#hard to stay positive

[ashtec]

When you have to argue that the glass is half full because they’re the ‘glass is half empty’ type.

Like fuck shit man, the glass has the same amount of liquid no matter how you look at it. I just want to hope for better so life sucks less. Don’t worry, I’m dead inside too.

#half full #half empty #life sux #but i’m trying #help out #hard to stay positive #depressing memes #maybe im just insane #i’m tired #my head is killing me #i just want to scream #running on empty #faking energy #fuck this migraine #3 am rambles #tumblr rant

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[paintpanic]

Calculating probability of survival... It doesn't look good.

#kirby series #kirby #star dream #susie haltmann #meta knight #ask 2 tag #i don't have anything interesting to say here! #just that this is my first super “high-effort” piece since getting back from vacation #i've been pretty out of it but i'm starting to feel a lot better. thank you to my wonderful friends for being awesome. #...and thank you to the folks whos twitch vods i've been watching a shitton of. #hard to stay down when you've got so much positivity around you. #EDIT HALF AN HOUR LATER: hey hi this is the right aspect ratio for desktop wallpapers #i just really like drawing in 16:9 and 9:16 what can i say. they're good aspect ratios. they're the standard for a reason.

[lavaflowe]

My DTYIS took so long, that by the time I posted it, I felt like it didn’t really fit my style or skill level anymore so I thought “why not do it again?” SO HERE WE ARE

Third times the charm✨😎

Me rambling about all the little details:

For this one took a lot of inspiration from the wrathful aspect of the Bodhisattva of wisdom Mahakala (I did a research project on him a while ago and the iconography stuck with me). He was mostly prayed to to protect troops during wars and battles so I thought it fit well with Wukong and his warform. The five jewel ornaments in Wukongs hair are reference to Mahakala’s five skulls, which also represent the five wisdom‘s. The skullcap and knife of course reference the spread of wisdom and destruction of ignorance.

For what Wukong’s outfit I thought since he doesn’t necessarily need armor, it would be fun to reference opera! I did have to change the colors tho from his opera outfit to better mesh with the color scheme.

And for the last bit- the ruyi bang. For my redesign, I included lotus buds that bloom when wukong reaches enlightenment. But I wanted to continue having the staff change with along with him- so in place of the lotus buds, I decided to put Dragon Pearl for the time spent at Ao Guangs palace. Dragon pearls are usually flaming, and that also reminds me of the Buddhist mani, wish granting jewels (which can also be flaming).

#cw eyestrain #I do love me so good eyestrain #overall super happy with this!! #ofc I could nitpick a few things but imma stay positive #me opening the file to work on it: gets flashbanged by the colors #when it still had a white background it was genuinely hard to look at #might have strained my eyes ngl #ba dum tss #anyway this gets a thumbs up from me UwU #my art #sun Wukong #jttw #journey to the west #Warform wukong

[sergle]

there is something so crazy about the cognitive dissonance between 50% of my online art presence coming from self portraits of my own body in a resting position, where it's received specifically as fat art, people refer to it as body positive / plus sized (or sometimes bbw content. it's whatever), the notes are like yeeesss this made me feel so good abt my body, stretch marks rolls etc fat women are beautiful 🙌🙌 and then I take a picture Standing Upright, and then some of Same people who have literally Seen My Body Before go ummm... what tha hell. you are LITERALLY thin ?! you are literally doing this.

#(sits down and lays down) fat body #(stands up straight) thin body #...OKAY? #the pounds didn't change between these two positions #and neither have my lifelong experiences of living in This Body #girl these are the SAME WOMEN. I stay fat while sitting standing walking laying down etc. I know it's hard to understand. #like oh thank god you identified it for me. apparently I must've been drawing thin women this whole time too #like you have gotta try harder to not be so annoying. #you've GOT to. #sergle answers #i'm not 'thin' you're just not used to seeing my torso. but can you come w me to see my doc. maybe he'll stop encouraging me to lose weight

[melontoyo]

Today is my birthday! I'd be super happy if you could reblog my art and maybe check out my neat lil project "Vessel of Gods" 🥺

#artists on tumblr #original art #original character #among others... #melontoyo's art #🤷‍♂️ #I'm sorry to be negative in the tags but #sometimes its hard to stay positive about your work when you.... have not achieved anything yet #I'm old and all my peers are getting by & achieving stuff #and then there's me.... yeah #Maybe my work is just bad and I'm not trying hard enough idk 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

[uncanny-tranny]

The whole "humans are inherently awful and bad!" spiel is so tiring to me as a survivor of abuse because it comes off as abuse apologia. If humans are inherently awful, then why should it matter if you're abused - that's what humans do best! Like, genuinely, I think this mindset can harm abuse victims/survivors because they're being inundated with this idea that, well, how bad can their abuser be? All humans are horrific, why complain, why escape, and why try to resist it?

I really wish people would critically analyze where these ideas come from and where these lines of thinking can lead. Maybe it's a matter that I'm looking too deep into, but this very bleak ideology is not going to help in the long run, I think, and some of the first people who are going to be crushed by it are the people who are vulnerable or who are put in vulnerable positions in society.

#politics #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #i think a lot of these beliefs can influence your politics and how you view other people #honestly if i kept the mindset that humans are inherently abusive i would have just stayed with people who abused me. lol. #i think a lot of people who posit these things are genuinely in pain and i really really feel for them... #...a lot of these people may be in the earliest stages of healing where the world DOES feel scary... #...but i don't want that to be normalized in the sense that it *can be* harmful to dwell in... #...when the world feels like a hammer you're going to think you're a nail. and that's such a scary thing to be stuck in #i think it's different when people use this stuff to imply that abuse isn't real/isn't a big deal because abuse is the Nature of Humanity #i'm just frustrated that this is seen as... expected? necessary? fine? it's hard to describe #i've probably talked about this before but i don't care because this is important to me still even if i did

[alinelie]

sheet for kian

victor's sheet

#oc: kian micelli #ts4 #I feel the need to bring out some backstory #Kian leaves his house early because he planned to start a career in a big city and he worked hard to make that happen. #He got a position where he may be promoted after getting a degree and achieving his dream job #but he didn't enjoy it as much as he was expecting which broke him #He returned home and soon discovered that he supposed to stay there #Victor however would work in his parents' business for the rest of his life but he found it difficult to adapt to adulthood #He dropped out of college moved out with his parents and is now attempting to figure out his future steps #and they first met at this point #Kian gave himself time to work with his parents all summer before beginning looking for a job #Victor wants to begin a new life. #Before Victor’s family lived there but after several problems that include his brother they left #and now that he’s returned rumors about his family keep being spread so he needs to find a strength #oc stuff #my sims

[crunchity-munchity]

Having to remind myself constantly that being able to balance bith a job and college at the same time is actually a pretty impressive feat for people like me (disabled both physically and mentally). And that I shouldn't push myself to be perfect all the time because the fact that I'm here at all is impressive

#we stay positive we stay positive we stay positive (pealse fuck im trying so hard) #anyway ive been struggling recently with school and work #and i need to like .... calm down or something #i also need sleep but my brain said no #its to the point where i question if its stress caused or just my own reluctance #its probably both #crunchy rants #my tags are more a rant than my actual post but whatev #this is a message to all those with disabilities: im proud of you for making it this far

[shrikeseams]

When you idly think about Celegorm possibly being most like Nerdanel of all the sons of Feanor, and then you start thinking about Nerdanel getting a post-Darkening moral decay arc all of her own to mirror her son(s)'s.

#tolkien #san shoots the breeze #Like. My central celegorm thesis is that he becomes what he becomes because he has a specific moral/social worldview #that is actually heavily based on 1) common cultural understanding of said worldview and 2) direct positive intervention from the valar #like he is an acolyte of a specific god and that goes with specific rights and responsibilities for everyone involved #and once the noldor arrive in beleriand that specific framework *collapses* #because the valar can't be fucked and the amanyar don't have the same religious&cultural expectations #so he upholds his end of the bargain as long as he can (both emotionally and materially) #but when it all collapses (structural damage from what happened to ardehel #and then complete collapse from the bragollach) he breaks HARD #and I think there's space for something similar with Nerdanel #who was likely raised in fairly close contact with aule and who stays faithful to the valar as feanor starts to go off the rails #who makes all the 'right' choices! and her reward is the obliteration of her family #and quite likely at least some degree of social ostracization for her association with her husband and children #not sure what her final straw would be though #...possibly it could be celebrimbor's capture and death actually. hm. #Anyway! I just think Nerdanel should be viciously violently angry with basically everyone for at LEAST a century but likely longer

[chai-berries]

one of abby’s favorite (and a bit least favorite too) things about you that’s painfully domestic is the fact that you’re almost too good at sticking to sides of the bed. normally people complain of their partners taking over the whole bed. instead abby had to urge you into cuddling into her side for the first few months of sharing a bed. you were just used to sleeping on one side with friends. but now you get to cuddle up with her before you fall asleep and you stay connected somehow throughout the entire night

#THE GIRL JUST WANTS TO CUDDLE WITH YOU!!! GET OVER HERE!!!! #what side of the bed is everyone’s fave? #i’m a left side for sure #left side girlies say AYO? #i don’t sleep well when i’m not on that side #also sharing a bed is so hard for me cause i try so hard to stick to ONE side #but then i stay in one position the whole time and im miserable #abby better be okay with the right or else we’ll have problems #… #safe to say this is a self-insert #abby anderson #mads’ headcanons #abby anderson x reader #🧡🤍🩷 #abby brainrot era #sleepy abs

[ingo-ingoing-ingone]

I drew a floor plan of what I've always imagined Ingo and Emmet's apartment to be!

-Not everything is to scale, obviously, since this is just a freehanded plan

-The dining area and kitchen are based on my grandparent's house; the rest was supplied entirely by my brain

-Corner apartment means plenty of windows :D

Let me know if anything is illegible :)

#submas #submas positivity #ingo #emmet #yes i know i spelled 'balcony' wrong #even after i told myself i wouldn't #the ABYS twins have the same apartment #but what's labeled here as ingo's room is a home office #since conjoined twins can't stay in separate rooms LMAOOOO #anyways! #been meaning to do this for LEGIT AGES I am so glad i did #things are a TAD off from how they are in my brain bc art is hard and so is scale #but! #close enough!!!

[theterriblethingabouttulio]

STOP wilma and digby have a pride flag!!! like OF COURSE they do but 🥺 god it’s just so fucking nice to see. i love this show. i love these people. i love this (One (1)) company.

also let it be known that wilma and digby are not allies they are absolutely queer and that is THEIR pride flag for THEM

#dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #gorgug thistlespring #wilma and digby #thistlesprings #i love them your honor #i love love #im wine drunk and i am full to the brim of adoration #im getting divorced (amicably) and im so excited because it hasnt been great but im moving back in with my parents #and im so excited to start my life and im looking SO HARD for the positives bc my spouse lingers excessively on the negatives #and this show is so positive #i love it #i love them #im repeating myself but i have so many feelings right now #curse you aldi pineapple wine that i chugged during this episode #but i love you baby #stay frosty

[subsequentibis]

i'm not feeling my lineart today. you get scribblies

#ibis art #metalocalypse #charles offdensen #charles foster offdensen #buncha screencap redraws up top bc i want to like. #ok when i draw these guys im trying to crib the show style too much and it comes out looking kinda jank #i wanna get the Vibe of them down in my style. so i wanna do a lot of quick scribbly redraws that feel natural but still Capture the Essenc #the second one is bc i love his overcoat and scarf look so much. also ive seen vampire charles art. I Like That. #i like to imagine whatever the resurrection process was it didn't really. Fully work. he came back a little bit wrong #i think he's Extra pale and grey. skin's always cold to the touch. pulse is fluttery and hard to find. touch of grey at the temples #if he stays in one position for too long rigor mortis sets in and he makes some UNHOLY crunching and cracking noises when he moves #shaking his leg to get the bloodflow back in it while everyone looks on in horror. he shrugs. joints aren't what they used to be

[nolongerapileofashprobably]

Props to you for being one of the people who still actually analyze and find stuff to talk about totk. When nowadays it seems like the loud minority just wants to keep screaming about how it’s just dlc or didn’t live up to the hype (that they had way too high and don’t want to admit)

Lol thank you? I genuinely find recent fandom culture to be a bit, uh, negative with loud minorities shouting about the flaws stories and games have (which is absolutely natural). I try to focus on the positives and what we ARE given because I do cherish whatever bits and pieces they hid within the games for us to find!

Tears of the Kingdom does lack in aspects of the story (see the sages of old and repetitive cutscenes) but to me that’s still a small part of the story. I was hoping for a DLC to showcase the sages of old with Kass as our guide (because if I have one genuine gripe with ToTK it is the absence of Kass) but Nintendo has chosen to stand with the game as it is, which is fine. It’s a choice I don’t necessarily agree with, but a choice they made. Instead of crying over it and ranting about all the negatives, I made peace with it and decided to embrace all the positives.

So thank you! I try to be positive!

#I always find this such an odd compliment but fandom culture nowadays makes it hard to just enjoy media #I also act the same way I did when botw came out and we were this cute lil positive community #I’m just less social? I guess since I just stay in my blog and vibe #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom spoilers #loz tears of the kingdom #totk zelink #zelink #botw zelink #loz botw

[kedsandtubesocks]

hi lovelies happy Sunday I hope today has been good to all of you

I’m really sorry to ask this but tomorrow is a big & a bit scary day for me and i would really appreciate just any small positive vibes sent my way 🤍

thank you all so much & know that I carry all of y’all in my heart truly

#I cried so hard earlier with my sister & my stomach is still a mess with anxiety but I’m trying to stay positive #but thanks again and sorry for being such an overbearing emotional water sign lmao