#here is him struggling

[casuallivi]

Elriel Month: week four: choice, true mates, and balance (peace version)

They painted her as a frail maiden who would faint upon encountering violence for the first time. Their mistake, not hers. Elain was not a maiden neither an estranger to the cruelty of the world, she saw violence many times.

When they dragged her from bed in the middle of the night. When they hauled her across the room to push her under the cauldron’s dark waters. When her humanity was taken from her as if it was nothing, replaced by this strange new existence. When she was taken prisoner, lured by the illusion of her heart's desire coming true, submitted to eons of visions she wanted no part in. When she went to war and watched people dying, lost between memory and reality, watching her sister and brave Cassian killed on the battlefield. She saw it all. Countless of times. Whether she closed her eyes or not, the dreams would find her and take away her sanity.

Azriel’s large hand came to rest on her thigh, pulling her further up his lap. They had agreed on entering in a clandestine romance two months ago, becoming basically inseparable since. Elain let herself slouch against his chest, his gentle but firm strokes undoing the knots in her muscles, moving under the hem of her dress with less firmness, changing into an intimate lovers caress. Aware of her wandering mind. Tenderly anchoring her to the present. She breathed in and out, lungs filling with pure air, watching the stars sprinkling the night sky like powdered sugar covering a fine desert. Azriel kissed her temple and Elain sighed content, leaving long mellow kisses in his strong jawline. Once, twice, thrice. “Aut inveniam viam aut faciam.” She vowed against his skin, his scent burning a fire in her soul.

His other hand knotted around her hair, turning her face to him. “What does it mean?” he voiced with interest.

Azriel was slightly familiarized with the intonations of the language she was set on learn at the moment, having spent a few nights sharing her with the old book that either rested on her bedside table, or her lap. Elain caressed his cheek, tracing the shape of his round ear, his eyes growing soft and lovely, melting into a beautiful shade of hazel that was almost green. Watching her. 

Unable to hold back, she gave him a peck, not caring that they were in Feyre's garden, their family still lazing around inside, bellies full from dinner, fully trusting his shadows to veil them

“I shall either find a way, or make one.” Elain translated patiently, her words sounding more of a promise than a simple translation.

Azriel bumped his nose on hers.

“Shouldn’t I be the one saying that?”

“So say it,” she challenged. 

Azriel cleared his throat, rehearsing the words on his mind. “At vain. Vain vian,” he struggled and stopped, deciding he had better odds to do right from the beginning. “At vain, vain–what?”

Elain giggled at his attempt to pronounce, flattening her palm on his cheek.

“Not ‘at’, my love, is ‘aut’.” She corrected patiently, kissing the tip of his nose. “Aut inveniam viam aut-”

He crashed his lips on hers.

“Curl your tongue like that again.” He challenged,  drunk in love. Azriel wasted no time before slipping his tongue in between her plump lips, lapping the roof of her mouth, as if he was trying to learn the words through taste, coaxing a moan out of her. Elain pressed her chest to his, their heartbeats frennetical, synched, turned to one.

The path the gods chosen mattered not;

They were determinate to create a new road;

Together.

#a wise nike once said #az can't be good at everything #preach sister #here is him struggling #🤭🤭🤭 #elrielmonth22 #week four: choice true mates and balance #elriel #elriel mini fic #elain archeron #azriel #elain x azriel #livi's contribution to em22 #moodboard #the language is latim #in case anywone wonders #xD

[sonknuxadow]

its kinda funny that the chaotix are like the only characters who mention having to pay rent or buy food or whatever and theyll take any job that pays because theyre desperate for money but none of the other characters are struggling in this department at all even though most of them dont seem to have jobs. its like the concept of needing money to live exists for no one in the sonic universe EXCEPT for vector espio and charmy

#sonic actively chooses to not have a house or a job or anything and hes fine ? #like he never seems to have any problems that are a direct result of this lifestyle. hes just chilling doing whatever he wants #tails has MULTIPLE houses/labs and doesnt seem to struggle to pay for them or anything. assuming he even has to pay for them at all #but vector is out here struggling to pay rent even though hes one of the only characters who we know actually has a job #do they just not demand money from tails because he helps save the world so often and is also 8 years old #do they just only target adults with this sort of thing. and thats why vector needs money so bad while no one else does . #and espio and charmy despite being minors have to bear the curse as well because they live with him

[vampireposter]

meeting wyll at the grove, as someone who the tieflings trust enough to train their children, says so much about him. it's so sad that he doesn't get explored in acts 2-3 as deeply as the other companions, when his problems are equally intense. the average player probably long rests once before coming across the grove, but even if not, in that time wyll has already proven to the tieflings that they can rely on the Blade of Frontiers.

this is the immediate first thing he chooses to do after being condemned to slow death via ceremorphosis. his priority list in the first conversations with tav is: 1) hunt down a dangerous devil, 2) help zevlor with the goblins, 3) once nothing threatens the tieflings he will gladly search for a tadpole cure. wyll is perpetually his own last priority, and i wonder if it has to do with the lore about souls.

if he believes mind flayers' souls have been destroyed, and fiend warlocks will all have their souls sent to the hells after death, then becoming a mind flayer isn't the worst possible way for him to die. he would never become a mindless monster to save his own soul, but he's not gripped by horror the way that some of the other origin characters are. lae'zel has been made revoltingly impure to her people, astarion is terrified of losing the scrap of bodily autonomy he just regained, gale is guilt-ridden over the orb detonation if he dies, shadowheart has to survive to prove herself to her cult leader, and karlach has also just regained bodily autonomy and is desparate to live.

this is just another quest for the Blade, whose persona guards wyll ravengard against the vice of self-concern when he ought to be concerned for those in need.

#wyll ravengard #bg3 #writing a wyll pov thing in order to roleplay harder in my durge playthrough & ive become obsessed w him #i love him so much. he doesnt even really get to realize in-game how traumatized he is and in act 3 he has not healed any really #come here wyll we are going to learn about self care. you & durge need to overcome the desire to give up your lives for your fathers ideals #faerun doesnt have LMHCs so wyll gets my durge who currently thinks he is (a miserable failure of) a cleric of ilmater. #this fic is practice for my 'ascended tavastarion struggle to quit being Like That' character study thing wherein i am struggling w dialogu #loving working on both. im in my little dollhouse making my toys try out lines until they fit #vampireposted

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Average Drama Enjoyer observes some peak drama.

#dungeon meshi #toshiro nakamoto #laios touden #kabru #izutsumi #Before anyone mistakes this as mischaracterization: The joke here is that it's ambiguous what the hell he means. #Kabru does love getting into fights a bit more than average but he's mostly here for the drama. #I screenshot the scene of him going 'The dark arts!' with a little smile everytime I re-read dungeon meshi. He's so catty. I love him. #And shout out to Izutsumi for adding fire to the drama. Girl said 'I am the listener. I heard that shit.' and refused to apologize. #Joke two: the deep cut - Welcome to more propaganda for whatever the hell is going on between Laios & Shuro & Kabru. #Laios trusting Shuro with some *heavy* information because he admires him so much! And wants to be his friend so badly! #Kabru also has another great character moment when he immediatly clocks Laios as not being as malicious as expected. #We love a character who can put the clues together! It is such a good subversion of what role we think Kabru is to play in this story! #Now he's eager to befriend Laios - who is barely interested and currently trying to befriend Shuro - who is barely interested and...well. #The painful triangle of people trying to get to know the other person better and being rejected...Friendship triangle. #We have all had a friendship triangle situation before. Right? You guys have also struggled to read people. Right? #Laios is universally relatable. Right?

[crustyfloor]

IVAN'S A FUCKING FUCKER FOR NOT EVEN CHOKING TILL PROPERLY HE WAS GENTLY HOLDING HIM IN PLACE

(it kills me because Till probably thought ivan was gonna give him one last out or something hence why he closed his eyes in what i feel like is acceptance)

#alien stage #alnst till #alnst ivan #ivantill #That motherfucker was NOT choking him #they cant even choke eachother fuckthem #TILL TOOK THAT SHIT BECAUSE HE THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA GET HIS ASS WHOOPED NO SIR YOU JUST GOT FUCKED ON STAGE #its genuinely so hard to tell if Ivan was actually choking him because Till wasnt struggling for shit #no gasp of air as he tried to breathe in #his necks a little pink but that could just be lighting #i dont fuckin know #massive cope btw i dunno what the fukk they were doing here #alien stage till #alien stage ivan #alnst

[isjasz]

[Day 202]

I finally designed him head in hands ITS SUMA!! >:D

#dddaily4sherin #The Promised Hermitopia #xisumavoid #cubfan135 #goodtimeswithscar #grian #solidaritygaming #skizzleman #in all the doodles #trafficblr #hermitblr #isdoodles #intermission amongst the asks bc it is 12am here HELP #this was such a struggle HSAJLEPELPE #also dont question the logistics of him being the caretaker dude idk either LMAOOAOSOOA #also *2. we considered making it Cleo but she fits another role better and cleo is more of scars mom so it doesnt exactly work LOL O7 #X is the best person we could think of

[beescake]

Sorry for the spam (^o^;) I just really like your blog

no need to apologize ayy!

in this corner we welcome all forms of enjoyment, regardless of whether you're a

happy to have yall here w me,

headin into homestuck 2024 :^)

#was debating if sollux truly was lurker type but then i rmbr'd him quietly reading all of karkat's memos for a good laugh HAHAHAHAAH #ask #aleemie #homestuck #karkat vantas #sollux captor #solkat #2024 #vioart #but o. regarding the etiquette learned frm other socmed #spamming here is safe+good! it does not harm the op by shadowbanning like instagram #and its not 💀 like twitter where ur likes/following are permanently set to public #ur tumblr experience is within ur control it can be as free/empty/curated as u want!! #((tho ofc i do encourage rbing for ppl who've been hoping to start that habit!! #s'cool to slowly work ur way up from the extra special posts that hv lingered longest in ur heart and quietly build ur cache trove :-) #for example back when i was struggling to rt on a new twt acc i just started setting nonsense criteria for myself LOL #like “breaking this void is scary holy fuck ok i shall start by rting posts w brownish/reddish clrs bcs its inspo vibes for my art” #and gradually after a while of deliberate sharing i gained more confidence to share a larger variety of posts that make me feel things!!!! #no more training wheels i may be scared but i love loving more!!!! #same goes for engaging w fics too it takes energy to think of how to comment and thats ok‚ do ur best to explore what works for u!!!! #take screenshots of ur fave paragraphs & start annotating in gallery/notes app if that helps!!!! #also tumblr's customizable queue means u can stack posts and bolt hgehehe. my preferred form of existing on the net))

[sarcasticmothdraws]

sighs...

#homestuck #l4dstuck au #alpha dave strider #alpha bro strider #goddamnit #heres me struggling to draw him again cause god knows im hella outta practice

[saetoru]

al-haitham’s the kind of guy who tilts his head slightly for a kiss before you even lean in to give him one. he just knows it’s coming. expects it. trusts it’ll happen.

he’s yawning when he sits at the table for breakfast, hair slightly disheveled from sleep. he sits down and when you place the mug of coffee in front of him, his head angles a little for that kiss you place on his cheek.

he’s drowned in endless paperwork at the akademiya when you stop by to visit, chuckling when he gives you that look of despair at the all the work he has to do. you don’t even manage to walk up to him fully before he’s leaning in and waiting for the kiss to the top of his head.

he’s shirtless in the bathroom, brushing his teeth at night when you walk in to brush yours too, bumping hips with his as you giggle. you don’t even have to turn before he’s tilting his head so he’s exposed and ready for that gentle peck you leave at his jaw.

“have you ever noticed how demanding you are for these,” you chuckle one day, pressing a kiss to his cheek to prove your point.

he grunts, leaning in and burying his head into your neck as you greet him at the door after a long day. “what makes you say that,” he mumbles.

“you’re ready for one before i’ve even come close,” you grin, “what if one day i don’t kiss you?”

“you’d stop kissing me?” he asks, squeezing your hips as he nuzzles into your neck. something tells you he already knows your answer.

and he’s warm. he’s close. he’s here and he’s everything all at once. he’s all you need and everything you’ve ever wanted. he’s the messy hair of your mornings and the pouty lips of your afternoons and that shirtless back of every night. he meets you halfway—maybe even takes the first step so you don’t have to.

he leans in for that kiss before you do. because he needs you, wants you, loves you—and he never lets you forget it. so you turn your head, press your lips against the side of his head and run your fingers through his hair as he sighs in content.

“no,” you hum, falling in love all over again, “no i’d never stop kissing you.”

#✰ — al haitham. #hi guys i’m #rly sad #bc idk i’m trying to pick up writing my haitham fic again #but i’m struggling on cnn arcaterization and #just writing in general #i think i’m hitting a block again #and i was 6k words into the fic #i rly wanted to post it before this vacation #so i’m trying to write little blurbs of #how i think he’s like to love #to maybe #idk spark inspiration and get a better grasp of him #i’m just #bummed :( this fic was my most fav idea ever i #rly love it and him and it was making me happy to write and now i feel like it’s not what k expected so i’m sad #:( #anyway here’s needy haitham to cleanse the dash and cheer up moods #bc i needed a mood loft #lift **

[mattodore]

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

#river dipping #dionte duval #lykos #ts4 #i do really love how dionte and nicholas kinda have a b4b (bald for bald) thing going on.... but that first hair........ #he looks so good... the urge to keep it is gonna make me develop a twitch under my eye... #i love the shadows the locs add btw like i personally loveee when hair creators add shading #like the DRAMAAA it adds!!! #also don't look too closely at him here bc i actually haven't updated him yet hence no proper edit of him (tho i probably won't change much #i'm really just supposed to be cleaning out the hundreds!! of duplicate households in my library dkhjnkfgh i just. get so distracted #i also have to fix mattodore's households bc i think i accidentally deleted the updated version of them at 20... #like there are multiple other saves?? but they're all with matthias's old chin??? like literally WHERE did the updated version go #so i need to clean out my library from the top down and fix their sims #i really messed my sleep schedule up the day before yesterday when i was working on those edits of delphi btw #but i did enjoy rewatching secretary and watching charade while staying up all night to do them <3 #also listened to the first two chapters of freedom is a constant struggle! editing may take me forever but i do do other things as i do it #...........talking a lot in these tags bc i'm seriously procrastinating jdkhnf i do NOT ! want to clean through my library it's a mess #OH. ALSO GOOD MORNING I FORGOT TO SAY THAT ‼️ #seeing this again two days later and seeing the amount of notes....... y'all weren't meant to reblog this kjhdkfjhndkjgnh #now i'm like damn... is there any reason to make his intro edit like i did for ria and delphi 😭😭😭😭😭

[bloobydabloob]

Lil Hal design ideas that kept glitching and posting weird. Let’s give this one last shot.

Dirk and Hal ramblings under cut if you want to give them a read.

Screenshots this time because I am not formatting this text for the fifth time. Good lord.

+ An extra doodle for your troubles. Thanks if you read any of that

#homestuck #homestuck fanart #hs fanart #lil hal #dirk strider #Can I tag this dirk strider? I think so. I talk about him a bunch here #Tell me if not. I’ll remove tag. #Dirk’s treatment of Hal’s existence and body could also be viewed as a form of self punishment from Dirk #as a part of his self hatred being projected onto Hal #and reiterating that I don’t think Dirk is evil or bad at all. He is kind he’s just Dirk #I’m just a fan of more morally struggling Dirk interpretations. Sigh #There was a lot more in tags originally but I’m lazy. Tired. Haven’t slept in like 2 days we’re not getting better than this #Also mad I lost train of thought. Definitely could have had more to say #Whaaatever. Ok #blooby posting

[cuties-in-codices]

alexander's army being attacked by hippopotami

in johann von hartlieb's 'alexander', illuminated manuscript, bavaria, ca. 1444

source: Munich, BSB, Cgm 581, fol. 112r

#listen i know that's not what it looks like but that's 100% what's happening here #do i see a man hugging his beloved horse in a heartbreaking united struggle to stay alive? yes of course #he's not though. it's a hippopotamus and it is trying to kill him #sorry #15th century #illuminated manuscript #hippopotamus #hippo #alexanderroman #alexander romance #water

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Cannot Unsee. Cannot Unknow.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #xiao xingchen #song lan #a-qing #blood #special appearance to the fox hairpin. Cute bonus episode and scene #alas I am already struggling a bit with maintaining good flow on this arc #I’ve got a better drawn mdzs art of A-qing coming soon to make up it though! #okay time to talk about This Scene…cause wow the angst is ripe and juicy #what really gets me is the fact Song Lan stays quiet while XXC stabs him…. #And that Xue Yang never intended to tell XXC about the fake corpses #NOR did A-Qing want to tell him the truth!! #the theme of ‘ignorance is bliss’ is so strong here…xxc is blind to the evils of the world #and everyone seems to recognize how rare that is. How far they go to preserve it #Yi-city asks a lot of hard questions. As someone who values Honesty above nearly all else- #-the question posed here about whether honesty is truly the correct course of action really gets to me #Lying is a form of kindness in here. And in a story about rumours and manipulations of truth- #its a good parallel to what we see in the main story! #we see the harm caused by trying to lie to be kind. The harm in realizing youve been lied to #there are a lot of plot points around kind lies in mdzs and it facinates me!

[thelien-art]

Nahar; Steed of Orome

White in the sun, and shining silver at night 1 - the sleeping earth trembled at the beat of his golden hooves 2 - the fire that was stricken from the hooves of Nahar was the first light that returned to Valinor 3

 J.R.R. Tolkien; The Silmarillion, "Valaquenta: Of the Valar"

J.R.R. Tolkien; The Silmarillion, "of the Beginning of Days” 

J.J.R. Tolkien; The Silmarillion, "Quenta Silmarillion: Of the Darkening of Valinor"

#hes probalbmy sleeping on the bed with orome and all the hunting hounds #i mean you rarely hear about orome without nahar being mentioned #nahar #tolkien #silmarillion #jrr tolkien #i love orome so much more than his horse sry nahar but i also struggle with his design and i want to get better at drawing animals #sooo.... #also dont misunderstand this nahar is abselutly lovely and underrated and you should all give him sugar #silm art #my art #digital art #fire hooves #:) #yes i wrote two of these quotes down because i loved them and the other i rebound because my brain says three #and i think it sounds good beside each other #maybe after i draw huanandsauron and auleandyavanna i should draw oromeandvana #i had to much fun playing with glow effekt here #unicorn #unicorn art

[degenerateshinji]

trade offer i break into your house and cut your arm off

#& you just deal with it #wanted to practice smears & wanted to draw crazy hair so heres a piece? #yooooshida my boy i finally drew him again #i wanna actually draw asa too but i struggle so bad w faces i need to like take a minute #asa mitaka #mitaka asa #asa csm #hirofumi yoshida #yoshida hirofumi #yoshida csm #chainsaw man #csm #chainsaw man spoilers #csm manga spoilers #csm manga #csm chapter 148 #i think??? #csm fanart #fanart #my art #compositionally i need something in that top left corner but

[kyurochurro]

saw this image on Pinterest and the pose gave me such riker vibes that I just HAD to draw it as him and troi HEHEHE

#churro art #my art #digital art #illustration #fanart #star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #william t riker #william riker #deanna troi #AHAAAAAA OKAY PLS DONT SEND ME TO TREKKIE JAIL I HAVENT HAD A CHANCE TO PROPERLY START TNG YEET 😭😭😭 #but I do know… I DO KNOW . I love troi so MUCH #I actually started this image drawing her and doodle her a lot on paper in my first week back to uni #but omg I struggled so much with riker here and for why BJBJCBSDJHDSBJ #he literally had like 60 different hairstyle changes during the Lineart phase like it was that bad #it just didn’t look like him but in the end I think I’m close enough 😭😭😭 #ANYWAYS This is this weeks uni drawing … the type of drawing I do in my free time on campus :P #I LOVE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH!! I was kickin my feet n giggling. like a madman #i should really draw the tos crew w these full eyes too but I always love drawing them with the simple dot eyes more HAHAHA #also little authors note. wow did that reference give me a hard time #those are some LOOONG limbs boy . Riker almost ended up looking like slenderman DAMN