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im a liar im drawing akishinji

going to make my long delayed makoto yuki spread now. the cutest thing

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going to make my long delayed makoto yuki spread now. the cutest thing

#jay does a think

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i love stories about hope! stories about humans! stories about acceptance, both of yourself and of everything around you! stories about the passing of time, and how every memory we make is cherished! stories that celebrate the life you think to be so so little, but is still so cherished in this big big universe all the same! stories about finding your people! stories about letting go and living free! stories about the indomitable human spirit! stories!!!

#jay does a think

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JAY I LOVE YOUR CURRENT THEME OMG

THANK YOUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aro rui and omori. two things out of many that drive me crazy

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Has this been done before

#this is so me #project sekai #shiraishi an

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Day 23

An image posted by the official Prosekai JP account, drawn by a staff member. It’s one of my favorite silly drawings the staff has posted and makes me wonder how Leoni would interact with other versions of themselves from cards…

#hee hee hee! #project sekai #leo/need

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A lot of An's character arc revolves around other people because at her core she is lonely: alternatively, middle school An Shiraishi was not having that grand of a time and here's why.

An is by no means a person who's shunned by others or has no friends, she isn't lonely by conventional means, but she's lonely in a way that she couldn't find anyone to connect with after Nagi's passing.

Even then, there's a solid chance that that isolation has started before; we can see in An's past that it's not only An's dream alone but also her skill that makes her seem unreachable to others.

Because of who her family is and also because of who An is, she was shoved in this kind of unique position of "If anyone can do it, it's her." An was put on a pedestal by everyone around her. That is also the exact opposite of a situation that Akito (and consecutively Touya) have ended up in, who started our being rejected and pushed down.

Teaming up with An on her terms would have meant admitting you have to meet her at her level. Whether An realized that or not, whether she knew the truth behind Rad Weekend or not, that was just what it was.

An is not prejudiced, though. She really just wanted a team who had the same dream she did. But other people raised the bar for being An's partner even if An herself didn't have any requirements other than having a serious dream.

But that is isolating. Going through that for two years is isolating. If try to find someone special for two years and fail because people either don't take you seriously at all or take you so seriously they can't think of themselves as being good enough for you, that will mess you up in one way or another.

(This also means An's partner was always fated to be someone outside of Vivid Street - someone who didn't know the intricacies and implications of teaming up with An and did that just because they wanted to. In a twisted and ironic way, it was always meant to be Kohane.)

That's why An is constantly walking on eggshells around Kohane. Kohane is her first shot at making a real connection and An wouldn't let go of it easily; but that's also why An keeps messing things up and having messy feelings about Kohane: she is her first try to build that kind of relationship.

This is also in part why she's so hesitant to confront those feelings head on; she doesn't think she's allowed to express them because she doesn't want to hurt Kohane, and because she's already been a bad partner and because she's afraid to lose her. It's a vicious cycle of her past being so lonely she desperately craves a connection but because she's been so lonely she doesn't want how to handle the challenges that inevitably come with that connection.

(It's also about how An thought she had a special connection with Nagi - and she did, but Nagi was an adult with her own issues and problems going on which she just couldn't share with An because their relationship was still that of a mentor and a student. Nagi knew she shouldn't, and didn't, burden An with her feelings. But lack of truly meaningful connection with someone her age affected An later in her life. Kohane is socially awkward on the surface, but An is socially awkward internally. With Kohane, she's experiencing a lot of new feelings she hasn't dealt with before, and she doesn't know how to deal with them. She's the most experienced singer out of the group... But she's the least experienced as far as human relationships go.)

In the end, the confrontation was inevitable from the very beginning, because An needs to start seeing Kohane as someone will agency and will and as someone who can handle An at her worst, too. The fear to lose Kohane and her team if she really expressed what she feels (and it won't be pretty) is holding her back. An doesn't have to always be a perfect partner; she needs to see and understand that Kohane will understand and never leave her even if she isn't.

#this is so good and wonderfully worded #project sekai #shiraishi an

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HELLOOOO i wrote the wrong name for emu's card. do you want me to cry. how is this all going so wrong..

i'm not gonna delete the poll only because then i'd have to make it all over again and there's already some votes here so.. look away from my errors ok

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I FORGOT TO ADD THE JAY BUTTON

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#project sekai #wxs #wonderlands x showtime #kamishiro rui #kusanagi nene #ootori emu #tenma tsukasa #polls #pjsk polls #i was so torn between curtain call rui and pandemonium rui. ok. please know that this decision was so very hard for me

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Leo

#project sekai #hoshino ichika

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im sure shiho would be put off by rui but i actually think they'd be really good friends

#yesyesyeysyesyyeyss that's what im saying #also how both of them found solace on the rooftop during their darkest times in middle school #and they befriended someone who shared the loneliness with them #and now both of them are doing so so much better and they've found their people #and. may i add. how both of them are incredibly dedicated to the art #to the point where they drown out the rest of the world #to the point where it got them alienated from their classmates #and they struggled forming proper connections with others #but they convinced themselves that this is fine. that it's better off being alone #that way no one gets hurt #huuughgu shihorui you will always be famous. i wish you could interact more #project sekai #kamishiro rui #hinomori shiho

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no ichisaki angst pls

#project sekai #hoshino ichika #tenma saki

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Sara, talking about school: I'm gonna miss out on so many important things because of this kidnapping!

Shin, talking about the osu!mania 4k world cup tournament: Yeah, me too

#real. to me #yttd #shin tsukimi #sara chidouin

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hey yttd fans do you ever think about how kai and gashu both killed themselves to avoid the punishments enforced by the killing game. do. do you guys think about the parallels. about how kai can never escape his family or past. how he's always going to be a reflection of his own father. how neither of them actually valued their own lives. how gashu died because of his hatred and kai died because of his hope. like father like son

#WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS /LH #yttd #kai satou #gashu satou

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how pissed off does he have to be to drop the honorific

#yttd #shin tsukimi #sara chidouin