#i just. yeah

[dyinghomoerotically]

I love how people in mdzs are like ooooh ghost flute Chenqing aaaaah so scary but this flute. Has teeth marks from a child on it. Wei Wuxian aka Evil Yiling Laozu takes care of a child and lets him teethe on his Scary Demon Ghost Flute. And then in tgcf they’re like ooooh E’ming, Evil Deadly Scimitar, aaaah don’t touch it or even get near it!!! But then Xie Lian goes and pets it and it squeals with delight at the attention.

And then there’s Luo Binghe whose sword fucking possessed him lol

#mdzs #tgcf #svsss #chenqing #e ming #I just. yeah #I should reread svsss ngl

[inprisonforsparkling]

i need Ethan played by Mariah so bad. i think he should still be a dude but with like, long hair and boobs because it would slay SO HARD,

#ofc lesbians lex/ethan is TOP TIER AS WELL #but as a trans guy who does not pass #i just. yeah #ethan green #lexthan #starkid #black friday musical

[echomimus]

what are they talking about

#doodling at work #i just. yeah #ghostleon #ghostface #leon s kennedy #resident evil #dead by daylight fanart #dead by daylight #dbd #dbd fanart #i just want to go to bed

[grntaire]

#i just. yeah #good omens #thoughts

[noneknxws]

fear gas is cool and all, but what if Crane made a gas that affects the fucked up parts of your brain? that makes the intrusive thoughts louder? that makes the executive paralysis worse? that ups the sensory issues by 110%?

i think his evil evil psychologist brain would love dissecting neurodivergent thoughts and such

i went insane in the tags about this and other scenarios

#i love crane #and he’d probably be so ableist for this #but this would be SO interesting #especially with nightwinf because I know that mf has adhd #imagine dick getting sprayed with the gas and his mind is 10x more loud #or Bruce’s very real anxiety getting so so so bad #I just. yeah #batman #dc #scarecrow dc #jonathon crane #dick Grayson #nightwing #fear gas #HOLY MACARONI ALSO #Jason or whoever talking to neurodivergent kids in the lower parts of gotham #Duke could do that too #Cass meeting ‘gifted kids’ in Chinatown and finding another nonverbal girl #i.

[not-another-robin]

Uh. Yeah

#i just. yeah #narsposting #dc comics #batman #bruce wayne #<aw yeah. bruce wayne #hes blue. mary crismas

[handthatyouredealt]

unfortunately for everyone who interacts with me im quite nervous. and shy. and a wee bit pathetic. so i hate to break the news of that. ill get over it when i reach like 5 million years old or something maybe. then i wont hafta be nervous about anything anymore. until then. apologies!

#butch lesbian #butch positivity #i swear im normal #i just. yeah #unfortunately i also am like a feral deer #and will run away at the slightest nois #its bad. but! #its kinda funny #so i got that going for me

[schumaclerc]

(x)

#george russell #f1 #f1edit #* #george #i just. yeah #head empty

[princeofyorkshire]

i hate that healing is not linear cause i’d be feeling all positive and shit for a while then boom sad sad sad again and why does it feel good to be here why is it so comforting why does it feel like this is who i am and who i was always meant to be just a dumb girl who does not know how to deal w sadness in a healthy way and always end up relapsing and doesn’t even feel guilty about it. is it the familiarity of it all. is it the fact that i’m so used to this sadness that the second i get a taste of it i want more and more and stay here forever because it’s so familiar and painfully welcoming. why why why

#don’t rb #hate feeling like the second choice every damn time in every friendship or relationship i’d love to be someone’s first choice for once #hate feeling so dumb and silly and stupid at my grown age hate being so behind hate the passage of time hate not knowing how to cope #hate feeling hopeful for a while knowing that days like this one will come and ruin everything for a bit #i guess i’ll get back on track eventually i just hate that nothing can go right ever #i just wanna quit and stay home forever #one thing leads to another i hate overthinking especially when i know it’s temporary #but i just hate tasting that sadness that feels so comfortable and familiar knowing that i have to give it up #i just. yeah #relapse tw #negative

[prettyboy-like-you]

Billy hargrove knows how to use his mouth.

His silver tongue could sweet talk the habit off a nun. Or in turn just as easily spit pure vitriol, taking your ego downtown in a surefire gutterball of flames.

His lips, they. Man, they should come with a goddamn warning sound. Or a sign—something. They're two plump, freshly washed summer ripe cherries. They're red with a capital R and permanently glistening, thanks to that silver tongue being obsessed with laving over them, licking at them, making them forever-moist and inviting and just so there. Daring you to look at them. Ha, like you actually have a choice. He sucks them into his mouth and teases them and you by biting at them and into them and chewing on them likes he's permanently starving, with those sparkly-white shark teeth of his, Jesus.

But the cherry-flavoured icing on the cake for Steve is the first time they curve into that filthy, filthy grin. The one that's just for him. Just for Steve. And then they're enveloping his aching cock like it's. Shit, like it's their very purpose in life. The thing they were designed for; some sort of divine creation made solely for the purpose of sucking Steve down into that long, sinewy throat, a white-hot feeling that scorches Steve, rendering him completely helpless to that mouth, a slave to it, like it's existence is the only thing on earth that actually matters and it's like nothing else he knows or has known or ever will know, Jesus fucking Christ.

Yeah. Billy Hargrove knows how to use his mouth alright.

.

for ana @lovebillyhargrove bc 1) we are obviously totally obsessed and bc 2) she is my hero and made THIS

#i just. yeah #might be a little bit obsessed? #steve definitely is anyways #biily hargrove's cherry red lips 🍒💋 #my beloved <3 #harringrove #harringrove fic #steve pov #lemons #fanfic #fic #pbly writes #prettyboy like you

[kiwibirdlafayette]

creatures in heaven as a post-last life ethubs song can anyone hear me. can

#im ill #im a little ill #trafficshipping #i just. yeah #ethdubs #ramblings from the heartsgone #lafakiwi talks #i can expand on this but. trust. listent ot the song and trust #i have an art piece in my head now oh gods

[hergrandplan]

it's been 24 hours since ttpd and um. i've decided i will never be okay again

#i just. yeah #like it doesnt help that every song is wilmon coded #but even without the yr brainrot #this album is just so good #ive also already started a fic based on a song. dk if i'll ever post it but it sure is going to hurt me #nina rambles

[wander-wren]

i have so many thoughts about how the anti-fandom (particularly anti-fanfic) crowd nearly ALWAYS derides fanfic for being sexual. i noticed it the first time in this video essay (linked to the relevant segment), and now i see it everywhere.

under a cut for being long as hell and also discussing nsfw topics. if you are a minor, here’s your warning. thanks.

if you don’t want to watch the video, let me just tell you that the first three quotes included mention “voltron fetish porn,” “larry stylinson mpreg” and a coffee shop slow burn (omg, are we not going to talk about sex this ti-) “where the climax is an entire chapter of two guys fucking.”

ah, there it is.

and like, yeah, those fics exist. a lot of them probably don’t have a ton of literary value. do you think mass market erotica that all has the same shirtless dude on the cover has a ton of literary value?

(both of those things do have value, though. it’s seriously okay to read something for fun. i promise. it doesn’t have to have themes or be #deep.)

and on the one hand these people are clearly naming these specific examples partially as shock value. OBVIOUSLY no one who says dante’s inferno is fanfic (it’s not—which is the point of the video essay and a different topic entirely) is putting it on the same level as “voltron fetish porn.” obviously a non-fandom person, seeing that, is going to be disgusted and agree with you, probably.

but it also just speaks to the general idea that sex has no inherent value. it’s the same attitude that wants to cut “unnecessary” sex scenes from traditional original fiction, since ofc sex never moves the plot along in any way ever.

and that’s stupid! that’s fucking stupid. you’re going to tell me that every other human activity is poetic and important and beautiful but sex, for whatever reason, needs to be hidden and never talked about and is not any of those things. no.

and for the record i’m saying this as an asexual (sex-favorable) person, if for some reason that matters. i don’t know. i don’t think all or even most stories should have explicit sex scenes in them. i just think it’s a neutral or even positive thing when they do. and not all smutty fanfic is automatically meaningless.

in some fics, the sex is the point. like, sometimes it’s about the vulnerability. do i have to bring out thrust issues I WILL BRING OUT THRUST ISSUES. fuckit. you get to listen to me talk about it.

Thrust Issues is a marvel (stevetony) fic by Sineala that i read for the first time as a freshman in high school bc that’s what you get with unsupervised internet access. it’s not the worst thing i read at that age. anyway.

the fic is crack-treated-seriously, so keep that in mind. the premise goes that after an extremely rough mission, the avengers return to the tower only to be attacked hours later. steve was incredibly sleep-deprived and doesn’t hear the alarm, so tony goes to wake him and accidentally gets an eyeful of a sleeps-naked steve and his extremely naked extremely huge dick. after the fight they talk it out. steve admits that he doesn’t have penetrative sex because Dick Too Big.

tony, being in love with steve, offers to help a pal out by training himself to take steve’s monster cock. steve, being in love with tony, assumes this is the closest thing to a relationship he’s going to get and agrees. thus ensues the stupidest friends-with-benefits arrangement ever.

and that sounds silly and dumb and not at all profound, right?

but listen. friends with benefits is a ripe trope for this. because you have the intimacy, you have this vulnerability, and in thrust issues it is specifically an intimacy that steve has not had with other people, in a context that has usually been uncomfortable for him in the past.

you have your rules. it’s not real if you don’t kiss, until in the heat of the moment you can’t help it. it’s not real if you don’t use pet names, until one slips out and no one acknowledges it because no one wants to know if it was an accident or really meant.

you keep this arrangement out of your work life until you realize your lives are even more entangled than before and suddenly your reputations and lives are on the line because you get distracted. until suddenly one of you is being blackmailed and you don’t have an alibi because your alibi is your fuckbuddy.

until one of you isn’t out. and you’re not sure you can come out.

until you don’t know if your lunch date is a date date. until the lines blur and you don’t know what’s going on anymore. until you’re both each other’s best relationship and the whole thing is a lie, an experiment.

until someone blurts “i love you” in the middle of sex and you have to convince yourself that it’s not real, just hormones, but it was real and now they think you don’t love them back.

anyway that’s thrust issues. it’s a wild ride of a fic that has made me cry. steve and tony are already balancing secret identities and tony is balancing a huge amount of corporate stress re: blackmail and now they have this beautiful, awful extra secret on top and everything tangles together until it collapses. and none of it would work if half of it wasn’t gratuitous sex scenes.

do i need to bring up Bonnie & Klein? fine, i’ll do that too. it’s a BNHA (bakudeku) fic by surveycorpsjean where 20yo bkdk get thrust ten years into the future and do selfcest with their future selves. super not valuable and totally weird, amirite.

except it’s about seeing that your future is everything you’ve ever wanted, while the person who is supposed to make it happen seems disgusted. it’s about the relationship between your current self and your past. it’s about insecurities and hurting people before they can hurt you and coming back together anyway. it’s quite literally about self love. it’s about using sex to break down emotional walls and get important messages into stupid dumb thick skulls. it’s about knowing that this future isn’t guaranteed, but it is possible. hope.

and it is also about seeing two different versions of your local super hot hero couple bang. they are not mutually exclusive.

that one also makes me cry. partially because i’m a trans person with a fraught relationship to my past self. god. the fucking care that older deku takes with younger deku. they way that it’s so clearly helpful for both pairings, because the older ones are able to see their own growth. i sob when i get to the last chapter. i’m sorry i got off track i just had to wax poetic about this fic. actually i’m not sorry fuck you it’s important to me. and again, the sex is the point. it could be done without it, but a lot of the emotional impact would be lessened.

(i don’t even know how controversial selfcest is tbh. where’s that poll about fucking your clone.)

i already wrote about other popular smut tropes in fanfiction and the way they deal with gender and sex and consent.

i’m sorry if you think sex is dirty and bad and wrong or that kink is freak shit. i’m sorry you’re boring and unimaginative. i’m sorry there’s a whole world of meaning you’re ignoring.

i’m not saying all smutty fanfic is beautiful works of art that belong in a museum, or even that most of it is. i’m saying it’s stupid to dismiss an entire category of fanfic, or fanfic AS A WHOLE, because sometimes porn is just porn. lots of not-fanfic things are just porn for the sake of porn. it’s okay. you won’t die.

this got way longer than i expected. sorry not sorry. also if you want to see an alternate universe based entirely around bdsm that uses kink as a foundation for exploring trauma and recovery….i have a blog for you. @flfverse

that’s all, unless i’m still in my feelings in fifteen minutes.

#wren wrambles #fanfiction #fanfiction meta #ao3 #fandom discourse #anti fanfiction #anti fandom #i have so many thoughts on this at all times #i have other thoughts on OTHER reasons fanfic is disparaged #also i’m sorry i started to get mad halfway through #i just. yeah #for an ace person i am completely fascinated by this stuff #mm psychology

[un-deserts-your-bluffs]

i want a partner but like. not in an explicitly romantic sense... like you know. i wanna kiss a girl on the lips but not in the kind of way that you normally think of when you think romance. i wanna hold hands with her n read books together n have her fall asleep on me watching a show but i don't think i want that in the 'romance' sense or at least not the typical romance sense and. i just don't know why are feelins so confusing

#vent #i guess?? #not really but like. idk #i think i might be aro? #idk i wanna kiss girls #or one specific girl #who i already broke up with once #and who is also on the aro spectrum #and who i'm best friends with #i just. yeah #wild i guess #if anyone has advice hand it over /lh

[mangoisms]

i always have like this one other fic idea for tim rotating in my brain on top of one for jason which, earlier, i said was new but that’s not technically true since. as i said. rotating in my brain it just like. Depends. on whether or not it is a day in which my brain decides it’s going to torment me with it. which is what’s happening today. for jason’s i mean

#i just. yeah #I’m just a little weird about writing. i have to be so sure i’m going to follow through #i’ll have passing ideas that seem cool but they’re just passing #and if i chased every idea i got i Would Not get anywhere #there was one idea for ceo!tim and personal assistant!reader #i managed a couple hundred words of that but then. That was it

[liverpool-enjoyer]

Hi mex. can u write domitrent like this: https://www.instagram.com/reel/C3xIdwxNtwV/?igsh=MWp0cmp1NGRtdTM0MQ==

i,,, 😭😭

#no words #i just. yeah #ty for the ask <3 #dominik szoboszlai #trent alexander arnold #domitrent #lfc #liverpool fc #liverpool