#i really want to know what theyre listening to now

[koolades-world]

i saw the cat and corvid mc ones and i wanna see dog-like mc so bad, like one whos very loyal, loves cuddling with loved ones, if they had a tail and one of the gang came home itd be faster than a helicopter i think, if they see anyone with food theyd just come up to them with their puppy dog eyes, they just lounge around in random spots nearby the characters or even lays their head/body on them. sometimes theyll be playing with something and be possessive over it and a "Whats that in your mouth" situation comes in and they run away taking random stuff they found lying around the HoL, maybe theyre also rly playful and love playfighting and stuff like tug of war

thats just a few things that come off the top of my head lol how the mc is like is up to you, sorry if theres too much or doesnt make sense! xoxo

haha hi!!! yes of course!

this is such a fun idea. i may or may not have based this reader off my goofy goober of a dog. she's so sweet but sometimes i wonder if theres even a single thought in that head of hers haha

enjoy <3

Dog-like Mc

Lucifer

getting lock out of his bedroom always proceeds as such: being sad that you're locked out, sitting sadly in front of the door and scratching at it, lucifer feeling bad and eventually letting you in so you can sit on his bed and ruin the freshly made sheets lol

rinse and repeat the cycle nightly

the puppy dog eyes work very well on him

since he handles his brothers so often, he's good at getting you to listen when you're off in lala land or something along those lines

Mammon

he himself is kinda dog like, so the two of you get along pretty well

both of you would follow the other to the worlds end <33

you probably steal his sunglasses from time to time and he has to hunt you down to get them back, just because when he said “drop it” you accepted that as a challenge lol

the only difference in the two of you, however, is that you’re much more open with how you feel and will not hesitate to admit that you love him even if it flustered him haha

Levi

he's a little wary of having you in his room

he has lots of valuables that he treasures and while he's a little afraid you'll steal and or mess something up, he genuinely cares about you and is willing to get past that

however he did need a day away from you after you drooled on his Ruri pillow haha

after he got to know you better, he really appreciated always having an outgoing buddy to go out in public with someone that wasn't one of his brothers

Satan

sitting with him while he reads!! randomly laying your head in his lap <3

you always check out what's in his mug while he reads despite the fact that it never changes (it's always tea) but maybe one day it'll be something delicious, like chips haha

he's wary of taking you into a cat cafe, but surprisingly, all the cats love you!

now he's questioning if he's really a cat, or if he's a dog person lol

Asmo

you let him do any kind of skincare and treatments he wants on you

and he thinks it's great! until he sees you at the end of the day and it kinda looks like you swam in a mud puddle

he's not going to be the one to subject you to a bath so he always shoos you off and tells you to go clean up before you can get something else done (my dog hates water lol)

if he's ever missing one of his rather tasty smelling skincare products or a brush, or something like that, he just opens a bag of chips and summons you + beel (see below lol)

Beel

please the amount of food you're getting from him

those puppy dog eyes work so well and he can't help but give in every single time

both of you come running every time someone opens a chip bag even if it's on the other side of the house haha. if the others have issues finding you, that's how they do it quick and easy

every meal of yours is eaten together, of course

Belphie

the realest cat and dog dynamic ever!

please there's no way you're not jumping on his bed just for fun while he's sleeping in it. he's convinced it's to annoy him but it's just you being incredible oblivious and wanting to have fun

you guys are best friends. i don't make the rules haha

when you do want to nap with him, however, it's the best nap you've ever had and is probably a very cute pic

#sorry this is so late!! #been feeling kinda under the weather and swore i had something ready to post haha #obey me #obey me! #obey me satan #obey me asmo #obey me levi #obey me belphie #obey me mammon #obey me beel #obey me lucifer #obey me x reader

[astridsbirdskulls]

They probably fell asleep after a game

Here's more jerejean, including the projectile squean @emry-stars-art

#soft jerejean my love #i really want to know what theyre listening to now #it's probably Jeremy's music but i still don't know what he would listen to #and they're kissing in the rain bc i thought it would be cute #sorta #its actually bc i waa thinking about the first time jean got to play in the rain #i think he used to hate the rain bc it made the nest feel even more gloomy and prison-like #but then after practice with the trojans on day it had beed raining and Jeremy started splashing in puddles #jean definitely hated it a little less after that #projectile squean from an emry live #this felt so dumb to draw but i love it so its fine #jeremy knox #jean moreau #jerejean #all for the game #aftg #aftg fanart #fan art #my art #mer au #kevin day #kefin #david wymack #abby winfield

[gibbearish]

kinda frustrating how we've spent the last few months acknowledging how a lot of well intentioned but guilt trippy social justice posts are like specifically designed to worm into ocd ppls brains and then now every single post abt palestine is "i dont care how bad your mental health is, i dont care how bad looking at all this makes you feel, if you don't read every single post you see on this topic in full you are a horrible person and directly contributing to their deaths. 'waaaah my mental health' well at least youre not being bombed, did you think about that??" and its like. i absolutely get where youre coming from but you dont get to complain that guilt tripping is bad then turn around and use it anyways because you think the cause youre using it for is worthwhile. like. everyone thinks the cause theyre using it for is worthwhile, thats why theyre using it. but its still a shit way to do it

#like when you make a tumblr post to your tumblr blog youre not guilt tripping people who disagree with you #youre guilt tripping your followers who if theyre still following you probably already agree with what youre saying #and esp on a topic with so much brutality involved like. yeah OBVIOUSLY theres people who have to look away #like. yall know a bunch of these posts and articles and videos show graphic injuries in them right? #like i physically cant watch news videos abt this bc i will spend days with my brain making me imagine #peoples deaths in graphic detail specifically because it knows that will upset me. and i would prefer not to do that #in fact me doing that helps palestinians exactly as much as finishing my brussel sprouts helps starving kids #by which i mean none. its just a cheap guilt trip to get you to do something you don't want to #which when it's brussel sprouts thats whatever but when its 'deliberately expose yourself to extremely triggering #things otherwise youre a bad person'. not so much #idk i feel like maybe its due to ppl feeling. agitated abt not being able to do anything abt it #like the government isnt listening and we're a world away so physically /all/ we can do really is sit and watch #so i can understand a) wanting to find someone to lash out at to alleviate that feeling #like if you cant stop the actual problem at the very least you can shout down the people supporting it right? #and b) seeing 'not watching' or even just 'not watching as closely as i am' as a transgression #bc well its all we can do so if youre not even doing that you must be bad #and its like. i really do get it. but the whole world is watching right now‚ like this is THE big news thing happening rn #so a few people choosing to avoid to subject will not make a single iota of difference #idk. i guess what im saying is if youre feeling the urge to yell at someone for not looking close enough #just donate some money to a support fund instead itll do a lot more

[symbioticsimplicity]

That ace vibe of "I know this person is incredibly attractive, but they're also saying something interesting could you please stop screaming I want to hear what they're saying."

#this is about kpop #like yeah i know hes hot and shirtless #but i wanted to hear the story hes telling about why he got that tattoo shut UP #or like when people put music edits over someone being hot but i remember the context of what they were saying #and that was more interesting than the edit now is #like yeah cool great muscles and pretty skin #this fucking nerd is also trying to give a really detailed breakdown of their thought process and I really want to know how they did that #I'll get back around to them being pretty once I'm done listening to what theyre actually saying #I'm pretty sure I'm gray ace #like i know theyre hot dont get me wrong it'll fluster me eventually #but only once i like them as a person and even then it only hit SOMETIMES #this is specifically about Christian Yu #hes gorgeous yeah but like I'm really a lot more fascinated by his creative process #it sounds similar to mine and thats not something I see often #asexual #ace tag #kpop #sam speaks

[softshuji]

y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.

#i was thinking abt it earlier #but i've been crying so much lately like so much. almost every second day if not every day and i dont know why #actually i do kinda know why. #i think im hitting my limit with a lot of things and one of them is my parent dumping their problems on me #earlier today my mom told me again abt the whole debacle with my dad cheating on her multiple times and everyone knows i find this subject #too much for me i dont tlike to think about it or anything and im so tired of hearing it and especially when i lived through it trust me i #was literally there the whole cheating subject is very raw to me for many reasons and im just tired of being the emotional dump so often #especially because she always comes to me for everything all the time and im so sos tire d #everyone always tells me i should consider my own needs as a person and its okay to have them and yk in theory i agree with this but i just #cant. i grew up not having any needs met so how can i let myself have them now it makes me feel absolutely awful with myself to even #consider having to ask for something off someone and yet i know how wrong this is iknow needa and desires and wants are natural #but mine have always been on the back burner for everyone else. so its' no surprise ive let myself think im something to be used for other #peoples sake. whether that be physically or emotionally and especially the latter. because thats how i see myself someitmes. something #something to make people feel betetr about themselves that has no use outside of how i make them feel - just something to use until they #move onto the next best thing. something more entertaining and better value whatever that might mean something with less feelings less #sensitive. it feels like sometimes thats what i am. the indestructible never breaking hal that somehow has a solution to everything and can #always be there to fix every issue and is there to make people feel better but needs nothing in response #and god it really does feel like my problems dont mean anything to anyone #it does feel like no one thinks theyre worth anything #not worth listening to not worth thr same attention etcetc and yknow what i hate hate hate asking for attention and yet i get upset when i #feel like im not actually being heard or listened to #and i find it happens so often. sometimes i wanna hear it just once for once i wanna hear 'hey its okay to be upset i wish i could hug you' #or something like that god i dont want to be strong and nursing my wounds in private anymore #god i want a hug so bad and someone to just let me cry on them just once i want to be held and told someones got me instead of me doing it #for everyone else all the time #is thisselfish? it feels selfish to say #this is why it affects me so deeply whenever anyone does validate me or tells me its ok to want things or that im loved or anything nice #god i cant handle niceness at all it feels like it knocks me so bad it takes me ages to recover #and yet somehow all i can tell myself is that theyre only saying nice things because theyre being obligated to and not becayuse they feel #like they actually like me

[basslinegrave]

have to send 2 packages today and pick one up and then i wanna draw... the sooner i get that done the better but i have to wait a while now before i can go. but im also getting a headache oughhhh whys the weather like it is

#i was getting rly into the painting yesterday #and i cant wait to finish it #but i was doing it as like. cooldown after workin on the animatic cause that is just merging togethet for me #every frame looks the same and im getting the proportions all wrong so i had to do something else or else id explode #i got like 31 pages done and i counted 45 before but theres def not just 45 #now i have like 4 similar ones then 3 from a wider pov then at least 4 variants of one panel and then at least 3 more for part2 of that #and thats not even all theres a 3 frame part over some music and thats already over 45 and i havent even sketched out the actual final part #should have done it before this because now im just leaving it for the last but i dont know what to go for there. just gonna wing it #i could tie it to the previous chorus frames and make it similar or i could play with the variations from a couple lines back or work with #the 3 frame part which is gonna be in a different setting and stuff. nobody knows what im talking about and thats ok #i havent even listened to the song much now and i already had enough so when im gonna be editing it i will try to go strictly by timestamps #then have a couple final listens and then never touch it ever again #some frames i really like but the ones that are over the chorus i really dislike cause theyre closeups but not close enough like i wanted #hard to work with such simple characters on a bigger scale because theres no detail #also why i went with painting them. just under though i couldnt handle coloring over the lines even though it would help it greatly #whats blud waffling about #also ig its more of a storyboard animation but i just dont wanna call it either. i think animatic is an extremely broad term now #theres ones that are legit just storyboards and then theres ones that i wouldnt dare call animatic #like calling mona lisa a sketch. especially when its mostly animated #i cant do all that. mines gonna be just a powerpoint presentation #but its also not like a storyboard cause im fully painting the frames lol

[todayisafridaynight]

funniest part about masadai is ichiban because he would be completely unhinged about it, ESPECIALLY in a post y7 context. “young master YOU’RE getting down and dirty with the former tojo chairman??? woweeeee…. talk abt sleeping with the enemy hohoho” full eyebrow wriggles and everything. he’d go and personally apologize to daigo for having to know masato in the early 2000’s. masato almost pulls a gun on him several times but also he’s really trying to be better so he stops himself and ichi full cries when he sees masato exercise that restraint

YOU SEE THE VISION

ichiban IS the earnest-but-unintentionally-annoying little brother and thats so important to me. au where aoki lives but boy does he regret it when ichi's warming up to daigo all 'we're gonna be in-laws !!!!' and is now divulging every embarrassing memory he can

#spoilers #besties playing Y7 now everyone cheer !!! #masadai #snap chats #BUT YEAH NO LISTEN I LOVE ICHI IN MASADAI SCENARIOS #JUST ABSOLUTE 'And Your Friend Steve' ENERGY #he's not trying to be a nuisance he's really not- he's really happy to see masato happy #it's just that he also has no filter 90% of the time #luckily daigo's a saint by y7 so he doesn't mind and he isn't about to deny that ichi's radiance is admirable despite everything #and it CERTAINLY makes conversations funnier when ichi's phone goes off one day theyre all in a room together #and daigo offhandedly goes 'what ringtone is that i havent heard it before' and masato. without missing a beat #is just 'oh its from dragon quest actually' SOLELY in an attempt to impress daigo somehow #and he only knows that because ichi WILL info dump about it to him unprompted #so while ichi's reveling in the fact masato remembered masato wants to sit in oncoming traffic #2010 era masadai tho is funny as fuck too tho like Just In General its just everyone looking at daigo like #YOURE FUCKING THE GOVERNOR OF TOKYO? and bro just <:) It Was A Long Time Ago-- #chriiiist i must cap my rambling right now before i make an essay and run out of tags

[tendercoretroglodyke]

I have some kind of weird evil wizard curse on me where I feel deeply sad and uniquely horrible when my beloved bestie roommate is home but feel Normal and Emotionally Regulated when theyre out like literally what is wrong with me good GOD get that girl some therapy !!!!

#sorry trying this thing where i speak the thoughts that haunt me and build up in my head as 'unspeakable' anxieties to weaken their power #good thing no one can see this!!! #anyways i want to reinterate that i love my bestie so much and i love BEING with them #but when theyre home and we're not actively hanging out and sometimes even when we ARE i get. like this #i dont understand it #not to be all emo mcdarkness or whatever but i really feel so much more lonely when im around people than when im alone #whats up w that?? #like idk is it just a matter of me being jealous that my bestie spends more time with their partner than with me? #or am i jealous bc i dont HAVE a partner like that who is always there for me and considers me their number 1 #OR am i in love with my bestie and unable to admit it to myself??? #or am i just autistic and having a meltdown every time i socialize with people and realize i am not like them #and dont think i will ever have the emotional intelligence to have a healthy adult relationship like they do #and it drives me fucking crazy with grief?? #vs when im alone im like. not even a person anymore and dont need to be seen i can simply exist and do puzzles and listen to podcast #???? #no but fr this has been a major issue for a long time now and I'm only recently starting to uncover the patterns in my sadness #and im legitimately so scared im going to reach a point where i need to move out on my own and have more control over when i see my bestie #just to get a handle on this insane mood fluctuations that i truly dont understand #and i dont even know how i would begin to broach that topic with them #bc we have promised each other so many times we would always live together #please god let saying this all out loud make it easier to bear 🙏

[lzrdprsn]

It's really weird when you know someone in a context different from how everybody else knows them so you look at them and you still kind of see that person they used to be

#this post is about the boy i dated my senior year who was so incredibly sweet tbh wouldnt be the person i am today if i hadnt met him #but he was so fucked up he had so many issues it was really hard so it didnt work out but i loved him and i think he loved me too #but hes in a moderately successful band now which i just found out about do i looked them up and theyre good #but its so weird because its like i know that when you were 17 you wanted to be an underwater welder #i helped you clean your room at your grandmas house because you were so sad you couldnt do it yourself #i ditched 5th period AP English to sit on the steps behind the auditorium and listen to you talk about whatever #you pushed me on the swings and we took the bus to the movie theater and you liked cherry wraps and you played me my favorite songs #i havent REALLY thought about that guy in years and we were only together MAYBE 6 months but its so weird what you remember about people #and especially how you remember how they made you feel because he made me feel so good like i was in control #all my previous relationships was me trying to desperately please someone who wouldnt do the same for me #and honestly a lot of my relationships since have been the same especially in college and with the one girl who honestly if she called me #today i would drop everything and go be with her again no questions because i cant get her out of my head #but stuff witj him was never ever like that it was so easy it was like breathing even though it ended messy i have 0 regrets #and its nice to know that things are going well for him because honestly he changed my life a little bit #the way i dont give a fuck now is something i learned from him #ill probably delete this later but you know

[nerdie-faerie]

My entire uni process since I applied three years ago has just been accompanied by a series of my parents getting pissed at me about information they made up, like how are you mad at me about stories you created

#Uni shenanigans #+Extra #personal #ace is a grumpy bean #im sorry theyve really set me off i cant even deal with my own sht without them making up a problem to be mad at me about even when im not #there like fck i already moved to the other side of the country which sure its not far but was the best i could do without a passport #im kinda dealing with all my childhood trauma right now its kinda bringing it all back for some reason #but its been like this the whole time they convince themselves they know things and then get mad about them when thats not even the case #and its not like they fcking listen to me anyway when im the one actually experiencing it and its not like i dont lie to them #i absolutely do but those arent the things they get mad about which makes it extra bizarre #like asking my dad to be my guarantor for my flat last year and i explained that it was the same as first year but instead of being #assigned random flatmates i would be with my friends and he was like 'oh you want me to be your friends guarantor and pay their rent? #im not doing it' and i was like ?? no you theyre parents have already agreed to be their guarantors were all paying separate rents for #separate rooms its the same as last year but i dont get assigned a random flatmate and you didnt pay my rent last year what #and then he started claiming he wasnt my guarantor last year but you cant rent without a guarantor as a student? and i certainly didnt #have a rental history before first year so obviously i needed one what are you on and he just kept getting pissed that i was tryna force #him to pay my friends rent its just been that kinda sht over and over for 3 years with a side of threatening my autonomy when im home #im just so tired and fcking frustrated and i just wanna lose my sht at him about it cus its not like we talk we dont have a relationship #and yet hes still finding things to have a problem with me about when i got enough to deal with as is like youre not getting money from me #right now do you want me to starve? i got grocery and laundry money and tuition thats it there aint no spare money you shouldnt have made #poor financial decisions so you could bully money out of me assuming id be home for the summer only for it to backfire cus #now you owe sht and moneys tight and i aint coming back

[killmebythebeach]

Just listened to 118 and jesus FUCK. How do you like. Be a person after that?

#spoilers in the tags dont read tags unless youve listened to 118 #anyway. statement begins #obviously ive known about martin arson for a while cuz ive been interacting with the fandom #but i was not really prepared for how like. funny that was. #martin taunting elias and talking about his own crush on jon to stall. call that fear-baiting. #anyways this MOTHER FUCKER ill kill him i dont care if melanies like infected with the skaughter shes 100% right about killing elias #and sir are you implying you have a specific memory/feeling chosen for every person in the archives?! #he said something about 'what i have prepared' like sir fuck you?! he is great villain inspo though i want to make a dnd bbeg based on him #and i hate him to hell and back as a person but love him to BITS as a character #okay. 117 has me really scared for tim. ive been spoiled and i know he dies but i just. #i miss 90s movie best friend flirty guy. hes so bitter now which of course makes sense but its heartbreaking to see him #and the whole time theyre in the building is just TERRIFYING like it isnt wax?! #the beatles? ARE THEY GOING TO GET SKINNED ON STAGE? #i forgot how lowkey scared i was of nikolas voice. makes my skin crawl every time. #and is that what the unknowing does? cuz daisy doesnt recognise jon for some reason after opening the door #anyway. ill finish s3 tomorrow hopefully. but like. heh?!?! #the magnus archives spoilers #the magnus archives #tma

[this-doesnt-endd]

Therers so many things happening all the time everyday i get emails my god

#why the hell doesnt the bank update my credit card statement like idk at a normal rate #its paid off! its been paid off! early in fact! update it! #also like my credit score dropped 24 points out of nowhere and it has me so pressed cause like i literally always pay on time in full #and yeah thats not the best way to build credit #but it will slowly which im fine with #like im perfect about it and it went down 24 points!!!!! #and now i have a 401k that like i have no idea what to do with or how to best utilize it #and i know jack shit abt investing but i know i should #also like i just want to see my doctors #i have like a billion things i need to sort out but its impossible to see a doctor #cause theyre all leaving the office and i will not have a male doctor ever i refuse #and it takes like a billion years to see them #also my nose is still all fucked up and like its kinda worse cuase its like so like dry i guess even tho im using the stupid oitntment #but it still hurts and this is gross sorry but like the snot hardness like really badly and itfeels like a bad scab #and i cant use the other stuff my ent wants me to cause it hurts cause my nose hurts now #and like im the poster child rn for thyroid issues yet no one wants to listen to me #as if it isnt like a hereditary issues on my dads side #im trying to get so much done and its so hard and taking so long #and they got me working like nearly 40 hours a week like goddamn

[agamingsystem]

🐺

#i wanna ask #hey can you ask questions about my interests? about how im doing? #but then I worry that I'm being too selfish #I try to make sure I include the other a little - like ask them stuff #so that they then ask something about me in return #and i know its not transactional #but it feels nice to be... prompted like that #to really feel like theyre interested in me and my likes #and while i can talk about it anytime #thats not what im getting at #its the being asked about it - feeling like theyre interested and want to engage with me #i feel like its unfair to ask for that #but now it just feels like you dont even consider me #not outside yourself that is #just want our attention and want our attention on you #but i want attention to! #are you actually listening to what were saying? or are you just waiting for your turn to talk

[seventh-district]

tag limit my beloathed... continuing my analysis of my potentially Sun x Moon coded ships here ↓

#Seven.txt #tag limit can't stop me cause i'll just make another post #anything to avoid having to put all my thoughts in the body of a post. too scary. #i like the illusion of speaking softly in privacy that talking in the tags provides me #anyways where were we #when i say Sun x Moon coded i'm not referring to Sun & Moon the FNaF characters. although they are definitely a prime & on the nose example #i just mean.. light & dark. upbeat & downbeat. loud & quiet. opposites. y'know? you know. #they don't even have to be blonde hair x black hair honestly. although that def helps. just personality can be enough #like. okay. i'm thinking about Jesus and Daryl. from TWD. don't laugh at me. hey. listen. #i think they could count on personality alone. like yeah visually theyre both. Brown. but Jesus is so chaotic and sunny! #at least compared to Daryl.. and i mean if u wanna get problematic with it you could replace Jesus with Beth but. eeeeeeh #i don't really ship them? they were definitely Something and S4EP12 is my favorite for a Reason but its not bc i ship them #not sexually at least. it's hard to ship Daryl with anyone sexually. for me. but i don't think it's romantic either #they're some secret third thing. whatever it is i think it's got a Sun x Moon dynamic nonetheless! okay uhhh who else... #not Shigaraki and Dabi popping up in my head.. the hell. i'm really scraping the bottom of the ship barrel now #neither of them are Sun coded in the slightest. where did that thought come from. anyways uhhh... OH #what about Karlach and Astarion!? ohhhh yeah yeah yeah i think she's Sun-coded in a fiery sense. and he's def Moon-coded #in spite of the white hair lmao. ohhh and the way he misses being in the sun??? do u see where im going with this. do u see my vision #okay who else. Dew and Rain??? fire and water... i think they could fit. but Dew being Sunny in the more fiery sense like Karlach #if i wanted to get real self-indulgent i could talk about Venti and Saoirse. they're deeefinetly Sun and Moon coded. which tracks lmao #of course my most dearly beloved permanent and personal ship is Sun & Moon coded. of course it is. Saoirse is just as Moon-coded as i am #obviously. even more actually cause they look the way i Want to look. and then Venti is def Sun-coded when we look at the mask he wears #which he hardly ever drops. so. it's almost permanent he's so committed to the bit. when he does drop it he's... hm. hmm. #he's too complex to fit it in these tags lmao. i best stop before i make myself wanna pick Heaven In Hiding back up #to circle back around to the podcast that started it all i suppose i'd be remiss not to mention Martin and Jon #they're very Sun & Moon methinks. at least the version of them that i've gathered from S1 and fanart/posts/spoilers #but doesn't Martin get... sucked into the Lonely or smthn. ohohoho perhaps the Sunny thing is just a front. like Venti! hm #many thoughts. head full of ships rn. but alas i'm hungry and running out of tags again so i'm gonna stop here #thanks for coming to my TED talk on Sun & Moon coded ships. i hope u learned as much about me as i've learned abt myself tonight #gonna go post the next chapter of AEIWNF. make food. and uhhh... rotate Gerry in my mind some more lets be honest here

[todayisafridaynight]

What the hell was that other anon on, I signed up to see masadai and minedai good shit, not that cursed timeline, it caused me PHYSICAL PAIN to read that last ask

Not even "oomf angst" pain but physical pain from trying to comprehend this at all smh REAL LIFE PSYCHIC DAMAGE

you hear that other anon we gotta stone you to death. sorry this is a democratic inbox :/

#snap chats #good morning campers who's ready for violence :) #honestly no other anon could be onto something if i may be insane to indulge the idea #'snap you're off your rocker' i was never on it now listen to my story #listen if masumi's leaking info to aoki to keep him happy I THINK. we can take an INSANE step forward #whether tojo's left kamurocho yet or not TBD POINT IS daigo's gotta keep seeing aoki to keep him happy #something something having the yakuza chairman so readily available and in the palm of his hand etc etc that kind of power trip #daigo's here for his boys though he can grin and bear it #and then mine comes back. mine's trying to dodge daigo yk the whole Gulit Thing but for whatever reason they bump into each other #daigo's obviously elated like His Dead Wife's Back right #mine'll resist on seeing daigo again afterwards but daigo's stubborn and /really/ needs an actual friend right now #moving right along with this bs tho mine finally gets over himself and becomes bold and wants to try again to be in daigos life #HOWEVER. daigo has to hesitate. he'd LOVE to have mine back but the situation in the tojo's so fragile #it's not that daigo isn't a champ at sneaking around and hiding info but if he's at all caught rekindling with mine that could be trouble #and daigo knows if he tells mine the scoop he's going to do something drastic #do we see what im cooking here. i feel sick idk what happened but i feel ill so i MIGHT just be insane #but in review this is not. THE WORST idea conceivable #anon from last night you were onto something but ima need you to stop calling aoki 'masato' #'snap theyre the same guy it doesnt matter' that might be true but it's still trippy #also ARE they the same guy. are they REALLY Boat Of Theseus kind of deal #(theyre the same guy but it really does trip me up to read 'masato' when you mean his aoki era and vice versa stop that im begging)

[skrunksthatwunk]

been wringing my hands about the concept of family therapy. scary stuff. like maybe it could help and we sure as hell need SOMETHING to change but i think it would be like taking a potato peeler to the soles of my feet

#look it probably works for a lot of ppl but every time i think about it as a solution for my Definitely Needs It family it's like. god no #it probably only works when everyone's willing to change and actually listen to each other #if i did it with my folks im worries they'd quit if they were challenged or talk shit about the therapist/methods afterwards #like im so worried the therapist would take their side and we'd be stuck giving in to them #only now with assurance from an expert that they're always right and we're wrong and ungrateful. not helpful!! negative progress #and if we tried to switch therapists my parents would be like oh you just can't accept responsibility 🙄🙄 #you just wanted someone to tell you you didn't have to try or to coddle you or make us do what you want or whatever #aghhh it's so scary and it's not even on the table. no one wants this but i also think trying to mediate it myself would suck so fuckin bad #aughh. sorry i wanna write about it as like. a tags rant. here goes #my parents don't apologize for shit. ive legit seen it happen once. they justify and backpedal but they never acknowledge their bs #they treat the harm that comes from their methods with a sort of 'well what do you expect me to do about it?! (rhetorical)' vibe #like there is no way to improve. like the ability for parents to fail and be flawed means those things must be accepted uncritically #because they're trying and they have good intentions. but if they really wanted to help as they claim they would be willing to change #if you're trying to help someone and they tell you your actions didn't help or are hurting them you should change your methods so theyre #helped. but they operate on this assumption that their methods should always work and thud if they don't that we're too sensitive #'youre asking for too much' was kind of a major theme in my childhood is what im realizing #instead they justify and focus on intent or their kids' flaws (real or imagined). they want to change the reaction rather than the action #they dont want to help they just want the problem to go away. and quiet kids look like happy kids i guess #thing is i cant even cite that many manipulative things theyve said bc we all go quiet as soon as they use a disapproving tone #like they'll just be like 'skrunks >:/.' and that's it. i cant say anything. i know i wont be listened to and they fucking do it on purpose #theyre kinda shit at defending themselves but i can barely follow their lines of reasoning so it's so fucking hard to argue with them #it's also so unnurturing. why is us being unhappy or uncomfortable smth to blame on our failure n not smth you want to help with? wth #yk the thing about the Shut Down Tone is i recognize and resent it sometimes but it still makes me feel like im not giving them a fair shot #bc i dont even slightly challenge them much (& they dont have to say what they mean for us to cower) i feel like im misreading their tone #that im being too sensitive and thinking theyre being controlling for no reason. like im reading into it too hard and hating them when if i #pushed back they'd freely be good to me and change and be reasonable. but now it's becoming clearer that that's not the case bc they Do Not #and if i mention The Tone theyll just say im overreacting and that it's my fault for not sticking up for myself AGAIN!!!!!! #and it's so frustrating knowing what's going on and still having these doubts. i can't trust my gut or what i hear bc they might be right #they'll straight up lie or change their arguments or their story to get me to submit. am i being gaslit??? wtf #but i trust my (treated worse) brothers' accounts which helps. my parents brag about their parenting skills to us btw ✌️✌️