#i think with dedication and persistence i can finish all of them

[bloodandthestars]

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐒.

priest!au suguru geto x fem!reader

tw/tags: mentions of the Bible, Christianity (it is solely picked for plot nothing more, nothing less), etc :: introduction to JUDAS, kinktober drabble series (mdni)

wc: 1.3k :: masterlist. :: next part.

The Geto family was a devout and honorable one. Generations upon generations did the men of the house dedicate their lives to reach the word of the Heavenly Father. Suguru’s route was no different— crooked, but narrow on the holy path.

He’d become the father of the church months ago, to herd the congregation into a fruitful community. Pressure weighed heavy at his shoulders, but in the end, he knew it was for the best. Wasn’t it?

“And while we are tempted by the devil in more ways than one.” His smooth voice went on. “It’s the persistence, the strength, and the true power of the Lord’s light that keeps us on the divine path.”

Suguru takes a glance to his notes, a finger moving from one page to the next. “As Peter 5:10 states: And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.”

It earns him a few hums in agreement and ‘Amens’ from the crowd. He takes a breath. “So know that the obstacles in your path now, the ones you pray to be vanquished, may be the key to your own glory. For your glory, is His.”

The crowd rumbles in cheers and claps. Suguru gives the room a smile. With a slow glance around the room, he takes in all their excited faces full of hope to hear the Holy word through him. It was these same old faces he had gotten used to seeing in the worn pews of the church. The same ones he’d run around with his best friend as a child when services were over. Everything remained as it was, as it was suppose to be.

So that’s why his breath unconsciously hitched when meeting your gaze.

Your eyes were new. He’s never seen them cry in the name of repentance, never seen them look at him like he was the Messiah himself. Not even now in the mists of a worshiping crowd. Your expression was poise, calm— orbs slender in observation.

You cut the staring short, looking ahead instead. It’s only then when he can hear the clapping back at full volume. Suguru blinks a few times to return, eyes going down to the timeline in his writings. “And with that, we’ll end today’s service with a prayer.”

The congregation bows their heads in unison. He catches how you were much slower in doing so. Keeping his eyes on you cautiously, he speaks a worthy word to his people. “O’ Might One, we thank you for allowing us to celebrate you on this day. Your spirit is poured out onto this place every Sunday morning and we could ask for nothing more...”

With the service finished, church goers socialize amongst one another. Greetings, catchings of last night’s game, news that the youngest born has ridden a bicycle for the first time. Suguru always had an ear to their happenings, not that he had much of a choice. As soon as his dress shoes hit the carpet floor, he’s instantly surrounded by a group of parishioners. As always, they wanted to make their priest happy and see him smile.

A older woman clasps his hand in hers, squeezing it with a pleasant expression. “An excellent sermon, as always Father Geto!”

“Thank you, Mrs. Kasaki-”

“Did I tell you about little Callie’s recital?”

He chuckles. “Yes, last week. She had practice then, correct?”

“Oh yes! It was a dress rehearsal, her big debut was this last Saturday. She was so adorable in her purple tutu! And she only picked that because she’s growing out of that pink phase, little thing. Oh! Let me grab my phone-”

A low quality video later, one handshake leaves for another. “Pastor! Did you see the new restaurant down the street that they’re building up?”

“No? I don’t think I have.”

“Oh yeah, I think it’ll be a new fusion place. Never knew that they had stuff like that!” A hearty laugh comes straight from the man’s belly and Suguru’s obliged to laugh as well.

“We’ll have to see if we can get the church together for its opening.”

“I’ll see if I can put a word in.”

“There you go, Pastor!”

And another. “Father, did you ever get the chance to look at my inquiries on raising funds for the elementary school?”

“The box tops, yes?”

“Mhm! When will you get started?”

“We can have something up by Wednesday.”

Another. “Father Geto! I just have to get your opinion on this recipe for the potluck-”

Another. “Give your parents a big hug for me won’t you! It’s been so long since I’ve seen them-”

And another. “And this is little Devon! He’ll be staying with me for the summer and he’s already enjoying the kids church service-”

Hands come and go within his grasp as he speaks with each one of them as they trail out. His father told him it was a way to build trust and community, and who was he to argue with the face of the church?

As he wishes one of the elderly women goodbye, Suguru keeps a watchful eye on her when she goes down the stairs. He turns back, starting a little when he’s met with your presence incoming. His body straightens up and you stand in front of him. “Father Geto?”

“That it is.”

Your hand extends in his direction. “Beautiful service. You have many who think the same.”

His eyes lower to your hand, glancing up to you when he takes it. The larger one warms your grasp. He lets out a soft breath. “I appreciate the flattery.”

You raise a brow at him. “Can’t be flattery, after all, your admirers would disagree too.”

Your words earn another exhale, this time with a faint laugh behind it. His slender eyes keep to yours, can’t finding himself to look away. Curiosity eats at him to ask. “If you don’t mind my asking, but are you new in town?”

“I am.” You answer politely. “My mother grew up here, wanted me to see her roots.”

“I’ll be the one to tell you that her roots were made in quite a small place.”

You chuckle softly. “Oh I’m quite aware. Still, it was one of the things she wanted us to do together before she passed.”

“I’m sorry for your loss.”

“Thank you.”

He watches you glance down at each other’s hands. Seeing that they’re still connected, the pastor pulls it away— hoping you wouldn’t notice how quick he did it. His eyes were lowered, so they had no choice but to follow upward. That meant scanning over your body and attire— a turtleneck dress and high boots with stockings. He straightens when his eyes reach your face. “And you are?”

You give him your full name, and he repeats it back to you. “It’s lovely.”

“Thank you.” You repeat.

Eventually, you head to the church doors. He follows behind as you were the last to leave. You turn back to give a final glance and him a final goodbye. “It was a pleasure to meet you, Father.”

“Likewise. I hope you to see your return to the church soon.”

“Perhaps.”

Your gazes never leave each other when he goes to shut the doors. The wooden beings echo with their closed status, knocking the air back into his lungs. His brows furrow. Why did he take notice to your clothing?

You dress nice, that’s all. The father shuts his eyes, shaking his head as he goes to tidy the pews.

#writing #priest!geto #priest!suguru #geto suguru #geto x y/n #geto x you #geto x reader #jjk geto #jjk #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen #priest au #a #getou suguru x reader

[neuvillettes]

killshot | d. ragnvindr

summary | the knights of favonius celebrate their new recruits at angel’s share tavern and one of them happens to catch the owner’s eye.

pairing | diluc x fem!reader

warning | swearing, smut, degradation, spitting, dacryphilia, mean diluc, virgin!reader, thigh riding, oral {fem recieving}, exhibitionism, gagging, plugging, panty stealing, heavily unedited, i think that’s everything rip

wc | 4.3k

a/n: i am incapable of writing smut without a plot rip. pls don’t come at me for it >.<

noisy. they were all being too loud. although you guess that was par for the course for the, now, drunkards you call colleagues. most of you had just been initiated into the knights of favonius, so your superior, cavalry captain kaeya alberich, insisted on taking you all out for drinks in celebration. initially you’d declined, not one for drinking, but he insisted. kaeya was unusually persistent about it, in fact. wanting to stay on his good side, you caved. now everyone was about 3-4 drinks in and you were currently regretting your decision to join.

you huff in annoyance as you relocate yourself to the bar, trying to get away from the noise without just outright leaving. not a moment later, kaeya is very loudly asking for you and you sigh again, trying not to roll your eyes as you watch the tall man saunter over to you. you make an effort to look unbothered by his presence and by the beaming smile on the captain’s face you seem to have succeeded.

“what’re you doin’ over here, fair knight?” kaeya leans on the bar while facing you, brow raised questioningly.

you let out a soft chuckle. “ just taking a breather, not much of a drinker and i can only take so much of those drunkards. i’ll come back in a bit.”

kaeya’s attention is momentarily taken by something else behind you before his eyes connect with yours once more. “promise?”

“yeah, promise. now go, before the other recruits do something stupid.” you shoo him as he mumbles something about not being a babysitter.

you observe them for a moment, everyone flocking to kaeya, you couldn’t imagine attracting that much attention, perfectly content with being in the shadows. kaeya, however didn’t seem to mind the attention. he even seemed to thrive on the admiration being thrown his way by the other recruits. your roll your eyes, do they have no shame? admiration is one thing, but outwardly throwing yourself at a superior like some of them were was borderline pathetic.

you sigh, wishing you had a buffer here with you. you weren’t particularly close with any of your colleagues. you tended to keep to yourself, or at least you tried. it was hard to keep attention off yourself when the cavalry captain had some sort of special interest in you. he was always admiring your form and dedication to training. you never understood it, you never thought you were any better than the rest of the recruits. kaeya alberich baffled you.

“the cavalry captain seems to have taken a liking to you, fair knight.” a silky and deep voice states from behind you.

you swivel in your stool to find the most stunning man you’ve laid your eyes upon. his fluffy, long, fiery red mane is pulled up into a high ponytail, loose bangs framing his face. his ruby eyes are piercing, glowing like the embers of a fire. he’s wearing a white vest over a partially unbuttoned black dress shirt with short sleeves that are rolled up to showcase his surprisingly large biceps. your stomach twists in knots just at the sight of him.

it takes you a moment to come out of your stupor to absorb what the bartender had said and you furrow your brow. “it does seem that way, doesn’t it?” you sigh while you pick up your cup to finish off your juice.

“oh? you’re not interested?” he notices your empty glass and goes to grab an unlabeled wine glass.

you’re quick to correct his actions. “ah- i’m actually drinking-“

“grape juice. don’t worry, i noticed. kaeya was very insistent with charles and i about making a glass of juice every time he came over for another round. i took note of who it was going to, just in case someone else came for drinks. this-“ he holds up the bottle, “is from my personal stash, kaeya is aware that i keep a case of hand made grape juice here.”

you blush at the thought of him paying attention to you. “i’m so sorry. i shouldn’t have assumed…”

“i’ll be the first to admit, it does look deceivingly a lot like wine. you didn’t answer my question earlier.” he raises an eyebrow at you.

you scrunch up your nose in distaste. “you caught on to that, huh? i’m not sure i’m inclined to answer that, seeing i don’t even know your name.”

“diluc. i’m diluc ragnvindr. it’s a pleasure to meet you…?”

your eyes widen at the name. you were quite familiar with it, having a mother that grew up in mondstadt. “you’re… uhm- yn ln. it’s nice to meet you as well.”

diluc watches a blush creep up onto your face, a blush his former brother was unable to make appear. despite his contempt toward the captain, diluc had to admit, kaeya had taste. you intrigued him, but more importantly, you intrigued kaeya. that made diluc want to toy with all the more.

“have you heard of me?” diluce easiy smiles and it seems to make you even more nervous.

you can’t help but to look away from his piercing gaze. “i might have heard a thing or two about you from some of the more seasoned knights. kaeya has even mentioned you by name a few times.”

“hope it was nothing bad.” the way you say kaeya’s name so easily, with a smile on your face makes diluc grind his teeth. you were so sweet and innocent, it made him want to absolutely ruin you. just then the group of knights become rowdier and burst into loud laughter and shouting. the red head observes as you cringe at the rise in volume and tap your fingers on your glass.

“you know, if you wanted to get away from all this noise for a moment, i could show you to the upstairs area. i close it off for private events like this.” your face brightens up at the mention of getting some actual peace, away from prying eyes.

you nod enthusiastically. “that would actually be amazing. i’m not one for all this noise. so to be able to escape it for a few moments? i think i’ll take you up on that offer.”

diluc nods at you with a grin before whispering something at the other bartender. the older man gives diluc a knowing look, that the both of you miss as he escorts you towards a roped off staircase. you make sure kaeya, or any of the other knights aren’t paying any attention to you as you slip away to the second floor with a man you just met. you didn’t want to give anyone the wrong impression.

diluc has other ideas, however. as you ascend the staircase diluc sneaks a glance at kaeya, who just happened to be looking up in that direction, they lock eyes before kaeya’s attention is drawn away by the disappearing figure behind the former knight. diluc puts the rope back in place behind him before following you up the stairs with a smug smile. leaving kaeya downstairs to chug the rest of his wine, feeling defeated.

you didn’t know what you were expecting, but seeing diluc join you surprised you nonetheless. “oh, are you sure you want to stay up with me? i’m rather boring…”

something in the man’s demeanor has changed. it made you nervous and excited all at once. diluc strides over to you and you stumble into a table. he traps you as he leans in and places his hands on either side of you, making himself eye level with you.

“you know what’s annoying?” his voice is lowered, almost husky as his breath fans over your face. you lean back and look up at him through your lashes.

“w-what is?”

diluc hooks his finger under your chin and runs his thumb across your cheek as his eyes wander to your parted lips. “that my fraud of a brother gets to work with someone such as yourself, someone so absolutely gorgeous, every day when he doesn’t deserve it and you deserve more.”

“brother? kaeya’s your…?” your eyebrows furrowed in confusion, this being the first time you’ve heard of any relationship between the seemingly polar opposite men.

the man luring over you chuckles condescendingly. “you must not be from mondstadt originally, most everyone here knows my father took kaeya in when we were children. to an outsider, however, since we are no longer close, they wouldn’t know. so, pet, where are you from?”

“a-ah… that obvious?” you chuckle nervously at the name. a blush rises to your face as his scent of cinnamon wafts over you and lingers in your nose, intoxicating you, “i’m from…fontaine, b-but my mother… she’s originally from mondstadt. she taught me to fight and- and when i got my vision…i made the decision to follow in her footsteps and become a knight of favonius.”

diluc hums and pulls away from you, but he clearly has no plan of letting you go. he pulls you with him and before you know it, he has you stumbling into his lap, straddling one of his thighs as he sits with his legs spread out. you make a noise of surprise and he laughs through his nose. his hands engulf your hips and his warmth invades your very being.

the dawn winery tycoon is more intoxicating than any alcohol you could drink in this tavern. he was dangerous, and yet, you found yourself giving in. your mind is going fuzzy like the very drunkards loudly cackling down below you, all you can think about is him and you stare at his lips, wondering what they feel like, what he tastes like, how sultry can he really make you feel?

diluc pushes you further into him, as if he can hear your thoughts, and glances at your mouth before leaning himself in the rest of the way and captures your lips. the kiss is heated and rough, he takes no time in trying to be gentle with you and you don’t try and stop him. the grip diluc has on your hips tightens, bruisingly so. he moves them to bring you as close as he can.

the friction causes you to whine out in surprise, the feeling of your clothed cunt grinding on his thigh sending a jolt of pleasure through your body. diluc smirks into the kiss and takes the opportunity to sink his tongue into your mouth and teases your own. he moves your hips back and forth a few more times before you begin to do it on your own. between the stimulation of his thigh and his mouth you can’t help but to let out whimpered gasps.

your hands are planted on his broad shoulders, bracing yourself as you move desperately back and forth. your fingers gripping onto the fabric of his shirt, knuckles lightened from the pressure. you detach your mouth from diluc’s, throwing it back as you heavily pant, trying to catch your breath as you muffle your noises.

diluc snickers. “didn’t even have to keep moving you, pet, you just started doing it on your own. you just that desperate, hm? look at you panting like a bitch in heat, it’s so pathetic. look at me.”

he lets go of one of your hips to grab your jaw and forces your head down to look at him. you’re gaze is unfocused, eyes glazed over in pleasure. diluc’s words fall on deaf ears as you’re close to reaching your first climax. you let out another whine ashis grip on your jaw tightens and his other grip shoves you down harder on his thigh.

“master diluc- sir, p-please…” you’re not sure what it is, exactly, that you’re asking for, but diluc does.

his lids flutter at the name you utter while babbling, and it makes him snap even further. he squeezes your cheeks roughly. “open up. now.” he orders.

you utter out, “yes, sir, but- fuck- gonna… gonna cum, ‘m s’close. please….” before you do as you’re told, unable to miss the authority in his voice. you open your mouth, instinctually sticking your tongue out for him.

diluc hums, “so good for me, fair knight. take this first, then you can cum, alright?”

the red head doesn’t wait for your response as he tilts your head back and hovers his face over yours once again. he lets a string of spit fall into your mouth and your eyes widen at how lewd the action is. when the saliva hits your tongue you let your eyes roll back at the taste of him. he holds your mouth open letting the rest messily spill in. the last of it trailing off and drooling over your lip. diluc notices and licks up any excess then lets go of your face.

“swallow.” diluc demands and as you do so, the tightening coil inside of you finally snaps and you release a garbled moan. doing as he told and barely being able to wait to let yourself reach your peak. in your euphoria you slump over and bite into diluc’s shoulder in an attempt to mute your noises. it’s not very effective but it’s enough to keep your noises from reaching the tavern patrons below. diluc hisses at your noise canceling methods but can’t help the way his cock twitches at the feeling.

you’re still reeling from your orgasm as diluc cups your ass and picks you up. you gasp in surprise as the sudden movement catches you off guard. within the same moment, you’re being laid out on the table you were previously sitting at. despite having come down from your high, your mind is still foggy and it takes you a moment to fully register what’s happening. that is until diluc’s hands are traveling up your body and hooks his fingers at the waistband of your spandex pants that, in diluc’s mind, don’t leave much to the imagination.

as diluc peels back the clothing, exposing your skin and glistening cunt, you immediately shut your legs. you’re not used to someone gazing upon your most intimate parts. it made you weary, yet, you didn’t want to stop. diluc catches on to your actions and furrows his brow. he’s silent for a moment as the two of you just stare at one another. then something akin to a light bulb turning on brightens up diluc’s face in realization.

his voice is incredulous as he speaks, “what’s this? my fair knight, have you never been touhed before”

a blush flourishes on your features and you find it hard to keep eye contact. you turn your head in embarrassment and bring the back of your hand up to cover the bottom half of your face. “the opportunity- it’s n-never arisen, no….”

diluc hums and you see him lower to his knees from the corner of your eye. you look over to him in surprise as he grips your thighs and pulls you into him. his mouth level with your core. you can feel his warm breath fanning over your needy cunt and you squirm.

“w-what are you…”

diluc raises a brow at you in amusement. “i need to make sure your properly prepared before you can take my cock, pet.”

your eyes widen at his words. “diluc…”

“i much prefer the name you called me earlier.” he tuts, giving you a look of playful disappointment.

your eyebrows scrunched together before what he meant hits you. “sir…”

the tycoon hums in approval and darts out his tongue to lick a stripe up your drooling cunt. your hands immediately fly to his mane and tug. you’re given another hum of approval and you don’t have time to worry whether you were pulling too harshly. he repeats his previous ministrations before pulling back and scolding you.

you whine at the loss of contact, eyes flying open to gape at him. “you’re far too loud. those drunk knights down there are going to hear how much of a whore you really are. do you want that?” you shake your head. “then keep it down, or i’ll have to shove your underwear in your mouth to shut you up myself.”

you almost let out a whimper but narrowly manage to keep it in as diluc dives back in. this time his tongue is focused solely on your clit. your nails scratch at his scalp in anticipation as you feel one of his fingers poke at your entrance. he plays with your hole, gathering at much slick onto his finger as he can. when he’s satisfied with how wet his fingers are he slowly sinks one into you.

your toes curl and back arches at the feeling. diluc smiles proudly at your reaction, wrapping his lips around your clit and sucking harshly. you can’t help yourself, you let out a string of whimper moans. his finger starts pumping in and out of you at a slow pace, he’s making sure to curl the digit and rotate his wrist, focusing on touching every inch inside of you.

your grip on diluc hair tightens as he continues to explore your ticks. your whimpered moans turn into desperates ones as you feel another finger prodding at your entrance. the stretch you feel as diluc pushes the second finger into you is divine. you almost scream out. the pain of the stretch as he rubs along your velvety walls makes your head spin in the best way possible.

you let out the most sinful moan and it has diluc growing impatient as his already strained cock twitches and leaks in his pants. “diluc- sir- fuck, feels s’good… want more, please, please, please. need more of you s’bad.”

your babbling is slurred and diluc can tell you’re getting close. he leans back, mouth detaching from your clit and pumps his fingers into you a few more time before removing them as well. you let out a whine at the sudden end to your pleasure. looking up at diluc, suddenly alert, you watch as he stands up and fumbles with his pants.

the questioning look on your face dies when he successfully unbuttons his trousers and let’s them, along with his underwear, drop to the floor. he let’s a sigh of relief as his cock is finally set free. you stare at it and gulp at the sheer size and girth. your head spinning once more at the thought of him even fitting inside of you.

you look up to diluc, barely having registered that he’s moved in closer with something balled up in his fist. you’re pouting as you voice your concerns. “will-will it even fit?”

your bottom lip is trembling in anticipation and diluc coos. “of course it will, pet. don’t worry, i’ll be gentle. at first. now, as much as i would love for kaeya to hear how much of a whore you can be for me, i don’t like the thought of anyone else being able to hear those pretty noises but me. so i need you to open up for me again.”

your eyes widen at his crude words but open your mouth nonetheless. diluc reveals that the thing he had crumpled up in his hand was your panties. he grins wickedly at your gaze and stuffs the material into your mouth. “you look so pretty like this, cunt drooling and on full display, mouth gagged with your own panties. you look so scandalous, fair knight, and to think you’re only a virgin. don’t worry, pet. i’ll make sure to absolutely ruin you.”

diluc runs his shaft through your folds, mixing your juices with his and collecting them onto his cock. his thumb is pressing into your swollen clit and he makes just enough friction there to have you squirming. you let out muffled whimpers and pleas. diluc lines himself up with your entrance and halts for a moment to look at you earnestly. he shifts himself and interlocks his hand with one of yours.

“if it’s too much, squeeze my hand twice, i’ll stop.” you’re caught off guard by his change in demeanor. your heart melts at his concern and you nod, trying to convey your appreciation through your eyes.

“just relax for me now, okay?” diluc slowly sinks the head of his cock into your tight hole and your back arches and eyes prick with tears as the sting of the stretch engulfs you. diluc is true to his word and takes his time bottoming out. your breathing heavily as he stills and slowly the sting subsides and turns into pleasure.

“fuck- you’re so fuckin’ tight, pet. feel s’good wrapped around my cock like this. you ready for me to start moving?” the red head hums and looks to you expectantly. your eager to nod your head and he chuckles. “such a desperate little knight, huh? even though i just took your innocence, you want more. greedy, aren’t we? so pathetic…”

diluc pulls almost all the way only to snap his hips back into yours. you let out a muffled scream, not fully prepared for the sudden movements. now that you had adjusted, diluc didn’t waste any time with properly fucking you into the table. his cock bullying into your cunt harshly, hips crashing with yours as his pelvis brushed against your clit.

diluc reaches over to sneak an arm under your and pushes them up to press against your chest. he has you folded into a mating press and the new angle has the tip of his cock stumbling into your sweet spot with every thrust. you’re letting out muffled cries, tears flowing down your cheeks as the stimulation is almost too much.

diluc groans as quietly as he can as he feels you start to clamp down on his length. you squeeze his hand that’s still holding yours to warn him that you’re close. “gonna cum again for me? already that close, pet? just hold on a little longer for me. gotta cum with you. just hold on…”

diluc is starting to babble as he gets closer to his own release. his hips movements begin to stutter and become sloppy. your back is arched and eyes blurry with tears as you try to plead with him to let you cum. it doesn;t take long for diluc to get to the edge with you.

his words the final push you need. “gonna cum now, cum with me, be a good pet and come with me- fuck fuck fuck…”

your walls spasm and you let out a muffled wail as you come crashing down. your orgasm making your vision go white. diluc’s cock throbs as he spills his seed into your pulsing cunt. he continues to languidly thrust, stimulating you through your highs and fucking his cum into you. your completely spent as your vision returns.

diluc slumps over and onto you with a grunt. he looks up at you and reaches out to remove the cloth from your mouth. you let out a gasped pant, trying to catch your breath. diluc peppers kisses along your jawline before pushing himself back up and finally pulling out of you. he watches as some of his cum spills out of you, he collects it with your panties and stuffs them into you to plug you up. your jolt at the action, feeling far too sensitive.

diluc chuckles breathily. “sorry, darling. can’t have you making a mess of the taverns table now. wait right here for me. i need to get you some water and something to clean you up with. i’ll be right back.” he leans down and places a tender kiss to your forehead, then the tip of your nose and finally your lips. when he pulls back, he waits for a response and you simply nod.

diluc dresses himself and fixes his ponytail that you had successfully ruined with all your tugging. he disappears down the staircase and reappears a few minutes later. a damp towel and glass of water in hand. he carefully removes your underwear, stuffing them into his pocket to keep. he cleans you up with the warm towel and helps you put your pants back on. he sits down and pulls you into his lap once more before handing you a glass of water.

you thank him and greedily drink from the glass. “you know, kaeya approached me while i was down there.”

you look at him curiously, urging him to go on. he chuckles at how cute you look right now and tucks away a loose strand of hair from your face. “he asked me if you were feeling alright, apparently he heard some groaning.”

you splutter and almost choke on your water as diluc barks out a hearty laugh while patting your back soothingly. you wipe your mouth and look at him wide eyed and flushed. “w-what did you tell him?”

“i simply told him that your stomach was hurting. he seemed to believe it or, at the very least, that’s what he wanted to believe…” he grins at you mischievously.

you let out a dejected groan. “for my sake, i hope he actually did believe you.”

“don’t think i would mind if he didn’t. have to let him know somehow that you’re mine now and he can’t try and play with you anymore.”

you scowl at the tycoon but there’s no malice behind it. “yours? i don’t remember agreeing to that and i’m not sure i would.”

“come home with me tonight, let me change your mind with a few more rounds and breakfast in the morning.” diluc rests his chin on your shoulder and looks at you expectantly.

you make the mistake of looking at him, unable to say no to a face like that you sigh, knowing well that you’re going to cave. looks like you were going to have to break your promise of coming back to kaeya.

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tagged by @teekays and @tofumilanesa thank you comrades 😌😌

Make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Then, tag as many people as you have WIPs.

i also dk why i am answering this bc i am not actively working on anything rn bc i'm determined to finish trans roope by the notacow deadline but i'm terrified of what's happening in that document too. i think i've been working on it for so long that the problems in it are like...mythical...like bigfoot they started out small and normal and now got blown out of proportion there are museums and statues dedicated to the problems there are t-shirts celebrating the problems and hikes where you can go see where there were sightings of the problems. rapidly reaching that plateau of needing to nut up and ask for a beta or cheerleader. actually probably hit that plateau about a year ago but the ordeal of being perceived struggling persists.

other than that just editing poetry for submission, mostly waffling on new titles for the lorna poem and the bay area mutuals poem. they make sense TO ME but idk if they make sense thematically to anyone else. but yk. the title is part of the poem for me so if it doesn't open the door to the poem or cause you to go back and chew on it, then it's a bad title. so i guess that's my other wip: titles of poems

#idk like. highkey i've only really fallen in love with 2 fics i've written this year #so it's hard to get excited about writing fic #i have some ideas percolating for puck luck fest but idk i've just been very creatively dry lately for everything not just writing #i HAVE been thinking abt committing to my recs blog harder?? my fic backlog is so bad and i need an external push #well anyway. i need water this is more navelgazey than intended lmao #fresno oilers.txt

[paracosmworldbuilding]

Pirate101 has made my views on the Spiral's religion/mythology system more complicated

From the viewpoint of Wizard101, there are 3 primordial gods (Raven, Spider, and Bartleby). There's also the Titans, who are powerful beings who control fire, ice, and storm respectively. But that's it. Sure we actively meet the Immortals (who are the Spiral's version of the Greek Gods) but they aren't actually gods, right? They're just powerful magic users who are immortal for some reason. There's no actual evidence in Wizzy, where we meet and fight them, that they're actually powerful gods. And then Pirate101 comes along and yup, they are in fact powerful god like beings

There's also the Native American (Cool Ranch Bison) spirit gods. General spirits that Witch Doctors commune with and draw power from, ect.

I consider that, in the context of the Spiral, the Immortals and the Spirits (both types) are the same kinda thing (which I will collectively be referring to as Spirits).

So there's a sort of "God" hierarchy in the Spiral.

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At the bottom we have the Spirits. Powerful enough to grant powers to others and have some limited level of power over their worlds. (I think the Divine Paradox/Scion of Bartleby, Mellori, and The Bat would kinda be a part of this level as the mortal aspects/children of Raven, Spider, and Bartleby)

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Next we have the Titans, the children of Spider and Raven. They have power over the three most important elements (fire, ice, and storm) in the Spiral. They're extremely powerful and can have control over the whole Spiral, not just a single world. Luckily they're in a magic eternal sleep otherwise they'd finish what they started and completely destroy the Spiral. However, even in their slumber, their power persists

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And at the top we have Bartleby, Raven, and Spider. The Primordial Gods. The ones who created the Spiral. The ones who hold it together. And the ones who have the most power to destroy it. There would be no magic, no life, no Spiral without the 3 of them, despite how badly Raven wanted to remove all of Spider's influence from the Spiral but he is a critical part of it and the Spiral cannot exist without him just as it can't without Raven or Bartleby

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Also this isn't even mentioning whatever the fuck is going on with Monquista's tree and banana Catholicism (tho I do think this one just goes back to Bartleby but it somehow got twisted a bit on the way) and whatever or whoever the fuck Marleybone's churches are dedicated to

#pirate101 #p101 #w101 #wizard101 #lore #headcanon #wizard101 headcanon #pirate101 headcanon #wizzy #pitty101 #wizzy101

[modernmanblues]

i’ve just finished going through everyone’s beautiful messages that they put on my virtual christmas tree and i cannot tell you how moved i am with the amount of love and affection i received from all of you. i am eternally grateful for having the kindest, warmest and most loving group of mutuals and i cannot ask for anything better. i think all of you have realised by now just how passionate i am about my interests, and when i talk about them, i go above and beyond hyping them up. i know that not a whole lot of you know about 10cc, and that’s fine because that was me about a year ago. but i gave them an entire year, to see if the obsession would persist or simply fizzle out. but here i am a year later, talking about the same gosh darn group that i drove me bonkers for an entire month last year. whether or not you care about 10cc is besides the point because one thing’s for sure. through all of this chaos, they gave me something wonderful. they brought me closer to all of you, and that’s something money cannot buy. you all are very special to me, and i may not say or show it often but i do cherish everyone’s friendship deeply.

i will leave you with this now. the beatles were my childhood, and i still love them to this day don’t get me wrong. but 10cc represent this current era of my life. i’m still trying to figure what this new era in my life is all about but i have a feeling it’s going to be a great one. i’ve said this before, and i will continue to say it—10cc are what the beatles were and still are to me…just you know, a more grown up version of course. after all, there are no rules for how many bands you can dedicate your entire life to now, are there?

#personal #soap box

[ivnhgo]

meditation guide for anyone to be able to meditate

Well, first thing to know is that meditation is more related to the state of consciousness than a posture or dogma. We should seek comfortable methods of meditation until we can exercise this state of mind and manage to practice practices that could be more complex for our needs as a body and an individual.

body: Being with the body still is a good technique to understand and disconnect the body, but it is not the only one. The effect of the lack of stimuli or the excess of them is the same in the end, so try to hyper-stimulate your senses if you find it difficult to stay still, loud music, lots of perfumes, lots of lights and visual stimuli and even and not least the very repeated movement of the body, like a mantra. it even has the same effect.

breathing: this part is important! focus your thoughts on your breathing at first, count it with numbers in your head to make it easier. see yourself breathing in and out, feel every cell in your body doing it, in cyclical time. I suggest an equal time of 4 to inhale 4 holding 4 exhaling and 4 holding. but you can and should adapt these times to the needs of your body, (ex: 4,2,4,2), as long as you respect this cycle until it becomes automatic in your body, most likely your first meditations will be just learning breathing and it's ok, it's already a good experience, keep training your body for it.

visualization: After mastering the breathing thing, the next step is to direct your mind to something or somewhere, for that we must train to visualize things and the beginning of this is to learn to clear the mind. As soon as you realize that your body has automated cyclic breathing you should focus on clearing your mind and not thinking about anything. (I know it's very difficult, but that's the challenge, and I guarantee that it's not only possible but it's a great tool if mastered) things that can help in this exercise, in addition to hyperstimulation of the senses and mantras and repeated movements or elation (remember to respect the limits of your body), is to take time to think about everything your mind wants to think about, and let go as possible from these thoughts, as if they came and went in a train car until there was none left. visualizing a blank room or the universe but focusing on abstracting it is a good idea to start as well. this exercise and practice should accompany you throughout your life, even when you master this technique and move on to more complex visualizations, it is ideal to dedicate time a day to clear your mind and be nothing and be everything at the same time.

time: start doing what you can for at least 5 minutes, use the alarm clock. from two to 3 days doing the same time or until you feel comfortable, you will hardly be able to reach the stages of visualization at the beginning or in that time of 5 min which is ok, from the third day increase to 10, because you You will already be more familiar with what you need to do and you will have more time to practice without feeling uncomfortable, I recommend spaces of 2 to 3 days to increase the time by 5 min, or until you feel comfortable. don't get frustrated with your progress, be patient with yourself, try to persist in the exercise for at least 21 days, time for your body to get used to all this. the ideal is that a meditation practice lasts from 30min to 1 hour.

finishing: try to go back calmly, start looking at your feet or touching the ground. It is possible to feel nauseous during the meditations, but it shouldn't be anything stronger than that, if you feel really sick, stop the exercise and try to analyze what might have gone wrong. always remembering to respect the limits of the body and seeking this self-knowledge. it is interesting to do the process on an empty stomach but it is not a rule. It is highly recommended that after such a process you eat a cookie or a piece of meat or grain to facilitate the process of your mind understanding that you have returned to the "real world".

GL <3

#magick #kaosmagick #criptoarte #meditation #witchcraft #technomancer

[punishing-eden]

Hey, it's me, again. Ah, sorry if I ask too much, you can deny or reject this request if that's you want.

Can I request here?

Well, as you can see I am no longer in burnout condition, but something else happen for these weeks. Looks like I got stumbled on pretty hard at Thesis, to the point I got hard pressure from my parents who want me to graduate soon, and I cant stop crying(including blueish nail and got cold) since last night. The lecturer that reviewed my Thesis on college is known as killer type and often make other student feel down. Some of them already gave up and didnt wanna to continue their project.

So, can I get some comfort words during these situation with Chrome? Because I don't wanna gave up yet.

Thanks for read this message, I hope admin have a great and blessed day ☺️

COMMUNICATION REQUEST : Chrome

Accepted

Strike Hawk: Chrome to Grey Raven: Commandant @runnipost dedicated channel - ██████████████████ 100%

Open? ▼

Commandant,

This certainly reminds me of the past...

Well, I don't think I should share about it, but your situation does bring back memories of mine.

I certainly did my fair share of Thesis and Research papers. I do remember how hard it was for me too.

Your message reached me well, and if you were to ask for my opinion... Your troubles are understandable, yet, I also feel there is an emotional component to your distress.

It isn't uncommon for professors or academic peers to criticize your Thesis.

Their words might sting, and their tone might be harsh. But, personally, I might think it gives one insight to things that they are lacking. Just so, they can do or make something better.

I would advice to focus on yourself for the time being, and do what you need to do. Shut out all the external distractions, even if they are persistent.

That's what I would do. I may not be writing a Thesis, but there were times where other commandants and the higher ups make demands of me. Thus, distracting me from focusing on more important matters. So, I understand what it's like.

Remember to take a rest too, like I said before. To hear you got sick really gets me worried. At the same time, to see you getting through obstacles after obstacles, really inspires me to strive forward.

I wish you the best on your additional studies, Commandant. I am looking forward to hear about your graduation, I am sure Kamui would love to hear about it too.

- Chrome

COMMUNICATION ENDED...

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((Hi, how are you doing? I hope things are getting better. I know during the final year, uni can be hectic, so I feel like emotions are running high for you.

Which, I think the 'external distractions' as Chrome said, was what amped you to feel so distraught. Like your parents, peers who have given up and the graduation.etc.

And I think you might felt emotionally overwhelmed with so many things to worry about. Chrome has a point about focusing on yourself and do what you need to do first. Which, is to finish your Thesis or some other projects.

Is there some way you can keep the external worries at bay for the time being, such as asking your parents to not talk about things that makes you worry. Or, there is some other way?

I am glad that you don't want to give up yet, because you are so close to the finishing line! You can do it. Chrome and I believe in you!

-Lyeca))

#punishing gray raven #pgr #punishing eden #punishing: gray raven #pgr chrome #comms request #Ask #pgr role play #roleplay

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

Selfshiptember, Day 3; Photo Booth Pictures

ship: tomjesse/checkers and stripes

prompt: photo booth pictures

↬ another visit to a.sdfland, everything goes swell! I promise~ also this is low-key dedicated to to.rd's birthday a few days ago!

Birthdays are always celebrated through some sort of outing, right? The common guess is always a day out in the restaurant — but T.ord begs to differ. Who needs birthday cakes when you can visit the greatest attraction in England?

"We should go to A.sdfland!" the gleefully childish man in red suggests. It's his birthday, he should get what he wants.

"Hey, that's actually a great idea!" Edd surprisingly digs this idea, it's pretty obvious that even grown men would love to have fun somewhere.

Matt happily agrees as well, and again ponders about what kind of new toys exist in the claw machines. Persistent as always with collections if it's not about his face.

Tom didn't really mind, he does like the idea of having fun and he's more of a beverage type of guy instead of food.

Everyone agreed among with other, each friend started enlisting their what-to-do plans for the moment they reach there. Edd calms the crowd for a bit, and the banter settles down.

"It somehow feels a bit lacking if it's just all 4 of us. Should we try to invite someone?" He's just as considerate, one's got to realize that you can go to a fun fair with the same set of faces and it didn't have to be a birthday.

The crowd goes completely silent, then all faces suddenly look at Tom, who's crossing his arms and is simply waiting for the conversation to finish.

The sudden eye darts towards him, startled him a bit. The irony when people could be afraid of his eyeless nature. He started shifting stares at all of his friends.

"... did I do something?"

"You should go invite her, Tom."

Oh, he gets it now. They want her to tag along, alrighty then.

"I'm sorry?" Tom was a little defensive, he attempts to beg more answer and reason through his somewhat rhetorical question.

"Y'know, Jesse! You should invite your girlfriend over!" T.ord elaborates further, his hand motions make it seem like that he's annoyed, I mean who ELSE would Tom be thinking?

Tom winces at them calling her, his "girlfriend." he's still not used to them acknowledging it now that they're an item. He looks away for a bit to ponder how he should reply, and looks back at them.

"Why don't you guys try calling her?" He's not the type to always pester her, he felt like she needs her own space too... even if she didn't even mind it.

"Man, you're making this so complicated." To.rd held his forehead with his hand, and his other holding his waist. "You're literally the man who kissed her, what's stopping you from talking to her?"

Again, Tom felt weird having them acknowledge how affectionate he could be. His friends knew him to be the, at least sane person in their group. It's still a new thing for them to see — when that crucial aspect of him is gone when Jesse exists.

"Okay, okay stop, this is getting weird." Tom waved his hands back and fourth, trying to mentally block himself from thinking about how they basically know their relationship to be so romantic

"I, I just don't like nagging her all the time because I know she has a lot of time on her hands, and I'd feel bad if she tried to adjust herself to me, who doesn't really do anything, and-"

"Jesse said she's coming." Matt cut Tom off. Of course Matt did something, they're practically best friends. Piece of cake.

Tom choked on his words at the sudden abruptness — why did he have to explain himself? Is he just that insecure about being annoying?

"Thanks for checking, Matt!" T.ord sounded excited, he and Jesse had been getting close lately and he looks forward to hang with her again.

"She'll be waiting by the park herself, it's best we drive there now."

"Wait, we're not picking her up?" Edd sounded concerned.

"She's just that kind of person." Matt shrugged.

Or she's just embarrassed to be squeezed in the car with several boys and one of them being in a relationship with her. Anyways.

The boys travel, with Edd handling the wheel as usual, Tom is in the front row seat directing Edd with the help of a map. Matt and T.ord talked to each other at the backseat, but all came to a stop when they feel the car pause in motion, Edd found a parking spot now and it's time to walk out.

"Yay, we're here!" Matt opens the car door in his respective corner, and steps out. Everyone else follows, and stretched their arms and back. The car can be cramped if there's too many people. T.ord also immediately grabbed a party hat that reads out "Happy Birthday!". He's taking this seriously.

"Lollipops, you look so ridiculous." Tom uttered a shorter nickname of what To.rd would hate hearing.

"It's MY birthday, I get to do what I want." the red friend crossed his arms, and scoffed. He's not gonna let that fork hair guy ruin his day.

"Jesse's up ahead, let's go say hi!" Edd notices her idling at the front of the ticket booth, she's using her phone but hasn't noticed them yet. She's also wearing a small backpack that had a few cute keychains and pins of whatever represented her interests.

Matt, upon hearing about her presence nearby, proceeds to run to her excitedly. You can hear him scream her name, and it eventually fades out in distance. Edd laughed at his reaction, you can't separate him from her for too long.

The others followed, Tom and T.ord continued to spit salty stares at each other. Come on, just have some fun please?

"Hiya Jesse!" Edd waved at her. Matt is standing next to her, leaning on her shoulder and hooking her arm to his. Jesse tries to look at the two guys behind the green lad. Jesse noted To.rd's birthday hat, and chuckled to herself.

The two battling friends still continued their shenanigans. To.rd notices her staring and immediately and harshly elbowing Tom to make him realize she's there. His sharp stab made Tom winces and recoils at the pain, he didn't have to be so strong for this? The blue friend suddenly realizes her, looking straight at him — he immediately straightens his posture and awkwardly greets her, but his aching pains made him lean over again.

"H-hi, Jesse." He can hear T.ord snickering at his unusual behavior.

She reacts with a cute smile, tilting her head a bit to the side, and waving back at him. Though she was a little concerned about that elbow gig just now. "You okay there?"

"Who, me? Pfft, yeah I'm fine, don't worry!"

His inconsistent behavior made his friends laugh, it's so funny and admirable. Tom's trying to show that he's alright just to not make her worry, she's always like that.

Breaking the awkward tension, Edd reminds everyone. "Alright, let's go pay our entries."

Everyone gazed at the busy view that ASD.FLand offered, it's bustling with kids and adults alike, sharing one common trait; having tons of fun. The friends distributed their token coins evenly for everyone to have a shot at every attraction they wished.

"I'm going to the shooting arcades as usual." T.ord announces, and reviews his coins. Clinking of small metal could be heard as he recounts his share.

"I'm going to the claw machines!" Matt adds.

"Don't ask for our coins if you don't get anything."

"Pfft, whatever. I'll ace this in one go!"

The friends gave unconvinced stares at Matt, they KNOW he's going to beg on his knees to spare him even just one coin.

"Yeah, sure." Edd doesn't believe him. "Anyways, I'll probably take the rollercoaster! I love the pictures that they take."

They all nodded at Edd's plans.

"I'll go look around... maybe." Tom sounded unsure.

"Maybe I'll go get some snacks for everyone!" the lady suggests.

"Aww, Jesse. We just came — now you're buying candy floss?" Edd looks back at her, a little disappointed that she's always taking initiative to look out for everyone.

"Oh, it's nothing!" Jesse brushes her hand downward as a way to brush past his statement. "I want some candy floss anyways,"

Sighing, Edd can't really stop her. He's just glad she's willing to do this for everyone.

"I'll leave it to you then, we're going off!"

"Go be her bodyguard or something!" To.rd throws an idea at them, leaving the awkward couple embarrassed.

Edd, Matt and To.rd bids their goodbyes to Tom and Jesse. They're going to take awhile before coming back.

The silence kicks in, and they both look at each other. "You can go on ahead, Tomee. Don't worry about me."

The sudden utterance of his nickname caught him by surprise, prompting him to clear his throat even if his cheeks began to burn a little.

"O-okay then."

Noting his response, she smiles and takes her leave as well. She's heading to the food corner which is the opposite side of where they are.

Tom's alone. What should he do now? He's actually not really sure. He was going to visit the arcades too — but he refuses to be bothered by To.rd into challenging each other with video games and potential betting which he's not willing to give money to if ever he DID lose.

He's going to walk around for now. Perhaps what catches his eye first will make him go for it.

Zooming through all the buildings, there's certainly so much to do. There's children playing with water guns, a couple playing that can throwing game, people buying food. Everyone's having fun... but him. Not that it bothered him, he just noticed the difference.

A few steps after, he sees a photo booth corner. It looks like it's being used, he also notices a small familiar bag.... with cute chains and pins... wait. Jesse's here?

A sudden urge compels him to check the person behind the curtain of the booth. Didn't she say that she's going to buy some snacks later?

To answer his question, he walks to the booth and opens the curtain.

It was a brown haired girl, who was already prepared for her next shot, but upon sharing eye contact with Tom, she yelped in surprise.

"Tom?!"

A flash of white light occured. Looks like the photo captured this accident...

It was indeed Jesse, taking photos of herself in the photo booth. Now he felt kind of bad, suddenly barging in like that, did he ruin her personal fun? He's overthinking again.

"S-sorry, wait — I'll go ahead now-"

He steps out of the booth, but felt his arm being pulled back into the curtain.

"Wait, wait!" she was pulling his blue sleeve.

"You can... come join me, if you'd like?" she sounds a little hesitant, but she really means it.

Looking back at her, he gives a pitiful look. "But I ruined one of your shots, you might want to retake them again."

"Then let's take some shots together!"

He felt his insides shoot up in surprise, the thought sounds so lovely to begin with.

"Okay... sure."

He walks inside the booth and sits next to her. He still felt like he invaded her privacy, and she only did this because she didn't want to single him out.

"You know Tom, I wouldn't be mad if you try 'bother' me." emphasis on bother. She's referring to his little internal worries of which he felt like he's always bothering her.

"I like it when you approach me." She reassures.

"It makes me feel happy that I'm someone you'd love to talk to. I can always say no when I don't feel like it."

Hearing that, made him feel relieved. She's a great listener, and he could talk about anything he liked without being stopped or getting uninteresting. He couldn't say anything, his comforted smile was enough to respond to her.

"Sheesh, Jesse. Aren't we here to smile for the camera? You're going to make me cry." he didn't wanna sound sentimental at the moment, even if it meant so much to him at that moment...

She laughs and leans on his shoulder. Her soft hair meets with his cheeks, it had a lovely fragrance to it.

"Hahah, oops. I just like to talk to you." she pokes fun at him. She knows her words of comfort hit him, he just deflected them by leaving a sarcastic remark because he's not willing to be sentimental at this hour.

"Okay, let's start one up!"

She boots up the machine to prepare for the first shot. A simple smiling shot will do. Jesse smiles, her cheeks rises and it grows in warm red. He follows by giving a more relaxed and smile. And a flash.

"You're photogenic."

"Oh, come on."

It's true though. She's always so pretty to him no matter what. If he's being honest, he was staring at her during the shot. She wouldn't be able to tell where he's looking, since his eyes are that of a void.

Moving on, they took a more silly shot, she pulled up a duck face with her palms on her cheeks, he pulled the skin near his eyes downward, and poked his tongue out. And a flash.

This kept going for a bit, until they prepare for the last few shots. Tom plots for an idea.

"Okay, here's the next one!" she poses for the camera. She notices her boyfriend not doing anything. He's just looking at the camera. She was a bit confused, but proceeded with the picture taking.

The moment the screen counted to one, Tom immediately plants a kiss on her cheek. Her eyes widened at that moment, her lips were zipped shut in surprise. And a flash.

She quickly stares at him, her hands on her mouth in surprise. "D-did you just-"

"Yeah." he was snickering at her incredibly adorable reaction. He's going to try it again.

He presses the button for another shot, and leans in to give her another peck, on her lips this time. The timer started, but a person suddenly pulls the curtain.

"Oh, hey — Matt! They're here- AAAYOOO HOLY SHIIIIIITTTTT-"

Out of nowhere, Tor.d and his dumb birthday hat pokes inside of the booth and watches TOM, of ALL PEOPLE — kiss her!

His mouth dropped in happy surprise. Edd and Matt quickly pokes their head inside the booth and violently reacts at the sight of Tom kissing Jesse. And a flash.

They're still.... in that same position... the couple that is.

"T.ord."

Tom finally speaks. Not looking back at them. Jesse looks behind them, starting to giggle."

"T.ord you gotta run." Edd whispers back at him.

A moment of silence.

To.rd suddenly books it out, using Matt as a speed boost by pushing his hands on Matt's back and causing him to fall over and yelp.

Tom immediately dashes out of the booth to chase after To.rd, followed by Jesse and Edd wheezing into a laughing fit.

Despite the chaos that ensued just now, Jesse notices the booth printing out the completed photos. The last one made her chuckle. The image showed she and Tom sharing a lovely kiss, while Tor.d, Matt and Edd stood there in frozen shock, each friend having a different set of reactions.

She remembers she still has to buy candy floss, but she'll watch her boyfriend attempt to catch their friend for now.

↬ WOOOOOOOOO THAT'S A WRAP!!! I intended to make this one a drawing, but I've exhausted my drawing abilities today so have a drabble instead! this one gave me so much moments to just think and fangirl over HSHSBSJSJEJJSHSHSHHSHS because I'm finally writing fluff of these two like AWWAWAEAEWEEEE <333 I didn't proofread properly because I'll prepare lunch after this so excuse any errors~

#selfshiptember2022 #selfshiptember #♥️ tomjesse #~ writing

[onelonelyghostt]

Magnus Archives OC

The first thing I did once I finished the TMA and I felt like I needed to share.

CW : death and suicide and depression (and also spoiler warning for TMA)

Description 

Name: Charley Smyth

Appearance: Charley is a tall and slight young adult with dark hair and piercings. They often dress in an outfit that looks like it's been plucked from an after-school cartoon, with a flannel shirt, graphic tee, and torn jeans.

Avatarship: Charley is an avatar of both The Lonely and The End due to their work as a 999 and suicide helpline operator. For some reason, the people they talk to instead of being helped or filled with hope they are driven to distance themselves from everyone around them and eventually kill themselves, truly believing that nobody would notice if they weren't there.

Background: Charley had a sad childhood surrounded by trauma, which is why they took the jobs they did. They felt a sense of responsibility to help those who were struggling with feelings of loneliness and despair, likely because they had felt those same emotions themselves.

Personality: Charley is a deeply empathetic person who genuinely wants to help others, but they are haunted by the sense that they are ultimately powerless to prevent the suicides of those they talk to. They struggle with their own feelings of loneliness and isolation, and have a difficult time forming meaningful connections with others. Despite this, they are fiercely dedicated to their work and continue to take calls even though they know it will take a toll on their mental health.

Weaknesses: Charley's biggest weakness is their tendency to take on the emotional burdens of others, to the point where it starts to affect their own mental and emotional wellbeing. They struggle to draw boundaries and prioritise their own self-care, which can lead to burnout and mental exhaustion.

Strengths: Charley's greatest strength is their ability to connect with people on a deep, emotional level. They are skilled at listening and validating the experiences of others, which can be incredibly helpful for those who are struggling. They are also very persistent, and will go to great lengths to try and help someone who is in distress.

Overall, Charley is a complex and compelling character with a rich backstory and a unique role to play in the world of the Magnus Archives.

Statement

Statement of Charley Smyth, a helpline operator.

Statement given 11th of March , 2016

Statement Begins

 I've been working as a 999 and suicide helpline operator for a few years now. It's not an easy job, but I do it because I believe that everyone deserves to be heard, even if they don't think they matter.

 Most of the calls I get are from people who feel like nobody cares about them. They're convinced that if they disappeared, nobody would even notice. And the worst part is, sometimes they're right.

 I've lost count of how many times I've talked to someone and then...they're just gone. It's like they've vanished into thin air. Nobody reports them missing, nobody seems to care that they're gone.

 It's like they were never really here at all.

 It's hard to explain how that makes me feel. Sometimes I'm angry, sometimes I'm just numb. But most of the time, I'm just...lonely.

 It's a strange thing, feeling so disconnected from the people I talk to every day. I can't help but wonder what happens to them once we hang up. Do they feel better? Or do they just sink deeper into despair?

 And then there are the ones who don't call back. The ones who just...disappear. It's like they were already halfway gone before they even picked up the phone.

 It's a lot to deal with, and sometimes it feels like there's no point in even trying. But I can't give up. I won't give up.

 Because as long as there's even one person out there who needs me, I have to keep trying. I have to keep fighting, no matter how hopeless it seems.

 I don't know what the future holds, or if I'm even making a difference. But I do know one thing: I won't stop trying. Not now, not ever.

Statement Ends

Post-Statement

This statement by Charley is a perplexing one, to say the least. At first, I was tempted to brush it off as the ramblings of a delusional mind. But upon closer inspection, there are aspects of their story that don't add up.

For one, Charley seems to be an empathetic and compassionate person, drawn to a profession that seeks to help others. And yet, they describe a strange phenomenon in which the people they talk to become convinced that they are alone and that nobody would notice if they were gone. It's a kind of isolation that's not quite physical, but more of a deep, existential dread. It's a feeling that I've encountered before, in those who have been touched by The Lonely.

But there's something else going on here as well. The fact that these people go on to take their own lives, and seem to be driven to do so by the very feelings that Charley is trying to help them overcome, suggests a darker force at work. It's almost as if they are being pushed towards suicide by an outside influence, an entity that seeks to bring about the end of life. Could this be The End, another of the entities that we have documented at the Magnus Institute?

It's a strange and contradictory situation, and one that leaves me with more questions than answers. What kind of person is drawn to the work of a suicide hotline, and what kind of entity would seek to exploit that work for its own ends? And what kind of person can be an avatar of two different entities at the same time? It's a mystery that may never be fully solved, but one that I will continue to investigate nonetheless.

#the magnus archives #magnus archives #tma #oc #tma podcast #rusty quill tma #jonathan sims #the archivist #the end #the lonely

[lokisprettygirl]

First off, LOVE the new bluey look on your blog ❤❤. Second these chapters are making me hungry (not just for food) and angry, so hangry. Question: You can actually stop eating ice cream??? Are you god? I can not keep it down without finishing the whole cup and maybe lick it a little after. About rogers, I've wanted to kill this man from the very start but now he's making me so mad. I don't think I even want to kill him anymore. Give him to thanos for torture, don't let this fucker have the sweet realise of death 🤬🤬. Bluey loves her😭😭, he's so cute. I wanna see what he'll do when he finds out what rogers did. Why does he keep thinking he hurt her???😢 he's precious he'd never do that, doesn't he know? Tell himmm. I think getting him his memories will solve the rogers problem. He'll deal with him on his own just fine. But at same time I don't want the fluffy and smutty times to end😭. Bluey is making it so hard by being so persistent. I wouldn't be able to stop myself, she must be really really nice. It's so sweet😌

About writing long chapters, I think I made it clear that I don't mind reading any amount of writing done by you😂. Long chapters are the one's I love the most❤. Honestly no pressure on you but I wouldn't mind getting a chapter as long as a book or as short as single sentence. Even if you wrote just blah blah for the whole chapter and one line at the end I would like that still. Neither would I mind if you update a new chapter, however long every single hour😅. ( I told you unhealthy level). Write whatever you're comfy with, I'll always love that. And I think most of us do🙃, I assure you I definitely do❤.

🧁

Thank you for noticing. I'm so obsessed with bluey that I had to dedicate the blog to him, I kind of like how nobody is calling him loki anymore 🤣

Answer : actually personally I can't keep the ice cream down myself but considering that she got a whole tub I guess it was too much for them. 😆

Rogers is different type of evil, he's a power hungry sycophant and would do anything to earn it. You have full permission to do whatever you want to do to him . Feed him to sharks.

Awhh I think it's because he's so clingy, he feels like he's capable of hurting her when he's being that way :( His memory loss is holding him back and for now all he wants to do is be with her and just feel all the love.

Thank you so much my dear, I really appreciate that. I honestly can't write anything under 2k when I'm writing chapters for a series, so you are going to mid sized chapters. Don't mind me if I'm blabbing nonsense, I'm sleep deprived 🤣

Love and appreciate all the support. Thank you for your sweet words 💚❤️

#asks #🧁 anon #hear me now

[dashawfrostart]

This Week In "Time & Again" #11: Still Colouring, And Some Distractions

So... I have a few internet-posting goals for the close future. I know that I keep saying that all the time, but - since I'm an interwebs hermit, and I've been this way for, like, at least 10 years of my life now (and I have zero regrets 😁) - going online to post something takes an enormous mental effort from me. This is probably what happens when ageing, too. Every time I think about that, I just feel like those dogs from the funny videos who are being scolded for doing something their two-legged companions do not appreciate. So, basically and in a nutshell, this is my face when I think about going online to post stuff:

(source: https://makeagif.com/i/UyVZCW) And after all... why would I distract myself from work anyway? 😁 However, I really want more people to get acquainted with Lothar and Jeanny, and Edgar, and Winston, and Beatnik (oops, giant spoilers), and Daniel (oops, even more spoilers), and all of those other weirdos that our violent lovers meet on their strange path towards happiness (hopefully, because, truly, sometimes it's very difficult to say). So this is something that must be done eventually, so I will persevere😁💪 Rolling up my sleeves already!

Anyways, we know that Valentine's Day is coming! And I already have an artwork prepared to be uploaded very soon. Since in December last year I skipped a Christmas and New Years artwork, breaking my own good tradition and ever so slightly ruining a nice progression in the completion of my "2023 Pre-Christmas To-Do List", I figured I really should not delay with this one. And after all, everybody likes a little bit of spicy to set the mood for the upcoming Valentine's Day 😉 (and most of my Valentine's Day artworks are usually nothing short of "spicy" 😁 well, because they have to be that way).

I also made a totally random artwork, because I wanted to practice drawing certain something, a design element I would love to incorporate into my art style - so I came up with an idea to draw a parody of sorts. And it makes me really happy. It felt... rather refreshing. It gave me extra energy and happiness that I could use to continue working on the colouring for the actual chapter. Working so hard on the chapters of "Time & Again", I almost forgot how it feels to draw something random. Or something out of canon. Something simply for the fun of it. Many years ago most of my artworks used to be random and they were dedicated to random, various things and sometimes people. It was good. Now, since "Time & Again" to me is no less that a self-invented job (yeah, pretty much, for better or worse), I almost never do random funny and cute arts anymore, nevermind my greeting cards store had no updates from last year whatsoever... "Time & Again" might sound like a sort of obsession - but that is merely because I really, really, REALLY want to finish it up as soon as I can, because everyone should know what happened to Lothar and Jeanny and how they manage. Even if the confusion about the timelines still persists - but it's twice as fun this way! 😁

A fun observation: there's something in Lothar that I absolutely hate colouring! And the thing is absolutely essential to that particular dirtymouth individual! And the thing is... His glasses. Don't get me wrong! I love his glasses, the way they match his appearance, and that tiny bit of extra sexiness he magically acquires when wearing them. But dear goodness gracious, boy do I ever hate colouring them! 😤 It usually takes me at least 3 layers (lineart inclusive) to colour them, and then I have to arrange all the layers in the proper order. If the rest of the colours - including the skin and the clothing, but excluding special shiny/textured surfaces, if present - take me only one - ONE! - puny layer to make everything as it should be, then the glasses alone - that effing pathetic piece of... accessory! - take at least 2 layers of colouring. 3 with extra shine. Duuuuh. And they appear on every each panel with Lothar, because he wears them all the time. Geez, man! I hope sometime in the future that hot yet disgusting guy gets himself a pair of smart contacts with the built-in voice activated UI overlays. I'm sure he's rich enough to afford such a gimmicky thing. That will free me from a lot of extra work!.. (imagining things? entertaining my designer's hunger? foreshadowing? who knows?!?!;)))

... Which lead me to another one thought about the simplification of the colouring process. You see, with the colouring the way I do it, there's a lot of "automatic" work that is not really creative, one might say. I just need to fill the certain areas of the lineart with a certain colour and remove all the unfilled pixels afterwards... which is just a process of clicking, selecting areas and colours, and filling those areas with the right colours. And it's... kinda tedious. And monotonous. To be 100% fair, it's getting old fairly quickly. Now, shading and adding lighting effects is totally different. But filling the areas with the plain, flat colour prior to applying the shading... is incredibly "mechanical" to me. And my idea was... an AI program to do that. YES, YES, I KNOOOOW YOU'RE EITHER TURNING YOUR BACK ON ME NOW OR DOING THE ROBERT DOWNEY JR. MEME FACE after hearing (reading?) what I just said. I know the whole world just split into 2 groups of people who say either "AI yay!" or "AI nay!". Because, well, you see, human beings really enjoy disagreeing with each other, so there always has to be a reason (says I, cynically). My experience with AI is fairly limited as of now, but as a computer nerd - and a wife of yet another one computer nerd, for the full picture - the new technology mesmerizes me. I was shocked when ChatGPT named me the game I had trouble remembering the title of simply by my extremely vague (and partially wrong!) description - and it did it right off the bat, from the first try. I was utterly mind-blown. We've already heard a lot about AIs ruining the artists' works and yada yada, and we're not gonna touch this topic right now. But since AIs are capable of manipulation with the visual material, then why not teach it to automate the rather tedious processes in creating art while still keeping the essential "human" involvement intact? I would definitely use some nice program to automate the "select and fill, rinse and repeat" part of my work on Chapter 5 and potentially all the future chapters. An algorithm that would recognize the characters by their facial/bodily features and automatically colour them according to the colour scheme I created earlier (so, no random green hair if the character is blond, and no brown eyes if the eye colour must be blue, for example). Or something along the lines of that. Dammit, that would really make the work of the human artists so much faster whenever needed! I vote for this! I will hope from now on that somebody makes me a Krita extension with such a functionality now 😁

Deary me! I can't believe this actually happened! Sorta!.. I think this might be potentially the shortest blog post that I've written IN YEARS!.. Wowza! Apparently I can do that when I'm not trying, haha (but isn't it always this way?..😑 come to think of it, shopping works this way, too: when you're looking for something specific, you can never find it anywhere around!)

Sorry, no gifs today (aside from the funny dog one above). Moreover, when I looked into my screenshots folder, I have discovered that I did not take any this time while I've been working on the colouring like mad. This is sad, perhaps... So let me fix this! Here's a random screenshot that is very difficult to unsee, and it makes me super, super happy - especially considering what's actually happening in the story while Lothar is so... high? (would that be the right word in this situation? 🤔 man, sharing screenshots of random panels from the comic out of context is fairly odd)

... And now, I disappear into my little and comfy tree hollow, ruffling my feathers, so that I could work more on Chapter 5. Gotta make it stellar, after all! So I need more time in my tree hollow! Silky smooth! (ok, I start to get carried away associatively, so I better stop. Bye! See you soon in the next update!.. ah daaaaw, the next blog post! 👋)

#TimeAndAgainbyDWF #This Week In Time And Again #graphic novel

[stormyreadingsxx]

It is January 12th, and the lunar cycle starts over again. Our moon has reappeared and is growing larger, reflecting our intentions starting to manifest. This is the beautiful beginning, we prepare to do it all over again. It’s not about getting everything finished, today. It’s just about taking the first step.

Our Moon Goddess is in Aquarius, a fixed air sign.

“Your relationship with your emotions might be more complicated, because Moon in Aquarius has a strong need for emotional freedom. However, when you are in a group of people, it is easier for you to understand your feelings and free yourself from negative emotions such as fear, anger and jealousy.”

The needs of the group vs. the needs of the individual can be hard to oscillate between. Feelings and emotions are seen as things that can bog us down and get in the way. Today can be all about using them as fuel for accomplishment. A powerful person can alchemize uncomfortable feels into enlightenment into their own psyche. Knowing most people fight a similar battle can be comforting.

From my deck, I pulled:

The Ten Of Cups:

Divine love, blissful relationships, harmony, alignment

The suit of Tens is all about completion. Success. Graduation. In this case, success in the realm of your feelings. Maybe you reach a breakthrough about a habit of thought. Forgive yourself for your own harsh judgements. Make a promise to yourself to think about more positive things. We just made it through the lunar cycle and we’re at a fresh start. This card bodes well for our advancement in our own understanding. If you take a hard look at yourself, the rewards could be endless.

Coincidentally, I also pulled:

The Ten Of Pentacles:

 Wealth, financial security, family, long-term success, contribution

The same card in the earthen sign, signaling the material and one’s career. What generates our finances and what we spend them on. This card also signals completion. Hard work and dedication has paid off. Even if it seems like the work isn’t done, this card is telling you it’ll all work out. The material world will not be an issue for much longer, this Ten sees you having lots of stable future success. Perhaps, unlocking our emotions and motivations is the key to a luxurious reality. The one of our making.

My Pythia deck seems a little more reserved, though. I pulled:

Scabiosa- Devil’s Bit: this is a card steering readers to persist against the corrosive temper of envy. Malevolent forces lurk, fearing your potential for good will. It may be too late - your idealism may already be maimed. But fractured roots still flourish, and often in new directions.

Borage- Lethe Of The Heart: a card drawn to instill peace between personal battles, moving you to find lulls of passionate repose. A token of courage among woes, Borage is a glowing ember of perseverance.

It is easy to get carried away, especially with the jubilant forecast from my Ethereal Visions deck. You can be open and positive, but still protective of your energy and endeavors. And, like I said. These next few days are all about first steps, not rushing to accomplish everything you can think of. Rest and self care is required for any sort of success. Sometimes, it is our feelings and the way we think that hold us back. Like doubting your own capabilities or talking yourself out of even trying something. Take a deep breath and a step back. Completion is on the horizon, but only after you replenish yourself.

#Lunar reading #the moon #waxing moon #lunar cycle #Tarot #tarot reading #tarot pull #oracle #oracle deck #Ten of Cups #Ten Of Pentacles #astrology

[kouros-herc]

For the second day of Christmas your true love gave to you, A re-imagining of disney songs for your characters @kenneth-carson

Character Study/Discussion below

Benjamin Drakken - Go The Distance

Like a lot of these, at first glance it seems mad BUT hear me out. One of the things that makes Drakken compelling as a character and a baddie is his persistence and drive and intensity. All qualities we might praise him for if his goal wasn't ... you know, global domination. I think this song can be re-imagined to that sort of intense passion and dedication to his goal.

Ken Carson (ft. Hercules) - Love Is An Open Door

While I don't mean this as a sort of romantic thing, Ken is a character who is discovering his life outside his family and the metaphorical enclosure of that! Herc is likewise looking for people in his life he can let in and share it with and embrace and this song as so much of that naive but endearing warmth about it. Also "we finish each others-" "Sandwiches!" "Thats what I was going to say!" is canonical Kerc dumbassery.

Gabriella Marino (ft. Eric (SOB)) - Love Will Find A Way

First off I am so sorry. But tragic lovers doomed by their opposition in the narratives of their lives who despite that are able to get to know each other as people and ... mean a lot to each other ... I'm not wrong.

Qin Su - What Else Can I Do?

Su is a badass! A witch finding her feet and grappling with what she wants her specialty to be and how to embrace her gifts towards the area of plants and wood witchery? I think this song captures some of that excitement and energy and intrigue. What else can Su do? I can't wait to see.

David Hatter - When Will My Life Begin?

It's on account of Keanue's long luscious locks. Joking! But it's actually because I see Hatter as a man who accidentally hit pause on his life a long time ago - he had to, he had his little siblings to look after and his personal dreams had to take a back seat. So he's been going through life being brilliant at what he does but is he really living. Hopefully Marlin can help him explore that a bit more!

Cruz Ramirez - I'll Make A Man Magic Grand Prix Champion Out Of You

Who wouldn't want to see a Cruz training montage of her being awesome and whipping her new recruits into shape! Cruz is a teacher and a leader and dedicates herself to helping people bring the very best out of themselves, and she deserves a main character moment musical number to celebrate that.

James Jones Sr (ft. James Jones Jr) - Mine, Mine, Mine

Sorry to assign Hook a rampant capitalist villain song but I like the way this song also has that element of disdain for other people in it that we've seen with Hook's hatred of Magicks. We also see some of the chip on the shoulder of the rejection from high society with the stuff about how he'll be able to gain favour with everyone at court by his exploits. I also just think that the John Smith half of the song sort of fits into how young James is this idealistic adventurer who things all of this will be some grand adventure! Which is maybe not exactly the reality of life as a pirate and magick hunter.

Toby Determined - Almost There

I know how much you've spoken about Toby having this desire to be great and brilliant and how that constantly motivates him to push boundaries and maybe push through some of them sometimes. So I thought that sentiment of reaching out for something that is just out of reach but you can almost feel would fit him in an interesting way.

#this may be incoherent #but it makes sense to me

[claveeight52]

What Does Relationship Advice: The Basics, Problems, Tips & More Do?

Tips for Building a Healthy Relationship Wish to really feel loved and connected to your partner? Listed here are some suggestions for how to construct a partnership along with a brand new companion. 1. Create on Your Dating Experience People are various than they look and feel You may presume that one-third of women have experienced some level of informal partner problems, some degree of rejection, some degree of partnership loss or injury, or some degree of desertion. But that is simply not practical. These tips can easily help you construct and maintain a charming connection that’s healthy and balanced, satisfied, and delighting. When speaking concerning how to crack up, this can take a couple of additional few seconds along with some persistence. But that is simply a component of this chat that is commonly understated—you are helping make a lot of space for life. Always keep it beneficial, be tolerant, and have exciting. Don't worry if you want to relocate past that. Do you want to damage up? Developing a healthy partnership All romantic relationships go via ups and downs and they all take work, dedication, and a willingness to adapt and transform with your companion. Having said that, being able to be a confident, beneficial, and sincere partner that really recognizes who you are also issues. Being a partner who is available and inclusive with your companion is incredibly essential to the excellence of your marital relationship and may be merely what will certainly create your relationship job. But whether your relationship is simply starting out or you’ve been with each other for years, there are actually measures you may take to construct a well-balanced partnership. If you've recently began going out with the folks you simply complied with, don't be surprised when your partnership crack down. When you know your preliminary borders, it's almost as if you've broken up along with them and want to move on coming from it. When you stop really feeling unhappy, you simply don't want to take over. Even if you’ve experienced a lot of stopped working partnerships in the past times or have had a hard time before to renew the fires of love in your current partnership, you can easily discover means to remain connected, discover satisfaction, and appreciate lasting joy. If you or your companion is not experiencing you can easily think about getting wed in the happening times. It appears that possessing an remarkable connection is a great factor. It may be a good way to start to produce it simpler in the future. Every relationship is unique, and individuals happen with each other for numerous different causes. One point you can easily find out from an interaction is not to permit it acquire boring or to invest an evening and a half receiving together and not get jealous. Rather, devote your time doing traits you enjoy doing and taking opportunity to enjoy them for themselves. Locate something that satisfies your companion and you'll find it a results. This is what a positive relationship looks like on average. Component of what determines a healthy and balanced relationship is sharing a usual objective for specifically what you prefer the partnership to be and where you want it to go. This has actually to be a base of your relationship as properly. For a satisfied relationship I locate that one of the most effective methods to create a healthy and balanced connection is to acquire to recognize each various other as considerably as feasible. Being open to a chat with one another is something that individuals look for when it happens to their partnerships and connections work. And that’s something you’ll only know through talking heavily and honestly with your partner. Your partner will be even more than pleased to permit you recognize the fact in their eyes. But you can leave some of that sense for my pal. Allow me finish along with some guidance for you – as I claimed, you may count on his vocal. When you are with someone like me you discover from that man's example of sincerity. Nonetheless, there are actually also The Most Complete Run-Down that many healthy and balanced partnerships have in usual. These feature: Connections are developed at all opportunities, also within a family members This helps make it less complicated for couples to find brand new info than traditional types of courting that are generally linked along with household disputes. It also minimizes the potential problems and challenges surrounding our marital relationships, making it possible for us to develop in to one really unified and caring relationship. These attributes may also be found by incorporating the qualities of relationship, loved ones and individual fulfillment.

Knowing these fundamental guidelines may aid keep your relationship purposeful, satisfying and interesting whatever targets you’re working towards or challenges you’re dealing with all together. If you have experienced an problem which has induced you to shed trust in your life, whether it be in handling with temper, misery or aggravation, you may be a really good candidate to help you solve the concern. Produce certain you know what is going on in your lifestyle. You maintain a meaningful emotional link along with each other. You give everyone a beneficial encounter through having them sign up with you. Whether you're in a celebration or on stage – if you have a really good opportunity – you obtain the satisfaction of seeing a smile disperse all over the majority of of your face. Being capable to connect your emotions along with your buddies and family may be fantastic for your health and wellness and you can likewise be a fantastic means to reconnect along with a more comprehensive assortment of folks. You each help make the other feel loved and psychologically satisfied. It's like a fantastic loved ones time! It's therefore much even more pleasurable. It's a truly unique time that I look back to and value for myself and my loved ones. You additionally produce the space for a wide-ranging talk regarding how music may enhance your lifestyle. Do you believe it has actually anything to with writing, working, meeting people, courting or anything else? Let us know in the comments!

#divorce #dating #date #relationship

[vivisdoingthings]

Unit D8 Conclusion

When I started this project, I had three main aspirations: to improve my piano skills, my songwriting and music theory knowledge and my production skills. As a whole, I think I was successful; this project has been incredibly fruitful for me. I believe that I have genuinely developed over the course of this project - the skills I have developed are invaluable and will serve me in the future when I am working in the industry.   

Specifically my music theory and songwriting knowledge and skills have come on a long way since before the project. Recency bias aside, I much prefer the songs I wrote during the latter half of the process, rather than the earlier songs. Now, I have much more confidence and ability for creating unique progressions, due to my more well-rounded understanding of them and how they work. In the future, my knowledge of musical theory will be even more crucial than it was during this project, as I will often be working with other professional musicans, so it is important to me that my knowledge is of the highest standard it can be. 

Additionally, my production skills have evolved greatly. Before I went into this project, I had minimal experience in recording and producing things all by myself. I was taking on such a large and intimidating challenge by producing and mixing everything myself, which turned out to be a lot of hardwork. However, again, I am pleased that I did, because it was informative and educational, as well as being extremely fun; there was something so rewarding about being able to see the progress I was making in such a short term. I taught myself to always be creative and try new things everytime I was in the studio, making sure no session was quite the same. Also, my practical skills improved tremendously as well - by the time I was finished, I was comfortable with navigating the mixing desk and the studio, which I know will be extremely helpful if I am to get any studio engineering or producing jobs in the future. However, I must admit that unfortunately my mixing skills did not improve at quite the same rate. I still learnt new things and progressed, but I am aware that I still have quite a long way to go. This is why from this point onwards, I will continue to practice mixing. 

Whilst I definitely did improve my piano skills, they unfortunately did not have the chance to develop as fast as my production and songwriting skills. One reason for this is that I did not spend as much time on it as my other ambitions; I was always working on something during the project, but I think I had some trouble splitting my time equally between each of them. If I had dedicated more time to learning and practicing the piano, my abilities would have improved even more. My knowledge for constructing chords, progressions and melodies on the instrument improved a lot, but technically, there is still much to learn and master. Again, I will continue to develop my skills after the project is over. Another reason was the fact that I did not have a piano to practice with at him. As home practice is so important for my development, I missed out on a lot of opportunities to improve, as well as some of my technical skills diminishing over time without practice. The silver lining of this is that I now know that I will purchase a keyboard; I know that I will persist with learning, rather than giving up. Once I have my own instrument that I can practice at home all the time, I will progress even further. 

In conclusion, even though there were some challenges during the course of the project and all my skills did not progress the same amount, I still think it was successful. I undeniably know more and have more experience than I did before I started, with the abilities that I have developed serving as the foundation for future learning and progression.