#i know it will be over eventually but it isnt now

[ac3ifix]

Saiki or tsukishima with a male reader my beloved ❤️ i just love when the emotionally constipated boys have to deal with having feelings for someone, i’d love to request one (or both) of them hanging out with trans male reader and just then realising they are head over heels in like <3

Yea sorry for being gone for a month. I dont have an excuse other than I didnt feel like writing at all so yea.. Sorry ab that. Love you guys tho!!

Also, sorry if this isnt quite what you wanted, its sorta rushed and honestly not my best work at all. Also I know you mentioned trans reader but theres really no specifications on whether the reader is trans or not.

Tsukishima doesn’t understand love.

This story features: Clueless character, confusion, mutual understanding, sfw, fluff, boys kissing, height difference, can be read as either tmale or cmale

Wc: 408

He never really got it, why he was so unbelievably drawn to you. How he smiled when you laughed and how he was ready to kill someone when you were upset. Tsukishima Kei was infatuated by you. He walked with you to class, you watched his games, and he just enjoyed your company so much. He couldn’t understand it. Until one day he was talking with Yamaguchi.

“Hey Tsuki?” Yamaguchi had asked

“Hm?” He responded “What is it?”

“Do you.. uhm.. This is kinda an odd question but.. do you.. like (Name)?”

Tsukishimas eyes widen and he found himself saying,

“I think so..”

So thats what it was. Like, maybe even love. He liked you. He didnt know how he was going to deal with this newfound knowledge but now he understood what his feelings were. He had never had a girlfriend before, let alone a boyfriend, and he had no idea how to approach the idea of a crush. He was confused to say the least. And to be perfectly honest, that was all he thought about for the next couple of days. How was he going to tell you? He began to avoid you in the hallway, putting distance between you two as the truth became more evident to him. He knew he had to face it eventually so when you came up to him, tears staining your face, his face dropped.

“Who the fuck-“ He swore, cupping your cheeks in his hand.

“Why..Why have you been ignoring me Ts-Tsuki?” You asked him, your voice breaking.

“What- I haven-“ Oh. He realised. He had been avoiding you, hadnt he?

“Yes you have! You’ve been avoiding me like the fucking plague!” You said, tears beginning to fall again.

“Look, (Name) its.. Geez, this is hard to say… Its because I..I like you, I think..” He said, looking away from you in embarrassment.

Your eyes widened, you were dumbfounded, thats why he had been ignoring you? You had thought something had happened, you had assumed the worst.

“Tsuki..?” You mumbled, wiping your eyes.

“Hm..?” He said, now facing you again, shamefully.

You leaned forward, stood on your tip toes, and gave him a kiss. It was a soft kiss and he was surprisingly good at it, his hands ended up on your waist as he kissed you right back. You were both disappointed when the kiss ended.

Pulling away you muttered “I-I think I like you too, Tsukishima.”

#male reader #x male reader #bottom male reader #ftm reader #smut #x ftm reader #ftm sub #ftm bottom #ftm nsft #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu #tsukishima x you #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei #x male y/n #sub male reader

[yourcalamity]

being in your 20s sucks i dont want to work through this trauma i want to wear the hatchet over my head forever now pass the damn joint

#not true ill come out of it #but like fuck i cant wait for the next decade youre supposed to enjoy your thirties right #i know it will be over eventually but it isnt now #and when youve always lived through chaos and multiple traumas you know that cycle of anger why did you specifically have to start life with #all of these hurdles and then its like well i should just not care and move on but it more than that you dont know any other way to live #i just want to live a life where im not looking for the vantage point in every room #or always aware that anyone at any time can turn on you for any reason

[smolsix]

-blows dust off this blog-

So

Little Nightmares III, huh???

I was trying to avoid being excited about it because no solid release date and 2024 could be a few months from now or a year from now and Idk how long I can handle being so fuckin hyped for this game YEEHAW

BUT I CAN'T, I KEEP THINKING ABT THE GAME AAHAHHGAGA

so here are my thoughts, if you wanted to know

FIRST OF ALL, i am so glad that after we saw LTNM II we thought it'd be co-op but it was just an AI, that we finally get co-op! AND ONLINE TOO, i spent the first day worried it'd be shared screen same room situation since i wasn't trying to get my hopes up but then I realised I can just.. google it.. AND IT IS!!! ONLINE!! IDK WHO I AM GONNA PLAY IT W FIRST AAAAAAAA

anyways, you can definitely tell it's a new studio working on this game, the world feels mostly the same but the character designs themselves are definitely stylistically similar, but not the same. With Six especially, the MC designs were very simplistic and realistic but used colour (or for Mono, a single design quirk being the bag) to stand out against their backgrounds and against the enemies which are largely neutral colours. But these new ones feel... "over designed"? On their own they definitely aren't, but in comparison to Mono, Six, Seven, and even NPCs like the flashlight girl, they have a lot more going on (especially the little wrench kid, Idk which one is Alone and which one is Low yet btw OOP)

Despite it being a new studio and you can tell, new puzzles and environments, they're still doing their best to have the OGs vibes and whatnot to feel familiar, namely in the trailer they bring back the fuses, and the additional gameplay video there's a short scene with an environment with all the shelves you can find in LTNM 1s gnome section (the one with the cart that is affected by the Maws swaying).

But regardless, it still feels different enough my brain is still nervous about it. I also feel In A Way about Tarsier having LTNM II explode and their franchise getting the attention it deserves, only to have it stuck with Bandai and now it's going to likely explode again and they aren't involved. Idk how anyone on that team feels about it, but if it were me omg.

Also the only boss we've seen so far (i hope they add more and i def want some to be a surprise so im not gonna assume this is the only one for now) feels... out of place? it has the design qualities of a LTNM boss, but the size of it makes it more of a spectacle than a warped/corruption of an adult. All the previous bosses fit in their environment, we are the small ones and they are scaled to the world around them. This is the first time, outside monster Six who imo is a bit of an outlier anyways due to her circumstances, we're getting a boss who is this huge and doesn't even fit their own environment. I hope we get a lore reason for this in some way, because currently the boss doesn't have the same vibe as the others and it's throwing me off a bit. Don't get me wrong, it'll be terrifying, but looking at the picture as a whole they are sort of out of place for me rn. I don't hate the bitch either, I'm not gonna be like omg get rid of it or change it, but it does strike me as odd seeing it for now.

And yes the tall man is too tall for a lot of things, but he's not THAT big. He's more like yer tall guy who hits his head off doorways, which happens irl anyways LMAO

Little Nightmares primarily tries to capture the feeling of being a small child and how everything is big and scary, but a doll that huge is out of the realm of reality set up for us already. It's gone from scary corrupted animal to godzilla, if that makes sense.

OH AND THE MIRRORS ARE VERY LTNM COMICS OF THEM TEE HEE < 3

#while i find the MCs designs to be a bit much for now they're fast growing on me as characters #they give me indie movie vibes more than little nightmares MCs vibes #but hey if we get a 4th installment then it goes from an outlier to part of a trend #my brain will get over it eventually anyways these are just my initial thoughts #oh and as long as they either dont bring back the flashlight or change its controls im mostly fine w the puzzles and whatnot #like suuuuuper minor gripe but i loved in the first games that when you had a weapon it was too big and too heavy #they had serious weight when you swung them and the mcs clearly struggled #and it really helped you feel powerless even when armed #i know the masked kid has a slingshot btw but i just hope it isnt used as an easy weapon and more as a distraction #having any kind of upper hand in this world sort of diminishes the initial scare factor they were going for #being that youre a small child helpless in this world #outside sixs ending but aside from the hallway you literally dont play w her power at the end #text #long post #little nightmares 3 #ltnm 3 #ooc

[mossiestpiglet]

once again stressed as hell because i have the opportunity to apply for a job and i feel like i HAVE to take it despite the fact that i really dont want it and also feel like it wouldnt necessarily even be the best move in terms of career… but like. Fatal American Desire To Seize Every Financial Opportunity At The Expense Of My Own Well-being.

#i know i dont want to be a public librarian. if i work in public libraries long term i want to work behind the scenes in some way #it makes so much more sense for me to keep my little no-hours minimum wage job for now and look for something ACTUALLY relevant to my career #interests either an internship or job or something #ugh. i am so susceptible to anxiety over feeling like im missing an oportunity #even when its not something i actually want #i have done all the thinking and rationalizing and it makes so much more sense to focus on school and figure out where i actually want to be #in the LIS world and make those connections than to get a more stressful job in part of it that isnt in the career path i actually want to #go down anyways. and even if i change my mind and DO want to go into public libraries eventually this opportunity will be back soon enough #they hire for this position at least once a year #ecdysing

[hmsmilkbone]

honestly. I don't really have a lot of interest in jjk anymore, which is super frustrating as the story foundation is really interesting. I have my favorite characters, and I'm not really interested in reading beyond this point.

As a whole, I'm not a huge fan of dropping stories just because they don't go the way you want. In general I personally try not to do this, but stories where the author clearly hates the material or the audience so much they're willing to destroy the story to do so are not enjoyable. I really don't think gege even really likes writing jjk anymore.

There may be some change that I hear about months from now where something worked out one way or the other, but in general I feel like this story is not going to resolve in a way that feels like reading it was a worthwhile experience. And like, for good OR bad. Not every story has a happy ending, but this is really not particularly interesting and I don't feel the need to continue a story where the writer isn't even interested in what happens or how it advances anything outside of their personal pettiness. Feels very much like grr Martin. All the meaningless death and abuse without any real redeeming qualities.

I'm trying to remind myself that not every author wants to be a storyteller. Not every story is good. It's ok to read stories that aren't the best simply because you want to see where it goes, but gege isn't superior in some way, and i dont 'trust that he's cooking'. Even if the story turns around in an interesting or strategic way, I really am not particularly impressed. Ordinarily I would stay along for the ride, but I can't bring myself to care about something even the author doesn't care about. :/

#jjk spoilers #idk i really just dont have any expectations anymore #i love reading books apart from manga and ive had to put down a few because they felt like this #and i have almost always found that in the end my perception of the author and their story was accurate #it makes me sad seeing this unfold in this way #but the shibuya arc which is apparently the least ljked arc in the series #is stretching on forever and people arent enjoying it #anecdotally ive seen a lot of people drop the series #and eventually its just gojng to be all the grimdark losers who unironically love shit like this #it just feels very much like a story for men who hate people #it feels like all the weirdos who made the joker their personality and all the dudes who cant breathe without talking about fight club #or like.. say shit about how the liberals are ruining media like thats the kind of person i see talking about jjk most of the time now #using slurs and not even having intelligent conversations about what's happening #the conversation is usually 'sukuna mid no cap' 'are you stupid gojo is mid stop copium' #and that exchange is repeated over and over like. you have nothing else to add at this point? #i mean i know its primarily bc honestly there really isnt any depth to the story beyond that but my god #what an insufferable way to write or receive a story #and honestly!! i really dont feel like jjk fits into a kids story category at this point #so i do actually feel ljke it is reasonable to expect better writing #not that stories aimed toward kids are bad but one piece is a good example of a story geared more towards children or young adults #adults CAN enjoy it but oda intentionally does not make the story so upsetting that kids cant read it and feel reflected in the events #but jjk is very very different and i think the drop in the quality of writing is reflected in the growing toxicity of the fanbase #anyways.. if you read jjk & youre feeling upset its ok to step away and check in once a month when you can mentally / emotionally prepare #i had to enforce a no read/watch accountability pact with my friends because it was making their depression worse again #no story is worth your health. gege does not give a flying fuck about you. you need to take care of yourself. #im just enjoying my sandbox with the characters and when the story is over ill check back in #theres no right way to experience the story but if its not healthy for you #you wont miss anything by unplugging #and you may find that you really dont want to get back into it when you read it again to check on the story every once in a while #jjk 237

[hecksupremechips]

RE danganronpa not having the best writing I was talking to a friend the other day about v3 about how it sucks that they set up Kaede to be the protagonist but then killed her off because while yes, Shuichi is a very good protagonist and he’s the only one that really gets interesting character development, Kaede could have so easily been an insanely interesting protagonist if she got to live because she has plenty of room to grow since she’s very clearly scared shitless and is deeply insecure about her ability to motivate and lead the group, but she smiles through it and lies about her feelings so much that the player doesn’t even know about her creating an elaborate murder scheme. And I realized that the way to keep her as a protagonist is for there to be a way that the first trial ends and someone else is found to be the killer (for example it could be Tsumugi if she weren’t the mastermind, or maybe someone else was in the library and killed Rantaro) and they get executed and thats that. Then at the end of the chapter we get a scene where Kaede is alone in her room and sighs in relief as it’s revealed that she hatched an elaborate plan to kill the mastermind but she wasn’t found guilty, either because she wasn’t the actual killer or because she was being protected by the mastermind. And so we the player have to proceed with the new knowledge that Kaede not only wanted to kill someone, she actually went through with a whole plan to kill someone and we didn’t even know about it and neither did any of the characters. And Kaede is on edge because on one hand she has to live with the fact that she was perfectly okay becoming a killer and that she failed to kill the mastermind so the game is going to continue and someone else was unlucky and got executed instead of her,but on the other hand she’s relieved that she wasn’t the one who died and that she was given another chance to find the true mastermind and no one has to know what she did. And as the game progresses it gets more and more stressful for her because she tries to keep up the positive energy but she’s living with this massive secret and she can’t let anyone find out about what she did and she finds herself still wanting to kill the mastermind so we the player don’t know how much we can trust Kaede anymore since she’s lying to everyone including us and she can very well kill again if she wants to

#danganronpa #kaede akamatsu #of course we couldnt have something like this happen cuz yay misogyny killed kaede and also like mentioned #dr doesnt have good enough writing to pull this off lol #yttd is at least able to pull something similar off with sara so at least i have that but still god like can you IMAGINE #how good v3 wouldve been if it had done this and like what i think is really fun is like #shuichi figuring it out cuz you know he would hed know in the first trial but in this version doesnt say anything #and he doesnt have to cuz kaede conveniently isnt the culprit #but like now hes stuck with this knowledge that she so easily couldve been #and you know shuichi is just like that last person shed want to know about this #but shed also be eaten alive by guilt from keeping it from him cuz she trusts him most and was the one encouraging him to pursue the truth #even if its unpleasant #so i like to imagine one of two scenarios like either shuichi eventually confronts kaede about this after shes become a bit more corrupt #and he plans to tell and shes forced to kill him to keep her secret #or a scenario where shuichi chooses to protect kaede over the truth and he becomes her accomplice #both scenarios would fuck up kaede quite a bit #and then i guess itd be really interesting to see if she becomes more and more corrupt and eventually does get executed #or if she owns up to her mistakes and decides to reveal her truth that shes actually fucking terrified #and she doesnt have as much control as she wants to and she has no clue if its gonna be okay #i think that would fit so good with the truth/lie theme too #goddddd like im so mad now cuz this is just like so good like why cant dr just be good its so easy

[tails-boogie-board]

more knuckles and baby!tails! Short one this time but its after the other knuckles and baby tails __

"It's Metal!"

The voice was squeaky and for a second, Knuckles braced for another opponent. They were nasally and youn- and it was Tails and Knuckles was a bad friend. He vaguely remembered the fox being chattier when they were younger, but maybe it was because he was directly compared to Sonic.

But the kit hadn't said a single word and Knuckles hadn't even noticed, but then why- Metal.

Shit.

And Knuckles was sent across the map.

He hit snow and digging out of the resulting avalanche gave him enough time to scold himself and to push it in the past. Erupting out of the ice, Knuckles hit the ground running. The Ice Cap was difficult and perilous on the surface, but if he could get underground, all tunnels lead to the Alter.

There was no time for subtly, and Knuckles barreled into the rock. The mountain stone crumbled under him and snow poured into the tunnel. He took off at double speed, he'd repair the damage later.

It took time to get across the island and even running, he could only go so fast. The ground shook and Knuckles grit his teeth. Tremors only meant one thing on Angel Island and like Hell would Knuckles let Eggman have the Master Emerald.

The ground steadied under his feet, Sonic was as late as ever. It took another minute before he burst into the early morning light.

"SONIC!"

Knuckles gripped a tree at the sudden intense wind, the branches buckled under the strain but he held strong. Pushing forward, Knuckles burst into the clearing and froze.

#Sonic #Miles Tails Prower #knuckles the echidna #tails the fox #my fic #fanfic #my writing #cliffhanger!! sorry not sorry #im doing some wild things and not all is as it seems #yea this is a thing now #its mostly unedited blurbs like this #but its over 5k #i do have a tenative plot/timeline i think #ether way i just like knuckles #spoilers: ive decided sonic can go feral #baby tails #before anyone says it knuckles isnt worried bc he knows sonic is gonna show eventually #i havent had any inspo recently or any time or energy to write tbh #and also im a bad writer bc this is mostly unedited hence knuckles voice not being correctly knuckles-esq but i want some validation #tho tbh my writing is p different to these snippets

[doodlebloo]

Do you guys ever think about how (as far as we know) c!Tubbo arguably made the right choice by deciding to never open up to c!Ranboo... Because c!Ranboo (when Enderwalking) retains all his memories and works alongside c!Dream anyway. So although c!Tubbo doesn't know it, his paranoia is actually keeping him safe, because the less info c!Ranboo knows the less he has the ability to tell c!Dream... Not that c!Ranboo necessarily would, but it sucks that like... c!Tubbo probably beats himself up for not wanting to share anything with his sweet and loyal husband, not even knowing that sharing the wrong stray detail about c!Tommy could have caused something disastrous. Like c!Tubbo was right to be a closed book and that shit hurts to think about!!!

#i need Ranboo to explain cRanboo so bad. #one of the only things i care about anymore. pls just tell me why a version of cRanboo with all his memories WHICH BTW #HIS MEMORIES WOULD INCLUDE THE DISC FINALE. Why that version of cRanboo would willingly help cDream. #Even IF cDream went ''oh i wasnt really gonna kill Tubbo it was staged also its good that New Lmanberg was exploded by me'' #and even IF cRanboo wasnt told why the prison tnt needed to be set off & therefore didnt know hed be hurting cTommy #how could he work with someone who he knows has hurt cTubbo like that. If he genuinely cared. #and i think about that a LOT a lot bc like. We see all these glimpses of cRanboo just... not listening to what cTubbo is saying. #the warning about cWilbur in ho16 is a good example but also just about history and Lmanberg in general... cRanboo sort of gives off the #vibe that he thinks he knows better than cTubbo does. That he thinks he knows what cTubbo needs and what's best for him #but also that he like... idk i just have thought about it a lot and worryingly i think he could become similar to c!Technoblade eventually. #Not in the ''violence is the only universal language'' way but in the way of like ''as soon as someone doesnt agree w my ideals and feels #differently than I do they have lost my respect and protection until they Prove themself and Earn it back'' type deal. not NOW i dont think #cRanboo is like that NOW but... Everyone always says ''cRanboo grow a backbone'' but he DID... While enderwalking. #ew!Ranboo is him with a backbone and apparently the him with a backbone does not care if he hurts his loved ones. #like cRanboo is part of the problem of people brushing aside cTubbo's grief and pain like it doesnt matter. cRanboo helping cDream has the #same energy as cJack trying to kill cTommy. this sort of ''he'll get over it'' mentality about cTubbo that assumes that just because he HAS #in the past been able to ''bounce back'' from indescribable loss that means things dont bother him or he can do it easily #so like. i do believe cRanboo isnt unsalvageable. i think the parts of him WE see are very much just misguided and not intentionally #hurtful. but sometimes i think abt Ranboo saying he was gonna make it so no one could be an apologist for cRanboo and I think like #what Memory does ew!Ranboo regaun that suddenly makes it fine for him to hurt his loved ones? for ''Dream Is The Reason'' to completely #disappear for him? is cDream offering him something he cant refuse or god forbid does ew!Ranboo just AGREE with him? #that to me is like. Once i know that i can be at peace. thats like one of the only things I'll be genuinely upset if it isnt explained #bc when i tell you it has been haunting me for like a year. #ok sorry for the rant and sorry boobers if i messed up some lore details lol #doodle.txt

[jrueships]

the mayor of turkey trying to get people to vote alpey for Allstar 😭😭

#alpey (who has realized his power) trying to get jabari into allstar too by making use of his turkey influence: @ turkey mayor #jabari my boyfran #now all of turkey is deadset on getting the prince and prince of turkey into the allstar game bcs jabari is alpey boyfran #jabari is unaware of the tweet bcs hes trying to grow a moustache #alpey awkwardly having to slide an arm over jabari while they sit two seats apart (jabari thinks a brainworm is trying to enter him again) #turkish interviewers after another jabari yelling at alpey crimescene: what were u two arguing about 😦!! u guys are our otp ☹️!!! #alpey: nono me & my girl dont argue #alpey: she bash my head in with a rock & i walk it off like a man #reporters shocked & genuinely curious: JABARI!JABARI!! IS IT TRUE YOU BASH IN ALPEYS HEAD WITH A ROCK!!!?!?! #jabari who doesnt know whats going on but craves violence: sometimes. #how will this affect the Gunsmith legacy?!?!?? #⁉️⁉️ #when jabari eventually finds out theyre supposedly dating by jalen joking abt gup designing their outfits for marriage #and tari wanting to be the best man while forcing tyty to be the flowergirl bcs ppl would believe it #alpey expects him to be upset abt the whole fake dating thing but instead jabaris embarrassed and pissed #that alpey thinks jabari needs his help when it comes to popularity bcs DAMMIT!! HES SUPPOSED TO BE HIGH PICK! N OT ALPEY!! wheres HIS fans #why isnt ATLANTA showing out !?!??? <- theyre crazy #and alpeys semi relieved bcs he just thought of the fake dating plan to help his teammate out #who he thought rlly deserved it due to his hard work and underappreciated lack of showmanship #but then he hears how much of a 'my best friend jabari <3 the loser <3' it sounds and feels bad #they dont make up #jabari bashes alpeys head in with a rock and alpey walks it off like a man

[scattered-winter]

as lonely as being aro can be I honestly wouldn't have it any other way because as a kid I felt like my life would be over in my 20s once I married and started having kids but the first time I realized I didn't have to do that shit was akin to a bird getting released from its cage

#like idk. i remember watching my mom growing up. no time to read or paint or sing or do anything she wanted to do #because she was always doing chores and housework and taking care of the kids #and she said she chose that life and was happy with it but it felt like a cage to me every time i thought about it #and in the ''religion'' i grew up in anyone with ovaries was supposed to get married and have lots of babies as soon as they could #so yk. 20s. #and as a kid growing up in that environment i Literally thought i would only get to live for 20/25 years #and then i'd be miserable and locked inside the house for the rest of my life #and all my friends growing up Wanted that !! they wanted marriage and a million kids and all the things we were told we needed to have #and im sure a lot of this was just the culture we grew up in. even now after leaving years ago im still struggling to unlearn things #and as kids ?? we didnt know Anything. #but idk. i remember watching brave and connecting with merida so much because i didnt want to get married either !!! #but i thought i had to !!! literally that movie made me cry so many times fr #but finding out what aromanticism was was literally so insane it was like. i dont have to do any of this bullshit actually. #it was literally the most radical thought i'd ever encountered at the time #it felt like i was defying everything i've been taught and it took me a long time to separate myself from the mindsets i grew up with #and then longer still to eventually separate myself from that environment completely #but idk. im a little lonely sometimes and my siblings and friends are all getting married and paired off #but i dont have to. my life isnt over and i can live it however i want. #idkkkkkkkk im feeling kinda emotional rn. being aro is incredible fr #winter speaks #queer #personal

[readymades2002]

i DO miss playing video games but i am pretty sure if i tried to run one on my computer now she would sprout legs and run away

#i didnt ever play a lot of tf2 except to claim the dangeresque shades but i did unfortunately play a lot of overed watch #which i regret to say even though i just played practice modes bc playing against real people scared me i did like #it WAS fun...i WOULD like to get into tf2 in the year 2022 maybe...but i doubt it would be possible #i would love to play games but i can't get a new computer and an operating system that isnt windows 7 </3 #i just know they get worse from here and less things are compatible with it and i dont know how to install(?) it myself... #it is probably going to bite me eventually but i just get so mad thinking about computers! there never needed to be an operating system #after this! ack! i hate the march of technology i hate it i hate it i hate it never mind im mad now and i cant even play a game #to distract me. truly this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me.

[thebuttsmcgee]

*remembers that I legitimately love Steven Universe*

#Steven Universe #SU #Ive had this realization like 59 times since Future ended #its just good ya know? #I waa gunna say it isnt perfect but eh. I dont really need to justifiy liking it. I like it and thats the end of that! #Ive also been listening to Rebecca Sugar interviews and the podcast as background noise #and man. the memories of all this stuff being new feels so far away. #like when we were convinced Escapism was a Lapis song. or that time 2 eps of SU was the only other thing airing for december besides ttg #and how the eventual truth of Rose came to light over a long amount of time and each reveal was more and more enticing #those times were great. gone and never be able to relive but still fond. #now then....where do I have to look for a decent looking stevo plush cause the official ones......LMAO #also how did they never make a Connie one??? LARS GOT ONE and look I love Lars but?? C'MON NOW LMFAO

[splendidcyan]

With my final semester of college starting tomorrow I decided to clean out and organize and label my email, and umm maybe gathering all my job rejections into one folder was a bad idea?? Aha I've heard from people that it's good to collect them and be able to look back and see how you've improved, but as someone who still isn't in the industry I want to be in it kinda umm just made me so sad LMAO. Self flagellating on a Sunday I guess

#was gonna post this to my main but then decided since it's about art that it goes on the art blog #and like I KNOW why i havent ever gotten hired #my portfolio is all over the place and I havent had the focus to niche down #almost like ive been attending college the past several years #and even illustration college still means stopping the concept art to learn anatomy and compositional skills and simply mature as a human #and its probably not fair of me to compare myself to the art prodigies that i adore who got hired out of high school #but oh as im writing these tags ive started crying which luckily is good for your eyelashes #i realize this is unprofessional but hopefully nobody will be looking at tumblr to hire me #this post ISNT to be oh woe is me -- its to humanize the blog and show you im struggling the way probably most artists struggle #and hopefully to look back on someday and be like oh silly me #i'll get where i want to be eventually. it will be okay and i will be okay #but right now i am sad and also hungry so im gonna finish crying and then go make some ramen with lots of yummy veggies #not art #aurora talks

[orcelito]

i remembered libero a due

this is not good timing

#speculation nation #ladue shit #I REMEMBERED......................... my subplot of akira being in love with ryuji back in high school dlkjfsldkf #but he was like 'im in love with a straight boy :(' and had a whole angst fest b4 eventually moving on #only to . ok this is spoilers but i want like post fic for him to be talking to ryuji #and ryuji offhandedly mentioning that he had a crush on akira in high school (who is currently dating akechi) #and akira being like. 'wait. youre fucking shitting me' #can u imagine being 20 ish years old. got a Great boyfriend. a great band. living ur best life #and then u find out the straight boy you were head over heels for in high school who is also ur best friend #HE WAS INTO YOU TOO... #lmao i want for it to be poly in the end. bc i do love the idea of it #this being Uhhh ryuji already dating yusuke so he really did say this as just a 'haha isnt that funny' kind of thing #except then akira's like. 'ok wait. wait just a Fucking second. i need to go talk to goro.' #bc is he actually over ryuji? no lmfao. #BUT then the four of them can be poly. it all works out. #i was thinking of this being a post-fic thing. a sequel if you will. so that the main thing can just be akeshu #for all u akeshu lovers out there lol. & then the sequel would be polythieves #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm now im thinking about ladue. #this is bad timing bc of the impending discacc anniversary. i Cannot afford to turn my attention elsewhere #but if this holds up. who knows. maybe i could keep working on this fic lsdkjflsdkfj #after Uhhhhhhhhhh an entire year and a half (and counting). whoops.

[dragonji]

i think. perhaps I need to cry. time to put on the lwj playlist

#j.txt #ive been in. Moods. the past few days and today started fine but i had just the most stressful and frustrating shift at work #for literally no reason and now im just exhausted and somehow both so empty and much too full of emotion to even think and I need them Gone #i truly hope the playlist actually makes me cry bc I dont really have any other ways to get emotional catharsis anymore #so if I dont cry tonight Ill just stow it all away again and have a worse breakdown eventually and much as I hate crying #I would rather just get it over with now. 'dont you go to therapy' yeah but it isnt helping right now lol. even if I try to be vulnerable #and show emotion including letting myself cry in sessions I end up upset at myself for showing a flaw and I Know this is exactly what #going to sessions is for and I should bring this intense aversion I have to expressing my dissatisfaction up but well. points to the #avoidance of showing flaws character trait shown above. #vent

[saccharine-seashells]

im gonna be honest with yall

itll be a loooong while until i reblog things the moment i see them

cuz one day i got too lazy to do that even tho i hadnt reached the post limit, and i decided to queue the post i saw instead

amd then another, and then another, and another, and another, and-

yea, it got out of control reaaaaal quick

my queue is several miles long at this point!

i think i crossed the 200 mark a while ago

so yea, just a little update for yall

i know i dont talk here much, but i just thought yall might want to know about this little situation ive gotten myself into

oh and one final thing

the post limit is 50, and i know that it’s 50, and despite knowing that it’s 50 i still decided to set both my main and fandom blog queue to 30 times a day

so i guess we’ll see which one gets priority

maybe one, maybe both, maybe neither

who knows honestly!

definitely not me since im not perceptive enough for that

but perhaps we’ll find in the foreseeable future

#> shell speaks for once #it’s gonna take soooooo god damn long to clear these posts out #but i know itll happen eventually so i wont be stressing over it #thats all for this once in a blue moon update #now to vanish back into the silence of the void and lurk like i always do #thr contents of this post actually isnt as long as it seems #it just looks that way since i have a vendetta against periods #perhaps i’ll try talking to yall more - it gets lonely rambling to myself in the tags #of other peoples posts! rambling in my own tags is fine - it’s [my] house after all