#happens quite often tbh)

[kosegruppaa]

I’ve had a very similar experience to yours only flipped because I’ve been solely interested in men the past couple of years and was questioning the validity of my past interest in women, but for about a month-ish I’ve suddenly really been into women and not that into men. So basically I think fluctuating attraction can totally be a normal bisexual thing. Fret not, friend!

hi anon!

ah thanks, that is good to know! i don’t know why it stresses me out a little but it does? i know it logically shouldn’t!

but yeah it is that thing of questioning the validity of your past experiences! like on one side i’ve spent so much time questioning if my past attraction to men was real cause of the idea of comphet (and i think i probably have been affected by it to some extent!) i was super scared to be a lesbian as a teen but then fell really hard for a guy at 18. a few years later i finally accepted liking women (very much just in private at first) and then i was unsure if that whole thing at 18 was just like a “i really really wanna be straight and this guy is here and we get along well” type thing. and then on the other hand this pervasive idea that “bi women are just straight women who want attention” or similar, which also makes no sense, like i was scared of that being true for me while very much in the closet?? like what attention?!

i’ve gone through that cycle a few times now, not sure how many times, i should have kept a journal on it lol. either way had anyone told me this i know i would have been like “you are bisexual you dumb bitch that’s what that is” but alas my brain likes to overcomplicate and question everything

#i’ve also had periods when i’m like ‘hm maybe i’m ace?’ #i don’t date that much (or like. at all tbh rn) #and i also don’t find that i’m that into the whole thing quite often. like id rather be home alone a good chunk of time #and then stuff happen and people happen and i’m like ‘oh yeahhh i remember i like this’ #rinse and repeat #anon #thanks for asking!

[satanicdollx]

Alright, another kink: Sex while doing something else, like having sex while playing a video game, going down / being gone down upon while trying to read something, being bent over the counter while washing dishes or something ect.

send me a kink and I’ll rate it! 

No | rather not | I dunno | I guess | Sure | Yes | FUCK yes | Oh god you don’t even know |

#happens quite often tbh... no you didn't read anything 🫣 #reply #thank youuuu

[sanstropfremir]

✨🎥! Forgot to say, I have a wedding in April but no dress/suit/clothes. I’m desperately looking but every single day I’m more disappointed in the quality of the fashion industry. Even the most basic thing is shit quality and cost 5 times what it should. So yeah, if anyone has recommendations on clothes (not necessarily for weddings or events, but in general) that are good quality, let me know

i know how you feel, affordable decent clothing is fucking impossible right now. honestly my best advice is thrifting/secondhand. idk what the situation for that is like in spain so maybe it's not possible, but it's always worth a shot, especially if you've already been looking for a while. it does obvs take more time than shopping new bc you have to sift through racks, but you're more likely to get a good find of better quality for a more reasonable price. my general thrifting advice (honestly this applies to any clothes shopping also) is first look for the colour and shape that you like, and then look at the material content. this is very important. do not look at brand that means nothing. always always always check the material content on the tags. ideally you want to be looking for garments that have 100% natural fibres; wool, cotton, silk, linen, rayon/viscose (yes it is natural despite the name). if you can't find 100% than something with an 80/20 ratio or more (to the natural side) can also be a safer bet, but my rule of thumb is the more polyester is in a garment, the worse it is in every way.

my general advice for wedding attire is unless you need black tie, don't worry about trying to find a full suit or a really fancy dress you're only gonna wear once. get a good pair of dark formal trousers (black/grey/navy), wear a dress shirt or a formal blouse, and throw on a nice tailored jacket that's in the same colour family. is it technically only semi-formal? yes, but who does true formal weddings and actually cares about sartorial rules. in this economy? psh. some visual aids:

it's a great combo for any 'events you have to look nice at' because you only have to buy individual pieces, you don't have to buy them all at the same time, and they can be reused for other events. just find out what the colour theme of the event is and get yourself a shirt or tie/pocket square/scarf/other accessory in that colour and you're good to go. also do not forget a good pair of shoes. this is also very important; always have a good pair of shoes.

hopefully this helps! i'm sorry i don't have better recommendations on where to actually go to buy stuff/what to buy, but i haven't shopped new in......quite a long time. but at least having some tips to go by should help. and tbh sometimes you do gotta cough up the money.....BUT only ever cough up the money for something that is 100% natural fibre and is a piece that will get use outside of a single event. otherwise you just gotta be patient and keep looking; if you are patient things have a way of coming to you.

#diligence and perseverance are so key to any kind of shopping but especially thrifting #tbh these are fundamental tips for building a wardrobe in general so if that's a thing anyone's been thinking about: #always start with good trousers and good shoes #all these photos are from the sartorialist's blog btw if you want more fashion inspo check it out #fashion tips #answers #text #✨🎥 anon #also i know that most people's level of sewing skills are not good but dont be afraid to get something thats not quite perfect #minor things like sleeves too long you dont like the buttons etc. rolling up sleeves is an easy fix and will give you a bit of character #and sewing on new buttons is a very very easy to learn skill and is very useful to have when one inevitably comes loose. #plus its way cheaper to buy/find new buttons and you can play around with styles #trouser hems as well if theyre too long you can neatly roll them up and give them a good press and no one will know #if you happen to have access to a sewing machine or are just a determined hand stitcher #there's an easy way to take in the fit of a formal trouser waistband #but thats a bit long to put in tags so if someone wants to know ill do a separate post #also for thrifting if you know the demographics of the areas you're shopping in look for secondhand stores where a lot of older folks live #you're much more likely to find good quality bc older garments are better made #also if you have large enough feet to wear men's sizing or are on the verge (40/41/42) you can often find very nice dress shoes so so cheap #that can also be another post if ppl want i will talk about shoes for literally ever

[fiddles-ifs]

I will say, now that I’ve published that post, I’d appreciate it if people avoided calling Trace a methhead, junky, etc. etc.

Those terms are associated negatively with people struggling with addiction (of any kind -- heroin and meth included) way too often and it’s very. I don’t want to say triggering for me, personally, but I find it distasteful. 

People who use narcotics are still people deserving of respect and humanity. Words like methhead/junky/whatever take that from them.

#nipping this in the bud before it gets out of hand #because i know how the internet works #it didn't happen too often but even once is too much for me tbh #its also like. idk. dangerously teetering on the edge of body shaming?? #not quite there. but even still it makes me deeply uncomfortable

[theflyingfeeling]

me in the Olli/Allu delelu land trying to explain how Olli acting weird and Aleksi suddenly smoking and them secretly glancing at each other must be all connected somehow

because they ARE!! 😭 we may be yet to connect the dots, but we're getting there okay, we're not crazy 😤

(don't forget the sunglasses!! I haven't figured out how but I just know they're somehow relevant in all this as well 😤 he just seems weirdly attached to them (and the bandana around his neck which he's been wearing in literally every picture we've seen of him for almost two weeks now?? not counting the pictures taken in the pool) like, did he pay and arm an a leg for them (I'm not sure if he's worn that exact pair before? I may be wrong though lol I often am with stuff like this) and justified the purchase to himself by swearing he'd wear them every chance he gets for the rest of the year lol

#the rest goes in the tags because okay fine i MAY be just a little bit crazy sdgjsdjgsgdsg but hear me out alright #let's say aleksi used to smoke but quit because it's unhealthy #now why do people usually relapse with smoking? #for fun ig but he's said many times he's trying to be healthier. dude won't drink pepsi with caffeine in it but cigarettes are fine? 🙄 #sure the reasons are individual but at least in my mother's case it was often when she felt stressed out about random shit #so perhaps aleksi took up smoking again because something's stressing him out / making him anxious / worrying him #it could be the tour but it's not like they haven't been on tour in the US before so why would he be particularly stressed out about that? #could be something work-related but unrelated to the band. a project he had to put on hold because of the tour? #because from what i've understood the HU supporting gig happened on quite a short notice #tbh that alone could very legitimately be a cause of stress on its own. not enough time to prepare? not enough time to spend with the fam? #(perhaps if you weren't streaming every other evening...🙄) #or maybe he's just jetlagged and nicotine is his remedy of choice? #ooooooorrr it could be something related to his personal life. hard to say what though. a sudden change? general anxiety? #he doesn't /seem/ particularly anxious though but the hell would i know #so... aleksi taking up bad habits + olli's weird behaviour + secret glances and maybe low-key avoiding each other = ??? #my theory is still that they hooked up and are now forced to deal with the consequences 😶 #''how are they avoiding each other exactly?'' one might ask and worry not! i am prepared for counterarguments! ☝️ #to put it briefly: the delulu in me says so 😌 #(this applies to everything i wrote above 😂 i'm writing this just for my and y'all's entertainment you know) #ollixallu #answered asks #sparfloxacin

[captainsweet]

This is just going to be me ranting about something that particularly annoys me, so don't take it too seriously, but it drives me up a metaphorical wall.

But, the thing is, I just finished reading some new parts of a Rise fic I really liked, it was funny, and a good story sure, until I saw the word 'twin' be thrown around about five times in one chapter.

I honestly thought I was exaggerating, so I continued, and the word 'twin' just kept on appearing. So I just decided to count how many times it comes up just to see if I was being crazy, y'know?

In the course of a couple of chapters, the word, 'twin' is thrown around 64 different times. Not accounting for any notes, tags, or the latest chapter they posted since it wasn't an official one.

To make this clearer, the word twin, referring to Rise Donnie and Leo specifically, was mentioned 64 different times. One chapter holding 13 mentions of them being twins alone.

Now, I don't know why in the world it needed to be mentioned 64 different times, but hey, it's none of my business. And I really wouldn't be bothered if being twins wasn't their one specific trait, especially around each other.

And it only gets worse in the new chapters. Everytime they mention each other it's like they are incapable of not calling the other their twin, and.. this thing annoys me to my goddamn core.

It doesn't matter, I know that, but it's so annoying to see people make Donnie and Leo being twins their one special thing even though they're not even twins in the dang show. Normally that wouldn't bother me, and it doesn't, but for you to reduce a character to a trait they canonically don't even have is just bizarre.

I'm not gonna mention the writer, and I hate criticizing writers or artists like this in general, but it's so unbelievably mind numbing to see Donnie and Leo get reduced to being twins over and over again as if it actually matters? All it is, is the day they were born. That's it! That's all, yet so many people are obsessed with making it an important factor?

They are so much more than just twins, and have so much more to them than a couple of traits in the show. Yet so many people just, ignore that? Especially in some fics?

Not to mention in the particular story, Raph and Mikey hardly ever appear unless it's for the same couple of jokes, and just leaves me longing for more development on them but nope! Gotta shove some more twin content in there!

I have absolutely no problem with people liking the Disaster Twins, and making stories centered around them, but they are so much more than just twins, and so much more than their relationship with each other. They have other family members too, acknowledge them.

This is not only with this particular author, this has happened multiple times and it's just plain annoying. If you like Leo and Donnie more, just say that. There's no reason you should add their brothers in, and then just discard them to the point they don't even seem like they are siblings anymore. They're just close friends at that point, and it's just angering for me.

I don't see it all that much anymore, but so many people still make Leo and Donnie being 'twins' in Rise this big thing when they aren't even twins, and probably wouldn't mention the fact they are if they weren't explaining their ages because it literally means nothing in the end. They're just brothers that happened to be born on the same day, that's it.

I'm not a twin myself, so I obviously can't speak for actual twins, but even the twins I've known personally hardly mentioned the fact they were twins other than to make a couple of jokes here and then. In no world should them being twins be so important to you that it's mentioned 64 different times. That's just insane.

It is different than simply having a sibling, I get that. Being twins is definitely different in a way, and comes with different experiences, but it should never be that important to the point they mention it 13 TIMES IN ONE CHAPTER.

Skipping past the slightly serious part, 64 different times?? Would they, like, forget if they didn't say it? Fr 13 times in one conversation? I don't think I've even done that with my proclaimed Twin before, because that's, that's just crazy.

#I truly mean no hate to the author I'm talking about. And I honestly have no real problems with their story I just find it annoying now #There's practically a twin joke every chapter and it's no longer funny at this point it's just expected. #I'm probably going to stop reading it but I just really get annoyed when chacters are reduced to specific traits. like they're so much more #And Raph and Mikey are practically just side characters compared to Leo and Donnie? I literally could not tell you their personalities #They're like ghosts. Hallucinations. Hardly there. And it's kind of sad because of how often people do that and ugghh #I have so many thoughts. #But really this was something that just bothered me and I decided to get it out because it happens so much #tmnt #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #stupid rant #sorry for the rant #rant #I'd live input because I feel like ass saying this.. but my main gripe is people reducing Donnie and Leo to being twins #“It's because they're twins!” HUH? Honey that's quite literally magical that has nothing to do with their twinnage please explain #If I'm in the wrong I'll admit it but I don't think I am so that's why this is just something that annoys ME and I hate encountering #If people love them being twins snd make something centered around it that's awesome and I've loved some stuff like that myself! #But they aren't ONLY twins and seeing this story mention the favt they were at every turn practically reduced them to nothing BUT twins #Raph and Mikey are sidelined so much it's crazy and it feels like they hardly exist sometimes compared to Leo snd Donnie who always appear #That's all really. It's just annoying. That's it so I ranted about it. I'm just going to draw more after this tbh #Okay.. actually much hate to the author because they're a TCESTER and blocked me which was very nice of them so.. yeah #Just don't hate on other people who do what I said in the main post but THAT WAS A PLOT TWIST I BEVER SAW COMING I'LL SAY THAT #I no longer feel bad for making fun of them this is the greatest turn of events that could've ever happened to me LMAO #But genuinely I still see that twin stuff a lot past the weirdo so I feel I'm still valid #long rant

[tolerateit]

deciding to take out glasses resting on your head in public is such a risk because that can either make me look cool as fuck or the frame could get tangled in my hair and make a mess i that i will then make worse by trying to fix the situation

#meg talks #The latter happens quite often tbh

[akkivee]

y’all, the only wife guy you need in your life is kannonzaka doppo forget about all the others

#this is vee speaking #rei would be viable too and i encourage this!!!!! wife guy rei!!!!!!! #but he kinda fcked up his kids sooooooooooooo lol #doppo tho often talks about his malewife like the sheer amount of arb lines he has dedicated to his malewife is absurd #quite literally explodes in anger if happens to him and pretty much can’t live without him tbh #forget about this one guy who liked to try things and made loving his wife his marketable personality only to be a whole ass creep #*gestures at doppo* this wife guy is the best wife guy lol #c: dop

[liquid-geodes]

What a way to learn your ex coworker (one of your favorite ones too mind you) thinks everyone who says they're autistic is using it as an excuse for being rude to people

Like brother, people shouldn't HAVE to get diagnosed before you believe them (her actual words) getting diagnosed can actually be super harmful to the person being diagnosed, as it's often times used against us in various ways

Yes there are just shitty people in the world who WILL claim to be to cover up the fact that they're just shitty, but not EVERY person who says it does

#i will literally be the first to admit that i come off as a shitty person quite often/can be blunt more times than not #and once its pointed out to me i do apologize when necessary. its a thing ive got to learn to identify or try to avoid when possible #its never going to go away. thats not how it works #idk it just rubbed me the wrong way to hear her say that. feels like she thinks im just a shitty person #i dont even think she knows im autistic tbh and if thats the case im GLAD she doesnt know #idk a lot has happened recently in this specific vein of thought that just has me feeling exceptionally shitty about myself #like im doing my best with it and its still causing problems. its still hurting the people i care about. its fucking exhausting #and its incredibly frustrating. im literally trying SO HARD to be better and its not working out in a way thats ideal #and now everything just feels extra shitty #im so tired. thats all

[astrxealis]

40 mil is the highest points i've had for gw ever tbh so i am proud of myself so far <3 also !! almost rank 175 >;D

anyways hi just small update/rambles uhm. i've been more productive w school but also school ew !!! and 6.3 is so fucking soon holy shit i am not ready at all & i hope this week i can finally start omori and/or p4g <33

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #still obsessed w p5. ALSO mcr music is so slay AND uh yeah that's mostly it. rlly obsessed w buncha kinds of rock music rn #i looooove rock <3 rock and orchestra are my favorite genres (i'm kinda into all kinds of music tho fr!) hehe <33 #i love my fire team now tbh. like. nemone & athena together is perfect imo and i'm glad i realized that a long time ago already #but woa me w having both michael and percival is absolutely amazing hehe #arghhhhhhh ... i wna play nier vv badly but i need to wait for lune yeah ? but anyways in reincarnation i have all the automata characters #which i'm vv glad about >;)) 9s refused to come home months ago but now he has and heheheheh i love him #tbh it's so hard to manage my time now bcs on saturdays i'm busy and then sundays should be my rest but we often go out as rest ?? #and i like it but also my gaming time and writing time and whatever time is lowkey a big Rest In Peace <//3 #I LOV MY FRIENDS but i haven't properly talked to. quite literally ANYONE for a bit now i'm so sorry #unless they approach me first somewhere that isnt social media of any sort or i've seen them irl bcs of school or yk my family or class #ive fixed my sched quite a lot but also there's still a lot to improve !! by the end of january i hope that i'm happy w my sched then <3 #okay small update OVER !! today was a pretty good day so far tbh uh. like bad shit happened but strangely i'm all okay !! <33 #like uhh ive been a bit more active in class and actually reciting more! i am usually vv shy and only just comment my answers if ever #BUT YEAH !!! and there was smth that was supposed to happen and my class forgot so i reminded them. and we're like 30 in class #okay rambles OVER !! im anxious still to open my notifs sorry i cant explain why bcs idk how but yeah. uh. if you want to contact me #for anything IDK HOW YOU SHOULD TBH. SORRY. but yeah !!! probably ask for my sideblog for mutuals ?? #but tbh i havent checked that in a bit too and just ramble sometimes. SORRY......

[softgrungeprophet]

amazing spider-man annual #5 add that to the list of comics in which peter is indirectly responsible for the death of someone trying to kill him lol

#peter my dude .... this was 1968 btw #nadia reads comics #personally i believe that the reason peter doesn't kill is quite complex and very purposeful #and i think that by nature goes hand in hand with the times he comes very close to it #or is indirectly or directly responsible for a death (i mean... uncle ben for one) #i think you can't have one without the other in peter's case personally #not to subtweet i just happened to read that yesterday and the push-pull of peter's violence vs mercy is always on my mind #on the flip side if anyone tries to debate me on this i will ignore you because it's frankly s conversation i am sick to death of #and i am sick to death of arguing with people trying to defend why i think it's not as simple as ''he doesn't kill ever'' #also re asm annual no5 i don't think this was that deep tbh i think they were trying to blow him up so he used them against themselves #and it happened to be in a goofy-serious 1968 issue about the drama of his parents so when the bad guy died he just walked away #do i think it would have been interesting for peter to respond to the fact that he indirectly killed this old dude #yes. do i think it was in character for him to just leave because he was laser focused on finding the truth abt his parents? also yes #also frankly no offense to stan but i don't typically expect a lot of depth of character or philosophy from him #regardless of peter knowingly leading a seeking torpedo to hit a vehicle with his adversaries inside of it instead of #idk a building or something --again i don't feel it's out of character esp given the context #though i do find it interesting #and is exactly what i talk about when i talk about him toeing and frankly often crossing the line #i find that historically over the past 60 years the no kill rule has NEVER been black and white or cut and dry #and he has broken it indirectly on many occasions (and beyond the jokes about videogame ''non-lethality'' 😂) #anyway idk what my point is but it's an interesting read and i like peter's itchy grandpa sweater outfit #such a handsome young man

[applesaucesea]

I finished watching season 4 of The Dragon Prince..!

It’s something.. to say the least. I’ve cringed more times then I can count and wanted to slap the characters on multiple occasions. But also it was nice to see how many grew during the 2 year gap in more ways than one. Like Soren, Rayla, and Ezran.

A lot happened in those 9 episodes but also it left many things unanswered and have me curious. But around the last few episodes it helped build up different aspects that will probably be revealed in the upcoming season.

Anyways. Not great at this stuff but I just wanted to share. I might add on to this, I might not. I feel like I’m being to harsh. But don’t get me wrong there were some great moments. Pulled an all-nighter so my brain isn’t working. Didn’t want too but things happened and life sucks so.

#hate me all you want but I always disliked Claudia. If they try to make her character somewhat redeemable I’m going to laugh. #It was nice for her to give back the Coins to Rayla but she wouldn’t have if it wasn’t for Terry calling her out on how cruel it was. #I started to tear up at that scene. Where Rayla just started to sob. That is her family. #I certainly didn’t think this would be the way she learned the truth on what happened to them and where they are. #she knew them as dead. Ethari knows them as dead. His husband and friends. #anyways.. #Zym is so big now! But still adorable. And Bait of course #It felt like it was the first season to a new series honestly #I remember disliking Soren in the first 2 seasons but now he’s a favorite surprisingly #Callum my boy! What did they do to your hair! #not a fan tbh but hey #I understand his frustration and sadness when Raya left but I didn’t expect him to be so cold and avoidant to her when they reunited #*Rayla #to the kid who voiced his feelings and concerns often and then becoming closed off is interesting #there were quite a number of things I wasn’t expecting #the dragon prince: mystery of aaravos #tdp #tdp spoilers

[chamaleonsoul]

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#ok so #year ago i quit smoking because it started making me feel very dizzy and nauseous. i wasn't even smoking that much anymore and #-tbh i've never had much trouble setting limits for myself (if anything- it's quite the opposite. i work on not being so hard on myself) #then. i think two years after i quit i decided to have a celebratory one- i ended up feeling so sick i threw up #so naturally i didn't smoke anymore for like... maybe other three years? #after that i'd do it ocassionally when going out (very very rarely) #about a year ago i quit drinking bc even though alcohol has Never been something i enjoy that much- one (1) incident- #(aka me getting so drunk by myself at home on a thursday- which ended up with me throwing up and blacking out #-smth that never happened to me- before) #that one incident felt like i took a step in a very wrong direction- and if i took another one... well. #so alcohol has been out of the equation (except for the ocasional beer while eating smth. so i'm not /sober/ per se but) and #my coping mechanisms have improved SO much and became so much healthier- but recently i've felt like smoking more often #at first it troubled me because i struggle with the 'it's all or nothing' mentality- but now i've made a deal w/ myself #only smoking (one- two tops) when i /don't/ feel bad emotionally #bc if i do it when i am feeling that way- it tends to make me sick (reminds me of when i was depressed and smoked A Lot) #and so far it's working. which makes me feel good #i know ideally i shouldnt do it bc it's bad for you ofc- but like i said- im working on not being so hard on myself #and trying to not strive for perfection- that has lead me to bad places #so yeah! i think i found my middle ground (: #personal #tw smoking

[roz-ani]

I hereby declare the 1995 "Pride and Prejudice" TV series to be the superior adaptation. Thank you. You are dismissed. Have a nice day ❤️

(rambling in the tags)

#yeah I'm writing this on impulse so buckle up #it goes without saying that tv series have the advantage when it comes the amount of plot covered and character exploration in general #but I don't understand the argument that the BBC pxp is emotionless? like... what happened to subtlety? #just because the characters don't yell at each other? #I would actually say that I didn’t feel that much engagement from the movie characters lol but tbh it's been a while since I saw the movie #not that the acting was poor although I remember not liking the movie Lizzy that much #OK THAT'S A DIFFERENT TOPIC #to be fair I like the lines like 'Most ardently' or 'You have bewitched me' because COME ON I'M JUST A ROMANTIC LOSER #and watching Bingley actually say 'hey I acted dumb I love you please forgive me' felt great #but I think the 1995 version is overall better at portraying the social behaviour and rules of that time #the 2005 movie was visibly made for the modern audience and I suppose the american one as well #is that a bad thing? absolutely not #I find the last scene from the movie quite sweet but it did feel (for the lack of a better phrase at the moment) out of place #because we so suddenly jumped to this great expression of emotions and I was like 'cute I guess? good for them!' #I've watched the movie before the series (finished it yesterday) so it had a bit more emotional value since I didn’t know the story #but I still believe the 1995 holds up really well and I would have no problem rewatching it #I have a thing where I believe a filmed piece is well done when you're able to rewatch it (which I don't do often in the first place) #would I rewatch the 2005 version? I suppose but I don't think I would enjoy it as much #I still have to read the book as well #I've only read som excerpts so far #it's worse for me cuz I feel like I have to read it in both English and Polish for better understanding XD #already ordered the English one AND MAY I JUST SAY THAT FINDING ONE WITH A NICE COVER WHICH ALSO WON'T COST MY ENTIRE SAVINGS IS IMPOSSIBLE #god dammit why are aesthetics a thing #gotta look for the translation now #anyway I think that's it #if anyone ever reads it XDDD #thank you for coming to my ted talk #pride and prejudice #mine

[match-your-steps]

if you're gonna have a weird unnecessary harem situation at least have some variety in there. like it can't all be jealous girls put some jealous guys in there too

#harem trope #tbh i kind of hate the harem trope #usually reverse harems too but i feel like those are done better more often so sometimes theyre ok #there's just so many girls (because it's always a guy and yk heteronormacy) #who like this totally average guy #he can be op in one way or another #but a lot of the time either his personality sucks or he's weak (often he's both regular nice and really strong tho) #and at 90% of the girls he meets fall head over heels for him for no particular reason #often dubious morality like a huge age gap or something is there too #and they're almost always super jealous of each other and way to conscious about him coming into contact with other girls #and if they're not jealous then they're like 'we'll share him I'll be glad to be his concubine 💕' #which is usually more tolerable than extreme jealousy #but also has weird vibes for stereotyping and objectification of women girls etc. #anyways yeah #i happen to like a genre that often has a lot of these harem trope things #i suffer every day #i cannot tell you how many series i have quit reading because i just couldn't stand the unnecessary weird harem thing #i cheer every time i become certain it's monogamous #and there is a defined love interest #not even because i hate polygamy i actually was polyamorous questioning for a long time #(until i figured out im aroace and just like having friends) #it's just that the non-monogamy is always weird and unbalanced because it's a super shallow harem situation #idc if your romance is a little shallow but at some point it's just objectification #anyways yeah if you're gonna make everyone pointlessly fall in love with a random average guy #then at least make one non-hetero serious pursuer of romance #and by serious i mean not like purely sex-focused or there as a gag #like being a ridiculous admirer of the random guy's muscles #that's one i think i actually see a lot #i mean but if he's so incredibly attractive that every female in the world is in love with him #then there's gotta be at least one gay person who thinks he's really hot right?

[insanechayne]

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#having to come to the realization that my closest friend is someone I’ve never technically met like in person #and I really don’t have anyone else in my life I can rely on the way I rely on him #or who treat me as kindly as he does #it’s not really the easiest thing to handle #it’s honestly pretty pathetic and just makes me want to cry #cause like why can’t I be normal and have normal friends like everyone else? #not that I don’t love this friend quite a lot #but it’s not the same #who do I go to when I need a hug you know? #who do I spend time with on a day off/weekend? #even the other people in my life that I’m very close to I often feel like I have to mask around #and it’s kind of killing me to feel like I can never really be myself or be accepted as myself with anyone #and tbh I think my period is gonna start soon so I’m sure this is all just hormonal bullshit #but it still hurts pretty bad all the same #and it’s the same for things like dating and having a relationship #that’s just not meant for me I guess #and I just want companionship because I’m lonely #but that’s clearly not going to happen for me either #because I either get blocked or ghosted or the connection fizzles out or they’re not willing to put in the same effort #and it’s just really hard because at some point you think it’s something wrong with you personally #and idk maybe it is me anyway #but still I just want like a normal life and it seems I’ll never actually get that #and I don’t know who to talk to about this #because how do I break this down and explain this to someone else when I already feel so pathetic and embarrassed? #sigh #I think I’m just meant to be alone #personal