#i cant articulate this ugh

[kaeyapilled]

i am still not over the fact arlecchino is referred to as "father" by the house of the hearth kids btw. the gender of it all

#i cant articulate this ugh #its just. the idea that she plays not the role of mother #where nurture and compassion would typically be expected of her #but the role of father. where a more stern and i guess distant sort of love might be typically expected. Yeah #i also dont hate the fact she doesnt seem to be abusive to the kids. i know i said i wanted her to be irredeemably evil but i really dig th #s #i actually really like the direction they seem to be taking? where its like. #shes still The Fatui. shes still using orphaned kids for military missions #but she doesnt go out of her way to harm the children. id say she sort of goes out of her way to *not* do so #AGH IT MAKES ME INSANE!!!! #the fontaine siblings' voicelines about her made me utterly insane. particularly freminet's #leaks skip if u dont wanna know but when he says she doesnt like crying so he avoids shedding tears in front of her at all costs (augh) #but still will say that things got better after the house director changed and she took charge #and that she literally told him that he has to value his own life instead of prioritizing self-sacrifice for loved ones' sakes. or somethin #which i take to be good advice for freminet in particular who has some concerning suicidal tendencies going on in there #anyway yeah arlecchino i am obsessed with you #my posts

[pepperpixel]

“Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me

I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me

Then will you remember me in the same way,

as I remember you?”

BABY WE BUILT THIS HOUSE, ON MEMORIES!!!! ITS MORE BETTY AND MAGIC MAN ART TIME!!!! AKA PepperPixel is completely obsessed w the dynamic of two people dealing w very similar trauma finding understanding and solidarity in one another!!!!! GHGHG JUST. I LOVE IT. I LOVE THEM. SO MUCH.

#adventure time #betty grof #magic man #at magic man #normal man #king man #doodles #sorry about the enthusiasm that songs just RLLY FITTING FOR THEM #UGH!!!!!! AHHH!!! #like…. GHGH I CANT EVEN BE ARTICULATE ABOUT THIS ATM IM SORRY #my source for loving these 2 together: dude trust me ghghg- #no aCTUALLY THERE IS A FUCKING BASIS FOR IT BUT. still. I understand.. why it’s not most ppls focus ghgh #I get it I like petrigrof too! I just think… there’s untapped potential in these two….. I see it…. #I also like Simon Betty and magic man in a polycule too!! I just… I want magic man to be included I think he’s interesting….. #and the relationship / dynamic he can have w Betty and Simon is interesting as well!!!!

[milkbreadtoast]

v quick christelle doodle... wanted to try drawing her webnovel hair instead of webtoon🥺

#christelle de sarnez #twsb #when the third wheel strikes back #섭남파업 #my art #i like both her designs a lot #but lately ive been wanting to draw her webnovel hair bc i've seen some rly cute arts of it #like in fanart and on the thai covers #also ngl.. cant rly articulate why but she looks more how i imagine w her webnovel design #like fsr has a more mature vibe..?? idk why tho #i do like her middle part in the webtoon tho bc it makes her look more distinct from the other chars #and reminds me of botan #i think ill start drawing her novel design more tho ive been converted #also ngl i feel a bit more freedom... #like i dont feel the (subconscious)need to copy the webtoon artstyle #ive been doing the same w jesse too... trying to deviate more from the webtoon design and do my own thing #i like how i draw him a lot more now... gonna keep experimenting w that too #and cedric too #my hand hurts ugh

[tytangfei]

some people are upset about yuan qi/ gu jin being so flippant about godhood and not wanting to return to the god realm. I support him wholeheartedly. I watched his god mother shang gu--who technically birthed him but wasn't the same immortal mother Hou chi who carried him for months and loved him and expected his birth with joy--leave him for hundreds or thousands of years. It wasn't HER, not really, and frankly I've not forgiven her for this.

#when people say they were the same person....i see red #like. their primordial spirits or whatever had entire lives and wishes and hopes #and they were forced to die in a way for the other selves to emerge #and it's heartbreaking.... #ugh i cant articulate it. it's too sad #but yeah. when she left yuan qi ?????? #i was so upset on his behalf ughhhh #the last immortal #gu jin #yuan qi #ancient love poetry #jina watches cdramas

[lighthouseas]

im actually never going to be over how horribly sapphic couples are treated in like 90% of media ever. like ever

#and on here too honestly #the ships that are always trending are the mlm ships. never wlw ones #and yes obv i know i cant talk i talk abt mlm couples all the time but it's mainly because there havent been enough Good mainstream sapphic #-couples. and when there are no one bothers to talk abt them or just complains abt them. #i cant properly articulate how mad this makes me as a sapphic person but . ugh. this is also part of the reason why i want to be a #-screenwriter - i want to write a multi season tv show centering around a sapphic couple because my god do we fucking need that #think like. heartstopper except sapphics. and less lighthearted because it needs to be interesting #<- no shade to hsr btw i love that show. #anyway #bee.txt

[our-inspire-verse]

Its so weirdly lonely as a system. Like, so few people can actually understand what im saying genuinely, let alone relate to what i mean half the time

How am i supposed to explain the embarrassment that isnt real, embarrassment? Its frustrating. Im nervous but not afraid. My friends are so supportive but im at work as a new guy and i cant even explain it to my colleagues because it eould take an eternity and i dont have that. Something about it.

#system babbles #actually plural #osdd #idk like obviously i also have my community and plural friends but sometimes even then i just. blah feel like they dont fully relate or some #thing. like. some spaces here are weird or like. ugh. i cant articulate it but i feel lonely sometimes about systemhood

[blusandbirds]

sara ellis really grew on me. like i saw her and i was like ugh not another Strong Female Character who's just there to look hot and be smarter than the boys and then fall in love with one of them in a relationship that does neither of them justice. but then like. her and neal's relationship is actually so interesting because he's so her manic pixie dream boy. she's an insurance recovery woman whose job is her entire life. they fake her death for an fbi operation and she sees firsthand how little meaningful human connection she has in her life. she realizes how truly dissatisfied she's been despite being rich and successful. and then here comes neal caffery, larger than life, adventure and excitement and danger all wrapped up in a pretty smile. and you can tell how much she loves the operations, the puzzles and mysteries they solve, she loves their world. and maybe some of that gets wrapped up with her feelings towards neal. they live in a whirlwind. they move in together, they can barely say they're dating. it's fast and fun and heated but they don't know each other. but then she crashes back to reality. it's great because you could always see the signs of how it would end. their entire relationship is people saying over and over again that they’d be good together. even they themselves say it. but when it comes down to it, they’re still just an idea. as she says, "you live in the clouds. i live on west 69th." sara’s pragmatic and real and he's flair and style under a stupid hat. im obsessed with them.

#blu talks #i was literally like ugh a poorly done love interest i want alex give me alex #and now ive written an Essay #i like that they never get to love and the show doesnt pretend that they do #she's infatuated she's in love with his world she's in love with the idea #i Love that he's her manic pixie dream boy like sara is character developing neal stays the same #im word vomiting i have so many thoughts about them i cant even articulate #blu's white collar watch #white collar #sara ellis

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I honestly don't know if I could have earned my undergrad degree if not for YouTube teaching videos and text to speech features for reading pdfs

#i just cannot read. too dyslexic. #god. if i could read i would be unkillable. i could code. i could learn abt lots of things #u dont understand how discouraging it is to spend hours trying to read a paper and just retaining none of it #i love to learn. i just wish everything with audio. except i also have issues with audio lol so i need the written and the verbal #i was just watching a video on jaccard similarly for a micobial network analysis thing #i spent hours today trying to understand the code description and then i do to a video description of jaccard #and im like oh. that fucking makes sense its just scoring the fucking overlap across samples dumbass #god bless the people making those videos. they got me thru math and chem and cell bio and stats and r coding #if i lived in any pre internet time idk what id do. not be an academic i guess #bc if i had to read physical books i would cry everyday and get no where #sometimes. dyslexia. makes. me. sad. #my dyslexia assessment says im smart when not constrained by language and time. which is like cool. fucking. that's really annoying #i crumble under time constraints and i cant intake or articulate info. great. rip #ugh. annoying. shout out to my dad for afflicting me with this curse. the dyslexia genes r so fucking strong from his family #me. my sisters and my cousin r all varying degrees of dyslexic #if u ask me to read and unknown word aloud its extremely embarrassing. im like a 4 year old guessing at words lol #i have 2 advanced stem degrees and very low reading comprehension #i love to read. i just wish i could read #unrelated

[cloudbends]

I feel like there's been this weird, obnoxious notion in high media critique, when suddenly conveying strong emotionality and sentiment is seen as "cheap" and "unintelligent" for some reason - emotional music is now considered cheap, fierce and "exaggerated" acting is considered overdone, etc. as if quality media and storytelling is always supposed to be repressed, always subtle and always inferred through subtext. And I honestly find it bafflingly heartless - what's the art of storytelling without emotion, without moving the consumer of the narrative? the emotionless idea of "quality media" nowadays is nothing without evoking emotion and thought.

#vi rambling #idk what this is and if its articulate but. i had to get it out argh #im not referring to like. marvel shit btw just to clarify. #im referring to media that relies on emotion and gets branded as cheap because it doesnt keep EVERYTHING in subtext. #like of course show dont tell is important but show dont tell includes SHOW. if your characters are emotionless and your art is as well #then thats not showing or telling. its expecting the viewer to do guesswork #which can work in certain places but not in what i have in mind ugh i cant put it to words #sorry this is so random im just gonna start tagging my #analysis

[allcheers-allfears]

it absolutely boils my piss right. the solutions, the help, is right there - it fucking exists. but we're all fucking stuck behind the fucking price or the fucking waiting list.

#ugh this is so not articulated how i want it #but like wheel chairs / mobility scooters / mobility aids for example #they're all available #theyre all inventions that LITERALLY EXIST #but the fucking cost #the fucking wait list #aaaaassAAAAAAA #raging #WHY CANT WE JUST BE KIND #LIKE THAT PROJECT TO 3D PRINT PROSTHETICS #MORE OF THAT PLEASE #AAAAAAAAAAA FUCK CAPITALISM #THINKING ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES AND DISABILITY SERVICES AND HOUSING AND FOOD CIRISIS AND FUEL POVERTY AND #just my nightly rage at the world #fucking fuck fuckity fuck #sigh #if youve read this far thank you #youve won the prize of a frog: 🐸

[alicentdeservesbetter]

"I don't think he [Daemon] has been violent to her before, although there's been a lot of conflict. But fundamentally, when Rhaenyra realizes Daemon was never taught the prophecy, she suddenly gains legitimacy, because she understand it was her, she was chosen for this"

"She begged him to show her what to do because she can't do it alone, and I think in this scene, she gets a message from beyond the grave the moment that she understands that Daemon wasn't chosen. 'Wow, it was never you.'

Simultaneously, Daemon gets shafted from beyond the grave by his brother, who he loves more than any other character in the show. On the one hand, he can say that he doesn't believe in prophecies. But he was never trusted to anyway."

Emma on the choking scene 

#i have thoughts that I cant articulate #like.this is what shows you that you were chosen? #ugh. i don't know. #I'm not sure I get the point of the scene. #anti daemon targaryen

[eccentricwearsgoggles]

to be vague. i am so so so close to crying out of sheer frustration. and it honestly is not even something major in the bigger scheme of things. but in this moment and on top of whatever else has got me here, i'm just... throwing in the towel mentally. hate this feeling

#tbf in a way it's my fault for putting this on myself #but uh yeah... i cant even articulate what im fully feeling #on account of the fact im not in a talkative mood #because then talking just gives me enough issues. #it's just so bizarre when you want to communicate to prevent mishaps but then it backfires and explodes in your face #like cool. ok. yeah. #ugh im angry but i know i need to chill out so i can sleep #personal

[un-pearable]

i need to be awake and Functional in two hours but in the meantime i can and will cry over my own fic. sue me i miss shard and jules and i will continue to lose my mind over them even if i haven’t published anything more about them than this

#on my hands and knees. absolute tragedy #this fic was the result of a) the scourge and jules backup story that continues to drive me crazy #b) that one panel at the end of the secret freedom arc of shard looking through the window #and c) my immense emotions about robots and formerly people robots and robots becoming people. also jules deserves to get to parent at least #one of his kids. even if sonic grew up too fast #UGH I CANT STOP. sonic doesn’t know how to be a son!!! jules never rally got to be a dad!!!! their entire family is torn apart and thrown ba #ck together over and over again. and there’s just enough of a gap in time after secret freedom and before shard dies in su50 and god i wish #they got to bond #i want love i want drama i want jules bonding with his sons formerly evil clone and relating to the RIDICULOUSLY unique experiences they’ve #each had. and sonic being a little upset that shard clicks so easily with him and a little happy that jules can be there and supportive when #sonic can’t bc there’s just too much history. #yes uncle chuck can be shards parent but he sure doesn’t act like one for a WHILE #there’s a tired old robian mourning his lost years with his son over there. he’s got free time to bond with the lonely badnik with no place #to call home. #anyway. brb i’m gonna crash for two hours i’ve got a Thing #too many emotions. i’ll articulate them better #later #someone gave it kudos today and reminded

[low-po1y-princess]

Ok I would put my love for goemon into wprds but i... Cant. He's fucking awesome. He's a total badass. He's so silly. He's so stoic but he cares... He is so cool. He's autistic. He has genderqueer swag. I love him so much. Give him more screentime and a solo movie that doesnt suck

#le talking tag #i mean. thise are words #I CANT ARTICULATE BRO MY THOUGHTS ARE HAZY CONCEPTS AND IMAGES #but anyway. ugh i wish the franchise as a whole cared abt goemon more #so much of lupin media feels like just 'the lupin jigen and fujiko show' #CAN I PLEASE HAVE MORW THAN ONE EPISODE WHERE GOEMON IS PROMINENT. PLEASE?????? #see this is why part 3 is awesome bc i can think of like 5 episodes where goemon was either the focus or was actively in the plot #watch part 3 part 3 is awesome #also yes i should probably give bloodspray a fair chance b4 i bash it but it just looks. so bad man. like such a downer #mostly bc the koike movies look like absolute ass. gross as fuck artstyle #goe doesnt look half bad actually but he is the execption

[aromantic-karamatsu]

Hey, as someone who lost my grandmother who was very close to me suddenly at a young age, let me say that when Jaysohn runs up to Ava after she crawls out of the Blue and hugs her with no words I literally started bawling

#i would give anything to run up to my nana and just hold her like that. no words. cant even articulate the feeling #i felt EXACTLY what jaysohn felt in that moment and god dam its so GOOD #UGH THE WRITING THE ROLEPLAY PERFECTION #stupendous stoats #text #i love these fucking lil guys so much #my post #aleks talks into the void

[mostlykind]

my interview was shit 😗✌🏼 really considering finding someone that does interview coaching cos there’s no way I’m getting anywhere like this lol

#I’m actually tired of myself #yknow when someone is well articulated and so well spoken #yeah I’m basically the COMPLETE opposite #I talk like I don’t know how to form sentences #(in interviews I’m not completely incompetent) #I tend to be all over the place and I don’t have much structure #and my answers are awful and I can’t follow the STAR method to save my life #I’m fucking done #I just can’t hack it #and everyone around me is like fake it till u make it ! BITCHES I CANT FAKE BEING ARTICULATE #UGH UGGHH UGHHHHHHH #and I’m not distraught about this job specifically cos it is only 1 year FTC #but I haven’t had an interview in a year and thought maybe working has helped me BUT IT HASNT IM STILL SHIT AT THEM #AND IM WORRIED I WONT EVER LEAVE THIS PLACE COS IM NOT GONNA BE GOOD AT INTERVIEWS EVER #anyways that’s my rant over #do I invest in an interview coach or are they scams #rahma’s rambles