s one of my all time favorite places to go)

So, in the situation Bad is proposing, burning the forest to save the trees, he is actively thinking about Redwoods in this hypothetical. Not only trees that are extremely resistant to fire but trees that depend on fire to survive. That completely changes the way he is approaching this question.

In his hypothetical, the forest will burn. The animals will die. The brush and non redwoods will turn to ash. The land will be scarred and the trees themselves may look dead, branchless and black. But. But. A season will pass and new branches will peel through the charcoal. Seeds deep in the soil will surge forth as the soil is fed nutrients from the ash. Animals will return. Pinecones will shed their fertilized seeds to give birth to a new generation of trees. And by next year, the forest will look just as vibrant as it had before the fire. Trees may bear the scars of the flames but life continues and it continues and it continues always.

I might actually be going crazy bbh makes me crazy cc!bbh makes me crazy I’m losing my mind

#qsmp #crimson speaks #badboyhalo #look #biology and ecosystems was a major hyperfixation in high school #like science in general has been one of my special interests since I was a baby #and I just so happen to have an intimate knowledge of redwood in particular #cuz I used to spend my summers camping in these forests #also #don’t tell me they are called sequoias #we use redwood and sequoia interchangeably #and I grew up calling them redwoods #but seriously I’m actually losing it over BBH’s lore today #he planted that pinecone and redwood mention INTENTIONALLY #KNOWING HE WAS GONNA ASK FOOLISH ABOUT BURNING THE TREES #AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHA #SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #he’s so fucking insane #and amazing at planting and pay off #omfg

[mattodore]

pay attention to theo’s beautiful face and not whatever matthias’s arm is doing... i liked the lighting more here than against the wall

#these are the last screenshots i wanted to edit from the ones i took on the 22nd and had been slowly editing throughout the week #will finally be putting mattodore in their thirties to rest 🙏⚰️ #river dipping #echthroi #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #ended up not doing much to these screenshots tbh… i was so into the audiobook i was listening to i kinda just. stared at the wall a lot... #my brain was telling me this wasn’t worth posting bc i’ve done so many mattodore edits recently and this isn’t anything different but. #like i did actually spend a few hours with these edits so. on one hand i’m like this isn’t really anything #but on the other hand i’m like. well they’re my ocs whom i love dearly and i’ll probably enjoy looking back at this #the same way i do all my other recent edits which i open my own blog up to stare at like. multiple times in a day #obsessed atm…….. #anyway. #god… matthias is so huge he always takes up so much space i’m constantly having to crop him out of edits 😭 #and these are poses that weren’t even made from me…. so he’s not even at his full 6’3’’ height and size like 😭😭😭 #he distracted me but that aside... i'm waiting for my game to open up atm so i can get back to tweaking alessandria's sim #her face is gonna take me forever................................. #ik i don't talk about my other ocs on here much anymore but alessandria is my third favorite oc (mattodore obviously being my top two) #so... i'm seriously gonna agonize over every update i make for them now kjdhknjf #ocs with tragic backstories save me................... #i’ll probably spend a few hours with alessandria in cas and then i’m going back to google docs to write more abt mattodore

[chirpsythismorning]

When I suggest Mike’s arc is in part a queer coming of age story and not just him being some prize to help El or Will defeat the big bad—

Angry anons:

#byler #mike wheeler #I’m sorry but you don’t turn off your protagonists pov and expect to get away with it #you do it to hide something and save it for the end #if mikes arc ends with I love you will or them just having feelings for each other #all that does is equate to El and Mike’s love saving the day #it’s more than compatibility or lack there of #it’s the fucking 80s and their queer okay #let’s wake up and smell the roses #s5 is going to be rated m it’s going to be dark #everyone is going to reach their limits #if you think mikes limits are that he’s insecure bc he can’t save everyone and what will resolve that is him saving someone… #and that’s it… #what…? #that’s not… that’s not worthy of confusing your audience the entire show and especially the last two seasons #there needs to be something to make all those moments in previous seasons feel more impactful #and Mike and Will both assuming their alone in going crazy in the 80s #only to find out they’re not #but that they’re actually going crazy together #that’s a slow burn worth waiting until the end for #slow burn is about slowly burning #that’s what they’ve been doing for the last 4 seasons #I don’t get making their end look identical to milkvans by just recycling their scenes in the last season #the whole point of milkvan is to show what not to do #so anything that happened between them #we can pretty much rule out for byler #the truth is a lot more complex than what s4 presented #if it was really as simple as presented #s5 would offer no surprises #it would just fall flat

[mumblesplash]

the fact that doctors can just Recommend Weight Loss with no instructions beyond ‘eat healthier/less’ is actually insane to me, i lost weight on purpose ONCE and it took me like 6 years to recover a semi-normal relationship with food and hunger

#uhh #disordered eating cw #just in case #mumbling #like jfc i know i’m not the first to say it and my experience is relatively SO tame #but it STILL fucked with my head for YEARS #and most people don’t go nearly that long between weight loss attempts at all for basically their whole lives!!!!! #and we’re so blasé about it like yeah just eat less to lose weight #and so few people talk about the really weird shit that phase of my life taught me even though they seem like pretty universal things #like when you lose weight deliberately by denying yourself food you get COLD #you get cold and you get in your head and you get sad it’s like being less alive #the times i’ve lost weight/recomped on accident (by doing smth that makes me move more‚ getting better sleep etc) #it’s been WARM #burn hotter move freer feel happier #and also the way hunger feels when you’ve been denying yourself food for an extended time is NOT the same as baseline hunger #it’s actually kind of wild that we use the same word to describe both feelings like that shit is NOT the same #that shit is not ‘being really hungry’ it’s a fuckin. blood curse or some shit you feel straight up unhinged #and i should disclaim here i am not talking large amounts of weight #i’ve fluctuated over i think a 20lb range max since reaching close to my adult height and that’s a guesstimate #but even in my relatively unremarkable little experiences here the way deliberate weight loss fucked with my brain is absurd to me #i’m fine now have been for years but seriously thinking back on it the fact that this is routine medical advice. unreal

[sunnibits]

sunny v.19 patch update

(nasty nineteen is something my friends keep saying whenever one of us turns 19 and I find it really funny ok)

#color burn layer is literally the only thing saving this from being ugly thank you color burn my godly savior color burn 🙏 #anyways. this year has been…. let’s just say not very poggers for me. #pretty damn hard actually #but if I’m good at anything I’m good at hoping and loving. so I’m still going and not stopping!!! #art #my art #doodles #also the earrings are based on earrings my bestie gem gave me that I’m obsessed with but I fucked the #*fucked them up so I made them silly

[wormtime123]

definitely not caught on cleo warning pearl about bigb’s track record with being boogeyman and bdubs defending him with “you wouldn’t know what it’s like.” definitely not

#like holy shit. boogey drama how i’ve missed you #nosy neighbors already making my brain spin tbh #person with the One big betrayal on his back #+ person who’s been burned before that people now know not to mess with #i’m already eating this up actually. #limited life spoilers #limited life smp

[somerandommess]

Maxiel au.

Almost 2000 words

Inspired by something I had quite the laugh about ‘help I accidentally called my potential sperm donor sobbing and now he doesn’t want to do that anymore. What do I do’

content warning: mention of mpreg

As it neared the end of Daniels 30th birthday, he found himself sitting on the floor of his kitchen with his back to the cupboard. Micheal and Blake were there too, passing a bottle of scotch between them. Daniel stopped drinking a while ago but still had that level of drunkenness where his tongue was loose .

“Do you guys ever think about having kids?”

Blake, who was bringing the bottle to his lips paused and watched him dead on. Micheal did the same.

He felt uncomfortable under their gaze and shifted, trying to play it off as the cupboard handle digging into his back.

Blake put the bottle down, “What?”

Daniel looked away, “I mean children. Little sticky hand, snot nosed kids.”

Micheal grabbed the bottle and passed it to him, “Where’s this coming from DR?”

Daniel picked at the label on the bottle.

“I don’t know, I mean I’m getting older. I know my mum wants more grandchildren and I just- I thought I’d be married with at least two kids by now”

Micheal and Blake said nothing, the silence made him uncomfortable.

He likes children, he knows that much. He loves being an uncle, but sometimes he thinks about having his own little child to laugh at when they fall down. He was in a relationship before and they talked about children. He and the guy had been together for four years but he left when Daniel brought up kids. Daniel was going to propose, so guess he dodged a bullet there.

Sometimes he dreams about curly haired children running wild in his mother’s backyard. In the dreams they look like him but in a weird distorted dream way. There’s also a guy there with them, tall and blond. His ex was blond so he thinks it was him. Ironic.

He always wakes up sad from those dreams.

“You could get a donor,” Blake says. Micheal finishes the bottle and nods his head aggressively.

Daniel watches them wide-eyed.

“What?”

“A sperm donor, there are clinics in Monaco that do that.”

Daniel laughed, “You’re joking,”

Blake fixed his stare on him, “I’m serious”

“Mate I’m not having some random guys baby just because I want kids. What if he’s a ginger?” He tries to joke but his heart is racing a mile a minute. All of a sudden he’s stone cold sober.

A sperm donor? Really? Actually, it’s not the craziest thing. He’s not drunk enough for this.

Micheal chimes in, “Maybe you could have a F1 drivers baby. I heard some of them have done it. Or a doctor,”

“What if he tries to, I don’t know, reach out? Isn’t the point to be anonymous?”

Blake fixes his glasses, “Actually, some places ask if you want to meet the person. Or if you want to be totally anonymous. It’s up to you.”

“How do you know so much about this shit?” Micheal asks.

Blake shifts and tries to stretch out his leg, “I just do.” He pulls out his phone and starts typing something.

Daniel watches him cautiously, “What are you doing?”

“Sending you clinic options for you to research or go to, incase this isn’t just a drunken confession and you actually want to do this,”

His phone pings and he sees that he sent him three clinics close to him to try. His heart pounds. He’s just a semi decent artist, whose work has been featured in museums. He can’t even make a proper omelette without burning the sides, and he’s thinking about children? Christ, what was he thinking?

Micheal seems to sense the mental battle that he’s having and places a hand on his knee. “Hey, we‘ll support you no matter the choice”

“Yeah. You don’t have to go or do anything,” Blake puts the phone away, “but if you do, you’ll have Micheal and I to help”

Daniel feels his eyes watering. “Thanks guys,”

They sit in silence for a while. He checks the clock on the wall, 12:10 am. His birthday is over.

“I think I’ll go,”

..

“I’ll obviously be the favorite uncle,”

“I think Scotty just shuddered at the thought of that actually, and he’s like halfway around the world right now”

————

Two weeks later he goes to one of the clinics. It had the best reviews out of the ones Blake sent.

He meant to go earlier but a museum called and asked to feature some of his work in an exhibition. He couldn’t say no. They also said they’d pay extra if he could procure a new piece so he spent many nights coming up with something perfect.

He walks in and goes to the counter. The receptionist is an old lady with…brightly colored hair. She smiles up at him and he explains why he’s here. He’s given some forms to fill out and he goes and sits in one of the chairs.

As he’s filling out the form, his stomach twists. He’s actually doing this. He considers just running out but he made up his mind. He wants the sleepless nights and the early mornings. He wants this. It doesn’t help that he and Michelle spent an entire two hour call just looking at baby clothes.

A nurse comes out from the back and calls him into one of the rooms. The receptionist, Gertrude as her name tag says, smiles at him as he goes inside.

When he enters the office, the doctor gets up from her chair to shake his hand.

“Good afternoon Daniel, I’m Doctor Felix but you can call me Janine if you’d like,”

He shakes her hand and greets her. She has a warm smile and kind eyes. He sits in the chair and relaxes immediately.

They start talking about why he’s here and other important stuff.

Financial and living situation, the procedure, and the donor process.

“Some donors actually leave their name and contact info just incase the recipient wants to meet or needs support,”

She types something on her keyboard,

“Though most just stay anonymous. Are you interested in keeping contact with your potential donor?”

He shrugs and looks off to the side. He hadn’t thought of it. He thinks he’s capable of raising a kid on his own. And it’s not like he’ll be completely alone, with his Mum and Dad, Michelle, Micheal, Blake, and Scotty.

Maybe he’ll keep the number, just incase.

When they’re done, she sends him off with some pamphlets and a date to come back.

He heads out and even though Gertrude is attending to another person, she waves him goodbye.

————

When he comes back, he ends up getting the contact number for his donor.

Max V.

He doesn’t plan on using it. He knows the clinic will notify him something along the lines of ‘Hey, this random guy is taking your sperm thx for your service’

So he doesn’t expect to contact him or be contacted.

His plan doesn’t completely work.

He’s been taking these supplements to do something. He can’t remember. Increase the chance of it sticking he guesses. It makes his hormones act up and sometimes, like tonight, makes him bawl hysterically.

He calls Micheal crying and doesn’t even give him the chance to speak before he’s rambling.

“Mikey I can’t do this. A child? What was I thinking! I can’t even cook! What am I meant to feed a baby?,”

He hears as if he’s about to say something but continues talking, “And don’t say that omelettes and oatmeal is cooking. It’s not! What about my art? I’m going to have to stop painting. The fumes Mikey!”

He pauses

“I’m going to have to go back to traditional!” He sobs some more.

“Or maybe photography. I always liked that,”

He collects himself. Micheal stays quiet. He takes a deep breath,

“Im just overthinking, the stupid hormones. It’s only going to get worse when i actually get pregnant. Let’s hope this Max guys sperm knows what it’s doing,”

Micheal is still silent.

“Micheal?”

He checks removes the phone from his ear checking to see if he’s muted. That would be embarrassing.

The phone screen lights up and-

This is not Micheal.

The name reads Max V.

“Shit.”

He blurts out a quick ‘sorry’ and hangs up.

“Fuuuck”

He opens WhatsApp and creates a chat with Max V.

Hey, I’m sorry about that. I thought you were my friend Micheal.

This is the guy who’s going to take your sperm btw.

Daniel

He cringes. So much for no contact. The message gets blue ticked and then Max V. Is typing.

Are you okay?

Mentally?

And. Ok, rude. Just because he had a crisis over the phone doesn’t mean he’s not ok.

He responds

Yes lol.

Max V. Is typing. But then it goes away.

Daniel locks his phone and runs a hand through his hair.

“Shit”

————

When he goes to follow up with Dr. Felix, she tells him that his original donor declined.

“What?”

“He says something happened recently and now he’s no longer a potential sperm donor… for you”

He blinks.

“Excuse me,”

He pulls out his phone and opens his chat with Max.

Did you really cancel my appointment just because I accidentally called you crying?

You called at 1 am, crying hysterically. Forgive me if I’m having second thoughts

Fuck you

He locks his phone.

————

“He really did that?”

“YES! So what if the hormones made me cry? That’s normal. Ugh. Asshole.”

Daniel shoved a piece burnt toast in his mouth. He chewed on the charred bread. He should really learn how to cook properly. But what do Babies know? They drink milk for like…ever! He has time to figure it out.

Blake watched him and cautiously drank his orange juice.

“I swear, if I ever meet him, I’ll give him a piece of my mind,”

Blake set the cup down and looked like he was going to speak before taking another sip.

Daniel narrowed his eyes, “What?”

Blake shook his head but mumbled something under his breath.

Daniel raised his eyebrow and kicked his shin under the table.

“Ow. I just- What if you…met him? Not to argue but to hear him out? Make him reconsider?”

Daniel pondered the idea. He took another bite of his burnt toast.

It’s not the craziest idea he’s had. No, that was moving to Monaco.

“Yeah, I could do that,”

Yes. He’ll meet Max and demand his sperm back.

Wait.

He’ll word it better.

He pulls out his phone and opens the chat.

————

probably many errors in here

Can you tell I know very little about this topic? lmao

Max is still an F1 driver, Daniel is an artist.

Maybe I’ll do a part 2 lol

#maxiel #maxiel au #Gertrude is actually inspired by a lady I met at work #she’s like 80 and has bright orange hair #I want to be like her when I’m older #I don’t actually have plans to make this a long winded fic #But in the end he and Max get together obvi and Dan doesn’t burn food anymore #Scotty hearing Micheal refer to himself as the favorite uncle: #I sense a disturbance #also in the end #he ends up not needing the clinic for the donation #if you know what I mean #wink wink

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

i find this shit sooooooooo fucking annoying and frankly unworthy of respect… obviously advertising and branding are powerful and that’s why companies invest in them but i genuinely have no fucking patience for grown ass adults acting like corporations are standing their holding a gun to their heads and forcing them to spend money on their stuff. it’s genuinely pathetic to me. grow the actual fuck up please

#this isn’t the worst example i’ve seen but i guess it’s a straw breaking the camel’s back moment #bc this mentality is everywhere and it’s fucking annoying every time #by grow the fuck up i don’t even mean stop spending money on disney stuff #i mean stop acting like you are being helplessly oppressed and incapable of exercising choice #also i feel like going to the parks is actually qualitatively different than listening to a soundtrack #bc of the labor stuff…. not that i think going to a disney park makes someone like evil #but it does kind of gesture to other limits of this sort of ‘corporate helplessness’ style analysis #reminiscent of AHP being like ‘i’m burned out bc i HAVE to grow tomatoes because of Culture’ #you literally don’t. grow up

[inkykeiji]

SO THE RADIO GUY’S BACK. I DON’T THINK YOU NOTICED, I DIDN’T AT FIRST—I WAS TOO BUSY BEING A MUCH MORE INTERESTING AND IMPORTANT PERSON. BUT FUCK IT. NEWS IS SLOW TODAY I GUESS. I’M TOTALLY NOT WORRIED ABOUT THIS GUY AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU BE. I TOTALLY WRECKED HIS SHIT THE LAST TIME HE TRIED ME, THANKS FOR ASKING.

#BREAKING: UNREMARKABLE LOSER BACK FROM FUCKING OFF #he’s so funny i love him so fucking much i’m actually going iNSANE #INSANE FOR A FUCKING TELEVISION #A FUCKING TELEVISION WITH LEGS #BUT I LOVE HIM WITH MY WHOLE HEART LIKE #IT’S JUST GETTING STRONGER WITH EVERY PASSING DAY #and every day i wake up like ‘i couldn’t possibly love vox more than i did yesterday’ #and every day i prove myself WRONG and love him EVEN MOREEEEE #IMPOSSIBLY #anyway <3 hey <3 #my eyes are fucking BURNING #i hope u have a good thursday!!! #voxxy <33333 #inky.hazbin

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

how are people so fucking media illiterate they don’t understand the point of mean girls of all things why are you calling for someone to be an abusive bigot like you do realise regina george called people slurs right she was not a good person why do you want your streamer to abuse people and to be hated by everyone because he’s an abusive prick this is literally what you’re asking for. like. have you watched the movie. have you read the synopsis of the movie. like it’s not called mean girls for no reason regina george isn’t aspirational she’s a bully and a bigot do you want dream to call people he doesn’t like the d slur or what.

#like I genuinely don’t know if this is a mask off they actually do want dream to say slurs and hate the gays moment #Or if they just literally watched the movie with their eyes and ears closed #LIKE THE BURN BOOK IS 90% BIGOTRY DO YOU WANT HIM TO START SLINGING AROUND THE R SLUR LIKE ITS 2004 #like. genuinely this is just ducking the stupidest self own and I’m cracking up

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me: okay time to go to bed now

my brain: do you mean time to write 1,500 words of milex smut

#why does inspiration always hit JUST before i’m about to go to sleep?? #i mean #i have my theories on why i always write best either side of sleep #but also ffs brain i have to get up in the morning and be a functioning adult for work you know #can’t you please have your bursts of inspiration at a slightly more convenient time?? 😭 #(although actually. inconvenient bursts of inspiration are still inspiration so i’ll take it) #having so much fun finally writing the burn bits of the slow burn lol #anyway #time to actually sleep now 😭 #lulu posts

[kattitude130]

I LOVE TESTAMENT AND THEIR CHARACTER ARC SO MUCH IT GIVES ME THE STRENGTH TO BITE THROUGH METAL RAAAAAAAAAUAUUUUUUGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#AAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THINKING ABOUT IT GIVES ME HEART BURN #i think villains should be redeemed and come out as transgender more often #‘i carried myself like a demon despite being surrounded by accepting people’ paraphrased quote but i chew on it daily #pre-strive testament i love youuuuuu strive testament i love youuuuuuu #waaauuuhhhh wails and cries #guilty gear #my post #i believe in my soul that they and dizzy have been keeping in touch #but i also wouldn’t mind a happy reunion with lots of catching up #i just hgugugurrrhrhhhhrhhrhagh *tears through metal beams with my teeth* #sniffle sob cries #ok i’m done *will cry myself to sleep later* #actually no i’m also thinking of an au where dizzy gave sin to testament to protect instead #it would make sense #aauauughdhahhahhh #ok now i’m done

[kadextra]

I HATE IT HEREEEE WTF THEY MEMORY WIPED HIM????? HE CANT WRITE???? WHAT DID THE FEDERATION DO TO HIM???? MY SON IM SO SORRY

#this is actually devastating my eyes are burning I’m tearing up :( #qsmp #liveblogging #qsmp quackity

[shirtlessradfahrer]

So what do you do when your favourite rapper makes a catchy song about the hardships of life that you want to love but upon release can’t connect with at all and after a few listens almost outright dislike because none of the pain and hardship life has put you through has ever made you a better person or given you the energy/motivation to do better and it actually just did the complete opposite and you’ve lost out on precious years of your life and so many opportunities while trying to process the trauma and undo the damage

But everyone else seems to love the song to the point that you start to wonder if maybe you’re just a fucking idiot for not being able to make something good out of said trauma and hardship instead of just being filled with crippling anxiety and depression and bitterness and grief and rage

#käärijä #yes this is about ruoska #the mental health tanked again this week #sorry to put my ramblings in the main tag but I need someone to tell me I’m not insane for being so uncomfortable with the song #I’ve been nervous to say my full thoughts because people loved it so much and I didn’t want to rain on their parade #and the umk performance and mv were genuinely well done #but it just really hurts #if the metaphorical whip that hurt me was a tangible item I’d fucking shred the thing to pieces #and then burn the remains #so that no one else could ever suffer the same way again #it didn’t push me through life #it made me want to give up on it completely #I’ve been at my happiest and most driven and most fulfilled when I finally got a fucking break from it #one of the opening lines about sitting at the gas station actually triggered a really fucking bad memory I would have loved to forget #it fucking sucks because his songs have brought me so much happiness #a kind I haven’t felt in a long time #and then there’s….this #if nothing else I wanted to love it for Erika’s sake #but I just can’t #am I just misinterpreting the lyrics? #or projecting too much #I probably am #because god I am NOT looking forward to hearing it all though Kä summer camp #and i hate that