#guess i'll die then bc i'm not looking THAT in the face. i am NOT unpacking my cowardice/failure/lack of vision after all these years.

[stealingpotatoes]

The last episode of Ahsoka-

Literally- blow my mind- I had to stand up at least 3 times cause I was just so ???!!!!! !?!?!?!?!?!?!!??

Words can’t describe

The feeling that felt - xD

YEAH IM GONNA GO INSANE UNDER THE CUT ONE SECOND:

BITING THE FUCKING DRYWALL. BITING THE DRYWALL GNAWING CLAWING AND EATING IT. IM JUST. WHEN THE STAR WARS IS GOOD!! WHEN THE FANSERVICE ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE!!!! LIKE YES WE GOT TO SEE TCW ANAKIN AND TCW AHSOKA IN LIVE ACTION BUT IT ALSO ADDED TO THE STORY AND GAVE US CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT FOR AHSOKA AND SAID YEAH, THE FUN TONE OF CLONE WARS WAS BC THE CHARACTERS COULDN'T DEAL WITH IT ANY OTHER WAY. THEY WERE PEACEKEEPERS AND CHILD SOLDIERS WATCHING FRIENDS DIE ON THE DAILY AND IF THEY DIDNT JOKE THEN THE GRIEF WOULD TAKE OVER. AND THEY DONT SEE THAT IN THE MOMENT BUT ADULT AHSOKA REALISES HOW STRANGE IT IS

AND YEAH HAVING HER PLAYED BY A CHILD (also wow ariana greenblatt does such a good job i literally cant not imagine her when i think of babysoka now) RLLY DRIVES HOME HOW YOUNG SHE WAS. HOW FUCKED UP IT WAS. BUT ALSO WHAT THE CONSEQUENCES OF WAR ARE!! ALL THIS SAID WHILE FORCE SENSITIVE CHILD JACEN'S SO HEAVILY IN THIS EPISODE. AND W THE KANAN MENTION!!!! LIKE ITS POINTING OUT LOOK THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS IN WAR AND IF AHSOKA DOESN'T END THIS THEN JACEN WILL HAVE TO BE LIKE HER AND HIS FATHER AND I AM ONCE AGAIN BITING AT THE DRYWALL. IT DIDNT JUST GIVE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IT GRABS YOU BY THE FACE AND SAYS THE RETURN OF THE EMPIRE IS SERIOUS. WAR IS SERIOUS. ITS NOT THE CARTOON YOU GREW UP WITH.

AND ALL OF ANAKIN JUST GESTURES TO ALL OF THAT. HAYDEN SLAYED SERVED CUNT THROUGHOUT HE'S SUCH A GREAT ANAKIN NOW HE HAD SO MUCH RANGE TO THE CHARACTER AND THE FLICKERING ANIVADER AND RED LIGHTSABER. HE'S BOTH AT ONCE AND AHSOKA HAS TO ACCEPT THIS AND IM EATING DRYWALL AGAIN.

calming down for 2 seconds the cinematography was great this episode and the pacing was a definite improvement from ep1, which filoni also directed! this played into his directing strengths a lot better w the action and emotion. i won't lie i'm still not sold on the show as a whole i do think eps 1-3 were okay i guess, 4 was a step up and 5 is like. wow ok go girl. also the way they used anivader in this episode made me rlly sad for the kenobi show bc that show should've been smthn like this, using him as a vision for obi-wan's development instead of the villain of the show bc thats a tired fight but hey! this is abt ahsoka not kenobi i digress. SPEAKING OF loved how it was actually ABOUT the titular character for once. anyway. going insane. i don't have too much faith the show can keep this up but i'll be happy if it can reach smthn close to this as it goes on

#ahsoka spoilers #thanks for the ask!

[amourkive]

MINECRAFT | PJM

a/n:hi babies !! I decided to just fluff dump for the rest of the members before writing anything else bc I love soft fics as much as I love angst. thank you for the support you've been showing me for the last two fics, I really appreciate it, stay gold⁷ -miri

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"I am simply trying my best here, Minnie. I don't understand what else you want from me." You muttered, dropping the remote, pouting at the screen a few feet away from the both of you.

"I know, hun. But I really need you to hand over those gold ingots...just press the circle button, please. I know you worked hard for them but I promise once I kill the ender dragon, I'll build you a kingdom." He pleaded, his block character standing in front of you in a crouched position, as he turned to face you.

"It took me three hours to get ten gold ingots! forget the kingdom I want your diamonds!" you exclaimed, hitting his character with yours. He gasped, hitting you back. "My diamonds?! are you crazy!"

You giggled, hitting his character again, running off to a village that was nearby, "i guess im crazy to want them! Diamonds for gold ingots. your choice, min."

He started chasing after you, thinking momentarily, "ugh fine! I'll give you all my diamonds," he turned to face you, a serious look plastered on his face, "Do.Not.Lose.The.Diamomds. Baby, not to be all gamer mode on you but these diamonds mean a lot to me...."

You looked at him, nodding. "I won't lose them. I'll guard them with my life!" you promised, smiling as he dropped his twenty-three diamonds to give to you. Picking them up, you then dropped your ten gold ingots for him to pick up, and then he was off to kill the ender dragon.

You decided on making a house for the both of you to live in when he came back from his adventure. It wasn't a good looking one, but it was one nonetheless, and 'it's the thought that counts' Jimin added, placing a soft kiss on your cheek.

After a couple of minutes, you had gotten distracted by jimin's side of the screen, watching intently as he handled his way into defeating the dragon. "w-woah, Minnie! Be careful you're gonna die!" you exclaimed, sitting up straighter, waiting for the arrival of 'you died' to pop up on screen.

Instead, all you got was a chuckle, as he ate some food he saved up, before continuing on. You were never a big fan of Minecraft, but watching Jimin play was a whole different ballgame. It was interesting and honestly nerve-wracking.

"I'm fine, baby. Look!" he pointed to the screen for a second, and right when you looked, he placed one last hit on the dragon, watching as it cried out in anguish, purple hues coming from its body as it flapped its wings for the last time.

"You did it!" You cheered, arms thrown up in the air, as if you were celebrating a huge accomplishment. Which in this case, was.

"Yes!" Jimin cried out, standing up, grabbing your hands to get you up on you feet as he swung both your arms around. "I did it! No-We did it! If it weren't for your ingots baby, I would have never gotten what I needed."

You laughed, shrugging, "I have no idea what that has to do with this but yay! We did it!" After dancing around the room for a moment, you both sat down, catching your breaths, staring at the screen, as the end credits of Minecraft played.

It was quiet when Jimin turned to you, grabbing your hand, "We make a great team, baby." Blushing, you looked at him smugly, "we make one helluva team!" and with a soft fist bump, you both grabbed your remotes, and continued on playing.

#bts fanfic #bts x reader #jimin #park jimin #jimin fluff #bts fluff #bts #bts jimin #fluff #soft fic

[lets-try-some-writing]

Your CC Warfare fic legit had me stressing out so bad I thought I was feeling a genuinely new emotion, lol. That whole thing was like a really bad car crash: it's terrible what happened, but you can't look away. If Strongarm had just said nothing, she would've avoided putting her foot in her mouth and getting in trouble. With how tense everything was, I see no reason why she would jump in. I understand she was trying to help Sideswipe out of that situation, but she did it in like the complete opposite direction! She should've reared him in, not back him up. She said it herself that they were war veterans. Though, I suppose that's easier said. Strongarm may be intelligible of the war records and Autobot law, but truthfully, plain intelligence pales in the face of wisdom and actual experience. Intelligence says: this war could've easily been won because of xyz. Wisdom and experience say completely otherwise. And I guess that is one of the points Optimus is trying to make: that Strongarm and Sideswipe do not have the wisdom or experience to understand exactly why things played out the way they did. I have the feeling the two simply looked at the war records itself and not any history that came before, especially Optimus' involvement with Megatron's revolution. I don't know if that would make much of a difference for Sideswipe tbh but I think Strongarm would be able to see just a little why Optimus couldn't outright kill Megatron in the beginning like Sideswipe said he should've. Even so, going back to the records itself , it won't contain legitimately every single thing that happened. It probably only recorded decisive battles and notable events. Billions of people were involved, and with that many variables, it would be impossible to say that the war could've been won if only Optimus did something sooner. WHICH BY THE WAY MAKES THIS SO MUCH WORSE. Sideswipe (and by extension Strongarm) is basically saying that Optimus is personally responsible for dragging on an intergalactic war just because he didn't off one guy as if the most wicked bots in the face of existence werent out there making lives worse on purpose under the cover of the war and would help stretch it to continue their sick actions. As if there weren't a hundred other Megatrons ready to continue the war themselves the moment Megatron died. If I could write an essay on every reason why the war dragged on, I'll be writing until I die and never come close to finishing. Even within the small game Optimus planned there are obvious reasons why it wouldn't be a quick or easy victory if they even win: limited number of fighters (no guarantee they'd hit the max min bc rallying people to fight is difficult), no details until they got to Helex (you're not always going to know what your goal is when being sent out to fight), no resources from the state (war is expensive and getting funding is difficult). So imagine that plus way more reasons plus on a planetary scale. The scope is simply unfathomable. Anyways, I think this comment has gone on long enough lol. Excellent work as always and I'm excited but also incredibly nervous to see how this all plays out. Take care!

YOU ARE PICKING UP WHAT I AM LAYING DOWN!!!

This whole fic is one giant show. Optimus wants the idiots under Bee's control to LEARN. You've already picked up the logical reasoning behind the rules he's laid down so far. And let me tell you, its only going to get more complicated. War is a difficult and unpredictable thing. Optimus is going to make that as real as possible in this non-lethal scenario.

Is it overkill? Maybe. But if even those serving under Bumblebee don't have the barest inkling of the truth? It hints at a FAR larger problem. I am going to have so much fun writing this thing. I want to get a few chapters stockpiled and then I will post them on Ao3 and continue there :3

Thank you for enjoying my writing and giving this lovely analysis. This sort of things makes my dad and encourages me to write more.

#lets try some writing mumbles

[jinkicake]

Ik he’s so rough but in a soft way!! Abyss aether having an unreadable expression while having you suck on his fingers👀 like he just sighs like it’s a chore to him but his dick is as hard as a rock! When you’re riding him he’s trying so hard to keep a straight face bc the leader of an abyss can’t be seen looking like a whore w his eyes rolled back and drooling rambling about how deep he is😔 letting you top every once in a while he has to make a pocket dimension bc he will die of embarrassment and then kill half the abyss creatures if they hear him moaning “use me please, you’re fucking me so deep” “I can’t cum anymore please slow down!” Rip to him I guess bc if I’m stuck in the abyss I need someone to gossip with😭 so one of the abyss lectors will have to be my mandatory bestie! Makes sure your eyes are at the back of your head bc I mean he’s supposed to be cruel and mean he can’t have you seeing the love in his eyes when he’s got you folded in half🙄 very much “you feel me here don’t you?” Hmmm definitely very sensitive but he’s always on guard naturally so if you manage to kiss his jaw by surprise or slip your fingers under his waistband he will get super red and gets hard almost instantly 🥰

you need to show me good fanart of him tooo because I'll admit I am not that big of an aether fan, I'm sorry to say it! he's cute and i love the fanart i see of him but sigh how could I ever look away from kaeya!!!

EEEEEEEEEK that reminds me of a dio smut I once read when you r!de him on a stupid fucking throne chair and he looks sooooo bored but hes obvi not bored bc hes fucking you.... i see the vision!!!!

now wait a min.... catching the abyss twin off guard sounds TOO good..... STOPPPPP youre making me interested in aether, i refuse! i won't do it!!!

#sarahandoikawatalkshit #xiaos spicy almond tofu

[eemcintyre]

"Seawolf: The Pirate's Curse" (2005) review

Surprisingly, honestly... why did I enjoy this? I guess after a couple of major misses for me in the form of "The Kidnapping" and "Beyond Forgiveness", my expectations were appropriately low, but this one actually had some likable characters and humor, and that always manages to rope me in. I have a soft spot for fun, silly action fare like this bc of childhood shows like "The Greatest American Hero", I think.

So, the title never makes any sense... what was it supposed to mean? what curse?

First and foremost, I must say TIG is looking oh-so-very pretty and rugged here- the necklaces, the bandanas, the curly-q hair, the tank tops, the sweaty, the ARMMMSSSS 😩

Initially had absolutely no clue what was going on in the beginning; a bunch of people with weird ass outfits in the dark and I was just like please no don't let that be him in the damn fucking cape and eyepatch and o n e l e g; I was like he can't possibly have one leg the whole time, right?? 🤨

But yeah I was definitely experiencing the "dear God what did I get myself into, cheers to another awful mess" 🫡🥂

Why does half the audio sound dubbed (particularly everything that comes out of Rachel's mouth)? Also props to Rachel for being the most emotionally unaffected person ever bc her reactions were so disproportionately calm to what would happen if my bf was constantly disappearing overseas and totaled my gorgeous pink car

We're getting some very Max Parrish-type hooting and hollering up in here; a concise summary of Thorpe is that he's basically if Max had a boat and was an alcoholic instead of a drug addict

We get another hallmark of TIG's movies with a slew of incredibly cringe one-liners that elicit a physical reaction of pain from me, but for every few there was actually a genuinely funny one here and there, so I'll allow it this time...

The whole "I'm a pirate, my father was a pirate, etc." speech had me ROLLING and NOT IN THE WAY THE WRITERS INTENDED I THINK BC HUH??

When he met Helene in that random room full of paintings I was sure we were supposed to take it that the mission was smth art theft-related. but no she just has a passion for maximalist design ig.

Why does the camera get randomly shaky for no reason? Very avant-garde of them

Am I the only one who thinks that Carlos looks like a Walmart George Clooney? Someone else pls tell me I'm not insane

Always throws me off-guard but it's such fun to see TIG in an uncharacteristically light scene like the one where he's dancing in the parade and surrounded by the circle of dancers in the bar. At least he seemed like he was having a good time in this movie 🎉

Ramon and his lil book and the bar scene of Thorpe and Helene drunkenly arguing w each other and sitting on the side of the road was what really started to sell me

anD THEN HE FKIN DR A G S HER ASS 😂

Plus I cannot go without mentioning my appreciation for the way he was holding her knee 👀💕

Love how he spends the majority of this movie just dressed like someone's hot dad who works out, in his cargo shorts, tank top and goatee- oH WAIT IT'S BC HE IS A HOT DAD WHO WORKS OUT IN REAL LIFE

Love how Carlos and all the other villains are devoid of personality or motive except for ~money~, like "the Colonel" doesn't even have a name!!!

Was genuinely stressed that my boy was going to clock himself in the head when he was swinging that rope trying to scale that building

When Helene straight-up PUNCHED HER SISTER IN THE FACE like these ladies have some beef and I need to know where it stems from

This film is another great example of TIG's grossly underutilized comedic potential- a là the map reading scene

Hilarious how Carlos just shrugs like "I don't care, whatever I guess" when who he believes to be Marlena says she wants to say a dramatic goodbye to Thorpe

Ok but how did he not die?? Thank goodness but how??

Even more hilarious how the Colonel, who has had nothing but hatred and murderous intent for Thorpe throughout, is just so touched by Thorpe's being a ✨ big softie with morals ✨ that his vengeful compulsions are soothed and he's content with taking the gold like "hey bro, we're square now <3" and just fuckin walks away

Good on them for giving the treasure back to Mexico

Was legit concerned for too long there that they weren't actually going to end up together and I was screeching

DO THEY ACTUALLY USE THE SAME SHOT OF THE BOAT AT SUNSET IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MOVIE AND AT THE END?? lmaooo

Honestly, I think they could have leaned even more into the humorous aspect and the treasure hunt part of the film; made it a bit more of a National Treasure/Indiana Jones sort of thing, and I definitely would have liked some more character development, esp. for the sidekicks and villains, but overall, I award this film an unexpected 6/10. I had a good time 🙃🩷

#thomas ian griffith #the pirate's curse #seawolf #seawolf: the pirate's curse #jeffrey thorpe #film review #movie review

[icedmetaltea]

Ngl I feel kinda somber now that it's Officially November...

(just sad thoughts)

All I have to look forward to is Thanksgiving and Christmas, both of which are family-themed holidays if that makes sense and it just makes me remember I'm now not in contact with my sibling. I may not even be staying with my parents by christmas, I may be back in my old apartment all alone or at a new one, still alone.

It wouldn't have mattered even if my sibling was still staying there, they were going to go on a vacation to Europe through christmas this year so I would've been alone anyways.

And like... due to climate change n all, September and October here were basically still summer. It's only now starting to feel consistently cold. I only have November, December, January and maybe February to look forward to before it starts warming up again and with it my anxiety, which I've only just now gotten under control.

It feels like I'm having shorter and shorter timeframes during the year (cool or cold months) where I'm not having horrific anxiety and ya know feel ok with the whole being alive thing. If I have to wait for just a small fraction of the year to not feel like dying, then like what's the point in living?? It becomes a quality of life problem at that point.

If you spend so much of your time just surviving, it's not really living, now is it?

It's just impending doom hanging over me, nothing new there. Now that my sibling is close to moving I have to worry about where I'll live by the end of the month, about financial aid and getting back into school (online if possible), getting a part time job for the first time, living alone for the first time, if I can get back on ebt... so many fucking things. Which ofc doesn't help with the suicidal thoughts. And ofc my mom had to bring up how all the war with palestine is seeming like The End Times according to the bible and my existential anxiety did not like that.

If god's real (the one my parents believe in anyway) I am of course going to hell. If god's real they're evil, or at least apathetic to the world's suffering, so I have to contend with both a god that hates me and a devil that loves making people suffer. I keep telling myself it's not real but ya know religious trauma and all that shit... Like I want to just turn off my emotions and remind myself if it is real Ok I guess I'll Die and Burn in Hell tm but at the same time it's like why not just make it quicker while I'm having and have so many guns around me.

Don't worry tho this year was the worst my depression or anxiety's ever been and I didn't attempt suicide even during the worst of panic attacks (tho it was tempting, and I couldn't exactly move enough to reach for anything dangerous) so at this point future me prolly won't. And hopefully I can continue speaking to the therapist I'm seeing even when I move.

I just fucking wish my parents would stop reminding me that half this country doesn't believe in climate change and thinks Israel is the victim in the war going on and all this other shit like can you BE ON MY SIDE FOR ONCE PLS. But no I'm just a stupid young person I guess, what do I know, what's my word compared to THE BIBLE or facebook or where ever she gets her info...

And ofc my therapist brought up a good point, aside from my parents and sister I genuinely have nobody irl I can turn to when things go sideways. I don't know if I ever will. When I say I have a resting murder face and an aura that makes people stay away from me I'm not joking and she rlly thinks it's all just a negative view of myself, but it's true. People are scared of me I think, always have been, it's just the vibe I give off.

So I will continue my life without friends and without people who will believe me when I talk about stuff like climate change and that is that. That's not to say I don't cherish online friendships, but I mean just like people I can depend on to really be there, to take me in if I genuinely can't take care of myself, bc it got like that for months and I couldn't so much as wash my own dishes or myself and I don't want to be alone when it happens again, and I know it fucking will.

But yea, I figured i should write this all down while it's fresh on my mind so I can reference it before my next appointment in two weeks...

#irl stuff #vent #Metaltea talks #tw suicide #tw depression #tw anxiety #tw religion

[zombieskae]

I need to tlak about this or I'll die.

I mean

I had my first kiss yesterday, age 21, in the year 2024.

I have had first kisses before, with friends, it didn't feel quite as much of a thing.

Also there was tongue.

And we cuddled some time after the first one.

There were many kisses, I'm probably gonna die tomorrow.

Because i felt so nervous, so drunk (i was drunk) but like- she was so cute, she was so sweet and soft. And so careful.

And the thing is like, i was not ready, i saw it coming, but i could have never been ready to share a kiss with so much wanting, with so much liking.

And while I've liked her for a time, it didn't seem right, because we've only met for a month....

Back to the kiss, it was soft, but i suddenly forgot how to breath and her breath was tickling my face, soft but fast, apparently. Also forgot i had my tongue piercing, but I didn't feel a thing except her soft tongue on my mouth, it was so–

I'm dying.

I'm sure.

This is a long post just to brag about my experience, but please, bear with me for a moment.

She was laughing softly, as we hugged and I managed to caress her hair.

And then i broke out because i was too nervous, and i wish i were sober, because then i would be able to remember clearly, even in the dark of my living room, how her eyes looked right after.

I wish i were more sober, but i just guess i wouldn't have had the courage to accept her proposal to kiss when she said it.

The thing, really, is what happened after we went back to the party, when i told her to go to sleep on my room, (we really had no other place except the floor) and i wanted her to be as comfortable as she could.

I kissed her again, a little peck on her lips, the only way i know how to do it. And she responded with a soft look.

I left her to sleep and went back, bc my friends had trouble sleeping, so i went to them, only to find a message after, asking if i wanted to cuddle.

Damn right i wanted!

But i had to solve so much before. It was five am when i managed to go to her.

Five thirty, more like.

But- we kissed, we cuddled, she hugged me, i hugged her and reasured her she was fine, because she was trembling. I asked if she was alright, she said she was fine, and that it was just nervousness. So i trust her, and even if my brain wants me to think otherwise, i will do my part and trust her words.

I kissed her head, as softly as i could, while i also tangled my fingers in her hair.

#first kiss #lesbian #probably the death of me #and the beginning of a new era of poetry #for me #art #literature #poetry #love #literature lgbt #lgbt

[fettuccinewrites]

I AM HERE to give a fic review nobody asked for but i have no one else to talk about it

I have finished CWM couple hours ago and i've been obsessing over it ever since. Firstly would like to point out that cwm was already in my reading list and when i decided to start reading it after sending you that first ask i kept asking myself "why didn't i read it sooner?" cause i do have a severe case of love square brainrot and i have an unresolved passion with ice skating so why haven't i read that indeed.

Then I got the scene in which Adrien's ed is revealed and it was a big OH THAT'S WHY moment for me. I have been recovering from an ed myself for years and i try to avoid the topic because i dont think i'm there yet yk? ANYWAYS. That did make my reading take a little longer than planned, out of caution really, but nothing i couldn't handle (my therapist will be very proud). On that note, I would like to apologize for needing to skip some of the more in-depth ed related parts, but to also congratulate you on the way you handled the subject. I don't usually feel safe reading these type of stories, but cwm was an exception due to your writing and story telling skills.

MOVING ON cause i feel cringey talking about my ed but you really deserve the praise for this

It really is amazing how well you are able to sell rivals to lovers narrative. dymdc and cwm both had me invested in their rivalry. It didn't feel forced, the progression of the relationship had incredible pacing and the reasons behind were believable. Like, writing this trope is so hard because it's easy to fall in traps of the narrative – not making the rivalry strong enough or making it too strong and having to bullshit a reason to end it – but you do it SO WELL. LIKE. i actually don't have words, I keysmashed three times over this so yeah i guess that's what i have to say.

Something I would also like to point out: the choice of performances. bruh. You matched the characters vibes to the choreographies so well. Like I know nothing about the fem skater from the 2010 phantom of the opera but I can see Lila so clearly in her expressions that makes me want to punch her in the face. The way the snake dance has Kagami's seriousness and precision and Luka's edge and style. *chefs kiss*

Now on the note of Moulin Rouge for Adrienette, i feel like keysmashing is not enough i need to bark. The way the story of the performance is a parallel to their relationship AND andrien's condition. Part of me thought he was going to die. I lost cound how many times I cried while reading this and I wish I could have recorded the way i GASPED when they came in twelfth. Had me shaking and tearing up ngl.

The one thing i did not understand tho was why Marinette kept that Gabriel remade their costumes a secret. Like I get Adrien making his piece with the relationship with his bio father, and deciding not to pursue one with him anymore, but Marinette not telling him felt a little shady for me. Maybe I missed something, but I don't think that shutting that door was up to her. I like the ending for Gabriel and Adrien, but idk maybe i just don't like that Marinette kept it a secret from him.

Alright I think I've said enough for one ask holy shit look at the size of this so i'm gonna stop it here. I think I said everything I wanted to say, but if I remember anything else – and I'm still welcome in here –i'll come back to dump more unrequited opinions.

Thank you so much for sharing your amazing work with us 🧡

omg! thank you!! one thing about me is i LIVE for long comments, particularly about cwm (my forever favorite story) so you are always welcome

i figured the ed parts would be difficult for some people to read, so they are 100% skippable & i’m glad you were able to take advantage of that and still enjoy the story ❤️

i love that you actually went and looked up the performances bc i just feel like it enhances the reading experience so much??? moulin rouge felt like the ONLY choice for them, i am soooo glad the parallels were noticed bc it was very much my intention :)))))

re: costumes… really just needed to wrap up that plot line and didn’t know how else to do it haha. I’d spent far too long on it already, and thought of it as like a parting gift kinda thing? A was done with G so (in my head) she didn’t see a reason to tell him, i guess. 🤷🏻‍♀️

anywayyyyy always happy to talk cwm! or writing! or dymdc! or anything else <3333

[herequeerexitentialfear]

Three-song playlist

Rules: Compile three-song playlists for as many OCs as you can/would like to

thank you @dujour13 for the tag!!

under a read more bc I'm doing all of them<3 and taking a leaf out of your book and doing three for Celia and Cecios sibling relationship too!

if anyone hasn't been tagged and wants to do it, take this as a tag!

Mura

Dangerous

Are you dangerous? With your measure of proof Thoughts are slivers of gold Abscond with the truth

How does it feel To be your own deceiver? Signals raised Then lost to the aether

Los Ageless

In Los Ageless, the winter never comes In Los Ageless, the mothers milk their young But I can keep running No, I can keep running The Los Ageless hang out by the bar Burn the pages of unwritten memoirs But I can keep running No, I can keep running

Red Right Hand

He'll wrap you in his arms, tell you that you've been a good boy He'll rekindle all the dreams it took you a lifetime to destroy He'll reach deep into the hole, heal your shrinking soul, but there won't be a single thing that you can do

Georgie

I Chose the Road

i dont ask for riches to furnish my days, when ive got the dawn and the soft evening haze so i chose the road, oh for me a life of being born to be slow, the green hills in the distance are calling me home, oh for me a life, of being born to be slow under the open sky

my convictions are strong and my vision i true, ive bowed to no man and i'll not kneel to you a life in your pocket is a life behind bars, but out here by my fire you can see all the stars

If I Ever Found Love

[i haven't transcribed this song yet]

Winter Mist

among the silent oaks a ragged army of free hearted folk stand against you armed only with what is true your power is obsolete no more of you need come through

traitors! how dare you come here to break this place? you'll die alone with your empty eyes your kids will leave you as you left them with the end of times

Celia

Insight

Guess your dreams always end. They don't rise up just descend, But I don't care anymore, I've lost the will to want more, I'm not afraid not at all, I watch them all as they fall, But I remember when we were young.

Training Montage

I'm doing this for revenge I am doing this to try and stay true I'm doing this for the ones We had to leave behind, I'm doing this for you I'm doing this for you

Volatile Times

I drove through countries like a marching funeral In the search of fools and utopias Along the lonely roads with all the empty human souls Filling their heavy hearts With slum religion and Coca-Cola Every book is read and I'm paralyzed Every fist is clenched, but I'm so tired

Goodbye my friends Goodbye to the money Adieu to the fuckers that think that it's funny I just want to turn the lights on in these volatile times

Cecio

Adam Raised a Cain

All of the old faces Ask you why you're back They fit you with position And the keys to your daddy's Cadillac

You're born into this life paying For the sins of somebody else's past

Now he walks these empty rooms looking for something to blame But you inherit the sins, you inherit the flames

Open the Gate

So open the gates I'm here to prove I'm better than my father was And where he came from too Open the gates I'm here to ride To Hell I Go With daddy by my side

And I ain't never feared nothing That was four-legged and bucking Throw me on a hurricane And I'll ride it to the coast You'll never know that your son Came to do what you should've done On a summer day a long time ago Top a bull named To Hell I Go

Good Boy

I never promised affection Don't tell me what this is I've got so much to give I've got so much to give

'Cause I'm a good boy I'm here to help you out out of your clothes and into self doubt

Celia & Cecio

Children's Work

But I've learned how to paint my face How to earn my keep How to clean my kill Some nights I still can't sleep The past rolls back, I can see us still You've learned how to hold your own How to stack your stones But the history's thick Children aren't as simple As we'd like to think

Adam Raised a Cain

We were prisoners of love, a love in chains He was standin' in the door I was standin' in the rain With the same hot blood burning in our veins

Insight

Yeah we wasted our time, We didn't really have time, But we remember when we were young.

And all God's angels beware, And all you judges beware, Sons of chance, take good care, For all the people not there, I'm not afraid anymore

#thank you again for the tag Dujour!! #this was a fun lil exercise! #<3 #celia #gold & silver #mura hagdaughter #cecio #georgie heartwood

[i-write-you-songs]

i got a random burst of energy at like midnight last night and wrote this

its based off of the comics that @rollthewhatever made bc their art is so pretty and its very well written

anyways yeah here you go

Air.

Janus couldn't breathe.

Of course, after all of this: getting stuck in this god forsaken place- with Virgil nonetheless- and loosing his hat and gloves, getting pulled my his caplet was quite a way to top it off.

He'd been sitting there, laughing with  at Virgil when he felt a cold presence- like someone had snapped a rubber band on the back of his neck before he felt hands grip his shoulders.

"Ah, shit." He hissed.

He was yanked back within a moment, the sudden pressure on his throat startled him and his back slammed against the floor as he was dragged back, panic rising in his chest as his heart pounded, fighting off the urge to scream as scenery flashed past his vision.

Virgil was suddenly right there, screaming and chasing after him, yelling.

Janus grabbed at Virgil aimlessly, arm stretched out but he was then dragged faster, the pressure on his throat exceeding to the extreme.

He clawed at the clasp, jaw stretched wide as he gasped for air before he got the button undone.

His head slammed down against the floor, an explosion of pain erupting from the back of his head and a wave of exhaustion washed over him.

"Get up! Get up!" Virgil reached out to grab him hit froze, eyes locked on something over Janus's shoulder.

He felt like he was choking on his terror, but Janus managed to cough out a 'cute' as he glanced back before Virgil grabbed him and hauled him off, sprinting the other way.

Janus's mind went blank as he ran, panting and feeling like he plain wanted to just cry. 

Once they were hidden, it took the two a moment to catch their breath.

"Janus, take off your clothes."

The words startled the side.

He pressed his hands over his chest.

"Virgil..." resorting to sarcasm would probably be the only reason why he isn't crying right now "I know you love me but... right now?"

The look on Virgils face was priceless and Janus let out an actual laugh.

"Just like old times, isn't it? Its been a while since we laughed like that." Janus snorted.

"No, you were laughing at me."

Virgil huffed, his ego clearly bruised as a blush spread across his face.

"May i ask you something?"

After a few moments of denying a question, Virgil succumbed.

"Why do you care about me so much?" Janus felt a tug at the bottom of his fictional heart, a soft look spreading across his face. 

"Wh... what?" Virgil looked astounded.

"You saved me, several times. When that thing appeared, when I lost my gloves, and just a bit ago..." Janus looked down for a moment. "Isn't it weird, you wanted to get rid of me, but you saved me. What made you do that? Instinct? Guilt?"

Virgil looked... mad. Upset.

"Are you- are you serious!?" 

A wave of panic set over Janus as Virgil begin to yell. How had he angered him?

"I'm not a psychopath! It's not like I want you to die-!"

"Virgil. We are imaginary beings. We don't die."

"That's not the point." Janus flinched as Virgil waved his hands around.

"We are at the pit of Thomas's mind, we don't know what will happen to us if we get caught!" Virgils eyes blazed. With fury or fear, Janus wasn't sure. Maybe both.

"Virgil, Buddy-"

"I am not your buddy." He snarled.

"...sure. Don't make such a fuss. I was just curious, you know?"

Janus hadn't realized that he was hugging himself, pressed against the wall until Virgil looked him up and down with his fists clenched.

"Fine, okay! I don't know why I saved you! I was stupid, I guess!" Virgil pushed his hands in his pockets. "I'm done with this. I'll- I'll just go."

He turned his steely gaze back onto Janus, a worried look meeting his.

"Don't follow me." He ordered. "Go find your own fucking escape or whatever."

And with that, anxiety turned and stormed away, leaving Janus to stand alone against the wall.

#sanders sides #phobia speaks #virgil sanders #janus sanders #i have the second part but I'm rewriting it since I got a little carried away w the angst

[blueeyedheizer]

1.6k celebration - blurb event

rules

you can send up to two prompts

the list is kind of long because I will only use each prompts once. this is the main difference with my previous blurb events! first come first serve kinda :)

please do not mass request <3 and finally please please pleeeease bear with me and my slowness. i'm still struggling to write rn so like. uh. yeah. be patient 😭

characters:

-matt, matthew connellly

-michael gray, j cody

-seb jacobs, frank mccullen, four

-cassie howard, pippa

-eddie munson, chrissy cunningham (no smut)

(i'll be privileging requests for sydney and stranger things bc I wanna write more for them — but feel free to request for whoever you want from the list :))

prompts:

#1 "Just shut up! I'm not as fragile as you think I am, I don't need protecting!"

#2 "This is a one time thing”

#3 “bend over the desk”

#4 “I guess I’ll just get off all by myself then”

#5 "you shouldn’t be alone right now.  i’ll take the couch,  it’ll be fine."

#6 "well, i can think of some ways to wear you out. 

#7 "i didn’t have anywhere else to go.”

#8 "i'll never forget you."

#9 "Don't go [on that date/mission/business trip/ to *destination*...]." "Why?" "You know why."

#10 “i want to taste you”

#11 “my mom/dad adores you.”

#12 "babe, you can barely keep your eyes open...let's go."

#13 “touch me and you lose”

#14 “When we get home I’m cuffing you to the bed and going down on you all night until my jaw is sore.”

#15 "man, fuck that guy. go show her what she’s missing. “

#17 “tell me that there was some truth to it.” “...come on. i don’t want to do this.” “tell me it wasn’t all in my fucking head, [name].”

#18 “stop— stop talking!” “why? you can’t even face your own mistake?”

#19 "I don’t want you to be alone tonight and honestly, I don’t really want to be alone either.”

#20 "I'm really not in the mood." "You never are."

#21 "I love you."

#22 “y'know, i was hoping to make a sandwich but seeing as you're here already, wearing that, i'd rather have something else to eat.”

#23 "I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy." "don't ever say that...you made me so happy."

#24 "that’s the sixth time you’ve complimented me today.”

#25 "I'd hold onto something if I were you."

#26 "You don’t love me anymore, do you?”

#27 “I wonder what your girlfriend/boyfriend would do if they knew what you were doing right now.”

#28 “You're so beautiful.”

#29 "It’s really hard seeing you/him/her with him/her everyday.”

#30 “There will always be a part of you that wishes you could be with him/her."

#31 "she’s everything i ever wanted, but i don’t want to risk losing her as a friend."

#32 "look, i don't know if i’m the kind of person you need or even want right now. but i’m looking around and i’m the only one who’s here.

#33 "If I never see you again, just know that I love you so, so much.”

#34 "We've been by each other's sides for years, you think I'm gonna leave now?"

#35 "did you fake it?"

#36 "i heard what you said...no one's ever talked about me that way before.."

#37 "i asked if you were having a party. i didn’t tell you to have a party.

#38 "If you die, I’m going to kill you"

#39 "You’ve got thirty seconds to explain to me what you’re doing here."

#40 "It’s amazing how fast the world can go from bad to total shit storm.”

#41 "What do you got?” "Uh...A headache.”

#42 ”Are you alright?” “I will be.”

#43 ''you only call me when you want to hook-up.'' '' that was part of the agreement, wasn't it? ''

#44 "We're in public you know." “I really don’t care, you look hot and I’m trying not to fuck you senseless right now”

#45 “I could just pull your bikini bottoms to the side, no one will notice”

#46 Think anyone will notice if I start fingering you right now?”

#47 "you're an idiot" / "but i'm your idiot"

#48 "Look...I know we broke up, but you know that you aren't any less important to me now, right?"

#49 "Spread your legs."

#50 "You're perfect... everything about you is perfect"

#51 "One more word out of you and I’ll bend you over the table and fuck you in front of everyone”

#O you can also suggest a prompt from my previous prompt lists :)

#michael gray x reader #cassie howard x reader #eddie munson x fem!reader #eddie munson x reader #chrissy cunningham x reader #michael gray fanfic #cassie howard x fem!reader #stranger things x reader #euphoria x reader #ben hardy x you #ben hardy x reader #four/billy x reader #frank mccullen x reader #seb jacobs x reader #pippa x reader #sydney sweeney x reader #cassie howard smut #michael gray smut

[mamawasatesttube]

ty for the tag @januariat <3!!

1. are you named after anyone? nope! sometimes my mom says she wishes they'd named me for my grandmother bc i have a lot of similarities to her, though.

2. when was the last time you cried? coincidentally i ALSO recently came very close to tears while watching nimona. other than that... idk a few weeks ago??

3. do you have kids? no way

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? yeah plus a lot of Being Silly in general. i have to make jokes about everything constantly or i'll die (sarcasm included, but also just bad puns, witticisms, etc.)

5. what sports do you play/have you played? oh god im not a sportsy guy. i did a couple years of dancesport but other than that not much sdjkhfk

6. what’s the first thing you notice about other people? face i guess? i have no idea

7. what’s your eye color? brown!!

8. scary movies or happy endings? happy endings for sure!! im a weenie i can't do scary movies. i can barely do scary games and that's only bc i can control and BEAT them. scary movies? oh i can't do anything about it they will go in the basement no matter how much i beg them not to!!!

9. any special talents? im forgetting any real ones though im sure i have them so instead i will clown on myself: incredibly talented at forgetting things. tonight i was playing totk on my friend's switch to beat the 5 lynels in a row at the floating coliseum for them, finished it, and then left the area without getting the chest you get for surviving that, because i was like omg look at all these rare lynel drops! wahoo good loot! so in that way. im very talented at making my friends laugh

10. where were you born? in the usa... somewhere...

11. what are your hobbies? writing, video games, music, dance (ive been neglecting these latter two lately though). comics ofc too. and reading in general!

12. do you have any pets? YES i have one dog he is very large and so stupid and i love him so so so much

13. how tall are you? 5'2 gang rise up

14. favorite subject? math, biology, biochemistry...

15. dream job? man ive been questioning that a lot lately. i've thought research physician for a long time, or something research focused, but i'm not too sure i can actually do that, so... considering. idk. can i get paid to just hang out with my friends :/

tagging... oh god i am so eepy rn i KNOW im gonna forget everyone i know. um. @crimzoncrow @lemontongues @milfkon @misspickman @aigenderated @necer0s aaaand if anyone sees and wants to say i tagged you go for it :>

#tag game #i just remembered i have a couple more of these in my likes i forgot about. ah jeez

[idle-compy]

alright!! I am done for tonight

here's my defintely super comprehensible live thoughts while playing

** SPOILERS BELOW **

DARIUS I MISSED U

SHIT

oh nvm thought I killed him already

ben why u running off

TO GO EAT BUGS OF COURSE

DARIUS NO

MY BOY

I KILLED HIM

DO NOT CHOOSE RUN NOW

ooh they mentioned owen

who's the old guy

probably good time to mention I haven't seen any of the jw movies so if he's relevant I have no idea

heck yeah I'm bringing bumpy

WHY DOES MY AUDIO KEEP CUTTING OUT EVERY TIME I MAKE A DECISION STOP

nothing good ever happens in the tunnel so we're going to main street !!

I DIDNT LIKE THAT LOOK

SHIT BLUE

BEN WHY DID U SPLIT UP MAN

HA BUMPY SAVED HIM I CHOSE RIGHT BRINGING HER

MAIN STREET

oh no it's rexy

OH NO SHE FOUND THE KIDS

wow they're bad a hiding

DARIUS DO NOT GO AFTER THE PAGE SIR

darius THIS SEEMS LIKE A REALLY BAD IDEA

ben actually excited to drive the gyrosphere

wow ok he rear ended yaz and sammy license revoked sir

DAMN YAZ IS TEARING INTO HIS SOUL

a fine example of my road rage tho

YAZ SAMMY NO THEY'RE GONNA BE CRUSHED

sorry ben not trusting u ramming that gyrosphere sounds fun

WAIT NO

I SHOULDVE TRUSTED U BEN IM SORRY

now he's dead 😔

my current kill count is 3 I am doing very bad

THE CONSTANT NABS AT DARIUS AND HIS SMELL

that sounds like a clue for later can't wait to forget it

TNE TARBOS BACK

heck yeah coaster time

KENJIS FACE

they've been steady making fun of the parks safety protocols and ykw as they should

darius u are NOT jumping in that water

I guess he IS jumping in that water bc if he doesn't they all die

TARBOS BACK AGAIN ???

oh nvm she left

kenji was so confident 1234 would work

AND THE TARBOS BACK AGAIN GEEZ

THE ANSWERS 2005 I GUESS RIGHT

the way I'd immediately move into that bunker

this brimford man already has more outfit changes than the kids

he straight talking truth tho

theyre so happy :')

----

GONNA RESTART but choose everything different

so either choice darius just fucking falls

OH BUT DIFFERENT CAMPERS FOUND HIM

sorry bumps ir staying behind this time

dang they found the paper so much sooner without her

aw darius gave her hope her pack was still alive

SPOOKY TUNNELS

oh everyone's fighting

"I could tell a joke or hit em with a super cool dino fact" DARIUS UR SO PURE

yes sammy use that corn maze sense

KENJIS GETTING SAVAGED BY THOSE THINGS GEEZ

"raptor rats"

I saw sneaking past in a clip I'm retacing their steps

OH GOD I KILLED DARIUS AGAIN

guess they're NOT retracing their steps

"did u know ankylosauruses like mangoes 👍😀👍" "I did not 👍😀👍"

NOT THE CAR BEING A RIDE

everyone else on the ride: 😒

sammy and yaz: 😀

WHY DO CARS ALWAYS FLIP WHEN YAZ IS BEHIND THE WHEEL

TORO BABY ITS U AGAIN

"I'll be fine! ... probably"

DARIUS BUD I KNOW I CHOSE THIS OPTION BUT WHY

WHY WOULD THEY LOCK TORO IN THERE WITH THE TARBO SYOP TORTURING HIM

THE DRUMROLL I DIDNT GET THAT FIRST TIME

ben said forget eating bumpy gets mangoes

going back again just to see what escaping before going in the bunker does

oh they still survive ??

but they didn't get any food :(

"what one food would u want in it"

"coffee"

"I could go for a carob juice"

"teriyaki beef jerky"

"can you freeze dry pizza"

"canned lobster in butter sauce"

"I'd go for my mom's famous..."

crying

#jurassic world camp cretaceous #camp cretaceous #hidden adventure #jwcc spoilers #hidden adventure spoilers #my posts #I'll probably put together actual thought later but I've got to get some sleep in before work

[darcyfangirlsfrequently]

We Fell in Love in October, chapter 3 - October 3rd: Lunch Dates

For @dungeons-are-too-cold specifically because I told them that they would lose their minds over this chapter and also @gaelic-symphony bc she is my beta reader

Summary: Each of our main pairings goes on a lunch date, ft. a brief appearance by Willifer and Misty

Chapter word count: 1906

Total word count: 4844

Can also be read here on Ao3

Emily nearly jumped out of her skin when someone came up behind her at her locker and wrapped their arms around her waist.

"Relax, relax," Tara chuckled. "It's just me."

"Oh, okay," Emily said as she tried to return her breathing to normal. "Hey, you! What's up?"

"Well, I was thinking, it's our third day of being girlfriends and we haven't even gone on a date yet. Can I take you to lunch?"

"You most definitely can. Beats the peanut butter and jam sandwich I brought for myself."

"I am concerned for your eating habits when your mother is out of town."

"I can't cook, Tara!"

"Exactly! I'll have to give you some lessons."

"Or… you can just cook for me."

"I may be your girlfriend right now, but I am not your housewife!"

"Shame. You'd look so pretty in one of those fifties housewife dresses." Emily trailed her hand along Tara's waist on the comfy knit turtleneck sweater she was currently wearing. 

Tara was gay panicking again, but tried to laugh it off. "Yeah, maybe for Halloween. Now come on, I'm taking you out for lunch."

"Cool. Where?"

"The Burgers & Shakes down the street? It's close and affordable."

"Do you just want to split a milkshake with two straws?"

Tara could feel her cheeks warm. "Maybe."

Emily grinned. "Sap. Sounds good. Let's go."

They made their way to the restaurant and were seated quite quickly. "So, what do you recommend?" Emily asked Tara. "Since this was your idea and all."

"The chocolate-strawberry milkshake is to die for. Does that sound good to you?"

"Sounds amazing."

They ordered their milkshake and were served not too long after, since it didn't take long to make. It came in a large metal cup with two straws. "This feels hopelessly rom-com," Emily laughed.

"Says the girl who suggested we date for October so that we weren't both single for unofficial lesbian month."

"Yeah, okay, that's fair."

Halfway through the milkshake, Emily found herself with a massive brain freeze. "Ow ow ow ow ow," she muttered, pressing her fingertips against her temples.

"Did I not tell you to take it slow?" Tara asked her.

"No, no you did not, actually."

"Really? Oh. Well, you should take it slow. You don't want to get a brain freeze."

Emily laughed sarcastically. "Fat load of good that does me now, thanks, Tara. Do you have anything that might actually help me get rid of this brain freeze you are completely at fault for?"

"Press your thumb to the roof of your mouth."

She did, and quickly found that her brain freeze did in fact dissipate. "Wow. That's actually not bad."

"You're welcome," Tara said.

Emily stuck her tongue out at her. "I did not say thank you. I still blame you for the brain freeze in the first place."

They finished their milkshake, and as they were preparing to leave, Emily noticed Tara had some in the corner of her mouth. She picked up her napkin and said, "Here, you have a little something…" she wiped it off Tara's face, and suddenly the tension between the two girls was palpable. Emily once again found herself wanting to kiss Tara, but told herself it was too soon, and she had no idea if Tara was even okay with that.

Tara cleared her throat. "Um. Thank you." And with that, the tension was gone.

"Yeah. Of course. You would have done the same for me." She held out her arm to Tara. "Shall we head back?"

Tara looped her arm through Emily's. "We shall."

***

Spencer was less than startled when a very familiar set of hands covered his eyes and an equally as familiar voice from behind him said, "Guess who?"

"Hmm, I fucking wonder." Spencer turned around and pressed a light kiss to Derek's lips. "Hey."

"Do you know what today is?"

"It happens to be our thirty-eight-month anniversary, but I highly doubt that's what you're talking about."

"Actually, it is. I want to take you out to lunch to celebrate. Does that sound okay to you?"

Surprisingly, Spencer found himself blinking back tears. "Wait, you actually remembered? You're not just making that up?"

"No, seriously, look." Derek pulled out his phone and showed Spencer his calendar where that date had a reminder that said, 3 years and 2 months with my Pretty Boy! "I know we don't always do something on our monthly anniversary now that we have yearly anniversaries… but I thought maybe we could start?"

Spencer was really fighting back tears now. "I love you so much."

Derek wrapped his arms around Spencer and kissed him gently. "I love you too. So are we going out for lunch or what? Because I want to eat pizza with my boyfriend."

Spencer laughed through the happy tears that had begun to fall. "Yeah. I want that too."

Hand in hand, the two boys made their way to a pizza shop just behind their school. They swung their arms between them, and it just felt so terribly cliché. They loved it. They got a small pizza and shared it, feeding each other bites from their own slices even though it was the same pizza. 

"I like the idea of still doing something for our monthly anniversaries," Spencer told Derek as they were heading back. "Even though we have annual anniversaries now, these should still be just as important, you know?"

"Yeah," Derek said, smiling and this boy that he loved so much. "I know."

***

JJ and her boyfriend, Will Lamontagne, accosted Matt and his girlfriend Kristy in the hall. "The four of us are going on a lunch double date," JJ told them. "Now. No cafeteria."

Kristy and Matt looked stunned. "Um, okay," Matt said. "Can we ask why?"

"Emily texted me saying she and Tara weren't going to be at lunch because they were going out. Spence also texted that he and Derek weren't going to be at lunch because they're going out. So if the four of us leave, who do we leave behind all alone?"

It hit the other couple at the exact same moment. "Luke and Penelope."

"Exactly! So if we get them to spend lunch alone together, then maybe they'll actually start to take steps towards becoming the more than friends they are clearly meant to be!"

"Sounds good," Kristy said. "Let's go."

***

When Luke arrived at their normal meetup spot, only Penelope was there.

"Hey," he said. "Where's everyone else?"

"Well, it appears all of our friends have decided that October third is the best day of all days to go on lunch dates. So they are all gone."

“So it’s just you and me then?” He knew she was probably less than thrilled at the prospect, so he tried to keep some of the excitement out of his voice.

"Well, I mean, I was just going to go to the new coffee house that opened down the street. It's vegan, and no one else has wanted to try it with me, so this is as good an opportunity as any."

"Do you mind if I join you?"

Penelope raised her brows at him. "You did hear the part where I said it was vegan, right?"

"Yeah, I don't care. It sounds nice. Besides, I've hung out with pretty much everyone in our group one-on-one except for you. It could be fun."

"As long as you don't judge my eating habits."

Luke laughed at that, but the look in her eyes told him she was dead serious. "Wait, you don't think I would actually ever do that, do you?"

She shrugged and didn't look him in the eyes. 

"Come on, I knew you weren't my biggest fan, but do you really think I'm that much of a douchebag?"

She shrugged again. "I don't know. Not anymore. I kinda thought you were, back when you were new, you just gave off those vibes, I guess. I mean, come on, some new army brat macho football player? What was I supposed to think?"

"Well you know me now," he pointed out. "Surely you know I'm not like that. And I mean, come on, would Tara call me one of her best friends if I was a terrible guy? Would she even associate with me? You know lesbians are famously picky about the men they interact with."

Penelope giggled. "Yeah, I guess that's true." Her smile then fell a bit. "I'm sorry, Luke."

"Don't worry about it. So are you going to allow me to accompany you to your fancy coffee house, or are you going to leave me here all on my lonesome?"

She giggled again. "Yeah, sure, let's go."

He bowed and swept his arms in front of him in a grand gesture. "Lead the way, Chica."

The atmosphere of the coffee shop was amazing. It smelled heavenly and had a dark wood interior, with pieces of art all over the walls and dim lightbulbs hanging over the tables. Unfortunately, all this also made it feel like a prime date location.

"You're going to have to tell me what to get," Luke told her. "I've never eaten anything vegetarian or vegan before."

"Okay, well any coffee you get is going to be the same as normal, just with dairy-free milk, and they have paninis and baked goods if you want to get something to eat."

"Wait, Caprese," Luke said, pointing at one of the paninis. "Doesn't that have mozzarella cheese?"

"Well normally yes, but in this case they would have made fake cheese with tofu."

"Wait a second, you can make fake cheese from tofu?"

"Mhmm! You can make a lot out of tofu!"

"And does it taste like the real deal?"

"Why don't you try it and find out?"

Luke did end up getting that panini, and Penelope got a mushroom one. They each also got a cookie–chocolate chip for him, peanut butter for her–and an iced coffee.

"Queen culture is getting iced coffee at any time of the year," Penelope said.

"Truly," Luke agreed, laughing as he tapped his cup against hers.

They ate their lunch, laughing and chatting about everything and nothing. By the end of the lunch break, some of the tension between the two seemed to have dissolved.

"Hey, I had fun today," he told her, bumping her shoulder with his. "Seriously."

She smiled softly. "Me too." Then, with a smirk, she added, "Just don't think this means I'm going to be nice to you."

He laughed, holding the door open for her to leave ahead of him. "Of course."

They parted ways once they reached the school, each of them headed to their respective lockers. 

JJ sidled up to Penelope at hers. “So… how was lunch with Luke?”

“It was fine, I guess. Why—” she whipped her head around to glare at JJ. “Did you set that up on purpose?”

“No,” JJ lied.

Penelope fixed her with a look.

“Well, not entirely! But when I heard Tara and Em and Spence and Derek were going out already… I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to get you and ‘Cool Hand Luke’ to spend some time together.

Penelope buried her face in her hands. “I can’t believe I actually called him that around you. I hate you, you know that?”

“Mhmm,” JJ said, wrapping her arm around the shorter girl’s shoulder and giving her a friendly kiss on the head. “Sure you do.”

#Temily fanfiction #Temily High School AU #We Fell in Love in October #Temily #Tara Lewis #Emily Prentiss #Moreid #Derek Morgan #Spencer Reid #Garvez #Penelope Garcia #Luke Alvez #Willifer #Jennifer Jareau #Will Lamontagne #Misty #Matt Simmons #Kristy Simmons #Criminal Minds

[iturmom]

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omg i forgot about read mores bc i'm so used to not using them from them being completely inaccessible for the longest time i forget them so much. i wish i had remembered them for my vent posts i'm sorry everyone. i'll do better going forward lol

for some reason lately i've been getting really triggered by mentions of casual sex. like for example earlier my housemate just casually mentioned a hookup she had and i could physically feel alarms going off in my parasympathetic system at the phrase "best sex of my life" maybe it's bc i wasn't expecting it it honestly came out of left field. like punched me in the face. this is actually the first time i'm processing this new issue at all uhh.

anyway i think it's some kind of fomo. which is wild to me bc i've been celibate for 4 years on purpose. i can't give so much of myself to anyone because i literally have nothing and a hottie can have their way with me for a night but it won't fix anything for me i will still be oppressed. i won't get anything out of it. nothing. at all. what's the point of having sex if you don't get anything out of it? to please a man? who doesn't give a fuck about my pleasure? about my survival? i can't physically let a man into my body if he doesn't care about me. maybe it has to do with how i was raped i did 100% vow celebacy because i was raped but i don't really have trauma from the rape? that i know of i guess? like the reason i won't have casual sex is because i won't have sex with someone who does not respect me and anyone who would want to have sex with me without caring about me does not respect me. i can never take back all of the men i've slept with who had no respect for me who are sleeping soundly while i am literally homeless and suffering. i will never let that happen to me again if i can help it. but i'm thinking maybe the rape does actually have something to do with that.

maybe there's fomo bc i'm so lonely and i want love and it seems like sex is the only form of romantic communication people have and i will never even get a taste of romance without sex. i'll never even get to experience the illusion of romance. i'm going to be forever alone bc i'm celebate and it's even voluntarily 😭😭 i feel even more pathetic than an incel right now.

maybe it hurts so much because it breaks my heart to hear that someone else has had sex with someone who didn't care about them it hurts so much. and also it frustrates me a little when people talk about desiring casual sex. maybe a lot. like why would you do that to yourself why would you give yourself away to someone who doesn't care if you live or die it's actually kinda mortifying to me.

i wonder if i should look for love in aspec communities but it seems offensive to even consider the idea bc i am not aspec so how could i interact with aspec communities without infiltrating them? and that's not something i'm okay with. maybe i should like ask an aspec ask blog if there's a solution to my problem. maybe i am aspec idk. i'm clearly sex repulsed even though i have a libido. sex doesn't gross me out at all it actually turns me on. like a lot. but it is just so repulsive to me not physically but mentally it's such a disturbing act. not to mention it's emotional torture. but it's so sexy wtf. i hate it. maybe i'm demisexual. but i don't think i am bc i am sexually attracted to people i am not in love with. i just can't get over the degredation i would feel to sleep with them. fuck it i'mma tag this post aspec see what happens.

#tw sa #aspec questioning #aspec

[hoshikokakure]

Natsu on NaLu

It's quite lengthy, and I don't know how to make the 'continue reading' cut off thing on my phone anymore, but if you're reading this, thank you! Hope you enjoy and let me know your thoughts, if you agree or disagree. I'd love to know your own analyses!

Let's get it.

You know, looking at Natsu looking down at Lucy crying while hugging and thanking him, BEFORE boy's all like "yeah I had something to say but nah", made me think that...maybe NATSU thinks that LUCY isn't ready or hasn't realised her feelings. Perhaps he was ready to confess after the war? Maybe. I don't know.

But here, Lucy is remembering everything she's gone through, everything they've gone through, and she says "I wouldn't be who I am, if not for you two" (not verbatim bc I'm typing this and do not have the best memory – it'd be so cool if I got the quote right), both Natsu and Happy, so I genuinely believe that there's a possibility that Natsu's behavior in 100 year quest is him hinting to Lucy that he likes her, or sees her not just platonically, in the most Natsu way.

Because it's Natsu. The boy stays true to himself no matter whatever adversity or scorn he faces. So why would he do un-Natsu like things to show Lucy, his other half of two complete souls, his best friend, Lucy who knows him so well, that he doesn't see her just platonically anymore. Natsu wouldn't act like Lucy's "princely suitor" because

1. He's a DRAGON KING'S son. What an insult to Igneel.

2. Natsu's very much someone who sees and values the character of a person. I firmly believe he's like "love me for me, screw all the haters". At his core, which we see in the original Fairy Tail when Lucy and Happy keep Natsu's body warm with their body heat, he knows who he is, labels be damned.

As readers of Fairy Tail, can anyone really say that Natsu would dress up in a suit, bring flowers, ALWAYS use THE DOOR, and any other stereotypical princely/gentlemanly suitor-like things to woo someone who knows him, or maybe woo anyone?

Or I guess, can anyone say that Natsu would willingly abandon his strong sense of self, himself at his core, for anything so far presented in Fairy Tail?

He beat up Gray for trying to use Iced Shell...TWICE. He was willing to die for Erza. He's stated he doesn't care what he becomes as long as he has and can protect his friends, family, Fairy Tail. He beat up Zeref and said "Bye Bro, I'm tired and want to see Happy and the others" (not verbatim).

He provides a distraction for Lucy, unless he believes his thoughtful input is needed in that moment i.e. Natsu to Lucy about her not crying about Jude, Natsu to Lucy on fighting for fun and comparing strength and fighting a war where people die...and is not for fun.

So far, aside from giving into END when Natsu thought Lucy died, when presented with a difficult path and decision, he's always tackled it

1. head-on: Plan T

2. Covertly and intelligently: Asuka thought she shot the robbers in the air and Natsu encouraged her and that idea

3. By creating an option different from previous limited options: i.e. eating Etherion, i.e. eating Laxus' lightening, i.e. Edolas, Evil Natsu Dragneel and his two servants Gajeel Redfox and Wendy Marvell, etc.

This boy pushes and breaks so many boundaries created in Fairy Tail, which is typical of the main character – Natsu is the protagonist, Lucy is the narrator – but not once has he compromised his sense of self, Natsu at the core. We can see that many of his regrets come from events out of his hands, Igneel and the dragons, for example, that he takes personally so as to avoid those losses from happening again.

Like, I always say, Natsu is such a complicated character for me because there is SO much depth in his character, in Natsu Dragneel, that is so simple but so complex like 3d humans. I dislike Shrek, but like the ogre said, onions have layers. Layers create depth, and the fact that there's so much unsaid that can be delved into...And I'll digress, but the character depth of minor characters like Cana and Mira, for example, and the possibilities for characters like Max – so many theories there for this sand mage, where do I begin? – it's beautiful.

Of course, a quality of a well written work is well written characters, which MANY authors have, but Fairy Tail will always be my tale as old as time for various reasons including but not limited to characterisation.

AND OKAY WOW TANGENTS ON TANGENTS, BUT,

Back to the point, I believe that Natsu behaving in more overtly inappropriate ways to Lucy and Lucy only, while fending off other men except for family, is his way of trying to scream at Lucy "I LOVE YOU", without screaming "I LOVE YOU" to Lucy.

Until when? Maybe until Lucy realises that "yeah, no. Natsu actually IS interested in that stuff", unlike what she told Juvia and Cana, or something. I don't know, I'm not Mashima.

Also, note that in no way is this behavior tolerable – it is not okay and I'm not defending Natsu's behavior. It may be fiction, but don't let fiction, characters, etc. dictate what you do and don't allow when it comes to consent, good humans.

Thank you for reading, and please stay healthy♡

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