#THINKING ABOUT IT GIVES ME HEART BURN

[kattitude130]

I LOVE TESTAMENT AND THEIR CHARACTER ARC SO MUCH IT GIVES ME THE STRENGTH TO BITE THROUGH METAL RAAAAAAAAAUAUUUUUUGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#AAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THINKING ABOUT IT GIVES ME HEART BURN #i think villains should be redeemed and come out as transgender more often #‘i carried myself like a demon despite being surrounded by accepting people’ paraphrased quote but i chew on it daily #pre-strive testament i love youuuuuu strive testament i love youuuuuuu #waaauuuhhhh wails and cries #guilty gear #my post #i believe in my soul that they and dizzy have been keeping in touch #but i also wouldn’t mind a happy reunion with lots of catching up #i just hgugugurrrhrhhhhrhhrhagh *tears through metal beams with my teeth* #sniffle sob cries #ok i’m done *will cry myself to sleep later* #actually no i’m also thinking of an au where dizzy gave sin to testament to protect instead #it would make sense #aauauughdhahhahhh #ok now i’m done

[darth-sonny]

everyone talks about future peepaw leo (understandable really, i do too), but i kinda wanna talk about future leo in the early years of the apocalypse

#the ammount of self loathing and self hate during these years must've been astronomical #he gives me ''an alcoholic at heart'' vibes #and as much as i /HATE/ with a burning passion the trope of future leo actively hating present leo #if THIS version of f!leo were to go back to the past i think he'd legit kill present leo #legit kill #and he's probably wouldn't feel any guilt about it. #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmmt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #future leo #leo hamato #my art #sonny draws #weary and wild au #<- new addition bc this will be relevant later

[alvojake]

I realized something today that if I were to go back and watch Kingdom I wouldn't be able to vote for anyone 😭 (I was only a skz stan atp) now I would rather jump off the tallest building into a burning pit of lava then ever choose now (as I'm now an ateez, skz and tbz stan.....)

#like i was all for skz winning #when i first watched it #cheered them on with my whole heart #but now? #i would be cheering for the top three groups #like i wouldn't care who won as long as they had fun #which sadly #they didnt always #it was a tough time for all of them #and thinking about it makes me wanna just give them and hug and a head pat #before telling the producers and directors off #like they would not hear the end of it #and so lord help me #i will get violent #like drag your ass before leaving you in a burning building #that i started #gotta make sure the boys and the innocent are safe first #but as soon as they are... #😈😈😈 #kay talks ☕ #alvojake rant #kpop #stray kids #ateez #the boyz #kingdom

[todayisafridaynight]

obsessed with my non-rgg friend trying to bribe me into playing imessage 8ball with kiryu boob

#snap chats #she follows this blog but never uses tumblr HAHA #ALSO DISCLAIMER I SENT MY MESSAGE THE EXACT SECOND SHE SENT KIRYULAKEJLKA #ps she doesnt know anything about rgg. aside from osmosis but we get the point #genuinely love my non rgg friends who do send me rgg stuff when they can tho #VERY heart warming... like thank you champs..... im glad im in yalls hearts... #however aint no amount of doki doki kiryu gifs is gonna get me on imessage 8ball #i dont PLAY LIKE THAT. also i never get notifs when its my turn soooo #oh yeah. btw. i havent drawn shit #too busy thinking about Pure and staring at the fire i lit. after my other candle burned out of course #might just give up on it for the night and watch kyouen for the rest of the night <- absolutley will not and will stare at a blank canvas #boooo my moms home tomorrow so that means i have to leave the house at like. 3AM. cause she ALSO gets up really early #laaame. ok bye

[kitsunegdx]

Pretty people

Thinking bout… pretty people. Just pretty, you know?

Pretty people I’ve dated and their scars and little quirks.

Pretty people I’m friends with who got smiles and voices that brighten my day.

Pretty people who got big friends groups to form a functional human being and look out for each other.

Pretty people who live in my head rent free metaphorically and literally.

I am also thinking of pretty people who just know how to appreciate small things in life to help make the world a lil happier for themselves. I don’t think they know that makes them extra pretty.

Pretty people who got eyes and don’t have eyes. Any color even it brings them all together

Pretty people who’s minds are perceiving the horrors while they act like it’s normal. Those pretty people are more common than you think.

Pretty people who got little features that culminate to make them whole be it stuff they can control like how they style their hair, to stuff they can’t, like having an extra finger.

Pretty people who aren’t people at all. Those are in my head too.

Pretty people can come in many different forms be it size, shape, voices, from a stranger on a subway to even text on a screen.

Pretty people are all around us, it’s a matter of taking in the small stuff that makes them whole.

Why are people so pretty?

Why are you so pretty?

#uh oh kit’s in love with all her friends at once again #I’m just- *sigh* it’s hard thinking about the homies and wondering if they appreciate themselves the way I see them #I have vagued a few but… man why are people so pretty? #I want to just hold them and wonder about it… #might pin this #so all my friends and mutuals can see #to ramble a bit I have friends with burn scars on their body that I find pretty- ex lovers now friends who feel not enough #in the bodies they have but it’s like- bro I just think you are so pretty I want to accent that natural beauty you have #man I wanna help my friends feel pretty in their body but alas I’m a college student #don’t tell one of them but I’m hoping that when I get my career that I can put money to the side to help her get the presentation of gender #that she wants like- I just wanna help them so much bro to see that I am out here with a heart full of love and pockets I’m working on fill- #ing to help them figure out how pretty they are #*sigh* this probably doesn’t make sense but I just think they are so pretty like- all of them #even my mutuals be pretty too with words n just hanging around like- I fucking see you bro #i’m in my feels #I’m feelin this bro #I want to like- so badly hold and hug them all like- even if you don’t like hugs I will stand to the side and give you the most approving #thumbs up I can because I fuckin love them bro they are my homies they have been with me through #thicc and thin and thick again like- AAAA #I just really love them they are my besties and like I wanna sob maybe cry a little over how much I love the #them they are just so much good people and I care for them a lot #this post doesn’t make a lot of sense but they are so good #Also pretty is the only word I can use to describe people and it means so much when I use it #it isn’t just that they are pretty they bring me joy beyond belief and I wanna cry

[tipsywench]

once again having to figure out wtf to do with my life and its like maybe I should just quit chasing a degree and career and go become an old chain-smoking prostitute or something i dont know anymore

#im really tired and nothings worked out for me #maybe ill just die of a heart attack at the rammstein concert in june and that'll resolve that matter lol #or like maybe till will trip and ill be the 1 fan who gets burned to death by his flamethrower during mein teil #i think thatd be a really funny way to go despite the ptsd itd give literally everyone and the band #'she died doing what she loved: screaming the lyrics to a song about cannibalism'

[toomuchdickfort]

Vent abt smth that gets on my Nerves

#tried bringing up to mom like. hey how could I bring up coming out to family. and she was like visibly uncomfortable so I was like dw I’m no #gonna like try to ruin Christmas with it or some shit I’m just. nervous u see. and I’m sat there anxiety rambling abt it because oh my god. #and she pulls out the fucking. ‘can’t you just be a person?’ mom I am a person already. the problem is. the PROBLEM IS. EVERYONE THINKS I AM #AND THUS TREATS ME AS A GIRL. like oh my god. #vent #it’s not a huge vent like if it comes up I’m not gonna Lie moms discomfort abt the matter be damned. #but like. ‘can’t you just be a person’ is what she says every fucking time it comes up. like mom. mother. mi madre. do you realize how much #of an insult that feels like when you say it EVERY TIME I bring up trans anxieties. or dysphoria. or any of the ways my transness affects my #life. like being trans doesn’t make me less of a person oh my god. but also frankly I don’t have the patience to be nice about getting into #things and I don’t have the heart to hurt her about it and even if I did have one of those I don’t have the patience to hold her hand #through all this shit. like I gave up having mom on this journey ages ago do you know how painful it is to un-give up on something that #immense. it’s hard and it hurts and it burns and it’s like. giving up to begin with didn’t hurt too bad- it’s cutting off the festering #wound. but. but then. you find out that. you can in fact work with that. and suddenly you have to try and clean the wound. care for it and #wrap it and do it all over again. and god it hurts. and. I’m not entirely sure I want to un-give up all the way on this? it’s. a lot #like I get and I appreciate that she’s trying to do. something. in theory at least. she avoids the subject when I bring it up and all but #cringed when I brought up coming out to her side of the family. she calls me my deadname and her daughter more than she did before she said #she would try. and I don’t have the energy to uncover that wound enough to start cleaning it. I’m just letting it sit there because frankly #it’ll be such a huge thing because it’s Always a huge thing when I don’t let the subject drop mega fast and I’m. I know she’s not gonna cut #me off for just being trans but GOD I want to keep ONE of my parents in my fucking life when I’m able to stand on my own two feet holy shit #and. man. it appears this is. still more of a thing than I thought it was. thats. annoying and inconvenient

[juusasu4evagrrl]

Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??

Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.

I don't know thoughts???

#do i even wanna speak on it #maybe i should just rewatch pray the devil back to hell give my dad a hug and tell him how proud i am of him #on second thought #maybe we should go the naruto route #like i promise their are a lot of wacky connections between the warfare in naruto and the liberian civil war #general butt naked eating hearts kakuzu also eating hearts #Samuel doe ( may he rest in pieces in someones digestive track while his soul burns in hell) and danzo #the thing i like about connecting fandom to my life is that it teaches me thing that provide empathy in spaces where it did not naturally #exist but the thing is i dont want to have empathy for a lot of those hos and i think thats valid actually #i think its important to bring our personal live into fandom though cause its all we really have #idek i think it would be best to keep the real world seperate from fandom in this case but #my dad just completed a trip to Liberia for the first time in 30 years (round of applause pls) for the first time since the war has ended #a confilct that started when he was my age (younger actually) and ended a month after my birth and has left so much instability who knows #if its ever really over #were all struggling to come to terms with the Liberia left behind by those events the family and friends we leave behind #and i feel like it would be easier to talk project it all onto stupid lil alien ninja wars instead of talking about it irl #i love sasuke cause i deeply relate to his struggle even though im a generation removed #but i feel like this fandom would not be receptive to the way i would disscuss his character if i made that connection in an analysis #so maybe ill just stew in my emotions a little longer and when i go back to Liberia this summer wth the fam ill decide weather to make #that post or not onece and for all #no that'll be perfect actually cause then i'll be able to make it a post for liberian independence day #ughhh like i don't be wanna talk about it irl but i don't feel this would be a good outlet either #naruto commentary in relation to the liberian civil war sounds like a dope essa but should i write it??? #probably not but we'll just have to see #thoughts feelings opinions?? any other Liberian naruto fans on here??? pleas siblings put some sense in me #naruto #not naruto #god i don't even wanna make this post lets see how long she stays up #im writing too many naruto analysies rn anyways lemme worry about that first

[authenticaussie]

I think the reason I'm enjoying writing core4 so much is it's just, a bunch of only-child children with non-traditional family dynamics who are so sibling coded/we're roommates and have been for the past 63,136 years. DELIGHTFUL to me. They're all so goddamn stupid. I have decided Kon says traumatic things about Cadmus and Cassie/Tim/Bart turn to each other and play rock-paper-scissors for who gets to be angry about it this time.

#superheroes #bip bop nari drops #core4 #kon: ....what are you doing #tim: well if all of us get mad we're gonna storm the place and burn down a bunch of shit and get in trouble #cassie: SO the deal is only one of us is allowed to be mad. and we bury it deep in our heart to be traumatized about it forever ❤️ #kon: it's not that traumatic!!! i was just talking about watching tv!!! #bart: -pats him on the shoulder- aw bud. let it out #kon: WHAT'S TRAUMATIC ABOUT LEARNING ABOUT FAMILY THROUGH WATCHING TV #tim: oh boy I'm so tapping out of this one we are getting Way too uncomfortably close to my shit #**caveat that i dont think Tim's inherently traumatized by his parents/dont think theyre Terrible they're just #**bad at being parents. well-meaning but Too Many Expectations and also were not really. MEANT to be parents. did it because it was expecte #not because they actually wanted a kid. and so they were like. yeah! we'll be cool parents. give him freedom and stuff. #but then when he's wildly independent and kinda a brat because they're not PARENTS and he barely knows them #they're like how can you treat us like that we're your PARENTS #anyway i think complex relationships are fun!!!!! love a good Sad Tim fic but. oooo the complex dynamics of not hating your parents #because you didn't even have them. my beloved #they're dead and you love them because all you can remember is when they were there - but how often were they there? #mwah it fascinates me. he's a latchkey kid and social dynamics have changed since his first comic!!!! augh!!! #anyway inherent fascinating tim & kon & cassie & bart family relationships #i like thinking all of them have just Little things they can't handle about kon's Pod Facts without being sad

[animationismycomfort]

don’t hate the show I think it’s fun but I prefer movie turbo

#like I don’t mind them but I love #movie turbo Chet burn smoothmoove whiplash whiteshadow and skidmark #they just have a special place in my heart that nothing could ever fill #like I LOVE movie burn so much more then show burn idk why #I think it’s because she’s waaaay more chill then show burn and she’s just so much sweeter with chet(to me) #I also love movie turbo way more but I think that’s because he doesn’t give off such NICE vibes like show turbo does like yea turbos chill #but he’s not THAT nice #I also love how judgmental and strong Chet is in the move way more then the show #I also like all the characters way more in the movie then show #again I don’t hate the show #it just feels like if it was its own separate thing from turbo while still being about turbo it would’ve been better #idk #I just love movie turbo soooooooooo much #my stuffy stuff #movies #turbo

[weepingfireflies]

Bottom-tier Character Tomozaki is for the mentally ill and neurodivergent babes don't @ me

#bottom-tier character tomozaki #/light-hearted obvi #jaku-chara tomozaki-kun #弱キャラ友崎くん #I really like how it handled the 'putting in an effort to better yourself/your appearance vs constantly wearing a mask' #because tomozaki fumiya (the MC) clearly struggles with social anxiety and depression so a lot of his 'appearance' is him giving up #and hinami aoi gives clear goals and helps him feel better about himself. like that it undeniable #but she also leans too heavily on 'being perfect'/'winning the game' which is unsustainable esp for someone with depression #(and I do think she deals with depression/mental illness as well albeit in a different way) #it was just really good for me 👀 #if you're a burned out gifted kid you'll probably like it #my posts #anime #sunnie talks about anime

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Ok roommate update just bc she throws a tantrum doesn’t mean she gets her way! Housing isn’t making me sign off on a new agreement bc she signed the first one and had ample opportunities to say she wanted things changed as we filled it out

#housing just hates her so bad actually. and I mean. i was going to be like hey she signed off on it that’s on her #but housing did it for me! it’s amazing. she’s moving out after this semester #speaking of housing hates her. my 2 friends here r really good friends with a bunch of ras (mine included) and the other day one texts me #and she’s like. ur roomie is so irritating my group chat is going off about it. so she came to visit to show me the exchange #for context roomie called the ra on call to cry about her key getting stuck in the door #if the key isn’t flat it doesn’t come out of the door. she knows this. bc it happened so many times the first week she moved in #so housing knowing her says ok we’ll help but you’ll have to pay the lockout fee. and then the key magically works! #so later when me and my friend r home she rings the doorbell and I thought it was my ra #and then it’s her. and she’s like my key is stuck :(((( #and I look at it it’s on an angle. so im I give it a half hearted pull and im like call housing #bc I knew she’d have to pay a lockout fee and I (along with many ras) think she should pay a ’ur wasting my time fee’ #but my friend takes one look at it pulls it out to make her look dumb #which. in my personal opinion doesn’t do anything bc she plays dumb #and she’s like to me could u have gotten it out? and I’m like yeah I could’ve but I shouldn’t keep having to fix problems you can fix urself #and she gets all huffy and she’s like sorry for being such a burden to you #and it’s like. girl. you act like an idiot for attention. and the second there’s consequences you back down #but god knows not without trying to guilt trip someone! she’s draining the last bit of my humanity #i have never met someone so universally hated it’s crazy #i swear she’s only transferring next semester bc she burned every single bridge here #also? that little fit she threw a week or two ago? hasn’t spoken a word on it since. I’d wager it’s bc housing told her it’s on her #the other night she tells me. ‘oh by the way. you’re allowed to make noise tonight. I’m staying up all night’ and I’m like. allowed??? #what r u my mother??? I’m gonna make sound in my apartment. I’m soo sorry you call every available number every time theres a breeze outside #and the day my friend was over! ‘you’re allowed to stay past 1am if you want. I’ll be up all night’ my friend who cannot hold her tongue #goes oh allowed? are you my mother? thanks mom! #objectively hilarious but she probably shouldn’t have said it #u might think I just sound super mean but I have 0 tolerance for bs and she’s made of it #she’s drained every single bit of niceness in my body after her little tantrum #and also reading the texts she’s sent to my ra about me <3 #that’s the update bc I hit 30 tags 🫠 #soup talks