#i dont talk to him anymore

[puppygirlkat]

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#i can go on like long rants about us history #its been a long time since i like actually studied history #most of my knowledge is of 20th century US history #i need to get back to studying history #ive been a leftist basically since i was a teenager #i dont think i still have the pamphlets that really pushed me into learning about communism #though again i was still learning mostly from the imperial core #so there were some gaps in my knowledge #but even learning from that was enough to be like 'ok this shit fucking sucks ass #idk #my memory is spotty so i dont remember super well #god i remember trying to stand against my dads islamophobia and homophobia #shithead #i dont talk to him anymore #learning history is important #i still need to read a lot of books though because my picture is always feeling incomplete #it will never be complete and ill be arrogant if i ever think it is #but my knowledge still feels woefully inadequate #anyway enough rambling #rat thots

[mielicy]

the US government is militarizing residential and public/community areas as we speak bro wth are we doing

#i keep thinking back to that time in 8th grade right after trump was elected #and we were seeing kkk rallys pop up more often #my parents were about to split up #and my mom was trying to protect me #as the only black person in my family #and my dad picked me up from school and asked me AND I QUOTE #'sascha are you afraid for your life in this country? #after a moment of consideration i said yes #and he decided to gaslight me telling me im beimg ridiculous and my mom had brain washed me #and every day since then this country has become more and more dangerous to be a person of color let alone a fat black queer 'woman' #now he talks shit about oakland and chicago every chance he gets and calls biden brandon #i dont talk to him anymore #its sad that even at 13/14 i felt that fear of being black in america even tho i didnt really know what it meant at that point in my life

[daftmooncretin]

last three seasons spn are crazy. its just dean being borderline suicidal while sam tries to fix it by basically dangling his keys at him and going : “dean look! cowboys!” “dean look! strip club!” “dean look! haunted action figure.”

Meanwhile castiel is like i see that dean is suicidal, this is clearly my fault so i will remedy this by dying.

#and then dean is fixed by jack getting him a yogurt from the fridge or some shit #dean: yeah i just dont believe theres any point living any more. sam: huh dean are you ok? that sure was a funny thing to say #dean: yeah i just dont believe theres a point to life anymore. cas: don’t worry dean. i’ll always be here. *dies* #dean:yeah i just don’t believe theres a point to living anymore. jack: bummer. want to play mario kart? #dean: sure kid why not #destiel #dean winchester #spn #sam winchester #supernatural #but seriously #i feel like we dont talk about how dean was trying to die at the slightest inconvenience in the later seasons and its like??? bestie???

[mintaikcorpse]

It's been chaos ever since

#tried getting my friends to do the same #didnt enjoy it that much sadly #they all thought it was weird and gross #anyways one of those friends called me a deragatoey term to another guy when i was right in front of him so i dont talk to him anymore #stolitz #tomco #starco #originalshipping #bendy x alice #shipping #fandom #n x uzi #n x v #goldric #lumity #huntlow #jesskas #kiribaku #honestly too many tags to type #talking #rambling

[payphoneangel]

ok wait last thing i just rbed made me think of when i watched Barry with this guy and he said he'd never like Sally if she was a real person bc she's selfish and a bad girlfriend. I was just like of all the characters on the Murdering People Show... you wouldn't like Sally if she was a real person????

#vinny types #i dont talk to him anymore #that wasnt even the worst thing he said about it

[generalmalfeasance]

Me 6pm : yah I'll totally go berry picking w u mom! And I will try to do more around the house

Me currently 11 hours later: not asleep depressed, taking a bath, "mmmmm what if I was depressed tho"

#i cant see my therapist till i pay off my payment thing cause i dont wanna have another payment added #and then like #idek #ive just been hella depressed abt my career goals and major and job #how i interact with people #how i approach conflict #idk lotsa things swimming around in my brain #been staying up late more bc of my meds #its funny cause nortryptaline is supposed to help u w pain but tapering off of it made my pain worse...and when i was on it it just raised #my blood pressure #i have a guest staying at my house and constantly interacting with her is getting annoying #shes a nice person i just... #yeah #i called her kid cause shes younger than me but it felt weird cause of my old friend who used to call me that ...and was GROSS #so ig i wont anymore #idk its weird #i dont talk to him anymore #im glad #of all the friendships ive severed im not sad about him #sure he helped me out when i needed it #but he also made me feel like shit #im less mentally ok than i think #then i blame my tiredness and mental drainage on myself #just continually going at it #im not like mentally stable #lately not acknowledging st and just #pretending it doesnt exist is the way ive been coping #people in my life #still in my life have done wrong #and have caused me pain and yet im supposed to forgive them with a simple apology

[andoutofharm]

okay i have heard enough about izzy to last me a lifetime and then some. can we PLEASE talk about frenchie more

#GIVE IT UP FOR FRENCHIE AND HIS DEEPLY COOL COAT #sorry i find izzy and uninteresting and always have #and him getting his own mention on the fandom roundup thing and so many people focusing on him #instead of Literally Everything Else is annoying and i dont wanna talk about him anymore #i only wanna talk about frenchie now pls #analysis and talking about ed and how amazingly his breakdown was portrayed and written is also acceptable #ofmd

[lollytea]

Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it

#no i dont think its because Hunter needs time to heal first #i think if it was up to Hunter they would plunge into a committed romantic relationship immediately after the events of the finale #he would propose to her in like. 3 months probably #i know that sounds intense but i think this is what ''i literally died and came back to life'' mania does to a guy #he is so carpe diem minded hes become a little insane. he wants everything #no more waiting around. no more hesitating. he cant afford to do that anymore #would it have been the wise decision to enter a romantic relationship immediately #who's to say. but Hunter would have done it without thinking about it #its Willow that makes the decision to slow down and wait a while before they make any committments theyre not ready for #i dont think she's entirely learned her lesson about letting herself be emotionally reliant every once in a while #shes made progress but the events of ftf were such heat of the moment responses #once things are semi-stable she still needs to adapt to acknowledging that her feelings for Hunter are like. serious. and scarily intense #so like. yea Willow is slamming her pedals on the breaks for both their sakes. shes thinking about how this would effect Hunter too #but also. she scawwed. #when Willow tells him she wants to talk and she's like ''i think we should just be friends'' oh the face he makes is DEVASTATED #he didnt expect it was going in this direction at all. but like. once Willow explains how this is the most reasonable decision for now #he DOES agree. he understands what shes saying and he agrees that it's the best decision to take a breather before they jump into a romance #anyway even when theyre not officially dating the flirting continues insistently. they are very obsessed with each other and cant stop #Willow keeps trying to insist to herself that its just messing around. nothing serious. they find each other hot. its fine to kiss a little #but Hunter makes it very hard when he looks at her with big brown labrador eyes. looks at her like shes the entire world #i think if it was up to Willow they would have been trapped in that uncertain limbo forever. shes too scared to take the plunge #even if she wants to. she badly wants to #but Hunter just wont let that happen. every so often he says ''im ready whenever you are'' #he makes his intentions very known. he is not the shy boy from Camila's house anymore #Willow cant just playfully flirt with him without worrying that hes gonna reciprocate. he talks now. he expresses himself #shes a little afraid of that. but she adores it too. he makes her feel safe but also he wont let her stay in this comfort zone #hes giving her the push she needs to pursue this relationship. gives her to push to feel like she can go after what she wants #because god knows HE knows what he wants #they make me so insane

[chaotic-minds-think-alike]

Our little dance soon became a losing battle. ---

I heard this audio on tiktok and had to make something inspired off of it

#myart #rainworld #rainworld iterator #iterator oc #iterator #ummm something about how this was before he got betrayed and brainwashed #he was legitimately invested in the ancient's religion (even if part of it was just because the aesthetics) #I really wanted to put more karma flower imagery because he works with plants but it didnt look great so I settled with the running #spotlight theme I had going on #I dont really imagine him having a huge role in his colony's religion but more of just a guy to talk to and vent to about it #if travel puppets were a thing at the time he would've walked among his citizens #also imagining he would've been painted or depicted with karma flowers at the time #he doesnt have the majority of his decor anymore due to the fact that it unnerves Eight and he wants to respect that

[treasureplcnet]

Hello! I adore your Bodies fanart. I was imagining Karl in 1890 and how much havoc he would wreak. Also Henry and Karl would get along very well, I think, and Karl would be a *terrible* matchmaker for Henry and Alfred... I'd love to see your take on any of this, if anything comes to you 😍

HELLO OMG THANK YOU FOR THE EXCUSE TO JUST DROP HOT TAKES INTO THE BODIES NETFLIX TAG <3 all these drawings are very scrappy and i lost the plot and this became more like sharing all my hcs but still :')

now that you have brought it to me i really do think henry and karl would be unstoppable, i think they'd constantly have a fun, back-and-forth banter !!! i also can see karl dropping multiple not-so-subtle hints, and all of the detectives being quite supportive. gently too, considering the period-typical homophobia. i do think sometime along the lovelorn pining looks, he gets tired of seeing them orbit each other without anything happening, and this exchange occurs:

more doodles and crying under the cut :)

i will die on the "karl weissman bisexuality" hill. HE TOLD ME IN A DREAM!!!! it's just a little messier for him because he really likes women and will not figure it out ever. charlotte hillinghead TO ME also has the exact opposite problem where she is very much in love with her husband and doesn't have any incentive (or freedom considering the time period) to explore her sexuality. the way she accepted hillinghead's feelings for henry, and was less rejecting and more devastated over thinking he didn't love her or polly, just read queer to me somehow. an acceptance because she's like that too, yk? (maybe a bit of a reach but i don't get to choose who my mind designates as being bi)

i like to think that charlotte-karl experience a spider-verse mindmeld "YOU'RE LIKE ME" moment over being bisexual but they're not quite sure why they're feeling that way because they have no idea they're bi. if you are me you will understand perfectly

and i am a henry/alfred/charlotte poly truther as well (please see above discord ranting from my dms with a friend lol)

on more notes of just giving whichever character i want the bisexuality card, hasan is bi to me too. i think hillinghead and her bond a little over that shared religious guilt, of having their respective institutions be homophobic, and the feeling for so much of their life that they're different, so there must be something wrong. it helps her empathise with him and they quickly become closer because of it :) possibly also introducing him to queer lit, and maybe some non fiction lgbt history books

and one last final doodle because i think alfred as the only detective with an active love life where he's pursuing someone would make the others pretend like they can be adults but they want to know SO BAD and they also give advice once in a while because they're rooting for alfred :) they're all pretty good at hiding how badly they're invested in this (think iris 'casually' asking hillinghead how it's going and the other two perk up in the background) like i refuse to believe any of them are totally immune to the equivalent of office-gossip

this was so so long LOL i hope any of that is coherent !!!!! a lot of it ofc is my own projection bc i am bi, but it's real to me <3

#re hillinghead poly..... realistically a V poly with alfred in the middle but if i am allowed to be anymore annoying #literally everyone in the cast is bi to me. so its a triad. PLEASE DONT BURST MY BUBBLE RN LOL #esp the way ashe casually charms charlotte and makes her laugh in like ep 2... BI SWEEP!!!!! THEY ALREADY LIKE EACH OTHER #i do think ofc its easy to read ashe as being gay tho so i understand if some of this is just. not workable #but i will probably die on bi karl hill sorry everyone i know what he is #and also hasan thinks its ironic the moment she manages to get him out of the 3-piece victorian suit #alfred beelines for an outfit that makes him look like a gay history professor on a dark academia pinterest board #ANYWAYS. IF U READ ALL THAT UR A REAL TROOPER THANKS FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK #bodies netflix #my art

[leave-your-body]

sorry im still thinking abt dreams new smp like what the actual hell. what is going on. how is thsi man so pathetic that he cant let someone (whos supposed to be his FRIEND) have his own moment without trying to steal the spotlight. what on earth is Language Ranking. what language will everything be "live translated" into. how lame does this guy have to be to do this i cant wrap my head around just how pathetic this is

#check notes #discourse #neg #negativity #even the name bro what the hell. United Smp. ru shtting me. #i dont rly go here anymore so idk if quackity still talks to him or not but if he does PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CUT HIM OFF!! #THIS IS RIDICULOUS #anyway reminder that if any of my followers r dream stans kindly Get Out.

[fcbarcelohna]

June 24, 1987

Happy Birthday Lionel Messi!

“I am a normal person. I have the same life as any human being. When I finish playing, doing my work, I have my family, my friends, and I live like any other person.”

#leomessiedit #fcbedit #messi #lionel messi #argnetina #arg nt #fc barcelona #gifs #edits #im going to cry #no one talk to me #soon i wont be making bday edits of him anymore #pls he can retire #dont leave me with these people leo #hes been one of my biggest muse (?) #idk what life is without him #im being erious #hes been a part of my life since i was a kid man #wtf #i want to end it all

[introspectivememories]

do you ever think about how marco is one of the last people who knows how close shanks and buggy once were? do you think he ever looks at shanks and instinctively searches for buggy? i bet you marco looks at shanks surrounded by his crew and still thinks that shanks looks lonely. because back then, you could never find one without the other. if you insulted shanks, you insulted buggy and vice versa. they were attached at the hip. if you got one of them alone, you better savor it because in the next five minutes, the other one would come find them. like in my heart i know every time marco sees shanks these days all he thinks is where's the rest of you?

#marco who has first hand knowledge about how close shanks and buggy used to be #marco who never knows what to think when he sees shanks these days bc what happened? where's buggy? #where's the rest of you? #marco who hears about buggy's arrest and his first thought is 'oh fuck shanks isn't gonna like that' until he remembers that they dont talk #marco who privately thinks that shanks' less than who he used to be #marco who wonders what exactly happened to roger's cabin boys #i like to think ace asks him once why he always gets that funny look on his face whenever he sees shanks and marco doesn't know how to expl #the seas greatest mystery. bc how do you explain that these two people who were once so close don't even seem to think about each other #anymore. how do you explain just how well buggy and shanks clicked? how do you explain what they used to be to someone who has only ever #seen the broken remnants of what they are now? #head in hands head in hands head in hands #fushichou marco #marco the phoenix #op marco #akagami no shanks #op shanks #shanks one piece #buggy the clown #buggy one piece #op buggy #shanks x buggy #shuggy #one piece

[sawvhs]

seriously doubt adam or lawrence had any close/trusted friends which just makes their relationship in the bathroom that much more weirdly emotionally charged. codependency bait to the max

#like it seems like scott was kind of the last person adam really talked to when he bounced on his parents and he sticks around him #but subtext (and by that i mean text) makes it so obvious hes just kinda his punching bag. but hey he sticks around #hes got that highschool dropout who bounces between acquaintance friend groups and never got super close to anyone #kind of vibe. #everyone knows him but nobody hangs w him or whatever #but like lawrence is so in the same boat. that is a guy that goes to colleague dinner parties to keep up appearances and thats bout it #like i bet even diana’s friends parents barely know much about him and think hes just stuffy or whatever #his lawyer calls himself his friend but i really think thats just in a ‘i know you and im looking out for your best interet’ way. #i dont think they hang #and like. he doesnt even talk to his wife anymore #i think they r both lonely and miserable in different ways and kind of have what the other thinks they need #despite being so drastically different #it drives me insane #bathroom boyfriends #chainshipping #click

[deklo]

people are starting to demonize stewart on twitter :/ as if he wasn’t always :/ part of the mafia :////

#FORGOT TO TAG SPOILER I APOLOGIZE!!! #demonize as in #‘how dare he talk to jean that way’ #‘how dare he talk about [i dont remember who] that way’ #‘i used to like him but not anymore’ #??? you guys thought he was gonna be a perfectly respectful guy?? from his two paragraphs in aftg??? that’s your fault #once again seeing these tweets is fully MY FAULT i wil never learn and i will continue to complain about them on here peach and love on #planet earth i love all of you so much i appreciate how normal you freaks are so much #calling you guys normal??? that’s wild. but twitter is a scary place. :) #peace* and love. obviously. GOD #tsc #tsc spoilers

[littlelightfish]

The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.

He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.

He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"

And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.

He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.

He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.

He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.

Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.

He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.

He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.

The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.

He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.

But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.

I... I extended myself a bit I see...

#i dont even know what im talking about anymore #but i hope i made sense #as an aroace i feel the need of being extra cautious about how people think of my relationship with them #because I dont want them to like me romantically #i want friendship #because its so uncomfortablr #not #love #so this Chil here is basically me trying to figure out if saying certain things could be considered flirting or not by the other #i shouldnt care #it isnt my fault if they do fall in love with me #but i would be happier if they didnt #to know someone is in love wirh you #and that you dont love him back #but youre still friends #so youre friends but the other wants to be more than that #and to avoid that i gotta measure every interaction #maybe im a bit paranoid #but it has happened to me to have friends fall in love with me #and i dont want to hurt their feelongs but i definitely dont lovs rhem bacj #because i care abkut them in a friendly way #and i don't want them to suffer because of me. but I dont want to suffer because of them either #its all way to complicated? yes bit thing is that chil here represents me interacting with my friends #but in my case the hearts would be romantic #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my shit