#hard enough for me to clean as it is

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Been thinking about the X-Files recently. A show I have a hazy, but fond memory of.

#the x files #x files #fox mulder #dana scully #poorly drawn x files #is this going to be a thing? maybe? #iirc: The x-files is about two FBI agents who are trying so hard to be professional and not fall in love. And everything is a conspiracy. #...It *has* been nearly a decade since I saw the x files. I think I'd have a hard time rewatching for a few reasons but I did enjoy it. #This was initially just a work doodle I wasn't going to clean up #but the amount of x-files fans that Ive seen about + Lazycranberryart's wangxian x-files art got my brain too fired up. #Mulderscully vibes are like: "I'm her silly rabbit. she doesn't call me that outloud. But I believe in my heart it's true.' #Its about having faith and trust in each other! They might not always agree either but they have each other's backs! #Scully is 100% the one that kills the spiders in the relationship. Mulder wants to rescue them but his ideals aren't strong enough #Girl Daddy and Baby Girl Boy. That's who they are to me.

[emry-stars-art]

Anyone that’s come to talk to me about this au: I am hugging you and/or placing a nice trinket in your hands, this was one of the funniest things that’s been brought up so far. Historically Andrew does not get along with his personal guards so Day assumes the worst when finally turning him over to Abram

And yes, of course you can have the full pic✨

#digital art and I are not friends yet #I try so hard and yet she evades me #I might redo a little traditionally #I Do Not Like how Kevin turned out in panel two #take it I don’t want to look at it anymore #it’s too clean 😖 where’s the texture where’s the sketchy lines left over from the underdrawing #digital art feels sterile and out of proportion #maybe I just need to find a new style #different somehow #ANYWAY ENOUGH ABOUT THAT #mini comic #aftg #fan art #my art #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #kevin day #royal au #andreil #digital

[ohyesididnotjustdothat]

Fixed the missing pages!!

KinnPorsche Send Off Photo Book right here Thank your fandom scanners and editors because I could NEVER do this regularly--they are truly some of our strongest soldiers (Speaking of edits, you all have blanket permission to use these for edits if you want. Go nuts)

EDIT: I now see the orientations reverted to their original when I uploaded them. Pls ignore that--I'm already dying 🙃🙃🙃🙃

#kinnporsche #dick moves with d #ok now i can clean my hands of this #SCANNING IS ANNOYING Y'ALL I CANNOT EMPHASIZE ENOUGH #AND THIS BINDING WAS A *BITCH* SO I THINK I'M DONE FOR NOW!!! #leaving any future scanning to the fandom professionals LOLLL #also don't ask me about the weird coloration that's just how they printed it #hence why i say thank ur fandom editors too bc damn if they don't make that shit look good #NOTE MY EDIT: THIS IS WHAT I MEAN SCANNERS HAVE IT SO HARD #AND IF THEY REG DO IT FROM THEIR PHO??? FUHGETABOUDIT #*PHONE

[raetreaderarts]

REJOICE! Grandma be upon ye!

yes I’m still simping for her, no I’m not handling her absence well, thank you for asking ✌️

I MISS HER SO MUCH…………sniffle………………

#pokémon #pokemon #pokemon horizons #pokemon horizons diana #pokemon diana #you will LOVE HER and you will LIKE IT!!!!!!!!! /lh #there are few women I’ve fallen so unbelievably hard for #they made this perfect specimen then went ok that’s enough of her everyone say bye bye #LIKE NO COME BACK…. #anyways my friend told me that I tend to lose my art style when I’m drawing a character I like #like my art gets too stiff and clean when it’s all about the roughness and the imperfections #so I tried turning my brain off for this one #and I think it looks cute! #my art

[keeps-ache]

smells are like ghosts.. when did this pomegranate get in the room

#just me hi #[suspicious squinting + peering] who's there [<- knows its ghost fruit] #where are you.. !! [<- it's ghost fruit and is displaced in time and space] #why!! [it's ghost fruit] #i think the weirdest ghost fruit has to be banana. like banana isn't even a strong enough fruit to Have a ghost #maybe its something else pretending to be ghost fruit ?? #or Apple. Apple is just terrible hbfvsh #lemon is a concerning one though because you can't get lemon on many things unless you tried Really hard or tried to Not try Really Hard #you get what i mean ! #//and speaking of fruit since my minecraft worlds have Also been nuked that means i start with a clean slate !! #it's not a setback if you weren't really moving Bfhsvbhfsd #//the smell of rotting meat vs. rotting fruit though is interesting #not enough for me to stick around it. but ykno lol :> #meat is very Rotty and fruit is grossly sweet #well. all plant foods are actually #when i said 'fruit' i meant 'plants' hbdhs #//well #:P

[why-bless-your-heart]

Okay.

I’m doing it.

I’m doing the dishes.

#The really embarrassing thing is the reason it’s so hard for me to keep up with them is literally just that the water takes a while to heat #So when I put the dishes in the sink I think ‘oh I can wash them now’ but then the water doesn’t get warm quickly enough #and I think ‘well this is silly I’ll just do them later’ #repeat ad Infinitum until finally I have no more clean dishes and now it’s Overwhelming(tm)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i called my dad and he's gonna fly out tomorrow #i feel so bad dragging him out here just bc im having some sort of breakdown #he's already been thru so much in the last 2 months. i hate that ive added to his stress #i dont kno how im gonna get things done this week. or how im gonna get thru the rest of the semester. or what im gonna do this summer #my life just feels like an absolute disaster. it's all been leading up to this: a catastrophic meltdown #but im stuck not being able to meet with my counselor until may 6th. not that it was very helpful last time. nor was my emergency session on #Thursday. i just dont kno what to do. so that makes it hard for ppl to help. i just feel like im a child throwing a tantrum #i just want to burn it all down. im so tired. i dont kno y i picked a career that makes me feel so stupid #maybe i should just stop. defer a semester or stop altogether and do something else #i dont have the self discipline to do something so far above my head. i dont care enough. i dont care about anything #ugh. but my dad is coming tomorrow so i should clean my room and try to get my assignments done before he gets here #ugh. this just sucks. its so stupid and frustrating #unrelated

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hour 14 of taking a break from art for the sake of my tendons: i am Wailing and Keening and Scratching Forlornly At My Tablet

#i dont know if im strong enough but i Need to be strong enough #cant continue doodling if ya wrist doesnt work #clenching my fists and chanting 'this is necessary this is necessary' #ive been going way too hard lately. unfortunately #curse this mortal body and its stupid bullshit mechanics that dont even work half the time #gonna cope by eating overly spicy soup and crochet #well no. i cant crochet. ten minutes of that hurts worse than scribbling for eight gay hours #to put it quite simply - but with feeling: FUCK! #absolutely unprompted #howling and sobbing and baying etc etc #i was gonna finish that commission tonight. then i was gonna start on something else i promised Days ago. #maybe get some doodles done for asks. #work on vines part 2. #but it oof ouch too much :/ #what the hell am i supposed to do now #fold laundry? clean my room? read? WRITE? ha dont make me laugh #i havent written in 2 months and im not about to start now #(said immediately before screaming into a pillow) #maybe ill like... go through my replies for once... see if people are trying to talk to me... #see if im brave enough to Directly Interact outside of asks...

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[bri-does-art]

i know this probably won’t do much, let alone anything at all, but i’m sorry for the stress this site has caused you and so many other creators here. i’m not asking for you to stick around on here, but i hope you know just how meaningful you and your art have been on here. you’re amazing. /pos

Hey, this ask has done a lot more than you would think. Thank you, you are very sweet. <3

I've kind of made up my mind about what I'm gonna do for a while now, but I've simply been... too busy and overwhelmed to take the time to let you guys know. I'm not going to delete my tumblr, there's just. Too much here that I don't want to lose.

So far the game plan is: keep my tumblr. But do not upload anymore art or writing on it - not because it's gonna get scraped, because it was already getting scraped anyway, AI company deal or not. It's pretty much unavoidable at this point, unfortunately. I simply do not trust Tumblr with my data, if they're going to sell EVERYTHING, including private messages and such, so I'm not going to give it anything worthwhile to profit off of. Instead, I'm going to start uploading my art exclusively on Ao3, for now. I'll answer any asks I receive here on there too, as well. I'll figure some kind of system out. 🤔

The cool thing about uploading to Ao3 is that anyone subscribed to my profile or to the containment series I will make will get a notification anytime I upload something new. Having my art and writing in one place is likely going to be more convenient for you guys too, since you won't have to move across platforms to get the full experience. 😄It'll be different... but a platform getting too greedy for its own good won't stop me from finding ways to share my stories with y'all. I'll just find another solution.

(I've also been entertaining the idea of joining or making my own Discord server but. That one is a little more delicate. The idea of joining a server that has hundreds of members like a lot of this fandom's servers have, just. Makes me break into hives, lmao. (I am in the Ghost in the Machine fic server. I muted it an hour into joining, it was way too intense for me. |'D) That is way too many people, I simply cannot handle it. I'd be way more comfortable in a smaller group with a less rapid-fire rate of posting and conversation. I am also. Very picky about which servers I join, which makes asking for recommendations doubly awkward when I shoot them all down, haha... And making my own... Err, I can hardly keep up with a server I helped create for another fandom and mod for, I don't think I could handle two of them - I would need other people to handle the moderation for me, and I wouldn't trust just anyone to be a mod. I'd need to know them well enough to know I could trust them, and I... do not really know anyone in this fandom well enough to do that, sadly. I take server moderation very seriously, as someone who has had experience modding for forums back before social media was a thing. I do not know if that would make for a fun experience for everyone, and anyone who hasn't known that kind of supervised experience. It is comforting to me. It may be intimidating for others. So that's still a very hand-wavy, 'eehhhh' kind of thing still.)

All of this to say, that this isn't the last you'll see from me, far from it. I'll restrict my creative output to Ao3 for the foreseeable future, and I'll let you guys on here know when I make a new upload, so those of you who do not have an Ao3 account know when something new has happened.

So there you have it. 😊

#also just so y'all know #i AM working on the next CotA chapter #i am. about 40% done. #i needed to take a breather after that massive last upload and then life just. fucking tackled me lmao. #in order: my folks put up the house for sale. i have spent half of my weekends having to evacuate the house at a moment's notice. #so prospective buyers could visit. not very good conditions to write in. too stressful. #then i caught fucking covid for the very first time and had a BAD TIME. it took me weeks to recover. couldn't climb stairs for a while. #i think i still have episodes of brain fog 5 months later because of it. my body was really weird for a while after. #(writing is still a little hard after that. but i think i am slowly overcoming it. hopefully it doesn't show too much in the new chapter.) #random unexplained symptoms and more i will not share. then the holiday season came and went. #then we finally got serious buyers after months of having no-shows yank our chains and expulse us from our home for nothing. #the house is sold. then came the cleaning out and packing. we are nearly done and i am finally coming up to the surface to breathe a little #we are moving in a month's time so i might be a while before i feel stable enough to start posting a little more regularly once more. #so this year i may have to give mermay a pass. to my ENORMOUS chagrin. it's just not in the cards for me this year. ;___;) #but we are getting there. we're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. and i am confident enough to say it's not a train.

[irlbop]

#maybe she’s both with it. maybe it’s adhd #possibly adhd #undiagnosed adhd #executive dysfunction #my life lately has been like a quick time event in a Telltale game #and I didn’t click hard enough or fast enough to carry out the task #so now I’m just sitting here constantly clicking and hoping enough clicks will get me to rise and clean my room already

[the-cookie-of-doom]

I’ve been wrist deep in so many asses today. My professional poker face is impeccable. Tried and true, baby!

#cookie speaks #my goal this semester is to do as many linen changes and bed baths as possible #bc the mechanics of it are h a r d #hard enough with two people #I need to learn to do it ALONE #luckily one of my best friends is a nurse tech/CNA with like 8 years experience e #I’m just following her like a puppy #let me help clean up all your patients bby #even if you don’t need my help I need YOUR help #I’m having a very productive clinical lol #currently hiding in the break room gasping for air bc I’m exhausted #but v satisfied

[nsfwitchy2]

Dog grooming really is that profession where all of your coworkers have adhd

If they don’t have adhd - yes they do

#nsfwitchytalks #just got into a conversation with a coworker #that STARTED by talking about complaining about people #and ended with her telling me about how she has a hard time keeping her room clean #and how she’ll forget about things if they’re in plain sight long enough #and how she loses everything she puts down #and how she LOVES planners and checklists but can never keep up with them #and I’m like. oh girl do I have news for you-

[the-acid-pear]

The thing about the painter analog that people don't get and makes them hate it is that at heart this isn't a serious horror story. This is pure gore not only for the sake of gore but for the sake of camp. Once I was talking of to my dad laughing at the guy who had his face sanded off and he was like yeah not new they did that in Jason already 🙄 which was later reinforced by UrbanSpook admitting this is inspired by those old 80s slasher which should tell you everything.

I'm saying this bc i saw a video pairing it with Playground and the incest game and while I don't know the second I watched a video on playground once and the difference is that that book is trying to tell a story and say something on top of the gore but the later makes it hard to care. Which is kind of the issue another "gone too far" piece of media my beloved A Serbian Film runs into where you cannot take yourself too seriously if you also want to show over the top violence or you'll lose the audience.

OF COURSE there are exceptions like Hostel, Saw and 😏 the human centipede ☺️ (cocksucker for that movie and it's more serious points, though it barely counts bc the gore is very tame save for in 2) and I couldn't exactly tell you what's the difference between what makes them work and what doesn't but still.

But I'm getting off topic I'm not here to say which media is good or not I'm here to point out the painter is not a serious story that asks you to care for the characters it's a over the top schlocky gore that asks you to go GROOOOSS or laugh at the over the top brutality it presents. Which is very standard in horror.

#luly talks #urbanspook #the painter analog horror #also yes actually I'll mention THC again bc that movie is deemed to go ''too far'' which is joked about often in its sequels #in 3 after the inmates at the prison watch the movie they echo the opinions of the public (calling the director sick saying he'd be jailed #etc except for my best friend who GETS IT and is laughing ILY BESTIE) and 2 is a direct response to the reaction of 1 #while 1 is an extremely fucking tame horror movie BY ALL FUCKING MEANS (1 surgery scene and its so clean. after that just a tad bit of blood #and some minor infection) they made a movie that ACTUALLY went too far #and i ironically enough hate it despite appreciating this bc it just isn't fun for me. because it's trying a bit too hard. #but in case you don't know. one of the links of the centipede is a pregnant woman. she escapes and gives birth in the car. baby falls on the #brakes. she steps on its head. #pointing it out since children seem to be the point ppl go THIS IS TOO FAR #i personally found the baby squishing the highlight of the movie. second to that is. the barbed wire rape #which i didn't like because i don't enjoy seeing women be raped in my movies but its like #so funny man. literally bro put barbed wire on his cock. like that's just iconic #what shit like this and the painter are trying to achieve is simple shock. and that's FUN. #if you dont find it fun that's literally okay it simply isn't your piece of cake but that doesn't mean its bad or it shouldn't exist. #like i still see ppl insult it like GROW UP... THIS KIND OF HORROR HAS EXISTED FOREVER STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAN

[justmwahstruly]

alr i have been depriving you guys of stufs so

Molly in my Ren Faire fit!

refs if you want to see >:)

no lookin at my dogs 🫵👁️👁️

i look funky dont i heheheh

#im so white… bleh…. #you will NEVER SEE MY FACE #the closest you get is my way too poufy hair #the mirror was so dirty… but thats not my fault! its my parents! #KEEP YOUR MIRRORS CLEAN YALL #also i moved the butterfly clip to the hair bc i didn’t feel like drawing it over the necklaces #I WORKED SO HARD ON THOSE NECKLACES IT HURT #was i drippy enough? was i please tell me— #renaissance faire #molly melancholy #welcome home oc #ik this will receive absolutely NO ATTENTION bc i drew the gays… but that’s ok!

[catlover4536]

Heya @themissbanshee , so for the first time in a long time I've kept my internet art promise and drew you Fem!Wally in the Monika outfit, with some changes here and there to get it to fit her better! She did turn out pretty cute, don't you think?

Of course, this is also your reminder that I've thought of her a lot these last few days. I've done a few sketches of her, and that is probably why the Monika outfit turned out so good ahhahahm.

#does this count as an early b-day present? #probably not but it is funny to me how close yours is atm #welcome home #wally darling #fem!wally #I tried doing her in chibi form...it didn't go as planned #I would do more corrections to her but she is literally the size of my thumb so it is very easy to mess her up when I erase #her little face is the size of my thumbnail which is both very cute but makes it hard to do more stuff with her #anyways #I wasn't sure if I wanted to clean and color her in the monika outfit #but I might in the future but no promises #i hope you like this #my art #and yes the one of her looking from the side is supposed to look a little dreamy-ish #she is the 3rd one I drew right after the first 2 I did from my last post of her #redid her after that and she turned out good enough for this group #yay #but also pls appreciate her skirt it took me so long and many tries to get it to look right I forgot how hard pleated skirts were #seriously the behind bit of it is such a small detail but came out wrong enough I had to try until it looked right aahahhaha