#got down and asked her what was wrong

[mozart-the-meerkitten]

Rant

I love my job because I love working with kids. I love seeing them grow and watching the ways their little minds work and helping them when they need it.

I also hate my job because I'll get used and abused all day, having to do things that AREN'T MY RESPONSIBILITY because literally no one else is paying attention to the kids, I am the only one watching even though I'm NOT the teacher, I'm NOT the classroom aide, I am a one-on-one.

But I CARE. I care so FREAKING MUCH about these kids that I can't just not do anything. I have TRIED to not do anything. It never works. And it's maddening and I hate it I hate it I hate that I can be USED in this way.

But by God these kids do not deserve to suffer just because I'm the only adult in the room willing to DO MY GOSHDANGED JOB so I do more than I should because these are LITTLE PEOPLE who don't UNDERSTAND. I want to wear a shirt every day that says, "I'm doing this FOR THE KIDS."

I just wish somebody else would do it for them too.

#rant #parapro #paraprofessional #kids #teacher #rant brought to you by: my coworker who does her job was out today and the teacher wasn't doing squat #and neither was the other teacher/aide #Idk how to classify her she's there because the actual teacher STILL doesn't have her certification #so for legal reasons she has to exist #and I GET that she didn't sign up to do this for a whole school year she signed up to do it for like a month #but crap happens and you're here so DO YOUR JOB #I 👏 AM NOT 👏 THE CLASSROOM 👏 AIDE 👏 #STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM #I'm also still sick and I am just TIRED #there was NO appreciation today #I had to YELL for them to realize one of the kids hurt me (slammed his head into my jaw not fun) #this happens at every parapro job I have I swear #one of the kids called me mean today and I almost lost it I swear #GIRL IT'S BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE DOING ANYTHING #*AND* I'M SICK #not like I wasn't the one to figure out what one of our nonverbal kiddos needed #she had like ten puzzles out on a table and I had her clean them up because the other kids were gonna need the table soon #whole meltdown but we did it #meltdown continues #she's just walking around with a puzzle crying she doesn't want to DO the puzzle but she doesn't want to put it back either #WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO JUST IGNORE THE CRYING CHILD (like everyone else)?!? #yeah did that for about a minute couldn't take it #asked if she needed a hug #got down and asked her what was wrong #she finally does uppy arms at me so I pick her up

[martyrbat]

so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!

#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency #adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid #then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!! #everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others #rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you #make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing #or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult #yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred #like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn #so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you #anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds #so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask #like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and #his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking #doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie #and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it #(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me! #and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead! #and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is. #but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’ #like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid #who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it. #i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow #anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

#this isn’t about anything in particular btw. I just have to add a lot of memos when I’m doing things because some things are done a certain #way and it isn’t explained well in the instructions. like my mom has instructions on her baking recipes right #but when it says stuff like add dry ingredients to wet ingredients it also means you don’t dump it in one go you add it slowly by portion #this is probably why I find videos and demonstrations the most helpful when I learn something. like I almost always ask someone to show me #how they do it because there could be something they do that’s already second nature and wouldn’t really be considered in an explanation yk #I don’t think I’m an exception either. when the rice is done cooking I divide it into 4 quarters to bless it #but there are a million ways to divide rice and it makes me think that one persons way of doing it or not doing it all is just as valid #theres also technically no wrong way to divide rice afaik. this means either all ways of dividing rice is safe or valid until we find some #universally terrible way of dividing rice. until that happens nobody really thinks about specifying HOW you divide the rice #source: I have anxiety starting and doing things for the first time because I got way too many people yell at me NONONO WHAT ARE YOU DOING #THATS WRONG while I’m in the middle of doing the thing. I would rather have people think I’m either very stupid or overly specific #than go thru the panic inducing fear of ‘YOURE DOING THIS WRONG OMG WHY DIDNT YOU ASK AHEAD OF TIME THIS WILL BE FUCKED UP FOREVER’ 🧍 #nothing wrong if you don’t give something a second thought because you’re so used to it. but I can and will ask about it and I don’t think I #really should feel bad about it if I don’t know enough to dispute it. idk #the other way around I try to be as specific as possible and word things in a way that people who might not get where I’m coming from will #understand. but the problem with that is my explanations tend to be lengthy and I lose them either way 🗿 #Im. trying to work on that using examples and stuff because they seem to work the best #but if I could write everything down on a word doc and beam it into your melon that would save both of us time and embarassment #im rambling the short version is I have adhd #yapping

[areacode516]

thinking about deh again… like i think one of the things that makes deh age weirdly is that the latter portion of it is incredibly uncomfortable to sit through. and it doesn’t quite give you the full catharsis you expect (i.e full closure with all characters). so it gives you an exceptionally like. emotionally tense feeling. it’s so heavy. when i finished watching it the first time it took me like all night to process it and finally relax and sleep. i liked the discomfort a lot though, it’s rare that a story makes you sit through it and sit with it and doesn’t feed you the perfect happy ending.

the entire Moment of evan revealing everything to the murphys is like. not quite second hand embarrassment, it’s like. second hand “totally fucked” (spring awakening style) and second hand “i want to kms” (how can you not empathize with/have compassion for evan during words fail) and second hand pure desperation of wanting to be anyone else but yourself but also wishing you could want to be yourself.

but in the end the murphys DON’T totally fuck evan à la melchior gabor…like….because they got attached to him and still feel that attachment, because he helped them get closure, because they realize he was very troubled and the truth coming out could make him go out the same way as connor and they wouldn’t be able to stand the guilt and knowing they could have prevented it…again…that is SO compelling. it’s not even about redemption or forgiveness. his lies helped them, and if you’re really extraordinarily cynical, the lie (platitude) that you will be found (the original lie that evan was found by connor), that there’s always going to be someone who’ll come running also helps people…and it’s not really a lie if the musical itself found people, right….the layers of #ywbf in universe and out of it are insane and I honestly think a lot of them are unintentional considering. but i would argue those layers were originally intentional (since the original idea pasek/paul/levenson came up with was a cynical satire on parasocial grief) but layers later pushed away in favor of fully celebrating joyfully and optimistically their song and story and theme and audience at the time, removing the nuance, leading to the direction of the movie.

could deh the musical have said what it wanted to say with more sensitivity and grace? sure. but what it *does* say is worth accepting its messy conclusions for, because expecting things to be neat and tidy and perfectly moral is just another lie we force ourselves to present to the world that prevents us from ever finding each other.

#dear evan hansen #dear evan hansen analysis #dear evan hansen meta #evan hansen #i find it admirable that while making deh they originally wanted to make fun of these characters but the more they got to know them #the more compassion and empathy they felt for them. #every single character in the story deserves compassion. bc if they do not...there is no hope for the rest of us #i also think that the protrayal of mental illness as something complicated that does hurt people is actually valuable #its more damaging to pretend that the only people who deserve help are the ones who have never been mentally ill in the wrong way #the more walls we put up projecting false selves; the more it becomes impossible to tear them down and feel safe being *flawed* #if i had found deh earlier as a teenager at my most su/c/dal ywbf would have pissed me OFF lmaoo i would have gone #'ITS NOT THAT EASY!' but that undercurrent is there within the text when you *know* for evan its all a lie. #he wants to pretend what really happened didnt and move on with the rewrite like that but its not. that. easy. and he finds out the hard wa #the anguish will never end until we let ourselves be seen in all our monstrous glory and come out the other side caked in gore but Alive #i should make it its own post but like. every single chara in deh projects a false version of themselves to the world because they think #they have to. because they think theyre not allowed to show people their flaws and anguish and mistakes #'the scary truth is i'm flying blind' - heidi thought she couldnt let evan know this. #the truth is scary and uncomfortable #she tried to pretend she wasnt coming up short all the time - until she admits it in sb/ss - #and once heidi has allowed evan to acknowledge her flaws evan can finally believe she loves him #that he is loved despite everything he thinks is wrong with him. that she wont hate him for what he did. that the pain will pass #thats just an example #theres also more heidi analysis you can do in this vein with regards to her interaction with the murphys but ive already talked too much #meta #my.post #it takes vulnerability to begin to accept ourselves and others #i want like. to talk about the themes of the story with people #maybe thats too much to ask for in 2024 #if theres anything you disagree with here or would like clarification on please feel free to interact!!!!

[shanti-ashant-hai]

"what got you crying like that bro"

"nothing bro just my mom apologising if she's put too much of a burden on me by her expectations and telling me that she loves me and is so so proud of me and will continue to do so no matter where i am or what im doing. that shit got to me bro."

#- #ive been feeling kinda guilty since jee adv results cause i got 5k #my mom thought id get under 1k atleast #and was a little disappointed #and i was like 'gods she does sm for me and has always supported me and i couldnt even get the rank she wanted for me' #and felt down #today she came up to me with a cup of chai and quietly hugged me and asked whats wrong #and i kinda vaguely answered like 'tensed about selection' blah blah blah #and she smiled and said 'beta dekho tumhe lag rha hoga ki mai tumse disappoint hui hu lekin aisa kuch nahi hai' #'aaj tak tumne mujhe kabhi disappoint nahi kiya hai. mai aur tumhare papa jab bhi tumhari baat karte hai-automatically humara chhaati chauda #'tumhari jaisi beti sirf kismat waalo ko milti hai and we love you so so much' #'shayad mere expectations jyada high hogaye the aur agar usse tumhe koi pressure aya ho toh mujhe maaf kardena' #'i just want the best for you and i'll support you always' #and then proceeded to scold me about my messy room lol #i love her sm #desiblr #shitposts #shanti ki ashanti suno

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[snowangeldotmp3]

when hawkins lab start burning the tunnels and Will is like ‘it burns auuugh’ with mike, joyce and hopper i imagine robins with nancy and jonathan and she just collapses gripping her arms, seething in pain bent over on the ground

oooooo yes!!

and in this au i believe they're already at murray's when this happens, so robin's mindflayer takeover would happen when murray's probab;y already gone up for the night. (for extra dramatics, it happens right before jancy is abt to kiss, and then robin drops all of a sudden, writhing in agonizing pain.)

because up until this point, there's not really been a huge shift in robin's personality. the mind flayer doesn't fully take over her mind until will is practically out of commission (which is around like, episode 8? i think?) but his effects would certainly be...stronger...after this happens. like it's beginning to show, just a little bit, that something is wrong with robin. nancy and jonathan just don't know what yet, until they get back to hawkins

#got mail! 📩 #anon asks #rebel robin: surviving the upside down #flayed!robin #nancy and jon know that there's something wrong and they try to help but they don't really know how to #robin just keeps screaming 'it burns! it burns!' #but nancy and jon dont know what to do besides bring her some ice from murray's freezer #but that's also not really helping #it's a very high stakes moment

[starphobe]

fh fandom back to wishing death on a fictional teenager for being mentally ill and not learning how to cope with that in a healthy way. what else is new

#do i think klck is correct? no #do i think a fandom full of grown adults should stop holding this (manipulated) (not sound of mind) teenager to wack standards? ya #like.... some of you are... how do i say this.... ~projecting~ #and dont get me wrong this isnt me trying to say shes some kind of innocent misunderstood blorbo 🥺🥺🥺 #i think shes a freak and a cunt. but im going to be normal about it and NOT say that she deserves to be killed (????) #pre-overtaking she was clearly aware that her behavior wasn't healthy #the fact she even went to jawbone at all (and was honest with him!) proves that imo #personally i feel like she might be neurodivergent -> struggling with knowing which rules to break and which ones to not #we literally JUST had an episode where the principal of AAA told students to their face that studying and working hard is dumb #i think kipperlilly came to aguefort. couldn't get a grip on what they Actually wanted from her #(parents went to mumple. she couldnt have been prepared for aguefort) #and out of frustration she fixated on people who were doing well and compared herself to them #and the only major surface difference she could find? tragic backstories #it only makes sense that she'd assume that THAT is what was missing. her inability to adapt to AAA was out of her control #so instead of blaming smth abstract (neurodivergence/other mental illness) #this single. concrete. and obvious difference is way easier to latch on to #but yeah. imo she just reads as someone super neurodivergent who received No Help because she 'made do' #and when thrown into a situation that required a skillset she wasn't born with. she shut down and got defensive #noone is born wanting to die yadda yadda #i think it's very interesting that when jawbone turned the question around on her (asking what SHE could do to get better) #she got quiet and awkward #its almost like she was trying her best? and just couldn't figure out where to go next? #and OH would you look at that. jace offering her a trip to the mountains of chaos. for a ~super dangerous adventure~ #🙄 #anyway. #awfully convenient. isn't it. #this has been me. having takes on ms goldendoodle shibainu #goodnight everyone (its noon) #not tagging this out of fear of the *** stans out there who will not stop taking things personally

[boomerang109]

when i was a teenager my grandmother gave me dozens of skeins of yarn that i was absolutely thrilled to have but i was saving to be a better knitter and my mom threw them out before i ever got the chance (which is still to this day absolutely heart-breaking to me. like. round needles, all sorts of different types of yarn, every size needle imaginable, all gone) BUT today i was going through my grandmother’s probably three hundred sewing patterns and she’s absolutely thrilled that im at least attempting to have an interest. i am so enamored that she kept everything because truly nothing they make today is anywhere near as good and i just. ugh my grandmother has so much incredible stuff. i love that i get to share with her

#the knitting supplies thing was likely because I didn’t help my mom at all when we moved so like it was kinda my fault for being such a #spoiled and unhelpful child. so don’t judge her for giving the stuff away. just mourn with me all the nice supplies I will never have 😪 #dont reblog #life of a boomerang #also I think I’ve been giving myself the wrong dose of medication but no where in my psychiatrist’s notes does it actually say a dosage #different than what I’ve been taking #so I’m like. are her notes lies or is my memory a lie? #cause I’m usually pretty responsible about this which is why I didn’t personally write anything down (idiot move) #but I literally cannot remember if I’m on 120 or 60 and I’ve only been taking 60 and I’ve felt absolutely awful like just goddamn awful #and I think it’s cause we finally got the dosage up to 120 like a week or two ago and i just accidentally packed my meds wrong #but the dosage information on the prescription says ‘60 once a day’ #SO I DONT FUCKING KNOW #cause sometimes psychiatrists just don’t write it in correctly #but like that’s fucking dumb #GIVE ME THE CORRECT INSTRUCTIONS PLEASE #i need to just email her and ask but that’s embarassing

[unxpctedlygreat]

/whispers/ nb sylvain

#no i will not explain #few3h #i need a tag for my few3h ramblings #sylvain #no that's a lie i will explain affbs #Sylvain feeling uncomfortable in a room full of guys because he knows something is Off something is Wrong but he cannot pinpoint what #in a room full of women he's more comfortable because the gender disconnect is 'normal' and obvious #(.. dimilix related tag incoming sorry im unbearable with them) but #on dmlx wedding he's in the bridesmaids room with Mercie Annie and all bc Mercie asked him to come #and he’s genuinely comfortable here and helps the girls get ready #at some point he picks up one of the dresses and jokingly pretend to try it on (like just holding it in front of him) #asking with a wink 'How do I look?' and expecting Mercedes and Annette (and Ingrid) to laugh it off #except Mercie and Annie are definitely just gonna gush bc the dress would look good on him (but it's the wrong size) and tell him he's gorg #gorgeous and all & Ingrid mostly stares at him with an unreadable look in her eyes but she doesnt say a thing& just goes back to her outfit #Sylvain probably half panics and puts the dress back down and says he's got to go get prepared too and leaves in a rush #maybe later after the wedding he finds a package on his bed one day— it's a dress similar to the one he held but definitely his size now #im probably gonna run out of tag space but just know Sylvain gets to try out feminine stuff and is loved & supported by all of his friends #i just really like nb Sylvain

[softquietsteadylove]

uhm... hi! I'm kind of new to the game and would like to... ask you something??? I had the idea of Thena and Ikaris fighting the hell out of each other. So, maybe around the Babylon era Gilgamesh prepared a dinner for the family of Eternals and while eating Ikaris kind of... disrespecting Gilgamesh's food or something? And Thena growls at him and their arguing gets worse and worse. So at the end they drag each other in the hallway, beating each other with full strengh until Gilgamesh is trapping Thena in a bear hug and some of the others try to hold back Ikaris.

If it's okay, I'd like to ask you to write this idea.

"Great dinner, Gil!"

"Delicious, as always!"

"Aw, thanks guys," he smiled at them as they shared in the stew he'd made for them.

"Mm, it's okay."

The air came to a dead halt around them. Those with sense ignored the comment and continued eating. Those who liked to watch trouble happen looked over at Ikaris.

Ikaris looked at Thena.

She met his eyes, placing her bowl down gently. "What did you say?"

Gil kept his eyes on Thena as well, not even glancing in Ikaris' direction. "Thena, it's okay."

"No," she said in a low growl, glaring at her brother across from her. "Say it again--I dare you."

Ikaris smiled; he'd gotten his wish. He'd poked Thena's weak spot, and had been rewarded with her temper. "I said it was just okay."

"Ikaris," Sersi hissed at him, but he ignored even her.

This was becoming a regular occurrence between the two Fighters ever since Thena pushed him down the temple stairs a few weeks ago. Ajak had left him in charge, and Thena had responded to that just as poorly as expected.

Thena slammed her spoon into the table, the stone of it cracking under the force of her strength. "Gilgamesh lovingly prepares meals for us and this is how you show your gratitude?"

"Thena," Gil tried again, but the two of them had been snapping and biting at each other for days, now. It had only been a matter of time before it came to a boil. "Really-"

"Easy, Thena," Ikaris grinned at her, sparking even more of her fury. "I'd be happy to express my gratitude for some good food."

"Ikaris, don't," Ajak said more firmly, but even she had no power to stop what was about to happen.

"If only there were some."

Thena had a whip in her hands, snapping it around Ikaris and throwing him above their heads and into the hallway outside. She took one strong leap, cracking the floor under her feet and flying into the hall after him.

Ikaris growled as she dug her knee into his gut, pulling his hair.

"Take it back!" she barked at him, clawing at him like a child with the strength of an Eternal.

Ikaris gripped her arms, able to wrap his hands around them completely, and threw her away from him. She tumbled and rolled a few times before digging her feet in. "Make me!"

"Unbelievable!" Ajak cursed as she emerged to corral her unruly Eternal children. But she squinted as Ikaris flew at Thena, tackling her straight through the wall and out into the evening air. "That's enough!"

They couldn't hear her. Or they were pretending not to in favour of their petty little scuffle.

It would be little if they weren't so immeasurably strong, of course. Ikaris plowed Thena's back into the ground, digging her shoulders into the cobblestones with his strength.

Thena kicked up, nailing him in the stomach and sending him tumbling up into the air. She picked herself up out of her crater and launched herself at him. When she reached the height of her jump she summoned a hook, tossing it up until it could grip Ikaris' shoulder for her. She turned herself in the air, letting her momentum travel to him and whip him back to the ground in her place.

Ikaris landed with a groan, roaring as Thena landed dead centre on his chest. "Fuck!"

Thena let out her own growl as he gripped her ankle and tossed her aside. Her head hit the dirt, then he was tossing her the other way. She bared her teeth at him before bringing up her shield.

He was going to bring his lasers into this? Fine.

"Both of you, stop it!" Ajak shouted from the temple entrance, although she had to duck as Thena's spear flew into the wall above her and then vanished, called back to Thena's control as soon as she demanded. "The utter disgrace."

"They still going at it?" Phastos asked as he joined their leader, having just fixed the table and the floor in the dining hall.

"Let 'em," Druig waved, shoving an apple into his mouth as he watched Thena catch Ikaris with the blunt end of her spear and bat him straight into the nearest wall.

"No, don't let them," Gil huffed as he pushed past them all and started down the stairs. "They'll kill each other if we let them."

Druig rolled his eyes, "she can take 'im."

But the others followed Gil out to where the two Fighters were going at it like cats and dogs. Thena called a bow and arrow into her hand. Projectiles weren't her specialty, but it was strong enough as Ikaris flew above her to drive into his shoulder.

"You bitch!"

"Okay," Gil muttered, charging up his fists and testing them against each other. "That's enough."

"Gilgamesh," Ajak called out to him, sounding more exasperated by the minute. "Don't."

Makkari nudged Druig. Can't you stop them?

We're not so easy, my beautiful, beautiful Makkari, he smiled, obviously enjoying the spare time to flirt while his brother and sister attempted to murder each other. Besides, I don't like going into Ikaris' mind. It's a jungle in there.

"Well, we have to do something," Sersi frowned beside them, not that the Thinker was exactly running into the middle of the scuffle that was now a war zone.

"Thena, hey!--hey, come on." Gil walked right up to her, no fear of the conflict, no fear of her power catching him by accident. He clasped his hands together around her waist, lifting her up and walking backwards with her.

Thena turned her head in his direction but didn't fight particularly hard to escape his grasp.

"Ha!" Ikaris barked from the sky above them. "Listen to your boyfriend, Thena! You-"

Phastos slammed Ikaris into the ground, holding him steady with his rings buzzing with power. "That's enough outta you."

Ikaris struggled against them and their feedback pushing his own strength down on him. He blinked as the ground around him liquefied and then solidified again. He tugged, but he was very literally buried in the sand now. He looked up. "Sersi?"

Druig and Makkari traded glances; they were impressed.

"You can come out when you're done with your schoolyard taunting," she huffed at him before turning on her heel, rejoining Ajak and Phastos in their collective headache.

"Sersi," Ikaris pleaded, pulling at the stone embedding him up to his thighs and wrists. "Sersi, please!"

Gil walked past him, carrying Thena in his embrace. "Listen to your girlfriend, Ikaris."

#Welcome to the game! #thank you for the ask #I need an entire movie about babylon era #honestly #the whole Eternals movie #could have just been Babylon era #let's be real #also #Thena has pushed Ikaris down the stairs at least once #prove me wrong #you can't! #The Eternals are petulant children sometimes #and I truly believe this #you don't get the dynamic we got in the movie #without learning how to deliberately piss someone off #over the course of a few thousand years #also you might wonder #where's Sprite #well #I - like the movie - don't know what to do with her

[milo-is-rambling]

Who was gonna tell me that reading is fun sometimes

#I will bring shame to my eight year old self NO MORE!!!! I LIKE READING AGAIN!! YIPPEE!!! #I think I seriously enjoy reading about the brain and body and trauma like it’s so strange to spend two hours laying in bed with a book but #it’s so nice #I really enjoyed science growing up even into high school I just didn’t have the patience or motivation to finish essays #and my freshman year science teacher got fired halfway thru the year after they found out she didn’t have a teaching license and then my #class got split up into an advanced science teachers class who was way ahead of everything we had learned and then I hated the class and #science in general then in sophomore year I had another shitty teacher who didn’t care about teaching and I literally would find recourses #and send them to the teacher to put on the projector and then I would talk thru the resource that’s fucking real I literally had class #periods where I TAUGHT my sophomore year science class. GAHHHH I still get so bad at that fucking teacher I don’t even remember her name but #she pissed me off so bad cause she paired me with the two guys who always made fun of me just bc I was smart and they were annoying. anyways #depression and adhd and boredom happened and I almost failed that class but still passed in the end and then in junior year during covid #I was taking a biology class and an anatomy class that was supposed to be seniors (seniors did the advanced class and they offered regular #class to select juniors) and I ended up being the ONLY junior who wasn’t doing the advanced course. like. everyone else got assignments and #I had to ask hey what’s the easy version of that assignment cause I’m technically in the easy class even tho we’re in the same class period #and then Covid and I stopped caring at all about anhthing and then dropped out of school and moved down the entire coast so yknow. #I never stood a chance at being good at science but I’m realizing I might actually be passionate about it cause I have been since I was #little I just kind of ignored it and forgot but like. for one birthday I got a telescope and for one Christmas I got a microscope. like it’s #well known to everyone but me that I like science apparently oh my god what’s wrong with my brain !!!! anyways. #I like science now it’s weird to feel passionate about learning I haven’t done that in a long time #oh my god when I took my GED test my highest score was in SCIENCE AND NOT ENGLISH #THIS IS ALL SO OBVIOUS I LOVE SCIENCE WHY AM I NOT DOING SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE RELATED TO SCIENCE

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a complicated relationship with your mum is so confusing. It's the knowledge that she taught me the best way to make gravy, how tie my shoes and how to make my bed. But she's also the one that made disparaging comments about my body growing up and is part of the reason I don't want to be a parent myself and why I moved across the country for uni. But she's still my mum and I still find myself wishing I could seek comfort from her when things get a little too hard but the mum I'm longing for doesn't really exist. And I see her in the colour of my eyes and in the way I grit my teeth when I'm angry. She taught me how to do my hair and how to cover up bruises. She's a part of me in all the good and the bad. And there's no way to say you hate someone that doesn't also acknowledge all the good because nothings as ever as black and white as that

#personal #+Extra #i dont know i was making gravy for dinner the way my mum taught me and it got me thinking about how i havent spoken to her in over a week #since she told me that my dad is threatening to kick me out again and i started thinking about the fact im currently at empty student #accommodation for the summer instead of back home like most people anf how part of me feels guilty for that and the other knows im doing #whats best for me and theres a reason i left people keep asking why im so far up north for uni if im from down south and i dont know how to #explain it they look at you a certain way when you say you dont get along with your parents like your an entitled brat that cant see that #theyre just doing whats best for you and theres no way to explain two decades of trauma to someone in a single conversation theres no way #to get them to understand that despite what my parents do and the fact i went as far as i could for uni theyre still my parents and i love #them even when i hate them for everything and although ill being carrying the scars of childhood trauma with me long after ive left them i #cant entirely blame even when i want to they made terrible choice that have shaped me for ever but theyre still people and ill always #resent them for the people they are and the fact they could do better but didnt for us and the fact they fall back into those people like #a bad habit when i spend to long at home in a way that makes feel like theres something wrong with me specifically will always sit with me #but for now im stood in my kitchen making sheppards pie thinking of the way my mum used to make it and the tension that used to hang over #the dining table while we ate and how now my parents dont even eat in the same room and im grateful my little siblings will never know #that side of our parents but it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt every time i see a reflection of my parents in myself and wish i could cut it out

[tokifanclub]

PSA

#this is NOT about any of my followers/mutuals #this is NOT about people who are talkinv to their friends less because they're actually tired/busy/depressed #this isnt even about perceived abandonment due to abandonment issues when really your friends still like you #this post is about a SPECIFIC trend #where someone will lie to you and say nothing has changed in yalls relationship when it is CLEAR theyve lost interest #ex: i once had a boyfriend who got really quiet and distant and when i asked what was up he would tell me nothing was up #nothing had changed and he still loved me #he broke up with me two weeks later. turned out her was cheating on me the whole time #ex 2: a good friend stopped talking to me almost entirely. i ask whats up. he said nothings up and we're still best friends #he had a girlfriend! and now that he had a girlfriend he didnt want to talk to me anymore #one day he just quietly stopped responding all together. without ever admitting anything was different or wrong #ex 3: all the friends i had in middle school that would swear up and down they wanted to hang out #before shooting down every single hang out plan i ever made until i just gave up #ex 4: the friends in middle school who BLOCKED ME without ever letting me know and would still hang out with me during school #ex 5: my friends boyfriend who all the sudden barely texted her ever and when she asked why he said he was busy or tired or depressed #and that he'd start texting her more #he never did #AND HE WAS CHEATING ON HER THE WHOLE TIME #ex 6: my friends girlfriend who used to text her all the time and all the sudden nothing #said she was just depressed #turns out she has a new girlfriend! #this post is NOT ABOUT people who are legitimately tired or busy or depressed!!!! #its about people who practice quiet quitting with friendships #to reiterate #IF YOU DO THIS YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE #and you need to be honest with the people in your life and stop wasting everyone's time

[yoohyeontual]

If my parents learned how to apologize, 90% of the fight we have wouldn’t happen….

#but seriously my mom broke down crying over something hurtful my dad said #cause she kept bringing it up like she wanted a reason to fight or break down #wich she always do and he says he apologize when it happen my mom says no #and I believe my mom cause my dad never apologize or does it like ‘’arg I’m sorry 🙄’’ #just to get rid of us mostly and not thinking it #and my dad is the type to say something really heartful if he’s mad #my mom sounded really mad but like she brought it back 4 times like ‘’you don’t know what he said to me’’ #no i don’t but i can’t imagine and I knew she wasn’t not bringing it up to make light of it she just wanted to sound like a victim #cause I was telling her to calm down about something #i was telling her it was not worth getting work over and to not be mean cause it would just go against her #and she got at me thinking I was insulting her I wasn’t I was telling her the other person may get mad and to be better than them #cause they are in the wrong not my mom but yeah she took it like she wanted to #she’s really mad about her job lately and I think she needed a reason to break down cause that’s what not something she would break down for #now my dad went to their room watching tv cause I don’t think he dare ask for the one in the living room #and she’s making supper and she’s mad he went to the room 😭 #you don’t want help cause you’re mad so he’s just making himself busy 😭 #i think I heard her say ‘’he better eat cause I’m not making dinner ever again’’ cause my dad sometimes dosen’t what she make if he’s mad #but that’s not the case ??? SHE’s mad if he was mad he would have close the door which he didn’t 🥹 #😭* #I’m tired I’m barely happy lately and this is making it worst #I was telling myself yesterday that I was to happy about something and it was weird and something bad would probably happen well 🤷‍♀️ #I Hope she’s gonna be okay soon cause I’ve waited since midnight last night to tell something really awesome that happen #but I can’t bring myself to get excited about something right now I just stopped crying #alex.txt

[lavender---sunshine]

i am so deep in my feelings right now, i both sad and mad enough that i cannot sleep

#ive been angry oscillating between angry and sad pretty much the whole day #i had a rare saturday off and i feel like i wasted half of it for my mom and she didnt appreciate it #i wanted to take her to somewhere new for brunch and a cool bookstore and to get our nails donw #and she drove like 30 minutes in the wrong direction and wouldnt listen to me and tried to blame it on me #im not allowed to be sick on my own. she has to be sick too. if i have a headache so does she and worse #if im nauseous in the afternoon she 'threw up' that morning. she'll say its something we ate even if we ate nothing in common #ive broken our in hives that keep popping up and the whole day she was acting as if she was itchy too AND dizzy. #we had to stop multiple times because she was so dizzy. im not saying she was lying but it stopped her from cleaning #she didnt want the original breakfast place near the bookstore and salon and when we got to the second one it was closed #found a third but she didnt want to deal with parking. went to option 4 and she didnt like her food. #she also kept asking me what she was getting instead of just ordering herself. 'what was it that i wanted? yes can you tell her i want xyz' #(and let me just say i have 0 patience left for people who cant do anything themselves. helplessness is a hard hard no for me #we didnt go to the bookstore or the salon and shes like oh okay tomorrow. i told her i had plans and shes like oh you always make plans #with your friends and none with me. Girlfriend. what are we doing right now? #went home to try to clean up our apartment and got overwhelmed when i realized i have to do everything myself because she no help #while she laid down and watched pitch perfect for the 1000th time #im also trying to figure out how to tell an ex friend i dont want them back in my life because theyre so much work #but i dont have room in my life to have that conversation. im also probably going to start looking for a different job soon #i just want my parents gone. my apartment furnished. free time. and a vacation.