#i am exhausted and annoyed

[notdrifting]

pls be patient with me today guys, i’m mad as hell with some irl stuff my roomates are doing and i’m physically too angry to think straight now, i’ll try and work on some stuff but no promisses bc holy shit i’m so angry rn

#sometimes the void screams back 「DASH COMMENTARY」 #this gif is a visual representation of what i'm like rn #trying to calm myself up #while losing it #ugh #for context #i work a full time corporate job and go to college at the same time (which in itself is no big deal) and as obvious #i sleep less than i should during the week bc i gotta get shit done #recently one of my roomates have been bringing people over without letting me know first (we have an agreement as most common areas are #as the name suggests common ) #and she pulled that crap yesterday as well - i wouldn't have a problem with it if it wasnt for the fact that the dumb fuck she brought home #is a loud mf who cannot understand the concept of indoor voice #they were talking loudly till almost 4am #loud enough to be heard from outside the house (i realised that when i was taking the trash out) #and if that alone wasn't enough they were playing loud music in the ass crack of dawn today #needless to say i am in an awful mood and will have a serious talk with my friend once i'm calmed down (i'd be too rude and lose my nerve if #i did it now so its best to wait) #i am exhausted and annoyed #they know my routine is crazy and that i usually use the weekends to rest #yet they keep pulling that crap all the fucking time #ugh sorry for the vent #i feel like im losing my damn mind #anger issues aside i think i'm handling it better than i would in the past but still #cw; vent #tw; vent

[ofmd-ann]

Basingstoke 🌈

I had such an incredible day! My photo with Rhys went so quick and I was so nervous I could barely look at him 🤣 But I got to stare at him uninterrupted for 30 mins in the panel, which was probably my favorite part. It is true, he is 100x hotter in person 🥵

I met so many OFMD fans!!!! I don't think many are on tumblr/or I didn't get everyone's usernames, but the talented @merryfinches is so lovely! 🥰 a few of the things in the pic are made by her (Check out her shop)

And my con buddy @eddie-redcliffe was a complete joy to spend the day with 😍 and gave me a lovely surprise gift of S1/S2 OFMD Blu-rays which she made herself, they are incredible!!! (Thank you a million 💕) ~ Also I'm now a certified Slut for Stede which sounds right✨

#so glad i didn't let my anxiety stop me bc i had so much fun #An amazing early birthday gift #i am exhausted #annoyed i have work tomorrow! #ofmd #Basingstoke comic con

[roseworth]

what a fucking week (it’s 2 pm on a monday)

#i’m gonna have a very therapeutic lay on the ground for an hour tonight #i’m so fucking exhausted #also unrelated but vaguely related #the other day i told my supervisor i didn’t know how to do something she asked me to do #which was very hard for me! bc i’m not good at asking for help bc i don’t like to be annoying #anyways i asked her on friday and she never responded and i was like ‘ok she’s probably gone for the weekend and she’ll answer on monday’ #then i looked today and she just reacted with a 👍 to my message instead of. telling me how to do it #so i’m still stressed out about that but. girl i am so tired #i also promised myself i won’t get high in the middle of the week this week. so this is a test from god #and i may fail that test #we’ll try again next week #personal

[mixelation]

Personally I largely dislike when people want to reference Harry Potter but then they use some euphemism instead. Like not only does everyone know what you’re referencing and why that might be controversial (so just do it or don’t?), but now you’ve made it impossible for anyone blocking the tag to skip your post.

#I personally I have it black listed because the discourse is exhausting #I am annoyed by the assumption that we have to cheekily not say it like you might summon JKR from her swamp

[fantastic-artemis]

This may come out more bitter than I mean it but all the "well actually Gabriel and Beelzebub are queer bc they are an angel and a demon and have no gender binary" is kind of annoying cause like. Even if they were human and fully subject to the gender binary,,,, even if Gabriel was a cis man,,,,, they're still not a het couple bc Beez is not a woman.

Like it's not their fantasy creature status that makes them a queer couple, it's the fact that they are literally actually queer

#i am going to regret posting this probably bc the beez gender discourse is already exhausting and annoying and i should not be adding to it #like ive seen way more people complaining than anything thats actually homophobic or transphobic but #guess i gotta yell into the void #ineffable bureaucracy #good omens #gos2spoilers #good omens spoilers #me

[cheekblush]

i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no.. #.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to.. #talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭 #idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡 #even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed.. #me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!! #but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️ #like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

[fionnalovesanimeboys]

I find it interesting how Lakan sees the people as go stones but not Maomao. I can't wait to get into that in the next episode which I assume it will be probably explained. I am really liking how mysterious qnd calculative but also arrogant he is.

#yes I am not caught up yet shut up I will get into that #Lakan is confusing me it's like I hate him but I can't ? #obviously he is not stupid he's becoming very interesting character to me #at first he was annoying when he wqs bothering Jinshi but at those moments he is kinda annoying because poor Jinshi is already exhausted #Lakan drains people's energy like crazy at least that's what I'm getting from him :P #Maomao sure does have a complicated father... #kusuriya no hitorigoto #lakan

[louisdelac]

x if anything about this feels like it doesn't fit, that's because you don't understand the profound effect charoum and gorty have had on each other.

#'vinnie why is gortash's icon a pink crown that says 'princess' on it?' #how about we stop talking for a little while. #key points: i don't think you can want to become archduke of bg and NOT crave attention. he wants to be the specialest guy in the universe #however his desire for attention is an ego thing. #charoum wants attention because he am feel uncomfortable when things are not about him? #similarly gorty is definitely MORE cautious than charoum. but you can't be TOO cautious and also want to take over the world. #recklessness is required to accomplish big things. #charoum is overconfident and believes he can be reckless and survive so he's further on the scale than gorty #similarly taking over the world is not something a typically exhausted person undertakes. that requires energy. #kinky/vanilla TBH i don't think gorty particularly cares. he needs to be mentally engaged. everything else depends on the other person #that said i don't think he'd be mentally engaged with a person who's ideal sex life is missionary sex with the lights off. so. #also jealousy: neither of them is ACTUALLY that jealous because they have egos the size of the sun and are certain they hold an important #place in each other's lives #charoum randomly decides to get jealous when he's bored and in the mood to be annoying #gorty almost full stop doesn't get jealous at all. although he will get possessive at times and force that onto charoum #which i'm lumping into the jealousy stat #ascended astarion i GENUINELY don't think has what it takes to worship anybody. #however there's a hole in the triumvirate that needs filling. and by god if ascended astarion doesn't know how to fill a hole- #charoum

[soldier-poet-king]

SAD!

#the duality of fran #ignore me theres just so much its midnight i am perpetually exhausted snd yet cant sleep #melatonin. melatonin save me. save me melatonin #just hugely sad suddenly #desperately terribly sad and idk why #annoyed af bc politics at family dinner my shitty uncles alabaman wife was like IM VOTING FOR TRUMP #MAAM???? MAAM?????????? #it turned into a Whole thing #and ive stopped drinking most weekends. im trying to be good I know how easy it is to just have a glass or two or three of wine #so i only drink when i want to and am in a good mood #so not. just bc shitty family #BUT YKWIM #and then idk. im just. really sad and despairingly lonely and idk whY #OBJECTIVELY LIFE IS GOOD AND EVERYTHING IS FINE #and YET #idk man. im going to curl up into the tiniest ball possible under all my blankets #and pretend that weight is comforting human contact #my joints will complain but i gotta squish myself #touch starved touch averse meltdown yknow. yknow. one of those #disgusting and pathetic and selfish!!!! to delete later #tmrw i have to be responsible and good again #and i will stop moping stop thinking abt it go back to pretending that there isnt a void in my chest!!! #fine!!! this is fine!!!

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i know the jewish community talks a lot about how it’s hard to function in a culturally christian society but a lot of times i feel like goyim just don’t get it. it’s not just sending out emails she’s in advance that we’ll be out for a holiday or not going to events because they’re scheduled over holidays (even though those also happen and are awful). sometimes it’s just the constant being behind because my life as a religious jew is not compatible with a culturally christian society. i’m still trying to catch up from rosh hashanah and yom kippur in some ways because i was at shul hours every day all that weekend from 9 in the morning to 1 pm for the rosh hashanah. and yom kippur being on a monday meant i was off that day.

i’d love to observe shabbos more traditionally but that would mean neglecting my studies because the weekend is seen as time to work. same with going to morning and/or evening services daily. i’ve been thinking about going kosher but it’s so difficult. sometimes it feels like there’s no winning

update: there is actually some winning. this time it’s the osrjl yiddish class i got into. take that, assimilation!

#i think when i get my own place and am a bit more settled it’ll maybe be easier but for now im just. annoyed a bit #and when im at shul i want to be fully focused in which is hard since im always exhausted #this is more a vent post than anything but. yeah #part of it is also the lack of community sometimes. the Hillel here is lovely but it’s more reform which means it’s hard to find people who #are a little more traditional. and to be fair the reform services are lovely and i love everyone there it’s just a personal preference and i #sometimes feel a little put out because there’s no more traditional option #jumblr #for the update: I say the same thing in a rb of mine but i think more people will see it on the post

[blackkatmagic]

Ah yes, the only two possible types of writers: neurotypical or ADHD.

#wow today is a salt day all around apparently #anyway #i wish tumblr would remember that there are other types of nd people #we come in more flavors than just adhd my dudes #just. there's a lack of inclusion in a lot of nd spaces already #and seeing posts about how anyone who says x is nuerotypical and just Doesn't Understand The Nuerodivergent Experience #when what they mean is 'doesn't have adhd' #is so frustrating #my brain is broken! I'm not nuerotypical! i still create and am a part of fandom! #it's just. annoying #i struggle a lot with my bpd #getting told i may as well be nuerotypical because i don't fit the neat little box tumblr has decided is the only acceptable form of mental #illness is just. tiresome. exhausting. i am exhausted #kat rants #mental illness

[puthyflapps]

Swifties prove everyday that they’re the dumbest people on the internet and that’s really saying something cuz I’ve dealt directly with blarkes

#1) swifites always being racist toward Beyoncé #2) swifities doxxing a Palestinian girl and sending her info to the IDF cuz she said that there were better options for Time’s PotY #3) swifites beefing with North West – a literal child – cuz they thot she “shaded” Taylor #4) swifites commenting snake emojis on Kim K’s insta posts thinking they’re doing something other than driving up her engagement and lining #her pockets #t swift #also these are all just annoying things I’ve seen happen TODAY #I cannot wait until we are released from whatever govt psyop we’ve been under for the past few years cuz I’m over this endless string of #swift propaganda 🔫🔫🔫 it’s literally insane and no matter how many times I block people or hit not interested in posts I am still forced to #see shit about her like it is never ending and it’s so fucking exhausting like the way white women in particular make being a swifite their #whole personality is so embarrassing!!! THIS EOMAN CANNOT SING YALL!! AND IM TIRED OF BEING NICE AND SAYING SHE HAS DEVENT SONG WRITING #SKILLS CUZ SHE DOESNT!! EVERYTHING ABOUT HER IS MEDIOCRE AT BEST!!! SHE CANNOY SING AND HER LYRICS ARE THE MUSICAL EQUIVALENT OF WATTPAD FF! #I am so tired of this bullshit and I used to be able to find reprieve in football but no more!! cuz her and her annoying cult have #infiltrated that too like this shit is annoying and I feel like I’m going crazy cuz she’s everywhere and not in an organic way. In a very #strategic marketing capitalistic way and I love The Wilds but I hate how the fandom has like woven TS into everything there too like #I think I’m gonna commit a crime. I think imma toss someone through a brick wall cuz I’m losing it

[manic-pixi-dreamworld]

Night check✨✨

7:53pm EST

Despite not having a great nights sleep today wasn’t awful. Work was good my ride was amazing and the weather was gorgeous.

I came home and found my dog destroyed my comforter and i so can’t afford to replace it. It was my favorite. He’s probably mad at me because he was only down at the barn with me this morning.

Oh well can’t stay mad at him

3 more days until the weekend

Remember

You are loved

You are wanted

Drink your water

Take your meds

Be kind to yourself

#18+ blog #manic pixie dream girl #girls with piercings #personal #mental illness #mental health #bipolor #mentalheathawareness #me #hypomania #bipolar 2 #annoyed #ginger #red head #red hair #cute #tumblr girl #girl blogger #nightly check in #bedtime #mental health awareness #im exhausted #i need a vacation #i am so tired #dog mom #asks open

[theghoulboysblog]

thinking about releasing my drafts cause i have like 192 of them and i think they are kinda funny but most of them aren’t shane and ryan related and are kinda just my inner thoughts AGH 😭

#TW: RANT AND ANXIETY TALK #but i like yapping but i don’t want people to get annoyed AGH #don’t want people thinking the ghoulboysblog has stopped ghoulboys-ing #i know there is no way to talk too much on my own blog #but my brain is still like #“what if people followed you for strictly shane and ryan content and you are annoying them” #like i KNOW no one really cares i don’t think #but my weird brain likes to convince me that i am annoying people AGHH #i have an anxiety disorder and people pleasing tendencies if ya can’t tell 🥲 #sorry for this rant i am just SO STRESSED ALL THE TIME OVER EVERYTHING!!! #and honestly it’s exhausting sometimes #even with meds

[sibyl-of-space]

Today one thing has been made extremely clear to me. That while going to grad school certainly gave me the skill of listening to bad, irrelevant, or poorly framed feedback and gleaning what is actually valuable for my purposes from it.. it did not grant me immunity to getting extremely annoyed and butt hurt about it when I receive said bad, irrelevant, or poorly framed feedback.

#I am so grateful to the people who've given me narrative feedback that actually understand what I'm going for and respect what I'm doing #boy howdy #what an exhausting evening I'll say that much #I did actually get a lot out of it! at the expense of my sanity perhaps #the critique I actually got from this conversation was not the critique these people thought they were saying #personal #on the plus side this is preparing me for the potential reality of annoying Steam reviews in the future

[bunnihearted]

🍽️😔🎻

#soo blah blah need to vent again abt my health issue situation 💀 #yuh so like im so sick nd tired of whats going on. nd not being able to just eat whatever i feel like whenever #it's emotionall draining tbh. im always thinking abt what i could maybe try nd im always like ohh gotta make sure the portion is small etc #it's annoying me sm bc i can def feel the effects of me not getting the right nd enough nutrients nd vitamins etc etc #i get dizzy nd my vision is hazy sometimes. nd im like forgetful bc the other the when i walked home i kept getting lost nd had to walk back #nd forth several times nd i was like ?!?!? what?! i've lived here for 25yrs nd now i just cannot for the life of me rmbr the way #also i am so weak in my body. like carrying even a small amound or books nd groceries nd walking for 30min makes me exhausted #my legs are actually shaking when i get back home nd every step feels like im walking in cement #plus i just wanna be able to go to the gym nd build muscle. but if i dont get enough protein in me i cant build muscles T-T #what else... yeah also i do miss food bc of comfort. like my coffee + chcolate everyday makes me genuinely happy lmao #but i just want the food situation to be normal bc even w veggies im like oh no that is too gas building that is too hard to digest etc etc #it's mentally gruelling to not know how tf to get all the important nutrients!! i def have several deficiences lmao :(( #im so over it. but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could just not think abt it 24/7 tho #also. im the thinnest i've ever been BUT. i am constantly bloated so i look fkn pregnant. so i cant even enjoy looking the skinnier