#i hate. literally everything else

[sollucets]

i feel like i have to explain myself

#i shouldnt really but yknow #maybe it’s because i’m an adult now #although tbh the things about tmi i dislike now are the same that i disliked at 13 so maybe not #but i have a vicious lovehate relationship w/ the shadowhunterchronicles #i powered through tda for 1. my married malecs 2. the polya fae cottage subplot i didnt expect to like so much and #3. tiberius fucking blackthorn my most beloved son #and thus kit by proxy #i hate. literally everything else #not joking it caused me physical pain to read sometimes #i didnt think anything could ruin parabatai for me #i love that kind of relationship dynamic ; chosen platonic soulmates #but fuck if it wasnt AGONIZING to read emma and julians stupid angsty pointless bullshit #truly i cant stand it #that emotion spell thing???? awful #someone should have told cc no #theyre much more tolerable in sobh #i almost like them when i forget what heterosexual nonsense they put me through #anyway but point remains: #i didnt read tda for the plot or the new characters #but some of em got me anyway! what do you know #and ty blackthorn to me is immeasurably precious #rowan chatter #this has been ‘justifying me losing my shit over kitty in my last reblog’ even though i didnt need to and i doubt any of you care #but. …. look…. in the same room…. what the fuck…….

[insignificantfailure]

im so fucking useless

#all I do is consume without contributing anything to society #i feel so guilty for eating breathing taking up space buying things producing trash wasting people's time and energy #literally my existence has no meaning #why am i alive #literally w.o.r.t.h.l.e.s.s. #tw depressive #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #im exhausted #i hate everything #i hate my self #more than anyone else #i dread having to exist #self h@te #i'm sad #mentally tired #vent #venting #personal

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

my favorite thing a character can do is ask another character "am i enough for you, could i be enough for you to set aside your goals/ambitions/mission" and then the other character cannot or won't answer them because the answer is no, it's not that they don't love them or they aren't important but some things are beyond love beyond choice beyond reason and it doesn't matter how much they want to say yes they simply can't

#this is (unsurprisingly) a #black sails #AND #⚰️ #post #they're not made for it!!! #i think this is why romance as a genre doesn’t really work for me #i *hate* the you before everyone/everything else it drives me crazy i will literally stop watching or reading a thing if it keeps popping u #mine

[stuckinapril]

i hate it when a song is mostly ass but it has those 15 seconds of pure bliss that makes enduring the whole thing worth it. why must there always be suffering before pleasure

#STAR TREK ROOF IN THAT WRAITH OF KHAN #GIRLS GET LOOSE WHEN THEY HEAR THIS SONG #A HUNDRED ON THE DASH… GET ME CLOSE TO GOD #WE DON’T PRAY FOR LOVE #WE JUST PRAY FOR CARS #these bars are literally stuck in my head but i hate everything else about starboy #yet I endure the whole thing just to listen to this one segment.

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[daddys-radioactive-milk]

“Fnv fans are so annoying.” We are! And we’re having fun with it! You go be annoying with your own shit! Love things deeply. Be annoying about things. If people don’t like it block them! If you don’t like other people for their annoying thing you can filter out the content and/or block them!

#‘fnv fans suck’ you don’t have to like us my man. you don’t even have to be around us if you don’t want to #it’s literally not that deep or complex! move the fuck on #‘people love to hate on things so much :/‘ well you’re also actively hating on people hating on things #so like. be the change you want to see in the world. have fun #I’m not into yes man but I’m not going to complain about other people being into yes man #I’m probably not going to like the tv show. but I’m not going to hate on people who do like it. and I shouldn’t get crucified for not #liking it either! #fnv #but also L + ratio + I get Confirmed Bachelor and you don’t #<- that’s a joke. everything else is serious

[phvnthom]

#i used to want to meet people who liked the same shit i did...... but fandom is literally the worst thing ever created #it's so limited and sanitized and what's popular most times doesn't align with my tastes or it's just plain bad #HCs this— aggravating fanart here 😮‍💨 #interests are only best when you geek over it with like 2-5 people max who ALSO like it in almost the same exact ways you do #not too much more than you not too little or else it just gets so fucking tedious and annoying— like shut the fuck up damn #either way fandom is a can of worms and it's mostly rancid #yes this is about miles yes this is about how spider-verse has spilled over into everything and i hate it #i wish that movie was never created and it went away forever

[americankimchi]

wish i knew what to do with this helpless frustration i feel every time i see people vilify the jedi for their way of life when the person doing the vilification doesn't even understand them properly. it's one thing to criticize and dislike them if you have an accurate picture of who they were and what they're trying to do vs. hating them because you straight up don't understand them at all 😭

#personal #this isn't vagueposting i'm just tired of seeing it every time i go in the tags or on youtube or on ao3 #literally if you boil the jedi down to the essentials it's just #''these are psychic empath space wizards wandering around the galaxy trying to establish a higher quality of life for everyone'' #a bunch of aragorns except anduril is a beaming blade of plasma #or gandalf with the ability to do backflips #the only hard rule they have is ''thou shalt not add misery to the world where you can remove it'' #everything else is just interpretations on that theme #''they're cold and unfeeling and they HATED ANAKIN and BAN LOVE'' #like WHERE in the WORLD are you getting this information #WHEREEEEE #SHOW ME YOUR SOURCESSSS #and don't say ''they ban attachments'' without understanding what that MEANS #ATTACHMENTS =/= LOVE #ATTACHMENTS ARE CHAINS THAT YOU USE TO DRAG OTHERS DOWN WITH YOU #YOU KNOW THE SAYING IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING YOU WILL LET IT GO? THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL IT IS. #and where are u getting that they hated anakin do you think he'd be so torn up about betraying them all in ep 3 #if he was surrounded by people who hated him for over a decade like mans was IN TEARS #HE LOVED AND WAS LOVED BY THEM IN TURN #IT JUST WASN'T ENOUGH TO SAVE THEM IN THE END BECAUSE #CRUCIALLY #HIS ATTACHMENT TO PADME DRAGGED HER AND THEM AND EVERYONE ELSE DOWN WITH HIM #stop stripping anakin of his agency he made a CHOICE #star wars is ALL ABOUT CHOICE. THE CHOICE TO FALL IN EP 3. AND THE CHOICE TO RISE AGAIN IN EP 6. #like cmon fellas..... fellas cmon........

[aroacewxs]

wanting to talk about your favourite character, but

can't articulate thoughts into words

can't stay on a single tangent

keeps forgetting details

overthinking your characterization

"I don't know how to describe it ok like you have to read the story to fully grasp it"

"do you want to see my daughter" "sure" (shows photo) "there they are" "is that your daughter" "yes" (end of conversation)

can't express your adoration for a character properly except through "I Hate Them I hate them i hate them i hate them i need them GONE"

#jay does a think #this is about rui btw #hate that guy (loving) #kamishiro rui #rui #wxs #actually this is literally about every single character that has kept me awake at night #shoutout to marcy wu and eda clawthorne i hate you both #oh my god and kel. kel from omori. the baller of all time #kel is my everything. genuinely. i will always be a kel fan first anything else second

[labyrynth]

*deep sigh*

don’t make me tap the sign

#mdzs #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #mo dao zu shi #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #if nie mingjue thought jgy was trying to kill him #if he even had the barest *inkling* that jgy might be plotting against nmj specifically #jgy would be dead! #long since dead! #nmj is not the kind of guy that just sits around waiting to be murdered! #nmj DID NOT KNOW jgy was trying to kill him and the fact that his corpse was trying kill jgy has NOTHING to do with his death! #instead it has everything to do with the fact that nmj fucking hated jgy’s guts and wanted him DEADDESTROYMAIMKILLGRRR for unrelated reasons #nmj literally died trying to kill jgy over being ‘ungrateful’ or some shit #because jgy was like ‘da-ge isn’t very nice to me :( ‘ in a private conversation with SOMEONE ELSE that nmj was eavesdropping on #huh you know i just thought about how nmj seems to eavesdrop on jgy’s conversations w lxc a lot doesn’t he #if i had a nickel for every time it happened i would have two nickels #which isn’t like a LOT but it’s weird that it’s happened twice (and both times with disastrous consequences) #anyway i don’t think we should have to go over this as frequently as we do #mdzs talk #jgy tag

[butterflysonnets]

crazy that in s1 we had mike getting clocked as queer by his homophobic deadbeat dad at the dinner table, only keeping a weird girl he found in the woods (that he was trying to get CPS called on initially so he could get rid of her and go back to looking for will) in his room ET-style because she has intel on will's location, and sobbing in his mother's arms over will's "death" to the lyrics and we kissed as though nothing could fall and the shame was on the other side (from a song that also has lyrics about being secret lovers at risk) and yet people still denying byler

#anyway the gorgeous photo of s5 will got me thinking about byler and queer mike again #like i have no idea if it's going to be canon because straights but like. after all that? and everything AFTER that? it should be #or else shit just don't make sense #mike is literally me as a little repressed queer kid. i hate him. i love him. if you shit on him i will kill you. that's my child. he sucks #byler #stranger things #eve text

[lobotomizedlady]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[zukkaoru]

i am once again astounded at the bsd fandom's ability to make everything about skk when, in fact, it has very little to do with skk

#this is about beast. #like okay i see the allure of beast!skk but seriously??? it's way overhyped #you just want to make everything about the only two characters you can bring yourself to care about when it is #NOT ABOUT THEM #BEAST ISN'T ABOUT SKK. BEAST IS BARELY EVEN ABOUT SSKK. #BEAST IS ABOUT THE INHERENT TRAGEDY OF HAVING A SIBLING AND WHAT DESTRUCTION THAT CAN CAUSE #beast is about what core characteristics of a person remain the same in every universe #and what is changed based on environment and circumstance #beast is about the unimaginable power and danger of platonic love #beast is about showing how the people around you help you grow - for better or for worse - and changing even just one person #in your constant vicinity can have rippling effects on the person you become in their absence. or in the presence of someone else. #beastskk is going to go straight to the top of my hate list THIS AIN'T ABOUT THEM!!!! THIS IS ABOUT LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE #ahem. anyway #i'm gonna get cancelled over this just wait #grace reads bsd

[zappedbyzabka]

Sacrificial lamb and all that

#baby baby baby #He said :( #and #he said ☹️ #The way Kreese stared at him and hovered like a hungry wolf ready to pounce the whole time #the way Johnny tried not to cry and sweat and went straight into the arms of his predator like he has for YEARS #because he’d been literally in Kreese’s hands. Given to him and left with him. for YEARS. #And the way he stared up at him so desperate and melted into his grasp #let him swipe his hurting nose and obeyed when he made him do something he didn’t want to #because who else does he have. And his mom wasn’t there. and he had to go home with bruises all over him and no one #to Sid. to be mocked and laughed at some more. to cry all alone in his bed thinking about how the man he trusted and loved hurt him #And I think Kreese was more jealous. murderously so. that Johnny clearly wanted to be on good terms with LaRusso rather than so mad he lost #and by the time he realized he went too far and he lost his little champion—whom he ‘loves most besides CK’—he decided to get revenge on #Miyagi and Daniel. because it’s THEIR fault he did that to johnny in the first place. he hates them both with a passion. HE was humiliated #in front of his boy and the rest of the cobras by Miyagi. and Daniel…he changed Johnny. he practically took him away from Kreese. #Man is delusional cause that’s 10000% how he sees things #and GOD the way he begs Johnny to come back in ck. and then hurt him more because ‘thats what was best for him’ #and Johnny moves away from his touch and stares at him like an abused animal but still lets him stay #because he still loves him despite everything #he knows Kreese is in his own reality and does love him. but he realized his worth to an extent #realized its not okay for Kreese to have done all those things to him #and brainwashed him #and he was being victim blamed the whole time Kreese came back to cobra kai #I cant. #I’m SCREAMING. everything was taken from him but it was his fault because he ‘shouldnt have let Kreese come back’ #Only unobservant idiots ignore the fact that he was abused his whole life just so they can hate on him constantly. #johnny lawrence #cobra kai #karate kid #Still love Kreese though

[imminent-danger-came]

*sigh*. So. 3x03 right. "You rigged this table so that no matter what plate Monty was under, he would drop down from under it just as your contestant made their choice!" and how that works with the game motif in 4x10, "Ugh, again? Remind me how this 'game' is supposed to convince me I'm not destined to turn into an evil demon monkey thing again!? Cause every option I pick takes me to this same screen!" "Hey you're finally getting it! No matter what options it's giving you, you're always gonna end up in the same spot." And it's like, losing being inevitable, the game being rigged, the only option being to find a different choice, yet still "every choice has consequences—for someone." Overall I just kinda feel like this:

#I hate game motif I hatteeee herrrrr #LMK stop having thematically relevant games challenge (impossible) (super hard) (unachievable) (hopeless) #Actually all of 3x03 hurts me #MK *LITERALLY* wagering his friends to win (and for more power) #Like okay. Okay sure #Okay #uhuhhuhuhuhuhuh #''There's no way I can lose if my friends are on the line!'' #Oh okay. This is terrible this sucks #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk rant #lmk game motif #God like of course. OF COURSE MK get's one of his powers back in s3 by playing a rigged game #Of course he fucking does #Because fuck me and fuck everything #I also hate exchange theme did you know that #whatever #''you don't want to fight Azure cause people might get hurt—you don't want to not fight Azure cause people might get hurt— #so do something else! Only you can decide who you are kiddo.'' #Okay but who is MK did you ever think about that #Did you consider that question #''I just want to be me. To be MK!'' ''Yeah well. We all know exactly where that leads don't we.'' #Like god whatever #Sorry I remembered. LMK is a surreal experience #it's a lego breakdowwwnnnn da da daaa do. da da da do dooo #these tags are illegible and that's okay