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hotchocolatedoodles · 1 year

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Lazy Morning | An Emunene Fanfic

I noticed the lack of Emunene fanfics on Ao3 especially compared to the Ruikasa fanfics so I wanna change that!! I literally wrote this just now within maybe two or three hours (??) Idk lol sorry for any mistakes it's my first time writing something for a Fandom I'm in. I hope you enjoy!! It's all fluff btw!! 🍬🤖

Main Pairing: Ootori Emu/Kusanagi Nene

Other Pairings: Kamishiro Rui/Tenma Tsukasa

Characters: Kusanagi Nene, Ootori Emu, Kamishiro Rui, Tenma Tsukasa

Word Count: 1,273 words

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It was about 11:00 A.M. when Nene’s phone started ringing. No reaction. The ringing faded and after a while it started again. It was then that Nene slowly came to her senses although she still seemed to be more asleep than awake. With her left hand she rubbed her eyes while she was holding her pink haired partner tight with her right.

After their practice last night, Emu wanted to stay the night at Nene’s place. So, obviously she asked the green haired diva if that would be okay for her and received a rather flustered Nene who, of course, couldn’t say no to that request. To be honest, Nene was a little embarrassed being confronted with that question in front of their other troupe mates but she didn’t mind because that’s just how much she loved her bubbly partner. They spent the night playing video games, watching some movies and cuddling. At around 01:30 A.M. they realized just how late it had got and decided to go to sleep.

Nene really didn’t want to leave Emu’s side right now. She felt too comfortable like this, holding her girlfriend in her arms and close to her chest. On top of that, she really didn’t want to risk waking Emu up when she was sleeping this soundly. But when Nene’s phone started ringing for the third time this morning, Emu slowly fluttered her eyes open. Now, Nene needn’t had to worry about waking Emu up anymore when her phone did the job for her. But the sleepy diva had no time to frown when she was greeted with the most sparkly pink eyes in existence and she could feel her heart melt on the spot.

“Mhhh good moooorniiiing, Nene-chaaan~,” exclaimed Emu, excited to start the day with her favourite person in the whole wide world. She stretched her arms and took Nene into a big, tight hug. Nene returned the hug without realizing that her phone stopped ringing once again. “Good morning, Emu,” Nene murmured into Emu’s hair with a small smile on her face. Emu nuzzled her head deeper into Nene’s chest. They were both overjoyed, being able to hold each other so close without a soul interrupting their peace.

Well, maybe there was one thing that could interrupt their peace after all.

Nene’s phone rang once more and this time Nene couldn’t ignore it anymore. With a frown on her face she sighed and released herself from the oh so comfortable grip of her girlfriend and grabbed her phone. Rui and Tsukasa have tried calling them for the past 10 minutes and Nene noticed about 50 unread messages, of which most were messages from Tsukasa, all in caps, as if it would make Nene read them sooner.

Nene answered the call.

“Hello…” Nene’s throat felt dry and she’d rather go back to cuddling with Emu now.

“Good morning, Nene. Or should I rather say good noon?” despite not being able to see his face, Nene could see Rui’s grin.

“Ugh… What’s the matter?” Nene asked while massaging her forehead.

“Um… Well, you do know that we have agreed to meet up for practice today, right? You didn’t forget that, did you?”

At first there was no reply on the other end but Rui waited patiently, unlike his noisy boyfriend who could be heard in the distance. Nene needed a few seconds to process what she just got told by her childhood friend and when she remembered their agreement, she slapped her hand onto her face and let out a quiet “Fuck…” which unfortunately wasn’t quiet enough for Rui not to hear.

“Fufu~ so you did forget, huh?” again, Nene could see Rui grinning widely. She couldn’t tell if that was better than him being upset about Emu and her not appearing for practice, though.

“sigh… Yeah, Emu and I… We may have overslept a little. Sorry about that, Rui.” Emu, who sat up on Nene’s bed in the meantime, noticed how Nene genuinely felt bad for forgetting about practice, so she moved closer to the girl with messy, green hair and hugged her from behind. Nene welcomed that gesture by placing her free hand over Emu’s.

“Emu and I will hurry over. We just need to get dressed quickly and we’ll be on our way!” Nene promised and Emu, head resting on her girlfriend’s shoulder, quickly added, “YEAH! We’ll be there in no time!!”

There was a short silence before Rui said, “No need, it’s fine.”

The girls were a little surprised at the response but before either of them could say another thing, their director continued to speak.

“Take the day off, you two. We’re everything but on a tight schedule, so just enjoy yourselves today. Tsukasa-kun and I have plans of our own for today and it’s a nice surprise to get to them sooner than expected.” Rui spoke with an unusual tone in his voice.

“Oh- But is it really okay? You two have probably been waiting for quite some ti-”

“OF COURSE IT’S OKAY!” Tsukasa snatched Rui’s phone and cut Nene off mid-sentence. “Did you really think we were doing nothing while waiting for you two? Of course we did some practicing while waiting as a means not to waste time!”

Nene and Emu were looking at each other and began to smile. A synchronized “Thank you!” was heard from the girls and Nene then hung up the phone, placing it back onto her bedside table. First, the two girls just kept staring at each other, their smiles becoming wider and their blush turning a deeper shade of red until Emu pulled Nene back down on the bed with all her force, making both of them laugh. Nene hid her face in her hands as she was laughing.

“We’re so dumb. How did we forget practice?” Nene breathed out in-between laughs, slightly embarrassed about forgetting. She was happy nonetheless because she forgot together with her girlfriend, who she adored so much. Emu couldn’t even form a reply, she was laughing that much. She simply pulled Nene into a tight hug again, nuzzling her face back into the older one’s chest. Nene carefully placed her hands on each side of the pink haired girl’s head, pulling her face up a little to place a soft kiss on Emu’s forehead. Immediately after, Nene placed her arms around Emu’s head and held her close to her. The younger one’s blush deepens even more as she hugs her dearest Nene tighter.

The two of them kept lying there, snuggling, legs intertwined and simply enjoying each other’s company for as long as possible. They forgot everything around them, the only thing on their minds being their partner until…

rumble

Until Emu’s stomach disturbed their peace. Neither of them has eaten anything for breakfast until now because they yet had to leave Nene’s room. They giggled as they heard Nene’s stomach rumbling now, too.

“I think we should go grab something to eat haha!” Nene suggested.

“Yeah we should definitely! Can we make some extra, super duper, wonderhoi-ish poofy waffles together?? Pretty please???” Emu asked with big puppy eyes, holding Nene by the collar of her shirt.

“Hihi of course we can,” Nene replied, her eyes and smile turning softer with each passing second.

The two lovebirds got out of bed, the green haired girl taking the pink’s hand, and in return the younger gave the older a quick peck on the cheek as they left the room to make breakfast. Or, looking back at how much time had passed already, perhaps it would be more fitting to call it lunch at this point.

#emunene #emu x nene #fluff #kusanagi nene #ootori emu #idk how to tag writing help #um yeah hope you enjoy #forehead kisses #cuddling & snuggling #i just need emunene fluff okay??#please i need more content for them #i love the gays but give the sapphics some spotlight too #oh also this is not beta read lol we die like me in french class

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settersloveletters · 4 years

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hello hellooo!! i literally love ur blog so mf much, can i pls request some yummy angst w a fluffy ending w tsukki and kenma 🥺? where their s/o feels jealous n insecure maybe about another girl and when they bring it up they end up having a huge fight ?

— you’re great; oneshot

a/n: okay,, i only wrote tsukki’s right now and i’ll get to kenma’s soon but i really wanted to post this tonight so i hope that’s okay >_< also idk how to write angst so i’m sorry if this doesn’t pull your heartstrings ;w;

oh i also started to write in proper grammar and not all lowercase ehehe

➳ request: s/o insecure abt another girl + angst + big fight with tsukki and kenma

➳ pairing: tsukishima x f!reader

➳ genre: angst, fluffy at the end

➳ word count: 1.9k

➳ admin: kiri ♡

Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap.

You continued to tap the top end of your pencil against your desk, leaning your head against the palm of your hand as you glared at the familiar blonde across the room. You and Tsukishima Kei had been an item for almost a year now, and you couldn’t be happier. That is, until your homeroom teacher assigned a project that required everyone to be in pairs.

“Earth to (Y/N),” Hitoka Yachi, your assignment partner and best friend, waved her hand in front of your face. “You’re gonna get wrinkles on your forehead if you keep glaring at Tsukishima-kun and Akari-san.”

“I am not glaring at them.” You scoff, leaning back against your chair and folding your arms over your chest.

“(Y/N) you shouldn’t be worried about anything,” Yachi responded, “Tsukishima-kun only has eyes for you.”

You blew your bangs out of your face in frustration as you turned towards the window. You knew that you shouldn’t be worrying over this trivial matter, but the fact that your boyfriend was spending most of his time with the most popular girl — also dubbed at the most prettiest — in your year bothered you.

“Doesn’t help that Kei’s partners with Akari-san.” You argue back. Akari Hana was the girl that every guy dreamed about. Smart, athletic, pretty. You were insecure enough. When you compare yourself to Akari you could find so many flaws in you and so many perfections in her. It didn’t help that your last boyfriend — which was back in junior high — broke up with you for a girl similar to Akari.

As the bell rang, signaling that school was over, you gathered your things into your school bag and was about to head over to Tsukki when you stopped. You watched as your boyfriend — without glancing at you — made his way out the class. Still talking to Akari. You purse your lips and gripped the strap of your bag.

It’s okay. You were fine.

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

The rest of the week remained just like that. Tsukki only offering you good morning texts and a peck on the cheek when he sees you, before making his way to Akari. Again. Every time you tried to talk to, or approach Tsukki he would brush you off before he ran off to Ms. Popularity.

You told yourself that it was fine, and that they were only spending that much time together for the sake of the project. However you started to notice how much closer the two started to get. Every time you see either of them, the other is right beside them. Even as you went to the volleyball club’s practice after school, you stopped yourself from entering the gym as you saw Akari watching from the sides. You turned right around and went home. The only text you got from Tsukki was him asking where you were, to which you replied saying you weren’t feeling well.

[5:43] my little tsun-chan: hey why didn’t you come to practice today?

[5:50] you: i went home, wasn’t feeling well

[6:00] my little tsun-chan: dumbass, you gotta take better care of yourself

You tossed your phone to the side and pressed your face into your pillow. Kei you idiot.

Friday finally came around and you couldn’t be more relieved. Friday was the day you and Tsukki held your weekly movie nights. One of the days that left a special place in your heart. You smiled as you made your way to school, knowing that this was one day that Akari Hana couldn’t take Tsukki away.

“Oh sorry (Y/N),” Tsukki looked at you. You found him underneath a tree out in the school yard. You assumed that he was waiting for you, however that wasn’t the case. “Hana-san and I were gonna finish the assignment today.”

“But we always have movie nights Fridays.” You furrow your eyebrows. “We’ve never missed one unless you have a game.”

“Well yeah, but this is for school and Hana-san is busy over the weekend so we only have today to finish.” Tsukki pulled out his phone.

“Hana-san? Since when have you started calling her by her first name?”

“I forgot, but she’s the one who insisted and I didn’t really care.” Tsukki replied, not sparing you any glacé.

“You and Akari-san have gotten a lot closer huh?” You bite your lip, your throat starting to hurt.

“Well yeah, we’re partners of course.”

“You’ve been spending a lot of time with her too. We’ve barely talked to each other this whole week” You brought your gaze downwards, whispering the last sentence.

“(Y/N), don’t you think you’re overreacting?” Tsukki, rolled his eyes, finally looking at you.

“Is it my fault that I’m worried? Probably.” You bite your lip harder. “Akari-san’s amazing though. She’s pretty, smart, talented and athletic.”

“Yeah she’s all of those things. But you’re great too (Y/N).”

“Just great… That makes me feel better.” You laugh bitterly.

Just hearing Tsukki say stuff like it wasn’t a big deal, affected you a lot. You started to remember this exact scenario happening back in your last year of junior high. Where you confronted your current boyfriend at the time and asked him about a girl in your grade that all the guys fawned over. If you weren’t already insecure the words that he said raised the bar.

“She’s just amazing. From her face to her personality. But you’re great too (Y/N).”

But you’re great too (Y/N). But you’re great too (Y/N). But you’re great too (Y/N).

You could feel some tears welling up in your eyes as you remember that phrase, “You seem like you like Akari-san a lot.”

“What are you jealous?” He smirks.

“Do you think this is a joke?” You can see a figure out of the corner of your eye. Glancing towards the side you see Akari Hana walking out of the school doors looking around for Tsukki.

“Okay Hana-san and I need to finish our assignment. When you’ve gotten over your unnecessary jealousy, I’ll text you.” He started to walk towards Akari.

“You know what. I’m done Tsukishima.” You dig your nails into your hand. “If you think Akari is all that, you might as well go out with her.”

Tsukki turns around at your statement, “What? (Y/N) what are you even saying?” He touches your wrist.

“NO! Don’t touch me!” You yell, shrinking away from his touch. “Just go to Akari. I’m done Tsukishima.”

You turn away and run off to your house.

«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»

You spend your weekend locked up in your room, eating ice cream and chips while reading sad fanfiction to soothe your aching heart. Tsukki tried calling you after you ran home, and even sent multiple texts. But you just brushed it off, putting your phone on do not disturb as to not disrupt your reading.

When Sunday came around, your heart hurt just more than it had been. It was your one year anniversary with Tsukki. Or it would’ve been. You covered yourself with your blankets as you hugged your stuffed animal. You gave up reading on fanfics and decided to just lay there, staring off into space. You enjoyed the quietness.

“(Y/N)-CHAN!” Your bedroom door was slammed open, surprising you from the sudden loud noise. You looked up to see Yachi standing in the doorway. “I’m here to take you out because you’ve been stuck inside all weekend.”

“Yachi please no,” You groan, pulling the covers over your head. “Just let me wither away in my sadness.”

“Nope it’s almost 6 and you’ve spend the entire day inside, now get up and get in the shower.” Yachi replied, grabbing the covers off of you.

Groaning once again, you begrudgingly made your way to your bathroom knowing that you couldn’t argue your way out of this. Stepping back into your room, wrapped in your towels you see Yachi sitting on your bed, texting away on her phone.

“Who’re you texting?”

“Huh? Oh, just Hinata-kun don’t worry.” Yachi says, placing her phone down on your bed. “You’re wearing that by the way.”

She points to a yellow sundress covered in a floral pattern laid out on your bed. Letting out a sigh, you grab the dress and head back into your bathroom to change. After fixing yourself up, You and Yachi head downstairs. Reaching the final step you hear a knock at your door which leaves you confused. Looking back at Yachi, she shrugs her shoulders at you.

Opening the door, you come face-to-face with the person you’d least expect to show up. “What’re you doing here.”

At your door stands Tsukki, in a pair of khaki coloured pants and a navy blue polo shirt. He was holding a bouquet of flowers as he darted his eyes everywhere, except your own eyes.

“I–uh,” Tsukki, sighed and finally looked at you. “(Y/N), please let me explain everything.”

“I’m supposed to be going out with Yachi right now.” You cross your arms over your chest.

“Actually (Y/N), Hinata-kun texted me and needs my help with Kageyama-kun.” Yachi speaks up, “I gotta go but I’ll talk to you later!”

The blonde girl heads out the door before you could say anything and you’re left alone with Tsukki. The two of you fall into uncomfortable silence, something that hasn’t happened between you in awhile.

“(Y/N)–“ Tsukki starts to say, but you cut him off before anything.

“As much as I don’t wanna talk to you, I’ll give you 10 minutes.”

“I need 30 minutes.”

Your mouth gapes open, “30 minutes, Tsukishima–“

“Please, (Y/N).” He pleaded.

“Fine.”

After a long walk in silence, the sun had started to set that an orange hue was left in the sky. Tsukishima led you to a small park away from the houses and roads. From a distance you could see small little lights littering the ground. As you got closer, you realized that the little lights littering the ground were candles. Candles that led to a small gazebo where a table setting was set up in the middle.

“Tsukishima what is this?” You asked as he pulled out your chair for you to sit.

“This is what me and Han- Akari-san had been planning.” Tsukki reveals.

“Akari-chan?”

“All that time her and I have been spending, she’s been helping me plan this for our one year.”

Your eyes widen at his confession. You suddenly feel stupid for thinking the things you thought. You felt stupid for thinking that Tsukishima would ever be like your ex-boyfriend. You just felt stupid.

“I–“ You don’t even know what to say.

“No don’t you dare apologize. I’m the one who’s sorry for just edging you on like that. I just made things worse.” Tsukki took your hands in his. “I have no idea how to express how I’m feeling without being sarcastic. And I hurt you. But I swear to you (Y/N), I love you and I will always love you.”

You could feel the tears coming up in your eyes, but you feel Tsukki’s calloused fingers wipe them away. “I’m sorry for acting so jealous and insecure. And for jumping to conclusions.”

Tsukki shakes his head. “Let’s just put this behind us.” He leans in and places a kiss on your forehead showing his affection.

Your relationship stood strong ever since.

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[Behind the Scenes]

(Y/N): wait a minute did yachi have a hand in this too? Is that why she came to my house and got me to get ready?

Tsukki: maybe

(Y/N): wait is that hinata and yachi… and akari-san in those bushes??

three heads pop up before the three run off

#haikyuu #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu oneshot #tsukishima kei #tsukishima x reader #angst time #requests #admin kiri

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all-dead-rock-show · 7 years

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I’ll Be His Friend

Summary: On the train ride to Hogwarts, Phil encounters some other first years he’s not so fond of. Well, all except for one. Title taken from a quote from the fic.

Genre: fluff!

Warnings: use of gay as an insult

Word Count: 1406

a/n: okay so i wrote this a while ago but i didn’t know if i should post it or not but i just decided to anyway. i love harry potter and hp au’s are always my favorite, so i wrote one myself. BUT, i fell like i can expand off of this fic and write maybe other little fics that all correspond with each other, starting with this one. i’ll only do that though if ya’ll would want to read it!

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Waking up on September 1st gave Phil Lester a rush of adrenaline. He excitedly shoved his glasses on his face and jumped out of bed at exactly 8:00 in the morning. He ran into his parents room and shook them awake, chatting animatedly about how they had to get ready for the trip to Kings Cross Station.

Phil couldn’t wait for his first year of Hogwarts. His older brother, Martyn, has always talked about how amazing the school is, and Phil would listen in awe, dreaming about the day he would get his letter for the wizarding school.

And today was the day Phil would begin his first year at Hogwarts. Phil shoved his breakfast in his mouth, desperate to get on the way to the train station. Phil’s mother smiled at his enthusiasm and told him to “calm down now dear, don’t want you choking before you can even get on the train.”

After breakfast Phil got dressed and ready to leave. He knew that they weren’t leaving until 9:30, (he has the exact time embedded into his brain) but he wanted to be 100 percent ready, trunk packed with all his needed belongings.

By 9:00, the Lesters had the car all packed and ready. Phil reminded everyone in the house, (even the family owl), that they were leaving in 30 minutes. He was jumping on the balls of his feet in front of the front door, smiling like a maniac. He couldn’t help it, he was ecstatic.

Finally, 9:30 arrived and the family of four piled into their car. On the way to Kings Cross, Phil was bouncing in his seat, going on and on about how he couldn’t decide on what house would be best for him. His mother said that Phil would do well in any house and Martyn said that he thinks he’ll end up in Hufflepuff.

“What’s wrong with Hufflepuff?” Phil asked Martyn.

“Oh, nothing’s wrong with it, it’s just you’re too nice and happy to be in any of the others.” His brother shrugged.

Phil rolled his eyes. So what if he was nice and happy? He honestly didn’t see anything wrong with that, or with Hufflepuff, and he looked out of his window.

They pulled into the train station at 10:25.

Phil’s face stretched into the widest smile he feels he’s ever given. His parents unloaded the car and Phil hurried to the back of the car to grab his trunk. He wanted to squeal in happiness. Right across from him was his gateway to the best school of witchcraft and wizardry. In that moment, Phil decided that he would become the best wizard he could be. He wanted to create history.

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Finding his way on the train and into an open compartment was fairly easy, much to Phil’s surprise. Martyn had told Phil that, “the easiest way to make friends was to sit by yourself and look like you’re welcoming.” Obviously, Phil believed him and went into the first open compartment he could find.

Sitting down on the squishy train seats and swinging his legs, Phil put on his bet smile and waited for someone to find his compartment. People would walk past him, some with friends, some without, but none stopped at his compartment. Phil didn’t understand, why didn’t anyone want to sit with him? Did he not look welcoming enough?

Just as Phil was about to give up hope and try and find his brother, the door slide open, revealing and boy about his height, with curly brown hair and warm brown eyes. He had an anxious look about him, chewing his bottom lip and eyes wide with something Phil could only associate with fear.

“Um, hello,” the curly-haired boy said in a small voice. “Is this seat taken?”

Phil’s face spread into a grin. “No, not yet. You can have it, if you’d like.”

The boy’s face flooded with relief and he breathed out a small “thank you.” Phil looked at the boy as he placed his trunk above him. The boy then sat back down, book in hand, and began to read. Phil wanted to ask for his name, but he didn’t want to disturb the boy’s reading.

After about a few minutes of silence, the compartment door slide open again. Phil perked up, maybe this will be the person who will become his best friend.

Stood in the opening of the compartment was two boys and one girl, all three looking very serious. Like they meant business.

“Hello,” Phil began as cheerful as he could. The curly-haired boy who was reading slowly lowered his book to look over at the door.

“Hi,” One boy, supposably the leader or the group, said with a tone that slightly took the tone of disgust. He looked over at the curly-haired boy, who was looking determinedly out the window.

“Dan,” The same boy said. “What are you doing in here?”

The curly-haired boy—Dan—kept his eyes focused firmly out the window. The boy raised his eyebrow.

“Dan?”

The boy called Dan made a small noise in his throat and swallowed. He muttered something to the boy at the door.

“What was that?” The boy asked. Phil was starting to think he was slightly annoying.

“I wanted to be alone, Chris.” Dan said in a quiet voice. Everything about this boy seemed soft and quiet, and, for some reason, Phil wanted to see the real Dan, see what he really was like.

“Alone? Why?” The boy Dan had called Chris said the last part like he thought it was wrong for someone to be alone. Phil didn’t blame Dan though. If he was hanging around someone like Chris, he’d want some alone time too.

Dan’s cheeks started to take on a pink tint. “And you’re not even alone. He’s in here with you.”

Phil furrowed his eyebrows. What was wrong with him? Why did Chris say it like Phil was terrible or something of the sort.

“Yeah, well he isn’t rude to me,” Dan murmured so Chris couldn’t here him.

“What was that?” Chris said in a menacing tone.

Well, so much for Chris not hearing him.

Immediately, Dan’s eyes widened and Dan finally looked over at the door. “Nothing!” Dan exclaimed. “I didn’t say anything!”

Chris grunted. “Listen here, Howell, my parents told he to become friends with you because our parents are friends. I promised them I’d be nice to you, but if you’re not gonna corporate, I’ll have no choice but to force you to be my friend. I don’t want this anymore than you do. Alright?”

Phil felt that things were getting a little too far, so he stepped in. “I’m sure Dan can find other people who actually want to be his friend.”

All four students shifted their eyes onto Phil, who was looking at Chris. Phil shifted his eyes to Dan who looked shocked at Phil’s interjection, with his cheeks now bright red.

“Oh yeah? And who would want to be friends with him?” Chris narrowed his eyes at Dan. “He’s a pathetic little gay-”

“Excuse me!” Dan glared at Chris. “I am not gay!” He said, tone almost angry. Phil didn’t understand. Gay? What was wrong with being gay? Phil’s parents are friends with a gay couple, and he had never thought anything wrong of someone fancying the same gender.

Chris rolled his eyes. Phil got up from his seat to move next to Dan and put his arm around him. Dan blushed.

“I’ll be his friend.” Phil said determinedly. Dan whipped his head around to look at Phil. He stared incredulously at Phil. Chris scoffed. “Right good luck with that. PJ, Zoe, let’s go back to our carriage.”

And with that, the three students left. Phil got up and closed the door, then sat back down, this time across from Dan.

“Thanks.” Dan said, in that small voice again, looking at his shoes.

“Don’t mention it. That Chris guy seemed really annoying.”

Dan chuckled. “Yeah, I’ve known him for five years. Our parents are good friends, but, obviously, we aren’t.”

Phil nodded. “I’m Phil.” He extended his hand, which Dan shook timidly.

“Nice to meet you, Phil. I’m Dan.”

The rest of the train ride was spent talking and laughing, and Phil felt like there was a start to a long friendship, right here, sitting across from him, brown eyes, curly hair and all.

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a/n: as i said before, i might make a part two, or make this a series. idk i just feel like there’s more to this story, but it was kind long from where i ended it. but i’ll only continue if any of you want it, so please! let me know!

#phan #phanfiction #phanfic #phan hogwarts #hogwarts au #phan fluff #kid!phan #platonic!phan #is that even a tag?#idk we'll see #if i write any more then it'll be #friends to lovers #notphilseyelash

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crystalcranium · 6 years

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I was tagged by @aph-mr-puffin! Thanks dude. It’s been ages since I’ve done one of these

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 10 people you’d like to know better.

1. Nicknames: Charlsburg - that one is courtesy of my head lecturer lol

2. Gender: agender trash cutie

3. Zodiac Sign: cancer 4. Height: 5′5″ 5. Current time: 12:00 6. Birthday: June 24th

7. Favorite bands: anything but country lol I have no taste except maybe game music??? and really obscure stuff??? 8. Favorite solo artists: see the above but idk check out wintergatan? 9. Song stuck in my head: Imperial Tower for the sonic forces soundtrack 10. Last movie I watched: District 9, pretty cool, very gory idk it was alright for a 4 in the morning movie marathon (of one movie because essays aaAAAA) 11. Last show I watched: ...Sonic Boom (yes I am still a huge sonic nerd omg)

12. When did I create my blog: i think in june 2015??? idk maybe 2016

13. What do I post on my blog: I tried to be more arty but this is just a pure trash blog. Everything goes here I don’t even tag properly half the time anymore

14. Last thing I googled: Cardiff weather accuweather (time to wrap up because it is cold in wales) 15. Other blogs: I only have this one sorry if you wanted something different lol

16. Do you get asks: once every now and then but most of the time it’s spam or memes

17. Why did you choose your url: ...crystalthehedgehog was gone and crystalcranium sounded edgy (let me be a nerd fight me)

18. Last thing I ate: cherry bakewell bar, probably the only thing I will eat all day until around 9 lol

19. How many pillows: 4 but it’s not enough

20. Favorite colors: pastels I guess? just nothing green idk I’m oddly specific and vague at the same time don’t ask a graphics student about colour

21. Favorite tag to use: people have a favourite??? am I missing out on tumblr culture??? 22. Lucky number: 3 or any multiple of 5. Also 7 23. Instruments? I used to be able to play the panio but I’m so out of practise end me

24. What am I wearing? My own sonic t-shirt (found here lol shameless advertising) and jeans that want to kill me but I look good in them so fuck it. Also safety shoes so I can kick people

25. Last thing I wrote? My essay on research methods lol I am suffering it’s 2000 words already and I have 2 and a half chapters left to do 26. Dream Job: something in design tbf I’d rather be working for a business but freelance looks pretty neat as well 27. Dream trip: malta again tbf. Affordable and warm

28. Favorite food: Pudding - extra tasty if cherries are involved

29. Nationality: British

30. Favorite song right now: uhhhh capital city (again from the sonic forces soundtrack sdfhfusudjhf)

I’m too lazy to tag so if you see this you can do it :D

#me post #txt

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smilingsection · 7 years

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Tagged @teekapoa

1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED?

Closed

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS?

No, I use what i need and leave the rest where it was.

3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

In!

4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE?

What? No. Why would i do that?

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES?

I love them! They’re so versatile, i use them for everything!

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM?

Hum...sometimes yeah. Last time it was a discount on a conditioner but i had already bought two bottles so i never used it and it expired.

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES?

Ah jeez...the bees i guess? ‘cause it would hurt less?

8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES?

Some tiny ones on my nose and on my cheeks near my eyes but i don’t think you can call them freckles, they’re so tiny

9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES?

Yeah, i think so.

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE?

People who chew with their mouths open and make that sound *shudders* also rude and disrespectful people.

11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK?

I used to do that a lot when i was little. Less so now but from time to time yes.

12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS?

I have, yes.

13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS?

No, never.

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERE’S NO MUSIC PLAYING?

Yeah, sometimes i have a song in my head and i can’t help but dance to it.

15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS?

No and i hate it when people do that to my pens and pencils.

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK?

None

17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED?

Queen sized

18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK?

How Far I’ll Go from Moana

19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK?

Yeah, of course! It’s a colour like any other and it’s my favourite as well ;)

20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS?

No (unless you count anime then yes, i just recently started watching Attack on Titan and i’m obcessed)

21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE?

Least favourite? Well i watched Sausage party last year and i hated it so i’m gonna go with that

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME?

Idk, probably on a mountain.

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER?

I don’t usually drink with my meals unless it’s a special dinner. In that case either water, juice or wine (but only a specific wine)

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN?

Nothing, i don’t like it

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?

Strawberries!

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE?

Titanic, The Lion King, Pacific Rim, Moana

27. LAST PERSON, YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU?

My grandma a few minutes ago to say goodbye

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT?

Never

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE?

I don’t think so, no. I’m not comfortable enough.

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER?

In elementary school where we wrote letters to children from other cities

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR?

Maybe? No, probably not. I suck with car stuff.

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET?

Never, i always respect speed limits

33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS?

No but my stepfather has more than once xD

34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH?

I like it with butter and ham

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST?

I eat either french toast or cereal

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME?

Usually between 22:30 and 23:00

37. ARE YOU LAZY?

Sometimes i am but if i have something to do, i do it first thing.

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN?

We didn’t really celebrate Halloween then...

39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN?

Rooster it seems

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK?

English, Spanish and Portuguese fluently. French and Italian less fluently. I can understand everything people say to me but sometimes i lack some words.

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS?

None

42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS?

Legos. I don’t know what the other one is.

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN?

Yeah, i am

44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN?

I don’t know, never watched neither of them

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS?

46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS?

Not really

47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR?

Yes

48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?

Sometimes

49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR?

Sometimes

50. EVER USED A GUN?

I’ve used one of those big hunting guns.

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER?

Elementary school i think

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY?

Some of them but they are fun!

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL?

For me yes, there’s always a thousand things to do

54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI?

I don’t know what that is

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE?

Apple i guess?

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?

Veterinarian

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?

58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING?

Hum...maybe? I don’t recall

59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY?

Like pills? No but I eat lots of vegetables and fruits every day

60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS?

Yes

61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE?

I do

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?

Pajamas.

63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT?

It was a small festival, i don’t remember the name now

64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART?

I’ve never been to any of them so idk

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS?

Idk, don’t really buy from any of them

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS?

Cheetos?

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS?

PEANUTS!!!

68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN?

???Never

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS?

Yes! They’re really fun!

70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING?

No, isn’t that a little weird?

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE?

Yeah

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE?

A class spelling bee yeah but we don’t really have contests of that, it’s just done in your own class

73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY?

...i don’t think so but i’ve laighed so hard i cried. Does that count?

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS?

No, i don’t

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER?

76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE?

From time to time

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT?

I’m not much of a fan of concerts but I’d go see Bastille

79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW?

Bastille

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA?

Hot

81. TEA OR COFFEE?

Tea

82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES?

...i don’t...sugar cookies, i suppose...

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL?

Yeah

84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE?

Yeah

85. ARE YOU PATIENT?

I am

86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING?

I don’t know? A DJ, i suppose...

87. EVER WON A CONTEST?

Yes

88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY?

89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES?

I don’t really eat olives that much but let’s go with black

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET?

Yes i can crochet some

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE?

living room, obviously

92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?

Yes

93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED?

I’m not

94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH?

A boy

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY?

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS?

Yes, two

98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?

Pink, blue and white

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW?

A friend

100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS TAG NEXT?

Anyone who wants to do it

#tag #personal

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monabela · 7 years

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HA @kuzeykirkland I sAID I would do it even if I do have a billion other things ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ here is an answer to this masterpiece that made me wake up my family members in the middle of the night. Luca Discourse(tm) Pt II, if you will. ft robul being idiots and lux’s dog.

likewise, based on the coincidence of @kuzeykirkland and me each giving half of the luxmold duo the name Luca, I present

Luca vs Luca! The Horror!!

characters/pairings: Luxembourg (Luca Morgens, courtesy @kuzeykirkland)/Moldova (Luca Rotaru), Bulgaria (Stefan), Romania (Dragos), Netherlands (Martin), Belgium (Manon)

word count: 1830 summary: Luca Morgens is very confused when he receives a text message from an unknown sender who knows his name. It’s not as creepy as it seems.

Unknown [14:35] Luca just so you know your brother decided it would be a great idea to get himself admitted to the hospital AGAIN

“What?” Luca whispers, holding his phone away from his face as if that will cause the message to make any more sense. Something’s wrong with Martin? But – again? And who is this?

Luca [14:40] What’s wrong with him? And who is this?

Unknown [14:41] This is stefan! Sorry ha he just tripped over someones dog he will be fine Unknown [14:41] Im waiting for him

That did not help. Does he even know a Stefan? Does Martin know a Stefan? It’s not unlikely, Luca decides. His brother has many acquaintances he’d rather not get too close to. Whoever this Stefan is, he’s probably alright, if he went to the hospital with him. The man probably got his number from Martin, then. He decides to take the non-explanation in stride and quickly types a message back.

Luca [14:43] Okay, thank you. Should I come over? Or does he need anything?

Unknown [14:44] Nah hes ok. Im gonna tell him to send a message or call when hes out alright

Luca [14:45] Alright. Thanks again!

He decides to add the unknown number to his contact list as ‘Stefan’, just in case. It’s odd, certainly, that Martin would give this man his phone number; they aren’t that close when it comes down to it, but it’s also strangely flattering. Maybe he should let their sister know… Ah, it will be alright. Martin can call her later. It doesn’t seem to be very serious.

Tripped over someone’s dog… How ridiculous. Luca goes back to work.

Later, after dinner, he calls Martin, because Luca hasn’t received a message from him yet and is starting to get a little worried. His brother is not the sort of person who forgets things like that. Perhaps the Stefan person forgot to tell him.

“Luc, hey. What’s up?”

Well, he sounds fine.

“Hello, Martin. I just wanted to ask if you’re alright now. After this afternoon.”

There is a long pause on Martin’s end of the line, some crackling.

“What do you mean?” he asks after a while. “What happened this afternoon? Are you alright? Is Manon alright?”

“What?” Luca shakes his head in confusion. “I’m more worried about you. You were at the hospital, weren’t you?”

Martin makes a confused noise. “No? I was at work.”

This time, it’s Luca who is silent for a while. He absentmindedly pats his dog on the head where she is lying on the couch next to him in a little ball of fluff.

“Do… Do you know a Stefan?” he eventually asks.

“No,” Martin says decisively. “Luca, what’s going on?”

“I am not sure. I’ll get back to you on this, Martin.”

They say their goodbyes, and Luca puts his phone away, then picks it back up.

Luca [22:20] Stefan, how is my brother?

He puts the phone away and wants to start a film, but there is a buzz quickly.

Stefan [22:22] Hes fine why do you ask Stefan [22:22] Did he not send a message Stefan [22:23] What an idiot I told him

Mildly affronted at this stranger calling his brother an idiot, Luca begins to type a reply, then pauses. Maybe it isn’t Martin they’re talking about here. Maybe someone else’s brother was at the hospital, and this Stefan got the wrong number off him… But then how did he know Luca’s name?

Luca [22:25] Which hospital was this, by the way?

Stefan [22:25] HBU hospital Stefan [22:26] He says he did send you a message

That is the hospital in this city. A bit of a mystery, it seems. What is the best way to find out what’s behind this? He chews on his lower lip thoughtfully.

Luca [22:27] Did he also send Manon a message?

Stefan [22:27] Manon? Whos manon should I be jealous hah

Oh. No, definitely not Martin. He would never have mentioned Luca and not Manon, for one, and apparently, this Stefan is far better acquainted with the… Mysterious not-Martin person than Luca previously thought. He would know if Martin had a boyfriend. Probably. Perhaps.

Stefan [22:28] Dra says hes never met a manon and to ask if shes your girlfriend

Luca can’t help himself.

Luca [22:28] Dra?

Stefan [22:29] Luca youre not the only one allowed to call him dra Stefan [22:29] Dont change the subject! Is manon your girlfriend

Luca [22:30] Manon is my sister.

There is a long pause. Luca waits, amused despite himself. He tries to recall if he’s given his number to anyone whose nickname could be Dra, but he’s coming up empty. A Dragomir, maybe? Drake? Unlikely. Then again, sometimes details about his Saturday nights do get rather hazy.

Stefan [22:34] I thought wed covered all the rotarus by now gdi Stefan [22:35] After I met your weird cousins last summer Stefan [22:35] How many of you ARE THERE

It seems to be quite serious between Stefan and… Dra Rotaru, if he has met the extended family already. The name Rotaru rings a vague, distant bell, but Luca isn’t sure where it is. He opens his laptop and types a reply while Facebook loads.

Luca [22:37] Stefan, I’m afraid I’m not the person you think I am. My name is not Luca Rotaru, nor can I recall ever having met anyone by that name.

Stefan [22:37] Hold on WHAT

With any luck… Yes! There is only one Luca Rotaru on Facebook. Biting his lip, Luca clicks on his profile. Lives in the same city as him, check. They’re about the same age, too, Other Luca a year younger than him. On the about page, he finds a Dragos Rotaru among the guy’s family members, but his profile picture is too tiny on the screen to be recognizable, and Luca clicks back, not wanting to be creepy.

Although – guiltily, he selects the Other Luca’s profile picture. The guy seems to be his polar opposite in appearance, with dark hair that falls across his shoulders, obscuring what seems to be a duffel coat. He is smiling widely in the picture. His lower lip is pierced twice, and his eyes seem to sparkle. Is that eyeliner?

Oh, but he’s attractive. Luca swipes his own blond hair out of his face, hand hovering over the touchpad of his laptop.

Stefan [22:40] Luca hey Stefan [22:40] Or not luca idk

Without thinking any more about it, Luca sends his namesake a friend request.

Luca [22:41] My name is Luca, but my last name is not Rotaru. Maybe you should ask Dragos if he’s ever met any other Lucas.

Another long pause. Luca idly refreshes Facebook a few times and scratches his dog underneath the chin. He does hope he got the name Dragos right. It doesn’t seem unlikely that he met the man in question while going out and broke his own rule about not giving out his phone number. If he looks anything like his brother… Even Luca Morgens is not the most conscientious person when he’s drunk enough. That doesn’t clear up why Stefan would mistake one Luca for the other, though.

Stefan [22:44] I love dragos but I also really fucking hate him Stefan [22:45] WHO THE FUCK saves their brother as Poophead in their contacts Stefan [22:45] DRAGOS ROTARU THATS WHO Stefan [22:46] Oh just send Luca a text his number is in my phone he says Stefan [22:46] Im really sorry about this man

Luca laughs at the messages arriving in quick succession of one another.

Stefan [22:46] I mean I thought it was weird that you asked who I was Stefan [22:47] But you know, new phones

At the same time the last message arrives, a notification pops up on Facebook. Biting his lower lip, Luca clicks it, finding that Luca Rotaru has accepted his friend request. His heart rate spikes.

Stefan [22:48] You still there?

Luca [22:48] I am. Honestly, don’t worry about it. Tell Dragos I’m glad he’s alright.

Stefan [22:49] Im gonna tell him to stop being so dumb is what im gonna do

Luca [22:50] That too. Have a good evening, Stefan.

Stefan [22:50] You too luca not rotaru

Luca chuckles, then finally puts his phone away. He watches the message about his new Facebook friend for a few seconds and wants to put his laptop away and start his film after all – a friend from his study wrote it and he promised to watch – when another notification appears. A chat message from Luca Rotaru.

Luca Rotaru you aren’t by any chance the guy Stefan is currently freaking out about, are you? :0

Luca Morgens I probably am.

Luca Rotaru this is fantastic nice to meet you, Luca Morgens! I’m Luca Rotaru :D

Luca Morgens Nice to meet you too! Do you prefer Luca or Poophead?

Luca Rotaru Dragos’ name is my contacts is Shitface, fyi I shall be Luca you shall be Lucao ;) hey holy shit we live in the same city!

Luca Morgens We do, as a matter of fact! Hold on why Lucao?

Luca Rotaru bc Lucao damn B^) good to know my brother has taste in something after all

Luca picks up his dog and muffles an embarrassing sound into her fur, feeling himself flush. Suddenly, he wants to check his own profile page to see if there isn’t anything embarrassing on it. Pelutze wriggles in his arms, and he quickly puts her back down on the couch, patting her head and mumbling an apology.

Luca Rotaru too much?

Luca Morgens No, not at all! In that case, you should be Lucao.

His hands are shaking with nervous excitement. He glares at them. He is a Morgens. He is cool and collected. He does not get flustered over messages from virtual strangers.

Luca Rotaru nope no definitely you hey yr dog is cute! :o

Luca Morgens She is, she is.

Luca Rotaru so fluffy! when do you usually take her out walking? maybe maybe I can come and pet her :00

Luca Morgens It varies. Maybe you should ask your brother for my phone number! That way you can always ask me.

Luca Rotaru hA that’s not happening Lucao maybe you should ask Stefan for mine that way you can always tell me ;)

Luca Morgens I’d rather ask you. You know, on Saturdays, around ten is a good bet. I usually take her to Wildrose Park.

Luca Rotaru :^D I might just happen to be around there tomorrow then to pet your dog

Luca Morgens To pet my dog. She will like that.

Luca Rotaru good to know heh I might just see you then

Luca Morgens You might just, Luca Rotaru.

Luca Rotaru goodnight Lucao

Luca Morgens Goodnight!

Lucao. Oh, that is terrible.

Luca grins. He just might have to send Dragos Rotaru a thank you message for tripping over someone’s dog and landing himself in the hospital. He just might.

#I just realized that with the surname Morgens the names Martin and Manon are mildly hilarious #the return of long-haired luca rotaru with lip piercings I keep doing that aaaa #luxmold #kuzeykirkland #Hetalia #aph luxembourg #aph moldova #hmm other characters?#aph bulgaria #fin #w: 2500 #u: human #Luca Discourse

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imabookmarkaddict · 4 years

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trevor is cheesy, markus’ thoughts on hanging and banging

Poor trevor trying to understand anything markus says

puzzlezToday at 3:45 AM

yeh i already have an idea for how markus explains it

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i was thinking the series could be something like idfk

WelshenToday at 3:46 AM

Yeah okay good i just didnt wanna put u in a place of trying to describe something supernatural

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Markus is good at recognizing patterns too so series of numbers r p easy to notice

puzzlezToday at 3:47 AM

13 7 21 18 12 1 23 17 6 3 22

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where it's 3 series of numbers that alternate or smth

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they all go up by 5

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13 to 18 to 23, 7 to 12 to 17, 21 to 1 to 6

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if u can even see it god nowi'm like markus

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but he has no idea how to explain it to trevor

WelshenToday at 3:48 AM

Oh god yeah exact

puzzlezToday at 3:48 AM

so he just writes it down and shows it to trevor like see u see the pattern

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and trevor is just staring at a string of random numbers

WelshenToday at 3:48 AM

Its like trevor explaining morning runs to markus

puzzlezToday at 3:48 AM

...tf drugs u on

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and markus just keeps writing numbers

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like do u see the pattern?

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here i'll do another one give me a number

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and trevor does and markus writes and then says now you do th next one

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and trevor blinks down at the numbers

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maybe it can get cute

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trevor has no idea what markus is doing and decides time to change subject cuz numbers, lol

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and maybe the last number in the series markus wrote was a 3

WelshenToday at 3:50 AM

Probably? Time for sex education

puzzlezToday at 3:50 AM

and trevor just adds a < to it

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yeh i see the pattern

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"<3"

WelshenToday at 3:50 AM

Oh thats cheesy christ

puzzlezToday at 3:50 AM

u asked for it

WelshenToday at 3:50 AM

But markus doesnt use phones he has no clue

puzzlezToday at 3:50 AM

hey maybe markus can call him out on it

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oh fuck then it's perfect

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maybe trevor is bad at flirting with guys sometimes??

WelshenToday at 3:51 AM

Im sure he has never tried in his life

puzzlezToday at 3:51 AM

like maybe he tried cheesy stuff with girls and it worked so whenever he feels lost and confused he just defaults to a cheesey cute one liner

WelshenToday at 3:51 AM

Just dates idk cheerleaders and other sporty girls

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Omh yah perf

puzzlezToday at 3:51 AM

how would markus react tho

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would he enjoy it mostly like watching an amusing 5 yo play at dressup

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or would he just cringe like wtf drugs r U on

WelshenToday at 3:53 AM

He would just be confused until he understands and then embarrassed to heck

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Markus doesnt flirt much either u kno

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Its just heres money lets go

puzzlezToday at 3:54 AM

poor thing

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if i remember correctly, will was a smooth talker flirter

WelshenToday at 3:54 AM

Squint

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If u mean when he said ur beautiful after like 2mins is smooth

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Yeah

puzzlezToday at 3:55 AM

so yeah maybe trevor can be bad as heck at flirting until he feels awkward and spits out those one-liner balls of cheese in a rush of panic

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well i'm p sure will thought he was a smooth talker

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ppl probs too polite to point out he ain't

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but yeh thought it might give markus some variation?

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unless u prefer trevor to be good at flirting

WelshenToday at 3:57 AM

No trevor can be bad but markus is equally bad

puzzlezToday at 3:57 AM

perrrrrrrfect

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i picture trevor kinda secretly watching markus for cues sometimes on what to do??

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i mean porn shows u terrible, fake, unrealistic sex

WelshenToday at 3:57 AM

And markus is normally not very perceptive

puzzlezToday at 3:57 AM

at best u learn how to bend your hips back forward in impossible yoga/sex moves

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and since he tried those and learned nothing trevor knows nada about actual relationships with dudes

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so i had a feeling he was going to sort of quietly watch markus for leads on what to do

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so markus being bad at teaching + panicked trevor + cheesy pickup line + markus confused + markus not able to flirt back = a terrible awkward but adorable couple of doofuses

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and this i can absolutely work with

WelshenToday at 3:59 AM

Markus can do it technically but not very enthusiastically?? If that makes sense

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He gets better but u kno

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Yes i hope that works

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Theyre both idiots

puzzlezToday at 3:59 AM

i think that makes sense

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maybe squint

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do you mean he like technically knows how/can think of something flirty to say but has no oomph behind it? like no drive to actually look/sound flirty?? or smth else?

WelshenToday at 4:02 AM

Yes pretty much

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I mean hes heard it all obv but that was more or less when he got paid so it sounds fake to him i guess(edited)

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So he can repeat it but i doubt he knows how to mean it? Or that he could stick to things he ACTUALLY means (but hed be too awk to say)

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And that goes for all relationship hijinks

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Jo was a weird mix of paid and cute stalker?? They didnt flirt so much as get along

puzzlezToday at 4:06 AM

yeahh okay

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it makes sense tho

WelshenToday at 4:07 AM

Hey hes a mess

puzzlezToday at 4:07 AM

i made a char who was a prostitute and if deffo made him bad at relationships for similar reasons

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(my ghost waja actually)

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(prostitute ghost waja)

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(v wajas appropriate)

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so then does markus actually uhh like idk enjoy sex?

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if he's done all kinds of stuff from vanilla to crazy-whatever-clients want stuff i'm assuming he's tried/seen most if not all flavors of sex?

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so would it be 100% a chore to get through sex or would he still enjoy it in relationships?

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i wasn't sure how to write the sorta kinda sex scene with trevor for this reason squint

WelshenToday at 4:10 AM

Im pretty sure hes asexual but not aromantic, he definitely thinks its a chore but if its with someone he has a romantic interest in its a fun chore?(edited)

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And at this stage its the only way he knows how to connect with people well guys anyway

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Adam fits him better cuz hes got low interest in sex and markus prefers making out and cuddling?

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Thats like 10years later when markus has gotten some idea of what he prefers tho

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Does that even make sense

puzzlezToday at 4:13 AM

yeah

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like i said my one oc was a prostitute and he's of a similar uh... mind? i guess is the word?

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in that regard

WelshenToday at 4:13 AM

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Im sure theres plenty of types of people, but these ones just do it as any other job?

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I think markus referred to it as not much difference to idk toilet janitor, he even prefers this cuz he can lay down and nap lol

puzzlezToday at 4:15 AM

omfgggg

WelshenToday at 4:16 AM

Probably napped while working to be honest

puzzlezToday at 4:16 AM

yeh my char did it purely for money and he's impatient af but decent at acting so an extent to he pretended to enjoy company of his clients for the money but secretly hated most of them and the kinkier ones ruined sex for him in a way? like it's just "pretend and act out these ridiculous things" so he doesn't really enjoy sex, figures it's a chore, just gotta see it through to the end, and that mindset continues with him for a while(edited)

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but i can see markus napping

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lazy bones boy

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so i'm guessing markus wouldn't really initiate sex then

WelshenToday at 4:18 AM

He would if trevor made him uncomfortable enough

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Cuz at lesst he knows how to do THAT

puzzlezToday at 4:19 AM

yeah okay that makes sense

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poor kid tho rofl

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so i'm assuming trevor is bad as gay sex in general because never tried before but

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would he be the type to be eager to learn, like want to please markus in bed, or would he be a more impatient/selfish lover, like i wanna race to the end and if we figure out how to please you along the way, then good perf

WelshenToday at 4:22 AM

Probably the first

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Well i mean its not easy to do but by that i mean even if trevor is done theyd still make out enough for markus to get over it

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Squint

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This is very difficult

puzzlezToday at 4:24 AM

omg snort

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i think i get what you mean tho

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markus gets "paid" in uh... affection/devotion?idk if that's the right word but

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trevor focusing on some kind of need of markus would be like "payment" in a convoluted sense for the sex?(edited)

WelshenToday at 4:25 AM

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Well markus hasnt had a currency free relationship yet

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Thinks every bit of affection is to be paid or payment for smth

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This is babys first real bf tbh(edited)

puzzlezToday at 4:29 AM

trevor?

WelshenToday at 4:30 AM

Markus

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Well trevors too

puzzlezToday at 4:30 AM

okay yeh i thought you meant markus/trevor

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making sure

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first real bfs with each other

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sad the relationship goes up in such flames

WelshenToday at 4:31 AM

Yes well

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It was really neithers fault

puzzlezToday at 4:32 AM

and yet the flames buuuurn

WelshenToday at 4:32 AM

But markus is the one on his own after

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Unless u count spencer

puzzlezToday at 4:32 AM

do u count spencer

WelshenToday at 4:32 AM

As a minus i do

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do1care · 7 years

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9:37 pm thoughts, ending friendships.

Va escrito en ingles porque iba primero para reddit, ojala y alguien me lea aca algun dia:(

FYI, this is a long post about my struggles and thoughts on my problems, if you don't want to deal with them feel free to move to the next post:), it's ok.

I know that everything has to end, that's the most natural part of life, as far as I can see it, everything has to come to an end. Doesn't matter if it's your favorite coffee cup, or your longest relationship ever, that's just how life is, and there's nothing wrong with it, but the fact of accepting it can cause some real shitty problems. Or at least to me.

I lost my best friend on January, and no, by lost I don't mean he died, thankfully, 'cause he's and extraordinary human, he is such a grateful and open minded young man willing to help you no matter what; that being said, the reason why you can say we "broke up" (we weren't dating, just that i didn't find any other word that could sume up that were not bffs anymore, haha), it's pretty fucking stupid, haha.

I'll give you a few seconds so that you try to guess, haha.....1.....2......3....OK, times up. Don't know if you saw this coming, but it was because of a girl (told you, pretty fucking stupid reason).

Let me set the scenario up for you.

He and I have been friends since we were 10 and 11 (I'm younger), we are now 16 and 17. We had been together in a lot of struggles each; helping the other in whatever it was possible to, he changed school when he was 13 because his mother had a problem with our principal, anyway. It may appear that since then we started talking less with each other, but no, its the total opossite (crazy, right?). Since he got out of my school we started talking more and more, and I remember on the 2015 new years eve, I was all alone in my room hearing all the fireworks welcoming the new year 2016, and at 2:30 am or so i called him and we started talking till 6:00 am or so, we never ran out of talk, it was always so funny, haha.

Ok, now to how we stop talking.

On January 2017, he had been dating a few girls on and off. But nothing too serious, but like on the 25th he started telling me about this girl that a friend introduce to him, and that she was sooo hot, but all she wanted from her was to hook up (nothing weird about that, he always wanted that, and i think thats ok, if the girl wants that too). And he sent me this girl facebook profile, so i started checking her out, and she was a girl from another school, which, another girl friend of mine was in like 2 years ago.

(ok, now this is getting confusing, from now on we are gonna call them like this: my ex best boy friend: ed. My girl friend: luna, the girl that caused the problem: pico)

And luna had told me that the girl that pico was a kinddd of a slut (i know that that can be offensive, but bare with me here, those were her words, not mine). And I was like, oh, cool, either way ed just wants to hook up with her, so they can both be happy. But one day ed told me that he was trying to get into a serious relationship with pico, at this point I had told ed everyting that luna had told me about pico, but he didn't seem to care at all. By this point, as any teenager-best-male-friend would do, i was very concerned, cause he had gotten broken up a lot in the past, by girls that didn't deserve him. By shitty girls. And i didn't want him to get his heart broken again, and at least this time I had something in my power to stop that. Or at least that's what I thought.

Remember that Luna and Pico were very good friends in the past, at this point they talk to each other, but not as much. And also, at this point Luna and I are veeeery good friends, in fact, she is one of my 2 best girl friends (thankfully, she still is, she's awesome, haha)

So I send Luna the screenshot of the time when Ed was telling me that all he wanted Pico for was to get laid, and Luna ask me if I was sure I wanted this to get to Pico, I said yes. But told her that she said to Pico not to show them to Ed. (I think you can guess where this is heading).

Long story short, Ed realized what I did, and basically sent me to eat shit, I couldn't understand how he rather lose his best friend and having a girl to fuck and not viceversa (and oh, btw, i now it was a total dick move from me to send the screenshots of our chat to Luna. But I dind't want this girl to hurt him). By this point, it was maybe like februart 4th or something like that. We stoped talking, but I remember that this was killing me, cause I was ised to tell him everything that happened in my mind, every single deep or stupid thought I had, no matter how vain or important it was, and he knew that i'll always be there for him, so I tried to apologize, and I freacking got fully emotional with him, i remember being at bed like at 1 am texting him whyle crying, he was so fucking important to me, little did I know i meant so little to him by this point.

The important part of this is that I wrote him that i loved him. Of course i loved him, he was my fucking best friend, how am I not supposed to love him? (Again, little did I know this was gonna fuck my life in a while)

Amyway, he basically told me that he had forgiven me, just that I wasn't his best friend anymore, that, that fucking killed me, it was like a stab in the chest, I felt it deep into myself, losing a friendship with someone you value so much, that you had plans for the future with, so many memories together. Just gone. Fucking went off. It was my fault. I destroyed, it was me the one who blame. Fast forward two monts of feeling depressed and shitty af, my sister went to the beach with a friend, a girl friend, but my dad is a freacking maniac so he decided to go to their beach house without tellimg anyone just to check if she wasn't lying (spoiler. Of course she wasnt, my sister is the best). Anyway, so he told me to write to her friend cause I also get along with her (or at leaste i used to, another friendahip gone, yey) to send me their location, so my dad took my phone and started texting her like if it was me, cause of course, it was from my number, why would she think it wasnt me?

(And by this point i think i should tell you two important things:

1. My father is an asshole and a real noisy bitch.

2. He is super homophobyc, this is kinda caused because his brother is gay, and they were born in a very mysoginistic environment.)

Anyway, so my dad started scrolling around my chats, and I at this point I didn't remember my chat with Ed, until I saw it on my phone screen, when I saw it, my heart went from being calm to almost getting a heart attack. I was fucking nervous, cause I knew how his reaction was going to be, and i didnt want him to see what I wrote with him, cause it was personal shit, things that no one but you and the other person are supposed to see (now that I analyze this, I think it is kind of karma because i did the same to Ed), I was terryfied, sweating. Almost crying, and when he was about to enter my chat with Ed, i tried to take my phone away from his hand, by this point he knew i was hiding something. I fucked it up, there was nothing else that I could do, but to be waiting for him to react. There were 5 minutes of pure silence in the car, i tried as hard as I could not to cry (my very first reaction in strong emotional moments, is crying, no matter if it's a super sad moment or in the middle of the biggest argument of my life, i just can't control it).

Then he says -So you love him?

I got freezed, i really don't remember any much of it cause I was so afraid of it, I just remember telling him that yeah, i loved him cause he was my best friend. Anyway, he took my phone away from me and talked with my mom about it. My mom is genuinely the best, she's very supportive and lovely. She just tells me that no matter what I feel I can always tell her and that she'll love me no matter what, but to stop saying to some random dude that he was everything to me and that i felt fucking misserablr without him (i kinda told that to Ed when I tried to apologize). Since than, my dad has been a little lore of a douche bag with me, and he doesn't know I have my phone, cause he gave it to my mom, but she gave it to me, haha, she's the best (forgot to mention, i only live with my mom, but they get along pretty well).

Now Ed and I talk maybe once in a while, and I have accepted the fact that he's not my bf and i'm not his, and that's ok. Cause everything has to end, nothing last forever.

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I tottaly forgot what the purpose of writing this story was, I just hope that maybe someone might read it and I don't know, tell me anything, i literally just was fucking sad and upset with lifeand general and decided to start writing this. But ended up spending an hour and a little bit more writing it, haha.

Remember that this is my first post to reddit. So feel free to comment or idk what the interactions in here are called, but yeah, i think i might post this to my tumblr later, haven't ever post there either, haha.

#thoughts #midnight #friendship #ends #amigos #ingles #reddit #friends #help

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conflictedrabbit · 7 years

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so i finally got around to reading that tizon piece and wondering if i should make a post about it or something. i don’t particularly want to enter #thediscourse but i do have some thoughts on it so i’ll think on it more and for now just copy and paste the logs i typed to my sis

[5/18/17, 9:38:29 PM] Gigahertz: also i'm reading this essay now to understand that twitter thread [5/18/17, 9:38:44 PM] ESC: it's pretty heavy. [5/18/17, 9:38:47 PM] Gigahertz: and this is honestly really heartbreaking and i don't get all the like.... slander against the author [5/18/17, 9:38:55 PM] ESC: omg ME NEITHER [5/18/17, 9:38:56 PM] Gigahertz: like [5/18/17, 9:39:00 PM] Gigahertz: no one else was going to write it [5/18/17, 9:39:01 PM] Gigahertz: you know [5/18/17, 9:39:15 PM] Gigahertz: it's something he didn't manage to do his whole life, which was give her a name and a place [5/18/17, 9:39:21 PM] ESC: like ok yes he was complicit, but he also was evidently struggling with this forever [5/18/17, 9:39:22 PM] Gigahertz: and now he chooses to do that, but to make her above his parents [5/18/17, 9:39:25 PM] Gigahertz: like [5/18/17, 9:39:28 PM] ESC: yes [5/18/17, 9:39:42 PM] Gigahertz: he can't be blamed for this you know like he didn't take her in intending for her to be a slave [5/18/17, 9:39:47 PM] Gigahertz: he learned to disavow it [5/18/17, 9:39:58 PM] Gigahertz: he was stuck in an emotionally abusive environment [5/18/17, 9:40:02 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:40:10 PM] Gigahertz: like he didn't receive the worst of it but this is hardly the same thing you know as like [5/18/17, 9:40:27 PM] Gigahertz: slavery that goes through generations and children learning to utterly dehumanize them [5/18/17, 9:40:32 PM] ESC: right [5/18/17, 9:40:42 PM] Gigahertz: you know. photos of white children smiling next to the lynching of a black man [5/18/17, 9:40:46 PM] Gigahertz: it's nothing like that [5/18/17, 9:40:51 PM] Gigahertz: and honestly what could he have done [5/18/17, 9:41:19 PM] Gigahertz: like he could have done more for her, perhaps, opening the dialogue while she was still alive, maybe connecting to other filipino people who knew of it [5/18/17, 9:41:50 PM] Gigahertz: and like. he might not be "blameless" but he hardly took her for granted [5/18/17, 9:41:53 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:42:22 PM] ESC: x__x the discourse this has started is... [5/18/17, 9:42:27 PM] ESC: really all over the place [5/18/17, 9:42:29 PM] Gigahertz: it is [5/18/17, 9:42:35 PM] Gigahertz: but you know. again [5/18/17, 9:42:44 PM] Gigahertz: if he didn't do this then she would've remained unknown [5/18/17, 9:42:49 PM] ESC: true [5/18/17, 9:42:51 PM] Gigahertz: like. unacknowledged by everyone important to him [5/18/17, 9:42:54 PM] Gigahertz: and when you think about like [5/18/17, 9:43:04 PM] Gigahertz: she couldn't read, she couldn't write, she didn't like talking about her experiences [5/18/17, 9:43:17 PM] Gigahertz: she'd been abused since she was young, couldn't comprehend a life outside of this kind of hardship [5/18/17, 9:43:28 PM] Gigahertz: there is no way to have possibly gotten her story you know [5/18/17, 9:43:33 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:43:33 PM] Gigahertz: definitely not while his mom was alive [5/18/17, 9:43:43 PM] Gigahertz: the other issue is like [5/18/17, 9:44:04 PM] Gigahertz: people expect him to be able to free her but remember, she couldn't even formulate that on her own conception like [5/18/17, 9:44:15 PM] ESC: right [5/18/17, 9:44:19 PM] Gigahertz: there is no point arguing for what you think someone deserves if they cannot advocate for it themselves [5/18/17, 9:44:26 PM] ESC: yes [5/18/17, 9:44:29 PM] Gigahertz: if they don't agree, if they don't say, actually, Yes, Please [5/18/17, 9:44:34 PM] Gigahertz: then like anything you do is going to be meaningless [5/18/17, 9:44:38 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:44:42 PM] Gigahertz: like he discovered, he had to do it through action [5/18/17, 9:44:45 PM] Gigahertz: to let her slowly have more space [5/18/17, 9:44:55 PM] ESC: :( yeah [5/18/17, 9:45:08 PM] Gigahertz: idk i think this story was worth telling [5/18/17, 9:45:12 PM] ESC: for sure [5/18/17, 9:45:17 PM] Gigahertz: honestly i'm like gonna cry and stuff [5/18/17, 9:45:27 PM] Gigahertz: the stuff about his mom is so unfair and so relatable [5/18/17, 9:45:30 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:45:32 PM] Gigahertz: like his mom to lola i mean [5/18/17, 9:45:34 PM] ESC: terrible parents [5/18/17, 9:45:45 PM] Gigahertz: lola's reactions to his mom, sometimes friends, sometimes secretly angry etc. [5/18/17, 9:45:49 PM] Gigahertz: very real [5/18/17, 9:45:53 PM] Gigahertz: very typical of emotional abuse [5/18/17, 9:45:55 PM] ESC: yes [5/18/17, 9:45:57 PM] ESC: 100% [5/18/17, 9:46:16 PM] ESC: i also can't get over that the guy is dead now [5/18/17, 9:46:25 PM] Gigahertz: did he wait until he was dead to release this or what [5/18/17, 9:46:32 PM] ESC: he died in March [5/18/17, 9:46:46 PM] ESC: apparently this was already in progress sometime last year [5/18/17, 9:46:57 PM] Gigahertz: i see [5/18/17, 9:47:40 PM] Gigahertz: you know, the other thing that people are accusing him of [5/18/17, 9:47:44 PM] Gigahertz: that he didn't actually do [5/18/17, 9:47:46 PM] Gigahertz: was make it about his feelings [5/18/17, 9:47:57 PM] Gigahertz: the whole structure, the title of the piece is literally Lola's Story [5/18/17, 9:48:24 PM] Gigahertz: he only talked about himself in relation to her, and because he's the closest approximate to understanding her experiences since she won't talk about it herself [5/18/17, 9:48:35 PM] Gigahertz: like this whole piece is literally an upheaval of his mother's journals [5/18/17, 9:48:49 PM] Gigahertz: it's metacontextually saying "lola was the main character" [5/18/17, 9:49:37 PM] Gigahertz: "and this is what i understood of her, what i think she experienced, and as much as i can describe her in an art, through the vector of myself because otherwise it would've gone untold, as footnotes in my mother's diaries" [5/18/17, 9:49:45 PM] Gigahertz: like just the wording he uses for explaining his mom's journals [5/18/17, 9:49:49 PM] Gigahertz: lola was incidental [5/18/17, 9:49:54 PM] Gigahertz: there'd be like 2 pages of me [5/18/17, 9:49:58 PM] Gigahertz: and he doesn't talk about like [5/18/17, 9:50:04 PM] Gigahertz: what he THOUGHT of the way his mom described him [5/18/17, 9:50:13 PM] Gigahertz: the whole structure is for lola! like! can people not read [5/18/17, 9:50:29 PM] ESC: yeah the vitriol seems based more on like... [5/18/17, 9:50:37 PM] ESC: assumptions made from reading a smidgen of the article [5/18/17, 9:50:53 PM] Gigahertz: honestly his choice in the word "slave" within like the first few paragraphs y'know [5/18/17, 9:50:57 PM] Gigahertz: that he also used that word with her it's very [5/18/17, 9:51:06 PM] Gigahertz: honest and also i guess. contrite [5/18/17, 9:51:10 PM] ESC: yeah [5/18/17, 9:51:12 PM] Gigahertz: not loaded down with like [5/18/17, 9:51:20 PM] Gigahertz: here's my guilty feelings about a house servant [5/18/17, 9:51:29 PM] Gigahertz: like also the fact that he says "and then i had a slave." just reeks of self-hatred [5/18/17, 9:51:35 PM] Gigahertz: because she wasn't actually a slave at his house [5/18/17, 9:51:46 PM] Gigahertz: he did cognitively liberate her from that but he didn't know how to translate it [5/18/17, 9:52:00 PM] Gigahertz: so he felt like he was still using her when really there was a gap in understanding / world views and like [5/18/17, 9:52:11 PM] Gigahertz: that's really not something that could've been helped i mean yeah he could've done more [5/18/17, 9:52:17 PM] Gigahertz: but he did do more than i thought he would [5/18/17, 9:52:20 PM] Gigahertz: when he used that sentence [5/18/17, 9:52:35 PM] Gigahertz: he's basically asking the reader to feel for her [5/18/17, 9:53:04 PM] Gigahertz: idk this piece is particularly well done imo because i sat through that bullshit literature class and i've read this gone wrong [5/18/17, 9:53:09 PM] ESC: l o l [5/18/17, 9:53:13 PM] ESC: scars for lyfe [5/18/17, 9:53:16 PM] Gigahertz: i've read 400 pages of a man describing 3 poor families [5/18/17, 9:53:24 PM] Gigahertz: who could not stop talking about himself [5/18/17, 9:53:32 PM] Gigahertz: who would not stop randomly structuring everything around himself [5/18/17, 9:53:46 PM] ESC: ugh [5/18/17, 9:53:49 PM] Gigahertz: i wrote for one of the journal entries like "he keeps fetishizing them, and also black people with his self-serving guilt" [5/18/17, 9:54:18 PM] Gigahertz: and i brought up ideas of like. consent and stuff and my professor was like "but would they know how to describe themselves" or something along those lines [5/18/17, 9:54:37 PM] Gigahertz: and honestly, i always think more can be done in terms of representing other people, and also in this case, absolutely, because fuck that writer who wouldn't stop talking about his boner [5/18/17, 9:54:43 PM] Gigahertz: but a part of that is true [5/18/17, 9:55:13 PM] Gigahertz: that for some, being chained to a routine like this means that you don't know how to convey your existence if you're even interested in that [5/18/17, 9:55:21 PM] ESC: right [5/18/17, 9:55:32 PM] Gigahertz: like we can't all be robert smalls, fredrick douglass [5/18/17, 9:55:49 PM] Gigahertz: and abuse and poverty wear away at the brain [5/18/17, 9:55:56 PM] Gigahertz: they mean there's a lot of communication skills unexercised [5/18/17, 9:56:04 PM] ESC: yes [5/18/17, 9:56:37 PM] Gigahertz: anyway. basically: yes this man could've done more but his piece is still very important and also it's not about him, if anyone thinks that they can be my guest and read all 400 something fucking pages of Let Us Now Praise Famous Men [5/18/17, 9:56:51 PM] Gigahertz: which was the most pretentious self-serving performance of self-hate i have ever read in my life

[5/18/17, 9:58:01 PM] ESC: do you have any thoughts about the black vs filipino conflict that's happening in the discourse around this piece [5/18/17, 9:58:09 PM] Gigahertz: i haven't really seen much of it [5/18/17, 9:58:19 PM] Gigahertz: if it's filipinos excusing lola's situation then they're wrong [5/18/17, 9:58:33 PM] ESC: it's more like [5/18/17, 9:58:43 PM] ESC: "please don't contextualize this with the lens of US slavery" [5/18/17, 9:58:54 PM] ESC: "please allow this to be a filipino thing" [5/18/17, 9:59:05 PM] ESC: and some black people being like "how dare you tell us we can't talk about slavery" [5/18/17, 9:59:15 PM] Gigahertz: lol [5/18/17, 9:59:25 PM] Gigahertz: well i think there needs to be a middle ground here [5/18/17, 9:59:28 PM] ESC: i think it's pretty absurd honestly [5/18/17, 9:59:36 PM] Gigahertz: because 1. the outside situation is very different from US slavery and it cannot be applied [5/18/17, 9:59:46 PM] Gigahertz: but 2. black people definitely have the right to relate to this kind of thing generationally [5/18/17, 9:59:56 PM] ESC: sure [5/18/17, 10:00:00 PM] Gigahertz: so if filipino people are like saying "it's not that bad" black people can say "fuck you" [5/18/17, 10:00:10 PM] Gigahertz: but they cannot pretend it is on the same oppression scale as US slavery [5/18/17, 10:00:22 PM] Gigahertz: because as you can see, lola's subservience wasn't upheld in america by outside structures [5/18/17, 10:00:37 PM] Gigahertz: also the history given in the piece itself about how this kind of slavery came to be about [5/18/17, 10:00:38 PM] ESC: right, that's true and fair [5/18/17, 10:00:46 PM] Gigahertz: is also something that has to be looked at with understanding of filipino history

[5/18/17, 10:03:59 PM] ESC: =__= i guess a lot of the fervor is just arguing about How Bad tizon is [5/18/17, 10:04:15 PM] Gigahertz: the other thing is that asian and black communities have a history of some friction because we're fundamentally very different cultures [5/18/17, 10:04:19 PM] ESC: right [5/18/17, 10:04:36 PM] Gigahertz: they might all just be boarding the #woke train [5/18/17, 10:04:41 PM] Gigahertz: but anyway i don't agree w/ them [5/18/17, 10:04:45 PM] ESC: i did see a thread that was talking about like.... one of the sticking points is how filial filipino culture is [5/18/17, 10:04:51 PM] Gigahertz: mhm [5/18/17, 10:04:56 PM] ESC: and how based on like... not dishonoring the family a lot of shit is [5/18/17, 10:04:58 PM] ESC: respect, etc [5/18/17, 10:05:14 PM] ESC: which is just something that helps to keep these situations going on longer [5/18/17, 10:05:18 PM] Gigahertz: but i can see why black people, who really are the most disadvantaged in the US, might feel like they want to make everything related to their ethnic history that is so often denied [5/18/17, 10:05:23 PM] Gigahertz: yeah [5/18/17, 10:05:26 PM] ESC: sure [5/18/17, 10:05:34 PM] Gigahertz: that is very true and pretty much 100% all of asia [5/18/17, 10:05:36 PM] Gigahertz: which is almost astounding [5/18/17, 10:05:40 PM] Gigahertz: east asia, southeast asia, south asia [5/18/17, 10:05:44 PM] Gigahertz: we're all filial chained kids [5/18/17, 10:05:46 PM] ESC: yeah -__- [5/18/17, 10:05:48 PM] ESC: it's the worst [5/18/17, 10:05:52 PM] Gigahertz: it truly is

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