#i get it regardless but it feels like a lot rn

[moongothic]

I love the crocodad theory a lot but I fear that the fandom will start misgendering him or respect the character less because of transphobia.

Oda have written queer characters before who are respected by the fandom such as Bonclay but for Crocodile its another story. He is their alpha male badass character and adding queerness to his character might make them mad. Not that I care about those bigots feelings but its already not easy to navigate this fandom without queerphobia being thrown in your face.

Ppl can digest a queer character who fit in the stereotypes but once they dont, its another story.

Same, people are weird as fucking hell and gross about Crocodile maybe being trans already, we can be sure it would get worse if him being trans was confirmed in the story, there would be absolutely no avoiding it

But at the same time...

Transphobes are gonna be transphobes regardless, and I don't want that to become a reason for any storyteller to not create trans characters. I don't want Oda to bend over backwards to please the transphobes when they're the ones in the wrong. If anything, I want Oda to just go all the way with the message of queer liberation and freedom in One Piece. Like it's not perfect, but it's already there, but it's so subtle many queerphobes have been able to ignore it this whole time and I don't want Oda to let them ignore it anymore. I want him to rub it into their faces so hard they'll start complaining about "Oda going woke"

And like, let's be real. If Crocodile was trans and Oda pulled it off just right (without falling into certain pitfalls that he's be stumbling with this whole time with queer rep), that could unironically be like. Great not just trans rep but trans masc rep in particular

Like maybe it's just the media I've consumed but trans masc rep is typically very non-existant and/or very much like Yamato, who, while valid as hell, might not be how many trans masc people want to be seen as by others (as in, "confused girls")

We've known Crocodile as a character for 23 years at this point, and for the first 8-9 years of that he was very much seen as A Manly Cis Man (like you said) without a hint of a doubt (until Impel Down). If it turned out he had been trans this whole time, that would force people to rethink how they view trans people.

As just regular fucking people

That person you knew for years turned out to be trans? So what? What does that actually change about them? It's still the same person deep down. Those are the things Oda could force people to think about.

And honestly? If that helped convert even just a single transphobe, or educate someone without an opinion on trans people, to just letting trans people live their lives in peace, I think it'd be worth it

But like, yeah. The transphobes are gonna be loud regardless. It fucking sucks, and I hate the fandom for it. But, damned if you do, damned if you don't, there's no avoiding it. And I think the potential positive impact would outweight the already festering negativity.

#Moon posting #Sir Crocodile #CW Discussion of transphobia #Mind you this is assuming Oda pulled it off right #By which I mean he doesn't give Crocodile some stupid fucking excuse to why he transitioned #Like ''wanted to escape being a woman'' or ''because being a woman was weak'' or something fucking stupid #I don't think Oda knows what gender dysphoria even is so the idea of Crocodile transitioning to deal with that feels like a bloody pipedrea #But literally even just ''preferred being a man'' would be fine #The bar. Is so fucking low #My other thing is that I absolutely do not want to see him get detransitioned. At all. #Like a lot of people have been speculating that the reason we never see Crocodile use Haki might be because it could detrans him #And regardless of if that's canon or not-- I do not want to see him detransition. At all. #If we see him pre-t in a flashback that's fine #I just don't want to see him have to sacrifice his comfort for a dramatic scene where he has to ''go all out'' or something #(Especially because knowing Oda there is no way he would do that without sexualizing him for no good reason) #Honestly I am more concerned about Oda fucking it up than the fandom being gross #My bar is so fucking low and yet so impossibly high for Oda #Also what gets me about Crocodile is that usually the queer characters are young and/or amab #And this is true for literally all of the other queer rep in OP rn #Crocodile is almost a middle aged trans man and honestly would that not be like a breath of fresh fucking air #OP Meta

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[sonknuxadow]

im so tired of literally everything being a reboot or a remake or revival or sequel or whatever nowadays. i dont always hate that sort of thing i can name some adaptations and reboots and stuff that i like but so many of these things arent even GOOD adaptations and the companies making them either wont make anything else or wont bother to promote any of their original shows or movies and to top it all off so many original and unique things get cancelled while the endless pool of disney live action remakes and shitty adaptations continues to grow. i cannot do this anymore velma was the final straw it looks so bad

#the fact that the owl house got a shortened final season while velma is allowed to exist makes me want to explode people with my mind #velma just looks really bad in general tbh regardless of whether or not its connected to scooby doo #but part of what makes it so bad is that it clearly wasnt written with the scooby doo characters in mind #they just put them there because theyre popular and people will watch the show for them #or maybe that wasnt their intention. but from the clips ive seen it certainly feels like it was #also people are gonna kill me for this one but. i feel similarly about wednesday. #it feels like they just wrote a show completely separate from the addams family and slapped wednesday addams onto it so ppl would watch it #and like i understand and am ok with the fact that reboots and adaptations will sometimes have different takes on the characters #im Literally a sonic fan. who likes the games and the comics and the movies and the shows. of course i know that. #but. idk. something about the shows i just mentioned #doesnt feel like a reimagining of an existing thing or an adaptation that changes a few things #it feels like something that wasnt even written with those characters in mind they were just put in there for money reasons #also the comment about original things getting cancelled isnt about insidej ob or whatver its called idk anything about that show #just felt the need to clarify since. a lot of people are mad about that rn and i thought people might asssume i was talking about that

[theragamuffininitiative]

🥴

#sometimes i get the impression that jj's false arrogance actually turns over into false modesty #and idk how i feel about that #and definitely it has to do with the fallout of thing in 2020-2021 with other people #it just makes me sad sometimes to see him come into his own and be appreciated #but feel like he has an attitude that he deserves it #which is complicated bc personally i think he *does* deserve it lol #but idk humility is a very admirable trait and it just seems like something lost a lot of the time #ragamusings in the tags #been thinking about this for a couple years but that video (as adorable and funny as it is) #bothered me in that way too #like am i just projecting here or is there merit to me pulling back my admiration of him a lil bit #(and not just him but mostly him rn) #ok anyways thanks for coming to my ramble #i wish him all the best regardless

[dahldahlbills]

nano day 20-25

20- 1952

21- 771

22- 643

23&24- 0 (don’t look at meeee I didn’t have time lol)

25- 2233

Total word count: 32149, 25885 towards main wip (!!!)

I didn’t realize how many days had gone by without updating lol but it’s fine bc it’s not like anyone’s really keeping track

anyway it’s v apparent I’m not hitting the 50k BUT IT’S OKAY! I’ve made peace with it. It was p dumb of me to start the month going “I just wanna write as much as I can” bc obv I was setting myself up for disappointment. So if I’m able to reach just 30k on my main wip, I’ll be happy.

Also patting myself on the back for reaching +25k, I think the 30k will be v feasible with the remaining 5 days. That’s <1k a day!

Also finished the 12th scene! We’re over a third of the way through the project :D (which admittedly is around where I hit my typical story middle slump, but I’m hoping I can remain consistent after November)

#also ​abt the 50k. I posted a fic too so that’s worth celebrating #I’ve written a lot I’m def not discrediting that #plus those extra 20k words are gonna get written regardless just not within this month it’s fine #I’m expecting this project to be ~75-80k #so there’s gonna be plenty left to do after November anyway #scene 13 is a Big Emotional scene so I hope I don’t flub it up #but I’m excited for it I think it’ll be good. I’ve had ideas for this scene in particular for a while #so its crazy that I’m finally writing it #I def feel like this entire story has been a HOT mess so far #mostly bc these characters have been living in my head for so long that I keep forgetting the gradual progression of their development #I feel like I keep skipping significant moments in their growth bc I’m so used to how they’re /supposed/ to be #but it’s cool. I never expected a lot of this draft to be solid anyway but what matters is that it’s something to work with!! #also feel like it jumps around a lot. like the flow between scenes isn’t entirely clear #and that’s mostly bc I don’t wanna write scene connectors rn lol #but that’s always something I can grumble and groan about later #dahl does nano 23

[whomturgled]

u know what i should actually make some sorta new years resolution or goals or predictions or smthn. rachel my therapist from 2017 if you're out there this ones for you girl<3

#i will inevitably forget all abt them<3 #2017 is the last time i had a consistant therapist i think lol YIKES #she'd be so proud of me probably<33 #i saw someone say theyre gonna make predictions and put it in an envelope w their taxes so next year they can see what they got right #and that sounds fun but i just know i will lose the envelope but maybe thats kinda poetic in itself #bc ONE DAY i'll find it idk how many yrs into the future and thatll be fun #in theory i MIGHT move this year (its complicated<3 i would have to go on a whole essay w diagrams explaining that) but i imagine like #if i dont lose it b4 itd get lost in my stuff while packing and maybe id find it while unpacking and then lose it again LOL?. #just like. knowing me #i also feel like i will end up not having accomplished a lot of the things i set out to do or having them have gone a very different #direction but yknow? thats just life! itll be interesting regardless #i dont actually have the attention span rn to do this silly lil goal setting but maybe later. which tbh is the adhd demons talking #i will forget later and this will all have been moot but teehee

[orcelito]

Probably am not gonna attend lab in the morning, bc I have complete certainty that if I do, I am going to have a complete mental breakdown (as if I haven't already been in the midst of one)

I'll email my professor if I'm unable to finish the lab by the end of the day. He's pretty understanding about this stuff, & if I get some points docked for being late, it's not the end of the world. I've been doing well in this class, overall.

What I AM going to do. Is call the damn psychological services in the morning. Bc Clearly, I am not coping well.

#speculation nation #i laid down to sleep 2 hours ago. to no one's surprise i am still awake. #i need smth stronger than melatonin. i need horse tranquilizers. #i keep thinking like 'oh i feel relatively okay. i'm probably just being dramatic' #but then i think about the stressors and it's like a record-scratch in my brain. #and regardless of how i'm doing overall. or rather how i Think i'm doing. this night still happened. #i regressed Undeniably and this is a clear sign that i need some fucking help #if for nothing else than like. mood stabilizers or whatever lmfao. #i'm trying to think about what actually happened. what Led to this. but i'm struggling to conceptualize it. #i left work. had a brief sit out in the sun. read some fanfic. #then I went home and just... something in my brain went wrong. #combination lab stress and stress over my other class And also the horrid state of my apartment rn #that's... probably part of it... or a lot of it really... #my brain went numb. a record scratch. and i was unable to go to my default coping strategy bc of the meeting and lab #and... yeah. muscle memory i guess. and a strange sense of brain fog. it just kinda happened. #i've been drinking more lately. not enough to impact my health. and i wouldnt say i'm addicted. #i never drink more than one or two drinks at a time. Maybe 3. just enough to get a pleasant tipsy going #but it's like an itch. the moment im feeling bad. stressful day at work. low mood. Whatever #i want to drink. both as a form of self harm and as a form of brain numbing. stabilizing my mood. #ah. that's the central thing here huh. i guess i really do need help. #sorry for hashing through it here. it's just almost 2 am and i dont rly wanna talk to anyone anyways. #just. tonight is just. the longest weariest sigh imaginable. #negative/ #self harm ment/ #alcohol ment/ #i dont want to talk about specifics about what happened bc i dont want people to try to tell me what to do #and i know they would. they always do. Always saying just 'dont do that' instead of considering why i do #better to just do as i will and not mention it. bc in the end no one can fucking stop me. #... but it would probably be good to talk to someone who could help me balance it. give me better ways to cope i guess #i dont know. it's complicated. i just feel a weird sense of dread when someone expresses worry. i dont like it.

[confinesofmy]

my heart is full of love and my head is full of hope everything will be okay not because it will be smooth sailing from here but because i am ready to weather the storm amen

#i'm starting to get very annoyed at my... it's not mood swings #well no maybe it is #everything is so fucking bad and i feel like i'm holding my breath just trying to make it through the hour for daaaays #and then it hits me #everything will be alright #and not even a forced lack of worry but like a deep-seated placidity #when i'm bad i can't think straight & i don't know what i can do about my dysregulation & i try not to obsess so i don't lose it even more #when i'm okay i'm so relieved it's over & i'm gonna be alright now everything's going to be okay i don't need to focus on the negatives #so either way i'm having a lot of difficulty getting to the bottom of exactly what's triggering what here #things just happen okay #i'm not that worried about it #but i know that's fucking only bc i'm on the 'good' end of the spectrum rn #oh well whatever the love's real and i'm not wrong to hope‚ fucking... regardless #i need a once a week shrink lol ;_; #i need to outsource this ;_; #adams year from hell

[filmcel]

my fear w leaving school and moving to work full time is i end up doing that for the rest of my life

#working full time is scary. cuz there’s so little time #and by full time i just mean more than 4 shifts a week #cuz rn i typically work friday sat sun and tues #captain’s log #but school rn takes away a lot of opportunity for work . #i could open kitchen any day of the week if i wasn’t in scho #school* #that’s 7.5 hours everyday #for something easy that i can handle and so #and id be home by five o clock #and get to enjoy my evening . which is all i rlly care about #but the fear about doing that for the rest of time #is that i have friends who’ve been working there since they were teenagers #and now they’re in their 20s #i don’t wanna do that #not that it’s bad cuz they’re cool ppl and they still seem to enjoy their lives regardless #but i can’t live w my parents for that much longer #and i wanna do something that’s fulfilling to me creatively in some way. #my job does give me some sort of satisfaction #but it’s also just @_@ #eugh #But whatever whatever whatever #i just want to create #but it feels like there’s always something in the way

[minimoefoe]

my troy fixation mostly leaving and being replaced by a fixation with endless content is truly the best christmas gift I coulda asked for like one thing about me is I'm gonna try my best to obsess over something that's current so it's not really a surprise that ftwd ending has made my troy obsession lessen slightly (tho he has appeared in my dreams two nights in a row now so...) and after spending like 7 months fixating on a character with barely any content the dw fixation returning is a solid development idk (tho i've been into things with far less content than troy has so it coulda been wayyyy worse, i remember being pleasently surprised at how many ppl were still posting about try despite him being dead 6yrs, and then ofc it picked up a bit once he was rumoured and confirmed to be alive with didnt happen too long after i got obsessed with him)

I do think tho that troy has become kinda a consistent interest of mine like twd became near the end of last year and like dw has been since 2019 like even tho I'm not thinking about him all day and likely have another fixation on the go, I can always go back to a bit of troy/ftwd content yknow I'm not abandoning it like I do with basically every other obsession I have except dw and twd

#dw txt #twd txt #and like dw is my fave thing ever so the fixation was probs gonna come back regardless but anyways #i kinda wonder how my fixations woulda played out if troy hadnt came back #bc i think my obsession grew a bit before it was rumoured that he was returning #i imagine the fixation would have died down a lot sooner if i didnt have new content to keep me going #it probs woulda gone naturally but i also likely would have tried to ween myself off it #bc i really dont like the feeling of obsessing over something when theres not much content to kinda feed the obsession bc #its just horrifically unsatisfying and lowkey lonely #like i spent a months or so early this year back in my oitnb era and it was Haunting how little content there is rn #bc obviously the show ended years ago #(also oitnb is one of the few fixation i get where it just makes me sad no matter what like idk it really just fucks with me but anyways) #anyways idk where this was going

[the-kipsabian]

im quite honestly very surprised that ive only ever once gotten a shitty message in regards of my love for kip, considering how indifferent and hostile the world seems towards him and in comparison how passionate i am about this stupid annoying british man

#i mean i dont mind at all dont get me wrong LMAO #i just feel like it would be very obvious to yell at me how i have a shit taste and how awful he is and i am for supporting him #hes done nothing wrong. i love him for very personal reasons #to the one anon that once told me he would never fuck me youre right. he has an extremely lovely wife and hes faithful and in love as shit #also i dont want to so lmao #anyways. i just keep thinking about this a lot cause i feel extra annoying rn flooding all tags with things including him so 💜💜 #love and peace on planet earth cause hopefully night can see kip wrestling in person in four weeks exactly asjndkans #night is an absolute mess on main #(also to add i say 'hopefully see him wrestle' cause theres absolutely no confirmation on the card yet. tho i'll be there regardless)

[toastsnaffler]

nvm im too tired and overstimulated for this shit

#.vent #i only slept a couple hours last night man. i cant do short notice evening socials on an empty tank let alone resist unexpected rsd #if they had let me know earlier then i wouldve taken a nap and worked out beforehand to get my energy back up #idk just. if u rly want my company then maybe u should actually invite me next time. its not like they didnt plan it #even if they just forgot its not particularly pleasant to be the one person insignificant enough to forget abt. theres only 5 of us #they rly remembered to ask the one guy who isnt even here before me yknow. ugh u see the stupid thoughts i have to battle!! #like on a rational level ik it was probably genuinely accidental. but the way i instinctively react is not always rational #so regardless someone has to deal with the emotional fallout and thats me. regulating this shit is hard work even when im NOT tired asf #i really really dont want to be an asshole and spoil anyones fun bc its no-ones fault + as real as it feels to me rn ik im overreacting #but i cant voluntarily expose myself to personal triggers when im already exhausted + more vulnerable than usual #so just gotta shut myself in my room and deal with it in my own super healthy ways as per usual. may they never fucking find out #trying my best not to be an asshole i hope to fucking god they dont think im being an asshole i just told them i was tired + i meant it #this wouldnt be so much of a problem if it hadnt happened to me before. and also ik its bc one rsd trigger makes me more sensitive- #to picking up unrelated cues but there ARE other things they do that i find ostracising which rly dont fucking help. but- #theyre not things i can actually confront them abt so usually i just gotta deal w it which is fine but it lowers my general tolerance #its ok. its ok i like them all a lot theyre lovely ppl and it doesnt matter if there is a some grain of truth in the things im thinking #bc the risk of me believing + acting on a bad faith irrational thought leads to outcomes that are far worse than those from #misidentifying someones malicious behaviour towards me as neutral by accident/in good faith. okay im done now i think #just ignore me spewing out the old brain gunk on main again eurgh anyway im gonna go calm myself and read and SLEEP #ill be normal by tomorrow morning farewell comrades #honestly i dont mind dealing w shit this way bc its the best option for everyone but man. sometimes its so fucking lonely #like there are sides of me ppl will never engage with and for good reason but without them being acknowledged i find it rly hard to feel- #any real emotional intimacy or closeness with another person. but what other option is there #i sure as hell dont miss the fights i used to constantly get into when i wasnt able to regulate myself i lost so many friends that way #it is what it is. on we go for now

[attaboy-art]

30 and 6 for the ask game

thank you for the ask!! <3

30. what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

oohhh... talking to my friends definitely :D i can be in the worst place in my life and one of my friends can send just the most vile image or video and caption it something absolutely bonkers and ill lose my shit... theyre the funniest and kindest people on the earth i swear. love em to death

6. what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

Woof. UMM i mean. the best thing is definitely the people i meet along the way! getting new mutuals or meeting other artists in the community is always great and i love it!!

worst thing is. definitely the addiction to attention and the burnout. outing myself rn i guess but I always get super worried when my posts start doing worse, or something i worked super hard on doesn't get a lot of interaction, or when i feel i haven't posted enough within a certain amount of time... it can lead to me rushing pieces just so i can publish something online. when that happens i always have to take a step back for a while to remind myself that likes/reblogs =/= my worth as an artist. ive been getting better at realizing when i'm starting to feel burnt out or when social media is getting to me though, so i've been taking a lot of downtime to just relax and work traditionally in my sketchbook or draw my OCs :D it really helps calm me down!

#asks #shoutout to meatball llc #my fellow board members ❤️ #final thoughts on 6. i definitely have a lot to improve upon but i feel im getting better at handling myself online #its taken a long while to get where i am rn but im glad ive gotten better about detaching myself from social media regardless #like. i matter. I matter and my art matters. Notes are not the be-all-end-all of value #i am worthy. i am a human being #etc etc

[annarubys]

thank god there’s two back to back mcr shows again last night was so difficult without them

#i am not in my normal headspace rn but regardless i AM crying partially because i am so thankful i am getting to witness this #like i am kind of going through it this week #but the fact that i am also around for an experience that would have made 14 year old me explode #and that it’s *that* experience that is making me feel better. it’s so insane #like as an adult you find a lot of different things that can comfort you but for it to be something from when you were a kid. GOD. #i hate being earnest i hate it i hate it but i just feel really lucky 🥺 #ANYWAY. if you read these tags no you didn’t <3 #you can rb the post if you want though lmao idc #a.txt #mcr

[heyhihellosworld]

𝐇𝐦?

Lando Norris x reader

Word count: 2.7k

Warnings: Smut

Notes: This was really fun to write but something completely different from what I usually do and probs not as rough as the request maybe sounded but hope it's fine! Thank you for the request! Also I have cero knowledge about frat-life or anything like it but I tried! I literally had to google the term frat :) I'm on a Lando stint rn apparently, third fic in a row so I hope you all like Lando :D

Request: Could you do super cocky frat Lando? Y/N dosen't like him cuz of his attiude. But after lots & lots of flirting, she starts giving in to his charms (and hotness). He's a bit narcissistic, so when he knows she's in the palm of his hand, he has her undress him, asking her how much she likes his muscles, and then he has her get on her knees and kiss him through his underwear, and then he pushes his c*ock down her throat until she has tears in her eyes, and he's smirking and boasting non-stop. Ahhh!

The first time you laid eyes on him was in art class.

He had been sitting up front, dangling his feet in the air whilst playing with his pen on the tree-desk. Something you found so incredibly annoying as the thumping sound never seemed to stop.

His face held a cocky little smirk and despite his obvious good looks which you couldn't deny you disliked him from first sight.

His brown curls dripped into his eyes and his well shaped face eased into a grin as he talked with his friend. Fuck he was pretty.

As time went you saw him more and more often. It was like everywhere you were, he was. You learned his name was Lando, the same age as you and you also learned that your gut feeling had been completely right. Because Lando was not for the weak, he was cocky, bratty, straight forward and thought he was a celebrity along the halls. Arrogant was what he was.

For some reason though he had set his sights on you, why? You had no idea but at every party, every break, every art class, he was there. Trying to flirt his ways into your bed. Maybe it was just the fact that you weren't falling for your knees for him, maybe it was the need to get what he wanted or it was just pure arrogance, but he never gave up.

He was used to getting who he wanted and you couldn't judge, you guessed he was pretty attractive and also pretty charming when he tried but still. He was Lando, the arrogant, cocky guy who was known for sleeping around and getting his way. It was not qualities you were looking for in a man, not even one to only sleep with.

Lando was persistent though, you had to give him that and regardless of how much you hated to admit it he got under your skin. His sweet words of praise, compliments and small not so innocent touches made your heart stutter and heat crawling up your skin.

For every day that went the more you realized how fucking good he looked. His eyes and face so innocent in a way but still so not in other ways.

His body, fuck his body was perfect. Eyes not able to ignore the way his arms flexed or the times he was wearing that stupid t-shirt that made his abs show through the thin fabric. You hated him on those days.

This was one of those days and as every other day so far Lando threw himself down in the seat next to you. Eyes raking your tired outfit for the day.

"How are you beutiful"

"Hello Lando, I'm good thank you" you answered casually. It was weird how this had almost started to become like a routine now, you got used to his company.

"No how are you? Pft Y/n! I thought you were raised well!" Lando spoke teasingly, fingers softly tickling your waist as your eyes rolled. "My deepest apologies Lando, how are you my prince?" "Ohoo here we go, that's better. I'm good thank you very much my princess"

Your eyes rolled again but you couldn't help the heat you felt spreading up your face as a giggle left your lips. Fuck.

"Are you gonna come to the party at friday?" he asked then, looking you straight into the eyes telling you this was an honest question. "Yeah I think so, why?"

"No no, no reason just wanted to ask so I know where to have my focus"

"Oh how charming you are" you huffed but Lando only shrugged "You know I'm popular baby" he spoke teasingly, smirking as you turned your focus away from him.

"You are so pretty baby" he hummed, the line making you grumble to him but you couldn't helpt but to feel the pet-name stirring something deep within you.

You didn't want him to affect you the way he did, you loathed him. Had always done. The way he snapped his fingers and got the things he wanted. The way he acted around, like he was the king of the world and everyone had to adjust and accept his ways. You loathed him, you told yourself, repeating all the reasons over and over to not forget them.

"Sure Lando" you murmured, gently pushing him away from you with an eyeroll. He only sniggered, that smirk that made your skin prickle making it's way onto his face.

"Is that so darling?" he chuckled, placing a hot hand on your hip. By the looks of it to walk past you but you knew it was only another way for him to show his dominance to you, show how much he actually affeccted you despite your tries to hide it.

"How long are you going to deny it hm?" he said lowly, his head bowing to reach your ear-level and it only made him grow cockier, feel more dominance.

"Deny what exactly? That you are a jerk? A jackass?"

Lando chuckled, finding your words more amusing than hurtful as he found your eyes. The colour in them shining with delight and competition.

"Deny that you somewhat find me attractive" he said lowly, watching your eyes blink shut, trying to shut out the hot feeling developing in your core. "I will stop denying it when you stop being such a jerk" you countered, a smirk making it's way to your lips as well as you felt the confidence surge back to you.

At that you left him, blinking sweetly at him before rounding him with an hot hand on his shoulder.

-

It wasn't even an hour until he was next to you again, his hand snaking it's way to your waist as he leaned in to talk directly in your ear. Something that made you all hot and bothered, it had no right to be so hot.

"Why are you acting so hard to get baby? I know you think i'm attractive"

"Attractive sure but I still find you a jackass"

"Hmm I don't think so sweetie"

"You think you know what I want better than I know myself?" you spoke softly looking at him with an innocent flutter of your eyes.

"I know you want me baby, you can't hide how flustered you get when I call you baby or how your eyes grow all wide when I say something dirty to you"

When you said nothing he continued talking again. Voice an octavle lower than before, his breath fanning the side of your face making it even hotter.

"I can't stop thinking about you baby, I don't know why but I can't. I want you, so bad"

Cheesy, the line was cheesy but you still felt the words make you crumble. Slowly but surely giving into him, because afterall, he was so hot.

Lando saw it to, the grin on his face only getting bigger as he continued, knowing that you would soon be eating out of his palm, just like he wanted but at this stage you didn't care. The man was a fucking flirt and he could flirt his ways into people's bed, yours included.

"Yeah? You like this baby, don't you? Picture your cute little mouth stretched around my cock, your sweet sounds as I make you feel good after I've come down your throat"

You felt heat pour into your stomach, all the way through your veins, building up slowly but steadily until it was all-consuming.

Fuck he was good

"You like that hm? I'm gonna have you so lost for me baby, sucking my cock like the good girl you are. Gonna have you undress me and ask for it, would you do that for me?"

You could practically feel the shit eating grin on his lips as you let out a small huff, dangerously close to a moan as you grumbled on your breath.

"Fuck Lando, how are you so good at this? Have you practiced this before?"

Lando laughed at that, his hand on your waist squeezing slightly harder as he hummed. "No, you are my motivation" "Oh gosh that's so cheesy but it still makes me fucking wet" you groaned in his ear, the words making him hum.

"Bet you taste fucking amazing" he mumbled and that was it, you crumbled.

"You gonna do as I say hm?"

You swallowed thickly, he knew all to well how he made you feel, feeding of of it but you couldn't deny it either, couldn't deny him. So you nodded, giving in to your pride for this moment and giving him the power he knew he had over you.

"What was that? Need your words baby"

"Yes" you almost whispered out, his smile big and cocky regardless.

"Yeah? Then undress me sweetie"

It took a moment for you to register his words but when you did you immideately reached for his shoulders. You gently squeezed his shoulders before letting your hands trail down his chest to the zipper of his hoodie.

"Come on baby, get on with it" he smirked, voice rougher than usual as his eyes pinned you down, gleaming with cockiness and victory.

You gently pulled his sweater off before letting your hands run under his white t-shirt. Feeling his muscles tense under your palms as you pulled it over his head.

He was so stunning you couldn't stop staring at him. Everything was just.. yum.

You stood infront of him, eyes fleeting over his toned torso, only feeding his ego and smirk.

"You like what you see hm?" he teased, gently grabbing your hands to settle on his muscular arms. Saliva gathered up in your mouth, swallowing thickly you let your hands slide down his arms and then up again. Your hands moved on instinct, coming up to his shoulders before sliding down his stomach.

"Tell me how much you like them huh? Tell me how much you like my muscles"

"So much, look so good Lan" you hummed, not being able to resist to let your hands wander over his body once more before settling them on his waistband.

"Go on, take them off" he nodded, watching you as your shaky fingers unbottoned the button of his jeans before helping him out of them.

Lando looked at you for a moment, seeming to think over his next move.

"Get on your knees baby"

You fell to your knees before you could even think it through properly, why? You couldn't answer that but all you knew was that for Lando, you wanted to do whatever he said, wanted to please him and his desires.

"Good, come on baby, kiss it" he prompted you, strong hands finding the back of your head and gently nudging your face to his boxer clad cock, straining hard inside the fabric.

You did what he asked, gently leaning forward to kiss him over the material. Your lips softly touching over the visable print of his hard dick, looking up at the Brit's face which looked taken over with lust and cockiness

"Look at you baby, doing everything I ask hm?"

"So gone for me already pretty girl?"

You could only hum, kissing up and down his dick once more before he hooked his fingers under the band, pulling his boxers down swiftly.

"Gonna let me fuck your little mouth princess?" You could no longer find your words, nodding desperately. All the various nicknames making you feel all dizzy and wetter then ever.

You leaned in kissing his dick again but this time without the fabric in the way, basking in the sound he let out before his hands tangled in your hair, not letting you ease into it at all but coaxing your mouth open with one hand before pressing his cock into your open mouth.

You did your best to stop your gagging, breathing through your nose as he set a brutal pace.

"You like that huh?" he smirked at you, not bothering letting you answer, looking into your eyes was answer enough. "Like having my cock down your throat hm?"

"Fuck y/n, taking it so good" he groaned, eyes never leaving yours, loving the way they were tearing up.

You tried your best to keep your mouth open without choking on his dick, marveling in the sounds he let slip past his throat but it was a struggle when he kept his relentless pace up, not letting you paus unless you tapped out.

You blinked through the tears trying to focus on your breathing but it became too hard, instinctively you tried to pull your head back but his grip was strong, keeping you seated until you tapped his thigh, depserate for some air.

He let you up immideately, watching you closely as you panted hard, trying to get your lungs filled with air, calming down your breathing slowly

"You okay baby?" he asked softly, his hand gently rubbing your cheek as you nodded "Yes yes, sorrry"

He shook his head firmly "don't apologise", at that you hummed, locking eyes with him, feeling your insides melt as his sweet eyes looked at you with such care and lust.

When you felt fine you leant forward again, licking a bold stripe from the base up to the tip, letting your tongue lap up the small droplets of pre-cum before opening your mouth, inviting him in once again.

"Fuck, look at you baby" he groaned "Like being used like this hm?"

You couldn't asnwer coherently, just gagged on his cock in response but he seemed to like it enough by the long groan he let out. His head had tipped back and his arms flexed as he held your head steadily.

"Fuck Y/n"

You tried to be at your best behaviour, Lando pulling that out of you. Swallowing around his dick, breathing through your nose and letting him use your mouth. Focusing on the salty taste on your tongue and the proper fucked out look on his face. Arms flexing, face twisting and abs clenching as he got closer and closer to his release.

Fuck he was a sight.

You felt his hips stutter as he fucked into your mouth a few more times before letting your head up.

You looked up at him softly, eyes swam over with tears and saliva dripping down your chin, gasping a few moutfull's of air before you sank down on his dick again, feling his dick twitch in your throat. Apparently he liked your fucked out look.

You had never ever enjoyed giving head as much as you did now, watching his mouth hang open and thighs shaking slightly. His hands came back to the back of your head, holding you deep as he came with a long groan.

He fucked up a few more times grunting words you couldn't understand, voice holding a tinge of despearation as he emptied all he had in your open mouth.

His eyes that had drooped closed open slowly watching your lips as he pulled out of your mouth with a wet pop.

Eyes almost hazing over as you swallowed, licking your lips as you blinked up innocently at him, he was just as effected by you as you were by him.

A wry smile made it's way up your face at the realization, looking at his fucked out face before speaking up in a sweet soft voice that made his softening cock want to harden again.

"As good as you imagined then baby?"

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[routeless-writer]

Adored your lilia smut

can I request body worship and breeding link with lilia??

ANON YOU ARE SPEAKING MY LANGUAGE RN. Thank you hun! I’m so glad you and so many people liked it, I honestly didn’t expect it to blow up like it did! Happy to write for my favorite old man.

MC pronouns: GN/NB (no pronouns used, implied they/them)

CW: NSFW, breeding kink/breeding talk, pregnancy talk, excessive praise/body worship, Lilia being a brat dom, Lilia also being filthy, mod mezzo ALSO being filthy, oral sex mentions (reader receiving), marking, blood/biting/vampirism mention (it’s Lilia, so), light light LIGHT possessiveness, the slightest degradation (I use slut like once), i say he’s a tits man and then clarify that the tits are gender neutral and just mean your chest.

Listening to: Casket – Ren Zotto

Now Lilia is a dom that’s heavy on praise

He will absolutely degrade you if you ask for it, but his favorite thing is watching you squirm from even the smallest of compliments. He wants his baby bat to know how much he loves them!! Especially when you have just the cutest reactions to it.

Think Gomez Addams if Gomez was a switch leaning dom (because Mr. Addams is like, canonically a sub lol)

He follows you around a lot, even more so when he’s horny or finds himself having…baby fever, shall we say?

He can’t help it! He’s been wanting to raise another kid and all, and the thought of getting to spend a domestic life with you…the thought of you carrying his child…even if you physically can’t, he still finds himself hot and bothered at the idea. Plus, adoption is always something you two could discuss if you were serious about the actual breeding portion of the breeding kink, but wouldn’t be able to have kids/didn’t want to go through pregnancy.

Unless you’re shorter than him, he’ll likely be the perfect height for him to rest on your chest, and even if you are shorter than him, I can see him being quite attached to your upper body, regardless of whether there is boobage there or not and regardless of level of boobage.

What can I say, he’s a tits man (read tits as gender neutral)

So it’s the first thing he goes for with praise

He’ll casually slide a hand up your shirt at any given time to feel you up, resting his head on your shoulder and humming little compliments in your ear about how soft your skin is, how warm you are, how he just wants to bite down on your cute little nipples and–oh, look at that! They’re already hard hehe

“Khehehe, are you that sensitive, darling? Don’t worry, if it works you up that much, I’ll make sure to take care of you. I love the way your body reacts to just the slightest touch…so gorgeous.”

Lils is an oral fiend, too, and it’s one of his favorite ways to worship you. He’d gladly get on his knees for his precious baby bat at the drop of a hat. Holding your hips in place as he nestles between your thighs and tastes your arousal, his eyes rolling back dramatically so he can show you just how sweet you are to him. Don’t move too much, darling. It’s his job to pleasure you!

“So good. So good for me…you taste perfect…such a sweet pet, all the blood rushing here…be careful, I might just devour you.~”

Obviously it’s hard for him to be vocal with his tongue on your clit/your cock down his mouth, so the heavy praise comes when he finally gets to fuck you.

Lilia typically either opts for doggy or mating press. He loves seeing you ass up, face buried into the pillow as he rams into you, but when his breeding kink flares up, that’s when he prefers the second option.

He likes to see your face when he fucks into you and talks about how cute your red cheeks are, how he wants to stuff you full and fill you up. And he talks. He doesn’t know how to shut his mouth unless he’s using it to get you off.

He’s also generally just very playful and giggly during sex. A brat dom, if you will, so expect plenty of teasing on his end about how needy you look with your legs hiked up like that.

“Pretty little thing, all folded over under me. Look at me, let me see your expression. Ah….mmnh, take my fingers in your mouth, just like you take my cock. Tight little bloodpet…you’re so perfect, little one. I want to see it, I want to see you all full and fucked out. That’s nice isn’t it? You’d love to be knocked up, you’d love to be pumped full of my cum. Awe, look at you. Look at you take it. Your hole is so tight around me, so pretty as you bounce on it. That’s it…that’s it, you’re doing so well. So gorgeous…”

He’ll drag your hips closer as he rocks against you, touching you to the pace of his thrusts, and pushing you down further into the bed with the kind of strength you wouldn’t expect someone so small to have.

He kisses and nips at anything he can get his lips on–your neck, your chest, your stomach and thighs. He’s a groper, too, so he’ll watch as his fingers sink into your skin, leaving bruises on your hips and legs.

“You’re going to be so full and sensitive, I’ll watch you get heavy with my child…you’re mine, you’re perfect and you’re mine.”

Usually Lilia’s far more focused on your pleasure than his, but something about the way you’re begging him to empty inside you is sending shockwaves down his spine. It feels like during sessions like this, he loses his well-composed nature altogether. Right before you’re about to cum, tightening up around his aching cock, he’ll lean in and sink his fangs into your neck, pressing a hand to your abdomen to feel how his dick drags along your walls.

That’s enough to do it for you, the aphrodisiac bite making you cum hard around him, and he doesn’t dare pull out as he cums with you, growling into your neck.

Lils is a fae, and faefolk cum a LOT. It’s hot and sticky as he spills inside of you, holding your hips as close to him as he can, fucking into you as you both finish and you shake. It’s enough to drip out without pulling out, much to Lilia’s disappointment. Guess he’ll just have to cum inside you a few more times to make up for it!

Lilia’s the type to make you cockwarm him after breeding sessions. He can’t have his efforts go to waste–you will be knocked up by the end of the night.

“Maybe I should make you keep a toy in overnight. I have to make sure it takes, sweet thing.”

You can expect a quick session right before class the morning after, too. He’s serious! He really wants to raise kids with you, and he’ll do whatever it takes to make that happen.

You two make quite the mess of the bed, cum and blood stains are scattered across the sheets. Lilia will handle the clean up, don’t you worry! He has to make certain that his spent little human rests after such a rough session.

Now that you’ve awakened this kink in him, Lilia’s ready for regular breeding talk during sex. Hope you like being fucked into the mattress and used for hours, cause he’s hellbent on making you his breedslut now.

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