#i hate the ones that cant take no for an answer

[luneariann]

Sigh

#sometimes my guy friends mame me think ''yea some guys are actually cery soft and nice and cool and i like tjem'' #and then sometimes a man will do something horrid and I'll remember why i ever had such hatred for them as a kid #anyway i dont hate ALL men #but man #i hate most of em imma be frank w yall #i hate the ones that cant take no for an answer #cuz tell me why i told tjis guy i wasn't interested like 20+ times and he jusy #kept talking #muffled screaming #it was such a nice day too 😭 #we went to the river today and swam and it was awesome and he was our guide #and he looked p young so when we started goofing off i thought '' #cool new friend #ERRR #WRONGGGGG #screaming cryinh tjrowing up #he bought me food even tho i explicitly told him not to and then he complaiwd abt how i made him waste money after i rejected him for the #tenth time #i cant bro #anyway yea #people who don't understand what rejection is! explode #please #ruined my day #damn #tw vent #vent

[lilaccatholic]

I am once again thinking about the reluctant ruler whose arc justly and correctly includes assuming the throne and taking responsibility for the people set before them

#it's about simba coming back to pride rock it's about aragorn using andúril to fight for middle earth and assuming the throne it's about #hiccup marrying astrid and assuming his role as chief and moses returning to egypt #and it's about irina loving her people so fully that when she claims all of her subjects as hers that chernobog must release them to her!!! #and it's about miryem choosing to stay with the staryk and repair the damage and assume responsibility for the land and people!!!!! #and! it's! about! gen!!!! #it's ALWAYS about gen!!!! #gen who didn't want to be king. who hated being king and only wanted to marry a queen but who obeyed his gods and became a king over kings #who lost his home and half his family and his HAND but who ushered in a new golden age. #and it's about sophos who ran away but who shot the ambassador and took back his kingdom #it's about duty and it's about sacrifice and it's always ALWAYS about doing the right thing even at great personal cost because it's about #submitting to a power higher than your own. of recognizing that the calling on life is one for serving others and having so much more to #answer for than just yourself. it's knowing duty is love is duty #i cant stand stories where the answer is 'give up the throne and reject your duty' because no!!! you dont get it!!! #thats how you get the monsters!!! thats how you get the prince turned into a beast and thats how you get every terrible weak king that #aragorn feared becoming #to accept your throne is to die to self!!! you are no longer you but 'king' or 'queen' #it's like queen mary says to qeii in the crown 'elizabeth mountbatten must die #elizabeth regina must take her place.' #that's terrifying! but it's also everything!!!! #die! to! self! die! to! self!!!!!! #lilac rambles #lilac goes to the movies #lion king #prince of egypt #lotr #spinning silver #the crown #tqt #the queen's thief #httyd

[why-the-heck-not]

Starting to almost wish I could just go do this fucking presentation today solely bc I’m getting mad and tired of the anxiety, how is it physically possible to be this anxious for so many days straight. There has to be a limit how long u can be on the verge of an anxiety attack like ????

#it’s stupid #cant sleep cant eat over ’’ppl are paying attention to me for 20minutes or so’’ #i hate this so so much #bc like I KNOW it’s overreacting and unreasonable and it never is as bad as I think but knowing that won’t do shit for the anxiety #like it will he here until I’m back home tmrw after having presented it #at least it’s only like a day of this anymore but I don’t have the energy for this for even one more goddamn minute #literally what could happen in that presentation that would be worse than feeling like this?? #the realistic worst case possible is that I lose my train of thought or have a ’’brain doesnt work’’ moment and have to take like 20secs to #gather myself and like maybe if someone asks a question I don’t have an answer to #but like I won’t die or anything #even if it’d be awkward (it will be awkward) that’s legit nothing #I’m ’’just some guy’’ to the ppl and after leaving the building they’ll never think abt my stupid ass presentation again #so wHY cant I fucking chill #april 2024 #2024

[todayisafridaynight]

theres no better place for my ichi ringtone to go off than during my exam tbh

#snap chats #i DO NOT want to talk about my exam <- is gonna talk about it #i get bad physiological reactions to tests itd be hilarious if it wasnt annoying #i hate taking tests cause ill know the answers 100% but then i go to take the official test and i 👁️👁️ i forget literally everything #LIKE AS IM FILLING IN THE ANSWERS I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT MY BRAIN JUTS REFUSES TO PUT THE RIGHT ONE #I REMEMBER THE INFO I JUST CANT PUT THEM IN THE RIGHT SPOTS I GET SO NERVOUS AND FOR WHAT i hate tests. #theres nothing i can do tests have been my bane for years and ill just have to live with my educators thinking im stupid <- i am #anyway. during my exam yeah. quiet-ass room and then you hear my dork-ass ringtone go off like HELP I WAS JUST 👁️👁️ #now the whole classroom knows youre a dweeb. jk no one at my school knows rgg its fine #anyway im upset and im fighting every demon telling me to go to the bar and get a drink #NO. BAD SNAP. BAD COPING MECHANISM. YOU ALSO HAVE NO MONEY ENOUGH #i have my last class of the day in twenty minutes i wanna curl up in a ball instead but thats not how life works now is it so BYE #wait can i talk bout my morning cause it was goofy #i called up my doc to get my DRUGS refilled and she was lookin over my doc like #'my man you have too much testosterone' My Sister In Christ No The Fuck I Don't LMAO if i hear one more 'sorry ma'am' i just might lose it #funny world innit.. ok my class starting soon thats all i wanted to share LMAO BYE

[llumimoon]

(me sitting here seething) ITS FINE its fine ITS FINE . I'LL GET MY LICENSE SOON ITS FINE

#cal rambles #HATE DRIVING WITH MY MOM. SHE IS INFURIATING #girl why are you acting like letting someone else go first at a four way stop bc im unsure #is EQUALLY as bad as running a red light #HELLO? HELLO ? HELLO ???? #LITERALLY. WOULDNT HAVE HAD TO WAIT IF U ANSWERED MY QUESTION ABOUT THE TURN BTW #ALSO WHAT EHY CANT I FUCKING WAIT FOR A PEDESTRIAN TO FULLY CROSS THE STREET BEFORE GOING ISNT THAT SAFER ??? ESP IF THERES A KID OR DOG??? #WHAT JS UR PROBLEM. GOD. #sorry im mad <3 #im literally sitting here like. i jusy need to go out driving this weekend and do the route and them i'll be ready to take my teat #test #ive been putting it off but i KNOW im ready. im a good driver #i do a sudden stop one or twice on accident and apologize after ive done like 50 soft stops #and then she does a sudden stop and goes LOL I pulled a [Cal] !!! FUCK YOUUUUUU #cannot wait to go places without her in the fucking car #this is the same woman who took me out driving with other cars on the road for my FIRST TIME EVER BEHIND THE WHEEL #and was SURPRISED when I almost got into an accident

[bangcakes]

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#the more it sinks in... the more surreal it feels. like HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #the Way i doubted whether he wanted to keep in touch with me when literally..... said he would... how he always answers me... #messages me when he has news kr something to say..... hangs out with people he doesnt like just to have like.. moments with me.... #i really cant handle it OYXKYDKYTKDDO #its so fuckin weird. like even if we end up just friends... the experience has been so wild..... #like lmao this time last year we had had like. 1 conversation JDJDJDJXJZJZ #literally sat a seat away from each other an entire semester and dint talk til the last day. oh its so funny #god i cant believe we're friends.... #i havent talked to him since i saw him last week at that dinner.. i cant really think of anything to say BDDNDDNNDND #been focusing on job applications #i handed a second one in yesterday and started a third today. hoping to have it done tomorrow but... its not due until feb so... i have som #time to perfect it :)))) #i really hate this stuff. like god it takes so much out of me..... #i'll probs update him on how many ive applied to idk. trying not to overthink HDJDJDJDJDJJ #im not really the type to message unnecessarily and neither is he so hhhhhh lmao #itll be fine.... #personal #have i mentioned hes my favourite :p

[udurghsigil]

can't stress enough that you guys don't have to answer every single ask you get. in fact you can just delete them. especially if they are causing you psychic damage.

#x #re: last reblog and that one post that critiques the idea of not responding to anon hate #if someone is trying to bait you in your asks then delete it you are not obligated to answer every stranger's questions #especially if they're extremely fucking probing questions #and if u get hate its better to just let that shit go by deleting it #i cant think of a single person who has benefited in any way from responding to hate. #it doesnt make you look bad like that one post implies but it definitely exacerbates your own negative reaction to it #at random sometimes ill get a guy sending me a bunch of hate at once and guess what. nobody ever knows bc i delete it #and as a result i dont remember what the guy even said in the first place. out of sight out of mind #but back to the baiting shit - ppl bait me sometimes too and its so easy to just delete an ask taking ur comments in bad faith #very few ppl will continue to take ur shit in bad faith so if u just delete the annoying anons then it doesnt become a bigger issue

[arolesbianism]

Every day I mourn the fact that none of my family and friends give a single shit abt oni lore, I don't wanna keep repeating shit I've already said before on here but every now and then I just remember the horrors™ and nearly explode not being able to scream abt it again

#rat rambles #oni posting #just everytime I think abt olivia's 1500 cycle onwards logs I want to start biting things #shes soooo fucked up and tragic and she doesnt get any closure and she never will and I LOVE it #I fucking love her so much she rewired my brain so hard shes like one of The blorbos of all time #damn you klei you rly know how to make characters that destroy me beyond repair (hi carter twins) #I still find it fun imagining olivia and jackie interacting with the dont starve cast even if they wouldn't like most of them #I have lightly changed my mind on one dynamic tho #I still think that jackie would be stressed out by all the kiddos and would at least dislike them. but. #I do think she could end up kind of getting along with walter #like look at me. she was probably just like him as a kid. she would hate him for it but they could also talk for hours. #hed start sharing fun facts abt his bug collection and jackie would start lecturing him abt ants or whatever and hed think shes so cool #I think olivia still wouldn't like him tho but that's purely because hed probably stress her out #same with the rest of the kiddos I think if you put webber in the room with the two of them theyd both have a breakdown #not because hes a spider solely because hes a little boy who probably just asked them if he can have icecream #and wendy and abby would just be a situation of them not knowing how to talk to kids let alone depressed kids #oh and theyd probably also be stressed out by wurt for basic they dont know how to deal with kids reasons #rly the two would just hang out with wickerbottom and no one else if they could help it #except wanda they'd bother her non stop to the point shed start avoiding them lol #you see Im sure plenty of the cast wouldnt like olivia and jackie either because of just how much they wouldn't take magic as an answer #not that theyd be like no that cant be real cause thatd be magic theyd more likely start sciencing out the mechanics of all the magic stuff #in practical terms while also refusing to call it magic #and worst of all knowing them theyd probably get results because fuck man they brute forced their way into time travel (sort of) so why not #so itd just be maxwell being soooo pissed as the two somehow manage to replicate his spells without the codex #dont let them meet wagstaff then itd rly be jover

[nathandrakeisabottom]

Wait why you don’t write x reader anymore? I probably missed something important

hey friend!!

oh dude, ya girl went through a whole uc4-motivated self discovery emotional rollercoaster off camera, which was why she (she being me) disappeared in the first place. uc and the fandom itself just wasn't jiving with my very sensitive college-grad-during-pandemic-first-entering-the-world brain and it made me feel really sad about life and my place in it for a while. you know how us young folk put too much importance on media and whether or not it's trying to tell us what to do in life. it's a video game. my ass was playing it thinking i was never gonna be happy bc uc4's ending made me sad and i wasn't like elena. boo hoo.

anyway that's a lot of non-answer, but basically just because it all got too personal, i guess. i find it feels weird and inauthentic and honestly makes me a little sad lately to try to write for a general audience. uc4 fucked with me, man. it got personal. this wasn't no fandom shit anymore for funzies, it got me rethinking my LIFE, dude. I voice act and do mocap. Like, that's what I DO now. because i got horny once. it's too much power, man.

anyway in full simple truth, for my own sake, i think it's best to let the intimate, personal stuff stay intimate and personal. even if there is a part of me that would love to share them one day. i just dont know if it'll ever feel like the right, true thing to remove the 'me' part of my work.

i got the biggest fic of all damn time coming in hot that unloads every single thing i have to say about uncharted and basically life itself, so rest assured this bitch has done ANYTHING but stop writing, it's just become it's own thing. it's bizarre. nothing like this has ever happened with a fandom/piece of media before. lucky timing, i guess. or side effect from covid.

anyway i dont think there's any harm and it'd in fact bring me a lot of joy if you wanted to send in a request anyway. i 100% can't guarantee it'll be something that'll click, but maybe a bullet point list here and there wouldn't hurt. i can always see what i can do. or hell, maybe i'll send you a secret file from the vaults if you bribe me hard enough. i mean that.

thanks for the ask, it makes my little actor ass feel perceived by the loving public <3 aaaand makes me smile knowing there's still some of us roaches crawling through the tom holland wasteland

🧡 S

#anon: “yeah im not reading all that” #shea speaks #hey anon!!! #thank you for asking!! and im sorry for this not being the answer you wanted at all!! #sometimes art is too personal #i know i hate that shit too #also being a woman is hard every once in a while i gotta believe and put stock in my dream man loving me before i share that love w/ others #but yeah shit's like throwing an axe into my heart #i cant imagine someone reblogging those specifically and going 'omg this is so jessica mcjessicaton x nate - core!! <3 :3 >:3' #or 'omg this literally screams bakugo x midoriya' #while 100% taking a piss #piss away to the other stuff though oh my god i'd be honored it's like the best part of the day #im sure i have a few mini drabbles in there i could consider altering one day maybe

[mxwhore]

Sometimes hating is cathartic. Being a hater sometimes is within the natural range of emotions and it’s never good to repress those.

Take a moment to be a hater, and once it’s out of your system, reflect on the things you hated on. What did you hate on? Why did you hate on it? What about it made you hate on it? Is it something that is genuinely bad (i.e nazis) and deserves to be hated on? Or is the hating from personal preference, such as liking/disliking broccoli? Is the hating constructive toward your own emotional state?

Accept that hating is part of the Feelings soup.

Im just hating on some family members and my current state of being

#my granny aunt (who is arguably my real grandma since the other two mistreat me/forget i exist) is sick #so my mom and i are looking after her and her farm #thats not the thing that got me hating btw we luv her #her son fucking sucks #he is always ready to take advantage of her #he is currently in the beach living it big. he called her two days ago and when she told him he was feeling sick he started giving her shit #like its HER fault being 79 years old and running her own farm without help #so my nan hung up on him. one day later he called again all hugs and kisses saying he will be there for the weekend with all his family #which like GREAT except it isnt #because they have HER do everything and they will be prolly off to the village festival #so yeah #very angry very sad for my nan #hating on my current state of being is the usual tho lmao cant fix that just live with it #tessa answers! #also i slept like ass so

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

i would prefer it if my dog didnt try and come help me when im throwing up like jay, this is lovely support and all but i dont want to near this, trust me, you dont either

#kai rambles #personal #delete later #tw vomit #this is mostly a vent post because i hate throwing up #like im consistently ill but vomiting is not a common symptom for me #and thank god for that because this is the actual worst #i also havent been able to take any of my 19 daily medications for two days because the only thing ive kept down is small pots of jelly/o #like i very much need to take these medications #this is my not going blind medication #the one good thing about not being able to keep things down is that i can very clearly tell because if you put food next to me #i can smell the ah ill throw up if i eat this #so at least it doesnt come back up #so its mostly liquid and something that i hope isnt blood but i dont know why theres something red in there #im having a great day can you tell #tbf i slept for like six hours early after like a 13 hour sleep #also like nhs 111 stop asking me if my chest feels cold #i cant reliably answer this i have nerve damage and cant detect cold #do it feel cold? i dont fucking know

[curseofbreadbear]

No wonder Gregory isn't chased by Vanny all game. She can't find him on the cameras.

AKDHJSHFHSHS THIS IS THE ONLY ACCEPTABLE EXPLANATION FOR THE LACK OF VANNY APPEARANCES , THANK YOU

#{ i was the one TAKING screencaps and i still cant find him for a hot sec when i look back at em } #{ hes too tiny lmao. hed probably hate it especially if it was pointed out but- } #{ little does he know that in his situation its basically a superpower } #{ HE CAN LITERALLY FIT IN STROLLERS AND A CHEST CAVITY MEANT FOR BIRTHDAY CAKE / PINATAS. I MEAN?????? } #🎬 || there are secrets that will be unwound! (answered.) || 🎬 #🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬

[tabzanite]

sometimes it genuinely escapes me that i have an identity that no one else has

i am me, yknow

#When you take an original character and slap on a new race or feature of identity to them you're saying you cant make an original characte #character with that kind of value. #like sometimes i forgot not everyone else is bengali American and when i find another one out in the wild its like #woah.... woah hi #and then it really like hits me yknow #cuz i can be as homo as i want. its easy to find others #but to find a bengali person with similar interests to me? i don't have that #aint even gotta be bengali. love my pakistani and indian siblings #and ig seein velma doin the race swappy thing #at first i was like “bro does it really matter all that much man like its a shit show stop getting angry over it” i was #honestly treating it lik rage bait lmaooo i still dont think its fully processed its not #but then i saw another bengali dude talk about it. like actually talk about it #and then it hit me like. i am south asian. this velma is south asian. #but is she actually? is this character I am seeing right now #is this what people see when they learn i am brown? is this what they imagine? is this an actual brown women? #and the answer is no. maybe if it was mindy kaling then yes it would be #now i cant say race swapping makes me angry. i don't care bro #literally its so much more EFFORT to care and why should i it'll all die down when its over #hate watching does nothing but fuel the things you dislike #but ig i rlly like sat down and thought about it. like rlly think about it #this character. even if the original ip WAS south asian. or even if this was an original character #its not perpetuating what its like. no no no not at all #its just putting the label on #making it known and #i dont know man i never expected stuff like this to irk me #i saw the guy i watch say this that stuck with me #smthn like that #and idk man #sorry for the rant but FUUUUUCK its hit me my identity is my identity

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#i really fucking hate how hard i was dissociating in class #and it happened before too when i wasnt on these meds yet #i wasn't even high. #i rly hate having to acknowledge that im like this. over and over again. that this is a reality #. and i hate having to acknowledge that im disabled in public #like im in pain in public. or occasionally limping. or needing to sit down. or looking half dead. or god worst of all being visibility #mentally ill that one makes me wanna dig myself into the dirt and never come out #i hate that im not all there. that i cant be no matter how hard i try. and then im in the middle of fucking class like #who am i? #im so used to it but its still so much to put up with all the goddd damn time and all the time having to pretend that im ok or sane or #remotely funcitoning and not lowkey having a flashback in the middle of fucking class for unknown reasons. while this brain works overtime #to mask it take it to the inner and shove someone else in the front #......... god this is why ive actually kinda enjoyed my self imposed period of solitude #and even so when my parents are sround i still have to do thst almost 24/7 #like i just wanna be insane in peace fjkdd left in my own soup as we say in romanian.... it takes too much effort to mask with strangers #... idk it makes it hard too when i meet people in person sometimes? because the moment the conversation gets past casual its like... #i want to answer your questions. i do not want to lie. but i also dont particularly want to tell the truth... tho i am not fond of telling #half truths either #... this is why over the years ive prefered 2 places to meet people 1)tumblr 2)psych ward lmaoo but fr. its the same vibe #because in a ward people are at their realest. no bullshit. all vulnerability. some of the realest most genuine impactful connections ive #made w ppl have been in wards.... and. tumblr is the one place outside or wards lmao. or my own brain. where im..... where i dont mask #where i dont put an effort to mask #... so when ppl start talking to me on here (even tho im at times bad at replying sorry idk why its so hard for me i need to work on it) #its like. well. you already have likely known for months or years that im fucking insane so 🤷‍♀️ #.......... i didnt used to be this anxious. and to be honest im not quite sure i seem anxious either because i have been told too often i #seem confident? charasmatic? self assured? bitch fucking where i feel like slippery cold noodles inside from anxiety #.... its partially that im not used to being around so many ppl anymore. its partially the more severe trust issues ive developed again as #of late... but at the same time probability my general fedupness thsts been brewing for 12 years with a lotta the culture here isnt helping #either... but... I also think ive just.... ive become incredibly incredibly frustrated with my mental and physical illnesses lately.. very #and their(my) limitations which i hate acknowledging. and all this fucking shame i got too over it. when i accepted it myself i did no care

[horce-divorce]

I'm so tired of being tired yall. I'm tired of being sick. but I get to be sick forever, hastag confirmed, I have a ~rare disorder~ with a poor prognosis. it basically is only get worse from here and I just. I'm so tired already, though. how does it still get worse? how do I do this for life?

sorry for posting this shit on main but I can't see my new therapist til July, a lot of my friends don't get this or expressly don't want to hear about it, and I just feel so alone under the weight of the indifference of the universe ykw I mean. and I'm so tired of not having energy to do anything ever all day. I can't even play my games cus i can't stay awake like fuck this

#me #health stuff #all my energy goes into the tedious af task of feeding myself #and that's it thats what i get to do all day cus it takes absolutely everything i have #and i barely enjoy food rn whicb is soooo sad #im a foodie. like im literally remy ratatouille. i love food. but i cant afford to love it rn. #and aside from having 0 energy to socialize #this is part of why its been hard to answer msgs and reach out to friends. #my one friend has wanted to chat on the phone for months and ugh i hate the phone but ill do it for them #usually anyway. i just. idk. #i think a big part of mr doesnt wanna talk at all if i dont have smth nice to say #and i really dont rn #hard to be optimistic abt the choices i was given and uh. how others apparently fare w this.

[be-good-to-bugs]

ok why am i SO tired what the fuck

#the bin #i went to sleep yesterday at 4pm and then woke up at midnight. was uo an hour n ate a snack. and then went back to bed till 12 #and then i went back to bed at 6pm. i got up at 10:40 and now its 2:30am and im SO tired #i cant sleep tho cause i gutta do laundry and then shower and then work. im only working a 4 1/2 hour shift tho #and then i have 3 days off. i can take big day long nap in that case. #i only even got up at 10:40 bc i wanted the kitty paws so i woke up specifically to boop. or else id of stayed in bed till now #cause i had an alarm to do laundry at 2am. hhhh. i wish i wasnt so sleepy. its so annoying. i oove sleepy but not when i have stuff to do #i guess it does make sense. i was SO behind on sleep for a week and then got even more behind bc of cleaning and stuff #but cant you just wait one more day? couldnt you do this tomorrow after im done working??? guess not. oh well. #im really upset i didnt get an answer from my mom yet. she said april 1st. she coulda at least texted me to say she doenst know yet #shes probs busy and forgot but. im so stressed abt this. if i dont fall asleep by the time shes done work tomorrow maybe i can call #hhh. i hate having this on my mind 100% of the time. its so stressful. my heart is constantly racing. my breathing is bad bc of it #having a constant anxiety attack sucks. maybe thats why im so tired too. i guess it is oretty exhausting. hhh. and its making me sad so #whatever. itll be fine. i do believe itll be good news. it HAS to be good news. i dont have mych basis for thinking itll be good news beside #asking some cards and like. i enjoy cartomancy but i dont put that much weight on it. but its all i have. it WILL be good news