#i will probably have to edit this later Lol unfortunately trying to edit on tumblr mobile is like scraping plastic off a frying pan

[godfreygwilym]

some notes on how i've been running the brides

when i first set out to dm cos, one of the first things i was really determined to do was give them more in-depth backstories, since— with the exception of escher getting like one paragraph lol— they're basically just. creepy dolls. which i GUESS works with gothic horror but man i would really like to have female characters with personalities!!!!

*combination of my own interpretation as well as concepts ive integrated from other dms, so if you recognize something specific i probably got it from elsewhere

ludmilla vilisevic

physically in her mid-30s, and is aged roughly 230. i play her with an rp english accent, although in my mind she has a nigerian affect. she is very poised and calculating, and always tries to be the one in control of any situation. has a talent for shadow magic, and her own sentient shadow is the closest she has to a best friend. she also has a barn owl familiar named amicus and a cat named eupraxia. when she takes a human disguise, she goes by the name of filena voltanescu.

before ludmilla married strahd, her name was lumina. she is a wizard apprentice who was lost in the mists and stumbled into barovia. naturally very curious, brave and shrewd, she marched up to ravenloft despite all the warnings. her and strahd ended up having a very romantic relationship (despite lowkey reflags from strahd the whole time lol) for a long time since there had been a long spell of no tatyana reincarnation, although they eventually began to fall apart, partially spurred by her feelings of isolation and longing for her family outside of barovia.

at the point that cos takes place, ludmilla is very distant from strahd and is really only going through the motions/trying to stay useful, though she is determined to remain a step above his other partners in terms of superiority. she spends a great deal of her time researching and experimenting on mostly-unwilling test subjects (she is well aware at this point that what she is doing is cruel, but after two centuries she's become rather indifferent). she's very fascinated by the abbot's work.

in my game, strahd has given her emil toranescu, who is imprisoned in tsolenka pass. she is working on developing a method to transfer souls from one body to another— in my game, ismark is the true reincarnation of tatyana, and ireena merely looks like her.

anastrasya "anya" karelova

physically in her early 30s, anya is just over a century old. barovian accent, and extremely flamboyant and charismatic, she loves being the centre of attention. she has a natural talent for communicating with ghosts, who are often her captive audience. not much combat skill beyond what abilities she has as a vampire, but she has a wicked skill for charming people. in human disguise, she goes by ekaterina bogdana.

anya is from minor vallakian nobility, which comes with all the trappings of petty inter-family squabbles. she has had a terribly unfortunate string of bad luck with marriages, all of her betrotheds have met poor fates or ran off. on a fourth attempt, her parents arranged for her to be married to an older landowner who she did not care for at all.

while she was engaged, anya ran into ludmilla (in human disguise) by chance. they grew close quickly and began having an affair. eventually, ludmilla introduced her to strahd, and she was instantly enamoured. before the wedding, anastrasya's betrothed "mysteriously" died, and she was whisked away to ravenloft. at this point, ludmilla and strahd's relationship was very cold, and he became preoccupied with anya.

volenta popofska

physically in her mid-20s, and is about 65 years old. barovian, and has a very floaty and whimsical way of speaking, though very soft spoken and rather self conscious. she often comes off as eerie. her vampiric abilities are amplified, making her a very good rogue/assassin. in "human" disguise, she is called violet spivakhofska.

volenta is a tiefling who was born in a small fishing village on lake zarovich. her parents did not want her, and so she was raised by the village elder. when she passed away when volenta was a teenager, she no longer had any protection from the animosity of the villagers, so she fled. eventually she was picked up by a small group of bandits, who would've attacked her, but she convinced them to let her join.

she bounced around various groups of bandits and thieves for several years, finding a place but never truly fitting in. after one traumatic rejection, she went to ravenloft in search of strahd, who she had heard stories of since she was a child, and had often wished would come and take her away. to volenta's joy, strahd took a liking to her and made her his bride.

even still, volenta is an outcast due to her awkward and sometimes unsettling behaviour and knack for the macabre. strahd enjoys her, but does little to try and ingratiate her with his other partners, and so she remains self-conscious and eager to win his favour.

escher gerst

physically in his late twenties, escher has been a vampire for just over a decade. i play him with a german accent. he is usually very distant and melancholy, though he becomes much more playful when not around strahd. a bard by trade, as a vampire he discovers a natural aptitude for shapeshifting, spurred by a bit of neuroticism over not being able to see his own reflection. in human disguise, he goes by claudius belasco.

escher is also from outside the mists, the son of poor farmers who ran off to join a bard troupe. he loves stories and music, and has a knack for various instruments, but particularly enjoys the lute and the violin— strahd has gifted him two exquisite models. his troupe was caught in the mists, and unbeknownst to him, strahd began spying on them. outside the village of barovia in the svalich woods, strange orchestrated a wolf attack on the group, sparing escher so that he could swoop in and save him. when escher awoke in a plush bed in ravenloft, he became deeply enamoured with strahd, who he saw as a fairytale prince. they had a very passionate relationship with strahd lavishing many gifts on escher before convincing him to let him turn him into a vampire.

despite not being together long, however, strahd has quickly become rather bored of escher's antics, who became desperate to stay in his good graces to avoid being sealed into the crypts. after the revolt in the village of barovia, strahd took doru as a vampire spawn. escher and him would have been close friends, if escher wasn't so deeply self-conscious and paranoid over his own status. eventually, he convinced strahd to starve doru to the point of madness and return him to his father at the church. escher would feel guilty over this, were he not so deeply concerned over his own self-preservation.

also due to strahd's coldness toward him, escher developed a fascination with vallaki, where he often goes in human disguise. here, he took a human lover, a painter named anton. anton became involved with the feast of saint andral, when escher gave him a bag (secretly containing the bones) and had him deliver it to the coffin shop. during the chaos of the feast, unfortunately, strahd had anton killed— escher beseeched the party to bury him properly and behead him so he would not return as a vampire spawn.

#curse of strahd #my stuff #i will probably have to edit this later Lol unfortunately trying to edit on tumblr mobile is like scraping plastic off a frying pan #also one of my players wrote a very wonderful ludmilla/strahd story that i hope they'll publish on ao3 #ive also written a ~5k drabble about escher and started two for anya and volenta that i have not finished #anyway overall i hope it's quite clear that the brides are all indivuals who are very lonely/crave affection and fear punishment which #informs a lot of their behaviour

[albonoooo]

got tagged by @wanderingblindly, thank you my beloved <3

what colour are your eyes?: a mixture of blue, green and grey that looks puddle-coloured most of the time.

tell me about your pets/your dream pet: after 15 wonderful years, our family dog paul (i named him that when i was five lol) unfortunately passed away in august 2023, i loved that dog more than most people. (there were some pictures of him here, but i got nervous that someone i know might see this so i removed them lmao). i'd love to get a dog or a cat at some point later in my life, but not now or any time soon.

share some interesting fact about yourself: i'm genuinely incredibly boring, so much so that i had to ask for help to find an answer here. the council decided on the fact that i know how to ride and own a motorcycle and am also a member in an mf in my hometown.

what was the first fandom you were a part of?: i guess the first time i was properly involved with fandom in any capacity was during my teen wolf days.

do you have any phobias?: i don't know if it's bad enough to be considered a phobia, but i'm terrified of heights. there have been several instances of me breaking down crying despite trying to keep it together while being in very high places (usually while having to climb dodgy stairs in very high buildings, among other things).

are you a picky eater? if so, what food can't you stand?: YES! and i hate it because it's so so limiting and annoying. i am incredibly sensitive regarding taste and texture and i have to physically force myself to hold back visceral reactions to foods i don't like. it'd probably be easier to list the foods i can eat tbh.

do you eat the burger and fries at the same time or one after another?: first some fries, then burger, fries, burger, fries, finish the burger, finish the fries. anything else is weird (what the fuck do you mean you eat them completely separately, liquid???)

winter or summer: winter all the way. i sweat easily, my body generally doesn't cope well with heat and i prefer bundling up and being a little cold over feeling too warm.

favourite fanfiction tropes: i LOVE a good au, any au really, but especially the cute ones. i'll read almost anything at least once and so there's just too many things i have read and enjoyed to list here. also, anything with an enemies to lovers situation. i am a sucker for that.

are you studying or working? what do you study/is your job?: both! i'm a full-time student (english major, history minor) and i am one of the student assistants in the english department's student office. i've also had other, less fun part-time jobs in the past.

what is the last country you visited: the netherlands and belgium during a day trip (by motorcycle) in june or july last year, i think.

what country would you want to move to after retiring?: i've haven't ever even considered living that long. i've always had a fascination with ireland and scotland, so based on looks and vibes alone i'd go there. or somewhere with solid winters, like a scandinavian country or finland.

who was your first crush?: hannes (played by nick romeo reimann) in the vorstadtkrokodile movies. i was ready for marriage, dreaming up a life together and everything. it also lasted until i was like 12 years old, so about six years in total. he really had me in a chokehold.

how did you get into f1 fandom?: after my interest was peaked by f1 edits that randomly popped up all over my social media one day (thank you algorithms), i did what i always do when something like that happens and opened tumblr to see what's up. and then i got stuck lol.

i have no clue who has or hasn't been tagged already, so feel free to ignore this!! @hrhgeorgerussell @bright-and-burning @borntogayz @lil-italian-disappointment @liamlawsonlesbian @piastrisms

#would you look at that i'm oversharing on the internet again #tag games

[squirrelkiln-art]

Unearthed Revision - Chapter 1 Notes

If you haven’t read Chapter 1 of the Unearthed Revision, read it here! This post is gonna have some behind the scenes details and minor spoilers for the chapter it’s about.

Since this is the first chapter behind-the-scenes post, I’ll explain the premise. These posts will have a link to the chapter/s they’re talking about, a quick note by me, and after a ‘read more’ will have my thoughts on things. (I usually have more to say than I feel appropriate putting in AO3 notes so I’m using this.) Later chapters will have more visuals in the way of art and concept work. The first few, however, will be all or majorly text. Anyway, onto the post.

Oh boy, the start of the adventure! I’ve read this chapter so many times it actually bores me, in both the old version and the revision. Still, I like how I revised it from the original. For now, here’s some notes I took or remembered while doing this. They’re pretty rambly, but if you’ve read Unearthed you’ll be used to me doing that anyway! I’m aware I’m more excited about these notes than others but it’s nice putting them out there.

Minor spoilers ahead!

This chapter was stuck in my drafts upon its initial writing years ago because I struggle so much with titles I couldn’t even think of the proper name for Unearthed. And to think I wanna give them chapter names now. Ha! We’ll see.

For some reason the talk of the stakeout business at the start of the chapter really messed with my sense of timing in this fic. It still does, actually, and I have a written timeline because of it.) I’ll probably share that in a future post once I neaten it up a bit.) Though the entirety of Unearthed takes place over the course of only a few days, I like making timelines for multi-chapter fics.

Ben's stimming when he’s anxious (clawing at his arms, pulling his hair and clothes) is a reference to what I do, or rather did, when I was majorly struggling with my health. It's not stated in the fic itself but my version of Ben is often based on myself via projecting, including my autism and ADHD. I’m the author I say what disorders my protagonist has! (/lh)

Even in the first chapter, Rook’s improvement between versions is practically tangible.  In the Old fic, he brushed Ben off because he was impatient and didn't really take Ben seriously. Here, he does acknowledge and validate Ben’s concerns, but only denies them because he believes that they're still unlikely. As a result, he insists Ben gets sleep for his own wellbeing and not to get rid of him.

“The human curled around his spare pillow and clutched it for some sort of comfort, a life raft in the raging black ocean of his furiously beating heart." Theatre/musical kids might recognize some of this line. It’s a reference to the song Lifeboat from the Heather’s musical (TW for that song) thanks to my working on that musical in school, around the time I wrote this fic. This song got stuck in my head SO much during revisions lol.

"...And, fortunately, he didn’t find himself trying to hero in his sleep again…" This is a simple callback to an OS episode, Midnight Madness!

"...His eyes scanned the various squares of paper from top to bottom–dancing groups, physical therapy, an advert for a lost Galvan Organization table, a single card from a trading card game..." This line about the trading card is a small, admittedly silly reference to the Yu-Gi-Oh! GX abridged series by ShadyVox. These abridged YGO series shaped my sense of humor growing up more than I’d like to admit.

"He could recognize it as something he had unfortunately felt nearly every day since he was ten years old. It was fear." This line was more for the emotional impact overall, but is a sight reference to the game OFF. The line it’s referencing goes, “He has your eyes... They are full of fear.”

For the first couple chapters I plan on posting their BTS Notes today and editing the AO3 chapters themselves to include a link to their respective Tumblr post. Anyways, thanks for reading if you’ve gotten this far. I hope you can enjoy the rest of the Unearthed Revision as well as the notes I leave behind.

#Shut up Sky #Unearthed Behind The Scenes

[simplybakugou]

three year anniversary post

genuinely can't believe this blog has made it to three years. i didn't even think i would be able to keep this up for one let alone three.

this year has been hectic and unfortunately i wasn't able to make an event like i had initially wanted but instead i'd like to thank some people that i've met along on this three year journey :)

@nejiraez izzy my rock, my love, my wife. i genuinely cannot thank you enough for your friendship. the fact that we've been moots for almost three years is insaneee. you were one of the first blogs i followed on here and i couldn't believe it when i got a follow back but now look at us, sending tiktoks to each other and shit LMAO. ilysm and tysm for always hearing me out whether that it for my thousands of smau ideas or in general. again ily

@lovely-angst you were one of the OG blogs i followed and i remember screaming when you followed me back. i loved watching your blog do a whole 360 from writing bakugou angst to giyuu and now back to bakugou lol. i love your content and tysm for being a part of my three year journey

@bakugou-tm the original bakugou stan account omg. your blog was what inspired me to make my own bakugou writing blog and i remember loving our interactions, especially since you've fueled my villain!bakugou needs lmao. i love your content and it makes me so happy to see you writing again :)

@sipsteainanxiety SHAYY MY LOVE. i miss you :( and i loved everytime i saw your comments on my fics. i was so excited when i found out you were desi as well and it has just been a pleasure to be able to call you my friend

@shoutogepi rosieeee hi :) i know we haven't talked that much lately but i genuinely want to tysm for being such a genuine part of my tumblr experience. you're so sweet and ily

@dimplesum faye omg i still can't believe we're moots LMAO. you were always one of those "big" blogs to me (for obvious reasons cause you're so talented and deserve all of the support you get) and i've always wanted to created content the way you do. ty for always being so sweet and lovely to me

@rat-zuki ANNIEEEE you're probably one of the moots i'm most surprised to be mutuals with LMAO only cause you're so cool and i remember being so blown away by your blog/content when i first followed you. i couldn't believe someone as talented as you followed me and you'll always have a special place in my heart, my fellow mallu

@mirakeul bianca i always appreciate the comments you've left on my work. it's been such a pleasure reading your content and i can't wait to see how your account grows in the future

@kurinhimenezu i've always loved and appreciated every comment you've left on my work. your username always feels so familiar when i see it and i can't ty enough for your support

@sassi-sunflower SUNNY it's been so long since we last spoke but it's always so fun to talk to you. you're comments give me LIFE and ilysm

@xtsundere-princess @boosyboo9206 @serowotonin @life-is-not-daijobu anytime i see any of your comments on my work, it makes my day. you're the type of people that i think of whenever i'm writing and i smile whenever i see your usernames in my notifs. ily all so much

@reddriot z, you're so talented and such an angel. i know we haven't spoken in a while but i love going through your account and seeing your edits and your work and you never fail to amaze me

@sheerxradiance SHEEEEER my first emoji anon and the first anon i had like a whole little friendship with. i remember being so shocked when i found out you were the 🥰 anon because i would always try and figure out who you were but i was way off. i remember seeing your username pop in my notifs from time to time and everytime i talk to you i can't help but smile, ilysm

@todosweetheart val :) you're so talented and your art blows my mind everytime. it's such an honor to be able to see your art and call you one of my moots. ilysm

@katsuhera hera i know we haven't known each other for long but your writing is the epitome of *chef's kiss* i remember screaming when i found out you listen to GD/bigbang and i got so excited. thank you for being a part of my journey

@k-atsukidayo fey i know you haven't been active lately but i hope you see this. you're one of my favorite writers on this app and i hope to be able to write like you someday. your writing is so magical and jaw dropping and i cannot believe i get to call you my moot. ilysm

anyone and everyone who has supported me:

i started this blog july 9 of 2018 without any expectations. i used to write on wattpad and after i got into bnha and falling in love with bakugou's character, i immediately wanted to write scenarios about him. never did i imagine that i would still be writing three years later. it feels surreal. it's even more surreal that i've got so much support. every single like, comment, reblog, and follow makes me overjoyed and i always see anytime anyone interacts with my blog. these interactions are what keeps my blog going most days.

here's to three more years hopefully lol so i hope you look forward to the content that i'll continue to make :)

#v sappy for no reason #miratalks

[jengarie]

#showyourprocess !

From planning to posting, share your process for making creative content!

To continue supporting content makers, this tag game is meant to show the entire process of making creative content: this can be for any creation.

RULES — When your work is tagged, show the process of its creation from planning to posting, then tag up to 5 people with a specific link to one of their creative works you’d like to see the process of. Use the tag #showyourprocess so we can find yours!

Thank you, @rinielle for tagging me! She chose the piece above (original post), and oh boy this one was a whole ass rollercoaster ride! Unfortunately, I hadn't turned on the timelapse feature for this but I'll try to go through each part of the process as best as I can!

The photos I'm gonna upload are gonna be a mix of screenshots and literal photos of my screen, because I'm taking some of them from my updates to friends, since a lot of the steps got lost in my painting process.

But before that, let me tag some other amazing creators!

@dragonji: this gif art!

@candicewright: this yibo painting!

@wendashanren: this gifset!

@mylastbraincql: this gif!

I haven't been able to keep track of who's been tagged so apologies if you've already done this! Also, no pressure to do it at all if you would rather not! <3

Planning

Sometimes, I get an idea first and find reference photos to go with that idea. But for this one, I sought out a reference photo first, and built an idea on top of it!

After that, I roughly sketch out the base pose. Usually, this looks very messy, but it doesn't really matter as long as I understand which part goes where!

The idea for the background didn't really come until the creation process because I don't think I really planned this to be a full piece.

Creation

Sketching

Honestly, from this point on, it's more of trial and error.

So, I redid the the initial base pose—made it cleaner and a little bit more detailed. See: the added definition in their arm muscles, the rearrangement of Wei Wuxian's legs, and Lan Wangji's hand on Wei Wuxian's back. If you look at the second photo, I also changed the pose a bit midway—I tend to edit as I go sometimes when I change my mind. (For this, I thought, given the Lan arm strength, it would be better to make Lan Wangji look more at ease carrying Wei Wuxian. This gets covered by the robes anyway though, so it didn't matter much in the end.)

I also started adding details to the base! I usually start with the face and then the hair! I usually go for the clothes next, but I dreaded the robes in this piece so I guess that's why I ended up with a basic idea of what I wanted for the background instead LOL I also figured out how I want the final crop to look like, so I blocked out all the other areas with an extra layer!

Okay, onto the part that killed me like ten times: the robes. There are a lot of interactions between their robes here given their pose, and not to mention they also have layers upon layers on each of them! So, to maintain my sanity and to keep track of which part is which, I color coded them into the most colorful sketch I've ever made.

Another reason why I filled in each layer of robe with a solid block of color, is so that all the lines underneath gets covered. Without all of the colors, the actual outline actually looks like the one on the right. What a nightmare!

I also ignored the crop again for this part, because it's always better to draw past your borders, in case you decide to rotate or tilt or whatever your piece later on. I didn't do the feet anymore though, because that I was sure wouldn't show in the final piece anymore.

After that, I did the sketch one more time and then started adding the base colors. (I didn't have a screenshot of just the base colors, and the final CSP file is a nightmare so I copy pasted the layers into a new canvas to show you guys :') )

By the way, I drew their robes flowing this way, because I wanted it to frame the lower arch of the moon behind them for the composition. It was a little frustrating that I couldn't get Lan Wangji's robes a little higher because of Wei Wuxian's legs but I later filled in the empty space with his forehead ribbon anyway, so it all worked out in the end!

Painting

Because apparently, I was a masochist back then, I merged the base colors all into one layer and started adding shadows to the robes. (These days, I add shadows first and then, merge. It's much easier this way.)

And then, I started painting! Again, I did the face first and then the hair, before finally the robes. This was my first time painting side profiles and honestly it was quite a pain to figure out LOL but !!! I think I did a good job and I'm proud of how it turned out. I again used reference photos for this one but I can't link any because they were just several random Pinterest photos that I didn't save.

Another thing to note is that I use the mesh transform tool a lot, especially on faces. That's largely why Lan Wangji's face looks so different in the latter two!

And then I went with the robes. Somewhere along the way, I realized I didn't like how I planned to do Lan Wangji's sleeves and the flowy part of Wei Wuxian's robes and I... decided, with much dread, to do them over. So I sketched on top of the painted layers and redid the robes, again.

It was at this point that I decided to take a break from this piece because it was honestly very draining! I think it took about three weeks before I decided to open the file again and continue it.

When I did, I just finished painting the rest of the robes and their hands. The blue details on Lan Wangji's outer robes were painted on a separate layer that I put on Multiply. I probably did more adjustments to the face and hair and stuff, because my painting process is honestly a mess :')

Final Adjustments

I added some correction layers on certain areas to fix some of the colors. See: Lan Wangji's sleeve becoming much brighter and paler; Wei Wuxian's legs having less contrast. And then I merged all of the layers (excluding the background) and added a bit of blur. See: Wei Wuxian's ponytail; the entire lower part; the flowing forehead ribbon. My reasoning for this is so that most of the detail (and therefore the flow of the eye) goes to their faces and expressions!

And then, I put a blue Overlay layer on low opacity to make Wangxian blend better with the background, added a bit of shadow on the inside and the lower sections and added the glowing details for the added flair. I initially wanted sparkles and/or stars but they didn't turn out as well as this did. I also upped the contrast by a little for the entire piece!

Aaaand, that's it! In truth, I did a bit more color adjustments to the whole piece, but I was a dummy who forgot to turn them back on before posting so ... oh well.

Posting

Before posting, I upload it either on my spare private Twitter account or on a drafted Tumblr post so I can check the colors on my phone. This is because the colors on different devices can look very different, and I would at the very least want all my pieces to look nice on both of my devices!

And then, once I deem it satisfactory, I just try to think of a caption and post! Some artists wait for a certain time where most of their followers are active, but I didn't have a lot of MDZS followers at this point so it didn't really matter to me.

It still doesn't really; I haven't actually been able to figure out when my MDZS followers are awake even now.

#showyourprocess #mine #whew this was so long oops #but this piece took like #maybe 1.5 weeks sans the break i had to take #so !! #LOL #tag game

[oops-prow-did-it-again]

I’m back!

So, I kinda quit using this blog a while back. There are some notes about it in my old pinned post and probably on my fanfics, lol, but basically, I felt overwhelmed by fandom and everything going on irl and I crashed. I just withdrew from like, everything. I still logged in on Tumblr but I just liked things to later view them with the boyfriend or laugh at them again myself.

Honestly, it’s not that fun, just doing that, and not really that fair to people who put effort into their posts like art, music, writing, etc., or even just people who are very passionate about a subject and may want it to reach others that are the same. Because I know I’m like that!

But anyway, this is going to be my new pinned post. So! (More under the cut, please keep reading!)

About Me

You can call me Prowess, I’m a FtM transmasc (he/him please)! I use this space to elevate my personal works, such as art or writing, while also occasionally posting about topics I am passionate about. I realized I was trans in 2020 at the age of 19 years old, in the midst of a pandemic and college fallout, so as you can imagine, I’m still riding the rollercoaster of emotions that come with that. I’m also ADHD... so expect some posts about those sort of things.

But that is hardly the focus! I am big on art and writing. While I am mostly obsessed with Pokemon, I am a lover of stories, and so generally, I love most fiction, even the really bad stuff. Along with my Pokemon stuff, you can expect posts involving ARK: Survival Evolved, The Tales of Miraculous Ladybug & Cat Noir, animated movies (Luca, Toy Story, Spirit - you name it, I probably love it), and plenty of other stuff.

While I have too many older posts to go through and try to sort out the unclean tags, going forward, I am going to use these sort of tags: subject (whatever the post is about, for example, Pokemon), characters depicted, media (whether it’s art, writing, animation, or a mix), and any warnings that may need to go with it (for example, cussing when stronger language is involved, or racism if racism is getting discussed, etc). Memes or one-off posts will likely be tagged with simply “memes.” While this is pretty true for most any blog, this is so you know if you need to block certain tags! For example, if you hate Miraculous Ladybug, you’d just blacklist ‘Miraculous.’

I will also reblog a lot of posts asking for help or boosting awareness. I will try not to inundate the blog with these, but as I will likely have to make a post asking for help at some point myself due to unfortunate irl circumstances, I want to pay it forward in advance. These will be tagged with simply “help needed!”

Below are some projects I’m working on + what you can expect from this blog.

Pokemon Retold

By far, my biggest project to date, is Pokemon Retold.

This is an expansive written anthology of all the pokemon mainline games as far as generation 8. Red, Heart of Gold, Omega Ruby, Platinum, Black, Black 2, Y, Ultra Sun, and Sword are all intended to get rewritten and posted on both my FanFiction.Net and Archive of Our Own accounts. I may also post some chapters here, but I admit Tumblr makes that difficult sometimes.

These stories are very personal to me, as I started writing them when I was struggling in college with undiagnosed ADHD, and felt like my life was falling apart and I was alone. I started writing a retelling of Sword, but the more I wrote, the more disappointed in it I felt, so I started writing Black instead and scrapped Sword altogether.

I’ve had some rough road since, but Black is complete, Black 2 is also complete, and Ultra Sun is (mostly) complete (but with plans to be heavily altered), while Red is underway!

WARNING: These stories can get DARK, and I would rather my readers be over 18. They are not dark with the intent to squick out or upset people, however; they are dark with the intention of exploring thoughts and ideas I find too difficult to think about directly. There are more personalized warnings at the beginnings of each story. With that out of the way, please just try and move on if you find yourself disliking a specific story or part of a story of mine... If you want to give constructive criticism, you are more than welcome, but tearing into me and my writing just because you didn’t like something helps nobody. Keep in mind I write these for fun and as a form of self-therapy throughout some of the worst years of my life.

Furthermore, I edit them a lot. And I do mean a lot. My FFN profile acts as a “changelog” for what has changed in the stories over the course of the time they’ve been posted.

Pokemon Retold posts are tagged “Retold.”

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Pokemon Retold: Black has been added to TVTropes! I honestly don’t even care that this person digs into it a couple of times, I was so incredibly flattered they took the time to do that at all. (But be warned the page does have some spoilers!) I have no idea if you enjoyed the story or not upon reading over that page, kind stranger lol, but I really appreciate that you took the time to do that nonetheless! <3

Creatively Destructive

This incredibly well-titled story is an idea I have for a retelling of Miraculous Ladybug. I know, I know - absolutely never been done before /s

While I know there has got to be a thousand retellings of this show by now, based on just how.... terrible, the writing is, I want to try anyway. Because I genuinely love the premise of the show! I’m just constantly disappointed by how it seems to never go anywhere with its plot or characters.

So, Creatively Destructive will be a fanfic, and when I have more information on it, I’ll post it under the tag “creatively destructive.”

Roleplays

Me and my boyfriend love to RP a lot. From Monster Hunter to Pokemon, we do a lot of different stories. Sometimes, I really get inspired by what we come up together and I want to share it with others! Be it quick art based on a scene from the RP or a quick rundown of what occurred in an RP, you can catch these in the ‘Prow RP�� tags.

Currently, we are having a lot of fun with an RP based on the Hoenn pokemon games that I am sure I’ll be posting about!

I may also be open to RPs with others in the future :> Don’t be offended that I’m not open to them already... I’m just a very easily overstimulated person.

The Ballad of the ARK

ARK: Survival Evolved is a lot of things. It’s an amazing concept, an open-world game where you befriend dinos and fight alongside tribemates against other tribes, or work together to survive the hostile environment. But the true tragedy of this game goes so much deeper than that, and I want to explore that in writing, starting with my story, my experience, and then graduating to where I think the issue primarily stems from. 

This strange memoir will be posted under the tags of “Ballad of ARK.”

Commissions

I hope to take commissions for art and writing in the future!

However, I need to figure out the parameters of what I’m willing to draw (and what I can feasibly draw), as well as what I can promise when it comes to writing, not to mention pricing.

That’s not to say I’m not open to ideas though! Feel free to message me/send me asks anyway and we’ll see if we can work something out. :)

Although I am not in a financial disaster just yet, I feel like I am not far from one. This is why I hope to try to build on commissions in the future. I know they will never support me, but I would still like to try to be useful and helpful to some. I currently live with my grandmother, having left my abusive home with my father, and although she generously allows me to live with her for the low cost of merely helping with some electricity and my own food, I struggle to remain abovewater financially due to difficulty finding work (thanks to issues with ADHD and physical problems following a bout with COVID in early January 2021).

If you would like to help anyway, feel free to subscribe to my Patreon, or make a one-time payment via PayPal. I promise no matter what or how much it is, your generosity is greatly appreciated!! <3

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#new day new me! #undeadprowess #I will be changing my url #pokemon retold #retold #pin #creatively destructive #prow rps #ballad of ark #commissions #sketch #art #rb pls! :) #pokemon #pokemon trainer brendan #brendan #pokemon trainer brix #more info on those last tags soon lol

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The Hargrove-Mayfield House

I’ve been working on drafting this floorplan for ages, but now that I’ve got quarantine amounts of free-time I’ve come back to it with extra focus and determination to get this thing right, so here you go!

reference photos with explanation will be below the cut, because there are some weird-ass bits to this house that I feel need explanation/clarification/general screaming, and that in some case are very variable depending on what canon you want to go with.

anyway! with the front of the house down there at the bottom, and keeping in mind this house is on a corner lot (streets on both sides that have exterior doors), here ya go!

(also just a heads-up that the exact proportions of everything was difficult to figure off based on a lot of these photos, and this house very much resisted attempts to be sketched out on graph paper, so while this is as close as I could get it without losing my mind, it’s definitely got some little issues here and there still.)

OK! so starting from the front, we’re all familiar with the view from the street, the long, thin porch along the front. but did y’all know the front of the house isn’t as flat as the porch makes it seem? 

this is supported by the inside of the house, where we have Billy’s room in that pushed-out bit, and the front door visible through his door, leading into a living room in the pushed-back bit. (if any of that makes sense.) not the best screenshot but you can at least kind of see the corner behind Billy’s door and how it’s clearly not level with the front door

now, I’m not gonna spend much time on Billy’s room because @gothyringwald​ has already done the work of the gods with that one (IN THREE PARTS, MY HERO), except to briefly say yes, there is a fireplace in here, it’s the back-end of a slightly bigger one in the front room. also, not that it’s at all important cause I won’t be using s3 screencaps for his room, but his room was very clearly not filmed in the same house for s3. the view out Billy’s door changes from the front door to a hallway from s2 to s3 (and there are no hallways in this house, as you’ll see), and the view out his front-facing window changes from porch to bushes. it drove me crazy the whole time so I just had to throw that out there.

anyway, for now I want to turn your attention towards Max’s room while we’re still in here because...

first of all, yes there is a door straight into Max’s room from Billy’s, and no, I have not included it on my layout. That’s because in the show they use a bookcase on both sides of the door to hide it, so you could canonically say that there is no door. to be fair, though, they use this inset shelf thing that looks like in actual fact it wouldn’t work if both of them had one. so, use the door if it suits you, use the bookshelves if they suit you. canon is putty in your hands.

also I wanna point out that in the very bottom right corner of this shot you can see the corner of some wall trim. that’s the edge of Billy’s closet. and yes, it does stick out from the wall like that. at a guess I’d say about half of that wall is closet, and half of it is pushed back by exactly the closet’s depth, giving us this corner look.

moving on to the view into Max’s room, we can see the tiny closet space that her room has. it doesn’t appear much wider than the door to it is wide, though it is deeper than it appears from this angle, probably by about a foot. we can also see her door to the living room from here.

moving into Max’s room...

in season 2 you can feel the camera operators doing their damn best to show as little of this room as possible because it’s so weird and got so many doors, but in s3 we do get a little bit of a better feel and the screenshots I got from there do seem consistent enough with real-estate photos and s2 that I’m like 99% sure they shot Max’s bedroom scenes in the same house as in s2.

so, firstly we have a shot of that inset bookcase I mentioned hiding the door to Billy’s room, and Max’s lil closet to the right. it takes a stupid about of staring at the bottom right corner, but you can just barely see the shadow of what must be the closet’s outer corner there.

panning left, we can see Max’s windows, prime for sneaking out to do nerd shit. in the show they put a lil firewood storage thing directly under her windows for extra sneaking out potential, but I can only put so many pictures in here before tumblr makes me split this thing into two posts so I’ll refrain from adding a cap of that.

note also that that’s Billy’s window closer to us, and Susan & Neil’s at the back of the house. Billy’s would seem ideal for climbing out of as well, but some asshole put his sound system and vanity right under that window so idk how he’d manage it if he did. I’d love to see the elaborate shifting-stuff-around/gymnastics that goes into Billy’s regular sneaking out, though, if anybody wants to get on that.

ok, back into Max’s room cause we’re not done with it yet. we’ve accounted for a door that may or may not be between hers and Billy’s room, one to a lil closet space, and the one into the living room, but this girl has two more fuckin doors in her room.

unfortunately these two doors are never photographed together, so I didn’t figure out that there are two on this last wall until literally this morning while editing this post, but hopefully I can take you along my thought process on why it has to be two different doors.

essentially the thought process is, (L) no wall at all between darkened/blocked-off door and corner, (R) at least a foot of flat wall to the left of door. going back to all of my screencaps with this knowledge makes a whole lot of stuff make more sense, but again I can’t put everything here. If there’s demand for more detailed screencaps and stuff maybe I’ll make a part 2, but for now I’m trying to be as succinct as possible. (lol)

so anyway, that door on the right clearly goes into the third bedroom of the house, because why the hell not have all the bedrooms connected, and that one Susan’s standing in front of in the screencap, I believe, leads to a bathroom. (to be clear, there are two doors in that screencap. one on the left that leads to the living room as mentioned before, and the one I’m talking about, behind her, which set designers have understandably tried to disguise as a closet.)

this is purely process of elimination, since the real estate photo I have of the bathroom does not show the door, does not have any windows, and doesn’t even remotely resemble the bathroom used in s3, but the only other bathroom space I was able to find in this house was off the dining room, which is definitely not big enough to hold a bath or shower. I may throw out all the reference photos of bathrooms I have if anyone is desperately curious, but for now in my head it’s just a general haze of ~a bathroom exists here~

anyway, from that right door let’s walk on into Neil and Susan’s tiny-ass bedroom.

this room is so comically small I’m amazed Billy didn’t get saddled with it, honestly, but if you want some headcanons about why he might not have, my go-to is that Neil /or Susan realized this bedroom was the best for any teen with a mind for mischief. while the windows are definitely not as ideal for climbing out of as Max and Billy’s are, if we take that door on the left we’re in the pantry (yes, the pantry. stay with me), and it’s a straight trip from there out the side door, and out to your smokin’ hot Camaro.

idk how sound that logic is, but it’s what I’ve got lol

But anyway, now we’ve reached the end of the house on one side, so I’m gonna take us back to the front living room and work our way back from there. here we’ve a quick glance at the other end of that fireplace, and another angle of how the front door and Billy’s door relate to each other:

the two parts of the living room are separated by this wide arch, and that further bit is where we see Billy’s weights and weight bench in s2. one could say that this is just normally where he keeps it, but my own personal hc is that they’re only there in s2 because the family just moved in, and that they later get moved to his room and the basement, leaving the living room more usable.

It’s hard to be 100% sure, but looking at these photos, particularly at the floor, I believe the second living room area is narrower (as shown in the floorplan sketch). It makes Max’s room make a little more sense size- and shape-wise, and it seems like all the pictures I have of this space confirm it.

anyway, the open door on the right of the second living room bit leads back into Max’s room, and through another arch we can see into the kitchen, and beyond that the dining room.

for some reason the only shots of the kitchen are taken from the back of the house looking forward, so try not to get dizzy as we spin around here.

as you can see we’re now pointed towards the living room, and on our left (towards the bedrooms) we see the doors to that pantry I mentioned earlier. I don’t have any photos of the inside of the pantry, alas. those would solve probably every question I have about the ground floor of this house. if you look closely they look like bi-fold doors to me, but they could just open inward.

we can also definitely tell that the wall on the left side of that arch is much shallower(?) than it is on the living room side, if that makes sense. essentially, these rooms on the left side of the house are getting narrower as they go on.

until the dining room! this room narrows a little on the right side, which you can see from exterior shots, but the pantry/bathroom weirdness in the middle of the house has definitely cleared out of the way to make room for dining here. we’ve also got two big-ass windows (comparatively), since going by the direction of the wood floors, the window on the left is not the same window as the one on the right.

and going by the existence of a window in that bathroom, we know this part of the house has three external-facing walls -- or however a professional would say that. (essentially, Susan and Neil’s bedroom can’t be overlapping the other side of the bathroom.)

we’ve been pretty low on storage space here so far, so that + the fact that the door in the corner looks nothing like a door to the outside + the fact that there’s a door to the outside literally on the other side of the room, gives me the conviction that this door is just into closet space. it could be a door to the basement, but we’ve seen the back of the house before and it doesn’t look like there’s enough space there for a whole other room full of staircase. observe:

not to mention Neil’s headlights are illuminating a perfectly good door to the basement right there, although idk shit about houses with basements. do they usually have two ways down if they’re built like this? I wouldn’t know, I live on a fault-line. we don’t do that shit here.

ANYWAY, that’s the house. somehow I feel like I’ve covered like way too much, and also not nearly enough, so do let me know if anything isn’t clear and I’ll try to fix it/do an additional post and link that. cause even if most of us are writing Billy living outside of Old Cherry Road/Cherry Lane at this point, this kind of shit is always handy to have around, at least imo?

#harringrove #billy hargrove #billy hargrove reference #stranger things reference #fanfic reference

[xueyangs-pinky-finger]

Ooh I have the cloud recesses as my phone background.

Are you vegetarian? I am (mostly). Meaning my family has always been vegetarian so that's how I grew up and now as an adult, I've tried some meat but only eat it in social situations with friends occassionally.

Oh yes the nightless city sky is soooo beautiful!! I noticed the same thing whenever I giffed the scene where lwj shouts Wei Ying!!!!!! as wwx falls 😈😈

I used to be a huge fan of Hannah Montana as a teenager! Were you?

I've almost escaped from essay hell! Just need to proofread and edit and then upload. Almost there 😅

And yes of course I'm trying to get more cellmates in thirsty jail. Spread the thirst! 🥵

I couldn't find the exact fic link I'd mentioned but I think it was this one? I'm not fully convinced since I think the summary I'd seen before had other stuff also mentioned but it wouldn't hurt to share this link anyway so: archiveofourown.org/works/26220175/chapters/63814693

What languages do you speak? Are you trying to learn any language right now? If not, is there any language which you wish you knew or that you've always wanted to learn?

A more random question: what do you look for when creating or customising your Tumblr theme? Are there any specific must-have features? Eg. For me, I need to have pagination and not infinite scroll. And I need tags to be visible and reblog+like buttons available immediately. And easy navigation links that I can customise. I'm kind of picky, lol!

oh you’ll have to show me which pic you used sometime! I think I got mine off of nsmgroup’s twitter~

yup yup, have been my whole life (minus one experimental phase when i was rly young that i don’t like to think about)! same, it’s how i was raised & my whole family’s vegetarian too~

i’m a sucker for a pretty sky~ whenever we get nice pink clouds here or anything i always gotta go out and take pics lol. (and how many times have you giffed it omg u masochist!!)

oh for sure! you know i watched disney channel and bought those albums, lmao. though it might’ve been more pre-teen era for me? but yeah i think my faves were hannah montana, wizards of waverly place, and suite life (i must’ve watched the original but i have more memories of suite life on deck since that came later)~ i also watched sonny with a chance and then so random after~ & i was rly into high school musical, ofc. <3 that’s probably one of the reasons i enjoyed julie and the phantoms so much, is bc it’s kenny ortega and it has hsm vibes~ we need more fun musical shows and movies, honestly…

ah yay! do you have a celebration planned for when you finish? 😄

tsk tsk tsk, your pro-thirst agenda never rests… 💜

oh damn, 73k… 😳 i’ll file that one away for later, lmao.

i’m a monolingual loser, unfortunately 😔 love the idea of speaking another language, lack the motivation to follow through (story of my life alkdf). all i’ve got is a few phrases in korean, thai, and chinese i can recognize from being into kpop and watching dramas. the language i want to learn rly depends on what i’m into at the moment, but right now it would be korean and chinese. chinese just seems sooo difficult tho; it scares me alkdf. korean i feel like isn’t that bad, just based on what i know so far~ that is always a goal i have in my mind tho, to at least open up duolingo every once in a while, i just haven’t been able to get serious about it. i think i’ve always been interested in languages, but aside from being forced to learn spanish in elementary school (of which i obtained 0 knowledge after 5-6 years; everybody disliked the teacher and no one learned anything lmao), and taking like one french class, i don’t think i ever rly had a particular language i wanted to learn until i got into kpop~ i definitely wish i’d managed to learn one when i was young, since i’ve heard it gets harder as you get older, especially when it comes to accurate pronunciation, but oh well…

ooh that’s a good question bc i just recently gave this blog a theme for the first time ever!! i think i agree with everything you mentioned~! actually here are my notes from when i was looking for a theme lol: “one column, probably not too narrow, not centered, but to the right with the side bar to the left of it. a side bar that’s more gif-heavy than words-heavy (i want to showcase a good-sized gif of xue yang + pinky there). probably not too colorful, but black and white, to go with the content/theme of my blog. not super fun & sunshine and rainbows-y, but not too boring and businesslike either. no infinite scrolling. search bar is a must (rip maybe i can add one TT).” i still haven’t figured out how to add a search bar, rip… it also depends on the vibe of the blog, like i love colorful themes but they don’t rly suit this url, lmao. but i’d love to use a more fun theme on my other side blog~

#mdzsnetcc #it's been so fun chatting with you this month! <33

[reddeadmort]

Arthur Morgan x f!Reader | Placeholder

Here you go anon! Possibly not as angsty as you might have hoped, but I couldn’t write Arthur as being too horrible/disloyal to the reader. To me, that ain’t him! A lot of Mary and Arthur’s dialogue is lifted from the game, but re-arranged/edited slightly to suit the story.

Also, having re-read the request after I wrote the fic, I realise I completely ignored the first bit - in this, the reader and Arthur have been together for a while already. My bad lol!

As per usual, I use italics for emphasis. Unfortunately, tumblr mobile view appears to be completely ignoring my formatting now, so it only looks exactly how I intended on web. *sigh*. It’s on AO3 too, which is far more respecting of my formatting.

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AO3 link

Guidance: Angst, but with a fluffy ending.

Words: 4.7k (there’s the reason this took so long, whoops) 

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“Mornin’ darlin.”

You were already half awake due to the sunlight streaming in through the window, but that familiar voice pulled you gently the rest of the way.

“Morning Arthur. Is that for me?” You nodded towards the cup of coffee in his hand.

“Of course.” Arthur smiled as he passed it to you. “I know there ain’t much chance of you movin’ before midday if you don’t have one.”

You gave a little chuckle as you took the cup. Arthur did know you well; though, to be fair, the horrendous suffocating heat here in Shady Belle didn’t allow you to sleep for particularly long anyway.

“I’m afraid I’m going to be away most of the day, Hosea’s asked me to ride up to Emerald ranch, apparently the fence up there might have somethin’ for us.” You could tell Arthur didn’t seem particularly happy about this; you assumed it was because he’d never been a big fan of the man.

“That’s okay Arthur” You smiled reassuringly at him. “I’ve got plenty of things to do helping out around here to keep me busy.”

Arthur stood up before leaning down to give you a kiss. You tried to pull him down onto the bed on top of you but he was ready, bracing himself against the wall.

“Nice try darlin’, but I best get goin'” he said, winking at you. You gave a mocked huff of annoyance before smiling and letting him go.

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Later that day, as you were riding into Saint-Denis, you were thinking about that morning and what you planned on cheering Arthur up with later that night. You did feel a bit bad about lying to him; you two had been together for a few years now and you very rarely kept anything from him. But what you had said was half true; you had spent most of that day helping the girls and Pearson out around camp. You just left out the bit where you were planning on going to rob a store.

Ever since the mess in Rhodes Arthur had been getting more protective, making a fuss anytime you tried to go out on a job or chase down a lead. You kind of understood; you hadn’t witnessed Sean’s death, but you knew it had hit Arthur hard. Still, everyone had to contribute to the gang, and stealing was what you were good at. Thankfully, Trelawney had done some sniffing around in Saint-Denis for you and come up with a few potential marks.

You hitched your horse before heading into the area where the store was, glancing in as you casually walked past before taking up position across the square. You leant against the wall, pulled your hat down over your face and started to pretend to read the newspaper. It was pretty near closing, so you were sure you wouldn’t have to wait too long before the shop owner left to go to the bank. You always felt a little bit bad about robbing stores; store owners weren’t exactly the wealthiest people, and other folk depended on the shop being around for their livelihoods too. But after the way Trelawney had told you this man had treated a lovely young black couple that tried to go into his shop, you had no regrets. You were going to make sure he knew exactly why you’d chosen him too, and hopefully ensure he never behaved that way again.

You’d been in position for around half an hour when you heard a familiar deep voice coming up the alleyway next to you. Arthur hadn’t said he was going to be in Saint-Denis, but then again neither had you; perhaps the lead from the Emerald Ranch fence had led him here.  

“Here, I got you your brooch back.”

You were about to lean around the corner, call out to him when you heard that he wasn’t alone.

“I won’t ask…” It was a woman’s voice… but not one of the camp girls. Maybe Arthur had found yet another unfortunate stranger to help? You smiled at the thought; your big, gruff, outlaw, always insisting he was a bad man, yet always willing to offer help to anyone that needed it.

“Probably best not Mary.” Mary. You froze, not daring to move. So that’s why he hadn’t mentioned Saint-Denis this morning. Because he knew how’d angry you be that once again, Mary was able to use him on a whim. You wished he didn’t go running whenever she called, but you’d tried to be understanding. They had history, and she didn’t have the easiest life what with her dad and being a widow. You trusted Arthur, but the idea of him seeing her without telling you made you nervous. As far as you were aware, he’d always been open about visiting her before…..

“Hey…. What are you doing now, right this moment?” Mary said.

“Why’d ya ask?”

“Well, I was wondering if you wanted to do something. Head to the theatre perhaps?”

You prayed Arthur said no. It was one thing, helping her out when her father or brother had got her or themselves into a mess, but seeing her for pleasure…. as much as you hated yourself for it, the thought of them enjoying time together made your chest hurt.

“Oh, Mary… I don’t think that’s a very good idea.”

“Sure, I understand. You’re still walking me to the trolley though?”

“Of course.”

Arthur, always the gentleman. They stepped out from the alleyway and you tipped your head down as far as you could, hiding under your hat, praying they went in the opposite direction. Luckily, they did, and after a brief moment you set off after them, all thoughts of shop robbery gone from your mind. You weren’t really sure why you were following them; you didn’t like Mary, but you trusted Arthur; so why was there this little niggle insisting you listen in on them…..

They walked in silence for a while, as you followed a little distance behind. It wasn’t long before they reached the tram stop. You edged around the building towards them and were so concentrating on straining your ears to hear anything they said that you didn’t notice the man walk in front of you out of the post office with the basket.

You knocked into the poor man, sending the contents flying. To your horror, Arthur started to turn to look at the commotion; your hat was pulled down low enough that he wouldn’t immediately be able to see your face, but surely he would recognise your clothes. Before he could do so, Mary grabbed at his arm, stopping him. Close enough to hear, you bent down and helped the man re-load his basket, apologising as quietly as possible.

“My life wasn’t supposed to….” Mary paused. “Is it too late for us Arthur?”

Those words made your blood run cold. How dare she. Though, you couldn’t be certain she even knew about you; Arthur had said he’d kept you out of his letters back to her, apparently in case they were intercepted by the Pinkertons, That was the reason he’d given you anyway; now you were starting to wonder if he had an ulterior motive. You stepped back into a doorway after you finished placating the man you’d knocked into.  

“Mary…. I told ya, I ain’t a free man. I’m wanted now.” Your fury turned to shock at Arthur’s words.

Is that it? Is that the only reason Arthur had stayed with you? Because the Pinkertons were after him, the gang, all of you? While he was ‘wanted’ he was happy to shack up with you, but if he wasn’t… there was obviously a much better option available.

Mary sighed, and as you glanced up appeared to be wiping away a tear. “Run away, Arthur. Run away right now and don’t look back.” She said as she grabbed his hands, pulling him towards her.

“I want to…more than anything, I want to. But, like I said, I’ve got some people I need to take care of. Once they’re free, then I’m free, then I can disappear.”

You could hear your racing heartbeat thundering in your ears. You wanted to scream, to step out from the doorway, to run at the pair of them… but you couldn’t. The overwhelming urge to be sick washed over you and you lurched backwards, into the small station/post office building and out the other side. You just made it through the doors before hurling all over the pavement. As you finished, you began to cry, ignoring the tutting from the nearby men and women. Without looking back you started running off towards the saloon where you’d hitched your horse.

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“Arthur…. I’ve really missed you, you know.” Mary grasped his hands in hers, pulling him towards her.

“I’ve missed you for a long time. But it’s done now.” Arthur pulled his hands away and patted Mary on the shoulder.

“Okay.” She looked down at the floor before once again gazing up into his face. “I wish somehow it weren’t”.

“Be well Mary” Arthur said before starting to walk away.

“I’ll write you” she called out after him.

Arthur stopped, but didn’t turn around.

“Sure” he replied before continuing to walk off.

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You didn’t ride straight back to camp; you couldn’t face the idea of making mundane small talk with the other gang members with these thoughts racing through your head. Instead, you headed towards the edge of the river, where you found a small area not overlooked by the road in which you could be alone.

You didn’t bother hitching your horse, instead letting it graze on the grass along the edge of the little stony beach. You walked down to the beach, picking up a few pebbles before starting to hurl them one by one into the water.

After all you done together, Arthur still wanted to run away with her? You felt so stupid for thinking, hoping, that Arthur would be any different from the other men that had come before him. You were obviously not interesting enough, not refined enough…. not womanly enough. You were a convenient placeholder; a body to keep his bed warm, to provide entertainment until he could go off and have a real life with a proper woman.

As you stepped forward to throw the last pebble into the water you accidentally kicked a rock, causing you to swear and hop on one foot. The pain was the last straw, and you started to cry, collapsing on the ground in a heap.

You thought about all those times you and Arthur had spoken about a life away from the gang; maybe a little ranch, somewhere quiet, potentially even a kid or two if it wasn’t too late. You thought Arthur had been describing a life with you; but no, he’d just been talking about the life he wanted to have with Mary when he eventually managed to convince her to join him.

You gave a little start when you heard the little huff in your ear and the warm breath on the back of your neck. You’d been so wrapped up in your own thoughts you hadn’t noticed your horse trot up behind you. He nuzzled your hair as you reached up to stroke his face, leaning your head against his. He always seemed to know when you were upset; either that or he wanted a treat.

You wiped away your tears and stood up, patting your horse on the neck.

“Come on then boy, let’s go back. I’ve got a feeling I’m going to be spending more time with you now.”

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The sun had pretty much set by the time you rode into Shady Belle. You would have stayed away longer, except you had no food with you and you weren’t in the mood to be ambushed by some idiotic Lemoyne Raiders.

You hitched your horse, thankful to see that Arthur was deep in conversation with Hosea in the little gazebo thing; you should be able to grab some stew without him seeing. You took your bedroll from your horse, hoping that Sadie wouldn’t ask too many questions if you requested that you sleep in her tent tonight. You’d much rather sleep in the house, but the idea of sleeping in the same room as Arthur made you feel slightly sick.

You grabbed a bowl of stew and hurried off to one of the shacks behind the main house. You were still an absolute mess of emotions. You were angry at Arthur, but also cross at yourself; you were stupid to think a relationship with an outlaw would ever work. The signs were all there; all those times he ran off whenever Mary called, never mentioning you in any letters. It was pretty much your fault you got hurt, you thought; you should never have let yourself believe the relationship was more than a bit of company for the pair of you.

“You alright darlin’?” Arthur’s voice made you leap up from where you were sitting, almost dropping your (thankfully empty) bowl and spoon. “I saw you come back into camp then pretty much run off over here. Somethin’ happened?”

“I’m…. I’m fine.” You hated the words as soon as they came out of your mouth. You absolutely weren’t fine, and you couldn’t avoid speaking to Arthur forever, but you were so full of emotions you didn’t even know where to begin. You really didn’t want to deal with this now.  

“Woman, I don’t believe ya. We’ve been over this before – I ain’t no mind reader. You’re goin’ to have to tell me what you’re thinkin’.” Arthur rested his hand on your shoulder and smiled down at you, his deep blue-green eyes making you melt, despite your overwhelming feelings of anger and betrayal.

“I don’t…..I can’t….. Oh for god’s sake.” You sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose. “Arthur, I was in Saint-Denis earlier. I know I said I wasn’t going anywhere today, but that was cause I was going to rob a shop and I know you don’t like me doin’ it on my own. But I went anyway.” The words flooded out of you as quickly as you could make them leave your mouth; this wasn’t going to be pleasant, you wanted it over and done with.

“Yeh that don’t surprise me” Arthur chuckled. He obviously just thought you felt bad for not telling him you were on a job. His laughter cut through you like a knife, bringing your rage to the surface once again.

“This ain’t funny Arthur. I saw you. I saw who you were with.”

Arthur’s expression changed very suddenly, becoming cold.

“Y/N, don’t start.”

How dare he. “It ain’t me that started anything!” You snapped back.

“I know ya don’t like Mary but….”

“No, I don’t Arthur” you cut him off. “I hate how she uses you, and her goddamn hold on ya. But right now, it ain’t her I’m mad at.”

“I’m sorry darlin’, I know I should have said something about going to see her… I don’t know why I didn’t.”

How did he manage to make it so hard to stay angry with him? You almost forgive him right then and there until those words made an unwelcome intrusion back into your mind. ‘I want to’. You were about to unleash on him, rip him a new one, but as you looked up into his concerned face you almost burst into tears.

Arthur saw the change in your expression and moved his hand towards your face to try and comfort you.

“Come on sweetheart, talk to me.”

“I don’t want to talk about it Arthur. Just leave me the hell alone.” You sighed and pushed past him, starting to walk away; maybe you’d be able to deal with this more easily with a good night’s sleep.

“Hey, darlin’, I promise ya, you’re my girl now. I feel nothin’ more than…….obligation to her.”

How dare he try and wriggle out of this, pretend he didn’t say that he wanted to be with her?! You tried to stay calm, to continue to walk away, but your surging rage got the better of you and you snapped back round to face him.

“Don’t lie to me Arthur, I heard you! I heard you tell her how if you weren’t a wanted man you’d run away with her. Is that all I am to you? The best option for the life you’ve got?” As you spoke, you stepped closer, practically spitting the words into Arthur’s face.

“Darlin’ that ain’t what I said.” Arthur’s face was still impassive; you couldn’t believe he was trying to wriggle out of this, to make you doubt yourself. Your anger was growing even further; even if he didn’t care about you, he could at least have the decency to tell you the truth.

“I ain’t stupid Arthur, I heard it with my own ears!”

Arthur was getting frustrated; your emotions were obviously too much of an inconvenience to him.

“Look, I know what I said and….” You didn’t let him finish his sentence before cutting him off. You had enough self-respect that you weren’t going to stand here and have him tell you that you were mistaken, it was your fault, you were being a silly over-reacting woman. It was the same thing you’d been told time and time again by men before, and did not want to hear it from him.

“I don’t want to hear another word Arthur! Now leave me alone before I kick you so hard you’ll be wearing your ass for a hat!”

As you stormed off Arthur threw his arms into the air in frustration, shouting after you.

“Well I guess that I don’t know what I know no more!”

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Arthur was pissed off, but he wasn’t too sure if he was more annoyed with himself or you. Why the hell wouldn’t you let him explain? And why were you so angry with him? He knew that he definitely didn’t say he wanted to run away with Mary. He’d spent half the morning telling Mary all about you and was not happy when she’d tried to start sweet talking him again.

He knew he should have told you another letter from Mary had arrived, but he’d promised you that the next time Mary appeared he’d take you with him, and he’d needed to meet up with her without you. Arthur patted the little box in his pocket; he hadn’t wanted to ask Mary for the ring back, but it was worth a lot of money.

He was so glad when he’d arrived at the little jeweller's shop to discover that the ring he’d seen a few weeks ago was still there; he was even happier when the jeweller agreed to trade for the old one. Given how easily the man agreed, Arthur suspected that he’d probably not done well out the deal, but he hadn’t cared.

He’d had it all planned out; where he was going to take you, what he was going to say. But now…. well what the hell was he supposed to do? How could he explain if you wouldn’t even talk to him? And how the hell could he explain without telling you why he had been there? This wasn’t something he wanted to ask you while you were angry.

Arthur sighed and kicked at one of the posts of the shack. Maybe Hosea would know what to do.

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Arthur had, rather sensibly, left you alone that evening. You’d heard a few whispers when you walked off to Sadie’s tent to sleep, but gave them little thought; the camp was used to Abigail and John’s arguing, another couple having a row wasn’t that newsworthy. You’d struggled to get to sleep, the heat and humidity seeming even worse outside the house; the fact that your brain wouldn’t shut up didn’t really help either.

When you woke up and headed over to the cooking fire, you groaned when you saw Arthur there; it looked like he was waiting for you. You decided to forego your morning cup of coffee and took off, quickly, to the edge of camp; maybe if it looked like you had somewhere to be he would leave you alone.

Unfortunately, you had no such luck. You were near the water when Arthur caught up with you, cup of coffee in hand.

“Thought you might like your coffee, sweetheart. After, do ya think we could talk?”

You span round, surprised at the speed at which the rage overcame you, and knocked the cup out of Arthur’s hand and onto the ground.  

“Arthur, I told ya, I don’t want to hear another word! I don’t want to be lied to.” You were so angry you practically spat the words at him.

“Darlin’, please, I’m begging ya!” Arthur looked like he was about to burst into tears. The sight quelled your rage slightly; you couldn’t stand to see him upset, even if he had hurt you.

“Arthur, what is there to talk about? Mary still wants you, and as soon as you can you will run away with her, disappear and have a normal life.” Arthur tried to interrupt but you held your hand up, shushing him. “I don’t blame you; we ain’t had a good time of it late, and Mary hasn’t been….tarnished…. by the things we do. I’m just disappointed that you dragged me along for these last couple of years, pretending you loved me, using me. I know I was an easy mark, what with my history with men and all, but it was cruel Arthur. I didn’t think you had it in you.”

Arthur look devastated at your words and took a moment to reply. “Sweetheart…. I’m sorry if what I said came across like that, but I promise ya, it wasn’t what I meant.” He was holding his hands up towards you, almost begging.

“Go on then, I’ll indulge you” you sighed. “What did you mean?”

Arthur was so glad you’d given him permission to try and explain he rattled out the next few sentences at an alarming rate. “I’d spent most of the morning telling Mary about ya. I spoke about our – mine and yours – plans, how as soon as we know the rest of ‘em are okay we will go off and have that little shack, maybe a few animals, maybe more… I was surprised when she asked about her and me, I got a little flustered.”

Surprised? He was surprised that the woman who he’d pined after all those years, that could get him to perform like a monkey on a whim, wanted him back? You always thought he wasn’t stupid, but here he was, trying to prove you wrong.

“You said you were a wanted man, Arthur. That’s all that’s keeping you from her, that’s all that’s ever kept you apart.”

“I am….. wanted….. sweetheart. By you. And it ain’t her I want to run away with.”

Shit. That was smooth. Though maybe….maybe he’s not lying? He didn’t actually say that he wanted to leave with Mary, or say that it wasn’t too late…. maybe you are over-reacting? Reading more into it because of the lies that have been spun to you in the past? You shook your head, an attempt to dislodge the rising self-doubt. No. Not again. You wouldn’t let yourself be manipulated, tricked.  

“Nice try Arthur, nice try. How long you been figuring that excuse out?”

“It ain’t a…..” Arthur sighed. “I should never have gone to see her darlin, I’m sorry. I should have told ya she was sniffin’ about again.”

“Well why did you?” You snapped at him, what good were feeble apologies now. “Why did you creep off behind my back to see her?”

“I can’t tell you darlin’….. not yet anyway.” Oh for god’s sake. Really? You were kind enough to give him an opportunity to explain, like he’d begged for, and he was flaking out?

“I’ve had enough. If you can’t tell me the whole truth now why the hell should I wait around for a time you deem fit? I’ve apparently been waiting and wasting the last few years so I ain’t doing that anymore.” You tried to move past Arthur back towards the camp but he moved in front of you.

“Please, sweetheart, just trust me, I don’t want to tell ya like this. I don’t think I could take it if I asked ya and it didn’t turn out like I’m hopin’.”

“What the hell are you on about?” You looked up into his face; he almost seemed panicky.

“I….Mary had….. I needed…..” Arthur stammered, leaving far too long between the words; he was obviously trying to think up another excuse, another lie.

“Oh for the love of god Arthur if it’s that damn difficult don’t bother.” You pushed past him and started to walk away.

“Ring. Mary still had the ring I gave her. I wanted….needed… it back.” You stopped in your tracks but didn’t turn around. “It is…it was…. worth quite a bit. I needed to sell it.” You spun around, angry again.

“Really, that’s what you couldn’t god damn tell me? That you needed money? We all need bloody money!”

“No darlin’, I needed money for a particular reason. For you.”

“I don’t need your money Arthur, I’m perfectly capable of looking after myself.”

“I know sweetheart, I know…. that’s why I’ve been so afraid to ask ya. I would have done it months ago, but I was afraid of what would happen if you didn’t like the idea.”

What the ever loving fuck is this man on about? And why the fuck is he starting to kneel down?

“Darlin’…” Arthur stammered, reaching for his pocket. “Will ya….will you…. be my wife?”

For that one moment, the entire world seemed to completely freeze. If it weren’t the most ridiculous thing, you would swear that birds actually froze in mid-air. You were in complete shock, staring down at Arthur, who had a pleading expression on his face. Your whole body was in turmoil; on one hand, your brain was still whizzing around on a rollercoaster of emotion, flitting between sadness, anger and confusion. On the other hand, your heart was screaming at you, making your chest physically hurt; the man you loved, adored, was standing in front of you, saying that he wanted to be with you for the rest of your life.

Arthur started to panic as the seconds ticked by without even a movement from you.

“I’m sorry darlin’, I shouldn’t have asked, not like this, I’ve ruined everything” he stuttered, trying to push the ring back in his pocket, almost dropping it in the process.

“Yes”. Your voice was barely louder than a whisper, and you heard your answer at the same time Arthur did.

“Darlin’, did ya..”

“YES!” This time was much louder, and you launched yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his neck, burying your face into his chest. Arthur threw his arms around you, squeezing you tight and slightly lifting you off the ground.

“God dammit darlin’ you had me worried there” he whispered into your ear as he set you back on the ground.

You pulled away slightly before hitting him on the chest, gently, but hard enough to release the last of the anger ebbing away.

“Well you shouldn’t have acted like such a damn fool!”

“Yeh, I know darlin’. You’ll have to get used to it though, ya stuck with me now” he grinned.

“We’ll be fools together sweetheart, like always.” Arthur smiled and kissed you, sliding his fingers into your hair, pulling you in by the back of your head. You felt all the stress of the last day melt away as your lips softly caressed his. Eventually, you broke apart again.  

“I’m still pissed at you though Arthur” you said, looking up at him sternly.

“I know sweetheart, I know. I’ll er… I’ll make it up to you later” he winked, before smiling and pulling you back in for another hug.

It was in that moment, with you nestled in his chest, listening to his heartbeat, him stroking your hair, that it finally hit you. You were going to be Arthur Morgan’s wife. Today had turned out to be a much better day than you expected.

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40 Questions — Meme for Fic Writers.

Thank you to @soniabigcheese @gumnut-logic @onereyofstarlight and Anon for the ASKS you sent my way. Since I wanted to answer in detail, I’ve had more than 1 question, and I’ve not had a lot of spare time today I thought I’d answer all in this one post…

So first up @soniabigcheese sent me: ‘How about ... 9 ... 15 and 19? Please.’

9: Which fic has been the hardest to write?

All have been challenging in their own individual ways. Yet, really thinking about it I’d have to say GONE. For various reasons – It was my first Thunderbirds Fanfic, the longest story I had ever written, at this point the one I’ve had to do the most planning and research, and finally because of the emotions that needed portraying. However, the elation at finally finishing the story was amazing and has certainly inspired me to continue.

15: If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose?

Oh my God, that would be amazing! I would definitely have to go for Bad Day (Virgil’s day keeps repeating. What will it take for it to end and a new one to begin?) I had so much fun writing this, it’s one that I’ve reread a few times since competing, and it still makes me giggle. I’m sure I’d be in stitches if I got to watch it on the big screen. Although due to some of the contents towards the final chapters it would definitely need a UK PG or 12A rating.

19:  Stephen King once said that his muse is a man who lives in the basement. Do you have a muse?

For Thunderbirds fanfiction my muse is definitely Virgil, The-Virg, It’s definitely his creativity and those eyes, plus that mouth, also those eyebrows, and his muscles… Sorry getting distracted – Actually, thinking about it, Virgil’s more of a distraction than a muse. Especially with my new mobile screensaver which I keep staring at.

Okay, back to the question. I don’t think I’ve got a muse – just a little voice in my head that won’t shut up when I have a story idea until I’ve written it down.

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Next we have @gumnut-logic who asked: ‘Writer meme question thingy - 1 & 12.’

1: Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic.

I always seem to revert to the family dynamics rather than a full-on rescue story (which is probably why I’m struggling with two of my fics which need to  have rescue bits written in) Basically, I love to go deeper into the descriptions of the physical/emotional whump, and how the family deal with the situation (hidden feelings, tempers, how they bond) during and afterwards.

12: Is there an episode above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?

Yes, for both TOS and TAG.

The original series: There’s a few – Terror In New York City (Yep, the beginning in particular) The Perils of Penelope, Sun Probe, The Uninvited, Edge Of Impact. After thinking long and hard to narrow it down I’d have to say that while Terror In New York’s my favourite. The Perils of Penelope inspired my naughty fic The Night of Anderbad (Penelope & Virgil pairing) plus the idea of Virgil having a secret crush on her in later chapters of The Tracy Family and a few other one of fics.

TAG: There are a few earlier ones which have inspired fics – Grandma Tourismo, Flame Out, Hyperspeed, SOS pt. 2, Signals pt. 1, Upside Down. There are probably others and these last few episodes have been really inspiring. However, I think I would definitely have to go for the more recent SOS Pt 1 & 2 and Signals Pt 1 & 2. (I’m sure the finale of Season 3 may change this answer)

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Third we have @onereyofstarlight who asked: ‘2 and 37 for the ask meme.’

2: Is there a trope you’ve yet to try your hand at, but really want to?

Yes, I would like to have a go at Were Virgil at some point. Also, would like to try doing the boys ages differently to see how the dynamics changed – Alan as the eldest, next in line is Gordon, then Scott in the middle with John then Virgil as the youngest.

37: Talk about your current wips.

Lol, I have a few so this could take a while :D

I will start with ones that I’ve posted on FF.Net & A03 (Probably also shared them here at some point.

1. Avalanche: TAG.

This story began as a prompt that suggested a story that begins and ends with the same line but the meaning/feeling of the line changes. I started it with the intention of writing just 1 chapter …hahaha… of course I ended the story on a cliff-hanger and couldn’t leave it there, so it’s been continued and I’m so glad I did because I personally feel it is nearing the top of my best written list. The story itself is set when the boys are just children and focuses on the tragedy of the Avalanche and the emotional repercussions. I’ve just reached chapter 14, and probably have another 2-4 chapters left.

2. Lucille: TAG

Synopsis - A story about the unseen woman who watches over International Rescue."I am a wife, I am a mother, and I am the one who watches over International Rescue, making sure I am there to catch them whenever they fall. My name is Lucille Tracy and this, well this is my story!"

A story told through the eyes of the boy’s mother. This is one that I keep stopping and starting, most likely because I hadn’t planned it out. It’s currently on-hold until I finish some others, but I will complete it.

3. The Games: AU - Thunderbirds Are Go mixed with the concept of the Hunger Games. (Although, only Thunderbirds characters will make an appearance)

Here’s my synopsis - Climate change, famine, war. In the end another major war lead to the richest creating the Global Defence Force and 'order' was restored. To celebrate and keep control the Hunger Games were created. This was the 100th games.

The fic started from the Whumptober Prompts and I decided to continue it, wrote half of the 2nd chapter then promptly forgot about it. I’ve recently been looking at this again and have started to reread The Hunger Games for inspiration. However, like Lucille this fic is currently on hold.

4. Virgil Drabbles: TAG.

Started out as a challenge to see how much I could get across in just 100 words. All chapters are based around the lovely Virgil - TAG (but with him being the middle child – started before the Grandma Tourismo episode and apart from a few fics where I write it the other way around I prefer it this way)

The story starts from Virgil’s birth and I’ve now got him attending Denver. I still have a fair few chapters to write but the rest is now all planned out.

5. Reflections: TOS.

Set after Virgil's crash during the Season 1 episode 4 of 'Terror in New York City.' Short reflections from each of the family on nearly losing a brother and son. (Previously Titled, Fallen Brother)

I had always wanted to write something based on my favourite TOS episode. Then Shane Rimmer passed away and this was inspired. Slow updates on this one but I’ve finished telling myself the story just need to edit/rewrite that into something coherent.

And now we’re onto the ones that I may have posted snippets for or just 1 section for on here, but nothing officially posted as yet.

1. Two Untitled Prompts: TAG.

Both prompts were given to me at the end of November and I actually wrote out both (Plotting, thoughts, and telling myself bits of the story) Then December knocked me sideways and my writing suffered. Back to working on these 2 again now and really enjoying them. Without giving to much away, the one features a heart-broken Alan and the other (which with Avalanche is at the top of my pile) features Virgil having a day from hell with added whump.

2. Two Whumptober Fics: TAG.

Posted 1 or 2 chapters for each of these back in October and decided that they could possibly be extended/completed before posting. (All short fics)

The first one is titled Coffee Shot: Virgil gets shot in a café and emotions will run high. Fully planned out but decided to finish some others before I continue working on this.

The second is currently titled Ransom and is set when the guys are children. Scott and Virgil get kidnapped – Only done some basic plotting for this and it’s currently towards the bottom of my WIP pile.

The third is untitled and at the moment my word file is saved under the imaginative title of ‘Virgil Whump’ (Posted 1 snippet that I wrote in 15 mins at the beginning of October then left it because of other projects) In this one the guys are all extremely busy with call-outs and Virgil needs to go to a rescue on his own that involves Fischler. Unfortunately he ends up getting trapped, injured, and because its Fischler left on his own. Fully planned out.

3. Working Title – Shattered Hope. TAG

A story idea that came to me over a year ago, written some short bits, planned out most of the story but because of one small element I need to wait until TAG Season 3 finishes.

Here’s a bit from it that did get shared to Tumblr…

‘How had it come to this?’

Just a short time ago they’d been happy, enjoying some rare downtime in the sun, five brothers together. It shouldn’t be like this… With him cradling one brother who was bleeding from a bullet wound after saving the youngest from certain death. The other two close-by. One with a dislocated shoulder, the other with a broken leg, he himself had a stab wound to his arm... All of them with numerous other injuries… Beaten, bloodied, bruised… And praying that someone would rescue them!

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Fourth we have anonymous who asked for ’35, 38 and 39.’

35: Would you ever kill off a canon character?

I’ve killed poor Scott off a few times HERE ... HERE and another time as an old man where Virgil also got killed off. (The fic scarred me – But, at the same time I think it’s the best short I’ve written - It’s called White Light if you want to give it a read)

I’ve not killed any of the others yet, and I keep telling myself that I won’t do it again, but it will probably happen again at some point…

39: Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them? 

I’ve had a couple, but they are usually anonymous ones. I normally just delete them and move on because people like that have nothing better to do and are not worth any upset. But if it does affect my confidence then I’ll reread a couple of nicer comments, then when I’m ready I’ll continue writing. I think there was only one that really knocked me for six and that was an anonymous rant on my Bad Day fic because I’d dared to pair up Virgil and Brains. (I’m sure you can imagine the content)

38: Talk about a review that made your day.

Even though 38 comes before 39 I wanted to save this one for last.

Every single comment I’ve ever got. No matter how short or detailed has brought a smile to my face and helped inspire me to continue writing – If I had to single out one then it would actually be a private message that was sent to my Fanfiction.Net inbox. It was over 2 years ago and unfortunately I can’t find the message now but whoever sent it to me said that they’d loved my Fics, in particular Gone which they had read several times and that I was their favourite writer. I was beaming for weeks afterwards.

So, whoever you were thank you - and to all who comment, re-blog, like or kudos my stories. Thank you from the bottom of my heart… Seriously you all make this fandom such a lovely place to be!

All my current posted fics and their status can be found via my: Thunderbirds Fanfiction Masterlist 

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2019 year in review

So… The 2010’s are almost over. Huh. What a decade it’s been. Hard to comprehend how much has changed in 10 years. I can barely believe that I was in high school at the beginning of this decade, and now I’m a college graduate with 2 degrees who’s been working at the same job for the last 3 years. But trying to summarize the past 10 years in a single post is a good way to give myself an existential crisis, so let’s not do that! Instead, let’s just focus on 2019 because there has been more than enough shit that’s happened to me in this year to talk about.

PART 1 OF 2: 2019 AND 2020 GOALS AND RESOLUTIONS

Huh, looking back through my archives, I apparently didn’t make a tumblr post about my goals this year. I definitely had some, though. Lemme list ‘em off real quick, and then we’ll go through them point by point.

1)      Pay off all my student loans 2)      Finish some song comics 3)      Make art for my Redbubble account 4)      Finish the first rough draft/script of a game I wanted to make 5)      Practice ASL 6)      Sew some stuffed animals 7)      Finish some fan fictions 8)      Work on Ghost Switch 9)      AMVs 10)   Do some original writing 11)   Make illustrations for my fan fictions

Okay, first off, the student loans. I was actually SO CLOSE to successfully completing this one bUT THEN MY CAR HAD TO BE A WHINEY PISS BABY AND HAVE ITS ALTERNATOR DIE ON ME WHILE I WAS ON THE HIGHWAY AND THEN A BLOW OUT THREE WEEKS LATER.

GOD, if I had to summarize this year in two words, for me it would be “Car troubles”. I swear I spent more on auto repair in the first third of this year than I ever have just freakin’ OWNING a car. All four of my tires had to be replaced, my alternator failed and my car literally just SHUT OFF while I was driving, and I was barely able to coast into a gas station. Both my front breaks and rear breaks were worn down the metal and I only learned this when my car was barely able to stop after I had to slam the petal down full force!  I went in for an oil change, and they found some problems and then I didn’t get my car back for three days! I don’t even like owning a car! I hate driving! I hate my country’s refusal to provide universal, free public transportation! I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!

Oh-kay… number 2. Finish some song comics. I didn’t finish any. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t work on them. I have made tiny progress, but that’s certainly better than no progress. One of these song comics I hope to be realizes is going to be a collab with one of my friends. It’ll be a long-time coming as it’s pretty low priority for the both of us, but if anyone else out there was disappointed with KH3’s ending, we’re gonna have ya’ covered… With SONG!

3. Make some redbubble art. I actually did this one! Not in the way I expected, but I added (technically) 3 new designs to my redbubble in the middle of the year. If you like butterflies and dragons, I got some product for you~!

Number 4, finish a script for a game I want to make. I… thought about this. I thought about this a lot, but I never put pen to paper, so… oops. It almost happened! I debated making this my main writing project for NaNoWriMo this year, but ended up having more inspiration for another story. Maybe next year? (god, I hope not. I don’t want to wait a full year just to write something)

Number 5, practice ASL. I just straight up didn’t do this and I only have myself to blame. Still keepin’ up that Danish Duolingo streak, though. 4 years going strong and not a day missed yet.

Number 6, sew some stuffed animals. Again, another one I just straight up didn’t do, but I have an excuse of trying to save money while my car crashed and burned in every other sense except literal this year. Hopefully 2020 will be different. I’ll definitely be able to pay off this last loan within the first half of 2020, and then I can start saving for whatever I want to buy.

Finish some fan fictions was number 7, and I did this! Well, I only finished, 1, but it was a story I’ve been working on for over 3 years, and it came out to over 200 THOUSAND words long, which is the longest thing I��ve ever written, and I’m quite proud of myself. Now that the big story is out of the way, and I’ve gotten into a good rhythm of working on Ghost Switch, maybe I can squeeze in some short writing sessions more frequently. (either that, or just wait for my car to break down again and then go on a writing spree in a pepboys. The lord and the fan fic discord know that’s solely why I finished my other fic this year)

Speaking of Ghost Switch, working on it was a goal this year too, and I did that! I kept it up all year and took a vacation in November and it was wonderful. While the major plot points have been in place since before I started drawing, I still need to script each arc beyond Snowdin, but hey, by the time we get there, it’ll be 2022 so I got time. (Note, don’t do this, kids. Script your stories and comics thoroughly before publishing. The road I’m on is paved with misery and pain and it will only end in tears unless I change lanes soon)

Number 9, amvs. Do people make AMVs anymore? Idk… the last one I made was... Jesus, 5 years ago? (it was a gravity falls/fall out boy crossover, if you were curious) I’ve been wanting to do 2 more for just as long, but in order for me to do that, I’d have to spend time re-watching the shows to find the footage, and then actually edit them together, and I just don’t…. feel like it. Maybe someday, but not any day soon.

10; do some original writing. I did this! For nanowrimo! I wrote the first draft of some original fiction I’ve been planning for a year or two now and it completely sucks! But it’s on paper now and I’m happy. Will I revise and edit it? Sure, but not for a while. I want to let it sit and forget about it and look at it with new eyes months from now so I can be sure I can make it better when time comes to rewrite.

11, make illustrations for my fan fics. Now that You Monster is done, I want to go back and add pictures to it. I didn’t do any this year, but I did keep a list of scenes I wanted to draw, so I have plenty of ideas to do as warm up sketches next year~ I kinda want to stream them~

So, that was 11 goals, and I successfully fulfilled 4 of them! That’s! Not a very good ratio… QmQ So, goals for 2020. Some I’m gonna keep from this year, some I’m gonna drop and some I’m gonna add. In short I would like to,

1)      Finish paying off that last student loan 2)      Put more stuff on my redbubble 3)      Illustrate my own fan fics 4)      Sew at least one stuffed animal 5)      Make an enamel pin 6)      Read one new book a month 7)      Write one page a day/Complete at least one new fan fic 8)      Learn Python or C# for the game I want to make 9)      Finish fully scripting Ghost Switch 10)   Boost my patreon

Most of these I think are pretty self-explanitory, but I’ll go into detail just a bit because I’m on a roll and typing my thoughts helps me feel less alone in the middle of the night when you’re super tired and you know you should probably go to sleep, but the toddler in you is throwing a tantrum and doesn’t wanna go to sleep just yet, but you can’t fight the progression of time either way.

Number 1- I should be able to reach this goal by the end of March. End of June at the absolute latest. Once that goal is met, my secret new year’s resolution will be unlocked as well!

Number 2- I want to put more art of my OCs on redbubble. These OCs are tied to the game I want to make. There’s already some art of them up there, but I want at least one piece for each character.

Number 3- Mostly for You Monster. Embrace the cardinal rule of fan fic and apply it to fan art. If you want to read about see art about certain ideas, scenarios, or what-ifs, you gotta make it yourself.

Number 4- I have 3 potential ideas to sew. One is definitely leagues easier than the other two and will probably be chosen if/when I have the time and materials.

Number 5- This year I got really, REALLY into the idea of making enamel pins. Unfortunately it’s a pretty big investment (like, $350 to make 100 pins you  might not even sell). If this happens, it’ll probably be towards the end of the year, and if I get enough interest. I’m currently torn between making an original enamel pin and one based off Undertale. We’ll just have to see where this goes.

Number 6- Back in 2018 when I paid off one of my many student loans, I rewarded myself by spending over 200 dollars in used books. All these books had a theme; they were focused on dragons because I have a problem. I have not yet read a single one of these books I have bought, and I would like to fix that. I have, like, 20 unread dragon books, and even if I only read 12 out of 20, I would consider that an amazing accomplishment and money well spent.

Number 7- I currently have about 8 different WIPs I could work on. (well, I don’t know if I can even call them wips. More like, a general idea and a title written down.) I want to build good writing habits, and if I can write just 200 words a day, hell, even 200 words a week and just one of my 8 stories done, I would consider this goal met.

Number 8- I’m torn between making my game in unity or ren’py. I know jack shit about both. Ren’py is more user friendly, but unity will allow me more customization. (Lol, can you guess what kind of game I want to make yet?)

Number  9- I really just want the full story to be done and written incase anything goes horribly terribly wrong in my life and I find myself unable to continue making ghost switch in comic form. Then at least I can finish the story by other means, you know?

Number 10- It always surprises me every month when I get that patreon email saying I got paid. Sure, I don’t even make double digits on it, but it still awes me enough to know that people out there like my work enough to throw me a tip. I can’t thank my patrons enough for supporting me and I hope to one day be in such a good place I can update my comic/song comics/writing frequently enough without need for goals or milestones. But until that magical day arrives, money is always a great incentive for anything, I suppose. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 ALRIGHT. PART 2 OF 2: SHIT THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN 2019

Cheesus crust what a year. This year started off great! Back in late January Kingdom Hearts 3 FINALLY released, and let me tell you a little story. Back in the summer of 2006 I was a 13 year old middle schooler with no way of making money other than by doing house hold chores at a rate of 25 cents a task. A few weeks ago, I had a sleep over at a friend’s house and they let me play this weird game called “Kingdom Hearts” and god, I was instantly hooked on it. That summer, I did over 800 chores, enough to earn myself 200$ and buy myself a playstation 2 (just in time for the ps3 to come out, gg me) The only games I had for the ps2 were KH1, 2, Re:CoM and Okami, and I beat them all… except Okami. Miffed that the PS3 wouldn’t allow for backwards compatibility, little 13-year-old me made a promise. I looked myself in the mirror and said “I will not buy the next playstation console until KH3 comes out, AND BOY that was probably a good choice for me to make with my level of gaming. I’m even less of a casual gamer than the average casual gamer, but I have been waiting 13 years for this piece of closure, and I even told my friends and family that “the day Kingdom Hearts 3 comes out is the day I will buy a playstation 4”. My dad apparently thought this was the funniest shit, because he literally took the day off from work that Friday to drive me on base to get the game and console (he thought it would be less crowded than a regular walmart, I suppose). I paid $400 on a ps4 pro while he bought me the game. Again, I have an impecible sense of timing seeing as the PS5 is now right on the horrizion, but just like before, I’m not buying a new console until the next KH game is released. See you in 2045, sony~. While I was at the gamestop on base, I also picked up Okami HD and The Last Guardian. For all of February and even early March, I took my time playing through KH3. And…! It was the best disappointment I’ve ever played. After a month away from gaming, I started The Last Guardian and finished it in a couple weeks. I love trico and would die for him, but trying to get 100% completion on that game is udder insanity. Okami, HD, however… again after a month break after finishing TLG, I started replaying Okami. I think I had only managed to get about halfway through the game before I just… stopped playing it on my ps2 version. I am currently SO CLOSE to getting a 100% on the ps4 version. In fact, I’ve beaten the game. I only (techinically) need 2 more trophies to be done; 1st, escape the water dragon without being eaten, 2nd, I need to beat that dumb stupid race with Kai, in order to get the last bead on my rosary, as well as the top dog trophy. I hate her so much. I hate this race so much. It’s awful and bad.

Flash forward to December! Earlier this month I was at Barnes and Noble, buying myself a planner for 2020. I exit the store and notice that there’s a gamestop across the street. For shits and giggles I go inside to look at their game selection, and I find KH 1.5 and 2.5. Now, my PS2 died a few years back (it just won’t read my discs anymore, I don’t know why) and I haven’t been able to replay any of my other kingdom hearts games since. If you had seen me the day I finished kingdom hearts 3, after the ending credits rolled, you would have heard me say “Man…. I wish I could play kingdom hearts 2 again”. AND NOW I CAN, ALONG WITH BBS which I had never even played yet, but knew the story of. I’ve restarted playing kh1, and I was so happy to hear that familiar music when I booted the game up for the first time. While at the game stop, I also picked up Rime and Tearaway, two games that had looked interesting to me. At the time of writing, I’ve finished Rime and am 25% done with tearaway. Rime was…. An interesting experience. I learned about it through Jacksepticeye’s channel a couple years back and thought the art style was enticing. For a super casual gamer like me, I found the puzzles just the right level of challenging and exploring was a blast! The music gave me VERY strong Princes Mononoke vibes, but the overall story left something to be desired. Overall I had fun, and enjoyed completing this game to 100%. Now for tearaway. Can I just say this game is super fucking adorable? I know the original was on the ps vita and the gameplay there was arguably more diverse and imaginative, but this game is just so fucking cute I don’t care?? ALSO, this game’s sound track is ABSOLUTELY incredible and I’ve only heard the first fourth of it! Listen to The Orchards, Pig Riding, and Gibbet Hill Pilgrimage for a taste of their wonderful beats and fantastic use of string and woodwinds! God, I’m so excited to get some more games in 2020. I’m proud to say I currently own more ps4 games than I ever did with my ps2 (and now the majority AREN’T Kingdom Hearts titles!), and I’m still hoping to play Journey, The Witness, and Abzu before everything becomes ps5.

What else happened to me this year. Oh, I went to a doctor for, like, the first time in seven years. I also had my blood drawn for the first time ever, and the nurse said the most disturbing thing to me while she did it. Now, whenever I get shots, I refuse to look. I did that here. So she thought it would be appropriate to say to me “Can you feel your blood leaving your body?” Lady… You can clearly see I am uncomfortable with what is happening here. Why, of all the things you could say, did you choose to say that. Unfortunately, while my doctor is nice, she keeps wanting to run tests on me, that I just cannot afford with my current salary, and my monthly insurance is about to go up to 200$ a month, so I’ve cancelled my next appointment with them, and don’t plan to go back until it’s absolutely necessary. Capitalism is fun, guys. Preventative healthcare is for wusses.

I started going to a chiropractor on a monthly basis. Story time- I don’t know when it started, but sometime late last November I began to notice that I had a headache that just... wasn’t... going away? And each day it was starting to get a little worse. It made it hard for me to find a comfortable position to sleep, it made it hard for me to be in bright areas or move fast. So I said to myself “Okay, if this headache persist through the month of december, then something is proooobably wrong and I should go see someone about it. And hoo-boy were thing wrong with me. By the time this January rolled around, I couldn’t even stay on my feet for more than a few hours without it physically hurting to just BREATHE. So I started going to this chain called The Joint (A+ name, I know). THey aksed me “How are you doing?” I said “I’m in pain” and they said “We can help fix that!”. I’ve only been to a chiropractor once before in my life a few years back after my freshmen year of college because I began to notice my hips weren’t able to support me? LIke, I would lie on my back, and I couldn’t push my hips up when my feet were flat on the floor. I also couldn’t climb anything steep, because my legs just couldn’t push me up if my knee had to bend more than 90 degrees when I lifted my leg up. (Turned out both my hips were apparently out of place). This time only one of my hips were out of place (which they fixed. they said one of my legs was an inch “longer” than the other because I had been leaning all my weight on one leg when I stand). But two of my ribs were apparently “Stuck” which was why it was hurting for me to just breathe, and one of my shoulders was missaligned too, causing one of my trap muscles to constantly be streched, which was pulling on my skull, and causing the headache. Anyway, after they popped all my bones back into place, I still felt terrible, but by god, that night was the first time in weeks I was able to sleep without a migrane. A chiropractor can’t magically heal your arthritis, or fibro, but I definately think they have merit to keeping your posture good and helping your body with things like circulation. 10 outa 10, would recomend. It’s all the fun of getting your neck snapped without the dying!

Earlier this month I got together with two of my friends and we baked Christmas cookies. It was a lot of fun, as well as a great learning experience. A member of my family has a gluten allergy, so we used rice flour for most of the cookies. We learned this is a bad idea! The cookies will just fall apart! A few member’s in one of the friend’s family have nut allergies. Other friend and I knew this and were careful to avoid cookie recipes with nuts, bUT THEN COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT ALMOND MILK AND ALMOND EXTRACT COUNT AS NUT. IN FACT, ALMOND EXTRACT IS PURE CONCENTRATED NUT JUICE AND WE FELT SO BAD FOR ALMOST ACCIDENTALLY POISONING THE FAMILY.

Earlier this year me and these same friends took a field trip to Hobby Lobby and just dicked around the store for a couple of hours. It was super fun, 11 outa 10, would recommend, a great date idea for your artsy S.O.

Back in May I went to a wedding for the first time in my life. (well, not true, but the first one I could remember) we left at 5am, drove 5 hours to get there, hung out at a zoo and spent the night in a la quinta before the wedding day. I slept on the bathroom floor because my mom was snoring too loud in the main room and keeping me awake, and the rest of the day was just spent me trying to keep myself together because I was pissed off and tired.

Other than all of that, nothing really major happened to me this year. I guess one more thing I’ve tried to do this year is started the process of breaking certain internet addictions so I can use my free time for more personal projects. Seriously, I found myself watching way too much youtube and following blogs that didn’t even make me happy. I had a personal intervention with myself where I sat down and asked myself, “why do you watch these videos and youtubers? Why do you follow these blogs? Do you really enjoy their content? Do you really care? If you stopped watching/following them, would you even notice?” After critically thinking it over, I’ve found myself unfollowing several channels and blogs and suddenly I feel so much happier. I thought I would miss it, but I realized I didn’t really care if I saw their content or not. I wasn’t missing much. And now I feel like I have more time to draw, read and write. If you think you spend too much time consuming and not enough time creating, I suggest you try and de-clutter your internet habits as well. It’s done wonders to un-fuck my headspace.

And… well, that about sums up my year. How are your holidays going? Anything fun, exciting, dramatic happen to you this year? I hope your new year is warm and safe! Good night, everybody!

#new year's resolutions #year in review #long post #(seriiously this think is like 3k words)

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Migraine

A/n: WHATS THIS??? NeW CoNteNT??? hey I tried. Be proud of me. Anyways, I found this prompt from @writting.prompt.s on Instagram and immediately thought Jason Todd. So here we are (I’m sure they have a tumblr but I can’t find it at the moment. Maybe I’ll edit it later)

Word count: including the ones you just read, like 3k

Warnings: none it’s just lowkey kinda shitty lol is weak plotline a warning? No? Maybe knives, but that’s it

Pairing: Jason Todd x reader

Genre: badass fluff I guess

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You, a telepath, are getting the worst migraines from someone internally screaming next door.

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Usually you could tune it out. You almost never heard anyone unless you wanted to. But this idiot, this inconsiderate little shit, had been screaming for nearly three days straight. Not out loud, mind you. Internal screaming. Being telepathic, you had no choice but to listen in on his constant screams. (You could tell it was a he because occasionally he would drop out of his screaming to yell-rant about his father, Bruce. Bruce sounded like a little shit too.)

Today was day three of the scream fest. You’d tried to block it out with music or watching tv, but the only reprieve you’d gotten so far was when you went to the store yesterday. Unfortunately, right now you worked from home. Meaning there was no break. He just. Kept. Screaming.

You rolled your eyes and slammed your laptop shut as he burst into another round of screams, this time about his brother. You groaned, stood up, and made a beeline for the door, ready to go complain to the landlord. The only thing that stopped you was the realization that you couldn’t complain about another resident screaming if, well, he actually wasn’t. Internal screaming wouldn’t get him in trouble, but it would probably get you thrown into some madhouse faster than you can say ‘Gotham.’

You groaned loudly as you shuffled toward your small kitchen, ready to make some coffee, put in some earplugs (which were more or less inefficient, but hey, placebo effect, right?) and try to work some more. You grimaced as he went from screaming to scream-talking. You already had a splitting headache, and it was about to become a migraine.

You got the water ready before suddenly realizing you’d forgotten to buy coffee yesterday at the store.

“Thank the freaking Batman,” you mumbled, heading for your room so you could get ready to go out. If you had to get coffee (aka get a break from Mr. Scream-a-Lot) you were also gonna find yourself a slightly-less dangerous park and hangout for a few...hours, maybe.

It was warm today. Not ‘big-city-humid’ warm, the nice kind that let you enjoy the day. Humming to yourself, mostly to keep your neighbors screams out of your head, you picked out a sundress, some flats, and your leather jacket. It made a good hiding place for your mace, which you always kept with you when you went out. Finally, you slid your garter up your leg, under your dress, and clipped your switchblade to it.

Hey, a girls gotta have protection.

Once you were dressed, you did your hair and a little makeup, excited at the prospect of getting out of your apartment for a while.

You grabbed enough money for coffee and stuck it in your inside jacket pocket before heading out.

‘Bye bye, Mr Screaming Man,’ you thought snarkily, locking your apartment behind your and bounding down the stairs of your building.

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You’d managed to stay out of the house for almost three hours. Your telepathy was extra helpful in Gotham. If you payed attention, you knew exactly who to avoid and which streets were safe to walk. It made for a nice day out, and your headache was almost gone by the time you got back to your building. Regardless of special powers, Gotham was dangerous at night, and the daylight was starting to fade.

Your steps got slower the closer you got to your apartment. You did not want to deal with this guy again. You should charge him a therapy fee for listening to his rants and screams. The thought made you chuckle.

You punched it the number for your building and waited to get buzzed in before heading up the stairs to your floor.

Turning the corner, you collided with a human wall, sending you flying backwards.

“Woah!”

A hand wrapped itself around your wrist, stopping you before you could hit the floor. You looked up to see a very attractive, very tall boy. Black hair with a white strip, and eyes like sea glass.

“Sorry about that,” he apologized quickly, helping you back up. “I’m usually more aware of my surroundings.”

You couldn’t place his voice, but he sounded familiar.

“It’s fine, really.” You fixed your dress, noticing it had ridden up and exposed part of your garter. You prayed he hadn’t seen it and been freaked out, quickly trying to distract him with questions.

“You’re my neighbor, right? You seem familiar.” You tried not to make a big deal about the fact that he was still holding your wrist, but your eyes flicked back and forth between your hands and his face.

“Yeah, my names Jason. I moved in a few months ago.” He seemed to finally notice his hand on yours and quickly pulled back. You couldn’t help but listen in on his thoughts.

‘Don’t be and idiot, Todd. Why’d you keep your hand on her? She probably thinks you’re creepy now. And she’s cute. And hot. Dammit, idiot.’

You pulled out of his head before you started laughing. At least you knew he thought you were cute.

“Well, Jason, it was nice, if not unconventional, meeting you. I’ll see you around,” You flashed him a smile and stepped around him, heading toward your door.

“Hey, wait!” He called after you. You turned back to see him awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck.

‘Wait...what was I gonna say? Oh, yeah, ask her on a date! Wait, no, I can’t do that she’ll say no-‘

“Jason, do you wanna go get coffee sometime? Like a date?” You watched in mild amusement as his cheeks turned a light pink color. He crossed and uncrossed his arms twice before answering.

“I mean..- yeah! Yes. Yeah, I’d love to!”

‘Come on, Todd, where’s your confidence? A pretty girl asks you out and you can’t even answer her!’

“Great!” You smiled as though you hadn’t just heard him beat himself up internally. “Meet me out here tomorrow at ten. Try not to run into me,” you teased, turning back toward your door and unlocking it.

“Yeah, um, no I- I won’t.” He awkwardly replied, face an even deeper shade of pink.

“See ya then, cute neighbor.” You called, seeing him a flirty wink before stepping into your house and shutting the door. You stood behind it, listening in on his thoughts for a moment.

‘What the hell just happened? What- what just...wow, I need some caffeine....’

You laughed quietly, heading toward your kitchen to make yourself some coffee. Something about his voice sounds so familiar, but you cant quite place it.

——Jason’s POV—-

I’ll be the first to admit I was angry. Bruce was giving me more missions and longer hours than I wanted, and I’ve spent the last three days staying home and being pissed about it. So when I went to make lunch today I realized I have no groceries. At all. I have half a redbull and a jar of mayonnaise in my fridge. Not ideal for, ya know, actually sustaining yourself. I meant to go to the store, but I ended up crashing on the couch and waking up around four. After a very necessary shower and a change of clothes, I was ready to go find something adult-like to eat.

I tugged on my boots, grabbed my phone and jacket, and headed out. I didn’t make it far before my phone chimed. Bruce. I rolled my eyes and pulled it out of my pocket.

‘You’ve got tonight off until 3 am.’

I groaned, shoved my phone back into my pocket, and turned on my heel.

Oops. Bad idea.

I turned straight into someone. She started to fall backwards, and I instinctively shot my hand out to grab her wrist before she hit the floor.

“Woah!”

‘Shit.’ Her half falling position made her skirt ride up, revealing some kind of garter with a knife clipped onto it. Damn, that was hot.

I pulled her back to her feet, studying her in what I hoped was a casual way. She had e/c eyes and h/l h/c hair. She was pretty. Like, really pretty.

“Sorry about that. I’m usually more aware of my surroundings.”

“It’s fine, really,” she said. She pulled down the skirt of her dress to cover her knife. The silvery sound of her voice distracted me, and I almost didn’t hear her next question.

“You’re my neighbor, right? You seem familiar.” She cocked her head to the side, which I found adorable.

“Yeah, my names Jason. I moved in a few months ago.” Looking down, I realized I hadn’t let go of her hand yet, and quickly did so.

‘Don’t be an idiot, Todd,’ I mentally scolded myself. ‘Why’d you keep your hand on her? She probably thinks your creepy now. And she’s cute. And hot. Dammit, idiot.’

She smiled warmly. “Well, Jason, it was nice, if not unconventional, meeting you. I’ll see you around.” She flashed me another smile and I swore I was gonna melt as she walked away.

Before I knew what I was doing, I’d turned around and called after her.

‘Wait...what was I gonna say?’ My hand went to the back of my neck (nervous habit). ‘Oh, yeah! Ask her on a date! Wait, no, I can’t do that she’ll say no-‘

My internal argument was cut off by her soft voice.

“Jason, do you wanna go get coffee sometime? Like a date?” She asked. I could almost swear she was reading my mind. I felt my face heating up and crossed my arms.

I stuttered out my answer for a moment before getting out what I think was a ‘yes’.

‘Come on, Todd.’ I scolded myself. ‘Where’s your confidence? A pretty girl asks you out and you can’t even answer her!’

“Great!” She smiled. “Meet me out here tomorrow at ten. Try not to run into me.” It took me a moment to realize she was flirting, and I stuttered out what I’m sure was a very embarrassing answer as I felt my face get warmer.

“See ya then, cute neighbor.” She sent me a flirty wink before stepping inside and closing her door.

‘What the hell just happened? What- what just...wow, I need some caffeine.’ I took a step toward my door before remembering I had no food inside. ‘My hot neighbor just asked me out...on a date...wow...’ I shook my head, heading down the stairs and out of the building towards the store.

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~~ Your POV~~

By the time ten o’clock rolled around the next day, you were ready for your date. You’d done your hair extra nice, fixed your makeup, and even painted your nails. You’d put on a strappy black tank top, high waisted black and white striped shorts, and heeled sandals. You tossed on your leather jacket, finding a hiding place for your switchblade in the pocket, along with your wallet and phone.

You were about to head out to find Jason when you heard a knock on the door.

‘Speak of the devil,’ you thought, walking to the door. You opened it to reveal Jason, standing on your doorstep with a red rose in his hands.

‘Woah,’ you heard going through his head, along with a jumble of other thoughts you couldn’t pull apart.

A blush rose to your cheeks at the unspoken compliment as you took in his appearance.

‘Wow. He looks good.’

“Hi. Is that for me?” You gestured to the rose. He nodded, offering it to you. You took it, gently holding it up and smelling it. It smelled sweet and slightly like what you assumed was his cologne.

“You look..amazing,” he breathed out, his eyes raking up and down your body.

You offered him a smile. “Thanks, handsome. You look great as well. Let me get some water for this and we’ll go?”

He nodded, and you quickly filled a tall glass with water for the rose, leaving it behind and joining Jason outside.

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Coffee went great. You walked around the park afterwards and talked for nearly an hour. You found a donut shop, and got donuts together, then continued on your walk. Around halfway through your date, you’d listened in on his thoughts enough and realized that he was your neighbor that would not stop screaming. Lovely. At least he was cute.

It was one twenty or so when he asked you to go back to his place to watch a movie. He didn’t have any other motives in his mind than to spend time with you, so you agreed.

Sometime during your date, you’d started holding hands. On the way back to your building, you were holding his hand and walking on the inside of the sidewalk, closer to the alleyways and buildings. You were in an...interesting...part of town, so you tried to keep your mind stretched out to keep you both safe (not that Jason probably couldn’t, the guy was built like Superman,) but you wanted to be cautious. However, the smooth, rich sound of Jason’s voice telling you about his little brothers was keeping you more or less distracted.

You registered a vaguely dangerous thought coming from an alleyway about two feet ahead of you. You instinctively grabbed your switchblade, flicking it open and pointing it into the alley just as you stepped around the corner. There was a man standing behind the corner, holding a much smaller knife, with an expression of shock on his face. He dropped his knife in surprise. The whole thing happened in a matter of seconds, before Jason had time to react. You ignored the fact that his jaw was basically on the floor (and the onslaught of surprised comments and curse words floating around in his head) and addressed the man in front of you.

“I hope we’ve learnt a valuable lesson about not mugging people in weird alleys.” You raised a brow at him, giving him your best ‘disappointed mom’ face. He nodded hastily before backing away and running down the alley.

You casually flipped your blade closed, bent down, and collected the would-be muggers knife from the ground.

“Here,” you offered it to Jason, who had finally managed to close his mouth (kinda) and was now staring at you in awe.

“How did you know he was there?” He questioned, his expression shifting to confusion.

“I just knew. Did you want this or am I keeping it?” You offered the knife again, but he pushed it aside, releasing his hand from yours. He placed both his hands on your shoulders and turned you to face him. His eyes searched yours as his thoughts became loud enough to hear.

‘Okay that was kinda hot. But how did she know he was there? I didn’t even know he was there and I- no. Maybe she planned it? But why would she plan something like that?’

“Jason,” You said firmly, holding his face in your hands and forcing his thoughts to quiet. “I didn’t plan it.” His eyes widened. “I knew he was there because I’m telepathic. I heard his thoughts.”

He pulled away from you, stepping back. You tried to read his thoughts but realized that he somehow knew how to block them, and was doing so now.

“Please don’t be mad,” you said quietly. Telling him was a huge gamble. There was a fifty percent chance he’d freak out and have you hauled off to Arkham, and a fifty percent change he’d be fine with it. You were seriously hoping the result was the latter.

“Mad? Are you kidding me?”

You braced yourself for him to freak out, already planning which way to run in your head.

“This is so cool!”

Every scared thought you had flew out the window.

“Are you serious?” You quirked a brow, propping a hand on your hip as you studied him.

“Um, hell yes! Wow, that’s so badass! You definitely have to meet my dad.”

You had no idea what his dad had to do with anything, but you went along with it, relieved he didn’t freak out, and actually seemed to think it was a cool thing.

“So you’re not gonna flip out and have me hauled off to Arkham?” You clarified. He stepped toward you, hands going to your hips as he pulled you in and pressed his lips to yours. Your body relaxed as your arms wrapped around his neck, but he quickly pulled away.

“Shit, sorry, I should have asked.” The distressed look on his face made you laugh.

“C’mere Todd.” You chuckled, pulling him back in to you and kissing him. He relaxed against you and kissed you back.

He pulled away with a mischievous smile.

“Does this mean I get a second date?” He asked, smirking.

“Only if you ask this time,” you teased, hands playing with the lapels of his leather jacket.

He gasped dramatically, pulling you closer to him. “That was a low blow, sweetheart.” You pressed a quick kiss to his mouth.

“I’ll make it up to you. But only if you make it up to me first.”

He cocked his head to the side. “For what?”

You laughed. “Honey, I don’t know if you’ve realized this, but you’ve been screaming internally for about three days straight.”

“Woah. You must have the worst migraine ever.” His face blanked. “Shit. I didn’t accidentally tell you I was the Redhood did I?”

“Tell me you were what?!”

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#batfamily #redhood #jason todd #jason todd x reader #x reader #reader insert #dc comics #dc comics x reader #batfam #jason todd redhood

[yellowfang89]

It’s wild how much has happened and changed since 2010, and now going into 2020. I was going to put in a "read more" out of courtesy but for some fuck ass reason, when I came in to edit it, Tumblr isn't giving me that option and the code ain't working and now I'm slightly buzzed so what the fuck ever you can just keep scrolling if you don't care lol.

January 2010- Obsessed with Legend of the Seeker. Wrapped up finishing playing Pokemon Diamond- my first pokemon game on recommendation of my best friend at the time. My last semester of community college started.

March/April 2010- got acceptance letter to the local state college I planned on transferring to. Best friend didn’t get any notice on whether she got accepted or not, but got an acceptance letter from another college about an hour away, and decided to go there instead. After making this decision, she finally got the acceptance letter from the local state college. But she still ended up going to the hour away one. Also, I turned 21 and had my first margarita.

May 2010- Graduated community college with an AA in art. God, I remember when I used to love art.

At some point I ended up officially leaving Myspace for Facebook, kicking and screaming, because everyone had ditched Myspace for it. I hated Facebook but got used to it.

August 2010- went on a two week cruise to Alaska. Came back and started new college afterwards. Had no friends and was lonely, though kept in close touch with best friend over Facebook. Got new Macbook.

September 2010- Finally found myself in a new friend group. Saw a beautiful boy on lightrail I wanted to talk to, but had no courage to. Realized that this kind of shit was probably why I didn’t have a boyfriend, and I wanted a boyfriend for the sole reason of not feeling like a loser for never having one.

October 2010- Saw same beauty, gathered up the nerve and talked to him. Turned out he also went to my school. We started seeing each other regularly on there and things started taking off. 

November 2010- Started hanging out with him regularly, got my first kiss from him. Became an official couple.

2011- Can’t remember what months and for what, because things start blending in together. But

- Beloved cat of five years died.

- Lost my virginity

- Didn’t have much money in bank account and stressed out over it. Couldn’t get a job to rectify the situation cuz no experience.

- Started feeling guilty over the smallest things like asking to borrow a piece of paper from someone. Mentally acknowledging this was weird but also shrugging it off. 

- Lost my appetite and had food problems overall- despite always having “food problems.” Never wanted to eat.

- Distinctly remember my stomach rumbling in class and thinking, “good maybe i’ll starve to death!”

2012- Shit blended in together again this year, and for every year here on out.

- Came to the realization one day when walking to the bus that I literally would not care if someone came at me with a gun because I just… didn’t want to exist anymore. Saw nothing wrong with this.

- The thought “things would be better if I was dead” came to my brain out of nowhere. I briefly wondered if this counted as a “suicidal thought.”

-Decided to Google shit like suicidal thoughts, went down a rabbit hole that made me suspect I had depression. It explained things that I thought were off but didn’t care enough to do anything about.

- Eventually saw a counselor at school about this.

- Got a hamster. Hamster died this same year.

- Got a volunteer position at a library scanning old yearbooks onto a computer so I could have some sort of “work experience” to get a job.

- Boyfriend had got me Pokemon Heartgold earlier. I started trying to “collect them all” because why not.

- I switched from using an ethernet chord to WiFi and it changed my life. Especially since I was able to go on the GTS in Pokemon and trade, though it was fucky cuz you could only trade Pokemon you’ve already seen back then.

- Ended up getting Pokemon Black, and it introduced GTS Negotiations which allowed me to match with other trainers and trade Pokemon live. Due to this, I managed to obtain every Pokemon I couldn’t get in my other games. Except event legendaries, unfortunately. I consider this one of my greatest accomplishments and keep up with this to this day.

- Considered switching my major from Graphic Design to Digital Media because I liked my Digital Media class a lot more than my Design classes. And made that switch.

- I decided to minor in psychology because I had already taken a few psych classes for GE credits so why tf not.

- Towards the end, got a “student” job at that same library doing the same thing except with artwork instead of yearbooks. Finally had money. Depression starting to lift? But job was only a 4-8 hour a week deal so not that much money in the long run.

2013-

- Discovered demisexuality via a comment on Reddit. It described me pretty damn well. Weight lifted off shoulders I didn’t even realize was there. Things made sense omg.

- Joined Tumblr.

- Best friend came over for what turned out being the last time. She was moving to Arizona.

- Got a second job working at the tech company my Dad worked at, helping out the customer service rep.

- Slowly found myself drifting apart from friend. Depression still present. Made things hard but tbh she never contacted me either. I got the impression she was mad at me given she unfollowed me on Tumblr without explanation.

- Since not a lot of work to be done helping the csr, I ended up helping our our shipping guy and became his backup. Eventually the purchaser left on maternity leave and I took her place, eventually becoming the main purchaser because they moved her to accounts receivable.

- Decided that my depression was making me a piece of shit friend so I decided to contact best friend to see how things were, only to get a cryptic, passive aggressive, two-word response back. Ended up just dropping it and figured she’d eventually come around and tell me what was wrong. She never did…

2014

- Depression on and off due to the stress of going to work and going to school. At this point I hated all art and wanted nothing to do with any of it and only went to school for the piece of paper saying I graduated college.

- I think this was when I started calling myself gray ace instead of demi because why the hell not and I’ve only been sexually attracted to one person anyway. Possibly still demiromantic though- to this day I’m still unsure tbh.

- Boyfriend taught me to drive. I got my license. I got my first car.

December 2014- I graduated college. It cured my depression. Unfortunately, it was replaced with carpal tunnel. 

2015

- Carpal tunnel still full force. All I could do was read.

- I caught up on all the books I’ve wanted to read. Eventually came across Warrior Cats. Thought it was stupid for the first 50 pages, but then became addicted. Lost interest when I had to wait several months for the next arc to come out.

- The year I got into wrestling. I shipped Rolleigns so fuckin’ hard.

- Undertale came out and became one of my favorite games of all time.

- Find out brother is addicted to painkillers which is why he had been acting like such an ass.

- Dumped Facebook.

- Driver at the company I worked at quit. Company wants me to be “temporary” driver on top of purchasing, shipping, and assisting the customer service rep.

- Got into writing and wrote a book and continued writing off and on from then to now.

2016/2017/2018? I can’t even keep track anymore.

- Pokemon Go came out and I finally got a smart phone because of it.

- Brother gets girlfriend and then gets married after only being together a year. Brother seems to have gotten better.

- They started having marital problems almost immediately. My brother turned out being an alcoholic and fuck knows if he’s still doing drugs or not he says he’s not but he’s also a chronic liar. A lot of drama happens that I don’t want to get into. They are now divorced- after two years of marriage. 

- Got new laptop cuz Macbook got too old, although it still works.

- The company I had been working at, which had always been a shit company with no money, starts going down the shitter more than it already was.

September 2017- customer service rep quits and I have to do her job on top of purchasing, shipping, and driving. Mental breakdowns become common. Depression worse than it had ever been in my life. 

January 2018- get a 45 cent raise because minimum wage went up meaning I was now making minimum wage doing all the bullshit I was doing.

May 2018- Get new job doing ONLY shipping for a few extra bucks more an hour. Depression cured.

2019

- Got in a car accident (not my fault). Car totaled. Replaced it with a 2018 car so it’s all good.

- Experienced my first flat tire half a year later.

- Still get random bouts of depression.

- Still with same boy from 2010. Would love to move in together but fuck if I know when that’ll happen. 

- Still wondering wtf happened with my (ex) best friend and am still trying to get over it. Am considering the possibility that it was probably my depressed ass not talking to her at all for like 4 months. Unfortunately I have no way of contacting her to try and make peace because we both dumped Facebook.

- Got back into Warrior Cats.

- Dad got new girlfriend. Parents finally working on getting the divorce they wanted to get 20+ years ago but never did cuz neither one wanted to spend money on it.

- Briefly considered taking up drawing again but my skills have tanked significantly because I haven’t drawn since graduating college. Plus I’m lazy. 

- Obsessed with The Witcher.

So much has changed throughout this decade and fuck if I know how next decade is gonna turn out for me but I sure hope it's a better one.

Happy New Year to all, and to all a good night!

#no one cares

[bedlamgames]

Q&A #100

Yes, been a hundred of this things. Totally a meaningless milestone which is one of my oldest tags on here (assuming any are left after the purge...) still I thought I’d do something for it. 

Specifically I’ve gone back over the old Q&A’s and found some favourite questions and answers which I’ll be including in this after the usual round of outstanding ones. Possibly also with some extra commentary where appropriate. 

Anonymous said: Hey. Any pair of characters connected by an Owned relationship/reputation seems to crash the game if you use either one of them on an assignment. Any chance of this being fixed?

- That should be sorted in yesterday’s update. 

Anonymous said: Got a Forest Goblin with both Dancer and Clumsy. This seems like a very strange combination, but imagining it kind of makes me want to laugh my head off.

- Agreed I think that just works due to being amusing. Less poetry in motion and more of a limerick. 

Anonymous said: In No Haven 0.871 the trait " Elementalist: Air " does not appear when using the estimate value function.

- Cheers for pointing out that oversight. Will sort.

Anonymous said: Hi sory english isn't my native langage, In No Have 0.871 TF Edition I have aquired a slaver But with a bug first i don't know how i acquire her and two she had noting , no name no perk jus a little description i will copy the full examine optin on it : - - - - ExamineName: Race: - Sex: - Status: - Reputation: Traits: Condition: 0 Will: 0 Estimated Value: 0 has a flat chest, a regular pussy, and has an unremarkable ass. She is the same size as most goblins, and .She is . 

- That looks like an empty character in all respects. I believe there was an issue with Ritual Casting where that could happen and is now sorted. If you see it happen again please let me know what you were doing when they appeared. 

Anonymous said: Hey Bedlam, watched stream where you discussed not selling slaves debuff, thing is i always imagined slavers being in this business for fun and pleasure first, and gold second. I mean why else would they agree to live in some Skyrim style, long abandoned really, hard to get to fort in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by hills and marshes(at least that how i imagine it)? So maybe you could make something like,"no new slaves, or slave training for X days, getting bored" or something like that?

- It wouldn’t be too harsh at all. Just a bit of a poke to encourage that you’re business model is based around being a slaver over the leader disappearing to the coast for a week and returning with suspiciously large amounts of gold. In that case you’ve got to think that your slavers might feel that they’re surplus to requirements :D

Anonymous said: I hope you're happy for taking so many hours of my life away from me lol. But playing this again; got a question about NH. Any plans on making some rival groups that we can interact with? Diplomacy, getting tribute, ect. It would be kinda cool to have rivals that push you along 

Glad you’re enjoying it! 

Likely yes. There’s ways currently now to set up a few ways to get tribute every so often. More groups though who are more hostile than the not-witches in the marshlands or the mistress of the Ensnared Rose are sure to be a thing sooner or later. 

doof-ex-machina said: Have you read the Gorean saga by John Nornan? If yes, did it influence your vision of the No Haven world? Gor explores a legal female-oriented slave system, yheah, but there are pretty close similarities with NH in regards to the numbers of ‘fodder’ and the ways of training. Anyway, me personally thinks your world is even better because magic and draenei/succubi boobs, duh.

I haven’t but I am aware of them in general. 

NH is a lot more equal opportunities than Gor where males doing it to females, females doing it to males, and all possible variations of that including others like futanari and sissies are likely to happen. Still high praise indeed, thanks!

And now onto some old questions starting with one from before where I realised beginning to combine these might be a good idea. 

onedrift from 2015:  Trying this again...what's your coder fuel of choice? Red bull, Monster, coffee? None of the above? Soon to be bimbofied slavemakers want to know!

- Heh, totally giving my nationality away (if it wasn’t blatantly obvious already) but the fuel of choice is copious amounts of Earl Grey tea.

Anonymous from 2015: Hiya, been a fan of your work for a long time, captions and games thanks for making them, but a question regarding whorelocks revenge, is it possible to get the tangle infection and bonds of insanity? in all my time playing them I never had either I dont think.

- Not in the current version. Basically I wasn’t happy with the implementation in terms of how they were removed so I disabled them for a bit till I can sort it out… which unfortunately has lasted quite some time.

Soon as I got this No Haven update done they’re top of my list of things to sort in Whorelocks.

(Oh zogging hell. Still not done that yet... Extenuating circumstance for sure with NH taking off and WR was still in RAGS at that point, but even so)

Anonymous from 2015: This is probably a poor place to respond to your open-ended poll question, but have you looked into Twine?

- I’ve looked at Twine and when I one day get round to Rough Landing 3 it’s definitely going to be done using it, but to me it looks like an incredibly poor fit for working on No Haven.

(Oh past me why would say such a thing even if it did make a lot of sense at the time. Let’s hope that guy was wrong)

Anonymous from Q&A #1: Title image is hype, cant wait for next update. recall you mentioned that you had enchantments planed for the update after next (or something there abouts) how far ahead have you planned ahead and any spoilers for the update after this one? :D

- Why thank you! I have several pages bullet pointed of what I have planned along with what I have in my head. For stuff not in the next update I’d say not counting more slave training assignments and options and more assignments in the other areas the big bits of content outstanding are;

Way more potions. (Still do do)

Enchantment/cursing of items system.  (Also still do do)

Crafting Devices. (Also, also still do do)

Ways to manage encampments when they get to large by sending slavers/slaves to new areas to provide ongoing gold/supplies along with the occasional assignment. (Oh dear, also, also still do do)

More stuff for you like going on every assignment, bad ends for some of them, more interactions, being enslaved and so on. Basically lots more sub and also some dom content for when you’re not managing the encampment. (Woo progress made! Bad ends for some assignments going on are indeed a thing. Still work to do as I do want to give Crossbones and Into the Depths the QAYL treatment sometime)

Special events that will occur every so often that will affect things be it for good and bad. This will include a way to get a lost slaver back though perhaps forever altered by their experiences. (Woo again this is done. Definitely could do with more done with)

Encampment reputation to reflect a slaver’s standing with how the other slaver’s see them. This will includes slavers becoming slaves and visa versa. (On a roll now as a great deal of this implemented)

More biomancy options and improving thanks to a multi-part assignment. There will also be other multi-part story based assignments. (Partially done and the biomancy multi-part assignment has been started)

And a bunch more basically but those are the priorities after this next update. Probably not all in the same update though.

Anonymous from Q&A #6: I would play the hell out of Paranoia set in No Haven.  

- Temptation to give slavers and you conflicting secret societies and agendas rising.

Y’know like…

Dire Panthers: A mottley band of young savage orcs, amazons and trolls out to raise hell by breaking stuff, setting stuff on fire and generally being a nuisance to everyone.

The Cooperative: A dedicated group of Frozen Queen cultists out to oppose the Human Empire by working together to make things better for the common people… till you know the Queen awakens and buries all the land in eternal ice.

Mage Smashers: Magic iz like wrong an’ stuff! We smash dem in dere stupid face till dey not so smart.

Fellowship-Fel: The denizens that lurk beyond our reality and infect our dreams with tainted nightmares are our friends! We must expose ourselves to as much corruption as possible to make ourselves like them. We see no flaws in this plan whatsoever, you see the chorus of whispers in our minds entirely agrees with us.

Psion: No changes need to be made whatsoever from the original version.

Trekksters: …and I think that’s enough of that, or further evidence of why I shouldn’t be allowed anywhere near RAGS or indeed tumblr when I have my old sourcebooks nearby :D

(Also apologies to most of you who have no idea what that was about!) (This is still far too much of a good idea)

Anonymous from Q&A #17: 2/2 and another hilarious one: Your succubus slave Jaeil was not looking so hot right now so Virholen just held her close and told Jaeil that everything would be alright. Jaeil was oddly quiet everytime you looked in on them and you wonder if they have resigned themselves to their fate. Condition: 45 (Change: 20) - Will: 47 (Change: 15)

After their mistreatment Jaeil sees no reason not to only care for them self as clearly no one else will leaving them hardened and even outright cruel. usc++

- You win best bug report in ages, that is beautiful :D

Anonymous from Q&A #37: Will there be other spirit races in the game besides wisps, such as undynes, gnomes, and dryads? And finally Im new to patreon. I decided to pay for the your character teir but ask for a unique because I dont really understand it. Is the “play your character” a scenario or what? And where do I go to talk with you on what I would like for it?

- True story, I had to google undyines and for ages I couldn’t work out what you were referring too as so many of the results were of that character from Undertale :D

Undines themselves would be no, but I do have a water spirit of a kind planned. (Still do!) Gnomes no, as I’m happy with Hakh Dwarven and the various Goblins as my short races. Dryads absolutely yes, and will be one of the advanced races. See the last Q&A for more details of those.

Thank you for your support! Those options are for those that want to play a specific character that isn’t available in the standard options or design a specific slaver that you can have in your encampment. If you want to see some examples of ones others have asked for before on the playable character front then Orc Wright Raptor, Lago’Mae Scholar or Goblin Underground Potioneer would be a good ones to look at to start off with.

As for the unique slavers then pretty much any of the slavers available under Strong Right Arm/Recruiter.

How much detail you want to go into is up to you. If you want to say oh I just want a Kitsune lady who likes to pole-dance then I’d put something together for your approval, or you can go full on detailing everything about them from their art, description, traits etc. and I’ll work with you to the point I’m happy having it as an option in the game. (Note: If you want an entirely new race like the Golems you need to go for the lore tier given the significantly larger amount of work involved)

For discussing please send me a message on patreon and we can take it further from there.

One thing to bare in mind is that patreon only charges at the end of the month, and so while I’m more than willing to talk it out, if you want to me to do a lot of work on your request I’m going to need to see a pledge go through first. It sucks I know, but this is the unfortunate reality of the internet that alas trust can only go so for.

I’m always happy to discuss things though, I really am, and some people have asked to pay some of their pledge upfront via paypal to get round this which is not a problem if that’s what you want to do.

valhallaimmortan from Q&A #47: I managed to get a elven smith who makes fancy armor that is usually masterwork quality, and equipped my ‘Basher’ Squad with it, the Basher’s are all Ogre’s who I recruited and I have a alchemist who seriously creeps me out with how many petrification potions he has been pumping out. I also like the Lago'mae Scholar how now the Lizard man is using her as his new project… poor Scholar… and I got to ask is it actually possible to recruit a keldan from the keldan mission in the city?

- I love this question, absolutely adore it, and you made the patron who requested the lizardman unique really happy when I mentioned it to them. If people want to send in their favourite/amusing/interesting slavers/slaves that have resulted from generation and gameplay I might do a tumblr post series on them called ‘Tell me about your Character’.

As to the question yes she should be on the critical result.

Anonymous from Q&A #61: Silly question. For clothing and armor, what in your mind is the major difference between micro, and impractical? I can’t really visualize a difference between the two when reading armor/clothing descriptions. Scandalously short is divergent enough that it creates its own image for me. The other two seem as if they would be interchangeable, but they aren’t since there is a distinction so what is it?

- Yay silly questions are always the best questions. Okay micro is where you have outfits that are recognizable bits of clothing but it’s incredibly brief so a skirt that’s more a belt than actually trying to cover anything whatsoever and/or a bikini top so teeny-weeny that it doesn’t even cover all of the nipples. Completely impractical though is the kind of clothing beloved by a certain kind of fantasy art which just doesn’t make any kind of sense whatsoever where looking good trumps any pretension of realism, and the only way it could stay on is either with copious amounts of glue or magic being involved.

Anonymous from Q&A #66: Hello again! I’m the guy who asked about the post-slave [slaver] titles. I’m going to very respectfully push the idea that ex-slaves should get unique titles. First, I honestly think having the unique titles is cooler. It’s more interesting to send a Chosen, an Acolyte, and a Hedge-Witch on an assignment than it is to send three Slavers. It’s a rarity thing, sort of? If you get a character who qualifies for one of those things, it’s a BIG DEAL. Secondly, it already changes with jobs, so…

- Alright, alright, you’ve twisted my arm :)

That should now be included for the most recent update along with a couple of new titles so that all of the more rare traits (not counting crafting ones) should have one. Let me know if there’s any issues as while it was a fairly straightforward change I didn’t get a chance to test that particular bit.

Thanks for reading and here’s to another hundred of these. 

#Q&A #meaningless milestones

[thisweekingundamwing]

This Week in Gundam Wing 30 Dec 2018 - 05 Jan 2019

Here’s this week’s roundup!

Remember to give your content creators some love! And join in on the events at the bottom!

I’m finally back in the swing of going through what’s been posted on AO3 throughout the last week, so, be prepared! lol

~Mod Hel

Fanfiction/Snippets/AU Ideas:

@amyole​

My father, the hero https://archiveofourown.org/works/17281061

Relena Peacecraft, Mariemaia Khushrenada, Originally Posted on FanFiction.Net

Set eighteen months after Endless Waltz. Mariemaia seeks out Relena on Father's Day. Written for Mariemaia Month at gwozzies on LJ. Originally posted in 2006.

My father, the soldier https://archiveofourown.org/works/17280938

Lucrezia Noinheim, Dorothy Catalonia

Noin comforts Dorothy on the death of her father. Originally posted in 2006.

My father, the pacifist https://archiveofourown.org/works/17281001

Zechs Merquise, Quatre Raberba Winner

Une convinces Zechs to talk to Quatre about his father before he departs. Originally posted in 2006.

@anaranesindanarie​

A Winter Engagement https://archiveofourown.org/works/17262764

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner

Christmas, Holidays, Winter

Heero asks a question that surprises Duo.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @miss-m-muses​

Tequila (Ch. 10) https://archiveofourown.org/works/15935852/chapters/40683125

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell, Long Meilan/Hilde Schbeiker, Catherine Bloom/Abdul Kurama

Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Heero Yuy, Hilde Schbeiker, Long Meilan, Chang Wufei, Catherine Bloom, Abdul Kurama, Rashid Kurama, Sister Helen, Solo, Maxwell Shinpu | Father Maxwell

Past Relationships, bad breakups, Tequila, Weddings, Car problems, love you so much I hate you, Military, Fights, hostage, injuries

Whoever wrote the rules of breaking up never kissed your lips Touched your skin, held the world at their fingertips Didn't have a clue what heaven was -Rules of Breaking Up ~Brandon Ratcliff

@bailong05​

Red https://archiveofourown.org/works/17252438

WuFei Chang, Angst & Tragedy

His first memory is a swirl of red, red that faded far too fast.

@downwarddnaspiral​

Don’t Talk Smack About the Caped Crusader https://archiveofourown.org/works/17260058

Duo maxwell/Chang Wufei

Duo Maxwell, Relena Peacecraft, Chang Wufei

Fluff, Meet-Cute, onesie pajamas, Coffee, Christmas Caroling, Tumblr Prompt, 2X5, Pre-Slash, No Sex

This still wasn’t the most embarrassing thing that happened to Wufei in his lifetime, but it was definitely in his top five. Playing his sophomore saxophone solo during his school’s winter concert with his fly open scored a little higher than this.

The guy with the wicked dimples in his cheeks and gleaming blue-violet eyes was grinning at him. Wufei wanted to punch his lights out.

“I always wanted to visit the Batcave. Gonna give me a tour, big fella?”

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @kirinjaegeste​

@duointherain​

Can You See Me? https://archiveofourown.org/works/17255429

Trowa Barton/Heero Yuy

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @seitou​

We Don’t Know Where We’re Going (Ch. 1) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17285099/chapters/40651691

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy, Quatre Raberba Winner

It's after the wars, still kids, recovering from war and learning to be okay. It'll be a Heero/Duo get together.

@helmistress​

A Christmas Holiday https://archiveofourown.org/works/17255783/chapters/40578641

Dorothy Catalonia/Relena Peacecraft

Dorothy Catalonia, Relena Peacecraft, Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell

DXR, Christmas, Sass, Fluff, Snark, quiet moments

It was always crazy around Christmas; people were always trying to squeeze her in to give speeches at Christmas Dinner Parties, or New Year’s Parties. Relena never knew if she would see Dorothy for the holidays or not.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @jalaperilo​

@idkmybffflamingo​

Like A Wave Breaking https://archiveofourown.org/works/17266415

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Chang Wufei

Post-Canon, Canon Compliant, Preventers, Fluff and Angst, Christmas Fluff, Getting Together, Mutual Pining, Slow Burn, Self-Worth Issues, Eventual Happy Ending, Attempted Sex, Safe Sane and Consensual, Trowa Barton Deserves Happiness, Duo Maxwell Is A Sweetheart, Chang Wufei Is A Good Bro

Five times Duo surprised Trowa at Christmastime, and one time Trowa surprised him in return.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @anaranesindanarie​

@jalaperilo​

Bump in the night https://archiveofourown.org/works/17260199

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell

Duo Maxwell, Chang Wufei, Quatre Raberba Winner

Supernatural, Ghosts, Liberal use of the word fuck, Spooky

Duo and Wufei stay the night in one of Quatre's many estates, which is not haunted at all.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @w-chang / @challahchic2​

@kirinjaegeste​

Taste of Rumchata https://archiveofourown.org/works/17263310

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Fluff, I think this rotted my teeth, I've never done this pairing before, or this much fluff, New OTP, can't believe i didn't have this in my life, new to 2x3

Duo and Trowa have a nice night in and share gifts

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @idkmybffflamingo​

@lifeaftermeteor​

Time Away https://archiveofourown.org/works/17226368

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Fluff, Cabin Fic, Cute, Romance

Heero and Duo flee the end-of-year bustle of Brussels and Preventers Headquarters and spend some much needed vacation time tucked away in a snowy European forest.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @duointherain​

Saturday Snippet https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/181754922019/winner-family-compound-l4-v05001-26-december-210

Winner Family Compound

L4-V05001

26 December 210

luvsanime02

Fairness and Friends https://archiveofourown.org/works/17305352

Duo Maxwell, Chang Wufei

Post-Series, Humor, Cocktail Friday, Friendship

Wufei might end up in the emergency room tonight, but if he does, at least he won't be alone. That's what friends are for.

@miss-m-muses​

Maxwell’s Toy Emporium https://archiveofourown.org/works/17262152

Duo Maxwell/Zechs Merquise

Cheesy, Smut, Christmas Miracles

It's Christmas Eve and Duo's toy store is going out of business. That is until a handsome rich stranger just happens to need gifts and ends up visiting Maxwell's Toy Emporium.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @simulacraryn​

Straight to My Head (Ch. 3) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17184560/chapters/40684865

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Lady Une

Light Angst, confused!Heero, Awkward Romance, some smut

Heero's yearly Preventer evaluation is usually an annoying formality. But this year, it is much more complicated due to a certain Duo Maxwell...

@noirangetrois​

Waves and a Wedding (Ch. 6) https://archiveofourown.org/works/15639375/chapters/40609283

Duo Maxwell/Relena Peacecraft

Relena Peacecraft, Duo Maxwell, Quatre Raberba Winner, Dorothy Catalonia, Trowa Barton, Catherine Bloom, Sylvia Noventa, Vice-Foreign Minister Darlian, Mrs. Darlian, Rashid Kurama, Treize Khushrenada, Lucrezia Noin

Tumblr Prompt, Cruise Ships, Alternate Universe, Fake Marriage, Becoming a real marriage, Also I've never been on a cruise, so everything about this is entirely made up, My first het fic ever so bear with me

Weddings need flowers, right? And a Captain sure would come in handy, too.

Odamaki

How Barton Won a $100 Bet before New Years https://archiveofourown.org/works/17297747

Chang Wufei/Heero Yuy

Heero Yuy, Chang Wufei, Trowa Barton

Crack, Probably ooc, Christmas Crack, UST, Jealousy, Bets & Wagers, Wufei is a disaster, Heero is bad at feelings, oblivious idiots, Trowa is tired of their nonsense, just embarrassing really

Crackfic 1x5. Honestly defies description.

“Every year, Wufei gets drunk at every party he’s forced to attend and hits on you, and every time you say no, and it is excruciatingly embarrassing for everyone forced to witness it.” Trowa crosses one foot over the other and, seeing that he has captured the full laser-beam of Heero’s attention, continues. “We never exchange gifts but, how about as my gift to you and every other Preventer keen to survive the celebrations, I give Wufei something new to think about.”

@offspringchick29​

What Would the Daughter of "The Perfect Soldier" Think About the Most? High School Edition https://archiveofourown.org/works/17214587

Serena (the daughter) answers some about me thing asking that question. She questions how in the world will she survive school with whom she considers to be a bunch of “idiots”. Texts her dad, and this spirals into him basically giving her a list of chores because she whines about being bored.

Oh Christmas Cat, Oh Christmas Cat. Ho Lovely are thy... Claws? https://archiveofourown.org/works/17223383

Heero’s kids (about age 5) persuade him to do something against his better judgement. He does it to prove a point. His “minions” as he jokingly calls them learn that Uncle Duo and the internet do not have good ideas. And Heero re-learns that he can’t say no to a small girl who has his hair and eye colour. Unfortunately, said act results in a hospital visit, Heero teaching one of his subordinates a valuable life lesson, and one angry cat on a murderous rampage. So a lovely Christmas fic after Christmas.

The Yuys v. The Monster with 8 Legs. https://archiveofourown.org/works/17267852

We get to see Heero and his daughter Serena interact and “fight” over how the spider should have been disposed of. Serena gets reminded of her genetics and where she gets her sass from, and Heero gets given a “gift” he asked for for his 40th birthday 3 years later.

@peachandbetty​

Here for the Tea https://archiveofourown.org/works/17256653

Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy

Heero Yuy, Relena Peacecraft, Mariemaia Khushrenada, Chang Wufei, Lady Une

Sometimes clarity comes with a nice cup of tea. And an ambush.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @sweethoneysempai​

phoenixrebirth88

Unexpected complication https://archiveofourown.org/works/7201409/chapters/16341509

TrowaXReader

What if you woke up near somebody you can't remember meeting. What if you decide to stay, trying to escape your own life. Is such a thing really possible?

A Christmas Dare https://archiveofourown.org/works/17258774

Heero Yuy, Reader Insert

At a Christmas party a lot of things can happen … Especially if you add a too short dress and too many perverted men who can't seem to control themselves.

Traditions https://archiveofourown.org/works/17258834/chapters/40585796

WuFeiXReader

"No one deserves to spend their holidays by themselves." It was what you had told him when you had first showed up at his front door, forcing your presence upon him. Now, three years later, you wouldn't put a stop to that tradition just because he was in the hospital!

Miracles https://archiveofourown.org/works/17258798

DuoXReader

His twenty-four hours were nearly up, not that you knew of them or what they meant ...

Slave https://archiveofourown.org/works/6304465/chapters/14447272

WuFeiXReader

You get a slave for a month, but what are you going to do with him? Should you take advantage of the situation given, or should you just act as if it wasn’t happening?

‘Tis the season by phoenixrebirth88 https://archiveofourown.org/works/17258615/chapters/40585352

Trowa Barton, Treize Khushrenada, Heero Yuy, Quatre Raberba Winner, Reader insert

Gifts https://archiveofourown.org/works/17258828

QuatreXReader

Year after year, you failed to give him something he truly wanted. Would you manage to succeed this year?

@sailoriceprincess​

Scarves and Kisses https://archiveofourown.org/works/17318234

Treize Khushrenada/Heero Yuy

Heero Yuy. Treize Khushrenada. Original Male Character(s)

Alternate Universe - College/University, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Christmas Fluff, First Christmas, OOCness

Treize asks Heero to spend Christmas with him. Both are dorks.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @vegalume​

ShenLong

Bound, Bonded and Betrayed (Ch. 77) https://archiveofourown.org/works/7188593/chapters/40580942

Heero Yuy/Duo Maxwell, Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner, Treize Khushrenada/Lady Une

Chang Wufei, Zechs Merquise, Hilde Schbeiker, Dorothy Catalonia, Lucrezia Noin, Sally Po

Sap, Angst, Bondage, Slavery, Yaoi, Lemon, Lime, Het, Violence, Fluff, AU, OOC. - Freeform

Heero is the eldest son of the King of Colonia. His 21st birthday is approaching and as tradition dictates his betrothed is soon to arrive. However he is also bound by tradition to select his own personal slave. The events that unfold lead him down a path that not only tests his sanity but his humanity and love as well.

Silvertrails

The Academy (Ch. 7) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17119034/chapters/40723589

Zechs Merquise, Treize Khushrenada, Lucrezia Noin, Lady Une, Nichols, Walker

Zechs goes to the Specials Academy in Lake Victoria.

@simulacraryn​

Home (I��ve found I belong) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17263526

Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy

Fluff and Angst, Freeform, New Year's Resolutions, Gundam Wing Christmas Exchange, Romance, Established Relationship, Friendship, References to Depression, Mental Health Issues, Older Characters

Retirement is looming over Heero and Relena's heads during Christmas AC 219. An uncharted future for two people that were molded for their respective positions in life.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @peachandbetty​

slowHistorian

Turn the stone and look beneath it (Ch. 2) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17263481/chapters/40700147

Gundam Wing, Marvel Cinematic Universe

Tony Stark/Stephen Strange

Tony Stark, Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Chang Wufei, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Stephen Strange, T'Challa (Marvel), Steve Rogers

Crossover, Tony Stark Has A Heart, Tony Stark Needs a Hug, Parent Tony Stark, stuck in a new world, New Avengers, Not A Fix-It, Not Avengers: Infinity War Part 1 (Movie) Compliant, Civil War Team Iron Man, Salty Team Iron Man, Slow Romance, Slow Burn, romance is not the focus, but it will be there, eventually

Their war was over, they won. For the measure of winning a war, anyway. The truce was what was supposed to matter. But in the end, the other side used public opinion and their own renewed authority to try to bring an end to the perceived threat of the Gundam Pilots.

Except it went wrong. So very wrong. And now the pilots have to navigate this weird new world with its super heroes and aliens and magic while deciding if they even WANT go try to go back.

Hint: They really, really don't.

@softnocturne​

You Hold Our Hearts (Ch. 2) https://archiveofourown.org/works/16992327/chapters/40728941

Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy, Lucrezia Noin/Sally Po, Dorothy Catalonia/Relena Peacecraft, Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell

Quatre Raberba Winner, Trowa Barton, Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Lucrezia Noin, Sally Po, Dorothy Catalonia, Relena Peacecraft, Chang Wufei, Howard, Doctor J, Instructor O, Original Characters

Angst, Smut, Rape/Non-con Elements, Minor Character Death, Missing in Action

Trowa Barton has gone missing, leaving his two lovers behind. Instead of waiting for him to return, Heero and Quatre set off with the others to find Trowa. Only, they learn that by following Trowa's trail, they follow danger.

@sweethoneysempai​

Make the Yuletide Gay https://archiveofourown.org/works/16905405

Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner, Mariemaia Khushrenada & Lady Une

Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Lady Une, Mariemaia Khushrenada

Christmas, what non-Christians do on Christmas, Pagan Trowa Barton, Implied Muslim Quatre Raberba Winner, Jordanian Quatre Raberba Winner, Nostalgia, Winner Family, Trowa has mad game in this, he’s a good boyfriend, Trowa and Quatre fill the void in their souls with kisses and mansaf, Food, Trowa’s Mercenary Squad, Saturnalia

Suddenly off-duty on Christmas, Trowa and Quatre piece a holiday together.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @weiclown​

@weiclown

Coming Out https://archiveofourown.org/works/17319806

Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy

Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Heero Yuy

Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Polyamory, Polyamory Negotiations, Feelings, Relationship Discussions, Coming Out

Falling into a relationship just happened. Quatre’s been playing the media for his own gains, but he knows it’s time to let the world know. On their terms, not the media’s.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @sailoriceprincess​

@ziggystarsandmars​

Who We Say We Are https://archiveofourown.org/works/17259911/chapters/40588475

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell, Quatre Raberba Winner

Get Together, Light Angst, Kid Fic, duo's a baby whisperer

When Trowa finds a baby in the woods, he's determined to keep it, even if he doesn't have the first clue how to care for an infant. Luckily, Duo's willing to lend a hand. Soon, something starts to kindle between them, and they must decide if they have the courage to follow where their feelings lead.

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @helmistress​

Fanart:

@gundayum​

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/181733094971/so-i-found-out-that-i-got-accepted-into-my-first

Relena Darlian/Peacecraft

@seitou​

http://seitou.tumblr.com/post/181738103560/merry-christmas-ziggystarsandmars-i-hope-you-have

Duo & WuFei

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018! Gift for @ziggystarsandmars​

Head Canons:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/181723914884

WuFei Chang

Chats/Discussions:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/181654354039/ive-always-been-in-love-with-you-could-you-tell

Music Album discussion

Heero Yuy

Quotes/Dialogues:

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181601232519/incorrectgundamwingquotes-quatre-can-i-get-a

Quatre, Duo, WuFei, & Server

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181605989811/at-preventers-hq-duo-walking-along-with-heero

Duo, Heero, Trowa, & Random Preventers Agents

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181620338701/trowa-hey-can-i-ask-your-advice-on-something

Trowa & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181626915344/heero-lets-be-more-than-friends-duo-best

Heero & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181635339604/quatre-crying-heero-whats-wrong-quatre

Quatre & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181653195111/zechs-after-the-fall-of-the-sanc-kingdom-i-just

Zechs

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181647375029/gundam-pilots-we-dont-have-an-official-leader

Gundam Pilots in general, Quatre

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/181646109909/incorrectgundamwingquotes-wufei-if-you

WuFei & Heero (via: @lemontrash​)

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181645404919/at-preventers-hq-une-is-your-team-prepared-for

Une & WuFei

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181642601585/heero-i-know-200-ways-to-kill-a-man-trowa-you

Heero & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181671291811/duo-you-need-to-stop-doing-weird-things-going

Duo & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181692146239/heero-aside-from-the-bullet-wounds-and-a-broken

Heero & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181700234434/zechs-learn-how-to-be-the-bigger-person-heero

Zechs & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181697526865/duo-i-dare-you-to-kiss-the-next-person-who-walks

Duo, Trowa, & Quatre

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181733072981/noin-are-you-seriously-putting-on-lipstick-for

Noin & Relena

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181747503502/troubled-birds-gw-girls-edition

Dorothy, Relena, Zechs, Noin, Une, & Sally

https://gwminorcharactersrpblog.tumblr.com/post/181696784557/incorrectgundamwingquotes-heero-i-know-the

Heero & Relena (more added by @gwminorcharactersrpblog​)

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181538486791/wufei-you-have-to-have-some-semblance-of

WuFei & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181570932608/catherine-this-is-serious-you-could-go-to-jail

Cathy & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181580279833/heero-and-subtlety-has-not-exactly-been-our

Heero & WuFei

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181590469168/catherine-to-associate-with-my-brother-you-must

Cathy, all the gboy pilots, Duo, & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/181753416668/quatre-one-time-when-i-was-younger-someone-asked

Quatre & Duo

No Idea What To Put This Under:

@christianmswanson

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/181755159782/practicing-it-before-i-record-it-ive-been

Heero Yuy

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/181742904699/i-have-a-problem-i-dont-know-why-i-learned

Just Communicatioin

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/181669460271/the-wings-of-a-boy-that-killed-adolescence-was

Wings of a Boy

@lemontrash

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/181738409384/i-am-excited-and-nervous-to-announce-that-radio

Radio Meteor is doing a new Gundam Wing PODCAST.

Calendar Events:

@gwcocktailfriday

Cocktail Fridays!

Post responses on Friday, during Happy Hour between 3 & 5 pm in your own timezone.

Here’s the prompt for Friday January 11th! https://gwcocktailfriday.tumblr.com/post/181740312975/cocktail-friday-post-responses-on-friday-january

For those going to Pillowfort https://gwcocktailfriday.tumblr.com/post/181733192168/for-those-transferring-their-focus-to-pillowfort

@our-summer-of-zechs

Summer of Zechs 2019 Ideas https://our-summer-of-zechs.tumblr.com/post/181628092091/we-appear-to-still-be-up-and-running-folks

Come let us know how we should proceed for this coming summer!

Summer of Zechs will start being run from This Week in Gundam Wing Events on pillowfort as well!

@thisweekingundamevents

Gundam Wing Holiday Gift Exchange 2018!

Gift Master List! To be put out later today!

If you have pillowfort, be sure to add your gift to the Exchange discussion in the This Week in Gundam Wing Events community!

#Gundam Wing #This Week in Gundam Wing #30 Dec 2018 - 05 Jan 2019 #Weekly Roundup #thisweekingundamwing

[andrewinghart]

a thank you

over the past year or so, im sure anyone who has logged in between then has noticed that this community has been plagued by quite a few misfortunes, the most obvious being the fact that a lot of blogs here have been forced underground due to the increasing amount of creeps and pedophiles taking interest in little dancers and a result, searching for them on tumblr and interacting with our content. i want to say thank you to everyone who has gone above and beyond with helping create blocklists, checking their followers and notes, and reporting these people to make sure these kids stay safe.

unfortunately, i really do not think i can do enough at this point other than delete my blog and remove the content so that these people can no longer engage with my things. i have thought about this for a long time, and a post i made directed at someone else “if your blog is full of grown men and pedophiles, then why are you still here?” and this is just as applicable to me as it was to her!!! so what am i still doing here? well

at this point, i think we are all very busy with our lives so we do not visit on here as often anymore, and i feel like i am making gifs for the oblivion or just to have to log on and delete them later because plogs have found it. this process is very draining and exhausting. additionally, i have come across a lot of very disgusting and horrific things i never thought i would ever have to see in my life while blocking. A lot of it has sat on my heart and to be honest, has eaten away at me every time i log on because truly feel like i am just enabling something that has hurt me a lot. because of that, i’ve decided that i will be removing this blog in the days to come.

but on a lighter note, i again want to thank you all for putting up (or trying your best to omg lmao) put up with me all these years. i joined this fandom with a very embarrassing URL we are not going to mention when i was 14 years old and now at 20, i can say i did make a lot of friends and i will be walking away from this fandom with fond memories.

i also want to say that while this blog will be gone, my instagram and deviantart will be up because i do still like to edit LDs, just no longer giffing and posting onto tumblr. i will still be giffing on a different blog of mine but it’s not related to this blog SO DONT ASK FOR THE URL ASKLDJASDJ.

but yeah. i have no real conclusion lol just saying once i archive a couple of my Favorite Posts, this blog will be gone.  

again, thank you to the people that made this experience for me enjoyable and worthwhile, y’all are one of the main reasons I have stuck this out for so long. i will still have my main blog kidlazer that for u innocent folk, should probably NOT follow but if u ever need to contact me for whatever reason u can message me on there but PLZ do not blow up my messages. and then of course i am not leaving the bunker but ya. catch ya later sisters!! molly long, SKINNY legend!!

for the 3948405238558th time, thanks for everything yall!