#half a heart

[innocentsardonicpotatoes]

Saying "I miss you" can not express enough how empty I am without you, how you leave a void with your absence, and how my heart aches for you incessantly.

#spilled thoughts #poetic #words #miss you #missing him #sad thoughts #sadcore #absence #heartache #half a heart #half a soul #without you #lit #spilled words

[roseanddagger-28]

Ultimate Song Competition: One Direction edition

All of Round 1 battles

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#one direction #1dsongcompetition #1d round 1 #na na na #half a heart

[asunderly]

"l miss everything we do,

l'm half a heart without you."♫

#one direction #şarkı sözü #half a heart #music

[beepbeepdespair]

hey girls. did you know that um. i've got half a heart the rest of it's sitting in the graveyard buried by the lovers who were really undertakers left me with nothing but scars and maybe if you gave me part of yours i'd feel a little better i could love you for a lifetime but we'd be back at the start either way it's half a heart

#ok to reblog #as a songwriter this song is the definition of lyric envy. it fucks so so severely #music #ellise #over her dead body #half a heart #ellise gitas #ellise music #lyrics #song

[writingmoth]

💬

🖊️ + any character's name that starts with an A

- @duskforged

This is my secret: I did not see the end of the world. As the world broke and wailed like a dying beast, I walked through my forest in peace, watching young apprentices learn how to manipulate the blood of the now agonized Earth, their guardians hovering over them. They bowed to me when I approached, hope shimmering in their eyes just like it did in yours. It was easier for me to recognize such things back then, as it was to laugh and frown and build expressions from nothing, to shape my voice into questions. I was, slowly, becoming like your people, years of teaching the ways of earth-blood manipulation carving away at my nature.

from HALF A HEART, my short story in the COMMON BONDS anthology <3

i don't think i have a character whose name starts with A??? i think?? i'm trying to come up with someone but theres nothing </3

ty for the ask!

#half a heart #duskforged

[evilovesyou]

Only half a blue sky, kinda there, but not quite

I'm walking around with just one shoe

I'm half a heart without you

#gf vibes 💗 #you left today and I’m very dramatic #half a Heart #1d #mood board #mine #Personal

[1dsounds]

#one direction #midnight memories #midnight memories deluxe #half a heart #a*

[waterbendingwaves]

more than this 🤝 half a heart

same strings/liam intro

#half a heart #more than this #liam payne #one direction

[goldensunset]

people who go through the main tags of big and tumultuous fandoms looking for new fresh good posts to reblog are essential to any circle. they’re like true hunter gatherers leaving the safety of settlement and braving the unknown wilderness to find food for the flock. they risk their lives every day and will come back with a few scratches at best and severe psychological damage at worst

#peach rambles #hall of fame i guess #i love hearing everyone share their stories in the comments. me personally? this is about kingdom hearts #usually the main culprit is disdain and dusty old misogynistic takes for kairi (the main girl) #there's x reader occasionally #cursed content with random disney characters #or people who complain about how much the series has expanded #that don't understand that over half the story is contained in the so-called 'side games' #or just generally dusty takes that have been disproven already

[shadowtraveled]

"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.

but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)

mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…

the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.

every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.

first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.

which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.

the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.

walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?

well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.

you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?

it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.

when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.

and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.

kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.

yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #mithrun #dungeon meshi #this has been rotating for a while but i wanted to check my evidence before getting into it thanks user angelspenance for posting that meme #half of this is just the text and the other half i'm sure has been said before but it's making my brain [radio static] so here this is #someone did for sure mention this but i do find it very cute that in his fucked up conjured world meant to portray his ideal reality #his teammates came to visit him. like part of the fantasy was then explicitly that they cared about him and were his friends. even though #he says he tried to see the worst in them. #hm it does feel important to note that i do also believe 100% in mithrun suicidality--his desire to be eaten does seem to focus a lot on #wanting it to be Over. wanting not to be left incomplete and empty anymore. #but that loops back around a bit to the hole in your heart that appears when you feel unloved. it's many things and the same thing at once #snakes #long post #severe problems #meshy

[innocentsardonicpotatoes]

A melancholy so profound that the heart weeps,

Yet the eyes remain dry, and all the comes out is a sigh so deep.

The soul knows, the brain surrenders

But hope fights to survive, warm from the embers.

Oh my misery, oh my heart,

How do you live on, with your other half so far apart?

#3 am thoughts #spilled thoughts #poetic #??? i think #words #half a heart #half a soul #without you #melacholy #poetry? #rhyme #i tried #it's so and so #lit #prose poetry #hopecore #embers #alive #soul #soulmates #romanticism #sadness #ldr #long distance love #long distance friendship #more than friends #far apart #distance #overthinking

[roseanddagger-28]

Ultimate Song Competition: One Direction edition

All of Round 2 battles

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#one direction #1dsongcompetition #1d round 2 #more than this #half a heart

[themadamemismatch-blog]

90 days since

#painting #half a heart

[thelonebrotato]

Anyone here a healer? I'm down to half a heart and the fucking beeping is driving me nuts.

#sigmadick #digiorno #lgbtq #video games #mmorpg #legend of zelda #half a heart #If i sneeze wrong I die #I am currently dealing with that kind of seasonal depression that makes me rewatch cartooons I have already seen 100 times

[writingmoth]

💬💬💬

You come in the dawning of my three hundredth year alone. Your presence in my kingdom is but a reverberation in my mind, an echo of movement and energy that sinks into the flow of the forest easily, mixing with the hundreds of souls linked to me as if you have always been here. But you have not, and the newness of you jolts me from my slumber, my eyes opening to the sunlight filtering through the trees to reveal a mess of green and yellow and deep, reddish brown. It’s summer again and the birds’ songs flow through my veins as the forest grows and dies, rejoicing under the reigning star. I can feel them all: the worms deep inside the Earth under my hands, the foxes hiding in the bushes, the whisper of the serpent in the grass. They are all mine and I’m theirs but you are not. You are new. You are an intruder.

from HALF A HEART, my short story in the COMMON BONDS anthology <3 ty!!

#akiwitch #half a heart

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

I absolutely rushed to draw this as soon as I saw this post by the lovely @rosekasa

#this might be the fastest i've ever drawn something and it was just a half assed comic that i somehow put my heart and sould into 💀 #cole's art #miraculous ladybug #chat noir #ml ladybug #ml chat noir #ladybug and chat noir #egg adrien agreste #adrien agreste #trans adrien agreste #nathalie sancoeur #this was very fun but i'm very sleep deprived #i'm literally just a girl #she's so me #chat noir fanart