#how did they not realize im queer

[socialistexan]

Themed sleepy time set up!

#can yall tell i like Cinnamoroll? #apparently when i was a kid i used to make my mom dress me in a matching outfit so like id have a matching hat shirt and pants #and they would have to be on theme #and color #how did they not realize im queer

[gobstoppr]

hey guys am i allowed to say on main that i dont like metadad . am i gonna get beaten up for saying this.

guys i think we all took the term found family too literally and now everythings flattened into a boring nuclear family. guys can we stop. hello . is anybody there

#text #it was kinda charming at first but it feels like everytime i try to look at the mk tag its always the same shit . guys. guys. #we can do so much more w/ their dynamics than just dad and son ugh its so . ughhh. #every since i realized i was like . really really aroace. ive started to grow a bit of a distaste for shipping culture #this is relavant i swear. iwanna talk about metadede #like ok in fandoms right. theres often #the enforcement of specific roles onto characters for a simplified understanding of them for memes and drawing ideas #we want gay rep but we dont quite have it canonically so we make our queer headcanons seem more legit #by giving a char a same sex partner. ok easy we did it. gay people are real now #and we get awesome art and its wonderful bc people are wonderful #but its like . the relationships themselves feel flat a lot of the times. #metadede never seems to be about dedede. its about mk having a boyfriend. bc we need him to date someone. #and im not like . mad at anyone about this. i participated in it back in the day. but like. #ok so. gay hcs are the most popular in most fandom things bc its easy; hot; and sweet #but things like aro or ace hcs? its just. they. how can you depict that in a single framed drawing of a char?so theres none at all. #its not even that i actively hc chars aroace its jsut this is my world view; how i default to reading chars #maybe this rant in the tags is unrelated after all. #but idk. ive got lots of thoughts about things. #anyways as ceo of meta knigth im right about everything #i can talk more about metadad stuff specifically if people want

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[snekdood]

ive been disillusioned with a lot of the left for a while, it's nice to at least see that other ppl see it now, though the reason why kinda fucking sucks.

#i used to think i could trust ppl bc of pride flags in their profile or them being trans or whatever #and then i put allll of my trust in that community not realizing theres a Multitudes of types of ppl in it #aside from even the fact some trans ppl can be nazis- some trans people- as much as it might make us look bad to admit- #are also predators and abusers and want to lie to you and use you for money and sexually abuse you and dump you like trash #and then accuse you of doing everything they did @u@;; ask me how i know! #so on the one hand im happy ppl see it now- it's not that leftists or queer ppl or feminists are better ppl- ppl more worthy to trust- #they're just as diverse and as good and as shitty as any other demographic of people. #you're gonna find shitty people everywhere. obviously you're more likely to find predators on the right but that doesnt mean theres not #plenty on the left too. #at a certain point calling yourself 'on the left' doesnt mean much aside from idk. thinking ppl need basic human rights? #and even then its apparent that some leftists dont think that. so who can say. maybe you wont misgender me? but nah- you will #if i disagree w you or if we get in a fight- i've seen plenty of leftists do this. #i just think the term is useless now. #i think the left is about to fracture into different groups at this point #anyways be weary traveler of ever putting all of ye trust into any group of people. #its possible to like ppl and enjoy being around them and still not fully trust them. and if something tells you to gtfo? you should #also putting all your trust in a group of ppl is a one way ticket into possibly joining a cult on accident #or at the very least a culty friendgroup

[dandyshucks]

yall this old lady craft group is the best thing ever and i want to cry thinking abt how grateful i am to have it fjfkdl i think this might be the one group that i feel wholly welcomed into and actually a real part of for the first time in my life ;-; ♡

the group leader always seems to want me to sit next to her and her daughter is always interested in seeing what im working on when she comes at the end and she also tells me abt different crochet patterns she's seen on fb marketplace or she brings in old patterns for me to look through and take what i want, and then the card maker lady is offering to give me this big old crocheted clown doll that her mum made her years ago and she immediately offered to give me a ride home without me even saying anything (so that i wouldnt have to try take it home on the bus fjdkdl), and they were all super excited for me when i told them I was able to fix my accordion, and they just... treat me like an equal and a human person and fjdksl man ... it's so nice

AND IM JUST 😭💗 about it all !!!! it all feels so foreign to me !!!! i do not know when I've ever felt so fully part of a group and an equal to everyone there !!!

#and theyre always so happy to see me when i arrive fjfkdl #I've had coworkers be happy to see me but thats always been bc i was like... useful and made them feel good LMAO #its so easy to have coworkers enjoy ur presence if u do ur job well and compliment them when they do things well #or even just like. hey i like ur shoes. just simple things go a long way #so ppl have been happy to see me in the past but its only been bc i was useful to them ;-; #BUT THIS !!! this is just me being part of a group !!! i am an equal !!! its such a wild feeling !!! #im like... a full person !! its crazy !! #now granted. idk if they'd treat me the same if they knew that im queer and like. very mentally ill but DHDJDLL #thats okay idk i can live with not sharing those aspect of me bc it doesnt feel important in that setting #AUGGHHH it is just such a good feeling idk fjfldl i wish i could express it better #when u have been lesser ur entire life it is so incredible and wonderful to be treated as an equal #i did not realize how EASY it could be to socialize and feel safe with ppl if they'd just ... treat u like a human and an equal #like idk if I've ever felt so safe in my life around other ppl before fjfkdl this is crazy #ANYWAYS IM GETTING TOO DEEP ABT IT MAYBE SORRY FJFKDL im just soooo in awe that i get to experience this #and i wanted to share this bit of joy djfkdld #dandy.cmd

[offyoupop-easypeasy]

when ppl say it's wrong to read cory/shawn as queer bc guys should be able to have close friendships without being gay

which like

why can't it be both?

but also mainly for me i read them as queer partly bc of their obvious love but also bc of how their relationship is kinda dysfunctional. not that they have to be dysfunctional to be gay. but just their characters have so much comphet. and it is often played for laughs but cory and shawn actually do not have the ideal friendship every likes to paint it as. not that their love is less, but if you really watch every ep you see how many episodes they talk about not having other friends and actually not being allowed to have other friends. cory especially seems to be extremely jealous of shawn having other friends. and this would be seen as a normal friendship plot that we see a lot in media. except in this show it's never actually framed as bad or something to mature past but actually excepted as good and just the way cory and shawn are and how close of friends they are.

#anyway idk if this makes sense just rambly thoughts #lord i was born a ramblin dan #boy meets world #shory #idk i had more thoughts on this but i lost my train of thought a bit #but you cant just say characters shouldn't be read as gay bc of their friendship like gay people cant be friends #or its lesser to be gay than be hetro friends #also this excuse is used so much bc There Are Actually A Lot of Male Friendships In Media That's All Media IS. #how many Canon gay relationships can you name? #how many started as friends? bc thats a thing that happens? #How many are the Main Realtionship im the show? #but also dont just lump all fictional friendships in together. some have different dynamics than others. #also as an older in the closet person i love them Because of their comphet. i love characters with issues and problems that aren't #'Good Gay Rep' #i grew up with this shit and i relate to cory and shawn as gay and closeted #and like yeah alot of ppl also dont realize a lot of the writers and stuff did some of this on purpose not as queer 'baiting' #but as this show was written in the 90s and it had to be written as subtext #subtext my dearest love that ppl always get confused with baiting #things were a bit different then #a half finished thought i found in my drafts that im publishing bc why not

[gemharvest]

WAIT YOURE FUCKING WITH ME THE ORIGINAL VERSION OF THAT "if x has a million fans..." MEME IMAGE WITH THE SHIRTLESS GUY WAS ABOUT FUCKING ONISION. I'VE PNL:Y EVER SEEN IT WITH THE HEAD CROPPED OUT AND IT FILLED IN WITH SOMETHING ELSE. I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN PUNKED.

#ramblings #no comments on how i havent reverted yet im working on a shitpost i want up and then i switch back #do you guys want a shameful karl lore reveal thats vaguely relevant. i initially realized i was queer because of fucking onision. #<- i have not liked him for ages when i did i was stupid and like. 10 with un-monitored internet access

[deacons-wig]

unlocked the "find an assisted living community for an abusive parent" milestone about a decade early.

#im so tired #this woman is exhausting i tell you hwat #also GOD i hate southern new england soOO much #comin back here made me realize just how BAD growing up here was #we never fit in #in a culture that is soooo desperate to fit in #and im realizing it wasn't even about being like....queer #my brother never fit in either and he's straight as a...straight thing #and neither did my freak weirdo parents #we're sprinting a marathon right now #thank god for my steam deck #cyberpunk 2077 take the wheel

[asfdhgsdkjhgb]

i dont think ive ever gotten a "she uses he him pronouns" but i have actively twice now in the exact same circumstance just a different year gotten "they use he it pronouns"

#people at school stop they themming me when i actively introduce myself with he/it challenge (IMPOSSIBLE) #just me rambling again #its better than being she her-ed but. still not correct. still misgendering and making me uncomfortable #ive expressed this to friends IRL but now im thinking about it again so yall get to hear #i think people immediately they them me (people at my school at least or other queer people) because there's Enough about my #appearance to be able to tell that i am trying to not be a girl. but i also do not pass at all and am constantly perceived fem #so people just assume ah. Girl Lite. i know what that means that's what non binary is i should refer gender neutrally #NO!!!! I AM A BOY #I AM A BOY I AM A MAN I AM A GUY #OBVIOUSLY GENDER IS A BIT MORE COMPLEX THAN THAT IM ALSO A CREATURE BUT LIKE #I AM A BOY WHY DOES NO ONE EVER SEE ME AS A BOY rgh i did not realize how upset i was about this #I've been out for 3 years now and im so fucking exhausted of being trans sometimes it is so beautiful and divine but god #im so tired of never being perceived correctly #i have the privilege of going to a very queer school that tends to be much more accepting and supporting of queer identities than others #but god damn. i am so tired. stop preaching support while still not listening

[sixthcrane]

today could not be a worse day to wear knee high boots and trousers (temperature is hot and weather is humid) but i just couldn’t resist an opportunity to look like a horse rider on a friday

#nattering #my favorite compliment is when someone tells me i look like i crawled out the 16th century #which happened only twice but its funny #and the other favorite is the ‘you look like a vampire/pirate’ then it’s working #me to the mirror: i have got to dress more queer #also i packed my suitcase (moving soon) and got so pressed because my wardrobe was barren of my clothes and i didnt have all my option #bc i was like ooohhh i wont wear any of this #then i wanted to wear the things #you never realize quite how much fucking black is in your closet until you decide ooohh its spring lets wear colors #and then you must go out looking dreary and widowed because you exclusively wear winter and fall shades #i love wearing all black and looking like hell’s receptionist but i also love looking like i sniff roses and make flowercrowns #however i own like one outfit for that and it’s in my basket #oh my god when did i start caring about what im wearing in the seasons

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

GUYS. GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS OH MY FUCKING GOD

SO WHEN I HAD THE INITIAL IDEA FOR TTID, IT WAS JUST THE DIALOGUE DURING GHOUL AND PARTY'S FIGHT IN TOMMY'S RIGHT? AND THEN IT SAT UNTOUCHED FOR SEVERAL MONTHS BEFORE I DID A LITTLE BIT TO IT, AND THEN IT SAT UNTOUCHED FOR OVER A YEAR BEFORE I REMEMBERED IT AND STARTED WRITING IT CONSISTENTLY RIGHT?

WELL I WAS CURIOUS TO SEE WHAT THE DAY WAS WHEN I FIRST HAD THE IDEA FOR THE DIALOGUE RIGHT? SO I CHECK THE DOC AND GUYS. IT WAS FUCKING CREATED ON OCTOBER 31ST, 2020. HER BIRTHDAY IS ON LITERALLY ON GODDAMN HALLOWEEN. AND I SOMEHOW NEVER NOTICED THIS BEFORE????? WHAT THE FUCK

#ttid #literally she has the same birthday as frank iero. literally she has the same anniversary as the mcr comeback. #literally how the FUCK did i not notice this until now????? #im so mad i didnt realize this sooner oh my god 😭 #i get the idea to do a fucking like. birthday anniversary special tyle thing bc for some reason i thought i first created her in like. june #but no! apparently she was born on Halloween! now i have to come up with a new anniversary special thing thats Halloween themed!! #im not actually made im just- what???? #ig it makes since tho. since i couldn't go and on Halloween like i normally do bc Plauge. it makes sense i was in my room instead- #-thinming abt the Desert Queers. but still what the fuck #literally ik no one cares abt this but me but like.... im in shock she was born on Halloween and i didnt even know 😭😭😭

[syekick-powers]

i realized after answering asks and shitposting abt sylvus a bunch that i never actually posted the art i drew of him when i first designed him. so here, take this art.

character's pronouns are he/they only, and if you call this character she pronouns or any kind of feminine-coded terms in the tags, reblogs, or replies i will block you.

#sye's arts #sylvus tag #clear queers #it felt weird for me to realize that i'd forgotten to post this art onto tumblr #considering how the D&D game sylvus is part of has been going on for like almost a year now #and yet i did not post him #it was because i was originally going to make a full sheet where it also had him making different facial expressions #but i never finished it #so im just gonna post this finished fullbody #well.... 'finished'. it's not shaded #but i dont feel like working on it any longer lol

[flintbian]

Me: 0 Gender: 3 just this week

#once again i didnt think i cared until i showed my few work outfits and APPARENTLY I AINT FEMININE ENOUGH AND I WANT TO SCREAM #literally i was excited and feeling very good about it until someone commented and i saw red #once again i had no idea i felt strongly about this at all but then again ive never had people comment negatively before #this year ive been dressing more how i want and experimenting but i was hanging around queer ppl so got positive feedback #then my mother comes in and makes me see red fists clenched stomach in knots hours later #maybe it's not even about how i present (and i dont need to open my damn buttons why do i need to be showing cleavage fuck you) #(yes im wearing more masc clothing but it's still women's fuck off) #maybe it was just the policing that did it but i feel rotten now #it took me SIX BLOODY HOURS to find even two shirts i liked and i was feeling them but no im presenting Wrong some fucking how #i guess for school i was dressed appropriately enough but i dress like my dad ive realized #and this has all been surprisingly frustrating i thought i didn't care but you start policing me and saying im not in x box and i go mad #besides that when ive been experimenting this year again it's only been queer ppl or clare and she loves the looks #and ive been getting piercings and figuring out if there may be a way after all to get tats #but you show a Model Citizen your work outfits and you're Wrong somehow as if it matters #like everything was a problem 'why are you wearing essentially men's styles why does it have a collar why is it buttoned up' #even the material was a factor like bc the shirt is more flowy that made it better as opposed to polo or cotton or whatever material #LIKE WE'RE ASSIGNING GENDER TO FABRICS NOW?!! I DIDNT EVEN LOOK AT THE BLOODY FABRIC THE HELL?? #hannah loved the outfits but they understand of course #tomboy is fine apparently as long as you grow out of it but if it stays? wrong and literally fuck off why does it matter?? #excuse me i dont even have any cleavage to show why are the buttons so damn important #again didnt think i had strong feelings about myself but apparently i do #how is it my father is more accepting than??? #and for years i didnt get to experiment with clothing hell i was trying to find stuff i could wear with nerve pain #i dont think im trans like that's not it i just hate boxes and having to conform to some stupid standard we made up and being policed #bc im apparently not feminine enough or whatever #and what's weird is years ago i wanted to be considered pretty but that's completely gone now as ive been finding myself and style #currently rocking the androg look but some people dont fucking like that and ive been dealing with this for like only two weeks #and it's maddening already #anyways both out of wanting to and spite im going to cut even more of my hair off soon and lean harder into this #p

[loveofmylouis]

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#i missed all of the discourse this morning but its still heavy on my mind #for someone to say that louis needs to do a certain thing in order to support or validate that queer community just really breaks my heart #im not going to get into it not being his responsibility or into his closet #but saying that completely invalidates all of the 'smaller' things he has done throughout the years that not only show his support for the #community but also shows he is proud of his own sexuality #i feel like some that weren't here at the time dont realize how big of a deal it was for louis to have a rainbow on his shirt at the time #it was huge for the gay fans it may seem like a small gesture to some but it was the opposite #even if he hadnt acknowledged a rainbow project or the flags during otb it was such an important thing to even happen #people wouldn't bring their flags to a show if they didn't feel safe and louis made everyone feel safe without even saying anything and i #feel like people ignore that #it's just so belittling to who louis is as a person when they say oh he needs to do this for the community because this other thing he did #wasn't enough #he didn't have to wear those rainbows when he was being painted as homophobic everyday #he didn't have to write and release otb that so so many queer people resonate with #even just pointing at a flag in the crowd or telling a fan thanks for the flag love he didn't have to do that stuff #but he still did and whether it was for himself or for his large gay fanbase its still so important #and if those gestures are too small for you or you think that he needs to do more to validate you i think that's more a fault of yourself #rather than a fault of louis #okay i just had to get my thoughts out I'm done #and to clarify i dont think any of these gestures are 'small' gestures i think they're all incredibly important #but some seem to believe they're not big enough

[ghostiboos]

When I was growing up, I had this “bad” habit of locking doors.

I would go in a room — usually “my” room (until I didn’t have locks anymore) — and I would immediately lock the door behind me. I didn’t even do it on purpose most of the time, I would just do it subconsciously because it made me feel safe.

It made my parents so mad. Mom would always shout “Why is the door locked again? Let me in! What are you hiding in there??” That always scared me.

I tried to break the habit, but it was muscle memory, and I kept doing it on accident, which made my parents think I was being willfully disobedient. They benevolently “believed” me that it was an accident sometimes, but only when they were in good moods.

And then there were the times when I couldn’t take it — I couldn’t breathe, I needed to lock the door even though I knew that I “shouldn’t” — and I would make a conscious and guilty decision to lock it on purpose.

I would sit on my bed, curled up in a ball, and I would finally feel safe, but I always had my ears trained on the door, holding my breath at the sound of footsteps and listening closely for even the slightest rattling of the knob.

But then I went to university.

Don’t get me wrong, my freshman setup was awful (I’ll spare the details), but all at once, the door-locking habit was broken.

It’s not that I trusted my roommate or the other students on my floor — I didn’t — but for some reason, that absentminded flick of my fingers every time I closed a door just ceased to exist.

Yet moving back “home” with my family over the summer, it somehow returned without me even noticing.

Back and forth every year, locking doors at “home” and forgetting to at uni, I never realized the pattern until now… I don’t think I let myself realize it. That happens a lot. I think my brain tries to protect me that way.

And here I am again, staying at “home” with my “family,” and it’s funny.

I don’t even have a lock on “my” door anymore, but the muscle memory is still there — every time I close it behind me, my fingers flick across the knob where the lock should be, and I don’t even think about it.

#i don’t just blindly trust strangers — if anything my vice is paranoia #i don’t really even trust people i know #but the fact that i somehow ‘trusted’ strangers with respecting my space and my boundaries more than my own ‘family’ and my own ‘parents’… #my mom always asked me if i felt ‘safe enough’ living in a dormitory with a bunch of strangers… but if im being honest- #living in dorms was the safest i’ve felt living anywhere. and i did not feel very safe — i just felt. safer somehow #what a thing to realize on a tuesday morning #text post #how do i tag this #i don’t wanna tag it like. ‘domestic @buse’ or anything cuz i don’t claim that #uhh #unsafe living environment #growing up queer #neurodivergent #ex christian #in the closet #closeted

[glitchdollmemoria]

actually. that post about how its important to have weird kinky queer friends. i think the same is true of really every type of ostracized person but in particular i wanna point it out wrt mentally ill people.

if you watch a movie villainizing DID or schizophrenia or something, and you think, "hey, this seems sort of like its based on what my friend has and theyre just a chill person, why are they making my friends condition seem threatening?" thats good.

if you see someone use narcissist as a synonym for abuser and you think, "what, no, im friends with someone who has NPD and i know theyre a kind person, this isnt true at all," thats good.

if you hear politicians try to frame addicts as violent criminals who should be locked up and you think "no, my buddy sam is just sick, their withdrawals are really painful and they dont have a good support system, they shouldnt be locked up for that," thats good.

being able to counter ableist rhetoric with "i know from experience thats not how these people are" is a good thing. like yeah obviously dont make friends with mentally ill people just for brownie points but also try to make the conscious effort to be open to friendship with people who have stigmatized mental health issues. and maybe even more importantly, be someone who makes it clear to others that youre safe to be open about these things with, because chances are youre ALREADY friends with mentally ill people even if you dont realize it, because a lot of us with more demonized conditions try to hide those conditions out of fear, and it helps a lot to know our friends are allies - and then we might feel safe discussing our experiences, IF we want to, and in turn that can help you better understand the realities and diversities of our situations and be less susceptible to ableist rhetoric.

#ok to rb #i dont feel like tagging though bc im not 100% confident in how i worded this #but idk how better to and i want it out there. idk