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torturedblue · 10 months

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Part 2 of endless Disaster Twin parallels, the not so fun version

Part 1, the fun version

Considering the series shows Donnie coming off as autistic, he’s portrayed that way much more in fan art and fanfics, etc. We often see it in fan portrayals through an aversion to touch or his senses getting overwhelmed, etc. In the show I noticed Leo actually has a consistent aversion to anything with a gross texture too: like in the first episode when they’re all sliding down Draxum’s vines and he’s tripping over himself, the only one bothered by them “I hate this!”

He also starts flailing in a panic after a worm jumps on his face (and do I even need to bring up how the texture of worms ain’t all that enjoyable let alone on your face), recoils when that evil Hidden City massage guy pours hair serum all over his head, and he’s the most visibly repulsed when Raph gets trash all over them in the beginning of Battle Nexus: New York. So on multiple occasions he comes off as pretty texture or germ averse as well

Both also have insecurity issues about their role to the team: “If mystics can do everything I can but better then why would you guys even need me?” “I’m nothing without them!”

Ironically, in Many Unhappy Returns, Splinter thinks Leo doesn’t know what he’s doing and isn’t taking the mission seriously, saying he should’ve brought Purple. But in the same episode during fights with Shredder Donnie’s seen texting on his phone half of the time. Which is also very parallel to Leo making quips in the beginning instead of helping fight like Donnie and the others

In that same fashion, Donnie’s also goofiest when everyone’s acting serious in Insane in the Mama Train, while Leo’s the unserious one in the following episodes. Another role reversal from their norm

The show also portrays these two as feeling the most affected by Splinter’s history of emotionally distant parenting. Donnie constantly talks about his unmet need for parent-aged-adult approval/validation, and Leo shows his struggle in a more Leo-like way, constantly finding father figure connections in other people like Jupiter Jim and The Dunk. He also rejects/roasts Splinter a lot too, which seems more like a form of overcompensation; acting like he doesn’t totally need or crave Splinter’s attention. The exact opposite of Donnie’s methods. “No! I’m not going back to what’s-his-rat.”

“He’s my all-time favorite actor/role model/father figure!”

“That eccentric billionaire, who was kind of a surrogate father figure to me, has shown me a version of myself I don’t like.”

Leo acts like he doesn’t pine for his affection. I’m sure he sees the way Donnie openly, desperately goes after it when it’s offered and then gets crushed even harder with disappointment (ahem Turtle-dega Nights). No way Leo’s opening himself up to that. I mean come on how sad is the moment when Splinter says they should do something together and Mikey is so eager to jump on the opportunity before it gets taken away, only for Donnie to have to pull him aside and remind him it’s usually some kind of trick or he’s likely possessed? Just for Mikey to immediately respond, “You’re right, I always fall for this!” Ouch. Honestly considering Mikey’s empathy and emotional maturity in mind, the reason both he and Raph seem to handle Splinter’s lack of attention so well is probably also because in addition Raph became a second parent himself, and taking on that role like Splinter, he knows from his own experience that even though their dad doesn’t show it in the ways they wish he would, of course he loves them and what he does do to take care of them as a parent proves that

I think the parallels and direct contrasts between how Leo and Donnie show their dissatisfaction in their relationship with Splinter is probably the most developed and interesting one to me 💔

I mean Leo’s the only one who would actually say something like this to Splinter and you can’t tell me there’s not some deep-seated resentment in the way he looks and the way he says it…

So yeah. There’s the sad edition of Disaster Twins parallels. Let’s all cry together 😃

#disaster twins #rottmnt disaster twins #rottmnt leo #rottmnt donnie #leo and donnie #rottmnt character analysis #these poor boys

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candyredappledragon · 4 months

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h-hi! the name is kieran. nice to meet you! ive been here for a bit and uhm.... sadly figuring out how to use this site! ( kind of afraid of interacting with others especially but im trying my best to not be easily scared ! ) i am not familiar with technology and or online things/words so please be patient with me. i know there are other kierans here too and honestly theyre pretty cool! ....d-dont tell them i said that. im not really a battler so if you are trying to look for one then im sorry to say that you will be disappointed but you can ask the others though. really sorry

..uh thank you for checking my blog— furret youre on my facEXSFDGCVHH

🍎 Please no genuine anon hate, nsfw, or anything really bad. ( You can be mean to Kieran! ) Pelipper mail is okay ( but malice is off for now ). Sapient Pokemon or the likes of interacting are fine too, Kieran is too much of a goofball to notice it. Please don't give him Pokemon the thought is appreciated but if you do they'll turn into stickers lol.

Please don't be weird. I'm serious. As well PLEASE be patient with me and not be pushy. I'm trying my best!

This Kieran is in AU as to what happens if Florian doesn't lie to him about Ogerpon and whatnot! Kieran still doesn't get Ogerpon and is fine with it ( kind of, as in this made him feel inferior to having friends and will always be chosen over by other people. ) His way of thinking is that maybe he should try to be nice and kind to others so that will help him get friends as he sees Florian do this the same to others. ( The only thing Kieran thinks he's not good at is having a funny personality. He is very awkward in person. ) Blueberry Academy was hard on him as he was almost practically as ignored and students tend to forget he is the champion because of his cowardly personality. Florian took over later as champion. Okay there.

(By the way this is a summary please don't hurt me. 💔)

Plus I will try to draw for asks but they won't be the best but surely will motivate me to draw! If there are no asks then I'll just draw daily things with Kieran so it's a win-win for me!

💥 This Kieran doesn't like to get involved with stuff so feel free to drag him into antics! He isn't the one to approach people either so if you are wondering why I don't start convos with other blogs with asks that's why. ( I'm shy too. ) He's a bit of a coward online and in person but he won't shy away trying to be friends with others.

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Anything you want to be tagged? Please let me know! :)

"Can we use your art?" Feel free to use the art or whatever! Don't need to credit and I prefer not to be credited. You can edit it too! Idgaf just no bigotry. :,] "What do we call you and do you have pronouns?" Uhm, you can call me Eight or any other version of the number 8 itself. [ Ex: Ocho, Hachi, Acht, etc ]. No pronouns! Refer me to by name or just call me mod or some other third thing lol. "What art program do you use?" Clip Studio Paint! "Are you okay with collabs?" Of course! Please feel free to message me anytime. :] "What time do you post art/responses?" Uhm....... anytime to be honest? My sleep schedule is ABYSMAL. I am very much online unless I'm busy doing comp. "Are replies time sensitive when interacting with this blog?" Nope! Take your time with your replies. I am pretty chill and everyone is pretty busy with real life. Fair warning I'm a ditz. :( "Why did you make this blog?" To draw Kieran a thousand times over until I'm dead lol. ( Even if it isn't posted on this blog!) And world build my stupid au. :u I'm just currently on a small burnout on drawing. I'm sorry. :c

"Is this a sideblog?" Yeah, you are never going to find out my main!! It's very cringe ( it has different media art ). I will interact with my other sideblog with thoughts and reactions at times. [ if you are curious @/hahahasquib ]

"Do you like Kieran?" No. ( Yes. A normal amount. )

#rotomblr #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pkmn rp

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uunromanticized · 5 months

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Hi can I please request some poly relationship hc’s for a female reader dating both Nathaniel and Luka please :)

Feel free to ignore if you don’t do poly ships thanks :)

hiii!! im completely fine with poly ships dw i love them :3 im poly myself hehe. this was definitely a new one & ive never written for nathaniel before so im so sorry if he’s kinda ooc 💔💔 i hope you enjoy regardless!!

life as both luka and nathaniels lover

𝒊 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆

- for the most part you are a very healthy relationship! luka is very much an open communicator while nathaniel is more likely to keep things to himself which can cause some strain

- whenever nathaniel doesn’t speak about his problems though it can be a little frustrating but luka always acts as a mediator for the most part, trying to figure out the root of the problem, and conflicts are very quickly resolved due to this

- you all enjoy just spending time together doing your own things. just being together is enough for you

- but you’re also just silly sometimes. nathaniel holds little “art classes” for you and luka

- luka tries to draw all three of you together but it literally looks like all of your proportions got inverted…. how silly. then he sticks to drawing little sketches based on bands he likes 😭

- nathaniel guides both of your hands like he’s obligated to but really this is just his one chance to hold your hands without getting shy

- luka does the same for you two but with his guitar and nathaniel actually catches on quick because he has good muscle memory

- if you’re bad at it luka is actually really patient with you and a good teacher (uses kisses as leverage when you get a chord right)

- actually they would definitely do the cutest thing ever for your anniversary. nathaniel draws you three and luka adds some stuff around the borders of the page. luka also teaches nathaniel a simple song on the guitar and they perform it for you <333

- luka always prefers to be on the outside of cuddling. you and nathaniel switch around in the middle but it’s mostly you

- luka or you are the ones who mainly talk to people when there’s an issue.. nathaniel sticks in the back. you guys are like “excuse me he SAID no pickles 😠”

- nathaniel is more easily jealous while luka is not a jealous guy

- whenever you guys go out together andré starts giving you three scoops

- im a firm believer in domestic nathaniel. he cooks for you guys idc. keeps track of what flavors you and luka prefer, and if they’re contrasting he tries to combine them in a way that you all enjoy

- sometimes you guys coordinate outfits. they’re all lowkey because nathaniel doesn’t like sticking out too much but they’re still coordinated

- you guys love eachother so so much

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beangusu · 9 months

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Please please please share your reinako fic recommendations! I absolutely adore all your art of them 💗

THANK U SO MUCH <3 AND OMG I HAVE SO MANY... u have unlocked my reinako fic floodgates but i will try to be normal and keep it to like 5-10 recs

just a warning, two of these have nsfw in them (In The Corner of Her Mind and Heartfelt Obligation) but are skippable, so if you’re like me and aren’t a fan of that then you can just skip the chapter!

In The Corner of Her Mind - this ones an oldie but i read it time and time again bc it breaks my heart in the BEST way possible especially since its set in the PGSM universe :'D if u want an amnesia reinako au fic, this one ticks all the boxes Point Not Taken - also a really old fic, but oh my god Victoria G's fics make me kick my feet and giggle and knowing they were a co-writer for the Carmilla web-series just makes so much sense bc i was obsessed with hollstein..... pls read their reinako fics they make me wanna throw up (affectionate) Through the Fire (Through Whatever, Come What May) - this one's not finished yet but the way the author writes the reinako dynamic is SO THEMMMM 🥰🥰 i adore when people write the reinako dynamic just right and this fic hits that spot for me red on my tongue (the red of your tongue) - i am so obsessed with fics that are abt present reinako finding out abt love affairs between silver millennium mars & venus which either cue their realization moment or push them to confess :3 this one has to be my fav out of all of YNK’s reinako fics, it made me tear up so bad at some parts like they are so Soulmates it makes me insane. pls read all of YNK's reinako fics after this i promise u wont regret it Heartfelt Obligation - ofc i had to link the mandatory princess/bodyguard au set in the silver millennium where they dislike each other at first but then slowly start catching feelings :33 it's incomplete but i love the silly banter and how they warm up to each other in this fic, its so cute 🥺 i like the burning sun (because i'm running with you) - small oneshot thats also so cute where they're just normal teens with crushes on each other,,, minako is so whipped for rei and rei is so stupid god bless

She's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire - the gay yearning in this one is so UNBELIEVEABLY off the charts it's so sweet and fills that slice of life highschool trope hole if u like that!! minako does get stoned in this one, not during the whole fic, but i figured i would warn anyways in case that makes anyone uncomfy Past Loves And Current Problems - ending this with this cute fic of minako finding out about greek mythology regarding mars and venus being lovers teehee ^_^ this fic also talks about ace's "curse" on venus from the codename sailor v manga AND I LOVE THAT i wish more fics talked abt that.... i have so so so many more i want to talk about and show everyone but i feel bad for this wall of text so i will leave that for a pt2/pt3 in the future mayb... i am filled with reinako brainrot and its never going away im so sorry u guys 💔

#imagine that image of a kitten thats like “full of soup” that's me except it says “full of reinako”#reinako #vio yells

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rainyraisin · 4 months

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2023 YEAR IN REVIEW!!!

My artstyle changed a lot this year, especially after my shift from ibis paint to procreate after getting my iPad (drawing on an iPad is the BEST btw 100% recommend I love it way more than a phone and it didn’t die after a month like my old wacom 💀💀). I’m relatively happy with where my art is atm and I hope to continue to improve in 2024!

Explanation of all the silly art down below! (Mostly so I can tell y’all who the fanart is for but also cause I like rambling)

January: A drawing of my Rise Leo human design I did to test out a pixel brush I found for Ibis Paint. He’s very fun to draw hehe I need to draw him more-

February: I wanted to learn how to draw the future designs of Leo and Mikey along with CJ so I planned to draw them all together! I struggled with Leo though so I just got rid of him. Sorry Peepaw 😞😞💔💔💔

March: Fanart for @beannary ‘s TLP au! I love it so much so I had to draw smth for it hehe 😈😈💥💥💥 which reminds me I need to draw more at some point- might redraw it at some point cause I’m not super happy with how it turned out but I do like the idea a lot

April: The month I created Reticent! April’s Fools was the first episode I came up with so I drew a chapter poster! It ended up being very different to the chapter cover I drew a couple months later but it’s still cool :D Leo is being weirdly affectionate to Mikey though what the heck that isn’t like him smh. Although I guess it was meant to be purposefully exaggerated sooooo 🥰

May: Reticent Casey!!! I don’t have much to say it’s just Reticent Casey HDKSGXKSHD this wasnt a very good art month

June: Krangified Donnie is literally my favourite concept ever thats it that’s all I have to say dbskdbwkh I adore Krangified Donnie and if the Rise brainrot takes over the Reticent brainrot for a while then I will probably be drawing Krangified Donnie during that time sorry not sorry

July: Reticent Chapter 3’s cover yippee!!! Still my favourite Reticent cover although Chapter 8’s is a close second (I can’t wait to post it once it’s been betaread yippee!!!). The scribble over Leo’s eyes is literally just because I was struggling to draw his eyes and i was getting annoyed dbskdbskdb it’s actually a very common issue with him (common Ret!Leo L). Also Mikey being reflected in the mirror is a reference to Mirror Man by Jack Stauber which I’ve basically considered his theme song since @aaronymous999 introduced it to me ebwjcbkwhd thank you Mr. Aaronymous! Also somebody said he was in the barbie box and I still need to draw that to this day because Mikey would’ve killed to go see Barbie.

August: RET DONNIE WOOOOO he’s being bullied again!!! I drew that piece for a colour palette challenge request and realised I got the prompt wrong so I just made it into its own thing 💥💥💥 it’s usually a flickering light gif but I chose to just use the version with the light on for this post. The photos in the background were really fun to draw hehe either April’s or Mikey’s is my favourite.

September: MY 500 FOLLOWER DTIYS YIPPEE (/my 150 follower DTIYS for tumblr). This one took me. Forever to draw and I love it to pieces hehe it was really fun to design Mikey’s room and figure out outfits for the sillies and idk the concept of a sleepover just seemed really fun to me dbskbdkdb- and all the entries I got were so so awesome I loved them all to pieces!!! I still look at them all the time hehe

October: FANART OF @endlesslogo ‘S HUMAN RISE LEO DESIGN WOOOOOO!!! This was the piece I started rendering on hehe it was so much fun to draw!!!! Although I did have a fight with rendering the hair for over an hour svsjegksbdk HOW DO PEOPLE DO IT FR!!!

November: Me and my friends were working on a crossover between our TMNT iterations so I drew all of our Karai’s together!!! Confluence Karai is on the left, created by Salem and Marine, New Stars Karai is in the middle created by Starla, and Reticent Karai is on the right created by me! All our Karais have such cool designs AHHHHH literally dead over them constantly/pos

December: Most of December I spent drawing Christmas presents so this was my present for Salem!!! Confluence!Jonatello my beloved….

#rai rambles #tmnt #year in review #tmnt fanart

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devourable · 11 months

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hi it’s the hoizer anon again!! (i’m the one who said abe was like “eat your young” by hoizer if you forgot haha)

i can’t believe i forgot the other song abe reminds me of. “take me to church” by hoizer is SO abe. your writing for abe in general reminds me of take me to church honestly!! those darker more dangerously holy songs perfectly fit the vibe of your writings for him. (sorry if that last sentence is worded weirdly i had such a hard time finding the correct way to explain it)

also totally unrelated but i’m absolutely fascinated by abe and his guilt. the way he warps things so that in his mind it can be okay and that he’s not sinning is so intriguing. i want to give him a big hug and study him. he’s also just absolutely adorable !!! i feel like he’d follow you around like a puppy with those big ol puppy dog eyes.

speaking of those cute eyes… i’d LOVE to see him cry from pleasure. love to see those cute eyes swell up with tears. i wonder how he’d react if i just spoiled him and showered him in praise while being so so rough. maybe he’d get all embarrassed and red and then he’d cry from the pleasure and it would be so cute!! i already said i want to ruin him but i really really wanna corrupt this silly guy.

(also sorry i tend to ramble a lot and switch topics easily. sorry for this big ol mess of my thoughts haha)

hello again!! dw i didnt forget (i remember like. all of my anons LOL). i’m so glad you get that from abe 😭🫶🫶🫶 honestly a lot of hozier songs could fit him but take me to church is definitely an obvious one

part of his character stems from me as someone who’s struggled w some religious guilt growing up, but it’s also inspired by how a lot of people will do genuinely awful things and excuse it with their religion, either by deciding that theyre a good person no matter what they do purely because they’re religious or deciding that it’s fine to do bad things so long as you pray for forgiveness after. abe knows that (objectively) he isn’t nearly as bad as those people so technically, he can actually pray his sins away. right? he’s definitely just an oversized puppy

✨ that being said ✨, him being a big puppy definitely makes him weak for any sort of praise. he so desperately needs to be good for you 😫 he is 1000% a crier and i 10000% plan to draw it (and by plan to i mean i already started on it lol). i just have to figure out how to get it on tumblr w/o getting my post flagged because every attempt to post nsfw art so far has been a total bust 💔

#inbox | anons #⛪️ abraham atkins #yandere x reader #yandere boy #yandere x you #yandere x oc #yandere headcanons #yandere imagines #yandere oc

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itsstrange · 2 years

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The Song

Fandom: Supernatural, The Boys

Relationship: Jensen Ackles x Reader

A/N: So this idea came to me right when I heard the song, I’m not joking it just came to my mind and I immediately thought about turning this into a fic. I debated on who it should be based on but Ackles was the only one I actually imagined in this so… hope y’all like it!

Also I wanna apologize in advance if this feels like it’s all over the place, I’ve never done something like this so sorry if it’s up and down, but other than that hope y’all like it!

Summary: Forgetting someone is never easy, especially when you still love them. So what’s a better way than to write a song about it.

Word Count: 2.8K

Warnings: (None) Heartbreak, Angst, Lots of It,

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Enjoy! 💔

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He had just finished filming and had just stepped into his trailer when he found out what the whole fuss was about it. The stares and side comments began around midnight, he didn’t think much about it, but as soon as the looks came his way his phone began buzzing in his pocket. After checking to see it wasn’t an important call he ignored the notifications like usual. If it wasn’t important than it can wait after work. However, once he got off from work he noticed the notifications upon notifications from Instagram, Twitter and variety of different people tagging him were displayed in front of his screen. Now normally, he’d just brush it off, thinking it was just fans tagging him to old pictures of him and the cast, fan art, or just edited videos fans have made of him, but what caught his attention was a tweet from Twitter.

Mentioned by @DeansPudding:

@(Y/U/N)‘s new song is definitely about @JensenAckles and everyone can fight me on this but y’all agree too!

Her name alone is what made him click on the notification without any hesitation, taking him directly to her tweet that she had shared a couple hours ago. Which only had a blue link on top with a ‘Out Now’ at the bottom of the link. Just as he was seconds away from clicking on the link, Jared sends him a message, only had a link as well before another message appears on top of his screen.

Jared:

Listen.

Is all the message said. And if he was being honest..he was starting to get nervous.

With new hesitation settling in his chest, his fingers hover over the link for a good minute or so. Inhaling deeply through his nose he taps on the link the same time he exhales out his mouth. His anxiety, nerves, settled in his chest as he waits for the YouTube app to open up, and his anxiety wasn’t getting any better the longer it took to start up.

Seriously, the internet had to crash now? Out of all days, it had to do it now?

As he was anxiously cursing at the internet he finally sees the screen turn into a black and white music video. His breath gets stuck in his throat when he sees her black figure on the screen, the camera slowly making its way to where she sat on a window seat with a guitar in her hands. Then before he knows it, a smooth, soft, RB&B guitar riff starts playing through his phone, invading his ear drums and feeling the way his chest tightens when he finally hears her beautiful voice singing the first verse of her song, immediately sending him back to two weeks ago as she shares her point of view.

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‘Met your new girl at Johnny’s party.

I had to smile and say, “What Up”

They both sat on the couch with other friends, drinks in each other’s hands as they listened to Rob share some of his drunk stories when they were in Rome, and just having a good time when Jensen suddenly averts his eyes towards the kitchen when he hears people greeting each other, but what made him do a double take was her smiling and hugging Genevieve. His eyes not once leaving her frame, which catches Megan’s attention and notices the way his eyes are on her.

Now they were both staring at her greeting everyone with a smile, a smile he absolutely fell for, a smile he didn’t know he would miss even after months of being apart, but the more he stared at her, admired her smile from a distance that sinking feeling settling in his chest. Then feeling it drop down to the pit of his stomach when she finally meets his gaze.

He watches the way she stops dead in her tracks when she meets his eyes, then notices how she switches her eyes next to him, and only feeling the entire room become tense.

But knowing her too well, she does what she always does, she walks into the room with her head held high up and plastered another smile as she greets everyone in the room. After saving them for last, she finally makes her way towards them, same smile still on her face, but he can see through it, it wasn’t sincere. She hadn’t even reached him yet when he got up from the couch, dropping Megan’s hand from his lap in the process.

“Hey Jensen,” She softly greets him with that same, sad, pained smile,

One he shares as well.

“H-Hey…(Y/n),” He slightly winches from the way his voice sounds forced, but it was understandable right? He wasn’t expecting her to attend the party, from what friends told him she was supposed to be out on tour, not here, standing in front of him with the most painful smile,

Seconds felt like minutes—hours, as they silently stared at each other. Tension and awkwardness surrounding them as they stood face to face since their breakup. If it wasn’t for the music playing throughout the house, everyone in the damn house would have felt it. Luckily, she was the first to break it by averting her (E/c) eyes behind his shoulder.

“Hi, you must be Megan,” She says as she extends a respected hand for her to shake,

Even if she felt as if her skin was burning as she shakes the others hand and feeling the way that old wound begins tearing apart once again. It took everything inside of her to not break in front of them, but with the little strength she still had she fought through it and did her best to keep the smile on her face. Especially when she lets go of her hand and watches the way Megan wraps her hand on the inner part of his elbow.

Thankfully, she sees a couple more familiar faces behind them and uses that as an excuse to save her from the moment.

“Gonna go say hi. It was nice meeting you,” She widens her smile as much as she can as she stares at her then slightly drops it when she averts her gaze towards his green ones, “It was nice seeing you again Jensen,”

He slowly nods his head with a small, sad smile, “Yeah.. yeah you too,”

Smiling at them both once more she excuses herself and makes her way towards Briana and Ruth, not once looking back when she can still feel his eyes on her.

‘Then I ran my ass to the bathroom.

So I could cry about old love.

She stood in front of the mirror, hands gripping onto the sink as the tears spilled down her cheeks, staining them with eyeliner. After she had greeted the small circle of familiar people, she had excused herself, however, the moment she turned around to head towards the bathroom the tears had already started sliding down her cheeks, making her drop her face down to the floor, doing her best to avoid any looks as she quickly makes her way towards the bathroom. Not realizing how his eyes were watching her the whole way.

The moment she shut the door behind her and locked it, she couldn’t hold it in anymore. The pain that she thought she had healed from had came crashing down on her ten times harder as it did the first time and feeling the way a hand settles on her chest where the pain was. Soft broken sobs escaped from her as she leaned against the door, her other free hand reaching up to cover her mouth to prevent any other loud noises from slipping, even if music played outside the door she doesn’t know who can be walking by and catch a glimpse of a wail coming from the other side of the door. So, she covers her mouth as sobs after sobs pour out of her.

The pain in her heart was becoming unbearable to the point where she felt herself wanting to slide down the door and onto the ground, but gathering some strength she manages to push herself towards the sink, where she grips onto it and lets the tears fall down. She stays there for another minute, just letting the tears slip, letting everything she’s been holding for the past couple months out now, she needed it, until she began gathering herself. Closing her eyes she tries taking in deep breaths, but the moment she did an image of them two together flashes behind her eyes causing more pain and tears, but even then she still tries to control herself.

Inhaling deeply through her nose with eyes still closed, she exhales with a shudder. She does it a couple more times until the tears stop coming down, once she slightly controls herself she looks at herself through the mirror, observing her bloodshot eyes for a couple seconds before wiping away any makeup from underneath her eyes as she walks towards the door.

‘I came back in with makeup smudged up,

You caught me wipe it quick low-key,

And then you got this weak ass smile up on your face,

As if to say you’re sorry it couldn’t be me

Jensen was playing with the label of his beer bottle, not listening to the conversation that was around them, he was too lost in thought. He honestly couldn’t stop thinking of her, and he shouldn’t be with Megan next to him but he just couldn’t help to wonder how she was doing, if she really did move on and if he read her smile completely wrong. Because honestly, he hadn’t moved on, and that alone was bringing guilt up his chest. He didn’t know it until he actually saw her once again face to face.

As he was peeling the sticker from his bottle he glances up when Jared starts talking and adding on to the conversation, and that was when his eyes land back on her frame coming out of the restroom. His heart dropping, shattering at her state, and then having a small sad smile on his face when he watches her wipe away the smeared makeup from her under her eye.

She hasn’t moved on.

Making him feel some sort of relief but also pain to know she’s still hurting, even after all these months being apart, she was still hurting, and he honestly wished it wasn’t her who was hurting as much.

‘Wish I could be your friend,

And not hurt as so bad,

Wish I could be your friend,

And not hurt so bad, yeah

I search the room looking for solace,

You know whiskey always helps me,

Then we lock eyes as I start pouring,

Obviously, I’m not doing well,

But we can’t talk ‘cause it ain’t appropriate,

And she knows exactly who I am,

His green eyes follows her frame as she makes her through people, head slightly looking down to avoid anyones eyes, but still waves with a short smile at people who greet her. He watches her glancing around the room for couple seconds before she finally makes her way towards the kitchen. Standing behind the counter he observes her scanning the bottles in front of her, before she finally reaches out for a red cup and the Daniels bottle. Unscrewing the cap she begins pouring its brown liquid into her cup, then without meaning to she looks up, immediately locking eyes with him and feeling her body freezing when she finds him already staring at her.

She hadn’t realize it, she was too busy doing her best in keeping her red puffy eyes away from any else’s, but she didn’t realize how he has been watching her since she’s arrived. She also didn’t realize how he had already figured her out, he knew she wasn’t well, but what she didn’t know was how much it killed him that he couldn’t get up from his spot to go and speak to her, just the same she couldn’t walk up to him, it was killing them both without the other knowing.

‘She pulls you close and tells you maybe y’all should go,

And then she smiles at me,

She smiles because she can,

From the moment she had walked into the party, Megan felt the way the air around them instantly changed, and it was honestly difficult to breathe, at least that’s how she felt. Especially when she saw the way Jensen, her boyfriend of two months, couldn’t seem to avert his eyes away from her, everywhere she was, his eyes would follow, and it honestly tore at her heart, even more now when she had came out from the restroom with smudged makeup, letting her know she still hadn’t moved on and with a knowing feeling, she knew Jensen felt the same way. She didn’t want to, she really didn’t, but the way his whole expression switched and the way he couldn’t avert his eyes just made the feeling stronger.

So with a jealousy, angry heart she pulls him close to her and whispers into his ear, “We should start heading out,”

That finally made him drop his eyes from her to stare at Megan. He stared into her dark blue eyes for a couple seconds, and noticing then whatever he had felt for her was not there anymore, but with a hesitation he nods his head at her. She doesn’t say anything else, just switches her gaze to her and smiles, a smile that wasn’t real nor sincere. Then she makes her way towards everyone to give her farewells, while Jensen stood from his position, but again kept his eyes on her. Who took a big gulp from her drink before pouring another and leaving the kitchen, disappearing from his sight.

Jensen’s eyes drop to the ground, feeling that same old pain in the center of his chest when the memory of her leaving his door replayed in his mind, he should have gone after her, stopped her and should have begged her to stay, but he didn’t. He stayed back, and now he doesn’t have the privilege to go after her.

He lost it all that night.

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‘Wish I could be your friend,

And not hurt so bad,

Wish I could be your friend,

And not hurt, hurt so bad.’

Once the bridge starts coming to an end, the music video slowly starts fading into a black screen, but her raw voice humming the melody was still heard, until eventually that fades away as well. The moment it does, Jensen let’s out a breath he didn’t know he had been holding throughout the whole song, but he did notice the way it came out in a shaky way and also noticing how his hand, the one that was holding his phone was also trembling.

He honestly wasn’t expecting that. He’s heard various songs from her, has loved nearly most of them, but this… this was different. He knew she was never one to release a personal song, especially when it was intimate things like family members, or in other words, relationships, and now that she did it made him feel.. different. He honestly didn’t know what he was feeling at the moment other than… guilt, or was it pain? Was he hurting? Hurting at the fact that he knows he still fucking loves her?

Fuck. Jensen closes his eyes that have become a bit glossy, and covers his face with his hands, feeling the way the tears slowly slide down his cheeks at the knowing feeling in his heart. He still fucking loves her.

He always has, not once did he stop loving her, but it was too painful to remember their old love, so Jensen began dating again to push it aside and move on. At first it wouldn’t work, but after a while he told himself to believe it, and believe it he did. Until now, he understood it was all a lie to keep him from feeling the pain of loving her, but now that he knows she still feels something for him and hasn’t been able to move on, it gave some sort of hope, relief, and he wanted nothing more than to prove to her he still loves her the same way, but he couldn’t. He was still with Megan, or at least he thinks so, they haven’t spoken to each other for three days after some fight.

But he knew Megan wasn’t the one he’d rather have a fight with over small or big things, and in that moment he knew it was her. It was always her and with a shaky exhale, Jensen gets up from his seat and heads out his trailer with one thing in his mind.

He was going after her.

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-Hope y’all enjoyed this one! I certainly enjoyed writing this one.

-Ngl I finished this in under 2 days, so that proves that I was in the zone for this one lol.

-Anyways make sure to Turn On Post Notifications!! 🔔 For more updates!!

And Uhhhh….. Part 2???

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#supernatural imagine #supernatural #jensen ackles x ofc #jensen ackles x reader #jensen ackles imagine #jensen ackles #jensen ackles x y/n #jensen ackles x you #the boys #the boys imagine #SoundCloud

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veronica-sawyers-monocle · 2 years

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💔you’re having a hard time at work and your bf geto comforts you💔

✴ geto suguru x gender neutral reader

✴ cw: no sexual shit just fluff, reader has social anxiety and other unspecified mental issues, 👎 TRIGGER WARNING 9-5 JOB 👎

✴ a/n: this is e x t r e m e l y self indulgent and i wanted to write this because no one ever seems to say the right thing and i’m sure a lot of you can relate but i hope you enjoy! likes, comments, reblogs are very much appreciated :)

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Fuck this job. That was the only thought that ran through your head during the forty five minute commute home. With each passing day you grew more and more resentful towards your workplace, hating it right down to the obnoxiously modern, bland corporate art on the walls. You finally understood the deadened eyes your father had when he returned home from his office job, the long naps he’d need to take, alone in your parents’ room flat on his back with a pillow covering his face. “Don’t bother your dad, he’s got a headache from work,” your mom would say, a hint of threat in her voice warning you not to disobey.

A lump in your throat formed and stuck there at the thought of ending up like your dad, having this cold, meaningless lifestyle for the next 40 years. He loved his family so much that he slaved for 40 years, 40+ hours a week in a cubicle under dim, fluorescent lighting so that they never had to worry about money. Slamming your hand against the steering wheel in frustration, you vowed to yourself that somehow, by any means necessary, you’d break away from this lifestyle.

You pulled into the parking lot of your apartment complex and trudged up the stairs to your unit, which you shared with your boyfriend, Geto.

“Hey, what’s up,” you greeted him halfheartedly. You let your backpack fall off your shoulder and thump against the floor where it sagged, shapeless.

“Hi, how was work?” Geto looked at you from his position on the couch, dark eyebrows knitted together. “Are you okay?”

Your heart always melted at the concern he had for you, and the lump in your throat grew bigger. You couldn’t even make eye contact with him for fear that the tears you’d been holding back throughout the last half of the day would spill over. And who wanted to deal with that?

“’M fine,” you muttered at the ground, walking past him and into the bedroom. Curling up into a fetal position and facing the wall, you hugged a pillow against your face to muffle the tears. Not long after you started crying, you felt a weight sink into the bed. A warm hand caressed your shoulder, and Geto’s soft voice broke through your sobs. “It’s okay,” His thumb rubbed against your shoulder, easing the tension in your body. “I’m here to listen if you wanna talk about it?” You sat up against the pillows, hiccupping a bit, and glanced at Geto sideways. His dark eyes softened as they met your teary, bloodshot ones. “I just want to help you out, in any way I can.” he said sincerely. You figured you could use a rant, so you shakily began talking.

“I feel so overlooked at work,” you sniffled. “And it’s not even worth it because I don’t even care about this job, yet I’m expected to deal with these people and do whatever they t-tell me to.” Your voice broke and you covered your face with your hands to hide the tears that wouldn’t stop streaming from your eyes. Gently, Geto removed your hands from your face and held one of them in his own, intertwining his long, warm fingers with yours. “I n-never wanted to do any of this, you know? And now all of a sudden, I’m expected to—to get up every day and give a fuck about people I don’t even know, and…do pointless busywork until I can go home and just repeat the same p-process over and over until when? Until I die?” You looked at Geto, tears streaming down your face, and it broke his heart to see you like this. He knew you’d struggled to work a full-time job since you started, and your social anxiety and other mental issues made it even harder for you to be in a corporate environment.

Geto enveloped you in his arms, partially because he couldn’t hold back from it, and partially because he himself had begun to tear up at your words and he didn’t want you to see how much it affected him.

“I know it’s been hard for you,” he said, somewhat shakily against your neck. “But don’t ever feel like you’re less than the other people at your job just because you have a hard time handling it, okay? People’s brains are just built differently and that doesn’t mean you’re destined to be unsuccessful or unhappy with your life.” Geto broke the embrace and when you didn’t immediately look at him, he gently placed his hand on the side of your face and guided you to look at him. He smoothed your mussed up hair away from your tear-streaked face and placed a soft kiss on your forehead.

“You’ll figure something out and I’m going to be here to help you no matter what.”

“Thank you,” you whispered shakily, wrapping your arms around Geto’s large torso and hiding your face in his chest. He guided the two of you to lay down and he stroked your hair, intertwining your legs together and holding you close.

“Don’t thank me, I know you’d do the same for me.” He paused. “And I love you.” He said that in a much quieter tone, his voice thick with emotion. The two of you laid there for a few moments, the only sound was your sniffling, trying to breathe through your stuffed up nose.

“You don’t have to worry about work right now, okay? I’ll lay here with you for the rest of the night and we can order some dinner, your choice.” You smiled against his chest. Geto always knew exactly what to say and exactly what you needed.

“You’re the best.”

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willowtreewhump · 10 months

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Eagerly Awaited, Extremely Belated: Whump Intro! :)

Saw a bunch of Whump Intro posts cross my dash this week, so I figured maybe I should make one too! Goodness knows this blog’s been around for long enough without one, so might as well! :)

I’m 99.9% a lurker, and I’m not so good at being the first one to reach out- but I love talking to people who reach out to me, so feel free to message me anytime! :)

Name: Tairana, Willow, or Flat. I'll answer to all 3!

Age: nearly 30 already, oof!

Mostly, I like to make whumpy art, and playing around with OCs- so if you want to yell about your OC whumpees, I want to hear about them! :)

I do like to write about my OCs as well, but I rarely ever polish it lol. So if I can ever get around to cleaning them up a bit, you may get to see it! I also LOVE crossovers and having my OCs meet others, so let’s play together in the sandbox with our characters! :)

I like a LOT of different tropes, and will read a wide variety of stuff. That said…

💚

Tropes I Like Best!

Found family, Recovery Whump, Slow Recovery, Escape AND Failed Escape, Caretaker/Whumpee, Manipulation, Self-Sacrifice, Hurt/Comfort, Semi-Immortality, Hiding Injuries, Intimate/Creepy Whumper, Choking/Strangulation, Collars & Restraints, Non-human/Shifter Whump, Supernatural Whump, Captivity/Imprisonment, Cults, Mafia/Mobsters, Exhaustion/Collapse, Wing Whump, Dub/Noncon, and way more lol.

(I don't know if I'll ever POST Dub/Noncon, but I do enjoy reading it- so if you write it, that doesn't bother me! If I do post any, you can rest assured it will be meticulously tagged!)

💛

Only in Certain Moods:

Lady Whump (not opposed to it and I have a few Lady Whumpees, I just tend to write men more), Character Death, No Whumpers (natural disasters, accidents, etc), Lab Whump (experimental type rather than medical), Pregnancy Whump (fpreg or mpreg, though I like mpreg best because it seems more distressing to me lol) (IRL pregnancy is A Big Squick, but as a whump trope it's somehow fine lol)

💔

Squicks & Dislikes:

Fingore, Eye trauma, most forms of excessive/fatal Gore, Emeto/Vomit, Cannibalism, Amputations (some leeway for this one).

These aren’t exhaustive lists by any means, so if you’ve written something you want to share and the tropes you write DON’T show up here, that’s only because this would become one hell of a long post if I typed out EVERY trope I liked. :) So please, by all means, throw whatever you’ve got at me- I’d love to check it out!

Now this kind of defeats the purpose lol, but I won’t be tagging anyone this time…. Mostly because I’m SUCH a lurker I wouldn’t even know who TO tag, and I don't wanna bug the friends I've already made! So if you see this, nice to officially meet you, let’s talk whump! :)

-WillowTreeWhump

#whump intro #whump community #whump blog intro #whump #whump art #whump artist #OC whump #… what tags do I even put on this lol #anyway hi! please PLEASE talk to me about your OCs for real I want to know them #OCs are the BEST #my texts

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after-nine-at-the-oasis · 9 months

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I FINISHED EPISODE SEVEN AND AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

😭😭😭😭💔❤️ ISAAAAAAC 😭 MY BOYYY <3333 HE DOES NOT DESERVE THIS ❤️❤️😭 I LOVE HIM!! I hope that art piece helped though :')). Also poor James 😭 xd. But hey at least he's supportive (though the way I was like :'O and then he said "you just haven't found the right person yet" and I went -.- xD. Except a little more like sigh raise eyebrow with a bit of a smile bc :/ you were so close xDD). But seriously Isaac 😭😭❤️❤️ my guy. I love him. I hope he figures it out soon :( :')) <3333.

TAO AND ELLLLLE!!!! AAAAHHHHHHH :'DDD. The GROWTH from Tao, can we talk about that?!!! He :D! I mean he was definitely thrown off at first but that's okay :')). Then he was supportive and lovely and your honor I love him 😭. And ELLE!! OUR GIRL GOT ACCEPTED :D!!! AND HAD HER ART DISPLAYED!! HECK YEAH GIRL :DDD!! AND ALSO THE ART WAS T H E M I'M NOT OKAY 😭😭❤️❤️🥰.

Also, everyone else at that exhibition: :D- YOO those are the people!!

(like the ones in the picture lol)

Anyway I love them your honor thank you <3 xD

SLAYYY NICK GO OFF!! TO YOUR DAD AND YOUR BROTHER AND EVERYBODY :DDD!!!

AND SLAYYY CHARLIE GO OFF!! TO BEN YOU SLAYED :DDD!!!

Also gosh that DINNER. Was (yes that period's on purpose I'm making it clear it's not "that dinner was", but just "it was" without the it) the most awkward thing I've ever seen xD. I mean not really but it was pretty bad xD.

Just imagining though lol like,

Nick: I don't care what you think

Charlie's parents: *trying to look as far away as they can*

Nick's mom: You don't have a right!

Charlie's parents: wow yeah this for is really good huh, yeah. . .

XDD I just can't lol

Anyway xD!

But AYYYY NICK DID IT HE CAME OUT AND EVERYTHING WENT OKAY I MEAN LIKE. IN THE END xD :D!!! 🥰🥰

Also Tori GO. OFF!! The grab of David's arm and the kick of his phone xD, girl SLAY!!! We love her so much in this house 🥰🥰🥰. Also her and Charlie playing video games was really sweet :'DD

Anyway I am sorry your dad and brother suck Nick <333

I do hate your brother though so there's that 🥰🥰 punched the bed repeatedly during the dinner scene and of course whisper screamed my head off <33

And AAAAHHHHHHH Charlie not eating much :')) I noticed I during the meal and then the brought it UP too 😭😭💔. Help I'm not okay <333. We can get through this :')). Me and them xdd. Them all, surrounding this, lol.

Also Nick looking up eating disorders 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️ it broke me but it was really sweet <33 he's worried about Charlie :'(( (kinda the reason for the sweet and kinda a separate statement, it's also sweet for like trying to understand reasons and whatnot)

And AAAHHHHHH NICK AND CHARLIE ARE GOING TO PROM TOGETHER :DDD listen I love them so much <333 and all of the so much :D!!

Also Imogen so sorry you're still the token straight xD but slay for you Sahar :D

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DARCYYYY 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔.

HONEYYYY!!! I'M SO SORRY AND ALSO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Y'all as soon as I saw the purple stuff around the door I died :') help I'm not okay <333 but more importantly help Darcy :((( worry about her before me D':

Gotta say though her outfit slays so hard and AAHHHH everybody helping to pay for it :'DDD <333 I love them all so much. Also her and Tara were being ADORABLE!! And Tara's mom was hilarious in that first scene lol xD mood.

Anyway AAAHHHHHHHH MY POOR GIRL 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️💔❤️. I really hope she's okay (I mean as okay as she can be) :((( ik there's other stuff but whatever honey my love go to Tara's <333

My poor babey 😭💔❤️

Anyway, amaaazing episode, I love them all so much <3333 🥰🥰❤️ I'm also not ready for the next episode :')) 😭

And awww, the last episode 😭😭❤️💔. This was the second to last episode :'(( :')). Should I have split it into two days to savor it more? Maybe. Did I? Absolutely not lol. Anyway, this season is so good and I'm gonna miss I so much xdd <3. Immediately lol. Especially if there's a cliffhanger or something (which I feel like I might've seen someone mention but it was just a glimpse so they may have been talking about another episode lol).

ANYWAY!!! Lovely 🥰🥰🥰. NOW ONTO EPISODE EIGHT!!!

#heartstopper #oasis's heartstopper chatter #heartstopper spoilers #see y'all there :D #or well after it lol but shhh #anyway :D I love them all so much 🥰🥰 also the entire shopping scene of them was so cute :D #but yeah see y'all later 🥰🥰 in a bit :D :P!!!!

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flowerslut · 11 months

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17, 22, 9 & 8? good luck with the exams hope they go well!

thank you so much! I can't wait for them to be done so I can focus on fic and other non-essential silliness 😭😭😭

17. What’s something you’ve learned about while doing research for a fic?

omfg when I tell you... I have never done so much random batshit research in my life for a fic... than I have for this current one... I MEAN it. i've gone to a southern california mission (and am planning a second trip for this or next month!), I've read The Art of War TWICE this week, I started studying tarot, and now I know WAY too much about human anatomy (tendons and ligaments, specifically). but one wild thing I've learned is that apparently when people got crucified back in ye olden times, the nails went into their WRISTS and not their PALMS??? so either I didn't pay attention in either of my catholic schools (likely), I forgot about this, (also likely) or they just never taught us that (most likely)

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing?

if I start a fic knowing it's going to be a multi-chapter fic then I usually figure out the ending before I write a single word. so basically yes. I always know the ending. (the only fics that have ever gotten me in trouble with this are the ones that started as one shots and then whoops suddenly there's more chapters! and I never figured an ending out bc I thought I'd already written it! oopsies!)

but I am very good at developing a basically-complete story with anywhere between 2 hours and 2 weeks of brainstorming. I am very fast with it. it's the plot specifics (scenes, settings, b plots, etc) throughout the fic that I usually spend more time on, but fic usually comes to me all at once! idk! I thought for years that that was how everyone came up with fic! but I have learned from my darling friends over the past couple years that... that is absolutely not the case. idk it's a funny little ~party trick~ I have I guess

9. Do you write every day? If you wrote today, share a sentence of what you’ve written!

I WISH! if I had my preferred amount of time to sit down and write fic every day I would have an absolutely terrifying amount of fanfiction complete. (when focused I can easily spit out 30k+ words in a week and it makes me feel both insane and ALIVE) but usually I can't sit down to write unless I have at least five+ hours to write. once I get started writing I literally can not stop and it upsets me INTENSELY if I have to 💔💔💔

8. What project(s) are you currently working on?

I am currently only working on roots! when that first draft is finished I'm going to take a break and finish outlining cotn's novella this summer; this is so that when I finally fix-up roots and it's ready to post I'll be able to redirect my attention to that while roots is being posted (which will happen over the course of 1 year+)

so! very exciting stuff for the Jalice Appreciators out there who give a shit about my writing 🤠

fanfic writer asks!

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maris-medley · 7 months

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Random Wren Infodump (BTC AU character)

Note: Honestly didn’t think I’d be making a post like this but jfc thoughts of Wren and BTC Springtrap are consuming my thoughts,,, so much,,, god I love them. But since I’ve barely talked about her, I doubt anybody who’s read the Messing With Remnant oneshots knows what I’m talking about SOOOOO I’M MAKING A POST ABOUT HER HEHEHEHAHAHAH

This might all end up kinda messy because I don’t really know how to organize posts like this so.. bare with me here please. 🧍‍♀️

Also!! Keep in mind—just in case the title was confusing—BTC IS NOT MY AU!! THIS IS AN AU OF THE BTC UNIVERSE, WHICH IS AN AU BASED OFF UCN BY THE LOVELY @skeletoninthemelonland !! ALL THE BTC STUFF I MAY MENTION IS OF THEIR CREATION WITH MY ONLY REAL ORIGINAL WORKS BEING MY LITTLE SCENARIOS/ONESHOTS THAT I WRITE BASED OFF IT AND MY OCs RIVER AND WREN!! THATS IT!! IF YOURE INTERESTED IN BTC GO SUPPORT SKELETON (STARBS) NOT ME!! <33

Anyways yeah uhhhh again I really don’t know how to set up posts like this so I’m probably just gonna start listing things off about Wren now until I run out of things to say that aren’t spoilers. 💔

And feel free to send asks if there’s anything more you wanna know!! :)

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First off I need to get my River-related thoughts out of my system so I will say right now that River is NOT gonna like Wren at first. Not one bit. There’s a lore reason for why exactly that is which I can’t say much about yet other than the fact that she generally just has an… aversion to people who’ve worked for Fazbear Ent. that she can’t really explain (because she doesn’t remember exactly why she hates it and its employees or what led her to hate it), but regardless of how much—or rather how little—she holds a very deep-seated bias against them. And… yeah. She recognizes most of the characters in the Backstage as Fazbear characters, but the one she’s always known the least about (nothing at all, in fact) was Springtrap. Sooo… yeah…

And Wren’s just gonna be sitting here absolutely dumbfounded at all the dirty looks River will give her and be like “????? Motherfucker WHAT DID I DO????” and River will just not explain at all cause she doesn’t actually know her reasoning and also just likes to irritate her and Springtrap anyways. Just… Wren more so than Springtrap.

OKAY NEXT THING UHHH SO WREN IS A VAMPIRE BUT NOT IN THE WAY ONE WOULD EXPECT!!!

She does not evaporate in sunlight!! Much like the original interpretations of the vampire, she actually just gets really bad sunburns really easily. So it’s lucky for her that the Backstage doesn’t have a sun!

Not only that!! She also isn’t completely immortal! She can slow the aging process (she died at around 40-ish btw), but uhh she still died eventually regardless of what she did… but luckily for her (or at least that’s how she’d think of it), she didn’t pass on in quite so “boring” a way!!

Yeah no she got stuck with the lethal injection when she got found out for eating people… yeah…

Her job as a Fazbear employee didn’t pay very well so she figured she’d be able to get her blood fix by doing a side gig killing people for money.

On top of all that!! You guys remember the pfp below right? Well that’s her!! Except, that’s not actually what she looks like. 🤨

Art by @/way1past1cool on Insta btw! Follow him. 🫵

But yeah she does NOT actually look like that LMAAOAOAOAOAO

She dyes her hair and wears color contacts because this is for some reason what’s viewed as “conventionally attractive” in the U.S., which she uses to appear more “likeable”. As a result, she doesn’t have very great self-esteem, especially when it comes to her ACTUAL appearance… :,)

Her hair is actually black!! And her eyes are a hazel/gold-looking color!! She is pretty regardless of the form she takes tbh. 🥹

Which reminds me!! She can shapeshift! But only into certain things and for a certain amount of time (which isn’t very long tbh).

Animals she can turn into include: bat, cat, and crow.

Yep! That’s it!

She can also change her size/height, similar to the way Nezuko and other demons do in Demon Slayer. But again, only for a short amount of time, as she uses up a lot of energy doing so.

And she actually LOST most of these abilities when she passed on. The only reason she can still do smaller things like turn into a bat and change her height, is because she was always more “spirit” than human, even though she mostly WAS human. Which I know doesn’t make any sense when I explain it that way but I don’t know how else to explain it. 🧍‍♀️

The easiest thing I can compare it to is the human-fae situation, where it’s allegedly possible that some people are naturally more in tune with spiritual stuff because of their ancestors potentially having relations with fae folk.

Not saying that definitely happened btw!!! I just think the idea is really funny so I’m gonna say one of Wren’s ancestors was an Energy Vampire (actual thing) who got with a vampire-vampire because I think that’s silly. ☝️

Admittedly I ignored the issue of genetics and stuff when I first created Wren due to the fact that she was originally made as a joke so some of her background as a vampire might change at some point tbh. 😭

Anyways (yes there’s more), despite her background, Wren’s actually a very sweet person! She’s nice to pretty much everyone, and just comes off as a little… odd sometimes because she’s always sleep-deprived, and she’s never really been very good at concealing her emotions (and she’s almost always pretty sad 🥲). She doesn’t know if people are oblivious cause they’re weirded out by her or if they just don’t say anything about it, but she’s not gonna ask.

SPRINGTRAP THOUGH

She feels most comfortable around him and River (even though River kinda hates her to her core at first 😔).

However, once River inevitably gets used to her, their relationship will be pretty similar to that of River and her mother/Wren and her daughter.

Oh yeah forgot to mention Wren’s daughter is dead and already fully moved on like a really long time ago whoops. 💔

However, because neither of them remember the specifics of their past lives, their attitude towards the feeling at first is kinda just like:

“On second thought I guess I’m bored of hating you you’re kinda chill :)”

And Wren never disliked River, she just always found the hatred/passive-aggressiveness really strange so she kinda just tried her best not to irritate her because she kinda ALREADY felt bad for doing something wrong (even though she had no clue what she even did).

But yeah, once River kinda gets used to her being around she’s randomly gonna be like “you’re okay I guess… I’m not good with apologies can we just like- watch MLP or smth-”

(Wren’s favorite of the mane six is Applejack btw. If you even CARE /lh)

As for her relationship with Springtrap… well, based on the art you can probably already tell she has the absolute worst taste in men (Mari is projecting).

She won’t really fall for him IMMEDIATELY when she meets him though buuuuuut she’ll get attached pretty quickly. 💀

ESPECIALLY considering he and River are probably like the first people she’s ever met that wouldn’t actually care that much if they knew she was a literal monster.

In fact, I love to think Springtrap would be utterly BAFFLED at the idea of Wren of all people being self-conscious about how she looks and just say some shit like “???? No offense but???? Can you even see me right now????? Do you need contacts????? I can make you glasses?????? Because???? I am a 7-foot-tall walking corpse??????”

I can’t get into specifics, but let’s just say their first encounter will be somewhat similar in nature to his first encounter with River, whereas he’ll try to frighten her into staying away from him. Except, unlike River—who KNEW that was what he was doing—Wren will not understand at all; she will NOT get the hint until super far into the story and randomly think “…oh. he was mad at ME. i- wow.”

ALSO unlike River—who just kinda follows Springtrap around because she’s secretly afraid to talk to anyone besides him or Tom—Wren will kinda be hopping back and forth between hanging out with them and interacting with the other residents because she wants to know all about this realm and how it works. :)

She and River are very similar in that their curiosity often gets the best of them, it’s just that River’s a lot worse at interacting with… normal people, than Wren is. 💀

Wren also happens to have a passion for engineering and mechanics!! However, that’s another thing she feels really self-conscious about; because although she’d gone to college to take courses, she was never actually able to get a job in the field because of all the interviewers’ sexist views.

So yeah, even though she KNOWS they were wrong, she couldn’t actually do anything about it and unfortunately had to settle for switching between entry-level positions at Fazbear Ent.

This is something she only vaguely remembers, so although she doesn’t know exactly WHY, she’ll often keep away from Springtrap’s stuff at first because although she’ll definitely be tempted to offer help, she’ll end up feeling really weird and icky about it without knowing why. :(

But on a much lighter note!! She’ll feel a LOT more comfortable with herself around Springtrap in particular, and although it doesn’t exactly change how insecure she is, she definitely enjoys herself a lot more around him and River (and Tom) than most other people. So even though she’ll be smiling and friendly with pretty much everyone, it’ll be like night and day when one compares her smiling around others and smiling around Springtrap.

“But how will Wren handle blood cravings when she arrives in Backstage and nobody has blood? 🙋”

Don’t worry about it.

(she’s gonna suffer in silence until someone finally notices she’s at her breaking point because she refuses to just walk up to somebody and be like “you guys know where I can find blood I kinda need to drink it to stay alive”)

As nice of a person as she is though, she is very okay with evil deeds and murder because she has stopped caring at this point. 👍

Aaaannnd I think I’ve run out of things to say for now BUT I ASSURE YOU THERES MORE!! I JUST CANT REMEMBER RN!! SO PLEASE SEND ME ASKS I’D LOVE TO RAMBLE ABOUT HER MORE AS WELL AS RIVER!! THEY ARE MY BABIES!!

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jaybug-jabbers · 1 year

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Top 3 Lists - Pokemon Scarlet

Hey, all. I figured it's about time to post another one of these! I really enjoyed Pokemon Scarlet, so I thought it would be fun to list off some of my favorites in a Top 3 post-- both pokemon and characters. The game certainly has plenty of both!

Top 3 Ancient Paradox Pokemon

First up, my favorite ancient pokemon. I feel as though these choices are pretty basic/what most people probably choose, but oh well, I can't really help they happen to be my favorites too. I would die for Koraidon, he is the bestest boy in the world and my precious son.

I've never been a huge fan of Mismagius (especially now knowing we could have had the infinitely more creepy Kurstraw/Pangshi), but I think Flutter Mane reboots the design in a wonderful way, which is surprising and refreshing. I've grown very fond of her.

To my amusement, I have the same feelings about Roaring Moon; I have always disliked Salamence's design, but Roaring Moon is a massive improvement on the design, which is so exciting to see. The colors are great, the feathers are an excellent addition, the long talons remind me of a bird of prey, and the whole thing has such a foreboding presence that normal Salamence's ugly shapes always lacked. The choice to lean into Mence's Mega design was smart, because they retained all the good of that design and discarded the rest. Plus, what a badass name.

I only just now noticed all my favorite choices here have feathers. Well, I suppose it makes sense, with our recent suspicion that many dinosaurs had feathers!

Top 3 Regional Form/New Evolutions/Convergent Species

I'm lumping all of these into the same category, since there isn't a huge number for any of those categories alone. When I first saw Toedscool out in the wild, I was deeply confused about what I was seeing, and when I poked it, it turned into a Ditto-- and somehow my brain concluded it must have been Ditto screwing up its attempt at imitating a Tentacool. 😂 But no, Toedscool is truly its own thing, as unsettling and strange as it is. I absolutely hated how it moved, it creeped me out. I've decided I like it for that reason. (Toedscruel is likewise unsettling and interesting, but it's not on my list because I hate TUBE MOUTHS argghh)

Farigiraf is definitely on my list. I have always loved Girafarig, and its evolution has been long, long overdue, so it's incredibly exciting to see it finally get the love it deserves. They did an excellent job with the evolution, too, it's fun and silly and cool all at once.

Finally, for my regional form choice, I'm definitely choosing Paldean Tauros. I know everyone is all excited about Wooper and Clodsire, but I was never a Wooper fan. (Sorry, Rika 💔) I'm just super excited that Tauros got such an awesome redesign, especially the Blaze breed. The changes are minor but so effective. Maybe I'm just a sucker for black-colored pokemon. This is like the shiny design Tauros always deserved and never had.

Top 3 New General Pokemon

This really is a tough choice to make, because Scar/Vio has a LOT of new pokemon to choose from. But I think I've finally narrowed it down to these lads. Klawf is the perfect example of a simple but elegant design. Sometimes "a big crab" is enough to be enjoyable because, well, I like crabs. What can I say, I know what I like.

Grafaiai is the very definition of "skrunkly," so there's no way I can resist putting him on the list. Aye-ayes are fascinating little freaks and it's great to have a pokemon based off them, put I enjoy the inspiration they also drew from lemurs. It's also great to have a poison pokemon taking up the traditional position of "early game normal-type rodent pokemon." Poison pokes are just cool. The association with spray paint and urban art is also really fun.

If any of you know me, you'll know I of course consider bug types to be my favorite pokemon type. But that doesn't automatically mean I'll put new bugs as my favorites. Rabsca really does deserve to be on the list, though; at least in terms of design. A dung-beetle pokemon has been long overdue, and the sacred associations with this species is lovingly referred to in this design. For those unaware, dung beetles are included in Egyptian mythology, and the beetle rolling a ball of dung was compared to their sun god rolling the sun along its path in the sky.

HMs

It's so tough to choose just three so I wanted to include a few Honorable Mentions here; I've loved Frigate birds since I was a wee lass so it's cool to see Kilowattrel; Charcadet's evolutions are badass (especially Ceruledge) and I am very fond of them despite the fact I typically don't like humanoid pokemon; and I'm very pleased that the very first Grass/Fire pokemon (finally!!) ended up really cool. (And that it ended up being a pepper, like so many of us guessed Grass/Fire would be)

Top Team Star Bosses

I'm not gonna to lie, I did not enjoy the Team Star storyline much in this game. I felt it was the weakest of the three main story threads. (I enjoyed the brief post-game storyline with Penny & Team Star more than the main part of their story, in fact) That said, these would be my favorites of the bunch. Ortega's design just looks delightful, such a snazzy dandy, and Atticus' devotion to The Bit is admirable (and tbh who doesn't love a D&D nerd?) Giacomo is forgettable and is there because I needed a third choice, lmao (sorry, didn't like the team star girls much)

Top 3 Gym Leaders

Grusha is definitely my top Gym Leader pick. His character is fascinating, especially the events the game only only hints at (it seems strongly implied he met with a nasty snowboarding accident and had to stop the sport, losing his dream and being stuck with just his gym leader job, which he seems rather bitter about). It's a shame they didn't pursue his character storyline further with one of the Academy side-stories (in the way they fleshed out Brassius more). I feel like he could have had a storyline with the nurse (Miriam), and that would have been much better then Miriam's actual side-story which felt rather randomly shoehorned in there (and fan pandering, to be entirely honest). Oh well. At any rate, I find Grusha the most interesting gym leader by far.

Larry is great. They had a clear idea in mind for his character and they executed it well. He apparently is a big hit with fans too. Good for him, he deserves it.

I chose Bassius as my third option because of his involvement in the side-storyline with him and Hassel. He's a rather forgettable character if you only know him from his gym, but his interactions with Hassel were great and fleshed him out a lot more-- made me actually care about him. Honestly I think it's great they let these two men have a strong bond with each other and Hassel even get choked up and cries about it. That's sending a very positive message about men letting themselves feel and express positive emotions! Yes, Hassel's crying is written slightly for comedy (haha look at this man cry), but I think it's also done with genuine affection (it's ok for guys to cry and love each other, even your professor does!). So that's really cool. (The exact nature of their relationship is something fans speculate on, but whether they are close friends or they're something romantic, I think it's cool regardless!)

Top 3 Elites/Champions

My bias here is going to be clear, but holy shit I love Rika and Nemona.

Rika, because . . . I mean, LOOK at her. She's hot, she's professional, but she's a total dork and a goober too. She's a sore loser but she's a total sweetheart to Poppy, and GAH, I love her so much. A lot of great details with her. She's by far my favorite Elite.

Nemona is literally my favorite rival charatcer of the entire franchise other than N. I could blather about her endlessly. Let's just say this bubbly, energetic, earnest, friendly, wonderful girl who hyperfixates on pokemon battling and sincerely wants to see you grow and thrive is perfect in every day. 🥺

Hassel is here too, lol. (In all seriousness he's great too, a wonderful mentor figure and a man of passion. Even if his haircut is a bit weird asfhjkl)

#pokemon #top3 #pokemon favorites #pokemon scarlet #pokemon s/v #pokemon scar/vio

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Something I found hiding in a sketchbook! Again with those Prismacolor pencils. I stopped using them after this year because I actually did not like them! You'll notice that this looks a lot like the 2005 wolf, just better anatomy. I realized that 2005 was kind of my last year for full body drawings and also the last year that I put a lot of effort into my art with creating entire scenes. I ended up ditching that and doing just tons of headshots because they were just faster and less work. It took me many years to break myself of doing only headshots as the bulk of what I produced.

Also again with the whole feeling like hyper realism was something I HAD to do. I felt trapped in that cycle where I had to do ONLY traditional art, ONLY hyper realism, and ONLY use big fancy brands of supplies because that's what people demanded from popular artists at the time. By this point in my art journey, I stopped doing things because I enjoyed them and all I cared about was what other people thought of my illustrations. That's a super toxic mindset to get trapped in 💔 My life through teenage years and most of my 20s was also depressing and toxic but we dont need to get into those details. I bring it up because your personal life DOES affect the quality of your work!

This is also another example of expensive art supplies will not automatically make you some pro-level artist. Its VERY clear that I used very basic coloring techniques on this, the sketch itself was sloppy, and it was just thrown together with no real effort. It holds better anatomy than just a few years before it, but it was still extremely low quality. Its actually depressing to look back at old art and be able to see where it all derailed for me. Art was no longer fun. It became an OCD "chore" for me where I was constantly pushing myself saying "this is not good enough" instead of allowing natural growth to happen. I had bigger growth from 2001 to 2004 than I have from 2004 to about 2018!

What you have going on in your head matters more than you think. I should have taken a break and sorted out my real life issues at the time. Instead, I chose the unhealthy route of ignoring them thinking that if I just ignored it, the problems would go away. They did not go away. They only got worse and turned into a decade long derailment. This is the part where I remind you PLEASE CARE ABOUT THE KIND OF COMPANIONS YOU KEEP. Not everybody is your friend for the right reasons. If your friends cant be supportive of you emotionally during tough times and all they have to say is negative things such as blaming you for being in a toxic, abusive relationship, they're not your friends. If all they say is negative toxic things blaming you for the way your toxic family treats you, they are not your friends. Be aware of red flags. Have a support group of close friends. Have people who you can trust to talk about whats going on AND take a break from projects until you have that sorted out! THERE IS NO SHAME IN TAKING A MENTAL HEALTH BREAK!

Don't be stupid and push yourself to keep faking it. My biggest regret with my art is doing that. I pretended for years that I was fine, everything was fine, that I was happy. I had a lot of close friends at the time try to tell me that things were falling apart, but I didnt want to believe it. Young adulthood is hard. A lot of things can happen as you're trying to figure out what to do with your life. The one thing that WAS my fault was neglecting myself AND neglecting my projects. I cannot begin to tell you how many things have gone neglected since 2005 and its truly heartbreaking to face that now in the 2020s. Part of fixing that is publicly admitting these failures. The next step in fixing that is picking up the pieces of a broken past and now having supportive friends and a supportive partner. My art no longer has to suffer and my quality when I am happy is a complete 180 of this hot mess. Its hard to admit that my quality has sucked for so long, but its true!

Your progress and growth in art will stop if you are constantly stressed. You will always be burnt out. The more you create during burnout, the more angry and frustrated you will become. Social media always demands (the machine of it, not the people using it) that you CONSTANTLY post and will make you feel like a failure if you do not have daily content or even hourly content. Go hang out with friends and family. Go on vacations. Go play videogames. Go outside! You dont need the internet 24-7. It will be here when you get back. Take👏mental👏health👏breaks👏. You are not a machine. You have needs. Stop ignoring them. Its so easy to get trapped in this endless loop and its very hard to get out of it 🧡

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professorklaus · 2 years

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aaaaa lucius/sitri for the oc questions. i wanna know more about him!! tho if you can only answer one question atm, what’s something that he always carries?

you. don't give me this power

lucius my beloved beloathed pre-xc1 and xc2 oc. why the hell did you overtake my actual main oc... i was also going to do sitri Now but this wiped me out OTL

BASICS

I've mulled this over a lot, and never quite figured out where I wanted him to be from. But as of now, he's british-american and I sure can say he's in the US by the time THAT happens!

Male, he/him, afab.

Macaroni and cheese, to the point where he spitefully learnt how to cook it himself and perfected a recipe for it because his mom hated cooking it—but if that doesn't count, then we'll stick to more generalized categories and say he's fond of lunch and dinner foods.

He's afraid of rodents.

Lucius is very shy, normally only sticking around certain people he's comfortable with, and doesn't really talk much—though he's happy to listen to others talk, if necessary. Has a bad tendency to kind of stare like the tbh creature in hopes his point will get across. Incredibly self conscious, and absolutely considered the "weird one."

Like this. Tall and lanky, freckles optional because he hides them with makeup. 6'1'' btw.

APPEARANCE

Absolutely tries to color coordinate his outfits. He's typically in darker clothing for contrast—and, well, in my heart and soul, he's goth okay?

He sure did wish he could, and most importantly, he did. Beneath those layers is hard-earned and well deserved chest surgery scars. :)

Another question I've thought long and hard about, to absolutely no avail! I want to say yes, but I like to think in my weird little brain that his hair color is natural. If not, though... I'll get back to you on that natural hair color thought.

Goth and jock, easy. Joth, if you will. Big fan of sportswear.

Yeah, it's part of his work attire, but... lab coat go brrr. It's sentimental and personal to him; a testament to how far he's come. He also just thinks he looks cool in it.

Both, but mostly because he actually prefers leather jackets.

RELATIONSHIPS

He doesn't think he'd be a good partner, nor does he think there'd ever be a good time to confess, but yes. If you know, you know. [hides ship art]

Not that many friends. Acquaintances and the like, sure, but he's only got about three actual friends... what a l—

Sort of; he gets more attached to objects than people tbh

Absolutely. He keeps his cards close, preferring not to come across as potentially annoying or overbearing, and includes him seldom talking about his interests.

Nope, amazingly! He overshares in other ways tho. 💔

yeah...

FACTS

Food he cooked personally and coffee he brewed himself /j. In actuality, a pack of gum probably; local guy Must Chew

A gift from Galea—a telescope. He's always been interested in space, after all. Pets immediately follow it on the list.

In my heart he knows more than one language, but with my realistic puny brain that writes him...only one language; English.

The smell of freshly washed clothes and citrus scents. And some chemicals.

Law-evading Rock by Neru-P. Easy. If you know, you know.

He just thinks cats are relatable little fuzzy dudes!

BONUS

I don't have all the lore worked out yet, nor the words for any of it, but I can tell you that he sure didn't grow up in a good environment!

I have no idea what this question means by "like," so I'm assuming it means interests (science, coding, space, and in the universe where other games also exist; loz and hollow knight) or just... what they're Like. In which case, Lucius is the kind of guy to look at a bug and go "they're just like me fr"

He doesn't really drink coffee unless he's taste testing what he makes for others; he's a soda and energy drinks kind of guy.

Absolutely not a morning person, but tries to wake up and proceed with his life anyways.

Lucius had shorter hair as a child, antennae curls included.

#ocs tag #ocs ask meme

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