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pedrigavi · 1 year

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a night to regret pt. 2

pablo gavi x reader

part 1 here

wc: 566

warnings: angst, bad dialogue (im not a writer im sorry im trying my best), swearing but not too much

pictures of last night kept blowing up your phone. your boyfriend pablo with a girl you didn’t recognize, pretty sure he had not met her before last night, but that didn’t stop him from having her in his lap.

you had spent all your tears crying at pedri’s house, feeling guilty because of a fight with pablo that you couldn’t even remember this morning. you know gavi had called you, you heard pedri talking to him on the phone while you were trying not to fall asleep once again on his couch, tired and feeling a headache come from all the crying.

you went home as soon as pedri hung up, just wanting to find your boyfriend in your bed and wanting to leave every piece of anger behind. your relationship felt more important than that.

except when you came home, pablo wasn’t there, he wasn’t in bed, nor on the couch, nowhere to be seen. you didn’t call him, maybe that was your mistake.

now you knew where he was, in the club, too close to someone else for him to think about missing you, maybe that was his mistake.

you didn’t know what to feel, betrayed, angry, mostly just hurt. how could he do this?

while you were trying to gather your thoughts, you heard the keys turn in the door.

pablo.

“hey”

“hey? you are pictured with another girl in your lap and all you can say is hey?”

“i’m sorry” he pleaded “i can explain, you were with pedri, and i was angry, and i love you but i don’t know how to-”

you cut him off. “i was with pedri because you left me alone, i didn’t leave you, i didn’t turn away from you” you tried to stop the tears but it was too late.

after a moment of silence, he sighed and said “i know”. and that he did, he knew, he knew he had to hold you, no, he needed to hold you, to feel you close, as if he could never hold his girlfriend after this, as this was his last chance.

“did you kiss her?” you asked scared.

“i was mad, but i would never do that to you, you have to believe me, please” he looked sincere, you thought, his eyes could never lie to you, you knew them all too well. you had spent too many hours studying his face, all the colors in his eyes, and counting his eyelashes.

you had nothing left to say, so you just kissed him, he wasn’t forgiven, pablo knew that, but he didn’t care. he would do anything to keep having the privilege to kiss you,

“last night won’t ever happen again, or you will never hear from me again, understood?”

pablo smiled softly and nodded. he understood. still too scared to talk and fuck it up.

so he did the next best thing he could think of, picked you up, carried you both to your shared bed, and held you until you fell asleep.

pablo didn’t feel like sleeping, so he just admired how the light hit your face, and cursed himself for almost forgetting what seeing your face did to him.

he regretted the previous night, and even if he couldn’t erase it from both of your brains, he knew he could make every next night you’d both share from now on much more memorable.

#gavi x reader #pablo gavi x reader #pablo gavi #pablo gavi imagine #gavi #gavi imagine #pedri #sorry im not good at dialogue

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highkeykithes · 2 years

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The Forbidden Embrace

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Synopsis: Ran has been in his head too much lately.

Pairing: (Bonten!) Ran Haitani x (Fem!) Reader

Contains: Mother!Reader, Father!Ran, Angst?, Fluff!

A/N: This is also posted on my ao3 acc - 3AMVIBE

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The soft sheets cover the bottom half of your body, waist down. Your chest rose up and down with every breath that emerged from your parted lips. You were laid sideways, arms stretched out and curving around your sons body.

Your boyfriend sat on that opposite side, legs off the bed as he faces the vanity placed in your shared room. The mirror had a few pictures of you and him, mostly ones from the beginning of your relationship. The new ones were stored around the home. But he wasn’t focused on that, he was more focused on himself in the mirror.

His violet eyes stare deep into his own features, bruises and scars covering his face.

“ Ran ?”

The man’s body jolted, but he kept his stare on himself in the mirror.

You rub your eyes as you sit up. “You alright?” You asked.

Why were you even with him? All he did was cause you trouble. You and your son.

You were supposed to get up early to drop off your son at daycare—which your college provides—before going to your morning classes. but not this early. He screwed up your sleep, again.

Just earlier you were studying and caring for your son. You had to stop taking notes just to open the door for him. You washed his clothes while he was in the shower before you accompanied him as he ate the dinner you warmed up from earlier. You talked with him about his day along with showing him the photos your son's daycare sends you when he’s in their care. As much as it is comforting to him, he can tell by your droopy eyes that you would rather be in bed.

He got you pregnant at such an early age in life. I mean, who willingly wants to get pregnant at twenty two years old? no wonder why you were tired all the time.

He would always talk about wanting kids. So the moment you found out you were pregnant, was the moment you decided you were going to be a mother.

And you did become a mother, at twenty three.

Oh and you were such a wonderful mom to your guys’ five month old son. putting him first instead of your studies. throughout the very start of your pregnancy you put school on hold. you finally enrolled back into it a few months ago.

You were doing all of it for a better life for your family.

All he is, is just a fuck up.

A hand smoothing its way over his shoulder snaps him back into reality, averting his eyes from his own. He looks to the side and there you are, right behind him. Your guys son is still close to the headboard.

Both your arms snake over his shoulders and cross over his chest. You were on your knees as your head rested against his own. His loose hair rubbing against yours.

“rough night?” You mumble, meeting his eyes in the mirror.

His lips part, wanting to say something. Anything. But no words could come out.

“Wanna talk about it?”

about what. how he doesn’t deserve you?

No, he didn't want to talk. He didn’t want to talk about anything.

“[son name] missed you…” your fingers run through his hair, your other caressing his cheek. “He would not stop playing with my locket” you softly smile, staring at the necklace he got you for your birthday neatly displayed on your mirror.

You looked back at your son's father, a smile turning into a brief frown when you noticed he didn’t even budge.

You mentally sigh and retreat your hands. You move yourself over the bed, careful not to wake up your son. You take a seat next to the man and shuffle your arm under his left, reaching to intertwine your hands.

Looking in the mirror you could tell your son's features favored his fathers. His pastel violet eyes are curtained by [color] hair. He already had the same face structure as Ran. He had baby fat, but you could tell [son name] would grow up into a masculine body.

You avert your eyes down to where your hands connect. you smile…

“I think I might quit school”

Ran almost immediately snaps back into reality once again and stares down at you. His lips part with furrowed brows. “What? Why?” He tried to keep quiet, afraid your son might wake up.

You pat his arm before rubbing it. “I don’t want [son name] being taken care of by random people. I want him to know I'm his mom and that I’m the only one who's supposed to be taking care of him” Your thumb brushes over his knuckles.

“you are his mother, [name]”

You shake your head. “What mother makes others take care of their children” You had tears threatening to form in your eyes, it had Ran wanting to cry too.

“Mikey said if I needed to I could take time off to help whenever!” He informs, releasing your hand so he can kneel in front of you. His hands on your thighs as his face looks up at you.

You reach a hand out and caress his cheek as you shake your head, “Mikey…” You could feel Ran lean into your touch, worried eyes still glued on to you. “You’re a man who provides for his family, keep it that way” you state, raising your other hand to cup his other cheek. “Let’s not fuck up like our parents did, okay?” You softly spoke.

But he already did. He’s a part of the biggest gang in Japan. He murders people. And he got you, a college student pregnant. What else can he do that’ll make him a horrible person.

“you’re so close to finishing school—” He lifts a hand from your thigh, using it to pinch his fingers centimeters apart to express his words. However, you caught his hand with yours and pushed it back down.

“Ran” The second time you called him by his name that night. It made his body go stiff as his ears opened wider than normal. A single breath leaves his parted lips, saving the rest until you’re done speaking.

“I don’t want my child in someone else’s care. I don’t want them to experience his first steps or words. And I don’t want you missing them either” You start off, going back to combing his hair with your fingers. “Plus, isn’t that the reason we live in a gated home? Isn’t that the reason Mikey’s gone so easy on you missing meetings or jobs? Because he understands a child needs his father as much as the father needs his child” Your words never left his head. And he knew they never would.

You were so genuine with the way you spoke, along with the words you chose to use. Your smile is deeply engraved in his mind, as well as your beautiful features. The way you care for your child and never get upset or complain about his recent absences. Hell, even sometimes you have to remind him how to hold [son name]. And your laugh when doing so is just music to his ears.

Ran’s lips briefly quiver as you finish your sentence. He lines them shut and closes his eyes before throwing himself forward and wrapping his arms around your lower body. His head leaning on your chest, his own body now between your legs. His grip was tight, never wanting to let you go.

You were taken aback by his sudden action. Your smile erased as your mouth was now the one parted. Your arms were no longer around him, just stilled in the air from where they once were.

Ran’s slender arms softly dig into your back. “ I love you so much ” His words are muffled in your shirt, but you always understand him. “ I love you, I love [son name], I love Rindou… ” You could hear him starting to choke on his words.

You wanted to tear up hearing him mention his brother. You blink which causes a few tears to spill. Finally, you wrap your arms around him and lean down to rest the side of your face on the top of his head. You smile…

“marry me, Ran Haitani ”

The man fully breaks down. He lets his tears fall, staining your shirt as brief gasps escape his mouth. You could feel his body shaking and jerking with every air he intakes. His arms around you loosened and fell on the bed, only his head on your chest and knees on the ground hold him up.

“Shh, shh” You quietly call out past sobs as you rub your hand up and down his back. “you’re gonna wake up [son name]” you smile.

You pull his head back and shuffle out of his arms, walking behind him to your vanity.

He continues to sit there, staring at the ground as he occasionally wipes his tears and runny nose. His shoulders twitch up with every gasp he made, jaw starting to hurt from the clench.

He hears you shuffling in the bottom drawer, but he refuses to look. Only when you walk back and scoot your back against the bed right next to him is when he turns his head. You two were at perfect eye level, your body’s close enough to feel each other’s warmth.

You open up your cupped hands and reflecting in his violet eyes were two rich, silver, diamond rings. The jewelry sparkled like stars; however, they weren’t as close to beautiful as you.

“Nothing can symbolize our love. Not these rings, not even [son name]. Only we can prove our love to one another” You reach a hand out and gently turn his head so he completely faces you. “Will you, Ran Haitani, be my husband?” You wipe some tears off his face.

You loved him. You will always love him.

You’re marrying him because you love him .

Ran didn’t waste another second, he shuffled to his feet and picked you up on the way. He then lets go of you before using those same hands to wrap under your arms, pulling you close to his chest.

“Only if you want to be my wife, no matter what” His words were clearer now. He was no longer crying out tears of sadness, but they were now tears of reassurance.

You give little space between you both, pressing your foreheads together so you two can look down at the rings in your hand.

You take one, and he takes the other. Ran chuckles past a cough and sniffles one last time.

Carefully and softly, Ran puts the ring on you first. The piece of jewelry sliding over your ring finger is so perfect, as if it was the final puzzle piece. And damn did diamonds look good on you.

You then took Rans left hand, using your right to slide on his ring. “I’m tired of referring to you as a boyfriend” You smile, rubbing his knuckles once the ring reaches the base. “Plus, you’re the only man I would do anything for. except [son name], obviously” you giggle, using your other hand to brush against his cheek.

Rans tears we’re long gone, unless you count the stained ones on his face and your shirt. But god was he so happy.

He wanted to call Rindou, Sanzu, Mikey, everyone! He wanted to tell them the good news. Of course he’d get teased for not being the one doing the proposal, but he couldn’t care less.

“Why are you, a college student, buying expensive rings like this?” He mumbles, pulling your body’s close together. his arms around you as he places a soft kiss on your forehead.

You lean into his chest and copy his actions. “I was asking Rin about your ring size. Hajime overheard and immediately texted me that he would buy them” You admit, trailing shapes on his back.

The man scoffs. “He spoils you guys too much” He says, referring to you and the baby on the bed who Koko was the godfather too.

Speaking of the baby, the infant began making coo’s while scrunching his face as he twisted around the dark brown sheets.

Ran let’s go of you first, making his way back over to the bed and looming over it to pick up his son. He cradles [son name] in his arms, immediately quieting him down. He didn’t even get a chance to open his eyes, he fell back into a deep slumber next to his fathers warm chest.

“He heard about the celebration and wanted to join” he rocks him side to side. “ mama and papa are finally getting married? whaaaat ” he voices for the infant, making you smile.

He looks up to you. “So which guys know about this?” He asked.

You shrug and wave it off. “not that much” you assure, taking a seat next to him as you softly kiss your son's head. “Rin, Hajime, Mikey, Sanzu, Kakucho…” you trail off, already using up a hand to count.

Ran doesn’t mind. Right now all he wanted to think about was his family. You and [son name].

He never imagined when he first met you that you would be the mother of his child.

You were in the middle of your gap year making extra cash to buy textbooks. You worked at a club where the main men of Bonten would usually be found a few times every other week.

You worked behind the counter until your boss said you had some people requesting you to be their server. Your boss was all about money, so he tended to bend the rules a little. you agreed since most of the men at the club liked to tip big time. dancers and servers.

One night you were assigned to Bontens private room. You practically stayed there the entire night since they paid for full stay. You would take their request, go back out to the counter, and rerouted back to them.

At the end of the night their boss, Mikey, had threatened that if you told a living soul about their meeting he would personally kill you with his own hands. The others gave teasing remarks towards you and your features.

But Ran, your now so ever loving husband, was the last to leave that night. He had told you that you were just way too pretty to be working somewhere like there. That was it. Just one flirty comment.

Ever since then, Mikey requested you be their server whenever they were there. And every time, each of them would leave their own tip. Every time, Ran would tip you the most followed by a new comment.

Now, Ran lays on his side and admires your beautiful sleeping features. Your son in between the both of you sleeping peacefully as his tiny hand wraps around his fathers finger.

When you finally fell back asleep he texted Mikey, telling him he’d be taking a few days off to spend it with you and [son name]. He got the confirmation text along with a congratulations on the proposal. By now he’s more than reassured that everything will work out fine. Especially since you finally informed him about the online program your school offers.

He’s more than ready to become an amazing husband and father to the family he created.

#parenthood #ran haitani #ran haitani x reader #Father Ran #bonten ran #Insecure ran #College student reader #Oneshot #Fluff #tokyorev x reader #tokyo revengers #tokyo rev x you #anime

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corvuscrowned · 1 year

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my year in fic

big smooches to @oknowkiss (x), @lqtraintracks (x), @maesterchill (x), and @cavendishbutterfly (x) for the challenge to share one line from each fic i wrote this year. it was such a nice way to look back on my year in fic writing! p.s. we are interpreting the word “one line” v loosely here folks

shades of dawn | E, 3k, angsty ginlav

The night after Lavender comes and goes, the moon always appears to be just as full as the night before, but Ginny knows that the smallest part of it is missing.

magpie | T, 4k, klepto harry

Draco thinks Potter might be able to take things from him not just with his hands, but with those eyes alone. He thinks if Potter keeps looking at him this way for long enough, Draco might just offer it all up.

lovesick | T, 13k, healer draco, love potion victim harry

“Maybe I’m a bit tired of all of the swooning and heart eyes and —” of watching you love anyone else. Draco shakes his head. “Forget it.”

ad infinitum | E, 14k, angsty getting-back-together + sentient house

“I love you,” Harry says. “I don’t care about any of it. I love you.”

“I know,” Draco murmurs. “You always did the most idiotic things.”

from the same cloth | T, 8k, t4t idiots to lovers

Draco nods, and Harry realizes his face is stitched with the same nerves that are butterflying through her stomach — and the feeling the two of them are standing side by side on the precipice of something new, and there’s nothing left to do but fall into it.

undergrowth | M, 2.5k, horror + floral pining

Draco worries that Potter’s eyes might carry sunlight, and if they shine on him too long, he’ll have no choice but to grow, and grow, and grow.

the seventh life | E, 18k, vampire!draco & immortal!harry reunited in paris

“Oh, I don’t know,” Draco said. “I only know the times I’ve loved you.”

“How many times has that been?” Harry pushed.

“Since the very first time I met you,” Draco said. “Six lifetimes ago.”

ash, fire, ash | G, 1k, arsonists to lovers

Malfoy tosses the butt of their cigarette into the flames. “They’ll know it’s you doing it eventually.”

“Good,” Harry says. “Then maybe it’ll make them remember my name.”

an emerald in the sky | M, 6k, time traveling fuckbuddies to lovers

There are so many Harrys sitting in front of him right now, so many men he’s met once and then lost, threading their way in and out of his life at the sharp point of a needle. The composite sum of so many strangers, and a single man whom Draco has been fighting, from the very beginning, not to fall in love with.

with hands full of dusk | E, 15k, drarry as mythical creature hunters

But Harry is older now, and has long since learned that doubt and hope are just two shades of the same color.

the night of the fireworks | E, 6k, porn with feelings

Harry’s mind was swirling, still slightly loopy in a post-sex haze. “You love me,” he said. “You said it first.”

“I didn’t say it,” Draco said. “It doesn’t count. Fuck off.”

twelve moons | T, 6k, innkeeper harry & potioneer draco

Draco climbs the first step to the door, and Harry joins him on it, learning immediately that there isn’t space for two, unless you’d like to see the other person up close — the way the glow of the moonlight might be captured on their hair, or on their skin, or in their eyes.

im tagging @teledild0nix, @sorrybutblog, @thehoneybeet, @orange-peony, @moonstruckwytch, @jalesidor, @basicallyahedgehog, @pennygalleon, @the-sinking-ship, @mystickitten42, @geesenoises, @makeitp1nk, and @m0srael if any of you havent been tagged!

#i wrote twelve fics this year!!! dang #i dont even know how many words but suffice to say a lot #and then another like 250k of stuff that is still in the works or will never see the light of day #dam...#2023 is not going to be nearly this prolific #but hopefully ill get some wips finished up!!#op

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red-dyed-sarumane · 3 months

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okie im tired for the day heres my vocacolle recs

Inner Child - yurame (miku) : this ones my current favorite. i love the spaceyness going on & i love how the chorus sounds with the harmonies & the lyrics are so good too.

kaf-eine - hiiragi magnetite (kafu) : kafu kafu kafu kafu!!!! this is so fucking cute this is the best thing to come out of their neta posting i love this i love sena yuta's art too its all just so good

kaihou seimei - zeeka (vflower) : this song goes hard. some of the lyrics are a little weird to me but thats really just a zeeka thing the whole things really solid. (zeeka has en translation in the video btw! so u all can enjoy in full) very cool flower song highly recommend

phenomenon - szri (gekiyaku utau + ß) : szri's music always goes hard. quick paced & heavy. love the growly gekiyaku & the rap parts. clearly szri's sound but its distinct from their other songs i think tho some parts remind me of quiet & anaphylaxis. is it related idk im not looking into it rn

kowaremono - kyiku (rime & kazehiki utau) : holy shit. hi i love this. the lyrics kinda hurt & it sounds so dramatic. also oh my god the tuning on rime i could cry. working with her to make her sound both emotional & pretty🥺🥺 this isnt a duo i wouldve thought of but it works. this is so good [puts it directly in ur hands and walks away]

Predation - logico (haru) : yeah this is something i can easily loop for days. its so good. love the little bits of squeakiness on haru it has charm to me. goes hard. haru fans come get ur food

Shell - tokino yamma (rime) : i wasnt sold on this at first but listening more i feel like it works with rime well enough. sounds more emotional than like shes actually struggling it gets a pass from me. love the sound in the chorus. idk this is going to grow on me even more i think with the combination of the lyrics & sound

moving on to things i didnt mylist but still like enough to have in a playlist

Smart??? - marasy (kagamine rin) : i like the it

Worst Regret - youman (gumi) : youman is hit or miss with me but this is a HIT love it

Rime-chan no fukuoka trip kisoukyoku - minami no minami (rime, sekai, kafu, touhoku kiritan, frimomen, matsuka risuku) : hilarious finally my girl gets a neta song thank u minami no minami everything about this js so fuckign funny

Polybius - dopam!ne & zensen (kafu) : these 2 producers know how to have fun together. kami electroswing duo for REAL

hayari no ice cream - mochi utsune (miku) : simultaneous both cute and dark. worth ur time

chase - satsuki (teto sv) : heavy sounding song & theres something about it that keeps u listening. yes its supposed to be pronounced chase its in the comment when u like the video.

it's all my fault - aluvi (stardust infinity) : this is so pretty like actually. heavy content wise but the sound is just SO good. please give it a chance.

Chase - yakou ume (aisuu, rime, tsurumaki maki) : COMPLETELY different from the other chase. its still so good tho

Caligula - shinonome kasumi (gekiyakuß & rime) : this legit sounds like it should be one of the most popular uploads and yet it is not. how sad. its really good

denkou roukaku - dadari (haru) : another haru banger. shes kinda squeaky but i like it.

Plum - see & haiiro nemuri (nedjem & kafu) : such a calm tranquil sound for something not that light.

Time Limit - sigma (kafu, miku, & vflower) : idk how to describe this one its more mellow than other things ive put here but its so far from the really tranquil stuff. very good

yuurei ni naretara. - HotaRu (miku) : absolutely LOVE this sound it feels like carbonation in a pretty colored drink to me

tengoku yori shounen-kun e. - aira (coko, chisei, & kafu) : airas tuning is so unique no one does it like aira does this song is so immediately clockable as aira and it fucks

imaginary girl - miru (teto sv) : this feels like a popular song. to me. im not going to look at the view count im going to live in my own world about it

uso desho!? - eo (rin) : i can vibe to this i think i like the it

hakoniwa no kajitsu [beginning] - hitogoto (kafu & haru) : oooo another hitogoto song pair im liking where this is going i like this theres a story in this one too. dramatic.

giraffe center - caracca (kafu) : i dont have anything profound to say but i think its worth a listen

#and this was me looking for synths i like & producers i know & cool titles #imagine if i went thru everything #if this is too many links for tumblr i might cry i spent too long on this #yeah i htink inner child is my fave song this time its just so brain scratchy

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gender-trash · 8 months

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what is a popular thing u dislike

dude i am so fucking bad at liking popular things. all throughout my childhood there was not a single popular trend i did not either miss entirely or vaguely attempt to glom onto 2-3 years late after everyone else had lost interest. i literally had to give myself a crash course in disney princess movies in college because i kept going to karaoke nights that devolved into disney sing-alongs because "everyone knows them" except i DIDN'T. my taste in everything hews very obscure not because i'm trying to be a hipster but because if i'm given a choice between several options i will inevitably get extremely attached to the unpopular thing nobody likes, Every Single Time.

simultaneously this is a hard question to answer because i usually don't actively DISLIKE popular stuff? like, im not going to watch any more marvel movies, but im still chewing on a half dozen stucky fics from 2014 like theyre my comfort stuffed animals.

the main exception is popular music. sometimes pop songs have a good, catchy hook, but it gets brought back so many times like cud from a ruminant's stomach that i start hating it; sometimes they don't even have THAT going for them. sometimes they're insufferably heterosexual. sometimes they're autotuned to shit. sometimes they're just the most absolutely bland and generic Extruded Song Product i have ever fucking heard? many of them have several of these egregious flaws simultaneously. i think part of my problem is that i am a Hater and part of my problem is that my auditory processing renders me more or less unable to understand song lyrics, but i have studied too much music and have a very well-developed Melody Predictor brain lobe, and so if the song has a really basic melody and makes it up with interesting lyrics, well. that doesn't damn well work on me, does it.

and it's fucking inescapable! you can't go to Any Location, except, like, the public library (hallowed be its name), without being subjected to whatever anodyne top 40 hits the grocery store manager or whomstever thought would be the least offensive possible background music to encourage bourgeois white Californians with mildly hippie sensibilities to purchase goat cheese and mini sourdough toasts. often it's not even recent hits it's, like, hits from 2009 that i was already tired of in 2009. and grocery stores already give me enough Processing Overload because i have to make sure i'm Not In The Way and the lights are very bright and there is a lot of brightly colored packaging and often BEEPING. WHY IS THERE BEEPING. (it's possible this colors my perception of Songs You Might Hear In The Grocery Store, tbh.)

anyway i've been known to like some popular music, sometimes (i listen to a lot of music and i try not to write off any genre out-of-hand), but here is a selection of songs that are like sleeper agent triggers for me to hulk out in the middle of whole foods:

and, in the interests of balance, here are some recentish pop songs i do like:

(specifying "recentish" because otherwise i will just fill the list with Queen but we already know Queen kicks ass)

#SORRY COMBAT-EPISTEMOLOGIST #sorry also what is the song that starts with offkey whistling i hate that one SO MUCH #AT LEAST WHISTLE IN TUNE. PLEASE. FOR ME.#my brain putting all of its auditory processing stat points into perfect pitch and ability to identify harmonies/chords: :)#the trashcan speaks #music tag

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lunarifie · 1 year

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Rewatching Ninjago

(with no context other than the episode)

Sons of Garmadon episodes 1-2

Omg omg omg im so excited u have no idea, their new designs were like the beginning of a new age to me

I remember Harumi and MOST of the plot so im pumped to see all of this again

this is when the animation got GOOD, ik it only gets better but i think this was the turning point

LLOYD

Lloyd hit puberty 😶

i think everyone can agree this is when Lloyd truly became their favorite

It was so clever to make it look like the oni mask ninjas were the ACTUAL ninjas only to have Lloyd swoop in.

AAAA THE ANIMATION HIS GREEN MAGIC AJFISNFJD EVERYTHINGS SO COOL

AAAAND HE SAVED ONE OF THE ONI MASK GUYS THATS OUR BOY

Why does pixal sound so different 🤨

“MASTER LLOYD”

I forgot wu was gone :(

Lloyd (after getting his car): I could kiss you pix!

Pixal: I don’t think Zane would approve

Shes so funny

AND “PIX” THATS SUCH A CUTE PETNAME

wait omg i forgot Nya never learned who Samurai X 2.0 was omg thats still gonna be a plot point

This chase scenes so good

THEY HAVE EYE COLORS NOW, WELL AT LEAST LLOYD DOES

Why are the villains always in the sewers

Wait. Ik this scene. her highness, the queen, the girlboss.

I remember screaming at this scene when i was younger

GOD this scene was so fucking good

Nya: Thirsty..?

AAAAAAAA

My favorite part out of all of this was probably how the slave henchmen were like “Its nya! The master of water!” So fearfully instead of “its the girl ninja.” You can tell she really earned a title for herself and finally got some goddamn respect.

AGAIN. THE FUCKING ANIMATION.

COLE AND JAY COLE AND JAY COLE AND JAY COLE AND JAY

I love these idiots

Jay: Cole you’re my best friend but your also my worst enemy

Jay speaking facts fr

Cole: If someone went into the past who knows how our present would be altered! We could look completely different and not even know it!

Jay: But we dont! (Promptly takes off his mask, looking completely different)

With all due respect this is probably the funniest line in the episode

I missed these idiots sm

Cole: Wherever Wu is… Its been a year.

ITS BEEN A YEAR?!?!?!

Cole: Hello! Im Cole, master of earth, this is Jay, master of blabber.

Nvm this is the funniest

Why is Jay like, so abliest sometimes 💀

Jay (screaming): CAN YOU POINT US TO HIM???

Like dude just because they cant speak doesnt mean theyre deaf 😭

Jay: Wait! If Wu lost his memory, dont remind him of that stupid TV show i hosted, okay?

THEY REMEMBERED DJFNSKFNFJNSBTNS I LOVE THIS SM

Cole (after seeing it wasnt Wu): Im tired of losing people in my life

God damn hitting us hard huh.

Im gonna start making a Everytime-Cole-Shows-Signs-of-Abandonment-Issues bingo card

Jay: Wus wise, he’d find a way to alert us.

Wus a baby. A literal child.

Jay and Cole were so annoying that they had a MONK break his VOW OF SILENCE

Jay and Cole not only had Monks break their vow of silence, they had the monks ATTACK THEM.

ZANES EYES AAA ALL THEIR DESIGNS ARE SO AMAZING

AND KAIS!!!! KAI IS SO COOL.

Oh yeah. And the mechanic from that one prison. Still super pissed he tried to take apart Zane.

Zane (trying to impress Kai): Who likes ice cream? I DO! how was that for a one liner Kai?

Oppositeshipping growing on me

Kai (frozen like a popsicle): needs a little work….

THE GANGS ALL HERE 🥰

Nyas giggles are so cute

Jay: Soooo? Are we gonna talk about it?

Lloyd: What?

Cole: Your voice! Its-

Zane (deep autotune voice): Lower.

THATS WHAT IM SAYING

Its so much nicer to listen to too, no hate to the last voice actor

I just pictured Lloyds old voice in my head bc its so distinct and omfg its so different

Wait so Lloyds mom is GONE? She left him to search for Wu, just like that?

I can get why some ppl hate her now.

Love how Nya grew to be patient with Jay and his idiotcy

The oni masks are rlly cool

The royal family of ninjago never confused me until now. Are they just royal descendants? I dont think they rule ninjago

I love Zanes switch from robot him to human him

Im gonna ignore the whole romantic plot with Lloyd and Harumi since like, Garmadon Practically adopts her later 🫠

Love the ninjas banter, especially Nya and her hate for high chair figureheads and government officials.

Zanes also speaking facts tho, traditions just as important

Its so hard to imagine that Lloyds younger than the other ninja with how mature he acts, until you realize its more of him acting like an angsty begrudged teen while the Ninja are all in their weird 19 early-20s

I love Nyas armor

Her attitudes the best 😭

Miss “theyre just figureheads 🙄” Miss “TOO much gold if im being honest, not THAT impressive 😒”

JFNDJFNDJNE LLOYD HITTING NYA SO SHE BOWS

The way Harumi/Jade Princess insults the ninja but also compliments them is so funny to me

With how personal she understands them I should have known she was the Quiet One from the start

Jade Princess: I understand you Lloyd, my parents also died when i was little

Jay, who is adopted, struggling with the the concept of adoption: wait what? But your parents are right there? 🤨

Jay: Ever since master Wu went missing Coles been a real party pooper!

DAMN💀

Jay thats so mean everyone grieves in their own way

Zane: Party? Pooper?

Jay: ill explain later

Jay (autistic) teaching learned social cues to Zane (autistic) is probably my favorite HC

Kai: Secret passage way you say… is it, HERE! (Grabs a random book from a shelf)

Kai is such a little guy, so blorbolike, my little hometown boy

I love him.

Kai, stop grabbing and throwing books 😭

The way the counsel guy just stares at Kai as he trashes the book shelf 💀

The ninjas are just so bad at first impressions i love them

Jays lil ‘hiding behind anyone near him when hes slightly unnerved/scared’ is my favorite jay quirk, as well as the raptor hands he keeps in front of him

The fancy romance music for Harumi is so funny to me

Why did Lloyd think it was just OKAY to look in her room while shes preparing her makeup

Nya and Kai: (super serious keeping watch and suspecting the counsel)

Jay and Cole: (attacking the buffet)

Rlly shows their dynamics 😭

Omg princess harumi was kidnapped 😱

Lmaooo jk i remember this

Does Harumi become redeemable after??? Bc why does she help the poor? Is that like, an actual good trait or did she do it just this once to trick lloyd?

Okay but this Lloyd and harumi chase scene is so cool I remember truly believing she was kidnapped

UGHHH why did harumi have to be evil and ALSO his sorta-step-sibling they seemed to have sm potential at first

I still find her whole character so fascinating but I kinda miss what she could have been

Harumi: Patient little ones 🥰

The way she talks is so funny im so excited for her to be an absolute menace

Omfg she stopped Lloyd from fighting the sons of garmadon because she knew she’d have to interfere and they would potentially reveal her…

Just the knowledge that shes faking everything is crazy

SAMURAI X!!!!!!!! PIXAL!!!! ❤️

RUMI! AWWWWW thats such a cute cutename

Its hilarious how the ninja thought counsel man was a villain just bc he was a dick

I hate ninjago ACTUALLY making the whole ‘Lloyd crushing on harumi’ thing real only to show that Harumi practically becomes his adopted sister later on

Truly believe that Cole saying ‘you gotta break things to impress a woman’ perfectly shows he has no experience flirting with the opposite gender

Jay: You gotta make her laugh! Ask nya, she couldn’t resist my sense of humor!

Nya: (knocks jay on his ass) its an… acquired taste…

Harumi was really like, ‘okay, guess everyone thinks Lloyd and I have a thing going on, guess ill roll with it.’ And fully JUMPED HEADFIRST into the princess with a crush role. Like She doesnt even know Lloyds around and shes faking for her PARENTS

Oooooo Ultra Violet!!!!

I remember not really liking Kai as first but hes grown on me, kinda like Lloyd

COLE FLASHBACK COLE FLASHBACK

that transition was so clean tho

I love how they use Coles old design to animate the past

OMG THIS IS WHEN WE GET INFO ON COLES DEAD MOM

Coles rlly in it if hes traumadumping to a random old man on a mountain 💀

Cole: My dads always out singing and dancing… He leaves all the responsibilites and chores for me!

Damn. thats actually so sad. he had to grow up so quick. No wonder he was the leader before Lloyd.

I love Coles subtle character development and how the fandom interprets him. At first he was an uptight serious leader who needed to be the solid rock in the formation. Now he’s more relaxed, obviously due to the friends he surrounds himself with. The fandom sees that and exaggerates him as a relaxed big bear kinda guy and i love that for him.

Im literally so mad i cant screenshot netflix, Cole in the sunset was so pretty i wouldve loved to draw him

Ooooo Counsel Hutchins has a secret passageway…. To where?

I love how ninjago will hint at serious themes like gun violence by the sound of gunshots and calling bombs ‘blastzaps’ 💀

Omfg did the palace EXPLODE?!?!?!?

Ultra Violet: (choking Kai with her thighs)

Kai (suffocating): I- I didnt even get your name—

NFJDNNFKDNSBFNSNF

HOW DID I NOT NOTICE THIS ADULT JOKE LAST TIME 😭😭😭😭😭

(Counsel getting interrogated and held down by Lloyd and a sphere comes for BOTH of them)

Lloyd: You saved me…

Lloyd can be such a dumb blonde sometimes

I CANT BELIEVE HARUMI WAS FAKING COUGHING IN THE FIRE TOO LIKE WHAT YOUUUU BLEW THE PALACE UP

Holy shit Zanes spinjitzu is so cool

Wait wait wait

Why would Harumi even MENTION the mask if she wanted to retrieve it??? Did the writers wanna throw the scent off of her THAT bad

Holy shit the mask is cool as fuck

Jay: Really? Four arms? Like thats new.

HBFKSNGJD

I love imagining the voice actors going ‘WACHA’ and other ninja noises

I feel like I haven’t stressed enough about how much I love their elemental powers now

Counsel hitchins: That mask of deception was a fake…

Harumi: A FAKE- i mean, a fake 🥺

Counsel: Im sorry, i couldnt trust the ninja just yet.

the irony is incredible

Counsel hitchins is actually such a great guy, bless him

Wait do the royal family die. Istg if they die im gonna be so sad

LLOYD LIFTED A MOTORCYCLE LIKE IT WAS NOTHING

Lloyds so cool

You KNOW the sons of garmadon are laughing at Lloyd saving Harumi

I love Violets screeches

STOP. THAT WAS SO SMART OF LLOYD

The definition of think smarter not harder

God Lloyds been through it fr

And for what??? What has he done??? Literally valueing Harumis life over the mask only to have her betray him

Give my boy a break

WAIT WAIT WAIT

ITS THE DESTINYS BOUNTY!!!!!!

Its looks so rusty and old tho? How long has it been since they used it?

Istfg the rest of these seasons the villains have to leave the bounty alone, its like the ninjas only consistent home, please just let it be 😭😭😭

Harumi: What about the emperor and empress? Hutchins? Are they…

Nya: Im sorry princess, they didnt make it…

So. The royal families just DEAD? They really reeled us in with the whole ‘theyre the only ones left of their bloodline’ AND THEN JUST KILLED THEM. HARUMIS ADOPTED. SHES NOT EVEN ROYAL BLOOD. THEYRE JUST DEAD.

Theres like a twisted sorta feeling watching this and KNOWING everything went as harumi wanted. This was her plan to the T.

#ninjago #lego ninjago #sons of garmadon #Rewatching Ninjago

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dahliasanddimples · 1 year

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DAY 62::… We passed the two month mark on Mother’s Day but linked up before that. UGH. Didn’t even last a week. Selfish. Of me. To do me like that. Selfish of you.. for everything. The more we talk and argue the more I realize I’m not really missing out on anything. Todays argument was so… it’s giving over it. I literally had to put the phone down bc I just couldn’t even listen to you! Lol it was funny bc you could actually still hear you yelling. I had things to do, it was too early. You called to say “sorry” but not really. It’s weird bc you say things but your actions don’t prove it. Like IM CALLING TO SAY SORRY WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO DO!! Idk, mean it? Tf lol it’s so weird to be actually over it. To the point where it doesn’t phase me. Get under my skin. I told you how I felt and it was instantly turned around. I said I needed you there and it’s being switched on me? I said I needed to just hear from you and it needed to be used against me but when I do it “it’s not the same” I tell you I needed you and you can’t pick up bc you’re out with your friends? You’re not about to leave them bc you’re out with them. Why does it matter bc I never pick up when I’m with my friends. I should’ve hit you with at least I text back but no. All of a sudden it’s “really? Really that’s all it would’ve took. No it wouldn’t have” meh meh meh lol I can’t. I couldn’t. And I didn’t. I tell you I needed you like I was there for you and all of a sudden it’s different, it’s not the same and I always bring up things I do for you. I shouldn’t ever do things and rub them in your face. It’s like projecting the fact that you couldn’t even do something FREE for me. Like I’m here asking you for something that costs! Being there for someone is free. If you cared even enough, even a little for me, you would’ve called me. And I was mad but now im sad. Bc as I’m writing this I realize I a lot. That I deserve better. That I should absolutely block you. That you really ain’t shit. That I don’t think I even wanna play these games with you.

For all that I did for you, I couldn’t even get a text back. For all I did for you, I couldn’t even hear back from you. And I give myself over and over and I sacrifice my time for you over and over. I lower my standards for you over and over. I come back to you, over and over.

What is it about you. I think it was bc you were fun. We had fun. We both like to drink and party. But you’re not fun anymore and this summer won’t be fun either. You have no money no job. Not even real sheets on your bed. I want my pillows back.

Scared of rejection. Scared to face the consequences of your actions. Scared. Just scared. And I think I’m tired of teaching YOU things. I think I’m tired of taking care of you. I honestly cannot even imagine a future with you. I can’t imagine anything past a couple years. I wanna travel. I wanna move to a different city, a different state. That’s not possible for you. And a part of me hurts knowing that you might meet someone when you’re in a better position in life. I think it hurts bc I was there for you when you were nothing. Literally nothing. But I know I’m not the one bc the way we argue, you always have to be right. The way we argue, it’s a power trip, for you. Whatever I said to you, got to you. And now, now it’s never gonna be the same. We tried it and I realized I don’t like you anymore. I see your true colors and I don’t like it.

You don’t brush your teeth everyday

You don’t shower everyday (&you actually smell)

You vape (like your life depends on it)

You have no job

You have no aspirations, no motivation

Not a good dad. (You are a once a week baby daddy)

You’re too skinny for my taste (you would lose in a fight)

Hairline receding (at young age)

Overly dependent on drugs

You’re a leech.

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its-a-hil · 1 year

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k time for our regularly scheduled sleepy oversharing time (answering all the questions from this ask game)

(1) Do you have freckles? nope ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(2) Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it? sometimes i drink tea if im sick or chai socially but thats basically it. chocolate is the closest thing i have to a regular stimulant

(3) What was the last song you listened to? this lagtrain edit idk i really like just. semi-chaotic noise that sounds out of place and a bit incongruent. probably why i like pokeloid

(4) Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side? diagonalish but mostly on my side. i alternate sides though in fact i used to sleep on my stomach until i read a newspaper article that said a plurality of ppl sleep on their side and then i got scared and completely changed the way i sleep in like 6th grade in case you somehow needed more evidence im autistic

(5) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? blåhaj!! !!! !!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love her need to clean her though also i stream with my hello kitty velvet and i think that's kinda relevant

(6) Do you prefer drawing or writing? i like both but i am so so so much less bad at writing so that's more fulfilling i need to do both a lot more though ive been procrastinating a lot of tales of luminaria writing and art that i feel a compulsive need to make since the game was shuttered

(7) What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with? currently i sleep with blanket/comforter/blanket but i am still so so cold so i either need another blanket or one of them to be heated

(8) What’s your favorite band/artist? i mean there are a bunch that are all kinda at the same tier but i think inabakumori is at the top their vocaloids are just so. emotions

(9) When is your birthday? not gonna answer this but if you wanna check my bio every day for the next year until you see it flip to 23 i guess thats a thing you can do

(10) How tall are you? 178 cm (5'10") aka too tall please someone let me give you my height i dont fucking want it except in rock climbing it's useful for that but other than that the dysphoria is just not worth it hate hate hate

(11) What color are your eyes? brown, a bit darker than my skin but ive been complimented on my eyes by strangers more than like any part of my appearance combined so i am always confused like. theyre just my eyes! theyre pretty but only in the way that ppl eyes generally are idgi

(12) Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now? i dont really want to hug anyone tbh like id be happy to hug a friend if they needed it but im just not feeling touch atm

(13) Fears? that samsara isnt real enough for me to defer all the experiences i dont want to miss out on to a different life also climate change also being at parties where im not super close with most of the people

(14) What’s your favorite color? the sky! i know everyone is probably tired of me saying it but i dont like the idea of picking one 'color' since that allows for so much variation, so i instead choose something that is constantly varying and always beautiful at every instant ive ever gazed upon it

(15) What’s your favorite season? summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer summer please it's so cold i want to be able to feel warm when i go outside and not feel like im killing the planet when i consider turning the thermostat up a degree

(16) Want any tattoos? What of? oh i absolutely want tattoos definitely one for outer wilds (the hourglass twins), and id be open to the berseria title card with velvet's hair flowing into the letters i just think that game is neat

(17) Want any piercings? Where? im happy with my recent earlobe piercings but it would be desi as fuck to get a nose ring so that also sounds pretty cool

(18) Who is the last person you texted? my parents telling them im coming home from work

(19) Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ closest thing is probably my college roommate for 3 years but he went to grad school in a different state so ive barely seen him since

(20) What/who do you miss? oh well that's a question and a half i miss my ability to just get a crush and imagine cute and unrealistic fantasy stories where i went out with them now a combination of adult™ realism and the couple years i spent beating myself up for ever feeling romantic attraction have made doing both of those things so much harder so i just stick to projecting myself in established plots i mean its better than it was near the end of high school but. not as good as middle school when i actively loved going to bed just so i could imagine whatever i wanted in the hourish before i fell asleep

(21) How was your day today? tired. slept too early last night and thus the day had no sense of urgency and my head felt very bleh the entire time

(22) How much sleep did you get last night? 8 hours which is kinda the problem i function best with having had 9-10 hours two nights ago and 4-6 hours the night of and whenever i try to get a regular person sleep schedule™ it just makes me feel bad

(23) Do you believe in aliens? not like conspiracy theories or anything like that but. the universe is so BIG and we're finding so many planets that it feels impossible for there to not be life elsewhere also $20 europa has whales in it

(24) When was the last time you cried? Why? idk crying is hard and has barely ever happened since i felt bad about crying at a book in 6th grade and hammered it out of my brain. clearly my masking behaviors have never once been self destructive and i am an extraordinarily well adjusted girlie more recently my parents probably said something that made me feel bad and i semi-succeeded at crying in the shower and forgot about it the day after

(25) What’s your favorite decade? is it really possible for me to answer anything but the present? theres only been one decade where ive been a girl for part of it theres only been one decade where i fell in love with the sound of my voice theres only been one decade where i lived for myself and not for who i expected myself to be

(26) What are some seemingly childish things you like? i mean. i watch cartoons and eat sweets and enjoy going outside and getting distracted by everything i see there not sure what it means for something to be 'childish' tbh

(27) What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times? favorite book is the raven tower by ann leckie it's just. such a wonderful story in such a beautiful world that i feel like i was made for book ive read the most is probably son of neptune though, i know i spent a few months just kinda picking it up at a random page and rereading a few chapters every couple of days

(28) How are you, really? not answering this it's cliche and boring

(29) Does it take you a long time to make decisions? yes and no if a decision is right in front of me i'll make it fairly quickly if a decision is far away then i will procrastinate it to the point of absurdity ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(30) What are you looking forward to in the near future? getting on injections! estrogen time :d

(31) What are you looking forward to in the distant future? 2024 eclipse!!!! !!!! !!!!!! !!!!!!!!! i know with how much im hyping it in my head it'll definitely be covered with clouds at the place i go to but i! do! not! care! the 2017 eclipse is the most beautiful thing i have ever seen in the entire world and i need to see it again

(32) If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go? i want to see the aurorae other than things like that im pretty comfortable sitting in my room, but the idea of viewing something so magical is just incredibly appealing

(33) Do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed otherwise my parents would see how messy my room is and the airflow would be wrong and its brighter in the hallway and just. no

(34) What’s your favorite flower? is it too cliche to say cherry blossom? i grew up near washington dc like going to see the cherry blossom festival is a part of my core identity

(35) Do you currently have a squish? not really but also my brain has a taboo against verbalizing any kind of attractive feelings so it's difficult to overcome that enough to process my thoughts without hating myself so i dont try

(36) Do you like your middle name? no it's just my dad's name, which already feels old-fashioned in indian terms let alone the fact that it sounds vaguely like a mildly off-putting (to me) phrase in english

(37) Do you prefer dogs or cats? i love seeing them both outside or in friends' homes and i am unlikely to ever adopt one so that's the extent of it

(38) Do you have any phobias? i dont think so

(39) Do you stay up late? not late enough

(40) Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy? a not-sunny beach is definitely cold so. yeah. the last beach ive been to was in gdynia though so i might be unfairly projecting how cold the baltic sea is onto other beaches that are reasonable temperatures

(41) What’s your favorite cartoon? if we're counting anime: bna if we're not: amphibia actually now that i think about it i need to rewatch kipo and the age of wonderbeasts that was good

(42) Tag 5 of your favorite blogs no

(43) Do you have siblings? How many? one older sister

(44) Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? probably my parents

(45) Is there anyone you would die for? oh absolutely. loads. the more interesting question would be 'is there anyone you would kill for' and that is far far more difficult to answer

(46) What do you need when you’re sad? patience

(47) Have you memorized your phone number? ofc i have it has interesting math properties associated with it that i sadly cant say here bc saying all the properties, even in a relatively cryptic form, would narrow it down to like 10 options if someone knew my area code

(48) Who’s someone you can trust with your life? this question is ridiculous when cars exist. i have to trust pretty much every driver near me with my life whether im in a car or walking near a road so i dont view it as a particularly meaningful level of trust nor do i view my life as something particularly worth guarding so like. whatever, yknow? (note: this isnt a mental health thing it's a samsara thing dw) if this body dies it dies and i wouldnt want anyone i care about to feel responsible no matter what

(49) What does your last text say? already said it

(50) Wild Card. Any question, ask away. my favorite font is alegreya sc

#lifeblogging #or at least close enough to it

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rt-lots · 2 years

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ok i did some research and the pieces in a monopoly game change every few years…. so. instead of basing the pieces chris plays with on an actual monopoly board from a year im just gonna have there be a couple of assorted pieces that just. ended up there

anyway…… first thing i will explain is the cat… chris loves cats hes a lion king guy he grew up around cats he is very much a cat person!!! him picking the cat piece would be a callback to an interest hed had Before and link into how adamantly he refuses to leave the past behind… but ALSO. he doesnt talk about the lion king anymore!! he doesnt talk about his interests! at that point hed probably have only mentioned it to ben… maybe accidentally talked about his time on furaffinity to him!! thatd be it!!! so him picking the cat would symbolise an attempt to connect to these people by showing them a part of him without them realising! ben would notice i think…

why hed pick the hat. same shape as kenny and clementines hats :) also a callback to the past. not too much about that though he just misses them ☹️

the DOG. him picking the dog would represent a conscious decision to change… but hes going about it the wrong way!!! by picking the dog over the cat hes only hiding himself even more! hes accidentally trying to change for the worse by not letting him open up to people and give them any idea about him as a person…. theres probably some other stuff i can say about that but im tired

the battleship… kenny… and ALSO. a callback to the season 1 boat specifically….. something something back then chris could tell there wasnt enough space on the boat for all of them… but at one point kenny went and asked him something that implied chris would be coming with him on the boat….. other than that boats are man made. boats cant make themselves… they need help… chris cant “make” himself… he needs help…

ok im still really tired so these are all the pieces im gonna explain :) sorry i explained it. not as well as i could have. but oh well!

THESE R SO COOL i love how u have all this stuff thought out hehe... it's so fun to listen to. ALSO THE DOG PIECE... "chris please learn how to move on" "wiat no not like that" SUCH A SILLY LITTLE GUY.... mental illness connotation!

the boat thing is so sweet i think.... hes was allowed☹☹☹ on the boat☹☹ kenny didnt even explicitly tell him he was coming with☹ it was an obvious assumption to him ☹☹☹ waaahh.... hes literally an father

BEN NOTICING THE LITTLE THINGS ABT CHRIS ALSO. foams at the mouth a bit. I think that is just So Sweet... he CARES him im cryinf

kinda. unrelated but we played monopoly in german and i was thinking abt chris... we just had these boring colored pieces tho. i thought to myself "reason for chris picking game of life piece: greej😼" and thought that was just SO funny even though its REALLY not. But. greej😼

#walkie talkie #bunny tag #chris #i wanna maul him like a dog /affectionate

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blissfullybloomed · 1 month

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Yeah, it's been a while, but today felt like the right day to write again. I missed it.

So let's get all the updates out of the way since my last post(Dec 2023). Oh man…it's a lot.

I spent New Years with my boyfriend(yeah we're still a thing), and his best friend. Had to go home early though…cause like…im old, and we work in the mornings.

February I picked up a few extra gig jobs to pay off school. I delivered for Instacart, Spark, Shipt, and Amazon Flex. While working two other jobs. I had to pay it off and I was tired of waiting for money to just appear….cause that's totally not a thing.

March was my man's birthday! The first one I got to spend with him. Gifts that I got him don't matter…like i'm not gonna sit here and list them off…just his face was all i needed. That look of just you didn't have to do that..but he was glad I did.

I started therapy to heal from a relationship with a family member that I actually never really understood until very recently. I'm learning that , in the words of Taylor Swift, “Hi, it's me , I'm the problem”- I know that now. I know a lot now actually.

Started reading a book that has helped immensely with my healing as well. I won't mention the title in this blog as it's specific to one person in my life…but I will say this: No one is perfect, no matter the title they hold in your life. Additionally titles don't mean shit. We're all human and that's the only title I care about…unless you're an alien…then like, can we be friends.

The Medical Board of Ohio gave me my massage license, and I have signed a lease for my own business and actually have two clients ( sister and friend.) Yeah…Blissfully Bloomed is actually a real , tangible thing now.

I moved in with my boyfriend. Yup, the WHOLE sentence! It's been about 3 weeks , and let's just say we are slowly adjusting to the new. The animals are a little testy, but we love them all.Spray bottles are in every room now. LOL! He has been incredible throughout the entire process. I even know how to plug my tire now. He is patient, and kind. Even on days…i don't want to be human…he is still right there. I will tell you this- I never knew love could feel this deep…this solid…this safe. He truly is the person I was supposed to find. Someone in my life once told me a long time ago, “he has brought back what the locust stole”- When it was told to me the first time it didn't make sense, and in hindsight…I know why it didn't make sense. Now…I understand the phrase…I understand what a healthy and honest relationship looks like. I understand that MEN operate completely differently when they too feel safe and understood. I love you like crazy baby.

I started a solid vitamin regimen…and boy oh boy has it helped immensely. My anxiety only peaks during stress, and unknown areas of my life now. It's not at the forefront anymore. Vitamins, therapy, massage, counseling, coloring, legoing, and being surrounded by motivated individuals who only want to better themselves have been the key to my success. Sure I have days just like everyone else where I just don't wanna. But as my boyfriend says”it's allowed, just have to find a balance”- So i'm working on it…BUT vitamins are so good!

So I think that covers it for the updates…Lets chat about whats to come!

Moving through all of the above has required high energy and focus to obtain a goal. The focus was definitely fueled by my sister jessica. My sister was the entire inspiration to become a Massage Therapist. What's crazy…I had a client last week…she was a nurse at Nationwide in the pediatric unit….I think she would have worked with Jess at some point, and she was on MY table. Small world sometimes ya know.

Massage gave me my heart back and I've said that since school…you can't be heartless and be a massage therapist. It's impossible. We comfort through the power of touch. We calm anxiety, recirculate blood to all the necessary parts of your body, we hold space for others to relax. Coming from someone that was very very selfish in her past life…to be able to have people on my table is a gift I will always attribute to my sister Jess. Man do I miss her. What I wouldn't give to wheel her into my massage studio and give her some relaxation for a brief moment. She showed me native american flute music too. I love ya sis. We all do. You can come visit me anytime anywhere. I love you.

Okay well, on that note…I'm crying. So I think it's a good time to get ready for the day. I have three clients. One of which lost their mother last week. Like I said, massage is so powerful. It truly brings joy and I am able to give joy to others now. What an absolute gift.

Thanks for listening to my ted talk- see ya on the flippity flip!

#growth #love

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doki-mocha · 4 months

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I think I've been having a few days long anxiety attack. But I do think my ridiculous rants do warrant some psych help no? Here's one from over a week ago before I donated money to unrwa:

I need to make some comics and merch designs. I can die right now it's so easy. It's difficult. I need to cry. There's no time. Eating is bad for me. Im so tired. I slept twelve hours. It's not enough. Put me to sleep. I have things I need to do. I wish I could've went to more stores. I thought I wanted to see Dad before he sleeps. I'm angry at him. Mom can't remember the things we bought for her. There's too much noise. I miss my friends. I want to see Len. I want to go shopping. All these stores support Israel. I want to buy knick knacks. There's no room in my room. I want to live alone. It's too expensive. My parents are retiring. I still have to live with them. I love my parents. I want to be alone. I want to draw forever. I can die tomorrow. There's stains on my bed. My walls have been the same colors for over a decade. I'm sleeping in the same bed since I was 7. I have clothes I wear from middle school. My clothes cost 50 dollars average now. Tacos cost 3 dollars. Eating is bad for me. Fruits go bad fast. I need to bake banana bread. The bananas will go to waste. Apples are sitting on the table rotting because we don't want to admit we have to throw it away. We're wasting money. Money is worthless. Why are people dying over it. I want to break things. I want a sledgehammer. I want to break things. I want to build things. I want to make things. Theres too much stuff in my room. I want to cry. My head hurts. I want a Cammypus plushie. Hundreds. I wish people bought the things I made. I can't make things no more. My brain is broken. I want to play video games. I need to draw. Therapy is a lie. You can't trust anybody. God isn't real. No one is there to help you. I wanted to be an artist. Kids brains are rotting. People have no empathy. We are all selfish. We can't help everybody. We are all going to die. I want to drink some fruit punch.

Here's one from the other night while waiting for my terrariums to dry:

Trying to make little crafts for fun but I'm still filled with anxiety. I'm like just trying to enjoy myself but I also want to vomit.weekends are never for relaxing it's just another day where it's all too much. All I'm doing is making a tiny fish bowl terrarium for a toy omanyte I made. Why do I have to imagine an illusionary life where nothing bad can happen. If I were to die I want it to be a surprise. I don't want to have the second of regret of not doing everything I wanted and couldn't do. I don't want my life to flash before my eyes while I'm bleeding out or buried under rubble. I want the lights to just go out. I don't want the lights to go out and I still see the silhouettes of objects in the room before me.

It's so weird that my brain will keep telling me to kill myself if I'm not consciously occupied with something. It's like you just painted something and you had no thoughts like that. But waiting for the painting to dry you just think "just die just die the pain in your stomach and head will go away if you're dead" but then you also think "I'm not done with the painting yet this is just the first layer then we do the next part" and you're stuck with the impatience and anxiety of kill yourself kill yourself. Maybe that's why I never waited for paint to draw. And I mess up the layer underneath because I was impatient then you think you're a failure for messing up the painting go kill yourself right now. And you think no no let me fix this I just need this new coat of paint to dry then we can add a new good layer this time and wait.

What I'm saying is I'm tired of my brain defaulting to killing yourself. But I'm still waiting for paint to dry while. Having the static stabs all over my brain. It doesn't make sense but I have things I still need to do. I still haven't lined Cammy yet gosh diddly

Here's one from yesterday:

Whatever I do dad will be upset at me about it. None of the things I do will get me money. Hobbies are useless. We are all going to die. It sucks so much everything that's happening in the world. We can be bombed tomorrow and it will all be over

What we post online won't last forever unless someone cared enough to save it. All the memories you hold in your house can burn down with a dry rag on a hot oven.the thousands of dollars you sunk into something you love can be crushed under a weak tree. I've had this disgusting pessimistic world view since I was 9. I don't get it. It's deep in my humanity under the fake optimism and smile I'm forced to wear on the special occasion where I have the energy to go out into the world. I can be stabbed or sliced by a machete by a deranged man who already gave up on reality.im just a random unfortunate citizen that can succumb to natural disasters. All the photographs that hold onto memories by broken brain can't remember can be washed away in a flood or a bursted water tower. Everything is temporary. Nothing stays. So why can't I just enjoy them. The negatives bury me. The nihilism is just darkness. I wish I had the desperation to just believe God will save us.

Here's from this morning:

Ya know I think I'm too afraid to start something because I don't want things to be unfinished if I were to disappear. Like if had something that would link me to earth I would strive more to finish or get far to have a legacy. I never had a legacy or if I did I buried it years ago with glimmering and hopeful eyes. Bags are forming under my eyes now. I'm no longer looking like I'm 16 my physical appearance is starting to match my age the instant I stop smiling and it's awful awful. I want something left behind but I'm so set on dying I don't even make an attempt dumb dumb

Here's one from just now after one two many YouTube ads and me dropping clay on the floor just now:

I'm reigniting the rage and need to die Everytime my weak trembling hands let stupid shit through my fingers. I can drink a whole bottle of vodka. Will it make the anxiety worse or better I'm going to cry I can create. Amolotov cocktail and just burn the house down. I can make the death of every memory that is put to paper fucking disappear. We can make a psych waiting room magazine filled with my rant. They can say "look at this stupid idiot complaining about nothing. These are obvious ramblings of someone who needs help. If you write like them that's just a rough draft to a shoe cide note you know. So make sure to get your help right away."

Is this a cry for help? I don't want to admit it is. I just want someone to confirm there's something wrong. Or drag me away somewhere safe because I won't be able to to do it myself. I'm torturing myself trying to keep everything hidden and safe. But I don't think my body is built to keep things hidden. I'm trembling. I can't sleep. I'm crying. I sleep too much. I'm on my period. I'm on different medication. Alcohol is so tempting. There's nothing wrong in life. There's something wrong in my head. It doesn't make sense. The world can't accommodate it. There is no peace. There is no quiet. There is no healing. There is no waiting. There is no break. Time keeps moving. Things keep breaking. Things keep ruining. Things won't be fixed. Things get changed.bthinfs get remade I feel everything around me I feel nothing I shake I twist in aching it's hurts I've been broken words don't make sense they mean nothing I wish I knew another language I wish I had the capacity to learn new things I wish the brain would stop making up new problems to worry about I wish I could do things I wish I could start things I wish I could finish things I wish people understood I wish my family understood j wish they wouldn't get mad why is everyone looking at me why do I have to do everything why do I have to make allt he choices why is every choice wrong why is the room so hot why am I so cold I'm sweating I'm not trembling I'm crying my organs feel like they're vibrating these ads are so annoying why can't I listen to music there's too much noise I hate this stop playing the same song over again I have no new interests I can't play games anymore I'm wasting my days my youth is just lying in bed and wishing to die where is the stride what happened to my passion what happened to me why do I forget who I am every day who was I yesterday what is yesterday what is time. It's February.

Oops there goes another one of those ADHD rants haha aren't our brains so silly????

#words #dont call amyone dor help im fine

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twinstarlovers · 4 months

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Finally being alone. It’s been a whole year lol. Time to get back to myself lol but I hope you are good. I’ve been thinking about you here & there. I’m glad I got to live all last year for once in my life or be free. I wanna say it was good karma just coming back to me after all these years but I think this year it’s gonna be REAL good karma. Idk if I told you but I met this stranger at Olive Garden, she was a host but the person I was w asked what book she was reading & it was spiritual book & her & I just start talking or whatever & she was like she’s been looking for a spiritual buddy to go to sound baths w & shit & I’m like girl ME TF. She’s 30 LMFAO but you can tell she’s really in touch w her inner child. She’s also a leo lol. I texted her but we haven’t spoken much probably cus she’s busy or idk & idc but it was awakening that I needed to get back into my spirituality. I’ve also attempted to dye my hair purple. Literally nothing happened but I could see a bit & it was fire. Maybe soon but ima just go black in the meantime again cus whatever this color is I don’t like it. It’s like a brownish/red like nah bruh. Im tired of my natural hair lol. Anyways I have nobody & im here for it. My soul was itching to be alone for a while now. Im sober too yay for me. I’ve been drinking again too which is good. Like my body can handle it cus idk if you remember I told you I would get sick so I just stopped drinking altogether but yeah now I can drink so that’s good. I haven’t been smoking cus no. Mostly because I wanna be more stable emotionally & mentally or I wanna get used to be being alone cus high me intensifies my inner world so if I am not used to being alone or at peace I’m gonna be thinking of the past & the past is what I’m tryna let go of rn. I also stopped w tarot cards because I used them too much & I noticed they would go missing (probably cus of that lol) so I was like well it’s not necessary rn & I should be more present & i don’t care about knowing. I’ve also been itching to go to the gym but I need a push or that right moment but it’s been on my mind like crazy. Maybe tmr (February 1st). I’ve been more disciplined w money too! LMFAOOOOOOO one of my biggest issues lol. Spending is a part of who I am lol. Also I’ve already applied for financial aide cus yes tf cus I already made the decision to get my associates in social work. So idk let’s see if it’s even gonna manifest if not then maybe I’ll make my way around it anyways. I know im not meant to overwork & it’ll all turn out in my favor. I wish I was rich & could not work but volunteer to help people just cus. The whole making money for helping people just doesn’t sit right w me 😭 but I mean I guess it doesn’t matter when that’s my intention in the first place so money is a bonus. Pisces midheaven tingz 💁🏻‍♀️✨. Anyways I feel good tho kinda. In terms of feeling like I’m human or healing. Like not on meds, having good mental & emotional health & energy to be present for a job, having energy to go to school & the gym like idk I thought I was beyond damaged tbh that it wasn’t possible for me. I wanna cry LMFAO. This song in the back tho. I’m listening to my old playlist. I wanna get back into music againnn. But yeah I’m glad I’m doing better. Unfortunately it had to take this long but im glad I can be healthy to enjoy the rest of life. It’s like living for the first time. Being a teenager for the first time, being a kid for the first time, & being an adult for the first time as well. It feels super good to have them all in synch cus I thought I lost my teenage years. I mean I did when I was actually a teenager but at the end of the day those are just numbers & im still in touch w my inner teen so dying my hair & everything feels good like I’m living it now. Im so glad I haven’t gotten my tattoos yet like I’m glad everything is happening at the time it is. It’s not rushed. I wanted everything so early but then I see everyone having everything so early that they get so tired of it so quickly or doing things early that they are tired of it & it’s like not for me!

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Your blog is everything I wanted and more. Im a lurker for your writings ahaha if you can guess who i am 👀

How about the guys reacting to s/o's death. Can be a group writing but if its too much, just Diluc, Childe, Razor and Kaeya would be nice. I think they would have interesting reactions >:3

First of all, Anon. I LOVE YOU. I wanted to write this out but thought it might be a bit too much but then you went and requested it!! I guess I have no choice but to write this out! >:) (That’s also why I did all the characters) second. Guess who you are o: may I get a hint? I have 2 people in my mind tho o: Warnings: Death, mentions of blood, angst. Pure angst.

Sidenote: The woman in this is my OC named Toxin! Whenever I need a really big, bad villain, she’s my go-to! That’s all!

Includes: Aether, Kaeya, Venti, Diluc, Razor, Xiao, Xingqiu, and Childe!

Scaramouche & Zhongli Here | Part 2 Here

You Die!

You ran as fast as your feet would carry you, desperate for an escape. A scream erupted from your lips as the ground shook beneath you, causing you to stumble and fall over. You had received an emergency request to help fight… someone. The request wasn’t very detailed but someone needed help and you couldn’t turn your back on them. So, you went ahead and tried to help.

You should’ve been careful. You should’ve brought help. But you didn’t and you were paying for your stupidity. The person that you were fighting was strong. She was tall, pale, and had long black hair. Her unearthly glowing green eyes were terrifying. She was fast and all of your attacks were unable to touch her.

As you ran, only one thought crossed your mind. The smiling image of your boyfriend. Tears welled up in your eyes, blurring your vision as you tried to run. How you wished you could be in his arms, feeling safe and sound.

As you ran out of the forest and down the field, the woman appeared in front of you, catching you in her arms and stabbing you with a poison dagger. You shrieked as your hands curled around her clothes. The sharp pain turned into a burning sensation and you looked up at her. Her face was inches away and she smirked, her eyes glowing bright by the second.

“Finally. But you’re not the only one I wanted to break.” What? What did she mean? Her head turned to the left and you followed her gaze and the second you saw what she was looking at, your heart shattered.

The woman pulled the dagger out and it seemed to vanish as she smirked at your boyfriend. The tears slid down your cheeks as you weakly reached out to him for help.

“(F/N)!” His heart stopped as he watched the woman disappear and you fall to the floor. He sprinted to you, picking you up in his arms as blood poured out of the wound. “H-hey! Hey, keep your eyes open! J-Just stay awake!” He held your head against his chest, trying to calm himself, but how could he? You were bleeding out in front of him.

He looked down and ran his fingers along your cheek as your skin started to turn purple. The poison had taken its effect and it was moving fast. You were leaving, you would leave him just like Lumine left him. He was gonna be alone all over again.

“A-Aether… I-I l-love you.”

“I love you too! You’ll be fine, everything’s g-gonna be ok.” Who was he kidding? You weren’t going to make it. But he couldn’t admit it. Aether still had yet to find Lumine and he’d never gotten over losing her. You, you were his light. You were his guiding start. You were his moon, his everything.

To think that he could lose you? No, no! He didn’t want it. He didn’t want a world without you. A world without you was pure torture. So why? Why was the universe so hellbent on taking things away from him? Why did it demand everything precious to him?!

Why you?

A pained cry left his lips as your hand fell to your side and that light disappeared from your eyes. “N-no. No, no, no, no! W-wake up! Please wake up! Do-don’t leave me! Don’t you leave me too! Not like this! PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME!” He held your lifeless body against him, his head pressed against your chest. He couldn’t hear it… he couldn’t hear your heartbeat.

“No… NO!” He ran as fast as his feet could carry him and caught you before you hit the ground. The woman had disappeared but he didn’t care. You were… you were dying! How could he stop it? He wanted to stop the bleeding, he wanted to stop the way your color was changing, he wanted to stop time!

“K-Kaeya… h-how-”

“I was told to come here. A messenger came to me and said you called me and told me to come here.” He explained, taking your cold hand into his, pressing a kiss against it.

“I-I’m sorry…”

“No. Don’t apologize and don’t close your eyes. Please, just stay up a little longer.” He wanted to pick you up and run to the nearest doctor, but he knew… it wasn’t worth it. He wouldn’t make it. He’d never felt so worthless and weak. He swore to protect you and keep you safe and now that you needed him… he was useless.

“T-tired…” Slowly, your eyes closed and your hand fell limp in his. Kaeya’s eyes widened as the tears slid down his cheek.

“(f-f/n)? B-baby! No, wait! Don’t do this! Pl-please no!” He took your hand and pressed it against his cheek, but the second he loosened his grip, it fell. Kaeya shook his head, tears flooding down his cheek as a scream erupted from his mouth. “(F/N)!!!”

Slow. He was too slow. Why couldn’t he be fast enough?! That woman, he knew her. He knew her and he vowed to hunt her down and tear her to shreds. But right now…

Venti picked you up with trembling hands, letting his now bloodied hands touch your cheek. He couldn’t even talk, his voice quivered as he looked down into your eyes. No. This wasn’t happening. You weren’t going to leave him like this.

“H-hey, love. E-everything’s going to be just fine. You’re fine.” He tried to keep his smile up but it was so damn hard when he knew the truth. He couldn’t do anything, he couldn’t even lie to himself. You were slipping away and all he could do was watch. He knew he was the weakest of all archons but why? Why couldn’t he be a little bit stronger to save you.

“I-I wa-wanna sl-sleep-”

“NO!” He frowned and pressed a kiss to your lips. “No, don’t sleep. Not yet. Just stay awake a little longer and then we can both sleep together tonight.” You weakly nodded, but you couldn’t stay awake any longer. You felt like you were moving, but your body was slowly going numb, until everything disappeared. “(f/n)? (f-f/n)? H-hey! Hey this isn’t a joke! WAKE UP! WAKE UP, PLEASE, PLEASE WAKE UP!”

The second he saw the woman step away from you, a fiery phoenix flew towards her, but she’d disappeared before it could hit her. Diluc ran to you as he watched your body fall to the ground.

He fell to his knees and quickly picked you up, shaking you a little. There was something that snapped inside. He’d always kept his composure, but after seeing what had happened, his emotions burst out of him. He wasn’t in control of anything. He couldn’t control his thoughts, emotions… or your death.

“It’ll be fine! Everything’s fine!” He said, pressing his hand to the wound. You winced at the pain as your skin started to turn purple and blood spilled out of your mouth.

“I-I’m so-sorry.” He shook his head, taking your face in his hands.

“No. I’m sorry. I sh-should’ve gotten here faster.” He was still trying to convince himself you were going to be fine, but deep down, he knew the truth. He knew the ugly truth that was coming up.

“D-Diluc… y-you’re pretty.” His eyes clenched shut at your words as a tear slid down his cheek.

“Don’t leave. Th-there are so many things I-I want to do with you. Pl-please don’t leave me. Wh-what d-do I do?” You smiled weakly at him.

“Y-you b-be the Darknight H-hero…” He scoffed and looked down at you.

“Without you… I’m nothing.” You wanted to say more, you wanted to deny his words, but you were so tired. Slowly, the world faded away and you could no longer hear his cries. “No! NO! NO!! DON’T DO THIS TO ME! STOP! COME BACK! PLEASE BRING MY (F/N) BACK!”

The wolf within had appeared but he wasn’t able to catch up before the woman disappeared. He ran to you and picked you up, seeing the blood gushing out of the wound.

“N-no! (f/n)!” Tears flooded his eyes as he watched your color turn purple. That woman, she reeked of poison so she must’ve poisoned you.

“Shhh…” You muttered, holding your hand to his cheek. “D-don’t c-cry.” He didn’t know what to do. He felt so lost and helpless, but the worst part… he knew what was coming. He shook his head vehemently and tried to pick you up, but you let out a cry of pain, making him lower you back down.

“I c-can save you!”

“I-it’s ok… it’s ok, Razor. I… I’ll be ok.” He hated those words. He hated everything you were saying so much. Razor adored you, he missed you every second he couldn't be with you and normally, he’d never hate your words. But today… right now, he hated how right you were. He shook his head as the tears slid down his cheeks as he felt you slip away.

“Do-don’t do this t-to me. Not you too… they left me. Why do you want to leave me too?” You weakly tugged him down and made him kiss you, but half way through the kiss, he felt your head fall back and he knew. You were gone.

He knew that woman that had done this to you. He knew her and he was going to make sure she paid. But right now… right now you were more important. Xiao took you in his arms as tears started to fill his eyes. He’d never felt like this before and he hated feeling like this.

You made him feel so powerful, so invincible, so untouchable. But right now, he felt so vulnerable and broken. If he had been faster, if he had just gotten here faster he could’ve saved you. He could’ve been hugging you, seeing your skin bright with life, seeing your glimmering eyes, seeing that dazzling smile. But no, he was a failure.

A sob escaped his lips as he watched you starting to slip away. He pulled you close, pressing a kiss to your forehead.

“D-don’t do this. Pl-please don’t leave me. Y-you pro-promised you w-wouldn’t do this to me!” He looked down at you but you still had that angelic smile on your face. Why? Why would you do this?! You touched his cheek and spoke; your voice was a quiet whisper, but he heard it.

“I-I love y-you, Xiao…” He shook his head and glared at the sky before shutting his eyes. He didn’t want to see it. He didn’t want to see this happening to you.

“I love you too. S-so much.” He felt your body go limp and another sob escaped his lips. “Y-you pr-promised you’d c-come back to me.” He raised your face closer to him and pressed a kiss against your lips. “P-please come back to me. I-I can’t live without you… I do-don’t want to.”

He sprinted down the hill towards where you lay, gathering you in his arms when he was at the bottom. He didn’t know what to do, there was so much blood, so much poison, and no hope. He fell beside you and pressed his hands onto the wound as blood gushed out.

“No, no, no, no, no, no, it’s ok, it’s ok, everything’s just fine!” You winced in pain in your torso, but it didn’t last very long. It only took a minute before you lost feeling in your legs and arms.

“Xingqiu… i-it hurts.”

“I know, I know and I’m so sorry! If I was faster, I could’ve helped you. It’ll be ok, I promise, my love. I won’t stop until you’re taken care of.” Why didn’t he believe his own words? Maybe it was the fading light in your eyes, maybe it was the color draining from your face, maybe it was the sheer amount of blood that poured from the wound… but Xingqiu didn’t have a single ounce of hope. Why? Why was the world doing this to him? Why was it punishing you like this? Did he do something? Did he commit a sin that was so unforgivable that the universe or the gods would punish someone as sweet and amazing as you?

He wanted to cry, but he bit his lip to hold the tears back. His eyes were glossy and his vision was blurry, but he refused to cry. He wasn’t going to show you the fleeting hope in him. He wasn’t going to show you that he was a liar.

“Xingqiu… w-will y-you g-give me one l-last kiss?” His head snapped to you and he shook his head.

“It won’t be our last kiss! We’ll have more chances. We’ll have so many more chances.” He did kiss you however. It was short and sweet, as he returned to applying pressure onto the wound. His eyes flickered to you for a second before his entire body tensed. You were staring at the sky… with dull, lifeless eyes. “(f-f/n)? H-hey… hey wake up.” He gently shook your shoulders. “Hey, stop. Th-this isn’t funny! I know you like playing tricks on me but this isn’t funny! St-stop!!” Finally, he broke. He laid his head on your chest as his tears started to flow.

“NO!” Oh, he knew that woman well. He’d worked with her once. She was, indeed, powerful. She was a killing machine and there was a time where he was impressed by her. But right now he felt nothing but pure hatred for her. But that had to wait, because you… you were dying.

Childe pulled you into his arms, holding you against his chest and kissing your head. He was trembling and his emotions were a mess. Tears trailed down his cheeks as he looked down at you. The wound oozed with red and purple, so he knew you’d been poisoned.

“H-hey, darling. You ok? Everything’s just gonna be ok, you hear me?” You gave him a weak nod as you looked down at the wound. However, he took your face and made you look up at him. “No, no. Just look at me. Nothing but me.”

“I-I won’t… I’m tired.”

“HEY! Don’t you dare close those beautiful eyes on me! Everything’s going to be fine! Everything… everything is fine. Do you hear me? Don’t you dare even think about leaving me. Don’t you… don’t do it. Please, god I’m begging you (f/n)! Don’t leave me all alone in this world!”

“I-I ca-can’t stay…”

“Yes, y-yes you can! You can’t leave me, please d-don’t.. I-I don’t know what to do! What am I supposed to do?! Just go on, pretending everything’s ok?! JUST PRETEND LIKE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE DIDN’T LEAVE ME?!”

“Shh… d-don’t get so angry.”

“I-” He sighed, taking in a shaky breath, “I love you so much i-it’s hard to breathe without you. Do-don’t take away m-my reason for li-living.” You didn’t answer. You only weakly smiled before your eyes closed and your head fell back. Childe’s eyes widened and he shook his head. “N-no. No- HEY! No, no, no! Please no!” He held you against his chest as he let out a scream. What else could he do besides cry.

Your boyfriend stood up, holding you tightly in his arms. There was only one thought in his mind as he glared in the direction the woman had gone.

There was nothing left for him. So he wouldn’t stop; he would relentlessly hunt that woman down and tear her apart completely. That way, she could feel an ounce of his pain.

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thighridingsamu · 3 years

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if you’re tired of writing these pls feel free to ignore this but i love the “hq boys and your first time” series! i was wondering if you could do daichi and aone! (i don’t know if you write for them so if ya don’t no worries!) thank you bae💘

hq boys and your first time together pt.4

sawamura daichi x gn!reader, sugawara koushi x gn!reader, aone takanobu x gn!reader, sakusa kiyoomi x gn!reader | pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, milestone event |

content warning: praise, swearing, angst but not really for suga, no smut just a bit suggestive at the end for suga, mentions of food (suga and aone), implied dom/sub dynamic (sakusa), implied nipple play (sakusa), impact play (sakusa), use of traffic color system (sakusa). i couldn't think of many warnings, so please lmk if i missed something!

word count: ~1.4k

a/n: dai!! bb!! this was so fun to do!!! im glad i can provide daichi and aone content for thou. but it is almost 1 am so if there are parts that are incoherent... i'll edit in the morning heh. as always: these are just my perception of the characters. these were made with the idea that the character and the reader have had previous sexual experience. also idk how sakusa fits in here but i wanted him to be in the next part so i said fuck it ahahah. enjoy <3

DAICHI:

I feel like a lot of people say Daichi is boring or basic, but I see the first time with him being very fun and smooth. When you think back to the whole experience all you see are the wide smiles. All you hear are the giggles and breathy chuckles. Sex with him is an absolute dream and the memory is surrounded by a soft cloud and sparkles (as stupid and cheesy it sounds, it’s true). The ideal flow is there, everything falls into place.

“So damn sexy,” Daichi whispers against your neck, hands traveling up your naked sides. You can feel his smile on your skin, making your face break out into one of your own. “Don’t know how we didn’t get to this sooner.”

You scoff lightheartedly, carding your fingers through his hair. “That so? Mmm, keep doing that.”

He continues to nip at your collarbones and trails up to your mouth. “Or what? Ya won’t fuck me?” He grins and meets your mouth, cupping your jaw to really make you feel the hunger bubbling inside of him. “Because I really doubt that, babe.”

You can’t stop the half laugh, half whine that you let out. “Daichi, please. You’re too much.”

But you don’t move to pull away or add more to the conversation. Instead the two of you speak through smiles and giggles when the other touches a particularly ticklish spot.

Which eventually turn into moans and heated, desperate kisses as Daichi’s hips rock into yours, his cock filling you up and his body so receptive to your touch.

SUGA:

Suga.. has a hard time initiating sex at first. And ignores your advances. If it was a one night stand thing I don’t think he’d have such a hard time getting sexually intimate, but when the two of you have gone on a couple dates and shared sweet, innocent little moments, something holds him back. The farthest he’ll go for at least a couple months is a makeout, but he’s not on top of you and you’re not on top of him. It’s like he’s scared to mess anything up by making your relationship about sex. Until..

“So what, Koushi? Am I just not attractive to you? Or are you going to someone else for sex?”

Suga chokes on his fries at this, coughs racking through his body. He looks at you with wide eyes, one hand on his mouth and the other pushing the coffee table holding the food away.

You immediately feel bad, quickly setting down your food and sitting closer, rubbing his back and handing him his drink. What was supposed to be a chill night in, you just ruined.

You wait until he’s calm and has taken a few sips, still rubbing his back, to lean on his shoulder. “I’m sorry, that was out of li-”

“Is that really what you think?” Suga’s voice is the softest and the most vulnerable you’ve ever heard. “Y/n, seriously. Is that what you think? That I don’t find you attractive or- or I’m seeing someone else?” At the last part he seems almost offended you’d think of such a thing

Words don’t form for a few seconds. Instead you shove your face into his arm, face warm in embarrassment. When you finally think of something to say, Koushi speaks up again.

“I think about being with you all the time. I want to be with you. I thought I was doing the right thing, taking it slow.” He lifts your face and you can see the--worried?--look on his face. “But I got you thinking I’m getting my dick wet with someone else?”

If it were a different situation you probably would have laughed at such a crude comment. Might have egged him on. But you don’t, because suddenly his mouth is on yours, hands finding your hips and bringing you onto his lap.

“Let me prove to you that that isn’t the case, sweetheart. Please?”

“But our food.”

“Fuck the food.” There’s a pause as the tension melts away, hazel eyes looking into yours. “Let’s work up our appetite.”

AONE:

Human teddy bear. HUMAN TEDDY BEAR!!! Aone is not a man of many words, but he is a man of action. He believes that he’ll have more success showing you what you mean to him, showing you how much he worships you, as opposed to giving you a whole lovey dovey speech (which he would still do if he thought you wanted it). It’s pure, soft sex that let’s you know this man may be who you end up with for the rest of your life.

It was a normal date night, Takanobu wanted to treat you to this new restaurant that you’d mentioned looked great. So of course he wanted to show you he listened to you 24/7 and made plans to take you out.

At the end of dinner he asked if you wanted to head over to his place. His reasoning was that it was late and he didn’t want you to take a car service so late, and sleepovers with you were too fun to pass up.

Obviously you agreed, getting into his car and letting him drive you home. Once you were inside his place the two of you settled on his couch to watch the new episode of the show the two of you were watching together. Though you didn’t get very far.

For both of you it was too distracting to be so close. Sure, this type of contact wasn’t new. Maybe the pheromones were stronger tonight? But whatever the reason, you seated on his lap led to a new experience the two of you weren’t expecting.

Hence...

“Nnngh~, ‘Nobu..” You hiss as he pushes deeper into you. Your hands grab at his shoulders, nails digging into the skin.

“Is it good? You’re okay?” Takanobu kisses your forehead and moans when you practically suck him in.

“Good, really good. Keep going,” you reassure, hooking your legs around him. “Please, wanna feel you. Need more.”

And who would he be to say no to your sweet pleas?

So he presses his warm body closer, and though he isn’t a man of many words, he’ll be damned if he doesn’t praise how well you’re taking him.

SAKUSA:

Nothing about my this man is vanilla. Sakusa is very involved in the world of BDSM. No matter how he met you, he knew that he wasn’t going to just have that experience with you and (safely) move onto his next partner. So there’s an emotional and genuine foundation to your relationship before you get on to the freaky stuff. Now despite that, there is planning and negotiating when it comes to the first time. The two of you have a serious conversation about what you want to do as your first real play. And it’s beyond sexy.

“You’re so good at taking this,” Sakusa coos into your ear, landing another slap to where your thighs meet your ass. “And here I thought you were gonna tap out from me just playing with your nipples,” he chuckles.

The hard on in his pants aches, the sight of you whimpering and moaning with red marks scattered all over you drove him crazier than he could have ever imagined.

“Thank you, sir,” you say in response to the spank and in part to his praise. There’s still a part of you that wants to have a coherent and sarcastic conversation with him in this situation. But it does prove difficult when you open your mouth only for a whine to be heard.

“Just one more and you get my cock,” he reminds you, and himself. The main event, so to speak, was nearing. Kiyoomi flexes his hand and lands the last smack, grinning at the way you shudder and push back into his hand. “What a good thing you are, hm?” he asks rhetorically, smoothing over your ass with both hands.

The next couple minutes are a bit of a blur as he undresses and retrieves a condom, returning to you with a fond smile gracing his features. He walks in your line of sight, crouching down to kiss you softly.

“What’s your color?”

“Green, Omi. Please,” you breathe, wet lashes fluttering open.

While Kiyoomi knows he should reprimand you for not using ‘sir’, he can’t find it in himself to do so. Instead he nods and returns behind you, lining himself up.

“I’ll make sure it was worth it, baby,” he whispers as kisses are trailed up your spine.

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