#i shouldn't be allowed to exist

[fazcinatingblog]

Imagine being a lovely innocent Carlton fan and having a nice peaceful time at the footy and you turn to one side and three seats down, there's the most annoying Italian talking to herself about Alex Fasolo and

#Just go to Carlton games to be a disruption #starting an ohhhhhh Alex Fasoloooooooo chant at every opportunity #seeing number 8 and shouting BIANCO IT'S A BIANCO #being told by overbearing Carlton fans that number 8 isn't playing #well except for Josh rocky rachele #reading the record and complaining out loud of the lack of Faz #squealing in joy at every Collingwood mention in the record #being keen for Mark Keane #yelling GO ITALY when fantasia or cerra or 39 do anything #getting removed by security for being too Italian #i have too much money and too much free time and i can't be allowed to do these things and #Laura go buy a house or find a flatmate or something useful or #even going to work on the weekend would be more useful than annoying an entire bay of Carlton fans #i shouldn't be allowed to exist #I'm sorry Tumblr #I'm a pest and not even the good ginnidiot type of pest #please don't tell Faz

[araraito]

I tarnish and defile the very concept of love

#i shouldn't be allowed to exist #notes

[alittlebitofrainbyyourside]

Today I described myself as a fandom puppy dog to someone. ya know, I rarely make first contact because I'm too busy sniffing everything and marveling at all the things but oh boy do I love it when someone calls my name.

#I shouldn't be allowed to exist #ever #but it is accurate I am simply Being Honest #and Being Honest is my thing

[zekeram]

A monster hath been created by my hand. May God have mercy on my soul.

Split version because Tumblr fucking hates me:

EDIT: This is outdated now, I made an updated version which you can find here!

#the timeline #undertale #undertale 2 #deltarune #touhou #homestuck #ut #ut2 #ib game #rpgmaker #fnaf #mother series #earthbound #this is why I shouldn't be allowed to use paint.net #undertale ii revenge of the robots #undertale ii #the only game on this timeline that doesn't exist is undertale endgame #everything else is a real thing

[macadam]

From here on out when making posts about transformers stuff I love I’m not gonna put in a footnote every time about how much other bad stuff there also is in the franchise/fandom. Cause trying to keep posts well rounded and faithful to the entire tf fandom as a whole every single time is so exhausting and also the tf fandom sucks? Additionally it’s too large. Lastly they are nothing to me. They are nothing. Why am I thinking abt the bad parts of fandom all the time when the original goal was to gush about something I really like.

Anyways I love optimus prime he has so much love in his heart

and also autism

hit post

#the tf fandom is incomprehensible #Tumblr is such a subset in and of itself #its different on twitter its different on reddit its barely recognizable on Facebook #at least 50% of it doesn't even exist online #and I'm out here trying to make all my posts approach every angle so that... what? I don't forget to mention that it's riddled with issues? #so that some vengeful anon doesn't come up to me and send an ask berating me on how actually there's a lot of militarism in transformers so #I shouldn't be gushing about how much I love the robot that turns into a gun #^example off the top of my head. this is not in reference to anything #I love talking about nuance in transformers but I also love making silly stupid loving posts about the franchise #and for some reason I've stopped doing the latter #they are both allowed to exist in my mind and on this blog. what is wrong with me #Mac mumbles

[cactusflowerfemme]

“My wife is actually for repealing the 19th amendment and thinks other women should be too” is such a red flag. Is she though. Does she really.

(For my non-American followers, the 19th amendment gurantees women the right to vote)

#if you *as a Christian* seriously believe women are a) so subserviant to men they shouldn't vote #b) that women are not mentally equipped to deal with the 'rigors' of voting #or insert whatever nonsense here #how is that a partner you respect. how is that a partner you experience mutual submission to #how is that a partner you afford the dignity of personhood to #yes voting isn't the end all be all of this argument but i'll be damned if it isn't a good litmus test #ps when i say the 'dignity of personhood' this goes twofold with both a) respecting your partner and #b) allowing your partner to exist outside of the relationship #(in this case having an opinion she's allowed to express) #can you have a relationship with someone you so infantlize? who is not an equal in your eyes? i surely hope not

[thomas-mvller]

@ bayern

#FUCK N4ZIO HOW IS THAT CLUB STILL ALLOWED TO EXIST??? #shouldn't there be a disciplinary course of action to take against this??????? #@ bayern please i beg...

[alsojnpie]

Hi jnpie I'm glad to see ur ok!!!

hi 🙂👋👋 yes, i think I'm OK, sorry for making you or anyone else worry ; w;

I've been all over the place this year and it feels really lame to not be ok sometimes 😔 it's scary, it's weird, am i ok? am i not? surely I'm ok, and I'm just being dramatic, i say to myself, but there were definitely times that i was feeling very bad. but for now I'm feeling a bit better and most importantly I'm choosing to make space for things i love : ) thank you for being here to see me ❤️

#it's like. am i allowed to be here if I'm not OK? i think I felt kind of like i wasn't #like I shouldn't exist in front of anyone's face if i can't be ok. that's no good thats not right

[maegalkarven]

Thinking of Ravengard Ward AU where things proceed to the point of the events of the game with several results:

Levi, convinced by Gortash fighting off Bhaal is only possible with the Crown of Karsus and growing desperate with every day (as Bhaal pushes to control him with growing force), ventures into Mephistar to steal it from Mephistopheles.

While he is gone Ravengard goes to Elturel and, as Elturel falls to Avernus, descends there too. Duke's second son Wyll, an aspiring ranger, ventures into Hells alongside with counselor Florrick in a quest to find Ulder Ravengard. Levi returns from Mephistar to find all of his family gone. He wants to rush after them to Avernus, but Bhaal's hold on him is getting worse with everyday, and he's running out of time. He hopes his brother and Florrick know what they're doing.

With Ravengard missing and Florrick out of the city, Enver Gortash conspires to have proclaim the duke dead, making Leviathan Ravengard his heir and successor.

The Absolute Plan is set into motion, with only one god (Myrkul) involved. Levi and Gortash are forced to work with Ketheric bc the illithid colony is literally Under His House. Levi plans to betray the man and clean the shadow-cursed lands because this is what Jaheira and the harpers would have wanted. He when plans to use the newly gained with Absolute power to destroy Bhaal, Bane and Myrkul in one go. Gortash plans to obtain the power alike gods without any restrictions gods are forced under.

The first illithid-infected people start to appear. Jaheira and Minsc go to investigate, Minsc gets infected. Levi plans to use him as a leverage against Jaheira and Wyll if (then) they will disagree with his plans.

The incoming wedding of Duke Leviathan Ravengard and Lord Enver Gortash is announced. Lord Gortash is then going to be proclaimed the first Archduke of Baldur's Gate, with his husband's full support.

Wyll and Florrick meet Karlach and team up with her. Wyll is horrified to find out the guy who is dating his older brother sold Karlach to the deviless. Together they find Duke Ravengard and hijack the nautiloid.

The following (with all the in-game steps) events are:

Wyll and the team (Wyll is the leader) reach BG just in time to be informed of the passed wedding and the incoming inauguration of Lord Gortash.

They are horrified what has happened to the city in their absence. Ravengard, Wyll and Jaheira try to talk sense into Levi, Levi argues back what none of them know what it's like to have the God of Murder in their head all the time. What Bhaal was showing him more things these days, what he knows his destiny - he is a pureblood bhaalspawn, made out of Bhaal's dead flesh, he is destined to destroy the world. He is trying to convince them this is the only way he can do it, what this way he can destroy all gods for good, his Father included. What with the power the stones and Absolute gives them, he and Gortash can become new gods, can change the very rules of the universe - and wouldn't it be great?

The huge argument follows and Levi storms out, angry.

The next time they see him is at the inauguration, when, instead of proclaiming Gorash the new Archduke, Levi murders everyone but Gortash (who by this point is used to his husband's murder sprees and is successfully defended by Steel Watch) in the Hall.

Wyll and co walk into the Hall, expecting confrontation, but finding Levi in a pool of blood as Gortash tries to make him come out of the stupor.

Levi raises a desperate gaze at his brother and says: "Don't you see? It's getting worse. Bhaal is so angry. This is the only way. Why can't you see? Why no one but Enver can see it?!"

#dark urge: levi #ravengard ward au #durgetash #i love how this au in some ways is better #but in some ways is even worse #Levi is one of the Big Bad #his main motivation is getting free from Bhaal and not killing Ulder Wyll Florrick Jaheira Minsc and Gortash #everyone else can burn in hell for all he cares about #Enver Gortash is living his best life manipulating and malewifing his way into very questionable not exactly godhood #his husband growing more apeshit with everyday is unexpectedly upsetting tho #and ketheric died too early it freed brain from the part of the command #he KNEW they shouldn't have involved him at all #they could've done it just the two of them #he eventually plans to venture into mephisto's vault again but at this point he frantically researches all the way they can erase bhaal #from the existence bc fuck this levi is HIS. No gods are allowed between them #at some point levi stopped being a ladder to greatness and become important and gortash missed when this moment was #meanwhile tadpoled minsc is fighting bhaalists bc Levi ordered him to #Levi is like “you're a known enemy of Bhaal. Let's put it to good use” #he legit sent poor minsc to find a way to the temple of bhaal and find a way inside #also Orin is getting apeshit around the city too just for the sake of it and bc dad said so #Levi doesn't like it but he knows confronting his sister and killing her will make him into Abdel 2.0. #meaning either he will die in the fight or Bhaal will turn him into his meat puppet when Orin drops dead #so he'll send jaheira and co after her trail of dead bodies too #Karlach: Gortash is Evil! #Wyll and Ravengard: yeah we know. He is married to our Levi tho. #Karlach: 'your Levi' just killed everyone in this room but the only man I actually want to see dead! #Jaheira: it it's of any conciliation he doesn't look happy about it. Neither does Gortash

[princemick]

learning how to be a proper friend at my age is so annoying bc yea I shud know these social rules but I wasn't welcome to them at 16 so I will make those mistakes and not feel like a space is just ours and I'm allowed into them at 23 and I know that sucks

#kyle.txt #realising people want a space w just me and not expand it is weird #bc i used to think oh its just an us thing and it for some reason never was #so now that us things exist I forget that they are like us things and I shouldn't have to allow others into it

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

randomly thought that lauretta should be in m2 canon like she has such a sly hypocritical personality with ability to change her behavior depending on who she's talking to (ok this is how tumblr wrote her but it's canon to me), andddd can u imagine if she had interaction with vito.......... maybe some mission from her (something she asks vito to do secretly behind carlo's back?)

#i mean no ofc m2 writets shouldn't be allowed to write female characters (and many others) but if she was like this in the game............. #frrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.................... #m2 #im gonna think about this later #+ dear godddddddddd can u imagine if there was some hints that falcone polycule existed in the past............................. #<- they became so real to me like i can't treat them as a crack ship anymore (im lying bc they always were super logical to me) #+ old evil married couple who don't seem so evil in the beginning #(cover my head in hands <- lying my head on my cat actually) i wish my m2 hcs were real #no fr i have blender installed and what if. what if i start learning 3d and make game models. what then #ok + if joe also saw lauretta he would say some gross shit later im sure 😭 #and ok i have another m2 comic project but its my hcs for original timeline + missed scenes etc #maybe i should add vito & lauretta scene here too....................

[blujayonthewing]

I love to get swept up in researching stuff like ‘best kind of clothes for hiking/ camping’ and then go to try to find some of those clothes to wishlist and be reminded that fat women aren’t allowed to wear things

#so caught up in the euphoria of outdoorsmanning that for a moment I lived in a world where fatphobia doesn't exist #I was also planning on buying Fancy Pretty Underwear for my wedding day and ended up just kinda giving up in despair #I wanted to be indulgent and get real silk and wouldn't you know it the answer is pretty much just no :) #fat men are marginally more allowed to live and have things as a general rule BUT (very broadly speaking) have narrower hips #so it cancels out in the search for pants or underwear specifically :') #listen it was 60f and rained for 24 straight hours while we were camping this weekend and I'm in love with my wool socks now #gimme wool undies! gimme wool jammies! can a bitch live PLEASE #and like I happen to have the resources and werewithal to make my own clothes in theory BUT #1) I shouldn't fucking have to that is Not The Point #pants are HARD and also my adhd ass always intends to make clothes and never gets around to it so you know... not entirely pragmatic anyway #about me

[revvetha]

oh man today is bad bad lol

#Idk. kinda want a hug kinda want to be held kinda want to isolate myself forever kinda don't wanna exist #holidays are so great bc you go be stressed&depressed somewhere else #and then ppl think you are somehow recovered or refreshed or generally better when you're back #which lo and behold is not how mental illness works #but I suddenly feel like I'm not allowed to be doing bad anymore because I was By The Ocean for a bit so I shouldn't complain #tbd #vent

[uncanny-tranny]

some transphobic person was in a youtuber server run by a trans woman with a lot of trans people in it and we kept asking what nuts' pronouns were and deez said "deez/nuts" after deez was refusing to answer. even after deez got banned, the server continued to respect nuts' pronouns.

That's actually kinda sweet of the server omg

#ask #anon #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i see some people say that respecting everybody's pronouns even somebody like deez/nut is bad... #...but acting as though there is a time where you shouldn't respect somebody's pronouns is only going to hurt trans people in the end... #...like i have seen people say that you shouldn't respect a trans person's pronouns if they are an exclusionist before and it's like... #...this is the same principle... respecting everybody's pronouns when they tell them to you is only going to benefit trans and cis people #it ultimately isn't my place to draw a line on when you are allowed to misgender somebody because like... that line shouldn't exist #if a person is going to be transphobic they will find *any* way to be so #if a cis person thinks it humiliates the trans community by going by deez/nuts. um #i feel like that's only going to humiliate themself ngl #and honestly? i feel a lot safer in a community which gives basic respect to everybody. you can condemn people... #...but you can condemn people without denying somebody basic respect. idk. #but yeah good on the server for banning deez #and good on the server for respecting deez pronouns #the worst part of only giving two forms of your pronouns is when you don't know the proper way to use the rest of the pronouns

[coockie8]

do you ever think about unblocking the person who made the callout about you?

Sometimes, yeah, but then I remember I'm above willingly opening myself up to a brain cell-killing argument with a troglodyte who thinks what a person engages with in fiction indicates in any way, shape, or form what a person's real-world morals are.

#yeah anyone can write about anything they want in fiction #but a storm hawks anti once said it doesn't matter if I'm a csa survivor I still shouldn't write about that kind of stuff #which 100% translates to ''your trauma makes me uncomfortable therefore you're not allowed to talk about it'' :) #and yeah you can try to disagree with that #but whether you realise it or not that's what you're saying when you tell a known csa survivor not to share fiction about their own trauma #that your comfort is more important than their right to talk about their own lived experiences #it's on the same level as telling someone with self harm scars to cover up so they won't trigger people #like no #not to be insensitive but if you're so far gone that a complete stranger's body will send you into a downward spiral #don't leave your house #'cause it's insane to expect the entire world to cater to your specific issues #there comes a point where you need to accept responsibility for your own mental health #and telling anyone not to write something because it might trigger some random stranger who could just block them is the exact same thing #you don't get to tell me what I can and cannot write about #the block button exists and I would recommend you get very fucking comfortable using it

[running-in-the-dark]

a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)

#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have #heart disease. #scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it #but it's been years now so I don't remember the details #just that that's a thing apparently #and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that #do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :) #it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week. #like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭 #also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary. #like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and #yeah it sucks. #specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't #need to say it where anyone can see #it's embarrassing enough #though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about. #like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45. #it's so unbelievably exhausting. #but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :) #oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently #that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me #haha isn't that fun :) ) #ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very #well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part. #and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for #this long. so. guess I'm just fucked. #personal