#i would say im sorry but i dont like lying to you

[ihatelifesm]

Can you do another S/O is a Dark lord reincarnated but with other Lumine and Archons like Ei, Zhongi, and Nahida? I'm curious what the Archons would think the one they love is the dark lord they destroyed all those years ago reincarnated but they are not aware of their past life.

(Ty for the first request of the day annon! This is mostly angst becuase i was feeling a bit silly but i did a little fluff for nahida TW: SUICIDE, DEATH/EXECUTION)

Sheep in Wolfs clothing

Lumine

•When she found out your past life was the dark lord she was schocked

•Paimon said that you to should break up for the greater good but She thinks she should ask you first

•”I dont know what your talking about! Theres no way!” You responded but lumine didnt believe you

•She thought you were lying so she did what was best for her left you, you tried to reason with lumine but she didnt listen just pushing you away leaving you with your tears on your face

•Finally when she realizes what shes done she doesnt know what to do, she just cut off the person that helped her through her adventures, made her smile, laugh, happy and becuase of her choice your gone now

“Im sorry [NAME]..”

Raiden Ei

•She jumped to conclusions quick, what if you were plotting against her? You were USING her so you can trap the whole world into darkness were you?!

•She confronted you as soon as she found out, when you said you aren’t familiar on what she means she did that believe you

•She had Hatamotos (Inazuma Guards) take you away saying the 5 worfd that broke your heart

“Your execution is tomorrow, traitor”

•You pleaded trying to get her to understand but she would just turn away blinded by her pride

•The day came, you were in front of everyone you were trembling in fear as everyone was booing you throwing things at you, but Raiden didnt care you were the traitor, right?

•Raiden walked up behind you her blade raising into the air

“Any last words?”

“I love you—“

•right agter those words you would fall to the ground, a lifeless body as everyone was cheering and happy! Raiden should be to.. shouldnt she?•

•She was angry at herself, not only she killed the person that LOVED HER she will never feel her touch, her lips against hers, arms rapped around her, hands through her head She realized it was her doing..

“Please [NAME] in another life..forgive me”

Zhongli

•He most likely found out through Xiao or Ganyu so when he did he was conflicted on what to do

•Ganyu said he should keep you close to make sure nothing happens, but Xiao thinks he should banish you

•So zhongli picked, you HAD to go

•He confronted you about it and you said you didnt know, thats what made him want to kick you out more

“You were using this whole time werent you”

•He wasnt going to kick you out just then in there, no.. he was going to make everyone look at you there stares were in disgust, telling at you

“DISGRACE!”

“MONSTER”

“YOU WHORE”

•You walked out of there in shame having no where to go then one place

•Zhongli had thought he had done the right thing for liyue, Yes, he didnt want you, a traitor to put it into darkness again! Well thats what ye thought until he saw your body hanging from a tree lifeless and a tear stained face

“Darling..Oh my sweet sweet darling.. Im so sorry”

Nahida

•She first found out by reading a book, the looks, features.. hair, smile, hands, body all looked the same

•So of course she didnt jump to conclusions and she asked you first you saying you didnt know gave her peace

•She kept that a secret so no one else could harm you but she also reads your mind from time to time but there isnt any indication that you remember anything

“Its ok Dear! Im not mad!”

(Finished!! Hope you enjoyed!)

#genshin x reader #genshin impact #pearlsrequests #lumine #lumine x reader #zhongli #zhongli x reader #raiden shogun #Raidan Shogun x reader #nahida #Nahida x reader

[fibi-draws]

I needed to get this off my chest and do it before anyone else could because I said this in the movie theater INMEDIATELLY as it happened but no one fucking got my reference and I’m still mad they dont know how funny I am

source: Snapcube Sonic ‘06 Realtime Fandub

#the super mario bros movie #the super mario bros movie spoilers #super mario bros #luigi #mario #bowser #bowuigi #i would say im sorry but i dont like lying to you #sonic fandub #real time fandub #snapcube fandub

[echo-s-land]

It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you' #its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.) #anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point) #am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

[widevibratobitch]

moments like this when im really glad im a sad little cynic who always considers the worst possible outcome and never lets herself truly get comfortable and trust the good things in her life to stay there and builds her life around trying to soften the blows of the eventual disappointments just waiting around the corner lol never leaving my edgy teenager era peace and love

#i mean if the alternative is whatever the fuck is going on with my best friend rn then hooooo boy #cancelling therapy immediately i never want to change i wanna keep my trust issues forever and ever if its gonna save me from THIS #is he a dick? kinda. yeah. and a coward because if dude was sure he didnt want it since AUGUST and didnt have the guts to end it till now #actually he didnt end it. she was the one who finally snapped. but we seriously fought twice before because she just woudlnt listen #when i said that girl this isnt gonna work and you trust him too much and you're attachment styles are incompatible as hell #your* #but nvm. the least you could do when a 7 years younger girl who's clearly obsessed with you is breaking up with you #cause she just cant take it anymore. and you can see she's still in love with you because you've been lying to her for half a year. #imo the least you could do at that point is just. dont tell her that jfc. just say you're sorry it didnt work out etc etc #dont fucking tell her you stopped being in love with her in fucking august #and just 'didnt know how to end it' and lied when she asked if everything's alright #like my god. yes ig this would never have happened if she hadn't trusted him so completely and expected love to fix her whole life #but jesus dude. she's not even 23 she has a right to be naive. you're almost 30. you DONT get to be a man child anymore #christ. okay. #anyway i wish i could help her but telling her to 'trust less' and 'never truly rely on other people' sounds horrible and cringe and edgy af #but i genuinely dont have any other advice #like babygirl im sorry but your bestie is a piece of human garbage and she's doing the best she can but her best is Not Much alas

[abyssalpriest]

unrelated to that lmfao

i love being not (insert religions based on the kings and their people as ''demons'') but being adjacent to the communities while knowing the kings on a personal level because oh boy

#like i wont get into the Chrxstian God And The Kings' ''Fall'' rumour i did the other day but things like that and like #posts being like ''oh they love everyone all of us each of us'' and talking about The Lore of down there thats like. so clearly #twisted to be pro-(kings) propaganda and im like oh my god. if you worship them BECAUSE of these details you think are right then #im so fucking sorry they are way more complex and grey-moral than this #- i have to be clear. i do not know anything anyone says is false if its their worldview. Im not sitting here laughing because i think othe #s are Dumbdumb and cant get across the kings as Flawlessly as me uwu or some shit im explicitly talking about people saying #definitively that the chrxstian god did xyz thing and the kings are poor little meow meows and love everyone while also saying they #dont love everyone bc they vehemently disagree with chrxstians and stuff like. ''('demons') are actually the Pure sacred race theyre all #old gods theyre all pro-human and would never hurt a practitioner'' that type of stuff im like. ahhhhhhhh. so youve heard the propaganda #bc lets be real here i do NOT doubt any of these people's abilities its not my place so i dont even do it quietly to myself. very rarely #yes but like 1% of the time and its only when a bunch of red flags pop up but like. there are so many people on the kings' plane that #are telling humans these things bc......... well look at the goetic demons. royalty and people in power. who do people mainly go #to for demonolatry? The people in their society we understand to be kings. princes. dukes and duchesses. are they all these things? no #like Duke Vepar isnt a Duke lmfao i know her personally like she'll present like that but. imagine if that race wanted to talk to people of #our plane but only spoke to the english king/queen and dukes and duchesses and marquis and war generals and stuff to ask about #their civilisations. do you think that theyd get an unbiased view of the monarchy and the english religion and whatnot........ #edit: so like we're really clear. its like seeing people brainwashed by fucked up politics bc. it is that. #sometimes you just have to laugh bc like god youre in deep and im so sorry #insert my ex (a spirit) lying to me and convincing me he was a video game character for five years like what else can you do but laugh #ramblings //

[look-ma-im-on-tv]

Probably already done but-

#wednesday #I DONT HATE THE SHOW BUT #all I'm saying is that I think I would have found the ending of the season much more enjoyable if #if tyler had just been upset about being the hyde #if he reacted more like #'look. i know i know its really bad and and im scared as HELL and im so sorry for lying to you but i cant control it #and i dont know what to do i cant stop it and i feel terrible please help' #it would have been WAY more believable and made more sense #i understand I know i know PLOT TWIST #but you can have the twist of him being the hyde and all without him being evil for some goddamn reason #still a pretty decent show but this ONE bit really bothers me #uhh #wednesday spoilers #wednesday tyler #wednesday meme #frozen hans #ask to tag

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#hmmmm. #so as a rule i say thank you when i go out. a lot. bc i was told once that saying thank you instead of im sorry #would make ppl feel less uncomfortable so i swapped the phrases out. #similarly i was told once that compliments make ppl happy&also if im specifically looking for Good Things #i will find them-- as opposed to letting my head do whatever it wants bc given the extremely violent intrusive+obsessive thoughts #directing it towards Good Things works out for everyone if ppl enjoy compliments. #im also like. extremely aware that these facts-- along w my fervent occasionally manic insistence on being Nice when interacting w ppl #(bc i thought we all were told as kids to treat others the way we wanted to be treated??? lmao.) #-- all add up to make me seem insincere at times or to some ppl. i. dont care. LMAO. #its too exhausting to care. like ppl find whatever they want to find&if ppl are so set on my being a certain way #so much so that my being a nice person can only be explained by nefarious intent (to acheive. what. kindness from others? lmao.) #how in the fuck can any of that be my fault or-- MUCH more importantly-- my problem??? #however lately its like ppl have been getting like. Offended. by the impulses. which is becoming... boring. for me. lmao. #bc it isnt like i dont mean it when im extensively polite&complimentary-- i mean everything i say bc even when anxiously filling silence #i dont like wasting my time on like. lying for no reason lmao. #its more so that if it becomes a hinderance to be myself ill go the route that benefits me which is the one of least resistance #&i will ALSO mean it when i make someone cry w exactly the same amount of effort lmao #bc proving a point-- even if its proving someone elses point-- correct is extremely easy either way lmao. #its weird to me that ppl would think seeing good in something means that seeing bad in it isnt possible lmao #the same way its extremely confusing to me that ppl would think kindness&abject cruelty cant like. coexist lmao. #i feel accepting that on a micro level would help ppl accept it on a macro level. #either way i know it would save me some time in having to deal w ppl biting off more than they can chew #before realizing that i will rip chunks out of them&lick the tears up like a dog if they insist on tempting me like one LMAO. #at the very least it might help more ppl appreciate the fact that regardless of how vivid the fantasies #i have yet to hit anyone repeatedly w a baseball bat to relieve some stress. #... lmao.

[valpuduzz]

god im supposed to be working on a project but i think this is a venty kind of night. i dont feel good at all. im sorry (anything suicidal that im mentioning isnt meant to be taken seriously btw, im just going through it)

#the meowing of a cat 🐱 #vent #i dont think i want to go to DC anymore for the con. but i also dont want to go to mexico. and i rlly dont want a job #i dont want to hang out with anyone i dont want to see anyone i want to be left alone. i want to rot in my room #i just wanna shrivel up and die and i want to kill myself #i really really want to kill myself #i really really really want to kill myself #it's really hard to cry. i feel empty and on edge and like ive been put into this earth to suffer and yet i cant cry #and oh yeah here we go. crush problems once again. im sorry my dear mutuals #i love him so much i love him i love him but. i have no right to love him. i wish my feelings never latched on to him like this #i barely talk to him except when we voice call in the server im in. i dont have the right to love him like this #i kinda just wish he could straight up just tell me he hates me so i could finally have peace of mind. #i wish i knew how to talk to him. i wish i wish i wish. but i cant. because my desperation is so obvious and i'll come off as a creep #the last thing i want to do is make him uncomfortable #i think what hurts the most is that no matter how many times i tell him he's my friend and that i love him he wont know #the extent of my feelings for him. im jealous of his close friends because i know i'll never be close or special to him #because i dont know how #i already told him how i felt a while ago in march. and you cant confess to someone again #one time is okay. two times is being much too forceful and desperate #ive been trying so so so so fucking hard to get over these feelings. he's just a fucking crush ive only know for like three months #and yet it fucking hurts so fucking bad i fucking hate it i hate that my brain has put aside the friends who actually care about me #for a crush who even though is a dear friend of mine isnt as close to me as the other people in my life #genuinely think i should kill myself for this and im not lying #i hate this so much i hate that ive been abandoning my friends for him. but i love him so much i love him so fucking much #and i cant just randomly say that out of nowhere because he's gonna know im still in love with him and he'll hate me for forcing him #my biggest fear is he forces himself to like me back. i'd never forgive myself #im so sorry to my friends but this crush shit has taken over my mind and it's not good and it's toxic and i hate it #i wish i had an excuse to leave his life but that would mean he'd think he did nothing wrong when he did nothing to me #the only person to blame in this situation is me myself and i #fuck i reached tag limit OOPS

[crabbunch]

persona games really love to throw out the most compelling concepts for characters that threaten to violently rip out all of your organs and then trip over themselves because. surely women cannot have meaningful character arcs. please i only want to contemplate the horror of having your mind rewritten and complex sibling relationships

#sumire is so COOL why does atlus hate her and also give her no personality or agency or #>:[ tbh everyone in p5 got done a little (very) dirty by the writing. but GOD she has it the worst. #so much screentime. and nothing ever happens. we learn nothing of note about her pretty much up until the third semester!!! #even her persona awakening is lame!!!! girl!!! #hngnn i WANT to explore. jealousy and pride. and maybe she did hate her sister. i would like that a lot actually. #not a baby “oh she feels bad for being mad sometimes” NO i want her to LOATHE kasumi i want her to boil with rage #i want her to be angry that she dared to sacrifice herself for her #because wasnt she the better sibling?? wasnt she the one who deserved to live?? wouldnt everyone else be happier if she was the one here?? #but sumire is still glad its her. because she hates her. #YOU GET WHAT IM SAYING??? SIBLINGS WHEN YOU LOVE WHEN YOU HATE WHEN YOU LOVE WHEN YOU DONT EVER THINK ABOUT THEM (LYING) AHLDSFGLJ #sorry normal again. normal. why did they dangle the shell of what could have been like the Best Character Ever in front of me. why. #we could have had so much...... ughnm . hh

[hyperexplosion]

.

#vent again just ignore please and thank you. chewing at my arm. ik why we have to wait till next year for me to get help i do know why and #i understand but it also just sucks. its at least helping though no matter what i just gotta hold on but i rly dont want to hold on anymore #id say i sound pathetic or worthless but im not. ik im not. talked about mental health with my best friend today snd idk made me so self #aware of myself i feel gross and ugly. i cant even look in mirror by how ugly i am. i want to drink. i really want to drink. it sucks. #ditched or the person seems bored.. there's no point lmai. #the craving sucks. im sleepin almost all day and than night fucking sucks. i should be sleeping now but i need to write my thoughts out or #i will feel worse i will feel so much worse snd i dont want to be a burden. i dont want to bother people. i hope when im like.. getting hel #and getting better i hope i can like idk not be afraid to ask people to vibe with me. maybe one day but im so scared amount i have been #and sorry tired of hearing same 'just do something distract yourself' yeah only so much a distraction is s distraction. i never felt this #low.. i never felt this low for months now. im so tired idk this week is busy maybe that will help. maybe decorating for my fav holiday wil #help my brain a little. than again why would she want me around. i think about how dad asked mom if i was okay on my birthday. is the facad #fading? are people catching on? i need to stop before i see my brother on friday. even my best friend noticed he hugged me but i didnt even #hug back i just leaned into him for awhile before moving away. i want to die. will i? no. i wont. im too scared. but i want to. #i can sleep now. #i think people should stop lying i hate liars i am not afraid to drop anyone that does.

[puppetlooselystrung]

what if we all exploded and fucking died

#sorry i am having yet another episode of. oh right..i am hard to love. i will forever be hard to love. there is nothing that i can do #that wont make me hard to love #and not that anyone says this to begin with but people can go ohhhh nooo youre not hard to love! but theyd be lying theyd be fucking lying #you dont have to fucking lie to me i know i am i know i know i know i know #there is not a single fucking person in the world out there who would take a fucking look at me and go i think youre worth it for years #no one has to fucking lie to me i know im hard to fucking love its not like my entire love life has made that fucking clear to me #this is why i stopped putting myself out there cause its nothing but pain and heartbreak and another reminder how im an idiot for trying #the worst thing of all is i dont know how to stop being hard to love indont know how to stop it #if i knew how to stop being so fucking hard to love cause i cant fucking fit what people want me to be or how im in their fucking heads #or im too fucking neurotic to be fucking loved #i wouldve started that shit in a fucking heartbeat #but theres no fucking way to change this. oh youll make other people happy oh you cant give up finding the one #fuck off. there is no one. im not meant to make anyone happy in the way i want to #forever liked never loved. you know the fucking deal #whatever im gonna drown myself in alcohol later :D #delete later

[wildwhiskey236]

If one more person tells me they don't remember telling me something they definitely told me I'm going to rip my hair out

#today its about one of my supervisors saying 'oh i dont remember taking the action for this you do it' after he definitely told me he would #protip #always send follow up emails after in person conversations because motherfuckers be lying #like my ex best friend telling stories in a way that they didnt happen and making me look bad in them #'im sorry i dont remember every detail' bitch youve told me a million stories about your childhood so somewhere youre lying #damn im so mad can everyone just stop lying #does this count as gaslighting? if feels like gaslighting #whiskey rambles

[semercury]

Really hate when people imply I should be in a relationship with someone, be it specific or in general. Bc like. I'm ugly + I'm annoying + I have issues with physical and emotional intimacy. That's three strikes and I'm out. Nobody want me and nobody should want me. I rest my case etc.

#stuff sarah says #it always hurts bc like. i would love a relationship on theory! #i have so much love to give and id love the idea of expressing that in every way possible! #unfortunately God intended me to die as a baby so i was never supposed to get this far #so to keep the timeline intact i can never have a long term relationship. friendships are already pushing it #plus my affection is a reason to mock those receiving it so why would i do that to someone? #im apparently so offputting the only person to ever show true interest was ??? lying about it maybe??? out of?? pity?? or smth?? #other guy does not count. so much alcohol was involved i doubt he saw my face or registered me fully #like me ghosting him was a favor. i hope he knows that #like i dont even want to spend the rest of my life with me. why would someone else? #and i dont say the bits about me being ugly like. for trying to get people to say the opposite. bc its just true? #like i have eyes. i have ears that heard all the people say it #some people are just ugly and thats okay. im fine with it. people usually leave me alone bc of it which is nice #i mostly just feel bad for everyone who has to look at me #but ive felt bad about that since i was what. 7? #sorry i exist and you have to see my rotten form

[funshape]

if they had tumblr in spongebob times

🧽 bubbleblowingbuddy Follow

who wanna go jellyfishing after work? just got a new net 😄

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🗿squidwords Follow

my fucking god can you guys not read the text under my art posts IF YOURE GONNA LIKE MY ART FUCKING REBLOG IT. LAST TIME IM GONNA SAY THIS if i catch you liking and not reblogging under my next self portrait series i’m gonna start getting REAL BOLD with that block button istg

#and squilliam if ur reading this which i FUCKING KNOW you are #stop block evading i know you’re making new accounts to stalk my blog on #come off anon and stop vagueing me on main #I KNOW you’re sending your followers to send anon hate #and no i WILL NOT forget what you did to me #at the bikini bottom talent show #YOU NASTY LYING BITCH.

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🐿️ treedomepilled Follow

going here once would fix 90% of this sites userbase forever

#texasposting

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⭐️ rock-star638226 Follow

the group chat is bullying me over my room setup and i can’t take it anymore please tell me this doesn’t look like something from r/malelivingspaces please. pplease

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🦑 squill-i-am Follow

can we talk about how pathetic the people on this site who post their art and then go “REBLOGS > LIKES!!!! DONT LIKE WITHOUT REBLOGGING!” under it are like seriously omfg deeeeply unappreciative selfish behavior are you 12. sorry not everyone wants to put your shitty oil paintings from your 5 follower art blog on their mutuals dashes i guess. and your art is probably ugly as barnacles if you need to beg for reblogs on it to get any amount of traction on it anyway, just saying😭

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🦀 krusty-krab-money-grab Follow

Hey anyone else working the afternoon shift rn just see a little green thing run past the cash register? what was that

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🦠 rate-the-chumbucket-5stars-onyelp Follow

DHRHEH THFORUMELA ITS THE FORUMEUAR THE THRREAL FORMULER I FUCKING GOT IT QUICNQUICK REBLOG THIS BEFORE THOSE CAPITALIST FREAKS AT THE KRUSTY KRAB SEND A CEASE AND DESIST GET THIS EVERYWHERE CONTACT BIKINI BOTTOM NEWS GET THEFUCKIGN WORD OUT THIS IS WHAT THEY DONT WANT YOU TO KNOW GO GO GO

#krusty krab critical #anti krusty krab #secretforumlagate

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🐋 pearlygirlie Follow

turning off anon for a while because oomf is in some sstupid drama and now i’m catching strays for it. mutuals can contact me on discord if you want i’m not saying anything about my stance on the situation because either way i’ll get hate for it. this website sucks

🔁🐋 pearlygirlie Follow

yes oomf is my dad.

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[malkaviian]

yes charlotte would absolutely use the "im pregnant" as a trump card if things were so horrid in her marriage to the point rafael asks for a divorce

#oc talk #and tbf im not... exactly sure whether rafael would trust her or not #he would probably be extremely distraught being confronted by the obvious (she cheated on him all these years) #so i dont think he would be in the mentality to trust her on that. and will probably snap with a #'well whether thats true or not; how much of a chance there is that its actually mine?' so it wouldnt work at all lol #.... i do feel he would kind of keep thinking about it when he cools down though. he would be with mary and mention this to her #she would bonk him on the head and tell him shes 100% lying though lol. she lied on everything shes lying about this too #like how convenient shes suddenly pregnant. why she didnt mention it before when they have been married for years huh. #(and tbf they probably didnt fucked in a few months when everything started to fall down so.) #would charlotte go to finnley and dalila and tell them he 'abandoned' her when shes 'waiting for a baby'? yes #and honestly they would ask her if she knows who the father is; to which she would say very offended that of course its rafael. #and the siblings look at each other and her like 'yeah sure'. i mentioned this before but they would consider abortion as the first choice #and dali probably has a few locations for it 'just in case'. charlotte gets even more offended they suggest it. they fight. #this is kind of how they already are but the siblings do see kids as nothing but a trouble. unless very specific conditions are meet #you shouldnt be having them at all. being in the middle of a divorce with your husband hating your ass #surely isnt part of the specific conditions. having a kid would be reckless. so yeah. i feel like she would 'admit' her lie to them though #but in a 'oh apparently the other test was wrong im not pregnant. sorry!!' #its a mess #(but in a lighter note; i do like the thought of an expo where luca is invited taking place in a few days #and mary showing to rafael an insta post luca did about that and confirming hes going with a :-) and nothing more kjsdfndjs #your chance to see your celebrity crush!! you need a break buddy)

[evie-sturns]

ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ - ᴍᴀᴛᴛ ꜱᴛᴜʀɴɪᴏʟᴏ

summary: you're staying at your best friend's house, the sturniolos, for the weekend, until one night you can't sleep, so you decide to go for a dip in the hot tub.. but matt's already there.

contains: smut, virgin!matt, teasing, hot tub sex, semi-public?

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i roll over in bed, the clock on the wall reads, 11:57pm. i've been lying here for 3 hours with my eyes shut, but im too energised, i mean, the sturniolos and i have had a crazy few days, resulting in me staying the weekend.

i hoist myself up out of bed, flicking on the lamp as i dig through my tote bag for a small bikini, afterall its almost midnight, none of them would be in the hot tub at this time.

i open my bedroom door, tiptoeing past chris, nick and matts room down the stairs.

i creak open the backdoor, stepping out into the icy air which hits my barely covered body. i turn the corner to the hottub,

matt's sitting inside, his head tilted back, his eyes shut.

hes shirtless, wearing nothing but swim shorts. he doesnt notice me yet, but im just kind of.. admiring him?

the way he looks tonight is just different, ive known him for a few years but ive never felt like this towards him.

"matt?" i ask softly, being careful not startle him.

his eyes open slowly, looking up at me.

his cheeks instantly flush red, he opens his mouth to speak but nothing comes out. "can i come.. in?" i ask, my eyebrows furrowing as matt just looks me up and down.

he quickly runs a hand through his hair before nodding "yeah yeah!" he says frantically.

i climb in next to him, matt just looks straight ahead. "are you alright?" i ask, adjusting the strap to my bikini top.

-

we've been talking and laughing for about 15 minutes, matt's still been nervous.

"and my friend, lana, she went for a job interview and came out of it with the job all because she blowed the manager off" i laugh, my straps accidentally slipping down again teasingly.

matt looks down at his lap before shifting uncomfortably, he clears his throat. my eyes dart down, its hard to see through the water, but matts got an obvious tent in his shorts.

"im sorry.." matt mumbles out in a whisper.

"why do ya think thats happened?" i ask casually, my hand dipping underwater and grazing his thigh.

matt stays silent, he looks horrified with himself.

"im so sorry just give me five minutes in the bathroom i can come right back-" matt rambles but i cut him off but straddling his lap.

matts breath hitches in his throat "oh-"

"do you think you got hard from.. me?" i say seductively, looking down at him.

"i'm sorry." matt says, his eyes fixated on my chest.

"was it from.. these straps?" i say, pulling down the straps on my bikini.

matt nods nervously,

"you can take them off if you want, i mean we are alone." i whisper.

matt reaches his hand out from the hot water, pulling off my bikini top, his tongue slides out of his mouth to dampen his lips as his cheeks go a dark red.

"why are you so scared matt, its not like youve never seen tits before" i joke, but matt tenses under me.

"matt..?" i say, dragging out the 'a'.

"uh.. i'm a virgin so.." matt says, his voice barely audible.

my eyebrows raise, a silence fills the night air.

"i know, we don't have to do anything.. i dont want to make you.. teach me?" matt rambles again, i cup his cheeks and pull him into a gentle kiss, shutting him up.

"you ramble when you're nervous.." i say, toying with the strings of his shorts, i get off his lap and sit next to him. the water is still and clear, illuminated by a blue led light.

i tug at the waistband of his shorts, revealing a small section of his base.

"oh fuck." matt quietly whimpers out.

“i’ll take it gently okay?” i assure him before pulling down his swim shorts,

i never knew matt was this big.

my cheeks flush as i climb back onto his lap, sitting just on his thighs as his dick rests on my stomach. i put my hands on matt’s damp shoulders before hovering just above his tip.

“please..” matt says, his voice hoarse

“please what?” i tease, pulling off my small bikini bottoms and discarding them somewhere in the water.

matt grips my waist, his hands firm against my skin. “please ride me..” matt says, clearly embarrassed.

i slowly sink down onto him, the warm water sloshing around us. matt’s grip on my waist tightens as he lets out pathetic noises.

“you- you okay?” i ask, burying my head on his shoulder as i slowly start to bounce up and down.

“i’m-..” matt struggles to speak, i let out a soft laugh.

“you don’t have to answer now sweetheart.” i whisper into his hair, picking up the pace.

it’s only been a few minutes, but i can tell matt’s close, his fingers are digging into me so harshly i know i’ll have bruises tomorrow.

his groans fill the night air, along with small splashes coming from the water. i clench around him, “i’m so close..” i warn, the knot in my stomach snaps as i orgasm around him, i feel matt tense so i quickly pull off of him, stroking him as he paints my hands with white.

“oh my god.. fuck” matt says, squeezing his eyes shut, he reaches out a hand and grabs my shoulder for support.

i run my thumb over his already sensitive tip, earning a gentle moan from matt. i pull up his swim shorts slowly.

“shit..” matt says, his eyes peeling open slowly.

“you okay?” i ask again, tying up my bikini.

“i’m-.. really good?” matt says, rubbing his eyes.

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after a few minutes of talking and joking around, i stand up, climbing out of the hot tub onto the cold deck.

“same time tomorrow?” i smile jokingly back at matt.

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was a full task to bring myself to finish this 😭😭 hope y’all like it though

I also genuinely can’t tell if it chris or matt in the first picture by the title, but you get the point

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