still love how Ruby and $crim looked at the underground (SoundCloud i guess) rap/metal shit back in 2014 or something and said we could destroy the kids doing that, made a suicide pact with each other that if $uicideboy$ doesn't go anywhere they'll off themselves and went on to become pretty much the biggest names out of that underground scene (besides XxxTentacion and Lil Peep i guess, but their passing made them more famous too so it's not fair to compare i suppose)
i always respect the struggle too of being called better in 2015/2016 when they were more suicidal and on drugs, so you gotta stay suicidal and addicted to stay famous or risk getting better and losing your fan base.. Really messed up when you think about it actually. the people you glorify can't better themselves or you'll lose interest, so what you're only interested in people's downfalls? idk i'll always love their old stuff to death! Kill Your$elf Part I: The $uicide $aga!? My Liver Will Handle What My Heart Can't!? Dark Side of the Clouds!? Gray/Grey!? Eternal Grey!!!? all album's or EP's to play at my funeral or some other shit. but i love seeing their new stuff too! seeing them evolve and grow into better versions of themselves and even getting clean of most drugs n shit! their positive progress keeps me going in life as much as that early suicidal shit on a bad and sad night!
may the boys go on to create history and spread mental health and addiction awareness wherever they go <3
$b have been a huge part of my life since 2014. when I found them, I was heavy in addiction. I was 24, on my way to ft.worth to make some very stupid decisions. was listening to three 6 mafia radio on pandora & heard a song that sounded like them but wasn't. looked at my phone and saw "$uicideboy$", chuckled & said wtf is this. obsessed ever since. related to them as people (same age) their lyrics & overall lifestyle & music influences. also got sober (7yrs now) *around* the same time as them - unknowingly. (in prison at the time) one of my biggest regrets: wish I woulda saw them when they first started out. unfortunately, I was already stuck in a continuous loop of destruction. I was busy just trying to stay alive/out of trouble, to be honest. ptsd from prison & anxiety has limited me from going these past couple years, bc "I didnt wanna go alone" but I allowed it to. I'm finally overcoming my fears & doing what makes me happy!
we're all in our 30s now & clean, after overcoming so much shit- makes me feel like we "grew up" in our mid-20s together. lame as that sounds. funny how your own thoughts can also be another person's lyrics. thank god for ruby & scrim, they've been helping ppl who struggle with addiction/depression/mental health issues all over the world through their music for a decade & I'm so proud of their evolution & sobriety. 8.14.24 will be LEGENDARY✨️🩶
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