#he loves him. he cares. but he knows love alone wont save someone and his own worries about what if he fails

[martyrbat]

grimm – batman: legends of the dark knight #149

[ID: a panel sequence of young Dick Grayson just two months after his parents' murders. He's sulking at the dining table in the grandiose Wayne Manor. The dinner is taking place in front of a lit fireplace that causes the entire room to have a soft, bronze glow to it. The table itself is long and decorated and Bruce Wayne is sitting on the opposite end of it. Alfred Pennyworth prompts, “More mashed potatoes, Master Dick—?” But Dick is too busy thinking about a young criminal he ran into when he snuck out earlier. He quietly mutters the taunt she told him, “‘Spoiled brat in a circus suit’—?” Alfred asks, “Was that a yes or a no?” The pouting child brusquely tells him, ”no,” which causes the butler to clear his throat. Dick begrudgingly corrects himself, “No thank you, Alfred.” Alfred responds, “As you wish, Master Dick.”

But Dick is already uttering another taunt under his breath, “‘Lap of luxury’!” Bruce leans forward slightly and asks if everything is okay but Dick dismisses his concern. He excuses, “I'm... I'm not very hungry, Bruce. Is it okay if I go to my room?” Despite his obvious qualms, Bruce awkwardly smiles and replies, “Uh... Of course. Certainly.” Dick gets up as Alfred tells him the food will be in the refrigerator if he gets hungry later but Dick just ‘uh-huh’s him as he walks away. With the child upstairs, Bruce immediately stands up and paces. He stops in front of the fireplace and stares into the blaze as he monologues his worries, “Maybe this was a mistake. What in the world made me think I could raise a boy? I don't know the first thing about it! I've always been a loner! I don't have the knowledge... or the disposition... to make this work.” Alfred wryly asks, “Are you addressing the fireplace, Sir—or me?” But Bruce stresses his demur without looking at him, “His parents are dead, Alfred! What gives me the temerity to believe I can replace them in his life?”

Alfred solemnly reassures, “I asked myself the same questions once. What in the world did a butler know about raising a young man who'd just lost the two people he loved most in the world? But strangely enough, Sir—I adapted. I learned. I learned because I wanted to... Because I cared. And... despite some difficulties along the way—I think the young man in question turned out splendidly. And I think Master Dick will too.” Bruce doesn't say anything but he his eyes closed in thought as Alfred talks before looking at him with a soft smile. He straightens his posture when Alfred finishes and puts his hand on his shoulder, silently grateful for the man's fatherly reassurance and support once again. END ID]

#losing my mind at this.... #bruce worrying and doubting himself and if he can give dick the life he deserves #he loves him. he cares. but he knows love alone wont save someone and his own worries about what if he fails #alfred who started this cycle of caring about someone elses son and trying to raise orphaned children while fearing you arent good enough #you see your own heartbreak in their face and you try so hard to save them because its saving yourself in a sense. #bruce doom spiraling because dick didnt want his mash potatoes.... #dicks chubby little face.... #alfreds love and support but always with that barrier. he loves & raised bruce like hes his own child but hes always going to be the butler #every ‘son’ being replaced with ‘sir’... #and bruce internalizing that barrier and that layer of separation and distance so he duplicates it because its all he knows #he doesn't want to but its all he knows and hes still terrified of what if he fails them? what if he loses them #by disappointing them and them seeing hes not qualified and good enough to be their father? #but also if he isnt good enough he'll fail them by getting them killed. he'll lose his loved one yet again #just this cycle of fear and doubt and love and trying your best despite it not always being good enough and GAH #also cannot stress enough bruce monologuing and doubting himself because dick is upset and didn't want dinner is so funny #c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 149 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #dick grayson #bruce & dick #alfred & bruce #happy sad boy sunday !!! #<- it counts enough only because im posting this on a sunday >:3

[the-s1lly-corner]

(This was inspired by an OC post I saw)

Can I request headcanons for Jax being affected by a love virus, (as in being forced to act lovey-dovey because of a glitch the reader carries)? I hope this makes sense.

Jax w/ a love virus!

might be a little different than the post youre referring to because i dont know what post youre talking about </3 written as the reader and jax already being in a romantic relationship since i think otherwise i may be uncomfortable writing it </3 will touch more on that in the actual post but!! kind of written with like, a slight angst angle at the beginning, going off my own silly ideas since i dont know specifics for this!! my toxic trait is seeing someone call a recipe "hard" and "difficult to master" and my immediate reaction is to make the thing. i learned how to make macarons i can learn how to make panettone... not today though i need to get the nuts and fruits for it

he doesnt care if he was sick, when he recovers from it hes going to be so embarrassed. will become argumentative with anyone who tries to bring it up, even if theyre being neutral or supportive of him.. it might be easier for him to come to terms with it and live it down if you (his main target) are already in a relationship with him

i think he might be really upset if he got the virus from you; regardless of if you can control it or not.. it sucks, yeah, but this isnt like a flu or cold, but

yeah

bonus points if you yourself dont show many symptoms of the virus and even more bonus points if you decided not to tell anyone about it; i think if it were like this it would warrant break up material for jax

obviously i dont know the specifics, and i do want to keep this somewhat vague so it can hopefully be morphed to fit what you, the anon, specifically saw/read

but how is he like during the actual virus/infection?

clingy. very clingy

sure, jax was already clingy in his own way before getting sick, what with keeping an eye on you and trying to keep you all to himself when you guys were alone... but this is... something else

he constantly follows you around, and might even drape himself over your shoulder while you're trying to talk to someone else

gets visibly antsy and even irritated when separated from you for too long, perhaps even becoming a little verbally aggressive to the other circus members if they try to get him to calm down

wont even hesitate throwing himself into danger. not to save you. but to be around you. "if you die im going to die with you" mentality, pretty much

audibly whines when you have to go do something. embodiment of the "nooo you hang up :3" thing but way more intense and kind of obnoxious (obviously not a knock to anyone who does it, jax is just ramping it up to 100 and beyond)

if hes showing typical... sickness.. symptoms (fatigue, fever, ect) youre going to have one hell of a time keeping him in bed. youre probably going to have to monitor him until he recovers; because otherwise hes just going to follow you around the circus

this is already normal jax behavior but hes going to push people, hes just going to do it a little more often and more aggressively in order to get to you while hes sick

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #digital circus x reader #jax x reader #jax x you #jax imagine

[fangirllena]

the scandals are flying high in Bridgerton season 2

The truth always come out!!!

I finally watched season 2 of Bridgerton. And it was phenomenal!

The Sharmas have made it to England. Anthony Bridgerton is looking for marriage. Queen Charlotte is looking for the new diamond of the season amongst the debutants. Lady Whistledown is selling her gossip news. And the Featherington family is deeply in debt.

Let the scandals begin!

Lady Danbury has a plan of her own. She is sponsoring Edwina Sharma(visiting from India) who is debuting this season and looking for a husband. After Lady Danbury finds out a secret amongst the Sharmas, she pulls some strings with the Queen to get her to make Edwina the 'diamond' this season to shake things up. I think Edwina makes a nice diamond, but she is so clueless to many things. And finds out the hard way...unfortunately

BUT, before Lady Danbury learns of the secret - Kate, the sister of Edwina goes out for a horse ride and runs into Anthony Bridgerton who she has never met before. Kate is not looking for a husband and is only in England to help her sister find a husband. She and Anthony have an exchange, and he seems intrigued by Kate who's very outspoken. AND she beats him in a race. So he finds her interesting and want to know more. But Kate isn't interested and runs along.

Kate is smart, I really like her. She takes care of her sister, and has a strong sense of reality. I thought she was more ready for a husband than Edwina...but understand why Edwina was the chosen one. Again, more secrets. LOL

Once Edwina is announced as the 'diamond' Anthony- who is looking for marriage, immediately ask her to dance and becomes very interested in her.

Kate notices them dancing and remembers him from the horse ride. She then over hears Anthony tallking stating he is not intereted in love, and looks at the marriage as more of a business situation. Kate becomes on a mission to keep Anthony and her sister apart. However, Edwina becomes more interested in Anthony and hopes that he asks her to marry him. Once again, just pretty clueless and eventually things spiral out of control. YIKES

During Kate's quest to keep them apart, something happens. Things start to shift with Anthony and Kate. And things from here on start to get awkward between them. I love a little scandal...right???!!! things start to get real spicy here.

All while Eloise is obssessed with Lady Whistledown and does everything possible to figure out who is behind putting out all the gossip. She starts lying to her family so she can continue her quest to find out who Lady Whistledown is but then runs into trouble with the Queen. And she meets someone special. Things start to get messy. she WONT stop. lol she is totally obsessed. She drives me crazy with this obsession!!!!

Penelope tries to talk sense into her to leave it alone and stop the quest for Lady Whistledown, as it is too dangerous. Penelope gets worried. Is she getting too close...uh ohhhhh

The Featherington's receive a guest- Jack Featherington, heir to the estate. He comes with some secrets of his own. MORE scandalssss. This guy was my least favorite of season 2. He lacked a personality. LOL, but adding to theme, he came with secrets. Is Jack really trying to save the Featherington's estate or get something else out of all this?? Don't worry he gets called out on his schemes soon enough smh

Everything blows up for everybody. All the scandals, secrets are revealed.

I wont spoil anything, but we did get a marriage, Lady Whistledown will continue to write, even though her cover mayyyy have been blown. Honestly, can't blame her for writing all the gossip. Especially after seeing the ugly things people say about her and laugh about her(not revelaing who she is here...hahaha)

I knew Eloise would figure out who was behind lady whistledown with all the obsession she had with her. We will just have to see how things progress in season 3. Oh, and it looks like Jack Featherington is leaving town...yayyyyy

All in all, I love this season so much. There was always some drama. Some very intense moments. OMG...covers were blown. Just all so good! If you haven't watched...please go watch on Netflix!

Rating: 5/5

#bridgerton #lady whistledown #lady danbury #edwina sharma #kate sharma #penelope featherington #anthony bridgerton #eloise bridgerton #netflix #tv series #tv shows #shondaland #bridgerton siblings #bridgerton s2 #bridgerton netflix

[jester089]

It's an improvement

This isn't a request. But It's a good idea I want to write for. It's just going to be short and my ideas on it. TADC Crew x Therapist Reader

Caine

Caine really really appreciates you. You keep people alive, AND you are someone who professionally knows about humans and how they work so you can teach him stuff. He's constantly asking you questions, and existing around you seeing how you act. Just since your arrival no one has abstracted, and the adventures and circus as a whole are much more hospitable. You truly are the person the circus needed to be, well to be ok. At least for now. But all these people's problems, this AI trying to learn about humans from you, the stress of the fact you're now in a digital world. It's a lot. You can save them, but no one is going to save you. And you just have to deal with that. This world needs you, and if you go. Then so does it.

Gangle

You helped Gangle with her insecurity and self worth. You got her to be more confident and stand up for herself. Something she honestly loves you for. So she asked you out, she just felt so cared for and loved around you. You said no cause you don't date your patients, she was hurt but didn't blame you. But she relapsed into old bad habits, this time without you to help her out of them. She started all together avoiding you. It was just hard to look you in the face when you know all her deepest secrets, and the fact that she has feelings for you. At first you made the circus easier, better even. Now you make it harder for her. And Gangle blames no one but herself for all that's happening to her. Even starts to feel like she deserves it. "If I don't deserve this, then why does this always happen."

Zooble

Zooble would probably hate you at first. You show up and start telling her everything she's doing wrong. That isn't actually what you do but that's what it feels like to her. When, or rather if she gives you a chance you could genuinely help her. She still wont be nice to the others or you, but you can help her out in the long run. At least not for a while. But you might make her able to make friends. Which at the moment she'll say she doesn't need others. But no one can survive alone forever. And despite that being what she wants and what she says, that still applies to her.

Kinger

Honestly weirdly enough you don't help Kinger. He may be seen as crazy but he's still alive, and he isn't going anywhere anytime soon. He's lived in this world for so long and has found a way of life that works. He honestly doesn't need help, at least not while still in here. Once out in the real world he will though. He doesn't need help though. He just needs a friend. Someone to casually talk to. Someone to hang out with. Someone who wont call him crazy. And you're more then happy to be that friend. And because you aren't patient and doctor something could actually stem from that. If you both want that at least.

Ragatha

You two are a power duo here. You keep everyone ok, she helps out more as a low down friend type person, and you as a professional. You two alone keep the circus running and people alive. And despite how much Ragatha insists that she doesn't need help/sessions she does. She's a tough cookie and wont admit it, but you can still get through to her. Despite what she says she needs it. So keep working hard. All you need is her to trust you, and you to constantly pester her about it. And eventually she'll break and let you help her.

Jax

Jax is going to openly agree to getting your help. At first he just planned on using it as a way to mess with you. But then you actually made him realize a lot and actually start helping within not a lot of time passage. Then he started genuinely going to your sessions. And with enough time and hard work he turned into an amazing person to be around. He's still vulgar and often rude. But he doesn't bully anymore, and actually goes out of his way to make others days better. You know you two aren't related but you're proud of him. He made so much progress and genuinely improved. And sure you helped. But you can't improve unless you want to. So the fact that he made that much progress especially in such a short time shows that he isn't a horrible person, he just didn't know better.

Pomni

Thank f#$%. She needs this so badly. You help her out with her anxiety, a lot. You know this place isn't good but you help her get at least kind of used to it despite you getting here after her. She'll still look for an exit but she feels like it's actually possible now with your support. Before she was just frantic and panicking. But now it feels like a genuine and attainable goal. With time and effort she starts to calm down and feel, happy! Feel calm. It's a strange sensation to her, but not bad strange. And once she does calm down she starts really appreciating smaller things. "Like sure this place is a prison and I'm here unwillingly. But not much I can do about that. And it is really pretty outside today. And while I'm here I don't have to worry like back in the real world. Nothing is expected of me. All I have to do is just exist. I can do that."

(I enjoyed writing this. And will maybe expand upon this in the future. Maybe. I still have a whole lot of requests to get through.)

xoxo, Jester

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #caine x reader #gangle x reader #zooble x reader #ragatha x reader #jax x reader #pomni x reader #not beta'd #noob author

[safely-in-vhagars-belly]

Dark aemond/dark aegon x oc reader snippet PLEASE BE PATIENT IM SORRY I WONT LEAVE AGIAN

Aegon's pov though.

Aegon married you and aemond is ...aemond, xD

Aegon's pov

Headaches plague me, visions of Maella dance around in that likely empty casket I call my head, as I sit the comfiest chair out of them all, yet I might as well sit on a chair, made of bones and skulls. Isn’t that all a throne is, in truth? A structure, a prison, made out of blood, bones, and skulls. We tell ourselves we do it for our families, for our loved ones, for our House, for duty, for love, for everything you can possibly think of. But we don’t do it for the reason we should be sitting there in the first place. We don’t do it for the people. No Targaryen ever cared about the smallfolk. No Targaryen ever will. 

A voice raspy, ghostly almost and most certainly haunting in a way, reminds me I am not alone, not even in my head. Not even in my own damn castle. ‘’Cheer up, brother. It is your wedding day.’’ My head snaps to the direction of a smirking brother who raises his cup at me in mockery and spite. 

He may act as ignorant and dutiful as he wishes, I know the true reason he is acting as if his lady troubles came two months earlier: He craved Maella. He didn’t love her, no. He wanted her for his own sick twisted fantasies, fantasies he claims he didn’t have, as he was the better brother. Love, we don’t know that concept. Neither of us truly do. Aemond lured her in his trap, Aemond killed her brother, slew a dragon, imprisoned the little lizard Maella owns as well and he brought her here. I should be thankful, shouldn’t I? He brought a traitor to me.

Yet the imbeciles on the council, they married me to this, bastard princess. She is not a true Targaryen, not fully. I suppose neither of us are, if we are being truthful. But at least me and my siblings aren’t bastards. She is. She is a spawn from Rhaenyra and Harwin and now my wife. My lady. 

I instantly reach for my own cup, throwing back as much wine as my throat can swallow, but it almost does nothing to dull the pain. I can only pretend it takes away my suffering, as the wine has become useless to dull my senses. Aemond has approached, now standing in front of me, wearing the ghost of a smile and his black still bloodied clothing. I raise my eyebrows at him, challenging him to speak, to make this snoozefest of a wedding entertaining. He is good at that. 

But my brother pretends to be modest, he rather plays tricks, toys with words, and deceives than he would ever dare speak his true mind. Gods save us all for when he does. ‘’You look like a man who is facing his execution. Not a man who is soon to lay with  arguably the most beautiful creature the gods have ever created.’’ He avoids my eyes at all costs, folding his hands on his back and keeps his eyes scanning the crowd. Maella is beautiful, yes. But I never cared for her.

When we were fourteen and six, she chased me around, declaring her foolish love for me. I believe I was drunk and yet somehow hungover too, so I threw her doll in the river, and promised her she’d be thrown in next if she didn’t leave me. Oddly, we never talked after that. I mean, why would we? She, the Princess of the Kingdoms, the Delight of the realms, truly. And me…

A man who will never truly live up to his famous namesake.

I have two wives now, his crown, his throne, his sword, his blood and his hair. But nothing will change the fact that I feel unworthy of it all. I feel as a forgery playing a masterpiece, and that someone can pull the curtain any time now. 

Aemond doesn’t see it, the fool. He sees that I sit a throne he aspires to have, have two beautiful women to lay with whenever I tell them to and more power and status than any of us deserve. The gods are cruel where they put their power, I suppose. ‘’I don’t enjoy being forced into marriages.’’ I comment, playing with my cup and watching the wine dance at the bottom of the cup. 

My younger brother snorts. ‘’You don’t know how much effort I put into capturing her, bringing her here and breaking her will for you so you have a good, obedient wife. At least pretend you are happy.’’

‘’For me?’’ I scoff. ‘’You didn’t do shit for me. You did it for yourself. Grandfather told me, you wanted her to become your wife, you even told him you'd happily breed, and fuck her until she is with child-''

''Someone has to. You won't do it.'' Aemond comments. ''You only see her as a helpless little girl. She is not the helpless little girl anymore. She has become a woman.''

''Don't talk that way about my wife-''

‘’She is not your wife-’’ Aemond hisses through his teeth, glaring in my direction. I slam my cup down on the table next to me, and the guests around us all fall silent.

I warn him. ‘’She is. You do well to remember that.’’

Aemond lowers his head, but his good eye is burning with fire unlike anything I ever saw before. Maella is not his love, it his obesession. I am sure he'd kill her, or she will kill him, if I let them come too close. ''Ýour grace.''

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snippet ends here.

#tags #hotd #hotd fanfiction #hotd fanfic #aemond targaryen #aemond #aemond one eye #hotd x reader #hotd x you #aemond x reader #aemond x you #aemond fic #aemond fanfiction #hotd x oc #aemond x oc #aemond targaryen x reader #aemond targaryen x oc #Aemondsmut #Aegon ii targaryen #Aegon x you

[cosmo-watches-movies]

Wilde (1997)

Triggerwarning: Homophobia, Sex (in the movie, not depicted in this blogpost)

Plot: A part of Oscar Wilde’s life story.

Spoilers beyond this

Michael plays Robbie Ross, a good friend to Oscar Wilde and, delicately put, his first male lover.

Following are my incoherent thoughts as I was watching the movie: (some gifs for context, for the other parts watch the movie and you'll get it)

starting out chill with Oscar meeting his future wife

oh who might this dashing young fella be?

lol that didn’t work did it?

Nevermind it did work

I was so not prepared for this

This guy has a lot of thoughts in his head and none of them are holy

Bitch what

If someone looked at me like that I’d instantly fall for them too. Man brought his A-Game

Oh my god this is going too fast even for me and I’m just watching

Why would you give him lines like that?

(I refuse to clip the next part, I don't know who might read this)

What in the what I barely got into the movie, why would you do this to me

I have questions

I have so many emotions at once right now I actually feel a bit sick

I’m 16 Minutes in and my heart is breaking at the thought of where this might be going

Okay, I got used to the fact that I am actually watching a movie about gay men

Me watching a movie about a gay author: （☆ω☆ ）

Me when theres actual portayal of intimacy between men: （○ □ ○ ）

I swear I’m so normal about this.

Wtf Oscar why would you drop Robbie like that. I get that this was an affair, but like this? He picked that other guy up like an apple from a tree.

Watch Robbie take this like the king he is

Oscar met yet another guy (Bosie) and seems to fall in love with him and guy #2 litterally wants to khs and/or Bosie, while Robbie has only respect, acceptance and love to give.

lol taste of your own medicie, huh?

I hate Bosie

I love Robbie

Drama between Bosie and Wilde, which results in Oscar being sentenced to two years in prison

Oof that speech Oscar held in court tho, right in the feels

Robbie is an absolute treasure of a person. Get yourself a man like him. Don’t settle for less.

Wtf all this stress and heartbreak for Oscar and Bosie to break up after three months, the world is a cruel place

- End of incoherent thoughts-

That was heartbreaking in so many ways. The main story obviously is unbelievably tragic but we shall focus on other things. There are a lot of strong performances in this movie, the whole cast was quite good. You can strongly feel the love Robbie has for Oscar, he has this soft tone when he talks to or about him, he wants him to be happy even if it means that he himself wont be. He accepts that Oscar doesn’t love him the same way and still supports his friend under any circumstances. It's not just in the dialouge, it's also in the way Robbie talks to and looks at Oscar. He’s pure kindness, love and devotion.

He cares so much for him it's breaking my poor little heart :c

On a less serious note, my guy really went ahead and had his first on-screen kiss be a gay kiss!?! Fuckin hell! And he did so well! Icon, king, legend, right from the start!

Because there aren't enough gifs in this already, have some more little moments I enjoyed :3

✨Puppy dog eyes✨

Good save xD

Why would you hold it like that?

I don't even know why, just thought he looked dashing in this scene

Me too, Robbie, me too.

I probably could've written more, but that wouldn't do the movie and characters justice. Bosie's full brattiness alone is something I couldn't even capture in gifs. Kudos to Jude Law, he really made me hate that character. He's the exact opposite of Robbie. They had only two scenes together I think, but it's awesome to see their personalities clash.

I’d say you should check this movie out, especially if you’re lgbt+ yourself obviously. And then go ahead and read Oscar Wildes works, they're queer history and in general important literature anyone should know.

At the end of this I have learned that I, in fact, don’t hate love drama, I just like it if it's gay. And preferably has a certain actor in it.

#Don't you come at me telling me Oscar Wilde wasn't actually *just* gay #I know he loved his wife very much and everything but for simplification purposes I used the word gay #We good? #We good. #oscar wilde #wilde #michael sheen #filmography #queer history

[aliceinborderlandsquidgame]

SFW alphabeth

💙Tatta Edition (AIB)💙

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

In a scale of 1 to 10, Tatta its +1000 affectionate towards you. His love languague are hugs, nose kisses and encouraging words. If he ever sees you being sad about something be will try his best to cheer you up by making your favorite food (he may fail so takeover its his second option).

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Tatta its care free and chill, being friends with him is easy. Your friendship can start by: saving him during a game, being assigned as partners in a game, him seeing you struggle to adapt at the Beach so he will aproach you. In fact, he may be the one starting the friendship.

As a friend he is loyal till the end. He may put your live above his and does not care about it. If there is a situation where is  him or you, he will choose you to live. (he is your best partner for the prision game tbh).

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He loves it!! After a long day dealing with the games he loves nothing more than being in your arms. He ends sleeping by hugging you. Likes being the small spon but will be the big one as well if you prefer.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?).

I see Tatta as someone who might like live with his partner after some time of dating. With how much he works you would have to coock and clean but dont worry, by having a small talk with him you two will be able to divide the chores just right.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

ANGST: In borderland he will sacrifice himself for his S/O, or break with then because he feels like he is putting his S/O in danger by being with them (he knows he may not be the smartest and gets easily scared so he will think its the best course of action so you have better chances of surviving).

In REAL WORLD: his insecurities may get the best of him so he will break up with you, feeling like he is not worth your love.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I see Tatta as someone who will think of it fairly quickly but wont act on it till at least 1 year of dating (and this if its a good year, give him 2 if he feels insecure). But overall he does like the idea of settling down with you as his Wife/Husband/Other.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

VERY GENTLE.

This man knows how harsh people can be so he tries to be as soft and gentle with you as he can be.

Physically he is very carefull when pulling you for a kiss or during your intimate moments. He likes to hug you or have his arms around you but will be sure you are ok with it first.

Emotionally he can tell if something is bothering you (and in 8/10 times he knows what is the reason). So he will try and talk to you about it. He does not have a problem listening to your rants, and its ok with him if you just need space for yourself, just be sure to give him a hug later.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

HE LOVES IT (i mentioned a lot)

How often? As much as you let him. This man wont let you go into a game without a big hug, one where he puts all his feelings. If you are not comfortable with hugs in public then he will hug you when both of you are alone. And if you dont like hugs at all then he will respect it and wont try to hug you.

His hugs are full of love, he likes to put his head on top of yours or in top of your shoulder so he can tell you the most sweet things.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

He thinks it first but takes a while to tell you since his insecurities may get the best of him. But he will look at you and everybody will know he loves you.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Tatta trusts you, thats a fact and believes you wont try to cheat on him. However, if he sees someone being too close or flirty towards you he will go and: kiss you right there, hug you from behind and keeping eye contact with the person, or get there and annoyn them.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

His kisses are slow and sweet. He likes to take his time with you when kissing you. He likes to kiss your lips and cheecks, he likes to lean on your and stay still then leave with a smile. He likes to be kissed on the lips as well and on his hands, because of his past he looks at his hands and feels bad but you show him how beautiful they are by kissing them and he ends loving it (kiss his hands when he is sad).

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Not closed to the idea of having kids with you. He is alright around kids.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Lazy. No matter what day it is Tatta its not a morning person. He likes to stay in bed with you for as long as he can. You will have to make him move and start the day.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Cute, soft and reassuring. Tatta will hug you while sleeping, take your hand and tell you silly things to take your mind off from the day activities (borderland or real world). He likes to tell you jokes and talk about cars, even if you dont get what he is saying.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

He will go slow but steady about himself, at first he will try to nake himself look better by telling you how he went to a prestigious school or how good his works pays but then he will feel like you deserve to know his true past. Will tell you parts of his childhood, how later he decided to left school and ended in a job with a bad salary but he worked with cars so he liked it. He will tell you about the accident at work eventually.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Run for your life if you made this man angry to the point of taking action.

Tatta is a patient man, half because thats his nature and half because he does not have the self steam to stand for himself. But if you push him enought he will explote.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Look, he loves you but he may forget some special dates or details. What stays on his mind is the date you two meet, when both of you started dating, and thats it. As details he remembers your favorite food, snack and tv show.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

The day you two met. It does not matter what the circunstances were, all he remembers is seeing you and having lost his breathing and mind going off.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Very protective. He does not like being apart from you. He tries to protect you by teaming you with people he knows he can trust (Arisu is his first choice), or by keeping an eye on you during games.

He wont voice it, but he loves when you defend him against anyone who trash talks about him. The type of protection that comes with words.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

A LOT.

Tatta wants you to be happy about being with him, so he will try his best. Dates? Tries to take you to the best places with his little money. Anniversaries? Will decorate your/his place, make dinner and watch a move together (he loves fast and forious).

Slow at tasks but lots of effort.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Can daydream a lot and not see the reality of the situation.

Too harsh on himself to the point that hurts others.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Depends. When he is alone with you he does not care but the moment he sees other good looking people he will feel bad and negative thoughts will come.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

YES.

You are his soulmate, he loves you and would give you the word if that makes you happy.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Tatta would get you a car toy because he loves cars.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

If you are a bully/violent/toxic/putting down other people, then Tatta wont even think on starting a relationship with you.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?

He has no problem on setting for a centrain hour to sleep, the problem its waiking him up.

#alice in borderland #aib imagine #aib imagines #tatta x reader #alice in borderland x reader #alice in borderland imagines #arisu x reader #chishiya x reader

[easy-revenge]

Well, now I'm curious. Why do you think Angel had deeper feelings for Aki? Go crazy

ahahah ur wish is my command ~

now bear with me a lot of this relies on things that are up to interpretation so brace urselves for me reaching and being maybe a tiny bit delusional thanks

so, i will deliberately not talk about the very popular moments that akiangel has, i can do a separate post about them at some point, but i want to focus specifically on angel.

meaning: scenes where their feelings and actions are reciprocated like saving each other, helping each other live longer etc will not be mentioned in this post.

lets take this chronologically:

- bomb devil arc

angel is the personification of duality. we know he exists as an oxymoron. from his name all the way to his personality.

this for me is the core of what i think angel is as a character. however i wont get into analysing angel's whole internal conflict rn.

(i have a post talking about angel's feelings, the grief and remorse he must feel with no recollection of what brought them on. I'll talk about that in depth some other time bc even though it plays into this part, we'll stray from the subject. i thought it was worth mentioning briefly though)

that's not what i wanted to talk about in this scene. i want to focus on the second part, which happened after reze's death.

in that scene, makima had ordered angel to bring aki with him to the scene. angel disregarded that order and came alone, which led to makima "accusing" him of being kind for sparing aki from the task of killing a girl. angel replies to this with "i am an angel after all".

what gets me the most about this beautiful scene is that as we now know, makima is the control devil. her word is law. even when she's not actively making ppl obey her will, we know her commanding aura makes it difficult for anyone to stray from her orders. despite that, here is angel, casually going against a direct order to keep aki from doing sth he doesn't want to do.

this might not seem like much, but follow my thought process here.

the infamous scene. contrary to popular belief, im here to talk about the first picture rather than the later two.

the moment between aki letting go of angel's shirt and grabbing his hand, angel gets a flash of the human he was in love with before makima found him.

i used to believe he got that flash bc he thought he was finally approaching his own death (still a valid interpretation), however here rolls a very popular theory about makima's power.

we know who she can control has to do with status, who views her as superior and whatnot. however, at the very end of part 1, we have power breaking her control as she thinks about her moments with denji. in that scene, power is still afraid of makima, so why is makima unable to take control of her?

a lot of ppl have interpreted this as a "weakness" to makima's power. more specifically, that strong feelings have the power to break her control over someone, at least briefly.

rolling with this, we can assume this is what happened with angel in this scene. for just a second he gets to access the memories that makima has locked away. the next question is, what are his strong feelings about in that moment?

we know that angel isn't afraid of death, he's been waiting for it. taking that into consideration, I don't think it was the feelings about his impending death that made makima's hold on him loosen.

i think it was aki. being saved. being cared for. being cared for so unconditionally, by someone who doesn't have two months of his life to spare. by someone who by all means should not care about angel at all.

immediately afterwards, angel is held. held protectively over a chest, against a storm. we don't know how long it's been since angel has been in a situation similar to this but we can assume it's been a long time.

in my potentially delusional opinion, that feels powerful enough to shake makima's control even for a moment.

you might have guessed where im heading with all this.

- gun devil arc:

here. in this very scene. we see the shock on angel's face as aki gives himself up. the horror of what it can mean, the trigger of memory of what it had meant for him in the past.

in this scene, angel regains all the memories makima took from him, without her permission.

makima doesn't seem swayed by this, but she does comment on it, indicating it wasn't her doing at all.

following my previous logic, strong emotions is once again what pushes makima out of angel's head. this time, quite literally kicks her out. even for a little while.

considering makima's power, how easily she takes complete control of him right after anyway, we can only imagine how strongly angel felt about aki losing himself to her in that moment.

now it's up to anyone to interpret this as whatever they want. it's up to anyone to call me crazy and completely disregard this whole thing since it's thriving on subtext and theory along with analysis powered by hyperfixation.

i personally cannot shake the feeling that there are at least romantic undertones here. there are so many akiangel scenes i didn't talk about in this post, so many very blatant hints that akiangel's bond was never friendship. there was tension from start to finish and there's no other explanation for it.

as for angel specifically, since this post is about his feelings, we know he's been in love before. with a human nonetheless. we know he has the capacity for it. I don't think im reaching to think that caring so deeply and wholeheartedly for a human again could mirror these feelings.

i dont think its too unlikely for him to be in love again. but that's just me.

i was asked to go crazy and crazy i went lmao. my asks are open for more prompts for me to analyze. i have sm more to talk about if anyone wants to hear it.

thanks for the opportunity to get this off my chest heheh <3

#answered #chainsaw man #chainsaw man ask #akiangel #angel devil #angel devil analysis #makima #chainsaw man spoilers #aki x angel #aki hayakawa #chainsaw man manga #chainsaw man analysis

[suzakisbbygirl]

May I request a boyfriend headcanon for Murayama 👁👄👁 Hehehe I love that man (like everyone else😆)

OMG I LOVE THIS! Honestly I had so much fun writing this one! Thank you for the request, I hope you like it!

Much love ~ ember

Murayama as a Boyfriend

Oh boy I’m excited for this one!

Murayama is the kind of guy to show off in the most casual way

He would show you off to everyone, whether it's in person or on social media

He’s just so happy that you are his!

Has no shame when it comes to PDA, though if that’s not something that you are into, he will keep it low key

Holding your hand, or having his arm around your shoulders is a must though!

He needs everyone to know that you are his, without making you uncomfortable

Though he seems kind of aloof, I think that he would be very attentive to his partner

Being able to notice when things are off or that his partner is not feeling the greatest

He will ask whats wrong, though he won't push if you don’t want to talk about it

If you are sick, he will do his best to take care of you, even if he doesn't really know how to

He will always let you rant to him, no questions asked

It might seem like he is uninterested, staring around the room while you are ranting, though he is listening very carefully, and taking in everything you say

The kind of guy who won't give solutions unless you tell him you need them

He’s a rather carefree boyfriend

Doesn’t get super jealous, however, he has his moments. He knows you are his, and you chose him for a reason

Though if someone is getting a little too close, and you are clearly uncomfortable, he's ready to fight in an instant

When he does get jealous, he will wait till the two of you are alone till he talks about it with you. He can’t ruin his confident reputation with jealousy

Always backs you up, no matter what, and is always there when you need him

Prefers to keep you away from the fighting at Oya High, so he usually meets you somewhere away from the school

Unless you surprise him at Oya, then he is keeping an eye on everyone, daring them to start a fight while you are around

The most laid back boyfriend

Even though he is giggling like a schoolgirl on the inside every time he sees you, he wont show it

He saves his most affectionate times for when the two of you are alone

When it's just the two of you, he lets down his guard, and tells you everything on his mind

Deep conversations late at night, or in the early hours of the morning

Poor boy is BROKE. He can't buy you many gifts, or things like that, but he makes up for it with spontaneous dates

Walks around the city, stargazing on the roof of Oya, things like that….

He can't afford to buy flowers, but if he sees a pretty one on a walk with you, he will grab it and place it behind your ear

Then keep walking like nothing happened

Won't let you walk around alone. You never know what could happen

If he can't be there, he will send Seki to walk with you till he can be there

Overall, he is protective in a way that is not overbearing

Loves you with his whole heart, and shows it in ways that make you feel comfortable

Best boy Murayama

#high and low fluff #high and low the worst #high and low #high and low murayama #oya high fluff #oya high #h&l #Murayama fluff #murayama yoshiki #Murayama headcanon #high and low imagines

[fortunatelyenchantingtaco]

I know Geto is like a big sore spote in the whole fandom and i might be a bit insane, but i do love his story specifically because i dont think there is a way to fix it

We are being shown that well, he got really depressed and went into self isolation. In most cases, the best course of action would be to remove him from distress and have time to heal. The issue is that Geto couldnt just leave — he believes he needs to kill curses, and to become stronger he needs to eat them which distresses him further, and if he leaves people will die, and he cant ignore that just to keep himself sane. For a man like him if he head a specific goal to become strong for, i dont think the eating process would have been such a big issue, but we have to have a big distinction that jujutsu sorcerer is, at the end of the day, a profession. You’re not a chosen superhero to save the world. Those growing up in clans may have a worse childhood, but growing up with understanding that yes curses exist its part of nature does make it easier to bear. Which is one of reason why Gojo, even while having all the trauma, didnt have such gripes with reasons or goals — this is a life he was born into.

Thinking of sorcery as more than a job makes you perceive yourself as more of a hero, and heroes are good and just and get recognition. Non sorcerers dont know about them. Geto fell into a trap of doing something for others and despairing. Its easier not to think about that shit when you’re naturally good at it, and you have fun — which is why Amanai situation and Gojo becoming stronger was so bad. Now he went on missions alone, which meant no company to distract him, and now it was no longer all fun shits and giggles, its a job full of tragedies. Considering Gojo was targeted since birth, we can assume he killed people before Toji, death is, unfortunately, familiar to him. Not for Geto — not seeing someone you care about die right before you, and certainly not being that close to death himself. He’s not longer the best at it, and its no longer fun, and he gets no recognition. Tobe precise, those are not bad thinks to want — we all want them. But if you dont get them here he would have been better to ya know. Find another job probably

Like the worst part about this whole thing is that some shit like that would have happened eventually one way or another, they’re not invincible. Childhood would eventually end, and in a way Geto spiraling is inevitable. The system is inherently flawed, and the issue they deal with is cruel. Some jobs are much more dangerous and have a detrimental effect on your mental health — its just that no one thought to give jujustu sorcerers some help, which is another problem. Adding the fact that he’s neither a saviour being thanked by everyone, or a strongest, yeah, he can’t figure out how to do this shit.

In AUs, I do think there are ways he could have handled it. Like if Gojo wasn’tin school, maybe he took his whole education with the clan? Or my au where he’s in a prison realm for centuries? Like yeah, sure, if Geto was the strongest, the only person here, i do think he would have probably felt invaluable. Youre great for your profession, you were born for it, why would you leave?

This may be projecting, but i do think his way of thinking about it is inherently flawed, a very slippery slope. People need a goal, a meaning, but looking for it outward is a sure way to get yourself into a slump, I went through this shit in a nasty manner when everything i did revolved around other people. Basing your decisions on what others would think is an easy way to pretend like its not your responsibility. This is why Gojo tells Megumi to be selfish and this is why during the entrance exams Yaga says that others wont appreciate your actions and you cant base your motivations off others.

Thats the ultimate tragedy, the fact that thinking like Geto did is ridiculously easy. You go into uni on the same course as your friend just to be with them and when something goes wrong your first thought would be that you did that for them, even thought its your life choices and decision. Yeah.

I have no conclusions for you, just some ramblings. I like my Geto mean and fucked up and insecure, makes him so real and relatable as a person.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #jjk analysis #yeah #i dont think gojo could have fixed it #or anyone #or even absence of toji and happy ending for amanai #i think this would have happened one way or another #i know many would say im probably too hard on geto #im projecting i agree #but also its so fucking easy to think others owe you shit for your actions #so then when you get nothing its hurts worse #in a way #geto solved thst problem with his genocide #gave himself meaning #good for mental health #bad for everything else #tbf #life is fucked up and horrible and his way of survival is just one of them #but personally i judge #just because i was there and it makes me feel too mych

[rednleafff]

Casey J in G?F

More info dump? Yes sir – but this time I'm gonna talk mainly about our beloved Casey j. We all know and love our future boy and wish him the very best life that he can have after all that he went through – BUT – I can't stop thinking about the fact that – he will need probably a looong time to actually settle in, even if he will learn the way of "the simple life of a teenager" – this boy still lost – literally everyone but he also gained them all back – but different – they wont be the same people he once knew because they wont go through the same things – even if their key thing will stay – they still wont be the people he once knew – but they will probably look like them the more they grow up and how difficult is to let go of something when that very something is right Infront of your eyes but  different ? or the survival guilt he must be dealing with? I personally think – he would want to love the simple – less stressful life – but wont be able to – even if he would try to work through his trauma and all – it not something he will ever be able to shake completely - sure he might leave to see the world one day, alone or with someone, and he will get the chance to see thew world he fought tooth and nail to save – and slowly but surely he would learn to love this place, even with it bitter moments. now here it's where I come with Yummi eheh their relationship is actually my favorite – (sorry Leo <3 I love you with all my heart) because – as I see it – When Baby Yummi first joins their family, Casey gets to witness a very familiar behavior from the fam, the parental behavior from Leo, the uncley vibes from the turtles, this baby is basically plays a similar role that was belongs to him back in his time line – he will be a little bit distance from her in the beginning, not on purpose it will just happen- they will share their sweet moments here and there but very few in her first couple of years – until she learns to walk and talk enough that when she gets really clingy to his specifically so he plays along, he really do cares for her, its just – hard- after everything , but then – they share a small moment when she asks him if he's going to join them to some place, he says no cause of reasons, so she claims she won't go either and when asking her why – cause she was so excited to go she will say she wants to go with him cause its always much more fun when he's around – she doesn’t even gives to it much attention, she probably draws or something, but Casey – he think about it a little bit more, Yummi wasn’t present in his time line – she can't because she was created as a result of the Kraang invasion and defeat, and although he saw the world met people that nowadays are alive instead of dead or surviving, saw kids that got the chance to grow up and be born at all – he wasn’t really closed to all that – and maybe that why he didn’t felt a connection to this reality yet? He's always around the people who sometimes he sees the ghost of their past? Other? Self? And he loved them to death don’t get me wrong, but Yummi specifically (up to this point of the story) is the only very closed person to him who doesn’t have "another version of". Casey had to learn to love the world his whole family knew and tried to fight back to save it – but he never had that connection to that world, he was a little bit to stuck in the past, to focus on the ghost of people that wont ever be that it was hard for him to love the present that they all gave him. So – this kid – that little gremlin is one of his first connections to this reality that doesn’t rely on something from his timeline – if that makes sense? It makes sense to me lol. Casey's 20's are ups and down, but from this point forward – I think he will find it much easier to breathe and be present in this timeline. maybe part 2 someday – cause their relationship get's a serious twist when its revealed  and Yummi is part Kraang lol (here are scracps of a comic i worked on but will never finish - it takes place after Yummi's whole - Kraang arc)  

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt good? future #rottmnt good? future au #rottmnt fanart #rottmnt oc #yummi Hamato #rottmnt casey junior #rottmnt casey jr

[fcknstar]

,, the daily call "

- harryosborn x reader x peterparker

a.n : jokes on me i forgot to post ehhh, im gonna write for other characters, so probably a lil break from harry, but he will come back for sure. i actually didnt know how to title this because i actually imagined this shit out lmao.

warnings : none?

**lowercase intended**

walking through the busy streets of new york, you made sure not to spill the coffee you got harry on yourself or others. harry was currently on call with you asking about your whereabouts.

" ehh, i think im about 5 minutes away? but you know, may take longer. gosh will people ever just move? " your last sentence made harry laugh. harry loved your nasty and sarcastic comments you made that could be aimed to literally anyone.

" alright, just be safe okay? i dont want to get called knowing you got hurt or something. ill be waiting in the office. " harry sighed, not wanting anything happening to you knowing how clumsy you are.

" i wont- uff " as you rounded the corner, you bumped your face flat onto a chest. you were balancing your phone in between your head and shoulders, and due to the impact your phone dropped.

as you were about to pick it up and apologize to the unknown person, you saw a spiderweb sling across you and landed on your phone, flying towards someone. looking up, you saw peter.

" peter? " you breathed, opening your hand for him to place the your phone back into your hand. you were glad that you managed to save the coffee, knowing how devastated you would be if you didnt hold it tight enough.

" thats me! oh, uh. harry? scary guy isnt he? i wish you luck " winking towards you, both of you clearly knowing who harry is to peter ; his best friend. placing the phone back onto your hand, he watched you talk to harry. peter has always been your best friend. well both harry and peter. peter lasted with you longer as harry left early to boarding school, leaving you and peter alone. having you to himself, peter realized that he felt more than just platonic love. after spilling a secret about him being spiderman, he felt closer to you than ever. he would always stop by your apartment to get himself cleaned up.

watching you work on his injuries made him feel loved. how you would gently touch his skin, check whether he felt okay, whether it hurts. how you would nag for hours about being safe, how you dearly cared about him. that was when he started feeling tingly, it took him a few days to adjust to it. he tried to not make it obvious, completely unaware about how you felt about peter. but to his luck you felt the same way. you both were more than friends with benefits but not labeled as together yet.

" sorry harry, i gotta go. yes ill see you there, bye " your hand that held the coffee merely escaped peters grasp when he tried to grab it, teasingly thinking it was for him. you and harry had a habit of calling each other and making sure if one another is safe, of course it all stopped after he left. now that hes back, he expected the same. i mean he did get calls from you every morning, but youd never hung up on him, ever. so if saying that it hurt harry by abit was an understatement. harry liked you a lot. since young. he tried forgetting about you but pictures of you both flooded his phone and mind. seeing you smile in pictures pasted around his dorm room warmed him. it felt as it you were still there with him, not that you were dead, but he cut off connections with his friends in new york, which included you.

harry loved every hug you gave him, he enjoyed the little moments you gave him that he couldnt have in boarding school. of course there were girls in school who tried to be close to him, but he didnt budge.

hanging up, you shook your head. " no, thats for the sir up there " pointing towards the tall building to your right. peter leaned forward, pressing a kiss onto your lips. pulling away, showing how late you were, laughing. peters lips followed after you, indicating how 'needy' he was.

sighing, you pressed a kiss, feeling a smile appear on peters features, making you smile too.

" alright, alright lover boy, i have to go " you slapped his cheeks teasingly, making peter chuckle.

when you got to harrys office, you saw him playing with his bouncy ball that you got him as a replacement when he lost his.

" harry, sorry for hanging up, i had some things going- " you havent finished your sentence when harry stopped you.

" its whatever. " you could tell harry was mad. walking towards him with his coffee, you swung it softly infront of him hoping hed accept it.

not being able to resist you, he gave in. " thank you. " he smiled when the taste of his favorite coffee hit his tongue.

what you didnt know was that he saw every bit of the little interaction you had with peter. including the spiderweb stunt.

#imagines #oneshots #dane dehaan #harry osborn x reader #tasm!harry osborn #tasm!harry osborn x reader #valerian #valerian and the city of a thousand planets #valerianxreader #andrew garfield x you #andrew garfield x female reader #andrew garfield x reader #andrew garfield #peter parker x reader #peter parker #tasm!peter x reader #tasm!peter imagine #tasm fic #tasm!peter fluff

[yujikitu]

More Vance headcannons because i can

Vance's mom gave him his choker and he practically worships the item, like he wont let anyone even touch it he will fight someone if they did, doesn't want someone's dirty grubby hands on it

His mom has a picture he drew back in elementary school on the fridge and he's so embarrassed by it but at the same time loves that his mom keeps it up

He loves bananas and watermelon, will absolutely tear them up if they are within his reach

He's a picky eater but it's because he's sensitive to certain foods, he won't eat dry ass chicken, he wont eat anything with a bone if he feels a bone he will spit his food back out and lose his appetite, he hates biscuits because they're dry, he doesn't like flaky foods, he hates marshmallows just all together they're too sweet and he hates the texture of them, he likes seedless fruits if he bites into a fruit and there's a seed in it he will get upset, he hates popsicles he only likes soft ice cream

He has adhd and is so hyperfixated on pinball, he genuinely enjoys it the game brings him so much happiness even if it doesn't look like it that's why he gets upset when someone messes up his game (plus how many of yall wanted to punch someone when they messed up your game or interrupted something you're hyperfixated on?)

He thinks rings are really cool but never wears them, he tried but it felt weird and restricting on his fingers so he never wore them again

Only neckwear he has is his choker because he hates necklaces, they always get stuck in his hair

He also doesn't like the idea of getting his ears pierced because he thinks his hair will get stuck on them

Hates winter, his mom always forces him to wear winter clothes because if she doesn't he will walk around in his sleevless jean jacket even if it's cold

He has a really sensitive nose he hates the smell of bleach and cleaners, heavy floral fragrances, old woman perfume, ect

He doesn't hate physical affection he just doesn't get it often because of his reputation of kicking people's asses, his mom is affectionate with him though and he loves his mom but he wishes someone else can be affectionate with him too

He hates his reputation because now people are scared of him which is fine it means no one will fuck with him but he doesn't really have any friends save for a few but he feels incredibly lonely (thats why i love the idea of finney and the ghost boys being friends with him)

Has really good skin, no one knows why or how and its unfair because it gives him that flawless look

Tried dating but he didn't like it much, it's not that he's opposed to dating he just doesn't care for it much but hey if the right person comes then it is what it is

He isn't homophobic or racist, he doesn't care much that stuff actually, what gender you like isn't his business nor does the color of your skin matter

He gets anxious at night, he doesn't like being alone in the dark and he usually goes to sleep late because of it

His eyes twitches sometimes because of stress and anxiety

(That's all i got for now)

#the black phone #the black phone 2022 #the black phone headcanons #the black phone imagine #vance hopper #vance hopper headcanons #vance hopper imagine

[clitfisto]

care to elaborate on the miles venom arc?

YES okay so. the thing abt the symbiote is that (like any good corruption arc) it feeds on and amplifies the worst traits of a character, which is pretty straightforward in peters case - his biggest issue is his anger, usually manifesting via retribution (eg. "i missed the part where thats my problem", hunting down uncle bens killer), so his origin story is always the great power/great responsibility thing so he learns to temper that rage. what the symbiote does, practically, is force him to unlearn that foundational character arc and regress to his worst self

since the symbiote really really loves aggression peter parker is literally its dream guy but miles is a little more complex. hes definitely susceptible to that same anger (eg. wanting to "make kingpin pay", the entire sm2 martin li arc) but not as often and nowhere near as hardcore, so the peter playbook wont work as well for him (and also it would be fucking boring. weve seen that shit like 8 times already (not saying symbiote peter is boring i just think modern iterations need to explore new aspects to avoid treading the same ground constantly (sm2 does this very fucking well (also yuri lowenthal is a great va for peter like right up there with josh keaton (i think this many parentheses means im off topic (the adhd demon got me))))))

SO. whats miles' major issue he needs to overcome in his origin story? full disclosure i have not read the comics (but i heard they had some issues with his initial characterization anyway? which is fair enough tbh writing the successor to such an iconic guy is Fucking Hard) so TO ME PERSONALLY!! spider-verse miles is the definitive iteration of the guy and like. we all remember the whats up danger scene, his origin arc is overcoming self-doubt and learning to believe in himself ("its a leap of faith", "youre on your way, just keep going") which, alongside social anxiety (eg. the itsv "everyone knows" scene, sm2 "are you mad at me? it sounds like youre mad at me" dialog), seems to be part of some general anxiety issues. this is pretty well supported by the recent "the spider within" short film (which funnily enough is very fucking reminiscent of some sequences in kravens last hunt, not relevant but kinda cool) which also shows how miles responds by self-isolating, similarly to ps5 miles when peter ignores him

the symbiote can exploit his self-doubt pretty easily, the inherent power boost will do most of the heavy lifting to make him feel like hes not good enough without it - what if he runs out of web at the worst moment? what if hes not strong or fast enough to save someone? what if hes caught mid-costume change because hes so used to the suit changing itself? the more valid the (inital) concerns the better imo

the social anxiety is a tricky one but i think if miles traps himself in a doom loop of self-isolation he might spiral into genuine paranoia, which combined w/ the patented symbiote rage could lead him to lash out at people around him. "everyone secretly hates me so im gonna avoid being around people" -> "i feel alienated from everyone i know so im gonna avoid them even harder" -> "am i 'okay'? why would you care? what are you playing at? fuck off and leave me alone" -> "nobody wants to interact w/ me so everyone who does must have ulterior motives and is therefore a threat to me/my family/my city" -> "im completely isolated but bad things are still happening so people must be conspiring against me w/o my knowledge" -> "literally everyone on earth is out to get me and i need to fight them about it"

from there i think the ideal conclusion is pretty self-evident - miles takes a metaphorical leap of faith (calling back to the lesson learned in his origin arc) by actively choosing to trust someone, reach out and ask for help w/ removing the symbiote and dealing with the contemporary big bad (potentially his local peter variant bc hes got experience w/ symbiote removal and it would tie into the "leap of faith" motif but idk)

so tldr: a miles symbiote arc would be different to peters arcs in some (very interesting) key ways - rather than unbridled aggression he could be characterized by intense anxiety, manifesting as paranoid self-isolation and a sense of dependence on the symbiote suit, and would end the arc by reaching out for help in a symbolic leap of faith

#autism will really have you writing essays recreationally huh. #idk im just saying shit if anyone else has ideas or anything to add i would love to hear it!!

[neos-schlond-poofa]

Garrance: How to Save a Life

I live laugh love Garrance and I once edited the first part. And ever since like one day, I listened to How to Save a Life by The Fray and went "omg..." AND WAS LIKE THATS THEM!! It was actually in like 2021 and it was me imagining if I had artistic talent and making a general MCD edit of it but slowly its turned into a predominantly Garrance theme song for me and like. I NEED TO SPREAD THIS AGENDA!! Just a heads up, its 1am for me rn, I don't remember everything the clearest, and I'm literally just rambling so it wont be too organized or have consistent grammar or writing styles. ANYWHO cue the music

Step one, you say we need to talk He walks, you say, "Sit down, it's just a talk" He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came OKAY SO LIKE THIS WHOLE FIRST PART I always envision it as late season 1 Garrance. Specifically when Garroth had his depressive episode (WHICH BY THE WAY GUYS WAS NOT HIM BEING AN INCEL!! IT WAS HIM BEING DEPRESSED AND MANIPULATED AND MOST LIKELY BRAINWASHED STOP VILLAINIZING HIM). Laurance did try to talk to him in that one episode, and it obviously didn't work. Laurance CARES about Garroth, like thats obviously super clear, and to see someone close to him randomly go into hiding and act all depressed is scary to him. And then... THE WINDOW TO YOUR RIGHT IS QUITE LITERALLY THE PORTAL TO THE IRENE DIMENSION!! Garroth goes left (to Zane) and Laurance stays right (to Aphmau). THE LINES OF FEAR AND BLAME? Laurance finds out that Garroth was tricked. He's scared of Garroth rn because he's literally insane but he blames himself too, not just for being part of the illusion that made Garroth become like this, but also because he wasn't there to help him out more maybe. He could've saved him, but he couldn't, and it still plagues him especially after he escapes the Irene Dimension. Garroth is all alone there with his brother who wants to kill him.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Yes this continues with the last part. But Laurance lost a friend here. Like. Not just by Garroth betraying them, but by him getting stuck in a dimension thats practically torture. And the bitterness? ITS THE BITTERNESS GARROTH WAS LOST IN!!! Laurance would stay up with Garroth all night... but he didn't know how to save a life.

Let him know that you know best 'Cause after all, you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you've told him all along And pray to God He hears you And I pray to God He hears you, and Alright this is were a lot more interpretation comes in because once Garroth returns, they interact like... TWICE??? The scene were Laurance goes out of character and hates on Aaron (although he had a point) and when he finally saw Garroth again but Aph was dressed as Zane. I also don't remember the ending of Season 2 that much; most of my strongest memories of MCD is Season 1. So like. Bear with me here. But this is Garroth to Laurance now. Laurance is now going insane. The calling (whatever that is because it is so unclear) is well... calling to Laurance. To me, Laurance's mental health is literally just spiraling. And Garroth, someone who has had his fair share of mental health struggles, wants to help. He knows best; he knows to talk to people, he knows the dark paths it can bring people. He's trying to get through to Laurance and telling him whats wrong, how he can help. But of course, in this situation, Laurance can't listen. He can't hear Garroth, and Garroth's close connection with the religion in MCD is a bonus for the final lines too.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Of course the chorus is back because I have to explain this perspective too. By now, I imagine Laurance has left. Garroth feels guilty; someone who helped keep Aphmau together while he was gone and someone he loved. This is really simple but like, I can't skip over this.

As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones you've followed He will do one of two things He will admit to everything Or he'll say he's just not the same And you'll begin to wonder why you came AND NOW THIS IS BOTH PERSPECTIVES!! It shows the parallels between their own journeys. Let's start with Garroth, since we have more stuff on him. Garroth was very defensive during his depressive episode and during the final episode of season 1, he has one final choice. Go with Zane, or come to his senses. And he does admit to everything, but at first, he said he's just not the same. BECAUSE HE WASN'T!! HE WAS SAD AND MANIPULATED. But for Laurance, he would also be defensive about this. His own self will is being stripped from himself because of weird Nether laws and he's spiraling. Garroth tries to help... but he simply can't. There is nothing he can do. OR MAYBE THERE IS?? Idk this is kind of just in my mcd rewrite universe and i like to imagine theres some way Laurance does get better but at the same time realistically... would he?? The nether is like so strong. Like how would he do that. But he does have a choice: either go to the Nether, or stay with his group. He can either admit it's hard, or he's just changed and leave. And now the final chorus and everything plays and its kind of the same as before... ive gotten increasingly more eepy during this writing and I hope my rambling style got my ideas across because this song literally got in my top 5 spotify wrapped because i kept imagining garrance angst to it. its so them god one day i need to share stuff about my rewrite. theres so much random stuff i have in there and this song is really important to it. i just like. GARRANCE RAHHH. my former interpretations of this song also had an aphmau perspective, which does entirely work; like. imagine the final verses is mirroring her own experiences with garroth AND laurance. i love garrancemau (SHE HAS TWO HANDS!! ignore how i also ship her with two more people too she can just hug them all at once) but i cant put it into this song as much as i used to because its so garrance. theyre so ugh i love my sad little gay men!! anyways toodles my rant here is done

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[marshmallows2345]

taking care (jay halstead x gn! reader)

Content warning: SMUT, mentions of a bad case, sub! jay, soft, fluffy smut(jay is such a softie no i wont take criticism)

a/n: this was requested by someone but i deleted the ask, but i do remember them asking me for a sub! jay halstead one shot so here it is ! it’s really soft and cute and i love it :))

if there was one thing jay halstead craved, it was your attention. from the minute he saw you, he wanted your eyes to be on him and him alone. once the two of you started dating, he became a complete cuddlebug. jay was a sweetheart, always so gentle and kind. you loved him; every inch of him.

when he submitted to you for the first time, it was almost out of necessity. he had a rough day at work, and you took care of him, softly massaging his sore, tight muscles, before ending it with release in the form of an orgasm. throughout it, you murmured sweet nothings to him, building him up with compliments and reassurances. jay was always strong, always carrying so much weight. you were the one who he came to in order to take that weight off. you took care of him.

tonight was no different than that night. when he came home, slamming the door behind him, angrily kicking off his shoes, you knew that it was a rough one. when you went over to him, pulling him into your arms, he melted into you, burying his face in your neck.

“we couldn’t save them, we-“

“sh. it’s okay. you did your best, jay. you can’t do any more than that.”

you rubbed his back, holding him close as he cried into your shoulder. jay didn’t discuss the case with you, but you knew it was difficult. he came home frustrated every night, and he drank more than usual. as you held him, you murmured soft reassurances to him. you let him cry it out, only pulling away when he stopped crying.

“i’m sorry, jay. i’m really sorry.”

“no, it’s fine, i just..”

“i know. it’s okay,” you murmured, kissing just underneath his ear. “do you want me to take care of you?”

“you don’t have to-“

“jay, please. i want to. i want to take care of you. you need the release, you need to give up control.”

jay looked down and he nodded, knowing you were right. you pulled off his backpack and let it fall to the ground before taking his jacket from him. hanging it on one of the dining chairs, you then led him to the bedroom, tenderly holding his hand.

“you’re my good boy,” you cooed as you sat him down on the bed. “so good for me.”

as you sat next to him, you turned his face so he was looking directly at you. his beautiful green eyes were soulful, full of love and adoration for you. you kissed the tip of his nose and softly murmured,

“say it, jay.”

“i’m your good boy,” he replied, leaning into your touch.

“good. good.”

you kissed his cheek before trailing your lips to his own. as you kissed him, you tugged his shirt up, breaking for only a second to slip it over his head. you tossed it aside before cooing at him,

“so pretty too, hm? my good, pretty boy.”

his cheeks and the tops of his ears flushed at the term of endearment. you kissed his cheek, murmuring,

“i’m gonna give you a back rub, then give you a nice orgasm, hm? does that sound good?”

“very. thank you…”

you gave him a smile before moving to sit behind him. your hands moved to rest on his neck before starting to gently knead at the tense muscle. he let out the softest groans as your fingers melted the tension away. you moved down to his shoulders, where there was an abundance of knots and tension, and you let your hands and fingers work their magic. as you worked out the tension, you kissed his neck and below his ear.

jay let himself relax in your hold, his eyes closing and his body leaning into your touch. your presence, your scent, you were a comfort to him. he let out deeper groans as you moved down his back, working at all the kinks and knots in his back. as your hands kneaded his muscles, you whispered soft praises and reassurances to him.

“so good for me,” you cooed. “so good. how’re you feeling, pretty boy?”

“really good,” he sighed in contentment as you pulled away from him. “thank you.”

“of course baby boy. now, why don’t i let you cum, hm? give you what i promised?”

“i would really, really like that.”

“sit back against the pillows, love.”

once jay was situated, you ran your hand down his abs, softly kissing him as you undid the button and zipper on his jeans. you pulled his jeans and underwear down, letting his cock spring free.

“want my hand around your cock?”

“yes, yes..”

you spat on your hand before wrapping it around the base of his cock. slowly, you stroked him, your eyes trained on his face. his eyes fluttered closed as you swirled your palm around the head of his cock. your lips placed gentle kisses to his neck and jaw, nipping at his smooth skin. he softly moaned out,

“your hand feels so good…”

“does it, baby boy? i wanna hear you. let me hear those pretty noises, all for me right?”

“yes,” he moaned out, his hips bucking as you stroked the sensitive head of his cock. “all for you, you.”

“good boy. that’s a good boy.”

you smiled at him, kissing his lips as he returned the gesture.

“so good for me, so good..” you praised as his hands gripped the sheets. “sound so fucking sweet..”

your hand moved faster as you kissed his neck, softly chuckling as he whimpered for you. jay always sounded so sweet, so perfect when he came undone. his whimpers were addictive; you wanted to hear them every time the two of you were in bed together. you could feel his cock twitch in your hand, and you knew he was close. his chest rose and fell like an ocean wave, while his lips were flushed from you constantly kissing him. he couldn’t have looked prettier.

“cum for me, pretty boy,” you cooed, nibbling at his earlobe. “cum for me…”

jay’s hips bucked into your hand as he released, moaning out your name as well as a string of curses. spurts of his sticky cum dribbled down your hand as you worked him through his release, making his thighs twitch. you kissed him once more, pressing your forehead to his as you murmured,

“so good for me..so good.”

“thank you, thank you..”

you grabbed the tissues from the nightstand and cleaned him up as well as your hand. after tossing the tissue away, you pulled jay on top of you, letting him rest his head on your chest. he kicked off his pants before pulling his underwear up, tucking his cock away.

“thank you for that. really, it was really nice.”

“of course. i always love to take care of my baby boy, hm?”

he flushed at your nickname, which was becoming more commonplace. you kissed his forehead and held him close to you.

“you like that nickname, don’t you?” you asked as you ran your hand through his hair.

“not one bit,” he jokingly replied.

you chuckled before kissing his forehead. as jay slowly drifted off to sleep, you gently scratched his scalp, making sure he would have a peaceful, restful sleep. after everything he went through, the least he deserved was a good night’s sleep.

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