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jinisnuggets · 2 months

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𝕊𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕄𝕖 ℙ𝕋.2

ᵖᵃⁱʳⁱⁿᵍˢ: ˢᵖʸ! ˢᵉᵘⁿᵍᵐⁱⁿ ˣ ⁱᵈᵒˡ ᶠᵉᵐ! ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

ʷᵒʳᵈ ᶜᵒᵘⁿᵗ: 2.2ᵏ

ᵍᵉⁿʳᵉ: ᵃⁿᵍˢᵗ, ˢᵖʸ!ⁱᵈᵒˡ ᵃᵘ, ˢᵉʳⁱᵉˢ

ʷᵃʳⁿⁱⁿᵍˢ: ˢʷᵉᵃʳⁱⁿᵍ, ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵃᵗ ᵃᵍᵍʳᵉˢⁱᵛᵉ ˢᵉᵘⁿᵍᵐⁱⁿ, ᵐᵉⁿᵗⁱᵒⁿˢ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃˡᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵃʳᵐⁱⁿᵍ, ᶠᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵈᵉⁿᵗⁱᵗⁱᵉˢ.

ˢʸⁿᵒᵖˢⁱˢ: ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳ ʸᵒᵘʳ ʷᵉⁱʳᵈ ᵉⁿᶜᵒᵘⁿᵗᵉʳ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵃ ᵐᵃⁿ ʸᵒᵘ ʳᵉᶜᵒᵍⁿⁱᶻᵉᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ˡᵒⁿᵍᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ˢᵉᵉ, ʸᵒᵘ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ ᵃ ˢᵉʳⁱᵉˢ ᵒᶠ ᵇᵃᵈ ᵉᵛᵉⁿᵗˢ ᵒⁿ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵗᵒᵘʳ, ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᵉᵉᵗ ᵃ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ʸᵒᵘ'ᵛᵉ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ⁿᵒᵗⁱᶜᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᶠᵃᵐⁱˡⁱᵃʳ ᵍᵘʸ.

ᵃ/ⁿ: ᵖᵃʳᵗ ᵗʰʳᵉᵉ????

ᵇʳⁱᵉᶠ ⁱⁿᵗʳᵒᵈᵘᶜᵗⁱᵒⁿ ᵗᵒ ᵐʸ ᵇˡᵒᵍ

Seungmin turned over to face the only person he hoped not to see.

L/N Y/N

“My apologies, I didn't mean to interrupt your day.” he bowed as his words exited his mouth.

However, it didn't end there… you recognized this face.

“Oh, no worries. That's alright, I was just confused.”

You let out a small chuckle in order to lighten up the tense mood.

Seungmin got up from his position and smiled lightly.

“I'm sorry to have caused confusion.”

“It’s okay, partially my fault.”

“Oh, don't worry about it, it's okay.”

You were tempted to ask him all the questions you had kept to yourself throughout the past week or 2, however they wouldn't exit your mouth. They were eternally trapped inside with no escape.

“I should get going, I hope to see you around sometime.”

“We will.”

“We will…?*

“Mm, we will, anyways, I'll see you around.”

“Yeah…”

Partially confused, but partially creeped out, you had too much on your mind from your schedules, but this was taking over all those thoughts.

All the words that came out of his mouth were, tender, soothing, low, yet so eiree.

“Y/n?”

“Yes Manager?”

“Are you ready? You took a while, remember we have to get there before 4:00pm.”

“Yes, I remembered, I just got stopped for a moment, my fault.”

“It’s okay, just hurry and get in.”

Entering the car, you shut the door and looked out the window as the car begun moving, you put on your headphones and loaded some music to clear your mind, nothing was working because the words “we will” constantly reappeared in your head, nothing could change it. At the time you never thought this way about any fan, but ever since you ran into Dongyun, you can't think straight. Who was he? Did he have good intentions? Perhaps bad? What about him attracted you to him? It was always just the same questions that you couldn't get an answer too, even though they were absolutely devouring your insides, and you knew you wouldn't be able to perform to your best, all because of these words that just wouldn't stop haunting you.

Before you knew it, you arrived at your location, entering through your assigned entrance and came face to face with a bunch of managers walking around with the idol under them, a lot of big names were currently in the same building as you, although it wasn't a new thing, it never failed to amaze you.

“Okay, Y/n, I need to go this way since I have a meeting, you can go ahead and go to your assigned stylists so she can start preparing you.”

“Got it, how long will you take?”

“I'll be done before you go on stage, hopefully before final rehearsals.”

“So in about an hour or so?”

“Hopefully, yes. I doubt it'll go over 2.”

“Okay, I'll see you later then.”

Your manager nodded and then disappeared into a nearby room, you knew your way around the building, you had been here multiple times throughout your career.

“Hello L/n.”

You turned around to the familiar voice, in an isolated area it made complete sense to hear this voice now.

“Hello.”

“It's good to see you again, you're performing today right?”

“Yeah, I am.”

“I bet you'll do amazing.”

You raised an eyebrow and slightly squinted your eyes.

Knowing this wasn't the real Yang Minyung, you saw a lot more flaws in the makeup, hair, and features.

“Are you performing today?”

“Unfortunately, today I'm just here to spectate.”

“That's a bummer, why aren't you? You normally always do.”

“Didn't invite me as an idol today.”

She did a broken heart motion with her hands along with a small frown on her face.

Lie number two, Yang Minyung was always invited to these events without fail, as one of the top soloist, chaos would break loose if she wasn't invited to an event like this.

“That's unfortunate, I'm sorry about that.”

“It's fine, what time will you be up?”

“Around 6:40ish”

“Oh! That's lovely, I can't wait to see you, bet you'll do great.”

“That's very kind, thank you but I have to get going."

“Okay! Fighting!”

Although the ways were separated, you couldn't help but grow chills at the way you ran into her twice in places that only idols could be in, how did she manage to get in without getting caught by any guards? Or how was she able to run into you specifically every time?

Or maybe…

It wasn't an accident…?

You left your bedroom to pick up a glass of water from the kitchen. It was dark and late at night, however you still wanted to finish reading your book, not to mention your skincare was still on.

Getting your glass of water, you started making your way back to your bedroom until you heard a low knock on your door.

It was a bit suspicious judging by how late it was but you decided to look outside from your peephole to try to catch a glimpse of who it could possibly be.

You saw a man, around late 20’s standing outside your door, looking straight at the doorknob…

Immediately pushing back from the door, you turned the double lock and ran to the bathroom quietly, washing off the cleanser that was placed on your face, closing the door and locking it. You heard a couple more knocks until it went silent, and no further noises were heard.

You thought you could hear the sound of two men lightly talking outside your door before walking away, you took a moment and thought about everything, before you realized…

One voice wasn't of a man…

Rather of a woman.

You only saw a man outside your door, so where was the woman?

Opening the door to the bathroom slowly you gathered a couple belongings and called room service, they assured you no one was in your floor and that they would look into it, and so, you left the room and went to another random door.

You took a breath before knocking lightly in hopes of not attracting anyone nearby.

Hearing a couple noises, such as rustles, and footsteps, you knew someone heard you, you let out a sigh and hoped you hadn't knocked on the door of some creep, you waited anxiously, quietly pacing around your spot and hoped whoever knocked on your door was no longer in the building. Thoughts filled your head until you heard the door lightly open.

“Why the hell are you outside in the middle of the fucking night!?”

The voice sounded aggressive, almost angry, you couldn't blame the guy. It was late.

“I'm sorry… could I please ask to sta-”

Unable to finish your sentence because you finally noticed whose door your knocked on.

Non other, than the one and only Dongyun.

However, the thought never settled in upon hearing the sound of approaching footsteps and 2 voices whispering to each other inaudible words.

This was no stranger to Seungmin. He knew exactly why you stood at his door the moment he heard the two voices.

You quickly turned around with a worried look on your face, and before your mouth could even open, Seungmin dragged you into his room, and shutting the door behind him quietly.

“Okay… what's going on?” he said while turning on a dim lamp next to him, he sat down on the table and kept his voice to a minimum..

“How did you know what I-”

“Answer the fucking question. What is going on?”

You paused upon hearing his voice, tired and raspy, angry and deprived.

“I don't know!! I don't know what's going on myself…”

Seungmin sighed in frustration, before turning on his phone and opening up an app.

“Tell me everything you know.”

“I don't know anything!!”

“Don't be silly! What did you see!?”

“Nothing!!”

Seungmin breathed in slowly, and glanced over at you

“Why are you scared?”

“A man… knocked on my door just now.”

He glanced at his screen and started typing.

“What did he do?”

*Just knocked.”

“Did you catch a glimpse of him?”

“Not much… I can't say any features other than the fact he was tall and looked around mid to late 20’s”

“What were you doing when it happened?”

“Getting a glass of water.”

“Did you see him with the woman outside your door?”

“No… it was just him…”

“So while getting a glass of water just now, you heard a knock and saw a mid-late 20 aged man standing outside your door, he knocked multiple times with absolutely no woman in view until her voice was heard speaking to him!?”

“Yes! He was looking at my doorknob, when I looked out the peephole.”

You noticed him type before beginning to dial a number, the phone rang a couple of times before it went to voicemail and he hung up.

He glanced down and groaned in hopelessness before turning back to look at you.

“Well, I guess you can spend the night.”

“Would it be alright?”

“For right now I guess.”

“Thank you so much.”

You put your bag down and sat on the couch, Seungmin glanced on you before sighing.

“Sorry, could I lay here?”

Seungmin nodded lightly before bring his lamp over and putting it over the table.

“Just in case you need it.”

However, you didn't get a chance to thank the guy because he was already making his way back to his bedroom.

“Hey!”

Seungmin turned around to face you, looking a bit annoyed despite being in the dark.

“What now?”

“You… you're Dongyun… from the fan sign right..?”

Seungmin's expression changed, from annoyed to worried. How did you manage to remember him!? Why hadn't you said anything upon seeing him for the first time? Thoughts brushed his head as he looked back at you and began to speak.

“Goodnight.” He began walking to the hotel bedroom, although it wasn't an answer his response was clear.

“Goodnight.”

However Seungmin wasn't going to bed just yet…

He had some work to do.

“Dongyun?”

Work to complete.

You asked, looking up at the tall man hovering over the couch holding 2 cups of a relatively warm drink.

“Take the cup, it's burning my hands.”

“My bad… is this for me?”

“Yes it's for you, I'm not here with anyone.”

Although the response was aggressive, you let out a smile and drank the warm coffee, you needed it after all that happened last night.

Seungmin kept looking at you before beginning to walk away from the couch and over to the hotel kitchen.

“Dongyun!”

You noticed the young man turn around before completely turning his body to face you.

“Let's watch a movie, or a drama, or anything, I brought my computer and it's my free day.”

“Don't you have any schedules?”

“I do, but not until later on, like around 5:00.”

Hesitant, but later giving in and walking over to the couch, you always had something separating the two of you however the distance being so close startled you, but you kept your word and took out your computer.

“What would you like to watch?”

“Drama.”

“So you're a drama guy huh?” You joked.

Seungmin looked over at you and turned away while slightly nodding his head.

“How long have you been watc-”

“Why are you so nosey? Just look for a drama..” he looked away from you in a hurry, as you kept an annoyed stare.

“Fine then. What type of dramas do you watch?”

“Prefer thriller or action...”

You continued to look for a drama you could watch with him and ultimately decided on one, you noticed Seungmin turn after the intro was over.

Why did he even turn away for so long? Were you annoying him a bit? Or were you just being nosey like he mentioned..? Or both, you decided to try not to speak to him throughout the rest of your stay to avoid causing conflict.

The rest of the morning and afternoon with Seungmin was mostly silent, 5:00pm came and you left off to your schedules only to return later that night, you went over to the front desk upon stepping in the building.

“An extra room?”

“Could I get an extra room?”

“Yes.”

“L/N Y-”

“Name?”

“What are you doing?”

Recognizing the voice, you turned around to face the familiar man

“Dongyun!?”

“You're coming with-”

“Why!?” quickly cutting him off before he was able to finish his sentence, he soon turned around to face you, letting out a small sigh after a moment of intense eye contact.

“Listen, sometimes you can't trust someone on their own.”

“I'm a grown adult, I can take care of myself-”

“Maybe you can but others won't allow it.”

For one of the first times you heard him raise his voice higher than he normally kept it, recalling all your interactions, he always had a soft and calm voice, however right now he raised it ever so slightly.

“What..?”

“I'll explain everything if you stay with me for the time being.”

“I can't….”

However, Seungmin didn't wait for your response before grabbing your arm and dragging you into his room.

“What the hell-!?” although, you were unable to finish your sentence, as you felt your back touch a wall, and right in front of you stood the guy who you thought you knew, but realized that the entire Identity he built for you was a lie.

All of it….

Was lies.

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i-am-neutral-on-pear-aib · 1 year

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The entire scene with Pitchfork in AIB 5 may have been brief, but the glimpse it gives us into her and her psyche is wonderfully done and I NEED to talk about it.

(essay under the cut, aib spoilers)

(just a quick disclaimer, I apologize if any of my writing is incoherent or biased. Pitchfork is a comfort character of mine and I've been doing quite poorly mental health wise. Nevertheless I do hope you enjoy this essay! Writing about characters brings me a lot of comfort and I'm glad I've got to share it through this little Pear blog :])

From what I've seen when looking across the AIB fandom, there's a large split in-between opinions on characters like Glowstick and Pitchfork. Unfortunately and unsurprisingly, I find that the majority of viewers on the younger side of the audience seem to dislike "mean" characters without really getting to know them all too well. One of AIB's major assets is the idea that no-one is truly black or white, despite whatever your opinion on them may be. Characters like Alef, Pear, and Pitchfork are characters that you feel like you already have an understanding of when you first meet them, but as the episodes progress you begin to see more complex sides to them, seeing how they truly are the more that you get to know them. One wonderful example of this is in the latest episode (at least of writing this) AIB 5, where we get a quick scene of Pitchfork on her own, ranting to a plush of Glowstick.

At this point in the story, Domino has pretty much taken the leadership role of Team 5, and Pitchfork has been on her own for...canonically days, in fact. They've already made themselves clear that they want nothing to do with Pitchfork anymore, not after she broke the claw machine in AIB 3 during a fit of overwhelming anger. It's almost ironic (and probably purposefully done) how as soon as Bone starts to rise among the ranks in his team, Pitchfork falls out of favor with hers, and is now being treated exactly how Bone was before. She has no-one, not that she's aware of, and so what does she do?

She goes to the only person she knew cared about her.

One of the important themes in dissecting how Pitchfork talks to herself and the Glowstick plush itself vs her actions and what she does, and how they seem to actively contradict each other as she continues. I don't necessarily believe that Pitchfork actually cares about Glowstick- considering that would (in my opinion) be a huge botch of her character and arc, but the act of even getting the Glowstick plush in the first place to talk to shows that Pitchfork is...getting lonely. Although she would adamantly try to say otherwise. She has literally no-one else to talk to! And even when she does talk to this plush she tries to convince herself that she doesn't need to, doesn't want to! Even when she actively betrays with her actions what she's trying to build up as this "I don't need anyone" attitude, she's still trying to convince herself more than anyone else.

There would be absolutely no reason for her to even do this in the first place if she was telling the truth to herself, and her internal struggle with her guilty conscience quite literally manifests itself later in the physical form of all her internal conflict.

Another thing to note here is that Pitchfork is right about one thing: it isn't her fault that Glowstick was eliminated. Although her way of letting down Glowstick was about as gentle as 28 consecutive stab wounds in the chest, she had every right to be that rude when Glowstick was continually harassing her, and she shouldn't be to blame for Team 1 failing and losing a member. No means no, and the fact that Pitchfork had to be even blunter than "I DON'T LIKE YOU" (from AIB 1) in order to get it to set in is a fault on Glowstick more than anything. Despite this, Pitchfork is beginning to feel some form of guilt for just how harshly she's treated people, even though her actions towards Glowstick were justified.

Apologies if I once again sound like a broken record, but what this entire scene seems to be doing is hammering home that her own justifications are falling apart. Having to try and reassure herself that "none of it is her fault" despite her thoughts leading elsewhere...and back to Glowstick, who's kind of becoming a symbol of when everything fell apart. I don't believe that Pitchfork was 100% at fault during the AIB 3 fight, as one of AIB's wonderful strengths is that no-one is truly in the right and wrong. In fact I'd say that a lot of the team did unfairly gang up on her when she seemed to genuinely forget about the operating rules (Also Creamy blaming her for Chip Bag's death still makes absolutely no sense to me). Nevertheless, she tries to bury herself in denial, but it seems to be leaving her frustrated more than anything. Why can't she just say and believe that it's all their fault? Why does she keep thinking about Glowstick, the only person who seemed to ever care, when she keeps saying she doesn't need anyone?

OH I need to stop myself from just aggressively keysmashing here I have SO many emotions about this scene OH MY GOD I AM SHAKING AS I TYPE THIS HOLY SHIT I AM SO SORRY

The fact that this entire scene is Pitchfork's own mind, personified through the physical manifestation of her own internal conflict, means that this entire thing is her mind battling against itself. My interpretation of this conflict is Pitchfork's battle of "I did nothing wrong" versus "I did/do everything wrong". Both sides of which have their own flaws attached to them, but they're both portrayed in a realistic manner. It's a common thing for many of us to be unable to realize that accepting that you did something wrong doesn't make you a horrible person. Pitchfork is starting to realize that the things she may have done may have been wrong, and that she can't blame her team (that she DOES feel regret for) for everything that happened. But at the same time, that regret begins to pour over into the other extreme which manifests into Glowstick, harshly jabbing at her almost in the same blunt way that she had acted before.

I find it interesting that throughout the hallucination scene, Glowstick's hallucination seemed to go between first-person and third-person when referring to Glowstick himself, and usually seems to go with whatever will hurt Pitchfork the most. From "Poor Glowstick's heart" to later "That's what I loved about you", Pitchfork's mind is not being kind to her right now, and it goes from bitter truths at best to practically self loathing at worst.

Another thing about this scene specifically is that it confirms to me that Pitchfork really does care about her teammates. She wants to be a good leader for them, and the fact that it was mentioned with everything else tends to prove it for me. Even if she can't seem to trust them to pull their own weight sometimes, she wants to be a trusted leader. And the fact that she can't do that is causing her enough internal anguish for "Glowstick" to mention it. She regrets her outbursts of anger and the destruction they cause, she doesn't mean to break anything. And yet she does, and the almost powerless feeling when you feel like you break whatever you touch is something that I know from a personal experience.

Pitchfork couldn't get herself to look at the votes back in AIB 4. She wanted to believe that Pear got the most votes, that it wasn't her fault that they lost the game. But this scene right here really shows that everything that "Glowstick" is saying is things Pitchfork already knew, but didn't want to believe. She already felt guilty, but wanted to pretend she didn't. Because if she didn't, it wouldn't hurt her as much that her team no longer wanted her, right?

As much as Pitchfork wants to block it out, she can't anymore. Not when her thoughts that she pushed to the back of her mind had finally spilled out, represented by the symbol of her conflict itself. She...really does have nothing. I mean, she was talking to a plush of the person she hates, for crying out loud. And once again, whenever Pitchfork gets into a stressful situation, she lashes out with anger and attacks the Glowstick plushie, effectively ending the hallucination. But that doesn't mean what happened won't have an effect on her, and we can only see what happens with her character as more episodes release.

And I find it awfully interesting how they hint at someone else watching it all unfold.

#it's 1am as i publish this...i hope this makes sense #animated inanimate battle #aib #pitchfork aib #SECOND ESSAY PUBLISHED!! WOOHOOOOO *passes out on my desk*#Sorry that this isn't pear related i just needed to get this out there #i will write more essays i prommy

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curatoroffiction · 1 year

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I really liked this prompt @Jackalope08, so I wanted to take my time with it. The beginning is clunky because it was hard to set the setting. Still, I hope you like it! Thank you for sending in a request! -----

It wasn't often that you found yourself at odds with someone so quickly. It often took poking around in their business for them to make up their minds about you.

For Jamil, it just took one incident.

Granted, it was one helluvan incident.

And in your defense, it was Ace and Grim's fault.

You told them not to get cocky when divvying out the powdered bristleroot, as it's known to over-react with one of the other ingredients, so you only need a little - But they didn't exactly listen.

Especially when they added the first bit and nothing happened immediately.

Jamil wasn't blind to your scuffle, but it seems he was expecting you to reign them in, since you're a dorm leader and all. Jokes on him, you'd never been able to reign in Grim.

And you'd never been able to get Ace to stick to a recipe without it blowing up in his face first.

So when your table's potion began to breathe.. The liquid inside the cauldron heaving and exhaling… You already knew what was coming.

"GET DOWN, SHE'S GONNA BLOW" You called out, throwing yourself to the floor before the potion exploded.

Jamil ended up getting a face-full of the failed potion's ingredients - It's a good thing he was at least wearing all his lab equipment, because it coated him like a slime.

While Crewel was pissed, Jamil apparently took some very personal offense with your behavior that day. --- It wasn't until you two ended up having to work on a project together that you even learned that he didn't like you. And THAT came about because you kept trying to do your share of the work, and he kept taking work from you.

"I'll take care of the presentation materials."

"No no, it's okay, I'll take care of the presentation materials."

"But you're already taking care of the presentation speech. I can take care of the presentation slides and reading materials."

"Can you?"

"What is THAT supposed to mean?" --- Needless to say, his opinion of you didn't change even when you did the work. --- It seems someone's first opinion of you is hard to rewrite. Which sucks, because you actually thought Jamil was cool until he showed you how little he thinks of you.

Once he showed himself to be the kind of person who writes you off without getting to know you, you found yourself not giving a shit about his opinion.

When Winter Break came around, he thought he could just control you like a pawn to get his desired result. Unfortunately for him, when you set your mind to something - Even if it was a conclusion he forced your mind to come to - You do it.

So when you got it in your mind to free the students from their plight, you did as you always do and made the best of it with your resources. Unfortunately for Jamil, he underestimated you, and he underestimated just how… perceptive you were.

When you learned who was behind Kalim's behavior.. Jamil had to.. contain you.

And you didn't take well to containment. --- His overblot would have been surprising, if you'd still had respect for the guy, but when you were the one to pull him out of it and get his dorm back in order, Jamil found himself.. embarrassed.

You weren't a leader.

Not really, right?

And yet you were the one helping him come out of the darkness - And when you did, he saw the passive look on your face.

The look of someone who had no respect for him.

"I- … Did I just overblot..?"

"Yeah, dumbass. You went full blown cartoon villain mode and started mind-controlling your whole dorm. Good luck cleaning up THAT mess!" You waved him off as you started leaving, laughing at how much he fucked himself over. It was cathartic to see someone who thought so lowly of the people around them get their just desserts.

God, he hated you.

The way you walk around without responsibilities.. You only have ONE dorm member to take care of, while he's balancing the care of an entire dorm on his shoulders and getting NONE of the credit.

He found himself bitter that you seemed to think you were somehow better than him when you obviously had fewer hurdles. --- It wasn't until your second year at Night Raven College that this bubbled over.

You two passively grew to hate each other, assuming the worst out of each other, because you only gave each other your worst.

You were paired together on a project - The first time in a long time that you had to work together. But it wasn't just any project…

You'd both been chosen for the Starsending Festival. --- Jamil starts off the meeting with "Us three have been chosen as Starsenders - That means we have to work together-"

Only for the third member of your group to groan. "We're never going to beat those guys from last year! They had an insane lightshow because one of them literally went to space! None of us can do that."

"I've already spoken with Ortho and Idia and they're willing to help with the presentation of the final dance and the showcase of the star wishes." You toss this out off-hand, mostly tuned out from the meeting. You don't want to be here, and you don't want to listen to Jamil go on and on about how irresponsible the two of you are and how he's going to have to carry the whole show.

Jamil looks at you with surprise. Talking to Idia and Ortho was already on his list to accomplish today.

Your third team member, a student from Savanaclaw, raises his eyebrow at you. "Oh yeah? You got proof?"

You tug your phone out and call Ortho. His chipper voice comes through on the phone. "Hey Ortho, I'm with the other Starsender representatives at the moment, and they wanted to make sure we're on the same page - You and Idia are gonna help us this year, yeah?"

"Yes!! I'm so excited to take everyone's wishes to the stars again this year~! My brother is going to help me with some boosters and stabilizers, so the show can be even more spectacular this year! We're thinking about setting up a planned fireworks show that can end when I reach the correct altitude for the stars to fill the sky!"

"Thank you, Ortho. It sounds like you're doing well more than your fair share, so please let me know if there's anything I can do to help you."

"Of course! Thank YOU for letting us help!"

You hang up and look to the Savanaclaw student with the most smug 'I told you so' expression- Only to find that he's genuinely excited, which catches you off-guard and makes you laugh.

"Oh man, oh man! If we've got those guys, then we've gotta get practicing the dance!! And collecting wishes!!" The Savanaclaw student seems rejuvenated that he actually has a chance to do better than last year's team.

You briefly remember that Savanaclaw's students tend to not be motivated to strike unless they can see assurance of their goals in front of them.

Jamil cuts in. "With that out of the way, we have to choose who will be performing the dance, and who will do drums-"

"I WANNA DO DRUMS!" The Savanaclaw student jumps up excitedly. "I don't wanna do the dancing! I wanna rock out on the drums!"

Jamil sighs. "You can't just play whatever you want, there's a proper drumming beat-"

"I WANT THE HARDEST DRUMMING SCRIPT WE HAVE, I'LL MASTER IT. If you try to make me dance, I just won't do it. The drummer really stole the show last year, so I wanna be the drummer!"

Jamil glances at you. He really doesn't want to dance with you, but the other student just won't budge. He sighs, but you decide to speak up. After all, you're not thrilled about the idea either, and you needed something to get the Savanaclaw student on-board with collecting wishes from the other students.

"I think we should have a competition for the position of Drummer." Both of them look at you, confused. A competition? You continue; "Whoever collects the most wishes over the next three days gets to choose which part they'll play. That way, we don't lose much practice time, and we'll have plenty of drive to get as many wishes as possible right at the beginning, which gets the most boring part of the work out of the way."

Jamil's.. Briefly impressed with your fix. You obviously don't want to dance with him, so it seems you've got three people vying for drummer. He looks to the Savanaclaw student who seems to be weighing the options in his head.

"So… whoever gets the most wishes from the other students wins?"

"You have to cross them off your list, or it doesn't count. We have to be able to tally every student who has given their wish so we can verify the results are good."

"So.. I take their wish, cross their name off the list, and then when I have the most, I can be drummer??"

"If you can beat both me and Jamil."

"OH YOU TWO ARE GETTING SMOKED, GIMME A LIST RIGHT HERE AND NOW." --- And so it was decided that you three would battle it out for the position of drummer. ----- Part 2

#submission #Jamil #Jamil Viper #Fighting #Enemies to friends #Enemies to lovers #Open interpretation #Twisted Wonderland #Fanfic #Fic #Twst #Starsending Event #Starsending

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Un-break My Heart

Pairing- Jooheon x Named Reader

Word count- 6.2k

Includes- angst, Jimin is mean, oral, pussy eating, sex, riding, missionary, love making, multiple orgasms, dirty talk, fluff

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J POV

"Please Jimin", I beg

"I said I can't. What don't you get?", he snaps

I don't understand why he's being so difficult

So mean

It's only one day

"Jimin if you don't come I'll fail the class. I need a model. It's the final", I stress

"You're going to have to fail. I don't have time"

"Jimin! If I fail I can't graduate and I have to wait a year before I can take the class again and graduate"

How can he not understand how important this is?

Yes his practice for the American award show is important but this trumps that

He already knows the dance moves, it'll just be more practicing

And this is my career, my life

"I don't see how that's my problem"

"Jimin!", I gasp, shocked

"What?", he rolls his eyes

"We're talking about me graduating here. You told me that you'd help if I ask"

"That's was before we got bigger and busier.", he snaps, "It's not my fault you didn't ask before"

I didn't need a model like this before

This is a special effects class and I need to completly transform a person into something else

I can't do it on myself or I would, like I've done everything else

I know it's taken me longer to figure out what I wanted to do

I work at a bank but I hate it

When I met Jimin through Jooheon, I went to work with him one day and saw the makeup artist doing his make up and I was interested

When I looked up schools, I saw classes for special effects and I had no idea what that way

Then I researched it and I knew immediately I want to do that

It's been three years but I can only take one class at a time because I have to work and because the classes go in order, requiring one before taking the other

He knows this and he's being so mean

"I never ask you for anything Jimin. Just this one time. Please baby, just take off tomorrow and come with me", I beg

"God you don't listen do you?", he shouts, "I said NO!"

Defeated, I just nod

I'm trying to remain calm on the outside but on the inside I'm panicking, hurt and utterly sad my boyfriend of four years can't do this one thing for me

I hold back tears as I stand up, "Ok Jimin. I uh I have to go. I have a few things to do. And email my instructor that I'm not going tomorrow."

"Seriously? Because I said no, you're going to be a whiny baby and leave?", he mocks

I know he's stressed out but he doesn't have to take it out on me

He doesn't have to make fun of me

"No Jimin. I wasn't going to stay long remember? And you said you wanted to go to sleep early because you're exhausted"

"Yeah fine whatever", he says dismissively

The way he's acting is so hurtful

Like he doesn't care about me

This isn't the Jimin I fell in love with

Walking to him, I kiss his cheek

"Bye Jimin. I love you"

He doesn't say anything, doesn't even look at me and my heart falls

I just turn to the door and leave, my heart breaking

----------------------------------------------------

Professor Kim,

I cannot find a model for the final tomorrow-

No that's not a good way to start the email

Deleting everything, I try again

Professor Kim,

Is there anyway I can do the final on myself because I can't find a model

No no no

I sound like a teenager

Not a twenty five year old

Think, Joanne, think

I'm just so nervous

I know that no matter what I write professor Kim won't accept me doing the final on myself

She made it clear I have to have a model so I can show that I can work with other people's features that aren't mine

I just have to admit defeat and tell professor Kim I'm not going

Professor Kim,

Unfortunately, I will not be attending the final tomorrow. I was not able to find a model. I understand this means I will fail the class and have to retake it. Thank you for everything you taught me this semester. I will see you next year

Joanne

That's good enough, I guess

I'm about to press send when my phone rings

I hope it's Jimin

I hope he reconsidered

But when I look at my screen, it's not Jimin

It's Jooheon

My best friend since we were babies

"Hello", I say when I answer the phone

"Hey Jo", he greets

"Hi Joo. What's up?"

"Nothing much. Just called to ask if you wanted to hang with us for movie night tomorrow after your final?"

"Oh, uh yeah I guess", I say distractedly

"Jo what's wrong?"

"Oh nothing Joo"

I hesitate sending the email, tears filling my eyes

Why can't Jimin just do this for me?

He was so helpful when I first started, coming to be my model when I needed him

Which wasn't much to begin with

"Jo, c'mon stop lying to me. I know when something is wrong"

I sigh, "I'm not going to the final tomorrow"

"What why? That's the last class you need to graduate!"

"I know", I answer

"You're going to have to wait another year to retake it"

"I know Jooheon!", I answer frustratedly

There's a silent pause

"Jo what's wrong. Just tell me ok? Why can't you go to your final?"

"Because I don't have a model! Jimin won't come tomorrow. I told him how important it was and he said it's not his problem. He told me I'm just going to have to fail the class"

"What an as...uh that's not a nice thing for him to say", he amends

"It's ok Joo. You can say he's an asshole. He's being one"

"I'm sorry Jo"

"He's just practicing Joo", I tell him, tears falling from my eyes, "I know the performance for the American award show is important but he knows the steps by heart. He know everything. And he won't take a few hours to do this for me."

"He should Jo. He should know how important this is for you"

"He was so mean", I cry, "He really doesn't care and I don't know where that came from. He acted like I was bothering him"

"He's wrong Jo. Ok? It's wrong for him to act like this. And even if he couldn't go then he should try to help you find someone else. A staff member or something"

Joo's right

Jimin should of helped me find someone else

He should of helped me somehow

Not leave me to fail

"Yeah but he didn't. And now I'm going to fail"

I really don't want to wait a year to graduate but I have no choice

And I don't know how I'm going to deal with Jimin and all of this

I know it's not his responsibility to help me but he didn't even try

And he doesn't care which hurts like nothing I've felt before

"You are not going to fail Joanne"

"What are you talking about Joo? Yes I am. I have no model"

Wasn't he listening?

"Yeah you do. I'm gonna be your model"

"What?", I gasp

"I'm coming to your final Jo. You can do the makeup on me. You won't fail"

"You're not busy tomorrow?"

"Recording a song but that can wait"

"No Joo, it can't. That's your job"

"And your my best friend. You need help. I'm going to help you. I'm going and you can't stop me so just say yes and give me the address"

I'm shocked

I can't believe that he's going to help me

I didn't even think of asking him

"Thank you Joo. Thank you so much"

"It's not a problem Jo", he answers, "Look I know you go to Jimin for everything because he's your boyfriend but don't forget I'm here too. You can ask me for help when you need it too"

He's right

I do always go to Jimin

Sometimes I forget that he was the one I went too for everyone before Jimin

Jooheon comes to me when he needs help and I should remember I can go to him too

"Ok Joo. I'll remember. And thanks again"

"No problem Jo. So my question still is, after the final do you wanna come hang with us?"

I laugh and answer, "Yeah Joo. Definitely"

"Great. Text me the time and address. I'll be there"

"I will. Thank you so much Joo. You're the best."

"I know", he jokes, "I'll see you tomorrow"

"Ok. Bye Joo"

"Bye"

When we hang up, I delete the email to my professor, a huge weight lifted off my shoulders

My best friend is the best

----------------------------------------------------

"So when are you taking that class over again?", Jimin asks nonchalantly

I just stare at him in shock

Of course he's not looking at me, instead on his phone

How can he just ask me that?

Like he doesn't care I failed

"I'm not", I answer

He finally looks over at me, "You're not? Are you giving up?"

God he's so oblivious

And so mean

"No I'm not giving up Jimin. I'm graduating"

"How? You said you weren't going to the final and you'd have to take the class again"

"I found a model", I answer

He raises his eyebrows, "Who?"

"Jooheon"

Anger clouds his face, "You called Jooheon?"

I shake my head, "No. He called me when I was writing the professor an email to asks me to hang out with him and they guys after my final. I told him I wasn't going to the final and he asked why. I told him", I explain, "Then volunteered to be my model"

"And you said yes?", he growls

I don't understand why he's getting upset

He couldn't come or didn't want to or whatever

This way I could still pass and he still didn't have to show

He got his way

"Of course I said yes Jimin!", I exclaim, "I needed to pass this class or wait a whole year to take it again. Why would I do that when Jooheon was willing to help me?"

"Because he's not your boyfriend!"

I stare at him in shock, "He's my best friend"

"I don't like that and you know it", he says

I'm so confused

He doesn't like that I'm friends with Jooheon?

Since when?

"What are you talking about?"

"C'mon Joanne, don't act dumb. Do you think I want my girlfriend hanging out with another guy?"

"But Jooheon has been my best friend before you and I even knew each other! I met you through him! You knew he's my best friend"

"Well it ends now. I don't want you around him"

I can't believe he's demanding this

What is his fucking problem?

He's never said anything about my friendship with Jooheon before

Is he jealous that Jooheon helped me when he didn't?

"That's not gonna happen Jimin"

He glares at me, "It's him or me"

I take a breath and say, "Him"

"Excuse me?", he narrows his eyes

"Jimin, the reason I asked to see you today was because I was going to tell you that this relationship isn't working. Not for me"

I can't believe I'm saying this

I always thought Jimin was going to be the one I ended up with

"What do you mean? Everything is fine with us"

The fact that he doesn't see it, doesn't see what he did, what he's doing just proves that our relationship isn't meant to be

I started thinking about this after my final

It's not to that he refused to help even though that hurt

It's that he didn't care about the consequences for me

He was cold about it, he didn't care

He didn't try to comfort me

The day of the final he didn't text me at all

Didn't contact me

He should have, he should have wanted to see me after his practice, should have tried to make me feel better about taking the class again

He didn't

He texted me a few days later and not even to ask to see me

Just a hey, you're alive, ok

After a week of thinking, I decided to end this

The whole forbidding me from being friends with Jooheon just adds to everything

"Jimin, you didn't even give a shit that I wouldn't graduate if I failed that class. You refused to help me then made fun of me and called me a baby when I said I was leaving to write my professor an email."

"It wasn't my problem-", he starts

"But you didn't have to be an asshole about it. When you said no, you didn't try to comfort me or hug me or anything. You just yelled at me", I explain, my chest hurting because even though I'm breaking up with him, I still love him

That doesn't go away just like that

"Since when did you become so sensitive?"

"Are you kidding Jimin? This is my life we're talking about."

"Please Joanne, you decided to become a makeup artist three years ago. Stop acting like this was a life long dream"

I can't believe he's saying these hurtful things to me

So what if it wasn't something I wanted to be since I was a child

That doesn't invalidate that it's my dream now

"Jimin you're being different. Mean. Cold. You didn't even contact me the day of the final. When you thought I failed the class. You were just gone. Doing whatever it was you were doing. The fact is Jooheon was there for me and you weren't"

"I fucking told you I couldn't go!", he yells

"I know! But you shouldn't be getting mad at me because Jooheon was able to come. You should be happy that I was able to pass the class and graduate. But you're not. You're just mad. For no reason"

"It's not for no reason", he snaps

"Yes it is. I don't know what's going on with you. If you don't love me anymore or you don't want to be with me but you're different. And everything that happened...it just made me think"

"And your conclusion is to break up?"

God, he's making me feel so dumb

"It's...this....it's not working for me", I say quietly

He rolls his eyes

Actually rolls his eyes

"Fine. Then it's over. I have more important things to worry about than your sensitivity to things I say"

Pain fills my chest as I stare at him

He didn't even fight me

He didn't say anything about what I brought up, didn't deny anything, didn't ask me to stay, to try

He just gave up

"Get out", he snaps, startling me

I need to leave before I fall apart

"Bye Jimin", I say, my heart breaking

"Yeah whatever. Go", he says dismissively

Turning around, I quickly walk to the dorm door and out

Getting in my car, the tears break through and I cry

Getting out my phone, I call the only person who's ever been there for me

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The door opens, Jooheon pulling me into his arms immediately

"I'm sorry Jo", he says, hugging me tightly as I cry

"He didn't even care Joo. He didn't even try to fix anything. He didn't say anything. He just told me to get out", I sob, clinging onto him

"I'm gonna fucking kill him", he growls, running his fingers in my hair

I shake my head

I don't want Jooheon doing anything that will hurt him and his career

And a fight with a BTS member will do that

"No Joo, don't. Please", I ask, "Don't do anything ok. Please"

"Ok Jo. For you, I won't kick his ass"

I nod, just holding on tightly to him

Everything hurts and even though it was my decision to ends things, I miss Jimin so much

"C'mon Jo. We can go to the living room and talk ok?"

"I...I can't...right now", I cry

I don't want to talk about anything

Not yet

"Ok, that's ok. We can do something else. Watch TV or a movie or something to keep your mind off it until you're ready to talk"

I nod

I don't care what we do, I just don't want to be alone

He ushers me into the living room, onto the couch then turns on the tv

I can't stop crying and he puts his arm around me, comforting me

Something Jimin should of done

But Jooheon, he always helps me however he can

Even if it's just sitting with me and letting me cry

I'm so greatful he's in my life

Leaning my head on his shoulder, I watch the tv, hoping it will distract me from losing Jimin

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One year later

"Hey Jo", Jooheon greets, as he opens the front door to the dorm

I made up my mind

I'm going to tell him how I feel

After the night I went to him when Jimin and I broke up, we started hanging out more and more

He helped me get over Jimin, he was there when I need to talk, when I needed him

After getting over Jimin, we kept having out and I fell for him

Hard

I've tried to hide it for the last few months but I can't anymore

I called him and asked if he wanted to hang, watch movies and eat

Of course he was down

And on the way here I kept telling myself that I'm not nervous

Truth is I'm shitting my pants

As soon as I saw him, all my determination fled and nervousness hit me hard

My legs are wobbling as I follow him to his room

When we get inside, he closes the door and plops on his bed

Like he always does

He's acting normal

I'm not

I force myself to move and sit next to him on the bed

He takes the remote, turning the TV on

"What do you wanna watch?", he asks distractedly, "A Disney movie? Superhero? Action?"

"I uh...I wanted to talk to you first. About something", I get out

He immediately puts down the remote and turns his full attention to me

"Sure Jo. Are you ok? Is something wrong? Do I need to kill someone?", he asks

"No you do not have to kill someone Joo", I chuckle

"Ok so tell me"

"I...uh...I", I trail off, while he looks at me intently

God he makes me so nervous

It never used to be like this

I could talk to him about anything, say or do anything and know he wasn't judging me

"Take your time", he says patiently

"I uh...well after I broke up with Jimin...I uh"

"Yeah?"

I can't do this

The words won't come out

Maybe I can tell him a different way

I lean over to him and kiss him

Quickly, then pull away, my face on fire, eyes on the blanket

But even from that one kiss....my world flipped

I never felt like this kissing Jimin

It's always been Jooheon

God I'm dumb

I hope he understood because if he doesn't say anything in two seconds, I'm ready to bolt

He lifts my face to his, his lips right against mine

I just let the feeling take over and throw my arms around his neck

His arms move around my body, pulling me against him as he slips his tongue in my mouth

As soon as his tongue touches mine, stars blast in my vision

He gently moves me, laying me down and he hovers over me, kissing me passionately

I'm dimly aware that I have massive questions

Like does he feel the same for me?

Or is he just kissing me to kiss me?

But there's no way in hell I'm stopping kissing him to ask

His big hands move slowly down my body, touching me everywhere

He stops at the hem of my shirt, playing with it but not putting his hand underneath and touching my skin

And I want him to touch my skin so badly

Taking his hand, I move it under my shirt

"Shit", he whimpers, touching me so softly, pressing his lips to mine again

Again his hand stops right below my boobs, not moving an inch

I'm not having it

I move his hand right on my boob

He pulls away, looking down at me, checking that this is what I want

It is

I nod, pulling him back to me, our lips crashing into each other's

He squeezes my boob, moaning softly as he kisses me

I need more

I need him

Trailing my hands down his broad back, I start pulling his shirt off

It needs to come off now

He lets me take it off, helping me as he moves his arms through the sleeves

I pull it over his head, his lips right back on mine as soon as the shirt is off

I manage to throw his shirt somewhere in the room before my brain turns off

I finally touch his skin, loving the way his muscles feel under my hands

Especially when they move

Trailing my fingers up his back and down to his upper arms, I moan softly

Jooheon has huge muscular arms and I fucking love them

His hands shake as he unbuttons my shirt and I wonder if he's as nervous as I am

When he gets the last button undone, he slowly pushes the shirt off me

I sit up, grabbing my shirt and throwing it on the floor, then pull him to me, kissing his neck anywhere I can

"Fff...fuck", he whimpers, his arms around me, hands undoing my bra

Once that's off, her lays me back down, staying on top of me as I drag kisses to his collarbone

His big hands move around my breasts, squeezing, his palms rubbing on my nipples, sending pleasure through my body

My panties get soaked as I moan in his soft skin

Leaning his head down, he kisses my shoulder, sending shivers down my spine

"You don't know", he says softly, his face moving to my neck, giving me small kisses, "You don't know how long I've been waiting for you. How long I've been waiting for you to notice me"

What?

He's been waiting....for me?

He's had feelings for me?

And he never told me?

Why didn't he tell me?

"You don't know how long I waited for your kiss, your touches, wondering if I'd ever get them. Praying I'd get them. Praying you'd be mine"

His confessions are blowing my mind

How long has he waited?

When did his feelings start?

And am I so blind that I didn't notice?

"I love you so much", he whispers so softly, it's almost like I didn't hear it

My heart explodes in happiness

And my mouth won't stay closed

"I love you Joo. More than anything. I'm yours, I promise", I tell him

He lifts his head, looking in my eyes, "Are you being for real? Because I can't take it if you're not"

"It's real Joo", I assure him, touching his cheek softly, "I love you. I was dumb before. But when I kissed you...that small kiss....I knew. It was always you"

The smile on his face lights up his entire being, "It was always you for me. Always"

I pull him back to me, kissing him deeply

I want him now

Moving my hands down, I push his pants and boxers down

He gets the hint and helps me get his pants off then starts pulling mine down

He gets it off, moving his kisses from my lips to my neck

God, his kisses light every nerve on fire

Dragging his kisses down between my breasts and along my stomach, I feel his sucks and bites all over my skin

He keeps kissing lower and lower, fingers pulling my panties down and off

He opens my legs, burying his tongue in my pussy

"Jooheon fuck!", I yell, pleasure filling me from his licks

"Oh god fuck. I knew you'd taste this good. I fucking knew it", he groans

Well fuck me, I didn't know that

His tongue swirls everywhere, licking around my slit and between my lips

"Fuck you have no clue how much I want to eat you out. How much I wanted to taste you, making you cum from me", he moans, "I hate other guys got to be here before me"

"Dddd...doesn't matter Joo. Yyyy.....fuck...you're the best", I get out through the pleasure, "Aaaa...and only you get to be...down...down there from now on"

"Mmm, promise?", he asks, his tongue rolling over my clit, sending pleasure to every nerve

"Promise! I promise Joo", I cry

His hands move to my legs holding them open as his mouth moves around my clit

I wait in anticipation and when he sucks, I yell loudly, my body arching off the bed, intense pleasure hitting me

His mouth moves hard and fast, tugging and playing, driving me fucking insane

I bury my hand in his hair, my other hand gripping his sheets tightly

I'm gonna cum any second

"Joo, gonna cum", I cry, not sure where he wants me to orgasm

"Yeah baby, cum in my mouth. I wanna taste your cream"

He sucks hard and I lose it, screaming his name, coming hard

"Jooheon!"

I pull his hair, lost in the bliss, his mouth not stopping, sucking me though my orgasm

Only when I finish, does he let go, his tongue moving to my hole, licking again

"Oh my god, so fucking good", he moans, "So fucking sweet. Goddamn it I'm gonna eat your cunt every day baby girl"

"Jesus Joo", I moan, liking that idea very much

"Please aegi, tell me I can eat you everyday. Tell me I can suck your pretty throbbing clit, swallow your delicious cum everyday. Please tell me I can", he begs

"Yes Joo. You can"

He lifts his head, smiling, his dimples on full display

My heart beats rapidly seeing that smile

I love his smile

He sits up and I do too, getting him to lay down

I kiss his perfect lips loving the way they feel against mine

Loving the way his kiss feels

As I slip my tongue in his mouth and deepening the kiss, I wrap my hand around his hard cock, pumping up and down and he moans against the kiss

His cock feels so big

I pull away from him, eyes looking down and I gape at the huge cock in my hand

Jesus Christ, he's so long and so thick

I had no idea Jooheon had this in his pants

I start moving down to suck his cock but he stops me, gripping my arm

"Joo let me-"

"No baby. Please, I just want to be inside you", he pleads

I want that too

After I blew him but I'm going to give him what he wants

Swinging my leg over him, I sit in his lap, his eyes on me, biting his lip

After pressing a soft kiss to his lips, sit up, reaching behind me and holding his dick up

Getting him under me, I lower myself on him, his head moving inside

"Oh god", he whispers, his hands squeezing my hips tightly

I push down, sliding along his cock inch by inch, pleasure hitting me from how much his cock is stretching me out

It feels amazing and I can feel myself drenching him

"Fuck, fuck, fuck", he moans, his eyes on where we meet

I feel so full of him already but I want to take him all

"Help me Joo", I whisper

His eyes move to mine, a question in them

"Push me down your cock. I want all of you inside me", I tell him, his eyes widening, "Please baby. Help me get on your cock"

His hands push me down and I take all of him, his head snugly against my spot, sending chills through me

I can't stop the throbbing on him and I don't want to

It feels so good

"Oh my god", Jooheon yells, "So fucking tight. Oh god. Fuck. You feel so good. So good. I can't....fuck"

I decide now is the time to move and I move up his length

His eyes snap to us just as I slip back down, his head smashing my spot

"Oh god", I cry

Leaning on his stomach, I move fast, bouncing on his perfect cock, feeling his thickness spread me open so pleasurably over and over again

"Fuck, so good baby. Don't stop"

His eyes are glued to where I'm fucking him, his mouth slightly open

"Like watching?", I ask, smirking

"Uh huh", he answers

I move my arms behind me, leaning on his thighs and spreading my legs more so he can watch

"I can't see baby", I tell him, now slamming down on his length harder, "So tell me what you see"

"Yyy..your pussy....swallowing my cock"

"Uh huh. What else baby?", I ask, getting more turned on

"Uh...your...fuck you're pussy lips are so puffy wrapped around me. You're clit is throbbing so much. Your cunt is so creamy, leaving cream all over my dick"

I feel myself getting closer and I move faster

"What else?"

I feel his fingers spread my lips, a soft moan coming from him

"Yyyy...fuck...your slit. When you come down, it stretches so big around me, straining when you get all of me in. God your cunt is so pretty on my cock"

"Joo I'm gonna cum", I moan, right there

"Yes baby. Please", he whimpers

His head rubs my spot and I yell as stars blast in my vision, pleasure washing over me

"Oh my god, so much cream baby", he moans

I keep riding him, grinding on his cock, rocking anything to keep the pleasure going

Through the pleasure, I feel myself ready to cum again and I ride him harder

"Oh fuck aegi, cum again. I feel it baby girl. Cream my cock"

"Jooheon!", I cry, my body shaking hard as I try to stay upright on him, coming on his cock, the pleasure amazing

"Fuck, so pretty baby. You look so pretty coming on my cock", he praises, his hands roaming my body

When I finish, he pulls me on top of him, rolling us over

"I'm gonna fuck you so good my baby", he whispers in my ear, "Keep your pretty legs open for me"

I nod and he sits up, slamming his cock into my dripping cunt

"So fucking wet for me. So tight, so good. Best pussy I've ever been in", he moans

"Bbbb...best cock I ever had inside me", I whimper, the constant stimulation to my spot, making me shake in bliss with every hit

"I'll be your best cock baby. I'll make you feel so good. Every day"

"I'll make you feel good baby", I tell him

"You are aegi", he says, looking down between my legs, "Fuck watching your slit get split open on my cock drives my fucking insane. The fucking tight throbs of your cunt make me feel good. You make me feel good"

His hands grip my hips, lifting me off the bed

As he pounds my cunt, he pulls me down on him, meeting his thrusts and going in deeper than before

So deep I can feel him in my belly

Through the haze, I hear a constant banging sound

Like something being hit over and over

Looking around, I find the source of the sound

His bed hitting the wall

It registers that he's fucking me that hard that his bed is moving

That fucking turns me on so much

"C'mon baby. I need more of your cum on me"

He wraps one arm around me, his hand on my ass, holding me up that way

Moving closer to me, he drills his cock in, his hand moving to my clit

The second he starts rubbing my clit, I scream in blinding pleasure, clenching his cock again and again

"That's it baby. Good girl. Cum for me"

His head hits my spot and his fingers rub just right on my clit and I'm thrown head first into a massively pleasurable orgasm

"Jooheon, oh my god, Jooheon!"

"There we go", he praises, "That's it aegi. Cum just like that for me"

His cock doesn't stop, fucking me though the orgasm

He lowers me back to the bed, wrapping my legs around him as he moves on top of me

He thrusts hard, the sound of our skin slapping together sounding throughout the room

Along with the wet sounds of my sopping cunt and his bed

"God you suck me back in so perfectly. Want me inside you that much huh?"

I nod, "Yes Joo. Want you so much. Love you so much"

"I love you Jo. More than anything"

His lips crash into mine, kissing me fiercely and I love every second of it

"What the fuck is that sound?", I hear someone yell

"Great, they're back", he mutters

I honestly didn't even know they were gone

I assumed they were in their rooms or something

"It's Jooheon's bed hitting the wall!", someone, I think it's Kihyun says

Jooheon just rolls his eyes and keeps up the pace, thrusting over and over, his pelvis rubbing my clit perfectly

"What is he fucking doing? Jumping on it?"

God they're dumb

There's only ever one reason why a bed would hit the wall at a constant pace

We ignore them, Jooheon lifting my boob up and wrapping his mouth on my nipple

He sucks quickly, sending more pleasure straight to my pussy and I can't help but yell

"Yes Jooheon! Yes!"

"Who the fuck is that?", Minhyuk asks

"He has a girl here!", Shownu yells

"Please Joo. More", I yell, so close

His cock just has to hit a few more times and I'm done

His mouth switches to my other nipple, sucking desperately like his life depends on it

"Jooheon! I'm gonna cum! Fuck I'm gonna cum!", I cry

"Cum aegi", he asks and I let the bliss run through me

"Jooheon! Oh my god! Jooheon!"

He sheathes his cock inside me, letting me ride out the bliss on his thick dick

"Good girl"

"Oh my god, he's banging Joanne!", Hyungwon yells

"Motherfucker", Jooheon mutters

"It's ok baby", I tell him, as my orgasm ends, "I don't care what they hear. I just want to be with you"

He smiles shyly

Which is ironic since he's...banging me

Very well too

"I want you too jagi"

He catches my lips in a kiss, slowing down and rocking his hips into me

So fucking good

"He's what?", Shownu shouts

"He. Is. Banging. Joanne.", Hyungwon says like Shownu is stupid

"How do you know?", Minhyuk asks

"Because that's her voice"

The door slams again

"What's going on? What's that noise?", someone else says

My god, it's really not that loud

But then again, I'm kinda out of it

It might be loud

I dunno and I don't care

"Fucking-", Jooheon starts

I shush him by kissing him deeply

He responds immediately, his tongue against mine, his hips slowly pushing his dick into me

I grip his back hard, not being able to get enough

His lips press kisses to my cheek, traveling down to my neck, making me moan loudly

"Does he have a girl here?"

"He is fucking Joanne"

"Oh god finally!", Changkyun yells

Finally?

What does he mean finally?

They know about Jooheon's feelings for me?

"I don't have to hear him whine about Jimin and how he wants to kill him for being with her anymore"

I giggle against his lips

That's cute to hear

"He said that? He didn't tell me shit!", Minhyuk declares

"God he wouldn't shut up about how much he loves her and how much he wants her, how no other girl compares to her. Drove me up a fucking wall"

"He's a dead man", Jooheon growls

"I think it's cute. You love me"

He nods, "Yeah Jo, I do. Always have"

"I love you Joo. So much", I smile, at him

He kisses me softly and move my hands around his neck, my fingers in his soft hair

The next time he moves in, I move my hips, meeting him

"Oh aegi", he whimpers, "I...I can't...you feel too good"

"Cum Joo", I tell him

He shakes his head, "You first aegi. I need you to first

He rolls his hips into me a touch faster letting me feel every inch of his cock inside me

His head brushes against my spot and I squeeze him tightly

"Jo", he cries

"Jooheon!", I moan loudly, incredible pleasure slamming into me, making me shake under me, "Fuck Jooheon!"

"Joanne, fuck!", he yells, moving all in, his cock throbbing and spurting his hot cum inside me

"Joo"

"Joanne, aegi, oh my god! Yes"

He shakes in my arms, his face burying in my neck as his orgasm goes on

I throb on him involuntarily, fast, milking his cock for all his cum

"Goddamn!", one of the guys yells

"I'm going to murder every single one of them", he murmurs in my skin as his orgasm ends

He pulls out and tries to move but I stop him, holding him to me

"Stay with me baby", I whisper

He lifts his head, his wet hair plastered to his forehead, smiling at me, "Yeah?"

I nod

He leans forward, his lips against mine

"I love you Joo", I tell him

His smile gets brighter, more beautiful

"I love your smile baby", I say, touching his dimples, "So beautiful"

"Not as much as yours aegi", he says, "I love you so much"

We share another kiss then he lays his head down on my chest, his arms around me

I slowly run my fingers in his sweaty hair, absolutely loving the feel of him in my arms

I'm drifting off to sleep when there's a knock on his door

"Jooheon?"

"Go away", he yells groggily

"Yeah but-"

"Go away!", I yell, "We're napping. Don't wake us up or you'll be sorry!"

"Ok sorry! Sorry!", Whoever it is says

Jooheon chuckles, "They're scared of you aegi"

"Good. Then maybe they won't make fun of us later"

"Oh they won't make fun of you. They'll wait until you leave and then make fun of me"

"Well...tell them if they do, I'll beat them up"

He laughs, kissing my chest, "Yeah you will my strong girl"

Kissing the top of his head, I say, "Yes I am. Now sleep baby"

"Yes ma'am", he answers, snuggling into me

I go back to playing with his hair, closing my eyes and thanking whoever's out there that my best friend is now my boyfriend

My perfect Jooheon

#ksmutclub #jooheon smut #lee jooheon #monsta x jooheon #jooheon fic #jooheon #jooheon fanfic #monsta x fanfic #monsta x fic #monsta x fanfiction #monsta x smut

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wildelydawn · 2 years

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KimChay Thoughts Part III: The Tables Have Turned.

Okay, coming at you with more unfiltered KimChay thoughts; my apologies if this is disorganized.

I’ll be repeating some stuff from previous posts, but I hope not to get too long winded.

First, the scene in which Kim is writing music establishes another contrast between him and Vegas (which I initially discussed in this post.) Vegas is not letting a few guns in his face keep him from trying to further manipulate Porsche. He’s not even letting a jail cell keep them apart. He will absolutely break Porsche out of prison, hit on Pete, and everything else under the sun to progress his mission of destroying the main family.

In contrast, Kim cannot stay focused. In episode 8, Kim swears he’s done with investigating the brothers. He stops answering Porchay’s calls because that’s his half-hearted attempt to break things off, to let Porchay down (but let him down gently because Kim is emotionally invested.) Porchay sings to him, and Kim (to our knowledge) doesn’t give Porchay any feedback on his song in an attempt to keep that distance from someone who shouldn’t matter to him. Kim is trying to salvage his initial purpose: focus on protecting his family. He can’t get distracted any longer; he must go back to the two roots, the two sure things in his life: music (his passion) and the mafia family (his obligation.)

Unfortunately, episode 9 shows us that this return to roots is not possible for Kim. In a weird way, I’m both a little happy and mad that some of my predictions came true: the first being he cannot protect his family. Kinn is, allegedly, taking Tawan’s word over Porsche’s (and we know that Kim could not find any grounds to distrust Porsche). Kinn is, allegedly (if we assume his actions are not part of his grand master plan to manipulate Tawan and find the mole) in a vulnerable spot that Kim is unaware of. Kim has failed. His family is coming apart, and his brother is in danger.

The second is that music is no longer the same for Kim. We see this as he reflects back on Barcode’s song in order to create music again. At this point, he needs Porchay as a person, as a muse, as even a lover. Music is no longer the same without Porchay, which is going to lead to some devastating consequences for Kim and Porchay since all of this was rooted in mafia business.

Which is why this post is titled as The Tables have Turned. Look at Kim, who possibly planned to further manipulate Porchay by making him write a love song (and perhaps to also deepen Porchay’s feelings for him), who is now using Porchay as his inspiration. Is he writing a love song? No guarantee but, oh, how the tables have turned. In my opinion, the ruse is up as soon as he needs to think about Porchay to make music. Kim has temporarily abandoned his mission to just exist alongside Porchay, which is a dangerous thing to do since Porchay is now involved with the mafia, which is entirely Kim’s fault.

Now, with the scene in which Porchay is making the pick, we see that Porchay is patient. He tries to stay that way. Porchay waits for an answer, but being an absolute gremlin and with true big dick energy, he then demands an answer as he gifts Kim with the handmade pick.

Kim reciprocates. He kisses Porchay and hugs him. In a way this is both failure and success.

The failure: Here’s a picture of a man who realizes his ploy is over. That’s he’s in too deep; now, he's the one under someone else’s thumb. That he’s done exactly what his father has warned them not to do: to get emotionally involved with chess pieces. Here’s a picture of a man who realizes his next actions are going to devastate this boy, tear himself and his muse apart. Here’s a picture of a man who can no longer protect his family because of his own emotions.

The success: Here’s a picture of a man who realizes his ploy is over. That he’s in too deep; now, he’s so enamored by this person that his defenses are down, and he’s okay with that vulnerability. Here’s a picture of a man who has temporarily forgotten he’s a mafia kid. That he can have a normal life with a normal relationship. That he can sit around and make music and think of his muse. Here’s a picture of a man who is tense, hesitant, but relieved.

Why is Kim relieved? Well, because he could never make the first move. Kim’s simply not in the position to do that. So Porchay does it for him, and he’s so goddamn happy and relieved and excited because more often than not, Kim is struck speechless by Porchay (i.e.: finding the shrine, getting serenaded, receiving the pick). So much so that instead of speaking, he moves into kiss Porchay’s cheek. And even though we can see some hesitation, some worry as he hugs Porchay, he’s still somewhat happy because he succeeded: he’s in love, and it’s pure, with no strings, no demands, no interference (as of now.)

So. Future predictions? This happiness of Kim’s will not last; it’s not meant to last for a character like Kim. A character like Kim, in a family like his, cannot possibly stay in the shadows and only emerge when he wants to. He can’t pick and choose what parts of Mafia Life he participates in (his little murder investigation with Porchay has proven this tenfold.) Porchay, in true Porchay methodology and chaos, will demand answers from Kim, and Kim will not be able to fend off those questions. Kim is about to learn that he cannot protect his family and the consequences that entails on his family's business, and worst of all, he probably cannot protect Porchay, his muse, either, and he will have to face the consequences that has on his heart. And it’s his fault.

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en-mode-autopilote · 3 months

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find the words tag

was tagged by the lovely @tapedsleeves <3 my words in my wips to find are: hand, kiss, touch & smile.

unfortunately, i don't have a lot of romance going on so... uh kiss is not on found on any of my wips at the moment fhdsjkfhkfs or i didn't reach that moment for it. BUT i got the rest though!!! so i decided to put another smile for the singe dads au

HAND & SMILE from the very beginning of the single dads duology (haunted x family & richie/carts/kent) a.k.a max has his hands full!

“Come on, boys, we’re going to be late!” Max calls out, in a hurry as every other Thursday night in this household. As if he doesn’t already has enough in his hands, he just grabs the lunch box on the kitchen counter. He has the bag of Joshua in one shoulder and Owen’s on the other. Rafaël tries to help his dad by carrying his and his cup of coffee. “Thank you, Raf.” His dad breathes. “Dad, I can’t find my contacts.” Owen almost cries. Max sighs. He turns to the older brother. “Raf, can you please go with Josh inside the car and wait for me and Owen? It won’t be long, I promise.” Raf nods and he takes Josh’s hand. Max lets go of all the stuff that he currently has in his hands. He helps Owen find his contacts because he’s not going to be comfortable playing with his glasses on. They tried once and Max paid a monstrous amount of money for the repair but his son needs them to see. That’s when he tried to get him used to having contacts. But Owen is a seven years old kid. He loses things. That’s normal. “I’m sorry, Dad…” The boys apologizes. “It’s ok, Ow.” Max reassures him as he puts a hand on his shoulder. “Come on, where did you last put them?” He calmly asks him. Why losing it on him when it’s clearly not his fault because it’s always the chaos when it’s practice day? He sure is always late but the other parents are as busy as him and they truly understand that he’s got his hands full.

(...)

Max ties the laces of Josh’s skate while he’s chatting with another teammate beside him. Joshua is a shy little boy. He was only three when they met but he always wanted to follow his brothers everywhere. Rafaël was taking care of his two younger brothers and had too much responsibilities on his shoulders. Owen was muted. He didn’t want to open up too much, he was worrying all the time. Max always thought at first that the hardest to convince was going to be Rafaël but the older trusted him really fast, knowing that he was a really good man. They come a long way to get there. There were highs and lows but eventually and right now, Max sees the light at the end of the tunnel. “Ok, all set, Josh.” The youngest comes to hug him. “Thank you, daddy!!!” The littlest takes off. “Are you going to wave at me in the stands?” “Always.” Max promises him with a very bright smile. He hears a little ok but his son is already in his way to the ice. Max gets out of the locker room. He heads briefly to the stands to see his usual crowd to make the count of the coffees he has to order.

SMILE & TOUCH from the haunted house au feat. the milouvians aka the little gothic horror story

Unfortunately for her, things are about to get worst as she tries to start the bus over and over again, failing every time that she tries. “That doesn’t work...” She stresses out as she realizes that it only means one thing. They are stuck here. “What?!” Mathias exclaims. “You just got it full!” It is now too late to turn around and go back. Milou tries again and fails when the keys touch the contact inside. “Oh, so we’re staying here, then?” Edgar assumes. “Cool!” That is not cool at all, is all she can think about.“I’m going to call Richie...” Milou tries to say as she picks up her phone. But it doesn’t open either to her surprise and much to her horror. Something is messing with them and it wants them to stay. “Ok, let’s just... keep calm...” Édouard tries to say. “You know that it how all horror movies start?” “Really reassuring, Joseph, thank you.” Rosemarie rolls her eyes. “Ok but... isn’t what we wanted though?” Joseph tells them. The panic around him suddenly stops. “What are you talking about?” Milou frowns. “You wanted to know what really happened to your uncle, don’t you?” “That’s not...” “But you want to. And that’s ok. That’s why we’re all here. To help you figure out the truth.” Joseph smiles. She looks at them and they all silently agree. That is totally not how she imagined it would be. She would’ve preferred to just see the house from outside, showing them around without actually going inside. “Alright, take your stuff.” She finally agrees.

tagging: @three-headed-monster @lordofthegoldenflower @fifthovertime @goodsticklehky @jimothystu & anyone who sees this that wants to do it as well? your words are:

Time

Down

Slowly

Great

#tag game #thank u casey <3

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whatagirlwants · 2 years

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Here it goes…this will be long

bare with me the first time i typed everything i accidentally deleted it all. so this might be all over the place there might be typos. my reason for this is no reason just to jot down my thoughts so if you are reading this and offended dont take this personal.

I think part of me feels the need to make this clear is because i’ve seen people not understand why she’d feel that about Joshua why does she describe him as vicious? where did it all go wrong. i’ve also seen Joshua fans undermine her feelings and bring up his traumas and what he went through to excuse him but what about what she went through? we dont have to compare but dont undermine her feelings and invalidate her. a certain comment struck me and it was a Joshua fan saying “she wouldnt pull an olivia write and release vicious about him and put him through it, she knows what he went through he doesnt deserve it he almost died” like they’re missing the whole point, i think sabrina has waited long enough and she tried to stay by him and it just didnt work, if she describe what he put her through as cruel then just accept it. yes his heart failed it isnt her fault? she tried to be there, how did u think she felt? he pushed her away too and he said it himself in his snippet of a song called Never and Sabrina sings about him pushing her away in Space and Dust which sh posted 2 months after dl was out.

To be honest with you the whole situation is complicated and you might not understand or if you’re biased towards any certain parties in this case joshua you will turn a blind eye and dismiss her feelings like you did vicious. Sabrina has never spoken about him or their relationship or put him on blast, she isn’t making this about her break up with him she’s simply letting the music find its people. What people make of it isn’t her fault, she didnt release vicious because she’s angry and wants revenge i mean its simply what she’s been through at this point she’s had a lot of people tell her how to feel its time we hear her out.

i’m not writing this as an expose i wish all well to Joshua and i know sabrina does too or she wouldn’t have written skinny dipping and imagine a day where it all wouldn’t hurt and she can put this past her. At the end of the day all 3 involved (sabrina, olivia, and joshua) have received hate in different ways. part of me hates when someone defends sabrina and talks about what she went through and someone would bring up what Joshua went through. i dont like that we always have to bring him up maybe thats me and i hold some resentment of my own? maybe its cause im simply sick of seeing him be brought up and constantly baby-ed by his fans? which i understand. you wouldn’t turn on your favorite celebrity but i think its okay to accept he did Sabrina wrong and the only way to describe what he did to her is unfortunately is cruel. Sabrina herself said that she wouldn’t always feel like that and its just where she is now.

I want to add im glad this is all over and sabrina doesn’t seem to be where she was last year and that makes me happy.

1. Why does she describe him as Vicious?

I think in order to know that you must understand the timeline of their breakup and quite literally how he loved her and pretend he didn’t. because i don’t only want to show you the tl i want to be able to provide lyrics as proof and my own interpretation of it all this will be all over the place.

January 8th 2021 Drivers License was released, the whole cast of hsmtmts were filming the show in Salt Lake City and Sabrina was there visiting Joshua. Sabrina was spotted a week after Drivers License in Salt Lake. When Sabrina says in the song because i liked a boy “when everything went down we’d already broken up” is because thats what happened. He broke up with her after DL came out (it’ll make sense if you put it in this perspective, so stay with me). She even sings in the same song “was only trying to hold you close while your heart was failing. you said im too late to be you first love but i’ll always be your favorite” To me, it sounds like he’s breaking up with her although she was only trying to be there for him because she loved him. This all ties up to love me then pretend you didnt crush my heart and wreck my image in the song Vicious. The thing is i dont believe wrote Vicious around the same time she wrote because i liked a boy i think it took her time to understand how she feels and actually reflect on how things went down and how he handled it.

It’s funny cause Joshua has a song coming out called Used To It and the first verse is about Olivia not caring when his heart failed (due to septic shock) This could imply to thats where his mind was at which makes sense to why Sabrina finds him cruel as well as if you look at the 2nd verse in Vicious she sings “when you’re insecure could be me, could be her you just run to whoever is winning”. Joshua has a song coming out too called Would You Love Me Now? and his fans think its about olivia based on a few lines the song is not out yet.

2. Sabrina stayed.

i’ve seen this here on Tumblr and someone said the way sabrina describe their relationship was sweet or something like that but i feel like it was sweet at one point but the songs are all about AFTER their breakup in January 2021 and there is nothing sweet about a man who cant make up his mind. Regardless i understand things were out of control and to be honest yes he’s also been through a lot in his personal life but i dont think that should excuse anything. We hear Sabrina sing about Tornado Warnings and if you read my page you know it is about Joshua. Late March 2021 Sabrina and Joshua were at a park during a tornado warning (NOT BACK TOGETHER just to talk most probably). Lets focus on the lyrics, sabrina knows its a bad idea and that LOGICALLY she shouldn’t have him on her mind and she shouldnt be seeing someone who left her. In the song she’s saying she’s convincing her therapist it didnt happen and that she’s over that son of a bitch.

The 2nd verse to me could be interrupted 2 ways 1. is Sabrina is justifying lying to her therapist in her therapy session “i deserve an hour in a week to focus on my thoughts not so obsessed with yours i cant hear myself speak” and she also is putting herself first and recognise that it is what she should be doing “i deserve my own consideration”.

The lyrics “i deserve my own consideration” remind me of her song how many things. In this song, sabrina portrays her vulnerable side, she feels worthless in his eyes. although she’s not his priority anymore she constantly thinks of him “theres no hiding in the thought of us i got ways to find you anywhere” . Sabrina is aware once again she shouldnt be considerate of him yet she cant help herself “i consider you im not trying to it doesnt matter whether or not i want to i cant help it” she also sings i wonder how many things you wanna do you think im in between Sabrina feels like this thing he has to deal with or in-between what he really wants yet she still went to see him during a tornado warning, she still considers his feelings “i feel myself falling further down your priorities and i still make excuses for you constantly” .

The sad part is he left and she touches on this in the second verse she sings “remember when you left once? that never made too much sense to me well it hurt you so bad hurting me you really came to me for sympathy” and in her song Bet Ya Wanna “i bet you hate the way you said goodbye and you still cant even tell me why i hate the way you left me dry but ill keep that between you and i” how did he say goodbye? i mentioned earlier it was around the weeks after drivers license was released in the lyrics she says he left her dry which means leaving someone high and dry which means to leave someone in a difficult situation without any help. and when was that? january 2021 now back to Vicious crush my heart and wreck my image.

Sabrina stayed and thats highlighted in songs like Tornado Warnings, Already Over, Decode and a song she wrote and posted in March 2021 called Space and Dust.

in space and dust sabrina says she’ll always be there “if no ones there to hear u scream you can still reach out your hand to me and im floating there ill always be the brightest star in your galaxy”

3. Theres nothing left here to decode

in decode Sabrina touches on his behavior of how he didn’t stay, confused her, and walked away and eventually choosing to walk away herself. Now that she stopped trying to understand him or the situation and walked away from it all she feels the weight off her shoulders “theres a weight off my shoulders now that i don’t chase you being myself, did that emasculate you? learning from you that i can walk away too”

In an interview sabrina talks about her favorite line which is learning from u i can walk away too and she said walking away wasnt an option to her because she thought walking away is a negative thing you dont walk away from someone you love but then she learned to realize it could be a good option and it is the better option.

4. In conclusion

i promise im done but i wanted to go into details so this is a long ass post. point is someone can hurt someone and do something wrong regardless of what they’ve been through. sabrina releasing vicious is valid why shouldn’t she sing about him and what he put her through, its insane to me how his fans will vilify her or find her bringing up his heart failure in because i liked a boy yet his own fans bring it up every second to defend his actions. you dont find that weird? we’re all glad he’s okay and he’s made it but she knows him more than you and you might not be able to understand how she feels because regardless your his fans and she’s his ex and someone he pushed completely to the side when in reality she ended up in this mess cause of him cause she even gave him a chance letting him in her world. if sabrina fans dont like him or feel some way about him its justified too.

Dont make sabrina releasing Vicious a negative thing or “bringing” him up for attention when he only writes about OR which he knows will get 10x more attention than singing about SC. Sabrina released Skinny Dipping which is how she wants it to be in the future “water under the bridge”

This is how sabrina described Decode:

“When you finally stop hurting yourself trying to understand why someone didn’t love you the way you thought they did, it all becomes so much more clear” and based on his songs he’s releasing right now that are assumed to be about Olivia, sabrina’s feelings in vicious are valid.

#sabrina carpenter #vicious #emails i cant send #how i feel #joshua bassett #jolivia #jabrina #olivia rodrigo #Drivers License #drivers license drama #i just dont get why some of his fans are mad she expressed herself #this post is long overdue #because she liked a boy #tornado warnings #bet u wanna #hsmtmts

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kidmachinate · 10 months

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Expectations

At work one week, a co-worker said upon me replying to my boss the following:

"You know one of these days he's gonna sound less forgiving or nice"

"I'm waiting for it"

I didn't take anything from this and it was all in good fun, because my latest line of work tends to ask a lot of us on any given day...but still I press on. No one wants to get fired, right? To be clear, I mostly like my current line of work but here's the issue. The joke (or maybe they do want to see me break one day) is the other side of the coin. What it looks like when you do lose your patience. When you don't is the expectation. In the middle is a potential realization. Am I just being taken for granted?

Unfortunately, I don't always succeed at this expectation. I've unleashed hell in the way my Dad would at times. It feels bad to say this knowing over time, Dad and I grew to understand one another, but fresh in my mind are times that weren't so great. Times where simply voicing logic and reason went out the window. Where proving what the energy efficient temperature for the A/C is with hard evidence, and still being told nope, you're wrong. Maybe I presented "my facts" or "fake news" so therefore I wasn't considered. Really thought real evidence would solve the problem. Proof. Something you also need in a principals office to get out of trouble, but you can't prove things done or said to you without video evidence or a recording. They were never gonna believe you because the other person is much better at explaining themselves. They lie for a living. Principal's office is home. It's a place or panic for you. If after days, weeks, or months you then react, you're still at fault? Well...yes...and I struggle with that. I don't want revenge at the core but I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to dish it back when someone want to talk smack on a small level or yell at a higher one.

Trying to develop boundaries later in life is hard. You don't want to disappoint because you don't want the problems. The having to constantly defend your yourself. Just make everyone happy. If we take trauma out of it, what's simply wrong with making people happy other than to a jealous person? Putting a smile on ones face is always worth it. The problem with these expectations are they aren't realistic and they are all over our lives. You need a degree to do an entry level job. You need to be better than your parents because they realize they messed up somewhere, and you need to correct that. You need to suppress your feelings so you can dedicate yourself entirely to emotional leeches. You need to not let money control your life when literally everything revolves around it...and we as a country are closing off freedom ramps for digital currencies as we speak, while continuing to buy it up behind the scenes, to control it. How can any one person possibly meets the expectations of the world, let alone a single individual. It's impossible. So where do you go from here? There's always burn the bridge or let them down gently.

The above are certainly options. What if you care? Is there another way? Things aren't always black and white. We can't assume everyone functions on the same level. I'm blessed by a family that mostly loves me, although we rarely talk, and enough learned to keep life in order to not be homeless. My traumas on a scale, aren't much. I've suffered more trauma through failed friendships/relationships than my childhood. My lesser than traumas doesn't make them invisible. I just don't want to let them bleed into daily life. Comparing life situations sometimes misses the mark, especially if whoever you are speaking with has their own set of traumas, mental issues, or even just life kicking you in the pants. You can kiss and make up and try again and that's all dandy but patterns are what last. If it isn't the norm for someone to just attack you, maybe it is worth a second look. I've been on both sides of the fence here, but repeated attempts at apologies to repeat the same thing? That's not the ideal scenario. A scenario is which at worst you can agree to disagree, a safe space to express, and healthy measures of filling missing voids or releasing anger (probably not at whoever you are talking to) in a way that makes you productive and helps yourself. Pulls you back. Stop the top from spinning, it's okay.

Nobody likes forced plans, playing by the rules to get screwed over, being yelled at, or even just minor inconveniences. It's a huge weight to carry when expected to just push through all of it. That the expectation. You're not gonna bat 100% at this. No one will. The issue is trying to create the environment to thrive as often as possible. Finding someone to vent to if needed. Being in a growth mindset. In a world asking for so much how do you make time for you...and not just to do whatever is distracting you from life. To just sit and think and process. We all, myself included, from time to time, need to slow down. If anything should be the expectation in life, it should be that. Not the hidden ones laid down by people confronted on a daily basis for life obligations. Stability. Consistency. Can't always rush life in the face and see what happens...and I finally thing to say this at the end of the post, where the rest can seem like a dark but truthful tale.

When making these, I attempt to accomplish a few things. Letting it out is the biggest thing. Someone seeing the vulnerabilities in a post and/or inspiration to take action. A reminder that yes you can, even with the odds stacked against you. Speaking of which, whoever you are, the world isn't against you and if you think that, pretend it is against us all. What are you doing to fight against it? Need help? Gather a party who will bring you up.

The only one who should be making expectations that I hope you meet is you. In us wanting life to be as easy as possible and stress free, we can lose the plot of our own stories or place that burden on others. I suck at reaching out but I know I can and have done this to others before. I'm sorry. I've been rediscovering myself for a longer time than I'd like and need to process how to best that best version and less of a mess. Point stands however, set your own goals/expectations.

#expectations #love #progression #struggle #mental peace #mental health #find your tribe

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Avatar reminds us about what truly matters.

I recently re-watched Avatar (the blue aliens movie James Cameron produced). I found out this movie can have a very important message to humanity that many need to understand for everyone's well being and for the future of mankind.

So this movie's about humans having discovered a planet where they can travel to, and about humans trying to mine a valuable mineral in that planet that's inhabited by the “Na'vi”, who are basically big humans that are deeply connected to nature. Obviously the Na'vi don't want humans taking resources and destroying their planet, so they sort of let them live in their planet but don't want the humans to go near their home nor near their sacred places.

The people who went to that planet (Pandora) were sent (by other rich people looking to get more rich, [this is subtext in the movie]) with only 1 objective, mining a mineral that was only found there and that was very valuable. So the ones going and living in Pandora were basically employees (or soldiers, same thing) from a nation (most likely the USA), really the same than a company hiring them to go do an extremely risky job.

The soldiers/ marines working in Pandora made war to the Na'vi, sacrificed their lives and killed hundreds or thousands in doing so because their objective was to get that mineral no matter what, and they failed.

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I'll get to my point now.

The way I see it, these people gave their lives to the ones who had hired them, they gave their lives to capitalism (I'm not saying any other way of economic and political system is better, I'm saying capitalism can be modified for the best). As we've seen in history, the countries or nations that have wanted to expand economically and have more influence over the rest of the world have always started wars with neighbor countries, and in recent times with countries all over the place (just read about the countries the USA has made war against), this idea of wanting to expand in economical and influential ways has always lead to war, to enslaving other people, and to many other awful things like torture.

We as humans over the course of history have not cared about the general well being of ourselves as a species, we've killed each other, enslaved each other, hired each other with ridiculously low salaries and 12 hour shifts, we've reproduced and destroyed things around us way too much, we've done irreparable damage to the world's climate that has affected our lives and will continue to do so in the future. There is a huge amount of evidence that we're responsible for the accelerated way in which climate has been changing for the worst.

We have this ideology nowadays that says working too much and becoming rich is the best thing you can do, no matter what happens to the rest of humanity, it's their fault if they're not rich and if they don't work hard. This is an enslaving ideology that only leads to giving your life to the people you wok for, or to making money.

In Avatar we see an extreme example of this, stories usually exaggerate things in order to make their point more clear, that's what fiction is all about. In Avatar people literally gave their lives because they died, but here we give our lives to the people we work for by working 9+ hours 5 days a week, and sometimes that's not even enough and we're working overtime and doing 12+ hour shifts (in China for poor people that's not even optional). As a species we're extremely selfish and we're not worrying about the rest of the people or the future of the species, there are a few exceptions, hopefully there will be more rich and powerful people worrying about the rest of humanity in the future, unfortunately it's likely this will only happen when awful climate or economic events start to happen worldwide.

Now, I know that money is absolutely necessary and we need jobs to make money, but the worldwide tendency is an awful thing that most people probably don't take a moment to think about perhaps because they're very busy working. People give their lives to their employers, we work until we're burned out, we get sick and age more rapidly than we should, we die young, we never do anything else from our lives than working, and worse, many believe you should appreciate having a job in “x” company because it's a prestigious company and you have a “good” salary. If anything, those companies and investors should show more appreciation for the employees that are making them richer than they already are.

Avatar was to me a huge reminder that there are so many more important things than just working like crazy and trying to make more and more money. Spending time with your loved ones and doing things you like is far more important than anything else. Some people don't even have hobbies or activities they do outside of work because they're working too much and spending too much time using social networks, some people don't even read nor watch movies or TV shows. If you're reading this and you're one of those people, I urge you to work less and do a different activity whenever possible that will distract you from work, bring relief, and a different perspective to life. I would also urge anyone to be available to other people physically (not just replying to their messages), to spend time with others and stop living in a got damn bubble, empathy and other positive traits are only developed this way.

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I could go on and on with this, but that's what I wanted to write in short.

Start living a life that makes sense and stop being another gear to this ridiculous version of capitalism we've become, stop living in a hurry and take healthy choices (mental and physical health).

My ideology might sound really hippie, but it's not, it's common sense and a practical and healthy way to live (ideally we could all achieve what the “Ikigai” Japanese concept tries to achieve, but at least getting closer to it can make life a lot better).

If money is a big worry, start saving all the money you can for the future and stop spending it in stuff you don't really need, constantly look for a less demanding job, walk away from jobs that demand you work over 9 hours and don't surrender your life to someone else (they will just fire you anytime anyways), simply don't. An alternative is to make a plan little by little to make money through your own business, learn how to do it progressively, start selling whatever product or service, if it doesn't work, keep trying with something else (this is a hard alternative, but it can work overtime by not quitting).

"I see you."

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Cannot stop thinking abt that earth 3 Tim scenario. Somehow got it into my head this idea of Thomas being creepily *enamoured* with Tim. Like, he’s a terrible, amoral, sadistic bastard, and he sees Tim and he just wants to wrap him up in blankets and make love to him and have him call him daddy and depend on him for everything. Like, this fucked up attachment based partially on the fact that he doesn’t really have anything in his life to be affectionate or soft or caring towards, so he vents all of these feelings on a terrified teenager he kidnapped.

He’s just.....incredibly delusional. There’s nothing scarier than the worst monster you know suddenly being *nice*. It’s like the uncanny valley taken to the extreme.

I think Thomas kind of extends his delusions over time, his own god complex and title as lord of the owls leading him to believe that this is fate, that Tim was a gift made for him to possess, his precious baby bird. Anytime Tim rejects him or tries to escape or just breaks down and *sobs*, it’s just a bump in the road, like talon while he was still dick, undergoing his training.

It’s entirely eerie, how he isn’t even angry with Tim, he’ll just *smile*, and slip a needle gently in his neck, and when Tim wakes up he’s in a soft, dark room chained on each of his wrists and ankles to the wall.

So he can’t hurt himself, owlman tells him, with a soft, affectionate expression that’s infinitely more terrifying than the prospect of being tortured. To Thomas, he’s a troubled boy who’s been corrupted by outside forces. It’s not his fault, that he can’t just accept being loved, and allow himself to adore Thomas in return.

Esp with talon......Tim is of course being used as a reward for when talon does well. If talon does well, he gets to spend some *supervised* time with Timmy, and if he fails....well, the usual torture, and Thomas gets to have Tim all to himself like usual.

Tim doesn’t really mind talon, even maybe likes him a little, because he’s desperate to believe that beneath the creepy pale skin and yellow eyes, he’s just dick Grayson, as scared and alone as Tim is. Talon has no real sense of consent, yes, but he’s always gentle, desperate to account for Tim’s perceived needs and more obsessively loving than *forceful*.

I’m thinking of Thomas finally allowing talon to have sex with Tim, and him coaching him through it, ordering him where to place his hands, how to kiss him, reminding him to be gentle like he would need to be reminded. Like talon is just a puppet that Thomas is using to fuck Tim.

The worst part is, Thomas, as delusional as it is, views talon’s interactions with Tim as a necessary and unfortunate sacrifice. Leaving his sweet Tim to interact with that cold, unfeeling creature he’s created— the whole time, he has Tim’s head in his lap, is stroking his hair, comforting him, that daddy’s here, he won’t let talon hurt him, just close his eyes— when that’s exactly what Tim is trying to forget.

In Thomas’s eyes, when it’s all over, and he takes Tim away to his soft, securely locked room, he’s rescuing him. Tim’s wet eyes are from fear of talon, and his tight grip is a desperate plea for comfort for his savior and protector, not just an attempt to avoid being dropped onto his atrophied limbs.

Shakily, Tim dares to ask when he will see talon next, as Thomas gently rubs his ankles and locks the padded-cuffs in place.

“Don’t worry, baby,” he assures him, “he’s on a mission for the next month. It’ll just be you and me, Timmy and Daddy.”

When Tim’s throat chokes up in terror, Thomas gently rubs his back and mistakes it for relief.

!!!!!!!!! I love this so much!!!!! it's written so well, just the way that you can feel this tension and suspense in how thomas is absolutely misunderstanding (either purposefully or because he's just THAT delusional) tim's actions!

thomas is like the emotional reliance and dependence that bruce has on tim taken to the maximum level. he believes that tim is meant to provide these things to him: his love, his compassion, his body- all are things that tim willingly handed over to bruce but thomas takes them all while under this belief that, in reality, tim wants thomas to have them!!

thomas is so unlike other characters because he's a threat, a threat to tim's body and person but not in a "violent" manner. i mean that in the way that thomas isn't going to smack tim or hurt him like he's expecting. thomas's approach, while intentional or not, is so deeply psychological and i can definitly see tim trying to fight stockhold syndrome from taking hold. because thomas is gentle with him, caresses him, speaks softly to him and tim knows that's not what he's like normally.

that's not what he's like naturally. tim sees the scars on talon's body, sees the blankness of his stare. when thomas starts carrying tim around with him he sees how people recoil from him. there's fear in their expressions, terror in their bodies. people are petrified of thomas wayne which means tim wil find absolutely no help outside the manor.

he's stuck.

unless someone comes to save him.

tim's never been much a damsal. bruce always taught him, stressed to him that he should do everything in his power to save himself because though bruce will always try- there is always the chance that help will not arrive in time.

tim doesn't pray often. he's not religious. it's hard to be when you've lost as much as he has. but as he lays in thomas's arms, pussy pulsing with a deep ache and hot cum dripping out of him- he hopes someone will come soon.

talon will not return for several weeks.

thomas is nuzzling tim's cheek and making low murmurs about how nice and soft tim is, how sweet he tastes, how his pussy fit around his cock so well-

tim's arms and legs are tied to each poster of the bed, they're wrapped tightly in a spongy material so even if tim gets them out he doesn't have a chance of hurting owlman or himself.

which was probably the plan.

thomas touches tim every moment he can. his hands stroke down tim's sides and tickle his limbs. it sends shivers down tim's spine.

not the good kind.

thomas whispers in tim's ears about how much he adores him, how he can't believe that it took this long for thomas to find him.

as he talks he doesn't blink, he stares at tim with this...this hungry devouring look like he's a second away from leaning down and taking a bite out of tim's cheek.

it....scares tim. it scares tim in a way the joker, scarecrow, or ra's never did.

tim whimpers as thomas gets hard again and immediatly thrusts into tim's damnably wet and stretched pussy. tim closes his eyes and tries to imagine talon, his sweet dick that he could still tell was tucked deep inside, hidden away to protect the last bit of goodness there was in him.

he fucked tim so gently, stopping to check on him and careful. this dick didn't know how to show love, tender care, or affection through hugs or kisses. fucking was the only way he knew to comfort himself or to make himself feel good, and he'd wanted to make tim feel good even though tim couldn't help but feel guilty.

talon basically had the mind of a child with how undeveloped he was. it's why he clung to tim's gentle touch, warm hands, and soft voice. tim is the softest thing he's had in years.

but he didn't understand what he was doing. not really.

thomas, on the other hand. did.

he fully knew what he was doing. he knew tim was a child and he still touched him.

tim tried to weigh it out in his mind when he realized thomas wasn't going to torture him to death. he tried to reason whether this was any better.

tim could feel himself slipping a bit. leaning into the touch of thomas when he was reminded of scared he was.

because tim was terrified. he was all alone, in a different universe, no one had his back, there was a possibility no one was coming for him at all.

and when tim wept, he'd feel a warm hand cupping his cheek. and it was so familiar. big, calloused, gentle.

they felt like bruce's hands and tim's cries would quiet and he'd look up only to be greeted by the sight of a softly smiling thomas wayne jr.

tim hoped his family was looking into his disappearance. he hoped they wouldn't give him "space" after the most recent falling out they'd had. they had to know that even at his angriest tim wouldn't just up and disappear.

he'd promised dick, swore to him that he'd never do that again.

tim felt warmth spill inside him and tried to fight back the twitching and horrible pleasure that went through him as finger roughly pinched his clit.

tim can't even manage the strength to tug on the chains anymore. he lost circulation in his hands and feet months ago. the muscles in his biceps and thighs had long withered away leaving behind trembling, thin limbs.

"oh timmy," thomas groaned, grinding into tim's soft walls, "oh timmy, oh timmy, yes baby-"

tim closed his eyes and imagined that is was dick tenderly fucking him, blood still on the claws of his suit as he softly fucked him and spilled into his womb.

he hoped the baby was his, how he hoped it wasn't thomas's even though the timeline was off. thomas caressed tim's growing belly, a reverent look on his face.

"you look so pretty timmy. baby brucie's not giving you any trouble, right?"

thomas pressed a kiss to tim's trembling mouth and laid down on him, soft cock still inside.

tim breathed through his nose and imagined it was dick on him.

he imaged a wormhole or boom tube opening up beside the bed and bruce coming out to save him.

tim didn't even realize he was whimpering until thomas hushed him again.

"it's okay, timmy. daddy's here, it's okay don't cry."

tim's low whisper's of 'dad, dad, dad, dad' were answered.

but tim just cried harder.

#anonymous #asks #answered asks #earth 3 au

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7/28/23

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The Melchizedek Woman (Elias' Wife) Listening to her enemies plot against her from a homeless shelter (prison) and responding in her masculine energy ...

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Anyway visitors & nosy people:

If you are at least 18 years or older...you have the option of switching on your "mature" tumblr settings. If you do not turn on these settings you may miss some of the exposures of people who are praying you don't turn on your mature settings.

For our haters:

Raise your hand if you went to school and learned about Personification and Metaphors 🖐

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If you don't care, we don't care. Honestly, if you cared we wouldn't care. We are just messengers. By the way humans, bowing is degrading...wonder who made up this kind of servitude.

Elias I am going on maternity leave keep an eye out for signs from your Father The God of Spirits... but don't get paranoid:

Class Movie: The Faculty

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Class Book: 🤓 The Missing Pages of The Book of Genesis (free tuition, no Book loan needed)

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Why Famine and Drought is Heavens signature move, not a one hit wonder...Doesn't that make Heaven the bad guys? Everyone has a war tactic, even humans right?

Unfortunately, Melchizedek practice alchemy, natrual/elemental magic/traits. The Earth (The Garden of Righteousness) responds to God the Creator of Earth and eventually the Melchizedek (Aliens) he sends from Heaven (The Garden of Eden) to Earth, will manifest these traits as well .

Melchizedek are born through human vessels (they only get one human body, so take care of your temple); our enemies survive by taking over human vessels (human bodies).

Melchizedek are born through human bloodlines, meaning they have a human body housing their soul (human emotion/mind) with their spirit attached to their soul. This spirit is from the bloodline of The Holy Spirit or The God of Spirits. Samjazas/Satans bloodline has no soul, only a spirit and so this bloodline needs a human body to survive. They either 1. Possess a body or 2. energy harvest from other souls to sustain the body they have. A spirit cannot survive on Earth without a body (temple) housing a soul. When the soul (mind) dies, so does the body. A human child can only be born through humans or a hybrid human (Melchizedek) a spirit with a soul attached. This means although morally forbidden Samjazas spirit can do the same in order to sustain his bloodline. Samjaza is a fallen gaurdian angel, the first of gaurdians created by The God of Spirits to rebel out of jealousy.

How does Samjaza know so much about souls? Samjaza (an original gaurdian angel) was given responsibility of soul reaper on Earth, transference of souls from Earth to Heaven.

Silas more ancient than Samjaza has been given this responsibility. (Think the Grim Reaper or Scream Movie) ...Our current human enemies have been introduced to Silas (you kind of tried to sacrifice my soul which triggered a soul reaper who knows what you did to me last summer!

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What happens to souls when they die?

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Have you seen the Avengers movies, the variety of personalities and superheros? The Human soul starts out with a blank slate mind and develops a personality and traits from God as they grow older. The human soul becomes a spirit in Heaven. There is no Hell...Only Earth than Heaven or Hell on Earth. It's pretty easy to get into Heaven so if you've done some things like betray us, whats that word "sin" or things you just know are bad...just stop doing it and you most likely will have access, you brainwashed dweebs. But would you let someone in your home who keeps betraying you...trying to poison you and un-alive you. NO!

Humans are adopted sons and daughters of The God of Spirits, just as gaurdians. Originally, Earth was a mirror of Heaven. The Melchizedek going off to college...God: Leave me alone and go make some friends (tribes). Humans were the first souls on Earth with a blank slate mind able to create through free will who they would become on and after Earth. God already knows who The Melchizedek are because they were Spirits first in Heaven before being sent to Earth. This is why the Bible says "when you were in your mother's womb, I knew you." "i already knew the plans I had for you etc. God was talking to The Melchizedek.

Whether The Melchizedek are here or not...life goes on like a "Sims Game" or simulation. We don't know you people, but your ancestors. The God of Spirits however is always available for a "relationship" with his creation. But without The Melchizedek you fall for bad/evil leadership the cause of most of your mishaps and sickness like cancer NOT God. Please stop blaming God for your sick children. There is no such thing as "oh God wanted me to be an example and have cancer...No God would have rather you not been sick at all. The Melchizedek are God's hands and feet on Earth if you can get through the grueling establishment process...

Only two Melchizedek are born (reincarnated) through human bloodlines one male and one female. Melchizedek will not be born from the same human parents, if they are birthed through human bloodlines. One Melchizedek can be born from a family in The middle east another in Africa, the United States, Europe, China etc (God doesnt discriminate).

The Original Melchizedek were Adamas and Evirah. All Melchizedek were birthed through Adamas and Evirah until they were massacred by Samjazas bloodline (love triangle). Enter Melchizedek being born through human bloodlines (God: where there is a will, there is a way). The problem: Melchizedek history has been manipulated and you all have forgotten who The Melchizedek were. What happens when you take someone's history away? They grow up not knowing who they are, they can be taught and told anything and believe it as truth. They will not manifest in their gifts as quickly because their parents send them to mental health facilities when they start hearing voices, seeing things, creating and inventing things and ideas that aren't trending etc (trait manifestation).

Why was Samjaza able to massacre The Melchizedek? Evirah and Adamas were the first spiritual children of God in Heaven. Samjaza was like a brother to The God of Spirits (Samjaza was also created by God). Many brothers want to either be like their father or brother when they grow up, Samjaza was second in command to God in Heaven. But when God created his son Adamas he inherited a new garden to rule over and became second in command on Earth (The Garden of Righteousness). Although Samjaza had a family, he became jealous of Adamas who he helped raise in the Garden of Eden (Heaven) Samjaza became like an uncle to Adamas and Evirah, knowing they would inherit Earth one day he knew their strengths and weaknesses. They were not created for war, murder, or massacres but to procreate (multiply on Earth) lead and create etc. Melchizedek do not manifest their traits/abilities until they reach a certain age because they are to live amongst their human creation and be able to relate to humans. This means although Adamas and Evirah were producing offspring many of them were young in the spirit, which means they did not yet manifest in their spiritual traits. They were also not producing offspring created to fight wars because there was no need for war everybody was happy, healthy and thriving, mirroring that of Heaven. There was no need to read minds or be gaurded etc. Samjaza became jealous of Adamas and had this secret infatuation with Evirah and wanted to produce with her to create offspring with Melchizedek traits. This however, was forbidden, no spirits share their wives in Heaven and Samjaza already had one. Samjaza used his traits from the God of Spirits to manipulate (brainwash) the humans in the Garden of Righteousness (persuded to turn on one another) distracting Adamas and his offspring). Evirah who had just given birth, was weakened from childbirth and put in a deep sleep by Samjaza disguised himself as Adamas. Stole Evirahs Body. Impregnated her. Cut the baby from her womb (a c-section) when she started to freak out from backfired spellwork. She dies, he cries because he loved Evirah blah blah blah...and you should have bought the book when it was available (don't buy the book people, it's now a counterfeit).

Samjaza flees Heaven, he didn't get evicted, he didn't fall... he ran and Liltih his wife, jealous of Evirah and in love with Adamas, took part in Samjazas plan and ran too. Where did they run? Dun Dun Dun...Back to Earth (The Garden of Righteousness) where there was a supply of souls for soul harvesting so that he wouldn't die. How cunning (smart).If he would have stayed in Heaven, he would have been A deadman.

Samjazas' thought process: I don't want die (go to hell) and I don't believe God and his moralful littlle bloodline will have it in them to sacrifice their human creation (brats) who are beneath me (slaves). History tells you...this is true as Jeremiah was quite the cry baby when it came to calling the shots 😢.

If Melchizedek are born through two Melchizedek who know who they are (their history, traits, purpose etc) they will manifest more quickly in their purpose and who God created them to be, surpassing their parents who struggled to do the same.

Samjazas bloodline needs a water supply (Living waters) to survive just like every other living thing with a body & soul including The Melchizedek. You see our sad dilemma 😔.

Samjazas bloodline cannot manipulate weather but they can poison the atmosphere with chemicals that are dropped from space. They can light matches to certain areas to make it seem like its us. And they can poison your food, so that your babies are born the size of hormone induced chickens, wobbling on two mini chicken legs.

Samjazas bloodline has no omnipresent gifts so they cannot be everywhere at once to see where abundant land with a water supply is located, they would have to blend in with populations of people in order for our secrets and hideouts to be revealed (poor Moses). It's nothing against human beings...but everything we do on our end is strategic and ultimately for the greater good...though unpleasant. Especially, for comfortable slaves, most of you don't even know east from west anymore sigh 😔 great war tactic Satan. Dumb them down.

Elias, Look for signs in the natrual world from greece to Hawaii and more. Many times God will train your mind in the physical...Did you look up the word Lahaina, Maui? The Heatwave Cerbeus etc,. God will teach/train you to calculate certain events so that a warning can be sent to warn others before it happens.

Recess/Lunch Break

https://youtu.be/79PGD-QMPJ4 - The Originals

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Elias? How do you know when it's time to move?

I know it's time to move, when my resources start drying up. The guy that was allowing me to live in his home had the resources so that we both would be sustained and his life and mental health was improving. I'm Goodluck until I'm not meant to be Goodluck for someone. It's like don't get too comfortable. God will supply all your needs but just because it's food doesn't mean it's the right food or it isn't poisoned. If I plan something or booked something and its not working out. It's like a "No" from God, because if he wanted you to go there it would work. If he wanted you to afford something, have a bunch of credit cards and be tracked you would have it. If he wanted you to be around those people, you would be at peace, you would progress and your plans with them would progress as well as theirs. Get it? If God wanted you to turn left instead of right, there wouldn't be an ambulance blocking the roadway saying road block, right turn only. Its not that you are doing anything wrong if things don't work, so don't get frustrated and think of it as God training you to adapt quickly to a change of plans, direction or a better idea, a place to buy from or invest in. You can also ask people questions and converse without being paranoid, Your gaurdian, Raphael cloaks your energy, until you can do it yourself. Most Humans are not under Samjazas posession. Its ok to ask "which way is this place," "where do you buy those apples" lol. You have more discernment than me because you have experienced some of the worst spiritual warfare and low-vibrational energy under your own roof. Give yourself some credit. Follow your intuition paired with the signs. You're doing great. ♥

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Example

When I only had enough money to either repurchase the Phoenix Mosheh website domain or date night clothes. God told me buy the clothes first knowing I wouldn't have enough money to buy the Phoenix Mosheh website domain, giving my enemies rights to the domain. I am still young in the spirit and so I got mad at God and tried to purchase the Phoenix Mosheh domain but my card kept declining (God: 😡 did I stutter)?! . After the 3rd attempt, I tried the card to buy the clothes. The card was approved. (Just giving you a sense that I'm not as smart, as you may think or I seem on this blog. One wrong move, I could die. So it's just best to listen to what you believe God is saying the first time even if you misheard and your less likely to make a mistake or be ambushed, thrown into a prison or pit.

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1 Kings 17:8-16 (History Repeating Itself (biblical history/law church was not all for nothing relax people)

7-9 Eventually the brook dried up because of the drought. Then God spoke to him: “Get up and go to Zarephath in Sidon and live there. I’ve instructed a woman who lives there, a widow, to feed you.”

10-11 So he got up and went to Zarephath. As he came to the entrance of the village he met a woman, a widow, gathering firewood. He asked her, “Please, would you bring me a little water in a jug? I need a drink.” As she went to get it, he called out, “And while you’re at it, would you bring me something to eat?”

12 She said, “I swear, as surely as your God lives, I don’t have so much as a biscuit. I have a handful of flour in a jar and a little oil in a bottle; you found me scratching together just enough firewood to make a last meal for my son and me. After we eat it, we’ll die.”

13-14 Elijah said to her, “Don’t worry about a thing. Go ahead and do what you’ve said. But first make a small biscuit for me and bring it back here. Then go ahead and make a meal from what’s left for you and your son. This is the word of the God of Israel: ‘The jar of flour will not run out and the bottle of oil will not become empty before God sends rain on the land and ends this drought.’”

1 Kings

15-16 And she went right off and did it, did just as Elijah asked. And it turned out as he said—daily food for her and her family. The jar of meal didn’t run out and the bottle of oil didn’t become empty: God’s promise fulfilled to the letter, exactly as Elijah had delivered it!

Class: Mental Health 101

Extra Credit Pop Quiz: Who was the original Teacher of Righteousness? (Google)

⚠ Disclaimer:

This info is strictly in my opinion 🖕.

I am not a doctor or psychologist and have no degree in science or theology. I am not recommending or suggesting anything as it would be illegal for me to trust in my own logic and real life experience due to it not being scientifically proven or documented in a book. I should add that in my opinion, it make no sense for a doctor or teacher to have 10 or more years on a subject matter like medicine, and it still takes your students 10 or more years to learn how to do the same exact procedure, process as someone else before you can graduate. I have an idea, why don't you teach I, the student what took you 10 or more years to figure out (the same knowledge that has been around for a century now) and then I, your student can learn it in 5 years or less. Giving I, the student time to come up with a new idea to advance society 10 years beyond your original idea, invention, or solution etc ...! Or do we not care because..."I need money, status and titles to make me feel superior, but on the low, I don't even care about my job and it shows in my work...I have a title though, that's all that matters." (Nurse, doctor & teacher shortages...I wonder why).

THIS LESSON COVERS (For Elias)

*How Spellwork (magic) can be used to manipulate, brainwash and erase your conscious

🗡 Peeta Tries To Kill Katniss in Hunger Games

Exhibit A: https://youtu.be/lGFrkYzbfoU

God unconditioning Elias' mind from the spellwork his adoptive mother and ex-wife did on him before allowing him to meet up with his real wife.

🐺 She's a Mutt! Hunger Games

Exhibit B: https://youtu.be/-Gndett97Os

🧠 They Messed You Up - HG Clip

Exhibit C: https://youtu.be/xk7ENTU4sFU

It's intuitive traits awareness month...are you wearing your brains? Cute! 🧠

Read articles by real therapist with degrees before engaging in my non-degree opinion: 🤓

You may have noticed something about Intrusive thoughts in the article above by real therapist

Intrusive thoughts are only Intrusive to an individual when they are bad thoughts

A threat to the livelihood of another

warning of imminent danger etc.

You may notice the person with the Intrusive (bad) thought never wants to commit the act and tortures themselves by obsessing over the bad thought trying to figure out why the thought popped up randomly in the first place.

An individuals Intrusive thought Mentality:

I never would do that evil act, but why can't I get rid of the thought.

Opinion: The Melchizedek (King Elias & His wife) would ask this question to an individual struggling with intrusive thoughts:

If you never would do the said "intrusive (bad) thought" then who would do this "intrusive (bad) thought"?

The Melchizedeks Cultural Beliefs on intuitive traits:

The Melchizedek believe Intrusive thoughts are the beginning stages of developing awakening intuitive traits from The God of Spirits.

People born with this budding intuitive trait are usually best fit for jobs in the criminal justice field, police officer jobs, fbi/cia jobs etc; they pick up naturally the bad intentions (energy) of those within your communities and point them out.

They would know when not to shoot someone (no offense) and when it's an actual threat to humanity. IF they are trained and aware of their spiritual traits starting at a young age. HOWEVER, without awareness and guidance, you develop mental illness within your communities, such as schizophrenia and could experience the side effects of uncontrolled traits/gifts. We believe in healing not only the biological imbalances of a person, but the spiritual imbalances as well. As your spiritual imbalances mirror (show in plain sight) your biological imbalances in the physical world.

Note for the haters trying to interrupt my class:

You can be a delusional Pharasees chanting "you have imposter syndrome" all you want, but I better not catch you copying off my class paper! You have your own paper (platform) right? So stop looking at mine. We don't like cheaters or complainers who sit on bleachers and yell "boo"...you don't even go to this school 🚸 please leave the premises or enroll and zippa the Lippa lol. 🤐

Our Experience:

King Elias and his wife have intuitive traits/gifts from God. Everyone obviously has intuition, but some experience intuition at higher frequencies. The fact that I am using intuitive traits as an example instead of others gifts from God does not mean individuals with intuitive traits are better than others; this is to bring awareness to society, who often deem these individuals as crazy, due to lack of experience, misinformation and education. Intuitive traits often manifest at a very young age, however, around puberty they usually peak.

It's very important to recognise, if your child has intuitive traits, when they are young or they are most likely going to be put away in a looney bin (asylum), heavily medicated, freaking people out or lose their minds due to the information overload they pick up from people, places, and even inanimate objects (yes inanimate objects i.e someone has poisoned your food...spit it out!).

Schizophrenia in my opinion is the beginning stages of information overload, you lose control of personal reality and are unable to seperate your own thoughts, memories, moral etc., from that of those living amongst you or someone you have encountered.

Schizophrenia usually manifest in those who have high sensory traits, who are on the way to losing their mind because they are literally losing control of their senses and constantly using them without taking a break 🤖 (think of a robot malfunctioning).

There are signs a person experiencing high sensory overload may experience before having a Schizophrenic episode. High Sensory traits may take on the thoughts of others and adopt these thoughts as their own (Intrusive thoughts). They may develop an irrational fear, that they will act on the thought going through their mind over and over again, unable to get rid of the thought. If not remedied or corrected on where these thoughts are coming from they will lose their mind and start hallucinating (sensory overload).

Real Life Example:

Many of these people who lose control of intuitive traits become homeless, you may hear them at a bus stop walking by shouting at themselves, punching at the air, like they found a perpetrator or conversing with themselves when you see nobody in plain sight. (Ofcourse this is only one example so chill don't get offended Jesus Christ).

Psychologist have done a great job at introducing the fear (exposure therapy) to relieve their patients of a specific fear overtime. However, they lack the spiritual concepts of why, someone has adopted a fear and afraid of the fear and not wanting to think of the fear, when the patient has never had a reason to experience this fear in the first place.

Start by listening to your patients experiences, instead of a text book.

What happens when children grow up with no education or real life examples of what having a spiritually intuitive trait from God may look like?

Timmys Hand 🖐 ex 1: Intrusive thoughts (ocd)

Teacher of Righteousness: Good Job Timmy!

Let's Test Your Comprehension and Discernment:

Georgie has a friend named Peace, this friend never did anything wrong to him, he's not jealous of Peace, he has always been fond of Peace, there is no animosity or betrayals between Georgie or Peace.

But one day, Georgie, hangs out with a long time friend of his named Mason, Mason is aware of Peace but never met her. In fact, Georgie won't stop talking about Peace and Mason is kind of jealous.

Georgie and Mason talk about girls all the time and compete with each other to see who can get the prettiest girls to date them. Georgie goes home and suddenly has this random thought about pushing Peace off a cliff. (WOW ...where did that come from? )

At first he tries to ignore the thought, but the thought keeps repeating for weeks and than months. Georgie starts ignoring Peace's text and phone calls and leaves her for dead when her car breaks down out of fear that she crashed her car next to a cliff. (👧Peace: wtf Georgie?) Georgie starts thinking irrationally but with a good concious, What if he goes to help Peace with her car and pushes her off of the cliff? 😱

Is Georgie crazy? Why does Georgie want no part in the thoughts he's thinking? But he keeps thinking it anyway!

Hand 🖐 Jane Doe: because the thoughts don't belong to Georgie, they belong to his friend Mason.

Teacher of Righteousness: Good job Jane Doe!

Hand 🖐 Timmy: and the reason Georgies thoughts are Intrusive is because Georgie has an intuitive trait from God, meaning he can pick up on the thoughts that other people think...like a warning from God.

Teacher of Righteousness: Hell yeah Timmy! 👏

What happens if Georgie doesn't figure out why he's having these thoughts?

Hand 🖐 Bianca: He's going to start secluding himself like a crab?

Hand 🖐 Anastasia: He's going to have a nervous breakdown and panic attacks and possibly convince himself he's a bad person and never see Peace again.

Hand 🖐Josiah: He could develop schizophrenia and start talking to himself to drown out the bad thoughts and start scaring people in Public 👻 and...and Peace is probably dead by now because Mason pushed her off of a cliff.

Teacher of Righteousness: You are all so much smarter than the last generation I'm going to cry 😭

The Melchizedek Solution:

1. Pay attention to your children's spiritual traits/gifts from birth through childhood (intuitive, creatives, architecture, technology, medicine/health, spirituality, science, singing/dancing, actress etc. too many to name).

2. Normalize spiritual traits/gifts in your household. If they have an intuitive gift, don't shame them for hearing, seeing, sensing something you cannot (although usually it's biologically hereditary 👌)

3. Based on what you have observed about your childs interest and spiritual traits give them toys, games etc, that help them grow in their gifts.

4. Pay attention to who you are procreating with 🤰👪 if you are a single parent (male or female) and parenting by yourself, make sure you learn about your partners spiritual traits. What are they interested in? Chosen Career/Dream? Mental Illness? Genes, do matter? Did they like Legos as a child and play tools, or did they enjoy house keeping and cooking in the kitchen. Were they in and out of jail? If so, why? Were they a serial killer or a murderer. If so why? Did they just do it to be bad or caught a child predator. Use your judgement. Not all things deemed a crime should be treated as a crime. In this case...sounds like self-defense to me...intuitive traits. 😉

Discernment Pop Quiz:

👻 uh oh King Elias (Georgie) was not raised in a household that taught him about Intuitive traits from God and is experiencing irrational fears about his wife...what is a rehabilitation solution human psychologist have invested in? Exposure Therapy. 👇

Exhibit D :https://youtu.be/aQ8WN1CYEbQ - Chicago Med Clip (Exposure Therapy Video)

Drama Class: 📹 5..4...3...2..1

Acting Exercise : 🤓 Act out an Intrusive thought scenario... 👇

Elias: 😱 I'm scared I might strangle my wife because she knows too much ...

God: "Boy...Try it..I Dare you" 🥱

Elias Family: 🙏 🧙‍♀️ 😭 "Please do it" lmao

Elias: (stands behind wife) 😱 I can't strangle her (i have a good concious).

Elias' Wife: 🤰 oh...so it's that kind of night 😍

God: 🙄I told you, you would not hurt your wife Elias. You owe me lunch youngblood. Those thoughts came from that 🧙‍♀️ witchy ex-wife (those kids aren't yours by the way) I told you to leave behind years ago, her family of freemasons and your adoptive mother (aunt) and brother (cousin) living in your home and spending your money. They are the reason why you are having those intrusive thoughts about your wife. They are thinking it, I am warning you of what they are thinking. Anyway... I WANT FRIES, a BLACKBEAN Burger AND a reservation to that new spiritual vegan resturaunt, that just opened up around the corner from Heavens gates. Thanks. (OH you're too broke right now to buy me lunch? 🧙‍♂️ You are such a prodigal son...I guess I'll put it on your tab).

Elias Family: (Going to jail) 👮 You are under arrest 🚨 👮 ☠ ! Ma'am no, 😡🤬 I know you're his ex-wife, he did not hit you ma'am, we have it on video, you put those marks on your own body ma'am, ma'am we know you smacked him in the face several times before you rammed your own head into the bathroom mirror and then called us ma'am. Don't hit me ma'am, i'm an officer! No one cares who you are ma'am, but no, ive never heard of you...Stop ma'am it's over...no ma'am I have a wife, pull up your pants ma'am...Jesus Christ ma'am, no wonder he divorced you. 🤨😒👮🚨 📞 ughhh...we're going to need a mental hospital 🏥 Roger that!

Elias Wife: 🤰😮‍💨 😏Elias do you have my evidence?!

🤓 Teacher of Righteousness: AND CUT! 📹 Great Work Guys I Almost Believed It! See You Never. 🤓

Principals Office:

Background on Elias' Wife Overview:

I originally grew up in a Christian household. My male parent worked for Boeing as an Aircraft Mechanic and then Avionic Engineer. All the women in my family were teachers, which was like a tradition. The first woman in my family that changed that trajectory was my female parent, who worked for the government as a supply supervisor over inventory and financial accounts. I have been to many countries and after I graduated college, I spent a summer in another country teaching children. Teaching, is apparently significant because I have tried to avoid it, but I had a female relative who I looked up to who taught foreign languages in another country for up to 8 years, who advised I should try it after graduation.

Wait... Did I sin?

My family does have a history of violence (police being called) due to parental domestic violence, mental illness and alcoholism (functional drunks). I obviously don't drink like I used to. But I have showed up at jobs with hangovers and I once was a bartender. I have tried pot once, it's not my thing. Pass the wine though, see you on the dancefloor. (We are from Heaven hello...why do you people think you have a natrual urge to party, just saying...don't be a hypocrite.

Before College:

I should also add, my parents were very strict and were always afraid I could get pregnant, once I reached a certain age. So, I was Cinderella on lockdown, my first year of college (like I had to go to school down the street from my parents house or online, because I was still underage and needed a parents signature for college applications/enrollement). Until I got a trade as a pharmacy technician, and then did a pharmacy technician internship at a veterans hospital. I was able to buy my own flat and car and then it was, I'm free to do what I want and have a good timmmme 🎶 who sings that?

1. When God sends Melchizedek pairs at least one must be able to relate to human sickness of some kind, so they can one day, cure these sicknesses.

As a baby, I was told that I was born an ugly duckling. I also was sick and in and out of the hospital all the time. My female parent used to joke that she was going to buy me a medical bubble to live in because she was afraid I was allergic to everything including oxygen. I have had many ailments from skin disorders, onset lupus flares, a backbrace (cute) and spinal fusion etc. One day my immune system decided it wanted to work and I woke up,cute (I thought I had average beauty, but apparently, I have haters, who do beauty spells to try and extract my beauty (*cough Elias' ex-wife) Be careful, who you try to energy swap with guys, you never know what it took to become them and if it backfires, you can expect to get all of me, including the sickness from the past.

2. Melchizedek believe it's important to learn/experience various trades and subject matter within a certain amount of time and then move on to the next (I have had several majors) and for awhile was quite the dropout.

I have attended many different colleges, free tuition schools are best to learn and switch majors. My first major was psychology, then I moved on to nursing, business, pharmacy, engineering. I like networking events and visiting various churches and taking classes online from random youtubers who have wisdom in certain fields as well (theology, accountants, web design, herbalism/farming, ergonomics, astronomy). If God allowed me to know everything, it would defeat the purpose of learning from and relating to humans.

Fun fact: I can type paragraphs on a touchscreen phone keyboard without looking. I am a contortionist. (Nobody cares, STOP bragging ! FiNE!)

3. Trait Manifistation

In grade school, I was a pretty quiet child and liked to mind my business. But I also had really bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts and night terrors. I could be watching a TV show and just start freaking out, or felt like I could hear things before people said them. I was always very aware, that what I was experiencing was not, what the other kids were experiencing. My parents didn't know what the heck was wrong with me. I would start freaking out in class and my parent would get a call from the principal, who often thought my parents were abusing me.

One day I came home from school crying saying "there was something inside me" and my female parent took me by the shoulders and started to shake me as if to wake me up from a hallucination; she yelled "Do you want them to take you away? I didnt know who they were 👀 but I stopped acting crazy. My nose did start bleeding after, which I like to think was due to crying so hard. I low-key kept my crazy to myself ever since. 😂 My female parent took me to church more often and made me sing in the choir.

I really liked this female parent by the way, I also had abandonment issues and would always ask if she was coming to get me from after school programs. When I first attended after school programs/daycares, I would only go to one teacher and be at her side all day, until my female parent came to pick me up. Yes, they thought I had autism or maybe I just don't trust people. By the time I was a teen, my mental illness symptoms became non-exisitent (dorment) (I always remembered how odd I was as a child though, and always had a fear of my symptoms returning).

My first volunteer job, was was at the same after-school program I grew up in helping with toddlers 😮‍💨 (I'm never having kids ... I said). One day, a man walked in to take a child from the after-school program, signed the paper and started a conversation with one of the daycare workers. The man shook both of our hands, but when he shook mine I instantly felt like I was going to throw up and in my mind it was like I could feel his emotions for the child he was picking up, they were sexual in nature. Long story short, this child's mom came to pick the child up, but it had already been signed out under the father's name. The child was never found and I didn't say anything because I didn't want to seem weird (My child mentality: this world doesnt believe in spirituality, what was i going to do, tell the teacher , i shook someone hand who had signed off as the correct father on their daycare file and felt like they were a sexual predator...don't lie to yourselves guys, youre all just as guilty, you have proof of crime daily and do very little to stop it). I was sad to find out, just like the adult standing next to me. The man that picked up the child, was an actual sex predator. ( in my opinion scenarios like that happen when you shun God and his influence from schools).

A Love Letter for the hypocritical money hungry haters...

who are going to try and fault me for every wrong thing that happens in the world; I was a child and as an adult, I have learned to not be a conformist, like every day people within this world, who know their belief systems are wrong, but don't want to admit they are wrong due to money.

Unlike you people, who sit around trying to make sure I don't expose people like you, and other criminals who are child predators. It's people like you, who don't want to admit, when they are wrong and prefer to stay in your delusional false superiorty trying to scare people into feeling like outcast, causing people (adults and children) to react the same exact way that I did as a child. You stand by and watch people, do horrible things to other people (bully, cast spells on, try to sacrifice them etc) with actual evidence and then instead of reporting it, you sit back and allow it. And if they try and express or expose the truth, threatening your position or title, you pay people off to cover it up.

MELCHIZEDEK ARE SENT TO RELATE TO THE PROBLEMS WITHIN SOCIETY TO FIX WHAT PEOPLE LIKE YOU MESSED UP. I bought gifts for you though, so don't laugh too long... I'm not a child anymore. 😘.

4. THE BULLY

Uhhhhmmm... my experience with bullying. I match energy so...

1. One time in the gym class locker room, I used to have to take my back brace off lol. And these two girls would make fun of me (that's fine, just dont touch me). And they came over and would close my locker, every time I unlocked it and ask me what I was going to do about it. So when our coach left, they tried to do it again, and I slammed the first girls hand in the locker and then face planted her big head against the half closed locker, with a swiftness. And threw my backbrace at the other one, hitting her in the head. And they never bothered me again...except to come and say sorry and I said "I knew you were sorry, I just needed you to know you were sorry."

🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

And I know she didn't touch me first. But...I feel like the way my reflexes are set up. It's like you could be too close and breathe on me and I automatically mistake it as "Did you just touch me?" And then after I am usually like "Oops!" I could have sworn you did but...oh it was just oxygen...? oops (blacked out for a second).

https://youtu.be/qVdPh2cBTN0 - Somebody Else by Flora Cash

5. SEX ED: Does God like Gay/Lesbian people? The feminine and masculine energy Imbalance.

After wearing a back brace for 2 years and it not working (I couldn't have braces for teeth and be trendy like the rest of the kids...I got called robot a lot) lol. My family moved to a different country for spinal fusion surgery (bionic woman hahaha). Fast forward to high school in this country, it was the first time I experienced people who were openly gay/lesbian, but who didn't know they were gay/lesbian, but it was like I knew before, they knew they had what I call (in my opinion), an imbalance in masculine and feminine energy or identity imbalance.

My Lesbian Experience

I remember I had two lesbian friends, one was quite feminine and the other was more masculine. Sometimes, the masculine would wear oversized men clothes, but then a dress the next day. And I would ask her, if she was a lesbian (not judging, just asking) and she would say "no, I'm not a lesbian. The next day, she came to school and said she was a lesbian and I found out the lesbian with more feminine energy were dating, while the feminine energy was in a relationship with another guy at the school. One day, we all had a group science project and they came to my house to work on it, my parents left (assuming we all were girls so no intimacy scares). I remember I was lying on my bed, and the lesbian who was the more masculine energy told me the lesbian with the more feminine energy wanted to know if I was a lesbian. I told them both, I wasn't a lesbian. The more masculine energy, got on the bed and held my hands down, while the feminine energy got on top of me and asked "if I was sure?" And I couldn't get loose so I started screaming and the one holding me down was laughing while the other was trying to take my clothes off..but then the doorbell rang and they stopped. It was my neighbor, we apologised for the noise and said we were just playing. The next day at school, both came up to me and apologised and the lesbian with the more feminine energy started crying stating that it was my fault and that I made her think, that I liked her. And I said, I did like you, as a friend, but just because I like you, doesn't mean I have to like what you're attracted to (and we never talked again).

My Gay Experience:

In high school, I had a similar experience with a gay guy, who would operate in his feminine energy more than masculine energy. But it was like he didn't know it and I didn't say anything and when he asked me out, I told him my parents don't let me date anyone. Before we graduated, he confessed to me that he has a secret, the secret was the he was gay. When I told him I knew already, he looked shocked and asked "How did I know?." I'm a pretty blunt person, so my response was "How didn't you know?.

In Melchizedek culture, what you call gay/lesbian and so on, we call an imbalance in feminine and masculine energy

think of hormones you have both estrogen (a more feminine hormone) and testosterone (a more masculine hormone) male and females have both hormone biologically, but when you have an imbalance of these hormones in the body; more estrogen a man might start growing breast, more testosterone a woman may start growing chin hair...you get it? Your spiritual imbalances (what you can't see) mirrors your biological imbalances what you can see. So no, you don't go to "hell" for an imbalance on masculine and feminine energy or being born with an imbalance in masculine and feminine energy. (Now for rape, yes...if there was a hell).

In my opinion, the extreme of an individuals energy imbalances (identity disorder) is mutilation of the evidence of your actual identity...identifiers. 🍆. But that's a whole other class/therapy session rate me on ratemyprofessor.com.

Virginity in Melchizedek Culture

A virgin in melchizedek culture is a woman who has never been penetrated in the outlet of her reproductive organ. Any other outlet entrance would be considered perversion. Which should be common senses, as it can throw off the chemistry/ph in your mouth, or other orfices on the body considered an entrance or exit for things like food or a bowl movement. But you all do what you want 🙄 it's your bodies and your sex life.

The Melchizedek Woman's experience in a modern day sex education class as a virgin :

Honestly, usually I just keep the fact that I am a virgin a secret because that's my business. But my experience when I don't keep my sex life private:

Teen Girls/Women:

"Yells cover her ears and eyes!* whispers "she's a virgin to other girls" as they giggle because it's so incredibly funny that I have not had 5 ex boyfriends this semester who imprinted in my mouth with no intention of claiming it as valuable territory...🙄🥱 OR 🤯 wait...really NEVER? I don't know how you do it! Let me hook you up with someone lmao...are you sure you're not a lesbian? Not even a tampon? So you two haven't done it? 🤭 I would have broken up with him.

Teen Boys/Men:

"you don't look like a virgin," are you a lesbian or something...I like lesbians" (thinks of a way to try and test her to see if it's true) OR OH no..we couldn't be together, I don't like inexperienced women (also a tactic to see if you'll budge).

My response:

Do I need to be ignorant and uneducated about sex and have no imagination about sex and pretend like I've never received an inappropriate picture a man has sent me in order to be considered a virgin or act like I've never had to turn down/ sexual favors? OR act like I'm perfect and never been 2.5 seconds away from no longer being a virgin? Or have never had the desire, or been in heat, or highly attracted or turned on to a man passing me by.

It's called having self-control/self-restraint (biblical)

I hope you people don't consider a virgin to be someone who is inexperienced, dumb and uninformed about safe sexual practices & awareness. I hope you don't consider a virgin to be someone lacking knowledge, about sexual practices going on in the real world, in which can cause them to suffer from depression, degradation, mistakes, harm and disease leaving them unable to protect themselves.

Melchizedek believe when you don't know about something (good or bad), you are more likely to be sold a false illusion, played, conned or made a fool of and catch a case of evidence.

Educate Them Young/Stop Censoring the Truth:

Being educated and aware is why sex magic didn't work on me in the first place, any sexual impulses and thoughts of sex with random strangers ultimately failed during this process, because I was educated and knew myself and no spell or intrusive thought created to influence me to go against my own morals would work.

This is why those sex magic "Influence Elias' Wife to act like and have the mentality of a prostitute spells" did not work on me, you bitter witch(Elias ex-wife) ..." I had already mastered SELF-CONTROL before I met Elias. Now retire and thank me for helping you, come to that conclusion. 😘

Parthenogenesis (google it) and mind your own business and ask yourself "who's your baby daddy?" you garden tool. God gave you time to get that Earth Science paternity test, you and your slow justice system have proof the children are not his...so you need to go back in time and figure it out or prepare to run out of time. You have free will, the choice is yours. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Class Movie Below: (Intuitive Using Their Intuitive Trait )

Disclaimer:

This movie is being used to provide evidence that people with intuitive traits from God exist. In Heaven, it is illegal to use tarot to read the akashic records (an individuals personal information without their consent). Akashic records can reveal the past, present and future of a persons life; for example are you going to be rich one day? Who is your future spouse? Strengths & Weaknesses, Phone Number, Address, Name, Birthdate, Citizen Number depending on how advanced you are at the skill. It most definitely can be considered an invasion of privacy.

God has given this generation a pass because they do not know spiritual law. So we might as well use it to our advantage and for show. These Intuitive readers also "have no idea" who's akashic record or energy, they are reading a lot of the time and so read aloud akashic records as a collective. It reminds you of a reality tv show...because it is meant to be someone's reality one day or is.

Akashic records should only be read privately to a single person or married couple who know they belong together. Otherwise, you get situations like the example above, where a crazy person (like elias' ex-wife) can decide to be nosy and take a total strangers photos, from their social media profile (like she did Elias' Real wife, at the time, a coworker of Elias') to an intuitive reader (tarot reader) to get intel/information about the person.

Once Elias ex-wife (ex-girlfriend) learned from this intuitive reader (tarot reader) that Elias and this coworker (Elias Wife), were a match made in Heaven (meant to be married one day) and would be wealthy (abundant) and have children. Elias ex-wife (ex-girlfriend at the time), lost her mind and concocted a plan to commit spiritual identity theft and she tried to become Elias Wife by stealing her energy (soul). This is done by sacrificing the person (Elias Wife) in exchange to become Elias wife....energy transferrence. This can also be called energy cloacking, overtime your energy is given to the person stealing it so that they appear as you in the spirit attempting to still your purpose, lifestyle, beauty, abundance, etc. In return, the person being stolen from receives the energy of the theif i.e lifestyle: homelessness, being around prostitutes, low iq, low morals, you can even relieve the thought process sex for money (IF you don't know your own identity or purpose) etc. Do you understand?

Here's a reminder video Our Father The God of Spirits intuitively downloaded into a writers brain. I SHOW IT TO ALL MY Pre-schoolers, so they won't get played when they grow up:

https://youtu.be/Gi58pN8W3hY - Poor Unfortunate Souls -The Little Mermaid 🧜‍♀️ How many movies do you need as a reminder.

In order for a successful sacrifice to be made a person must be under contract, not to a human, but a lower-level diety (samjazas offspring) to be given power over another human soul,wish, desire, dream. The soul or energy of another person cannot be exchanged without something in return. Ultimately, it is a soul for a soul or someone close to them. So if you make a deal with the devil, you better be able to pay up or it's your soul on the line.

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People with intuitive traits are not the only people with traits from God that can turn evil and try and sacrifice you...witches can literally be anyone who pledges (agrees to a contract) to a lower level diety in exchange for something they desire. And these lower level dietys are ruthless, they don't care if you know spiritual law or not, that's why people who delve into black magic etc., end up trying to leave and start experience paranormal activity, when they do.

When you pledge yourself over to a lower level deity, you are pledging your gift/trait from God to be used by them (the enemy). An everyday example (your place of work contract signing) highly creative (inventive) traits can be used by the enemy to create or be original, they need somebody to build these robots (Samjaza is not creative i.e history of being a copycat) This doesn't make these people with highly creative traits bad, just gullible. But try to voice your opinion about what you didn't expect these robots (your creation) are meant to be used for, you are void of contract and now you're receiving threats or being fired and become homeless. Discernment is key. Not all places of work are recruiting people for a pledge to a low-level diety.

You could absolutely be innocent and have no intentions of serving, pledging or joining any institution that you think may be under contract with a low-level diety. For instance, a Pastor (teaching/evangelical traits) that had a dream of being a Pastor, but he needs a church. So the Pastor may decide to pledge to a low-level diety for this church he can't afford. The low-level diety will grant you this church you cant afford, in exchange it wants this Pastors congregation (the people that go to the church). The Pastor may love his congregation, but all of a sudden people start dying at random. The Pastor may pray to the low-level diety and tell it to stop or that he doesn't want any part of it. But the low-level diety will pull out that contract and point to the line that says "In exchange for the church, I get your congregation."

People with intuitive traits can be used in the same way as any other traits. Intuitive Trait can obviously be used to sense out the type of energy of a soul. Think of the agents in The Matrix. An intuitive trait such as the ones discussed about Elias' Ex-wife can look at someone like another intuitive trait and determine if they will be wealthy, if they have certain traits, and pledge to a lower level diety an exchange; "I want this persons wealth, in exchange you can have my soul or the soul of the wealthy person. Get it? Also, there are some people with traits of longevity or youthfulness sought after because they can extend life (which means less energy harvesting).

It was later found, that Elias' family also had plans to sacrifce him in order to get his hidden inheritance and Life insurance policy. It was also revealed that Elias' mother was found out to be his adoptive mother, who was also a tarot reader and witch (a intuitive reader using their intuitive traits to commit bad acts against others).

This mother (hoodoo witch) and ex-girlfriend (freemason & voodoo, santa maria etc.) who were born with intuitive traits partnered up in secret to un-alive Elias for his inheritance money, while doing spellwork on him in secret to get him to do what they wanted based on his weaknesses (when you have not done the work to mature from old ways, people can use these weaknesses against you i.e sex addict, wants children one day, but doesn't have them, wants to get married but doesn't have a wife yet etc). This was how Elias ex-wife was able to play him, she knew he wanted a child, and would want to marry the mother of his child. So what did she do? She pulled the I'm pregnant card, knowing she had been intimate with several partners because she could not get pregnant by Elias. From there this situation got out of hand, he married a crazy person and was experiencing hell for up to 3 years.

People have free will, just because you have intuitive traits does not mean you are bad, evil or a witch. People decide what they want to do with the traits they have been given. It just so happens they tried to take the soul of someone more powerful (out ranked) and educated than them on this topic.

When god revealed to Elias Wife (The Melchizedek Woman) what had happened, i.e why she went from working, having her own apartment , car, and losing it within a matter of a week (becoming homeless), she was able to confront the situation and reverse what had been done behind both of their backs.

Be careful just like you do in the physical who you share your photos, life and goals with or you could get robbed both spiritually and physically.

Movie: Stop Identity Hi-jacking & be Yourself

https://youtu.be/1Jh5hMxTe48 - Identity Tarot.

When you try to be someone else, copy and take someone elses original work. You not only run out of content because you don't have the brain or the traits/gifts to provide evidence, you confuse others into believing in false beliefs and cause them a lot of heartbreak, when they find out the true story of the Bible.

Everyone should be entitled to their own beliefs without being attacked...if you want to believe Eve ate an apple...that's fine. But at least now you have the choice to believe with evidence from the originals. their side of it. Be blessed and go in peace. 😂

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AFTER HOURS:

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😡 Student:

👎 Thumbs Down. The Teacher of Righteousness makes sense, but I don't want to be wrong. I would rather keep misleading my following, we don't want her here, even though this planet belongs to her. Technically, I'm the immigrant, but I just saw that she might be in my country on a visa. So I'm going to call immigration just in case. I hate all these classes she teaches, that I am not being forced to attend, but I must, because I plan to copy her lectures and make money. But I need to get rid of her first! WHY DOES THIS BLOG STILL EXIST! Phone call 📞 Ron Desantis help me!😡🤬🤬🤬

🤓 The Teacher of Righteousness:

😐 uhm...is this what they call a troll? Am i...supposed to be...afraid? This is the most entertaining comment I've gotten all day.

The Teacher of Righteousness Doing Research for her next Discernment 101: Intuitive Investigations class!

Googles: "politician sniffing children"

Youtube: "politician sniffing children"

Which politician does the clip below remind you of in the prophetic video below?

https://youtu.be/0pyg6wHuYzs - The Originals Sniffing out a Melchizedek scene

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Well.Well.Well...What do we have here? Sigh. Forwards 📧 Email to King Elias

Are you seeing this?! Someone looks like they are a little low on energy.

School Mascot:

Go Hybrid Monarchs!

When you're working on your warning shot but the monarchs are going extinct... (fun fact: I used to be afraid of butterflies 😱)

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School Assembly:

Dance Team: 🎤 Presenting BTS 🔥 🥳🔥 🥳🔥

(pay attention to the imagery if you dont speak Korean.. this whole blog is in English, do you think everyone is supposed to speak English, because you speak English? Don't be so entitled. )

https://youtu.be/kTlv5_Bs8aw - BTS Mic Drop 🔥

Are The God of Spirits and The Melchizedek the cause of every fire? Do your research and listen to our alumni guest speaker who has an intuitive, empathetic analytical trait from The God of Spirit on this topic.

Analyzing the Maui Fires - SquirrelTribe

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💀 💀 💀Detention 💀 💀💀

Confession:

One time in gym class, the coach told us we had to run 4 laps around the track and the last person had to run an extra lap. So I found the slowest person, who I knew would be last and walked with them. Five steps before completing the 5th lap, I ran. And now I'm in detention because my gym teacher said I cheated. 😟 I didn't cheat! .. you said! 🙄🙄🙄

My Enemies dancing to If I die young- The Band Perry (plotting) 😂

https://youtu.be/I2d8MpswPuQ -If I die young - The Band Perry

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