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lalalaugenbrot · 1 year

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want to have your soul leave your body numerous times in only a couple of minutes? go read commentaries on "Klassiker deutscher Literatur" on lovelybooks.de

#i am crying actual tears #buddenbrooks: teilweise ein bisschen langatmig aber es punktet durch sein setting #die Räuber: deutlich besser als Wilhelm Tell #der gute mensch von sezuan: wirklch toll verfasst #kabale und liebe: Story relativ typisch Ende so naja insgesamt ganz okay #minna von barnhelm (lessing): Ich fand es nicht so witzig dafür dass es eine der großen deutschen Komödien sein soll #und der vollkommen inflationäre gebrauch von 'interessant'#wie soll man es sagen #gewinnend naiv

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honey-beann · 11 months

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finally

"Connor Rk800 Backpack Drawstring Bag Riding Climbing Gym Bag Connor Detroit Detroit Become Human Connor Dbh Dbh Detroit"

at long last.

#i am crying actual tears #why they condense my man but not the description of this bag?#pulling up to the function with this #dbh secret ending: connor bag

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tree-obsession · 1 month

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I AM NOT OKAY DEAR GOD IT'S BEEN HOURS AND I AM STILL WEEPING

his gentle face??? the soft, delicate, kind voice and his eyes visibly softening even more and the real, genuine little smile as he blesses his younger self with his sister's voice in the background.

hoyo why do you hurt us like this it's going to consume my thoughts for DAYS now

#gnawing at the bars of my enclosure rn #the animation is impeccable #brought me to tears instantly #his arc was so GOOD i was attached to him before but holy crap #honkai star rail #hsr #aventurine #hsr aventurine #aventurine hsr #i am so attached to characters who really just never got to grow up and act one way but really are very gentle and compassionate #and just never were allowed to show it #he's been through so much and is still actually able to be nice which really says a lot abt him #the only thing that might have made me cry more were the convo with acheron when he asks why humans even exist #and the scene where kakavasha aventurine and future aventurine were all standing together #actual peak fiction. will never recover.

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an-au-blog · 6 months

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Hi,

Shanks: you were a wonderful experience

Buggy: you were everything

Thank you for your attention

Hello! Nice argument but also consider,

Shanks: I love you

Buggy: It'll pass

Thank you for your time

#i am actually going to cry #ur making me cry #good. very good #i am NOT well #fr tho they destroy me on so many levels #and ur quote fits so well it actually tears me apart #shuggy #one piece shuggy #shanks x buggy #op #answers

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oscarisaacsspit · 2 years

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laters gators (affectionate)

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erros429 · 2 months

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gonna start a bake sale so i can eventually buy rwby from warner bros yall i’m gonna save us don’t worry

#rwby #IN ALL SERIOUSNESS I AM GENUINELY CRYING ACTUAL TEARS ARE COMING FROM MY EYES #please we cannot end it like this i need volume 10 yall don’t UNDERSTAND 😭😭😭😭#we aren’t gonna see established bees??? we aren’t gonna find out what happened to summer??? no strq backstory no relic reveals no vacuo arc #no resolution no NOTHING?????#SAY IT ISN’T SO #erros doesnt know how to shut up

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osamusriceballs · 3 months

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The Accident - Part XVII

Atsumu x fem reader

Warnings: Making out

Words: 1,5 k

About: Back to Onigiri Miya <3

Part I II -> Next Part

"Finally. Took ya long enough."

Osamu rolls his eyes when you both enter the shop. You apologetically smile and wave while uttering a greeting. "Hey, Osamu. Sorry for being late." Atsumu grins widely, simply ignoring Osamu's comment while you both move to the counter, where Osamu is working. You notice that he looks a bit tired after moving closer, the bags under his eyes proof that he probably only slept a few hours before he had to open up the shop again. Yet, he still professionally forms Onigiri with his hands, everything looking as flawless and clean as the last time you had been there.

Osamu finally looks up to you both when you reach him and suddenly raises his brows when he sees how tightly your hand is held by Atsumu's. His mouth opens slightly, as if to comment on it, but he closes it silently without saying anything before he diverts his attention back to the Onigiri in his hands, now with a small smile adorning his lips. Your face warms up and you mentally thank every deity for making Osamu the more tactful and considerate twin. You're quite certain that Atsumu would have commented on that, if he had been in Osamu's place. Such a tease.

You clear your throat and let go of Atsumu's hand, but his grip around yours is so tight that it doesn't make any visible difference. "Samu, I'm starvin'—could eat the whole menu today. Gimme that please." Atsumu points towards the filled plate in front of Osamu, who just groans as a response and rolls his eyes. "Yer only here for five seconds and I already wanna kick ya out."

You blink in surprise when Osamu simply pushes the plate towards Atsumu and then turns around to open the fridge. "I prepared somethin' for ya. Take it before I change my mind." He hands you another plate with dishes that you remember from the last time you had been there, and you hastily pull your hand out of Atsumu's death grip to take it. "That's—amazing! Thank you." Your stomach clenches at the sight of the food, and you become painfully aware of the fact that you haven't eaten anything since last night, and it's around 4 pm at this point.

"I'll make sure to tag ya in an Instagram post, Samu." Atsumu grins and places one hand at the small of your back to direct you towards a free table. "Here." He quickly places his plate on the table and moves back to the counter. "I'll get us something to drink." You smile and nod while you try to calm yourself down. Your heart starts beating faster when you think about what has just happened with him in his apartment. How he had kissed you and held you. How he was laying on top of you and grinding against you- so needily and desperate. How your hands had been buried into his hair, desperate for him to deepen the kiss—and he did.

But it all came to an end when you had moaned against his lips, the sound so breathless and lewd that your eyes shot open—and he pulled away with a curse. "God, y/n. I can't—we shouldn't—gosh, fuck. I want you so badly." You could see his clenched jaw, his flushed cheeks, and feel the hardness in his pants without a doubt. You knew he wants to go further- but the wetness between your legs was also evidence of how much you wanted him, and you were quite certain that he could feel your warmth and wetness through his pants at this point. But you knew it's not right. Not now, not so shortly after all that.

You had taken a deep breath and then untangled your legs around his body. "It's probably for the best if we stop right now." You smiled a bit strained, your body wanting nothing more but to stay here forever and let him have his way with you, but your mind told you to slow down. You didn't want to ruin this by starting something like this too soon. He had simply nodded but still leaned down to press a longing kiss against your lips. You had melted into the feeling of his lips against yours and reached out for him, only to have him grab your wrists a little clumsily while he pulled back from the kiss and pinned your hands to the bed. Your eyes widened at your vulnerable position under him—and a throb of need rushed through your body.

His eyebrows shot up and his lips curled into a smug grin at your reaction. "Oh? Ya like that? Seems like we're in for a good time then." You swore you could have exploded any second, especially if he kept looking at you like that, and you simply released a shallow huff at his words. "Yer really testin' me here, wifey." He closed his eyes for a second and then pulled back. "Imma take a quick shower and then we can grab somethin' to eat at Samu's. Is that alright with ya?" You had simply nodded, too flustered to form words, and he pecked your cheek one last time before he headed to the bathroom.

After that, you wobbly made it to the other bathroom, quickly washing your face and getting dressed again, trying to distract yourself from the fact that you were this close to giving in and begging him to sleep with you. You have never felt like this with someone else; Atsumu just elicits feelings and actions from your body that you would never have thought were possible. He's a great kisser, and judging from the way he had been grinding his hips against yours, you were quite certain that he will be equally as good in bed. Your face had heated up again at the thought of sleeping with him, and you had quickly grabbed your stuff and go back to the bedroom. You both quickly took your things and made your way towards Onigiri Miya, but not without making out heavily in the elevator.

"Here ya go." Atsumu places two drinks on the table, and you get pulled out of your thoughts. You try to look calm and composed with a smile and thank him while he takes his seat, shortly admiring him in his simple, yet very attractive outfit. A white shirt and a pair of jeans—nothing special, but when Atsumu wears it, it just looks that appealing.

"Don't worry, these are alcohol-free. I'll stop drinking for a while for sure." He scratches the back of his head bashfully, and you laugh softly. "I figured so. But aren't you training like crazy now? Isn't it bad for you to drink anyway?"

A faint pink hue covers his cheeks at your words. "True that. I'm gonna stay away from alcohol for a long time." He shakes his head and then looks away. "Can't believe it's just a few more weeks till the Olympics. Time is running but- oh, let's start with the food already. Can't wait any longer, I'm sorry." He takes an Onigiri off his plate and eagerly digs in, and you're quick to join him, amused by his cute expression while he's chewing. He must have been starving for sure.

"I feel so much better already." He grins, and you nod while you eat a spoonful of your meal, enjoying the taste of fried rice. "Me too. I love Osamu's food." Atsumu nods and pretends to think for a second and then smugly grins. "Seems like yer fallin' for all the Miya's. We're a talented family after all."

"I'm not falling for all the Miyas!" You weakly protest, but the food could definitely make you consider Osamu as a possible partner. "Just kiddin'." He chuckles but suddenly yawns while he reaches for another Onigiri. "I'll drive ya home after that. I'm way too tired for anything more." He does look exhausted now. You don't know how he manages to even hold a proper conversation in his state, his eyes closing every few seconds before he almost violently pulls them open again.

"That's okay." You smile sympathetically and reach for your drink. He got your favorite, and you feel a sudden warmth running though your body at this realization. "I'm also exhausted after last night. But uhm..." You hesitantly fish for your phone and unlock it. "Do you maybe want to give me your new number?" You feel a faint blush creeping up your cheeks, but you're too afraid that you'll forget about it later- especially when he can barely keep his eyes open. "Oh? Sure." His eyes light up, and he quickly wipes his fingers on his tissue before he takes your phone. "Here ya go. I'll make sure to text ya every day."

"You don't have to text me every day." You snort but smile at the thought of always waking up to messages of Atsumu. "I will. Don't worry." Something about the way he says that makes you believe him, and break the intense eye contact when you take the phone with slightly shaky hands and look at the screen.

There it is, your new contact:

Husband

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daydreamdoodles · 11 months

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I will n e v e r recover from Lizzie's esmp 2 finale and the concept that even after losing her memory and state of queen, the ocean goddess and the mezalean king built a quiet life together and lived out their days

#day musings #empires smp #empires smp s2 #mcyt #I am in actual tears #he loved her so much #and stayed with her #and she loved him still #or chose to love him again #What if she's who gave him godhood #screaming crying sobbing on the floor #ldshadowlady #joel smallishbeans #empires lizzie #empires joel

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skitskatdacat63 · 11 months

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I don't think I can ever emotionally recover from these

#the inherent romance of monaco parc ferme #seriously these murdered me i really can never recover from them #screaming crying THEM!!!!!!!! THEM!!!! THEMMMMM LOOK AT THEM!!!!!#jense's hand basically covering the breadth of seb's back im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal #the gif version of this you can only see seb's face and hes very fond too sob sob and they keep holding hands while theyre talking sob sob #THE WAY SEB'S CLOSING HIS EYES ANF RESTING HIS CHIN ON JENSE'S SHOULDER AND JENSE'S SMILE ABT IT #JENSE'S FOND EXPRESSION IN THE 2ND PIC LOOK AT THE WAY HES LOOKING AT HIM WITH THOSE FOND EYES IM GONNA CRY #pictures that make me need to get up and run laps around the room bcs im seriously gonna burst into tears #2011 sebson makes me roll around in bed kicking my feet and screaming #WHO IS DOING IT LIKE THEM!!! WHO ELSE WOULD TREAT AND LOOK AT THE GUY WHO JUST BEAT HIM WITH SUCH AFFECTION!?!??!?!??!#i seriously am gonna lose it when i watch the 2011 races i think i willl actually combust i cant handle it #('pictures that automatically make me think of Solar Flare')#(these are from before that fic takes place yet are the most romantic pics ive ever seen in my life)#(solar flare!mark was so right when he told jb that he and seb look in love in literally every pic of them together)#sebson #jenson button #sebastian vettel #sv5 #jb22 #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #2011 monaco gp #2011 monaco grand prix

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covenofthearticulate · 4 months

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Got a very special Vampire Wall Update for y'all!! I'm so excited to have @killer-laurent's brilliant art, based on my fic Out, Damned Spot

My heart is so full of love for all my fandom friends that made this happen— my fellow Louis stan @wicked-felina, who commissioned Laurent, and my love @monstersinthecosmos who gifted me this super shiny metal print that literally pops off the wall.

I feel so honored to have 3 different fan arts from 3 incredible artists on my wall, but this one especially makes me happy dance every time I look at it because I've never had anything made based on my writing so it just feels like such an act of love from all of my favorite people.

ahjsdgbksdahcf okay that's enough sap for now but anyway happy new year and thank you so so so so much to Kacy for this glorious addition to my Vampire Wall :)

#it's literally shinier than my fucking glass-paned portraits LOL do you have any idea how hard it was to get these pics #the gold is just so so gorgeous in person and ties in so well with the gold iwtv movie art #actually back to being a sap for one more minute: i was just thinking about how around this time last year #was when i first moved into this place #and before unpacking any of my boxes the first thing i did was hung up my art #and during a meeting with our bipoc affinity space (which is just a chill space at work) one of the ice breaker questions was like #what makes you feel safe?#and i lowkey teared up because i was like. curating my environment is what makes me safe like no matter where i am in the world #if i can look up and be reminded of the things that i love i don't feel so overwhelmed #having a wall with my favorite things gifted from my favorite people is so so so special i cannot overstate that enough #anyway i'm out here crying in the club thank you and goodnight #fan art #killer-laurent #fave #absolute fave

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quarks-pussy · 7 months

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So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly.#fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!!#julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!!#i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu)#like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment.#and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

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kaeyapilled · 8 months

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i am still not over the fact arlecchino is referred to as "father" by the house of the hearth kids btw. the gender of it all

#i cant articulate this ugh #its just. the idea that she plays not the role of mother #where nurture and compassion would typically be expected of her #but the role of father. where a more stern and i guess distant sort of love might be typically expected. Yeah #i also dont hate the fact she doesnt seem to be abusive to the kids. i know i said i wanted her to be irredeemably evil but i really dig th #s #i actually really like the direction they seem to be taking? where its like.#shes still The Fatui. shes still using orphaned kids for military missions #but she doesnt go out of her way to harm the children. id say she sort of goes out of her way to *not* do so #AGH IT MAKES ME INSANE!!!!#the fontaine siblings' voicelines about her made me utterly insane. particularly freminet's #leaks skip if u dont wanna know but when he says she doesnt like crying so he avoids shedding tears in front of her at all costs (augh)#but still will say that things got better after the house director changed and she took charge #and that she literally told him that he has to value his own life instead of prioritizing self-sacrifice for loved ones' sakes. or somethin #which i take to be good advice for freminet in particular who has some concerning suicidal tendencies going on in there #anyway yeah arlecchino i am obsessed with you #my posts

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fictionadventurer · 2 months

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The Rosemary Tree is the first time I've had to put down a book so I could sob over how beautiful it was.

#elizabeth goudge how do you keep doing this?#her books are such a strange thing for me #either they're 'yes it's pretty but could you please get to the point and have something happen?'#or i am slammed with waves and waves of intense overwhelming emotion so i almost can't stand how deeply it affects me #i think it helps to read it at the same time of year the story occurs #the dean's watch during advent was a life-changing experience #and now reading this book in march is having a very similar effect #i actually had to go in a room by myself to properly cry #because someone caught me tearing up #and how could i begin to explain that i'm sobbing my heart out because miss giles is reading the secret garden?#i've cried over sad moments in books but i've never felt anything like this #such intense joy and sorrow all mixed in so you can't tell which emotion is causing the tears #it's been like two hours since that happened and i'm still shook #my world is upended #and i'm being reminded in an entirely new way of what really great literature can do #the rosemary tree #elizabeth goudge

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bayleymania · 9 months

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I am dying.

#aew #bcc #Blackpool Combat Club #I am actually crying real tears

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alluks-olee · 6 months

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Someone please tell me I am wrong about this cause I’ve been going NUTS over this for the last few hours and just now got the strength to type it out:

Sooo we all know this photo, right?

I thought that was a fan-made painting and then I stumbled upon the IG profile of the person who made it and guess what, they don’t even follow Kä 🥲

But they do follow Allu and vice-versa, and PLEASE tell me if I’m reading too much into this but from the Finnish text on that post it seems as if someone commissioned that painting.

Long story short - is this Jere’s birthday gift from Allu?

#i am crying actual tears he is so damn thoughtful #käärijä #aleksi nurmi

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honeypleasejustkillme · 1 year

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tomorrow is my nineteenth birthday. i can’t believe i’ve lived this long, i didn’t expect to live past sixteen yet alone get to nineteen. this is a crazy thing to process, i still can’t buy anything i want to, still can’t rent a car, still can’t buy a hotel room, still can’t do literally anything but to me it’s still a milestone of how strong i am for continuing to live despite everything.

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #this made me tear up a little bit just because i’ve been through so much and despite not wanting to exist.. having people acknowledge you #despite everything in your life that’s negative is a nice thing to go through #my fp and his sister want to do something small for my birthday and that makes me wanna cry #it was his sisters idea.. she loves me that much she’s willing to throw a mini party for me #dude i truly am so lucky to have him in my life.. he’s given me more strength and support than anyone has ever given me #his sister is so sweet too.. just gah im so in love with him

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