#i am not unintelligent

[sp00kysk3lly]

I remember the time my so called “best friend” laughed at me in public because I told him my IQ score was 122.

I went on lots of websites and they all said the same thing.

What was so funny about me having an IQ of 122? What, because it’s above average? And oh wait, you think I’m fucking thick!

Oh yeah, now I remember you telling me repeatedly, that my attention span was the size of a flea!

What best friend does that? I don’t know any others “best friend” doing that?

When I see peoples best friends, they aren’t putting them down. They aren’t making them feel like they’re thick at everything.

I’m fed up with being put down by people who think they know me. They don’t know me. They don’t know what I am truly capable off! I’m fed up with it. I just want to be viewed by my family and friends as intelligent. As someone who isn’t thick. I know I am not THICK! I am not UNINTELLIGENT!

From Google: True friends are usually those who offer you support, improve your quality of life, promote self-confidence, provide unconditional love, and help you progress mentally.

What about my so called "best friend" is any of that? NONE! A "best friend" doesn't PUT YOU DOWN! A "best friend" doesn't sit on a PUBLIC TRAIN and tell you (their best friend) that they pretty much think YOU'RE THICK!!!!

Well, an IQ of 122, isn't thick! its above the normal range. It's above average! So, that proves it! I AM NOT THICK! I AM NOT UNINTELLIGENT! I DO NOT HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN OF A FUCKING FLEA!!!!!

#mental health #mental health awareness #no friends #zero friends #fake friends #toxic friends #being called names #so called best friend #i hate you #i am fucking done with you #i have had enough #i am not thick #i am not unintelligent #i am smart #IQ test #122 #above average scoring #leave me the hell alone #me against the world #me myself and i #goodbye

[thereweresunflowers]

the giggle really just said. the doctor has been running their whole life and it is slowly killing them and the way they can heal themself is their platonic and familial relationships with their best friends. domesticity. it is not romance the doctor needs not anymore it is just family and love and aces and aros i am holding hands with you all right now

#doctor who #dw spoilers #sorry if this is unintelligible i am actually collapsing to the floor #ola originals

[actual-changeling]

everything crowley and aziraphale do for each other is just a silent i love you shouted as loudly as possible

here, i'll protect you with my wing, i love you. i will do you this favour, i love you. i will do this for you because i know you, because you will love it, because i love making you happy, i love you.

i will help you home while drunk and hold you as closely as possible because this one time i can, because i love you.

let's go for lunch, i love you. let's dine at the ritz, i love you. let's drink in your home, together, i love you, i love you, too.

to the world, to my world, to you.

i will risk your life because you asked me to. i love you. please don't leave me.

i'm glad to have given up the stars if it means getting to love you, here, like this.

i love you, i love you, i love you, over and over again, and they can both hear it, they both know it's there, and yet they cannot allow themselves to believe it.

i love you, and they both still aren't saying it, instead they're looking at each other thinking i love you, but you cannot love me, i cannot be loved, not by someone like you, and now you're leaving.

you're leaving, i love you. you're staying behind, i love you.

let's meet again, please.

i love you, too.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #about to head to bed so here's the obligatory unintelligible 1 am posting #it all makes sense in my head i promise

[bugsoda]

*B I T E S you* oh sorry nothing personal haha

*B I T ES you again*

oops! gremlin brain, you get it haha

#reblog to B I T E everyone #i seriously need to go to bed #everyone should block me what is this #who am i kidding this is a normal [bugsoda] post #gremlincore #goblincore #gremlin brain #goblin brain #unintelligible goblin noises #chaoscore #bites you bites you bites you #bastardcore #bugsoda

[girl-hobbit]

i need to go out to some woodsy area and make a burrow in the dry leaves while it's cold out tbh. surely this would fix me

#my post #look at my posts boy #txt #cringecore #silly posting :3 #but fr tho #i'm so sick of the city :/ #like. hello ?? #where did you put my trees !!! #where is my leaf pile?? my log for sitting on??? #where's my pond !!! #screaming crying throwing up #wait. hold on. #!!-DISCLAIMER-!! 🗣️ I AM NOT THE LORAX !! #I JUST LIKE THE OUTDOORS #*incoherently* hello!!? hi!!! hellooooo?!! #unintelligible goblin noises #🌿 girl hobbit is yelling #*YouTuber voice* don't forget to LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE + HIT that NOTIFICATION BELL right NOW. TODAY!! only here at @girl-hobbit.tumblr.com(™) #*pokes my face out of the leaf pile* you still there? hmm... okay #anyway #this should be enough cringe to sustain the insufferable ecosystem on this wretched webbed site for today. bye #*disappears into the leaf pile* #🍂🦔🍂 #← that's me btw. if u even care #hehe :)!!

[housepilled]

yes i am thinking about the c word again. this episode is my roman empire. but right now i’m specifically thinking about how house literally goes against his nature for wilson. cuddy says “everything you’ve ever done is to avoid pain — drugs, sarcasm, keeping everybody at arm’s length so no one can hurt you” yet he gives wilson the rest of his vicodin, willingly detoxes, so wilson can be in less pain before he throws them up again. house is rational; in his book in any other situation, this would be a stupid decision. it wouldn’t cause much relief to wilson and would deprive house of a lot of it. it’s completely irrational. i’d wager that house would mock it in anyone else. but yet he does it anyway for wilson.

in my humble opinion (with no nuance) house is a good person, but, nonetheless, he will defy that and hurt people if it will cause him less pain. nobody likes pain, of course, but house has experienced so much of it from such a young age, an issue only compounded by his infarction, that (while he does subconsciously inflict it on himself as punishment because said pain from a young age made him think it is necessary because it made him think there is something broken in him that needs to be violently fixed — i could talk for hours about how much i hate john house) he will go to any lengths to avoid it. it is a pattern we see time and time and time again. house constantly hurts others, himself, as long as it can possibly lessen some potential short- or long-term pain.

but then he gives up his vicodin for wilson. he endures the pain, not just of his leg without painkillers but also of detox, for wilson. cuddy says “you’ll choose yourself over everybody else over and over again, because that's just who you are” and yet house chooses wilson. he gives wilson the last of his vicodin. he’s willing to let wilson die on his couch because it’s what wilson wants. he endures wilson saying he should be the one with cancer. he accepts that wilson will die and lets him go the way he wants. he accepts that he will never be able to go back to practicing medicine, will probably cut his own life short as well, and goes off with wilson for his last five months. he literally transcends his own nature, his base instincts from his childhood, for wilson. and if that isn’t incredibly poetic then i don’t know what is.

#*incredibly poetic and gay #i felt that was tonally dissonant #but here in the tags i can say whatever i want #including #[unintelligible sobbing] #i get to the c word tomorrow on my rewatch schedule and i have seen this episode 5 times but i am still not prepared #house md #hilson #the c word #8x19 #greg house #james wilson #analysis #meta

[fullofcake]

The speed at which I can demolish a container of blueberries is honestly quite concerning

#cake things #blueberries #i fucking love berries #i am an animal #going feral #feral #feralcore #goblincore #goblin vibes #im just a simple goblin #goblin aesthetic #unintelligible goblin noises #mosscore #mushroomcore #cryptidcore #ravencore #bastardcore

[magicdyke]

I wish that a lot of analysis of teru and mob weren't done within the confines of shipping them together, as it's distracting from the narrative about tsubomi driving mob's motivations overall; in all honesty i find it boring and uncreative to rip these characters of their context and feed a limited analysis of this series for the sake of temporary emotional satisfaction. I find it frustrating, because the entire series is spun around mob's adolescence and ultimately his ability to express and accept himself and his emotions, and overcome the fears he has built up regarding those things. Tsubomi is what sparks his entire character arc-- she's a huge part of the motivation he gets to improve himself every single day. He sees her and trusts her despite her initial impression to most people being that she's a jerk, because he understands and knows in his heart that she's strong-willed and focused. He admires her so greatly for her ability to live exactly as who she is and get what she wants from the world, and she represents every single thing that mob wants to become (something i feel is very transgender of him but i wont go into that right now). Mob's ENTIRE arc is centered around this one massive presence in his life that he's built up so so much, but because tsubomi is a female love interest, she is often disregarded in exchange for the gay ship of the week. She's an endlessly fascinating and unique character, and everything that he does to try and reach her is done of his own volition to better himself. Eventually he learns that pursuing a single person as the sole reason of self improvement isn't good for him, but she is the person that sparks his desire to get better and is the critical motivator of the series. However, I think that a lot of the same things can be said equally about teru. Personally i am of the opinion that teru is equally in love with mob as mob is tsubomi, and their motivations are the exact same. Mob to teru is someone that is unrelentingly kind, loved for who he is, a hard worker, very morally upright, and able to rely on others as they do them. Mob is everything that teru wants to be, and of course he admires that so deeply to the point of close obsession. All of this is so incredibly relatable to the experience of being a middle schooler: first loves (whether romantic or otherwise) are ones that completely change us as people. they form us into the beginning of ourselves, they're our first understandings of our interpersonal relationships and a very big foray into self awareness. Teru is so suddenly captured and affected by mob in a way that rocks him to his core. Of course mob becomes someone for whom he must chase after.

To take either of these ideas and start shipping them together, though, i find it kind of missing the point. romantic love is not always requited, and there's nothing you can really do about that except put in your best effort to be better for yourself and others around you, and keep moving forward with your life. Mob was never supposed to get the girl; it was supposed to show us that, no matter what hardships you will endure in your life interpersonally, there will always be people that love you to help you recover from them. You can always change and grow.

#idk this kind of rambled on and became a bit unintelligible but ive had these thoughts for a while #mp100 #long post #dont read this if you dont want spoilers as well #i dont take this all too seriously i am just thinking recreationally #mob

[pennielane]

Baby's In Black THE BEATLES in MUNICH, GERMANY — June 24, 1966

#tbh he might not say 'everybody' but it's the most likely unless he's saying something in german? but it sounds quite unintelligible to me- #-so just took my best guess #a professional in lip reading i am not #the beatles #mine #paul mccartney #john lennon #george harrison #ringo starr #jp #mclennon

[going-to-superhell]

*lives near a tennis factory* who’s making that racket?

#i am professionally funny #shitpost #unintelligible goblin noises #chaoscore #chaotic bastard #cryptidcore #cryptid #feralcore #gremlincore #goblincore

[ghouljams]

Doitdoitsoitdoitdoit especially if we're talking a trauma heeling fic the way you know him has me addicted. Nature him in the nastiest of ways. For the good of us all.

Simon "Ghost" Riley, yeah I know him.

I think being in the 141 as an omega is a new thing for him, he's always been in the military while he was flipped alpha(which is important to remember for later) so he's never had to deal with omega shit while deployed. Officially he's designated as an alpha, he's an omega that flies under the radar because as far as society is modernized people always hold onto old notions about the way endotypes look/act. Ghost doesn't look like an omega, and he's not one to let anyone close enough to smell that he's an omega. I think a lot of his hormone issues are related to stress directly, his body flipping to something reactive(alpha) when put under duress. The 141 is an incredibly stable pack and environment under Price, less stress means no flip-flopping. So the 141 is the longest he's ever gone with what I(and Ghost lowkey) would consider his true endotype: omega.

It's hell when his first "military" heat hits. He's belligerent and itching for a fight, everyone looks at him wrong, he has no nesting materials, he ends up shoved in a corner of Price's office shaking from stress because he just can't deal with it all. He needs somewhere small and safe. Price is safe, Ghost can fit that into his world when the heat hormones take over, Price is the head of their little pack, Price is safe.

Price is also fuming mad, not at Ghost, but at whatever Muppet took down his endotype wrong. There are allowances made for omegas, time off for heats, extra bedding, suppressants if they want them. Soap wanders into the office and nearly has a panic attack himself because his instincts are screaming that someone in his pack is in trouble and he isn't helping them. Ghost punches him in the mouth for attempting to corral him to the barracks when it's safe in Price's office. Gaz gets called in to take him to medical and shoots Price a look that says they'll talk about this later.

This is where I start to diverge from established omegaverse Canon and say I don't think that Ghost as an omega is interested in receiving penetrative sex. He's an incredibly dominant omega in that sense, but also not? I am cooking a little alpha!reader/omega!Ghost fic in my brain rn(Goose fic u already know). I think it's a need for control on Ghost's part, lingering alpha instincts to micromanage things, a need to know exactly what is happening even through his heat. He doesn't like being touched on a good day, why would he like it when he's at his worst?

I also think that among the various tortures the Roba would have put Ghost through humiliation would have been a big one. Tearing him down so Roba can build him back and brainwash him. What's more humiliating to an alpha than being penetrated? Especially when Ghost already has the stress of his father's prejudice in his head, the experience would have been that much worse. Yeah I don't think he wants to get fucked, even in his heats. Which is fine, he doesn't need to in order to satisfy the itch under his skin there's plenty of other ways to get the energy out. (I don't think SA is mentioned in the comics explicitly, but also if you're going to hang someone by their ribs why would you draw the line at rape? I think Ghost was tortured every way Roba could think of)

My ideas for omegaverse don't have alphas wanting to jump every omega in heat, they do want to jump their partners to a certain extent, but I think for most of them it's just a very strong desire to take care of the omega. Like if you saw someone having a panic attack in the grocery store, you'd probably want to help them and be a little anxious yourself. It's like that but cranked up to 11. Price and Soap get all out of sorts about Ghost being a freak because he will not let them fulfill their instinct to get him blankets and food. Gaz just gets what's needed without asking lol he's not fighting with Ghost on this and someone has to keep this place running.

After that first heat though I think the 141 sort of... quietly acknowledges that Ghost is an omega. Gaz and Soap slink to him with their problems and somehow they feel better when he bluntly tells them what to do about whatever emotional bullshit they're dealing with. Price brings Ghost in on more meetings with recruits because somehow having both of them in the room puts people more at ease than one or the other. Soap naps on Ghost on the couch. Gaz passed off a tee-shirt for Ghost to add to the nest he's growing in his room. No one says anything but it's there. He's given the room to be himself without judgement of prejudice and I think he takes to it like a fish to water.

Ghost to me very much embodies a slow healing process. His room at the barracks goes from spartan essentials to warm and well nested, he gets more comfortable with managing the pack, falls asleep on Price at one point and Price just lights up(happy omega, feels safe enough to be vulnerable around him, he's taking care of things right, good job, good boy Price).

I do think this au works best within the cowboy or fae universe, so I'll say that I think Ghost is on his starting to get a handle on being an omega when he retires and moves to the farm, but he has a minor panic about potentially flipping again. He hasn't had a type change in years, but he never knows. (he doesn't flip, but he worries about it for months after he moves to the farm)

#ghoul speaks #simon ghost riley #a/b/o #tw torture #tw rape #mentions of it at least #I won't be writing any noncon for this au since I don't see a reason for it #at least in my version of omegaverse #wow this got long and I wrote most of it at 2 am #so let me know if it's completely unintelligible

[quillyfied]

Please

Please, please, please, please, PLEASE,

When writing fiction

And a character is talking

And a line of dialogue from a different character starts up

PLEASE

START. A. NEW. PARAGRAPH.

We can argue the arbitrary nature of the rules of writing in English all the day long but the truth of the matter is, that is how it’s been done to make reading easier for a long time and if you’re going to break the rule or use an exception, you need to know how to do it, and not just assume that anyone reading can follow along your incomprehensible string of dialogue unseparated by new paragraph breaks.

PLEASE

#writing advice with quilly #one too many fics with good writing style but no dialogue breaks #i can’t. i can’t keep doing this. i am not strong enough #you’re not being edgy or ditching the rules. you are being UNINTELLIGIBLE #esl writers of course get a pass bc idk what the rules are in other languages and countries #but for writers who ought to know better here is your callout

[jennyfromthebes]

i gotta say I do think that the day the aliens came is probably one of the truest tmg songs ever. like. it's a song about when you are stuck in a house that is hurting you and you can nearly see the finish line you're so close you just have to make it there and once you do they'll all be sorry. everything else around you will go down in flames if it must and you'll walk out of there you'll finally for the first time be okay be free just as soon as that day gets here. sorry I'm having a lot of memories and thoughts about the way that being a teenager is a unique kind of hell and jd is the only person I'd ever heard actually acknowledge that yeah being a teenager sucks absolute shit. but it also doesn't last forever.

#this is absolutely unintelligible. in my defense its after midnight here #also to be perfectly clear i am not a teenager myself anymore i am just thinking about it #txt #transmissions from lyric

[prismartist]

i dont CARE if fred "can't be trusted" or "might be tricking tubbo" or whatever i simply cannot believe it. he's just a little guy to me. he's my pal. my homeboy. my rotten soldier. he's my sweet cheese, my good time boy

#the word gullible is written on the ceiling and i am looking up and making friends with it #mcyt #qsmp #qsmp fred #unintelligible rants

[nocturnalnewsiestrash]

There are two types of Bottoms (2023) rewatches (for me at least)

Or

#lets play a game of guess which one i am in tonight 🥹 #spoiler its not the first one #isokay though im managing it well *well being a relative term for my usual amount of my panic attack management system #bottoms 2023 #bottoms movie #the amount of giggly smiling tricks my brain into thinking we're actually feeling happy and in a giggly mood #and the unhingedness gives my empathetic nervous system a chance to redirect its focus onto THEIR issues instead of #mine and then suddenly my brain has realized we're not in immediate danger #and boom we've got a perfect panic disorder management strategy for me #the other type of rewatch is also very fun. trust. Especially when I'm introducing it to my other sapphic friends. so much glee #and unintelligible thoughts. giggly unintelligible thoughts #anyhoo here you all go :))

[starpros-sunshine]

words fail me but. oh dear. oh dearest even.

#unintelligible sobbing the last sentenceeeeee #to think we might even get the story of how wataru joined fine with this film coming out now #ahh friends I am not okay #just. think about them #please #I am incapable of coherent thought right now but take this and think about them #wataei #hibiki wataru #eichi tenshouin