#his miserable life

[shootwithheart]

Dabbling with words again. Still working with Born in Fire by Nora Roberts.

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When he left the pub

And listened to the phone

His miserable life behind his eyes

Another drag on his cigarette

He joked about opening a pub

#inflection is important #born in fire #nora roberts #recuts in fire #remix poetry #collage poetry #his miserable life #it was only a joke #butt of the joke #youre not in on the joke #red tray #local artist

[ohnonotthehorrors]

Can I... talk about the theory that winners help craft the next game?

Because, and I really can not say this enough, it puts So Much into perspective.

Everything starts out Normal. Three lives, simple, cut and dry, there hasn't been a winner yet. No one to help craft the game. (And there's something to be said about how simple it really was. Not even a real expectation of the world becoming pvp or combative. No idea of the war to come)

Then Grian wins. The green killer, the man who vowed his first life to the one whose life he took. The next game the boogie man is born. A mechanic that allows and, in fact, demands, a green kill. People can trade lives back and forth, currency and debt wrapped up in one. (can we still be friends? Said the red partner. A life time later and reds are hostile, alone. Maybe it's an answer: No. Not anymore)

Scott wins this time. He refuses to play the game. He will not kill his team, he will love and he will do so fiercely and with all of himself. The next game people are attached through to their very souls. Every bit of damage to one soul is done to its twin. There is no boogeyman. (There is no way for a widow to be left without their love)

Pearl wins and she wins a blood bath. Spent the game draped in red, only wolves for company. Sitting in her tower, shivering in ice, maybe she wanted it to end. To see where it would. Limited life rewards you for killing, limited life has a clock tick tick ticking down, you always no how long you have. A curse yes, but a blessing too.

Now It's Martyn's turn.

And what a turn it is.

Keep your secrets, says the disloyal man, keep them well. Everything hurts, everything Matters, says the man fracturing with every loss. (What if we could love each other without hurting? Says The Hand, who never wanted to be coated in blood)

More importantly, Martyn has always seen the watchers below the surface. Now, they're right here in front of him. Something that could almost... be rebelled against, no? Something that someone else could finally point to and say: hey, hey isn't that familiar?

#Also funny that most winners have an immediate problem with the game following #Grian being given only two lives at the start #Scott breaking up with his soulmate #Martyn pulling an absolute Wet Cat and failing miserably at secret life #Pearl did fine #limited life #life series #secret life #trafficblr #grian #scott smajor #martyn inthelittlewood #pearlescentmoon #3rd life #last life #traffic life #ignore the number of parenthesis #and also tags

[starcurtain]

Sometimes, I think about how much Alhaitham's entire adult life has been shaped by Kaveh and I just... have to sit down for a second.

Kaveh was Alhaitham's first, and, as far as we've been told, only friend until recently. At the very least, Kaveh was likely his only close friend throughout Alhaitham's entire schooling years, from teens into adulthood.

Alhaitham lives in the house he received for his work with Kaveh. The house Alhaitham lives in wouldn't even exist without Kaveh.

Alhaitham's ideology and behavior have been shaped by his diametric opposition to Kaveh's perspectives. He acts and thinks the way he does in part because of how their debating over years shaped how Alhaitham sees the world.

He's become an active part of a friend group almost entirely because of Kaveh. Alhaitham's story quest says that he didn't become particularly friendly with the rest of Sumeru's saviors even after they saved the archon, but now we see him hanging out with Cyno and Tighnari all the time because Kaveh was friends with them first and eased the way.

He even drinks a particular brand of coffee because he and Kaveh picked it together.

If you removed all trace of Kaveh from Alhaitham's life, virtually nothing would be the same. He wouldn't live where he does now. His house wouldn't look like it does inside at all. He very likely wouldn't have a single close friend. His ideology would probably be significantly more pragmatic and cold. Literally the only thing in Alhaitham's current life that hasn't been shaped in some way by Kaveh is Alhaitham's job. Which is... probably why work is Alhaitham's least favorite aspect of life.

Meanwhile, Kaveh is honest to archons over here wondering "What does Alhaitham even think about me?"

I don't know, buddy, probably that you're his whole world?

#haikaveh #kavetham #genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #Alhaitham is down horrendous #we should make more fun of him #bro met one pretty boy #and rearranged his entire life to make it happen #please someone write me a fic #where Alhaitham gets trapped in some dream or something #where Kaveh never existed #and everything in his life is completely different #and therefore completely miserable #just sayin #I'd read that #(Does it already exist?)

[couch-house]

I think sonic had a really good time not being playable for once and just being supporting cast for his friend shadow. i just know he was soooo excited to explain the controls and not worry about rings and cheer on his friend (and sometimes be a final boss :3)

#sth #shth #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic the character #fanart #id in alt text #i have. another batch of shadow (game) drawings after this #bc im having a really good time with it #it is definitely somewhere in the top 3 sonic games for me. it's good! and anyone who says otherwise just hates fun #sonic in this game soooo funny he IS so annoying but it is so cute truly #im really bad at the hero mission in space gadget but sonics dialogue is sooooo cute in that.. #he's just having fun racing with his friend again 🥺 #shadow is having the most intense and miserable experience of his short life and sonic is just like yaayayayay video game yaaay! #anyway. return of my adventure-era sonic design. even tho shth canonically takes place A While after sa2 #whatever. they r the same to me

[thegunslingerletmedrop]

#911 abc #911edit #chimney han #911 gifs #madney #kevin lee #maddie buckley #glmdedit #jee yun buckley han #albert han #henrietta wilson #karen wilson #john lee #anne lee #eddie diaz #evan buckley #ravi panikkar #bobby nash #look i hope people are as emotionally damaged by this as i was making it #we only had kevin for like 25 mins but i've never gotten over him #this guy has every reason to be a horrible miserable character but no #no he's the coolest cheeriest funniest caring man alive #sick dead mom at a young age and abandoned by an absent father and taking care of sick after her diagnosis #ideas constantly shut down for owning a business and losing his brother on the job #and also sorta losing mr lee who couldn't bear to see him without being reminded of kevin bc they were so intertwined #failing in love and getting stabbed and left for dead #oh and the rebar accident where he almost died again #losing the love of his life and then finding her but not being together with her #911 edits

[newttxt]

i was talking extensively with a friend about reiju’s delicate balance of caring/emotionless and her relationship with sanji

#dont look too closely or u WILL see that i drew this cold and sloppy #hopefully its legible #uhhhhh anyway. she does genuinely want sanji to have a good and safe life! #but she doesnt understand how to factor in what he WANTS from life. #and she certainly doesnt trust him to make his own decisions regarding said life #in her mind i think she sees her muted emotions as a strength. she thinks she can make unbiased choices for him #her idea of Best Possible Life would make him MISERABLE #the end #one piece #sanji #vinsmoke reiju

[mipmoth]

When Ingo was sent through the time space distortion it left behind a ghost of his lost memories

#submas #ohuh wanted to explain this particular ghost au where ingo is both alive but also has a ghost for his past life #dying in a way when he forgot it all. becoming a blank slate. #ghost ingo doesnt know past ingo exists so when he comes back oooh oh existential crisis denial bargin becomes a malicious ghost :) #when there is multiple of a person and theres this question of whos more 'real' but theres no way to answer that and everyone is miserable

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[heartorbit]

just how can i protect your smile?

#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi #pjsk #prsk #project sekai #proseka #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #ruikasa #AUUUUUGH. #this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism #putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009) #this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted #i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay #tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine #me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt #im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit. #emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me #Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here #im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked #i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it #but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH #wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg

[waterlilyvioletfog]

See the thing is, you read HtN and like yeah, obviously lobotomizing yourself so a dead girl’s soul doesn’t get cannibalized is completely fucking wild and you probably have to love someone at least a little to do that, but Harrow has spent the whole book having tension with Ianthe and fervently claiming to be in love with the Body— and then you get to Act V and Harrow is literally weeping wailing feral about Gideon, constructing Prince!Gideon AUs (which, she doesn’t know about Gideon’s paternity!! She is simply drawing upon a (romantic!!!) genre trope!!!) and role reversal AUs and fucking coffee shop AUs about Gideon, and she’s refusing to go back to her own body, and Abigail and Magnus and Dulcie so obviously and completely believe that Harrow is in love with Gideon because they directly compare them to Abigail and Magnus, and she says she’s saving the last dance. Agh!!! Aggghhhhh!!!!!!

#when I tell you that harrow’s final chapter is fucking euphoric she’s so happy. I swear she’s so happy Gideon’s alive it’s insane #the locked tomb spoilers #tlt series #the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #htn spoilers #tlt spoilers #tlt #the locked tomb series #harrowhark nonagesimus #griddlehark #I just re-read htn. it’s wild. #to be honest the river bubble plotline is so wonderful I’m so glad harrow got to have that. #abigail loving her. Magnus and dulcie. ortus apologizing for his role in her life etc. the ghost gang!! #fun fact: I want a TV show about the ghost gang. ortus pro marta and nonius vs the world. TELL ME you wouldn’t watch that shit #like the whole book is so miserable and act v is especially miserable but the bubble plot in act V is just. god it’s so good.

[autismmydearwatson]

Rewatched "Dalek" and jesus fucking christ chris eccleston was perfect as the Doctor, this Doctor, the Doctor in his present situation. The Doctor who has just destroyed two entire peoples singlehandedly, the Doctor who watched everything he's ever loved die at his own hand, the Doctor who has become jaded and vindictive and is fighting to hold onto his whimsy in the aftermath. The sheer fucking DELIVERY, when he said "Oh! And I caught your little signal! 'Help me!' Poor little thing." like jesus christ. jesus fucking christ. i need to lay down, no, i need to scream into a bottomless pit

#doctor who #ninth doctor #chris eccleston #9th doctor #dalek #dw #jaspers prattling #hi. i'm going to be thinking about “'help me!' poor little thing” for the rest of my miserable life

[aficionadoenthusiast]

i sincerely hope that will's casting looks as much like walker as possible so that the 'not his type' jokes finally die and everybody realizes percy isn't his type not because of hair color or any other physical attribute but simply because nico has outgrown that part of his life and has to let go of it in order to move on. like. please recognize it for the literary symbolism it is. it is important to me that y'all realize this.

#the boy is literally standing between his past (percy) and his potential future (will) and looks at will and decides to let go #literally on a precipice and decides to jump because he doesn't want to be miserable anymore (decides to stay at camp) #stop demeaning lit devices! #this was such a big moment in percy and nico's relationship #AND in nico's life #this entire scene represented nico's inability to let go #it's a precursor to the cocoa puffs #i'm begging you stop diminishing it into some immature rivalry #pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #solangelo #pjo fandom #pjo hoo toa #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjotv #rcpjtv

[maiaczy]

It isn't Mermay yet, but could you draw Mista as a merman? XD

Mermista with his fish friends

#i have never drawn a merperson of any sort before so hopefully i did him justice #also i tried coloring it and failed miserably forgive me anon #as for the Lore one day some 6 mildly annoying fish started following him around at all times #and after a while he just begrudgingly accepted that this is his life now #merancia definitely makes fun of him for it and calls him a fish mom or something #sketch requests #art requests #guido mista #jjba #fanart #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojos bizzare adventure #art #digital art #jojo #jojo fanart #sketch #myart #jjba mista #vento aureo #golden wind #merman

[thelesbianthespianposts]

something about how Lorraine Baines McFly raised her son to be someone that her younger self would have felt safe around. Especially since she was mistreated and harassed near-constantly by Biff. She raised her son to be kind and emotional and unafraid to stand up against bullies. No wonder she fell for him in the past.

#“Eww she fell in love with her son” #No she fell for someone who literally is the antithesis of any other guy she knows #And that’s by design #Also #its not like she knew #lorraine baines #marty mcfly #back to the future #bttf #ALSO #think about it #marty tried so hard his whole life up til the movie trying to be the opposite of his dad #Outspoken attentive confident #But he’s so much like George regardless #Their fear of rejection #“What if they think I’m no good” #Their being afraid to pursue their passions/being shut down #Lorraine was always going to fall for george #She fell in love with the George she saw in marty #But Marty caught her eye because of his confidence #Lorraine lived a miserable life with George originally #But when he started believing in himself and became the more confident version of himself #Lorraine fell for him harder and they lived a great life together #Jesus that’s a lot of tags

[majimasleftasscheek]

when you're mean to Nishiki this is who you're being mean to

#I say while making his life miserable with majima harassment #oops teehee #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #nishikiyama akira #my art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Truth and revenge is best served cold.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #song lan #This comic was another 'almost cut' one but I previously cut out xue yang bartering (threatening) for potatoes so I felt it was justified #episode 2 is so sad and miserable. I am going to do my best by making it a little funny. #Xue yang really committed fully to this new life of his! Don't threated him by trying to ruin it! #I love how he takes the blame here too. Yes he purposefully set up events to cause a divide between them #Yes he attacked SL because it would hurt XXC the most #but hey: that only hurt because he loved SL so much (in whatever form they have) #and SL hurt XXC in turn by sending him away #Xue Yang set it up but Song Lan dealt a blow on his own #XY is still the *most* at fault here but contrasting this with how strongly he justifies his actions to XXC later is very interesting to me #also he did NOT have to villain monologue about all the stuff he made xxc do. He could have just shut up about it #but nah he needs to cause hurt because HE'S so hurt and can't make other people understand him in any other way.