#i feel sick+bad is this hungry

[crybaby-bkg]

I want piercer Dabi and I want him NOW!!!!!!!!!!……

I just think he’d have such a terrible reputation for being so standoffish and unfriendly and rude with the customers, but it’s only from the WIMPS!!! and when you go in, nervous but excitable and jittery, he can’t help but lay on that Dabi ‘charm’ that typically leaves him a nasty review online.

but you love it because he’s low key hilarious and makes you feel so comfortable with how open and honest he is about everything. breaks your heart tho when he tells you that certain piercings aren’t compatible with your anatomy but makes up for it by offering up another piercing for half off the pricing!!

you get your lip pierced, and he’s holding your jaw with a surprising amount of gentleness. turns you this way and that before he tuts that he’s gonna give you a vertical labret instead of the snake bites you originally came in for, tells you how the former is much cooler, how pretty you’ll look with it. he’s so cheeky, pulls your bottom lip down with his thumb, a ‘requirement’ to make sure your lip won’t reject the piercing (he can’t tell this way, he just wants to touch you and watch how clouded your eyes get).

he’s full of praise but only for his best customers (just you). calls you good and sweet and a little crybaby, but only when you whine or whimper. tells you how good you take it for him, smirks when he watches your thighs shift and clench against each other.

oooooohhhh and imagine you want a tattoo too and he does them as well????? hour long sessions of a bat winged heart as a tramp stamp that he can’t help but drool over. the way you’re bent over, how you moan a little in discomfort, look back over your shoulder to see your progress. he’s hard the entire session, and convinces you to come back for another long, detailed tattoo in a risqué area just so he can see you, smell you, feel you again. whore.

#I’m so sick over him I can’t #I need him so bad #I know he’d be so mean and teasing I can feel it in my bones #makes fun of you for getting small cutesy tattoos (ie me) #he’s an ass and j love him #okay gn im so tired and hungry #dabi treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[zeb-z]

Absolutely love that every clone still working with the Empire that Crosshair has a mission with all go AWOL immediately after interacting with him. It draws him unwanted attention from the Admiral because it looks like he’s the key in the other clones getting radicalized and leaving to fight against the Empire instead of for them, but really it’s just because Crosshair doesn’t hesitate when they do to follow a clearly despicable order, clarifying that the Empire really isn’t the Republic they all fought for and that it isn’t peace they’re maintaining.

He’s not some rebel or otherwise, he just makes such shitty decisions that the other clones are like oh yeah the Empire is fucked up im out. That’s so fucking funny to me, actually.

#the bad batch. howzer and his group. tbb on kamino again. now commander fucking cody himself #THE commander Cody. imagine doing something so fucked that you’re the driving factor in getting commander cody to leave. incredible #it’s incredible. his track record is phenomenal. maybe if he wasn’t such a power hungry taken over by propaganda stubborn dickwad #I’d be impressed #sorry crosshair apologists I’m sick of this man making bad choices and blaming it on the rest of the bad batch #yes there’s more to it then him being stubborn he’s got his feelings of abandonment and the fact that it was nailed in before he got his #chip out doesn’t help #if he’s even telling the truth about that who fucking knows dude #but come fucking on now. i can understand him that doesn’t mean I like him. hope he comes to his senses at least #the bad batch #tbb #Star Wars #sw #commander cody #crosshair #the bad batch spoilers #z speaks

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing about the body's response to not eating is when you're so hungry you feel like you're gonna throw up. this does not make it easier to eat food actually

#literally thanks it did not help #my body sucks so bad at eating #i literally am not hungry until im so hungry i feel sick?? #also #even when i remember to eat on a schedule all food makes me queasy i literally cannot win #maybe the so hungry im about to puke thing is just a me problem idk but it is NOT helpful #im also starting a medication that i cant eat anything for two hours before or after that's going to mess up my digestion today 😊 #and make me feel awful #but its an alternative to eye surgery so hopefully it will be worth it #but i havent even started it yet and im so queasy just bc i didnt really eat breakfast #its not like i had Nothing i had three bites of cheerios and a coffee.... #i would have eaten the cheerios but i was late for an appointment lol #anyway #my digestion sucks and i already cut out gluten and almost all dairy 😤 #wtf else is thereee #also somehow magically even tho all food makes me sick and i barely eat regular meals i am putting on weight??? #lowkey wondering if im diabetic or something bc this is not normallll

[cactus-cactus-cactus]

Being sick is such a fucking scam.

#all I’ve eaten today is honey lemon water broth and 2 club crackers #have i been able to keep any of it down? what a funny joke #I’m SOOOOO HUNGRY and I CANT EAT ANYTHING and my HEAD HURTS and EVERYTHING HURTS SO BAD #everyone be nice to me I feel like Shit and Balls #tw sickness #emetophobia #<-​in the tags

[rapidhighway]

Man should not be able to eat a bag of chips if it will give him 3 illnesses but he can. And it does

#ouough i scratched my throat real bad and i have cold symptoms ouough #i feel so sickkk #ToT #lying in bed and my roommate still smoked in here i feel sick x2 #i feel like absolute garbage and i can't eat even though im hungry ToT #playing unleash cause what's leftbi wanted to go out today but I feel like shit -_- #add to it the shame that comes after binging ough I can't eat I feel horrible

[fourteenthz]

LOVE AND PEACE ON FUCKING PLANET EARTH

#kelly plays ykz #yakuza 0 spoilers #I'm stopping now its like 7am I prefer to believe they are going to have a dinner and plan a trip to Europe and never come back actually #IM SO OBSESSES WITH THEM IT'S MAKING ME SICK IN THE HEAD #i didn't start this game expecting anything other than brother^tm but you know what. IF #they every single one of majima's old boss can say tell this guy has feelings maybe i can too. yeah. YEAH. #OBSESSED SO BAD with chapter 16 first cutscene... he has absolutely NO hesitation in running up to her. #and the second she goes past him he immediately refuses to let her go. #ITS SO INSANE how he has been so lifeless the last chapter and accepting his fate as a pawn for the next one #to show that fucking face he makes while looking at her. ITS SO WEIRD IN A FANTASTIC WAY my man is having too many feelings he can't #she** can't even see it and it KILLS ME bc he is making the world's puppiest eyes at her IM SO AUAAGAHHAHH SLAMMING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE #I NEED THEM. TO BE. SO NORMAL RN. I NEED THEM TO HAVE SUCH NORMAL DINNER RN. #I'm stopping playing bc i'm not sure that's going to happen so enough tears for today but I JUST. REALLY NEED THEM. #TO HAVE DINNER. HOLDING HANDS. AND THAT'S IS. CAN SOMEONE HEAR ME. #she really is like my top3 favorite characters in this damn game I adore this woman to death. #feeling so majima by his sigh in realief as soon as she stopped walking away when she tripped. the way his damn face changes from pained to #'IDEA!' and imediatelly offers to take her out........................... i'm so unwell at this momento. #I thought if they met again I wouldn't be able to trust majima bc he was so set in being a damn pawn in the previous chapter but man..... #the amount of thoughts behind his eye everytime he looked at her. if they end up playing that as him bring in pain #bc he has to win her over im going to kll a guy. there's no way NO WAY U HEARD ME #thry are literally my everything. there is NO way she is going to survive this game and I'm trying sk damn hard to get #used to that idea but it just sucks i love her so much. and thw worst part i have no idea what's up with majima on the other games #is her dying being his villain storie??? his hero redemption? HELL IF I KNOW. IS SHE EVEN DYING FR?? #i truly think they could get away wih shipping her to another country. and it would make sense for majima to insist her to go. #but oh I doubt so hard they are giving me anything but pain with my favorite relationships in this game. i really do. #until then..... lying down in bed.... thoughts abt majima soft expression at her.... abt the weight her voice #carries rn.... abt the way he said 'hey' and she said 'you think I'm emotional because I'm hungry again'..... they. are. so. #the way they dont even give a choice to walk faster when she is accompanying majima. #I have such low standards at this point. if they don't at least hold hands again i will cry. #he doesn't need to guide her around anymore so... u see my vision? him asking for her hand bc he wants to... hello?

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[sophiethewitch1]

hiiii!!! i love www so far, i think you’re doing such a good job <3 my fav rn is tim, but i wanted to ask who’s ur fav? and which batboy are you most excited to write about?!! can we get a sneak peek into some of your plans long term 🥹 only if you’re comfortable! i feel very inspired and i wanted to know some of your creative writing process for www/in general 🫶

POINTS AT SCREEN! Anon I love you!! If you write anything that's inspired by me you HAVE to tag me okay??!!! Non-negotiable!!! Also I love Tim too, I think I gravitate towards him most because he just screams late-diagnosed autism and he's a fellow high school dropout lmfao. But having a fav? No, we don't do that here. My fav changes hourly, minutely? Idk but rn I'm writing Grayson's introduction and his confused but loving ass is melting me. But I have scenes I'm bouncing off the walls for all of them. Thelma + Louise by Bastille chapter you are so loved <3 <3

Also!! Plans!! Long term!!!! Ahhhh, I'm feeling less and less like spoiling the big things, because I'm actually managing to write regularly and I really didn't think I would. But what I am willing to share... hm. So far there are 4 arcs (but they're almost more like books or parts...??? they're very very long D:) planned, built around mostly the different phases in your relationship. It's the love-hate, love-hate wave. Friends to enemies to lovers to enemies to lovers again lmfao. There also might be a 5th arc because I'm not exactly sure how I want the fic to end just yet. The yandere stuff only becomes an acknowledged thing at the end of part 1, and even then reader is very oblivious throughout part 2. So we've got a girl who is in denial almost as much as the guys. 'Okay they might, MIGHT be obsessed with me (might) but they're not in love with me. that's silly.' I may not have a favourite boy but I definitely have favourite arcs and it is 2 and 4. You will see why.

The document itself, not just the published parts is at 50k, which is 20k extra. Also, I have 169 tidbits done, hopefully we can condense and merge them because oh my fucking god 169 chapters is genuinely absurd. worryingly absurd. lets hope we never get to that point. Even if it is the sex number, I'm not doing it. Also I don't know what my creative process is I don't really remember things lmfao.

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #series:www #dunno what i was going on about at the end there this is just #its too hot. i might be sick again? #i was hungry but the idea of eating made me feel sick which is always a bad sign #i am so stubborn tho gang do not worry I can not die #tw long post #sort of lmfao #also should i share the www playlist #some of the songs mean absolutely jack shit for the fic but some are like. here's a very obvious clue have fun :D #i keep almost falling over again i hate this #i really should check if i have pots I want to stop feeling so faint L

[magdalenas]

honestly i think being sick and losing weight has caused me to be sick like .. mentally

#i Can eat again but now i’m obsessing over what i eat and how much #bc everyone keeps complimenting me for how i look & losing weight #even tho at least part of it is bc i was too sick to eat for an entire month 😐 #like i was acting … very disordered this evening #i didn’t eat until like 4:30-5pm today and bc i ate so late i decided i wouldn’t eat again #but i was hungry at like 9:30 and ultimately i did have a little snack #but i acted very … just very unwell about the whole situation #disordered eating tw #proana d0 n0t int3r@ct #like it’s pulling me into bad behaviors & thought patterns #that i haven’t dealt with in a while #and i fear i’m like .. one step away from not being able to eat unless i get high first again which i fr just kicked that habit #but the problem now is i don’t even get high that often anymore like sans the teensiest bit of weed i smoked on sunday i haven’t been high #in like 2 weeks .. so im worried i will just like .. not be able to eat bc im not even getting high 😳 #and i feel like if i do gain any weight back i’ll be like .. crazy evil to myself so it’s like .. idk what to do #uhm anyway ..

[gxlden-angels]

Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)

It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.

I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.

It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great

#I know I sound like I'm a being sponsored by this app but it's genuinely been incredible for my mental health #whenever I get frustrated in therapy now about not being able to describe a feeling my therapist asks me to think about the chart #he'll ask me what color I feel and go 'good! do you want to narrow it down from there or continue with just that?' and it's so helpful #I have such terrible alexithymia from both cptsd and autism #it took a year of working with him to even recognize when I felt angry or hungry or sick #my friends and I check in on each other regularly now but it feels less intrusive #cause it feels like indirectly reaching out so it's less pressure to directly respond #and it might not feel the same for everyone since it could be jarring to get a notification saying friend feels miserable #but now that I've gotten used to it I don't feel like I need to solve their problems and make them feel better #Like they might be miserable because they're sick! So I check in and they say they're sick but okay and I don't feel the impulse to solve #like I would if I just didn't see them then saw them in person and saw they looked miserable #I don't blame myself or feel like I personally need to fix everything because I know they felt like that from an outside source I can't #control but I can certainly help them if they want! It's their choice tho and I don't feel bad if they don't/I can't #I feel less need to control my emotions/force them to be positive like I used to cause nobody feels positive 24/7 and I can see it #I don't feel the need to be politely content like I did in church because no one can be 24/7. I've attempted to get my family to start but #they're still stuck in needing to not be openly negative. It also helps me accept that negative feelings don't last forever #Someone feeling miserable because they're sick eventually puts they feel tired. Then chill and I know they feel better and I feel better too #Anyways thanks for listening to me ramble about my silly little feelings wheel app I hope it helps you like it helped me anon <3

[olive-riggzey]

I just need to get something off my chest about getting "complimented" for my body

I hate it. It makes me so uncomfortable when people tell me that they wish they had my body. But if I ever dare complain about it, people think I'm fishing for compliments when I'm definitely NOT. And I know my problems aren't nearly as bad as the ones on the other side, but it makes me feel so awful because I feel like I'm somehow reinforcing the mindset that fuels fatphobia. It just makes me so upset that people use me as an "example" like that!!!

"You're so lucky you’re skinny." Shut up. Shut up shut up shut up. I do not CARE about being skinny. I literally couldn’t care less about how thin or fat my body is. This just happens to be my body's resting position. I am a small person. I celebrate when I gain weight because my ADD meds surpress my appetite, and it was such a struggle to eat EVEN WHEN I WANTED FOOD BECAUSE I WAS HUNGRY. I literally always eat food when I'm hungry because why wouldn’t I??? Why would you deprive your body of something it is literally begging you for????? Why do people have to think that one body shape is superior and that that shape is worth the deprivation??????

"Why do you eat so much bread? That’s so many carbs." Do you even know what carbs are for. Also I eat bread because it tastes good. Nothing anyone says will ever get me to stop living on bread and rice. "But you'll get fat!" SO WHAT???? What is so wrong about being fat???? NOTHING! Stop trying to make me feel bad about what I eat for absolutely no reason. I literally couldn’t care less what you think about me. I am mad that you had to be a 'phobe about it.

But seriously. I did ballroom dance for more than a decade. Competively. Every single costume that my studio used had the dresses made to make the girls look skinny and busty with hips to spare. "You were blessed, unlike the rest of us," my coach once told while she unstitched the padding from my dress. The lady that measured us thought it would be funny to tell everyone that my waist was the same size as the biggest guy on the team's thigh. I overheard one of the moms comment on a girl, whispering to my mom to ask if the girl was pregnant. She proceeded to tell my mom, "It’s too bad my daughter doesn’t have a body like your daughter's."

And they wonder why nearly every girl on the team ended up with an eating disorder????

After I came out as ace, I had someone tell me that my body is "wasted on someone that's not going to use it." Oh, so my worth is now being equated to how "sexy" you think my body is???? Are you even hearing yourself??????

It's not fair that people keeping putting up this invisible divide between me and those with bodies that they for some reason don’t like. I literally love fat people, and there have been way too many times that I've been used specifically by a 'phobe to make fat people feel inferior. Leave me out of it!!! I don’t care about your stupid diet culture or whatever!!! Stop trying to use me in your sick and disgusting ways of shaming people that are literally perfect!!!!

#Zeta Rambles #Vent #CW fatphobia #CW body shaming #CW eating disorder #Long Post #I'm so tired you guys. I'm so sick of this. #Watching my friend compare herself to me in the mirror made me want to cry #You're so beautiful and it’s not fair that you’ve been convinced that you're not #Also throwback to the time my cousin tried to make me feel bad for eating a cheese sandwich??? #She said “It's literally all carbs!” And I looked and her and said “Yeah my body needs those.” #I need you guys to understand that I would love to put on some weight. I'd love to be a stocky little gremlin BUT NO. #These stupid genetics I have are so annoying. Also buying enough food for my fast metabolism so expensive 😭😭😭 #Like PLEASE can I store some of the food I eat for longer than 2 hours?? I hate being constantly hungry #Anyways it's late. I'm tired and sad. Time for me to go to bed.

[dreaminginstasis]

today - margot ‘helping’ me change the sheets and our newest juvenile magpie waiting patiently for their treat

#cats #birds #I have been in so much pain and discomfort #I truly am feeling hopeless but I am trying my best to hold out until endoscopy on 18/10 #I can’t eat anything without severe pain and reflux now #I’m so dizzy and tired and weak and HUNGRY #most of the time the pain is so bad I can’t breathe #and I can’t take anything stronger than paracetamol because it makes me violently sick #and I can’t take ibuprofen because it makes the reflux 100x worse #I don’t know sorry for the rant I just really feel hopeless at the moment

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.

#this is a silly haha humor post but in all seriousness. #COVID rly is just making me stare all the internalized ableism in the eye #yes worth isnt defined by productivity and disability and the idea of being a burden is part of being human and isn’t shameful at all #until I have to minorly inconvenience people to meet my basic needs #I really want to eat dinner but that would require asking my roommates to make me dinner which is just. 5 kinda of mortifying. #even though if someone I knew was sick I would not be upset about making them food! sick people need to eat! #my parents ordered me chipotle yesterday bc they were so concerned bc of how I sounded over the phone #and my friend went out and bought me juice and Gatorade and popsicles and took me to the doctor #the support system Exists I just feel bad about having to use it T-T #I just want to be hugged and read to and reminded to eat food but I am an adult now and not at home #lonely TT-TT #it’ll be okay I’m probably just emotional bc I’m sick and hungry #I also just am struggling so hard because I want to catch up on my classwork Right Now #but I can get through maybe one assignment before I’m too exhausted to keep sitting up #and I have to lay down and close my eyes and sleep or do a light activity like playing candy crush for the fifty bazillionth time #I’ve gotten through like. 100 levels this week. #I’m losing my dang marbles. I am gonna be so behind in ASL Susan is gonna be so disappointed in me #I feel like I have all this energy when I’m laying down bored but as soon as I sit up I feel like I’m floating and about to fall over #so. so tired. why can’t I be healthy already and do homework T-T. #I’m choosing to take this as a lesson to slow down and not overwork myself so hard. instead of being mad at myself for getting behind. #<- is trying and failing not to be mad at herself for getting behind

[neekosarchive]

me saying "i don't know why im losing weight" when i actually know why

#i keep forgetting #to uh eat mwals #meals #but im not really hungry #i dont feel hungry i feel sick #am i bad for this

[arctic-hands]

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#am I nauseous again or just hungry and broke #I have like. eggs. which for some reason after yesterday's puke fest are very unappealing to me now #the kicker is that I was actually going to walk to the store to get food yesterday AND THEN #i can't afford tip on grocery delivery right now #yesterday my old man sent me a few dollars for chipolte which was the most mild thing on GrubHub I could find #but I once again flunked the marshmallow test and didn't leave enough for today #tbf I had to eat to take my prednisone last night which is when I finished it off after putting it in the fridge #I could bake some soda bread before the milk goes bad but a lot of carbs and no protein ALSO makes me feel sick #not in an ED way just in a my body is fucked by lifelong chronic illness and reacts weird to various foods #food

[thethingything]

I would love to know why we keep feeling so sick and getting really bad abdominal cramps within like an hour or so of eating even if we have stuff that's normally a safe food for us

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #emetophobia tw #we're constantly hungry but everything we eat makes us feel really sick and pretty much nothing actually sounds appetising because of that #there are maybe one or two foods that haven't been doing this but they're like snack foods so they're not that filling #but also I think this maybe started after we started using the prescription toothpaste again #and I know when we first started using it we felt sick all the time and got really bad acid reflux #hence us not using it for a while but then we got anxious about our teeth potentially getting worse and started using it again #we nearly throw up every time we use it but that kind of just happens with any toothpaste we use #(I'm pretty sure this is going to be really bad for our mental health in the long run especially with having emetophobia) #the only way to brush our teeth without that happening is to use those little travel toothbrushes with the little toothpaste bead thingies #because they're not the same as normal toothpaste so they don't cause the same issues #but I don't think the toothpaste would cause the abdominal cramps we've got because I'm pretty sure we didn't get those last time #they feel like something half way between IBS cramps and the cramps we've had from food poisoning